Sarhad ke paar

By

mrindia.only

Disclaimer - This story is a work of fiction. The

characters do not exist, except in the mind of the
author. Any resemblance to persons, living or
dead, is purely coincidental.
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Raat ka kaala aasman tez dhooen se bhar gaya
tha…………fuel ke jalne ki badboo Flight
Lieutenant Ajay Rathod ki naak mein aa rahi thi
…………..woh apne parachute ke sahaare uss
anjaani dharti par utar raha tha…………..

Dhadaam……………………!!!

aur iss se pehle ki uske paanv jamen par padte

…………. Neeche kahin tez dhamaaka hua………
who samajh gaya ki uska RAF B17 fighter plane
tukde- tukde ho gaya hoga…………

Jo aakhiri baat use yaad thi who yeh ki uske plane

ke left part mein ek dhamaaka hua tha fir jaise hi
uske plane ne aag pakdi………usne emergency
exit ka button push kar diya tha……..

neeche ko girte hue who yahi umeed kar raha tha ki

jaldi hi who dushmano ke haatho mein hoga
…………..ya fir neeche girte hi usko goliyon se
bhoon diya jaayega…….

par aisa nahi hua……………jaldi hi uske paanv ne

dharti ko touch kiya…………sambhalte- sambhalte
bhi who bahut tezi se gira………

kathor dharti par girte hi dard ki ek lahar uske saare

sharer mein daud gayi……….. ek-do lambi lambi
saans lene ke baad who furti se utha…..apne
parachute ko shareer se alag kiya…………ab tak
uske aankhen andhere mein dekhne ke kaabil ho
chuki thi……..

jahan par who khada tha who ek junglee ilaaka

dikhaayi pad raha tha……..bilkul
sunsaan……….par who jaanta tha ki jaldi hi koi na
koi usko dhoondhta hua yahan aa jaayega…….

Usne andhere mein hi ek taraf ko daudna shuru kar

diya………..koi 10 minute tak be-tahasha bhaage ke
baad usko door kuchh roshni si dhikaayi padne
lagi…….par ab uska shareer uska saath nahi de paa
raha tha…………idhar-udhar dekhne ke baad usee
paas hi ek khandahar sa dikhaayi
pada…………..woh uske andar chala gaya…….aur
ander ghuste hi jameen par gir sa
gaya………..dheere-dheere ek behoshi si uske oopar
chhaa gayi…………

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Pata nahi kitni der tak woh behosh raha…………
dheere-dheere woh apni chetna mein waapas lauta

Uska dimaag hosh mein aa chukka tha par shareer

abhi bhi aadhi behoshi ki haalat mein tha….. bahut
jyada thakaan aur dard ke kaaran uska shareer uske
dimaag ka saath nahi de paa raha tha……..usne
pichhle kuchh ghanto mein huyi ghatnao ke bare
mein sochna shuru kar diya….

. Indian
Y eh 1999 ka samay tha………….kargil war ka
A irforce m ein tha aurladte-
tha….jab uske Aircraft par attack hua uss samay
ladte dushman ki sarhad mein pahunch gaya

woh dushman ki seema ke lagbhag 15-20 km andar

taka a chukka tha….iska matlab abhi bhi woh
Border se takreeban 20 km door hai….

gaya………usne apnee peeth (back) par se apne Kit-

Yeh sochte hi uske andar ek naya josh saa bhar

bag ko uttara aur apna samaan check kiya…. Ek

revolver , kuch chocolates , dry fruits , ek hip flask

instruments….saath mein first aid ka kuchh samaan

(whisky) aur kuchh aur scientific

…….

baayen paanv (left leg), mein ek chot lagi hui

Pehli baar usne apne -aap dhayan diya , uske
thi….shaayad jab who zameen par gira tha tab yeh
chot lagi hogi – usne sochaa…..apne bag mein se
dettol aur cotton nikaali aur cotton ko poori tarah
dettol mein bhigo liya……..fir usne cotton ko apni
baayi pindali par – jahan chot lagee hui thee ,
dheere dheere se ferna shuru kiya,…khoon saaf
hote hi usko dikhaayee diya ki uski pindali mein ek

tukdaa andar dhansaa hua tha…..aur shaayad

gehraa ghaav ho chukka hai……ek metal ka

kaafikhoon bhibeh chukka tha… …

Usko apne aap par hi aashcharya hua ki abhi tak

usne isse bardasht kaise kar liya…fir uske andar se
hi jawaab bhi aaya….shaayad jaan ka khauf , dard
par bhaari padh gaya tha…

Usne metal ke tukde ke sire ko pakdaa aur apni

aankhen band kar ke , poora jor laga kar, ek jhatke
se use bahar kheench diya……
“ Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh………………….”

rakh sakaa………….aisa laga ke who fir se behosh

Apni khud ki hi cheekh ko who kaboo mein nahi

ho jaayega….fir usne dettol se bhiga hua cotton

apne jakham par jor se dabaa diyaa………….

Kuchh der tak lambi lambi saanse le kar usne fir

apni taakat to ikatthaa kiya……

Usne hip flask ko nikaala aur ek badi si ghoont apne

gale se neeche utaari… … … ek teekhisileharuske
saare shareer mein daud gayi………par kuchh hi
palo baad usko mehsoos hua ki ek nayi taakat uske
shareerm ein aa gayihai…
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Khandahar ke baahar ab halki si roshini dikaayi
padne lagi thee…….. “ shayad subah ho gayi
hai !!” usne apne aap se kaha…

. . se uthkar baahar aaya… … ..dard ki

thi……..par iss anjaan jagah par bhi to bahut der

wajah se ab uske ek paanv mein langdahat

tak nahi ruka jaa sakta tha….

Usne apne bag mein se compass nikaala aur

directions ko check kiya…..agar usko jaldi hi sarhad
tak waapas pahunchna tha to usko poorab (East
direction) mein chalna tha…….. usne ek aakhiri
baar charo taraf dekha aur poorab disha ki aur
badhna shuru kar diya……..
Pehle dheere dheere aur fir tezi ke saath who apne
kadam badha raha tha………par saath hi saath
yeh bhi dhyaan rakh raha tha ki woh kisi ko
dikhaayi na pad jaaye……apni uniform ki wazah
se woh aaram se pehchana jaa sakta tha……

ghane jungle mein chalte-chalte ab kareeb 2 ghante

aur gala bilkul sookh chuke they………..aur tabhi jo

ho chuke the…………pyaas ke kaaran uske honth

saaman tha………..
usko dikhaayi diyaa who maano uske liye jindagi ke

saamne hi ek pahari nadi (river) beh rahi

thi………….woh jaldi-jaldi kadam badhata hua nadi
tak pahunch gaya ………….kareeb 10 meter chaudi
aur 2-3 feet gehri nadee thi ……….. nadee ke paas
akar who usme lagbhag kood hi gaya………2-3
dubki lagane ke baad usne jee bhar kar paani piya
gaya…………..
aur fir kuchh palo ke liye paani mein hi late

tha……….usne apne bag mein se nikaalkar kuchh

Ab woh apne aap ko fir se fresh mehsoos kar raha

karne ki koshish ki….

chocolates khaayi aur pet ki jwaala ko bhi shaant

gayaa………..aage jo usko dikhaayi diyaa woh ek

N adee ko paar karke who doosre kinaare par aa

pahaari ilaaka thaa…….door oonche-oonche

pahar dikaayi pad rahe the….unke aage ghane
jungle ….aur kahin-kahin ek-do makaan……….jo

wahan se takreeban 1-1.5 kilometer door

makaan usko sabse najdeek dikhaayi diya who bhi
Who jaanta tha ki who POK (Pakistan occupied
Kashmir) mein hai ………..aur din ki roshini mein
who khatre mein rahega…..usne fir shaam hone
tak wahi intezar karne ka faisla kiya….aur pedo
(trees) ke beech mein chhup kar baith gaya....

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mein chala gaya………….pedo ki ghani chaanv aur

Ajay ko maloom bhi nahi pada ke kab woh neend

gode mein pahooncha diya……….

charo taraf se lag rahi thandi hawa ne use neend ki

Aankh khulne par ussne time dekha…………..4.00

baje ka time ho raha tha……..ab usko fir se bhookh
lag aayi thi aur khud ko chipaane ke liye bhi kisi
jagah ka intezam usko karna thaa………………….
Jo ek ghar usko sabse najdeek dikhayi pad raha

raaste par who 1-1.5 kilometer ki doori tay karne

tha , who uss hi ki taraf chal pada……pahaadi

1 bhi usko kareeb 1 ghanta lag

hi ek chota sa khaali maidan aur kareeb 50 meter

Woh ek chota sa ghar tha……….ghar ke saamne

door ek jhopdee numa tabela…………..ghar ke do

taraf ped they aur pedo ke peeche khade hue
pahaad…………….ghar ki ek side ka maidaan

ko jaa rahi thi…………..shaayad us raaste ka

khaali tha aur udhar se ek pag-dandi kahin door

istemaal ghar mein rehne waale apne aane-jaane

ke liye karte the… … … …
uski ummeed ki ek wajah thi…….woh jaanta tha ke
Ajay jaanta tha ki woh POK area mein hai aur yahi

yahan ke waashinde apne aap ko Hindustan ka hi

hissa maante the aur shaayad uski madad
karein… … … … … … … … …

G har aur tabele ke beech m ein jo khaalim aidaan

tha , uske ek side jidhar pahar tha wahin pedo ke

tha………….Ajay dabe panv jhopdi (tabele) ke

aage jhaadiyon ka ek bada sa jhurmut

peeche se hota hua un jhaadiyon ke peeche

laga…………..
pahunch gaya aur wahin chhup kar intezar karne
aur fir Ghar ke 1-2 kamron mein light ON ho
Dheere-dheere andhera chaane laga tha…………

gayee…………….par abhi tak Ghar ke andar se

kisi bhi Insaan ki soorat Ajay ko dikhaayi nahi padi

hisse mein light On huyee………..aur khidkee ke

thee………… Achanak Ghar ke saamne waale

sheeshe (Window Glass) se andar ka nazaara Ajay

thi………..jo sabse aage ke hisse mein bani huyee

ko dikhayee pada………Woh Ghar ki kitchen

thi….kitchen ke andar ek ladkee kaam kar rahi

thi……………door se Ajay ko uski soorat to nahi

3 0 kareeb 30 ek saalki
dikhaayee di par shareer se usne anumaan lagaya

hogi……………..patlaa shareer……….kaale
lambe baal aur shareer par Kashmiri
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kar baitha raha…………..woh ladki abhi bhi kitchen
Main (Ajay Rathod) kaafi der tak wahin par chip

m ein kaam karrahithi… … … … beech-beech m ein

woh ghar ke andar doosre kamro mein jaati aur fir
laut kar waapas kitchen mein aa jaati thi…..

laal hone laga tha……….bhookh, dard aur

Soorajab chhipne laga tha aur aasm aan ka rang

thakaan se m era bura haaltha aur m an him an

main dua kar raha tha ki jo bhi log iss ghar mein

tayyar ho jaayein…………….
rehte hain,mujhe yahaan chhipne ki jagah dene ko
Tabhi Ghar ka darwaaza khula…….aur jo ladki

gayi….uske haath mein ek baalti (bucket) thi

kitchen m ein kaam kar rahithiwoh baahar aa

………woh seedhi saamne bane huey tabele mein

pahunch gayee……….5-10 minute baad hi woh
waapas aayi , aur ghar ke saamne khade hokar
awwaz lagaayi…

” Shaziaa……………Shazia……………”

Aage fir usne kuchh kaha jo meri samajh mein nahi

thi………….
aaya ……………shaayad iss jagah ki local language
thi……………kareeb 20-25 meter door……..yaha
Ab woh ladki theek mere saamne khadi

se uska chehraa saaf dikhaayi de raha tha…………

ghar ke baahar lage bulb ki roshini uske chehre par

ke aaspaas………..chehre par ek ajeeb si kathorta

pad rahi thi…………Gora rang….kad lagbhag 5’3”

thi………umar koi 30 saal ke aas-paas hogi……..

lagaayi…………..
“Shaziaa……………………….” Usne fir se awaaz

2 baahar nikli… … … … uske haathon m ein 2

Iss baar ghar ka darwaaza khula , ek aur ladki ghar

baaltiyan (buckets) thi…………….

Fir m ere saam ne se hotihuyee dono tabele m ein

tabele tak pahunchi……….maine uss doosri ladki

pahunch gayee………..jitni der mein woh dono

ka bhi muaayana kar liya…….woh pehle waali se

umar mein chhoti thi ……….yahi koi 20-22 saal
ki…….lambaai uss se 1-2 inch jyaada hi
thi………….shareer average tha……….aur chaal
mein alharpan saa tha……………..
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ka…..jahan main chhupa khada tha woh jagah
Yeh shaayad sahi samay tha mere agle action

makaan ke left side mein thi ……..uske peeche aur

right side mein (makaan ke peeche) ghane ped aur
fir kuchh aur peechhe pahar tha……….yaani kisi ke
dwaare dekhe jaane ki ummeed bahut kam
thi… … …

mein badhna shure kiya……….main jhukta hua

Maine makaan ki deewar se mil ka apni right side

andar ho to mujhe na dekh sake …..saath hi saath

aage badh raha tha jisse ki agar koi makaan ke

tha……….makaan ka poora chakkar kaat kar main

main har khidki se andar bhi jhaanka jaa raha

gaya…….par mujhe andar koi bhi dikhaayi nahi

fir makaan ke right side main pahunch

pada…………iska matlab tha ki iss samay un do

ladkiyon ke alaava, iss ghar main koi aur nahi
tha……yah baat mere faayde ki thi …

thi……….uske andar jab maine jhanka tab andar

Makaan ki right side mein sirf ek hi khidki

ghupp andhera hi dikhaayi pada……..main

tha…..apna revolver main bag mein se nikaal kar

dheere-dheere dabe paanv aage badh raha

apni kamar par , belt ke andar fansa liya tha ..

Main lagbhar bhaagta hua , par paanv ko daba kar

mein aa gaya………..wahan ek chota sa ped laga

rakhta hua … ghar ke saam ne waale khule hisse

mein tha……….uski aad main khada hokar main

hua tha jo makaan aur tabele ke beecho-beech

un dono ladkiyon ka intezaar karne laga…………

Makaan ke baahar lage hue bulb ki halki roshini
poore maidaan par pad rahi thi….

Achanak aahat hui aur fir tabele se ek ladki baahar

nikli………yah choti waali ladki thi …shaayad

ek baalti pakdi hui thi ……. Jaise hi who mere paas

Shaazia naam tha uska…….. usne apne haath mein

pahunchi …main ped ki aad se bahar nikal kar uske

saam ne aa gaya
“Baaji………………….!!!!” woh bahut jor se
cheekhi… … … uske haath m ein se baaltichhut
gayee…………ek –do pal ke liye usne mujhe
dekha….aur fir woh makaan ki taraf
bhaagi… … … …
Main bhi uske peechhe ko lapka………..aage badh

apni ore ko kheencha………..woh seedhi mere se

kar maine uski kalaai ko pakad liya aur jhatke se

aakar takraayi… … usne fir se cheeckne ke liye

muh khola par tab tak meraa ek haath uske muh
par jum chukka tha………..

Ab woh bilkul mere nazdeek thi……uski baanh ko

tha……..woh cheekh nahi paa rahi thi par khauf ke

maine peeche ko mode kar uski kamar se lagaya hua

kaaran uski aankhe fati padi thi……..

tha………..ek ajeeb si masumiyat thi us ski aankhon
Uska chehra mere chehre se kuchh hi inch door

mein…………un aankhon dekhne par kuchh palo ke

liye to main bhool hi gaya ki main kya aur kyon kar
raha hoon ……aur jab yaad aaya tab tak der ho
chuki thi……..

mere sar par vaar kiya gaya tha……….jo mere

Dhannnnnnnnn………………mere peeche se

kandhe par bhi pada………….kuchh palo ke liye

meri aankhon ke saamne andhera chha gaya aur fir
main jameen par gir gaya………girte hi main

aha hai……..maine bachne ke liye apna baayan

paltaa aue dekha ki fir mere oopar vaar kiya jar

pair (left leg) oopar kiya aur agla vaar sedha meri
chot lagi huyee thi…….yeh vaar mere hosh
pindli par pada……….wahin jahan pehle se hi

uddane ke liya kaafi tha aur main apne pair ko

pakar kar jameen par dohra ho gaya….
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Iss se pehle ki aglaa vaar hota…..mera haath apni

gaya……….main revolver nikaali aur lete-lete hi un

kamar par lagi revolver par pahunch

par taan di ...

“Ruk jaao !!!………………………….ab agar maara
to main goli chalaa doonga…” main poori taakat
laga karbola

Aur iska turant asar hua…………..Shaazia uss badi

waali ladki ke peechhe dubak si gayee…..aur uss
ladki ka haath bhi hawa mein hi ruk gaya………
uske haath mein ek mota sa danda tha……………

gaya………..
dheere –dheere uska haath neeche ko aa

Maine apni poori takat lagayi aur fir se khada ho

gaya…………dard ke kaaran main sahi se nahi
khada ho paa raha tha par yeh baat main unn par
jaahir nahi karna chaahta tha………

“Kya tum logo ko hindi samajh mein aati hai……. “

bola….
apni revolver neeche karta hua main kuchh narmi se
Uss badi waali ladki ke chehre par asmanjas ke se
bhaav aaye………..

“Batao ,…. Kya aap log hindi samajh lete ho ? “

maine fir apna sawaal dohraya

uska sarsehm atim ein hila… … … … … … …

“ Good …………………….daro mat , main aap
logo ko koinuksaan nahi
pahunchaoonga………………..” maine unn ko
samjhaane ki koshish ki
Ab un ke chehre se dar ke bhaav gayab hone lage

rahi thi………….Shaazia , jo abhi tak uss doosri

the………aur us ski jagah ek utsukta si dikhaayi de

ladki ke peeche chhupi huyee thi …………..thoda sa

baahar nikal kar aa gayi thi aur uss ke kandhe ko
pakde hue meri ore dekh rahi thi..

wahan….. “ maine uss ko poori baat samjhaane ki

“ Mera naam Ajay hai ……mera plane kal raat

koshish ki
“ Tumhaare paanv se khoon nikal raha hai………….

fir uss doosri ladki ki taraf dekha……………..

“ meri baat beech mein hi kaatkar Shaazia boli aur

m aine bhiab gaurkiya kim erichotm ein se lagataar

khoon beh raha tha aur jameen par girtaa jaa raha
tha… … … …
“ Shaziaa ………………………… #%#$$%
% ^^^& ^& & … … “ uss badiladkine shaziaa se

tezi ke saath makaan ke andar chali gayee…..

kuchh kaha jo meri samajh mein nahi aaya aur woh

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chhaayi rahi………………. Fir uss ladki ne hi baat
agle kuchh seconds humaare beech khamoshi si

shuru ki…..

“ Kya tum Hindustani ho …..? “ jaise kahin gehraai

mein se koi awaaz aayi ho……

“ Haan “

“Fauzi ho ? “ usne fir poochaa

“ Haan………………..Indian Air force mein hoon “
maine jawaab diya

Uske chehre par ek sawaal sa ubhraa ……………..

jaise meri baat samajh mein nahi aayi ho ………….

Tab tak Shaazia makaan se baahar aa gayi thi

hardboard ka bana hua puraana sa dabaa….

……………uss ke haath mein ek dabba tha ,
………………….Hindustani fauz ke “ maine unn ko
“ Main hawaai jahaj udaata hoon

samjhaane ki koshish ki

“Aao chalo, Ghar ke andar aa jao “ Uss badi ladki ne

Shaazia ki ore sawaaliya nigaaho se dekhte hue
mujhse kaha…

teeno ghar ke andar aa gaye....

Shaazai ka sar bhi sehmati mein hila aur fir hum

Unka ghar kaafi saaf suthra tha…………….Jaise

aam taur par pahaadi illako mein hote hain , lakdi
aur concrete se bana hua………….ek varande se
hote hue woh dono mujhe ghar ke daayein (right)
kisse mein bane ek kamre mein le gayi……….

Kamre mein ghuste hi dard ki wajah se mere

kadam fir se ladkhada gaye aur sahaare ke liye
maine Shaazia ke kandhe ko thaam liya………iss
buri haalat mein bhi maano mere poore shareer
mein ek current sa daud gaya

Tabhi uss badi waali ladki ne mere haath ko pakad

kar mujhe sahaara diya aur Shaazia se kuchh
kaha……………Shaazia fir wahan se baahar chali
gayi……Uss ladki ne mujhe sahara dete hue ek

si aaram-kursi thi jis par main late sa gaya……..

lakdi ki kursi par baitha diya………woh ek lambi
Woh mere saamne jameen par baith gayee aur
mujhe dekhte hue fir se baat shuru ki…

mein hi sawaal kiya tha par lehja kashmiri tha….

“Kya chaahte ho tum hum logo se…….” usne hindi

khaane ke liya ………….” Maine aankhen band

“Sabse pehle to chhipne ke liye jagah aur kuchh

kiye-kiye hi jawaab diya

“Kab tak chhipna chaahte ho …….. ?”

“maloom nahi…………woh log mujhe dhoondh

waapas pahunchna hai…..” iss baar maine uske

rahe honge aur mujhe jald se jald sarhad ke paar

chehre ko dekhte hue kaha

“ Woh log kaun ? Pakistani fauz ?” woh mere pairo

kitarafnigaah karke boli…

“Haan ..”
Kuchh der khamoshi rahi aur fir ek lambi saans
lekar woh fir boli “ Theek hai ………hum tumhe

…..saath hi tumhe vaada karna hoga ki tum hum

chhipne ki jagah denge , par iss ghar mein nahi

logo ko koi nuksaan nahi pahunchaoge …..”

“ Mujh par yakeen kijiye ………..main koi bhi

harkat aisi nahi karoonga jis se aapko koi pareshaani
ho ………..” ab ki baar maine uske chehre ko gaur
se dekhte hue kaha…

A chaanak w oh uthiaurkam re se baaharnikalgayi

waapas aayi……….Shaazia ke haath mein ek
Kuchh hi seconds baad dono ladkiyan ek saath

………….dono mere saamne jameen par baith

bartan tha jis mein se bhaap nikal rahi thi

gayi …………..fir badi ladki ne hi baat shuru ki….

“ Mera naam Hina hai aur yeh meri choti behan

akeli rehti hain ………..” Usne kaha aur mere

Shaazia hai………..Hum dono yahan iss ghar mein

baayein (left) pair ko utha kar ek lakdi ke chote se

stool par rakh diya……..meri pant ke paunche ko
usne dheere se oopar kiya ……….. mere ghav ko

gaya……..chot se abhi bhi khun ris raha tha ………

dekhte hi uske chehre par dard ka sa bhaav aa

usne ek kapde ko bartan mein daala aur fir dheere se

meri chot par rakh diya…………
Dard ki ek lahar mere saare shareer mein daud
gayi…………kuchh der tak rukne ke baad usne

kar diya……..fir usne ek choti si sheeshi ko dabbe

dheere-dheere kapde se ghav ko saaf karna shuru

ke oopar ulta kar diya………..sheeshi mein se

mein se nikala aur khol kar dheere se mere ghav

liquid ki kuchh boonde ghaav ke oopar giri aur fir

se ek jalan ka ehsaas mujhe hua………maine
kuch palo ke liye apni aankhen band kar li aur jab
dobara kholi to dekha ki ab woh ghav par patti

Maine pehli baar un dono ke chehro ko gaur se

dekha, Hina ke chehre par ek ajeeb si kathorta aur
rukhapan tha par iss samay uski aankhon mein
the…………..wahi Shaazia ke chehre par ek
mujhe daya ke bhaav nazar aa rahe

komalta aur masumiyat si thi …………Hina ki

aankhen aur baal kale the jabki Shaazia ki
aankhen gehrineeliaur baalhalke sunehre
the…………dono behno ka rang gora tha aur
Acahanak Shaazia ne …….jo abhi tak apni behan ko
dekh rahi thi meri taraf dekha aur ek pyari si
muskaan se maano mujhe tasalli dene ki koshish

aadhe dard ko gaayab kar diya tha....

ki… … … yakeen m aniye uss kiek m uskaan ne m ere

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Dressing kar dene ke baad Hina ne apna chehra
oopar uthaya aur fir ussi kathor se lehje mein
kaha “ Jakhm jyada gehra nahi hai…. Ab 2-3 din
tak jyada chalna –firna nahi …”

ki koshish ki ….par uske chehre par koi bhi bhaav

Maine ek smile ke saath uska shukriya ada karne

nahi aaya…..

baahar chali gayi…….main intezar karta raha ki

Fir dono behne mujhe uss hi kamre mein chod kar

aage ab woh log kya karne waali hain….. 10-15

minute baad Shaazia hath mein ek thaali lekar
aayi aur mere saamne stool ek choti si table par
rakh diya………..”Khana kha lijiye ……” usne

maano toot sa pada………..

kaha aur main bina der kiya uss khaane par

naya jeevan mil gaya ho……..kuchh der ke liye

Khana khaane ke baad mujhe aisa laga jaise ek

kaisi condition mein hoon …………..

m ain yeh bhibhoolgaya kim ain kahan hoon aur

lauti aur boli “ Aao……. tumhe tumhaare rehne ki

Kuchh hi der ke baad Hina kamre mein waapas

jagah dikha deti hoon “

Main dheere se utha aur uske saath chal
diya………mere paanv mein ab dard kam tha aur
main lagbhag sahi –sahi chal pa raha tha………
woh mere aage aage chalte hue mujhe raasta

hum log tabele ki taraf chal diye………….baahar

dikha rahi thi………….makaan se baahar aakar

ka mausam ab thanda ho gaya tha , aisa mehsoos

ho raha tha jaise baarish aane wali ho………woh
tabele ke andar daakhil hue aur main uske peeche-
peeche andar aa gaya….

Tabela kaafi bada tha………..uske left waale

portion mein ek taraf jaanwaro ke liye hauz sa
bana hua tha aur kuchh jaanvar bandhe hue

kar ke kamre ka sa roop de diya gaya tha…….

the………ussi ke andar right side mein partition

Tabele ki chhat (roof) kachchi thi par charo

chhed (holes) banaye gaye the…………….Hina ne
deeware pakki thi aur unme kahin kahin chote-chote

uss chhote se store num a kam re kiore ishaara kiya

“ tum yahan par reh sakte ho “

hua……………ek chhota sa kamra…………..jo

Main uss store numa kamre mein daakhil

abhi filhaal bhoose se bhara hua tha…………….”

Tum yahin ruko, main tumhaare liye sone ka
intezam karti hoon…” Hina ne kaha aur fir tabele
se baahar nikalgayi… … … … … … … …

apni ghadi mein dekha……..raat ke 10.30 ka time

Main wahin bhoose ke dher par baith gaya aur

ho gaya tha……………baahar ab boonda -baandi

chalu ho gayi thi……………… aur sardi bhi
badhti si jaa rahi thi………

Hina waapas lauti aur uske peeche-peeche Shazzia

the…………..bistar aur kambal (blanket) ……..

bhi………………Unke haathon mein kuchh kapde

Dono ne kapdo ko wahin jameen par rakh diya aur

m ilkar uss chote kam re kisafaayikarne
lagi… … … … …

unhe dekh raha tha………….kareeb 10 minute ki

Main wahin ek deewar ke sahaare baitha hua

mehnat ke baad dono behno ne uss store ko mere

rehne laayak kar diya, kuchh bhoosa kamre se
nikaal kay baahar tabele mein rakh diya aur baaki

tha……..kuchh kapde daal kar kar ab woh ek

ko farsh par bichaa kar bistar ka roop de diya

aaram-daayak bistar ban chukaa tha………..aur

2-3 kambal mere odene ke liye rakh chhode the…

“ Ab tum chaho to so sakte ho ……….” Hina apne

sapaat se lehje mein boli aur baahar ki taraf chal di
………fir dobara palti aur boli “ par mere se
poochhe bagair is kamre se baahar nikalne ki
koshish nahi karna “

Woh kamre se baahar nikal gayi aur uske peeche –

peeche Shaazia bhi……..kamre se baahar nikalte
muskuraai aur fir baahar nikal gayi………..
hue Shaziaa fir palti , meri ore dekh kar

Main ek baar uth kar baahar tabele mein

aaya…………baahar ab tez baarish ho rahi

wahan ka jaayza liya…..kul 3 gaay (Cows), 2-3

thi…………tabele mein nazar ghuma kar maine

khachchar aur 3-4 bakri mujhe wahan dikhaayi

di…………..sardi ki wazah se saare jaanwar simat
se gaye the… … …
“ to aap log ho mere room-mates …………..” maine
dheere se kaha aur fir apni hi baat par hans
diya……………….

Main waapas kamre mein aaya………apne joote

gaya………….Aankhen band kar ke main pichhle

nikaale aur apne bistar par let
sochne laga…….
kuchh ghanto m ein ghatighatnaao ke bare m ein

main yahin aas-paas chhipa hoon………..agar

Kya pakistaani fauz ko maloom ho gaya hoga ke

haan to woh mujhe dhoondh jaroor rahe

honge… … … iska m atlab woh log yahan bhi
pahunch sakte hain……………..mere ghar par
jaroor mere plane crash ki khabar pahunch gayi
hogi… … … … … kya beetihogighar waalo
par………………yahi sochte-sochte maine
aankhan band kar li aur aankhen band karte hi

aankhen………..Shaazia ki aankhen aur uski woh

mujhe dikhaayi di woh neeli

masoom si muskurahat …………….jaise mujhe

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mujhko……………..subah aankh khuli to maine
Bahut gehri neend aayi iss baar

apni aadat ke anusaar ghadi mein time

dekha…..7.45 baj rahe the……………main utha

…………..mujhe bada aashcharya hua kyonki raat

aur store ke darwaaje ko kholne ki koshish ki

tha……….
ko jab main soya tha tab to darwaaja khula hua

hua ki darwaaja baahar se locked tha………..main

Maine ek-do baar koshish ki fir mujhe mehsoos

waapas apne bistar par aakar baith gaya…..mere

man mein ajeeb –ajeeb se sawaal aa rahe the……..

kya yeh log mujhe Pakistani fauz ke hawaale karne

waale the ? shaayad issi liye baahar se darwaaza
band kiya gaya ho, aur inn dono ladkiyon mein se
koi police ya army ko khabar karne gaya ho ?

Ek ajeeb sighabrahatm ujhe ho rahithi,m aine jaldi

se apne bag ko check kiya… meri revolver ki
magazine full thi………….. aur 3 extra magazine
bhi mere paas mein thi ………….”kam se kam 5-6
ko to saath mein lekar maroonga “ maine man hi
man socha…

Achanak aahat hui ………….koi baar se darwaaze

ko khol raha tha…………maine jaldi se revolver
hath mein li aur deewar se sat kar khada ho

turant hi revolver uss par taan di………..

gaya………darwaaza dheere se khula aur maine
cup le kar khadi thi………..uske chehre par gusse
Woh Hina thi…………..haath mein Chay (Tea) ka

aur aashcharya ke bhav the , mano poochhna

chaahti ho ke “yeh kya harkat hai “

………….” Apni baat beech mein hi adhoori chod

“ Ohhh …..aaap ho !! mujhe laga shaayad

kar main waapas bistar par baith gaya……….

“ Tumhe kya laga……woh log tumhe pakadne aa

tumhaare jakhm par patti na ki hoti .” woh ajeeb se

gaye hain ? Tumhe pakadwaana hi hota to kal

lehje mein boli aur chay ka cup meri taraf bada diya

Maine chay ka cup uske haath se le liya aur bola “

Thanks…………..Mujhe baahar se band kyon kar
diya tha ? “
“ Abhi tum humaare liye anjaan ho , itni jaldi kaise
tum par bharosa kar lein ?” fir ussi talkh lehje mein
usne jawaab diya…
“ maine bhi to aap logo par bharosa kiya hai……..
aur aap bhi to mere liye anjaan hain “ pehli baar
m ain uskinigaahon se nigaah m ila karbola

Woh shaayad meri nigaahon ka saamna nahi kar

paayi…………kuchh hi palo mein usne apni
aankhen neeche jhuka li………

Maine use sar se paanv tak gaur se dekha……

shaayad abhi naha kar aayi thi who…uske kaale
baal kuchh -kuchh ghungrale the………ek-do

ki boonde bhi dikhaayi pad rahi thi……….. maine

latein uske chehre par aa rahi thi aur unme paani
chehre par se hata li….
bahut der tak usko nahi dekha aur apni nazre uske

Usne chay ka cup ( jo ab tak khaali ho chukka tha)

mere haath se le liye …aur boli “ yeh darwaaza ab
khula hua hai , tum chaho to kahin bhi ja sakte ho
………..par jahan tak main samajhti hoon , tum
yahan par jyada mehfooz ho “ Iss beer woh dheere
se muskuraai aur baahar nikal gayi………..

raha……….yeh ladki abhi tak mere liye ek paheli

Main kuchh der usko jaate hue dekhta

bani hui thi………kyon hai who aisi ? .....mujhe

nahi lagta ki who dil se bhi itni kathor hogi , fir
kyon aisa nakaab ode rehte hai hamesha ?
gaya……….raat bahut tez barish huyee
Main tabele ke darwaaze par aakar khada ho

thi…….aur abhi bhi mausam waisa hi bana hua

tha… …
Saamne makaan ka darwaza khula aur Shaazia
baaharnikli… … … uske haathon m ein ek baaltithi
jisme shaayad kuchh kapde the…..mere baayein
taraf ko badhti huyee woh jhaadiyon ke paas
pahunch gayi aur geele kapdo ko baalti se nikaal
kar sookhne ke liye jhaadiyon par daalne

Iss sam ay w oh kisikayam atse kam nahilag rahithi

…………main thoda sa peeche ho gaya aur deewar

laga…..woh bhi abhi nahakar hi nikli thi……..baal

ki aad mein hokar, chhup kar usko dekhne

the………….kal raat ki tarah ab woh garam kapdo

geele the auruskikam artak aa rahe

m ein nahithibalkiek sootisa salw aar-sootusne

side ko gila kar rahi thi ………..aur mujhe unn gile
pehna hua tha…….. paani ki boonde uski poori back

tha…………..ek ajeeb is uttezna mere oopar haavi

kapdo mein se uske poore shareer ka ehsaas ho raha

hone lagi………..abhi tak maine iss ladki ke shareer

ko sirf door se hi dekha tha …par jaane kyon aisa
lagne laga ke who mere bahut paas aa
jaye………….

Usse dekhte-dekhte mujhe maloom hi nahi pada ki

rahi thi,…….. jaise hi meri nazar usse mili, aisa laga

who kab peeche palat gayi aur ab meri taraf hi aa

ki jaise meri chori pakdi gayi ho………uske chehre

par wahi pyaari si muskaan thi……….woh seedhi
chalti huyee mere paas pahunch gayi…..aur poocha

“ kaise hain aap?...... aapka ghav ab kaisa hai ?

“ Pehle se kaafi behtar hai…………………Thank

koshish karta hua bola….par mere apne man mein

you “ maine kaha , main uss se nazre milane ki

chor hone ki wazah se main uss se nazrein nahi mila

paa raha tha……

aur fir maano meri saanse ruk si gayi………..uske

Meri nigaahein uske chehre se neeche ki ore badhi

bhi bhiga diya tha………….kapda patla tha aur

baalo se girte paani ne uske kurte ke oopri hisse ko

thi………….uski choochiyon ke ubhaar aur

uske neeche usne Bra jaisi koi cheej nahi pehni

nipple, dono saaf dikhayee pad rahe the…………..

“Kya hua…………aapki tabiyat abhi sahi nahi hai

kya ? “ woh fir se muskurati hui boli , maine fir uske
chehre par dekha…..fir wahi masoom si
muskurahat………usko to shaayad ehsaas bhi nahi
hua tha ki main kya dekh raha hoon ……………

“ nahi, main ab sahi hoon” maine baat badalte hue

kaha “ lagta hai baarish fir padne waali hai “

“ baarish nahi barf …………shaam tak barf jaroor

huyee boli……………..
pad jaayegi “ woh oopar aasman ki taraf dekhti

humaare paas aa gayi………….aur mujh se boli “

Mujhe maloom bhi nahi pada ki kab Hina bhi

kya tum nahana chaahoge ? “

“ Jaroor…………par mere paas badalne ke liye
kapde nahi hain “ maine uski taraf dekh kar jawaab
diya.

“ Uska intezam ho jaayega………….tum andar

jaao , main abhi tumhe bula loongi” kehkar who

gayi……..
palti aur uske peeche –peeche Shaazia bhi chali

raha………..mere man mein ek ajeeb si pyas sir

main unn dono ko jaate hue dekhte

utha rahi thi ……………. Shaazia , jo abhi take k

masoom bachchi si lag rahi thi , ab achanak sex-ki-
devi najar aane lagi thi ………..

main fir se kamre ke andar waapas aa gaya aur apne

bistar par let gaya……mere dimaag mein unn sabhi
apni jindagi mein mila tha……….kuchh sirf dost thi
ladkiyon ke chahre aane lage jin se main abhi tak

, kuchh ke saath maine sex bhi kiya tha…par aisi

masumiyat shaayad kisi mein bhi nahi thi …………
ya kahin yeh uska oopri chehra to nahi hai ??
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Kuchh der baad hi Hina waapas aa gayi aur boli “

aao mere saath “ , main uske peeche peeche chal
diya………
Tabele se baahar nikal kar woh right side mein
(makaan ke left side) chal di………..uss side kucch
jhaadiyan aur ek pahar tha……….hum dono
pahaar ke saath saath chal diye……….ek patli si
pag-dandi pahar ke saath chal rahi thi………
shaayad who log iss raaste ka aksar istemaal karte
honge….. pahaar ke saath saath chalte hue who
raasta baayen (left side) mein mud gaya….koi 200-

woh jagah do paharo ke beech ka hissa tha…….ek

250 meter chalne ke baad hum jahan pahunche

paani ki dhaar dono paharo ke beech mein se girti

huyee wahan taka a rahi thi…………..aur aage
nikal jaati thi……………………
Hina apne saath ek baalti laayi thi……………usne
kaha “ tum yahan par naha sakte ho , main abhi
thodi der mein aati hoon “ aur who tezi ke saath
waapas chali gayi ……………

mano doob gaya……….peeche paharo se girta hua

Main kuchh der uss jagah ki khoobsoorti mein

paani …………..aur saamne ek bada sa khaali

maidaan ………uske aage jhaadiyan aur ghana
jungle…………maine left side mein dekha
………..wahan aage ek dhalaan sa dikhaayi
diya…………thoda sa aage badha to maloom hua
ki jis jagah par hum hain yeh bhi ek pahad ki choti
par hai………..yahan se door tak dhalaan jar aha
tha aur neeche ek nadi behti dikhaayi de rahi
thi…………….shaayad wahi jisko paar karke
main iss ghar tak pahuncha tha………………….
“ Kya dekh rahe ho ? “ achanak mere peeche se
awaaz aayi…maine dekha Hina haath mein kuchh
kapre lekar khadi thi ” Kya nahana nahi hai ? “

maine uski baat ka jawaab na dete hue ulta sawaal

kiya “ yeh nadi jo neeche dikhayi pad rahi hai,
kahan jaati hai “

“Hindustaan !! yahan se aage jaakar yeh gehri ho

jaati hai aur ek doosri badi nadi mein mil jaati hai “
usne nadee ke taraf hi dekhte hue kaha “ who dekh
rahe ho , saamne jo safed waale pahaad dikhayi de
rahe hain , who Hindustan mein hain “
maine dekha, nadi aage jaakar do paharo ke beech
mein gum ho gayi thi , woh safed barf se dhake
pahar jinke bare mein Hina keh rahi thi… kaafi door
the aur bahut chote-chote dikjaayi pad rahe the,

agar main sadak se hokar jaoonga to kareeb 50-60

mujhe maloom tha ki wahan tak pahunchne ke liye

kilometer ka safar tay karna padega

hoon . nahane ke baad yeh kapde badal lena “ usne

“Ab jaldi se naha lo , main wahin peeche baith jaati

kapde wahin ek patthar par rakh diye , aur kuchh

door jaakar baith gayi .....
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maine apne kapde utare aur sirf underwear pahan
kar nahana nahana shuru kar diya, maine Hina ki
taraf dekha , woh doosri ore muh kiye baithi thi
……

kar diya…………….thande paani ne shareer mein

Maine baalti mein paani bharkar nahaana shuru

ek sihran si paida kar di thi .. par tazagi ka bhi

ehsaas karwa diya tha………

mein soch raha tha……….ek-do baar jab meri

Nahate –nahate mein yahan se nikalne ke bare

nigaah Hina par gayi to mujhe aisa laga ki woh

hai……..kya uski dilchaspi mujh mein thi ya mere

chor nigaah se meri taraf hi dekh rahi

shareer mein ?…….mujhe doosri baat hi sahi

hua………..ek jawaan ladki mujhe nahate hue dekh
Soch kar mujhe ek ajeeb sa romanch mehsoos

chah rahi thi……….mujhe bhi iss khel mein maza

rahi thi, aur mere shareer ko nazdeek se dekhna

aane laga ………..thoda sa peeche ko hogaya

koshish kar raha hoon ………..par mujhe maloom

………mano apne aapko aad mein karne ki

tha ki woh mujhe wahan bhi dekh sakti thi……..jo

ek akhiri kapda mere shareer par tha (underwear )

nanga ho kar naha raha tha……….thoda sa paani

woh bhi maine utaar diya……… ab main bilkul

aur daal kar main khada ho gaya……….kuchh to

ki nigaah mere oopar hi hai……….mera Lund bhi

mausam ka asar aur kuchh yeh soch kar ki Hina

ab dheere-dheere sakht hone laga tha…………

Main nanga hi wahan tak pahuncha, jahan kapde
rakhe hue the………wahan pahunch kar maine ek

aur fir aaram se kapde pehan liya…………..maine

chote se kapde (towel) se apna shareer ponchha

poora dhyan rakha tha ki jo cheez Hina dekhna

chah rahi hai, who usse sahi se dikh jaaye……….

Kapde pehan -ne ke baad maine apne uttare hue

gaya………….aur bola “chalein …….? “

kapde baalti mein dale aur Hina ke paas pahunch

Woh uth khadi hui…………ek-do pal ke liye meri

taraf dekha aur fir ghar ki taraf chal
di………….Uske gaal iss sard mausam mein bhi
laal ho rahe the aur chehre par baichaini saaf
dikhayi pad rahi thi……..
woh typical kashmiri libaas tha…..pathani suit aur
Jo kapde usne mujhe pehan-ne ke liye diye the,

ek jacket……….

Main teji se chalta hua uske paas pahuncha aur

kaha “ yeh kapde jiske bhi hain , who shakhs
lagbahg mere hi baraabar ka hoga, bas kuchh
dubla hoga kyonki kapde halke se tight
hain…………waise kiske hain yeh kapde ? “

“ Mere shauhar (husband) ke……” kehte hue uski

nigaah saam ne gharkitarafhithi

“ Aapke shauhar !!!” yeh mere liye dhamaake jaisi

khabar thi “ kahan hain woh”
“ maloom nahi “ woh dheere se boli ……..aur mere
haathon se kapdo ki baalti le li “ laao, main in kapdo
ko saaf karke chhipa doongi “

gayi…………..main wahin khada sochta

baalti le kar woh ghar ke andar chali

raha……….yeh dono ladkiyan ek ajeeb se paheli ki

tarah banti jaa rahi thi………

shuru ho gayi……….aasmaan mein maano ruyee ke

boonde padne lagi thi aur fir halki halki barf baari

the………..main dheere-dheere chalta hua apne

gole udd rahe the aur jameen par bichhte jaa rahe

kamre mein waapas aa gaya....

