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HANNAH GRACE
ICE BREAKER
Icebreaker
PASSION
SELECTIONBy Hannah Grace
The original title of the work: Icebreaker
© Hannah Grace
© Orsolya Sujer
© Maxim Könyvkiadó Kft.
ISSN 2676-9875
ISBN 978 963 499 689 7 (paperback), publisher code: MX-1727
ANAST ASIA
– AGAIN, ANASTASIA:
If they are together again, I can hear again and Anastasia in the same
sentence
words, I will most likely deviate from my faith.
Since this morning, I've been wracking my last remaining nerve,
after which he sent me straight from the deepest pits of hell
I woke up with a hangover, so I don't need it in the least right now
for Coach Aubrey Brady to punish me.
I focus on suppressing my annoyance as I do
during each training session, when you make it your sacred goal to
push my limits. As I tell myself, this is it
his dedication is what makes him such a great coach, I come to the
decision that he better
if I only think about it with my skates.
"You're inaccurate, Stas!" he shouts at me as we slide past him. - THE
inaccurate girls do not get medals!
What did I say about not cutting my skates?
"Come on, Anastasia!" For once, push yourself a little
Aaron chuckles, and when I give him an ice-cold look, even the
he sticks his tongue at me too.
Aaron Carlise is the best male figure skater to come out of California
at Maple Hills University. When I was offered a place
university, but not my partner, Aaron luckily
he found himself in the same situation, and so we became a couple. This
third year that we skate together - and the third year that
mop the floor with us.
I have a theory that Aubrey is a Soviet spy. Let's say
my evidence is nil and my theory is not really developed.
That is, not at all. But sometimes, when she yells at me about how
pull myself out and lift my chin, I dare to swear that
his Russian accent flashes a little.What is quite interesting is a woman from
Philipsburg, Montana
case.
Comrade Brady was a real figure skating superstar in her day, a
and her movements are still delicate and deliberate, such grace
it's hidden in them that it's hard to believe at first glance that it's capable of
such volume
to shout
She always wears her graying hair pulled back in a tight bun, which makes
her look sharp
his cheekbones and his ever-iconic black faux fur coat
wraps up - Aaron often jokes that it hides the
secrets.
Rumor has it that she is making it to the Olympics with her partner,
Wyatt-
winter. But then Wyatt and Aubrey practiced those a little too much
certain raises until Aubrey ends up with a baby and not one
became richer with a medallion.
And that's why he's been in such a bad mood since only twenty-five years
ago
he started coaching.
"Clair de Lune" ends with him and Aaron facing each other
we finish our routine - our noses almost touch, our chests go wild
it ripples as we try to catch our breath. When we finally hear
the lonely applause, we pull away from each other and go where we are
will undoubtedly be the source of my next headache.
I haven't even stopped when the Brady is already nailing me tight,
green garbage.
"When will that Lutz finally get together?" If it doesn't work, you have to
get out
let's take it from you.
Besides Brady, what makes my life miserable right now is
to pull off a four-turn Lutz without falling on my ass.
Heaven knows how long I've been practicing, but somehow it doesn't want
to come together.
Aaron is doing flawlessly, which is the primary reason I convinced him
add our choreographer to our list.
Pride is a crazy thing. And then in the case of figure skating
especially crazy, because if you screw it up, you face the hard ice
it clicks. But I'd rather lick the ice than watch Aaron get annoying
his mock-disappointed image whenever it comes up to take him out.
"It's getting better, coach," I say, forcing his so much faked enthusiasm
my voice as much as I can handle. "I'm improving." Not perfect yet, though
I practice non-stop.It's a tiny, completely harmless lie. I am really
improving. What
however, I forget to mention that this development is only on ice for the
time being
it is visible outside, especially when I am attached to it
to the tools that help you develop.
"It's really improving," Aaron lies, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. –
Just a little while, A.B.
Nice of Aaron to stick up for me and act like a team
we would be KGB before Aubrey. If only because he saw it face to face
he says Lutz will only come together if I start doping and
i'm building a time machine to get my pre-puberty body back.
Aubrey mutters something unintelligible, then nonchalantly waves,
how can we go
"I'll be waiting for you at the same place tomorrow, and I'd appreciate it if
none of you did."
would have a hangover. I'm sure if you stuff yourself before training
at Kenny's, it's not going to help either of you get into the Olympics
into a team. Did we understand each other?
Fuck it.
"Yes, coach," we say at the same time.
When I finally walk out of the women's locker room, Aaron is waiting,
staring at his phone
at me at the door.
