SIBUSISO

The player
that
got
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PLAYED
SIBUSISO MAKAMOLE
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 I would like to take this opportunity and thank you for buying this
book and a very special dedication to my family. I would also like to
thank all my friends who believed in me when I told them that I want-
ed to write a book, thank you.

I believe that one day we will have a society that will support itself
and ensure that everyone is given a chance to study or even get a job,
if we can join hands and each contribute R50 or R100 towards the fu-
ture of our kids we will have a society that will not need any assis-
tance from the government. Instead of joining the unemployment
queue we need to work together and fight unemployment. Let’s work
hard so that our children will never have to draft a CV or go for an in-
terview, let’s leave a legacy for our children.

Vrede, Free State.

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 All the content of this book is the original work by Sibusiso
Makamole and no part of this book may be reproduced,
stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by
any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording
or otherwise, without the prior permission of the owner.

Copyright © Sibusiso Makamole 07/04/2016

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To
Fikile Mkhondwane
Thank you very much
From
Sibusiso Makamole

SIBUSISO
The player
that
got
PLAYED

SIBUSISO MAKAMOLE

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THE DAY IT ALL STARTED

She started to say 'Sbu please don’t stop i am cumin please go in

deeper deeper' and just as she was about to climax the door opened
and it was my girlfriend … she stood by the door shocked that i was
having sex with her best friend...

It all started 2 weeks before when my girlfriend introduced me to

her best friend who was so beautiful and sexy, i just couldn’t get her
off my mind but been a good boy i stopped thinking about her. 3
days after we met my girlfriend used her phone to call me and asked
me to come and fetch them from the mall so I drove to the mall and
picked them up. My girlfriend suggested that i drop her off first be-
fore dropping off her friend, after i had dropped off my girlfriend i
was driving her best friend home when she said 'Sbu your girlfriend
is lucky to have someone like you i wish i can have a boyfriend like
you that will kiss me and make love to me like you do to her', i just
smiled and didn’t reply but i could not stop thinking about seeing
myself between her yellow bone thighs. I stored her numbers and
then we started to chat on Whatsapp and after a few days we met at
the mall for drinks while my girlfriend had gone home for the week-
end. After the drinks we went to the car parking lot and had a small
chat before dropping the seats so that we can kiss, her warm lips
touched mine and she was wearing a dress so i immediately pulled
up the dress so that i can touch her yellow thighs and she started to
moan, i then moved my hand to her panties and moved them to the
side and began to rub my finger up and down her vagina. After
touching her wet vagina I became fully erect and someone parked
his car next to mine and we had to stop and drive away, I avoided
her for the whole week as i felt that what we did to my girlfriend was
wrong. While chatting on Whatsapp she told me how she got wet
when she thought about me and wanted us to meet again so one
day we agreed to meet at my flat when my girlfriend was at work,

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during my lunch break i quickly drove to fetch her at work and we
went to my flat and we just had less than an hour to do it. When we
got to my flat we started kissing and like last time she was wearing a
dress that i pulled up to reveal her black underwear, i picked her up
and placed her on the kitchen table and I started to touch her vagina
that was already wet and i inserted one finger and felt her wet tight
vagina. I unzipped my pants and wore a condom before I took her off
the table and made her to hold the kitchen table so that i can enter
her from behind. I inserted the tip of my penis and felt like her vagina
was grabbing and sucking my penis. I started slowly while holding on-
to her yellow butt before we went to the couch, she lay there with
her legs wide open like a full chicken saying TAKE ME TAKE ME i went
over to her and inserted my penis deep and i continued in a fast
rhythm until she started to say Sbu don’t stop i am cumin go in deep-
er deeper and just as she was reaching climax the door opened and it
was my girlfriend. She stood there shocked that we were having sex
and she turned around and left the flat crying and i felt bad that i had
messed up. I got stressed about what just happened and i called my
manager and told him something came up and i could not come back
to work, the best friend was still sitting on the couch with her thighs
exposed and she said 'Sbu i am not leaving i want to be with you'. I
zipped up my pants and went to the shop to buy some wine so that
we can think about what we did, when we got back to the flat she re-
minded me that she didn’t reach climax earlier on so we started to
kiss again and within 50 seconds we were both naked on the same
couch and she pushed me back on the couch and she went on her
knees. She looked at me and then held my penis with her soft hands
then slowly she began to kiss the tip of my penis while playing with
my balls.

Not used to such things i thought she wanted to bite my penis but
then she used her tongue on the tip of the penis while looking at me
with her brown eyes, half of my penis disappeared inside her mouth
and it felt like she was trying to suck my brains out. When she was

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done sucking my penis she came on top of me and when i tried to put
on the condom she said Sbu the condom is far let’s just do it and
that’s when she held my penis and guided it inside her vagina, it felt
like time had stopped as she began to slowly move on top of me and i
was touching and kissing her breasts and she began to ride me faster
and i could feel that my volcano was about to erupt and i told her to
get off but she refused because she was also about to climax. We
both reached climax at the same time and that felt amazing, we con-
tinued to have sex like we were crazy and seemed like we had for-
gotten what we were doing was wrong.

At around 5pm i took her back to her flat and came back to clean the
mess in my flat, when i got to the flat i found my girlfriend waiting for
me in the flat. She asked me Sbu why you would sleep with my best
friend, amongst all the girls in the world you chose to sleep with the
one person i thought was my sister? How could you Sbu? I could not
answer her because i knew what i did was wrong; i poured her some
wine so that she can calm down. She stood up and walked towards
me, held my hands and with her eyes full of tears she said Sibusiso
you broke my heart and i am sorry i cannot be with you anymore i will
move out tomorrow but Sbu what is it that i didn’t do for you? I cook
for you, i clean the flat and i do everything for us to work and you re-
pay me by sleeping with my best friend? How can you do that? How
would you feel if i did that to you? Just so you know i have also been
having sex with a colleague at work he fucks me better than you, last
week when i told you that i was going home i actually spent the
weekend with him so its fine you can have my friend and i will contin-
ue with my colleague because he knows how to treat a girl, i just
hope you used a condom when you had sex with her because i know
all the things she has done. We sat on the couch not talking and I
could not believe that all along she was sleeping with a colleague so I
had a reason to justify what i did to her by having sex with her best
friend but two wrongs don’t make a right. She slept in the bedroom
and i slept on the couch so that i can give her space, i could hear her

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talking over the phone with someone crying about what i did to her.
In the morning she packed her bags and left, a 5 year relationship just
gone down the drain because i could not keep my penis inside my
pants but was it worth it? Yes it was. I didn’t know if i had lost a per-
son i thought was my wife to be or someone who was cheating be-
hind my back. My relationship with my ex's best friend grew stronger
everyday as we continued to have sex that was out of this world. The
other day after taking a shower we lay on the bed naked and i started
to kiss her lips, went to her neck then up to the ears as she held me
closer i then got on top of her while kissing her then went to suck on
her nipples touching those soft round breasts of hers I then continued
to go down on her and i opened her legs wide exposing her shaved
vagina and could see that she was wet, i then used my 2 fingers to
open her vagina properly and i could see her clitoris. I first gave it a
kiss before using my tongue on it and she started to moan as I contin-
ued to play with my tongue on her clitoris, slowly sucking her clitoris
and with her hand she pushed my head harder against her clitoris so I
flattened my tongue to ensure that she got the right sensation. I con-
tinued to suck on her clitoris and then inserted my finger inside her
vagina and she lifted her butt and I could see that she was enjoying it
and again she pushed my head between her thighs and they were
starting to shake as if they wanted to close but I didn’t stop and I
sucked on her clitoris harder until she climaxed.

She rolled onto her left side and could hear her breathing heavily, I
got a condom from the drawer and rolled it down my penis. She
turned around, looked at me and opened her thighs and said come
Sbu take me. I got on top of her and lifted both her legs and placed
them on my shoulders so that I can give her deep penetrations. I
pulled a pillow and placed it under her butt so that my penis and her
vagina can be level, I inserted my penis slowly and I mean slowly until
my penis had disappeared inside her vagina, I gave her a few deep
thrusts before continuing to go in faster when I looked at her face she
could not even look at me and her hands were holding onto the bed

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and as I continued to go in deep and faster. I enjoyed this position
because I can also kiss her feet while going inside her and we contin-
ued in that position until I ejaculated then I collapsed on top of her
and we kissed. I got up naked with my penis dangling while I went to
the kitchen to get some juice and my penis was looking at me smiling
for the good time we just had, we then lay on the bed and i asked my-
self if I am in love with this girl? I asked myself if I really do love her or
was i going through a rebound phase? She was beautiful and we had
some of the best sex ever and i enjoyed her company.

One day after having sex i let my guard down and told her that i loved
her. She gave me a kiss and said that’s sweet and didn’t respond to
what i had just told her, I immediately changed the topic as i felt that
we were not on the same page. She later asked me to take her back
to her place and in the evening she sent me an sms saying that we
need to talk, I was happy as i thought she wanted to tell me that she
also loved me. We met the following day after work and we sat down
to talk, she said Sibusiso do you remember last time when we had sex
on the couch and you came inside me? Oh yes i do that was nice, Yes i
went to the chemist the following day to buy morning after pills and i
got there late so i didn’t get them. Hmmm yes i replied, Sbu so i did-
n’t go on my periods and today i took a pregnancy test. Sibusiso i am
pregnant with your baby. What???!!!I? I don’t want a baby why did-
n’t you go the following day? Malls are always opened on Sunday you
should have gone there or told me to go and buy them for you, even
that day it was your idea that we have sex without a condom look
now what happened. I don’t want a baby just take care of it!!!

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THE PREGNANCY

I stood up and left the flat, I then called my friend Jabu so that we can
meet for a few drinks. We met in a bar at Maponya mall and I was
telling him about how my ex found me having sex with her best friend
and we were just sharing stories laughing having a good time, there
were 2 ladies sitting next to us and after a few drinks we invited them
to join us, The pregnant one tried to call me a couple of times but i
ignored her calls because I was entertaining these ladies Thandi and
Thobile from Protea glen. With booze flowing i started to flirt with
Thobile and we kissed a couple of times, we agreed that we will go to
my flat for the night and we then drove to my flat, i thought the preg-
nant one had left and gone to her flat to take care of the pregnancy.
When we got to my flat we started to kiss in the living room as i slow-
ly started to unzip her jeans she grabbed my erect penis and started
to move it up and down. Her jeans slid down and I also pushed down
her black underwear and then i touched her vagina that was warm
and wet ready for action. I was just too horny to continue with fore-
play so i immediately took out a condom and she went to lie on the
couch and opened her legs wide, i got on top of her and rubbed her
clit with my penis before sliding it inside her deep. She crossed her
legs on my back making sure that i don’t get away; as i continued to
go in deep she started to moan and moan. For a minute i thought i
had heard a door open but I was caught between the thighs to notice.
As i turned my head around i saw the pregnant one passing by going
to the kitchen, i immediately jumped out of the thighs and as i was
about to ask her what she was doing in my flat she ran into the kitch-
en to get a knife. As she was coming towards us and i could see in her
eyes that she was angry and ready to do anything. Thobile got up and
shouted 'i am sorry he said he is not dating anyone that is why i came
here with him i am sorry please don’t stab me' What? Sbu am I not
your girlfriend? Don’t you love me? She asked. No you are not, i told
you that i love you and you didn’t respond so i thought we are just
having sex, i replied. She dropped the knife and picked up a glass that

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she threw at me and i ducked as Thobile ran to the bathroom and
locked herself inside leaving me with the pregnant one to solve what
just happened. Sbu how can you say i don’t love you? I come to your
place every day so that we can be together, i am pregnant now with
your child and you are busy having sex with that girl that? Don’t we
have enough sex? I let you fuck me in any position that you want and
give you my vagina whenever you want why would you go and do
that to me? But i cheated on my girlfriend with you, what makes you
think you are special and that I won’t cheat on you? I asked her.
What? She slapped me and said i risked everything so that i can be
with you and this is how you thank me? She started to cry, picked up
the knife and tried to stab me in the chest. I used my arm to stop her
but i got a small cut on my arm, i managed to take the knife off her
hand and i held her down as she continued to cry. She asked me to
release her as she wanted to go and sleep, I released her and she got
up opened the door and ran out. I didn’t know if i should run after her
or let her go to cool off but again it was past 1 in the morning and I
was still drunk and wanted to sleep so that i can wake up and go to
work. Thobile got out of the bathroom and asked me to drive her
back to Protea and i refused told her am tired and will take her to
Protea in the morning. I woke up with a hangover and a half naked
girl next to me, I remembered that we didn’t finish having sex last
night so I began to massage her vagina until she woke up and said
ahhhh sbu nooo don’t do that noooo. I wore a condom and got on
top of her for a quick one before I drove her back to Protea, she
opened her thighs for me and let me inside her vagina and I was do-
ing her slowly because I had a hangover and she held me as I was go-
ing in deep but slow until I ejaculated. As i got up to take a shower i
noticed some blood on the condom and when i checked the bed
there was a red stain on the bed.

Thobile jumped off the bed and apologised for the stain and said she
had finished her periods a day before we met and had thought her
periods were finished, I was angry because I knew that I wouldn’t be

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able to wash the stain from my mattress and that meant that i had to
buy a new mattress but since i was a good guy i didn’t want her to
feel bad about what happened so i told her its ok she must not worry
i will get a new bed. I took a shower, dressed up and took her to Pro-
tea glen before driving to work, when i got to work i settled in trying
to forget about what happened last night. At about 11am the preg-
nant one arrived at my work place and i could just smell trouble a
mile away, she came to my desk and demanded that we talk. I told
her my lunch break was at 1pm and she can wait for me outside so
that we can talk. I got held up at work and didn’t take lunch and at
about 1:18pm she stormed into my work place again and said 'You
can’t even come and talk to me? You knew how to fuck me and now
you don’t want to even talk to me? What must I do with this thing in
my stomach? Tell me!!! What must I do with this baby? I stood up and
called security so that they can remove her because she was shouting
and causing a scene. They removed her and around 2pm i received an
sms from her and it read 'You will regret what you did to me, i am go-
ing to kill myself so that this demon that i have in my stomach can al-
so die. I hate you Sibusiso you will regret it'. I didn’t want to have
blood on my hands and replied with an sms and said 'No baby i love
you and want us to be together and raise the baby. Don’t do anything
stupid, see you later' I was stressed and could not even concentrate
when i had to assist one of our most valued client. He wanted to
transfer R700 000 to a company in London so that he can secure a
R70 000 discount that they offered him for some parts, he gave me all
the details and as i was entering the information he had given me i
kept thinking about what the pregnant one had said. I made a mistake
and entered the last 2 account numbers incorrectly. The money was
transferred to another person’s account, we didn’t notice the error
until the client came back to complain because the supplier didn’t get
the funds. He was assisted by my manager and that is when they
picked up the error, we called the interbank to try and reverse the
transfer but it was too late the money had been withdrawn. My man-
ager asked me to go home for the day and when i arrived at my flat i
found a note on the table that read 'You lied to me and said you love

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me but you slept with another girl on the same bed that we share?
Go and look there’s a big blood stain on your bed, sies you are a dog. I
will keep the baby and you will never see it, i left you a small present
in the bathroom bye' When i got to the bathroom the bathtub was
filled with all my clothes and they were soaked in Bleach. All my shirts
and jeans were in there and some had started to loose colour, as i
went to the living room i noticed she had also broken all my PS3
games. My Grand theft auto disc was on the floor and i felt like crying
because she didn’t understand the relationship i had with my games,
all the whiskey i had in the house went down the drain and also cut
off some of my certificates. I just sat down thinking that she had
crossed the line and at that point i wished that she can kill herself and
die. I called Thobile and asked her if i can fetch her later and she said
she can’t come to my place but if i wanted to come and sleep at her
place it was ok, I went to the mall to buy a few shirts and trousers so
that I can have decent clothes to wear to work and then later drove
to Protea glen to spend the night there. When i arrived at her place
she opened the gate for me and after parking my car she opened the
door and let me in. She was wearing a white gown that showed her
right thigh when she walked, what does a man need when they are
stressed? She brought me a nice cold beer and some food, while I
was eating she complained of the heat and she took of her gown and
she was wearing a red see through G-string and a red bra. I could not
continue eating as she sat on the 3 seater couch and opened her
thighs while looking at me. She asked if i was just only going to look at
her and not do anything, trying to brush off her temptation i told her
that i was tired and needed a massage. She took the plate off my
hand and then sat on top of me and she pushed her breast against
my face, i kissed them before taking off my clothes and before I knew
it i was naked. We went to the bedroom and i lay on the bed. She
took off her G-string and bra and then got on top of me and began to
give me a massage. She was also moving her waist a little bit and
could feel the heat from her thighs on my back. I turned around and
we began to kiss slowly and i can feel her vagina juice on my stomach.
We changed to the 69 position, she was on top and her vagina was
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close to my face. She began to suck my penis slowly while playing
with my balls; she had one of those chubby vaginas, see the ones that
look like they are serious? I used both my hands to open up her vagi-
na walls and saw her pink clitoris, i used my thumb to rub it and she
stopped sucking my penis. I pulled her butt closer to my face so that
my tongue can reach her clitoris. I kissed that clitoris before sucking
on it and she could not sit still. She reached under a pillow and took
out a condom that she rolled down over my penis. She then moved
down a little bit and held my penis with her right hand and sat on it.
My penis just disappeared under her big brown butt, she began to
ride me in the reverse cow girl position i could see her butt going up
and down my penis. There is no better view like when you can see
your penis disappearing under a big brown butt, she got tired and
then stood near the edge of the bed and we did a standing doggy
style. She bent over and i inserted my penis and the view of the
brown butt was just amazing, i got carried away and started to pull
her hair and her weave came off but she didn’t mind and i threw the
weave in the bed and I used my hands to open her butt cheeks so that
i can go in deeper. With each thrust my balls would touch her clitoris
and i did her faster and faster. She could no longer stand still as she
was about to reach climax but i held onto her while doing her, i could
feel that i was about to ejaculate and she was also about to climax.
She tried to push me away so that i don’t go in deeper and she said
oh Sbu damn i just came and i felt her squirt and her legs started to
shake and i also ejaculated. We lay on the bed naked and she was
smiling, that’s when i knew i did her good. While cuddling we started
to talk and know each other better and like most conversations they
always end on sex, she told me her sexual fantasy was to have sex in
the car as her friends have done it and they said it was great, i asked
her if she wanted to try it and with a big smile she said YES.

The time was around 11pm and i wore my boxer shorts and she took
her gown and wrapped it around her brown chocolate body. As we
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her legs on my car’s windscreen, we got to the car and i asked her
where she wanted us to do it. She said anywhere so we got in the
front passenger seat and i pushed the seat to the back and dropped
the seat so that we can have enough space. I turned the radio on and
the song by Zonke called Feelings was playing. I got on top of her and
she placed her left leg on the air vent on the left side of the dash-
board and her right leg was on the steering wheel we continued to
kiss and while touching her breasts i reached for the glove box and
took out a condom and she said 'oh so you are used to having sex in
the car that is why you have condoms in there but it’s a good thing
it’s better to be safe than sorry'. I didn’t reply and used my left hand
to open her serious vagina and felt that she was wet, i entered the tip
of the penis just a little bit then gave her a deep thrust. I gave her
deep penetrations because her legs were open for me to go inside
deep and deeper.

I still remember those lyric 'tonight we going to talk about feelings'

while she was moaning as i was going in deeper and faster. It was
very hot in the car so i started the car and let it idle so that i can turn
the air-conditioner on, We moved to the back seat and i pushed both
seats to the front and her left knee was on the seat and the right one
on the floor of the car and she bent forward. This was to ensure that i
am able to go in while my back was straight and not worry about my
head hitting the roof, i came behind her and using her hands she
reached back and spread her butt cheeks open so that i can slide in
easily. The next song that played was Ringo Sondela, as the song
played Sondela sthandwa i held her curves and began to ram her slow
and fast. She used her right hand to push me away so i did her slowly
as the song played in the background, it was a perfect environment
with the aircon blasting nice fresh air and this girl with a chocolate
brown body bending over for me to ram her and the nice songs on
the radio. At this point i could feel that i was close to ejaculation but i
wanted her to reach climax first so while doing her slow from behind I
used my left hand to reached for her clitoris and i rubbed it as i con-

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tinued to do her from behind. Her moaning began to increase and she
said Sbu i am coming so i rubbed her clitoris harder and gave her
deeper penetration, that is when she started to vibrate and lay on the
backseat while i did her faster till i also ejaculated. I kissed her back
going up to her neck till i reached her earlobe and she laughed and
said 'Sbu what are you doing to me? I’ve never had such sex before
you do me good. We went back inside the house and we got into the
bedroom and cuddled up before sleeping. One of my rules was not to
cuddle if i didn’t have plans of starting a relationship with a girl, cud-
dling developed feelings. LETS HAVE SEX AND NOT CUDDLE but Tho-
bile was a sweet girl and i wanted her to be happy so i broke one of
my rules and we cuddled.

When i woke up next to her in the morning, she was still holding me
like we were husband and wife, I woke her up with a kiss on her fore-
head and gave her a nice warm hug before i got up and told her that i
needed to rush back to my flat to take a shower and go to work. She
said ok you can leave after you have given me breakfast, Breakfast?
But this is your house you must give me breakfast. While standing
there naked she looked at my penis and said Sbu there is breakfast
pointing at my penis, Thobile how can you say my penis is breakfast
how is that possible? i asked. She laughed and said Sbu i can see 2
eggs and a Russian ready for me, no Thobile we can’t do it now i am
tired and have to go to my flat or i will be late for work. She became
serious and said 'If you won’t give me breakfast then i won’t open the
door for you then she lay on the bed and opened her thighs showing
me brown vagina, I looked on with temptation and tried to resist be-
cause I didn’t have enough time to offer her the breakfast that she
wanted but again there was no way I was going to leave her house
before she got what she wanted so I told her its ok we can have a
quick breakfast before I leave. She reached for her drawer and got a
strawberry flavoured lube that she applied on her vagina while she
was doing that the Russian got ready for action, I rolled a condom on
the penis and she also applied some of the lube on the condom and

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then she bent over on the bed with her head and chest flat on the
bed and the brown butt in the air. I got on the bed touched her butt
while I admired the view of an African brown butt in a doggy position
waiting for me to have it, she reached back and opened her butt
cheeks showing me her vagina and the penis could not wait any more
so I inserted it slowly and then took it out. I went in deep and even
squeezed my butt while pushing every inch of the penis to go in and I
felt that her vagina was wet then I knew it was the perfect time to do
her faster. I held on to her butt and just pumped her fast because i
was not happy that Thobile had demanded that we have sex by force,
she finally climaxed and I also came. I wore my clothes and rushed to
my flat to take a shower and headed to work, when I got to work my
manager called me into his office and explained that the client I had
assisted earlier has lodged a complaint with head office and wanted
to sue us for damages due to the wrong transfer of funds. He also in-
formed me that I must attended a disciplinary hearing for negligence
as I had transferred the funds into the wrong account number and i
knew that there was no way that I cannot be fired for what I did and
if they didn’t fire me they were going to make me pay back the mon-
ey that I transferred to the wrong account. My manager told me that
I cannot be at work as they were still investigating the transfer of
funds and ordered me to go home and to come back to work on the
day of the hearing. If only the pregnant one didn’t threaten me that
she was going to kill herself and the baby I am sure that I could have
not made the error but again I had to man up to my mistake so I
passed at a bottle store and grabbed a 6 pack before going to the flat.
I arrived at the flat and found the flat in the same state that I had left
it in before I went to see Thobile, I connected my phone to my stereo
and played my Kwaito collection, I took out the dyed clothes in the
bathtub and placed them in plastic bags, picked up the torn certifi-
cates and discs on the floor. I sat down and opened a cold dumpie
and had a drink to quench my thirst while listening to Bongo muffin
Thathi Sgubhu Thathi Sgubhu usfake ezozweni uzozwa ubumnandi
obulapho then I got up to try and cook some food. I looked in the
cupboards and found a can of beef and decided to cook it, I started by
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frying some onion, green pepper and garlic before adding hot Rajjah
into the frying pan. With Tkzee Mambotjie playing in the background I
added the grated tomatoes into the mix and while the gravy was
cooking I chopped up the beef into small cubes and added them into
the gravy and let everything cook in low heat before adding black
pepper for more flavour. I sat down and enjoyed with bread as Thebe
with Abuti bula boot was playing, after eating I needed a plan to get a
new job within 3 days and I wondered if my ex-girlfriend was happy
where she was and whatever happened to the pregnant one but I just
hoped that she had aborted the baby because I didn’t want anything
that will tie me to her, I didn’t want to have a reason to call her or an-
ything I just wanted her to disappear from my life. What do I aim to
achieve by sleeping with all these girls? Will I ever find a girl that I will
love? Come on Sbuda you need to grow up and stop sleeping with all
the girls you meet. I dozed off on the couch thinking about what I
must do to get a new job.

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THE PREGNANT ONE

I woke up with the aim of getting a job because I knew I was going
to be dismissed from my job so I did what everyone does and I
bought a newspaper and applied for jobs and I got the notorious
reply from most companies:

Good day
Sibusiso we regret to inform you that your application was unsuc-
cessful however we will keep your resume should any new positions
be available in the future.
Regards

After a week of getting these emails I started to panic that I might

struggle to get a job because all my applications were been rejected.
While browsing through the internet I saw a job advert for a sales
position and I thought I should give it a try it because I had sales ex-
perience, I sent them my resume and the following day I got an sms
that read; Good day, we have received your application for the sales
position. You need to come for an interview on the 23 August at cor-
ner Church and Du toit street, Pretoria. Bring a pen to complete the
assessment. I was happy that at least I got an interview so I tried to
research about this company but I could not find anything however I
was confident that I will get the job no matter what. I drove to Pre-
toria to attend the interview and when I arrived at the place it was
just an office with a receptionist who did not have a computer or
even telephone and she had to take me to the next room to meet
Dudu who was the interviewer. She offered me a seat and informed
me that her client was looking for a person with sales experience
and the client was offering a gross salary of R15 000 plus commis-
sion. We had the interview and then advised me that I needed to

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pay a placement fee of R500 that will also include training for the new
position. After hearing about the salary I rushed to the atm to with-
draw the cash and gave it to Dudu and she told me that she will call
me within 2 days so that I can start with my training. I left and drove
back to my flat and on the way I called Thobile to ask how she was
doing and if we can meet later on for drinks because I wanted to cele-
brate my new job that I was going to start in the next coming days.
Whenever I thought about Thobile I just remembered her demanding
breakfast and how she would grab my penis and slide it inside her
brown vagina. She agreed that we can meet later at my flat and then I
passed at the mall to buy a few white t-shirts for my new job, I
bumped into the pregnant one at a shop and I wanted to slap her for
what she did to my clothes but I didn’t want to make her angry so I
greeted her and asked her how was she was doing and she said every-
thing was ok and she asked if we can talk. I agreed and we went to a
restaurant to have a chat, I ordered a beer and she ordered an orange
juice and then she told me that she was planning on keeping the baby
and that if I didn’t want to be in the child’s life it was ok as she was
planning to raise the child alone.

Sbu: Why would you think that I don’t want to be in the child’s life?
Just because we don’t get along that does not mean that the child
must grow up without a father, I would love to be there for him when
he grows up
Pregnant one: How can you say you want to be in the child’s life
when you told me to take care of it? You wanted me to kill this baby
and now because I am going to keep it then you want to be part of its
life? Just so you know one day I will tell the child that you wanted me
to take care of it but I refused.
Sbu: Its fine you can do whatever you want
Pregnant one: My child will grow up with a mother and a father that
stay together, my child will not have to visit the father on weekends
because I don’t want to explain to the child why mom and dad don’t
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stay together if you can’t do that for him then I will get him a father
that he will see every day.
Sbu: But a child needs a father that will be there for him and they
don’t have to live in the same house for that, as long as the father is
in the picture then it is ok. I cannot stay with you for the sake of the
child, the only reason why I am even talking to you right now it is be-
cause of the child but I cannot stay with you. We need to be in a rela-
tionship for us to stay together and I am sorry I cannot do that.
Pregnant one: If you want things to be like that then you don’t de-
serve to be in my child’s life.
Sbu: Why do you keep saying it is your child? Isn't it our child?
Pregnant one: No and you won’t even see this child
She said that and stood up and left me there alone and I could not
understand why she insisted that we have to be in a relationship for
me to see the baby but I was not going to allow her to control me. I
went to a supermarket to buy some food before Thobile called and
said she was on her way to my flat. I got her some wine then went to
my flat, we met at the gate and we went inside. Thobile knew how to
seduce me the way she walked up the stairs swinging her butt left to
right and then stop and ask me if I can tell if she was wearing an un-
derwear or not. My mind would race and imagine her brown butt
without an underwear lying on my bed naked waiting for me, when
we got inside the flat I poured her some wine and we sat on the
couch and had a chat. She was telling me about how this new guy at
work was liked by her manager because the guy was always on his
feet and tried to outshine everyone even though he had just started,
she also told me about this project that they are busy with at work
that required them to come up with ideas on how the client can in-
crease their customer service experience. She got up and took of her
jeans saying she wanted to relax properly. We then sat sipping on the
wine while she told me more about her client and with my sales expe-
rience I was able to assist her with a few ideas that she can propose
when they met tomorrow, Thobile was not comfortable with pitching
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the ideas so I made her to propose the ideas to me so that I can ask
her question and ensure that she understood the ideas properly. She
managed to present the ideas correctly and while standing I stood up
and went to stand in front of her. I held her waist and then blew some
air into her neck then I kissed her earlobe. I pushed her hair away so
that I can give her a few more kisses on her neck and that made her
to hold me closer. I looked at her eyes and I could see what she was
thinking as we began to kiss and she wrapped her arms around my
head, I grabbed her butt and lifted her up and she wrapped her legs
around me. I walked to my bedroom where I placed her on the bed
and lay in between her thighs while we continued to kiss. I got on my
knees so that I can remove her underwear, I lay next to her and while
kissing her I moved my hand between her thighs and just like the
gates of heaven she just opened them, I moved my hand down to her
vagina and felt that her pubic hair was starting to grow back and then
i opened it to feel her warm and wet vagina. I began to touch her clit-
oris and she stopped kissing me and looked me deep in my eyes as I
began to rub her clitoris in clockwise circular motion and she slowly
closed her eyes and looked away.

She began to moan as she held my hand that was busy rubbing her
clitoris; I would rub the clitoris and then slide my finger along her
vagina and insert one finger inside her. She began to breathe in deep-
ly while looking at me I inserted the finger deeper twice before using
2 fingers and that made her to open her legs wider and she pushed
my hand inside her and i took out my fingers and continued to rub her
clitoris and she became restless as I continued to rub it faster she
took both her hands and covered her face and said my name Sbu
Sbuu Sbuuu Sbuuuu ahhhh shiittt and rolled on the side. I got up and
took off my pants then got a condom and rolled it down my penis and
I got on top of her slid my penis inside her warm vagina and I knew
that Thobile enjoyed deep thrusts so I lifted her legs and placed them
on my shoulder so that I can go in deep inside her. She opened her
arms and held on the bed tight as I continued to go in deep inside her

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and with those deep thrusts, I began to feel that a volcano was about
to explode as I continued to look at her brown vagina with my penis
going in and out. I ejaculated and lay on top of her, she held me and
said Sbu I don’t like what we are doing because it is just too good. I
fetched the wine in the living room so that we can have a drink while
relaxing in the bedroom and she asked me what happened that day
when the pregnant one she found us having sex in the lounge. I told
her that me and pregnant one were not even dating but we were just
having sex and that my relationship with her was just a big mess be-
cause she was pregnant with my baby. After hearing that she got up
and sat on the bed and said:

Thobile: Sbu are you trying to tell me that you cheated on your girl-
friend with her best friend and then cheated on the best friend with
me? What is your problem? What happened to your girlfriend that
you cheated on with her best friend?
Sbu: I don’t know what happened to her but I think she is dating one
of her colleagues
Thobile: So what is happening between you and the pregnant one?
Sbu: There’s nothing happening between me and her we just going to
have a baby and that’s it.
Thobile: But Sbu how can you be so reckless and have sex with her
without a condom?
Sbu: No man it’s not like that but I know I fucked up please don’t rub
it in.
Thobile: Sbu do you enjoy breaking other people’s hearts? One day
that will also happen to you and I hope you will also enjoy it.

Things were getting out of hand as Thobile got angry about what I
have done to the other girls and including her, I tried to explain that I
regret sleeping with my ex’s best friend because I lost someone I love
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for minutes of passion. She got up and dressed and asked me to take
her to Protea glen as she could not believe that I had dragged her into
this mess. Days passed without me and her talking so I deleted her
numbers because it was clear that I was not going to see her again
and then I drove to Pretoria to check on the job that I went for the
interview on in the past days, when I arrived at the offices the recep-
tionist that I had met was not there so I asked the security guard what
happened to them because their office was locked. He told me that
the agency was a fraud that advertised fake jobs on the internet and
asked people for a placement fee before they can start with their
jobs. I felt as if I was dreaming that someone had tricked me into be-
lieving that I had a job and even paid them, that witch saw that I was
desperate for a job and took advantage. I went and sat in the car for a
few minutes trying to call the number that they sent me the sms with
but there was no answer. I drove to my flat and just wanted to talk to
someone about what just happened. I knew that the one person who
could make me feel better was Thobile but I didn’t want to act des-
perate by calling her and besides I had deleted her numbers so I
made a big mistake and called the pregnant one to come over so that
we can talk. She came over to my flat and we sat down, she was just
too sweet and nice and I knew that she was trying to soften me up. I
told her that I had lost my job after I made an error in transferring
funds for a client and that I was scammed of R500 by fraudsters in
Pretoria. She gave me a hug and told me not to worry about it things
will be OK. She asked me if I needed anything to drink and I said yes
but could not afford to be buying alcohol as I needed to save money
for the flat and pay for the car, she gave me her bank card and said I
can go and buy whatever I want while she will remain behind to clean
the flat.