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tha………………..Shaazia beech mein ek baar aa-
Dopahar ke 2.30 ka time ho raha

kar khana de gayi thi aur fir abhi-abhi bartan

waapas le kar gayi thi…………mere dimaag mein

thi……….jab se main yahan aaya tha……….tab se

pichhle 2 dino mein ghati ghatnayen ghoom rahi

nahi dhyaan diya tha……….kahin aisa na ho ki

maine apne baahar nikalne ki taraf gambheerta se

yahan chhip kar un ka kaam asaan kar doon ..

Pakistani fauz mujhe dhoondh rahi ho aur main

huyee………..main uth kar kamre se baahar aaya

Baahar tabele m ein kuchh aahatsi

………..yeh Hina thi………..jaanwaro ke liye

chaara daalne aayi thi……..main kucch kehne hi

awwaz Hina ne bhi sun lee thi………….woh furti

waala thi ki door se kisi gaadi ki awaaz aayi …
aayi…………..
lagabhag dhakete hue waaps kamre mein le

log tumhe dhoondhne aa gaye hain…..” keh kar

” Jaldi se chhip jaao, baahar mat nikalna…….woh

se saara phoos (sukhi ghaas – Dry grass) mere

usne mujhe kamre ke kone mein dhakela aur jaldi

oopar daalna shuru kar diya……….. main bhi

stithi ko samajh gaya tha………aur kuchh hi
seconds mein kamra phoos se bhar gaya

main saans rok kar phoos ke dher ke neeche chhipa

hua tha………mera dil iss samay ghadi se bhi tez
chalraha tha… … … baaharse kuchh logo ke bolne

meri samajh se baahar thi………….beech beech

ki awaaz aa rahi thi , bhasha kyun ki ajnabi thi isliye

mein Hina ki awaaz bhi aa rahi thi……….fir kuchh

palo ke liye aawaz tez ho gayi mano woh log baat
karte karte nazdeek aa gaye ho……………fir kuchh
der khamoshi si rahi………..aur fir dobara gaadi ke
jaane ki awaaz mere kano mein
padi…………….gaadi jaane ke kareeb 5 minute

raha ………………….
baad tak bhi main aise hi pada raha aur intezar karta

“ Baahar aa jao…………..woh log chale gaye hain “

Hina ki awaaz mere kaano mein padi aur main
phoos ko hata kar baahar nikal aaya……………

bheeg gaya tha…………………..

baahar barf pad rahi thi par par main paseene se
…………..Hina mere saamne hi khadi thi aur
Baahar aa kar m ain lam bilam bisaanse lene laga

mujhe hi dekh rahi thi ……….uske chehra laal ho

raha tha…. Kuchh der ke baad jab usko laga ki
main ab normal ho gaya hoon , tab usne baat
shuru ki “ Woh log tumhe hi dhoondhte hue aaye

“ Kaun log the ? Pakistani fauz ?” maine lambi-

lam bisaanse lete hue kaha

Usne haan mein sir hilaya………….uski aankhon

mein abhi tak khauf tha aur chehre par uttezna si
dikhayi pad rahi thi…………..

“ Major Aslam beg , yahan ka area commander hai

woh …………khud tumhe dhoondhne aaya
tha……………uske aadmi tumhe poore ilaake mein
dhoondh rahe hai……………….unko maloom pad
gaya hai ki Hindustani Air force ka ek jahaaz iss

hai…….” Who meri aankhon mein aankhen daalte

ilaake mein gira hai aur uska pilot abhi jinda

huye boli…………….main hairan tha ki woh

English ke words bhi itne achche bol rahi hai……..

Kuchh der tak hum ek doosre ko dekhte rahe fir

shaayad woh meri aankhon se aankhe nahi milake
rakh saki ……………..aur dheere se baahar nikal
gayi…………..main bhi uth gaya aur apne kapde
jhaarta hua baahar nikal aaya……………..halki
halki barf ab bhi pad rahi thi…………..baahar
maidaan mein safed chaadar si bichh gayi thi
……………….
“ Ab ek-do din tak woh shaayad nahi

aadmi hai………..use mutmayin karna bahut

aayenge………………par Aslam beg bahut tez

mushkil kaam hai”

Woh baahar dekhte huye boli………………

Maine uss hi ki taraf dekh raha tha…………iss

thi…………..lamba sa kurta, band gale ka……

samay usne typical kashmiri dress pehni huyee

……….kul milakar uska sirf chehra hi kapdo ke

salwaar aur sar par ek kapda baandha hua tha

baahar tha …………..baahar se halki halki

boonde uske chehre par pad rahi thi aur uske
chehre ki khoobsoorti ko aur bada rahi

baahr nikal kar aayi…………..dheere dheere

Saamne ghar ka darwaaza khula aur Shaazia
gayi…..aur apni behan se kuchh baat karne lagi
chalte huye woh hum dono ke najdeek aa

…………..apni local language mein…………….ab

main Shaazia ko dekh raha tha…………uski dress
bhi bilkuk hina jaisi thi……………par jab main

attractive lagti thi………….shaayad uski kam

dono ko compare karta tha to mujhe Shaazia jyada

umra hone ke kaaran……………..

kuchh der baat karne ke baad dono behne ghar ke

mausam ka maza le raha tha……..kareeb 5 minute

andar chali gayee………main wahin khada hua

ke baad Hina ghar se baahar nikli …………..ab usne

ek shawl oda hua tha ……….. aur saath mein ek
chatri (umbrella) bhi uske haath mein
thi………..woh tezi se ghar se left side waali

kuchh der pehle hi gaadi aayi thi ………….main use

pagdandi par chal di …….wahan jahan se abhi
dekhta rah jab tak woh mujhe dikhaayi deti

gaya.....
rahi…………fir main andar aakar kamre mein baith

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baahar kuchh aahat huyee……. Yeh Shaazia thi,

Main kamre mein apne bistar par leta hua tha jab

woh kamre ke andar aayee , uske haath mein chay

ke do cup they……ek cup usne meri taraf
badhaate hue kaha “ chay pee leejiye “

haath se le liya….woh apna cup lekar kamre se

Main uth kar baith gaya aur chay ka cup uske

baahar nikal gayi……….main chay mein se ek

ghoonth bhara aur fir uth kar kam re se baahar aa
gaya…………woh tabele ki ek deewar se take laga
kar baithithi… … … baahar halkihalkibarfbaari
ho rahi thi , aur woh udhar hi dekh rahi thi……

kar baith gaya……..aur chay peene laga……fir

Main uss se kuchh doori par , deewar se take laga

usne hibaatshuru ki…

“ Aap yahan kaise pahunch gaye ? “ uske chahre par

w ahim assom sim uskurahatthi

“ maine bataya tha ki main Indian Air force mein

pilot hoon….. main apni fauz ke liye kuchh samaan

se raasta bhatak gaya……….mera plane pakistani

le kar kargil ja raha tha par galat messages ki wajah

seema ke andar chala gaya aur unn logo ne anti

aircraft missile se mujh par attack kar diya , mere
plane mein aag lag gayi aur mujhe koodna pad gaya
“ main uske chehre ko dekhta hua use samjhane ki
koshish karraha tha …

“ Aur yeh chot kaise lag gayi aapko ? “ usne mere

pair ki taraf ishaara karte hue kaha

“ maloom nahi kab , par jab main jameen par giya

tabhi koi lohe li cheej isme ghus gayi thi “ main
m uskurate hue bola

usne aisa mooh banay jaise meri chot se use dard

m ehsoos hua ho

“ Tum bahut bahadur ho……………….” Woh meri

aankhon mein dekhti huyee boli
fir usne hi nazre hata lee.
kuchh palo ke liye hum ek doosre ko hi dekhte rahe

“ Tumhaare ghar main aur kaun kaun hai………..”

woh baahar dekhte hue boli

“ mere alawa mummy -papa aur ek chhoti behan ,

bas”

“ aur tumhaari Biwi ?”

“ maine abhi shaadi nahi ki “ main dheeme se hanste

hue bola
Usne meri taraf dekha aur fir ek baar muskura di
… … … … uskiyahim uskurahatm ere saare shareer
mein halchal si macha deti thi

“ Aur tumhaare ghar mein kaun kaun hai ? “ ab

m aine usse saw aalkiya

“ mere ?” woh chaunk kar boli “ main aur baaji , bas

“

mera matlab Hina ke shauhar . Woh kahan hain “

“ Aur tumhaare mata-pita…………. tumhaare Jija ,

“ Humaare waalid saahab tabhi khatam ho gaye the

jab main 8 saal kit hi, mujhe bahut jyada yaad nahi
hai…………itna hi yaad hai ke woh fauz mein
the…………sarhad par jaate rehte the…………ek

lage…………..fir 2 din ke baad unki laash bhi aa

din khabar aayi aur ghar mein sabhi log rone

gayi…………maloom pada ki sarhad par ladte huye

hi hindustani fauz ne unko maar diya tha “ woh
saamne maidaan mein dekhti huyee keh rahi thi ,

bahar chhalakne ko tayyar tha.

uski aankhon mein paani dikhayi pad raha tha jo

“ aur tumhaari ammi ?” main aage poochhna jaari

rakha

“ Abba ke intekal ke baad , ammi hum teeno ko

lekar naani ke ghar Murree chali gayi thi……… “
woh mere chehre ko dekhte huye boli

“Teeno kaun ? “ maine fir se sawaal kiya

“ Hum dono behne aur bhai jaan ……”

“Tumhaara bhai ? …………. Tumhara koi bhai bhee

hai , mujhe nahi maloom tha” mere liye ek aur
nayee jaankari thi , woh jitna bata rahi thi , mere
man mein utne hi naye sawaal khade ho rahe the

“Hai nahi tha……………………..ab woh bhee iss

duniya mein nahi hai “ usne fir meri ore dekhte hue

lage the…….
kaha… … … … uskiaankhon se ab aansoon behne

ho gaya aur baaji yahan aa gayi …….tab tak sab

“ kuchh saal hum log wahin rahe , fir baaji ka nikaah
takreeban 4 saal bade the………………fir ek din
kuchh theek chal raha tha , bhai jaan mujh se

khabar aayi ki who nahi rahe …..” keh kar woh foot-
foot kar rone lagi…………….uske aankhon mein se

ghutno mein muh chhipa kar subakne lagi…..

ab aansuon ki dhaar behne lagi thee aur woh apne

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main dheere se uth kar uske paas ayaa aur baith
gaya……………maine ek haath uske kandhe par

laga…….kareeb 2-3 minute tak rone baad usne apna

rakha aur usse dilasa dene ki koshish karne

chahra oopar kiya aur apne aansoon pochhne lagi…

“ Mujhe maaf kar do……………mujhe nahi
maloom tha ki meri wajah se tumhe takleef hogi ,
nahi to main aise sawaal kabhi nahi poochhta “ main
uske kandhe ko thapthapate hue bola
“ Koi baat nahi…………..bahut dino baad kisi ko
bata rahi hoon na, isliye shaayad aisa ho gaya “ usne
ek fiki si muskurahat ke saath kaha…

the…………..ek din khabar aaayi ki sarhad paar

“ Bhaai jaan , jehadiyon ke saath kaam karne lege

kerte huye pakde gaye aur Hindustani fauz ne unko

m aargiraya… … … … … … … aam ibhiunkim aut

li aur fir 2-3 mahino mein hi who bhi guzar gayee”

bardhasht nahi kar paayi , unhone charpayee pakad

woh fir saamne jameen par dekhte hue bata rahi thi “

kareeb 4 saal se main yahin hoon “

uske baad baaji mujhe bhi apne saath le aayi ,

apni utsukta abhi tak nahi dabaa pa raha tha.

“ Aur tumhaare jija, woh ab kahan hain ? “ main
“ Maloom nahi “ who fir meri taraf dekhte hue boli

“ matlab !!! ???? “

………..kahin saamne jaise kuchh dhoondh rahi

Woh fir kucch der ke liye khamosh ho gayi

ho …..kuchh hi seconds baad usne bolna shuru

kiya… … …

“Unka seb (apples ) ka karobaar tha , jiske liye woh

the……………..Pakistani fauz ko unn par shaque ho

aksar sarhad ke uss paar , Hindustan jaate rehte

gaya ki woh jasoosi karte hai …………..kayee baar

unko pooch-tachh ke liye bulaya…………ek baar
jab woh Hindustan se waapas laute , tabhi fauzi

gayi………….woh unko saath le jaane lage

gaadi bhee unke peechhe –peechhe hi aa

………….mana karne par woh log unko maarne

lage,…woh baar baar kehte rahe ki woh bekasoor
hain………………… baaji ne bhi bahut koshish ki
par woh log nahi mane…baaji ne to unke paanv bhi
pakad liya…………par unme se ek kameene ne

gaye ……….” Kehte kehte uski aankhon se fir

usko laat maar ke alag kar diya , aur unko saath le

aansoon behne lage “ uske baad woh kabhi waapas

nahi laute, shaayad inn logo ne unhe bhi maar
diya………..”

sar ko dheere se sehlaane laga…………….uski

Iss baar main uss ke aur paas chala gaya, maine uske

hichkiyaan fir se dheemi padne lagi ……..usne meri

taraf dekha aur achanak mere seene mein jaise chip
gayi aur fir bazaar ho kar rone lagi…………………

tha…………….jahan mere dil mein ek hairani thi ki

Mere liye yeh bada ajeeb samay

kitna dukh saha hai inn dono behno nein , wahin

pakistani fauz par bhi gussa aa raha tha aur saath
saath ek romanch bhi tha kyon ki woh iss samay
mere seene se lagi huyee thi…………………

2-3 minute baad hi woh fir chup ho gayi ….par abhi

tha…………….maine fir baat shuru ki …

bhi usne apna sar mere kandhe par tika rakha

“Waakai………….bahut bura samay dekha hai tum

logo ne…khaas taur par Hina ne, usne to apne
shauhar ko bhi kho diya “
“ Aur saath mein apne bachche ko bhi………….”
Usne jaise ek aur dhamaaka sa kiya

“ bachche ko !!!!!!!! kya uska bachcha bhi tha ? “

main mano cheekh sa pada

samay ummed se thi (pregnant ) ….jab uss kameene

“ Tha nahi , hone waala tha……………woh uss

………………….aur fir agle hi din ………” aage

ne unke laat mari , bechaari behosh ho gayi thee

chuka tha …………………..

shayad woh keh na saki , par main poori baat samajh

maine uske gird apni ek baanh ko lapet

diya…………woh aur paas aa gayi aur apna chehre
liya………………………………..
fir se mere seene mein chhipa

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rahe…………..uski kahaani sun kar mujhe aisa

Kareeb paanch minute tak hum dono aise hi baithe

lag raha tha ki pehle hi innki life mein itni

pareshaaniyan thi , maine aakar ek aur badha
di………….agar kisi ko maloom pad gaya ki inn
logo ne mujhe panaah di hai to jaane kya-kya julm
karenge inn par…………maine man hi man
nishchay kiya kiab m ain aise yahan se nahi

karna hi padega ………….kya , yeh abhi mujhe

jaoonga…………..kuchh na kuchh to intezam inka

nahi maloom tha , par ummeed thi ki kuchh to ho

hisakta hai… … … … …
simat kar baithi huyee thi……….woh saamne
Maine dekha , Shaazia abhi tak mere pehlu main

maidaan mein kahin dekh rahi thi…………..maine

fir uss se poochha …………” Hina abhi kahan
gayi hai “

“ Baagan tak …” usne ek nazar meri ore dekh kar

kaha aur fir seedhi hokar baith gayi

“ Baagan ?? kaise baagan ? “

ke………..unke jaane ke baad baaji hi unki

“Bataya tha na ki seb ke bagaan the unke shauhar

hain humaare baagan.”

dekhbhaal karti hain, yahin gaanv se neeche jaakar
“ OK………………par who ek aurat hokar saara
kaam khud kaise kar leti hai “

“Nahin………….akeli nahi hai woh…………do

aadmi bhi hain baagan ki dekh-bhaal Ke liye
…………baaji to bas hisaab –kitaab dekhti hai “
usne muskurate huye jawaab diya…………uski
muskurahat aisi lag rahi thi maano chand par se
achanak baadlon ka saaya hat gaya ho……………
jee mein aaya aage badhkar usko choom loon, par

samjha……….
maine filhaal apne ko kaboo mein rakhna hi theek

bhi …………..
Woh utth khadi huyee…………saath mein main

“ Tumhari baaji padh-likh leti hain ?” maine bhi

muskurate huye poocha
karti thi…………..”
“ Jee haan , baaji wahan Murree main nurse ka kaam

ghaav par…….., tum abhi kuchh der pehle mujhe

“Ohh …………tabhi itni achchi dressing ki thi mere

bahadur keh rahi thi………….mujhe to lagta hai ki

tum log mujhe jyada bahadur ho………….jo itni

saamna kar rahi ho …….”

pareshaniyon ke baad bhi himmat se inn sabka

Kehte kehte main fir uske kandhe par haath rakh

diya………..woh kuchh seconds meri aankhon mein
dekhti rahi , fir nazron ko jhuka liya , main uske
paas aa gaya …………..woh bhi shhayad mere
ehssaso ko samajh rahi thi …..uske saanse ab
bhaari hone lagi thi ………par nazre jameen se hi
chipki huyee thi ………….maine haath kandhe se
hataaya aur uske haath ko pakad liya……………
usne turant nazron ko utha kar mujhe
dekha…………ek ajeeb sa sawaal tha uske chehre

sahi-sahi kya hai …………………. Maine uske

par , jaise jaan -na chahti ho ki mere man mein

kheencha…………….aur khud bhi ek kadam uski

haath ko pakad kar dheeme se apni ore

ore badha diya………uski saanse ab bahut tezi se

chal rahi thi ……………nazre mere chehre par hi
jamee huyee thi……………….fir woh ek kadam

gayee…………….meri lambaayi uss se kareeb 4-5

aur aage badhi aur bilkul mere se sat

inch jyada thi , maine doosra haath uske sar ke

sata liya…………….. uska haath chod kar main

peeche rakha aur uske chehre ko apne seene se

eek baanh se uski peeth par ghera sa banaya aur

fir doosre haath ko bhi waheen le jaakar usko
Poori tarah baahon mein bhar liya…………..

Usne ek baar to kasmasa kar mujhse alag hone ki

koshish ki …………..fir jaise hathyar daal diye aur
apni dono baahen meri peeth par le jaakar mujhe
jakad liya…………….

Maine uske maathe par ek chhota sa kiss

kiya………………fir uske chehre ko apne haathon
mein bhar kar oopar uthaya………..uski nazron
mein ek sawaal th ……………..shaayad poochhna
chah rahi thi ki humaare iss rishte ka anjaam kya
hoga………………maine fir se uske maathe ko
chooma aur fir bola
samajhna…………..main humesha tumhaare saath
“ aaj ke baad apne aap ko akela mat

hoon “ keh kar maine usko apni baahon se azaad kar

ko hati………….ek baar fir mujhe dekh kar

diya…….na chahte huye bhi………….woh peeche

chali gayi ..
muskurayee aur fir bhaagti huyee ghar ke andar

maine tabele ke gate par aakar khada ho

……………..par aasman par baadal ab bhi chhaye

gaya… … … … … baaharab barfbaariruk chukithi

hue they………fir ek awaaz aane lagi………….kisi

motorcycle ki awaaz thi yeh , jo dheere dheere
najdeek aa rahi thi……………main thoda peeche
hokar aad mein ho gaya ……………………yahan
se main sab kuchh dekh sakta tha par mujhe koi nahi
dekh paata…………………………
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Awaaz najdeek aati ja rahi thi………….fir ghar ke
saamne ek motorcycle aakar ruki…….motorcycle
par aage ek ladka baitha tha aur peechhe
Hina……………..

Hina motorcycle se utree aurr uss ladke se kuchh

gayee…………..ladka wahin , motorcycle par hi

kaha , fir woh ghar ke andar chali

baitha raha………….shaayad Hina ke waapas

aane ka waitkar raha tha… … …

lagbhag meri hi umar ka tha…….mere jaisa hi

Maine uss ladke par gaur kiya………..woh

kad aur shareer………….ek chheez jo use aam

kashmiriyon se alag karti thi , woh tha uska clean -
shaved chehra …………maine gaur kiya ki uski
naak bhikuchh baithihuyee thi… … … … kisi
professional boxer ki tarah……………….

kuchh paise they………..jo usne uss ladke ko

Hina waapas aayi……………..uske haath mein

rakhe……….fir usne Hina ke kaan ke paas mooh

diye……….ladke ne paise apni jeb mein

le jaakar kuchh kaha…..sunkar woh dheere se

muskurayee aur fir apna sar haan mein hila

kiya………..waapas moda aur fir wahan se chala

diya……..Ladke ne motorcycle ko start

gaya……………..main usse tab tak dekhta raha

jab tak woh aankhon se ojhal nahi ho
gaya…………fir main aad se nikal kart abele ke

mujhe dekha……….khaamosh nigahon se aur fir

darwaaze par aa gaya……………Hina ne ek baar

mudkar ghar ke andar chali gayi………..

huyee…………..main kamre ke andar –baahar
Raat tak aur aur kuchh khaas baat nahi

tehalta raha … … aur bore hota raha… … … … …

dono behne apne ghar ke andar hi rahi aur main
tabele m ein… … … …

Raat ke kareeb 8.30 baje Shaazia khana lekar aayi

gayee…………….maine bhi uss se baat karne ki

aur chup-chap plate rakh kar chali

koi koshish nahi kee………..main chahta tha ki ab

chahiye………….
next movement us ki taraf se hona

Khana khaane ke baad main thodi der tabele ke

andar tehalta raha aur fir aakar apne bistar par
aa-kar letgaya… … … … …
huyee…………….yeh Hina thi………..usne
Kareeb ek ghante baad aahat

darwaaze par knock kiya aur fir kamre ke andar

tha………….main usko dekhkar baith gaya aur ek

aa gayi………uske haath mein uska first aid box

sm ile ke saath usko welcom e kiya… … … …

“Laao , tumhaari chot par patti kar doon

gayi…………….maine apne paanv ko aage badha

……………keh kar woh bistar ke paas hi bath

diya……..aur uske saamne kuchh ooncha kar ke

rakh diya…………

Ek cheez jo maine gaur se dekhi , woh tha uss ka

pehnava……………iss samay uss ne apni dress
change kar di thi…………woh ek lamba sa gown
type ka labada pehne huye thi aur oopar se shawl
hue tha aur saamne se khula hua tha…………..uske
daala hua tha……. Shawl sirf uske kandho ko dhake

gown ke saamne waale hisse par batan lage huye the

huye the……………..
…………jo iss samay lagbhag saare ke saare khule

Mere pair ko haath mein pakadne ke baad who fir

thoda aage ko sarak gayi aur fir mere paanv par jhuk
gayee………….ab jo nazaara mere saamne tha
who kisi bhi aadmi ka imaan kharaab kar sakta
tha…………uske jhukte hi seene par se dono palle
thoda aur khul gaye, aur jo gap ban raha tha woh
aur bada ho gaya……….

Ab uski dono golaayian poori tarah meri aankhon ke

saamne thee , jaisa mera anumaan tha usse kuchh

bade hi dikhaayi pad rahe the………….meri rago

badi hi thi aur nipple bhi aam ladkiyon se thode se

mein khoon ka daura achaanak badh gaya aur apne

tha………….pata nahi woh apni haalat se anjaan thi
aap par kabu paana mano asambhav sa ho raha

thi……….par iss samay woh inn sab baaton se

ya yeh sab woh mujhe jaan boojh kar dikha rahi

anjaan bani huyee mere pair par dressing kar rahi thi

“ Kya soch rahe ho ? “ usne dressing karte-karte hi

poochha, uski nazar abhi bhi neeche hi thi

“ Kuchh nahi …………..tumhaare bare mein hi soch

raha tha “

sawaal tha ….
Ussne oopar meri taraf dekha, uski aankhon mein ek
“ aaj din mein shaazia se baat huyee thi…………
usne bata tumhaare bare mein “

“ kya kya bata diya usne aapko ? “ usne neeche ki

taraf hi dekhte huye kaha, uske haath abhi bhi
dressing mein busy they..

“ Sab kuchh………..tumhaare maa-baap ……

tum haare bhaiaurtum haare shauharke bare m ein

taraf hi dekhta hua bola…….

bhi …………bahut afsos hua sunkar “ main uski

Usne ek baar meri taraf dekha………feeki si

muskurahat ke saath………..fir sar jhuka kar apne
kaam mein lag gayi…………

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sako ?…………….shaayad kisi bade shehar mein

“ Kya koi tareeka nahi hai jis se tum yahan se nikal

tum ek achchhi jindagi ji sako .” maine aage kaha

“ shaayad tum sahi keh rahe ho “ woh meri taraf

thi…….fir woh thoda peeche hokar deewar se take

dekh kar boli……dressing ab complete ho chuki

laga kar baith gayee…….. “ par kisi doosre shehar

mein jaakar hum roti kaise khaayenge………….,

humaara gujar-basar ho jata hai.. , aur yeh Hindustan

yahan to humaare seb ke baagh bhi hain jinse

nahi hai jahan hum auraton ko har tarah ki aazadi

mil sake , yahan to akeli aurat ke liye jindagi bahut
hi mushkil hoti hai “
main uski aankhon mein dekhta hua bola…..
“ Agar main tumhaari koi madad kar sakoon ? “

“ Pehle tum apne nikalne ka intezam to kar lo…”

woh ek halki si hansi ke saath boli “ aur tumhaare
liye ek achchhi khabar hai “

“Kya ?”

“ Woh log tumhe dhoondh jaroor rahe hai par unko

sahi-sahim aloom nahihaikitum kaun ho aurkaise
dikhte ho….unko sirf yeh maloom hai ki koi plane

bhee nahi maloom….tumne apna parachute wahan

yahan gira hai, usme kitne log they…yeh unko

nadee ke paar chhod diya tha ….bas wahi ek cheez

hai jis se unko maloom pada tha ki koi jinda aadmi
abhi aas-paas chhipa hua hai “ woh meri taraf dekh
kar bolti jaa rahi thi
“ Par tumko yeh sab baatein kaise maloom ?” maine
achraj se usko dekhte huye kaha

mujhe chhodne yahan aaya tha………..woh mere

“ Hasan ne bataya ………….Hasan wahi tha jo abhi

baagh ki dekh-bhaal karta hai……uska ek bhai

pakistani fauz ke daftar mein kaam karta hai, uss se
hi use yeh saari baat maloom padi …………woh
mujhe samjha raha tha ki koi ajnabee yaha aas-paas

aakhiri baat usne hanste huye kahi………….

chhipa hua hai , aur main apna dhyaan rakhoon “

Fir woh khadi ho gayi aur boli “ tumhaara ghaav

kahin bhi jaa sakte ho ….”

ab kaafitheek ho gaya hai… … … tun chaaho to ab
……….baaki jaisa tum kaho , chaho to main abhi
“ Mujhe lagta hai main yahan jyada mehfooz hoon

chala jaata hoon “

apne jaane ka bhi to intezam karna hai……..” woh

“ Nahi mera yeh matlab nahi tha ……….par tumhe

ehsaas uski aankhon mein dikhaayi pad raha tha…..

meri aankhon mein dekhti huyee boli , ek ajeeb sa

gayee…………..main waapas aakar apne bistar par

Fir woh kamre se baahar nikal

let gaya………….5 minute hi beete honge ki fir

thi………..uske haath mein ek gilaas

aahat huyee………iss baar Shaazia

tha……….usne meri ore gilaas badaya aur boli “

isko pee lijiye, dawaai hai………….baaji ne bheji
hai , kaha hai ki aapka ghaav jaldi theek ho
jaayega “

ka koi liquid tha gilaas mein ………..main ek

Maine uske haath se gilaas le liya, kaale se rang

ghoonth bhara…………..ufff, bada hi karwa tha

……….fir maine naak band ki , gilaas ko mooh se
lagaya aur ek hi saans mein khaali kar diya………

gayi………………..
meri iss harkat se Shaazia ki hansi chhoot

“Kya hua ? kyon hans rahi ho ?”

rahe they , isliye …….” woh hanste huye boli…

“ kuchh nahi , bilkul bachcho ki tarah dawaai pee
“ kitni karwi hai dawaai……..tum pee kar dekho “
m ain m ooh banata hua bola

“ Main kyun peeoon………jo beemaar ho, wahi

peeyega na “ keh kar usne mere haath se gilaas liya
aur boli “ main chalti hoon “

jaise hi woh baahar nikalne ko huyee…………..ruk

gayi, fir palat ke mere paas aayee…………jhuk kar
mere gaalo par apne honth lagaye ……………ek

gayi…………..chahre par ek pyari si smile

halka sa chumban …………, fir peeche ko hat

thi………..aur fir palat kar baahar nikal

gayee… … … … … …
main thodi der apne gaal par uss jagah haath ferta
raha jahan usne kiss kiya tha……………fir bistar
par let gaya aur neend ke aagosh mein chala gaya
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Subah kareeb 7.15 baje kea aas-paas meri aankh

khuli…………..baahar tabele mein se jaanwaron
ki aawajen aa rahi thi…………..main ek-do minute
aise hi leta raha aur fir uth kar baahar aa
gaya………….baahar Hina maujood thi…………
woh jaanwaron ko kahin se lekar aayi thi aur ab
ek-ek kar ke baandh rahi thi
Meri aahat sunkar usne meri taraf dekha aur
musurayi…………” Kaisa hai tumhara dard ab ?
“ woh apna kaam karte hue boli……….

“ Bahut behtar ……………..mujhe lagta hai aapke

haathon mein jadoo hai “ maine jawaab diya

“ Jadoo mere haathon mein nahi , dawaayi mein

tha “ woh mere paas aakar shokhi se boli fir
baahar nikal gayi

Main bhi tabele se baahar aaya………….aaj

mausam poori tarah khula hua tha………..baahar
kadak dhoop thi……….main kuchh palo ke liye
dhoop ka maza leta raha aur fir tabele ke daayen
taraf (right) chal diya………….uss taraf kuchh
bade-bade patthar pade huye the………..jinme se
ek par jaakar main bath gaya…………yahan se
mujhe tabele ke peechhe ka poora maidan dikhayi
pad raha tha ………….aaj yeh jagah khaali nahi
thi balki kuchh jaanwar wahan tahal rahe the aur
2-4 aadmi bhi mujhe dikhayi pade…………..

Tab tak Hina bhi wahan par aa gayi thi aur mere
paas waale ek patthar par baith gayi thi…………
woh shaayad mere man ki baat samajh chuki thi
……..” mausam khula ho to gaanv waale apne
jaanwaro ko lekr yahan aa jaate
hain………..yahan unko ghaas bhi mil jaati hai
aur thoda aage jaane par nadee bhi mil jaati hai “
woh maidaan ki taraf dekhte huye hi boli……..

Maine uski taraf dekha……….uske chehre par

paseene ki boonde dikhayi de rahi thi ……mausam
bahut jyada garam nahi tha par shaayad woh kafi
der se kaam mein lagi huyee thi………

Mujhe apni taraf dekhta paakar usne kuchh palo

ke liye meri nazron se nazrein milaayi fir apni
aankhon ko khud hi jhuka liya……..ek dheemi si
muskurahat uske honthon par thi…….

“ Abhi mausam khula hua hai aur saare gaanv

waale gharo se baahr honge………..abhi tum
baahar mat nikalna…………….aur agar nahaana
ho to ghar ke andar jaakar hi naha lena………..
shaam tak agar mausam kuchh badlaa to main tumhe
gaanv tak ghuma kar le aaoongi ………….wahan
se tum apne nikalne ka koi tareeka talash kar sakte
ho “ woh bolti jaa rahi thi aur beech beech mein
meri taraf bhi dekh rahi thi……………fir achanak
chup huyee aur fir boli “ kya hua , aise kya dekh
rahe ho ? “

“ Kuchh nahi , soch raha hoon ki aap log kyon

mujh anjaane aadmi ke liye apni jaan jokhim mein
daal rahe ho ?” main uske chehre par hi dekhta
hua bola…..

Woh kuchh nahi boli ………fir se saamne

maidaan ki taraf dekhne lagi…….

“ Waise ek baat to maine abhi taka apse poochi hi

nahi…………yeh jagar kaun si hain jahan par
hum log abhi hain……….mera matlab hai iss
gaanv ka naam ? “ maine fir se uski taraf dekh kar
poocha

“ Abbaspur hai iss gaanv ka naam

……………….Hidustan ki sarhad yahan se kareeb
10 mile door hai …………par agar sadak se
jaaoge to kaafi ghoom kar jaana
padega………..takreeban 40 kilometer door
padega border yahan se………” meri baat samajh
kar usne maano detail mein hi sab kuchh samjha
diya “ border ke paar aap Poonch tak pahunch
jaayenge “

“ iska matlab hai yahan se nikalana ho to sirf

sadak se hi nakla jaa sakta hai ? “ maine poochha
“ Ji haan , waise to jungle se hokar bhi jaa sakte
ho par wahan fauz ka pehra rahta hai aur fir
junglee jaanvar bhi hain “

“ Aur sadak ke raaste se jaane par border par

pakda jaaoonga …” maine hanste hue kaha

“ Woh to hai ………….bina bhesh badle to aapka

nikalana naa-mumkin hai “ who bhi hanste huye
boli ….” main dekhti hoon agar kuchh intezam ho
saka to “ kehti huyee woh uth kadi huyee aur fir
ghar ke andar chali gayi …

main kuchh der wahin par baitha raha aur fir uth kar
waapas apne kamre mein aa gaya

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Kaafi der tak main kamre mein aakar leta
raha…………kyonki Hina ne baahr nikalne ko
mana kiya tha , main ek do baar baahar tabele tak

apne mein kamre mein aa jaata tha…………….

uth kar gaya aur thoda sa tahal kar fir waapas

10.30 baje ke aas paas Motor cycle ki awaaz aayi

aur maine kamre ki deewar mein bane surakhon
mein se jhaank kar dekha……………Hasan aaya

aur fir ghar ke andar chala gaya……………..kareeb

tha… … … … usne gharke saam ne m otorcycle roki

10 minute baad woh fir se baahar nikla aur uske

saath Hina bhi…………….woh dono motor cycle
par baith kar wahan se chale gaye…………………

Kareeb 15 minute baad fir se baahar tabele mein

aahathuyee… … … … m ain uth kar baahar
aaya………..yeh Shaazia thi……………ek baalti
lekar aayi thi aur gaay (Cows) ka dhoodh nikaal
rahi thi……………main wahin kamre ke darwaaze
par khada hokar usko dekhne laga…………..
maine usko bataane ke liye ki main wahin par
hoon , apne gale ko khankar kar saaf

muskurayi…………..” Nahaane ki ichchha hai

kiya…………usne mud kar mujhe dekha aur fir

kya aapki “ usne muskurate huye hi kaha….

“ Ji haan…………bilkul…………agar aapki izaazat

ho to “

“ to aap ghar ke andar jaakar naha sakte

hai……………baaji ne keh diya tha ki baahar nadi
par jaakar nahana aapke liye sahi nahi hai…koi bhi
dekh sakta hai “ keh kar who uth khari huyee , uska
kaam shaayad nipat chukka tha “ aaiye , main aapke

huyee boli .
nahane ka intezaam kar doon “ who fir muskurati

uske peechhe peechhe main ghar ke andar chala

aaye…

huaa ghar tha………..ghar ke sabse aage waale hisse

jaisa ki maine pehle bata tha ki who ek purana bana

mein rasoi (kitchen ) aur left side mein ek room tha (

jahan par pehle din in logo ne meri dressing ki thi)
unke beech se ek gallery jaati thi , fir dono side ek-
ek kamra aur tha…………aur fir ek bada sa veranda
………………aur ghar ke bilkul last mein
bathroom-toilet bana hua tha
……………….woh mujhe lekar bathroom tak

………..kuchh hi seconds baad woh fir lauti aur

aagayi aur fir wapas kamre ke andar chali gayi

uske haath mein ek pant thi ……………..

“Naha kar yeh badal lena…………main abhi shirt

saath boli ……….

bhi de deti hoon “ woh apni sada-bahar smile ke

thi …………….usne ek mardana Shirt-pant pehni

Maine gaur kiya ki aaj uski dress kuchh different

huyee thi …………….dono kapde uske liye kuchh

bade the…………par uske shareer ki maadakta ko
aur bada rahe the……

bhi…………..baaji aa gayi to fir dekh bhi nahi

“ dekhte hi rahoge ya jaakar nahaaoge
paaoge “ woh hanste hue boli aur mujhe lagbhag
dhakelte hue bathroom ke andar kar diya………….

gaya ………………..
Maine kapde nikaale aur fir nahaane mein lag

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Naha kar main Shaazia ki di huyee pant pehan li
aur bathroom se baahar aa gaya…baahar ka jo

bhi hosh udaane ke liye kaafi tha….

nazaara meri aankhon ke saamne tha who kisi ke

Veranda ke ek side m ein Shaazia jam een par baithi

thi………..jo baat sabse important thi who yeh ki iss

huyee thi aur kisi kaagaz par painting kar rahi
samay usne apni shirt ke oopar ke 2 buttons khole

thi……..gora rang hone ke kaaran door se bhi who

huye the aur poori tarah aage ko jhuki huyee

dilkash nazaara mujhe dikhayee de raha tha ……..

uski dono golaaiyan aur unke beech ki gehri

thi ……….
ghaati , apne poore shabaab ke saath mere saamne

Main dheere –dheere chalte hua uske paas

pahuncha , maano yeh dekh raha hoon ki who kya
paining kar rahi hai …par sahi maayno mein meri
nigaah uski shirt ke gale ke aur andar tak jaane ka
raasta khoj rahi thi……….

apna sar jhuka kar kaam karne lagi ….” Kya hua ?
meri aahat sunkar usne ek baar oopar dekha aur fir
kya dekh rahe ho “ woh apna kaam karte huye,
dilkar andaaz mein muskurate huye boli…………..

“ tumhe hi dekh raha hoon ……… “ maine shararat

bhare lehje mein kaha
Usne oopar meri taraf dekha jaise meri baat uski
samajh mein naa aayi ho

“ Iss ghar mein , iss samay aur koi cheej hai jo

aankhon mein aankhen daal kar bola……..

dekhne laayak ho “ main neeche jhuk kar , uski

neeche kar liya………….meri nigaah abhi bhi uski

meri baat samajh kar who sharma gayi aur fir sar

shirt ke gale par atki huyee thi……….jo nazara

tamaanna ho rahi thi ……….
mujhe dikhaye de raha tha …uss se jyada dekhne ki

kharaab kar ke hi chhodengi…….. “ maine apne aap

“ Lagta hai yeh dono behne milkar mera imaan

se kaha aur fir uske peechhe jaakar khada ho

gaya……

Jo painting who kar rahi thi woh badi romantic si

thi…………ek ladka jameen par leta hua tha aur ek
ladki uske pehlu mein , uske seene par sar rakhe
huye leti huyee thi……ladke ke haatho mein ladki
ke dono haath the, dono ek doosre ko dekh rahe
the aur unke honth aapas mein lagbhag mile huye
the… … … …

“ Wow………….” Painting dekh kar mere mooh se

nikalgaya
“ Kuchh khayenge aap…………….. ?“ who
painting karte huye hi boli ..

“ Nahi …abhi bahi, par paani jaroor

shabd par jor dete huye kaha ………..

peeyunga……… bahut pyas lagi hai “ maine Pyas

usne apna samaan samet kar ek stool par rakh diya ,

kitchen mein gayi aur paani ka ek gilaas le aayi “
leejiye ………………apni pyas bujha lijiye “ who
shokhike saath boli

maine uske haath se paani le liya aur peene laga

kar diya…..
……………paani peekar gilaas mein usko waapas
“ main aapko abhi koi shirt pehanne ke liye deti
hoon ………” keh kar who left side waale pehle
kam re m ein ghuss gayi… … … …
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maine gaur kiya ki ghar ki khidkiyon ke lagbhag

fatte ( boards) lage huye the………….har khidki par

saare sheeshe toot chuke the aur unki jagah lakdi ke

2 ya 3 sheeshe hi salaamat they……….Sirf veranda

sheeshe sahi-salamat they………..

ke dono taraf jo badi khidkiyan thi , uske sabhi
gaya………….woh saamne palang par ek sandook
main uske peeche peeche kamre ke andar pahunch

rahi thi , uski peeth meri taraf thi………….main

(box) khole khadi thi aur jhuk kar kuchh dhoondh

peeche se gaya aur jaakar dono haath uski kamar par

dono taraf rakh diye…………..

uske haath achanak ruk gaye……..par abhi tak woh

peechhe nahi palti thi ……….main bilkul uske
shareer se chipat gaya aur fir uske kandhe ke oopar
se apna gaal uske gaal se laga diya……………

“ kya hai……….” Who dheemi si awaaz mein boli

“ Kuchh nahi ……………jo kal raat tumne mujhe

halka sa kiss uske gaal par kar diya………..

diya tha , woh lautane aaya hoon “ keh kar main ek
lagi ……….main bhi lagataar uski aankhon mein
Woh palat gayi aur fir meri aankhon mein dekhne

hi dekh raha tha………mano koi shart lagi huyee

ho ki kaun pehle nazrein hataayega

hataayi……….aur fir dono haath faila kar mere

Kuchh palo ke baad usne hi nazrein

seene se aakar lag gayi ………….dono haathon ko

usne meri path par kas liya tha…..maine bhi usko
apne seene mein mano chhipa sa liya tha

ko baahon mein bhare khade rahe………….fir usne

Agle kuchh seconds tak hum dono aise hi ek doosre

mere seene mein se apna sar hataya, mere ek gaal

ek halka sa kiss kar diya…………….

par apne haath ko firaya aur fir thoda sa uchak kar
yeh mere liye mano Green signal tha ……………

samet liye ………..aur fir uske chehre par

maine uske chehre ko apne dono haathon mein

……………..gaalon par , maathe par aur uske

chumbano ki mano baarish si kar di

baad hontho par ……………. Kuchh der tak

choomne ke baad main uske hoonthon ke dono
taraf apne angootho se halka sa dabaya aur uske

gaye………..maine neeche wale honth ko apne

honth jo aapas mein chipke huye the, alag alag ho

hontho mein dabaya aur dheeme dheeme choosna

shuru kar diya……

ek minute baad hi uske haathon ne mere sar ko

lagi………….iss saaree khel mein ab usko bhi maza

peeche se pakad liya aur apni taraf dabaane

aa raha tha………….maine 2 seconds ke liye apne

honth hataaye aur fir dobaara aage beda diya…..iss
hi nyota de diya…………….ab hum dono ke honth
baar usne apne hontho ko kholkar jaise mujhe khud

aapas mein jude huye the……..mere dono haath uski

peeth par oopar se neeche tak ja rahe the aur usne
dono haathon ko meri bagal se nikaal kar mujhe
peeth par se jakda hua tha ………………..

Agle kareeb 5 minute tak hum aise hi ek doosre ke

honthon ka ras chooste rahe …………..uski har ek

tha…….mere liye haalanki yeh koi pehla mauka

harkat mein ek baichaini aur anaripan sa

nahi tha , par main bhi usko pane ke liye maano

mara jaa raha tha
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Mere honth ab uske kaan par aa gaye the…………
wahan se ek chum bano kiline banata hua m ain
uski gardan tak aaya………..wahan kuchh der
ruka………aur fir uske neeche ki aur badhne laga
……………………mere honth uski patli si gardan
se hote huye neech uski dono golaiyon ke beech
mein pahunh gaye aur jahan tak uski shirt khuli

chumbano ki jhadi si lagata raha……..

huyee thi , wahan tak kuchh der main aise hi

Main thodi der ke liye uss se alag hua……….uski

saanse ab bahut tezi se chal rahi thi , seena har
saans ke saath oopar -neeche ho raha tha…………
main fir aage badha , aur dono baajuon par se usko
pakad liya…….maine usko pakde-pakde ghuma
diya , aur khud palang par baith gaya……………

……….main palang par baitha hua tha aur woh

ab hum dono ki directions change ho chuki thi

mere saamne khadi huyee thi ……………kuchh

kar mere gale se lag gayi……..
seconds woh mujhe dekhti rahi aur fir aage badh

Kuchh hi seconds baad maine use kandho se

pakad kar peechhe kiya……..iss position mein ab

tha……….maine ek baar uski gardan aur seene ke

m era chehra uske seene ke bilkulsaam ne

khule huye hisse par haath fera……….fir apni

ungliyon ko uskishirtka button kholne ke kaam
par laga diya……….. usne mere haathon par
haath rakh kar mujhe rokne ki koshish ki par

kar diya………..
maine uske haath ko apne haath se pakad kar alag

najar aane lagi thi …………….maine shirt ke dono

do button aur khulte hi ab mujhe uski naabhi tak

alag alag direction mein hata diya…………….ab

pallo ke beech mein haath raka aur dono pallo ko

uskichoochiyan m eriaankhon ke saam ne bilkulbe-

parda thi……………….maine uske chehre ki taraf
dekha ………..usne apni aankhen band kar rakhi thi

harkat ka intezaar kar rahi thi ……….maine uski ek

aur mere kandho par dono haath tikaaye meri agli

choochi par dheere se haath firaya ….uske saare

……….fir do baar baari baari se dono choochiyon

shareer mein mujhe ek kampan sa mehsoos hua

par haath firaane ke baad maine ek par halka sa kiss

tha ……….uske mooh se Ahhhhh ki awaaz nikal

kar diya ………yeh kiss nipple se door kiya gaya

gayi……………….

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Fir maine uski left choochi ko apne right hand

kar diye……….mein yeh saare kiss ek daayre mein

mein pakda aur right waali par kiss karne shuru

kar raha tha aur woh daayra har baar chhota hota
jaa raha tha…………fir akhir mein mera muh
uske nipple tak pahunch gaya…………

maine pahle ek baar halka sa kiss uske nipple ke tip

seeee……..” ki awaaz nikali aur fir maine muh

par kiya ……………..uske honthon se ek “

kholkar uss nipple ko muh mein bhar

mein ghoom rahe the…………..main kisi bhooke

liya……………” uske dono haath ab mere baalo

bachhe ki tarah uski choochiyon par maano toot sa

fir baari-baari dono ko choosne laga ………….shuru

pada …………………pehle ek ko , fir doosri ko aur

mein main sirf nipples ko hi muh mein daal kar

choos raha tha , fir maine apna muh poora khol diya
aur kas-kas kar choosna shuru kar diya , jaise aam
ka ras choos karnikaalraha hoon… … … … … w ho
ab dono haathon se mujhe apni taraf kheench rahi
thi… … …
kaha tha ………….maine apne dono haath peeche
Iss beech hum don one ek doosre se kuchh bhi nahi

se uski shirt mein ghusa diye the aur uski nangi

peeth par haath fer raha tha ……………..uski

nitambo par aa gaye the ……….. aur main eek haath

choochiyon ko chooste huye m ere haath ab uske

ko peeche se uski pant mein daalne ki koshish

ki… … … … …

ho………….woh turant hi peeche ko hat

Mere haath daalte hi mano who hosh mein aa gayi

aur nipple mere mooh se nikal gaya ………….

gayi…………mera haath pant se baahar aa gaya
“ Ab aur nahi ………………………Baaji aane hi

……………….
waali hongi “ who ukhdi huyee sanso ke saath boli

Meri haalat aisi thi jaise bachhe ke haath se uska

priya khilona chheen liya gaya ho……………par
main uski haalat bhi samajh raha tha………who
bhi yeh khel aage khelne chah rahi thi par dar bhi
tha Hina ke aa jaane ka …

Main aage bada …………..uske chehre ko thaam

chhod diya…………..
kar ek kiss uske hontho par kar diya aur fir uss ko

Usne kucch seconds ke liye meri aankhon mein

dekha ……………fir peeche ko mudi aur box mein
se ek shirt nikaal kar meri taraf bada
di……….maine uske haath se shirt li aur dheere-
dheere pahan li ………….mere shirt pehante hi who

gayi………..maine bhi usko kas ke apni baahon

fir tezi se aage aayi aur mere gale se lipat

mein daboch liya…………………kuch der tak hum

kiya …………….peeche muda…….aur ghar se

dono aise hi lipte rahe…………fir maine use alag

baahar ki taraf chal diya

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gaya…………….jo kuchh abhi hua uske baad

Main waapas aakar kamre mein baith

apne par kaboo karma bahut mushkil kaam tha

par mere liye iss se jyada important tha jald se jald
apne watan waapas lautna aur usme Hina meri
help kar sakti thi ………main nahi chaahta tha ki
kisi bhi wajah se woh mujhse naraaz ho …………
ke baad hi Hina waapas aa gayi thi ……………….
Shaazia ka dar sahi saabit hua………..10 minute

Main agle 2 ghante tak wahin kamre mein akele hi

baitha raha…………Hina aakar mera khana
wahin de gayi thi aur humaare beech koi khaas
baat nahi huyee…………..

se baahar nikla…………..dekha, Shaazia ghar se

Dopahar mein kareem 3 baje ke ass-paas mein fir

baahar nikal rahi thi ………..apni traditional dress

mein ….sar par scarf tha aur haathon mein ek
chatri ….woh baahar nikli aur fir seedhi gaanv ki
taraf chali gayi…main usko peechhe se tab tak
dekhta raha jab tak woh dikhayi deti rahi…….fir
main waapas kamre mein aakar baith
gaya… … … …
awaaz aayi……….maine fir jhaank kar
Kareeb 15 minute baad hi mujhe motorcycle ki

dekha………….Hasan aaya tha…………..usne

darwaaze par nock kiya……ek minute baad hi

wahin par khade baatein karte rahe ………….fir

Hina baahar aayi ……………dono kuchh der tak

ghar ke andar chale gaye……..jiss ek chhez par

ka haath ………….andar jaate samay usne apna

maine bahut gaur se dhyaan diya woh tha Hasan

haath Hina ki kamar par rakha hua tha aur andar

gaya tha………….yeh ek unusual baat thi jisne

dakhil hote-hote woh uski gaand (hips) par aa

mujhe hairaan kar diya tha……

Main jaan-ne ko baichein ho utha ki andar kya ho

raha hai…………ek minute baad ho main bhi uth
kar baahar aa gaya… … … … ab baahar ka
mausam bigadne laga tha………..baadal chhaa
gaye the aur andhera sa hone laga tha…….

side main pahunch gaya …………..pehle kamre

Main tezi ke saath , par dabe paanv ghar ke right

….doosra kamra bhi khaali tha………….uske baad

mein maine jhank kar dekha …wahan koi nahi tha

veranda tha aur bath room ………fir poora

gaya ………..main deewar se bilkul sat kar aur sar

chakkar laga kar main ghar ke left side mein aa

ko jhukaate huye chal raha tha………jisse ki agar

koi anadar se dekhe to mujhe na dekh paaye , aur
andar jhhankne ke liye bhi main window par lage

tha………….
boards mein bane holes ko use kar raha
left side mein bane kamre ki window lagbhag poori

ke hi sahi salaamat they……….maine neeche lage

tarah board se covered thi, keval do sheeshe oopar

board ko dekha………..wahan 2-3 chhote chhote

holes dikhaayi pade ……main unme se ek par apni
aankh laga di aur andar ka nazaara dekhne
laga… … … … …

tha……………….Hina palang par leti huyee thi ,

Andar ka scene meri ummeed ke hi anusaar

ki dress (kurte) ke buttons khule huye the aur usme

aur Hasan uske paas hi baitha hua tha…………Hina

se ek choochi baahar nikali huyee thi jiss ko iss

samay Hasan choos raha tha……… uska andaaj
bilkul chhote bachche jaisa tha jisko bahut der ke
baad doodh mila ho ………usne choochi ko apne

mein laga hua tha………….woh bina saans liye

haath main pakra hua tha aur buri tarah se choosne
awaaz nikal rahi thi…………………..
apne kaam mein juta hua tha issliye uski naak se

Ab Hasan ne Hina ki doosri choochi ko bhi baahar

nikaal liya tha aur fir baari-baari se dono par toot

ghoom raha tha…………….Uska chehra iss samay

pada…………..Hina ka haath uss ke baalo mein

doosri taraf tha issliye mujhe nazar nahi aa raha tha

par uss ke muh se bhi halki halki siskaariyan nikal
rahithi… … … … … … …

kareeb 10 minute Hasan chusaayi mein laga

raha………….fir woh tezi ke saath utha……….aur
Hina ka kurta utha kar uski kamar se oopar kar
diya…….usne Hina ki salwaar ka nada khola aur fir
ek hi jhatke mein usko uske pairo se alag kar
diya………….ab Hina neeche se poori tarah nangi
palang par leti huyee thi……………….ussne apne

gayi………..ab uska chehra chhat ki taraf

aap ko thoda sa adjust kiya aur seedhi hokar let

tha………….uske chahre par uttezna ke bhaav saaf

dikhayi pad rahe the…
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Hasan palang se uth kar khara hua aur apni pant

……………….uss ko dekhkar ek baar to meri

nikaal di…………aur fir underwear bhi

hansi si chhootne ko huyee jise maine ba -mushkil

shareer…………….Jaise ki maine pehle bataya

kaboo mein kiya…………… wajah thi uska

tha…………….jitna bada uska shareer tha uske

tha Hasan ek lamba –chauda aadmi

anupaat mein uska hathiyar (lund) kuchh bhi nahi

mushkil se 4-4.5 inch hi hoga…………………

tha…………poori taraf khade hone ke baad bhi
Underwear uttarne ke baad usne ek baar Hina ki
taraf dekha………..uski nigaah bhi Hasan ke lund
par hi thi …………Hasan ne apne hathiyaar ko
haath mein lekar jaise ek baar check kiya fir haath
mein pakde-pakde hi palang par chadh
gaya………….

thoda sa oopar utha liya………..uski aankhon

Hina ne apni tango ko poora khol diya aur sar ko

mein ek chamak si nazar aa rahi thi ………..baar

koshish kar rahi thi ………….. maine gaur kiya ki

baar apne honthon ko jeebh se tar karne ki

uski tango ke beeck ka hissa , uski choot, bilkul

clean shaved thi
gaya………….usne ek takiya Hina ki gaand ke
Hasan uski tango ke beech mein aakar baith

neeche laga diya………….fir apne ghutno par ho

gaya……………lund ko Hina ki choot par lagaya

gaya…………….usne Hina ki ek choochi ko muh

aur fir uske oopar jhukta chala

mein bhar liya aur ek jor ka jhatka apni kamar ko

diya……

“ Ahhhhh………….” Ek halki si siskaari Hina ke

chuka tha…………..
muh se nikli , Lund poora uski choot mein sama
Hina ne apne dono haath Hasan ki gaand par

lagi……………..Hasan ne bhi jaldi jaldi dhakke

jama diya aur usko apni taraf kheenchne

lagane shuru kar diye…..uski harkato se saaf

maloom pad raha tha ki woh iss khel mein bilkul
anaritha… … … … … … …

tha……………..15-20 dhakke lagan eke baad hi

Aur fir wahi hua jiska mujhe andesha

hasan fir se apne ghutno par baith gaya………usne

rakh liya………….fir usne Hina ki gaand ke neeche

Hina ki ek taang ko seedha kiya aur apne kandhe par

se dhakke lagaane laga……………….har dhakke ke

haath laga kar usko thoda sa oppar kiya aur jor-jor

awwaz nikal rahi thi………..achanak Hasan ke muh

saath Hina ke muh se “ Ahhh , Ohhhhh , uyeee “ ki

se bahut jor ki awaaz nikli ………………usne turant

hi apna lund Hina ki choot se baahar kheencha aur
fir ek aur awaaz muh se nikaali aur uske lund se
paani chhoot gaya ..........................usne saara paani
Hina ke pet aur jaangho par hi nikaal

bagal mein ulta hi ludak gaya…….

diya………….aur Hina ke oopar se hat kar, uski

…………………..Hina ke chehre ko dekh kar saaf

Hina ne uski taraf gardan ghuma kar dekha

bajaaye aur badh gayi thi……………..woh kuchh

maloom pad raha tha ki uski pyas kam hone ki

gayi…………….Khade hokar usne apna kurta bhi

seconds usko dekhti rahi aur fir bistar se uth

sar ke oopar se nikaal diya………..ab woh bilkul

nangi uss kamre mein , meri nazron ke theek
saamne khadi thi ……………………ek baar usne

band kiye ulta leta hua tha………..aur fir palat kar

fir Hasan ki taraf dekha jo iss samay aankhen

kamre se baahr nikal gayi………..main bhi wahan

waapas aa gaya .....
se palta aur lagbhag daudta hua apne kamre mein

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Main apne kamre mein waapas baitha hua aaj

soch raha tha ki ………..ek taraf Shaazia thi , pyar

saare din bhar mein huyee ghatnaao ke bare mein

ki talash mein ……….. uski masoomiyat mein

mujhe koi shaque nahi tha………..doosri taraf
Hina thi , uska ek roop jo maine pehle dekha tha
woh ek halaat ki maari ladki ka tha…………jisne
apna sab kuchh kho diya tha aur fir bhi duniya ka
ba -khoobi saamna kar rahi thi………doosra roop
jo maine aaj dekha woh hawas ke maari ek aurat

liye ek adad mard ki jaroorat hai…………..

ka tha………jisko apne jism ki pyas bujhane ke
Jo bhi kuchh aa subah se ho raha tha …ya…jo bhi

ajeeb uttezna si chhayi huyee thi…….ek lava sa

maine dekha……us-se mere saare vajood par ek

tha jo footne ko tayyar tha……………

Kuchh hi der baad Hasan ghar se baahar nikla,

gaya…………kareeb 15 minute baad hi Shaazia

apni motorcycle start ki aur wahan se chala

bhi waapas aa gayi……….iska matlab inn dono ko

thi…………….mere liye yeh sab bada interesting

maloom tha ki Shaazia kab waapas aane waali

hota ja raha tha…..

aayi…………..main leta hua aaram kar raha

Kareeb 4.30 baje ke aas-paas Hina mere paas
gaya……..
tha…………uske aane ki aahat par main baith

feeki si muskurahat thi…..

“ Kaise haal hain aapke….? “ uske chehre par wahi

ki koshish ki ……….
Maine bhi sirf muskurahat se hi usko jawaab dene

hai tumhe 2-3 alag aalg tareeko par kaam karna

“Maine aaj bahut der tak socha………..mujhe lagta

padega ……….jis-se tum yahan se jaldi se baahar

nikal sako …………” who mere saamne baithti
huyee boli

“ Jaise ki ……? “
ka hai………..jisme kaafi khatra hai ………..doosra
“ ek tareeka to nadi ke raaste sarhad ko paar karne

tareeka hai ki tum kisi gaadi mein chip kar sadak ke

raaste sarhad paar karne ki koshish karo ………..”
woh lagataar mere chehre ki taraf dekhte huye
boli…

huye bola ..
“ aur iss mein bhi kaafi khatra hai ? “ main hanste

“ Haan ……hai to ………..aur ek teesra raasta bhi

hai ……” who kuchh ruk kar boli

“ woh kya ??” maine utsukta se poochha….

samaan lekar Hindustan jaati hain ………..jaise ki
“ Daikho …………..yahan se kaafi saari gaadiyan ,

Seb, meva (apples, dryfruits) vagairah …………jo

log un gaadiyon mein jaate hain unko permit milta
hai aane aur jaane ka………main koshish karti hoon

sake …….fir main tumhaare liye kisi gaadi ka

ki tumhaare photo laga hua koi permit mujhe mil

intejam kar doongi………tumhe driving to aati hai

na ? “ woh mere chehre par dekhte huye , muskurate
huye boli

“ Madam , aap bhool rahi hain main plain bhi uda

sakta hoon , gaadi kya cheej hai ………………

arrangement kar paayengi ……..?”

waise aapko ummeed hai ki aap permit ka
“ koshish karke dekhti hoon ………………..shaayad
Hasan meri kuchh madad kar sake …… “ woh
neeche ki taraf dekhte huye boli

Hasan ka jikra aate hi meri aankhon ke saamne

gaya………………….maine fir ke baar Hina ko

do-pahar waala manzar aa

se………….uske kapdo ke neeche uske nange jism

dekha………..iss baar kuchh juda andaaz

ki kalpana karte hi mere jism ka saara khoon fir ek

disha mein daudne laga……….

“ Kya hua ? kya sochne lage ? “ woh meri aankhon

mein dekhti huyee boli

meri kitni parvaah hai…….iss anjaane desh mein ek

“ Kuchh nahi ………….soch raha hoon ki aapko
aap hi hain jo kuchh apni si hain .” main bhi uski
nazro se nazre milata hua bola…………

kuchh seconds tak hum dono ek doosre ki aankhon

mein dekhte rahe ………fir ek dum se woh uth kadi
huyee ……aur boli “ ek ghante baad main gaanv
mein jaaoongi …………tum bhi mere saath
chalna………dekhna agar tumhe koi aur tareeka
nazar aaye…yahan se baahar nikalne ka “

keh karusne ek baarfirm eriaankhon m ein

……….meri nigaahon ne uska tab tak peechha kiya

dekha……..aur tezi ke saath baahar nikal gayi

jab tak woh apne ghar ke andar nahi chali gayi

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gayi…………….woh ek typical kashmiri dress

Theek 1 ghante baad hi Hina fir waapas aa

mein thi………lamba sa labada numa band gale

scarf……………….
ka Kurta, salwaar , shawl aur sar par ek

“ Ab hum dono gaanv mein challenge………. Par

humko kuchh baaton ka dhyan rakhna padega “ woh
mere paas aakar boli

“ Jaise ki ? “
aage aur tum kuchh peechhe ……..agar koi dekhe to
“ Hum dono saath-saath nahi jaayenge…….main

use yeh na mehsoos ho ke hum dono saath mein

hain … theek hai ?” who meri aankhon mein dekhti
huyee mano mujhe samjha rahi thi

hila diya……….
m aine kisichhote bachche kitarah haan m ein sar

…….jis-se ki agar tumhe akele aana pade to tum

“ Ab main tumhe poora rasta samjha deti hoon

khud ghar tak waapas aa sako “ keh kar who jameen

banane lagi……….usne poore gaanv ka, apne

par baith gayi aur mitti mein ek dandi se naksha

samjha diya…………main 1-2 minute tak uss

baagan ka aur highway ka naksha bana kar mujhe
nakshe ko dekhta raha ……….jab mujhe laga ki ab
saare raaste main samajh chukka hoon , main uth
khada ho gaya…………

woh bhi khadi ho gayi …………ek baar meri taraf

gayi………..1 minute baad hi woh fir waapas aa

dekha aur palat kar ghar ke andar chali

gayi…….uske haath mein 2 chhate (umbrella)

they………..usne ek meri taraf bhadha

thandak badh gayi thi………..shaayad fir se baarish

diya……….maine gaur kiya ki mausam mein kuchh

hone w aalithee… … … …

usne ek chhate ko haath mein pakda aur fir tezi ke

saath gaanv ki taraf jaane waali pagdandi par chal
di………….aur main bhi uss-se kareeb 100 meter ka
distance rakhte hue uske peechhe chal
diya……………
jaise ki maine pehle bataya tha……ghar se right side

thi………..woh ek pahad ke saath –saath chalti thee

mein ek pagdandi gaanv ki taraf jaati

aur fir kareeb 150 meter aage jaakar, pahad ke saath

saath right side mein ghoom jaati
thi… … … … … … …

Uss pagdandi par aage chalkar kareeb 100 meter ke

baad pehla ghar padta tha …..yani Hina ke ghar se
agla ghar kareeb 250 meter door tha…….uske 50
meter baad se , koi har 15-20 meter ki distance par
dono taraf 10-12 ghar bane hue they……. Uske baad
ek aur lamba space aur fir gaanv ka main chauraha
aa jaata tha …………yahan tal ki road kachchi thi ,
uske baad chaurahe se 3 taraf pakki roads jaati
thi…………pakki matlab different types ki
………….kahin par patthar se bani huyee natural
road aur kahin banayee hue……………

Chaurahe se leftside m ein ek raasta gaya tha jo ki

Hina ke bataaye anusaar aage jaakar u turns leta
hua neeche utarata tha aur doosre gaanv tak jaata tha
, iss raaste par kuchh shops bani huyee thia aur

…………..right side waala raasta aage jaakar band

yahi iss gaanv ka main bazaar bhi tha

ho jaata tha , iss raaste par kuchh makaan bane

aage jaata tha , koi 500 meter aage jaakar ek road

huye the …………saamne waala raasta seedha

left side mein oopar ko ghoom jaati thi aur fir 3

raasta aage jaakar highway se milta tha……..

baar U turn lekar seedhi chali jaati thi , yahi
neeche waali road kareeb 300 aage jaakar pahar par
band ho jaati thi…………iske right side mein ek

baag bane huye they………..kareeb 5-6 alag alag

pahari maidaan sa bana hua tha aur wahan seb ke

they……….inme se hi ek baag Hina ka bhi

baag they jo lakdi ki baad se separate kiye gaye

tha…………..

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Iss sadak par wahan tak , jahan se ek road oopar
highway ki taraf jaati thi …main Hina ke peechhe –
peechhe hi aaya aur fir woh apne baag ki taraf chali
gayi aur main oopar ke raaste par chal

tak pahunch gaya ………..

diya………..halke-halke chalte hua main highway
Yeh ek 2 lane road thi aur jaisa ki Hina ne bataya

………….main kareeb 15 minute tak wahan khada

tha ki yahi raasta Hindustan tak jaata tha

raha aur koi 5-6 gaadiyan mere saamne se nikli

………..mostly trucks they jo samaan lekar jaa rahe
they………….

Fir main waapas neeche ki taraf chal

bahut halka sa dard tha ………………….dheeme

diya…………..mere pair ki chot ab sahi thi aur

dheeme chalta hua main wahan tak aa gaya jahan

se ek raasta baagh ki taraf jaata tha ……maine

nirnay kiya ……..

kuchh der wahin ruk kar Hina ka wait karne ka
………..aisa lag raha tha ki baarish kisi bhi samay
Mausam achaanak kharaab hone laga tha

shuru ho jaayegi ……….maine ek baar fir baagh ki

taraf nigaah daali………..andhera ho chukka tha

se kuchh hatkar ………..oopar ki taraf khade

par fir bhi mujhe saaf najar aaya ki 2 saaye sadak

they…………aasmaan mein bijli chamkne lag thi

naha jaata tha …………..

aur beech beech mein poora ilaaka roshni mein

ek baar fir se bijli chamki aur main uss taraf hi

dekha ………..iss baar mujhe bilkul saaf dhikaayi
pada …..unn 2 logo mein se ek Hina thi aur doosra
koi aadmi tha …………aadmi ne Hina ka ek haath

kar rahi thi …………….1-2 seconds tak maine

pakda hua tha aur Hina uss se chhootne ki koshish

kuchh socha fir tezi ke saath uss taraf hi chal

diya……..unn tak pahunchte hue to main lagbhag
daudne hi laga tha……………..

Wahan ka scene bada hi ajeeb tha…………..ab

Hina jameen par giri padi thi…..aur who aadmi
uss ke oopar leta hua tha………usne Hina ke
kurte ke buttons shaayad tod daale they aur uski ek

koshish kar raha tha…………..usska doosra haath

chhati ko baahar nikaal kar haath se daabane ki

tha………….Hina lagbhag chillate huye uss ki

Hina ke pat par kuchh dhoondh sa raha

thi……………maine 2-3 seconds tak unn dono ko

giraftse chhootne kikoshish kar rahi

dekha aur fir tezi ke saath uss aadmi ke peechhe

pahunch gaya …………maine uski gardan mein

kheencha …………….ek hi jhatke mein woh Hina

apni ek baahn lapeti aur fir poori takat se ussko
tha…………………..
se alag hokar jameen par pada hua

bolta hua tezi ke saath uth khada hua………..woh

Girte hi uss ne mujhe ek baar dekha aur fir kuchh

kareeb 40 ek saal ka aadmi tha , kad mein mujh se

2 2 inch lam ba aur bhaarishareer
……………………….usne ek baar fie gusse se
mujhe dekha aur kuchh bola ……………uski

thi…………………..fir woh kuchh kehta hua aage

language meri samajh se baahar

badha aur mujhe girebaan se pakad

liya…………………Hina jo abtak door khadi thi ,
ek dum se aage badhi aur uss aadmi se kuchh
kaha… … … … … … … … … … … …
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“ Y ahan naya hai……………..” woh lagbhag

bola………..
gurrata hua sa, tuti-futi hindi mein mujh se

maine haan mein sar hila diya…….

“ Iss ladki ko jaanta hai ? “ woh mera girebaan chod

karbola… … … …

maine fir haan mein sar hila diya….

“ Kaun hai yeh teri ……?” woh baari baari se hum

dono ko dekhta hua bola……ab tak Hina mere
peeche aakar khadi ho gayi thi………..
“ mere rishtedaar hain yeh ……………..Murree se
Karachi se aaye hain “ meri jagah jawaab Hina ne hi
diya……………

“ achchaa !!............kya kaam karta hai Karachi mein

……………..
tu “ woh mera poora jaayja sa leta hua bola

“ kapde ka kaarobaar hai mera …………………par

ko gaur se dekhte hue bola …………..

aap yeh sab kyon pooch rahe ho “ mein uske chahre

“ Main yahan ki police chauki ka incharge

hoon…………mujhe shaque hai kit u sahi aadm

bola …….. fir aage badh kar mere dono haatho ko

nahi hai…” woh mere chehre par nare gadata hua

pakar kar oopar kiya aur meri talaashi lene laga

“ aur aap jo kaam iss ladki ke saath kaar rahe the
woh sahi aadmi karte hai …………” maine kaha jis
par woh chup hi raha ……………..
talashi ke baad usne meri ek baaju pakdi aur mujhe
ek taraf ko kheenchta hua sa bola “ chal , mere saath
chauki chal …………main tujhe batata hoon main
kaisa aadmi hoon “ keh kar woh dono haathon se
mujhe pakar kar kheenchne ki koshish karne
laga…………………

mujhe maloom tha ki ab mujhe kuchh na kuchh

…………….
karna hi padega warna meri pehchaan khul sakti hai

hansta hua sa bola ………….

“ Aur agar na chaloon to ??” main jaan boojh kar
“ Teri maa ki …………” usne gaali di aur apne

…………..main bhi tayyar tha aur maine apne

seedhe haath se mujh par hamla kiya

baayen (left) haath se uski kalaai pakad

li………………..fir main Hina se bola “ tum ghar
jaao , main abhi aata hoon “

Hina ne ek baar meri taraf dekha ………..uski

aankhon m ein m ere kiye ek fikra sithi… … … … fir
woh mudi aur tezi se waapas chal di

Uss aadmi ne tab tak mere oopar doosra hamal

karne ki koshish ki …………iss baar apni laat se ,
main thoda sa side mein hat kar uske waar ko bacha
gaya …………………….
Ab meri baari thi………….main usko koi mauka
den eke paksh mein nahi tha ………main uski
seedhi haath ki kalaai ko thaame-thaame apna
seedha haath uski gardan par jama diya aur fir usko

bada tha …………..ek do kadam peeche ko hat kar

peeche ki taraf dhakelne laga ….uska sirf shareer hi

……………….
woh ek jhatke ke saath jameen par gira gaya

Main tezi ke saath uss par

gaya ………. Aur uski gardan ko ek haath se

jhapta………………..main uske seene par baith

laga…………….woh mere neeche chat-pata raha

pakar kar poori taakat ke saath dabaane

saabit hua……………..2 minute baad hi uske

tha par meri taakat ke aage uska virodh bekaar hi

hatth -paanv hilne band ho gaye…………..

saans abhi chal rahi thi………….par uska Zinda
Maine uski naak par haath lagaya………….uski

…………..maine uski talaashi li………….ek purse

rehna mere liye jyada khatarnaak tha

aur ek pistol mujhe uski jeb se mila ……………

woh dono cheeje maine apni jeb ke hawaale kar di
………fir maine uske dono haath pakde aur usko

gaya…………….wahan sadak ke left side mein bani

ghaseetta hua sadak ke doosi taraf le

andhera hi nazar aa raha tha………….mujhe nahi

huyi khaai mein jhaank kar dekha par sirf

maloom tha ki woh khaai kitni gehri hai ….ya

hai……….maine ek baar fir idhar-udhar nigaah

uske neeche koi aur sadak to nahi

raha tha……….maine usko kandhe par uthaaya

daali……….door -door tak koi bhi nazar nahi aa

aur fir khaai mein dhakel diya…………………..

Baarish shuru ho gayithi… … … … … m erichhatri

aas-paas nigaah daudaayi……….fir bheegta hua

pata nahi kahan gir gayi thi………maine ek baar

hi tezi ke saath ghar ki taraf chal diya

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lagbhag bhaagta hua main ghar tak (Hina ke)

Baarish m ein bheegta hua aur aakhir m ein

pahunch gaya ……………….main seedha tabele

mein pahuncha aur fir ek deewar ke saath lag kar
baith gaya … … … …

2 minute baad hi Hina aur Shaazia dono wahan par

aa gayi………….lagta tha dono mera hi intezar kar
rahi thi…………dono ki aankhon mein sawaal aur

the………..
kuchh had tak pareshaani ke bhaav dikhayi de rahe
……………………..tum theek to ho na ? “ ek saath
“ Kya hua ?? kya kiya tumne uske saath ?

bahut saare sawaalo ki line si laga di Hina ne

………..jahan Hina ke chehre par pareshaani ke

maine kuchh seconds tak unke chehre ko dekha

bhaav they wahin Shaazia hamesha ki tarah apni

behan ke peeche ko chhip kar khadi thi aur uske

………………..
kandhe ke oopar se mujhe dekh rahi thi

aur main usko behosh kar ke aa gaya ……..” maine

“ kuchh khaas nahi ……………..thodi si ladai huyee

uske chehre par nazar jamaate huye jawaab diya “

woh tumko pehchanta to nahi tha na , Hina ? “
woh meri taraf dekh kar sar hilaate huye boli …..
“ Nahi ……………….shaayad nahi pehchanta “

main eek lambi si saans li aur fir deewar se peeth lag

li aur sar ko bhi deewar se tika diya………………

“ Tum bahut bheeg gaye ho………..kapde badal lo

………main abhi bhejti hoon “ keh kar Hina palti ,
Shaazia ko saath aane ka ishara kiya aur fir dono
w ahan se nikalgayi… … … … …

maine apni jeb mein haath daala aur uss aadmi se

ek Chinese 77B pistol thi……….. chhoti si par

chheeni huyee pistol aur wallet nikala…………woh

bahut badhiya hathiyar …………maine idhar udhar

dekha …………….tabele ki chhat (roof ) jo ki
ghaas-phoos se bani huyee thi………mujhe sahi
liye……….main tabele ke ek kone mein gaya
jagah lagi uss pistol ko chhipaane ke

chhipa di……………..
…………aur haath badha kar woh pistol oopar

maine uss wallet ko check kiya …………….kuchh

local currency , kuchh paper they ……….iske alawa
jo do sabse importance cheej thi - ek driving licence
aur ek police ka ID card tha …………uss aadmi ki

……………. Maine wallet ko apne bistar ke neeche

photo laga hua aur Shahid malik ke naam se

chhipa diya…………….

Tabhi Hina waapas aa gayi……………..uske

haath mein kapde they jo ussne meri taraf badha

kamre mein chala gaya………….jaldi se maine

diya ………..maine kapde usske haath se liye aur
liye………..woh ek kurta payjama tha
geele kapde nikaal kar uske diye huye kapde badal

……….hamesha ki tarah mere hi size ka par

kuchh tight…………………..

Usne geele kapde mere hathon se liye aur waapas

jaane lagi………….fir ruki aur palat kar boli “
shukriya Ajay ………………aaj agar tum na hote to
naa jaane kya ho jaata……” uskne nazre utha kar
meri taraf dekha……….maine uski aankhen pehli
baar geeli hoti huyee dekhi……..

hai……………..jo kuchh tum logo ne mere liye

Nahin ……………..shukriya ki koi baat nahi

uske aankhon mein dekhte huye kaha …….....

kiya , uske aage yeh kuchh bhi nahi hai “ maine
Who agle kuchh seconds khamosh rahi , fir ek
lambi si saans lete huye boli……” main kal savere
shahar jaa rahi hoon , koshish karti hoon ki kal hi
tumhaare liye Permit ka intezaam ho
jaaye……..tumhaare paas apni koi photo hai ? “

kamre mein waapas gaya………..bistar ke neeche

Maine haan mein sar hilaya………..fir apne

se apna kit-bag nikaala………..uske andar mera

thi…………..maine 2 photo laakar Hina ko de

wallet tha aur usme meri PP size photo

dee………………….

“ Agar ho sake to permit mein mera naam Shahid

……………….
Malik likhwa dena “ main Hina se bola
“ Koi khaas wazah ……….” Usne muskuraate huye
poochha …

“ Haan ………….iss naam li ID ka intezam shaayad

main kar sakoon “ maine bhi smile ke saath hi
jawaab diya ………….

Usne sar hilaya aur wahan se chali gayi ……….

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Main wapas apne bistar par aakar let
gaya………………aur aaj dinbhar mein huye

laga………….aaj ka din kaafi vyast tha , mere liye

ghatnakram ke baare m ein sochne

they……….ab aage jaane kya hone waala hai

bhi aur inn sabhi logo ke liye bhi jo mere saath
……………..iss hi soch mein tha ki fir se darwaaze

thi………….haath mein khaane ki thaali aur

par aahat huyee……………….yeh Shaazia

chehre par wahi pyaari si smile ke saath…………

rakh di aur khud bhi saamne baith gayi ……..

Who aage badhi aur khaane ki plate mere saamne

“ Khana khaa lijiye……” usne kaha

maine khana shuru kiya aur uss se poochha “ tum ne

kha liya ………? “

“ Abhi nahi …………aap khaa lijiye , fir hum bhi

kha lenge “
…………..tumhaare ghar ke andar ………..hum
“ aaj jo kuchh bhi hua ……………..din mein

dono ke beech…………..tum uss se naraaz to nahi

ho ? “
maine khaana khaate huye uss se poochha

usne ek baar nazre uthaa kar meri taraf dekha

li………….matlab saaf tha, jo hua uss mein uski

……………fir muskurate huye aankhen jhuka

razamandi thi aur usne bhi pyar ke uss khel ka maza

liya tha

bol padi ….. “ baaji kal subah shahar jaa rahi

main aage kuchh bolta………uss se pehle hi woh
hai………..unhone kaha hai ki main tumhe nadee ke
paas tak ghuma laoon …………..tum subah tayyar
rehna “

tayaar hoon ………….jahan chaahe le chalo .” main

“ main to hamesha tumhaare saath chalne ke liye

khaana khaate huye , usko dekh kar muskurate huye

bola ………………….

“ Achchha !!…………….kahan tak chal sakte ho

mere saath ? “

“ jahan tak tum kaho …………….chaaho to jindagi

bhar tumhare saath chal sakta hoon “ main khana
khatam kar liya tha, yeh baat maine aage ko jhuk kar
, uski aankhon mein dekhte huye kahi
neeche jhuka li ……..
usne ek baar meri aankhon mein dekha , fir nazre

rahi ………….usne ek baar fir meri taraf dekha aur

agle kuchh seconds hum dono ke beech khaamoshi

bartan samet kar uth khadi huyee

kar uski kalaai thaam li ………..uske haath ko

main bhi uske saath khada ho gaya aura age badh

pakad kar maine use apni taraf kheencha , woh bina

kisi virodh ke mere paas aa gayi …………main eek
haath ko uske gaal par fera aur fir usko sar ke

ke bilkul najdeek kar liya……………….hum dono

peechhe haath laga kar , uske chehre ko apne chahre

ki aankhen ek doosre mein jhaank rahi

thi………….main apne honth , uske hontho ke
bilkul paas le jaakar bola……

“ kya aaj raat ko mere paas aa sakti ho ? “

chal rahi thi ……….. “ koshish karoongi …………

usne apni aankhen jhuka li , uski saanse bahut tez

par aap mera intezar mat karna “ keh kar usne apne
haath ko mere haath se dheere se chhudaya aur
w ahan se chaligayi

main kuchh seconds khada raha………….fir baith

kar apne kit bag ko nikala aur khola……. Bag mein

waapas usse bag mein rakh diya…………..kuchh

se flask nikaal kar brandy ke do ghoonth bhare aur

der main sochta raha ki shaazia ka intezar karoon ya

nahi ………….fir bistar par let gaya aur jald hi
neend mein ddob gaya
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Mere jaagte huye to Shaazia nahi aayi par mere

gayi……………….aisa lag raha tha jaise mein aur

sote hi , sapne mein woh aa

woh baadlo par chal rahe ho ………..usne mera

haath pakda hua tha aur mujhe maano apne saath

thi…………..main uske saath saath hi chalta raha

kheenchte huye ek taraf le jaa rahi

……………….chalte-chalte bahut door pahunch

gaye hum donn, par humaare haath abhi bhi ek
doosre ko thaame huye they………

Fir Shaazia baith gayi ………mano chalte chalte

thak gayi ho , main bhi wahin uske paas baith gaya
………aur fir uski gode mein sar rakh kar let gaya
…………who pehle to mere baalo mein apni
ungliya firaati rahi aur fir jhuk kar mere hontho
par apne mulayam honth rakh diye…………maine

honth ko choosne laga………………..

uske gale mein apni ek baanh daal di aur fir uske

Meri aankh achanak khul gayi………………….

Itni sardi mein bhi mera sara shareer garm ho
raha tha…………kuchh seconds to mujhe yeh

main abhi dekh raha tha……….par koi to wajah

samajhne mein hi lag gaye ki yeh ek sapna tha jo

thi jiss se meri neend toot gayi thi …………..

………….ek baat jo mujhe ajeeb lagi who tha ghupp

Maine aankh kholi aur samajhne ki koshish ki
andhera……..tabele ke andar jalne waala bulb aaj

ki roshini bahut kam thi ……..kuchh seconds tak

off ho gaya tha , aur ghar ke baahar lage hue bulb

aankhen faad-faad kar dekhne ke baad mujhe woh

khada tha…………….maine jaldi se uthne ki sochi

saaya dikhaayi pada jo kamre ke darwaaje par

shareer par padi……………..uska body structure

, tabhi baahar jor se bijli kadki aur uss saaye ke

muskaan aa gayi………….woh ek ladki thi aur

meri samajh mein aa gaya aur mere hontho par

mujhe maloom tha ki woh Shaazia hi thi jo mere

kehne par mere paas aayi thi ………maine uthne

karne laga uski agli harkat ka………..main

ka khyaal apne dimaag se nikaal diya aur intezar

dekhna chahta tha ki woh apni taraf se kaise

shuruaatkartihai
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……….shaayad check kar rahi thi ki main soya hua
Kuchh der woh wahin darwaaze ke paas khadi rahi

hoon ya jaaga…………..fir dheere se aage

badhi……..jaise ki maine bataya, kamre mein
ghupp andhera tha aur bahut koshish karne ke

harkat ko dekh paa raha tha ……………..

baad bhi main badi mushkil se hi uske shareer ki

baith gayi ………….mera ek haath meri chaati par

Woh mere bistar ke paas aayi aur fir mere paas

rakha hua tha aur doosra ek taraf faila hua

tha……….woh mere faile hue haath ke paas baith
gayi…………main abhi tak usko nahi dekh paa
raha tha……par uski khushbu aur saanso ki
awaaz sun pa raha tha………………..

Usne ek haath mere maathe par rakha……….aur

dheere se sehlaya……fir apne haath ko woh mere
gaal par le gayi aur wahan par bhi usne dheere se
haath feraya…………..kayi din se maine shave nahi

huyee thi ……………..woh fir mere oopar jhuk gayi

ki thi is liye mere chehre par badi hard shave ugi

………… usne uss-hi jagah par 2-3 chhte chhte kiss

aur mere maathe par ek chota sa kiss kar diya

aur kiye fir uske honth meri band aankhon par aa

gaye … … …

Meri aankhon par kiss karne ke baad uske honth

dheere dheere neeche ko aaye aur mere daayein gaal
par se hote huye meri chin tak aaye aur fir mere
honthon par usne ek halki si kiss kar di
………..uski harkat se mujhe lag raha tha ki who
nahi chaahti ki meri neend khule ………………..