I went to the bottle store and bought 12 dumpies, bottle of whiskey

and orange juice for her, when I got back to the flat I found 2 condom
wrappers on the table counter and she was busy cleaning the bed-
room. I took the 2 wrappers and threw them in the bin before sitting

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down to enjoy my beer, she came and sat next to me and asked me
who was I having sex with in the bedroom and I told her that it was
Thobile the girl she found me having sex with the other day. She con-
tinued to ask me questions like she was a detective and I got up to
pour her some orange juice and brought the bottle of whiskey close
so that I can take shots . I connected my phone on the stereo to play
music so that she can stop asking me questions and after 6 dumpies
and countless shots of whiskey I was getting drunk and started to sing
along to Adele the One and only. For some strange reasons she start-
ed to look beautiful and i felt attracted to her, she came and sat next
to me and then told me that she wanted to kiss me. I looked at her
and she looked like the most beautiful girl in the world, she took my
hand and placed it in between her thighs then she started to kiss me.
Some part of me didn’t want to kiss her but I could not resist her lips,
I laid back on the couch and she came on top of me and continued to
kiss me and unbuttoned my pants sliding her hand inside my pants to
grab my erect penis. I started to also touch her and the idea that I
love her kept looping up in my mind. No I don’t love this girl it’s just
sex IT’S JUST SEX I kept telling myself as she pulled down my pants
and then got up and removed her jeans and undies before came and
sat on top of me, I told her to get a condom and she said there was
no use using the condom because she was already pregnant. She held
my penis and sat on it slowly inserting the tip of the penis then slid
the whole penis inside her warm vagina and she then stopped and
looked me in the eyes and said Sbu do you love me? I could not an-
swer her question so she moved her waist up and my penis got out of
her vagina. She asked me again if I loved her or not and I still could
not answer and she took my penis and inserted it inside her vagina
and went down slowly and asked me again if I loved her, she was
moving her waist up and down slowly and I tried to kiss her so that
she can stop asking me if I loved her or not. She moved her lips away
and continued to ask me if I loved her and I just gave in and said yes I
do love you, she began to kiss me again and moved her waist faster
like she was twerking on top of my penis. She rode me I until I ejacu-
lated and then just sat on top of me and I am sure she was ensuring
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that all the semen got inside her and after that I just passed out on
the couch with the pregnant one lying on my chest. I just did the big-
gest mistake in my life by allowing the pregnant one back in my life
and telling her that I loved her, she knew that I cannot resist her vagi-
na and she used that against me. Have I also lost Thobile? Is my ex-
girlfriend happy wherever she is?

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The receptionist and the cheater

“We often go or call companies and talk to a person before we are

directed to whoever we want to talk to, that person is called a recep-
tionist. We don’t pay attention to them as we think they are not im-
portant or don’t know anything but in actual fact they are one of the
most powerful and influential people in any company, if you want to
book an interview with someone in the company you will first talk to
the receptionist who in turn can help you with the interview or not, if
you are rude towards them then you can spend 30 minutes holding
before you can talk to the person you want to talk to. Treat them with
respect“

After I woke up the following day the pregnant one left the flat and
said she was going to work and my friend Jabu called and told me
about a job position in Midrand and he gave me an email address to
where I can send my resume. I sent my email to the company and lat-
er that day I got a call from a lady called Nomfundo who wanted to
book me for an interview, she sent me the company’s address, time
and who to ask for when I arrived for the interview. I did my quick
research about the company and felt that I could get the job because
I had the experience and qualifications that they needed for the posi-
tion. The following day I drove to Midrand for the interview and I ar-
rived at the address and the security guard told me where to park the
car and where to enter. So I drove in and parked the car and went
inside where I met Nomfundo the receptionist, Nomfundo had this
lovely smile and her voice melted my heart. She had the sweetest
voice ever the kind of voice I wanted to hear every morning, after tell-
ing her who I was and who I wanted to see she said oh it’s nice to see
you in person and you are more handsome in person before blushing.
I asked her where did she see me before and she said after receiving
my resume she looked me up on Facebook and after that she for-
warded my cv to the manager who in turn told her to invite me for

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the interview. I went into the interview room and sat down; I saw that
the manager had a picture of himself with Irvin Khoza so I immediate-
ly knew that I had to base my answers around soccer so that I can be
on his good books. He came in and greeted me and then asked me to
tell him about myself of which I replied ‘My name is Sibusiso originally
from Vrede in the Free state and I have been in Gauteng for 4 years
now and I love my team Orlando pirates’ he smiled and asked oh you
are an Orlando Pirates supporter? Yes I am a die-hard fan, I replied.
He told me that he was the only Orlando Pirates supporter in the
company and I told him not to worry because I was also a fan so now
there were 2 Orlando pirate’s fans, we both laughed when he said
ohh wait you must get the job first. The interview went well and be-
fore I left I went to see Nomfundo again so that I can get her num-
bers. I left and went to Carlswald to just relax and have a drink, I
quickly checked on the internet for a florist around Midrand and
found one that had affordable flowers. I placed an order and asked
them to deliver them to Nomfundo but I didn’t tell them my name.
The flowers were delivered and I then called her to ask if she got her
flowers and she was the happiest girl on earth as it was her first time
receiving flowers. I asked her if I can take her home when she
knocked off and she agreed, I spent the rest of the day driving around
Midrand visiting Boulders mall. Finally it was half past 4 and she called
me so that I can come and fetch her, I went to her workplace and
found her waiting by the gate. I got out of the car and opened the
door for her and she got in. I asked her if she wanted to get some-
thing to drink before I took her home and she said she needed to go
and fetch her kids at the pre-school. Nomfundo had 2 kids that she
stayed with, I drove her to Tembisa and when we arrived at her place
she thanked me for the flowers and I was just hoping that she was
going to give me a kiss but she just got out and closed the door. I
drove back to my flat and on the way kept thinking to myself if I really
needed Nomfundo or not, she seemed like a nice girl who was taking
care of her kids. Do I need to complicate her life? No I must just leave
her alone.

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I arrived at my flat and found the lights on and when I got inside I
found the pregnant one and she was cooking supper wearing one of
my new t-shirt. I was happy that I just came back to the flat and
found her cooking; I must admit she looked good in that t-shirt. She
got up and gave me a hug and a kiss then went to get a beer for me in
the fridge, what she just did reminded me of Thobile when I arrived
at her place I found her half naked and offered me a beer. I told her
about the job interview and that it went well and i was sure that I was
going to get the job. After the beer I told the pregnant one that I
wanted to go and take a shower before I can eat and she asked if she
can join me and before I could even answer she went to the bedroom
and took off the t-shirt she was wearing revealing her nicely carved
yellow body. Her breasts looked at me like they wanted to say some-
thing and for someone who was pregnant her tummy was still flat
with a little patch of hair from her navel going down to her pubic ar-
ea, her curves looked like they were hand drawn and her yellow skin
just complimented her body. Looking at her made me want to go
down on my knees and worship her, I went to the bathroom to let the
warm water run first before we stepped in.

She came closer to me and opened her arms so that I can give her a
hug, we were both naked and when my body touched her warm
body, her breasts touching my chest, my penis touching against her
pubic area felt amazing. I reached down and grabbed her butt which
was round and firm, I kissed her neck and she looked me in the eyes
and said Sbu I love you and I also said I love you too. We stood there
hugging for almost 2 minutes before I reminded her that the water
was already running in the shower, we went to the bathroom and I
stepped in first while she wore her shower cap. She joined me in the
shower and again we stood there feeling the warm water splashing
on our backs before we started to take a shower, we agreed that I will
wash her body and she will wash mine. I began washing her face,
ears, neck, breasts and i enjoyed touching them. I also washed her
underarms and she kept laughing as she didn’t want me to wash

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there and then I started to wash her tummy and I joked that I was al-
so washing our baby. I finally got to wash her firm butt ohhh I enjoyed
grabbing her butt, when I was done she then started to wash me and
then she got to my penis. She looked at me while she was washing
my penis then turned me around to rinse off the soap from it and at
this time my penis was erect, she started to kiss me and with the hot
water splashing on my back she went down on her knees and I looked
at her as she grabbed my penis with her right hand and her left hand
touched my balls.

She gave the tip of my penis a kiss and grabbed the base of my penis
moving it up and down, I broaden my shoulders so that the water did-
n’t splash on her face as she looked up and opened her mouth and
half of my penis disappeared inside her mouth as she continued to
move the base of the penis, I could not stand still as I got pleasure
from her and the hot water on my back. I just held onto the walls and
didn’t know what to do as the hot water on my back was giving me a
nice sensation while the pregnant one was busy sucking my penis. I
can swear she had a diploma in sucking a penis because the way she
did it was amazing with her tongue licking the tip of my penis; I could
no longer take it so I pulled her up and hugged her. Sbu I love you, she
whispered into my ear before she turned around. She pushed me
back with her butt and tried to bend over so that I can enter her from
the back, she opened her butt cheeks and I slid my penis inside her
wet vagina and began to pound her fast. I changed the direction of
the shower cap so that the water splashed on my head and also her
back. With the water splashing on my head and her back we contin-
ued to fuck and then she turned around lifted up her left leg and she
jumped up and I held her up with her back leaning against the wall I
able to hold onto her legs wide open, she reached for my penis and
inserted it inside her and I did her against the wall standing. With
those deep thrusts I could feel that I was about to come, with all the
might I had I managed to hold her up while going inside her deeper
and she held on to me and I came inside her. I could feel all my

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sperms swimming inside her and the water continued to splash on my
back. We kissed before getting out of the shower and we went to the
bedroom where we lay a little bit before we made love again, it was
no longer sex now but it was making love. I am in love with the baby
mama. She lay on my chest as the night passed on and it felt good to
be holding her I mean she was beautiful and carrying our baby so I
thought I must stop playing around and be faithful to her because I
know what she is capable of doing when she was angry.

In the morning I drove her to work and when I got back to the flat
Nomfundo called me to thank me for the flowers and also taking her
home yesterday and I jokingly told her to tell her boss to give me a
job so that I can take her home every day. Jabu called me and asked if
we can meet later that day and I agreed so I spent the rest of the day
in the flat listening to music and in the afternoon I went to fetch the
pregnant one at work and we went to her flat so that she can get
clothes to change and we then drove to my flat, I told her that I need-
ed to meet up with Jabu later on and I invited her to join me. When
we got to the flat she took a shower and then we went to meet with
Jabu at a pub in Soweto. Jabu came with his girlfriend Refiloe and we
sat together, Jabu bought a bottle of whiskey, beers, some cider for
Refiloe and Orange juice for the pregnant one. After about an hour
while drinking Jabu went outside to smoke and I joined him to give
the pregnant one and Refiloe a chance to talk. While standing outside
waiting for Jabu to finish smoking we saw Thobile and Thandi coming
towards the pub that we were in. Jabu greeted them and they then
stopped for a chat, it was just obvious that I and Thobile were not on
talking terms as we just looked at each other and no one said a word.
They went inside the pub and sat behind our table, I told Jabu that we
needed to leave as it was a bad idea to have the pregnant one and
Thobile in the same place. We went back inside and I sat with my
back facing their table so that the pregnant one cannot see Thobile
because I knew the pregnant one was going to loose her mind if she
saw me be busy looking at Thobile and was going to be worse if she

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saw that it was the same girl she found me having sex with. We left
that pub and went to another tavern in Diepkloof were we continued
to drink, while we were there Refiloe saw Jabu talking to some other
girl who was wearing a purple mini skirt. Jabu was busy storing the
girls number on his phone when Refiloe grabbed his phone and threw
it on the ground and told the girl to leave Jabu alone, Jabu was angry
and could not believe that his phone was smashed on the ground and
right there the pregnant one said Jabu deserved that because he was
flirting with that girl while his girlfriend was there in the tavern and
she added that Refiloe was supposed to slap Jabu for disrespecting
her like that. With that statement I just knew that she will loose her
mind if she saw me looking at other girls and I felt that her and Refiloe
were going to be a bad combination as they became violent when an-
gry. The mood had changed with Refiloe shouting at Jabu, we agreed
that we were going to end the party and go our separate ways, the
pregnant one drove the car from Soweto and we went back to the
flat, when we arrived I just went straight to the bed.

The following day I woke up with a hangover with the pregnant one
next to me and we had a quickie in the bed before we took a shower
and then had breakfast. While sitting in the flat Jabu called me and
asked if he can come over with Refiloe and I agreed, we went to a su-
permarket to buy some food that we were going to cook later that
day when Jabu and Refiloe arrived and then we drove back to the flat.
I was still trying to nurse my hangover when Jabu called saying he was
at the gate and I let him in with Refiloe and they looked like they had
solved the fight they had last night, we welcomed them into our flat
and we all sat down listened to music before deciding to go and buy
some booze. While driving to buy booze Jabu told me about this nice
club in Protea Glen that we needed to visit because it was always full
of beautiful girls and they also played good music. He then told me
that he was suspecting that Refiloe was cheating on him. he said he
thought that Refiloe was cheating on him because when they are to-
gether her phone is always off and that during the week he sent her

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some chocolates at work and didn’t write his name on the card and
later in the evening Refiloe didn’t tell nor thank him for the choco-
lates and that meant that she thought it was the guy she was
cheating with who had sent her the chocolates. We arrived at the
bottle store and we bought booze and as we were driving back to the
flat we decided to come up with a plan to find out if really Refiloe was
cheating on my friend Jabu.

We planned that I was going to ask one of my friends to hit on Refiloe

to see if she will give the guy a chance to talk to her or not, I invited
my friend Sipho to come over so that he can hit on Refiloe and see
how she will react, we arrived back at the flat and we chilled playing
music and sharing childhood stories and having a good time. Sipho
arrived at the flat with Xolani and we all chilled talking about all the
good times we had in varsity and then we played a game called 30
seconds, to make things easy I teamed up Xolani and the pregnant
one teamed up with Jabu and Sipho teamed up with Refiloe. We
started to play and after a few rounds of the game and beer flowing it
became obvious that there was a spark between Sipho and Refiloe.
We later decided that we were going to go out that night. We went to
a club and got a table in the corner then me and Sipho went to buy
some beers for us and while waiting for the beers at the bar Sipho
told me that he spoke to Refiloe and he asked her about Jabu and Re-
filoe told him that they were just friends and not dating. I told Sipho
to continue hitting on Refiloe and when we got back to the table I in-
vited the pregnant one, Xolani and Jabu to come and dance with me
leaving Sipho and Refiloe together on the table. We danced to a few
songs before returning back to the table and that gave Sipho enough
time to continue with the mission of hitting on Refiloe, we later left
and went back to the flat to continue drinking. We all spent the night
in the flat with Refiloe and the pregnant one sleeping in the bedroom
and us the guys we sat in the lounge drinking until we all passed out.
In the morning we woke up and the girls made breakfast while we sat
playing music and once we were done eating Jabu suggested that we

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get more beers for the hangover. I left the flat with Sipho and while
we were at the bottle store Sipho told me that she got Refiloe’s num-
ber and was going to see her again during the week and I was
shocked that the same girl that was angry that Jabu was talking to
some girl was actually going to meet up again with this guy that she
just met last night. We came back to the flat and had a few beers be-
fore everyone left and I was left with the pregnant one so we took a
shower and the slept throughout the day.

The following day I took the pregnant one to work and when I came
back to the flat I received a call from Nomfundo’s boss who wanted to
see me so that we can discuss the job offer that he had for me, I
quickly took a shower and then drove to Midrand. I arrived at Mid-
rand and was blessed by the sweet voice of Nomfundo who wel-
comed me back to the company and showed me were her manager
was, I met with the manager and we had a brief discussion about the
offer that he had for me and it was a great offer that included a com-
pany car with fuel allowance. I accepted the offer and he asked me
when I can start and I told him that I can start the very same day so
that I can familiarise myself with how the company operated. I spent
the day shadowing one of the guys so that he can show me around
and every time I passed Nomfundo she would give me a big smile.
Later that day the manager said I must take one of the guys and drive
with him back to my flat so that I can drop off my car and use the
company car, I asked Sphiwe if he can come with me so that I can go
and drop off the car at my flat. When we came to the office the man-
ager said I can leave early because I didn’t have an office or a comput-
er to work on and I left and went back to the flat to celebrate that I
got a new job with a company car, i bought beer and sat in the flat
and thought how things will be at work with Nomfundo been too nice
to me. The pregnant one called me saying that I must come and fetch
her at work and I used to the company car to fetch her so that I can
surprise her at work. When I arrived at her workplace I parked the car
next to the gate and she came out and stood there waiting for me to

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arrive because she could not see me inside the car and then I rolled
down the window and asked her if she needed a lift. I got out to open
the door for her and she smiled and asked me where did I get the car
and I told her that it was my company car from the new job that I got.
She kissed me and congratulated me on finding a job and we went
back to the flat and because I was happy I offered to cook for her and
told her to sit on the couch and watch TV while I cooked. While cook-
ing I kept going to her on the couch to kiss her and just lie between
her thighs, I continued doing this while cooking and she got up and
went to the bedroom to change and came back only wearing a t-shirt
and her underwear, I looked at her as she walked back to the couch
and could not believe that I was dating this beautiful girl who was car-
rying my baby. I could not wait anymore and went to her while she
sat on the couch and i kissed her and lay inside her thighs, I took out
my penis and moved her underwear to the side and used my penis to
rub her vagina until she got wet and then slid my penis inside her
vagina and she exhaled as I pushed the penis deep inside her and I
gave her deep penetrations as she held me tight on her chest. I con-
tinued to go inside her deep as we kissed on the couch and with
those deep penetrations I began to feel that my volcano was about to
erupt and then I held her legs up to my shoulder so that I can stand
and do her faster. I stood up with her legs on my shoulders and slid
the penis back into her vagina and then started to give her deep and
fast penetrations and while doing that she looked at me and said Sbu
I love you and I replied I love you too baby, I continued to pound her
until I ejaculated and then lay on top of her. She wrapped her legs
around me and we lay there for a few minutes until I smelled that
something was starting to burn on the stove and I jumped off to re-
move the pot on the stove then went to the bathroom to fetch a tow-
el so that she can wipe herself.

I was getting closer and closer to the pregnant one and we moved in
together so that we can spend more time together and I was slowly
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pregnant one but I had a serious problem with Nomfundo at work as
she also looked more beautiful every day. We became friends and
had lunch together every day and I would take her home after work
and then spend an hour in the car just talking before I went to the
flat. Nomfundo told me that she had problems with the father of her
children as he cheated on her and was also abusing her physically and
emotionally, i believed that she deserved better than how the boy-
friend treated her and as much as I wanted to sleep with her I had to
think about her fragile heart as she was going through a rough time
with the father of her children. If I slept with her that will change
things between me and her and our relationship at work was going to
change, apart from that the boyfriend was a police officer. I knew that
she wanted someone that will make her happy but I felt that I was not
the one to do that and with the boyfriend abusing her physically I
could only imagine what he would do to me if he found out that I was
in a relationship with the mother of his kids, so a lot was at stake and
didn’t want to ruin what I had with the pregnant one. One Friday after
work we bought some wine and drove to Kempton park to watch a
movie and we managed to sneak the wine inside the cinema and we
sat in the back and enjoyed the movie with some wine, during the
movie there was a scene where this couple was arguing and to stop
the argument the lady kissed the guy and then they made love, while
they were busy making love Nomfundo held my hand and looked at
me with a smile and said that the love scene that we were watching
was making her horny and I jokingly told her that I was also getting
horny. I held her hand tight and asked her if she wanted us to go to
the car and finish the wine there and she agreed, we left the cinema
and went to the parking lot where we sat and played music while talk-
ing and from the way she was talking and laughing I could tell that she
was tipsy and she asked me if I was dating anyone, not and not
wanting to disappoint her I told her that I was single but was ex-
pecting a baby with some girl. She asked me why did I break up with
the girl I made pregnant and i told her that two people can date and
once the baby comes into the picture then things change, she agreed
with what I said and told me that she also went through the same ex-
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perience with the father of her kids. Once the baby was born the guy
didn’t have time for her and spent most of his time with friends par-
tying and only came back to accuse her of cheating and the guy would
also slap her at times, while she was telling me this I just imagined the
guy shooting me for being with her but again I felt bad for her and
thought she also deserved to be happy. We sat in the car for almost 5
minutes not talking just listening to a song by Gerald Levert I was
made to love you and while the song was playing she said she also
wished that she had someone to love and touch her every day, after
hearing that I held her hand while the song played and I then leaned
over to her and gave her a kiss and she kissed me back. Her lips tast-
ed sweet from the wine she was drinking and during the kiss we
stopped and looked each other in the eyes and there was that sense
of calm and relief that I had finally kissed her, she kissed me again
and could feel her left hand touching my face and she pulled me clos-
er to her seat. I could feel her tongue all over my lips as my hand
went to hold her waist then went to the side of the seat so that I can
drop the seat, when the seat dropped I got closer to her and my hand
moved to touch her breasts and by this time her eyes were closed. I
moved my hand to touch in between her thighs and she opened her
legs for me so that I can continue rubbing my hand on top of the vagi-
na. While kissing her sweet lips I unbuttoned her belt and then un-
zipped her jeans, I then slid my hand into her jeans and moved the
panty to the side and felt her unshaved pubic hair. I moved my fingers
to rub her vagina that was wet as I inserted my finger. She pulled me
over on top of her and I moved the seat to the back so that we can
have enough space for me to be on top of her, I started to remove
her jeans and she lifted her butt so that I can take off her jeans and
once they were off i took out a condom from my pocket and rolled it
down while she looked at me. Once I was done with the condom I
touched her vagina again inserting one finger and then two fingers to
ensure that she was wet for me to enter. I held my penis close to her
vagina and used it to rub the entrance of her vagina then I inserted
my penis inside her wet vagina, I gave her two shallow thrusts before
inserting my whole penis inside her vagina and that made her moan.
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I continued with the deep thrusts and it felt good to be between her
warm thighs. I pulled her butt closer to the edge of the seat so that I
can lift up her legs and go in deeper, I was kissing her while going in-
side her deep and deeper with her legs wide open I was giving it to
her with everything I had and she pushed my head to the side of her
neck and I could hear her as she was moaning. We continued having
sex until she began to moan louder and as she began to vibrate in the
car’s front seat and she said sbuuu sbuuu sbuuu aahhh ahhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhh as she tried to close her thighs to ensure that I didn’t
get out as she enjoyed her moment of orgasm, I began to do her slow
until she opened her thighs for me so that I can go in deeper until i
ejaculated. I laid in between her thighs while looking at her beautiful
smile and I gave her a kiss before moving back to my seat. My phone
rang and it was the pregnant one who asked me where I am because
it was getting late and i was not in the flat yet. I told her I am on my
way back to the flat and when Nomfundo asked me who was I talking
to I said it was a friend who wanted us to go and party. We dressed
up and drove to Tembisa so that I can drop her off at her place in Ra-
basotho and as we were driving to her place the baby daddy called
and judging from the way she was talking I could tell that they were
fighting over the kids so I pretended as if I was not listening to her
conversation and when she hung up I could see that she was very up-
set and didn’t say a word until we arrived in Tembisa, When we got
closer to her place I noticed that there was a police vehicle outside
her place and I knew it must be the police officer. I could not risk
dropping her off next to her place because I knew that they just had a
fight over the phone and if I dropped her next to the gate it will be
obvious to the police officer that I am busy with his girlfriend and
therefore I asked Nomfundo if I can drop her off at the corner and she
can walk to her place. She refused and said she wanted to show the
guy that she has moved on with her life and was in a relationship with
someone, I couldn’t understand her statement that “she was in a rela-
tionship with someone” I just hoped that she didn’t mean that she
was in a relationship with me so I drove slowly approaching the
parked police car and I prayed that the guy was not in the car, Nom-
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fundo was so free telling me that she enjoyed today and was looking
forward to us meeting again and as she was talking in my heart I was
saying please get off the car I want to drive away before your boy-
friend starts shooting me and as soon as Nomfundo got out of the car
my foot was on the pedal and I drove off as fast as I can just in case
the boyfriend wanted to see who had just dropped off his baby ma-
ma.

When I arrived at the flat I found the pregnant one waiting for me
and she wanted us to talk and so we lay on the bed and no one said a
word until she turned around and said Sbu am i asking too much from
you to love me and my child? No you don’t i replied, Sbu please un-
derstand that i love you so much and i can’t be without you that is
why i am here no matter how much you can hurt me i will be here
next to you she said. I felt mixed emotions like she was emotionally
blackmailing me with the baby but i thought it will be good thing to
just love and make her happy that’s the least i can do for her as she
was expecting our child. Pregnant one i also love you and will be
there for our baby no matter what, I said. She looked at me with a
smile and gave me a kiss and then my phone rang and it was Nomfun-
do, so that she doesn’t suspect anything i answered the phone and a
man spoke on the other side of the line. It was the police officer and
he asked me what is my name and why does Nomfundo have my
numbers stored in her phone, No chief you must ask her that but i am
Sibusiso and i work with Nomfundo in Midrand i replied. Oh you are
the guy who has been bringing her back every day? He asked. Yes, i
replied. If you don’t want trouble you will stay away from her or me
and you will have to meet and talk in person, he said. Ok sharp boss, i
replied. Never have i been so scared in my life, the pregnant one was
going to bleksem me if i continued with Nomfundo and the guy will
shoot me. I waited for the guy to hang up but he didn’t and i could
hear him saying you bitch you are busy fucking that guy you are work-
ing with?? Then i heard a tapping sound and i thought he had slapped
Nomfundo and after the sound Nomfundo started to cry. I hung up

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the phone and i was shaking with fear, the pregnant one took off her
clothes and slept next to me and i didn’t even get an erection because
i was scared of what i just heard over the phone, I could not sleep as i
kept thinking about what had happened to Nomfundo after i hung up
the phone and kept thinking if the guy will come and see me at work
or not. I got to work in the morning and Nomfundo was not there, she
was off sick and i started to panic that the guy had killed Nomfundo. I
used the office phone to call Nomfundo and she answered and i asked
her if she was ok, she said Sbu yes i am ok but please don’t call me
again and she hung up. I was so scared and losing my mind about eve-
ry person walking into the building because i have never seen the po-
lice officer. I even locked my office so that no one can easily walk in
and harm me BUT Sbu what have you done? Nomfundo got beaten
up because you can’t keep your penis inside your pants but i didn’t
think i was responsible for what happened to Nomfundo as she is an
adult and can make her own decisions, she knew very well that the
officer will bleksem her if she was busy with someone else. I had the
longest day ever and when the time to knock off arrived i was the first
one to leave so that i can be safe in my flat, i could not stop thinking
about Nomfundo and what she was going through with the officer.

She didn’t report for 3 days at work and that’s when i decided to go
and see her in Tembisa. I went there after work and when i got close
to her place i called her and told her to come outside. I saw her
getting out of her place walking towards the car and she got in, my
heart sank when i looked at her face, she had applied make up to try
and hide the blue eye she had on her left eye and her face was swol-
len. I could not understand what kind of a man does this to a woman,
how can a man claim to love a girl and still hurt her? Nomfundo are
you ok? i asked. She looked at me and said i am before she started to
cry and told me that the guy had slapped and kicked her before he
took out his gun and placed it on her head and promised to kill her. I
reached out and gave her a hug as she continued to cry, I listened to
her as she told me at happened. Sbu this guy cheated on me a lot of

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times but i stood by him for the sake of the children and he has
slapped me in front of my kids, he doesn’t allow me to have friends or
anything after work i must come back home while he goes out drink-
ing and come back with used condoms in his pockets, Sbu I have had
enough of this guy whenever he sleeps i always think of stabbing him
so that he can die but then i think of my kids. Who will take care of
them if i go to prison? I could feel tears running down on my face as i
listened to what she was going through in her relationship, Nomfun-
do you deserve better and you are so beautiful and deserve to be
treated like a queen as i wiped off her tears. Sbu but who can accept
me and my kids when i have this monster doing this to me and
threatening all the friends i have? She asked. Nomfundo besides that
move out of Tembisa and get a new job where he won’t find you do
that so that your kids can be safe, i said. Sbu i can’t do anything right
now he knows where my mom stays and he said my mom will disap-
pear if I tried to leave him, the only thing that i can do right now is to
pray and hope that God will hear my prayers and he will change. He
was never like this is started after he was shot by some thugs in Ivory
park and ever since then it’s like am his punching bag, sometimes he
makes me want to take my kids and feed them poison and then hang
myself so that i can be free from him she said crying. Nomfundo i
don’t know what to say I as I held her hand, Sbu he humiliates me in
front of my kids he once made me strip naked in front of my kids so
that he can insert his finger inside my vagina and feel if i didn’t have
sex with anyone, my kids were laughing at me.

Sbu i felt useless and even now my son loves to say I cheat on his dad,
as long as he hurts me its ok because he does love his children. He
says he has paid lobola therefore he owns me, as a guy i felt that i
had to do something to protect her, she got off the car and walked
back to her place. I left thinking what I can do to protect Nomfundo
from this monster. When i arrived at my flat i found the pregnant one
sitting in the flat and immediately hell broke loose, Sbu just the other
day we spoke about this and you are still busy doing shit. When will

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you stop fucking around Sbu? Tell me when will you stop she asked
me. What have i done now? I asked her. Stop making me a fool i gave
you another chance so that we can fix things but no you don’t give a
damn and you are not even afraid of hiding that you are busy with
other girls, she said shouting at me. Pregnant one what the fuck are
you talking about? I asked. You know what Sbu am done with you i
can see you will never stop cheating please take me to my flat. I am
sorry i won’t take you to your flat if you want to leave call a cab am
not taking you anywhere as i went to the bedroom to sleep. She
called a cab and left and i didn’t care about her because i was worried
about Nomfundo. I could not even sleep and i woke up to have some
shots of whiskey so that i can sleep and when i passed the mirror i
saw a make-up stain on my shirt and must have been from Nomfundo
when i gave her a hug and figured that the pregnant one saw that and
that’s why she was angry.

I am not married to her so if she wants to be angry and leave then she
can leave i will not force her to be with me. I needed to talk to some-
one who will listen to me and not judge me or anything but give me
good advice and the only person that came to my mind was Thobile. I
scrolled through my dialled calls and found a number that i thought
was hers, i called the number and indeed it was her. Hey Thobile its
Sbu, Hi Sbu how have you been? Eish am not ok, can i come over i
need to be with you. Oh let me guess you want us to have sex right?
No Thobile i just want to be with someone and tell them about this
problem that i have. No Sbu you can’t come i have a boyfriend what
will he say when he wants to come and you are here? No call your
girlfriend she said. Thobile please i promise i will rub your feet and
won’t do anything to you please i won’t even touch your thighs
please, i asked her. Sbuuu its ok come then, ok Thobi Thobi am com-
ing. I took the bottle of whiskey and drove to Protea, when i got out-
side her place i called her and she opened the gate for me. After park-
ing the car, she opened the door and welcomed me into her place.
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for a glass and some ice for my whiskey. She brought the glass and ice
then sat next to me and said so Sbu what is it that you want to talk
about. I wanted to get her advice on how to deal with the issue of
Nomfundo but felt that she will get angry if i told her about other girls
so i told her how i feel about her. Thobile i am sorry for not telling
you about the pregnant one and yes she is pregnant with my baby
but i am not sure if i love her or not however Thobile when am with
you everything just fades away. Even now when i was in my flat the
pregnant one left me and the one person i thought of was you, Tho-
bile i like you a lot i like the way i feel when am with you i like the way
you moan when we are doing it in a doggy style i like the way you se-
duce me and i can never say NO to you. She replied and said oh that
is sweet of you Sbu and i am a grown up woman and i know what i
want and don’t want, i know that i enjoy having sex with you and i
also know that i cannot have you because you have a baby on the
way and don’t want to be the reason why your baby will grow up
without a father, we can have sex and chill together that is fine but
let’s not get attached to each other. I’ve been hurt a lot of times and
don’t want you to do the same. I could not believe that Thobile was
rejecting me but i understood what she wanted and we agreed that
we will be friends nothing more. She again said Sbu i know you must
go back to your place but i can’t let you go because you look drunk
now and can’t allow you to drive back to your flat so come let’s go
and sleep. I finished my glass of whiskey and followed her to the bed-
room and when we got to the bedroom she took off her gown and
she was wearing only an underwear. A black G-string with petals on
it, she got inside the bed and i took off my clothes, when I joined her
inside the bed i held her warm body and said good night.

Yes we didn’t have sex!!! I had a good night sleep next to Thobile, i
woke up in the morning and touched her butt as she opened her eyes
and gave me a smile. She got up and went to the toilet and as she
walked out of the room i looked at her butt swinging left and right
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and I asked her if we can have a quick one before I left and she
agreed. She laid on her stomach as I got a condom from my pants; i
took my pillow and placed it under her waist area so that i can lift up
her butt. She reached back and opened her butt cheeks and i rubbed
my penis against her vagina walls and slid it in. Her vagina was always
welcoming as it grabbed my penis i began to do her slowly while kiss-
ing her neck and ears. I held onto her shoulders and used them to pull
myself up and go deeper in her vagina; i could hear her as she started
to moan. She pushed me back with her butt as she wanted me to do
her in a doggy position. I got up and she lifted her brown butt for me
and i opened her butt cheeks and went inside her vagina, her face
was on the pillow and that elevated her butt so that I can have easy
access to go inside her deep and fast. I kept looking at her butt while
going inside her fast and she began to moan louder until she came
and laid on the bed smiling.

She turned around and opened her thighs for me to go inside her, i
got on top of her and began to ram her hard until i also came. We laid
on the bed for about 20 minutes until i looked at the time and saw
that i was going to be late for work, i got up and dressed up before
driving to my place where i took a shower and drove to work, Again
Nomfundo didn’t report for work. I could not stop thinking about her
if she was still alive or what, i called her and she answered her phone
and she said she will come to work the following day as she was heal-
ing her face after the last attack, before knocking off i called her and
asked if i can come and see her and she agreed. When I got to Tem-
bisa and i called her and she came to the car and we drove to Birch
Acres mall so that we can talk. One thing about Nomfundo that i will
always remember was her ability to act strong and no one can ever
suspect that she was abused, she thanked me for sticking around her
even though i knew that her boyfriend can kill me. She looked like she
was getting better as she was even starting to smile again. We contin-
ued to have a chat before I took her back to Rabasotho and then i
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one, there were dirty dishes and pots in the basin the flat was just a
mess. If the pregnant one was around then the flat was going to be
clean. I opened a beer and began to clean the flat while playing some
hip hop on the stereo, when i was done i sat down and went through
my Facebook and saw a notification that my sister was now friends
with the pregnant one. I immediately called my sister and asked her if
she had sent the pregnant one a friend request or not and she said
the pregnant one had invited her. I was wondering what the pregnant
one was planning next by inviting my sister on Facebook. I called the
pregnant one and wanted to know why she had invited my sister on
Facebook and she said she wanted to know some of my family mem-
bers because i was not planning on introducing her to them. I told her
she was crazy and must remember that me and her were going to
have a baby nothing more so there was no need for her know my
family, she then told me that she had told her family that she was
pregnant and her family wanted to go to my family and report the
pregnancy. I told her that i must first tell my family and will get back
to her when am ready, after 3 days my sister called me telling me that
the pregnant one had sent her a private message on Facebook asking
for directions and address so that she can go to my family and report
the pregnancy in Vrede.

We arranged that her family can come over the weekend when i was
at home so that they can report the pregnancy; she arrived there
with her aunts and uncle. My mother welcomed them and they sat in
the dining room and started the negotiations, they called me in and
was asked if I knew the pregnant one and if I was the one who had
impregnated her, i agreed that i impregnated her and the uncle asked
me if i had intentions of making the pregnant one my wife so that i
can only pay lobola and not damages. I replied NO; the uncle then
said so you had sex with her and impregnated her without wanting to
make her your wife? Yes, we never dated and we only had sex actual-
ly she is the one who insisted that we have sex without a condom and
then didn’t drink morning after pills so i am sure that she wanted to

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get pregnant. The uncle got furious and accused me of disrespecting
their daughter and then continued to tell me that in their culture
since I was not planning to get married to their daughter then I had to
pay a cow to cleanse the families surname and then another cow and
a goat for making their daughter a mother before she got married. I
thought to myself that the uncle was out of his mind for asking so
much for a pregnancy and I asked the uncle why must I pay so much
for a pregnancy that was not planned, I had agreed that I will be there
to raise the baby and could not understand why I had to pay so much.
He explained to me that in their culture if a girl gets pregnant out of
wedlock then the person who made her pregnant has to cleanse the
family with a cow. I told the uncle that what he was asking for was
too much because I was still going support the baby financially when
it is born and i was not willing to pay anything towards cleansing and
damages for making their daughter pregnant. The uncle shouted and
said ‘my son in that case you will never see this child because we will
leave now and we will not be insulted by you and you will never see
the baby because you are refusing to pay damages.

With respect uncle i don’t think you care about the wellbeing of the
child, why won’t you let me be there for the child once it is born? I
asked. The uncle replied and said you just said my daughter forced
you to have sex and it was her plan to have a baby so you don’t need
to see the child because you didn’t want to have a child. No no no Un-
cle the baby is here and i have spoken to her and told her that i want
to be there and raise the child; we don’t have to be in a relationship
for us to raise a child. The uncle stood up shouting that i have no re-
spect and i am busy insulting their daughter and the family name and
promised that i will be fined. I stood up and left the room because i
felt that the uncle was pushing his own agendas by demanding that i
pay for something i thought was stupid, After drinking a glass of water
in the kitchen i went back to the dining room and my mom had inter-
vened and agreed that we will pay for damages. They finally left and I
got a chance to speak to my mom who was angry about the way i act-

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ed. I apologised and got into my car and drove back to Gauteng. In
my heart i knew that even if the uncle was angry i can always call the
pregnant one when i got to Gauteng, i knew that she loved me and
would do anything to be with me, when i arrived at my place i called
my favourite girl Thobile and she told me that she was going to party
in Woodmead. I called Sipho to check if he was available to join at me
in Woodmead, he agreed and he came to my place first were we had
a few beers before going to Woodmead. We arrived at the club and
found Thobile wearing a short dress and matching stilettos.

Once i looked at Thobile i got happy and the dress looked so nice on
her body, we joined them and introduced Sipho to her friend. I went
to the bar to buy a bottle of whiskey and while waiting for my bottle i
looked across the bar and my heart just sank when i saw my ex with
another guy kissing, i must admit seeing her there brought back all
the memories that we had together like the time we were almost
caught while having a quickie in a clothing shop. I continued to look at
her until our eyes locked, i smiled and greeted her but she just looked
away. I went back to our table were Thobile saw that something was
bothering me and she pulled me outside. She asked me what was
bothering me and i told her that i was tired and nothing more, we
went back inside and i started to drink like am crazy trying to stop
thinking about the ex. While going to the bathroom i bumped into her
again and i greeted her and she greeted me back. I asked her if we
can have a chat, she said i can meet her outside in 15 minutes. Tho-
bile was all over me and busy kissing me and was afraid that the ex
will see me, i looked at the door and saw her waiting for me and she
signalled that I must follow her. We went outside and i tried to hold
her hand and she asked me not to touch her, i told her that she was
beautiful and that i missed her a lot. Do you miss me? What is it that
you miss about me? She asked. I miss everything about us, our plans
of having kids, buying a nice big house with a swimming pool and
getting married in the beach, i replied. Sbu all of that went away
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even hate talking about this. Its fine Sbu i have forgiven you but will
never forget what you did to me, she said. I am sorry can we meet
tomorrow for lunch and talk because last time we didn’t get a chance,
i asked her. She said she will think about it and get back to me the fol-
lowing day; we went back inside and enjoyed the music. After few
more shots i was a bit drunk and told Sipho that we had to leave, Si-
pho was already busy kissing Thobile's friend and we all left. I drove
my car with Sipho and Thobile followed us with the friend back to the
flat, we arrived in the flat and Sipho had some weed. He rolled a joint
and we had a few puffs, Sipho could not keep his hands off Thobile’s
friend and we left them in the couch kissing before going to sleep. I
was drunk and high from the weed and when I got to the bedroom I
relaxed on the bed looking at Thobile taking off her dress and I passed
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Sbu I love you..

I woke up next to Thobile with a massive hangover and as iwent to

the bathroom to urinate i walked past the lounge i saw Sipho lying on
the rug with the girl next to him. Once I was done urinating i went to
the kitchen to drink some water then walked back to the bedroom. I
pulled off the duvet and there she was with her nice brown round
butt, i was tempted to have a morning glory but my head was pound-
ing with pain from the hangover. I checked my phone and found that
I had received an sms from the ex saying we can meet for lunch, i was
in no mood of waking up and going to some restaurant to eat there
and i sent her an sms asking her if she didn’t mind if she came to my
place and offered to fetch her at 1. After the sms i wanted to take a
quick nap so that i can wake up better without a hangover, i slept at
about 8:30am and i woke up at 12 midday. I realised that i had an
hour before i had to fetch the ex and my flat had to be clean with no
traces of girls, i went to the lounge and found Sipho and the girl that
they had started to drink again so i came up with an excuse that my
sister had just called me and told me that has passed Pretoria and
was coming to my flat to see me and i needed to clean the flat, they
got up and they all left. I picked up the beer bottles and checked in
the lounge and bedroom for any condom or hair. Without taking a
shower i went to fetch the ex at her place, i told her that we needed
to pass at the supermarket to buy some food that we were going to
cook in my flat. We got to a supermarket and bought a few things and
some wine for her, while waiting to pay at the cashier solme old lady
said we looked good together and should stay together. We got to my
flat and i poured her some wine and went to take a shower, i took
longer in the shower because i wanted her to drink at least 2 glasses
of wine and be tipsy that way she won’t complain a lot. I got out of
the shower and had wrapped a towel around my waist and asked her
if she can rub my back. She refused and said she didn’t want be
tempted and do something stupid so i went to my room and quickly
changed and came back to start cooking. I asked her to come and

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help me with potatoes, she stood next to me and i asked myself why
did i have to loose a beautiful girl like her just because of sex? In my
heart i knew that as much as i loved Thobile and Nomfundo my heart
still belonged to the ex and my mission was to make her mine again...

When we were done cooking we sat down and ate. I raised the idea
that i wanted us to be together and make things work and she said No
Sbu i don’t think i can go back to that route again, we have been to-
gether since 2007 while studying at VUT and all this time i had guys
proposing to me guys with cars and money Sbu but i turned them
down because i loved you so much, do you remember that you took
my virginity? Yes i do remember and i am sorry your best friend told
me that you told her everything we did together and that is how she
envied to have me, it was just sex only nothing more i promise. Do
you know that your cousin was also proposing to me telling me that
you are cheating on me but i didn’t believe him because i loved you
and you thanked me by sleeping with my friend? Someone told me
that she is pregnant with your baby is that true? She asked. Yes she is
pregnant and there is nothing between me and her and i promise
what must I do to prove to you that I still love you and want to be
with you? i asked. Tell the pregnant one to abort the baby and i will
then think about it because i am not prepared to share you with her
so it’s either me or her and the baby.
I stood there and could not believe what she had just told me about
the baby, I told her that it would be hard for me to convince the preg-
nant one to abort the baby. Sbu why didn’t you make me pregnant?
You said i must be on the pill because you were not ready to have a
baby and now you don’t want to have it aborted? Do you love the
pregnant one? She asked. No i don’t it was just sex and it only hap-
pened once, i replied. Its fine Sbu take me to my flat and you will let
me know what you decide if it’s going to be me or her and the baby. I
took her back to her place and while driving back i thought to myself
that with the baby on the way the pregnant one will always have stu-
pid reasons to call me and that will ruin my relationship with the girl i
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love, i have to meet with the pregnant one and ask her to abort the
baby but how do i even suggest to her that we kill the baby? I called
the one person that will never judge me and that was Thobile, she
invited me over to her place. I drove straight to Protea glen and when
I got to her place she asked me if didn’t mind if we went to Chaf Pozi
for a few drinks and i agreed then we went to Chaf Pozi. I lied to Tho-
bile and told her that it was Sipho who had problems with his ex girl-
friend and the baby mama. She told me that the ex girlfriend was hurt
about the pregnancy and Sipho must give her some time to heal be-
fore they got back together, i quickly changed the subject and we
spoke about the music that they were playing there. She got up and
as she was walking to the bathroom and I kept looking at her butt
swinging from the left to the right and that got me horny, when she
came back i told her that we should go to her place and rest because
the following day was Monday.

We arrived at her place and she went to her bedroom to change but
came back wearing tights and she said she was on her periods. We
sat there and i placed a warm water bottle on her tummy and i con-
tinued to drink, she asked me if i wanted a blowjob and i said YES i
do. She then said ok quickly go and wash your penis then come back,
my penis is clean i replied. No Sbu i don’t know where your penis has
been and if you want a blowjob then you will go and wash it she said.
I went to the bathroom and washed my penis then i came back, she
said i must stand near the couch and she held my penis that was fully
erect. Her big eyes looked at me as she opened her mouth and
sucked the tip of the penis, i felt her tongue dancing on my penis and
she also began to touch my balls. She kept looking at me as she tried
to suck the whole penis but it didn’t fit, as she was busy sucking my
penis my phone rang and it was the pregnant one. Thobile please
stop i have to take this call as i answered the phone, Yes, What do
you want? I asked her. Sbu we need to talk, she said. I saw this as an
opportunity to try and convince her to abort the baby and so i agreed
that i will pass at her place. At this time Thobile was pissed and said i

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must ask the person i was talking with over the phone for a blowjob. I
apologised to Thobile and finished my beer and left Protea and drove
to see the pregnant one, the plan to tell her that it’s early to have a
baby and we will have a baby after 2 years. I arrived at her place and
picked her up and we drove to my place where she sat on the couch, I
fetched a small bath tub and took off her shoes so that I can wash her
feet and she started to talk about the baby. Sbu I need to know if you
want to have a baby or not because I cannot force you to be a father
if you don’t want to, she asked. I replied and said I do want to have a
baby but not now because there are a lot of things that I am busy
dealing with currently and with my work I might have to relocate to
manage another project in Mpumalanga. I don’t want to only see my
baby when I get time off I need to see him every day, we are still
young and have our lives ahead of us so we will have a baby one day
but now. I do love you a lot and want to spend my life with you so we
still have time to make a baby. She looked at me and i could see that
she was believing what I was telling her, she said Sbu I love you too
and I want our baby to be born in a loving family with a father and
mother that is why I was asking if you wanted to have a baby and I
cannot bring this baby to the world alone and i will need you to be
next to me through out. Pregnant one I love you and will be there for
you when the time is right for us to have a baby but for now am not
ready and I think it will be best if we abort this baby, I tried to con-
vince her. She seemed to understand and agreed that we abort the
baby, I offered to call and book for a consultation with an abortion
clinic so that we can begin with the process of aborting. She agreed as
I continued to rub her feet.

When I was done rubbing her feet i told her that i was tired and want-
ed to sleep so i took her back to her place, on my way back I called
my ex girlfriend. Love she is going to abort the baby on Thursday and
tomorrow we are going for consultation so when she is done with the
abortion I will dump her so that we can be together, i told the ex girl-
friend. In the morning i went to work and again tried to avoid Nom-

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fundo and she came to my office to check if i was ok. During lunch i
asked my manager to leave early so that i can go with the pregnant
one to the abortion clinic. We got to the clinic and as we walked in i
held her hand like I was a good boyfriend, they told us about the pro-
cedure and gave us an option of keeping the baby or giving it up for
adoption but we told them that we had decided to abort the baby.
They gave us some pills that she had to drink to begin the abort pro-
cedure and we went to my flat because she wanted to rest before
drinking the pills. We got to my flat and i laid next to her on the bed
holding her close, she told me that if the baby was going to be a boy
she was going to name him Thando and if it was a girl it was going to
be Thandolwethu and she began to cry. I held her until she slept in
my bed and i got up to have a drink in the lounge and at about 3pm
she woke up and asked me if we can go to church because she need-
ed to pray about what she was about to do. I was just pissed and
could not understand why she can’t just drink the pills; i agreed and
told her about this church close to my flat. I stopped drinking and
went to buy her some food and when we got back she was ready for
church. I told her its better we go there at 7 pm so that we can arrive
in church in time for the pastor to preach. We arrived in the church
and sat in the back row; the pastor went to the pulpit and started to
preach about gifts from God. Everything was ok until the pastor start-
ed talking about children that they are gifts from God. He said God
will never give you anything that you cannot handle and made an ex-
ample about keeping secrets that one day a girl came to church crying
that she had been bewitched as she could not get a job and every-
thing in her life was falling apart, the pastor then said he prayed for
the girl and he then saw a vision of 2 kids holding gifts and on the first
gift it was written Happiness and the second child was holding
wealth. The pastor told her about what he saw in his vision and that
what she wanted was destroyed when she aborted the kids, God had
given her the kids so that she can have happiness and wealth in her
life. That scared me a little bit and the pregnant one looked down
with her eyes full of tears, the pastor made another example about a
girl who had been in the choir of the church and one day she had a
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dream where she saw God calling her to come to heaven and as she
was rising up two small hands appeared and grabbed her left leg. She
tried to kick free but could not as two more hands grabbed the other
leg, she could not rise up to God because of the kids she had aborted
were holding her saying she can’t leave them behind on earth and go
to heaven alone.

I held her as she started to cry and the pastor said whoever needed to
be prayed must come to the front, she stood up and walked to the
front to be prayed and i sat there in the back seat wondering what
will happen if we aborted the baby. They prayed for her and we left
the church, in the car she said she was not going to go ahead with the
abortion because it was God who gave her the baby. We arrived at
the flat and again i tried to convince her that i wanted us to have a
baby once we were married, she seemed to understand and i brought
the pills for her to drink. She didn’t drink the pills and asked me to
take her back to her flat and promised to drink the pills before she
slept, we left my flat and drove her to her place and when we got to
her place i again reassured her that i loved her and we will have a ba-
by once we were married. She seemed to believe me and i left and
went back to my flat and while opening the door the pregnant one
called wanting to know if i meant everything that i said to her about
getting married and having a baby together and i replied Yes, we will
be together forever and have 4 kids. She laughed and said Sbu i love
you with all my heart and want to spend my life with you and i will
drink the pills before i sleep. She hung up and i was happy that she
was going to drink the pills, i called the ex girlfriend and told her eve-
rything was in order and asked her if i can come and see her and she
said she was tired and its if better i come once the baby has been
aborted, i called Thobile and there was no answer. I scrolled through
my phone book and found numbers of some girl i once met in Kat-
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I called the numbers and she answered her phone and reminded her
that my name was 'Sipho' and we met at Mlando. I could tell that she
didn’t remember me but i asked her if i can come and see her. She
agreed and i got on the N1 then N3 south towards Katlehong. When i
got to Katlehong i called her again and she said she actually stays in
Vosloorus, i drove to Vosloorus and when I got to Marimba Gardens i
found her waiting by the traffic lights. She got into the car and she
was a decent looking girl, i kept calling her mama because i didn't
know her name and since it was late i asked her if she will have a
problem if we went to Kempton Park and promised to bring her back.
We went back to where she stays so that she can tell her sister that
she was going to Kempton Park with me, she got back in the car and
we went to a club near the airport. I ordered a beer and she ordered
a cocktail called sex on the beach, after a few rounds we got up and
started to dance and while dancing the pregnant one called. I ran out-
side to a quite place so that i can talk to her, she said she wished me a
good night sleep and that she loved me so much. I replied and said
Baby i love you too and then hung and went back to dance with the
Vosloorus girl. I pretended to be drunk and told her that i won’t be
able to drive her back and asked if we can go to my flat and she
agreed, while driving on the N1 north towards Randburg the preg-
nant one called again and said she was afraid of drinking the pills and
said she will drink them in the morning. I told her its ok and hung up,
the girl from Vosloorus then asked who was i talking too and I told
her it’s my other friend who is sick and was having a bad reaction to
pills and was asking if it will be ok if she drank them in the morning. I
had placed my phone on the cup holder and the Voslo girl said she
wanted to look at my photos and i knew i didn’t have any nasty pic-
tures. I thought she was looking at the pictures but she was going
through my messages and had found one sms from the pregnant one
that said 'Sbu i love you'. She asked me about the sms and i said no it
was my ex-girlfriend she wants us to get back together but i don’t
want her anymore because i wanted the Voslo girl, she called the
pregnant one with my phone and i just heard her saying 'You stupid
bitch you better stop sending my man messages because he is my
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After hearing what she just said i grabbed the phone from her and
parked the car near the Malibongwe off-ramp. What is your problem?
Why the fuck did you tell her that for? I asked, she said Sbu am doing
you a favour so that she can stop bothering you because you are
mine now. I was pissed and told her to get off the car and she refused
so i drove with her to my flat and when i got to the flat i tried calling
the pregnant one and her phone was off. This girl from Voslo tried to
seduce me and i was just too angry to even get an erection, i was
wondering what was going through the pregnant one’s mind. This
one from Voslo slept next to me wearing only her under wear, i woke
up in the morning and tried calling the pregnant one but she didn’t
answer her phone and while leaving her a voicemail to call me back
the one from Voslo asked me why i was busy calling my ex and why
didn't i have sex with her last night. I didn’t answer her and just got
ready for work and then I told the one from Voslo that she must take
a taxi back to Voslo because i won’t have time to drive to Voslo, she
refused and said 'Sbu i came here in a car so why must i now go back
with a taxi? Go to work and during lunch come and fetch me so that
you can take me home'. I left her in the flat and went to work, when i
got to work she called me and said she urgently needed to go back
home, I told her to take the R100 that was in the kitchen and also to
lock the flat and leave the key with the security guard. I kept calling
the pregnant one and her phone was off and Nomfundo wanted us to
have drinks after work to catch up. After work we bought some wine
and beers and she said that she wanted to see my place and we then
drove to my place, when we got to my flat i got the key from the se-
curity guard and went inside the flat. I was scared of what i was going
to find in there, luckily there was nothing in the kitchen or the lounge,
we sat in the lounge and talked about work and her kids. I remem-
bered that i haven’t had sex in days so i held her hand and kissed her;
she kissed me back and I could taste the wine on her lips. I got up and
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door locked. I placed her down and tried to open the door but it was
indeed locked, i took out my phone and called the girl from Voslo and
asked her why the door was locked. She told me that she wanted me
to come and see her again and the only way she can do that was to
lock my bedroom because all my clothes were in there. I could not
have sex with Nomfundo because all the condom were in the bed-
room, Nomfundo said it was late and she wanted to go back to Tem-
bisa.

We left the flat and I dropped Nomfundo in Tembisa before driving to

Vosloorus, i arrived at Marimba gardens and called the Voslo girl to
come outside so that she can give me my key. She came out with a
small bag and got inside the car and then said she was going with me,
No you can’t come with me i must go to work tomorrow and can’t
leave you in my flat so i will have to come and fetch you over the
weekend, she refused to get out. I told her its fine we will go and she
gave me my room key and i drove for a few metres then stopped, i
told her that I thought the left brake light was not working. I got out
of the car and checked it then went back inside and asked her to get
out and check if the light came on when i pressed the brake pedal. As
soon as she got to the back of the car i drove off and threw her bag
out of the window, she was shouting and swearing at me as she tried
to run after the car and I had to stop at the traffic light. I saw her run-
ning towards the car and when she got to the driver’s door she start-
ed to bang the door and when the light turned green and i was about
to drive off she grabbed the mirror and broke it off. I drove away and
arrived in my flat and slept. I woke up in the morning and tried calling
the pregnant one again but her phone was off, i was getting worried if
she had drank the pills and went through with the abortion or not.

While I was driving to work i was pulled over by the metro police for
the broken mirror and i tried to explain what happened to the officer
but he didn’t take my story and gave me a ticket and told me to fix

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the mirror, i arrived at work and parked the car far from the entrance
so that no one can see the broken mirror. It was a normal day and i
was busy making calls and replying to emails when we had load shed-
ding at work, i asked Nomfundo to come with me to buy food since
we didn’t have power and we went to Carlswald. We got food and
went back to the office and we ate in the kitchen when we were done
she went back to her desk and i went to my office. I tried calling the
pregnant one again but there was no answer so i went to Nomfundo
and told her that i wanted to kiss her, she got up and went to check if
there was anyone in the bathroom and it was empty so we snuck in
one of the toilets and locked the door. We started kissing slowly and i
was just holding her waist and then my hands went down and
grabbed her butt. I got this crazy erection as i thought that whenever i
tried to have sex with her something always happened, while kissing
her i undid her button and slid down the zip of her pants. I then slid
my hand inside her panties and touched her warm unshaved vagina
and I used my fingers to open her vagina and felt the vagina juice all
over my fingers, she also opened my pants and started playing with
my penis and it was evident that she wanted us to do it. I pushed
down her pants and turned her around and she held onto the toilet
seat, i then remembered that i didn’t have a condom. I told her that i
didn’t have a condom and didn’t want to make her pregnant and she
replied come Sbu its ok i am on the pill.

While she was bending i opened her butt cheeks and saw her hairy
vagina. My penis looked at me and said lets go in am ready for action,
i remembered that she once said her boyfriend cheats on her and i
wondered if the boyfriend always used condoms when he cheats.
Why does Nomfundo want us to have sex without a condom? No i
can’t risk it. I told her that we can’t have sex without a condom and
we need to buy condoms so that we can have sex after work. I could
see her eyes that she was angry that i didn’t stick my penis inside her
vagina but i knew i did the right thing because when you have sex
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HIV. She pulled up her pants and we got out of the bathroom and
went back to wait for the power to come back. The power came back
and we continued to work until it was time to knock off, I was ready
to do her and we drove to my flat. We passed at the pharmacy and
got some condoms then went straight to my flat and immediately
when we arrived we started kissing and went to my bedroom where
she lay on the bed and i got on top of her opened legs. I stood up and
took off my pants and i went to her and took off her pants and saw a
burn mark on her inner thigh. I also pulled off her underwear and
threw it on the floor and took a condom and rolled it down my penis
and got on top of her, i held my penis against her vagina and used the
tip of the penis to rub her clitoris. When i did that she opened her
thighs wider and i went inside her hairy wet vagina, i inserted the
whole penis inside her and she moaned. I started to give it to her
slow with deep penetration and she stopped kissing me and pulled
my head to the side of her head. While i was doing her slowly i no-
ticed that she was moving her waist and thought maybe she wanted
it fast and i gave her that. With her legs wide open i was able to go in
deep and fast as she held my hands. She started to moan louder and
louder then she asked me to stop so that she can take off her t-shirt.
When she was done taking off her t-shirt i turned her around and i
could see stretch marks on her butt. I held onto the marks for extra
grip and i went inside her in doggy, i pushed her head towards the
pillow so that I can see her vagina. I went inside her and did her from
behind and she started grabbing the pillow then the duvet and every-
thing that she can touch, i did her faster and faster until she reached
orgasm and she lay on the bed with her legs shaking. I got on top of
her again and did her faster because i wanted to cum and as I was
going in deep and fast she wanted to close her thighs and that made
her vagina to be extra tight as i also came. I laid on top of her as we
were trying to catch a breath and she whispered some words into my
ear and she said 'Sbu that was great' i turned around and looked at
her and said i also enjoyed that then while looking me in the eyes she
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I kissed her and told her that she was beautiful trying to quickly
change the subject of love. We laid on the bed for a few minutes be-
fore getting up to dress so that i can take her back to Tembisa. On the
way she told me again that she loved me, i asked her when did she
start loving me and she said the day i came for the interview. I didn’t
know what to say because I didn't love her and to make her feel
better I told her that am not sure how i felt towards her and she kept
quiet until we got to Tembisa. In my heart i knew that having sex with
her was going to change things at work, i dropped her off at Tembisa
and drove back to my flat. I arrived at my flat and had a beer before
sleeping.

The following day at work things were awkward as Nomfundo avoid-

ed eye contact and i could not even talk to her, I felt bad that i had
sex with her and she wanted more and i could not offer her what she
wanted. Everyone at work could see that there was some tension be-
tween me and Nomfundo and that made things hard for me because i
used to ask her to connect me to clients and now i had to go through
the list myself and call the clients. Before knocking off I called the ex
girlfriend and asked her if we can meet after work and she agreed, i
left work early so that I can go and fetch the ex girlfriend from work.
When we got to my place we sat and had a chat about our relation-
ship and what we both wanted, we agreed that we will give our rela-
tionship a try and i promised her that I will never cheat again. She
gave me a hug and a kiss and it felt good to be hugged by someone
you love. For a moment i forgot about all the girls I have been with
and my heart was happy and satisfied with the ex. If only the ex can
be like Thobile in bed i wouldn’t have a reason to go and cheat. The
ex girlfriend was beautiful and sweet but when it came to sex we had
sex once a week and she didn’t want to try new positions it was al-
ways the same old missionary position.

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loved the ex and that’s the reason why i was with her for all the years
and she had supported me through some of the worse times of my
life and my family also knew her, i must be loyal to her and make her
the happiest girl on earth and leave my cheating ways BUT i think i
want to be with Thobile. Thobile once told me that i can never have
her but we can still had sex and that made me feel like I was her back
up sex partner. Who does she think she is to just sleep with me and
then don’t want to be with me? I do like Thobile a lot and i will keep
her under the radar while i was building my relationship with the ex.
The following day i went to work and things were still a bit awkward
between me and Nomfundo and she asked if we can have a chat
about what happened between us and I agreed, during lunch we
went to my car in the parking lot where we had a chat and she said
Sbu i love you, you make me feel like am worth something and you
always listen to me and you know what to say to make me smile. Eve-
ry day when i leave work i wish i can go with you to your place be-
cause i feel safe and loved when am with you, after the amazing sex
we had i love you more. I appreciate that you love me and you are
beautiful however right now i can’t be with you because i just got
back with my ex-girlfriend and we are trying to make things work, i
replied. Its fine Sbu i guess i am stuck with that monster and the only
time i will be free and happy is when i am dead, she said. No man he
won’t kill you, you must just leave him and take your kids along and
you will be happy. She got out of the car and went back to her desk
and i felt bad that i had just rejected a girl that was abused physical
and emotionally by her boyfriend. I continued to have sex with Nom-
fundo at work during lunch time and when we had load shedding and
then go back to work like nothing happened. When i got to the flat I
would fetch the ex and she will tell me the same story everyday
about how she hates her work, when i tried to kiss her or make love
to her she would say she hasn’t healed completely and i must give
her some time. It was ok with me because i still had sex with Nomfun-
do on the side, i was becoming a good boyfriend by fetching her at
work and would open the car door for her to get in and when we got
to the flat i would run a warm bubble bath for her and then cook
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something and we would sit on the couch cuddling while watching TV
then go and sleep. She would sleep in her underwear and allowed me
to touch her all over but didn’t allow us to have sex. This got me frus-
trated and one day i told her i was going to work late and will come
and fetch her at her place when i was done at work and she believed
me. I asked Nomfundo if we can go to my place and have sex and she
refused saying that we have to stop having sex because she felt like i
was using her only for sex and didn’t want to be with her. I told her its
fine we will stop having sex and we can be friends. I then called the
only one person that i knew was always available Thobile.

Hello Thobza how are you my chocolate muffin? Can I come over I
miss you? She laughed and invited me over. I passed at the bottle
store and bought her some wine and chocolates, I arrived at her place
and we sat in the lounge and had a chat about work. I tried to kiss her
and she moved her lips away. We sat and drank the wine and tried to
kiss her again and she kissed me back, while we were busy kissing on
the couch i took off her top and bra. I touched her D sized boobs and
then sucked on her nipples while trying to take off her pants, she lift-
ed her butt a little bit so that i can take off her pants. With her pants
on the floor i unzipped my pants and wore a condom and got back on
top of her, i could sense that there was something wrong with her as
she avoided eye contact so to make her happy i went down to her
vagina. I used my fingers to open her vagina and used my tongue on
her clitoris and she pushed my head hard onto her clitoris. I sucked on
the clitoris and inserted one finger into her wet vagina and she began
to moan, with her vagina still opened I moved my tongue in clockwise
direction until I reached the base of her vagina and when i tried to
insert my penis inside her vagina and she pushed me away and stood
up. She then said Sbu I am sorry i can’t do this anymore, we have to
stop now we had fun but now we have to stop. I was having sex with
you because i was single but now i am seeing someone and can’t con-
tinue sleeping with you am sorry that you are horny but i can’t have
sex with you. We have to stop this so please go. What??? Thobile

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what’s wrong? i asked her. No Sbu am in love with someone else so
please respect my decision please, she said. I stood up with my penis
fully erect and she looked at it, held it and then said please put it
away. I tried to kiss her again and she kissed me back i placed her on
the couch again and opened her thighs until i was able to fit in. I in-
serted my penis inside her vagina and she held me and i just wanted
to do her fast before she changed her mind, while busy doing her she
kept asking me Sbu why are you doing this to me? Sbu why? why? I
tried to kiss her again so that she can stop asking me questions and
that worked as she held me tight and we kissed. It was nice with her
thighs wide open i was going inside deep and when i got tired she
came on top, i was sitting on the couch and she got on top of me with
her back facing me. She held my penis and it disappeared under her
brown butt. Seeing that butt moving up and down my penis was a
priceless moment, i got up and with my right hand i started touching
her clitoris and I was also kissing her back. I could feel that I was
about to cum and tried to hold her waist so that she didn’t ride fast
but she removed my hands off her waist and continued to ride me
fast until I came, while sitting on the couch I could feel my boys mov-
ing out of my penis. She stopped for a while and then continued to
ride me so i rubbed her clitoris harder and she stopped moving as she
reached orgasm. She got off and said Sbu i hate what you are doing to
me and this was the last time we have sex please respect my decision
and let me move on with my life.

I got up and dressed then she gave me a hug before i left and she said
she enjoyed having sex with me and wished me all the best. I left and
went to my flat and since it was late i didn’t fetch the ex, all the girls i
was having sex with are gone and this was a chance for me to be loyal
to the ex girlfriend. Everything was ok and I enjoyed my work and i
even got promoted to sales team leader, i started to have sex again
with the ex even though it was not as great as it was with Thobile but
it was good because i was doing it with someone i loved. Everything
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wanted us to have a baby but i was not ready and i could see that she
wanted us to start a family. Every time when we had sex i would
throw the used condom on the floor and when i woke up in the morn-
ing the condoms will be gone and i would think maybe she picked
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The baby…

Months passed and one day while i was at work i received a picture of
a baby and a text message that said 'Sbu i gave birth to a baby girl’ I
didn’t know who had sent me the sms and i knew that the pregnant
one had aborted the baby so i deleted the sms and moved on with
my life. Since we had moved in together with the ex i noticed that she
was gaining weight and all she did was sit on the couch then sleep, i
didn’t have a problem with cooking and cleaning the flat but our sex
life was boring. I tried to talk to her and even got some porn videos so
that we can spice up our sex life and that helped a little bit. One day
at work i remembered all the good sex i had with all the people i did-
n’t love but I didn’t enjoy having sex with the person I loved. I was
tempted to have sex with Nomfundo and i tried my luck on her and
she refused saying the boyfriend had changed and was treating her
good. I could not call Thobile because she had moved on with her life
and calling the Voslo girl will be like calling the devil himself. I had to
fix the relationship with the ex because i really loved her; the only
thing i had to do was to talk to her to loose weight. I got a call from
the number that had sent me the sms with the baby and i answered.
Hello Sbu it’s me, she said. Me who? i asked. The pregnant one, she
replied. Oh hey how can i help you? i asked. Did you get the sms i
sent? She asked. Yes i did, whose baby is that? i asked. Sbu i didn’t do
an abortion and it is our baby, she replied. What? Noooo why didn’t
you abort the baby like we agreed? i asked her. Sbu i got scared after
the church and decided to keep the baby, i am sorry i was just letting
you know, she said. No!!! So what are we going to do now? i asked
her. Nothing Sbu i was just letting you know that you have a daughter
and her name is Thandolwethu and if you don't want to be in her life
its fine she said. No pregnant one you should have told me that you
are going to keep the baby because this will now mess things up for
me, i am in a relationship and now with the baby in the picture things
will be complicated for me and besides that i could have saved up for
the baby so that i can buy things for her, i said. She replied and said
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No Sbu like i said you don't have to be in her life if that will cause
problems in your life, if you don't mind me asking who are you da-
ting? I am dating your best friend Palesa, i replied. Oh so you guys got
back together again? She asked. Yes we are back together remember
you were there reason we broke up and now again you are going to
cause problems for me, how do i tell her that you have a baby? i
asked. Sbu you are crazy how can you blame me for all of this? Before
i even met you i was in a perfect relationship but its ok i risked every-
thing to be with you and now you are blaming me? She said that and
hung up.