Usne mere kurte ke buttons ko ek ek kar ke khol

diya aur fir apna ek haath mere kurte ke andar daal
diya……………..fir mujhe ehsaas hua ki who mere
faile huye haath par sar rakh kar let gayi hai aur
meri chhati par chalne laga tha ……….woh dheere –
uska ek haath jo abhi mere kurte ke andar hi tha ,

thi……………….
dheere meri poori chhato par haath fira rahi

rahi…………….iss beech usne apna sar mere haath

A gle kuchh m inutes tak w oh aise hileti

ek taang bhi meri kamar par rakh di thi………..mere

se hata kar meri chhati par hi rakh diya tha aur uski

tha ………..uske shareer se ek alag hi khushbu aa

poore shaheer mein khoon ka ubaal badhta jaa raha

mehak………………..main apne aap ko control

rahi thi ……………ek madhosh kar dene waali

kiye huye uske agle kadam ka intezar kar raha tha

………………
Fir acahnak woh mere se alag huyee…………
mujhe uske khade hone ki aahat aayi aur fir

rahi………..main abhi tak nahi samajh pa raha

kuchh der tak kapdo ki sar -sarahat hoti

……..
tha ki woh kis had tak mere paas aana chahti hai

Usne mere pairo ke oopar se kambal kp hataya aur

fir mere paanv ke panje par apna haath
firaya………….fir mujhe uske honth apne pairo par
mehsoos huye…………..woh dheere dheere mere
pairo ko choom rahi thi …………..kuchh der aise hi
choomne ke baad, woh thoda aage badhi aur uske
honth mere paanv se hote huye, mere ghutno ki taraf
badhne lage………….payjama pehna hone ke
baavjood uske hontho ki garmahat mujhe apne
shareer par mehsoos ho rahi thi……………
Uske honth ghutno ko paar karte huye meri jaangho
par aa gaye ………….wahan aakar kuchh seconds
ke liye woh ruk gayi , shaayad aage badhne ki
himmat juta rahi thi……………. Fir achanak hi
usne apna haath aage badhaya aur meri jaanghon ke
beech le jaakar ruk gayi…………..mere shareer ka
saara khoon jo uss hi taraf daud raha tha , aur tez
raftaar se daudne laga tha …………………

Usne ek baar haath fira kar mere Lund ko mehsoos

kiya aur fir apna haath sarkaate huye mere pet par le
gayi …………………..ab woh khud meri tango par
baithi huyee thi……………mere pat par tatol kar
usne payjaame ka naada talasha aur fir dheere se
usko khol diya ………….mere liye yeh ek bada
aashcharya tha , jo ladki subah mere chhoone matra
se kaanp rahi thi , ab mere lund ko pakadne ko
tayyar thi………….aur agle hi pal usne mere
…………….mere leta hone ki wajah se woh neech
payjaame ko saamne se neeche ko sarka diya

jaakar ruk gaya , par itna neeche to ho hi gaya tha ki

……….baahar aakar seedha khada ho gaya

mera lund , jo ab apne charam par tha

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Woh shaayad ab samajh chuki thi ki main so nahi

lund par rakh diya……………..paseene se bheeg

raha hoon , usne haath badhaya aur seedha mere

apne haath mein pakad liya…………2-3 baar usne

chuke haathon se usne pehle usko sehlaya, fir

lund par oopar se neeche tak sehlaya aur , aur fir

jhuk kar lund ki jad mein ek kiss kar
diya……………usne lund ko pakad kar apne gaal
par lagay aur hontho ko uss par oopar se neeche ki

thi ki woh kitni pyasi hai…………….

taraffiraane lagi… … … … uskiharkate bata rahi

thi………..main utth kar baith gya aur uske baalon

Ab meri bardhasht ki seema paar ho chuki

mein haath firane laga …………..woh lagataar mere

lund ko aur uske aas-paas meri jaangoh par choome
ja rahi thi………………maine uske chehre ko haath
se pakad kar oopar kiya aur woh apne aap hi aage ko
badh kar meri god mein aa gayi………………aur

mein apna muh chhipa liya ……………………..

mere gale mein dono baahein daal kar meri gardan
Maine uskei poori peeth par haath feraya aur

se panv tak bilkul nangi thi ………….uska shareer

neeche uski gaand tak le gaya……………woh sar

ajeeb tarah se kaanp raha tha……….baahar

baarish ho rahi thi , maloom nahi yeh uski wajah

kaaran …………jo bhi ho ………..maine usko

se tha ya uttezna ki charam seema par hone ke

apni baahon mein kas ke bhar liya aur fir dono

haathon ko uske saare shahree par firaan laga
……………main samajh nahi pa rah tha ki kahan
se shuru karoon… … … … m era haath kabhiuski
peeth par daudta , kabhi uski gaand par sehlata

leta ……………………….
aur fir kabhi aage aakar uske mamme ho pakad

Jo kuchh bhi aaj din bhar mein hua tha , uske

lena chahta tha …………..maine usko apni

baad main bhi jald se jald usko poori tarah se paa
baahon mein uthaya aur fir dheere se bistar par leta
diya …………….uss se alag hoka r main khada hua

utter diye…………….baahar baarish ab bahut tez

aur fir bijli jaisi tezi ke saath apne dono kapde

hoti jaa rahi thi aur andar hum dono ke shareer ki

aag bhi… … … … … … … …

Main uske pairo ke paas baith gaya aur wahi sab

kar rahi thi ……………..mere honth uske paanv

dohraane laga jo kuchh der pehle who mere saath

par kiss karte huye aage badhe , uski pindliyon par

kuchh der ruke , fir uske ghutno par se hote huye ,

……….uska ek haath ab neeche aakar mere

uski jaanghon ke andar ki taraf chal diya

baalon mein ghoom raha tha …..mere honth uski

jaanghon par kuchh der harkat karte rahe aur fir
apni manzil ki taraf badh gaye …………………
…………..bilkul clean shaved thi……..baal ka
Maine haath badha kar uski choot ko sehlaya

naam -o-nishaan bhinahitha uskichoot

mehsoos ho gaya tha ki woh kitni pyasi thi…….ek

par………….ek baar haath firaane par hi mujhe

uski jaanghon par aa gaya tha…………. Main

baar chhoone maatra se hi , uska paani nikal kar

gaya………..wahan main agle ek minute tak

apne honthon ko uski choot par le

choomta raha………….uski choot ke dono honthon

ko ungliyon se alag kiya aur fir apni ek ungli uske
andar sarka di ……………uska shareer ek dum se

aur fir 2-3 jhatke khaa kar uska shareer shant ho

kaanp gaya …………uski gaand oopar ko uth gayi

gaya ………………..

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Mere honth ab aage badh gaye tha …………uski
naabhi par se hota hue mere honth uski chhati par

muh mein bhar liya ………………..mujhe maloom

pahunche aur fir uski ek choochi ko maine apne

…………….ek choochi ko maine apne haath mein

tha ki nazakat se uski pyas nahi bujh sakhti

bhar liya aur doosri ko choosna shuru kar diya

………..uske muh se “ sii……….si….” ki awaaz
nikalne lagi thi………….usne apni tango ko faila
diya tha aur main uss hi position main uski
jaanghon ke beech mein aa chukka tha
………………agle 5 minute tak main be-rehmi se
uski choochiyon ko nichodta raha ……………
kabhi ek ko aur kabhi doosri ko ……………uske
haath kabhi mere sar mein ghoom rahe they aur
kabhi meri peeth par …………..fir woh apna ek
haath neeche , hum dono ke beech mein le gayi
aur ungliyon se mere lund ko pakad liya
…………………

…………………….main thoda sa aur oopar

Main uska ishaara samajh gaya tha

khol diya ……………….mere honth ab uske seene

sarka , aur usne bhi apni jaanghon ko aur jyada

se hote huye , uski gardan par aaye aur fir wahan

se aage chalte huye uske honthon tak pahunch

……………….maine ek halki si kiss karne ke baad

gaye… … … … … uske honth khule huye the

uske neechle honth ko apne honthon mein bhar

liya aur choosna shuru kar diya………………
Neeche mera lund uski choot ke muhaane par
dastak de raha tha ……………hum dono ke

geela ho chukka tha ………….main apna haath

precum se uski jaanghon ka inner area poora

neeche le gaya , lund ko haath se pakda aur uski

………………..uske honth chooste huye maine
choot ke muhaane par bhida diya

apni kamar ko halka sa dhakka diya aur lund ka

supada uski choot mein chala
gaya… … … … … … …

“ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ………….” Ek lambi se

baar fir jor se kaanp utha …………….woh shaayad

siskaariuske m uh se nakliaurfiruska shareerek

fir se ek baar jhad gayi thi …………….usne kuchh

seconds lambi lambi saans li aur fir mere gale mein

bhida diya …………….neeche se uski kamar baar –

baahen daal kar mere honthon ko apne honthon se

baar oopar neeche ho rahi thi…………main jaanta

tha ki woh kya chah rahi hai par main abhi usko aur
tadfaane ke mood mein tha……………
4-5 baar usne apni kamar ko oopar uchkaya par
maine bhi har baar peeche ko hokar uski ichchha
poori nahi hone di……………………..mere lund ka
supada hi sirf uski choot ke andar tha , baaki main
abhi andar nahi jaane de raha tha …………usne
apne nakhoon meri peeth par gaad diye
…………………mere honth ko apne daanton mein

………..apne muh ko mere kaan ke paas lejaakar

daba liya aur lambi lambi saans lene lagi

boli ……………………..” jaldi se poora andar daal

do na “

main chaunk pada …………..baahar bijli kadki ,

who maano mere sar ke oopar hi gir padi ho
………………………usne bahut dheeme se kaha
tha par main jaanta tha ki yeh awaaz Shaazia ki nahi
Hina ki thi…………………………
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Badi hi ajeeb si condition thi meri …………..main

Hina ke oopar leta hua tha……….mera lund uski
chootke m uhaane m ein fansa hua tha aurab usne

tha……………….
apni ek taang ko meri kamar par lapet liya

Mere liye yeh stithi badi hi vikat thi……….agar

main Hina se alag hat-ta hoon to mujhe usko

bardhasht nahi kar paayegi ki main raat ke 3 baje

reason bhi batana padega aur woh shaayad yeh

uski behan ka intezar kar raha tha …………..aur

woh Shaazia samajh ke kar raha tha……………..

jo kuchh bhi abhi tak uss ke saath kar raha tha
Main Hina ko naraaz karne ka jokhim bhi nahi
uthaa sakta tha , kyon ki ek wahi thi jo iss samay
mujhe yahan se nikalane mein madad kar sakti
thi… … … m aine faisla kar liya … … … … …

Maine apna sar neeche jhukaya ……………..apne

honth Hina ke honth se jod diye …………aur ek
jordar jhatka apni kamar ko diya……………..

“ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………………………..”
jis cheez ki talash mein Hina thi , who usko mil gayi
…………….lund uski choot mein ghuss chukka tha
aur uske muh se anand bhari cheekh nikal gayi
………………..
…………….doosre haath se uske ek ubhaar ko
maine apna ek haath uske side mein jamaya

dabocha aur fir dheere dheree kamar ko jhatke dene

shuru kar diye……………mere liye yeh koi naya
khel nahi tha aur Hina bhi issko khelna bakhoobi
jaanti thi………….

“Offfffffffff………………..ahh………………
ohh………………….. “ har dhakke ke saath koi na
koi aawaz uske muh se nikal rahi thi ………..main
3 -4 dhakke jor se lagata tha aur fir kuchh dhakke
dheeme dheeme …………….main janta tha ki jitna
maza Hina ko milega , utne hi dil se woh mujhe
yahan se nikaalne ki koshish karegi
………………………………….
Ab maine apni ek kohni ko uske side mein tika diya
aur apne shareer ka sara bojh apni kohni par daal
diya………….mera muh uski ek choochi par jama
hua tha aur bachche ki taraf usko choose ja raha

baahar nikal kar aa jaata tha………….

tha…………Lund poora choot mein jaata tha aur fir

Usne apni taange hawa mein poori tarah se utha

li…………..ek haath ko apni ek jaangh par jama

mein koi takleef na ho ………………….iss position

diya ………….jis-se taang ko oopar kiye rakhne

mein uski choot poori tarah khul kar oopar ko aa

gayi thi aur lund badi sahuliyat se andar ja raha tha
…………….

gaya……….maine uski gaand ke neeche dono haath

Ab main thoda sa peeche hokar apne ghutno par ho
liya………….uski choot ka paani nikal kar uski
jamaye aur uska weight apne haathon par le

gaand tak aa gaya tha………uski gaand ko oopar

utha kar , maine lambe lambe stroke lagaane shuru
kar diya………maine lagbhag poora lund baahar
likaal raha tha aur fir poora hi andar waapas dhakel
deta tha………………………

Uske muh se lambi lambi cheekhe nikal rahi

thi……………………..honth baar baar mere
honthon par aa jaate the aur usnko choosne ki
koshish kar dete the ………………..beech beech
mein who apne gaal ko mere gaal aur gardan par
ragad rahi thi …………uske haath mere hips par
jame huye the aur woh poori taakat se mujhe apni
taraf khaanch rahi thi …………………….
Mujhe nahi maloom woh abhi tak kitni baar jhad
chuki thi ………par ab mere andar ka lava footne
ko tayyar tha … … … … … … … m ain fir se uske
oopar let gaya …………………uske neeche waale
honth ko main apne muh mein daba kar choosna
shuru kar diya aur dono haathon se uski gaand ko
daboch kar oopar ko utha liya …………….mera

fark nahi padta dikh raha tha…………..apni

saara weight ab uske oopar tha par iss se use koi

baahen mere gale mein daale , who bhi mere

honthon ko choosne m ein lagihuyee thi… … … …

neeche ho rahe they……………….

humaare shareer ab lay-badh tareeke se oopar

Hum dono ke muh se lagataar awwazein nikal rahi

thi ………………dono apni apni manzil ko chhone
ko be-karar they…………mere dhakko mein ab
tezi aane lagi ………….aur fir 10-15 dhakke bahut

chhod diya…………….ek lambi si

tez laga kar maine apna saara lava uske andar

mere shaheer ne jhatke khaane shuru kar diye..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh m ere m uh se nikli… … … … aur

Hina ka shareer bhi bilkul kamaan ki tarah mud

gaya tha …………usne apni jaanghen meri

lambi lambi saanse leti huyee ………….mere

jaanghon se bilkul sata rakhi thi ………….aur

baalo mein haath fer rahi thi……………..

Agle 1-2 minue maine uske oopar gir kar haanfta

raha ………….baahar mausam sard hone ke
baavjood hum dono paseene se nahaye huye
the…………fir main uske oopar se hata aur uski
bagal mein ulta hi let gaya …………usne karvat li
aur apni ek baahn meri path pat lapet li aur ek taang
utha kar meri kamar par ……………………
gaya …………..
Mujhe nahi maloom kab main neend mein chala

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se uthh kar chali gayi…………..jab meri neend

Mujhe nahi maloom pada ki kab Hina mere paas

khuli to baahar din nikal aaya tha……….main

kambal mein lipta hua tha aur mere kapde mere
mein time dekha , 7.00 baj rahe the………….
sirhaane rakhe huye they…………maine ghadee

laga………..main abhi kapde pehan kar hata hi

Main uthha aur jaldi se kapde pehan-ne

tha ki darwaaze par dastak huyee………..maine

thi………….chehre par evergreen smile aur haath

dekha wahaan Shaziaa khadi huyee

mein chay ka cup……..

“ Jaldi se chay pee lijiye , fir hum logo ko chalna hai

…” kehte huye usne chay ka cup meri taraf bada
diya…….
kamre se baahar nikal kar aa gaya …..baahar
Maine uske haath se cup liya aur chay peeta hua

baarish ab ruk chuki thi , mausam ab bhi waisa hi

bana hua tha … …

“ Hina kahan hai…….? .” maine uski taraf mud kar

poocha ….. woh ek deewar ke sahaare khadi hokar
meri hi taraf dekh rahi thi…

gayi………….shaayad do-pahar tak aa jaayengi .”

“ baaji to subah hi shahar chali

usne jawaab diya………..

“ akele hi gayi hain….? “ maine chay khatam karke ,
cup uske haath mein pakdaate huye poocha……
hain….” Keh kar woh cup lekar ghar ke andar chali
“ nahi …………Hasan ko saath mein le kar gayi

gayi… … …

raha……………..woh turant hi waaps laut kar aa

main kuchh seconds khada baahar dekhta

gayi…………..

hai………..mausam bhi kharaab hota jar aha hai

“ chaliye…!! Fir jaldi hi laut kar bhi aana

………” woh mere nazdeek aakar boli

5 haan m ein sarhilaya auruss se 5 m inute ka

aur toilet etc se nipat kar 5 minute mein hi waapas

time maanga , fir uss se pooch kar ghar mein gaya

aa gaya… … … …
woh baahar hi khadi mera intezar kar rahi thi………
meri taraf dekh kar ek baar fir se muskurayi aur fir
mujhe saath chalne ka ishaara kar ke tabele ke
peeche ki taraf chal di ………….wahin jahan se
main pehle din yahan aaya tha…

main badi duvidha ki stithi mein tha………kal tak

liye paagal ho raha tha………..aaj main uss se ek

jahan main Shaazia ke saath kuchh time bitaane ke

doori si bana ke rakhna chah raha tha………….jo

kal raat mere aur Hina ke beech hua, uske baad mera
aapna zameer yeh gavara nahi kar raha tha ki main

banana , usko dhoka dene ke samaan tha ………..

Shaazia ke nazdeek jaaon , uske saath koi bhi rishta
uss se 10 kadam ki doori banata hua peechhe-
Shaazia mere aage aage chal rahi thi , aur main

peechhe…………uski chaal aaj aur dino se kuchh

alag thi… … … kisichhotibachchikitarah alhar-
pan sat ha uski chaal mein……..maine gaur kiya
ki usne aaj kapde bhi kuchh alag tarah ke pehne
huye the………normal type ka salwaar suit aur us

hua……….
par ek jacket …………sar par scarf bandha

gaye……….yeh wahi nadee thi jis se hota hua main

Hum dono chalte chalte nadee tak aa

yahan tak pahuncha tha…………nadee par

pahunch kar woh ruk gayi aur peechhe mud kar

ishara kar rahi ho …..main jaldi jaldi kadam

dekhne lagi…….jaise mujhe apne saath aane ka

gaya……………….
badhata hua uske paas pahunch
“ Kya hume nadee ke paar jaana hai ? “ main nadee
ke taraf hi dekhta hua bola , uss mein aaj paani pahle
se thoda jyada hi tha , shaayad lagataar baarish ki
wajah se

“ nahi ……………….tum bas mere saath saath

chalte raho “ keh kar usne mera haath apne haath

mein chalne lagi………..main bhi uske saath hi

mein pakad liya aur fir nadee ke saath saath left side

chalne laga ………….

“ Kya hua ………….aaj bade chup chup se ho “

………..
chalte chalte usne meri taraf dekh kar poochha
“ kuchh khaas bahi ………… bas aaj tabiyat kuchh
theek nahi lag rahi hai “ main feeki si muskurahat ke
saath bola…………

“ Achchha chalo aaj main tumko kashmiri bhasha

(language) sikhaati hoon ……..” keh kar usne fir
meri taraf dekha aur muskura di

maine bhi muskurate huye haan mein sar hila diya

…………

agle 1/2 ghante tak hum dono haath pakde huye aise
hi dheere dheere chalte rahe ………………..hum

rahe the ……….. poore time Shaazia mujhe kuchh

nadee ke left side , kinaare ke saath saath chalte jaa
……………….usne yeh bhi sikhaya ki agar koi
common se kashmiri words sikhati rahi

raaste main poochhe ki hum dono kahan jaa rahe hai

to mujhe kashmiri language mein usko samjhana hai
ki – hum apne jaanwaro ko dhoondh rahe hain , jo
chalte chalte yahan taka aa pahunche
hain… … … … … …
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chukka tha………. Baat karte rehane se aur

Hum dono ko chalte chalte kareeb 1 ghanta ho

beet raha tha …………..

mausam achcha hone ki wazah se time jaldi-jaldi
Fir Shaazia ruk gayi …………..aur wahin par

gayi hoon ………..kuchh der aaram kar lein ? “

ghaas mein baith gayi………… “ main to thak

woh mera haath ab bhi pakde huye thi aur sar

utha kar meri taraf dekh rahi thi ………

hi neeche baith gaya ……….mera haath abhi tak

Maine haan mein sar hilaya aur fir uske nazdeek

uske haath m ein hitha… … …

Maine chaaro taraf dekha…………………hum

neeche dhalaan ki taraf jaa rahe the aur humaare
peeche bade bade ped khade huye the …………

abhi aa rahe the …………….pedo ke peeche hone

unke peeche kahin woh jagah thi jahan se hum log

ki wajah se kuchh bhi dikhaayi dena mushkil tha

…………par anumaan hi lagaya ja sakta tha ki
Shaazia ka ghar kaha npar tha ………

Humaare saamne ki taraf dhalaan hi tha

………………nadee jo abhi tak humaare saath saath
hi chal rahi thi …………. Aage jaakar left side
mein ghoom jaati thi aur fir kuchh aage jaaker ek
badi nadee mein mil rahi thi……. Kuchh jaanvar
bhi dikhaayi de rahe the……..jo paaltu hi they aur
gaas khaane iss taraf aa gaye they……………
kuchh doori par 2-3 puraane makaan bhi dikh
rahe they…………jo khandahar numa ho gaye
they…………shaayed wahan koi rehta nahi
tha………
Mausam fir bhaari hone laga tha …………. Maine

chehre ko hi dekh rahi thi……….nazre milte hi

Shaazia ki taraf dekha ……….woh ek tak mere

usne apni nigaahein jhuka li……….. aur fir

saamne nadi ki taraf dekhte huye boli
………………

uss badi nadee mein mil jaayegi ………….uss se

“ Woh dekho……………yeh nadee neeche jaakar

aage fir dono taraf fauz ke aadmi rehte hain

yahan se nikal paaoge …………..”

…………mujhe to nahi lagta ki tum unn se bach kar

yahan se dekhne par nadee ke aas paas koi harkat

nahi dikh rahi thi …………par nadee yahan se

……………..
kaafi door thi , isliye kuchh bhi kehna mushkil tha
“ tumhaari ichchha nahi kar rahi nahaane ki ? mera
dil to kar raha hai ki nadee mein naha loon ………”
woh meri taraf dekhte huye boli

“ to naha lo , kisne roka hai ….!! “ maine bhi

muskurate huye jawaab diya

hoon…….? “ woh shokhi ke saath muskuraate huye

“ achchha ji , tumhaare saamne kaise naha sakti

rahi thi ……………….

boli …………uske chahre par ek shararat si jhalak

hoon………..tum naha kar aa jao “ maine hi uss hi

“ Chalo main muh peechhe kar leta

shararati lehze mein kaha……………..

usne ek baar meri aankhon mein aankhen daal kar

koshish kar rahi ho ……………….fir dobara

dekha…………maano mere man ki baat padhne ki

muskura di ……

li ho…………..boonda-baandi shuru ho gayi

tabhi jaise kudrat ne bhi humaare man ki baat padh

“ chalo jaldi se aage chalo …………baarish tez ho

gayi to fans jaayenge “ keh kar woh jaldi se uth
khadi huyee aur fir uska haath pakad kar main bhi
khada ho gaya …………

……………..jo ek doori humaare beech subah se

hum dono tez tez kadmo se aage chalne lage

ban gayi thi , woh ab kam ho gayi thi………au eek

rahe they……………..
doosre ka haath pakde huye hum saath saath chal

shuru ho gayi…………..mausam bhi maano

thoda sa aage hi badhe honge ki achanak barf padni

romantic sa ho gaya tha ………….halke halke ruyee

bichhte ja rahe they ……………..

ke gole aasmaan se gir rahe they aur jameen par

kuchh hi minutes mein chaaro taraf safed chaadar si

bichh gayi thi……………chalte chalte hum dhalaan
ke aakhirisire taka aa gaye they… … … iske aage
pahad lagbhag seedha hokar neeche jar aha tha ,

………..nadee bhi uss ke saath saath hi neeche gir

saam ne kitarafek khaayee sibanihuyee thi

waali nadee mein mil rahi thi …………..kul milakar

rahi thi aur ek jharne mein badal kar fir neeche badi
asar dikhaane laga tha ……………. Barf ke saath
ek adbhut sa nazara tha , uss par mausam bhi apna

baarish ki boonde bhi gir rahi thi

Maine dekha Shaazia aur main , dono bilkul bheeg

chuke they… … … … …

………….aise to bheegte hi rahenge “ maine us ki

“ Chalo , kahin par kuchh der ke liye ruk jaate hain

taraf dekhte huye kaha

“ aao , wahan chalte hain ………..” usne ek taraf

kiya ……………….aur fir hum dono ek doosre ka

bane huye khandahar numa makaan ki taraf ishaara

haath pakde huye , bhaagte huye ….uss makaan tak

pahunch gaye.....
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Woh ek kaafi purana sa ghar tha…………..hum

they………..ghar ke aage ek shade sa pada hua

dono bhaagte huye wahan tak pahunche

lage………..fir maine andar jhaank kar dekha

tha, hum doo wahan par khade hokar saans lene

………….

Ground floor ki haalat bahut hi kharaab

thi……………jaanvar shaayad yahan aakar

gandagi faili huyee thi……….andar ghuste hi ek

aaram karte honge , iss wazah se yahan kaafi

seedi oopar ki taraf jaati thi…………..main seedi

ke raaste oopar gaya…………oopar do kamre
bane huye they , khidki aur darwaaze sab toote huye
they , farsh par ghaas-phoos padi huyee
thi………..shaayad yahan ke local log ya military

istemaal karte honge ………..

waale kabhi kabhi rukne ke liye iss jagah ka

saamne ek balcony bani huyee thi……. Main wahan

tak pahuncha ………..wahan se saamne ka
maidaan , uske aage nadee aur jharna dono dikhaayi
pad rahe they……… “agar iss jagah ki sahi tarah se
dekhbhaal ki jaaye to ek achchaa resort ban sakta
hai “ maine apne man mein socha

peechhe aahat huyee to dekha Shaazia bhi mere

aur baahar dekhne lagi……….

peechhe hi khadi thi …….fir who mere paas aa gayi
Hum dono baarish mein poori tarah se bheeg
chuke they…………jahan hum khade they ,

woh achchi hi lag rahi thi…….

wahan par kuchh boonde paani ki aa rahi thi , par

“ Pata nahi kab tak yeh barf-baari aur baarish hoti

rahegi……? “ Shaazia ne saamne maidaan mein
dekhte huye kaha

…………..dekh lo , tumhaare nahaane ki ichchha

“ tum to poori tarah se bheeg chuki ho

poori ho gayi” maine hanste huye kaha …………

jawaab mein who bhi muskura di ………….

Main andar gaya aur thodi si phoos ko ikattha kar

wahan par bichha kar baith gaya………..fir Shaazia

ke darwaaze ke paas le aaya………aur usko
kiya…………….woh mere shareer se bilkul sat kar
ko bhi apne paas baithne ka ishaara

baith gayi aur apne dono haathon ko seene par

baandh liya , shaayad thand ki wajah se

“ Tumko to maloom hi hoga ki baarish padne waali

hai , fir chhata saath kyon nahi laayi “ maine uski
taraf dekh kar sawaal kiya

“ mujhe paani mein bheegna achchha lagta hai…”

woh saamne padti barf ko dekhti huyee boli

“ aur agar beemar pad gayi to ? “

“ tum jo mere saath ho…………. Mujhe mere ghar
tak to pahuncha hi doge ? “ iss baar usne meri taraf ,
meri aankhon mein dekhte huye kaha ……….

Uski aankhon mein mujhe apna-pan aur be-tahasha

pyar nazar aa raha tha……..maine ek baanh ko
peeche uski kamar par lapeta, aur usko apne shareer
se chipka liya……………usne bhi apna sar mere
kandhe par tika diya, aur apne haath mein mera
doosra haath pakad liya………………

rahe………..bilkul chup-chap……..ek doosre ko

Agle kuchh minutes tak hum dono aise hi baithe

thaame huye ………….. fir kaafi der ke baad usne

hi chuppi ko toda….
“ Kya tum waakayi yahan se chale jaaoge ? “
maine uske chehre ki taraf dekha , ek anjana sa dar
aursaw aaluskiaankhon m ein tha

“ Tum kya chaahti ho , main yahan se nahi jaoon “

maine uske ek haath ko apne haath mein pakadte
huye kaha

usne neeche ki taraf dekhte huye kaha……. Nigaahe

“ nahi……….aur agar jaao to akele mat jaana…”

milaye bagair…

mari samajh mein uski baat ka matlab aa chukka tha

uthaya…..uski aankhon mein nami si dikhaayi de

………… maine ek haath se uske chehre ko oopar

rahi thi…….
…..par kya main bhi iss se pyar karta hoon , ya fir
“ Yeh ladki mujhe sach mein pyar karne lagi thi

rahi hai….. “ main man hi man soch raha tha aur

sirf iss ke jism ki pyas hai jo mujhe iske najdeek laa

usne apna chehra mere seene mein chhipa liya…

mujhse poori tarah chipak gayi….

saath hi ek baahn ko bhi meri kamar par lapet kar

baitha raha…….iss ladki ne sirf ek hi baat se

Main kuchh der tak aise hi usko chipkaye huye

mujhe andar tak hila diya tha……abhi tak mujhe

sirf apne nikalne ki fikr thi , par ab shaayad
Shaazia ko bhi saath le jaane ki tarkeeb nikalni
padegi…….

aayi ……..aur hum dono ko bhigo diya…hum dono

Achanak baarish ki ek tez bauchhar ,hawa ke saath

jo ek doosre se chipak kar baithe they, achanak alag

chhoot gayi…….
ho gaye aur fir anayas hi dono ki ek saath hi hansi

Main wahan se uth gaya aur Shaazia ko bhi haath

pakar kar utha liya …..humaare kapde jo itni der
mein kuchh had tak sookhne lage the, ek hi
bauchhar se fir se bheeg gaye they… … …

“ Tum wahan jaakar apne kapde sukha lo ……. “

maine doosre kamre ki taraf ishaara karte huye kaha

main kahin bhaag na jaoon ……….fir dheere se

usne mera haath aise chhoda jaise dar rahi ho ki

palat kar , uss doosre waale kamre mein chali gayi

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khidki par sookhne ke liye taang diya…………….
Maine apni jacket aur kurta utaar diya aur ek

gaya…..baahr ab baarish halki ho gayi thi , par

Main fir se balcony par aa kar khada ho

barf abhi bhi lagatar pad rahi thi ……maine ek

deewar se take laga li , aur fir sochne laga ……

Kal raat jo kuchh bhi Hina aur mere beech hua ,

asool ke khilaaf tha……. par mujhe yeh bhi

uske baad Shaazia se koi bhi waada karna , mere

dikhayi de raha tha ki woh sach mein mujh se pyar

karne lagi thi aur mere saath kisi bhi had tak jaane
ke liye tayyar thi………mujhe lag raha tha ki
shaayad mere dil mein bhi uske liye pyar ki
bhaavna jaag gayi hai …………
Main saari stithi par dobara se vichaar karne laga
………kya Hina iske liye tayyar ho jaayegi ki main
Shaazia ko apne saath le jaaon , lekin usko akele
yahan chhod kar jaana bhi shaayad sahi na rahe
……..par mujhe abhi bhi nahi maloom thi ki main
khud bhi kab tak yahan se nikal paoonga, ek baar
agar main waaps Hindustan pahunch gaya to fir
shaayad inn dono ko bhi yahan se nikaalne ka koi
intezam kar paoon ………….

Main abhi apni soch mein hi dooba hua tha ki

achanak mujhe apne peeche aahat mehsoos huyee

hone laga …………………..yeh ehsaas mere

aur fir apni peeth par ek thanda sa sparsh mehsoos

rongte khade kar dene waala tha , kyon ki main

………….mere peeche koi jism , bina kapdo ke

ba -khoobi iss ehsaas ko pehchanta tha
maujaad tha aur woh Shaazia ke alaawa koi aur
nahiho sakta tha …

se mujhe pakad liya tha …. Maine uske dono

Shaazia ne meri peeth se chipak kar , apni baahon

alag kar kar peeche ghoom gaya ……….mera

haathon ko pakda aur fir dheere se apne aap ko

bilkul nangi haalat mein thi………..apna kurta

anumaan bilkul sahi tha …woh kamar ke oopar

aur jacket who shaayad doosre kamre mein

sookhne ke liye daal aayi thi , aur uss hi haalat
mein mere paas aa gayi thi…

“ Kya hua ……………… ? “ maine ek haath ko uski

oopar utha kar uski aankhon mein dekha ….

kamar par lapeta aur doosre haath se uske chehre ko
Usne jawaab nahi diya , bas aage badhkar mere
seene mein muh chhipa liya aur apni baahon ko meri
peeth par kas diya ………

Ab uski nanagi chaatiyan mere seene mein dabi

huyee thi…ek current sa mere poore shareer mein
daudne laga tha ………na chahte huye bhi mere
dono haath uski peeth par pahunch gaye aur fir
dheere dheere uski peeth ko sehlana shuru kar diya
…

Hum dono hi kamar ke oopar bilkul nange they…

oopar se mausam ka sard mijaaj, humaare jajbaato
ko aur bhadka raha tha……..mere haath uski
paeeth par ab oopar se neeche tak ghoom rahe
they aur kuchh aisi hi haalat Shaazia ki bhi ho rahi
thi …uske haathon ki pakad meri peeth par kasti
jaa rahi thi aur woh apne gaalo se dheere dheere
m ere seene ko sehlaa rahithi…

Maine ek chhota sa kiss uske maathe par kiya aur

kar di ……..maine apna ek haath uski peeth se hata

jawaab mein usne bhi wahi harkat mere seene par

kar , uske chehre ko oopar uthaya ….uski

aankhon ke bhaav bata rahe they ki kal jo khel
adhoora reh gaya tha woh usko ab poora karna
chahtithi… … …

Maine uski aankhon ko chuma aur usne khud hi

honth thode se khule hue they…..maine pehle ek

apne honth meri taraf badha diye ……aaj uske

chhota sa kiss uske honthon par kiya aur fir uske

neeche waale honth ko apne honthon mein daboch
liya …………… usne bhi apne haathon ko meri

baalon mein haath se sehlaane lagi…..

peeth se hata kar mere sar par le aayi , aur mere

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Agle 2 minutes tak hum dono iss hi position mein
rahe ………….mere dono haathon ne usko gaalo par

choos rahe they……….woh baar baar apni

se pakda hua tha aur honth uske honthon ka ras

chhatiyon ka dabaav mere seene par badha deti thi

shareer mein chingaariyan si uthne lagi thi……..

………aur uski chhatiyon ki ragad se mere saare

Maine apne hothon ko uss se alag kiya ……ek

baar hum dono ne ek doosre ki aankhon mein
dekha …….fir maano uski taraf se swikrati paakar

……..iss baar mere hoth uski gardan par

, maine apne honthon ko fir se aage badha diya
they……..kuchh der uski gardan par main apne
honthon ko firata raha , fir apni jeebh ko baahar
nikala aur uski gardan par firata hua ,,neeche ki
taraf le jaane laga ………dheere dheere apni jeebh
se ek lakeer banata hua main uski dono
choochiyon ke beech se hota hua uskinaabhitak
pahuncha …main apne ghutno par baith gaya aur
apni jeebh uski aabhi mein ghusa
di…………….uske shareer mein ek current sa

mere baalo mein kas diya………..agle kuchh

daudta mehsoos hua aur usne apne haathon ko

honthon se choosta raha ………….

seconds main uski naabhi ko apni jeebh aur

shuru kiya ……….saath saath mein main kiss bhi

Fir maine apni jeebh ko oopar ki taraf badhana

karta jaa raha tha ………meri jeebh uski ek golayi

par jaakar rukgayi ………maine uski ek choochi
ke baahri hisse par apni jeebh se ek daayra banana
shuru kar diya ………..har bar jab ek chakkar

……………..uske muh se siskaariyan footne lagi

poora hota tha , daayra chhota hota jaata tha

thi………………daayra chota hote hote meri jeebh

uske nipple tak pahunch gayi………uske nipple ko
maine apni jeebh se cheda aur uske muh se ek
lam bisiahhhhhh nikalgayi… … … …

bahut dheere dheere choosna shuru kar diya….

Fir maine uske nipple ko muh mein bhar liya aur

thi …………..uske haath meri peeth par ghoom

Uske muh se ab lambi lambi siskaariyan foot rahi

they …….mera muh uske doosre nipple par aa

rahe they , aur apni betaabi ka ehsaas karwa rahe

gaya , aur maine uske saath bhi wahi salook kiya jo

pehle ke saath kar raha tha ……..mere haath ab

huye ..uski gaand par pahunch gaye aur usko

uski peeth se neeche , uski kamar par hote
raha tha ki woh uss jagah se bhi nangi hi hai..
daboch liya ……geele kapde mein aisa mehsoos ho

alag kiya...woh haanf rahi thi aur uski saans bahut

Achanak usne poora jor laga kar apne aap ko mujhse

tez chal rahi thi ........ har saans ke saath uski

chhaatiyan oopar neeche ho rahi thi ……..usne ek
baar meri aankhon mein dekha aur fir do kadam
peechhe ko ho gayi ……….fir woh ghoom kar
doosre kamre ki taraf chal di…………uss kamre ke
andar ghuste huye usne ek baar fir meri taraf ghoom
kar dekha aur fir kamre ke andar chali gayi
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Main kuchh seconds tak wahin par khada sochta
raha ki achanak Shaazia ko kya ho
gaya………..fir uss doosre kamre ki taraf badh
gaya…

Doosre kamre ke darwaaze par pahunch kar jab

maine andar jhaanka to mere honthon par hansi

scene hi la -jawaab tha .

aur aankhon mein chamak aa gayi…andar ka

bhari huye thi…….jisko Shaazia ne ikattha kar ke ek

Iss doosre kamre mein bhi kaafi saari ghaas-phoos

bistar sa bana diya tha ……… uss bistar par Shaazia

leti huyee thi , bilkul nangi awastha mein ……uski
salwaar bhi ab shareer se alag hokar khidki par tangi
huyee thi………Woh bistar par ulti hokar leti huyee
thi, aur apna chehra apne haath se dhaka hua tha

sangam dikhaayi pad raha tha …….

… … … kulm ilakarkam ukta aursharm ka anootha
shareer ko oopar se neeche tak nihara …..bilkul
Main uss bistar ke nazdeek pahuncha aur uske

safed bedaag badan….patli kamar aur uske neeche

kuchh chaudi gaand ….usne apni ek taang doosri
ke oopar chada rakhi thi jiski wajah se dono
jaanghe aapas mein mili huyee thi ………
Maine baahar dekha ……..barf ab bhi lagataar
pad rahi thi……maine bhi apna aakhiri kapda ,
apna payjama khol kar apne shareer se alag kar
diya …aur bistar par uss ke paas baith gaya …..

Maine ek haath uski doodhiya jaangh par rakha

hua ………..maine apne haath ko uski jaangh par

aur uske shaheer mein kampan ka ehsas mujhe

gaya……….mere haath ferne se uske shareer mein

firaya aur fir haath ko uski gaand par le

tha..
jo harkat ho rahi thi uska ehsaas mujhe ho raha
Main thoda neeche ko hua aur jhuk kar apne
honth uski pindali par rakh diye …………fir oopar
ki ore chalte huye chhote chotte kiss karne laga ,
har kiss ke saath mere honth aage badh jaate the
………uske ghutno ke peechhe waale hisse se hote

uski gaand tak……….ek side ka safar poora karne

huye mere hoth uski jaangh tak pahunche aur fir

ke baad maine doosri taraf se neeche ki taraf

badhna shuru kiya …………aur mere honth uski
gaand se hote huye , uski jaangh , pindli aur fir
uske panje tak pahunch gaye …………

Neeche pahunch kar maine uske dono paanv ko

haatho se pakda aur ek doosre se alag kar diya
……………fir main neeche jhuk gaya aur dono

taraf badhne laga……..dheere dheere , apne

pairo ke androoni hisso ko choomta hua oopar ki
honthon ki mohar lagata hua main uski androoni
jaanghon tak pahunch gaya………..har chumban

uski taange bhi apne aap khulne lagi thi ……..

ke saath uske shareer m ein ek harkathotithiaur

Uski jaanghon ko main kaafi der tak choomta

raha…….beech beech mein muh khol kar choos bhi
leta tha ………..fir maine dono haathon ko uski

ko alag alag disha mein faile diya ……….uski choot

jaanghon ke andar waale hisse par rakha aur dono

ab poori tarah se khul kar mere saamne thi…….uske

pane hi ras mein bheegi huyi aur ek sankuchan sa
mujhe usme hota dikhayi pad raha tha…………..

Main poori tarah neeche let gaya , maine apna sar

neeche kiya aur apne honth uski choot par rakh
diya ………ek ajeeb sa swaad mere honthon ko
………..
mehsoos hua jo mere liye to anjaana nahi tha

Apne dono haathon ko uski gaand par jama kar

maine usko pakad liya aur fir apni jeebh ko uski

…..uski choot par mulayam se , halke sunahre rang

choot ki daraar par oopar se neeche firane laga

they…………….
ke baal they jo mere andar ek sirhan paida kar rahe

Maine apni do ungliyon se uski choot ke lips ko

alag kiya aur fir apni jeebh ko thoda sa andar

maano jwalamukhi foot gaya …….uska poora

ghussa diya …………meri iss harkat se uske andar

apni jeebh par mehssos hua ……….

shareer jor se kaampa aur fir ek geelapan mujhe
Main uske oopar se utha………….usko kandhe se
pakad kar ghumaya aur seedha lete diya………..ab
woh bulkul seedhi mere saamne leti huyee thi ,
bilkul janmjaat awastha mein , apne haath se apne
muh ko dhake huye ……..

Maine uski dono tango ko alag kiya aur uske

beech mein baith gaya ………fir uske oopar let sa

kohni rakh kar uss par daal diya ……….

gaya par apna saara weight uske side mein ek

Doosre haath se maine uske haath ko pakda aur

thi..main neeche ko jhuka aur uski aankhon ko

uske chehre par se hata diya…uski aankhen band

choom liya… … …
“ Aankhen kholo Shaazia ……” maine uske gaal
ko choomte huye kaha……….

Usne dheere se apni aankhen khol di …

“ Tum jaanti ho na ki tum kya karne jaa rahi ho…..”

……..jawaab mein usne dheere se sar hilaya aur

m ain uske baalo m ein haath firata hua bola

……………..
apna chehra fir se meri bagal mein chhipa liya

“ Tum yeh bhi jaanti ho ki shaayad mein yahan se

jaakar fir waapas nahi aa paaonga……………. “
m ain aage bola
usne apna chehra peeche hataya….aur meri aankhon
mein dekhne lagi
“ main bas itna jaanti hoon ki main tumko chahti
hoon , aur mujhe yakeen hai kit um mujhe kabhi
dhoka nahi doge “ ………..keh kar usne mera haath
pakda aur choom liya …….

Uski iss baat se mere dil mein uske liya saare jahan
ka pyar umad aaya …….maine man hi man nischay
kar liya ki ab maine yahan se Shaazia ko saath lekar
hi jaaonga …………..

Maine apna haath neeche kiya ……….uski dono

ko thoda sa aage sarka diya ………….mere lund

jaanghon ko thoda sa aur failaya aur fir apne aap

ka sparsh apni choot par paate hi uske muh se ek

baar fir siskaari nikal gayi……usne apni aankhen

harkat ki ……..
band kar lee aur pratiksha karne lagi mari agli

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ki taraf firaya ……..apne hi ras mein bheegi huyee

Maine apna haath uski choot par oopar se neeche

uski choot bilkul tayyar thi……..maine apne lund

ko haath mein pakda aur fir uske chhed par tika
diya ………..maine dono haathon ko uski bagal se
nikaal kar uske kandhon par se pakad liya………
mujhe maloom tha ki uss par ab kya beetne waali
hai……..fir maine apna sar neeche jhukaya aur
uske honthon ko apne honthon mein samet
liya……….usne bhi apne honth khol kar maano
mera swaagat giya………kuchh seconds tak honth
choosne ke baad maine apni kamar ko jhatka diya
tha……..andar dhakel diya
aur apna lund jo abhi tak uski choot ke muh par hi

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……………….Uske muh
se ek cheekh nikli , jisko main apne honthon ke
andar hi pee gaya………apne lund par garm sa

kho diya tha …….uske chehre par dard ki lakeer

ehsaas mujhe hua , shayad usne apna kunwarapan

saaf dikhaayi pad rahi thi………

uske gaal ko choomne laga ……..sard mausam

Maine ek haath ko uske maathe par feraya aur fir

raha tha…….main neeche jhuka aur uski ek

mein bhi uske chehre par paseena dikhayi pad

choochiko m uh m ein bhar ke choosna shuru kar

diya………..usne apne hath ko meri peeth par le
jaakar mujhe pakad liya……….ab maine apni
kamar ko halke halke jhatke dene shuru kar
diye…….10-12 jhatko ke baad hi mujhe lagne laga
ki ab woh mera saath dene ko tayyar hai………

……….usnki nazre meri hi taraf dekh rahi

Maine sar utha kar uske chehre par dekha

thi………….mere dekhte hi usne haath bada kar

mera chehra apne paas kar liya aur fir apna muh

baalo ko choomte huye dhakke lagane laga ....

meri bagal mein chhipa diya …………main uske

thi………..kuchh to mera be-sabra pan aur kuchh

Mere dhakko mein ab thodi tezi aati jaa rahi

uski tight choot ke kaaran , mujhe ag raha tha ki

main bahut der tak apne oopar control nahi kar
paoonga…

baith gaya……..uski ek taang ko utha kar apne

Main ab uske oopar se uth kar , ghutno ke bal

kandhe par rakha aur fir lambe lambe stroke

maarne shuru kar diye…………

Har dhakke ke saath ab uske muh se awaaz nikal

rahi thi, masti bhari awaaz jisme dard ka ehsaas ab
bahut kam tha……ya shaayad masti dard par
haavi ho gayi thi….
karne lagi thi …….main fir se uske oopar let
Mere har dhakke ke saath uski kamar bhi harkat

gaya……..uske ghutno ko poora mod kar ,

jaanghon ko khol diya….aur ek haath ko uski kamar

liya……….fir maine apne ghutno ko bistar par

ke neeche daal kar uski gaand ko thoda oopar utha

jama kar ………jordaar dhakke lagaane shuru kar

diye……….