When everything was just going perfect with Palesa then the preg-
nant one decided to ruin things for me but I have to tell Palesa be-
cause it will be better if she heard it from me than from someone else
and would be worse if it would be the pregnant one. I will wait until
the time is ok for me to tell her because I know how much she hates
the pregnant one and the reason why she got back with me was after
we both thought that she aborted the baby, I can keep quiet about
the baby and just support the baby financially and Palesa will not
know about Thandolwethu. I kept the baby a secret for a month until
the pregnant one sent me a video of her playing with the baby and
seeing those brown eyes and her smile tore my heart apart that I was
trying to have her aborted. I called the pregnant one and asked her if I
can come and see the baby and she said I can’t see the baby because I
haven’t paid the damages in full and her family will not allow me to
see the baby unless if she came with the baby to Gauteng then I can
see the baby. I told her that she must just forget that I will ever pay
damages and if the family refused that I see the baby then I will take
them to court for refusing that I see my baby and then I hung up.
What is the pregnant one up to now? She keeps sending me pictures
of the baby but is saying that I will not see the baby? I will deal with
her once she comes back to Gauteng but for now I must keep the ba-
by a secret. Since the pregnant one gave birth to my daughter the
least I can do is to give her a name, I will call her Refiloe.

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One Friday after work I fetched Palesa from work and we passed at
Festival mall where we had a few drinks and supper in a restaurant
before going to the flat, I asked her if we can go out and party since
we haven’t gone out in a while and she refused saying she was tired
and wanted to sleep. I asked her if I can go out alone and she said its
ok I can go but must be back before 11pm. I called Sipho and asked
him if we can meet for a few beers and he told me that he was in Pre-
toria at some house party in Hatfield and invited me to come there. I
went to pour petrol and got on the R21 towards Pretoria, when I got
to Pretoria I called him and he gave me direction to the flat. I arrived
at the flat and it was a decent looking flat and everyone was sitting
outside in the balcony and Sipho introduced me to everyone and to
the girl who owned the flat and her name was Lebogang. Since the
party had just began so I chilled with the guys outside having a few
beers until Lebogang told us that her friends didn’t have transport
from Sunnyside to Hatfield and asked me if I didn’t mind fetching
them. I said that won’t be a problem and I got into my car with
Lebogang and we drove to Sunnyside, on the way I told Lebogang
that she was beautiful and would like to know her better one day and
she said we will have a chance to talk later. We fetched her friends
and we stopped at a bottle store at Esselen Street to get more alcohol
for the party. We got back to the flat and we all chilled and continued
to drink, I checked the time and it was 10:15pm and I only had about
45 minutes to get back to the flat. I told Sipho that I had to leave and
drive back to my flat because Palesa was waiting for me there. Sipho
laughed at me saying that it was a bad move for me to move in with
Palesa because now she was controlling my life and I could no longer
have fun, Sipho called Lebogang and told her that I was leaving early
and Lebogang pulled me to the side and asked me not to leave early
because her friends thought I was her boyfriend and then she kissed
me and asked me to stay. Lebogang I am sorry I can’t stay I need to
go back to Kempton park but I promise if you can give me your num-
bers I will give you a call and arrange so that I come back again to see
you, she begged me not to leave but I knew that if I didn’t go back to
the flat I will be in trouble and Palesa will never let me go out alone.
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She gave me her numbers and walked with me to my car and gave me
a kiss before I left her place. I passed at a petrol station where I
bought a lemon and an energy drink and then drove to Kempton Park,
I arrived at the flat and found Palesa in bed sleeping so I went to her
in the bedroom and gave her a kiss so that she can see that I am back.
I tried to join her in bed so that we can have sex but she refused and
said I must let her sleep and we will have sex in the morning, I got up-
set and went to the lounge where I sat and finished my beers I had in
the fridge while listening to music and since I was really horny I called
Lebogang and told her that I have arrived safely at my place. I re-
gretted leaving Pretoria because I knew I was going to sleep with her
but again I did a good thing by coming back to the flat, I went to the
bedroom again to try my luck with Palesa but she refused and even
shouted at me saying that I must let her sleep in peace. I left her to
sleep and I was furious because what kind of a girl will turn her man
away and not have sex with him? I went to the bathroom and took
her body lotion and poured some over my penis and started mastur-
bating, I remembered all the good sex I had with Thobile especially
the time we did it in the car. While masturbating i got the sense that I
was having sex with Thobile and the good part was that we were not
using a condom, its felt different from the normal sensation I got
when I had sex with a condom. I imagined Thobile’s vagina moving up
and down my penis and I finally came on the bathroom basin and
then i rinsed the basin and went to lounge where I continued to listen
to the music until I slept on the couch. Palesa woke me up in the
morning and asked me why did I sleep in the couch and not with her
in the bedroom and I told her that I was watching a movie and must
have passed out on the couch, she sat next to me and asked me
where did I go last night and I told her that I was around Kempton
park. I got up and made breakfast for us while she cleaned the bed-
room and when she was done she came and joined me to eat the
breakfast. My plan was to just chill in the flat with her and watch
movies drink beer and have lots of sex but she told me that she had
to meet her friend for lunch at the mall. I decided that I will get some
beers relax in the flat alone until Palesa came back and she got ready
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to leave and I asked her if she wanted me to take her to the mall and
she said no she will use a taxi because she doesn’t trust me around
her friends, I felt what she had just said was not necessary because I
had been loyal to her. I dressed up and I went to the mall to buy
beers and as I got out of the flat I saw my neighbour Bongi. I greeted
her and had the usual lame talk that neighbours always have about
the weather, it happened that Bongi was also going to the mall so I
offered her a lift to the mall and on the way I asked her what were
her plans for the day she replied Sbu you know I am single so I am
going to rent a few movies and get some wine and chill in my flat.
That is nice I am also going to buy some beer and chill at the flat Pale-
sa is going out for lunch with her friends so I will be alone in the flat
maybe I will come and join you because it is not nice to drink alone. I
left her at the mall and went to buy my beers and drove back to the
flat where I found Palesa ready to leave and she looked beautiful I
must say. I sat and watched TV while enjoying my beer and after 4
dumpies I decided to go next door and check on Bongi because I was
getting bored, I knocked at her door and she shouted ‘am coming’.
She came and opened the door and seemed like she was bathing be-
cause she was wet and had wrapped herself with a towel, she wel-
comed me in and told me to have a seat while she went to finish
bathing and will be with me soon. Seeing all that water dripping off
her chest and legs gave me this crazy erection but I pretended like
there was nothing until she finished bathing and went to her bed-
room to change, she came back wearing a dress and we sat there
drinking and I could not stop thinking about seeing her naked.

I thought to myself it will be a good idea to have someone I can have

sex with who stays closer to my flat and i didn’t have to drive far for
some action, I mean our love life with Palesa was bad and we hardy
had sex and we didn’t do anything fun together since we moved in
together. I thought us moving in together will make us bond but we
were slowly drifting apart and there were times where I didn’t want
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more. We watched a movie with Bongi and with wine and beers flow-
ing we started to talk about relationships and I asked her why she was
single, she told me that she hasn’t found any guy that made her hap-
py and they were all in other relationships and lied to her that they
were single. Like most conversations we began to talk about sex and
she was quick to point out that the guys didn’t know what was fore-
play and all they wanted was to stick their penis inside the vagina
without even checking that the vagina is wet, she told me a story
about this guy that she was dating and how he kissed her for 2
minutes and then took off her clothes and slid the condom on and
started to have sex with her even though she was not ready to have
sex. Sbu I tell you the guy was bad I had to use my saliva to make my
vagina wet because he didn’t care. All he wanted was to sleep with
me and worse the time I got wet and was starting to enjoy sex he
would ejaculate and leave me all horny on the bed, she said. We
laughed at her story and I asked her when last she had sex and she
said it’s been over 2 months, I laughed at her and asked her how did
she survive without having sex for so long. I told her that I enjoyed
having sex and can have it every day if I can, she said I was lucky that I
had a girlfriend and got action every night and that she also wished
that she had someone she can have sex with every day. I could tell
that she was telling me something indirectly but didn’t want to say it,
I then asked what turned her on and she told me that even talking
about sex turned her on. I asked her if she was horny and she said her
vagina was wet. Bongi what happens when a guy kisses your neck and
ear lobe? She smiled and said no Sbu stop it am already wet.

I am sorry I was just asking I didn’t mean to make you horny but I
would love to kiss your neck, can I? I asked. She looked at me and said
but Sbu you have a girlfriend why do you want to kiss my neck?
Please don’t tempt me I haven’t had sex in months and I don’t like
what you are doing to me but if you were single girlfriend I was going
to have sex with you right now, by looking at her I can tell that she
would not resist if I tried to kiss her. I held her hand firmly and she
took a deep breath and I took the wine glass from her hand and
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placed it on the side table and then moved closer to her, looked at
her eyes and they were written ‘please kiss me Sbu’. I kissed her neck
and then kissed her earlobe and at this time she said Sbu why are you
doing this? Must I stop? I asked her. No don’t stop I want to know
why are you doing this to me? She asked. I want to make you happy
Bongi I replied and figured that the best way to shut her up was to
kiss her lips and that worked as she kissed me back and held my head.
Her lips were sweet like a strawberry and we kissed slowly and judg-
ing from the way she was breathing I knew she was ready and I then
got off the couch and went on my knees and kneeled in front of her
on the couch. She was looking at me as I opened her legs and pulled
up her dress exposing her dark orange thighs, she pulled my face to-
wards her face so that she can continue kissing me. I moved my
hands up her thighs until I got to her waist and noticed that she was
not wearing an underwear. I pulled her closer to the edge of the
couch and pushed up her dress, I asked her to lie on the couch and
she opened her legs and I saw her vagina. I can tell that she hadn’t
shaved in a while as her pubic hair looked like she was trying to do
dreadlocks but then again she pulled me closer to her face and asked
me what am I doing to her? I didn’t answer her and when I touched
her vagina she was already wet, I moved my finger across her vagina
starting at the bottom moving up until I got to her clitoris and that’s
when she closed her eyes and looked away and I continued to rub her
clitoris and with my 2 fingers I opened her vagina. She was moaning
saying Sbuuu Sbuuu ahhhhh ahhhhhh eishhhh, I inserted one finger
inside her tight and wet vagina and she opened her legs wider so that
I can penetrate her with my finger. I took out my finger and moved it
up to her clitoris and began to rub her clitoris in clockwise motion and
at this time she did not know what to do as she held me and pulled
me to kiss me and then push me away. I rubbed her clitoris harder as
she began to moan and I kissed her as I continued to rub her clitoris
faster. I felt her hand holding my head and her nails scratching my
head as she was about to reach orgasm. I kissed her neck and she
started to call out my name Sbuuu Sbuuuu Sbuuuuuu and she
reached orgasm and continued to vibrate as she closed her thighs.
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While she was enjoying her orgasm I asked her if she had any con-
doms and she said yes. She got up and went to her bedroom to fetch
the condoms and I followed, I took off my pants and threw them on
the floor as i followed her and looked at my fully erect penis while it
was ready for action. We got into her bedroom and she got the con-
doms from her wardrobe, she gave me a pack of flavoured condoms
and took off her dress. I looked at hand carved body with her curves
and she had a tattoo under her navel and was written BONGI. I used
my teeth to tear the condom wrapper and I got a banana flavoured
condom, I slid it on my penis and she lay on the bed with her thighs
opened for me. Before I could enter her vagina there was a knoeck at
the door, I told her to ignore the knock because I wanted to enter her
but Bongi said she must go and see who is at the door because the
door was not locked. She got up and dressed and went to check on
the door and it was Palesa, hey neighbour how are you? Palesa asked.
Hey I am fine thanks and you? Bongi asked, I am ok, I just came back
from the mall and I bought some wine do you mind joining me? Am
alone that side I don’t know where is Sbu? Palesa said. Oh its fine I
will come now let me quickly freshen up then I will join you and will
bring a movie, Bongi said. She closed the door and came back to the
bedroom and said Sbu that was a close call, that was Palesa and she
invited me over to your flat so you need to leave now. I got dressed
and left her flat and went outside to chill in the parking lot for 20
minutes before going back to the flat where I found Palesa and Bongi
sitting on the couch drinking wine, I greeted them and then went to
the bathroom to take a shower just so that I don't be in the same
room with Bongi and Palesa. Once I was finished I asked them if they
would like us to go out and party and I was hoping that Palesa will say
No like always but this time she agreed that she would like to go out
and party, Bongi also said its fine she will join us. I knew that things
will be awkward if we all went out after what I did with Bongi and I
was just amazed by the way she acted like nothing happened ‘love
them all but trust no one’.
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and asked him where he was partying and he said he was going to
join his other friends at a club in Protea Glen. I wanted to go alone
and as the girls got ready to go and party I went to the car and re-
moved one battery terminal and went back to the flat and told the
girls that I was ready for us to leave. We got into the lift and went to
the parking lot and I opened the car for them to enter and then I act-
ed shocked that the car would not start, I tried it again and again but
told them that the battery must be flat and therefore we can’t leave
and I could not use the company car to go and party just in case I got
into an accident. The girls were disappointed that the car would not
start and we went back to the flat where Bongi called one of her
friends and asked her if she can come and fetch them so that they
can go and party, after an hour the friend came and picked up Bongi
and Palesa and they left the flat. I told Palesa that since the car didn’t
want to start I will just chill in the house and sleep, as soon as they
left I went to the car and connected the battery terminal and started
the car and drove to join Sipho in Protea Glen. I arrived at the club
and as always it was packed with beautiful girls, I joined Sipho and
the other guys and we were listening to the music before Sipho start-
ed to flirt with some girls and he invited them to come and join us.
One of Sipho’s friends bought them some drinks and we chilled to-
gether listening to the Dj playing some nice house tracks.

There were 3 girls and 4 of us guys and I was the odd one and I didn’t
mind because I knew that I will have sex with Palesa when I got back
to the flat, since i had started to drink during day I felt that I was
getting drunk and told Sipho that I wanted to leave and drive back to
Kempton park before the metro police started to patrol the road after
1am. I went to buy some bottled water before leaving and I bumped
into Thobile, I greeted her and said Thobile are you stalking me? She
laughed and said Hello stranger, why would I stalk you? You know
very well that it is you who is stalking me. We moved from the coun-
ter and stood near the wall and had a brief chat, in my mind I wanted
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came with someone at the club and she can’t just disappear. Sbu give
me a call tomorrow and we can see if we can’t hook up and she gave
me a kiss and told me to drive safely, I got in the car and drove back
to Kempton Park. I arrived in Kempton Park and thought of checking a
popular pub before going to the flat and when I entered the pub I no-
ticed that Bongi and her friend were there and Palesa was talking to
this guy at the bar. I immediately stopped there and wondered who
was Palesa talking too and before I knew it they had shots with this
guy and they seemed to be having fun, I didn’t want to disturb them
so I left and went back to the flat. I got to the flat and spent about an
hour waiting for Palesa so that we can have sex but she never re-
turned and I ended up sleeping alone in the flat, Palesa only came
back to the flat at 7am and when I asked her where did she sleep she
said her and Bongi slept at Bongi’s friends place. I didn’t believe her
and I didn’t want to ask her about the guy I saw her with last night
because she thought I was in the house after my car didn’t want to
start. I knew that there was something wrong with her as she went to
the bathroom and took a shower, she came out naked and went to
the bedroom to sleep. I tried to kiss her but she told me that she was
tired and had a bad hangover and needed to sleep so I held her and
slept next to her hoping that when she wakes up we can have sex. I
woke up before her and I was starving, i went to the kitchen to make
some food and noticed that we didn’t have any bread and I thought
of making some cereals and also turned out that we also didn’t have
milk. I got some steak from the refrigerator and placed it in the micro-
wave and once it had defrosted I got spices and rubbed them on the
steak and placed the steak in a frying pan and made some food. She
finally woke up and when the meat was nice and brown I got a plate
and took some meat to her in the bedroom, I ate my steak with some
tobasco sauce and that helped to relieve the hangover I had, I heard a
knock on the door and when I opened it was Bongi walking bare feet
and wearing denim shorts and a t-shirt written ‘all natural’. She also
complained about the hangover and wanted to know if I was going to
go to the mall to buy some drinks so that she can also come with be-
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sa if she wanted anything and she said no. I left her sleeping and we
went to the mall with Bongi, we got to the mall and I started at the
supermarket to buy bread, milk and other things that we needed in
the flat. Bongi was also busy buying her things when I told her not to
forget to buy condoms so that we can have sex later, she laughed and
said I was crazy and will never have sex with me. We paid for our
things and then went to the liquor store where I offered to pay for
her drinks and my beer, we then left the mall and on the way I asked
her where did they party last night. She told me that they went to a
pub in Kempton Park. I joked and said am sure guys were bothering
them the whole night and she said no they behaved very well and her
friend dropped her off at her flat just after 3am. Did your friend drop
you off here at 3am? I asked her. Yes she did and did you fetch Palesa
at the pub because I saw her getting into some car and she left us
there, she said. No I didn’t I was asleep the whole time but no stress
its fine. I asked myself if Palesa had left with the guy she was busy
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The cheating one…

I knew that Palesa had lied to me by saying she slept at Bongi’s

friends place, I didn’t want to ask her because that will cause prob-
lems between Bongi and Palesa so I kept quiet and when we arrived
back at the flat Bongi went to her flat and I entered my flat and found
Palesa still sleeping. I left the groceries in the kitchen and opened a
beer before going to the bedroom where I found her lying on the bed
naked, I joined her on the bed and asked her if we can have sex and
she agreed. She told me to get a condom of which I did and rolled it
down my penis and when I tried to kiss her she kissed me back and
opened her thighs, I wanted to touch her vagina but she said I must
not and I must just insert my penis inside her vagina. I thought that I
will find her vagina tight as we haven’t had sex in a while and my pe-
nis just slid in without her showing any emotions, she held me as I
had sex with her. I felt like she was somehow doing me a favour by
having sex with me; I mean I had better sex with Thobile and we
touched and kissed each other while doing it but with Palesa she lay
there with me between her thighs. We changed positions and did it in
a doggy position but she was no moaning or anything there were no
emotions it was just sex. I eventually came after what seemed like
forever, I went to the bathroom to fetch a towel so that she can wipe
her vagina and then she went back to sleep again. I went to the kitch-
en so that I can cook lunch; I cooked curry and rice. While the food
was cooking I could not shake off the feeling that something is not
right with Palesa. When she finally woke up she came to the lounge
and was busy on her phone chatting to her friends on Whatsapp and
Facebook. I could sense that we were forcing to be together and
there was no love between us as but no one said anything and in my
case I was happy because I could still have sex with Bongi if I wanted
to, at about 5pm I asked Palesa if we can go to a popular place in
Tembisa to listen to some old school music but she said she was still
tired from last night and wanted to chill in the flat. So we sat in the
flat watching TV while she was busy on her phone chatting and even
when I tried to talk to her she would not even look at me when she
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responded so I figured out that she didn’t want to talk to meand I
kept quiet. I could not take it anymore and I left her in the flat and
went to Tembisa alone to listen to some music. I arrived at the popu-
lar restaurant and looked around for anyone that I knew and there
was no one so I bought my beers and asked some guys if I can join
them at their table. They were guys from Ebony Park and were there
to drink and hopefully get a few girls, the conversation soon turned to
cars as to which car was faster between the BMW M3 and the Mer-
cedes E63, I weighed my support for the Mercedes E63 because I
loved the noise the car made. While we were busy arguing there
about cars Nomfundo passed by with her friends and they greeted us,
they didn’t have a table they asked if they can join our table and the
guys agreed since they wanted some girls. We all sat together and
when my beers were almost finished I told the guys and Nomfundo
that I was leaving and Nomfundo asked me if I didn’t mind dropping
her and her friends off before going to my flat and one of the guys
volunteered to take them home. So I left and went back to the flat
and when I arrived there I didn’t go to my flat but I knocked on
Bongi’s flat and she opened for me, I got inside and could tell that she
was already in bed as she was wearing her red night dress. At that
time one thing was on my mind and I wanted to have sex with her,
she told me that her lounge was cold and that she was in bed. I told
her its fine we can go to her bedroom and chill there for a while be-
fore I went to my flat.

We got to bedroom and laid on the bed, I could see her nipples pro-
truding through the night dress. I didn’t want to waste time because
we both knew what we wanted and I got close to her and started to
kiss her, she lay on the bed with her arms opened and as I kissed her
she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. I was lying on the left
side and therefore I placed my right hand on her stomach and moved
it up to her orange sized breasts and she moved her right hand and
touched my back, I gave her breasts a nice firm squeeze and she
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until I got between her thighs; I opened her thighs a little bit and then
moved up the night dress. She was not wearing an underwear and I
played with her pubic hair before touching her vagina. I moved my
middle finger between her vagina walls and she opened her eyes and
looked at me and said ‘Sbu’ before closing her eyes again. With her
left hand she touched my face and continued to kiss me, I continued
to touch her vagina moving my finger up and down between her inner
vagina lips. I touched her clitoris and she took a deep breath and she
stopped kissing me and looked at me while I moved my hand up and
down her vagina. I could feel her vagina juice all over my hand and I
began to focus on her clitoris again slowly rubbing it in a circular mo-
tion and would move my finger along her inner vagina lips and insert
one finger inside her. I got off from my side and went in between her
thighs; I opened her thighs wider and lay in between them with my
face close to her vagina, with my thumbs I moved some of the pubic
hair to the side and then opened her vagina and with the outer lips of
the vagina opened I could see her clitoris. With the tip of my tongue I
licked it and that made her to say Sbu, I began to lick her clitoris and
with each lick she would vibrate and held my head and said Sbu what
are you doing to me? I didn’t answer her and started to suck on her
clitoris and she was moaning saying ahhhhhh eishhhhhh ehhhhhhh
ahhhhhh sbuuuuuuuu. While sucking her clitoris I inserted my middle
finger inside her wet vagina and she wanted to close her legs but i
didn’t allow her and I could tell that she was about to cum. I sucked
on the clitoris and gave it a gentle bite with my teeth and she lay
there holding a pillow on her chest as she tried to close her legs and I
sucked that clitoris until she lifted her waist and then dropped on the
bed and closed her legs shaking. I looked at her as she rolled on the
bed taking in deep breaths, after a few seconds I asked her where she
kept her condoms and she pointed at her wardrobe which I opened
and found them under her clothes. I rolled a condom on my penis and
pulled her up to stand, I removed her night dress and threw it on the
floor then I also removed my pants. I kissed her and she gave me a
hug and I then pushed her to the bed and I got in between her dark
orange thighs. I moved my penis up and down her vagina and inserted
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the tip of the penis and she kept looking at me and when I tried to
push the penis inside her vagina she closed her thighs and pushed me
away. I got on top of her again and figured that since she hasn’t had
sex in while I had to enter her slowly and I did that, I put the tip of my
penis near her vagina and pushed it in slowly. It felt like her vagina
was massaging my penis as I tried to push it in, I looked at her and her
eyes were wide open and I pushed the whole penis inside her. She
held me tight as I began to move in and out of her vagina, I was doing
her slowly yet giving her deep penetrations. With each thrust she
would moan and that was sweet music to my ears and I tried to do
her a little faster and as I looked at her she was sweating all over her
face, I felt her nails moving on my back as I did her faster. Her nails
moved from my shoulders going through my back until she grabbed
my butt, we started to kiss again slowly as I gave her the penis. I
asked her if we can change positions and she agreed and I got off her
and I turned her around into a doggy style position. Her legs were
shaking as I pushed down her back, I opened up her butt cheeks and
when I inserted the penis into her juicy vagina she pushed me away
with her right hand and lay on the bed. I got on top of her and as I
tried to insert the penis into her vagina I made a mistake and inserted
it on her anus, she screamed and pushed me away. I knew that I was
about to cum and just needed a few more thrusts but Bongi would
not let me close to her vagina, Bongi am sorry can I come on top then
I am about to cum please and she said no Sbu go the bathroom and
masturbate. Bongi please I just need it a little bit more then I will be
done please but she refused and offered to give me a blow job. I took
the condom off and lay on the bed and she came and sucked on my
penis, her tongue was dancing on my penis as she sucked it. With
each suck I could feel that I was about to cum and when she began to
move the base of my penis up and down I moved her mouth away
from my penis and saw the semen shoot out of my penis. That was
one of the best blowjobs I’ve ever had, she went to the bathroom and
came back with some tissue and wiped the semen off my penis. I got
off the bed and dressed up before giving her a hug, she asked me to
sleep over at her place but I told her that I can’t and have to go and
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sleep in my flat so that I can get ready for work in the morning. I
sneaked into my flat and decided to sleep on the couch so that Palesa
will not see what time I came back, in the morning Palesa woke me up
so that I can shower and get ready for work. She was done bathing
and was only wearing her underwear and bra; I didn’t find her attrac-
tive and tried not to look at her. We left the flat and I dropped her off
at work before driving to work, I passed at a supermarket and
grabbed something to eat and when I arrived at work and checked on
Nomfundo if she arrived safe last night. I went to my office to check
my emails and to follow up on clients and during the day while busy
on a call I heard a scuffle and people shouting in the reception area, I
thought it must be one of the clients complaining so I went out to
check what was happening and found that it was Nomfundo’s boy-
friend who was trying to drag Nomfundo out of the office. I went to
my office and called the security guards so that they can come and
help Nomfundo and after hanging up the phone I went back to check
on Nomfundo and found that the boyfriend had grabbed her hair and
was trying to drag her outside. I got closer to them and tried to talk to
the guy that he must not drag Nomfundo the way he did and he re-
leased Nomfundo and walked towards me, he asked me who am I to
tell him what to do with his girlfriend and as he walked towards me I
lifted up my hands to show that I didn't want to fight. I was about to
pee myself when he stopped and went back to Nomfundo, he
grabbed her hand and dragged her outside and they got into his car
and they left. I have never been so scared in my life and I was sure the
guy was going to hit me, the security guards arrived and I told them
that the guy had already left. I knew that the guy was abusing Nom-
fundo but it was the first time that I actually saw him man-handling
her like that.

I could not understand why Nomfundo stood up with the abuse, the
day continued and before knocking off Palesa called me saying that I
must not fetch her at work because she was going to work late and
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the flat and sat there waiting for Palesa and she came with some piz-
za for supper and she just looked happy. She went to take a shower
and then went to bed saying she had a long day and was tired, I let
her sleep and joined her after an hour and we slept. She woke up first
in the morning and by the time I got up she was already getting
dressed and I asked her if we can have sex before going to work and
she said that she was already dressed and we will have sex in the
evening when we came back from work. I dropped her off at work
and went to work and I noticed that Nomfundo was not on her desk
and assumed that she will be late for work, my manager tried calling
her and she said she was not feeling well and wanted to go and see a
doctor. I knew that the guy had abused her again and the reason she
didn’t come to work was because she was mostly likely bruised or
had a blue eye, I continued with my work and before knocking off
Palesa sent me an sms saying she was working late again and her
friend will drop her off. I arrived at the flat and watched TV while
waiting for Palesa and at 7pm I went next door to check on Bongi, I
knocked on the door and she opened the door and then she stood by
the door and gave me a smile, I noticed that there was some guy
sitting on her couch so I figured that she was busy and I asked her to
borrow me a movie. She let me in and I greeted the guy and Bongi
gave me the movie, I was not happy that Bongi had a male visitor in
her flat but kept my cool and went back to my flat. Palesa finally ar-
rived with some food she had bought and she dished up for us and
she sat was next to me but it felt like she was on the other side of the
world. Once done eating she went to take a shower and I joined her
in the shower and I noticed that she had a love bite on her neck, im-
mediately after seeing the love bite I knew that something was up
with her and working late every day. I looked at her and imagined
someone else busy touching and kissing her and out of disgust I could
no longer touch her and I got out of the shower and dried myself up
and went to the bedroom. She came out of the shower and asked me
if we can have to have sex and I said No. I was boiling inside and
wanted to ask her about the love bite but I knew that she will lie to
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again she woke up first and got ready for work, I dropped her off at
work then went to work. Nomfundo did report for work but I could
see that she was not ok and I gave her some space until she was
ready to talk about what happened. It was happening every day that
Palesa was working late and one day I called her cell phone and she
didn’t answer so I called her office number and they told me that she
knocked off early. I could not shake off the feeling that Palesa was
cheating but I didn’t have any proof to back up my allegations. I want-
ed to know where was she going after work and what was she doing
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The cheater is caught…

I told Palesa that there was a new cellphone virus that would delete
all the data on her phone and advised her to install an anti-virus on
her phone, she gave me the phone and I downloaded the anti-virus
on her phone. I knew that the anti-virus had a feature that allowed
the user to track the phone through its GPS. I registered the app using
my details so that I can have access to the phone whenever I wanted
to; I checked the accuracy of the tracker and saw that it was about 20
metres. On Friday I fetched her at work and we went to the flat,
when we arrived she had some wine and then took a shower and told
me that she was going out with her friends. She told me that they
were going to a club in Midrand. I saw this as an opportunity to test
the tracker on her phone and with her away I can go next door and
chill with Bongi, her phone rang and she told me that her friend was
downstairs and gave me a kiss and then left. After 30 minutes I
checked the phone’s location and it reported that the phone was
around Kempton Park and not in Midrand. I thought maybe they
were still in Kempton Park and I went next door to see Bongi, I
knocked at her door and she opened for me. I got inside her flat and
found her dressed like she was going out and she told me that she
had a date with the guy I saw her with earlier in the week. I went
back to my flat and decided to watch TV because I didn’t feel like go-
ing out and I was stressing about where was Palesa going to, again
after an hour I checked the phone and it reported that the phone was
close to Carnival mall in Brakpan. What is Palesa doing in Brakpan
when she said she was going to Midrand? I called her to check if she
arrived safely in Midrand, she answered her phone and told me that
she can’t talk because the club was packed and again she lied to me. I
was furious that she was lying to me about her whereabouts and de-
cided to get in the car and drive to Brakpan, when I arrived in Brak-
pan I parked the car outside the entertainment area and walked in-
side walking slowly hoping to see her but I didn’t so i decided to call
her and tell her that I was outside the club. The phone rang and when
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she answered I could tell that she was inside the building because the
song that was playing in the building was the same song that was
playing in the background when she answered her phone.
I saw her running to the bathroom so that she can talk to me and I
told her that I was outside the club in Midrand and asked her to come
outside, she pretended not to hear what I was saying and hung up.
She sent me an sms saying she can’t hear me and I must text her in-
stead, I waited for her to come out of the bathroom so that she can
go back to whoever she was with there. She got out and walked to a
table that was in the corner and I could not see who she was with and
then a guy that looked like the same guy she was drinking with in
Kempton park stood up and went to the bathroom. I followed the guy
to the bathroom and when I got inside I greeted him and we spoke
about the good music that they were playing there and before he left
the bathroom he asked me if I knew where he can buy condoms and I
told him that he can ask the barman am sure he can tell him where to
get the condoms. I kept my cool as he left and went back to the table,
I wanted to go and confront Palesa right there and then but I decided
to leave and go back to the flat.

I was hurt and full of anger and didn’t notice that I was driving fast
until I saw the blue lights behind me and it was the metro police, I
pulled to the side of the road and an officer came and asked for my
license before telling me that I was speeding. I tried telling him that I
must have lost focus of my speed because I just found out that my
girlfriend was cheating on me but he didn’t care and gave me a traffic
fine, I was glad that he didn’t smell any alcohol in the car. I got to
Kempton Park and passed at a pub where I bought a bottle of whiskey
and went to the flat, it felt like someone had taken a knife and
stabbed me in my heart. I sat on the couch with my whiskey and ice, I
felt tears running down my face as I pictured that guy touching and
having sex with Palesa. Why would Palesa do this to me? Why? I
asked myself. I was getting drunk and had started to play music loud
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the caretaker, i turned down the volume before opening the door and
i found Bongi standing at the door smiling. She asked me if I was hav-
ing a party because I was playing loud music and I told her no I was
just drowning my sorrows and invited her in, she said she can’t come
into my flat because it was late and Palesa will be suspicious if she
found her in the flat at night and she left and went to her flat to sleep.
I finally passed out on the couch with my bottle of whiskey next to me
and I woke up when I heard someone close the door and it was Pale-
sa, I looked at her as she walked to the bedroom. I thought to myself
that guy must have had sex with her and now she wants to rest be-
cause she was tired; I was still drunk to wake up so I continued to
sleep on the couch. I woke up with a hangover in the morning and
walked to the bedroom where I found Palesa sleeping, I woke her up
and told her we needed to talk. She woke up and asked me what is it
that I wanted to talk about and I asked her how was the club that she
went to last night? Sbu did you wake me up to ask me about the
club?, she asked? No last night I was in the flat alone and i missed
you, I said. She replied and said the club was nice even though it was
packed and I couldn’t even dance nor even hear you when you called.
Oh that is ok am glad you enjoyed, last night I got a speeding fine
while driving from Brakpan, I said. She looked at me and said what
were you doing in Brakpan at night? I replied and said my friend Sipho
invited me to join him in Brakpan for a few drinks and since I was
alone in the flat I went to Brakpan and it was a nice place. She looked
like she had just seen a ghost when I told her that i was also at Brak-
pan last night, oh that is nice I have never been there before she said.
I looked at her as she lied to me like there’s nothing wrong, I held her
hand and told her how much I loved her and she told me that she also
loved me. I wanted to believe her but I knew she was lying to me; I
looked her in the eyes and asked her if she was seeing someone else?
She pulled me closer and hugged me then said No Sbu I am not, I love
you and only you. Palesa where were you last night? I asked her and
she replied in Midrand Sbu. I left her in the bedroom and went to the
lounge where I started to drink my whiskey again, with each sip I was
getting angrier and angrier. She came out of the bedroom and went to
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the kitchen to make something to eat, I kept looking at her eating and
she came and sat on top of me. She tried to kiss me but I could not
kiss the lips that were busy kissing some guy last night.

I made an excuse that my legs were sore and asked her to sit on the
couch; she got off me and sat next to me. I kept looking at her while
she was lying about what happened in Midrand last night, what is
wrong with Palesa? Not only is she cheating but she is lying to me. I
love Palesa and want to be with her, I have to do everything in my
power to keep it that way. I could not hold it in anymore and I asked
her again Palesa are you seeing someone else? She could not look at
me when she replied and said No Sbu I am not, why would i? I asked
her again and said Palesa, are you seeing someone else? She held my
hand and said No Sbu I am not I love you and you are the only person
I love, why are you asking me this? I replied and said No Palesa I was
just asking to know if maybe there was something you are not happy
with and I love you so much and don’t want to loose you again so
please whatever you are busy with just stop it please. But Sbu I am
not seeing anyone I love you with all my heart, she said. I gave her a
hug and held her for a minute appreciating what I have even though
the idea that someone was holding her last night was killing me in-
side. We sat on the couch and watched TV until her phone rang, she
got up and answered the phone then walked to the bedroom to talk
there. I knew it was the guy that had called her because she came
back smiling and said it was her friend who was inviting her for lunch
at her place. There she was again lying to me again; she could not
hide the joy she felt when talking to this guy that she was busy with.
How can I make her stop? I asked myself. If Palesa gets pregnant then
I know the guy will leave her but I am not ready to be a father again
and I haven’t even seen my daughter. Palesa went to take a shower
and while she was showering I tried to look at her phone but found
that she had set up a password and I was convinced that she was hid-
ing something. She came out of the shower and went to the bedroom
and I followed her where I found her naked, I asked her if we can

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have sex before she left and she said she will be late for lunch with
her friend and promised me that we will have sex when she came
back. I looked at her neck and the love bite was still there, my heart
broke into a million pieces as I imagined the guy kissing her but I did-
n’t want to confront her with what I knew because I feared that she
will admit to everything and then end things with me, I cannot loose
Palesa I love her so much and my life will be ruined if she left me. I
went back to couch where I had another sip of whiskey and as she
came out of the bedroom she looked so happy, she gave me a kiss
and asked me if she should bring any food for supper and I told her
no because I wanted to braai some meat.

As soon as she left I got a text from Thobile that said ‘hey stranger’, I
called her back and we had a brief chat and she told me that she
missed me and wanted to know if I can come to her place in the
evening. In my mind I wanted to know where was Palesa and told
Thobile that I will try and come to see her. After about 30 minutes I
logged into the phones tracker system to check the phones location
and it showed that she was in Midrand just behind the Shell garage
on New Road, I thought of driving to Midrand so that I can see what
car was this guy driving but I was afraid that Palesa will see my car
there. I wanted to catch her red handed but again I could not stand
the thought of seeing her in another man’s hands, I was hurt. I kept
on checking the tracker and it was in the same place for almost 2
hours and at this time I got a picture from Thobile that showed her
lying on her bed with her legs wide open and a text below that that
said ‘are you sure you don’t want to come?’ I didn’t reply to her text
and when I checked the tracker again it reported that the phone had
moved and was coming towards Kempton Park and I finished my glass
of whiskey and went to my car and parked it opposite our flat. A red
Golf GTI pulled up near the entrance of the flat, a door opened and
Palesa came out. She blew the guy a kiss and with her face full of a
big smile she went inside the flat, as the Golf was leaving I started my
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and I finally caught up with him at the traffic lights as he stopped to
wait for the light to turn green, I pulled up next to him and rolled my
window down and then used the hooter to get his attention. He rolled
down his window and I finally got a good view of this bastard’s face
that has been having sex with my Palesa, I shouted and said ‘Ola, can
you please give me directions I am trying to go to Busy corner’. He
replied and said I am also going there so follow me and I will show
you and so I followed him busy thinking of how much I would love to
kick his ass for having sex with Palesa but I kept my cool and followed
him until we arrived at Busy corner, I parked my car next to his and
got out. I pretended that it was my first time at Busy corner as he said
‘sure my guy this is busy corner’, I introduced myself to him and he
said his name was Neo. We walked inside Busy corner together and
he told me that he was going to have few beers before going back to
Midrand and as we were walking towards the bar area I offered to
buy a round of beers because I also just wanted a few beers before
going home and then Neo said he was hungry and offered to buy
some meat.

I bought some beers and we found a table were we sat and waited for
our meat. There I was drinking beer with this bastard who is busy hav-
ing sex with the girl I want to marry one day but I wanted to know
what made him better than me, what made Palesa want this guy? Our
conversation soon turned to the beautiful girls that were at Busy cor-
ner. I mentioned that I was dating this beautiful girl that stays in
Kempton park and then Neo also told me about this girl that he had in
Kempton Park and that he has been seeing her for 3 months but has
never gone into her flat because this girl said she shared a flat with
her bigger sister and could not allow him in the flat. I was shocked to
hear that Palesa has been with this guy for more than 3 months and
all along I thought it was just 2 weeks, at this point I could no longer
keep myself calm and I told him that I had to leave because the fol-
lowing day was Monday and had to prepare for work. I suggested that
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girlfriend and that the following weekend we can hook up again and
chill in my flat. While he was storing my numbers his phone rang and
he ran outside to answer the call, I was sure that it was Palesa calling
him. He finally came back also full of smiles and he finished storing
my numbers and he told me that we will hook up during the week
because he worked at the airport. I left Busy corner heartbroken and
angry for what was happening in my relationship and what I heard
from Neo. I arrived at the flat and found Palesa sitting on the couch
watching TV and I looked at her as she smiled and told me that my
food was in the microwave, I looked at her and asked her to give me a
hug. She stood up and gave me a hug, I held onto her as I felt in my
heart that I will soon loose her. ‘Palesa I am sorry for all the bad
things I have done to you and I love you so much and I don’t want to
loose you, I love you Palesa with all my heart I told her as I held her
tighter. She replied and said I love you too Sbu, I wanted to believe
what she was saying but I knew she was lying. I went to the bedroom
to sleep because I could no longer listen to her lies and she joined me
in the bedroom and asked me if we can have sex before we slept. I
got a condom from the drawer and rolled it down on my penis. I
could not kiss her or even touch her as she turned around and
opened her thighs, I didn’t care if she was wet or not I just wanted to
have sex. I inserted my penis inside her vagina and the thought that
Neo has been also inserting his penis for 3 months was killing me but I
continued to stick my penis inside her vagina, I just wanted to ejacu-
late and sleep. She began to moan as I was doing her faster and I
wondered if she was moaning for real or was faking it like she has
been for the past 3 months, I figured that it would be a good time for
me to cum inside her and make her pregnant. While changing posi-
tions from missionary to doggy style I removed the condom and in-
serted my penis inside her vagina, I began to do her slowly and then
went in faster and deeper until I finally came inside her. I held her in
that position for a few seconds to ensure that my semen went inside
her so that she can conceive our baby, when I removed my penis
from her vagina she noticed that I came inside her and she started to
panic and asked me why did I cum inside her and I told her that the
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condom must have broke. She was furious that I came inside her and
she lay on the bed and opened her legs and I saw my semen coming
out of her vagina, I was shocked at was I was seeing because I have
never seen anyone push out semen from a vagina. I told her that I
wanted us to have a baby, we have been together for some time now
and I thought you will be ok with us having a baby and you always
wanted one. She didn’t answer me and instead went to the bathroom
to wipe her vagina clean and when she came back to the bedroom
she shouted at me that I can’t decide to cum inside her without her
saying its ok. I apologised and when I tried to sleep on the bed she
told me to get out of the bedroom and I took at blanket and went to
sleep on the couch.

In the morning she was still angry that I came inside her and when I
tried to apologise she didn’t answer me, I got ready for work and we
left the flat together and I dropped her off before going to work. I ar-
rived at work with a little hangover and while having some coffee in
the kitchen Nomfundo walked in and greeted me. Nomfundo was a
strong woman because she was able to hide all the abuse that she
was going through with a smile and after catching up about what hap-
pened over the weekend I went to my office to check on Palesa’s
phone and I saw that she was at work. While drowning in my paper-
work my manager came to my office and asked me for a favour if I
can quickly drive to Pretoria and meet with a client in Menlyn to dis-
cuss some business. I saw this as a good opportunity to get out of the
office because I was sweating from the hangover I had, I took the doc-
uments and got in my car and drove to Pretoria. I stopped at Shell city
to buy a pie and an energy drink and then continued driving towards
Pretoria, when I arrived at the mall I called the client and to my sur-
prise a lady answered; I was shocked because I was expecting to have
a meeting with a guy. I told her where she will find me and she told
that she will be at the mall in 15 minutes so I took that time to go to
the bathroom to check if I looked representable for the meeting. I
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A chubby beautiful dark skinned girl with a D-cupped sized cleavage

walked into the restaurant and I raised my hand to signal to her
where I was sitting, she walked towards me and I stood up and pulled
out a chair for her. She sat down and introduced herself as Gugu and I
also sat down and introduced myself and before I could finish talking I
took a deep breath of her perfume and it just blew my mind away,
she noticed that and smiled before asking me if I was ok. I laughed
and told her I loved her perfume because it had the effect of making
people know that she was in the room, we began with the business
meeting and 1 hour into the meeting we decided to take a break and
have lunch. During this time I got a chance to know this chubby and
beautiful client that I was dealing with, she told me that she had a flat
in Centurion and has been with her company for 8 months. While
talking to her I could not take my eyes off her beautiful face and her
confidence just blew my mind away, after eating we continued with
the meeting and my manager called me to check if I was still ok with
the client and told me that if I finished after 3pm I can just go home
straight and that was music to my ears. We seemed to get along with
Gugu and when we were done with the meeting I told her that I was
done for the day and was going home. Before leaving I asked her if
we can meet again for drinks and she asked me if I had drinks with all
the clients I met, I said no I don’t but I would love to see her again.
She laughed and said its ok I can have her numbers, I left the restau-
rant and went to my car and when I got inside I checked Palesa’s
phone and it reported that she was in Midrand. Palesa must have left
work early and went to Midrand to spend time with Neo, I called her
to ask if I can fetch her from work when she knocked off and she said
she will let me know because she was still busy at work and I got an-
gry because she was lying to me again. I drove back to Kempton park
and passed at the bottle store to get a 6 pack before going to the flat,
I arrived there and had one beer before checking her phone and she
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back to the flat, I was woken up by a sound of a closing door and it
was Palesa. I greeted her and she didn’t answer me and went straight
to the bedroom where she came out with a towel wrapped around
her body and went to the bathroom to take a shower. I opened an-
other beer while waiting for her to finish showering and when she
was done she came out and I asked her if we can talk about what hap-
pened last night, she shouted at me and said what is it that you want
to talk to me about? Why didn’t you talk to me last night before cum-
ing inside me? I replied and said Palesa I am sorry about last night and
if you don’t want a baby then its fine let me go and buy you morning
after pills. No Sbu this is not about pregnancy just forget it and leave
me alone, she said and then went to the bedroom where she locked
the door. I got up and went to the kitchen and started to cook while
drinking my beer, I kept asking myself what is it that I did to make
Palesa cheat on me? I have done everything for her and she will just
cheat on me? But it is ok I will show her who is smarter. I finished
cooking and ate then I went to the bedroom door where i knocked
until she opened the door for me and when I got inside the room i
then joined her on the bed. When I got on the bed she got up and
took a blanket and went to sleep on the couch, I could see that what-
ever we had was over. It was hard for me to sleep as the love of my
life could not even share a bed with me, Palesa the girl I have been
with since 2007. It was all over but I have to show her not to mess
with me.

I finally slept and in the morning I woke up early so that I can shower
first, when I was done showering I opened the bathtub tab and let out
all the hot water before getting out of the bathroom. She went to the
bathroom to shower and quickly came back to ask me why I had fin-
ished the hot water in the geyser and I didn’t answer her, she went
back to bath with cold water and while she was busy bathing I took
the screwdriver and removed the plug from the iron so that she can
go to work with creased clothes. When she got out of the bathroom I
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can drop her off at work and I just left the flat. I arrived at work and
had a quick meeting with manager briefing him about the meeting I
had in Pretoria and we were only waiting for Gugu to sign the con-
tract. My manager insisted that I do everything I can to make Gugu
sign the contract because we needed their business. I went to my
office and I called Gugu to thank her for the good meeting we had
yesterday and she told me that she was not at work and will get back
to me on Friday about the meeting we had, I checked on the internet
for a florist around Centurion and then ordered some flowers for
Gugu. She called me back and thanked me for the flowers and said
she has never received flowers before, I asked her if we can meet
after work for drinks and she said its ok we can meet. I told my man-
ager that I was going to meet with Gugu in the evening and will try to
convince her to sign the contract and my manager took out his wallet
and gave me R500 and said Sbu we need that contract and you can
leave early so that Gugu doesn’t have to wait for me. Before leaving
work I checked Palesa’s phone and it reported that she was at work
and therefore I went to the flat to freshen up before going to meet up
with Gugu, I was under pressure to get Gugu to sign the contract. I
got to the flat and took a shower and then poured some cologne on
my chest before leaving Kempton Park, while on the way I called her
to ask her if I can fetch her at her place and she agreed. I arrived out-
side her complex and called her, I was wearing formal because I want-
ed to impress her and give her the impression that I was professional
and she can trust me and sign the contract. I was sitting in the car
waiting for her to come and thought she would be in a nice long dress
or something formal but I was amazed when I saw her coming out of
the gate wearing jeans with a t-shirt that was written Dark & Beauti-
ful and also black All-star sneakers. I loved the way she moved her
curves as she was coming to the car was and I got out so that I can
open the door for her, i greeted her and she got inside the car and I
asked her where she would like to go and we both didn’t know where
to go because I wanted to take her to a restaurant but now she came
out with her sneakers and jeans so I didn't know where exactly we
can go to. We both couldn’t decide where to go and she asked me if I
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didn’t mind going back to her flat so that she can cook supper for us. I
was a bit uneasy that she was inviting me to her place but I saw that
as a better way of getting comfortable with her and we then drove
back to her flat, we arrived at her flat and Gugu had a very nice look-
ing flat and I sat down and then she asked me if I would love to have a
beer or juice. I smiled and said the beer would be nice; I was again
shocked when she opened 2 dumpies. I met Gugu a couple of days
ago and she gave me this impression that she only drank the best
wine money can buy and eats only the best food out there but here I
am sitting with her drinking beer and she looks comfortable in her
sneakers and jeans. I could not sit on the couch and look like a king
while she was busy in the kitchen therefore I got up and helped her
to grate the tomatoes and also chop the carrots; i took this chance in
the kitchen to know her better. Gugu was from Shalimah ridge in Hei-
delberg and had one younger sister who stayed with their mother
who was a teacher at a school in Ratanda and she also told me that
she has never met her father. I changed the subject and spoke about
the contract and told her how we would offer her company good ser-
vice but she quickly stopped me and said she doesn’t like to talk
about business when she was at home, I saw that her beer was al-
most finished so I got another beer for her from the fridge. When the
food was ready we ate and she asked me if my girlfriend won’t com-
plain if I came back home late and I replied No I actually don’t have a
girlfriend, I have been focusing on building my career and haven’t met
anyone but I am looking for a partner. She laughed and said wow a
handsome guy like you single? Yes Gugu I am single and it’s a pity that
you are taken because I was going to make you my better half. Taken
by who Sbu? She asked. Come on Gugu you can’t tell me that a beau-
tiful lady like you is single? I asked her and she replied Yes Sbu I am
single but I am not in the market. Oh that is ok am sure you have your
own reasons why you are not looking because if you were in the mar-
ket I was going to make you my better half, I said. Sbu do you always
flirt with the people you do business with or is it me? She asked, No
Gugu I have never done this before so there’s something special
about you but let me leave it there and cheers to a good working rela-
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tionship that will not include any kissing. She laughed and then told
me that it was getting late and she wanted to sleep so I got up and
asked for a hug before leaving her flat little did she know that while I
was sitting down looking at her body I wrote a little note for her and
left it in the fridge when I took out 2 dumpies for us to drink.

The time was around 10pm when I arrived at my flat and I found that
Palesa was not in the flat, I checked my phone and saw that she had
sent me a text message that she was going to watch movies with her
friend at the mall so I quickly logged into her phone’s tracker and it
showed that she was in Midrand at the very same place that she was
last time. I sent her an sms that said ‘please use a condom’ before
going to the bedroom to sleep. She woke me up when she came back
and asked me what did I mean about the sms I sent her that she must
use a condom but I didn’t entertain her and went back to sleep, I
woke up early again the following day and finished the hot water be-
fore she woke up to shower. When she went to the bathroom to
shower I was in the kitchen making breakfast for myself and when I
was done eating I decided to wait for her, we left the flat and on the
way I received a call from Gugu and she was thanking me for the little
note that I wrote for her. I had written ‘Gugu you are so beautiful and
would love to look at you every day when you smile and I hope you
are smiling as you are reading this’, when I was done with the call I
looked at Palesa and she was staring at me. I then asked her about
the movie that she was watching last night and I was not shocked
when she could not remember the tittle of the movie or even what
time the movie started. We arrived at her work place and I dropped
her off before going to work, I arrived at work and greeted Nomfundo
and then went to my office to begin with my work. I called Neo and
asked him if we can have a few drinks after work in Kempton Park
and he agreed and I then continued with my work throughout the
day. After knocking off I called Neo again to check if we were still go-
ing to meet for drinks and he said we can meet at some pub in Jubilee
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outside and he walked in. I ordered a round of beers and we started
to talk about work and he was telling how he caught this guy who was
trying to smuggle drugs from Brazil, while he was busy talking his
phone rang and he went outside to answer his phone. I continued to
drink while he was outside talking on his phone and after a while he
came back and he looked a bit shocked and he ordered 2 double
shots of whiskey and drank them both, I could sense that he might
have received some bad news from the call that he just had. He then
told me that he needed to leave because he wanted to meet his girl-
friend and that we should meet for beers again over the weekend, I
invited him to my flat on Saturday so that we can watch a game of
soccer. He left me there alone drinking while he went to see OUR girl-
friend Palesa. I sat there drinking and kept thinking about what Palesa
might have told him over the phone that made him to drink those 2
double shots of whiskey, when I was finished with the beers I went
back to the flat. I arrived at the flat and found Palesa, she looked like
she was crying and I was now sure that something was happening be-
tween her and Neo. I went to her and asked why she was crying but
she didn’t answer me and began to cry again, I gave her a hug to calm
her down and asked her again what was wrong but she looked at me
and without saying a word she went to the bedroom to sleep. I fol-
lowed her to the bedroom so that I can hold her until she slept but
she told me that she needed space and I must not touch her so I left
her in the bedroom and went to the kitchen to make some food be-
fore joining her to sleep. It was hard for me to sleep next to her as I
kept wondering what could have made her cry and worse she didn’t
even want me to touch her. In the morning she managed to wake up
first and when she was done bathing she came back to the bedroom
with a towel wrapped around her body, she took off the towel and I
looked at her naked body. I got off the bed went to her and when I
tried to touch her she refused and told me to go and shower because
we will be late for work. I left the bedroom and went to shower and
when I was done we left the flat, when we arrived at her workplace
before she got off the car I said Palesa I love you and please stop what
you are doing because I know everything so please just stop, Stop
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what Sbu? Bye see you later she replied as she closed the car door
and walked away. I could not stop thinking about what Palesa told
Neo last night and what made Palesa to cry. When I arrived at work
my manager told me that Gugu has not signed the contract and had
to come up with another plan to get her to sign the contract and the
last thing I wanted to do was to mix business with pleasure. Days
passed and on Friday after work I called Neo to confirm with him if he
was still coming to watch the soccer game with me on Saturday so
that I can ensure that Palesa was also in the flat when he arrived,
when I arrived at the flat I heard some house music coming from
Bongi’s flat so I went there and knocked at the door and found Bongi
busy singing alone in her flat, she had a glass of wine in her hand and
could tell that she might have had more than one glass of wine. I got
inside the flat and she poured me a glass of wine and while I was
drinking she started to sing and dance in front of the TV, I looked at
her as she was shaking her butt and that reminded of the time I was
between her thighs.

I went to sit on the couch so that I can look at her dance and when
her favourite song ended she came and sat next to me on the couch
so that she can catch her breath and then I said Bongi I haven’t seen
you in weeks, your new boyfriend must be keeping you busy ne? No
Sbu he was not my boyfriend we were just friends she replied and
then continued to say so Sbu how did you manage to sleep with me
and then go next door to your girlfriend? I avoided Palesa by all
means because I felt bad that I was sleeping with her man but damn
you Sbu you did me good last time and guess what? It will never hap-
pen again. How sure are you that it won’t happen again? I asked her.
No Sbu I know I will not allow you to kiss me or touch me because
when you do that I just get wet so I will not allow you to kiss me to-
day. I knew that Bongi was telling me the opposite of what she was
saying so I then I tried to kiss her and she stood up and went to sit on
the other couch so that there can be some distance between us, I fol-
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glass from her hand as she looked at me, I placed the glass on the
floor and kissed her. She kissed me back and I started to touch her all
over her body and she stopped me and said Sbu let me go and fetch
condoms in the bedroom, she got up and as she was going to fetch
the condoms I locked the door and then sat on the couch. When she
came back she had taken off her jeans and was only wearing her un-
derwear and a t-shirt. She sat next to me and gave me the condom
and then started to kiss me, Bongi was just in control and didn’t wait
for me to kiss her or take off her t-shirt .She lay on the couch as I got
top of her and she let me between her thighs, while kissing her I used
my right hand to take off my pants and pushed them off and since I
didn’t wear an underwear I was ready for action. I got off her and
rolled the condom on my penis and she took off her underwear, I
looked at her vagina as she opened her thighs for me. I started to kiss
her feet and slowly went to her knees and while I was kissing her she
was looking at me, I continued kissing her legs until i got to her thighs.
I touched her vagina before slowly moving my finger between her
vagina lips, she was already wet when i inserted one finger inside her
vagina and penetrated her a few time as she began to moan I then
kissed her pubic area, kissed her tummy before going to her nipples. I
kissed her neck and with my right hand I held my penis and directed it
inside her vagina. The penis got inside the vagina and pushed it inside
deep and I pulled up her right leg and we started to have sex, I could
see her starting to sweat on her forehead as I continued to go in deep
inside her vagina and she didn’t know whether to kiss me or hold me
but I remember feeling her nails sinking deep on my back as she was
pushing me to go in deep and faster. The couch didn’t give us enough
space as my left leg was on the floor so we went to the floor and I
asked her to lie on her stomach. I looked at her butt and I got on top
of her and I slid my penis inside her vagina and continued to do her
and I knew that with each thrust I was hitting her g-spot and the
sweat on her back made it easy for me to do her faster and she was
holding on the rug as I continued to do her. While holding her down I
could feel that I was about to ejaculate so I held onto her shoulders
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her and just lay on top of her. After a minute I finally took out my pe-
nis from her vagina and went to the bathroom to get a tissue and re-
moved the condom. When I came back to the lounge I found her still
lying on the floor and when I tried to pick her up she said No am ok I
just want to lie here on the floor and cool down, damn you did me
good please give me my glass of wine I want to have a sip. I sat on the
couch and looked at her beautifully carved body lying on the floor.
She finally got up and went to her bedroom and came back wearing
her white gown and then sat next to me and gave me this beautiful
smile before lying on my chest while she enjoyed her wine. I told her
that I needed to go back to my flat because Palesa might come back
anytime, she got up and opened the door and looked outside to see if
Palesa was not there and then I got out and went to my flat. I went to
take a shower and while showering Palesa came back to the flat,
when I got out of the shower I saw her sitting on the couch watching
TV. I went to the bedroom where I changed into my boxer shorts and
then went to the kitchen to get a beer before sitting next to her on
the couch. It felt like I was sitting next to a stranger because I could
not look or even start a conversation with her, she was busy on her
phone as I watched TV. I wish she knew what I had in store for her for
Saturday, she got up and went to sleep and I sat on the couch alone
planning for the next day.

In the morning Palesa woke up early and told me that she was going
to do her hair in Long Street and will be back in the flat later, after
she had left I went to see Bongi in her flat and found her still wearing
her pyjamas. I asked her if she can come with me to the car wash so
that I can wash my car, she agreed and said I must give her about 30
minutes so that she can get ready. After 30 minutes I went to check
her in her room and we went to the car wash. When we arrived at the
car wash in Jubilee street I parked the car inside and asked one of the
guys to wash the car while we sat in the shade, while we were waiting
for the car to be washed we started to talk about what happened last
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have me because I was dating Palesa. I felt bad about what Bongi just
said but that could not change anything because I didn’t love her or
anything except that I enjoyed having sex with her, with Bongi I can
have sex with her and then go back to Palesa without worrying that
she might call me or anything because she knew her position. When
they were done with the car we went back to the flat, while I was
busy cleaning the flat Neo called to confirm that he will be at my flat
at 14:30pm so that we can watch the game. The trap was set for both
Neo and Palesa, I didn’t know how they will both react when they see
each other in the same room but I had to do it to teach them both a
lesson. In the afternoon he called me and told me that he was in
Kempton Park and was going to see his girlfriend at the salon before
coming to my flat. When he arrived in my flat we went to buy some
cold beers so that we can watch the soccer match. The match started
and Orlando Pirates scored a goal against Kaizer chiefs before half
time and during half time I got up to get more beers from the fridge
and Neo asked to use the toilet, I was sitting on the couch waiting for
the match to continue when Palesa returned from the salon. She
walked in and looked nice with her Brazilian weave, she sat on the
couch and told me that her butt was sore because she had been
sitting at the salon for more than 6 hours but I didn’t feel bad for her
because I knew that hell was about to break loose. While she was
sitting on the couch busy on her phone the bathroom door opened
and Neo walked out, when Palesa lifted her head to see who just
came out she opened her eyes wide as if she was seeing a ghost. Neo
also looked shocked why his girlfriend was in my flat. Neo greeted
Palesa and said Hey baby how did you know that I was in this flat? I
looked at Palesa as she could not answer.

There was complete silence in the flat and it felt like someone had
turned off the volume, so I broke the silence and introduced Neo to
Palesa. Neo said no Sbu I know this girl, this is the girl I've been telling
you how much I love her and wanted to come and see her today.
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her and said explain what exactly? But let me give you a chance so
that you can explain. Neo Stood up and said Sbu? Palesa? What is
happening? Please can someone tell me? We both looked at Palesa
waiting for her to explain how she managed to live with me and still
be in a relationship with Neo but she could not utter a word and be-
gan to cry. I looked at Neo and said Neo please sit down and let me
explain to you what is happening, I have been dating Palesa for the 5
years and we stay together in this flat. I know she told you that she
stays with her sister but she lied to you and I don’t know why she did-
n’t end things with me so that she can be with you, she wanted to
play us by dating you during the day and then date me at night. Neo
looked confused as he said so Sbu are you trying to tell me that you
have been with Palesa for the past 5 years? Sbu I thought you are my
friend and that is why you invited me over so that we can watch the
soccer match and now i found out about this? I replied and said Neo
my guy at first I wanted to beat you up for sleeping with Palesa but
again I thought about it that had Palesa been fair and honest she
should have told you that she is seeing someone else but she kept
quiet and was playing both of us. I could tell that Neo was getting an-
gry as he stood up and went over to Palesa and said Palesa is this
true? All this time when I wanted to come and see you; you kept say-
ing that your sister is in the flat and at night when I called you never
answered your phone? Palesa why did you lie to me? While this was
happening I sat back and enjoyed my cold beer, who does Palesa
think she is? Trying to play a player? Neo continued to ask Palesa but
she could not answer and kept saying I am sorry Neo.

Palesa just yesterday you were telling me that you think you are preg-
nant, whose baby is it? Mine or Sibusiso? When I heard Neo saying
that I chocked on my beer and began to cough and then i asked
WHAT? Palesa are you pregnant? Palesa answered with tears flowing
on her face and said yes I am pregnant and I am not sure who is the
father. I was shocked that I have been sharing a bed with a girl that is
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think since she told you I think you are the father and Neo Said no Sbu
I can’t be the father because you stayed with her and am sure you
had sex with her every day and that is why she is pregnant. I replied
and said No Neo we never had sex because whenever she came back
she would just sleep and not allow me to touch her so to me I thought
you did her good and she didn’t want anything to do with me. Palesa
said Guys please stop talking about me like I am not here. I looked at
Neo and said my guy lets enjoy the beer and we will deal with after
the match, Neo refused and said he was leaving because he still could
not believe that Palesa had played him. After Neo had left I was left
with Palesa in the flat and she asked me why did I come with Neo to
the flat and that I could have asked her alone and not bring Neo to
the whole scene, I replied and said Palesa I asked you more than once
to stop whatever you are doing but you didn’t listen, you lied to me
every day saying you are going to watch a movie while you were with
Neo. Do you remember the time you said you were going to Mid-
rand? Yes I do, she answered. Where were you that night? I asked
her, Sbu I was in Midrand. I was starting to get angry because she was
lying to me and said Palesa please stop talking rubbish you were not
in Midrand but you were in Brakpan with Neo that night so just stop
talking rubbish. She looked at me shocked that I knew about her
whereabouts and she asked so Sbu what is going to happen between
us? Nothing go pack your things and leave I don’t want you in this flat
anymore I replied. What? No Sbu I am not going anywhere you also
cheated on me and I forgave you so why must I leave? You are not
fair she said. No Palesa it’s not the same you are pregnant with anoth-
er man’s child so please go and pack your things, No Sbu I am not go-
ing anywhere, don’t you think I don’t know that Refiloe has a baby
girl? When were you going to tell me because you told me that she
had aborted the baby? You must also forgive me. Palesa I don’t care
what you are going to say I don’t want you in this flat so please go
pack your things and leave, I replied. No Sbu I will leave month end
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She was determined to stay in the flat no matter what I said to her
but at least it was over between me and her and I can do whatever I
want while she is in the flat. She went to MY bedroom to sleep and
when the soccer match was finished i called Sipho to check where he
was going to spend his Saturday night and he told me that he will be
at Hatfield and I told him that I will call him later when I got to
Hatfield. I opened one beer before going next door to see Bongi, she
opened the door for me and as soon as she opened I kissed her and
she said WOW Sbu that is nice I won’t mind getting that every day
when you come here. I asked her if she wanted to come with me to
Hatfield later and she said she was not feeling well but I can come
and sleep at her place when I came back. I went back to my flat and
took a shower then went to the bedroom where I found Palesa sleep-
ing, I wanted to piss her off so I started to sing Vulindlela we
Mamgobhozi Vulindlela yeku mona and sure indeed she woke up and
gave me a look that can scare the devil himself. I kept quiet and
changed clothes before going back to the lounge to watch TV and I
thought about driving to Pretoria. Pretoria is far and even if I got a girl
that side I will not be able to come back with her but I decided to take
my chance and drove to Pretoria, when I arrived in Hatfield I called
Sipho and he told me that he was still on his way to Pretoria from So-
weto so I went to a club in Hatfield Square where I ordered a cold
beer and waited for him. The bastard finally arrived with his friend
and he told me that they wanted to party in Hatfield with some girls
and they didn’t have a specific place where they were going to go, we
then left the club in Hatfield and went to some complex where we
found two very beautiful girls waiting for Sipho and his friend. Since I
was the odd one I called Lebogang, Lebogang was the girl I met last
time when I was with Sipho at a house party in Hatfield. I told her that
I was around Hatfield and needed a someone to party with and she
said I can come and fetch her in 30 minutes; Sipho and the girls left
and went back to the club in Hatfield. I went to fetch Lebogang from
her flat and we went to the club, when we arrived in the club we
found Sipho and the girls dancing and we joined them. The girls were
drinking Vodka and asked Lebogang if she will be ok with drinking
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Vodka with the girls and she said it was ok, I got her a glass and
poured her a drink and we then sat down and got a chance to know
each other better. My plan was to take Lebogang back to the flat and
hopefully have sex with her on the couch so that Palesa can see that I
have moved on with my life but Lebogang refused to go with me back
to Kempton Park because she had things to do the next day so we
spent another hour talking before I decided to leave and go back to
Kempton park. I told Sipho that I was leaving and I dropped Lebogang
at her place before driving back to Kempton Park. I arrived back in
Kempton park and instead of going to my flat I knocked at Bongi’s
door and she opened for me. She told me that she was already in bed
and I told her that I was tired and needed to sleep so I followed her to
the bedroom, I took out a condom from my pants and placed it under
the pillow. I got in her warm bed and snuggled up next to her, a part
of my brain said Sbu sleep but the other part said I must touch Bongi.
She pretended to be sleeping when I said Bongi? Bongi? she didn’t
reply so I started to touch her waist and moved my hand down her
body until I got to her butt. I got closer to her body and kissed her
neck and back while trying to wake her up by saying Bongi Bongi but
she kept quiet pretending to be asleep, I slid my hand under her un-
derwear and as I tried to move the panty down she lifted her butt so
that I can take off the underwear, she turned around and we started
to kiss while I lay next to her. I moved my hand between her thighs
and then finally touched her vagina and that’s when she asked me if I
had a condom and I immediately took it out and slid it on. I got on top
of her and she opened her thighs for me, I grabbed my penis and
rubbed it against her vagina and slowly inserted it. She took a deep
breath as the penis went inside her and she grabbed me, it was slow
sex with deep penetrations and after some minutes thing were
getting hot under the blanket. We pushed the blanket away from the
bed and then Bongi said Sbu please give it to me in a doggy style. I got
off her and she turned around, I had my penis near her vagina and I
saw her hand grabbing my penis and guiding it inside her vagina. I
held onto her butt and gave it to her and would spank her butt while
going in fast as I heard Bongi say Sbuu Sbuuuuu paqa paqa paqa paqa
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we continued to have sex until we both came and I spent the night at
Bongi’s place. Bongi knew that it was just sex nothing more and in
the morning she made me breakfast and brought it to me while I was
still in bed, she was only wearing her underwear and I didn’t know if I
must eat the food or I must have her for breakfast. We sat in bed and
enjoyed the breakfast before I went to my flat to take a shower and
then decided to relax and watch movies. 30 minutes didn’t even pass
when I received a call from Nomfundo, she sounded frantic and I
could not hear what she was saying so I told her to calm down and
tell me what was wrong. and she told me that she needed me to
come and fetch her in Tembisa because the officer had called her and
said he was coming to ‘fix’ her, judging from the way she was talking I
knew that her life might be in danger so I immediately got into my car
and drove to Tembisa. I had my emergency lights on and kept flashing
my lights so that I can be given right of way but no one bothered to
move out of my way, I got stuck at the traffic lights near Festival Mall
and after the lights turned green some lady moved out of the way for
me and I pushed the car to 120km/h while flashing my lights. I got
stuck again at Sangweni when some taxi driver decided to stop and
pick up some passengers and I had drive on the wrong side of the
road just to pass the taxi, I didn’t stop at 2 traffic lights and after I
drove over the bridge I called her and she told me that she was on
the street with her kids. I saw her running on the road with her kids
and she was still wearing her nightdress, I stopped the car and as they
were getting inside my car I saw a car driving towards us at a high
speed and just knew that it was the officer. He parked his car in front
of mine and blocked my route and he got out of his car, he had some-
thing in his hand and in my mind I thought it was a gun but then i no-
ticed that it was only a beer bottle. Nomfundo closed the car door
and I reversed the car, he threw the beer bottle at my car. I turned
the car around and tried to drive to the Rabasotho police station but I
didn’t remember where it was and decided to drive back to Kempton
Park, we went to the Kempton Park police station so that Nomfundo
can tell the police what happened but she refused. We drove to my
flat and when we arrived there I finally got a chance to look at her
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kids, their faces were full of fear with one child crying and I didn’t
know what to do because I was scared for my life. The officer called
Nomfundo and when she answered they started to fight again so I got
up and went to the bedroom where I found Palesa and she asked me
about the noise in the lounge. I told her that I just fetched my col-
league from Tembisa after her boyfriend wanted to hit her and she
was in the lounge crying with her kids. Palesa got up and went to the
lounge to comfort Nomfundo; I left the flat and went to the super-
market downstairs to buy the kids some sweets and chips. When I got
back to the flat i gave the kids the sweets and then Nomfundo’s
phone rang again and it was her neighbour who was telling her that
the boyfriend was burning her clothes in the street and no one was
brave enough to stop him because they feared that they will be shot. I
felt that the guy needed to be taught a lesson and I called Sipho and
told him that i had a situation and needed him to come to Kempton
Park as soon as possible. I knew that I was about to start a fight that
had nothing to do with me but it had to be done, Sipho arrived with
his friend from last night and I immediately informed them about
what happened and they said ‘Baba lets go and get this bastard’.
Nomfundo called the neighbour to check if the officer was still at the
house and by luck he was still there, I told Nomfundo that she must
come with us so that when the guy tried to hit her again we can then
use that chance and beat him up. She agreed and we left the kids with
Palesa in the flat and drove to Tembisa in 2 cars and on the way my
mother called me and told me that she was worried about me be-
cause last night she dreamt about me and I was in hospital, after
hearing that I knew that I had to be extra careful when I confronted
the bastard. When we were approaching her place we saw that a car
was parked outside and there were clothes burning in the street. We
parked right next to his car and there were neighbours standing out-
side and they told us that he was sitting outside, Sipho walked in front
of Nomfundo and fair enough we saw him sitting outside with his
friend drinking. He stood up and said you bitch you came here with
your boyfriends? Do you think I am afraid of them? As he was walking
towards Nomfundo Sipho blocked him, me and Sipho’s friend took
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care of the friend that he was drinking with. The officer pointed his
finger at Sipho and asked him who he was to stand between him and
his wife and when the officer tried to grab Nomfundo Sipho pushed
him away and told him to stay away from Nomfundo, the officer
laughed and said he will teach us a lesson. He tried to go inside the
house and I knew that he will come back with a gun so I stopped him
by blocking the door and he turned around and tried to punch me
and that is when hell broke loose. I tried to punch him back but I
missed and Sipho managed to land one punch behind his head, his
drinking friend picked up a beer bottle and wanted to hit Sipho on the
head but our friend stopped him and took the bottle from his hand.
Sipho then punched the officer while he lay near the door; we then
dragged them inside the house. Nomfundo got inside and we told her
that she can do anything to him and we won’t stop her but she said
Sbu that will not help me in any way I just want him to leave me and
my kids alone. Sipho suggested that Nomfundo take all her belong-
ings that were left in the house so that she can move out, Nomfundo
went to the bedroom and took whatever was left that belonged to
her and the kids. She left the house and we remained behind with
them. Sipho told the officer that he must try and contact Nomfundo
again and we will come and deal with him again, why don’t you try
and fight a man like you? Come on stand up and let me beat you up
right now but like a wet chicken he didn’t move.