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………..ohhhhh…………
….ufffffffffffff…………….basss…………………
…….ruk jaao ………………………
haannnnnn…………….aise hi …………………

Kuchh iss tarah ki awaaze uske muh se lagataar

nikal rahi thi ……………uski choot paani chode
jaa rahi thi aur mere lund ke liye raasta aur aasan
hota jar aha tha ………………………maine
doosre haath ko bhi uski kamar ke neeche laga

……….usne bhi dono haaton se meri gardan ko

diya aur fir apne muh uski choochi par jama diya

………..usn apni dono taange jitni oopar ho sakti

pakadkar mujhe pane seene se bheench liya

thi , hawa mein utha rakhi thi

………………………

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh………….ki tez awwaz

uske shareer mein chhod diya ………………..usne

mere muh se nikli aur apne shareer ka lava maine

bhi apni kamar ko utha kar maano mujhe apne andar

agle 10-15 seconds tak kaampte rahe fir main apna

samet liya …………………hum dono ke hi shareer

………….
sar uske seene par rakh kar uske oopar hi ludak gaya
Baahr barfbaari ab ruk chuki thi aur andar bhi jo

tha..........kamre mein sirf hum dono ki taz saanso

ek toofaan sa utha tha, woh shaant ho gaya

ki awwaz hi sunayi pad rahi thi .............

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huye pade rahe…..fir maine usko baahon mein

Kaafi der tak hum dono aise hi ek doosre se lipte

tak who mere seene se lag kar leti rahi ,…..

bhar kar apne aur paas samet liya ………thodi der

khidki ki taraf dekhte huye kaha ….

“ Ab humein chalna chaahiye ……………….” Usne
Maine bhi baahar dekha …………Barf baari ab
ruk chuki thi , isliye hum dono ne jaldi se kapde
pehne aur wahan se waapas chal diye……….

………….hum dono ne hi halke kapde pehne huye

Baahar barf ki moti chaadar bichhi huyee thi

they isliye sardi lag rahi thi aur dono ek doosre ka

haath pakad kar chalte jaa rahe the………

Jab hum yahan aaye they to ek doosre se alag-alag

they ………par pichhle kuchh hi ghanto mein

tha …….. ………..jitna najdeek humaare jism aa

hum aare beech ek naya rishta kaayam ho chukka

they….
chuke they, uss se kahin jyada kareeb humaare dil
Ek doosre ka haath thame huye hum chale jaa rahe
they……..main poore raaste uss ko apne baare mein
batata ja raha tha………..apne ghar ke baare mein ,
apne pariwaar ke baare main aur apne Hindustan ke
baare mein …….

Jaise jaise hum ghar ke nazdeek pahunch rahe the

, barf ki motaai kam hoti jaa rahi thi ……………

……….mausam kuchh had tak khul chukka tha,

iska matlab iss taraf kam barf padi thi

haalanki aasmaan par ab bhi kaale baadal chhaye

huye they… … … …

Waapas laut-te huye humein chadhayi (upward)

thi …….par fir bhi baat karte karte, aur ek doosre

chadh ke jaana pad raha tha , isliye der lag rahi

ka haath thame huye hum ghar ke nazdeek

pahunch gaye…………
………..jahan pehle din main nahane ke liye gaya
Iss baar humne doosre raaste ko use kiya

tha , yaani ki tabele ki righ side se hote huye …aur

hum log ghar se kareeb 100 meter door hi they ki

humara yeh move sahi saabit hua …………abhi

kuchh dekh kar hum dono hi chaunk gaye aur jaldi

se ek ped ke peechhe chhip gaye aur fir wahan se
sarka kar ek ghani jhaadi ke peeche pahunch kar
apne ghutno ke bal baith gaye ……………

Saamne jo dikhaayi de raha tha woh humaari

dhadkane badhaane ke liye kaafi the ……….iss

maidaan dikhaayi pad raha tha ………….wahan ek

jagah se ghar ka darwaaza aur ghar ke saamne ka

jeep , jo ki Pakistani fauz ki thi , kahdi thi

……………gaadi ke andar , driving seat par ek
driver tha aur uske paas hi, gaadi ke baahar ek
ke haath mein AK 47 door se hi dikhayi pad rahi
doosra aadmi (fauzi) khada tha …iss doosre fauzi

thi………….maine aas paas nigaah daudaayi , koi

aur mujhe nahi dikhayi pada …

3 log baahar nikle , Hina aur uske saath 2 addmi

Fir ghar ka darwaaza khula aur ghar ke andar se

……….dono aadmi fauzi vardi mein they…………

ek fauzi ke haath mein AK47 thi aur doosra , jo ki
afsar ki uniform mein tha ….khaali haath tha
……….woh afsar Hina se kuchh keh raha tha aur
Hina ka sar kabhi Haan mein aur kabhi naa mein
hilta dikhayi de raha tha ………

haath mehsoos hua ….maine sar ghuma kar dekha ,

Mere kandhe par achaanak mujhe Shaazia ka

woh mere bilkul paas aa gayi thi………..aur mere

hath ko kas kar pakad liya tha………..usne bhi ek
baar meri taraf dekha aur fir saamne dekhte huye
boli …………..” yeh , Aslam beg hai
…………..pakistani fauz ka area commander “

Maine ek baar fir saamne dekha ………….woh log

abhibhikuchh baatkar rahe they … … … … …

tha ……………..aur iss hi ki wazah se unka

“ Yahi hai jo Baaji ke shauhar ko apne saath le gaya

bachcha ………….” Kehte kehte uska gala bhar

…………….
aaya aurfiruskiaankhon m ein aansoo aa gaye

Uski baat sunte hi mere saare shareer mein ek bijli si

daud gayi …………….jee chaha ki abhi jaakar
Aslam beg ko goli maar doon ………main aisa kar
bhi sakta tha , par mujhe maloom tha ki main kahan
hoon aur aisa karne ke baad main apne liye , aur inn
hoon ……..
dono behno ke liye musibat hi khadi kar dene wala

maine Shaazia ke kandhe par haath rakha aur usko

dilasa dene laga……………..fir maine saamne
dekha, Aslam beg jeep mein baith chukka

gayi ……………..
tha…………aur fir jeep ghoom kar waapas chali

Hum dono agle 5 minute tak wahin par chhupe

tak pahunch gaye ………….Shaazia bhagti huyee

rahe aur fir dheere dheere aage badhte huye ghar

ghar mein chali gayi aur main waapas apne kamre

m ein
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gaya………..maine ghadi mein time dekha………
Main apne kamre mein aakar bistar par baith

do-pahar ke 3.30 baj rahe they……………. Main

kuchh der baitha raha aur fir bistar par late
gaya… … … … … …
Jaisi ki mujhe ummeed thi…………….10 minute
baad hi Hina wahan par aa gayi ………… woh
seedhi kamre mein aayee aur bistar ke paas khadi
ho gayi…main usko dekhte hi uth kar baith
gaya… … …

“ Tumne mujhe poori baat kyon nahi batayi thi

…………? ” uski aawaz mein kuchh narazgi aur
gussa tha
“ Kya baat ? “ main abhi bhi poori baat samajh nahi
paa raha tha ..

“ Tumne uss aadmi ko maar diya tha jo uss raat

mere saath bad-tamizi kar raha tha ……kyon sahi
hain na ? “ woh mere saamne baith gayi aur meri
aankhon mein jhaankte huye boli …
“ Mere paas aur koi raasta nahi tha …………..woh
zinda rehta to hum dono ko pakadwa sakta tha ….”

Aslam beg yahan kya karne aaye tha ….?”

Main ek lambi saans leta hua bola …. “ par yeh

“ uss aadmi ki laash neeche ek sadak ke kinaare padi

huyee mili , police ne andaja laga liya ki kisi ne
usko maar kar oopar se neeche fainka hai………fir
inn logo ne gaanv mein pooch-taach ki to maloom
pada ki uss raat main uss ilake mein gayi thi ……iss
liye woh mere se pooch-tachh karne yahan aaye they
……………tum jaante they na ki woh police waala
tha ? “ uske chehre par pareshaani ke bhaav saaf
dikhayi pad rahe they

“ par tum saaf mana kar sakti thee ki tum kucch nahi
jaanti ….” Maine uske sawaal ko ansuna karte huye
aage kaha

“ tum uss chhatri ko bhool rahe ho jo tum wahan

chhod aaye they …………woh chhatri ab police ke

boli …….
paas hai……” woh meri aankhon mein dekhte huye
Main chup hi raha………….chup-chap uske
chehre ko dekhta raha……

Aslam beg bahut chalak aadmi hai………….usko

“ Filhaal to woh log chale gaye hain ………..par

poora yakeen hi hai ki iss ke peechhe uss aadmi ka

haath hai jiska air craft yahan crash hua tha
……………… woh jaroor iss ghar par nigaah rakh
raha hoga “

agle kuchh seconds hum dono chup rahe , fir baat

m eine hishuru ki

“ main nahi chaahta ki meri wajah se tum log kisi

pareshaani mein pado ……….main yahan se bahut
jaldi hi chala jaaonga …………” main neeche
dekhte huye keh raha tha
“ abhi to filhaal tum yahin par chhip kar raho ,

aa jaaoge ………..main bahut jaldi tumhaare nikalne

yahan se baahrnikaloge to un logo kinigaah m ein

huyee aur fir wahan se chali gayi ………………..

ka intezam kar doongi “ keh kar woh uthh khadi

maine kamre ki deewar mein bane chhedo se baahar

nahi pada ………….par ho sakta ho ki woh log

jhanka …………mujhe door door tak koi dihkayi

chhip kar nigaah rakh rahe ho …………..maine uth

aakar bistar par baith gaya……………..

kar darwaaze ko andar se band kar liya aur fir se

5 minute baad hi Shaazia mere liye khana lekar

wahan aa gayi …………..humesha ki tarah aaj
khana plate mein nahi balki ek basket ke andar rakh
ke laayithi… … … … … isliye kiagarkoihum aare
oopar nigaah rakh raha ho to uss ko yeh na maloom
pade ki mere liye yahan khana aa raha hai …

………..
usne jaldi se khana lagaya aur fir uth kar jaane lagi

chaahiye “ maine us se kaha..

“ Suno Shaazia ………..!! mujhe kuchh chheje

usne mud kar swaaliya nigaah se meri taraf dekha

……

…………….. “ maine apni jaroorat usko samjhayi

“ ek blade , ek pen , gond (glue) aur ho sake to tape

……..
………….fir boli “ abhi dekhti
usne fir ek baar asmanjas se meri taraf dekha

hoon………….shaayad saari chheje mil jaayengi “

khaane mein vyast ho gaya ……………….

keh karw oh w ahan se chaligayiaurm ain khana

10 minute baad hi woh fir se waapas aa

gayi………..uske haath mein woh sab cheeje thi jo
maine maangi thi ………………..sab mere haath
mein dene ka baad ussne bartano ko ikattha kiya aur
fir bina kuchh kahe waapas chali gayi………………

uske jaane ke baad maine fir se kamre ka darwaaza

band kiya aur apne bistar par aakar baith gaya
……………meine apne bag mein se apna wallet

aur licence …………..

nikala aur uss ke andar se Sohail malik ka ID card
agle 1/2 ghante main sar jhuuka kar apne kaam mein
laga raha ……………1/2 ghante ki mehnat ke baad
maine unn dono cheejo par (ID card aur licence) se
Sohail malik ki photo hata kar apni photo laga
di………….aur jahan jaroorat thi wahan pen se
likhkar signature aur stamp ko bhi match kar diya
…………

Koi bahut gaur se dekhne par hi pakad sakta tha ki

hai……….maine man hi man apne aap ko

dono cards mein kisi ne hera -feri ki huyee

hawaale kar diya….aur fir se bistar par let

shabashi di aur dono cards ko apne wallet ke

gaya………………….

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hua tha…….baahar nikal nahi sakta tha kyon ki
Shaam ho gayi thi…..main kamre ke andar hi leta

saabit ho sakta tha………..

woh mere liye aur inn dono ke liye khatarnaak

6 baje ke aas-paas Hina fir se tabele mein

aayi…..iss baar jaanwaro ko daana-paani dene ke
liye ……..main apne bistar se uth kar kamre ke
darwaaze par aa gaya aur kuchh aise khada ho gaya
jis se woh mujhe dekh sake par koi aur baahar se na
dekh sake …..

uski taraf dekhte huye poochha…………..woh

“ Yeh Aslam beg rehta kahan hai……..? “ maine

neeche baithihuyee kuchh kaam karrahithi

usne achanak chaunk kar meri taraf dekha aur fir
dheere se hansti huyee boli “ kyon !!……….kya
karne waale ho ? “

tha ……..tumhe maloom hai ? “ maine uski taraf

“ Kuchh nahi ……………bas aise hi poochh raha

dekhte huye utsukta se poochaa..

agle kuchh seconds woh chup rahi , fir ek lambi

…………...waise to highway par aage chaukiyan

saans lekar boli “ sahi sahi to maloom nahi hai

hai……….aas-paas ka saara ilaka hi uske under

bani huyee hai ………raat ko to wahin par hi rehta

fir kuchh der ruk kar aage bolna shuru kiya….

mein hai, isliye yahan-wahan ghoomta bhi rehta hai“
aadmi hai…………….iss gaanv mein hi kuchh
“ maine yeh bhi suna hai ki bahut bada ayyash

thikaane hai uske……….jahan woh aksar raat

guzaarne ke liye jata rehta hai …………..” kehkar
usne ek baar meri taraf dekha aur fir apne kaam
m ein lag gayi…

“ Tumko maloom hai koi thikana ? “ maine fir se

saw aalkiya

………..fir kuchh seconds tak sochti rahi aura age

“ nahi …………. “ apna kaam rok kar woh boli

bataya …. “ uski jeep ka driver hai , Shaukat ali

….maine suna hai ki woh uska raajdaar
hai……….woh kahan jaata hai , kya karta
hai……….sab yeh Shaukat ali jaanta
hai…………..”
“ Aur yeh Shaukat ali kahan milta hai ? “ main
hanste huye poochha

hai……….par raat mein aksar iss hi gaanv mein

“ Din bhar to woh Aslam beg ke saath hi rehta

rehta hai………..iss gaanv mein hi uska ghar bhi . “

rahi thi ………. “waise tum karna kya chaahte ho “

woh ab seedhi baith kar meri taraf dekhte huye bata

“ Kuchh khaas nahi ……………. Tum to koshish

karonn yahan se jaldi nikalne ki ………….waise ek

kar hi rahi ho , maine socha main bhi kuchh koshish

baat batao , raat mein gaanv ke andar jaana sahi hai

kya ? “
“ Agar gaanv mein ghoomna hai to jaa sakte ho , par

aao………………. Shaukat ali ka ghar neeche

dhyan rakhna ki kisi ki nigaah mein na

jaakar hai …………” fir woh mujhe shaukat ali ke

apne dimaag mein utaar liya ….fir aakhir mein woh

ghar ka raasta samjhaane lagi , maine poora naksha

boli…….”

“ Jo bhi karna ho …….dekh kar karna , tumhaare

nikalne ka intezam to shaayad kal tak ho hi jaayega ,
par apna aur humaara dhyaan jaroor rakhna…” uski
awaaz mein aur aankhon mein apna-pan aur chinta
jhalak rahi thi …agle kuchh seconds hum ek doosre
ko dekhte rahe , fir usne apni nigaah neeche kar li
aur wahan se chali gayi……….main fir se aakar
apne kamre mein baith gaya aur apne plan par
vichaar karne laga……….
Raat kareeb 8 baje honge …………….Darwaaje

khola………yeh Shaazia thi……….haath mein ek

par dastak huyee……..main darwaaja

basket liye, jisme mere liye khana tha….

baahar jhanka…….fir darwaaje ko bhida kar band

woh kamre ke andar aa gayi …………maine ek baar

kar diya …………..Shaazia neeche baith kar,bistar

par mere liye khaana laga rahi thi………khana laga
kar jaise hi woh uthi, maine usko peechhe se apni
baahon mein pakad liya ………

“ kya kar rahe ho …………..chhodo mujhe , baaji aa

jaayengi “ uski baaton mein sirf formality thi , koi
virodh nahi tha …….
Maine usko apni taraf ghumaya ……………fir
uske chehre ko apne dono haathon mein pakad
liya ………usne mera ishara samajh kar apne

honthon mein samet liya …..

honth meri taraf badha diye , jinko maine apne

Agle 2 minutes tak hum aise hi ek doosre ke

honthon ka ras chooste rahe ……..fir usne mere

kiya ……..uski saanse bhaari ho gayi thi aur har

seene par haath rakh kar , mujhe apne aap se alag

thi ………..woh ek-tak meri aankhon mein hi dekhe

saans ke saath uski chhaatiyan oopar neeche ho rahi

jaa rahi thi………..

…………..hum logo ko kabhi bhi yahan se bhaagne

“ Suno Shaazia ………….tum bilkul tayyar rehna
kaha aur fir bistar par baith gaya ………..
pad sakta hai “ maine uske gaal ko thap-thapa kar

Woh kuchh seconds aise hi khadi rehkar meri

soorat dekhti rahi fir boli “ kya matlab , main
samjhi nahi ?? “

se bhagna pad sakta hai……..tum bilkul tayyar

“ maine kaha………..hum dono ko kabhibhi yahan

rehna “

“ kahan bhaagna pad sakta hai ? kahan jaa rahe hain

hum ? “ who bilkul mere saamne baith gayi aur
mere chehre ki taraf dekhte huye boli
“ Hindustan………….kya tum mere saath nahi
chalogi ?? “ maine khana khate huye kaha

who kuchh der chup rahi ………..fir boli “

chaloongi ………par aise nahi …….kya hum baaji
ko nahi batayenge ??? “

“ koshish karenge ki hum Hina ko bhi apne saath le

jaa saken …….par ho sakta hai ki abhi hum dono ko
hi nikalna pade ………..fir hum Hina ko baad mein
apne paas bulva lenge “ maine maano usko dilasa
dete huye samjhaya
hai…..hum baaji ko yahan chhod kar kaise jaa sakte
“ meri to kuchh bhi samajh mein nahi aa raha

hain ……….nahi Ajay , hum unko saath hi lekar

jaayenge “ who meri taraf dekhte huye vinti bhare
sw arm ein boli

“ jaroor………..hum koshish to yahi karenge , par

ho sakta hai ki sab kuchh humaare anusaar na ho ,
isliye maine tumse tayyar rehne ke liye kaha “

chukka tha …….

maine usko samjhaya , main apna khana khatm kar

Plate ko ek taraf rakh kar main uske paas aa

gaya , aur uske dono kandho par haath rakh kar
uski aankhon mein dekhte huye bola “ main ab

kam tum to mere saath hi jaaogi…….Hina ko hum

yahan se akela nahi jaane waala …………kam se

kuchh dino ke baad bhi bula sakte hain “

Usne apna sar hilaya , maano meri baat uski samajh
mein aa gayi ho …..fir aage ko jhuk kar usne mere
gaal par ek kiss kiya , bartan samete aur fir dheere se
uth kar baahar chali gayi

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Raat ke kareeb 10.00 baj rahe they…….maine

silencer fit kar liya……. Bullets check ki ,

apne bag mein se apni revolver nikaali aur uss par

revolver ki magazine full thi ………..ek extra

magazine maine apni jeb mein daal li………….apne
aap ko maine kambal mein lapet liya aur fir dheere
se uth karbaaharaa gaya … … …
baahar aakar main tabele ke right side se hota hua
peechhe jangal ki taraf chala gaya ……… fir ek

kareeb 500 meter aage jaakar , waapas uss hi raaste

lamba chakkar lagata hua main ghar se kaafi door,

par aa gaya jo gaanv ki taraf jaata tha ……..aage

jaakar yeh raasta do taraf kat jaata tha …….jaisa ki
Hina ne mujhe samjhaya tha …….. ek kachcha rasta

tha ……….
wahin par pahunchta tha , jahan mein jana chah raha

Main andhere mein teer lagane ki koshish kar

raha tha……jis maksad se main nikla tha , ho

ho sakta tha ki nahi ……..par main ek baar yeh try

sakta tha ki main usmein kamyaab ho jaaon , aur

mein kachcha raasta jaa raha tha …….main

jaroor karna chahta tha ……aage jaakar left side

dheere dheere aage badhta raha

………….jhaadiyon se hota hua , pattharo ke

…….yeh ekdum seedha khada raasta tha ………jis

oopar se hokar mujhe neeche ki taraf jaana tha

chot khana…….
par paanv fisalne ka matlab tha ki bahut jordaar

raha………fir kareeb 20 minute chalne ke baad

Main apne paanv jama kar dheere dheere chalta

main wahan pahunch gaya jo abhi filhal meri

manzil thi ……yaani Shaukat ali ka ghar

Woh jagah raaste se thoda hatkar thi……..ek

they …….jisme sabse akhiri makaan , jo ki sadak

maidaan ke charo tarf kuchh makaan bane huye

se sabse door tha ……Shaukat ali ka tha …….main

uss ghar ke peechhe waale hisse mein pahunch
gaya ………poora ghar andhere mein dooba hua
tha …….main idhar-udhar dekhte hua , ghar ke

laga hua tha ……..iska matlam Shaukat ali abhi

saamne aa gaya aur check kiya , darwaaje par lock

ghar nahi lauta tha …………aur mujhe nahi maloom

nahi……………. Mere paas uska intezar karne ke

tha ki woh waapas bhi aane waala hai ya

alaawa koi aur chara nahi tha , aur mujhe nahi

maloom thi ki kitni der mujhe intezar karna
padega …………

Main waapas ghar ke peeche waale hisse mein aa

raha tha ( jahan se main abhi neeche aaya tha )

gaya …………isske peechhe ek pahad oopar ja

aur saamne ghar hone ki wajah se mujhe koi dekh

nahi sakta tha ……fir bhi main ghar se thodi door
hatkar , ek chote se ped ke paas pahunch gaya aur

gaya……..
uske peeche ek patthar se peeth tika kar baith

Agle ek ghante tak main aise hi baitha raha………..

waapas nahi lautne waala………….fir jab main

mujhe ab lagne laga tha ki shaayad woh aaj ghar

waapas lautne ki soch hi raha tha ki kisi gaadi ki

awaaz aane lagi ………main uth kar , ped ke peeche
khada ho gaya ………jahan main tha , wahan se
main road aur ghar ke saamne ka scene saaf dikhayi
pad raha tha ………
Who ek jeep thi jo shaukat ali ke ghar ke saamne
aakar ruki ……………ek aadmi , jo Shaukat hi
hona chahiye , uss me se utra aur fir ghar ke
saamne ja kar khada ho gaya ………main apni
jagah par khada intezar karta raha ……..darwaaza
khulne ki awaaz aayi aur fir band hone ki
……….par mujhe abhi kuchh der aur intezar
karna tha… … … …
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10 minute main wahin par intezar karta raha………

aakar khada ho gaya……………….ek lambi saans

fir apni jagah se baahar nikla aur ghar ke saamne

………..andar se ek do awaazein aayi aur fir kuchh

lekar main ghar ka darwaaza khat-khataya

aayi…….. “ kaun hai ? “ (yeh sawaal local language

seconds baad darwaaze ke peechhe se kisi ki awaaz

mein pochha gaya tha )

main chup hi raha ………10 seconds baad fir wahi

sawaal “ abe kaun hai ?”
“ darwaaza kholiye saahab , main hoon ….” Maine
apne lehze ko kashmiri karte huye kaha………

aadmi tha , kareeb mere hi barabar………..umar

darwaaza khula ………..woh ek lambe se kad ka

kareeb 35 saal ke aas-paas hogi……..

“ Kya hua …………kaun ho tum ? “ usne kadak

aawaz mein poochha , uske muh kholte hi sharaab ki
tez badboo meri naak mein padi…………maine
gaur kiya ki woh darwaaze ka sahara lekar khada
tha……..aur aankhen kholne mein bhi usko dikkat
ho rahi thi ……………
“ Saahab , aapne pehchana nahi ……..main Waseem
hoon ……………gurderi gaanv ka “ maine apni
awaaz ko patli karte huye kaha …………iss gaanv
ka naam mujhe Hina ne hi bataya tha …………

usne ek baar fir se aankh khol kar mujhe dekhne ki

koshish ki par maine apne aap ko kambal mein

nazar aa raha tha …..aur saath hi yeh bhi lag raha

lapeta hua tha , iss wajah se mera sirf chehra hi usko

…………….
tha ki nasha uske oopar poori tarah se sawaar tha

“ Abe kaun Waseem ? “

“ Are saab main Waseem …………..Beg saab ka

khabri “
“ bolo kya kaam hai ?” woh jhallata hua bola….

“ Saab se milna hai……………beg saab se “ main

apni awaaz mein adab lata hua bola …………

kyon aya hai “ woh gurrata hua sa bola ………….

“ to jaakar chauki par mil le …………………yahan

“ Saab , main paidal hi yahan tak aaya hoon

………….. saab bole they , kabhi mere paas aana ho

…………chauki tak kaise pahoonch paoonga

to aapko saath le aaoon……” main poori izzat se

baatkarraha tha …
“ Koi khaas kaam hai kya ..? “ ab uski awaaz mein
narm ithi

“ haan saab …………ek bahut jaroori khabar deni

hai “

“ mujhe bata de , main pahuncha doonga ….woh

…………….uske kadam lad-khada rahe they……

darwaaze se hat kar andar ki taraf chalta hua bola

main uske peeche peeche chal diya ………….

“ Saab , lagta hai aapki tabiyat sahi nahi

hai…………aap mujhe bata do ki beg saab kahan

man hi man khush hota hua bola…..

par milenge , main khud hi jaakar mil aoonga “ main
andar pahunch gaya tha………..sath mein main bhi
“ to jaakar chauki par mil le na “ ab woh kamre ke

milte hain……….gaanv mein hi kahin mauj-mela

“ Saab……….beg saab iss samay chauki par kahan

chal raha hoga ………” main aankh dabata hua ,

dheemi si awwaz mein bola ……..

………..woh ek kursi par baith gaya aur fir bola “

jawaab mein usne jor ka thahaka lagaya

abe yaar ….meri haalat to nahi hai abhi jaane laayak

intezar kar le …….main saath le jaaonga…… “

………ya to tu khud hi chala ja , ya subah tak
“ aap mujhe hi bata do saab…………agar gaanv

hoon……….” Main uske saamne kursi par baith

mein hi hain to main khud jaakar mil leta

gaya ………andar hi andar main bahut khush tha ,

mera kaam itni aasani se ho jaayega , mujhe
ummeed nahi thi

woh lad-khadata hua kursi se utha…….fir bola “ tu

kamre ke andar chala gaya ………………..

baith ………main abhi aata hoon “ keh kar woh

main kuchh der baitha raha...........kareeb 2 minute

intezar karne ke baad main uth kar khada ho gaya
aur time kaatne ke liye kamre ka jaayja lene laga
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Uss ke ghar mein woh har cheej maujood thi jo aish-

o-aaram ke liye chahiye hoti hai , bahut achche
dhang se maintain kar rakha tha usne apne ghar ko
……ek taraf deewar par kuchh tasveere lagi huyee
thi……kuchh group photographs they…….main un
ko dekhne ke liye nazdeek chala gaya , aur yahin par
mein galti kar gaya……..

Main kuchh seconds ke liye bhool gaya tha ki

main kahan par hoon ………yad tab aaya jab
peechhe se awaaz aayi ………….
“ Apne dono haath oopar utha kar peechhe ghoom
jaao ……………….. “
pehle to main chaunk gaya ………….fir saari stithi
ko samajh kar dono haath oopar utha liye aur aawaz
ki disha mein ghoom gaya …………saamne
Shaukat ali khada tha , uske ek haath mein revolver

mein ke wireless hanset tha ………………..

thi jo meri taraf hi tani huyee thi aur doosre haath

sakte ho ? ………….. tumne yeh socha hoga ki

“ Tumhe kya laga tha ki tum mujhe bewkoof bana

chap maan loonga………….” Who meri aankhon

main nashe mein hoon aur job hi tum kahoge chup

mein dekhte huye bola , uske chehre par kasaav tha ,

tha………….woh ab bilkul seedha khada hua tha ,

aankhon mein gussa dikhayi pad raha

koi lad-khadahat nahi ………..koi nahi keh sakta tha

ki abhi 10 minute pehle hi yeh aadmi nashe mein
bilkul behosh lag raha tha………….

“ kya hua saab ………….koi galti ho gayi kya

mujhse ?? “ maine ek akhiri baar koshish karke
dekhi ……… par uske chehre se mujhe yeh saaf

nahi aane waala hai ………..

dikhayi pad raha tha ki ab who meri kisi baat mein

aayi…………..doosri taraf se job hi kuchh kaha

tabhi uske wireless par kisi ki awaaz

…………….fir jawaab mein Shaukat ek baar jor se

gaya woh meri samajh mein nahi aaya

laga…….iss baar bhi sab kuchh meri samajh se

hansa aur fir apni local language mein kuchh kehne

baahartha… … … … … … … beech beech m ein w ho

meri taraf dekh raha tha , jis se mujhe yeh andaja to

……………….fir usne baat band kar di aur meri

ho hiraha tha kim ere baare m ein hibaatho rahihai

taraf dekha kar bola …………….

kya galti ki hai……….aur teri saab se milne ki

“ Abhi thodi der mein maloom pad jaayega ki tune

tamanna bhi poori ho jaayegi

…………………………chal , dono haath apne sar
par rakh le …. “

Main samajh gaya tha ki Aslam beg jald hi yahan

pahunchne waala hai ………aur saath mein
jaroor kuchh aur bhi aadmi honge ….main unn

maloom tha ……….mujhe agle kuchh minutes

sab se ek saath nahi nipat sakta tha eh mujhe

mein hi kuchh na kuchh karna hoga ………….

Usne apni revolver meri taraf hi taani huyee thi aur
poori tarah se mustaid nazar aaa raha tha
……………woh 2 kadam aage badha aur haath
badha kar mere shareer par se kambal kheench liya
aur fir peechhe ho gaya ………………..

“ Chal peechhe ko ghoom ja ……….. “ usne gurrate

huye kaha

maine turant uske aadesh ka paalan kiya

……………mujhe maloom tha ki who nashe mein
haiaurkuchh bhikarsakta hai… … … …
peechhe ko ghoomte hi meri kamar mein lagi huyee

gayi…………………..woh aage badha aur meri

revolver usko dikhaayi pad

kamar mein lagi huyee revolver ko kheench

liya… … … … … …

guraaya……….aur main waapas ghoom

“Waapas ghoom ja ………………….” Who fir se

gaya… … … … … …

Usne meri revolver ko ghuma fira kar check kiya fir

meri taraf dekh kar muskurata hua bola………..”
achacha………………..!!! saale , Hindustani
revolver istemaal karta hai aur apne aap ko
paakistaani bolta hai………………..ab meri samajh
mein aaya ………tu wahi hai jisko hum log itne
dino se dhoondhte fir rahe hain……….. achchha hua
………….. “ usne apni revolver jeb mein rakh li aur
jo tu khud hi marne ke liye yahan aa gaya

meri waali ko haath mein pakad liya………….fir

meri taraf revolver ka muh kiya aur bola……..

“ Chal !!!............ ab dono haath aise hi sar par rakhe

huye neeche baith ja “

mere liye yeh aakhiri mauka tha …………..kuchh hi

aur fir mera khel khatam…………..

der mein aur log bhi yahan pahunchne waale they

main apne dono haath sar par rakhe huye, apne

panjo ke bal neeche ko baith gaya , baith-te huye
main jaan boojh kar thoda sa lad-khada gaya , jaise
ki mera balance bigad gaya ho aur fir apne aap ko
…………………..
sambhaalne ke liye dono haath saamne ko tika diye

sar par !! “ who gurrata hua bola …………….

“ abe kya hua ? sahi se baith ……………dono haath

Mere dono haath ab neeche farsh par bichhe huye

Kaleen (carpet) par the …………maine achanak

taakat laga kar kheench diya ……….

Kaleen ko dono haathon se pakda aur apni poori

Shaukat , jo ki usi Kaleen par mere se kareeb 8 feet

aur who dhadaam se peeth ke bal gir gaya ………..

door khada tha , uske paanv jameen se ukhad gaye
Itna samay mere liye kaafi tha ………..main furti se

ke oopar jump laga di ……………..mera poora

utha aur aur saamne jameen par pade huye shaukat

shareer seedha uske pat aur tango ke oopar aa gaya

aur ek haath se maine uske revolver waale haath ko
daboch liya………………

Achanak huyee is harkat se woh ek-dum ghabra sa

haath se mere par waar kiya ……………..jisko main

gaya ………fir sambhalte huye usne apne doosre

thoda sa peechhe hokar bacha gaya …………… fir

muh par pada …………..ek hi waar uske hosh uda

mera right hand mukke ke roop mein , seedha uske

lene ke liye kaafi …………………maine uske dono

haathon ko ek saath joda aur uske sar ke oopar
jameen par , apne ek hi haath se daboch

mein aa gayi thi…………………….

liya……………meri revolver waapas mere haath
tikaya…………………..uski aankhe dar ke mare
Maine revolver ki naal ko uske maathe par

poori fail gayi thi …………….ek aakhiri baar

main uski taraf dekh kar muskuraya aur fir trigger
daba diya ………………..

Pittt …ki halki si awaaz huye , silencer laga hone

ki wajah se koi dhamaaka nahi hua aur goli uske

ne kuchh jhatke khaaye …………………..main

sar ke paar nikal gayi………………uske shareer

uske oopar se uth kar alag ho gaya aur apni

li………………..uska shareer ab shant pad chukka

revolver waapas apni kamar mein laga

tha ……….aur uske sar ke paar khoon ka dariya

sa banta jaa raha tha ………………
………………….yeh uska bedroom tha , ek taraf
Main jaldi se doosre kamre mein pahuncha

thi………..maine dressing table ki drawer kholi

side mein ek dressing table rakhi huyee

aur usmein se ek perfume ki bottle nikali………….

…………….perfume ki bottle ko khol kar maine

Main waapas us hi kamre mein aaya

saawdhani se kuchh boonde uski laash ke paas

daal di …………..fir apna kambal uthaya aur usko
apne shareer par lapet liya ……………………

kar band kar diya …………………..

main ghar se baahar nikla aur darwaaze ko bhida
……………….aur fir tezi ke sath gaanv se ulti
Main lag-bhag bhaagta hua sadak par aa gaya

disha mein chal diya ……………………mujhe

ganv wale raaste se hi aayega ………….thodi thodi

m aloom tha kiAslam beg agar yahan aayega to

door par main perfume ki boonde girata hua chal

kaat kar . neeche ki sadak se hota hua aur fir ek

raha tha … … … … … … fir m ain ek lam ba chakkar

kachche raaste se hote hua ………..waapas gaanv

………………….
ki taraf jaane waali sadak par hi aa gaya

Maine apne kambal ko utaara aur pefume ki poori

bottle ko uss par khaali kar

shareer par perfume na gire…..aur fir kambal ko

diya…………..saawdhaani ke saath ki mere

aur bottle ko neeche khaayim ein fenk

diya…………….
Main tez kadmo se waapas ghar ki taraf ko chal
diya ……………thoda aage jaate hi mujhe saamne
se ek gaadi aati dikhyi padi………..main turant ek
ped ke peechhe ko chhip gaya ……………….woh
ek fauzi jeep thi , jisme kareeb 8-10 aadmi dikhayi
pad rahe the…………..jeep ke nikalne ke baad
main fir jaldi jaldi ghar ki taraf ko badh gaya

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Main tez tez chalta hua…aur fir akhiri mein lag-

gaya………..ghar ke andar andhera dikhayi pad

bhag bhaagta hua ghar waapas pahunch

thi………….main tabele ke andar gaya , apne

raha tha…dono behne so rahi dikhti

kamre mein pahuncha …..apni revolver ko nikaal

kar bag ke andar daal diya aur bag ko bistar ke

gaya..
neeche chhipa diya …………aur fir bistar par let

hote reh gaya tha ……..main Aslam beg ko

Jis maksad se main gaya tha woh kaamyaab hote

khatam karna chahta tha , par uss tak pahunchne

se pehle hi mera khel bigad gaya ………par itna
sakoon to mujhe tha hi ki maine usko ek karari
chot di thi ……ab woh mujhe dhoondhne ki

bhi to yahi tha ….main uske paas pahunchu ya

koshish aur tez kar dega ………aur mera maksad

who mere paas….dono hi soorat mein who mere

saam ne to aayega hi…

rahe they………….main sone ki koshish karne

Maine ghadi mein time dekha…..kareeb 2.00 baj

laga aur jald hi neend mein doob gaya……..

…………..baahar tabele mein kuchh aahat si ho
Subah kisi ki aawaaz se meri aankh khuli

rahi thi ……..maine time dekha , 10.00 baj rahe

they……main uth kar baahar gaya ……….yeh

kaam kar rahi thi……….hamesha ki tarah hi , ek

Shaazia thi……….jaanvaro ko chara –paani ka

…………..maine gale ko khankaar kar saaf kiya

taaze fool ki tarah khoobsurat lag rahi thi

…….usne meri taraf dekha aur muskura di

……………..

woh apne kaam mein lagi rahi ….kuchh der ke

Main wahin kahad hua usko dekhta raha …aur

baad jab usne apna kaam nipta liya to , haath

dhokar mere paas aa gayi…………
“ Kaisa haal hai janaab ka ? ………………..raat
lagta hai neend bahut gehri aayi hai , itni der tak sote
rahe .” woh mere paas aakar , apni sada-bahar
muskurahat ke saath boli….

gayi , tumhara intezar karte karte………..” main bhi

“ Neend ki baat kar rahi ho !! yahan to poori raat kat

us ke hi andaaz mein bola

“ Achchha..!! maine kab kaha tha ki main tumhaare

haath ko pakad kar boli ………….

paas aaoongi ….? “ woh mere aur paas aakar mere
tum jaroor aaogi …..” maine bhi uske ek gaal ko
“ Tumne nahi kaha tha , par mujhe to ummeed thi ki

sehlaate huye kaha ..

gayi…….
woh thoda aur paas aayi aur fir mere se lipat

tumhaare saath hi rahoon , par kya karoon……..”

“ Dil to mera bhi yahi karta hai ki ab hamesha

woh mere se lipte lipte hi boli “ tum baaji se kab

baat karoge ? “

“ Kis baare mein ? “ maine uske chehre ko oopar

utha kar poochha
“ Mere baare mein , matlab hum dono ke baare mein

…………..
“ woh meri aankhon mein dekhti huyee boli

…. waise tumhaari baaji abhi kahan hain ? “ maine

“ jaldi hi …………balki koshish karoonga ki aaj hi

uske baalon mein haath ferte huye kaha , woh is

samay mere seene mein muh chhipa kar khadi thi

“ baaji gaanv mein gayi hai …………” woh boli

“ aree wah………….iska matlab , yahan sirf main

aur tum ho ? “ maine usko kas ke lipta liya aur fir

liya ………..
uska chehra oopar kar ke uske honthon ko choom
“ jee haan …………….yahan sirf hum dono hain ? “
usne kaha aur fir ek kiss mere gaal par kar diya

andar laakar bistar par leta diya ……….aur khud bhi

maine jhat se usko utha liya aur fir apne kamre ke

uske paas hi let gaya …

…………..baaji kisi bhi samay aa sakti hai “ woh

“ heyyy………..koi galat harkat nahi

mere seene par dono haath se mujhe peeche karti

ko choomne ki koshish kar raha tha………..

huyee boli , main uske oopar jhuk kar uske honthon

hatheli se sehlata hua bola …..” main bhi kahan koi

main ruk gaya …………fir uske ek gaal par apni

galat kaam karne waala hoon ……….sirf thoda sa

ras tumhaare honthon ka peena chahta hoon ….
Usne ek-do seconds meri aankhon mein dekha aur
fir muskura kar nazre jhuka li ………..

Maine jhat se apna chehra neeche jhukaya aur

apne honth uske honthon par tika diye …………
kuchh der tak chote –chote kiss uske honthon par
karne ke baad , maine apni jeebh se uske honthon
par dastak di……..usne apne honthon ko kholkar

……….meri jeebh uske muh ke andar chali gayi

maano mujhe aage badhne ki izazat de di

aur fir hum dono ke honth maano ek doosre ka ras

choosne m ein lag gaye …

Agne 10 minutes tak kamre mein sirf hum dono ki

hi jaa rahi thi ………..fir maine hi apne honthon ko

saanso ki awaaz hi aati rahi , jo dheere dheere badhti

uss se alag kiya …………….uski saanse bahut tez

ho gayi thi aur seena tezi se oopar neeche ho raha

maano nashe mein doob gayi thi………….

tha … … … … chehra laalho gaya tha auraankhen

Main jaanta tha ki iss se aage badhna abhi

mumkin nahi hai ………maine uske maathe par
ek kiss kiya aur fir uske gaalko choom kar uske
kaan mein bola “ main tumse bahut pyar karta
hoon Shaazia “

usne meri peeth ko apni baahon mein kas kar jakad

liya , ek paanv ko meri kamar par lipta diya aur apni
poori taakat se mujh se lipat gayi………jaise darr ho
ki main kahin chala na jaoon………
agle 2 minute tak hum dono aise hi lipte rahe
………..fir usne dheere se mujhe apne oopar se
hatne ka isshara kiya ……….main uss se alag hokar
gayi……….usne apne kapdo ko sahi kiya aur fir ek
baith gaya aur woh uth kar khadi ho

baaraurm ere gaalko choom karbaaharchaligayi

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Shaazia ke jaane ke kuchh der baad hi maine

dekha ki Hina ghar waapas laut aayi………main
abhi apne kamre se baahar nahi nikal sakta tha ,

…..mere dimaag mein baar baar yahi sawaal uth

isliye waapas apne bistar par aakar let gaya

anjaam nikla hoga …………..

raha tha ki jo kal raat maine kiya tha , uska kya

tha…….aasmaan par baadal chhaane lage they

Baahr m ausam fir se suhana hone laga
hone waali hai …….
aur lag raha tha kishaam tak fir se baarish shuru

11.30 baje ke aaspaas baahar aahat

huyee…….main seedha hokar baith gaya……kamre
ka darwaaja khula ….yeh Hina thi……basket mein

…………..
rakh karm ere liye khaana aurchay lekaraayithi

gayi………..usne basket mein se khana aur chay

woh andar aa gayi aur mere saamne baith

…………..fir khud deewar se peeth laga kar baith

nikaali aur mere saamne plate mein rakh di

gayi……….iss poore samay hum dono hi bilkul

chup they……
baahar dekhne lag gayi……….maine naashta karne
“ Naashat kar lo ……………. “ usne kaha aur fir

laga gaya… … …

“ Tum kal raat wahan gaye they na ? “ woh meri

taraf dekhti huyee boli ………main khaane mein
vyast tha , nigaah utha kar uski taraf dekha …uski

they…..
aankhon mein gussa aur shikayat dikhayi pad rahe

“ kahaan ?” maine anjaan bante huye kaha

“ tum jaante ho main kahan ki baat kar rahi hoon .”

usne tez awwaz mein kaha
maine ek baar uski taraf dekha aur fir khaane mein
vyast ho gaya …….