We left him and his friend in the house and took Nomfundo back to
Kempton Park, when we arrived at the flat Palesa offered Nomfundo
a towel so that she can take a bath and collect herself. Sipho and his
friend left and I was then stuck with two kids, a girl that cheated on
me and another one that I had sex with and needed help. I tried to
cheer up the kids by playing the cartoon channel so that they can get
some entertainment but I can still see that they were still traumatised
and needed help. Palesa cooked for us and after eating Nomfundo
said she was tired and needed to rest so we let her sleep in the bed-
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to me on the couch and asked me how do I know Nomfundo and I
told her that she was a colleague. I knew that she was trying to find a
reason to start a fight so I got up and told her that I will be back now
and after closing the door I went next door to Bongi but she was not
in her flat so I went back to the flat and joined the cheating one on
the couch. We sat there quietly until the cheating one started a con-
versation and asked me how was my daughter doing and I replied
why do you want to know about a baby that you wanted to be killed?
I don’t know call her mother and ask her and by the way who is the
father of your baby? Argg Sbu please let’s not talk about that please,
she replied. No we have to talk about it, are you sure Neo is the fa-
ther? I asked her. Sbu I think he is the father because after I had sex
with him then I didn’t go on my periods so I am sure that he is the fa-
ther, she replied. So what if he is not and I am the father then what? I
asked. Sbu I don’t think you can be the father because there were
times in the past where you came inside me and I never drank morn-
ing after pills but I never got pregnant so that is why I was shocked
when I got pregnant with this baby after I had sex with Neo, she said.
So are you trying to tell me that I am infertile? Now you are talking
rubbish its better you go and sleep because I do have a baby with Re-
filoe. We continued to sit there and didn’t talk to each other until she
got up and went to Bongi’s flat and asked Bongi if she can spend the
night at her flat because we had a visitor and Bongi agreed. The
cheating one came back and took her nightdress and went to spend
the night at Bongi’s flat and I was planning to spend the night with
Bongi but I was stuck on the couch, little did the cheating one know
that she was going to sleep on the couch or bed that I had sex on with
Bongi.

In the morning I woke up and took a shower and when I was done the
cheating one knocked on the door and I opened for her and she also
took a shower and got ready for work. We told Nomfundo that it will
be safe for her to stay in the flat with the kids because we didn’t
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cheating one asked me if I can drop her off at work and I replied Voet-
sek call Neo and I left her in the flat and drove to work. I arrived at
work and told my manager about Nomfundo’s situation and that she
might not report for work for a few days until she fully recovers, our
company had a facility where employees can call counsellors and
seek help. I called them and told them to contact Nomfundo and as-
sist her with what she was going through. Just before lunch my man-
ager again called me to his office and informed me that Gugu had
signed the contract and that was sweet music to my ears after the
weekend I had. I called Gugu and arranged that we will meet the fol-
lowing day and go over the contract and then commence with the
project, after work I drove back to the flat and found Nomfundo
sitting with her kids watching TV. She told me that someone had
called her and told her about the possible steps that she can take to
ensure that she is never abused again by the father of her kids and
that she was willing to do everything to stop him so that her kids can
never experience violence. She thanked me for helping her yesterday
when she needed help, out of curiosity I asked her when and how did
she meet the father of her kids and before she began to tell me she
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Love is blind…

What Nomfundo told me sent shivers down my spine and could not
believe what she told me. Nomfundo had gone through hell and back
but she managed to be strong and smile, she told me that she came
from a poor background where she stayed with her mother and her
elder sister and one day while she was going to school she was ap-
proached by the officer and he proposed to her but she rejected him
and then the officer started to visit her mother and was liked by her
mom since he would bring her some groceries on month ends. She
continued to say that one day the officer arrived where she stayed
and her mom was not around and the officer insisted that he will wait
for her mother; while she was busy cleaning the officer started to
touch her and when she tried to walk away the officer grabbed her
and pushed her to the floor. She was crying as she continued to tell
me what happened so I gave her a hug and then she said Sbu he
raped me. He closed my mouth and chocked me so that I don’t
scream and I felt something hard going inside me and it felt like some-
one was inserting a in a hot iron rod inside my vagina. Nomfundo con-
tinued to cry as she held me tighter and said Sbu I looked into his eyes
hoping that he will see that I was in pain but he didn’t stop and kept
asking me if it was nice. Sbu he didn’t stop and took my virginity,
when he was done he gave me R100 and said I must not tell anyone
about what happened. He dressed up and left me on the kitchen floor
with blood between my thighs. I could not take it anymore and I told
her to stop because I realised that behind Nomfundo’s smile there
were dark and hurtful secrets. I held onto her as she continued to cry
and one of her kids came to the lounge and saw Nomfundo crying and
the child came to Nomfundo and said ‘Mama is he hitting you like
daddy?’. The child then looked at me with eyes full of tears and said
Please don’t hurt my mother please! I looked at the child and said ba-
by I won’t hurt your mom and the door opened. The cheating one en-
tered and saw me hugging Nomfundo while she was crying and she
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here? The child shouted the uncle is hitting my mom!!!. The cheating
one with her eyes wide opened walked slowly towards us and I could
see that she also thought that I had just abused Nomfundo so I imme-
diately stood up and raised my hands, i told her that things were ok
Nomfundo was sharing her story with me about what she was going
through with the officer, she calmed down and sat with Nomfundo on
the couch comforting her. It was interesting to see 2 girls that I’ve
slept with hugging and crying together in my flat.

I left the flat and took a walk so that I can find a way to deal with the
drama I had in the flat because in a few days the cheating one was
going to move out and Nomfundo was also going to leave and stay
with her cousin so I will be left alone in the flat. I thought I was the
world’s worse dad because I haven’t seen or held my daughter since
she was born and I then decided to call Refiloe. I asked her if we can
meet the following day so that we can talk about the baby and see
what plans we put into place for the child and she agreed that we can
meet the following day after work. I went back to the flat and found
the cheating one and Nomfundo sitting on the couch talking and
laughing and they seemed to be having a good time and I joined
them, the cheating one got up and dished for me, after eating they
went to the bedroom to sleep and i ended up on the couch where I
watched a movie until i slept. In the morning we left Nomfundo in the
flat and I dropped the cheating one at work and then I went to work
where I had a meeting with Gugu to go over the contract. Gugu was
supposed to come to our office at 3 but she called and said we need-
ed to reschedule the meeting because she won’t be able to come to
our offices and I was glad because I wanted to see Refiloe after work,
I called Refiloe and asked her if I can fetch her from work and she said
it was ok. After work I went to fetch Refiloe and we went to a mall in
Randburg where we sat and ordered some orange juice, even though
we had a child together it felt like we were strangers. She took out
her phone and showed me the pictures of Thandolwethu, my bundle
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I thanked Refiloe for making me a father, who would have thought
that me Sibusiso will one day be a father. We arranged that she will
go and fetch the baby over the weekend so that I can also spend
some time with the baby and we then spoke about how much I had to
contribute towards maintenance of the child and that we had to open
a savings plan for Thandolwethu. After we had agreed on everything I
then took her to her place and then while driving back to my flat
Nomfundo called me and asked me what time will I arrive back in the
flat because her cousin was there to pick her up and wanted to thank
me personally before she left, I told her that I just left Randburg and it
was ok that she can leave and we will meet at work. When I ap-
proached the flat I saw Neo’s car parked outside and figured that the
cheating one was with him in the car so I got inside the flat and had a
quick snack before going to sleep and the cheating one didn’t come
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Refiloe and the baby…

After a week of staying with the cheating one she finally moved out
of the flat and I was left alone to do whatever I wanted and sadly
Bongi had found herself another boyfriend and that meant I was no
longer getting free sex from her. I didn’t have time for a relationship
because the project with Gugu kept me busy and I would go to work
early and come back late so I only needed someone to have sex with
and with no strings attached. While working with Gugu on the project
we spent more time together and there were times where we worked
late and one day she suggested that we went to her place to finish
the work there, sadly we didn’t do much because after an hour we
stopped working and ordered pizza. After eating we didn’t work and
just enjoyed some wine before I drove back to Kempton Park to my
cold flat. On Friday Refiloe called me and told me that she was going
home to fetch the baby and wanted me to fetch her from the Wan-
deres taxi rank when she came back from home, at about past 4 she
called me and told me that the taxi had passed Vosloorus so I asked
my manager to leave early so that I can fetch Refiloe and the baby at
the taxi rank. When I arrived at Wanderes Taxi rank I called her to
find out where she was and she told me that she was standing out-
side The Bridge. While driving back to Kempton Park I could not wait
to hold the baby for the first time, Refiloe didn’t know that I had
moved to Kempton park and was shocked when we passed Eastgate
mall and continued to drive towards Kempton park. When we arrived
at the flat I finally got a chance to hold Thandolwethu. Those beauti-
ful eyes and yellow cheeks like her mother, those cute little hands
that were trying to hold my fingers as I played with her made me the
happiest man on earth. I have never been so happy in my life howev-
er the happiness was cut short when Thandolwethu’s diaper needed
to be changed. Refiloe took the baby and went to the bedroom
where she changed the baby’s diaper and while they were busy in the
bedroom I checked in the fridge what we can have for supper and
since I had not bought grocery I went to buy some take away so that
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we can have supper. I could not stop playing with Thandolwethu and I
had even turned my phone off so that no one can disturb me while I
spent time with my daughter. We shared the bed together and placed
the baby in the middle so that we won’t be tempted to do anything
stupid, Thandolwethu woke up in the middle of the night started cry-
ing and Refiloe was quick to poke me so that I can go to the kitchen
and fetch a bottle for Thando so that she can feed her.

When I woke up in the morning I turned my phone on and I got a

voicemail from Gugu and she wanted to come to Kempton park and
party with me. I returned her call and apologised that she could not
get hold of me and promised that I will make it up to her. Refiloe
came to the lounge with the baby and as she was holding her I stood
behind her and held her waist while playing with Thando, we were
the perfect family. I then told Refiloe that I needed to go to the mall
to buy some groceries and she said she also needed to buy some-
thing’s at the mall so we all went to the mall. When we got to the
mall we started at the supermarket were she bought baby food and
diapers before I could even add my stuff in the trolley, when we were
done we went to pay and I almost fainted when I saw that the diapers
were more expensive than a bottle of single malt whiskey. When I
saw the total I knew that all my money was gone, after paying Refiloe
said needed to buy other things in the mall but since I had just lost all
my money I didn’t want to be in the mall anymore and I went to the
car with Thando to wait for her there. After 30 minutes she finally
came to the car and we went to the flat, I didn’t realise that babies
were so easy to make yet so expensive to maintain. When we got to
the flat Refiloe took the baby and they went inside the unit and left
me in the car so that I can carry the groceries inside the unit, my
mood changed when I saw a bottle of whiskey inside one of the plas-
tic bags. When I got inside the unit I pretended to be grumpy that I
just spent about R1200 on groceries and she took out the bottle of
whiskey and said ‘Sbu I bought you this so that you can stay in the flat
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glass with ice from the kitchen and I enjoyed a glass of whiskey on the
rocks. With the baby sleeping we got a chance to chill in the lounge
and watch TV, with each sip of the whiskey Refiloe started to look
sexy and more beautiful. I knew that if I kissed her or even had sex
with her then that will complicate things between us and she will
think that we are dating again but I could not resist her, I asked her to
come and sit with me on the couch and as she came closer I placed
my feet between her legs and she looked at me and said ‘what do you
want Sbu? No nothing I just want you to sit on top of me, I replied?
But why do you want me to sit on top of you Sbu? She asked. Aw Re-
filoe nothing just come here as I pulled her and she lifted up her dress
so that she can sit on top of me with her legs open. I grabbed her butt
and pulled it closer to my penis and as I looked at her she began to
kiss me and I kissed her back. She held onto my face as I moved my
hands on her back and then I touched her breasts, she began to move
her waist up and down on my penis. She stopped kissing me and
asked me if I had condoms and I said yes, she got off me and told me
to go and get them. I jumped off the couch and went to the bedroom
to fetch them and when I came back I found her removing her panty
and she then lifted her dress and lay on the couch. I took off my pants
and rolled the condom on my penis and I got on top of her open
thighs, I could tell that she hadn’t shaved in weeks because she had a
forest down there. I moved my hand along her vagina and felt her
vagina juice covering my finger and inserted the finger inside her
vagina, she grabbed my hand and pushed it deeper inside her vagina.
I pushed my finger inside her vagina about 5 times before I grabbed
my penis and rubbed it against her vagina and slid it inside her vagina.
For someone who just had a baby her vagina was tight and I enjoyed
that as I lifted one of her legs to go in deeper, i continued to kiss her
as she sucked me deeper and deeper into her vagina. We then
changed positions and she came on top and grabbed my penis and
pushed it inside her vagina and she began to ride me, I grabbed her
yellow butt and moved it up and down my penis and I would spank
her butt as she rode my penis. The way Refiloe used to ride my penis
made me think that she attended a class on how to ride a penis, when
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she was on top she had the freedom to control how deep or how fast
she wanted the penis inside her vagina. She would start slow and
then fast and faster until she came. After she had reached orgasm we
walked to the kitchen and I made her to hold the kitchen table, she
bent over for me so that her yellow butt can come closer to me. I held
onto that yellow butt as I looked at my penis disappear inside her
vagina and I continued to do her from behind until I came. She went
to the bathroom to fetch a tissue so that I can remove the condom
from my penis and just after removing the condom the baby woke up.
She took the baby’s bottle and went to feed her in the bedroom while
I sat on the couch and watched TV, when I checked my phone I saw
that I had received an sms from Gugu asking if I can come to Pretoria
and since Refiloe had bribed me with a bottle of whiskey to stay in the
flat I turned my phone off so that even if she tried to call me she
won’t be able to get hold of me because I was spending time with my
family.

For once in years I felt complete because I had a family and didn’t feel
the need to go out and party, we had a deal that she will change
Thando’s diaper and I will be responsible for feeding her even at night
when she woke up. It was a perfect weekend with Refiloe cleaning
the flat, cooking while I played with the baby and we would have sex
whenever the baby fell asleep. On Sunday she was supposed to take
the child back home and I suggested that it’s better if we drove than
her taking a taxi back home. When we arrived at Refiloe’s house she
took Thando inside the house and then she came to the car and told
me that her mother said I must come inside the house and not sit in
the car, I didn’t want to go inside the house because I felt that I was
going to give Refiloe’s family the idea that we are still dating. I en-
tered the house and greeted everyone and her mother kept calling
me the son-in-law, while we were busy talking Refiloe’s young broth-
er came into the house and offered to wash my car while I was sitting
in the house. I told him that the car was not dirty but he insisted that
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wash the car, while I was waiting for the car to be finished some of
Refiloe’s neighbours came into the house to see the son-in-law. They
offered me a full course meal that was delicious but I still could not
get over the idea that they were calling me ‘son-in-law’ like I was en-
gaged to Refiloe. Once the car was done I told Refiloe that we needed
to leave because we had a long road waiting for us, we left and drove
back to Kempton park and i wanted to tell her that I was not happy
about the way I was treated at her place because her family kept call-
ing me as the son-in-law but I decided to keep quiet for peace’s sake.
When we arrived in Gauteng I immediately took her to her place so
that I can go to my flat and rest, when I arrived in my flat I noticed
that I still had some whiskey and I had a glass before sleeping.

I woke up the following day and went to work and was happy to see
that Nomfundo was back at work, while I was making coffee she
joined me in the kitchen and she told me that she had moved to stay
with her cousin Woodmead I was happy for her because I knew that
she was going to have a peaceful place to raise her children. After the
coffee my manager called me into his office and told me that he had
received a complaint from Gugu, Gugu complained that when she
tried to contact me she could not reach me and she wondered if she
can rely on me when she needed me to discuss business after hours. I
apologised to my manager and explained that my daughter came to
visit me and therefore i didn’t want any disturbance. After leaving his
office I could not believe that Gugu had the balls to complain about
not reaching me even though I knew that it was not about business.
When I got to my office I called her and also apologised to her that
she could not reach me over the weekend and she then told me that
she was coming to Midrand and we will talk when she arrived. Before
lunch time she arrived and first spoke to my manager before coming
to my office, I apologised for what happened over the weekend and
she said I had to do more than telling her that I was sorry so I offered
to take her out for lunch. We went to Carlswald to have lunch and
then went back to the office were we continued to work until 5pm, I

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suggested that we go to my place and finish the project there. We
went to my place and once we were done with the project she imme-
diately left and drove back to Pretoria, I was confused because she
wanted to spend time with me over the weekend and even com-
plained to my manager but when I just gave her a chance to spend
time with me she just left. The following day at work I called her and
invited her to come to Kempton Park on Friday for a movie and she
agreed, I was still trying to understand if Gugu wanted me or it was
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Mixing business and pleasure…

On Friday after work I went to my place to take a shower and just as I

stepped out of the shower my phone rang and it was Gugu telling me
that she was downstairs waiting for me so I quickly changed and went
downstairs, we could not decide which car we were going to use to
go to the mall, Gugu suggested that we rent a movie and watch it at
my flat because in the flat we will have the freedom to drink beer,
pause and rewind the movie while we were watching it. So I got in-
side her car and we went to rent some movies and again we could
not agree on which movie to watch because I wanted to watch a ro-
mantic comedy and she wanted action, we rented them both and
then passed at a bottle store and bought some beer before going
back to my flat. We got inside the flat and Gugu sat on the couch
while I opened a beer for her and we got ready to watch the movie.
We started with her action movie and halfway through the movie she
told me that her new jeans were too tight for her and asked me to
borrow her a towel that she can use to cover herself.

I got up and fetched a clean towel from my bedroom and gave it to

her, she went to the bathroom to take off her jeans and as she was
coming back I tried my best not to look at her until she sat down.
When she was sitting down the towel opened up a little bit and I saw
her left thigh, a nice thick thigh. When the movie was finished she
looked at the time and said it was late to drive back to Pretoria and
that was sweet music to my ears because I wanted to be between her
thick thighs. I was in no mood to cook so I ordered Pizza for us to eat,
when the pizza arrived I went downstairs to fetch it. We ate the pizza
and then started to watch the second movie and she asked if she can
rest her head on my lap because she wanted to lie on her side while
watching the movie, I agreed and she lay on my lap. Whenever she
spoke she would turn around and look at me, I would be tempted to
kiss her but I still didn’t know what is that she wanted from me. After
a while she looked at me again and I took my chance and held her
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face and kissed her before turning my attention back to the movie, I
could feel that she was still looking at me and she said ‘Sbu if you are
going to kiss me then you must kiss me in a proper way and don’t kiss
me like someone will hit you’. I took that as an invitation to kiss her
again, I held her face and turned it around and I kissed her. I kissed
her juicy lips and felt her tongue all over my lips as she turned her
body around and looked up. I’ve always wanted to touch her breasts
and thighs and this was a good chance for me to do that, I touched
her breasts and gave them a firm squeeze but since she was wearing
a bra I could not feel them properly. I pulled up her t-shirt so that I
can touch her stomach, then I opened the towel that was hiding her
thick thighs. I wanted to look at her thighs but she quickly placed her
hand near my eyes so that I can’t see anything, I pushed my hand in
between her thighs until she opened them. I moved my hand over her
panty and she opened her thick thighs wider and I tried to insert my
hand under her panty slowly until I felt her bush, using my middle fin-
ger I pushed through her vagina lips until my finger got inside her
warm vagina and she stopped kissing me and said Sbu lets go to your
bedroom. I removed my hand from her vagina and she got up and left
the towel on the couch and we walked to the bedroom, I was walking
behind her and looked at her curves and big butt. When we got to the
bedroom she asked me to take off her bra and I started by removing
her t-shirt and then took off her bra, while standing behind her I held
her breasts. Judging by their size I guess they were a C-CUP, I
squeezed them as I kissed her neck and back and she then got on top
of the bed. I took off my t-shirt and pants and then got on top of her
and she opened her thick and warm thighs for me, I got on my knees
and removed her underwear. I grabbed her underwear on both sides
and as I was pulling if down she lifted her butt so that it can slid off
easy and I placed it on the bed, I got a condom from a drawer and
rolled it on my penis and then got on top of her. I inserted my penis
inside her vagina and she said Sbuuu as she tried to close her thighs, I
then stopped and did her slowly trying not to insert my whole penis.
She kept kissing me as we continued to have sex and I finally inserted
my whole penis inside her and that made her to stop kissing me, she
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just looked deep in my eyes and she began to moan. Ahhhhh ahhhhh
sbuuuuuu ahhhhhhh give it to me Sbu ahhhh sbuuu, I was between
those thick thighs giving it to her. She could no longer talk as she
started to close her thighs again as she reached orgasm and held me
tight so that I cant even move. I felt her vagina grab my penis as she
held me tight and after about 30 seconds she released me and said
wow sbu that was nice and since I hadn’t ejaculated I began to do her
again and in the mist of the kissing and sweat I finally came.

We lay on the bed and continued to have more sex throughout the
night until we finally slept, she slept on my chest and I just knew that
was a sign of trouble. In the morning I was hoping that she will get up
and regret what happened and leave early but no when she came
back from the bathroom we had sex again and then planned our day
before I went to the kitchen to make her some breakfast. While I was
busy making her breakfast she cleaned the bedroom and then came
to the kitchen where she enjoyed bread with eggs, beans and sliced
tomato that I had prepared for her. After eating she told that she
wanted to go to her place and I was happy thinking that she was leav-
ing. She told me that I must get ready because she wanted to go with
me to her place, we left my car in Kempton Park and she made me
drive her car while she sat on the passenger seat with her feet on the
dashboard. When we arrived at her flat she got a small bag where she
packed some of her clothes, I just knew that she was going to spend
the weekend at my flat. I pretended to be happy that she was going
to spend the weekend with me but I could feel that I was digging my-
self a grave by continuing to spend time with her; we left Centurion
and drove back to Kempton Park. When we got back to Kempton park
we took a shower and then went to the bedroom where we had sex
and then lay on the bed naked, she then took her laptop and replied
to her emails.

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joyed having sex with her I didn’t want her in my flat because I knew
with all the sex we were having feelings were soon going to develop
and that was going to complicate our work relationship, she cameto
the lounge and told me that she craved some ribs. We then went to
the mall where we ordered some ribs and while they were preparing
them we went to the bottle store where we bought some whiskey
and beers, I wanted to pay for the alcohol so that she can pay for the
ribs but she insisted on paying for everything because it was her idea
to get the ribs and alcohol. We got back to the flat and ate the ribs
then enjoyed some music while drinking the alcohol, I asked her if it
was ok for us to sit in the flat or if she wanted to go out in the evening
and she said she didn’t have a problem with going out but wanted to
come back early so that we can go to church. We decided to chill in
the flat and enjoy the cold beer while watching TV and Gugu was busy
on her laptop sending and replying to emails, the following day she
woke me up and told me that we had to go to church. I told her that I
have never been to a church in Kempton Park and didn’t know where
we can go; I pretended that I had a massive hangover and could not
go with her to church but she insisted that we go. We took a shower
and left the flat and she directed me to a church in Tembisa, we ar-
rived at the church and we were ushered to sit in the front.

Gugu knew all the songs that they sang in the church and I didn’t even
know a single song so I mumbled the songs until the pastor started to
preach, the pastor mentioned that it was very important to include
God in everything you do. He said all the couples in the church must
stand up and hold hands so that he can pray for them. Gugu made us
to stand up and hold hands like we were a couple and the pastor
prayed, when the church was done we passed at the mall where we
had lunch before going to my flat. When we got to the flat we sat for
a little bit before she left and drove to her place so that she can do
her laundry, at last she was gone and I can enjoy my space. Days
passed without us seeing each other but she called me every day
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phone was off she called the office number and Nomfundo would al-
ways direct her call to my office. Refiloe also called and wanted us to
meet and talk about the baby because she wanted to fetch Thando
from home so that she can stay with her in Randburg, I thought it was
a good idea because that meant I can see Thando on weekends. We
then agreed that month end we will fetch the baby and she had to
find a nursery for Thando that was close to her flat. On Thursday
Gugu called me and told me that she misses me and asked me if I can
come to her place after work and not wanting to make her angry I
agreed, after work I started at my flat where i took a shower before
going to Centurion. When I arrived at her place she opened the gate
for me and I found her sitting on her balcony with a glass of whiskey,
she told me that she had a hectic day and needed a strong drink and
someone to talk too. I poured a glass of whiskey and then led her to
her bedroom where I took off her clothes and left her only wearing
her underwear. I made her lie on her stomach and fetched her baby
oil in the bathroom and when I returned I poured some of the oil on
my hands and then rubbed my hands together until they were warm
before touching her back, I began from her waist and worked my way
up to her shoulders and when I got to her shoulders i squeezed her
muscles and she said Sbuuu that’s nice. I used my thumbs on her neck
and then moved them down her back along her spinal cord not apply-
ing to much pressure her but just enough to release the stress that
she had, I continued to massage her back and then I removed her un-
derwear. I poured some oil on her big butt and began to massage her
right butt and when I asked if she enjoyed what I was doing she simp-
ly replied ‘continue Sbu’ after doing her right butt I then moved to her
left butt and I must say I enjoyed massaging her big butt.

I moved to her thick thighs and I applied more oil onto my hands and
when I was done massaging here thighs I took one of her big towels
that she had in her bedroom and spread it over the bed before turn-
ing her over. She asked for a sip of her whiskey before lying on her
back, I also had a sip before I applied more oil on my hands and then

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rubbed them before touching her breasts. While touching her breasts
I also kissed her and she kept looking at me with her eyes half closed,
I moved my hands over her stomach and then touched her pubic hair.
I moved my hand in-between her thighs and she slowly opened her
thick thighs and I was then able to touch her vagina, I moved my hand
up and down her vagina a couple of times and she kissed me. As I
continued to touch her vagina she opened her thighs wider and that
allowed me to move my finger along her vagina lips until I got to her
clitoris and that made her to vibrate, I began to rub her clitoris and
she held my hand so that I can rub her clitoris slowly. With each rub
of her vagina my finger got wet and wet, when my finger passed over
her clitoris I would apply more pressure and then insert my finger in-
side her vagina and then move my finger as if I was stirring my cup of
coffee. I did this until she came and that was when I realised that I
had left my condoms in my flat and when I asked her if she had con-
doms she said no, I was tempted to just dive inside her vagina but I
didn’t want to risk my life even though Gugu looked so thick and sexy
I could not look at her and tell her if she had HIV or not and she can
be pregnant if we had sex without a condom. I was so horny but I pre-
tended to be ok and then I told her that I needed to go back to Kemp-
ton park, she got up and said Sbu am going with you and I will use the
Gautrain in the morning to come back to Centurion.

We got in the car and drove back to Kempton park and we passed at a
petrol station where we bought condoms and then went to my flat,
as soon as she undressed I was all over her and after 2 rounds we
slept holding each other. In the morning she got up early and took a
shower before I dropped her off at Rhodesfield train station, when I
got back to the flat I also prepared ready for work and before I left the
flat I got a Whatsapp text from her and she had sent me a picture of
her thick thighs and a text that said ‘how I wish you were here’. Gugu
was now starting to play with my mind, how was i going to concen-
trate at work because I looked at the photo with every chance I got.
After work she called me and asked me to fetch her from the Gautrain

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station at 7. Sure enough she arrived and we went to my flat where I
cooked pap and served it with milk, I thought she will not eat my pap
and milk but I was surprised when she enjoyed the food and said it
reminded her of her mother in Heidelberg. We spent more and more
time together and during the week it was my job to fetch and drop
her off from the train station and on Fridays I would leave my car and
take the train to Centurion where she would fetch me and spend the
weekend at her place and on Sundays it was church. Gugu was doing
everything in her power to make me happy or even to love her but I
didn’t, I only enjoyed having sex with her and the good thing was that
we have never spoken about how we felt about each other even
though we behaved like a couple.

In July we went to fetch Thando from home and Refiloe had found a
safe nursery for Thando near her flat, I now had to juggle between
Gugu and Thando. I finally told Gugu that I had a child and will need
to spend time with her over weekends because I could not drive from
Kempton Park to Randburg every day, she seemed to understand
and asked me if the baby mama would also come and spend the
weekend with me and I told her that No it will only be me and the
baby. I didn’t have a chance to rest because during the week Gugu
needed my attention and then on weekends it was Thando, Refiloe
started to insist that she wanted to also come with Thando to Kemp-
ton Park so she can help me with Thando when she was crying. I had
a feeling that hell was going to break loose if Gugu wanted to come to
Kempton Park and Refiloe was there. One Friday Gugu called me and
told me that she had knocked off early and that I will find her at the
mall waiting for me, I could not understand why she came to Kemp-
ton park on a Friday when she knew that I had to fetch Thando after
work. I had to call Refiloe and tell her that I was going to knock off
late from work and could not fetch Thando. I went to see Gugu at the
mall where I found her eating and having drinks, what I thought was
going to be a few drink turned into a bottle of wine, 5 draughts of
beer and a few shoots tequila. Gugu offered to pay the bill and we

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slowly walked to the car hoping that no one can notice that we were
drunk, we got to the car and slowly left the mall and as I was driving
Gugu kept touching my penis saying that she wanted me to have sex
with her when we arrived in the flat. When we got to the flat we
started kissing in the lift and after struggling to open the door we fi-
nally got in and we kissed again in the lounge as we were walking to
the bedroom. I started to undress her and took off her jacket and
threw it on the floor and then I took off her shirt, she started to un-
button my shirt and unzipped my pants. When we got to the bed-
room we were both naked and I got a condom from the drawer, since
I have never seen Gugu’s butt in a doggy position I made her to hold
the bed and did her from behind. That bubbling butt was talking to
me saying paqa paqa paqa paqa and she could no longer stand still on
her feet because I was doing her fast and rough, she got on the bed
and opened her thick thighs and I gave it to her. That must have been
one of the longest round of sex that I have ever had and suddenly her
vagina became wet and warm. When I stopped to take my breath she
told me that she had reached orgasm twice while I haven’t ejaculat-
ed, I didn’t get off her and I continued to enjoy her vagina until I final-
ly came. I rolled to the side and took off the condom and threw it on
the floor and then i slept.

I woke up early to go to the toilet and saw the condom on the floor, I
picked it up so that I can throw it in the bin and that’s when I saw that
the condom had a big hole. I didn’t know if I had to tell her that the
condom broke or keep quiet and she will notice that she had sperms
in her vagina, I went back to the bedroom and we slept. I was woken
up by my ringing phone and it was Refiloe asking me if I was still com-
ing to fetch the baby because her friend was going to Boksburg and
could drop her off at Kempton Park, I told her that I will come and
fetch the baby at 11 because I was not in Kempton Park. She told me
that its ok her friend will drop her off at the mall and I will find her
there, I had a feeling that she was not planning to go back to Rand-
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phone’s alarm to ring after 5 minutes so that I can answer the phone
and pretend as if someone was calling me, after 5 minutes the phone
rang and I pretended that a friend had just asked me if I can come
and pay his bail after he was arrested for speeding just before South
gate. I washed my face and left Gugu in the flat and went to the mall
where I found Refiloe sitting on the bench with Thando sleeping, we
left the mall and went to my flat and when we got closer to the en-
trance I pretended that I could not to find my keys. I told Refiloe that I
might have left my keys in Soweto and asked her if we can go to
Randburg and spend the day there, I could see that she wanted to
enter the flat. We drove to Randburg and I told her that I will fetch
the key in the evening, when we arrived in Randburg I took out my
phones battery and hid it under the driver’s seat before we got inside
her flat at Windsor west. I was worried about Gugu that I had left in
the flat, while Refiloe was busy changing the baby’s diaper I passed
out on her bed and woke up just after 3pm and I spent another hour
with Thando and then I told Refiloe that I had to go to Soweto and
fetch my flat keys.

I left Randburg and drove back to Kempton park and when I arrived in
my flat I found that Gugu had cleaned the flat and was lying on my
bed. She asked me why it took me the whole day to go to Kensington
to bail my friend and I told her that when I arrived at the police sta-
tion the officer that was assisting me told me that I had a strong smell
of alcohol and wanted to test me for drinking and driving, they de-
tained me for 4 hours then release without being charged. She be-
lieved my story and we cuddled on the bed. She told me that she
wanted to fetch her clothes from her flat and to also buy something
because she had only eaten breakfast in the morning, I told her that I
didn’t have enough petrol in the car and she said its fine she will pour
petrol for me. We left the flat and drove to Centurion and I was tired
from driving the whole day and so I stopped after Midrand and asked
her drive until we got to her place. She suggested that we spent the
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can go to church. In the morning we went to my place and then went
to church and for a change I sang along in church and even enjoyed
the sermon, I prayed that God gave me strength to be the best father
I can be to my daughter and to also to be able to find joy and happi-
ness with whoever I had.

After church we went to her flat where I helped her to cook lunch and
after eating we sat on the couch and she asked me about last night,
she looked at me like she wanted me to tell her that the condom
broke. I didn’t know how she was going react so I didn’t tell her and
hoped that she didn’t notice that I came inside her, after the chat I
told her that I needed to g o to my flat to do my laundry. We contin-
ued to work together on the project and she spent less time at my
place and I thought she knew that I came inside her because we did-
n’t have sex for 2 weeks. One weekend Refiloe told me that she was
coming to spend the weekend at my place with Thando and I told
Gugu that I was going home for the weekend and will be back on Sun-
day, after work while I was driving to Randburg I called Gugu and told
her that I was on the N3 driving to Vrede. I picked up Refiloe and
Thando in Randburg and we went back to my flat, when we got to the
flat Refiloe cooked supper and we spent the Friday night in the flat.
The weekend was just perfect because I spent most of my time in the
flat bonding with Thando and she had started to be naughty because
she cried when Refiloe held her, I could not even leave the room be-
cause she would start crying and that meant that I could sit on the
couch and play with Thando while Refiloe cleaned and cooked. Than-
do finally slept and I took that chance to go and buy some beers be-
cause I wanted to sit in the flat and not go anywhere, I walked to the
bottle store and on the way I called Gugu to tell her that I arrived
safely and will be back in Gauteng the following day. I bought the
beers and went back to the flat where I just enjoyed the company of
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On Sunday we went to the mall where we had breakfast and then
went back to the flat, before I took them back to Randburg I called
Gugu and told her that I had just passed Villiers and will be in Kemp-
ton park around 4. I took the family back to Randburg and on the way
Refiloe asked me if it will be a problem if she can get a key to my flat
so that she can come and do my laundry and also bring the baby if
her friend was going to Boksburg, I had a strong feeling that Refiloe
was planning something but if I said no she would then limit my ac-
cess to see Thando so I agreed that I will get her a key to my flat. I
wanted us to stay together for the sake of Thando because we looked
happy together as a family. When we got to Randburg Thando started
to cry again and I had to go inside the flat and hold her until she slept,
before I left Refiloe came to the bedroom and said Sbu can we please
have sex before you leave. She lay on the bed and lifted her dress, I
saw her shaved vagina between her yellow thighs. She gave me a
condom and we had sex while Thando was sleeping on the bed, with
all the bouncing on the bed we thought that Thando will wake up and
start crying so we got off the bed and she stood near the bed and
bend over for me and we continued to have sex until I came. Refiloe
had taken me by surprise by asking me for sex and I got the idea that
she was not having sex with anyone and that is why she asked me, I
kissed Thando goodbye and then after leaving I called Gugu and told
her that I had just arrived back in my flat and that I will see her the
following day at work.

The following day Gugu didn’t come to Midrand but told me that she
will come to my place in the evening, after work while I was leaving
work I was gravely shocked when I saw the officer arrive to pick up
Nomfundo. I fetched from Rhodesfield train station and we went to
my flat, it seemed like the honeymoon phase of our relationship was
over because we ran out of things to do or talk about but I still enter-
tained Gugu for the sake of my job. The sex was getting boring every
day and even her thick thighs were no longer enticing but we were
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Gugu vs Refiloe…

One satanic weekend Gugu wanted us to attend a stand-up comedy in

Brakpan and since Kempton park was closer to Brakpan than Centuri-
on we decided that we will sleep at my flat, i had to tell Refiloe that I
will be flying to Bloemfontein for training so that she didn’t come to
my flat on Friday. After work I went to the airport where I took 2 pic-
tures and sent them to Refiloe so that she can believe that I was flying
to Bloemfontein. I then waited for Gugu to arrive with the train be-
fore we went to my place to change and we then drove to Brakpan
for the comedy show. We had a good time and after the show we
went back to the flat to sleep, before we slept Gugu told me that she
has been busy and stressed by the project that we were busy with
and that had affected her periods, I advised her that she must visit a
doctor for a check-up. In the morning I turned my phone on and saw
missed calls from Refiloe and I was sure that she won’t come to the
flat because I told her that I will not be around Kempton park, we had
sex in the morning and while we were chilling in bed I heard some
noise coming from the door. I got up to check who it was and I saw
Refiloe walking into the flat with Thando, she was shocked why I was
in the flat because I had told her that I was in Bloemfontein for train-
ing. She walked towards me with a smile and gave me a kiss, I tried to
block her from going to the bedroom because Gugu was naked in the
bedroom. I asked Refiloe to sit on the couch and as she was about to
sit Gugu shouted ‘Baby who is it’? I looked at Refiloe as her face
changed, she placed Thando on the couch then walked towards the
bedroom and as she passed me she said Sbu who the fuck is in your
bedroom? I stepped away because I knew that she could slap me. She
went to the bedroom and found Gugu in bed, she turned around and
came to me and then started to slap me. I managed to grab both her
hands so that she can stop slapping me and she then kicked my balls
and I dropped to the floor growling in pain. She continued to kick me
while I was on the floor and in the mist of her shouting I heard that
Thando crying on the couch. It felt like she had smashed my balls be-

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cause the pain was getting worse, Gugu came out of the room and
saw that I was on the floor holding my balls. She walked towards Re-
filoe and pushed her away from me, Refiloe fell on the couch and
Gugu grabbed her hair and pulled her to the floor. Refiloe had met
her match as Gugu punched and kicked her until she fell to the
ground and she then sat on top of her. About 80 kilograms of pure
African meat were sitting on top of Refiloe.

Thando was crying hysterical on the couch and I tried to get up so

that I can comfort her, I picked her up and took her to the bedroom.
With all the noise in the flat someone started to bang on my door and
when I opened it was the security guard who wanted to check what
was happening in the flat. As soon as the guard entered Gugu got off
Refiloe and then Refiloe slapped Gugu and then the fight started
again but the guard stopped them, I told the guard to take Refiloe out
of my flat but she refused to get out and demanded that I give her
the baby, I went to the bedroom and fetched Thando who was still
crying. I offered to take her back to Randburg but she refused and left
the flat crying with the baby, I could not look at Gugu because I saw
what she did to Refiloe and I feared that I was next. I left Gugu in the
flat and ran after Refiloe because Thando was still crying when they
left the flat and right outside the flat I saw Refiloe sitting on the stairs
still crying. I walked towards her and asked her if I can take her back
to Randburg but she refused and told me that her friend from Boks-
burg was coming to fetch her, I apologised to her for what happened
in the flat but she kept crying and didn’t answer me. I sat next to her
with Thando crying and she told me that she had tried everything she
can to ensure that we can be a family by ensuring that she had sex
with me, cleaned my flat and that I got everything that I needed and
in returned she only wanted me to love her.

I could never love Refiloe the way she wanted me to, I was in no
stage to settle down and commit to her. I loved my daughter and did

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everything possible to ensure that she was happy but I could never
love her Mother, we sat on the stairs until her friend arrived and they
left. I went back inside the flat and found Gugu waiting for me with
her bag ready to leave, she asked me to take her back to her flat and
not wanting to argue with her I took the car keys and we left. On the
way to Centurion there was complete silence in the car until we ar-
rived at her place, she thanked me and got off the car then I drove
back to Kempton Park. I had just fucked up and I knew that Refiloe
was going to use the baby against me but I just needed to take a nap
so that I can wake up with a plan on how I will deal with Gugu.

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Boys night out …

I woke up in the evening and the flat was so quiet and cold, IF YOU
KEEP PLAYING WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE IN THE END THEY WILL
LEAVE YOU. I could not stay in that flat alone so I took a shower and
then called Sipho who said he was indoors with his new girlfriend, I
then went to knock next door to see if Bongi was available to go out
with me but she was not in her flat. If only I had not fucked up earlier
I could be sitting with Gugu or even with my family having a good
time but for now I am alone but since I have a car and money I will
not be alone. I drove to a pub and when I arrived there I saw Neo’s
car, I got inside and saw Neo sitting at the bar alone and wondered
why he wasn’t at home with Palesa. I bought 4 dumpies and sat at
the bar and took out my phone to check on my Facebook and then
someone tapped my shoulder and it was Neo, I stood up and greeted
him and we then sat down. I didn’t feel easy sitting next to him be-
cause last time when we last saw each other it was when he found
out that we were having sex with the same girl, we sat there and en-
joyed beer while talking about work and the deep house that they
were playing at the pub. After a few rounds of beers the Palesa issue
came up and he told me that he broke up with Palesa after he found
out that she was staying with me while dating him, he then said Sbu I
still can’t believe how you managed to be with me knowing that I was
busy dating Palesa. I am sure that if it was other guy he could have
killed me but you didn’t do that, why didn't you say anything, he
asked? Neo my brother I can’t say I have been a faithful boyfriend to
Palesa because all the time she was out with you i was having sex
with some girl that stays in the same flat, for me to try and fight you
was not going to help me in anyway because we can fight and in the
end one of us will be arrested for killing the other and then what? Die
over a girl? No man there are thousands of girls that are single out
there so I am not prepared to fight or even die for a girl. I can admit
that Palesa played us both but from what happen we both learned
that we must never let our guard down and trust a girl that we share
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a bed with. While we were talking we noticed 2 beautiful girls wearing
shorts enter the pub and they walked towards the bar and bought
some drinks and then went to sit down. We looked at each other and
said ‘Damn’ I and I went to them. I kneeled next to the girl that was
wearing white shorts and introduced myself as Sphiwe and then said
‘hi, sorry to disturb you can I please ask you for a huge favour? She
said yes. Today is my friend’s birthday and I’ve been pretending as if I
forgot so I want to surprise him, can you please go to the bar and or-
der some champagne and shots of whiskey so that we can surprise
him? She smiled and said sure I can do that, I told her to tell the bar
man to add the drinks on my tab. When she got up to buy the drinks I
told her friend that my friend has been talking about her since she
entered the car wash and that he wanted to talk to her, when the girl
(Nqobile) that was wearing white shorts returned with the cham-
pagne and shots of whiskey i called Neo to come and join us at the
table. As he was walking to the table I signalled to him that he must
play along, we sang for him and then had the shots of whiskey.

We then joined them at their table and enjoyed the night and before
they closed at the pub I called Neo to the side and asked him what
was his plan and he told me that he was going to take the one girl
back to Midrand and we will meet the following day. We left the car
wash and walked to our cars and while Nqobile got inside my car and I
walked to the corner to check if there were any Metro police waiting
for us there and sure indeed they were there. I walked back to my car
and then we drove slowly and waited for one car to pass. A car passed
and we followed it closely behind and the police stopped it and we
managed to drive past, Neo drove to Midrand and I took Nqobile to
my place. We arrived at my place and I had sex with Nqobile, no
matter how hard or which position we did it that could not close the
empty space that I had in my heart. In the morning we woke up and I
made her some breakfast before we went to bath, after the bath we
went to sit on the couch butt naked to cool off. Nqobile touched my
penis and said Sphiwe can I give your penis a name? I looked at her

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and asked why she wanted to give my penis a name and she ex-
plained that so that when were in public and she wanted us to have
sex she will say ‘Sphiwe I need to talk to George’. I thought she was
crazy for wanting to give my penis a name, she got off the couch and
kneeled in front of me and asked me if I would like a blowjob. I smiled
and said I would love that, she grabbed my penis and started to move
it up and down and like a soldier George stood up straight. With her
big eyes she looked at me and said please Sphiwe if you are about to
come please let me know and then she opened her mouth and start-
ed to suck George. I’ve had a lot of blowjobs in my life but Nqobile
gave me one of the best blowjobs ever, the way she held and sucked
George. I held onto her face and looked at her sucking George, it felt
like I was having sex with a virgin without a condom as her tongue
continued to dance on top of George. She continued to suck George
until I could feel that I was about to come and she sucked George’s
head while moving George’s body up and down, I came inside her
mouth and she jumped up and ran to the bathroom to spit out my
cum. I sat on the couch until she came back with a towel and wiped
off some of the semen that was still all over George, we then sat on
the couch for a few minutes and then I went to the bedroom to fetch
a condom. When I returned she looked at me and smiled and then
she lay on the couch and opened her thighs, I looked at that vagina
and I just went for it going in fast and fast. She was trying to push me
away me but I held onto her until she pushed me off and she lay on
the couch with her hands covering her face taking deep a breath.
Sphiwe are you trying to kill me? Where do you get so much energy
so early? I replied and said no am not trying to kill you am just enjoy-
ing having sex with you. Oh damn you are good you made me cum,
she said.

I also want to cum as I pulled her off the couch and turned her around
and she bent for me, I inserted my penis inside her wet vagina and
gave it to her until I came and we then sat on the couch to catch a
breath. We dressed up and I took Nqobile to her flat and on my way

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back I called Neo to check where he was with the other girl and he
said he was still at his place. I passed at the mall where I bought some
meat and went to my flat to cook and spent the rest of the day relax-
ing in the flat. I had a very relaxing week without meeting Gugu at
work but Refiloe didn’t want me to see Thando and had even told the
teacher at the nursery not to allow me to see Thando. On Friday after
work I went straight to my flat and Gugu called me and asked if I was
at my flat and when I said yes she told me that she was coming to see
me and must wait for her at the train station. While driving to the
train station to fetch her i was thinking of excuses to tell her about
what happened last week in the flat, I saw her walking towards the
car carrying her laptop bag and her handbag. I got out and opened
the door for her and she got in, I closed the door and we drove back
to my flat. She was busy on her phone and didn’t greet or say a word
until we got to the flat and when we arrived there she went to the
bedroom and I sat on the couch wondering what was she planning
because since she arrived she didn’t say a word to me. She came out
of the bedroom and said Sbu I need a drink and I told her that we can
go to the mall to get supper and then she can order her drink at the
restaurant, we went the mall and I broke the silence and apologised
for what happened last week and she just said its fine Sbu and then
continued to eat her food, once we were done eating she ordered a
bottle of wine and I ordered a cold draught. After drinking a glass of
wine she looked at me and said so Sbu do you think you are a boy or a
man? I laughed and said I believe I am a man. She shook her head and
said No Sbu you are not a man, all I see is a small boy who doesn’t
know what he wants in life and wants to tag everyone along his
joyride, I don’t have a problem with you having a baby with that crazy
girl that came to your place last week and if you were a man enough
you could have told me that you are still dating that girl but since you
are a small boy you thought it will be fine to tag me along. I sat there
looking at Gugu while she was pouring raw sewerage all over me, who
does she think she is? But I could not utter a single word. So you have
nothing to say? She asked. No there’s nothing to say, I wished that I
could just disappear and never ever see Gugu again. She looked at me
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again and said so what is your daughter’s name? I replied and said
her name is Thandolwethu and I am not dating that girl, on weekends
she normally comes with the baby to my place so that I can spend
time with Thando. I could not fetch Thando last week because we
went to Brakpan, so I chose to spend time with you and not with my
daughter I guess small boys do that. She raised her eyebrows and said
you chose me over your daughter? Are you crazy? Why didn’t you tell
me that you wanted to spend time with your daughter? Your daugh-
ter needs you more than me please Sbu promise me that you will
never ever choose someone else over your daughter. While she was
talking my phone rang and it was Refiloe, I showed Gugu who was
calling before I answered the phone. When I answered I heard Than-
do crying in the background with Refiloe screaming at her saying
‘Shut up, Stop crying’ I could not believe that she was shouting at
Thando because she was crying, Refiloe? Refiloe? Refiloe? Can you
hear me? Refiloe? I said. She replied and said what? This thing of
yours is busy crying here for no reason and I am fed up. Refiloe please
calm down I am coming there to see what is wrong. I hung up and
told Gugu that we needed to leave because the baby might not be
well and I needed to rush to Randburg to see what was wrong with
Thando. I called the waiter and asked for the bill and after paying we
left the mall; Gugu said she can’t go with me to Randburg and asked
me to leave her at the flat. I dropped her off and rushed to Randburg.
When I got to Randburg I called Refiloe to tell her that I was outside
her flat so that she can open the gate, when I got inside her flat I no-
ticed that she had a blue eye. I found Thando lying on the bed and I
lay next to her trying to make her sleep so that Refiloe can rest, all I
remember was singing a lullaby for Thando and I must have fell
asleep next to Thando because when I woke up I was sleeping on the
right side of the bed with Thando in the middle and Refiloe on the left
side, the time was 1:15am. I immediately stood up and remembered
that I had left Gugu in the flat, I kissed Thando goodbye and asked
Refiloe to open the gate for me. I left Randburg and drove straight to
Kempton Park and when I arrived at my flat I found Gugu in bed
sleeping, i undressed and then lay next to her on the bed. I spent the
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weekend in the flat with Gugu and Refiloe called me every chance she
got saying that the baby was crying or that the baby wanted to talk to
me and with each call I could see that Gugu was getting annoyed be-
cause I would spent about 10 minutes on the call, I took her back to
Centurion. I have never loved Gugu she was just another client that I
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Death came like a thief …

Nomfundo was back with the police officer and he would pick her up
every day from work and she looked like she was happy again. One
Friday at about 1pm the manager surprised us when he told us that it
was time to knock off and he then went to his car and came back with
a braai stand and started to make a fire, once the fire had started he
then went to his car and took out a plastic bag full of meat and asked
some of the female staff to prepare the meat. My manager was a cool
guy but i never thought that he would let us knock off early and then
braai meat for us, Luzuko my colleague went to buy some beers and
when he came back we were all sitting in the parking area drinking
and waiting for the meat to be ready. I went and sat next to Nomfun-
do so that I can ask her why she was back with the police officer, she
told me that the officer had changed and no longer abused her. I
knew that abusers never change their ways and they only needed a
very small stupid excuse to abuse again, since Nomfundo looked hap-
py I didn’t want to interfere in her business. While everyone was hav-
ing a good time Nomfundo’s phone rang and she told us that her boy-
friend was outside the gate to pick her up, my manager insisted that
the boyfriend must come in and join us so that we can know him. He
refused to join us saying that he was in a hurry to other arrangements
and they both left, everyone continued to drink until it was dark and
that’s when my manager decided that we must go home so that we
won’t get into trouble with the police. On my way home Refiloe
called and asked if she can bring Thando the following day to my
place and I agreed that she can come. When I got to my place I felt
like I needed to drink more beers and then have some sex, I called
Gugu and asked her to come but she told me that it was late for her
to take the Gautrain or even to drive. I decided to sleep so that the
following day I can fetch Thando in Randburg and while I was in bed
trying to sleep I received a call from Nomfundo who was crying and
asked me if I can come to Tembisa immediately, judging from the way
she was talking I knew that the officer had abused her again. I got off
the bed and drove to Tembisa and when I got closer to her place I
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called her and told her that I was outside, she came out of her place
wearing a night dress and ran towards the car and I thought that she
was running away from the officer but no one was chasing her. I un-
locked the car for her to get in and she was crying with blood coming
from her mouth, I was shocked by what I saw. Nomfundo what is hap-
pening? I asked her. Sbu please just drive he took my kids and said he
was going to kill them because I am sleeping with all the guys at work
and I made him look like a fool, she replied while crying. Where must I
go to? I asked. Sbu just drive anywhere maybe we will find him please
drive she shouted. I turned my emergency lights on and began to
drive, I drove all over Tembisa starting at Phomolong and went to
Mthambela, Sangweni, Tlama-Tlama and also drove along the straight
line but we didn’t find him. We stopped to pour petrol at the petrol
station in Rabasotho when we saw his car pass by. While I was waiting
for the petrol attendant to bring back my card his car disappeared in
traffic, We tried following the car and I didn’t stop at a stop sign and a
Metro police car followed us with its blue lights on and i parked on
the side of the road and got out of the car and went to the Metro
officer to explain to him why I didn’t stop at the road sign, after ex-
plaining Nomfundo gave the police officer the model of the car and its
registration number so that he can tell other units in the area to be on
the lookout for the car with the children. The Metro officer then es-
corted us back to Nomfundo’s house where we found the officer’s car
parked outside, we parked our cars next to his and Nomfundo got out
of the car and ran inside the house. I tried to follow her but the Metro
officer told me to wait outside and not to enter the property, I was
standing near the gate when I heard Nomfundo screaming ‘please
please don’t hurt my kids please’ and as soon as the Metro officer en-
tered the house I heard gunshots. The Metro officer got out of the
house running while shooting back and he was shot in his leg, he
passed me and went into his car to call for back up. I heard two gun-
shots and then Nomfundo screamed (I will never forget that scream)
and then there was another shot and Nomfundo stopped crying. The
officer came out of the house and fired two more shots at the Metro
police car before putting the gun on his head and pulled the trigger, I
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ran inside the house to see what happened to Nomfundo and what I
saw inside that house will forever haunt me. Nomfundo was lying
near the fridge with a gunshot on her forehead and blood was flow-
ing from the back of her head and her eyes were wide open. I kneeled
down next to her and touched her neck trying to feel if she had a
pulse but there was nothing, I held onto her lifeless body and said
‘Nomfundo Nomfundo had you only listened when I told you that an
abuser will never change’. I went to the bedroom to look for the chil-
dren and I found them lying near the bed and I thought they were
both dead until I saw one move his hand and said ‘Mama Mama’. I
picked him up and ran with him outside hoping to find the ambulance
there but it hadn’t arrived, I placed him in the car and asked the Met-
ro officer to escort me to Tembisa Hospital but he was also bleeding
and could not drive his car and suggested that we wait for the ambu-
lance to come, the back-up and the ambulance arrived and they took
the surviving child to Hospital. I sat in my car in disbelief that that
Nomfundo was dead and I will never see her smile or hear her sweet
voice BUT HAD SHE ONLY LISTENED WHEN WE TOLD HER ABOUT
STAYING IN AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP. When the police were done
investigating the scene they took out the bodies, tears rolled down
my face when her body passed me. I knew that Nomfundo must have
died while trying to protect her kids because I knew how much she
loved them but she was no more another victim domestic violence,
will it ever end?

I drove back to my flat but i could not sleep because whenever I

closed my eyes all I saw was Nomfundo lying next to the fridge, in the
morning I went to the bottle store and waited until they opened so
that I can buy some whiskey and while driving back to the flat I called
Refiloe and told her what happened last night and that I was not in a
good state of mind to be with Thando. When I got to the flat I drank
my whiskey until I passed out on the couch, I cannot explain the pain I
felt every time I thought about Nomfundo. At work everyone was
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time on Friday and some of my colleagues had placed some cards and
flowers on her desk, when I went to the kitchen I saw her coffee mug
that was written STRONG BLACK WOMAN. The manager saw that no
one can work and told us to all go home and with the passing of Nom-
fundo it felt like some part of me had died I kept asking myself how
can someone say they love you and then hurt you? A person who
loves you is supposed to protect you and not hurt you!!! Our manager
organised transport for the whole team to attend Nomfundo’s funer-
al, we were standing outside the house when we saw two coffins
coming out of the house. Nomfundo’s coffin was in front and closely
followed by her child and that was when reality kicked in that Nom-
fundo was gone and we will never see her again. Her mother came
out of the house being assisted by relatives as she kept crying and
saying ‘God why’? Why God? Why take my child? Why God? The fu-
neral went to the cemetery and they placed the child’s coffin on top
of Nomfundo’s coffin and as the coffins were lowered some lady sang
the song ‘I know the lord will make a way for me’ and while Nomfun-
do’s mother was walking towards the grave to pour the soil she faint-
ed, the family members tried to help but she didn’t wake up and they
loaded her into a car and took her to the hospital. I could no longer
stand there and went to the car where I cried until my colleagues
came to join me and we then went to Nomfundo’s house to eat be-
fore going back to Kempton Park. Just as we were about to leave
Nomfundo’s cousin came and told us that the surviving child that was
in hospital had also passed away, just when the family had just buried
two bodies they were now going to bury another body. Just as they
were trying to pull themselves together death had taken another soul
from their family, I cannot explain how I felt when I heard that the
other child had also died in hospital a part of me felt that it was better
that he passed away because he was going to grow up knowing that
his mother and sister were killed by their father. (We were later in-
formed that Nomfundo’s mother was discharged from Hospital on
Sunday and when she arrived at home they told her that the surviving
child had passed away and she suffered a heart attack, they rushed
her to the hospital but was declared dead on arrival and the family
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had to bury 2 more bodies the following weekend). Abuse doesn’t
only affect the victim but everyone close to the victim will be affected,
May their soul rest in peace

We left and drove back to Kempton Park, there was complete silence
in the car until we arrived in Kempton park were they dropped me off
in my flat. I got inside my flat and called Gugu and I asked her to
come to Kempton Park because I needed to be with someone so that
I can try and forget about what happened to Nomfundo and her chil-
dren, Gugu arrived and she immediately saw that I was not ok and I
told her that I just came from Nomfundo’s funeral and I explained to
her how I found Nomfundo lying in a pool of blood in the kitchen. I
felt like a little baby when Gugu gave me a hug and held me while I
was telling her what I saw in the bedroom, she suggested that we go
to the car wash to buy some braai meat so that we can eat for sup-
per. When we got to the car wash she ordered the meat and bought
me 4 dumpies of beer and a glass of wine for her. After a few beers I
wanted us to go back to the flat so that we can eat the meat there,
after arriving at the flat we ate and then went to the bedroom where
Gugu undressed and lay on the bed naked and asked me if we can
have sex, I could not resist being between her thighs and we had sex
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Gugu and the baby…

Even though we never spoke about what how we felt about each oth-
er we continued to spend more time together, Gugu was supportive
in everything that I did and ensured that I spent enough time with
Thando. I loved the way she played with Thando and I could see that
she will be a good mother. One day while we were sitting watching tv
Gugu looked at me and said Sbu I need to ask you something and if
you are not comfortable with it then please say no, yes sure you can
ask I replied. Sbu can we make a baby? She said. I turned around and
looked at her and said a baby? Do you want a baby? Yes Sbu I want a
baby, she replied. But why do you want a baby? I asked her. Sbu I did-
n’t have any plans of having a baby now but ever since I have been
spending time with Thando I feel that I want to have a baby of my
own and I can see how much you love her and that is why I want you
to be the father of my baby. I was shocked that Gugu wanted me to
father her child and I told her that I will need some time to think
about it, she was disappointed that I didn’t agree to have a baby with
her and she told me that she wanted her child to grow up in a home
that was full of love and happiness because she grew up without a
father and there were times in her life that she needed her father. So
you grew up without a father? I asked. Yes Sbu, I never knew my fa-
ther all I know was that he met my mother while working in Van-
derbijlpark and left immediately after my mother got pregnant. My
mother never spoke about him but she told me that after she got
pregnant my father left Vanderbijlpark and moved to some place in
Mpumalanga and it was hard for my mother at the time because she
was still studying when she got pregnant and her parents kicked her
out. She went on to stay with family members who helped her to
raise me and I spent most of my childhood from one house to another
because my mother had gone to look for a job so that she can support
me and also finish her studies. Sbu it was never nice when my cousins
asked for things from my uncle and they got them and I had to wait
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mother finally finished her studies and we stayed in Vanderbijlpark
and later moved to Shalimah ridge in Heidelberg and that is where
she stays now.

I replied and said I am sorry to hear that you grew up without your
father but I also grew up without my real father, I had a ‘father’ from
Newcastle and I thought he was my father all along until one day my
mother told me that my father had passed away and I could not un-
derstand how can my father be dead when he was in the house
eating. My mother then explained to me that the guy in the house
was not my real father but my real father stayed in Standerton and
the first and last time I saw my father was in his coffin and after that
bad experience I decided that one day when I become a father I will
be there for my children when they grow up. She looked at me with a
smile and said that is why I want you to be the father of my baby. Yes
Gugu am sure will have a baby soon I just need some time to think
about it and I will let you know. After a week we spoke about the ba-
by again and I agreed that we can have a baby, we went to take a
shower together and when we got to the bedroom she made me lie
on the bed and took out chocolate syrup from her bag.

She opened the bottle and poured some of the syrup on my penis and
then started sucking on my penis and half of my penis disappeared in
her mouth, she was also playing with my balls while her mouth was
going up and down my penis. When she was done sucking my penis
she said Sbu your penis tastes like chocolate, I made her lie on the
bed and took her chocolate syrup and drew circles around her nipples
and a line that went down to her vagina. I kissed her neck and then i
started to kiss and suck her left nipple while touching her right breast
and when I was done licking off the chocolate from her left breast I
moved to the right nipple that was hard. I used the tip of my tongue
to lick the chocolate around the nipple before sucking the nipple.
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tongue all over her body and I moved from the breasts and went
down to her stomach until I got to her pubic area and I could tell that
Gugu was ready for everything because she had shaved her vagina,
she opened her thighs and I saw nicely shaved vagina waiting for me. I
moved my middle finger along her vagina lips and she placed her
hands over her eyes and opened her thighs wider for me. I used my
thumbs to open vagina lips and I saw her clitoris looking back at me, I
then used the tip of my tongue to lick her clitoris and she said ‘Sbu
eish’. While I was licking and sucking her clitoris I inserted my middle
finger inside her vagina and she began to move her waist up and
down, I muffed her until she came. I gave her a few seconds to catch
her breath and I then got on top her and slowly inserted my penis in-
side her wet vagina and began to do her deep and hard, after some
minutes while doing her hard she began to say Sbuu Sbuuu Sbuuu
please don't stop I am about to come and I did her faster until she
crossed her legs behind me and I could not move as she enjoyed her
orgasm. She then opened her thighs for me and I gave it to her again
and she was sweating all over her face until I came inside her and she
held me tight me so that all my semen can go inside her vagina. We
continued to have sex the whole night changing all the positions from
reverse cowgirl to standing doggy in the kitchen and missionary on top
of the kitchen table and we finally slept at 3am, in the morning she
made us breakfast and we had more sex until I could not get an erec-
tion.

We started talking about the names that we can give the baby once it
was born and we decided that we will name the baby Malaika if it’s a
girl and Africa if it’s a boy, after 2 weeks Gugu came to the flat with a
home pregnancy kit and we sat in the lounge patiently waiting for the
results. We saw a small smiling face on the test-tube and that con-
firmed that Gugu was indeed pregnant, I was happy that she was
pregnant but I was not sure that I was ready to be a father to another
baby. We later moved in together at Kempton Park and all along Re-
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in Centurion and then was planning to pass at Randburg to fetch
Thando. I arrived at Refiloe’s flat and I called her telling her that I was
outside to fetch Thando, normally I would go inside the flat and come
out with Thando but that day she came to the car to give me Thando
and that was when she saw Gugu in the front seat. She immediately
turned around and walked back to her flat and I got out and followed
her asking her what was wrong and she shouted saying that she will
not allow Thando to be around Gugu. I could not understand why she
would not allow Thando to be around Gugu when all along we stayed
together, we left and drove to my flat and I didn’t tell Gugu why Re-
filoe refused to give me the baby. Things had changed and every time
when I wanted to fetch Thando I had to go alone because Refiloe will
not let me see Thando if she saw that Gugu was in the car, Refiloe
would call me at night wanting to talk to Thando in the middle of the
night and I could tell from her slurred speech that she might have had
a few glasses of wine. Over weekends I was forced to switch off my
phone at night because Refiloe would call and demand to speak the
baby, one night I forgot to switch off the phone and Refiloe called. At
first I ignored the call hoping that whoever was calling will stop calling
but the phone continued to ring until Gugu woke up and answered
my phone and sure enough it was Refiloe who wanted to talk to
Thando, Gugu told Refiloe that the baby was sleeping and we will not
wake her up because we will then have to spend 30 minutes trying to
make her sleep again but Refiloe insisted that she wanted to talk to
Thando. Gugu gave me the phone so that I can talk to Refiloe who
was shouting that I must bring back Thando to Randburg. I told her
that I will bring her back in the morning and then I switched my
phone off so that we can go back to sleep. In the morning just after
switching my phone on Refiloe called demanding that I bring back
Thando back to Randburg or that she will call the police and tell them
that I took Thando without permission, I woke up and took Thando to
Randburg. She was shouting that I was busy introducing Thando to all
my girlfriends and Thando will end up not knowing her real mother. I
told Refiloe that it will be impossible for Thando not to know her real
mother and I looked at Thando and asked her who was her mother
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and damn with a smile she said Gugu, this made Refiloe angry and she
asked me to leave her place.

I drove back to my flat and spent the weekend indoors with Gugu, I
no longer had a reason to go out and party because I had the beer in
the house and could have sex with Gugu anytime. Every Friday after
work I would drive to Randburg and spend an hour with Thando be-
fore going back to Kempton Park and I noticed that Refiloe had a boy-
friend that would always come and see her every time when I was
there, I didn't have problem with her dating anyone but could not un-
derstand why she didn’t want me to spend time with Thando while
Gugu was around. Refiloe was starting to limit my access to Thando
saying that I can only call Thando during the week because if I called
over the weekend I would disturb her and her new boyfriend, I would
go to Randburg on Fridays to see Thando but Refiloe would not an-
swer her phone nor even open the gate for me and I would spend an
hour with Gugu in the car waiting for Refiloe to come out of the flat
but she didn't come out. I decided to stop sending her maintenance
money because I didn’t see a reason why I should continue sup-
porting a child that I didn’t see and Gugu was supportive in my plan of
not paying maintenance hoping that Refiloe will take me to court so
that I can then fight to get access to see Thando.