“ Kyon kar rahe ho tum aisa ? kya sirf isliye ki woh

pakistani tha aur tum pakistani logo se nafrat karte

tha ….
ho …” iss baar uski awaaz mein dard bhi shaamil

Main kuchh der chup raha ……….fir uski

aankhon mein dekhta hua bola “ nahi , meri
pakistani logo se koi jaati dushmani nahi hai , aur na
hi main pakistani logo se nafrat karta hoon

……par woh beech mein aa gaya ………..agar

…………main wahan kisi aur maksad se gaya tha

main usko nahi maarta to woh log mujhe maar

daalte …..”
“ Fir tum wahan kyon gaye they ? tum jaante ho
main tumhaare yahan se nikalne ka intezam karne
mein lagi huyee hoon , abhi tak tum kisis ki nigaah
mein nahi ho , par ab jaroor who log tumhe
dhondhne mein lag jaayenge ………..” woh meri
aankhon mein dekhti huyee bole jaa rahi thi …

“ tum mujhe galat samajh rahi ho Hina , main koi

tafreeh karne ke iraade se ya kisi adventure ki wajah
se wahan nahi gaya tha …………mera maksad sirf
Aslam beg tak pahunchna tha , aur main uske paas
kal raat hi pahunch jata , par thodi si gad-bad ho
gayi…aur saara khel bigad gaya …. “ main usko
samjhaate huye bola ……

“ aur tum Aslam beg tak kyon pahunchna chaahte

ho ? uss-se kya dushmani hai tumhaari “
…………..uski aankhon mein ab baichani si
dikhaayi pad rahi thi

main agle kuchh seconds chup raha ……..sochta

raha ki kya jawaab doon ..fir main bola “ meri koi
dushmani nahi hai Aslam beg se ……….par jo julm
usne tumhaare oopar aur tumhaare parivaar ke oopar

….bas “
kiye hain , main usko usski saza dena chaahta hoon

main chup ho gaya aur woh bhi kuchh der ke liye

kham osh ho gayi… … … …

Fir uss ne bartan sametne shuru kar diye ….saare

bartan usne tokri mein daal liye aur fir uth kar khadi
ho gayi……….woh baahar jaane ko mudi hi thi ki
maine fir se use awaaz di…..” Ruko Hina…..!”
who ruk gayi , aur ghoom kar meri taraf dekhne
lagi… … …

galat mat samajhna Hina ……..par yakeen mano

Main uske paas pahuncha aur fir bola “ mujhe

mera koi niji svaarth nahi hai iss sab mein …….jo
bhi kuchh tum dono ne mere liye kiya hai , woh

……….par mein ek aadmi hone ke naate ,

hamesha mere oopar tumhara karz rahega

chahta hoon ………..”

tumhaare saath huyi naa -insaafi ka badla lena
“ Par kyon …….. ? kya rishta hai tumhaara hum
logo se ? “ uski aankhon mein ab nami dikhaayi pad
rahithi

………………. aur agar kuchh bhi nahi to Insaniyat

“ naam to nahi maloom , par kuchh to rishta hai hi

ka rishta to banta hi hai , jis ke naate mein yeh sab

kuchh kar raha hoon ……………… “ main uske
kandhe par apna haath rakh kar , uski aankhon mein
jhaankta hua bola

nazrein jhuka li …………..agle kuchh seconds hum

woh kuchh pal meri aankhon mein dekhti rahi aur fir

sar uthaya aur meri taraf dekhti huyee boli ……..”

dono bilkul chup chaap khade rahe ………fir usne

shaam ko 4 baje ke baad Shaazia gaanv mein

jaayegi ………..mujhe tumse kuchh jaroori baat
karni hai , tum ghar ke andar aa jana “

keh kar woh mudi , aur fir baahar nikal gayi ….main
kamre ke darwaaze par khada hokar usko jaate huye
dekhte raha ………………
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hawa chalne lagi thi ……….baarish ya barfbaari ,

Dopahar ke 2.00 baj rahe they………baahar ab tez

kuchh bhi ho sakta tha………..tabhi kamre ka

huyee……….uske chehre par wahi masoomiyat

darwaaza khula aur Shaazia andar dakhil

bhaav dikhayi pad rahe they………….woh seedhi

bhari smile thi , par aankhon mein pareshaani ke

aakar mere paas baith gayi …..main jo abhi tak

leta hua tha , utth kar thoda sa oopar ko ho gaya
…………

………….par main Baaji ko bina bataaye yahan se

“ Ajay ………..maine bahut der tak socha

nahi jaane waali “ woh mere ek baaju ko pakad kar

boli… … …

mein thaam liya …….

“ Kyon kya ho gaya ? “ maine uska haath apne haath

“ Tum nahi jaante ………………ek baaji hi to hain

jo mere liye sab kuchh hain……meri maa-baap ,

……….aur main apne pyar ke liye unko dhokha de

bhai , behan sab kuchh wahin to hain Ajay

doon ? ………….naih Ajay , yeh main nahi kar

seene se lag gayi………….

paaongi ……………..” woh aage ko ho kar mere
“ aisa kuchh nahi hoga ………….main aaj hi Hina
se baatkarne w aala hoon… … … … … … tum fikra

…………. “ main usko dilasa deta hua bola

nahi karo , hum usko bata kar hi yahan se jaayenge

………..

“ Aur baaji ? woh yahan akeli rahegi…? “ woh muh

utha kar , meri aankhon mein dekhti huyee boli

hum usko bhi apne paas bula lenge ……..” mein

“ nahi ………sirf kuchh dino ke liye …………fir

kaha aur uske maathe ko choom liya ………..woh

mere se lipat gayi…………….
“ Tum nahi jaante ………..main tumse bahut pyar

main tumko paana nahi chaahti …………….. “ woh

karti hoon …………par meri baaji ki keemat par

gayi……………. “ aaj raat ko barfbaari jaroor

boli , aur fir mere se alag hokar khadi ho

hogi…………koshish karoongi , tumhaare raat mein

paas aane ki “ …..usne muskurakar kaha aur fir
ghoom karbaaharnikalgayi… … … … …
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leta raha……..baahar mausam badalta jaa raha

Fir agle 2 ghante tak main wahin apne bistar par

tha ……..kareeb 4.30 baje ke aas-pas Shaazia ghar

se baahar nikli ……apni typical kashmiri dress
mein , sar par scarf aur haath mein chhatri
…..uske jaane ke baad kareeb 15 minute tak maine
intezar kiya aur fir uth kar baahar aa gaya

maine pehle baahar jhanka……….door door tak

…………tabele ke darwaaze par pahunch kar

mujhe koi bhi dikhayi nahi pada ……..waise bhi

baadlo ki wajah se roshini kam hi thi ………maine
tezi ke saath , lagbhag bhaagta hua , saamne ghar

…….
ke darwaaze par pahunch gaya aur knock kiya

……..andar se Hina ki awaaz aayi , maine darwaaze

“ Andar aa jaao ………darwaaza khula hai ”

ko dhakela aur andar daakhil ho gaya ……………

aana “ ….maine ek second socha aur fir darwaaze

fir se awaaz aayi “ darwaaze ko band karte huye

ko andar se lock kar diya …..

main andar pahuncha………Hina kitchen mein
kuchh kaam kar rahi thi ……meri aahat par usne
mudkar dekha aur fir boli “ andar kamre mein baith
jaao Ajay ……..main abhi aati hoon “ ……..

main andar kamre mein pahunch gaya ………jo ki

gaya …………… 5 minute ke intezar ke baad Hina

uska bedroom tha aur ek lakdi ki kursi par baith

bhikam re m ein aa gayi… … … haath m ein ek tray

rahe they …………..

pakde huye jiss mein chay ke cup mujhe dikhayi pad

woh mere saamne bistar par baith gayi aur chay ki

tray ko wahin apne paas rakh kar ek cup meri taraf
badha diya………” lo , chay pee lo “
maine cup uske haath se liya aur fir uski taraf
dekhne laga……….. woh kuchh seconds meri taraf

bhi chay peene laga…….

dekhti rahi aur fir nazrein neechi kar li …….main

“ Aaj subah mein gaanv mein gayi thi ………..sab

jagah Shaukat ali ki maut ki hi charcha ho rahi thi

lag paya hai ki yeh kis ka kaam hai ..” woh chay
……………par abhi tak unn logo ko yeh nahi pata

peete huye boli , jawaab mein main sirf usko dekh

kar dheeme se muskura diya …

fir woh aage batane lagi “ woh log apne saath khozi

chauraahe ke paas aakar raasta bhatak gaye …..”

– kutte bhi lekar aaye they ………par woh bhi

maine man hi man apne aap ko shabashi di , mujhe

pehle se hi anumaan tha iss liye maine perfume ka
istem aalkiya tha

Fir woh apni jagah se uthi aur lakdi ki almaari ke

………. Who lifafa lekar waapas bistar par aa kar

oopar rakhe huye ek hare lifaafe ko utha liya

baith gayi aur fir chay peene lagi ………….

Agle 1 minute tak hum dono ……….bilkul chup

cup tray mein rakha aur mere se boli …….” Mere

chaap hokar chay peete rahe ………fir usne apna

………..”
paas tumhaare liye ek bahut achchhi khabar hai

…………..usne lifafa utha kar khola aur usmein

Maine sawaaliya nigaahon se uski taraf dekha

……..maine paper haath mein lekar dekha

se ek paper nikaal kar meri taraf badha diya
………….woh ek permit tha , Sohail malik ke
naam se bana hua , jiss par meri photo lagi huyee
thi… … …

………..maine khushi bhare chehre se uski taraf

Waakayi yeh mere liye ek achchhi khabar thi

dekha “ very good !!…………tumne yeh kaam kar

bhi diya ?”

………aur fir sar jhuka liya….. fir meri taraf

Jawaab mein woh meri taraf dekh kar muskurayi

dekhte huye boli “ ab tum , jab chaaho yahan se

jaa sakte ho ……….”

“ Thank you Hina……….. par main tumse yahi baat

karne aaya tha , main yahan se akela nahi jaana
mein dekhta hua bola ……..
chahta “ main dhadakte dil ke saath , uski aankhon

jawab mein woh fir muskurayi aur ek aur paper meri

taraf badhate huye boli “ tum yahan se akele nahi
jaaoge ……….yeh dekho “

gaya ….yeh Hina ke naam ka permit tha ………uski

maine paper haath mein lekar dekha , aur chaunk

photo ke saath………

m aine saw aaliya nigaahon se uskitaraf

dekha………………” main bhi tumhaare saath
jaaongi Ajay “ usne muskurahat ke saath jawaab
diya aur palang par thoda khisak kar mere paas aa

ki tarah tha ……….main kuchh seconds tak uss

gayi… … … … … yeh sab kuchh m ere liye ek shock
paper ko dekhte raha fir uski taraf dekhta hua bola
…………” tum galat samajh rahi ho Hina , mere
kehne ka yeh matlab nahi tha ……”

“ Fir ??? kya kehna chah rahe they tum Ajay ? “

woh mere haath par apna haath rakhte huye boli
…………

maine uski taraf dekha ……….aur fir bola “ dekho

galat mat samajhna Hina………….mera matlab
Shaazia se tha………main usko apne saath le jaana
chahta hoon “

soch bhi kaise liye ki aisa bhi ho sakta hai ………..

“ paagal to nahi ho gaye ho tum ……………..tumne

“ woh gusse mein boli ………….usne mera haath

gayi………….
chhod diya aur peechhe ko hokar baith

“ Yeh paagal pan nahi hai Hina ……………..main

Shaazia ko pyar karta hoon , aur uss se shadi
karne chahta hoon ………… “ main uski taraf dekh

kaise sab kuchh samjhaoon ……..

kar bola , meri samajh mein nahi aa raha tha ki usko

“ Aur Shaazia ………………woh yeh sab jaanti

hai ?? “ woh meri taraf ashcharya se dekhte huye
boli… … …

………….main khud hi tum se aaj baat karne waala

“ haan ……………. woh bhi mujh se pyar karti hai

tha , par tumne pehle hi ……………..” main uski

taraf dekhta hua bola …
woh palang se khadi ho gayi ………………. Apne
chehre ko usne apne haathon mein chhipa liya aur

rahi……….fir woh aage badhi aur mere paas aakar

fir agle kuchh seconds bilkul chup khadi

m ere saam ne baith gayi… … … …

…………….kya main sirf tumhaari jism ki pyas

“ Aur woh sab jo tumne mere saath kiya tha

bujhane ke liye hi hoon …………… “ woh mere

dono haathon ko apne haathon se pakad kar meri
aankhon mein jhaankte huye boli …………

“ yeh tum bhi jaanti ho Hina ki uss raat kya hua

tha……………woh mere nahi tumhaare jism ki

majboor kiya tha………..main to bas galat fehmi

pyas thi jis ne humein woh sab karne ke liye
mein tumhaara saath deta raha aur jab samajh mein

bola aur fir uski taraf dekha …………….

aaya to bahut der ho chuki thi “ main sar jhuka kar

lagbhag cheekhte huye boli …..

“ Galat fehmi ? ……….kaisi galat fehmi ? “ who

main 2-3 second chup raha ………fir bola “ dar asal

……….jab tum mere paas aayi to main samjha

main uss raat Shaazia ka intezar kar raha tha

……….” Main uski taraf dekhta hua bola

…………..tumne soch bhi kaise liye ki main apni

“ Tum waakayi paagal ho gaye ho Ajay

behan ko tumhaare hawaale kar doongi ……………

karoge …….. apne saath le jaakar tum uska istemaal
mujhe maloom hai kit um uss bechaari ka kya haal

…………..nahi Ajay , main aisa nahi hone doongi

karoge aur fir usko be-sahar chhod doge

usne mere ek baaju ko bhi pakda hua tha ………..

………” woh gussse mein bole jaa rahi thi , saath hi

usko dil se chahta hoon ……. Main uss se shadi

“ Tum ab bhi galat samajh rahi ho …………..main

bula loonga……….” Maine uska haath pakad kar

karoonga aur fir jald hi tum ko bhi wahin apne paas

usko samjhaya ……….jise usne turant hi chhuda

liya … …

“ nahi …Shaazia tumhaare saath nahi

mere saath aisa nahi kar sakte Ajay ………..” keh

jaayegi………..agar koi jaayega to main …….tum
kar usne fir mera haath pakad liya ……….uski
aankhon mein ab aansoon aa gaye they …..

aankhon mein dekhte huye poochha …….

“ Aur Shaazia yahan akeli rahegi ..? “ maine uski

“ Uski tum fikr mat karo………………….maine

nikaah kar lega……..” woh meri aankhon mein

Hasan se baat kar rakhi hai………..woh Shaazia se

dekhti huyee boli …………..

main jhatke se khada ho gaya aur fir uski taraf

dekhta hua bola..“ Tum samajhne ki koshish kyon
nahi kar rahi ho Hina…………… , hum dono ek

……….aur tum hum dono ko alag-alag karne ki

doosre se pyar karte hain , shaadi karna chahte hain
planning kar rahi ho ………….yeh nahi ho sakta
Hina , kabhi nahi …..”

“ Aur agar main Shaazia ko yeh bata doon ki

………..fir to woh kabhi tumse shaadi nahi karegi

tumhaara aur mera kya rishta hai ………fir ?

…? ‘ woh meri aankhon mein dekhte huye boli

tumhara Hasan ke saath bhi hai …………….hum

“ Fir to tumhe yeh bhi batana padega ki wahi rishta

dono hi tumhare jism ki pyas bujhane ka saadhan

kaha ……..sun kar uske chahra safed pad gaya

hain “ maine bhi uski aankhon mein dekhte huye

…………….woh kuchh der tak mere chehre ko

dekhti rahi aur fir sar jhuka liya …………..
tum baat ko achchhi tarah samajh lo Hina………..ab
main ek kadam peechhe hat gaya aur fir aage bola “

main yahan se akela nahi jaane waala………..agar

………..nahi to main apni poori zindagi yahin par

main gaya to Shaazia mere saath jaayegi

guzar doonga………” keh kar maine fir uski taraf

chukka tha ……….main muda aur kamre se baahar

dekha ………….uska chahre bilkul safed pad

nikal aaya………….

taraf chal diya …………..Hina ki baaton se mera

Ghar ka darwaaza khol kar main waapas tabele ki

sar chakra gaya tha aur iss hi wajah se maine yeh

bulb nahi jal raha hai ………..baahar ab boonda -

bhi dhyaan nahi diya ki tabele ke andar laga hua

……….main tez tez chalta hua tabele ke andar

baandi hone lagi thi aur andhera sa ho gaya tha

dakhil hua aur fir maano mere sar par aasmaan

toot pada ho …………….ek zor ka prahar mere
sar par hua , meri aankhon ke saamne andhera
chhaa gaya aur m ain neeche gir kar behoshim ein
doobta chala gaya ……………………….
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rahe they………….mujhe apne sar par , kandhe

Dheere dheere mere hosh-o-hawaas waapas aa

par aur pasliyon mein dard mehsoos ho raha tha ,

bhi maara gaya ho………..

lag raha tha ki jaise mujhe behoshi ki haalat mein

Maine aankhein khol kar dekhne ki koshish ki

……………ek tez roshini meri aankhon mein pad
rahi thi , jis ki wajah se mujhe fir se aankhen band
karni pad gayi …fir aankhon ke aage haath rakh
kar maine , apni aankhon ko dobaara khola ……
agle kuchh minutes to mujhe apni condition aur
situation ko samajhne mein lag gaye …………

maidaan mein pada hua tha………….mere saamne

Main ghar aur tabele ke beech mein , khaali

ek jeep khadi thi jiski headlights on thi aur mere

chehre par pad rahi thi …… jeep ke bonnet par koi
baith hua tha , jis ke pair aur shoes hi mujhe
dokhayi pad rahe the ………..meri right side mein ,
ghar ki deewar se peeth laga kar Hina baithi huyee

khada hua tha ………….uss aadmi ke haath mein

thi aur uske paas ek aadmi , fauzi wardi mein ,

ek pistol thi , jiska rukh Hina ke sar ki taraf tha

………
………..jeep ke bonnet par baitha aadmi aage
Maine apne pairo par khade hone ki koshish ki

……….main waapas jameen par hi gir

badha aur ek laat mere seene par maari

gaya………….achanak jeep ki head lights off ho

gayi………..par kyonki ghar ke saamne laga hua
bulb on tha ….agle kuchh seconds mein hi saara
nazara mere saamne tha………..

beg tha………. Aaj pehli baar main usko itne

Saamne jeep ke bonnet par baitha aadmi Aslam

najdeek se dekh raha tha……….lamba kad , chauda

shareer aur chehre par ek kathorta thi…….par
saath hi badi ajeeb si smile bhi uske chehre par
dikhayi pad rahi thi …………jeep ki driving seat

umar ka tha ……..ek teesra aadmi , jo fauzi wardi

par ek aur aadmi baitha hua tha ,who kuchh jyada

mein hi th jeep ke right side mein aur Aslam beg se

kabje mein kiya hua tha……….uski ek baahn
kuchh peechhe , khada tha aue usne Shaazia ko apne

mein ek AK47 dikhayi pad rahi thi………..kul

Shaazia ki gardan mein lipti huyee thi aur haath

mein nahi tha………..

milakar main abhi kuchh bhi kar pane ki condition

“ Kaise mijaaj hain aapke ……………Flight

Lieutenant Ajay Rathod saab……… “ Aslam beg ki

……….
moti aur kathor awaaz mere kaano mein padi

“ Aako kya laga tha……ki aap humaare mulk mein

baith kar tamasha dekhenge ……. “ usne aage kaha

aakar kuchh bhi karte rahoge aur hum chup chaap

…….
who mera naam bhi jaanta tha ……..iska matlab
Mere liye yeh badi hairat badi waali baat thi ki

Hina ya Shaazia mein se kisi ek se inhone

poochhtach ki hai ……….

Fir usne mere sawaal ka maano khud hi jawaab de

naam kaise maloom pada ? ……..yeh to humein

diya “ kya soch raha hai ..? yahi ki mujhko tera

maloom hi tha ki koi Hindustani aadmi uss plane

m ein se gira haiaur abhiiss ilake m ein hi
hai…………humne apne Hindustan ke
connections se maloom kiya to pata chala ki jo
plane crash hua tha uska piolet F light Lieutenant

shaheed ho gaya …….“ kuchh der ruk kar who fir

Ajay Rathod tha , jo bechara iss haadse mein

to tu kab ka mar chukka hai……..ha ha ha ha…”

aage bola “ iska matlab , apne desh waalo ke liye
………….. fir aage bolna shuru kiya…..
hansi ke saath who kuchh der ke liye ruka

banaya tha………..ek baar to humaare kutte bhi

“ Tune Shaukat ko maarne ke baad , plan to achchha

raasta bhatak gaye the……….fir ek baat par humne

gaurkiya kiho sakta haim aarne w aala gharke
peechhe ke raaste se yahan aay ho ………fir humne
kutto ko ghar ke peechhe bheja aur yahan tak
pahunch gaye……….”

Who lagatar bolta jaa raha tha “ main pehle

shaayad tujhe asaan maut deta , magar tune

……..ab tu to tadaf tadaf kar marega hi

Shaukat ali ko maar kar bahut badi galti kar di

……..saath mein teri inn dono chahne-waaliyon ka

bhibahutbura hashra m ain karoonga… … … … ab
hashra apni aankhon se dekhna chahta hai……..”
tu hi bata , pehle tujhe maut chahiye , ya tu inka

seedha hokar baith gaya ……….woh sahi keh

Main thoda sa uth kar , apna sar oopar kar ke ,

raha tha , maut bilkul mere saamne thi , aur iss baat
ne hi mere dard ko gaayab kar diya tha …………
ab jo kuchh bhi mujhe karna tha , woh agle kuchh
minutes ke under hi hona chaahiye …………

Meri nigaah saamne jeep ke bonnet par

hua tha ………….isska matlab meri revolver ab

padi………….mera bag jeep ke boneet par pada

inn logo ke kabje mein thi………….ek baar to

mera dil baith gaya ……….lagne laga ki mera khel
ab khatam ho chukka hai… … … … … fir kuchh
dhyaan aate hi mere man mein ek aakhiri ummed
jaag gayi………….

Maine apne charo taraf dekha …………..baarish

tez hone waali thi ……………….. Aslam beg aur

ki halki halki boonde pad rahi thi , jo kisi bhi samay

Driver ke hath mein koi hathiyar dikhayi nahi de

logo ki bandooko se bachna tha ………….maine

raha tha …………iska matlab mujhe baaki dono

ek baar Shaazia ki taraf dekha …………uske

chehre par khauf tha , par saath hi ek ummed bhi

……………….
ki shaayad main kuchh kar sakta hoon

……………..tu kal raat mujhse milna chahta tha aur

“ Waise teri akhiri khwayish bhi poori ho gayi

aaj main tere saamne khada hoon ………..bata kya

chahata hai tu mere se ? “ woh chehre par ek
kam eenim uskaan laakarbola …

tha ki mujhe kya karna hai ….main uski taraf dekhta

m aine ab action ka faisla karliya tha aursoch liya

hua , muskurata hua bola “ teri maut chahta hoon

ladkiyon par kiya hai……..uska hisaab chukta karna

Aslam beg …………………jo julm tune inn

hai mujhe “

“ ha ha ha ha ha ha ha …………………. Maan-na
padega ………..tu aadmi to bahadur hai………maut
ke saamne achchhe –achchho ki fat jaati hai
……..par tu to aise baat kara raha hai jaise tere
foonk mare hi main mar jaane waala hoon ……..”
woh thoda saa age jhuk kar , meri aankhon mein
dekhta hua bola ……………
bas iss hi pal ka mujhe intezar tha …………..maine

aur seddha uske chare par fenk di ………….. ek

apne dono haathon mein jameen par e mitti uthayi

kar ……..woh peeche ko ho gaya ………….iss se

cheekh ke saath , apne chehre ko haathon se dhak

pehle ki uske saathi kuchh samajh paate ……….

ke andar chhalaang laga di ……………….

main bahut tezi ke saath utha aur bhaagte hue tabele

5 seconds se bhi kam samay mein main tabele ke

andar wahan pahunch gaya…jahan par chhat mein ,

huyee thi jo maine uss police waale (sohail malik) se

ghaas foos ke andar ,maine woh revolver chhipayi

chheeni thi ………andaaj se hi maine oopar haath

dala aur revolver mere haath main aa
gaya…………..revolver nikaal kar main bhaagta

woh L shape mein bana hua tha ………..wahan ek

hua tabele ke doosre sire par pahunch gaya jahan

……….. khidki ke paas jaakar maine dheere se

chhoti si khidki thi jo saamne ki taraf hi khulti thi

baahar jhanka………………

ganeemat thi ki unn logo ne abhi dono behno mein

………..Aslam beg jeep ke peechhe ko ho gaya tha

se kisi ko koi nuksaan nahi pahunchaya tha

par baaki dono aadmi……..dono behno ko kabje

…………….
men kiya huye , apni apni jagah par hi maujood they

“ Jaldi se baahar nikal kar aaja …………….tu bhi

………….fir kyon inn bechariyon ki maut ko aur

jaanta hai ki tu hum logo se nahi bach sakta hai
mushkil bana raha hai ………….” Aslam beg ki
awwaz aayi , saath hi uska ek haath jeep ke peeche
se jhankta hua dikhayi pada jiss me usne ek revolver
pakda hua tha………….
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Ab woh sabhi log meri nigaah mein they , par jiss

shaayad nahi laga sakte they ……..na hi unko yeh

jagah par main tha.........uss ka anumaan woh log

……………. Maine revolver ko check kiya……… 5

maloom hoga ki mere paas koi hathiyar bhi hai

goliyan abhi usme baaki thi ……….aur mere

saamne 4 log they jinse mujhe nipatna
tha………..meri problem yeh thi ki main ek baar
mein ek hi ko nishaana bana sakta tha …….aur pehli
goli chalte hi baaki sab ko pata chal jaana tha ki

hai………….
main kahan hoon aur mere paas koi hathiyar bhi

Driver ke alaawa baaki 3 log mere nishaane par

they…………teeno hi tabele ke darwaaze ki taraf
dekh rahe they………usnko yahi ummed thi ki

……………..par mujhe yeh faisla karna tha ki

main jo bhi action loonga , wahin se loonga

pehle kaun ……………… maine sabse pehle uss

se nipatne ka faisla kiya jo jeep ke baahar ,
Shaazia ko pakad ke khada hua tha………..woh
Shaazia ke bilkul peeche tha……….uska seedha

tha……….poora shareer Shaazia ke peeche chhipa

haath Shaazia ki gardan se lipta hua

hua tha………..bas uska ek haath , jisme usne

AK47 pakdi huyee thi , baahar tha,………aur uska
ek pair thoda sa baahar nikla hua
tha… … … … … …

kiya…………..meri jara si chook se goli Shaazia

Maine man hi man oopar waale ko yaad

ko bhilag saktithi… … … … … m aine uske ghutne

……………………….dhishoonnn…ki awaaz
(knee) par nishana lagaya aur trigger daba diya

huyee….. nishaana bilkul sahi laga aur woh aadmi

gaya………….uske haath se Gun nikal gayi aur

apne ghutne ko pakad kar neeche ko baithta chala

saath mein Shaazia bhi …………………………

jaise ki mujhe umeed thi , theek wahi kaam
Shaazia ne kiya …………woh uske haath se
chhot-te hi apni right taraf bhaagi aur tabele ke

gayi………………………. Maine dobara nishaana

peechhe ki taraf ko chali
lagaya……….iss baar uss hi aadmi ke sar
par……….ek aur dhamaka hua ………..ek aur

gayi…………..uss ke muh se awaaz bhi nahi nikal

goli chali , iss baar uss ke sar mein ghuss

payi aur woh apni jagah par hi dher ho

gaya… … … … …

Baaki dono log mere iss hamle se ek dum baukhla

ke aur peechhe kar liya ………….aur doosra

gaye……………… Aslam beg ne apne aap ko jeep

aadmi jo Hina ko cover kiye huye tha… ab yahan

ki koshish kar raha tha ki main kahan hoon…. Ab

–wahan dekh raha tha…..woh anumaan lagaane

maine uss doosra aadmi ka nishana lagaya , maine

laga kar trigger daba diya ……….dhishhhun ki

revolver ko seedha kiya aur uske sar ka nishaana

awaaz huyee……..par iss baar nishana chook gaya

…………goli chalte hi woh aadmi thoda sa hat

mein sama gayi…………. Uska hashra bhi pehle

gaya aur goli uske sar ke bajaaye , uski pasliyon

waale ki tarah hi hua……….woh jameen par gir

gaya aur apne pet ko pakad kar dohra ho

…………. Apni jagah se uth kar ghar ke andar

gaya………… Hina jo abhi tak neeche baithi thi

bhaag gayi………….

Ab mujhe Aslam beg se nipatna tha…………main

apni jagah se hata aur tezi se bhaagta hua , tabele ke
darwaaze par aa gaya ………….. maine dheere se
baahar jhanka…………jeep ke peeche mujhe uski
jhalak dikhayi pad rahi thi …….uske haath mein

chahta tha……..kyon ki 3 fire main already kar

revolver tha aur main ab koi aur fire nahi karna
chukka tha aur goliyon ki awaaz jaroor aas –paas
sunayi pad rahi hogi…

Maine ek baar neeche jhuk kar dekha , mujhe sahi

mein hai………..main dheere se baahar nikla ,

sahi idea nahi hua ki woh iss samay kis position

meri revolver mere haathon mein bilkul tayyar thi ,

aur aankhen jeep par hi jami huyee thee… Main
tabele ki deewar se peeth laga kar apni left side
mein badha ……dheere dheere badhta hua main

kaam ek saath huye …….Aslam beg apni jagah se

jeep ki taraf chal raha tha …………achanak do

utha aur ek fire mere oopar kar diya, uss ke haath

mein woh revolver tha jo usne mere bag mein se
nikaala tha, silencer laga hua………main bilkul alert
tha … … … iss fire ko m ain neeche hokarbacha gaya

……. Yeh driver tha , jisko main kuchh der ke liye

…………tabhi peeche se kisi ne mujhe pakad liya
bhoolhigaya tha… … … usne ek haath se m eri

tha ………..par uske shareer ki takat mere saamne

kamar ko aur doosre se meri gardan ko pakda hua

koi maayne nehi rakhti thi …..

ko meri taraf seedha kiya…….. aur fir 2 kaam ek

Aslam beg ne yeh scene dekhte hi fir apne revolver

saath huye ………main apna seedha haath Kandhe

mere haath mein aa gaya …….maine ek jhatka diya

ke oopar se peeche le gaya , uss driver ka coller

aurw oh m ere saam ne aa gaya… … … uss hisam ay

Aslam beg ne mere oopar fire kar diya ……………
pitt ..ki awaaz nikli aur goli driver ke shareer mein

se dabaye huye wahin dher ho gaya …………..

sama gayi………woh bechara apne seene ko haath
gaya ………….usne fir se mere oopar fire kar diye ,
Iss achanak huyighatna se A slam beg aurbaukhla

………….uska pehla fire to khaali chala gaya, par

par tab tak main uske oopar jump laga chukka tha

gayi……….ek dard ki leher mere shareer mein uthi

doosri goli mere kandhe ko chheelti huye chali

nahi diya……….main jhuk kar uss par jhapta

par uske baad maine usko aur fire karne ka mauka

…………………..apne sar ki chot uske pet par ki

aur fir uski kamar ko apni dono haath se pakad kar
peeche ko dhakelta chala gaya ………………kuchh
door tak woh peeche ko hua aur fir uske kadam
jameen se ukhad gaye…………main uske revolver
waali kalayi ko apne haath se dabocha aur doosre

chala gaya……..4-5 waar mein hi woh past pad

haath se lagatar ghoonse uske chehre par jamata

gaya aur revolver uske haath se nikal gaya ……

…….woh jameen par , mere pairo ke paas pada
Fir main revolver utha kar , khada ho gaya

hua tha……..maine apni revolver , jo abhi uske

……….pitt ki halki si awaaz huyii aur goli seedhi

haath se giri thi , uski taraf ki aur ek fire kar diya

uski jaangh mein sama gayi …. ek tez cheekh uske

muh se nikli…………….usne dono haathon se
apni jaangh ko pakad liya aur uske chehre par

minute mein hi poori baazi palat chuki thi …….

dard ki lakeere saaf dikhayi pad rahi thi……. Sirf 5

tha ….ab uske 2 aadmi ya to mar chuke the ya

Jahan 5 minute pehle maine jameen par pada hua

apni aakhiri saans gin rahe they……….teesra

behosh tha aur woh khud mere rehmo-kadam par

……….” Hina….baahar aa jao ………..”

jinda tha…….. Maine Hina ko awaaz lagayi
1 minute baad hi Hina ghar ka darwaaza khol kar
baahr nikli …….saath hi meri awaaz Shaazia ke

kuchh chhip kar dekh rahi thi …….woh bhi tabele

paas bhi pahunch chuki thi, Ya fir shaayad who sab

gayi………..dono ke chehro par hi khauf ke nishaan

ke peechhe se nikal kar mere paas aa

abhi tak maujood they…….. dono behne dheere-

dheere chalti huye mere paas aa gayi aur mere dono

Aslam beg ke chehre ki taraf daali………..uski

taraf khadi ho gayee………… maine ek nigaah

raha tha………..maine apni revolver ko check

aankhon mein ab maut ka khauf saaf dikhayi pad

kiya……..abhi bhi 3 goliyan baaki thi …….maine

revolver Hina ki tafa badha diya aur kaha..” Lo Hina
………..tumhaara mujrim tumhaare saamne hai
…….tum apne oopar huye saare julmon ka badla iss
se le sakti ho…”
Hina ne ek dum chaunk kar meri taraf dekha ,
jaise woh meri kahi huyee baat par yakeen na kar

kathorta si aa gayi…………..usne revolver mere

paa rahi ho………..fir uske chehre par achanak

haath se liaur Aslam beg kitaraftaan

di……..Aslam beg ne usthne ki koshish ki , par
maine ek laat uske seene par mari…woh fir se
jameen par dher ho gaya…… Hina ne dono
haathon se revolver ko tham liya aur ……uske

kisi bhi pal goli chalane waali hai………. F ir

haath kaamp rahe they……lag raha tha ki who

gaya…………..uski aankhon mein se aansoo beh

achanak uska haath neeche ho

nikle aur fir woh foot-foot kar rone lagi………….

maine uske neeche huye haath ko apne haath se

taraf taan diya ………….. Kyon kya hua ……? Kya

pakda ……….aur fir dobara revolver Aslam beg ki
kiya tha……….tumhaare shauhar ki maut ,
tum bhoolgayiho kiiss ne tum haare saath kya kya

maut…….sab kuchh ek baar fir se yaad kar lo “

tum haare bhaikim autaurtum haare bachche ki

gayi….uska haath revolver par kas gaya ………

Uske chehre par fir se wahi gussa aur kathorta aa

mujhe maloom tha ki woh fir bhi goli nahi chala

paayegi………. baaki kaam maine poora kar diya…

aur fir ek ke baad ek , 3 goliyan uske seene mein

revolver ki trigger ko maine apni ungali se dabaya

utaar di……….uska shareer kuchh seconds tak tadfa

aur fir shant ho gaya……. Hina ki aankhon se

mere peeche ko muh chhipa liya tha…………..

aansoo bahe ja rahe thay aur Shaazia ne dar ke mare

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maidaan mein ab bilkul sannnata chhaya hua tha , 3
murda shareer aur ek adhmara aadmi wahan pade
huye they .........Hina rote-rote jameen par baith gayi

rahi thi…..dono behne ek doosre se lipat kar ro rahi

thi aur Shaazia uss ko chup karaane ki koshish kar

thi…Mujhe iss baat ka bhi dar tha ki kahin Aslam

beg ne marne se pehle Apne saathiyon ko koi
message na de diya ho …agar aisa hua to, bahut hi
jald yahan aur bhi log pahunchne waale honge ……

ab mera dhyaan apne kandhe par bhi gaya.....jahan

se ek goli chhoo kar gujar gayi thi ... par usne ek
achchha khaasa jakham bana diya tha...halka - halka

raha tha... maine idhar udhar dekha fir shaazia se

khoon lagataar beh raha tha aur meri bajoo ko bhigo

bola " Shaazia , jara ek kapda laakar meri kandhe

par baandh do " ..
gaya……….fir Hina jaldi se uthh kar ghar ke
Meri iss baat se dono behno ka dhyaan meri taraf

andar chali gayi……..maine saare hathiyar uthaa kar

jeep mein ikatthe kar diye ……….apni dono

neeche chhipa di.....itni der mein hi Hina waapas

revolver maine waaps jaakar kamre mein bistar ke

laut aayi….uske haath mein ek sheeshi

thi…….mere paas aakar usne mujhe neeche baithne
ko kaha aur fir sheeshi mein se koi liquid lekar
kapde par daala , aur uss kapde ko mere kandhe par ,
jakham ke oopar rakh diya…..ek tez jalan mere

gayi…………. Agle kuchh seconds ke liye maano

jakham se hokar poore shareer mein daud

mera poora shaheer hi sunnn pad gaya ho…….fir

usne ek kapde ki patti uss jagah par bandh di…….

Mere paas ab aaram karne ka time nahi tha

………maine chaaro ke shareer ek –ek karke utha
kar jeep ke andar daal diye …………….fir unke
hathiyaron ko khaali kar ke waapas jeep ke
pichhle hisse mein daal diya ……

Baarish ab tez hone lagi thi………….shaayad

oopar waala bhi mera saath de raha tha ………
unn chaaro ka khoon , jo jameen par bikhra pada

………..main jeep ki driving seat par baitha aur

tha ……baarish ke paani se dhulta ja raha tha

jeep ko start kar diya …..fir maine jeep ko

ghumaya aur waapas gaanv ki taraf jaane waali
pagdandi par badha diya ……….kuchh aage
jaakar fir maine ek lamba U turn liya …aur ek

……….nadee ke paas pahunch kar main left side

lamba chakaar kaat kar nadee ki taraf chal diya
laga ………..
main mud gaya aur nadee ke saath saath hi chalne

Baarish ab bhi ho rahi thi par saath hi saath barf-

aur bhi achchhi bath thi………….main jeep ko

baaribhishuru ho gayithi… … … m ere liye yeh

kareeb 3 kilometer aage le gaya aur fir gaadi ka

rukh neeche dhalaan ki taraf kar diya ……..iske
aage ek teekhi dhalaan neeche ja rahi thi…………
kull milakar yahan se gaadi aage jaati to seedhi
khayim ein higirnithi… … …

……….………fir maine gaadi ko start kiya

Maine ek baar fir oopar waale ko yaad kiya

………….clucth ko daba kar maine gear dala aur

accelerator ko poora daba diya ....... fir jhatke se
clutch ko chod diya ……………gaadi poori speed
gaya………….gaadi neeche khayi ki taraf jaa rahi
se aage badhi aur main gaadi se baahar kood

neeche jaate dekhta raha ……….fir waapas chal

thi ………agle kuchh seconds tak main usse

diya ………….

Kuchh der pehle tak khoon behna band ho chukka

khoon behne laga tha ……..maine apne seedhe

tha …par ab fir se shareer ko garmi mil gayi thi aur

haath se apne kandhe ko dabaye huye aage badhta

raha ………eke k kadam uthana mujhe bahut bhaari
pad raha tha , par mere saamne koi aur raasta
nahi thi………mere liye sirf ek hi jagah sabse
jyada mehfooz thi aur main jald-se-jald wahan
pahunchna chah raha tha …………..
Agle 1/2 ghante tak main yoon hi ghisat-ghisat kar
chalta raha ……..ab main ghar se sirf 200 meter ki
doori par tha …………barf lagataar pad rahi thi par
mera poora shareer paseene se nahaya hua tha
………khoon meri baanh se hota hua , meri hatheli

shareer ne jawaab de diya ……….meri aankhon kea

se hokarneeche gira raha tha … … … firm aano m ere

age andhera chhaa gaya aur mere pair one mera bojh

ladkhadaye aur main neeche gir pada ……….neeche

uthaane se mana kar diya ………mere kadam

………………….
girte hi main apne hosh khota chala gaya

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……..maine apni aankhen kholne ki koshish ki ,

Mujhe dheere-dheere hosh aane laga tha
sar mein bahut tez dard hua tha……….meri
par fir band kar leni padi…aankh kholte hi mere

aankhen band thi ,par dimaag kaam kar raha tha…

m ain sochh raha tha kim ere saath kya hua
tha……main wahan maidaan mein behosh ho
gaya tha … m aloom nahim ain iss sam ay kahan
hoon ?

mulayam bistar par leta hua tha ….fir dheere

Maine apne haathon ko chalaya……main kisi

dheere maine apni aakhen kholi…..kuchh seconds

kar dekhne mein…..fir mujhe maloom pad gaya ki

lag gaye mujhe apni aankhen poori tarah se khol

main bilkul safe hoon…….ji haan , main wahin tha

mein …..unn ke ghar mein , bistar par main leta

jahan mujhe hona chaahiye tha ..Shaazia ke ghar

hua tha……..maine apne aas-paas nigah

gaayab ho gaya ….
ghumaayi aur mere sar ka dard mano poora
Main jis bistar par leta hua tha ……uss hi par ,
mere right side mein …palang ke sirhaane se lag kar
Shaazia baithi huyee so rahi thi…..woh jis position
mein thi , usko dekh kar lag raha tha ki who mere
paas baithi rahi hogi aur fir baithe-baithe hi so
gayi thi…

ki koshish ki …….par apni kohniyon par wazan

Maine thoda sa auth kar apne aap ko seedha karne

gayi….aur mere kandhe mein ek dard ki lehar si

daalte hi mere muh se ek halki si cheekh nikal

daud gayi…..main bhool hi gaya tha ki mere

behosh hone ki wajah mere kandhe ka jakham tha
…mujhe fir se aankhen band kar ke letna pad
gaya
gayi thi aur usne jhat se aankhen khol di ….kuchh
Meri awaaz Shaazia ke bhi kaano tak pahunch

der tak woh mere chehre ko dekhti rahi fir

achanak se uske chehre par ek muskurahat aa gayi
aur woh uth kar doosre kamre ki taraf daud si gayi
..

gaya……….” Uski awaaz mere kaano mein pad rahi

“ baaji…..baaji …….dekho …..unko hosh aa

thi ……….maine fir se aankeh kholi….ab dono

behne wahin uss kamre mein thi……..Hina palang
par hi baithi huyee thi aur Shaazia uss ke peechhe
khadi huyi thi ….dono ke chehro par hi khushi
dikhayi pad rahi thi …

kar Hina ne poochha…….jiska jawaab maine apna

“ Kaise ho Ajay ?” mere haath par apna haath rakh

sar hila kar aur muskuraahat se diya…..

maine dono ke chehro ko baari baari se dekha aur fir

mera sawaal hi bewkoofi bhara tha…….jaahir hai ki

poochha “ main yahan par kaise aa gaya……..? ”

yeh dono hi mujhe yahan utha kar laayi hongi

“ jab tum kaafi der tak nahi aaye to hum tumhe

dhoondne gayi thi …….tum wahan maidaan ke uss
taraf behosh pade they ……… shukra karo ki barf

beh paaya……..fir bhi jitna beh chukka hai , wahi

baai ki wazah se tumhaara khoon bahut jyada nahi

kaafi tha tumhe behosh karne ke liye …….” Akhiri

baahar chali gayi……….Shaazia kuchh der tak meri

baatkehte kehte w ho m uskurayiaurfirutth kar

taraf dekhti rahi ……maine bhi usko dekhte huye

m uskurane kikoshish ki… firw oh bhikam re se
baaharnikalgayi
……..baahar halki halki roshini ho rahi thi…….iska
maine khidki se baahar dekhne ki koshish ki

matlab din nikal aaya tha ……par mausam ka kya

……..maine fir se ek baar saare shareer ki takkat ko

mizaaz tha , yeh mujhe nahi maloom tha

bistar ke sirahaane se take laga kar bith gaya……….

ikaththa kiya aur fir apni kohniyon ka bal uth kar

gayi…….woh mere liye doodh le kar aayi thi

Thodi hi der mein Shaazia fir se waaaps aa

….maine gilaas uske haath se le liya aur fir doodh

peene laga …….woh planang par hi baith kar meri

haal hai “ maine uss se poochha …….

taraf dekhti rahi …… “ baahar mausam ke kya
…………..ab to baahar achchhi khaasi barf ikaattha
“ Kal raat se hi lagataar barfbaari ho rahi hai

ho gayi hai……….. “ usne bataya……..fir mere

…………..
hath se khaaligilaas le karbaaharchaligayi

maine fir se aankh band kar ke le gaya ………… “

ki awaaz thi , maine aankhen kholi ……….woh

Lo…………… dawaayi kha lo “ iss baar yeh Hina

mere paas palang par hi baithi thi ………..usne apna

haath meri taraf badhaya ………maine uske haath se
dawaayi le li ……3-4 goliyan thi ………..maine

gilaas le kar pee liya……….fir usne ek aur gilaas

muh mein daal li aur fir uske haath se paani ga
meri taraf badhaya……….maine swaaliyan nigaah
se uss se poochaa………..