Gugu was now 2 months pregnant and I thought that it will be a good
idea for me to introduce her to my mom before she came with her
family to report that she was pregnant with my baby, one Friday I told
her that she must pack her things because we were going to visit my
family in Vrede and she was happy. We left Kempton Park just after
6pm and went to the garage to fill up the tank before getting on the
R24 then N3 towards Durban. We drove along the N3 until we got to
the petrol station in Villiers were we stopped so that Gugu can use
the bathroom, we arrived in Vrede and I introduced Gugu to my
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and not Refiloe but she welcomed her in the house and I left them
drinking tea in the lounge and went to see my friends, I had a few
beers with my friends before going back home. In the morning my
mom and Gugu made breakfast before I took Gugu on the tour of
Vrede, little did I know that my mother had called my relatives and
when we returned back home we found them braaing meat outside
and they all hugged Gugu welcoming her to the family. The following
day as we were driving back to Johannesburg Gugu asked me if we
can pass at Heidelberg so that she can greet her mother and also in-
troduce me to her, we arrived in Shalimah Ridge and Gugu went in-
side the house to greet her family and then she came to the car and
told me that her mother wanted to see me. Her mother was sitting on
the couch drinking water when I walked into the house and she stood
up with her eyes wide open as if she had just seen a ghost, she asked
me what was my surname and I told her that my surname is
Tshabalala and she asked me if my father’s name is Michael and I re-
plied yes and told her that my father had passed away. Was his sur-
name Nkosi? She asked, yes I think he was Nkosi I didn’t know my dad
very well because I grew up with my mother in Vrede. She told me to
sit down and then called Gugu to the bedroom where they spent
about 20 minutes talking; Gugu came out of the bedroom crying and
said we needed to leave. I followed her to the car and she didn’t say a
word until we got to Kempton park and that is where I sat her down
and asked her what did her mother say to her, with tears rolling down
her face she said Sbu my mother said you might be my brother.

Brother? No that is impossible, I said. She replied and said Sbu the
time she called me into the bedroom she told me that she recognised
you because you looked like our father and his surname was Nkosi. I
could not believe what she was telling me and I took out my phone
and called my mother and told her that Gugu was Michael Nkosi’s
daughter, my mother could also not believe that the girl I came home
with was my sister. Only Gugu and I knew that she was pregnant with
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talking about the pregnancy or that we were brother and sister. I
could no longer walk around the flat naked or even share the bed
with Gugu because my conscious would not allow me to share a bed
with my sister. We decided to do a DNA test to check if indeed we
were related and the results came back 99.9% positive that indeed we
were brother and sister and at this time Gugu was now 3 months
pregnant, we felt betrayed by our parents for not telling us the whole
story about our father because if they did we couldn’t be in this situa-
tion. We decided that it will be best to abort the baby because we
knew our mothers were not going to allow us to have a baby together
and we booked for a consultation at an abortion clinic and they told
us everything that we needed to do and they gave her pills to start
the abortion, I remember how Gugu cried at night due to cramps in
her stomach and I felt useless sitting next to her unable to do any-
thing to stop the pain and the least I could do was to go and buy her
painkillers at the pharmacy. Gugu had started to bleed heavily and
she sent me to the shop to buy her extra heavy flow pads because the
normal pads that she was using got full within minutes. Gugu was in
so much pain that she could not even move and I had to help her
change the pad. After a day we went back the abortion clinic where
they cleaned her womb, we had just killed our baby and also our late
father’s grandchild.

After the abortion Gugu moved out of the flat and went back to Cen-
turion, we kept in contact even though things were strange between
us because we knew that we were brother and sister but didn’t want
to accept it. Over time we stopped talking and only met during
meetings at work, I was now single and lonely again with a big flat all
to myself. One day while I was at work some gentleman came to my
office and he introduced himself a sheriff from the maintenance court
in Randburg, Refiloe had taken me court for failing to send her money
for Thando and I saw this as a chance that I can use to tell the court
how Refiloe refuses to let me see the child. The day finally came and I
went to the maintenance court where I found Refiloe sitting in the

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corridor wearing a short black dress and was accompanied by the guy
I always saw in Randburg, we got inside the magistrates office and
Refiloe told the magistrate that she demanded R3000 for the mainte-
nance of the baby. I told the magistrate that I can only afford to pay
R1000 because I already had Thando on my medical aid and if I paid
more then it won’t be fair to me, the magistrate instructed us to go
outside and discuss what was best for Thando and find an amicable
solution. When we got outside I tried to reason with Refiloe that the
money she was demanding was just too much for me to afford every
month but she said that if I can afford to drink every weekend and
stay in a fancy flat with different girls every weekend then I should be
able to afford R3000 a month for maintenance. We didn’t reach any
agreement and we went back inside the office so that the magistrate
can tell me how much I had to pay monthly. The magistrate asked me
how much was my net salary and what were my expenses that I paid
every month, I said my net salary was R14300 and I inflated all my
expenses and said my rent was R5200 when it was actually R3400, car
R4100 when I was paying R3200 and I also mentioned that I was pay-
ing for my little brothers school fees and that every month I was only
left with R1200 for food and I was struggling to even buy clothes for
myself. The magistrate then said it didn’t make sense why I stayed in
a place that I could not afford and advised that I moved to a cheaper
place so that I can have more money to pay maintenance with, I was
ordered to pay R2000 a month towards Thando’s crèche, food and
clothes. Refiloe had a big smile on her face that she had won and not
that I couldn’t afford the R2000 a month I was not happy that she was
using Thando as ammunition because we were no longer dating. Little
did she know that even though she got the money she wanted Than-
do had lost a father, Thando was no longer my daughter but she was
just another debit order that will go off every month.

Even though I had a nice flat, money in my bank account, beer in the
fridge, food in the cabinet in my heart I was empty and i began to
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affect my work. One Friday afternoon Sipho called me and told me
that he had knocked off early and was in Kempton Park drinking, I
asked my manager to leave early and went to join Sipho who was at a
car wash. We sat there drinking until about 9pm and that’s when we
saw 3 girls sitting outside the carwash, Sipho went to them and invit-
ed them to come and join us. I bought them drinks and we sat togeth-
er listening to the music, I was sitting next to Nthabiseng and i wanted
to take her back to my flat because I hadn’t had sex in weeks, at
about 11pm I felt that I was getting drunk and I asked Nthabiseng if
she didn’t want us to go to my flat to finish the party there.
Nthabiseng spoke to her friends and they agreed that we will go to
my flat and I knew that there was going to be a problem when we got
to my flat because I only had one bedroom and we had 3 girls, one girl
excused herself and said she wanted to use the bathroom. I continued
to flirt with Nthabiseng and after a few minutes Nthabiseng’s friend
got up and said she was going to check where was their friend who
went to the bathroom, I didn’t notice any foul play when Nthabiseng
said she was worried that both her friends were in the bathroom and
I told her to go and check them so that we can go to my flat. I paid
R460 for their drinks and then waited for them to come back so that
we can leave, 30 minutes passed without them coming back and I
therefore went to the bathroom and asked one of the girls to check
for me if there were 3 girls in the bathroom with one wearing a t-shirt
written ‘flawless’, she came back and told me that they were not
there. I looked around the pub and could not find them and that was
when reality sank that they ran away, I didn’t want to waste more
money on girls and we left the pub, Sipho drove back to his place and
I went to my flat. In the morning my phone rang and I saw that it was
Refiloe who was calling me and I answered her call. Refiloe told me
that she needed me to come and fetch Thando because she wanted
to go to her friend’s party and there was no one to look after Thando,
Voetsek why don’t you take her to the magistrate and ask her to look
after Thando I replied and then hung up the phone. She called again
and said she was going to leave Thando at a day care near her flat and
that I must fetch Thando there by 7pm if she was not back, I hung up
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Thuli…

I woke up in the afternoon and decided to cook while watching tv, in

the evening I received a call from an unknown number and when I
answered it was some lady who said her name was Mary from day
care in Randburg. She told me that Refiloe had left Thando there and
said that I will come and fetch the baby, i tried calling Refiloe but her
phone was off and I was forced to drive to Randburg to fetch Thando.
When I arrived at the day care Thando was the only child there sleep-
ing on Mary’s couch. As I was picking up Thando from the couch she
woke up and said where is my mom? I didn’t answer her and we
drove back to Kempton Park, when we got to my flat I gave her some
food and then we slept. My phone rang in the middle of the night and
it was Refiloe who wanted me to bring back Thando, i switched my
phone off. In the morning I took Thando back to Randburg and I got a
chance to talk to Refiloe, I told her that she must stop calling me at
night telling me about Thando because she failed to talk to me about
maintenance but instead ran to court. I went back to my flat where I
played some music while I did laundry and in the evening I went to
Tembisa for some old school music, when I arrived in Tembisa I
bought myself some beers and looked around if there was anyone
that I knew but there was no one so I took out my phone and started
to chat. There were some girls that were sitting next to my table and I
targeted one girl that was closest to me, I greeted her and she greet-
ed me back. I spoke very soft so that she could not hear what I was
saying to her, she said she can’t hear what I was saying and I asked
her if we can go and stand outside so that we can talk properly and
she agreed. When we got outside and I said I wanted to ask you if you
are a vegetarian, vegetarian? Why? She asked. You look so beautiful
and fresh that’s why I thought that you only eat vegetables and by the
way my name is Sibusiso, I replied. She laughed and said No I am not
a vegetarian and my name is Thuli from Midrand, we started to flirt
and ended up kissing just outside the restaurant. I asked her if we can
go and sit in my car so that we can kiss properly. We went to my car
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where we continued to kiss until her phone rang and it was her
friends asking where she was, she told me that she wanted to go and
see her friends and she will come back to me. I immediately remem-
bered that Nthabiseng used the same line on Friday and i offered to
accompany her to her friends. We went to her friends and she intro-
duced me to them and we then went back outside, i asked her if we
can go to my flat. She agreed and went to tell her friends that we
were leaving. While we were leaving I was thinking that we will have
1 round before sleeping and another round in the morning before I
took her to Midrand, when we got to the gate she told me that she
will follow me and I couldn’t understand what she meant when she
will following me because she looked like she didn’t have a car. While
I was waiting for her in my car a BMW 3 series parked next to me and
a window rolled down, when I looked inside it was Thuli and she said
come Sbu lets go. Everything just changed because I thought I was
going to be in control but here is Thuli in a BMW 3 series while I was
in a small company car, as we were driving to Kempton park I felt so
small that how can she drive such a beautiful car and still want to
spend the night with me. We arrived in my flat and we went to the
bedroom where we started to kiss and i quickly undressed her, she
lay on the bed naked while I got a condom from my drawer. I got on
top of her and we had sex until I came and I then rolled on the side to
take off the condom. I was tired and wanted to sleep but Thuli didn’t
allow me to sleep as she kept poking me saying that she didn’t cum
but I was too tired to go for another round, she got up and asked me
to open the door for her so that she can leave because I had wasted
her time by asking her to come to my flat and I could not even make
her cum even once. I opened the door and the gate for her and she
left, I went back to my sleep with my ego bruised but I promised my-
self that I have to meet again with Thuli so that I can settle the score.

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Settling the score…

Since I didn’t get her number I knew it was going to be hard for me to
see her again but I remembered that she mentioned something about
Vorna valley in Midrand, I always left Kempton park early so that I can
drive around Vorna Valley hopping that I will see her and a week
passed without seeing her. I had started to loose hope until one day I
saw her at Carlswald, i didn’t know what to say but I had to say some-
thing to her. I tapped her shoulder and when she turned around I said
Hello Thuli please don’t run like you did last time, otherwise how are
you? She laughed and said me? Run? No I didn’t run I left because you
could not satisfy me Mr One round. No Thuli come on you can’t call
me One round, that day I was tired and that’s why I've been looking
for you the whole week so that I can settle the score, I replied. No Mr
One round you just want to waste my time like you did last time, she
replied. Ok, you can choose any position that you like and also choose
the number of rounds you want, deal? I said. Ok Mr One round deal,
give me your number and I will call you on Saturday morning. I gave
her my numbers and we parted ways, as I was walking away I knew
that I had just signed up for a sex marathon with a sex addict and I
knew that I can make her reach orgasm the whole night long but I had
to prepare myself. The following day I woke up early for a jog and de-
cided that I was going to run until the Rhodesfield train station and
then come back but before I could even pass Kempstar I was sweating
and struggling to catch my breath, I did my own calculations that for
every kilometre that I can run that will be equal to one round. Since I
wanted to last for 7 rounds I continued to run until I got to Rhodes-
field train station, i ran for about 6 kilometres a day and felt that I was
ready for the sex marathon with Thuli. On Saturday morning she
called me saying that she was on her way to my flat and after
45minutes she called again and said she was outside. I went outside
looking for a BMW 3 series but it was not there and I heard a hooter
from an Audi A3, when I looked at it i saw Thuli waving at me and I
was shocked that last time it was a BMW and now it’s an Audi?

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Where does she get these cars? She parked her car inside the flat’s
parking lot and we went to my room, I poured her some wine so that
we can both relax. After a glass of wine she took out a lube and 12
condoms from her bag and said ok Sbu its time lets go and have sex,
we both switched off our phones and then we went to the bedroom.
We started kissing while standing and I grabbed her butt and lifted
her up, she wrapped her legs around my waist and I placed her on the
bed. I took off her sneakers and threw them on the floor and then i
unbuttoned her jeans, as I was taking them off I noticed that she had
a nice shaved vagina. After taking off her jeans I laid next to her and I
moved my hand along her inner thighs until I got to her vagina, I just
placed my hand on top of her vagina and didn’t do anything. She
started to kiss me and I slowly pushed my middle finger inside her
vagina and she stopped kissing me and looked at me, i took my finger
out and then took off her t-shirt and bra. She lay on the bed and
looked at me while I took off my clothes and then i laid next to her on
the bed. I began to kiss her nipples while she was looking at me and I
inserted my whole finger inside her vagina pushing and pulling it out
until my finger was wet, I took out my finger and moved it up her
vagina lips and until I got to her clitoris. I sucked her nipple as I began
to rub her clitoris in a circular motion and she said Sbu please contin-
ue doing that and don’t stop, I applied more pressure on her clitoris
and i rubbed her faster and faster all along Thuli was saying baby eiiii
eiiiii baby baby. I asked her if she liked it and she replied Yes!!! I
rubbed hard and faster until she closed her thighs shaking as she
reached orgasm.

She looked at me and said Sbu you should have done this last time
and I replied oh Thuli just shut up, I turned her around and inserted
the tip of my finger inside her vagina and then moved my finger to
her upper vaginal wall until I felt a rough patch. Thuli said ohhhh as I
continued to rub her G-spot slowly, she began to move her waist up
and down, held onto my hand and said Mike Mike Mike ahhhh. I pre-
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-spot with my index finger and I used my left hand’s thumb to rub her
clitoris, she began to moan while I touched her breasts. I applied
more pressure on the G-spot and rubbed the clitoris faster, her legs
began to shake as she moved her waist up and down and before I
knew it she had squirted all over my face. She covered her face with
her hands as she rolled to the side, without wasting any time I took
one condom and rolled it down my penis and I got on top of her. She
said Sbu please wait but I didn’t and I pushed my penis inside her wet
vagina, she opened her thighs wider for me so that I can go in deep. I
gave it to her deep and hard until she pushed me off the bed and said
Sbu are you trying to kill me? No I want you to respect me, I replied as
I turned her around into a doggy position. I spanked her butt as I got
behind her and then pushed down her head on the pillow; with her
butt raised I spanked her again before inserting my penis inside her
warm vagina. I rammed her hard from behind and the only sound that
I could hear was Thuli saying yes baby yess yesss as she was holding
onto the sheets. I felt that I was about to cum and i slowed down,
with my right hand I reached for her clitoris and I rubbed it while giv-
ing her doggy. She again started saying Mike Mike oh shiittt Mike I
stopped rubbing her clitoris and rammed her hard and fast from be-
hind until we both came. We laid on the bed before Thuli asked me to
get her some water from the kitchen and after drinking her water she
said Sbu come lie on the bed I want to ride you, I laid on the bed as
she got on top of me. My penis was not fully erect so she kissed me
while moving her vagina on top of my penis until I got fully erect, she
took one condom and rolled it down my penis. She then applied some
lube on my penis before sitting on top of my penis, I held her breasts
as she began to ride me slowly and slowly. She stopped and said Sbu
please let me ride you don’t touch me or do anything. I placed my
hands behind my head and watched her as she rode me, damn she
was good the way she rode me fast and then slowly before kissing my
chest. I looked on as she rode my penis like it was a horse until she
came and then laid on my chest. I moved my hands on her back and
held onto her to ensure that she enjoyed her orgasm, since I didn’t
cum we laid on the bed with our legs crossed and I was able to touch
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her clitoris while I penetrated her until I came. We went to the kitch-
en to drink some water and then Thuli went to sit on the couch, I
went to the bedroom to fetch a condom and we had sex on the couch
with her legs on my shoulders. When I stopped to catch my breath
Thuli went to the bedroom and came back with a small vabriator, she
told me that she wanted me to do her in a doggy while she used the
vabriator on her clitoris. She got on the floor and I slid my penis inside
her vagina and then the vabriator started to buzz near my penis, I
could feel the vabriator as I pushed my penis inside her vagina. That
buzzing feeling on my balls felt amazing as I held onto Thuli tight and I
began to do her fast because I could feel that I was about to cum.
Thuli was enjoying the penetration I was giving her and also the vibra-
tion on her clitoris and we both came at the same time, I didn’t know
if I made Thuli cum or it was her vabriator. We continued to have sex
until 4 in the afternoon and we were both dead tired, Thuli turned
her phone on and immediately dressed up and said she had to leave
and rush back to her flat. She thanked me for the good sex and left
me wondering if she only used me for sex because she didn’t even
give me her numbers.

After a few days I forgot about Thuli and continued with my work,
Thando who was growing up everyday and had began to walk. Refiloe
continued to make it difficult for me to see Thando, she would tell me
to come and fetch Thando on Friday but when I arrived in Randburg
her phone will be off and I would spend an hour sitting in the car hop-
ing that she will turn her phone on. I got sick and tired of her tricks
and I stopped going to Randburg to see Thando until she got sick, Re-
filoe called me at night and told me that Thando was vomiting and
didn’t know what else to do because she had tried everything but
Thando didn’t stop vomiting. I didn’t know if it was one of her tricks
of making me drive all the way to Randburg and when I arrived there
her phone will be off, I told her to call an ambulance so that they can
come and help her and then I switched off my phone. In the morning
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that said Thando had been admitted to hospital. I deleted the sms and
went to work, when I was at work Refiloe called me and told me that
she spent the night at a private hospital in Fourways, that’s when I
realised that she was not playing her tricks on me. I told my manager
that my daughter was sick and needed to rush to Fourways so that I
can see what is wrong with her, when I arrived at the hospital I found
Refiloe sitting outside the ward with her eyes red and I could see that
she didn’t sleep and has been crying the whole time. The doctor told
us that Thando had stomach flu and that’s why she was vomit and
had a running stomach, we sat outside the ward waiting for the doc-
tor to tell us when we can take Thando back home and in the evening
she was discharged. I told Refiloe that it’s better that they spent the
night at my place because I saw that she was very tired and needed to
rest and should Thando start crying at night I will be able to comfort
her. We went to Randburg and fetched some of their clothes and
then drove to Kempton Park, in the car there was complete silence
because Refiloe and Thando were sleeping. We arrived at the flat and
I gave Thando her medication and Refiloe went to my bed to sleep, I
didn’t want to share a bed with Refiloe so I placed Thando next to Re-
filoe and I went to sleep on the couch. The following day Thando
seemed to be getting better and we both decided that we will spend
the day in the flat and ensure that Thando was well before we went
back to work; I called my manager and told him that I will not be able
to report for work because my daughter was still not feeling well. We
spent the day together in the flat and had some special moments with
Thando, I held her on my chest until she slept and then Refiloe came
and took her to the bedroom. She came back and sat next to me and
then said Sbu have you ever noticed that Thando is happy when we
are all together? No Thando is always happy when she is with me not
only when you are around, I replied. Sbu but why do you hate me so
much? What did I do to you? She asked. Aarg Refiloe please stop ask-
ing me bullshit you know very well why I don’t like you so stop asking
me bullshit, I replied. Sbu I am sorry for all the bad things I have done
to you, I was angry that you made me pregnant and then didn’t want
to be with me, I am sorry please forgive me, she said. Refiloe you are
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starting to annoy me so please just stop it, I replied. So Sbu you won’t
forgive me? I am the mother of your daughter and I am sorry please
forgive me, she said. Its fine Refiloe I forgive you so please leave me
alone, I replied. Are you sure that you forgive me? She asked. Yes I do
then please leave me alone, I replied. Sbu if you forgive me then lets
have sex? She said. What? I don’t want to have sex with you, Refiloe
please leave me alone please, I replied. Sbu you said you forgive me
so I am asking you if we can have sex, she said. Refiloe No I don’t
want to have sex with you, I replied. She stood up and started to take
off her clothes in front of me, I tried not to look at her body but I
could not take my eyes off her body. She came and sat next to me
and opened her thighs and then started to play with her vagina, I
stood up and went to the bedroom to fetch a condom and I came
back ready to do Refiloe. I didn’t even want to kiss her but I wanted
to see myself between her thighs. We had sex on the couch and she
asked me if I can give it to her in a doggy position, we went to the
floor and had sex there until we both came. Refiloe was using Thando
to ensure that she stayed in my flat even after Thando was better, she
spent more and more time in the flat and I didn’t complain because it
was nice to see Thando running towards me when I came back from
work. We began to share the bed again and had sex occasionally; on
weekends we would go to Dries Niemandt Park and spend the day
there and then later sit in the house watching TV. Things were work-
ing out for us and Thando had started to talk calling me Buuu
Buuuuu.

One day I received a call me from Lebogang and she asked me why I
no longer came to Hatfield to see her, I told her that I have been extra
busy at work and didn’t have time but promised to see her on Satur-
day. On Saturday I told Refiloe that I needed to go to Soweto to see
Sipho and will be back later and I went to see Lebogang in Hatfield.
When I arrived at her place I found her sitting with her friends and
she pulled me to her bedroom where she began to kiss me, she took
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doms. I said No I didn’t have any condoms and she said she was horny
and wanted to have sex with me but since I didn’t have condoms we
will have sex later. She asked me if I can buy her and her friends some
alcohol because they were bored, I didn’t even think about it and we
went to the bottle store. While at the bottle store her friends took
some vodka and wine, Lebogang kept kissing me and when I paid I
didn’t even look at the total and we went back to her flat. We went
back to her flat and when I pulled Lebogang to the bedroom so that
we can have sex she told me to relax we will have sex later. In the
evening Refiloe called me and said I must bring back something to eat
because she didn’t cook, before leaving Hatfield I tried to have sex
with Lebogang again but she told me that it will be rude for us to
leave her friends in the lounge and go to the bedroom to have sex,
when I checked the time it was late and i told Lebogang that I needed
to leave. She kissed me and thanked me for the alcohol and promised
that we will have sex next time when we met. When I arrived in
Kempton park I bought pizza and went to the flat, after eating I went
to the bedroom to sleep and in the morning Refiloe woke up early to
do laundry. She also woke me up and asked me where exactly I was
yesterday and I said in Soweto. She showed me a receipt of R439
from a bottle store in Hatfield and also asked me about the condoms
is had in my pocket, I just knew that hell was about going to break
loose and I admitted to her that I didn’t go to Soweto but I went to
Hatfield. She shouted and said Sbu how can you leave us in the flat
and go to Hatfield to waste R439 on alcohol? You were not going to
spend anything by sitting with us here in the flat but you are busy
showing off that you have money. I kept quiet as she was shouting at
me and I reminded her that the only reason why I was with her again
was because of Thando and if she was not going to behave then she
must go back to her flat.

I woke up in the afternoon and found that Refiloe had packed her
bags and was ready to leave, she told me that I was not grateful for
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stays in the flat and looks after Thando while I go and waste money
on alcohol. I told her to stop acting crazy and take her bags back to
the bedroom and I then received a please call me from Lebogang, I
went to the balcony and called Lebogang, she asked me if I arrived
safe last night and I said yes. She then told me that she needed to call
her mother and didn’t have airtime and asked me if I can buy her air-
time for R30, I transferred her the airtime and then she sent me an
sms that said ‘Thank you’. While Refiloe was in the bedroom unpack-
ing her bag I was sitting in the lounge with Thando and I took
Lebogang’s cellphone number and searched it on Facebook. I found
her profile and started to look at her pictures, as I went through her
timeline I nearly fainted when I saw her update that said ‘I have air-
time anyone who wants me to give them a call must drop their digits
below’, I could not believe that Lebogang had lied to me by asking
airtime so that she can call random people of Facebook.

I told myself that once I have had sex with Lebogang I will dump her
so I continued to play along with her, one day she called me and
spoke with a very soft voice. She told me that her mother was sick
and she needed to go back home so that she can look after her moth-
er and asked me if I can borrow her R500, I felt bad for her and I sent
her R500 so that she can go home to her sick mother. She called me
and told me that where she stayed there was a problem with the net-
work and will call me once she gets back. She was supposed to leave
on Wednesday and go home, when I called her she told me that she
was at Bosman station waiting for the taxi to go to Johannesburg so
that she can get a taxi home, on Thursday I tried to call her but her
phone was off and I remembered that she told me that she struggled
to get a reception when she was at home. In the evening I was curi-
ous if Lebogang did go home or she had lied to me again so I checked
her timeline on Facebook and saw that she had just checked in a club
in Hatfield and wrote ‘Dj Dorcado in the house turn down for what?’.

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Lebogang thought I was her ATM and can just come up with some
story and I would give her money, I told Refiloe that I will be back and
needed to go and fix something quickly. I drove to the club in Hatfield
where Lebogang had checked into, when I arrived the place was full
and I struggled to find her. I sat near the bar and hoped that she will
come and buy some drinks, fair enough she came to the bar to buy a
bottle of wine and I greeted her, out of shock she dropped the bottle
of wine that she had just bought. I asked her why did she lie to me
about going home to see her sick mother and before she could an-
swer me some guy came and asked her if she was ok, Lebogang said
am sorry Sbu and walked away with the guy. I sat at the bar and drank
4 more dumpies before I left and drove back to Kempton Park. On the
way I decided to drive past Joburg and check Maboneng before going
to my flat, when I got to Maboneng I struggled to find parking and
decided to just drive back to the flat. Just after joining the Albertina
Sisulu road I saw that there was a police road block, I knew I had
drank some beers in Hatfield I wasn’t sure if I was going to pass the
breathalyser so I attempted to do a U-turn before i reached the road
block. As soon as I had turned around I looked at my mirror and saw 2
police officers running to their car and they gave chase. I pushed the
little 1.4 litre engine as I drove back to Maboneng hoping that the po-
lice will not catch me, I parked the car on the pavement of a Restau-
rant and I ran inside. I sat at the bar and ordered an Orange juice
while the police car drove past the restaurant and i hoped that they
didn’t see the car on the pavement. After the Orange juice I was sure
that the police were gone and I got into my car and tried to go to my
flat, just after passing Jeppe police station I saw the blue lights again
and I panicked. I didn’t stop and tried to run away but I was no match
for the Audi S3 that drove past me and blocked my way, an officer got
out of the Audi with his R4 rifle pointed at me. I was dragged out of
the car and thrown to the ground and they asked me why I didn't stop
when they flashed their lights, I told them that I thought they wanted
to pass so I was speeding up so that I can give them space to pass.
They loaded me into the Audi and drove back with me to Jeppe police
station and when we got to the police station I texted Refiloe and told
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her that I've been arrested, she tried calling me but I could not an-
swer. The police officers who brought me to the police station told
another officer to lock me and they will come back to charge me, I
was led to cell no 19 where I spent the night sitting and looking at the
stars waiting for the police officers to come and release me. In the
morning the only way I could tell time was when I heard the train
pass near the police station and then I heard an officer shouting
‘Tshabalala Tshabalala’ and I replied I am here at cell no 19. He came
and released me with a warning and told me that next time if the po-
lice flash their lights at me I must stop immediately because if I run
the police will think I am a criminal. They gave me my car keys and I
drove to Kempton park, I arrived at the flat as Refiloe was about to
leave for work and she started to lecture me. Sbu I don’t know why
you are so stupid, you left me and Thando here in the flat so that you
can spend the night in a police cell? Sbu what is wrong with you? Tell
me what is wrong with you? What if you got stabbed when you were
in the police cells? Do you want Thando to grow up without a father?
Sbu please stop your stupidity and realise that we are here for you. I
replied Refiloe please just got to work I want to rest, before sleeping I
called my manager and told him that I was not feeling well and will
not be able to report for work.

While I was in that police cell i got a chance to think about life and
what I wanted, i had to teach myself to be grateful of what I had and
appreciate the family i had. Over the months I became loyal to Refiloe
and we even bought a house in Birchleigh that had a nice garden
where I used to play with Thando on weekends. We were the perfect
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It was time for me to make Refiloe my wife, after I had bought the
ring I planned to ask her to marry me while we had supper at the
mall. I asked the waiter to play the song Forever by R Kelly and as the
song started to play I stood up and began to sing along to the song
‘Baby I have something that I want to ask you, Baby sit back and lis-
ten. Hey beloved we are gathered here, to join each other hand in
hand, no more playing house no, cause I want to make it real do you
understand, to have and hold until death do us apart’ Refiloe looked
at me as I continued to sing and as the song was about to end I
dropped on one knee and took out the ring and I asked Refiloe to
marry me. She looked at me with eyes full of tears and she said Yes
Sbu I will marry you, I got up and she gave me a hug and everyone
clapped their hands for us. Everything was falling into place as I was
saving so that I can go and pay lobola for Refiloe. One weekend when
I was at the mall with Thando some old lady came to Thando and said
‘Hello Mofokeng’. I thought that the old lady had mistaken Thando for
other child that had a Mofokeng surname and I said hi sorry mama
her surname is Tshabalala and not Mofokeng. The lady looked con-
fused and said Hi I am Mrs Mofokeng and I am a prophet, I am sorry
for calling your child Mofokeng it’s just that our ancestors just con-
nected when I saw your child. I picked up Thando and said No sorry
she is not a Mofokeng, we left the mall and went back to the house
were we found Refiloe cooking lunch for us. I asked her if she knew
anyone with a Mofokeng surname and she said she didn’t know any-
one. 4 months before we got married Thando got sick again and was
admitted at the hospital, the doctors ran test on her and they could
not find anything wrong. It was heart breaking for me to look at Than-
do and not be able to help her; she spent 2 weeks in the hospital until
they allowed us to take her home because there was nothing they can
do to help her. Thando didn’t want to eat or anything but just kept
crying until she slept and when she woke up she would cry again. My
mother called me to check on Thando and she told me that since the
doctors can’t find anything wrong with Thando I must consult a
prophet so that we can know what is wrong with Thando; I told Re-
filoe that we needed to go and consult a prophet in Ivory Park so that
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we can know what is wrong. It was 2 months before we had to get
married and we went to see a prophet in Ivory Park so that we can
know what was wrong with Thando. We arrived in Ivory Park and we
got inside the room to consult, the prophet took his mirror and
looked at it. We sat patiently waiting for the prophet to tell us what is
wrong with Thando and after some silence he looked at us and said
‘my child what I see in the mirror is disturbing but I will tell you what I
see. The reason why Thando is sick it’s because the Bafokeng ances-
tors are angry that this child hasn’t been introduced to them’, I could
not understand why the Bafokeng would want to be introduced to
Thando when her surname was Tshabalala, I asked the prophet why
are the Bafokeng angry because we have done all the Tshabalala ritu-
als for Thando. The prophet responded and said ‘My child it seems
like the child does not belong to the Tshabalala clan because when I
look at my mirror I only see the Bafokeng’, I looked at Refiloe and said
‘Refiloe what does this mean that the child wants the Mofokeng sur-
name? Is your mother or father a Mofokeng? Refiloe didn’t reply and
she started to cry. Refiloe what is wrong tell me, why are you crying? I
looked at the prophet and said please explain to me what does all this
mean? The prophet said ‘my child the mirror is saying that your child
needs her fathers surname and it’s not Tshabalala’.

Refiloe picked up Thando and left the consultation room. I was con-
fused by what was happening and the prophet said ‘my child the
mother of the child knows the truth’, I stood up and followed Refiloe
to the car and we drove back home. I was dealing with stress that my
child was sick and we didn’t know what was wrong and also what the
prophet just told me, Refiloe took Thando to the bedroom and she
came back and sat next to me. I looked at her waiting for her to ex-
plain what the prophet meant when he said the child needed the
Mofokeng surname, she started by saying Sbu I am also confused by
what is happening because while we were driving back to the flat I
tried to remember who has a Mofokeng surname and the one person
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that he can be Thando’s father. I didn’t know what to say to her be-
cause clearly she had lied to me about the baby, I felt used and be-
trayed by Refiloe. Refiloe are you sure that I am Thando’s father? Yes
sbu you are, she replied. No its fine we will go and do a paternity test
tomorrow.

I didn’t know what to do because our wedding was less than a month
away and here I am faced with a sick child that might not be mine.
The following day I took Thando and we went to my doctor who also
tried to diagnose Thando, he took our blood and sent it for a paternity
test. It was one of the longest weeks in my life as I waited for the re-
sults to come back, 3 weeks before our wedding day I received a call
from my doctor and he told me that the paternity results are back. I
didn’t tell Refiloe that I had done the paternity test and I went to the
doctor alone, the doctor gave me a white envelope that was going to
determine if I will marry Refiloe or not. I slowly opened the envelope
and I looked at the results that said the DNA match between Sibusiso
Tshabalala and Thando Tshabalala was 0%. I left the doctors consulta-
tion room and while I was driving home I received a text message
from an unknown number and the text message said ‘when you get a
chance please go and get tested’. After reading the sms I felt like my
life has been a lie because not only have I been raising a child that is
not minnot mine but I could also be HIV positive…

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 Sibusiso
The player that got played.

He thought he was a player by sleeping with

every girl that he met until he met a girl that he
loved and they had a baby together only to find
that the baby was not his.

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