“ Pee lo ………….. tumhaare dard mein aaraam

karega “ usne kaha aur fir maine uske haath se gilaas
le kar honthon se lagaya aur ek hi saans mein poora
gilaas khaali kar diya ………….jo kuchh bhi tha ,
kaafi kadwa tha ……..fir main dobara se let gaya
aur aankhen band kar li …………….kuchh hi der
mein main fir se so gaya ………………
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Dobara meri aankh khuli to main apne aap ko
pehle se jyada fir mehsoos kar raha tha……….mere
kandhe mein bhi ab dard pehle se kam mehsoos ho
raha tha… … … … m ain uth kar baith gaya aur fir
baahar dekhne ki koshish karne
laga………..baahar dhundh dikhayi pad rahi
thi….iska matlab abhi bhi mausam pehle jaisa hi
tha…..yeh mere liye achchhi baat thi kyon ki jiss
jeep ko kal raat main khaayi mein dhakel kar aaya

nahi aa paayegi……….
tha , woh barf ki wajah se jaldi kisi ki nigaah mein

………….mujhe apne shareer mein kamjori ka

Maine bistar se uthne ki koshish ki

ehsaas hua par fir mein bistar se uth kar khada ho

baahar aaya ……..saamne kitchen mein dekha ,

gaya ………dheere dheere chal kar main kamre se

wahan koi bhi nazar nahi aaya… main aur aage

gayi…………..
chalne hi waala tha ki Shaazia wahan aa

“ Arrreee…..! aap baahar kyon aa gaye …………

chaliye waapas bistar par jaakar aaram
kijiye…………” usne mujhe dekhte hi kaha aur fir
aayi……..aur palang par baith diya..
mera haath pakad kar waaps kamre ke andar le

“ main ab theek hoon Shaazia………….lete lete bor

hone laga tha , sochaa thoda ghoom loon ………”
maine kaha , fir aage poochha “ Hina kahan hai ? “

“ Baaji gaanv tak gayi hain ……….. “ keh kar who

muskurayi aur fir boli “ aane hi waali hogi “

“ Wowww ……………to itni door kyon khadi ho ,

aao mere paas aao na “ maine muskurate huye uski
taraf haath badhaya ………jise usne thaam liya aur
mere najdeek aa gayi ………
mere paas khade hokar usne mere gale mein apni
baahen daal li aur fir boli “ maine kaha na , baji aane
hi waali hongi ………koi galat harkat karne ki
koshish mat karna “ keh kar woh ada se muskura di

tha ………..maine usko kamar se thama aur apne

uski iss muskurahat par main sabh kuchh luta sakta

ooapr kheench liya ……….woh bina kisi virodh ke

meri gode mein aakar baith gayi ……uski baahein
abhibhim ere gale m ein hithi… … …

maine uske chehre ko apne ek haath se apne taraf

ghumaya aur ek kiss uske gaal par kar diya………

…….fir to maano ek khel sa hum dono ke beech

jawab mein usne bhi wahi harkat mere saath ki

shuru ho gaya…….hum dono ek doosre ko baari

baari se choomne lage……..humaare chumbano ka
daayra ek doosre ke chehre tak hi seemit tha………
par dilo ki dhadkan badhaane ke liye yeh bhi kaafi
tha… … …

Fir maine usko thama aur ghuma kar bistar par

leta diya…aur khud uske oopar aa gaya…………

thi aur main uske oopar tha ………….maine apna

ab woh bistar par pair neeche latkaaye leti huyee

saara wajan apni ek kohni par dala hua tha

honthon par apne honth tika diye ………..humesha

………maine apna sar neeche jhukaya aur fir uske

swaagat kiya ………..aur fir hum dono ke honth

ki tarah usne apne honthon ko kholkar mera

aapas men ulajh kar reh gaye ………..hum dono

huye they………. …………..mera ek haath bistar

hi ek doosre ke honthon ka ras choosne mein lage

se uske kurte ke andar daal diya …………….

par tika hua tha aur doosre haath ko maine neeche
Uske pet se hota hua mera haath dheere dheere
oopar ki taraf badhne laga …………humaare honth
abhi bhi aapas mein jude huye they , par mere haath
ki harkat se uske shareer mein ek sihran si saaf
mehsoos ho rahi thi ……oopar ko chalta hua mera
haath apni manzil par pahunch gaya aur uske ek
ubhaar ko maine apne haath mein thaam liya
……….usne apne honthon ko juda kiya aur meri
aankhon mein dekhne lagi ………..fir apne chehra
mere seene mein chhipa liya ………

chhod do …………….. “ woh mere kaan mein fus-

“ Baaji aane hi waali hongi ……………abhi mujhe

fusaate huye boli… … … … …

………..usko apne paas kheencha aur ek baahn ko

main karvat lekar uski bagal mein aa gaya
liya…….apna muh uski gardam mein ghusa diya aur
uski kamar par lapet kar usko apne saath lipta

wahan usko choomne laga ……..usne bhi apni dono

baahein meri gardam mein daal kar mujhe aur kas
ke apne aap se chipta liya ……………………kuchh

gaya……….hum dono ek doosre se lipte huye iss hi

minutes ke liye waqt maano thahar sa

rahe…………………..
tarah pade rahe aur ek doosre ki dhadkan ko ginte

10 minute baad Shaazia ne dheere se apne aap ko

bistar se uth gayi…………….uth kar usne apne

mujh se alag kiya aur fir mere gaal ko choom kar

kapdo ko sahi kiya aur meri taraf dekh kar

m uskurayiaurkam re se baaharnikalgayi… … …
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Kuchh hi der ke baad Hina waapas aa gayi
…………woh dono behne apne kaam mein lagi rahi
aur main bistar par pada-pada apne ghar waalo ke
baare mein sochta raha………jaisa ki Aslam beg
ne kaha tha , agar uski baat sach thi to mere ghar
waalo par waakayi bahut buri beet rahi
hogi………..sab log yahi samajh rahe honge ki
main plane crash mein mara gaya ………….meri
aankhon ke saamne ek ek kar ke meri mummy ,
papa aur behan ki tasveer nazar aane
lagi…………..kya haal ho raha hoga unn becharo
ka mere baare mein soch soch kar……………

salamati ki khabar de pata ………………….sochte

kaash !! koi tareeka hota jo main unko apni

sochte pata hi nahi laga ki kab meri aankhen nam

ho gayi………
“ Kya hua …? Kya soch rahe ho ? “ yeh Hina ki

………..haath mein khaane ki plate lekar ……….

awaaz thi , woh mere palang ke paas khadi thi

nahi…koi khaas baat nahi……..bas aise hi ghar

Apni aankhen ponchhta hua main baith gaya …”

waalo ka khayaal aa gaya ……….”

Usne plate mere saamne rakh di ………” kahana

khaa lo “ fir khud bhi wahi palang par baith
gayi… … …

“ Aur aap log ? aap khana nahi khayenge ? “ maine

poochha…
woh muskurate huye boli ……….” Agar yeh haadsa
“ hum log bhi kha lenge ………pehle aap to kha lo “

sakte they “ …..

na hua hota to shaayad tum aaj hi yahan se nikal

main uski baat sunkar ek dum chaung gaya “

achchha !! who kaise “

hai…………….kuchh maal lekar …agar tum sahi

“ Aaj hi humaari ek gaadi Hindustan ja rahi

hote , to hum aaj hi yahan se nikal sakte they “

kehkar usne ek baar fir meri taraf dekha aur muskura
di ………..

uski baat sunkar mujhe fir ek jhatka sa laga

mujhe chaukaa diya tha……….par maine kuchh bhi

………… usne hum shabd ka use kiya tha , jisne
khata raha……….
jaahir nahi hone diya…….aur chup-chap khana

Maine jaldi jaldi apna khana khaya aur bistar se

le li aur boli “ tum lete raho ……..aaram

uth kar khada ho gaya …usne plate mere haath se

karo………….jo kaam ho mujhe batao “

aap kar sakta hoon ……….” Main baahar gaya aur

“ Nahi ….ab main sahi hoon……….apne kaam apne

woh bhi wahin laut ke aa gayi thi……….mujhe

haath dho kar waapas kamre mein aa gaya………

dekh kar woh muskurayi ,

main bistar par baith gaya ……aur uss se bola “

meri wajah se tum logo ko fir pareshaani ho rahi
hai , tum chaho to main waapas tabele mein chala
jaata hoon “
usne mere chehre ko dekha aur fir boli ….

Ajay…………..kal tumhara kaafi saara khoon beh

“ tum abhi poori tarah sahi nahi ho

gaya tha ………..abhi 1-2 din yahin par aaram kar lo

“ ….fir kuchh seconds ruk kar aage boli “ aur rahi

wajah bhi to hum log hi hain ………..” keh kar usne

baat pareshaani ki ………tumhaari iss haalat ki

baahar chali gayi …………..

mujhe ek baar fir muskura kar dekha aur kamre se

woh kuchh hi seconds baad fir waapas aayi , haath

mein ek gilaas lekar “ lo , yeh dawaayi pee lo “
yeh dawaayi kaisi hai ……..swaad to bahut kadwa
maine gilaas haath mein le liye aur uss se poochha “

hai par saara dard mita deti hai …”

special dawaayi hai ………..tum bas pee jao aur

woh fir se muskurate huye boli “ yeh humaari

araam karo “

sans mein gilaas khaali kar diya ………..iss baar

maine ek baar fir se dawaayi ko dekha aur fir ek hi

uska swaad kuchh alag tha , ek teekhi si lehar mere

poore shareer mein daudti chali gayi………….

Usne mere haath se gilaas liya aur kamre se baahar

let gaya …………….5 minute baad hi meri aankhen

nikal gayi ………….main waapas bistar par aakar

fir se band hone lagi ……….main aaj bahut so

chukka tha par fir bhi mujhe fir se neend aane lagi
thi

………………maine poori koshish ki apne aap ko

na sone dene ki par ek ajeeb se behoshi mere jehan
par haavi hone lagi aur fir meri aankhen band hoti
chaligayi
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Mere hosh dheere-dheere waapas aa rahe they ,

tha…..mujhe aisa lag raha tha ki mere kaan aur

par ek ajeeb sa ehsaas mujhe ho raha

dimaag to kaam kar rahe hain par shareer ke

baaki bhaag ilkul sunn pad chuke hain…… maine
apne haath –panv hilane ki koshish ki , par aisa
rakha ho……..
laga jaise unhe kisi adrashya shakti ne baandh

Maine apni aankhen kholne ki koshish bhi ki , par

chaah kar bhi nahi khol paaya ………mera sar
bhaari sa ho raha tha , bilkul aise jaise koi insaan
do dino tak na soya ho aur fir usko sote hi neend
se utha diya jaaye………kul milakar mere oopar
ek ajeeb si behoshi chaayi huyee thi …main apne

tha …….bas mera dimaag jaaga hua tha , woh bhi

shareer ko apni hi ichchha se nahi hila pa raha

shaayad isliye ki meri will power kaafi strong

thi… …

hua…………..koi aur bhi tha jo iss samay mere

Mujhe apne paas kisi aur ka bhi ehsaas
saath leta hua tha ……………….jo bhi koi tha ,
woh mere se lipta hua tha aur usne apna ek haath

taang bhi meri kamar par chadhi huyee thi …….

meri chaati par rakha hua tha…saath hi uski ek

ho sakta hai ………..ya to Shaazia , ya fir Hina

Meri turant hi samajh mein aa gaya ki woh kaun

……

Maine kuchh bolne ke liye muh khola par meri

gayi…….poora jor lagaane ke baad sirf ek halki si

awaaz mere halak ke andar hi ghut kar reh

karahat hi mere muh se nikal paayi……….woh job

hi thi , usne shaayad meri awaaz sun lit hi ………

aur fir usne mujhe choomna shuru kar diya ………..

mujhe apne chehre par garam saans ka ehsaas hua

uska ek haath mere seene par fir raha tha aur

doosra haath mere baalo mein ………..usne mere
m aathe se choom na shuru kiya aur fir gaalo se
hote huye , mere hontho par aa gayi ….4-5 chhote
chhote chumben karne ke baad usne mere neeche

aur choosna shuru kar diya …….

waale honth ko apne honthon mein daboch liya

Mere liye yeh ek ajeeb si stithi thi……….ek ladki

m ere saath yeh sab kuchh kar rahithiaur m ain
kuchh bhi nahi kar paa raha tha …………uska
haath mere seene se hote huye mere pet tak
pahuncha aur fir usne mere land par ek baar
haath firaya , aur fir usko daboch liya …………
kitni ajeeb baat thi , mera saara shareer sunn tha ,
par mera lund abhi bhi jaaga hua tha aur uske

kar diya ……………..

haath lagate hi usne apna aakar badhana shuru
Uss ne meri shirt ke saare buttons khol diye they aur

sarkaane lagi ………….thoda sa neeche sarakte hi ,

fir dheere se mera pehna hua trouser bhi neeche

tha , ek dum se baahar aa gaya ……….usne dheere

mera land jo abhi tak poori tarah se khada ho chukka

dheere trouser ko neeche sarkana jaari rakha aur fir

use mere pairo se nikaal diya ……………

ek hi disha mein daud raha tha ………….. woh ab

Na chahte huye bhi mere shareer ka saara khoon

uske honth oopar ko badh rahe they ……..mere

mere pairo ko choom rahi thi aur fir dheere dheere

liye sabse kharaab baat yeh thi ki main apne haath

paanv bhi nahi hila paa raha tha ………….maine
apni aankhen fir se kholne ki koshish ki , iss baar
mujhe itni kaamyabi to mili ki main kuchh kuchh
dhoondhla sa dekhne mein kaamyab ho gaya
………………usne apna chehra , meri jaanghon
par jhukaya hua tha ………..fir mujhe uske

……………….
honthon ka geelapan apne lund par mehsoos hua

thi……….usne mere lund par kiss karne shuru kar

Meri dhadkane aur saanse ab tez hone lagi

diya they ………pehle chhote chhote kiss aur fir

uski jeebh ka ehsaas mujhe apne uss ang ar hone
laga …………woh jeebh ko oopar se neeche fir
rahi thi………theek waise hi , jaise ki koi icecream
ko chat-ta hai ……

Ab uske honth mujhe apne pet par mehsoos hone

lage …………fir dheere dheere oopar ki taraf

wahan choomna shuru kar diya …………….kaafi

badhte huye , woh mere seene tak pahunchi aur
rahi……………….iss position mein uski gaand
der tak woh mere seene ko choomti aur chat-ti

mere lund ke theek oopar thi …jiska eh saas mujhe

ho raha tha , saath hi yeh bhi maloom pad raha tha

hai………….
kiw oh bhim eritarah nangihaalatm ein

Uske honth ab meri gardan se hote huye fir se mere

honthon tak aa gaye…………kuchh der tak mere
honthon ko choosne ke baad , mere gaalo ko
choomte huye woh mere kaan tak pahunchi aur fir
wahan haule haule daanto se kaatne lagi ……….iss
position mein uski choot ab bilkul mere lund ke
oopar thi , jiske geele pan ka ehsaas mujhe ho raha
tha ……………

“ Kya kar rahi ho ………………??? “ poora jor

lagaane ke baad main sirf itna hi bol
gehre huen mein se aa rahi ho …………….
paaya………..mujhe aisa laga jaise meri awaaz kisi

fusate huye kaha ………..main turant uski awaaz

“ Pyar kar rahi hoon ……….” Usne dheere se , fus-

pehchaan gaya , yeh Hina hi thi ……………..

………………..mere lund ko apne haath se pakda

Fir woh apna ek haath neeche le gayi

aur khud ko thoda sa oopar kar ke , apni choot ke

muh ko mere lund par tika diya…………fir mere
gaal par apna gaal ragadti huye who neeche ko
hotichaligayee… … … … m era bilkulsakhtho

mein samata chala gaya………………………..

chukka lund , bade hi aaram se uski geeli choot

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ghar par nahi hai …..tab hi Hina yeh sab kaam kar
Is baat ka ehsaas to mujhe ho chukka tha ki Shaazia

paa rahi hai………..uske dono haath ab mere seene

karte huye woh mujhse chud rahi thi ……….. meri

par tike huye they aur apni gaand ko oopar-neeche

kamar bhi , na chaahte huye bhi hilne ki koshish kar

raha tha …..

rahi thi , aur kuchh had tak mein usme safal bhi ho

Who thoda sa aage ko jhuki aur apni ek choochi

ko apne haath se pakad kar mere muh par laga

bhar liya …………..kul milakar , jo kaam usne

diya , maine bhi apna muh kholkar usko muh mein

shuru kiya tha , usme ab main bhi uska saath de raha

tha ………… maloom nahi yeh uski di huyee
dawaai ka asar tha ya kuchh aur , main bhi uske
iss khel mein doob jana chahta tha ……
ahh……..ouuu……………….. uke muh se kuchh
A hhh… … … … … ohhh… … … … …

…………………..mere oopar chhaayi huyi behoshi

iss tarah ki masti bhari awaaze nikal rahi thi

tak hilne lag gaye they …………….

ab hatne lagi thi aur haath paanv bhi ab kuchh had

Maine apne aap ko kohniyon ke bal oopar ko utha

…………….usne aage badhkar mere gale mein

liya aur aadhi-baithi huyee position main ho gaya

apni baahen daal di aur apni gaand ko lagatar

hilana chaloo rakha…………uski dono

huyee thi ………..

choochiyan iss position mein mere seene par dabi
tha……….maine uss ki kamar ko pakda aur fir
Main jald se jald iss khel ko khatam karna chahta

usko pakde-pakde palat diya………….usko bistar

gaya……………..kuchh seconds tak main uske

par leta kar main khud uske oopar aa

chehre ko dekhta raha …….yeh ladki har baar ek

naye roop mein mere saamne aati hai ……………

gehre nashe mein doobi huyee ho ………..

iss samay uski aankehn aadhi band thi , jaise kisis

Maine apna lund fir se uski choot mein dhakela

……….har dhakke ke saath uske muh se

aur fir dheere dheere dhakke lagane shuru kar diya

siskaariyan nikal rahi thi ……….. dheere dheere

maine apne dhakko ki raftaar badhani shuru kar
di , har baar main lund ko poora baahar nikaal
kar , waapas poora andar ghusa deta tha …………

aankhen band kar li ……….woh apne dono haath

usne ek baar aankh khol kar mujhe dekha fir apni
mere seene par fira rahi thi ………….saath saath
uski kamar bhi neeche se mere har dhakke ka
poora jawaab de rahi thi ………….

……….usne apne dono haath aage badhya aur

Hum dono ki manzil ab najdeek aati jaa rahi thi

apni baahen daal di ………..maine bhi apne aap

apne aap ko thoda sa uchka kar mei gardan mein

ko uske oopar aur jyada aage jhuka diya …………

mein uthi huyeethi …………..ha pal humaari

uski dono taange ab poori tarah se oopar hawa

raftaar mein tezi aati jaa rahi thi …………usne

apni baahon ko meri gardan ke ird-gird kas ke
lapet diya aur mere gaal se apna gaal ragadne lagi
……………
Ahhhh………………….offff………………………
ohhh…………….ouuuu…………….ki awwazein
kamre mein goonj rahi thi , jo hum dono ke muh se

chehre ko choom rahi thi ……………….apne muh

nikalrahithi… … … … w oh ab be-tahasha m ere

boli ………….
ko mere kaan ke paas le jaakar woh mere kaan mein

…………….mujhe kabhi bhi mat bhulana

“ main tum se bahut pyar karti hoon Ajay

………………..” kehne ke saath hi uske haath meri

peeth par kas gaye , uska poora shareer akad gaya

gaya……….maine bhi apni kamar ko jaldi jaldi

aur fir dheere dheere dheela padta chala

hilaya aur fir ek tez awaaz muh se nikaalte huye ,

apne shareer ki saari garmi , uske shareer mein udel
di ……………………..paseene se nahaye humaare
shareer shant padte chale gaye
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Baahar barfbaariab ruk sigayithi… … … m ain

…….ek do sheeshe hi sahi salaamat they jin me se

khidki se baahar dekhne ki koshish kar raha tha

main baahar dekh pa raha tha ………….. baahar

barf ki safed chaadar si bichhi huyi thi ..
Abhi kuchh hi der pehle ek vasna ka toofaan iss

……….toofan ke shant hote hi Hina bistar se uth kar

kamre mein se aakar gujar chukka tha

…….fir apne kapde pehan kar main yahan khidki ke

chali gayi thi aur main kuchh der vaise hi leta raha

koshish kar raha tha ………..iss beech do baar Hina

paas aakar khada ho gaya tha aur baahar dekhne ki
kamre mein aakar chali gayi thi , par hum don one hi
ek-doosre se koi baat nahi ki thi …………

Main waapas bistar par aakar let gaya…………

mere oopar jo behoshi si chaa gayi thi , woh ab
door ho chuki thi ……..fir bhi , shaayad dawaai ka

raha tha ……..

asar tha jo mere saare shareer mein dard sa ho

Baahar darwaaze par aahat huyi …..main sambhal

chali gayi …..kuchh hi palo mein maine Shaazia ko

kar baith gaya aur Hina darwaaza kholne ke liye

andar aate huye dekha ……..usne ek overcoat

they…………..itne achchhe mausam ke baad bhi

pehna hua tha aur pairo mein long boots

uske chehre par ajeeb si udaasi dikhayi pad rahi

thiaur ham esha rehne waalism ile gaayab
thi… … … … …

Uske peechhe peeche jo shakhs andar daakhil hua ,

usko dekhkar ek baar to main chaunk gaya aur alert
ho gaya……………..woh Hasan ali tha…………
shaayad Shaazia ke saath hi aaya tha…………..woh
dono ek saath doosre waale kamre mein daakhil ho
gaye , jo bilkul saamne the ………..andar ko jaate
samay Hasan ali ki nazar mere oopar padi aur usne
ek haath uthe kar mujhe salaam kiya ……….mano
kaafi pehle se mujhe jaanta ho …………….mere
liye yeh ek nayi baat thi , maine bhi jawaab mein sar
jhuka kar uske salaam ka jawaab diya ………….

Saamne waale kamre mein pahunch kar Hasan ali

kursi par baith gaya aur Shaazia waapas baahar nikal
kar ghar ke andar , shaayad apne kamre mein chali
gayi……………Meri nigah Hasan ali par hi thi ,
woh kamre mein baith hua idhar -udhar dekh raha
tha …………kuchh hi der baad Hina uss kamre

baith gayi ………..dono kuchh der tak aapas mein

mein pahunchi aur uske saamne doosri kursi par

baat karte rahe……….jo bhi baat dono kar rahe

they , woh itni halki awaaz mein ho rahi thi ki ek

tha………..pratyaksh mein main aankhen band

bhi shabd mere kaan tak nahi pahunch pa raha

kar ke lete hua tha, par baar baar uski taraf bhi
meri nigaah chali jaati thi ……………maine gaur
kiya ki beech beech mein jab bhi Hina usko kuchh
samjhati thi, uski nigaah mere oopar hi padti thi
……

Fir Hina kursi se uthi aur lakdi ki almaari ke paas

pahunchi ……….usne almaari kholi…….mujhe
yahan se bhi saaf dikhayi pad raha tha ki usne
kuchh paise almaari se gin kar nikaale aur fir
waapas aakar woh paise Hasan Ali ke hawaale kar
diye………… Hasan Ali ne muskurate huye Hina

kar diye ……….fir woh uth kar khada ho gaya aur

se kuchh kaha aur fir paise apni jeb ke hawaale

kamre se baahar nikal aaya ………..baahar aate

sam ay fir se uskinigaah m ere se m iliaur usne
muskurate huye mujhe fir se salaam kiya ………
jiska jawaab maine apna sar hila kar de diya …….

………….darwaaza khulne aur fir se band hone ki

Fir Hasan ali aur Hina baahar ki taraf chale gaye

kamre mein chali gayi………………..

awaaz aayi aur fir kuchh hi der mein Hina waapas

Uske baad ka saara samay lagbhag chup chaap hi

beeta …………..beech mein ek do baar Hina mere
kamre mein aayi par hum dono ke beech koi baat
nahi huyee……….iss beech ek baar bhi mujhe
Shaazia nahi dikhayi padi ………shaayad woh
apne kamre ke andar hi baithi huyi thi ………

lekar ……….usne muskurate huye Khane ki plate

Raat ko Hina fir mere kamre mein aayi , khana

mere paas rakh di aur boli “ Khana kha lo

…………………”

Main bina kuchh bole , bistar par hi baith gaya

aur chup chap khana khane laga ……………

……….Shaazia ki khamoshi , Hina aur Hasan ali

saara mahaul kuchh ajeeb sa lag raha tha

ki muskurahat ..kuchh ajeeb sa ehsaas karwaa

rahi thi…………meine saari baato ko apne
dimaag se jhatka dekar nikaal diya ……………..”
jo bhi hoga , dekha jaayega ……..” sochte huye
m ain khana khaane m ein m ashroofho gaya

kar liya ……………..Hina plate lekar chali gayi

… … … aur kuchh him inutes m ein khana khatam

……main bistar se uth kar, haath dhone ke liye

bathroom ki taraf chal diya…………kamre se
baahar aakar , jab mein bath room ki taraf ja raha
tha………Shaazia ke kamre ke saamne se gujarte

…………..Shaazia apne bistar par ulti hokar leti

huye maine apni nigaah andar daali

huyi thi ……….uska haath apne sar ke oopar tha

……….maloom nahi pad saka ki woh so rahi hai

aur chehra takiye mein chhipaya hua tha

ya nahi …………………..maine bath room mein

jaakar , apne haath dhoye aur waapas aakar bistar
par baith gaya
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Raat ho gay thi ….dono behne apne-apne kamro

neend gaayab thi….na jaane kyon aisa lag raha

mein sone chali gayi thi par meri aankhon se

tha ki kuchh hone waala hai ..kya ? yeh mujhe bhi

nahim aloom tha … …

Main bistar se uth kar khada ho gaya …….khidki

se baahar jhaank kar dekha …baahar bilkul sannnata
tha …….main kuchh der yun hi baahar dekhta
raha fir kamre se nikal kar baahar aa
gaya……..maine pehle Hina ke kamre mein
jhaank kar dekha……wahan bilkul khamoshi
chhayi huyee thi …fir main dabe paanv chalta hua
ghar ke main darwaaje tak pahuncha aur darwaza
khol kar ghar se baahar aa gaya…….
tha………..door door tak bilkul khamoshi
Andar ki tarah hi baahar bhi sannata sa chhaya hua

thi… … … … gharke baaharka bulb offtha aur

tabele ke andar bhi roshini ka koi naam-o-nishaan
nahi tha………maine dheere dheere chalta hua
tabele tak pahuncha……andar daakhil hua…aur
light on kar di …fir main uss kamre mein pahunch ,
jahan main pehle reh raha tha……andar pahunch kar
maine bistar hataya , aur fir mujhe chaunk jana pada
………bistar ke neeche main ek revolver chhipayi

tha ……..woh ab gaayab thi ………..

huyi thi , wahi jo main apne saath yahan lekar aaya

Mere liye yeh bilkul ajeeb baat thi , kyon ki yahan

Hina aur Shaazia ke alawa koi aur nahi aa sakta
tha aur yeh kaam un dono mein se hi kisi ek ka
tha…………shaayad Hina ka ……
Main fir kamre se baahar aa gaya…………doosri
revolver maine tabele ke andar chhipayi huyi thi
( wahi jo maine uss inspector se cheeni thi ) ,
maine usko dhoondha ……aur woh mujhe wahin

……….maine revolver ko apne kapdo mein

par se mil gayi , jahan usko maine chhipaya tha

……….
chhipaya aur baahar aa kar ghar ki taraf chal diya

Ghar ke andar aakar maine fir se main darwaaza

……….pehle ki hi tarah ghar mein khamoshi hi

band kiya aur fir apne kamre mein aa gaya

chhayihuyithi… m aine kam re m ein charo taraf

sa roshandaan mujhe najar aaya…….maine

nigaah daudayi………khidki ke oopar ek chhota

haath dala ………….wahan achchhi-khaasi jagah

palang ke oopar khade hokar roshandan mein
thi……maine revolver ko wahin par rakh diya aur
palang se utar kar neeche aa gaya………neeche se
dekhne par revolver dikhayi nahi pad raha tha…

Main fir se palang par let gaya……..aur aankhen

band kar ke sone ki koshish karne laga………

main chaunk kar baith gaya ……………..yeh

tabhi kisi ka sparsh mere kandhe par hua aur

let gaya ……….woh bhi pehle mere paas palang

Shaazia thi , main eek lambi si saans li aur fir se

par baith gayi aur fir mere saath let gayi …………

kar mujh se chipak gayi……………. Hum dono hi

fir usne karvat le kar ek baanh ko mere oopar lapet

abhi tak bilkul chup chap they…………..

awaaz mehsoos huyi……..maine chaunk kar uski

Kuchh seconds baad hi mujhe uski siskiyon ki
taraf karvat li aur uske chehre ko dekha …..roshini

aansoo dikhayi pad rahe they ………..woh halki

bahut kam thi , fir bhi mujhe uski aankhon mein

halkisiskiyon ke saath ro rahithi… … …

Maine uske chehre ko apne haathon se pakad kar
oopar kiya aur uske aansoon pochhta hua bola “
Kya hua Shaazia , kyon ro rahi ho ?? “
Who kuchh seconds tak bina kuchh bole sisakti

………..main apna haath uski peeth par fer kar

rahi , fir mere seene mein muh chhipa liya

usko chup karne ki koshish karta raha ………

Agle 2 minutes tak hum dono aise hi lete rahe

……….fir usne hi muh uthaya aur baat shuru ki
………….. “ mujhe nahi maloom tha ki meri baaji
mere saath aisa bhi kar sakti hain Ajay………..!! “
aur fir subakna shuru kar diya………
Maine uska chehra oopar kiya aur fir bola “ pehle
chup ho jaao aur fir batao ki kya baat hai……?”

Usne apne aansoo ponchh kar batana shuru kiya “

tumhe maloom hi hai ki main aaj shaam ki bagan
par gayi thi ………wahan Hasan ali ne mujhe kuchh
baatein batayi , baaji ke baare mein “

kiya ………….
“ Jaise ki ? kaisi baatein ? “ maine uss se sawaal

“ Yahi ki ………………………baaji tumhare saath

Hindustan jana chahti hain “ usne kuchh der ruk kar
kaha … … …
“ bas !! ……. Itni si baat , hum to khud bhi yahi
chahte hain ki woh humaare saath jaaye , kyon ?

huye kaha………..
tum bhi yahi nahi chahti ? “ maine halke se hanste

“ tum meri baat ko samajh nahi paa rahe …………

woh sirf tumhare saath jana chahti hai ………mujhe
yahin chhod kar ……….” Usne aage
bataya……….maine man hi man socha, yeh baat to
mujhe bhi pehle se hi maloom thi …………

kya kahoon …….fir usne hi aage bolna shuru kiya “

main kuchh der chup hi raha………sochta raha ki

baaji chahti hain ki main Hasan se shaadi kar loon ,

……….aur agar main nahi maani to woh tumhe bhi

yeh jaante huye bhi ki main tum se pyar karti hoon

nahi jaane dengi ………….woh tumhe police ya fir

…………….” Kehte huye woh mujh se fir lipat gayi
pakistani fauz ke hawaale bhi karne ko tayyar hain

……..

yeh aakhiribaatm ere liye nayithi… … … … … …

…….par woh mera nuksaan karne ki bhi soch

Hina mujhe chahti hai , yeh to mujhe maloom tha

sakti hai , yeh meri samajh se baahar tha

………………

uske chehre ko apne aap se alag kiya aur bola…….”

m ain uske baalo m ein haath ferta raha… … … fir

Tum meri fikra mat karo ………..main kal subah hi

nikalne ki koshish karenge…………..tum ab jaakar

Hina se fir se baat karoonga aur kal hi hum yahan se
so jaao ….” Fir maine uske maathe ko choom liya
…………………

usne bhi jawaab mein mere gaal par ek chumban

diya aur uth kar mere paas se chali gayi…………..
main fir se sochne par majboor ho gaya ……………
aaj shaam ka Hina aur hasan ka vyavahar meri bhi

aisa bhi kuchh kar sakti hai ……………. Fir maine

samajh se baahar tha ……………kya waakai woh

koshish karne laga …………….dimaag mein chal

khud hi iss sambhavna se inkaar kar diya aur sone ki

rahe sawaalo ke baawjood bhi thodi hi der mein

mujhe neend aa gayi…………………

mujhe nahi maloom main kitni der tak sota

se baahar dekha ………….baahar achchhi khaasi

raha…………jab meri neend khuli to maine khidki
roshini ho rahi thi ………….maine bistar se uthne ki
koshish ki , par uth nahi paaya ………….ab maine
apni haalat par gaur kiya to mere dil ki dhadkan
achanak kayi guna tez ho gayi ……………

mere dono haath aur pairo ko rassi se baandh kar

……….main chah kar bhi bilkul hil-dul nahi sakta

palang ke chaaro taraf baandha gaya tha

tha… … … …

bhi samajh se baahar tha …………..

par kyon ……? Kisne kiya hai yeh……..? yeh meri

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Mere dono pairo ko kaafi kas ke baandha gaya tha

tha …………..haathon ko bhi kalaayi par kas ke

, itna ki main unko sahi se hila bhi nahi paa raha

ki gayi thi ……….itni lambi ki main dono haathon

bandha gaya tha , par rassi kaafi patli aur lambi use

ko aapas mein mila bhi sakta tha ….aur itni patli

bhi sakti thi………….par abhi mujhe rassi todne

ki agar main poori takat lagata to shaayad rassi toot

chahta tha ki yeh sab kya ho raha hai …….

ki koi jaroorat nahi thi …………main abhi dekhna

Fir jaise ki mujhe ummed thi ………kamre mein

Hina daakhil huyee……..usne salwaar suit pehna
hua tha aur uss par ek half sleeve ki garam jacket
pehni huyi thi …………woh aakar kamre ke
darwaaze par khadi ho gayi aur ek-tak mujhe
dekhne lagi …….uske chehre par iss samay koi bhi
ajeeb si kathorta ……….
bhaav nahi they………bilkul sapaat chehra aur ek

uss se sawaal kiya ……….

“ Yeh sab kya hai Hina ? “ maine uss ko dekhte hi

Uss ne koi jawaab nahi diya……….balki mere aur

najdeek aa gayi ……..

ho ? “ maine fir uss se sawaal kiya….

“ kyon bandha hai tumne mujhe ……? Kya chahti

“ tumhe !! tumhe chahti hoon main Ajay ……!

nikal rahi thi ……….aawaz bhaari si ho rahi thi

Mujhe Ajay chahiye ! “ uske muh se maano aag si

………
chehre par muskurahat lata hua bola ….
“ Aise ? baandh kar paana chahti ho mujhe ? “ main

sawaal kar sakoon ……..aur ek sauda bhi “ woh mer

“ Nahi , ……..bandha to isliye tha ki tumse kuchh

aankhon mein dekhte huye boli “ agar tum aazad

hote , to na mera sawaal sunte aur na hi mere se
saude ke liye tayaar hote “

“ kya sawaal hai ? poochho …” main bola

“ Sawaal wahi hai Ajay ……… kya tum sirf mere

ban kar reh sakte ho ? “ usne meri aankhon mein
jhaanke huye sawaal kiya tha ……..
“ aur mera jawaab bhi wahi hai Hina ………..nahi !!
“ maine bhi uski aankhon mein aankhen daal kar
jawaab diya …………

mere saath reh nahi sakte …..kyon ? “

“ tum mere saath hum bistar ho sakte ho ………par

………..tum bhi jaanti ho ki main kin paristhitiyon

“ tum fir bekaar ki baatein kar rahi ho Hina

m ein tum hare saath hum -bistarhua tha … … … aur

……….fir baar baar inn baaton ka kya

usmein bhi tumhaari marzi mere se jyada thi

faayda ? ..mujhe khol do ……..main aaj hi yahan se

jaana chahta hoon “ main ab jhunjhala gaya tha
………
“ akele ??? akele hi jaaoge ……?.” woh ek ajeeb si
m usurahatke saath boli

“ Nahi !…………Shaazia ko saath le kar

jaaoonga !!” main bola …..

mere oopar jhuk kar ……….gurraati huyi boli

“ par mere rehte to yeh nahi ho sakta Ajay “ woh

………….” ya to tum mere ban kar rahoge , ya fir

tum kisi ke bhi nahi ho sakte ………”

hansta hua bola ……..

“ aur tum sochti ho kit um mujhe rok logi ? “ main

kar paoongi ……..par mere paas ek doosra raasta

“ mujhe maloom hai ki main tumhara muqabla nahi
bhi hai “ keh kar woh kamre se baahar nikal gayi
…………

2-3 minute baad hi woh fir se waapas lauti

………….par iss baar woh akeli nahi thi …..uske

haath pakda hua tha…..aur doosre haath mein ek

aage aage Shaazia bhi thi………usne Shaazia ka ek

revolver tha ………mera wahi revolver jo tabele

………..Shaazia ke chehre par ajaaeb se bhaav

w aale kam re m ein se gaayab ho gaya tha

sab kya ho raha hai……..kamre mein aakar Hina ne

they………jaise who samajh nahi paa rahi ho ki yeh

Shaazia ko darwaaze ke paas hi rok diya aur khud

andar aa gayi…………
“ yahi hai woh cheej …..jiska sauda main tumse
karna chahti hoon “ meri taraf dekhti huyee woh
gurraayi… …

maine sawaaliya nigahon se uski taraf dekha…..

“ Ajay …………main tumse Shaazia ki jaan ka

sa karte huye kaha …………….Shaazia ne ekdum

sauda karna chahti hoon “ usne maano ek dhamaka

ho , usko uss par vishwas na ho raha ho ……….

se Hina ki taraf dekha ………mano jo Hina ne kaha

“ Agar tume meri baat nahi maani to main abhi iss

hi samay Shaazia ko maar doongi………aur fir
usne apni baat poori karte huye kaha ………..
tumhe bhi pakistani fauz ke hawaale kar doongi “

“ Baaji !!! yeh kya keh rahi ho “ ……Shaazia ko

mano apne kaano par vishwas hi nahi ho raha tha

……..
… … … uskiaankhon se ab aansoo behne lage they

kya chahte ho tum …….Shaazia ki maut ya jindagi “

“ bilkul sahi keh rahi hoon main ……… bolo Ajay ,

kehte huye usne revolver Shaazia ki taraf taan di

………….
…………..fir Shaazia ka kya hoga “ maine sawaal
“ Aur agar main tumhaari baat maan loon to

kiya ……….

rahega …………..hum dono abhi yahan se chale

“ Fir jaisa chal raha hai…………aise hi chalta

jaayenge ……….aur saari jindagi saath saath

………. “ usne apni jacket ki jeb mein haath daala

rahenge “ uske chehre par ek smile si aa gayi thi

aur fir usme se ek chaabi aur ek hara (green) lifafa

……….gaadi bilkul tayyar khadi hai …mere baagan

nikala aur mujhe dikhati huyi boli …… “ yeh dekho

……….hum abhi yahan se chal kar Hindustan ja

ke paas , aur yeh hain humaare dono ke permit

sakte hain “ kehte huye usne fir se dono cheeje ani

jeb mein daal li
“ Aur Shaazia ? uska kya hoga ? “ maine aage
poocha ………

“ Iski fikra mat karo …….. Hasan hai na iske liye

………woh iss se nikaah kar lega aur yeh dono
yahin par rahenge “

“ baaji !!! aap aisa kuchh nahi karogi ………….”

Shaazia ab rote rote jameen par baith gayi thi
……………” mujhe maloom hai aap mujhse bahut
pyar karti ho …”

tub hi to apne 8 din ke pyar ke liye apni behan ko

“ kyon ? kyon nahi karoongi main aisa ………..?

chhodne ko tayyar hai …….fir main kyon na karoon

aisa ? “ Hina lagbhag cheekhti huyi si boli
……………
ab baat kaafi aage badhne lagi thi ………….maine
apne dono haaton ko aapas mein milaya……….aur

awaaz huyi aur ek rassi toot gayi ………..mera ek

poori takat laga kar kheench diya……….tadaak ki

haath ab azaad tha ……….

….aur revolver uske oopar taan di……..”koi galat

Hina turant hi Shaazia ke paas pahunch gayi

harkat mat karna Ajay………….tum nahi jaante

…..main waakai Shaazia ko goli maar doongi “
woh fir se gurrate huye boli …………..” ab jaldi se
mujhe jawaab do ………..abhi Hasan ali yahan aane
waala hai …………. Agar tum tayaar ho to hum
dono abhi yahan se nikal chalenge ……..nahi to
fir woh Pakistani fauz ko bulane ke liye chala
jaayega ……….”
Aur fir woh hua jiski main kalpana bhi nahi kar
sakta tha …………ek ajeeb si awaaz muh se nikalti
huyi Shaazia achanak Hina ke oopar jhapti aur ek

………..Hina iske liye bilkul bhi tayyar nahi

jordaar jhatke se usko peechhe ko dhakka de diya

ne uske haath se revolver chheen li ……5 seconds

thi………woh peechhe ko ladkhadayi aur Shaazia

mein hi baazi palat chuki thi ………

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“ ab aap peechhe hat kar khadi ho jaao Baaji

………” Shaazia ne Hina par revolver taante huye
kaha………Hina do kadam peeche ko huyi aur fir
jameen par baithti chali gayi……….uske chehre par
sabse achchha khilona chheen liya gaya ho ……….
aise bhaav they jaise kisi bachche ke haath se uska

…….pehle apna doosra haath khola aur fir apne

Maine furti ke saath apna kaam poora kiya

pairo ko azaad kar liya ………main furti se uth

kar khada ho gaya aur oopar roshandaan par
rakhi huyi revolver nikaal li …………fir main

gaya…………..Shaazia mere pas aayi aur mujh se

bistar se utar kar neeche aa

lipat gayi…………….maine uske kandhe ko thap-

thapa kar usko fir apne se alag kiya aur bola……..

“ humein abhi yahan se nikalna hai Shaazia………

tum jaldi se gaanv ke baahar apne bagaan ke paas
pahuncho ………agar tumhaari behan sahi keh rahi
hai to wahan gaadi khadi hogi ……..main bhi abhi
tumhare paas pahunchta hoon “

Shaazia ne revolver mujhe de diya aur fir jaldi se

……….maine Hina ko baaju se pakad kar uthaya

kamre se nikal kar , ghar ke andar chali gayi

……….maine rassi se uske dono paanv kursi ke

aur fir usko ek lakdi ki kursi par baitha diya

kursi ke hattho se bandh diya ……..woh ab bilkul

saath bandh diye aur dono haathon ko alag-alag

khamosh thi ………..aur na hi meri kisi harkat ka

virodh kar rahi thi

badal liye they …….aur ek shawl ore liye tha ……

Shaazia waapas laut aayi thi ………usne kapde

usne meri taraf dekha ……..maine usko ishara

kiya aur woh ghar se baahar nikalgayi… … …
main fir se Hina ki taraf muda ………woh sar

aansoo bhi behne lage they…….main uske paas

jhuka kar baithi thi….aur uski ankhon se ab

aaya aur uske sam e ghutno ke balbaith

gaya………usne nazar utha kar ek baar meri taraf
dekha aur fir neeche jhuka liya……..

“ Kyon kiya tumne aisa Hina ?…………….tum janti

bhi tumhaari bahut izzat karta tha Hina ……….par

ho Shaazia tum se kitna pyar karti hai …?aur main

main uske chehre ki taraf dekhta hua bola …….

tumne ek harkat se woh sab kuchh khatam kar diya “

Usne sar oopar uthya aur fir meri taraf dekhti huyi
boli “ mujhe izzat nahi ……tumhara pyar chahiye
tha Ajay…….” Uski aankhon mein se aansoon ki ek
moti dhaar behne lagi thi …….

mila hota ……..to shaayad mein tumse hi pyar kar

“ Sach maano Hina ………..agar main Shaazia se na

baithta ……..par isko meri kismat kaho ya apni bad-

gaya ………. Main apne dil ko to nahi baant sakta

kismati ……tumse pehle , mujhe Shaazia se pyar ho

……..shaayad humari kismat mein yahi likha

tha............oopar waale se dua karoonga ki agle
janam mein mujhe tumhara saath de...”

………fir main khada ho gaya……..maine aage

agle kuchh seconds khaamoshi si chhayi rahi

badhkar uski jacket ki jeb mein haath dala aur

chaabi aur lifafa nikaal liya ……..fir main jaldi se

liye ek jacket nikaali …….aur pehan li ….chaabi aur

uske kamre mein gaya aur uski almari mein se apne

revolver abhi Hina ke haath se chheeni thi ..usko

lifafa main jacket ki jeb main daal liya aur jo

apne kapdo mein chhipa liya……..maine ek paper

par kuchh likha aur fir se Hina ke paas aa gaya
………woh bikul sapaat nigaahon se ek deewar ko
dekhe jaa rahi thi ……

main uske paas gaya aur paper ko uski jacket ki jeb

taraf dekha……..
mein daal diya……usne sawaaliya nigaahon se meri

hai…….main abhi Shaazia ko lekar yahan se jaa

“ iss paper par maine apne ghar ka address likh diya

raha hoon , aur jo kuchh bhi ho jaye …..main

Hindustan jaroor pahunch jaaoonga………main
jaanta hoon , jo kuchh bhi tumne aaj kiya woh
bhaavnao mein aakar kiya ………agar tumhe iss

…….main tumhe bhi yahan se le jaane ki koshish

baat ka ehsaas ho jaaye to mujhe ek letter likh dena

karoonga ……” ….main usko samjhaya aur fir bola

“ alwida Hina ……..maloom nahi fir kabhi mulakat
ho ya na ho “

keh kar main palta aur kamre se baahar ki taraf chal

………….” Ruko Ajay…….!!”

diya ……..usne peeche se mujhe awaaz lagayi

Maine palat kar uski taraf dekha…………” jaate-

jaate ek ehsaan mere oopar kar jaao “ woh
boli……..uski aankhon mein ek ummeed si dikhayi
pad rahi thi ……..

“Bolo ?? “ maine poochha

ki taraf ishara karte huye kaha …….mere haath

“ yeh revolver yahi chhod jaao….” Usne mere haath

mein woh revolver thi jo maine roshandan se uteri

thi ……maine sawaaliya nigaah se uski taraf dekha
……

main nahi hai ……….mar gayi Hina “ kehte huye

“ Shaazia se kehna ………uski baaji ab iss duniya

uskiaanken firse bheeg gayi… … … …

main kuchh seconds khada sochta raha .......fir uske
paas aaya aur revolver uss-se kuchh door palang par
daal diya………..fir main ek haath aage badha kar
uske ek haath ki rassi ko khol diya aur tezi ke saath

aaya..aur tez kadmo se gaanv ki taraf jaane waale

palat kar kamre se aur fir ghar se baahar nikal

raaste par chal diya….

Main abhi shaayad 50 meter door hi ja paya tha ki

……….ghar ke andar se ek jordaar dhamaake ki

ek awaaz ne mere pairo ko break laga diya

awaaz aayi thi …….main jaanta tha ki yeh

revolver se goli chalne ki awaaz thi
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tha…….yeh soch kar ki ghar ke andar kya hua
Dhamaake ki awaaz ne mere pairo ko rok liya

….maine waaps muda, aur ghar ki taraf chalne ko

hoga , ek baari to mera dil bhi hil kar reh gaya

cycle ki awaaz sunayi padne lagi .....jo har pal

hihua tha kiachank m ere kaano m ein kisim otor

achchhi tarah pehchanta tha…….

nazdeek aati ja rahi thi …… main iss awaaz ko ab

Maine idhar udhar dekha aur fir jaldi se ek ped

(tree) ke peechhe ko chhip gaya ………motor cycle
nazdeek aati chali gayi aur fir mere saamne se hoti
huyi nikal gayi ……..mera anumaan bilkul sahi
tha , woh Hasan ali hi tha jo ab ghar pahunchne
wala tha ……..

Uske gujarte hi main ped ke peechhe se baahar nikla

……..main jald se jald yahan se nikal jana chahta

aur fir lagbhag daudte huye gaanv ki traf chal diya
tha ……haalanki jo kuchh bhi abhi peechhe hua ,
uske baad mera farz banta tha ki main waapas jaakar
dekhoon …….par mera ek doosra farz mujhe
waapas lautne se rok raha tha ………main tezi se
chalte huye gaanv tak pahunch gaya aur fir maine

tha ki koi mere oopar shaque kare ….gaanv paar

dheere dheere ganv ko paar kiya , main nahi chahta

akhiri 300 meter lagbhag bhaagte huye , main

karte hi maine apni chaal fir se tez kar di aur fir

baagan ke paas pahunch gaya ………..

Door se hi dikhayi pad raha tha ……….baagan ke

paas waali sadak par ek chhota sa truck khada hua
tha ………ek kaafi purana sa truck tha …….main
uske paas pahunch aur fir idhar udhar nigaah
daudayi ……..bagaan ki taraf se Shaazia meri
taraf hi aa rahi thi ………uske chehre par ek
khushi si dikhayi pad rahi thi ……………shaayd
salamat nikal jaayenge……..
usko ab ummed ho gayi thi ki hum yahan se sahi

kar driving seat par baith gaya…….jacket ki jeb se

Maine truck ke paas pahunch aur darwaza khol

chabinikaalkar m aine ignition hole m ein lagayi

……….aur fir ek tez awaaz ke sath truck ka engine

aur oopar waale ka naam lekar use ghuma diya

jaag utha ……..mere apne honthon par bhi ek

oopar aane ka ishara kiya ……..woh doosri side ka

smile aa gayi aur maine neech khadi Shaazia ko

gate khol kar truck mein chadh gayi aur mere paas
waali seat par aakar baith gayi …………
Maine apne kapdo mein se revolver ko nikala aur
apni seat ke peeche bane huye ek chhed mein
chhipa diya ……… fir maine gear dala aur truck
ko aage badha diya……driving mere liye koi
pareshani ki baat nahi thi …….dheere dheere
road par le aaya aur fir 2 minute baad hi humara
gaadi ko chalata hua main oopar ko jaane waali

truck highway par daud raha tha ………..

Mere dil ki dhadkan ab kaafi tez hone lagi thi

………main janta tha ki mera kaam abhi poora nahi
hua hai ………abhi border par aur uss se pehle ,
kayi baar checking ho sakti thi , jisko sahi salamat
paar karna ek tedi kheer tha…..

Main saawdhani se , par tez raftaar se gaadi chala

tha……..yeh road seedha boarder tak jaati thi ……

raha tha………jaisa ki mujhe Hina ne bataya
tha …..aur fir kal huyi barfbaari ki wajah se bhi
aam pahadi raasto ki tarah hi ghumavdaar road

raasta kafi tang ho gaya tha ……..main bahut

….
aaram se border ki taraf badhta chala ja raha tha

Maine ek nigaah Shaazia ke oopar daali ………

woh apne sar ko khidki par tikaye baahar ki taraf
dekh rahi thi …..uski ankhen bata rahi thi ki uska
dimaag kisi gehri soch mein dooba hua hai……main
janta tha ki uske liye yeh sab asaan nahi hai……

rehna ..bahut mushkil hoga ….aur fir jin logo ko

bilkul nayi jagah par jaana aur fir unn ke saath

woh peechhe chhod kar aayi hai …….unse fir

…….kya guzregi Shaazia par jab usko maloom

kabhi dobara milne ki ummed bhi nahi hai

padega ki uski behan ka kya anjaam hua

hai………..maine tay kar liya ki abhi usko kuchh
bhinahibataoonga

Yahi sab sochta hua main gaadi chalata jaa raha tha

anumaan tha ki hum log 30 km ke aas-paas rasta

………ab kareeb ek ghanta ho chukka tha , aur mera

paar kar chuke they …………..fir mera dhyan aage

sadak ki taraf gaya to mujhe chaunk jana pada ……
thoda aage sadak par traffic ruka pada tha aur
gaadiyon ki lambi kataar lagi huyi thi ………saaf
jaahir tha ki aage ya to raasta band tha ya fir
checking ho rahithi… …

mere dil ki dhadkan achanak tez ho gayi …Shaazia

ka dhyaan bhi saamne ki taraf hi tha ……usne ek
baar meri taraf dekha ……mano pooch rahi ho ki
kya hone wala hai ……maine uske haath par apna

side mein kar ke rok di…….

haath rakh kar usko dilasa diya aur apni gaadi ek

main tumhe jabardasti saath le jar aha hoon ……..”

“ agar koi gadbad hoti hai to tum yeh keh dena ki

main uski taraf dekhta hua bola ……..usne meri

………..fir boli “ kyon ? aisa kyon keh rahe ho ? “

taraf bade hi gusse se bhari nigaah se dekha

kahenge ……….mere saath job hi hoga main bhugat

“ iss se kam se kam woh log tumhe to kuchh nahi
loonga …….par tumhare saath kuchh bura ho , yeh

ko apne haath mein pakad kar kaha ……….woh

mujhse bardasht nahi hoga ……” maine uske haath

mere aur najdeek aa gayi ….fir apne doosre haath se

mere haath ko pakad liya aur boli ………

“ ab job hi kuchh hoga …….dekha jaayega ………

agar hum saath saath nahi ji paye to , saath saath

ho gayi ………..
mar to sakte hain “ kehte huye uski aankhen nam si

fir man hi man ek faisla kiya…….agar marna hi hai

main kuchh seconds uski aankhon mein dekhte raha

to kuchh aurko bhim aarkarhim aroonga… … aur

apni seat ke peechhe rakhi revolver nikaal li………
revolver ko check karne ke liye maine uski
magazine ko nikaala to mano mere dimaag mein ek
dhamaka sa hua…….jo kuchh bhi mere saamne the

bilkul khaali tha…..

usko dekhkar main hairaan rah gaya………revolver

Shaazia aur main, kabhi ek doosre ka chehra dekh

rahe they aur kabhi mere haath mein pakdi huyi
khaali revolver ko ……
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badhti ja rahi thi ……..iss samay kyon ki bahut hi

Mere aage gaadiyon ki line dheere dheere aage ko

kum gaadiyan yahan se paas ho rahi thi ….aage

……..
sadak par line lagbhag khatam hi hone waali thi

Maine revolver ko waapas uss hi jagah par chhipa

diya aur gear daalkar apne truck ko aage badha
diya……. F ir apni jacket ki jeb se woh hara wala
lifafa nikaal kar Shaazia ki taraf badha diya
…………Shaazia ne lifafa mere haath se liya aur
usko kholkar usmein rakhe huye papers ko baahar
nikala …………jaise hi usne papers ko dekhna

gayi ……….maine chaunk kar apni speed kam kar

shuru kiya , ek halki si cheekh uske muh se nikal

di aur uski taraf dekha …….woh bade hi gaur se

papers ko dekh rahi thi………uska haath uske muh

rahi thi ………..maine fir se gaadi ko side mein

par tha aur aankhon mein se khushi mano tapak

……….
lagakar roka …aur papers ko uske haath se le liya

Papers ko dekhkar mera bhi wahi haal hua jo uska

hua tha …………us lifafe mein se jo papers nikale
naam ka , meri photo laga hua …..aur doosra
they woh permit they ………ek Sohail malik ke

Shaazia parveen ke naam ka …….Shaazia ki

photo ke saath…..

Hum don one ek baar fir ek doosre ki taraf

dekha………fir maine papers Shaazia ko de diye
aur gear daal kar truck ko tezi ke saath aage ki
taraf badha diya………ab humara kaam bahut
asaan ho gaya tha… … …

Gaadi dheere dheere aage ko badhti rahi…..aur fir

line ke saath saath humaari gaadi check-post tak

……..police ke aur ek gaadi khadi thi jisme

pahunch gayi ………….chek post par 4-5 log they

they …….check post par ek aadmi ne gaadi ke

pakistani army ke jawaan baithey dkhayi pad rahe
peechhe chad kar samaan check kiya ……jaisa ki
Hina ne kaha tha ….usmein seb (apples) ke boxes
bhare huye they… …

doosra aadmi mere paas aaya aur papers mmange

………maine permit ke papers uski taraf badha diye
…………usne papers ko dekha aur hum dono ki

sawaal kiye ……….humaare jaane ki wajah poochhi

soorato ko dekha kar milaya ……….fir usne 2-3

, inn sab baato ka jawaab maine sahi sahi de diya

……..main jaan boojh kar apne lehje ko badal kar
bol raha tha …….jis se usko lage ki main bhi
kashmiri hi hoon ……..meri shave bhi kaafi badhi
huyi thi , jis wajah se unko meri soorat se to kuchh
bhi andaza lagana possible nahi tha ……….

ka ishara kiya …..main dheere dheere aage badhakar

fir usne papers waapas dekar gaadi ko aage badhane

check post ko paar kiya aur tezi ke saath gaadi ko

aage badha diya ……..hum don one ek doosre ki
taraf dekha aur fir maine uska haath pakad kar
dheere se daba diya ……….Shaazia ne bhi
muskurahat ke saath meri taraf dekha aur fir khidki

……..mano aazadi ki hawa mein saans le rahi ho

se sar baahr nikaal kar , baahar dekhne lagi

…………..

main driving kar raha tha , par mere dimaag mein ab

yahi sawaal daud raha tha ki papers change kaise

tha tab usmein yahi papers they ……….iska matlab

ho gaye………ya jab Hina ne mujhe lifafa dikhaya

Hina ka maksad woh nahi tha jo woh humein

dikhana chah rahi thi………….

yahi sochte sochte doosra check post aa gaya aur

fir wahi saari checking aur pooch -tachh shuru ho
gayi …………..agle 15 km mein kul milakar 4
check post aur pade aur sab mein wahi saari
routine checkings hotirahi… … … aur akhir m ein

kar gayi ……………..

humaari gaadi Hinadustan ki seema mein pravesh

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Hindustan ki sarhad mein aate hi maine sabse

pehle …truck ko ek side mein rok kar khada kiya

baith gaya …….fir maine apni matra-bhoomi par

aur fir truck se utar kar jameen par ghutno ke bal

sar rakh kar usko salaam kiya aur waapas truck

ko aage badha diya ………….

mein baith gaya …………fir gear daal kar truck

Maine ab truck ko Hindustan ki sarhad ke andar

dauda raha tha……mujhe maloom tha ki meri
manzil Poonch hai …..jo sabse najdeek ka shahar
hai ……mere paas job hi document they uss se

tha …….mera bag aur wallet , wahin peechhe

mein apne aapko Hindustani proof nahi kar sakta

chhootgaye they … … … …

Agle 2 ghante tak lagatar driving karne ke baad hum

Poonch pahunch gaye………main wahan seedha Air

apna parichay diya ……….pehle to usko meri baat

force station pahuncha aur gate par khade guard ko

ka vishwas hi nahi hua ki main Indian air force ka

meri baat ka saath nahi de rahe they………..fir mere

officerhoon … … … m era libaas aurm era huliya

samjhane ke baad usne andar station mein phone

kiya aur mujhe andar bhej diya…………Shaazia
m ere saath hithi
Andar jaakar main uss station ke commanding
officer se mila aur unko poori baat samjhayi ………
…….usnhone turant mere base station Ambala se
mere gaayab hone ki khabar unke paas bhi thi

maange…….5 minute mein hi mere station se meri

contact kiya aur mere se related documents

photo aur baaki saari details via email wahan

…….maine unko Shaazia ke baare mein samjhaya

pahunch gayi ………..meri identity proof ho gayi thi

bandobast kar diya ………..

aur fir unhone mera Ambala pahunchne ka

1 ghante baad hi ek plane ambala ja raha tha

……..mujhe uss plane se jane ki permission mil gayi
….aur 1 ghante baad hi main aur Shaazia IAF ke

…………..
special plane se Ambala ki taraf rawana ho gaye
Humara plane Ambala Air force station mein hi
land hua aur fir kuchh hi der mein main apne station
ke andar ….apne saathiyon ke samne tha
……..mujhe zinda dekhkar wahan ek hadkamp sa
mach gaya tha ………….mere saathi aur seniors
to mujhe dekhkar hairaan hi reh gaye they

crash mein mara gaya ………..fir maine unn sabhi

……..unn sabhi ne maan liya tha ki main plane

ko short cut mein saari baat samjha di Shaazia se bhi

milwaya…………..thodi hi der baad mein IAF ki

taraf chal diya ………….. aur 2 ghante se bhi kam

gaadi mein baith kar apne ghar , Chandigarh ki

time mein ………..shaam hone se pehle pehle

main apne ghar pahunch gaya ………
kuchh waisa hi yahan bhi hua …….mujhe waapas
Jo kuchh Air force station mein hua ……..kcuhh

dekh kar sabhi log maano pagal se ho gaye

…….mere mummy –papa aur meri behan ka to

……..woh sab log ek ummeed ke sahare hi they ki ,

mare khushi ke koi thikana hi nahi raha

kyonki meri deadbody nahi mili thi , isliye shaayad

mein zinda hoon …aur mujhe zinda dekhkar to
unko jaise saari khushiyan waapas mil gayi
……………

…….sabhi log mujhe waapas zinda dekh kar bahut

Mere ghar waale aur saare padosi , saare dost

khush huye ……..sabhi ki ankhen khushi ke

aansoo baha rahi thi …….2-3 ghante tak poore
ghar mein aura as-paas hungaame ka mahaul hi
raha aur jab sab kuchh shant hua …aur jab hum
ghar ke log hi reh gaye to …maine un sab ko
shaadi karna chahta hoon……..meri baat sun kar
Shaazia se milvaya…..aur bataya ki main us se

gaye…..ek muslim ladki aur woh bhi pakistani

kuchh der ke liye to mere ghar waale sann reh

….unko meri dulhan ke roop mein kaise manjoor

hoti ……..

Maine unko manane mein jut gaya ……..fir agle

din yahi sab chalta raha …….main unko yakeen
dilata raha ki Shaazia ek bahut achchhi ladki hai ,

saath diya …..aur fir meri zid ke aage haar kar

meri behan aur mere kuchh dost one bhi mera

ho gaye…….
mere papa -mummy humaari shaadi ke liye raazi
Maine local police station aur apne IAF station ko
bhi Shaazia ke baare mein inform kar diya

approval bhi aa gaya aur 1 mahine ke baad hum

……………fir ek hafte ke andar hi wahan se

gaye……………..
dono shaadi kar ke humesha ke liye ek ho

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After 2 months…………..

offff……….unnnn… ki awaazein kamre mein goonj

A hhhh… … … … uhhhhhhhhhhh … … …

rahi thi …………yeh saari awaaze Shaazia ke muh

se nikal rahi thi , jo iss samay ek bade se double bed
par ulti hokar leti huyi thi ……..uska sar palang ke

sat ha…….usne apni dono baahein bhi iss samay

kinaare par tha aur thoda sa neeche ko bhi latka hua
apne palang se neeche ko latkayi huyi thi ….. main
uske oopar tha …… uske pairo ke beech mein apbe
ghutno ke bal leta hua tha………uska ek pair
bilkulk seedha tha aur doosra pair moda hua tha
……… dono jaanghen jitni door ho sakti thi utni
door kar rakhi thi …………….main neeche ko

kaan ko apne muh mein le kar choosne laga …….

jhuka aur uske gaal par apna gaal ragadte huye uske

…….jaahir tha ki hum dono hi iss samay bilkul

janam-jaat awastha mein they ………bilkul nange

hua tha …….aur mein apni kamar ko dheere dheere

…………mera lund uski choot mein poora ghusa

hila kar ……..lund ko andar baahar kar raha tha

………….

Humaari shaadi ko ek hafta ho chukka tha aur

hum honeymoon ke liye yahan Manali mein aaye
huye they… … kalshaam ko hihum yahan
pahunche they ……..IAF ke officer’s guest house
ke iss kamre mein pahunchne ke thodi der baad hi

they ……..aur tab se ab tak yeh teesra mauka tha

hum dono ek doosre ki baahon mein pahunch gaye

jo main uski chudai kar raha tha ………..abhi

subah huyi thi aur uthte hi hum dono ek doosre ke
shareer ko naapne mein lag gaye they ……………

…………..Kaato mat …………..” Shaazia ne sar ko

“ Ahhhh………..ouchhh ………..kya kar rahe ho

thoda sa utha kar meri taraf dekha ……….uske

chehre par ek banawati sa gussa tha ……… maine
apna chehra thoda sa aage ko jhukaya aur uske
honth choomne laga …….mari kamar badastoor hil
rahi thi …….aur uske muh se halki halki siskiyan
bhi nikal rahi thi ……….maine uske honthon ko
apne honthon mein jakad liya ……….fir hum dono
ho gaye ……….
ek doosre ke honthon ka ras choosne mein mashroof

Maine thoda sa peeche ko hokar apna lund uski

chootm ein se baahar nikala aur fir usko kam ar se

leti huyi thi …….main fir se uski tango ke beech

pakad kar palat diya…….ab woh apni peeth kebal

oopar let gaya …………..apna muh neeche ko karte

aaya aur fir dono jaanghon ko sehlate huye uske

………..sssssiiiiii …ek siskari ki awaaz uske muh se

huye m aine uskiek choochiko m uh m ein bharliya

nikli aur maine apna hath neeche la jaakar apna

lund pakad kar fir se uski choot ke muh par laga
diya …………maine sar utha kar uski taraf

agle action ka intezar tha usko ……….fir maine

dekha , uski aankhen band thi ……..shaayad mere

apni kamar ko hila kar lund waapas uski choot

mein ghusa diya
usne apne haathon ko meri peeth par kas diya aur

mujho jakad liya …………..uske haath baar baar

apni dono tango ko ko meri kamar par lapet kar

they ……….woh ab apni gaand ko oopar ko uchhal

meri peeth se meri gaand tak ka safar tay kar rahe

rahi thi ……….saath hi mere dhakko mein bhi tezi

aane lagi thi ……….hum dono ek aise khel mein
lage huye they …jis mein akhir mein hum dono ko

…………..
hi haarna tha aur jeet bhi dono ki hi honi thi

poora kamra hum dono ki saanso ki awaaz se bhar

gaya tha… … … m ain ab uske honthon ko choosate
huye , ek haath ko uski kamar ke neeche le gaya tha
ko utha liya………….
aur fir uski gaand ke neeche laga kar thoda sa oopar

Ahhh……………ufffffff…………..karte
raho………..aise hi ………..haannnn…………aur
……………..ki awaaze lagatar uske muh se nikal
rahi thi ………….hum dono hi apni manzil ke
najdeek pahunchne lage they ………..main ab lund

raha tha…….uski haath bhi ab mere kulho par hi

ko poora baahar nikaal kar waapas andar dhakel

jam gaye they ……jaise haaton ki taakat se mujhe

poora andar le lena chhti ho …………

Baahar jordaar sardi pad rahi thi ……..par kamre

huye they ………………..fir ahhhhhhhh ki awaaz

ke andar hum dono ke shareer paseene se nahaye

muh se nikaalte huye uska shareer akad gaya

………uski gaand poori oopar ko utha kar usne
apni choot ko meri jaanghon se chipka diya
………… main samajh gaya ki who ek aur baar
jhad chuki hai ……….fir maine bhi 10-12 dhakke

choot ke andar hi nikaal diya ………..hum dono

tezi se lagaye aur fir apne shareer ka lava uski

ke shareer shant padte chale gaye ………………

maine uske oopar se utha aur uski side mein let

mere se lipat gayi …….apna sar mere seene par

gaya………usne ek baar meri taraf dekha aur fir

rakh kar apni aankhen band kar li …….maine bhi

kuchh der ki liye neend mein chale gaye ………..

apni ankhen band kar li aur fir hum dono hi

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gayi……..maine dekha ki Shaazia gehri neend mein

Thodi der ke baad hi meri aankh fir se khul

chali gayi hai…….maine usko dheere se apne aap

se alag kiya aur fir bistar se uth kar bathroom
mein chala gaya ………thodi hi der ke baad main

khada ho gaya ………..

waapas aaya aur kamre ki khidki ke paas jaakar

floor par tha …….baahar ab halki halki baarish

Humara room guest house ke sabse oopar waale

………….aur neeche seb ke ped dikhayi pad rahe

ho rahi thi …………Saamne hi nadee beh rahi thi

they ………….baahar ka nazara dekhte hi mera

dimaag mujhe waapas 2 mahine peechhe le
gaya………mujhe fir se woh sab yaad aane laga jo

……….Shaazia , Hina aur woh sab baatein jo

mere saath Pakistan mein hua tha

sarhad ke paar mere saath huyi thi ……………….

Hindustan pahunchne ke 1 mahine baad maine

baad uske ghar mein kya hua tha ……….apni

Shaazia ko bata diya tha ki uss din , uske jaane ke

rahi thi ………… agle 2 din tak woh khamosh hi

behan ka anjaam soch kar woh kaafi der tak roti

hota chala gaya……….

rahi aur fir dheere dheere sab kuchh samanya

Maine Shaazia ko to samjha diya tha …par main

tha…….kuchh baatein thi jo dheere dheere saaf

abhi tak apne aap ko nahi samjha pa raha

ho gayi thi …….

se bandha tha……. Usne truck ki chabhi aur

Hina ne mere haathon ko jaan -bujhkar patli raasi

apni jeb mein rakha tha ……..woh jaanti thi ki

permit wala lifafa jaan -bujhkar mujhko dikhakar
revolver khaali hai fir bhi woh bade araam se
Shaazia ke kaboo mein aa gayi thi ……..aur
Hasan ali bhi uske saath hi tha , usko sab kuchh

hai …. kyon ki jab woh mere nikalne ke baad ghar

pehle se hi maloom tha ki wahan kya hone wala

pahuncha to uske paas motor cycle bhi thi aur woh

tha ………….
chahta to waapas aakar hum logo ko pakad sakta

Jo kuchh bhi hua …par itna to clear tha ki Hina

ne jo kuchh bhi kiya woh hum dono ke liye kiya
……par yahi kaam who seedhe seedhe bhi to kar

sakti thi …..aur jaisa ki humaara plan tha , hum

sakti thi ……woh hum dono ko Hindustan aane de

baad mein usko bhi apne saath la sakte they

kar usko kya haasil hua ……..yeh meri samajh se

…………yun apni behan ki nigaah mein bura ban

baahar tha ……………aur jab woh bhi yahi chahti

naatak karne ki kya wajah thi …………..
thi ki main aur shaazia ek ho jayein to fir woh sab

Mere inn saare sawaalo ka jawaab sirf ek hi

tha ……..jo mujh se kaafi door ……..sarhad ke

insaan ke paas tha………aur mujhe nahi maloom

uss paar tha…….aur mujhe mani maloom tha ki

who ab zinda bhi hai ya nahi …………aur main

nahi…………….
kabhi uss se fir mil paoonga bhi ya

Maine waapas bistar par aa gaya………fir Shaaiza

usko apne saath lipta liya……….usne ek baar

ke paas let gaya aur uska haath oopar kar ke ,

kasm asa kar aankhen kholi… fir m ere gale m ein

baanh daalkar mujhse aur kas ke chipak gayi
……..maine bhi uske maathe ko choom kar usko
apne aur najdeek chipka liya……..
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6 years later
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gaadi ke sheeshe par lage parde ko hatakar maine

baahar jhanka………gaadi ghumavdar pahadi rasto
par tezi ke saath chalti jaa rahi thi ……… raste ke

rahe they…. Par mera dhyan un nazaro par na hokar

dono taraf bade hi lubhavne drashaya dikhayi pad

apni manzil par tha , jahan main jaldi se jaldi

pahunchna chahta tha …..
main , Wing commander Ajay Rathod , 6 saal ke
baad fir wahin jaa raha tha , jahan maine apni
jindagi ke sabse yadgaar aur romanchak kuchh din
bitaye they … …

Kargil war ke baad kuchh saalo tak Hindustan aur

……..fir dheere dheere dono mulko ke beech

Pakistan ke rishto mein ek kadwahat si chhayi rahi

rishte bhi samanya hote chale gaye…….Kargil ki

baatcheet ka ek naya daur shuru ho gaya aur fir

3 saal ke baad ek doosre promotion ke saath mujhe

ladayi ke baad mera promotion ho gaya tha aur fir

Wing commnder ki rank mil gayi thi ………….

Hindustani sarkar ki taraf se ek pratinidhi mandal

Pakistan ki yatra par aaya tha aur main bhi iss
tour ka ek hissa tha ………Pakistan ki jameen par
utarte hi mujhe fir se ichchha hone lagi ki main ek

kaam adhoora chhod kar aa gaya tha …………..

baar fir wahin par jaaoon , jahan main kuchh

Waise to pichhle 6 saalo mein shayad ki koi waqt

hoga jo hum logo ne Hina ko yaad na kiya ho
………maine Islamabad mein apne officers aur

aane ki permission mil gayi ………….pichhli baar

Pakistani sarkar se request ki aur fir mujhe yahan

aur iss baar mein yeh ek bada fark tha ki iss baar

tha………..
mein ek mehmaan ki tarah wahan jar aha

Islamabad se by plain main Murree tak aaya aur fir

wahan se mujhe gaadi se aage ka safar tay karna
tha……….main jis gaadi mein tha, uske alawa do

……….jisme Pakistani fauz aur police ke jawaan

gaadiyan aur mere aage peeche chal rahi thi

they ………..wahi jo aaj se 6 saal pehle mujhe

ke liye mere sath they …………….

maarne ke liye dhoondh rahe they , aaj meri security

…………..fir gaanv tak pahunch kar baaki dono

Gaadi ab uss gaanv ke najdeek pahunch gayi

gaadiyan peeche ho gayi aur main apni gaadi ke

driver ko rasta batane laga ……….gaanv se
kachche rasto par hoti huyi gaadi ab uss ghar ki

………….
taraf jaa rahi thi jo filhal meri manzil tha
chukka tha ………..iss raste par , jo pehle bilkul
Pichhle 6 saalo mein yahan kaafi kuchh badal

sunsaan tha …..4-5 naye makaan ban gaye they aur

kuchh abhi ban rahe they …………….dheere

……….yahan par bhi ab bahut kuchh badal

dheere chalti huyi gaadi uss ghar tak pahunch gayi

chukka tha ……….ghar ke saamne wala tabela

tha ………..jo nahi badla tha woh tha Hina aur

gaayab tha aur uski jagah ek makaan bana hua

Shaazia ka ghar ………bilkul waisa ka waisa hi

jaise mein 6 saal pehle chhod kar gaya tha ………

chalta hua darwaaze tak pahuncha ……….maine

main gaadi se neeche utra aur fir dheere dheere

ke saath intezar karne laga ………….10-15

dawaaze par knock kiya aur tez ho rahi dhadkano

seconds yun hi beet gaye ……..main fir se knock

karne hi wala tha ki darwaza khul gaya ……..mere
saamne woh khadi thi jiss se milne ki ummed mein
main yahan aaya tha ………Hina ………..jeeti –
jaagti sahi salamat ……… jisne hamesha se mujhe
jhatke diye they , aaj ka yeh jhatka mujhe sabse
achchha lag raha tha … … …

……..fir pehchante hi uska muh se ek cheekh si

Mujhe dekhkar pehle to woh chank si gayi

nikli …………..” Ajay ….!!!!!” ……..aur uska

muh khula ka khula hi reh gaya………..uska

thoda sa ladkhada si gayi ……..apne aap ko

haath uske muh par chala gaya aur khud woh

sambhalne ke liye usne deewar ka sahara le liya

………..hum dono hi ek doosre ko lagatar dekhe ja

aur usse kandha tika kar khadi ho gayi

rahe they ……bina kuchh bhi bole …….uski

aankhen bheeg gayi thi par mere chehre par
m uskurahatthi… … … … …
…..? “ maine muskurata hua ghar ke andar aa
Fir usne hi baat shuru ki “ kya , andar nahi aaoge

gaya aur mere peeche peeche hi woh bhi ………

baahr ki tarah hi ghar ke andar bhi kuchh nahi
badla tha………wahi kamre , wahi samaan , aur

mano pichhle 6 saal mein waqt yahan kuchh

lagbahag sab kuchh waise ka waisa hi… … …

thahar sa gaya tha …………………..

Main pahle kamre ke andar aa gaya ………usne

Ajay……….!!” Main baith gaya aur saath hi woh

kursi ki taraf ishara karte huye kaha “ baitho

bhi mere saamne waali kursi par baith gayi

……………hum dono hi bilkul chup-chap baith kar

they…………..mano yakeen hi nahi ho raha tha ki

ek doosre ka chehra dekhe jaa rahe

todte huye usne hi baat shuru ki …….

yeh hakeekat hai ya sapna… fir iss khomishi ko
“ Kaise ho Ajay ………..?”

“ Achchha hi hoon “ maine muskurate huye kaha

……” woh hanste huye boli…….

“ Haan………pehle se kuchh mote bhi ho gaye ho

Maine bhi uski hansi mein uska saath diya “ Ha

ha ha ………sab Shaazia ki meharbaani hai
………usne hi mujhe khila khila kar mota kar
diya…”

………..” woh badi sanjidagi se mere chehre ko

“ Tum Shaazia ke saath khush to ho na Ajay

dekhte huye boli ….

“ Haan…………bahut jyada “ maine jawaab diya ,

nahi poochha……..? woh khush hai ya nahi ? tumne

fir uss se sawaal kiya “ tumne Shaazia ke baare mein

to yeh bhi nahi poochha ki hum logo ne shadi bhi ki

ya nahi …….? “

woh fir muskurate huye boli “ mujhe maloom hai ki

w oh tum hare saath haito khush hihogi… … … aur
rahi tumhaari shaadi ki baat , mujhe maloom hai kit
um dono shaadi kar chuke ho “

“ achchha !! kaise ? “ maine fir sawaal kiya ……….

woh kuchh der khamosh rahi ………….fir boli “

mujhe dekar gaye they ……….” Maine sawaaliyan

tum bhool gaye ho Ajay ki tum apne ghar ka address

nigaah se uski taraf dekha ……..woh aage boli “

Kuchh hi mahino ke baad Hasan Ali Hindustan
gaya tha ……Cricket match ke liye visa lekar
… … … w oh tum haare ghartak bhigaya tha
……………woh poora ek din tumhare ghar ke aas-

bhi karta raha …….. fir usne hi aakar mujhe bataya

paas ghoomta raha aur kuchh logo se pooch-taachh

kit um dono ne shaadi kar li hai “ mujhe samjhate

huye usne apni baat poori ki ………

……….tumhe yakeen nahi tha kya mere oopar ?”

“ iska matlab meri jasoosi ki ja rahi thi

maine hanste huye poochha ………

woh uth kar khadi ho gayi aur boli “ yakeen nahi

…….tum baitho , main abhi chay lekar aati hoon “

hota tu Shaazia ko tumhaare saath na bheja hota

firw oh kam re se baaharnikalgayi… … … … …

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maine akele baithkar sochta raha aur yaad karta raha

…………..5 minute baad hi woh chay ki tray lekar

unn lamho ko jo maine iss ghar mein gujare they

aa gayi ………..aur tray ko table par rakh kar mere

saamne chair par baith gayi………

main chay ka cup uthakar chay peen laga aur fir uski
taraf dekhte huye sawaal kiya “ tumne aisa kyon
kiya Hina ? “

…..aur mere chehre ko dekhne lagi fir chay ka cup

mera sawaal sunkar woh pehle to chaunk gayi

uthakar ek ghoonth bhara aur meri taraf dekhkar boli

“ kya kyon kiya ? …….”
“ Tum jaanti ho main kya poochh raha hoon ? kaash

saath kya kar rahi ho ………..tumne sab kuchh

main uss hi samay samajh jata ki tum hum logo ke

……….” Main badi gambheer awaaz mein bol raha

chhod diya sirf hum dono ko ek karne ke liye

saath bhej sakti thi ….fir tumne woh sab drama

tha “ tum chahti to seedhe seedhe bhi hum logo ko

kyon kiya tha ? “

woh fir chup ho gayi ….jaise bolne ke liye shabd

kar .meri taraf dekha aur bolna shuru kiya ……

dhoondh rahi ho …….fir chay ka cup table par rakh

“ Tum ne Shaazia ko pyar kiya aur shadi bhi kar li

…fir bhi main us ko tum se jyada achchhi tarah
jaanti hoon Ajay ….agar maine uss se tumhare saath
jane ke liye seddhe seedhe kaha hota to woh kabhi
bhi tayyar nahi hoti ………main jaanti hoon ki woh

…..par apni behan ki keemat par kabhi nahi

tumko pyar karti hai aur tumko pana chahti thi

………….isliye maine woh sab drama kiya tha

……. Jisse agar woh tumhare saath jaye to use
peeche kisi apne ke chhootne ka ehsaas na ho
…………”

“ par jaisa maine pehle bhi kaha tha ……tum bhi to

baad mein bhi bula sakte they …….? “ maine agla

humaare saath ja sakti thi ………ya hum tumhe

sawaal kiya ………maine apne man ke andar saalo

chata tha……...
se band saare sawaalon ka jawaab uss se le lena

fir bolna shuru kiya …….iss baar woh meri taraf

woh fir kuchh seconds ke liye khamosh ho gayi aur

nahi ..balki neeche dekh kar bol rahi thi “ tum

shaayad nahi jaante Ajay …………apne shauhar ki
maut ke baad , maine agar kisi aadmi se pyar kiya
haito w oh tum ho … … … tum ham esha sochte rahe

tumhare paas aati thi , par aisa nahi tha……..aur

ki main sirf apne jism ki bhookh mitane ke liye

tumne bhi to kaha tha ki agar tumko Shaazia na mili

hoti to tum bhi mujh se pyar kar baith-te “ kuchh der
ruk kar usne fir bolna shuru kiya …” agar main

ulajh kar reh jaati ……….isliye maine yahi sahi

tumhare saath jaati to shaayad hum teeno ki zindagi

samjha ki main tum logo ke beech mein na aooon

mera chehra dekhte huye aage bolna shuru kiya …..

………” keh kar woh fir khamosh ho gayi aur fir

“ maine ek baar tumse poochha tha Ajay ki tum

yahan kyon nahi ruk jaate ? ……tumhara jawaab tha
ki tum apne watan se door nahi reh sakte …….fir
tum hi batao ki main kaise apne watan ko chhod
sakti thi ? ………tumhari hi tarah mujhe bhi apne
watan se bahut mohabbat hai Ajay …”

maine uske chehre ko dekhta raha ……….yeh ladki

meri samajh se bilkul baahar thi …..uski har baat
mujhe nir-uttar kiye ja rahi thi …………main kuchh

bola …..” par yeh sab karke tumne kya paya Hina
der sar jhukakar baith raha fir uski taraf dekhte huye

aur hum dono hi ab khush hain ……..tumne to sab

…………hum dono ko ek doosre ka pyar mil gaya

kuchh kho diya ?”

woh meri taraf dekhte huye dheere se hansne lagi

aur fir boli “ kaun kehta hai ki main khush nahi
hoon ? ………Ajay , tumhare yahan aane se pehle
bhi to hum yahi jindagi ji rahe they na ? fir ab bhi
agar yahi jindagi jeene ko mil rahi hai to shikayat
mujhe jyada achchhi jindagi ji rahi hai …..aur tum
kaisi ? mujhe to khushi iss baat ki hai ki meri behan

…….fir har maa-baap yahi to chate hain ki unki beti

jante ho ki maine uss ko beti ki tarah se rakha tha

hamesha khush rahe ….? “ kehte kehte uski aawaz

bhari hone lagi thi …….aankhen nam ho gayi thi
….. fir 2 seconds ke liye ruk kar aage boli “ Shaazia
to mujhse nafrat karti hogi na Ajay ? kabhi yaad bhi
nahi karti hogi ? “

maine dheere se hansa aur bola “ tum bhi apni behan

nafrat nahi kar sakti ……….lo isko dekho ” Fir apni

ko nahi samajh payi Hina ? woh kabhi bhi tumse

shirt ki pockets ek photo nikaal kar uski taraf badha

di …….woh photo ko mere haath se lekar dekhne
lagi …....yeh ek hill station ki photo thi .......photo

beti khadi thi …..

mein main , Shaazia aur ek chhoti bachhi , humari

usne photo ko dekh kar meri tarf swaaliya nigah se

dekha ……

“ dekho ……..yeh hai humaari beti ………humari

Hina……..Shaazia ko nahi maloom ki uski behan

uske saath hi hai …….usne tumhe kabhi bhi apne

jinda bhi hai ya nahi……..par uski Hina humesha

hamesha hamare saath hi hai .......” kehte kehte meri

aap se door nahi hone diya ……Humaari Hina

awaaz bhi bhari hone lagi thi …aur Hina to photo ko

dekhte huye ba-kayda rone lagi thi ………
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