"I fucking told you he'd know." "As soon as I get close enough."
to hit him, I swing my bag towards his stomach with a loud groan. –
I didn't even eat anything!
Aaron groans at the impact, then grabs my bag from my hand and the
he bends it over his shoulder.
"That woman has the smell of a bloodhound."
As is true for most areas of life, figure skating is also much easier,
if the person is a man, since then no one lifts him up and throws him
through the
room twice a day.
In my first year of university, I managed to pick up that particular one
seven kilos typical for freshmen. Well, in my case, it's more like two and a
half
was a kilo, but according to Aaron I was getting too heavy for him to lift,
so since then I haven't gained a single gram.
I try to stick to my diet with almost religious devotion, if only because
a party slips in here and there to keep me sane. The best
my girlfriend's twenty-first birthday was the perfect occasion togo a little
wild, even if it meant a hangover afterwards
I had to face Brady.
We get into Aaron's brand new G-Wagen, the latest guilt-
a calming gift from his sloppy but rich father, and we head home.
At the end of the first year, Aaron and I decided that it would be a good
party in threes
to hang out with my best friend, Lola. Our schedule is similar, that is
and our life revolves around the skates, so it's so self-evident
it all seemed.
Aaron turns onto Maple Avenue and gives me a look as he
I rummage through my handbag in search of my most prized possession.
– What does your diary say, what is the program for tonight?
Rolling my eyes, I let go of his accent that was pinching next to my ear.
- Sheet acrobatics.
"Blow," Aaron says, the tip of his nose crinkling as he grimaces. –
It's already bad enough to plan in advance when you eat and sleep, but
now
do you really have to fix in advance when you're going to have sex?
I don't talk about sleeping and eating - my life is everything
each minute I have carefully allocated in my faithful appointment diary,
which
my friends think it's equally funny and ridiculous. No
i'd say i'm a control freak, but i still need it
to control things.
There is undoubtedly a difference between the two.
I shrug my shoulders and suppress the urge to get under his nose
rub it, unlike him, at least I have sex.
"Ryan's a busy guy and I'm a busy girl." So much time
I want to spend as much time with him as possible before the start of the
basketball season.
Ryan Rothwell's six-foot-tall, dry-clean athletes
perfection. The manager and captain of the university team is just like that
he takes his sport seriously like I take mine, which makes him perfect
subject to the just-no-emotions situation between the two of us. The extra
is
plus Ry is an incredibly sweet guy, so we became great friends as well
based on our mutually beneficial agreement.
"I can't believe you're still messing with him." You are that guy
she's twice your size so she doesn't flatten you into a pancake? Do not wait!
I do not want
to know."I know how big it is." "Giggle, I pinch his face until."
he doesn't push my hand aside. - That's the point.
Most people assume there's more to me than Aaron
a working relationship, but our relationship is more brotherly. Not that
there isn't
handsome, just never developed any kind of romantic attraction
between the two of us.
Aaron is much taller than me, with a well-built, muscular and lanky body
reminds me of a dancer. He wears his black hair cut short and swears
I dare you to use mascara as your sky blue eyes are the darkest,
framed by the most enviable eyelashes that contrast sharply with her pale
skin.
"I now officially know too much about your sex life, Anastasia."
Aaron can't decide if he can handle Ryan or not. Sometimes they get along
well and
then Ryan can see Aaron as I do—someone with
it's fun to hang out with. Every other time, however, one already does it
you'd think Ryan personally ruined Aaron's life or something. Aaron
tends to be embarrassingly abrupt and rude. Pretty unpredictable, but Ryan
up
he doesn't take it either, and he doesn't think I should worry about it.
"I promise, I won't bring you all the way home again, if you promise to,
that you'll drop me off at Ryan's later.
Aaron thinks about that for a moment.
"Okay, we've agreed."
LOLA LOOKS UP FROM HER SALAD, WHICH IS BEING
AGGRESSIVELY PICKED AT
with his fork and puffs out the air.
"I just want to know whose tail Olivia Abbott is after all."
does he suck that he gets the main role for the third year in a row?
I can't stop myself from hissing at his harsh words, but
I know you don't mean it. He was already feeling pretty hot today
in the morning, thanks to the massive amount of alcohol we downed last
night
for his birthday, so today isn't exactly the best day to
to find out he didn't get the role he coveted.
I've seen every single show over the past two years and Lo is just as good
she knows as well as i do that olivia is an amazing actor.
"Couldn't he just be very talented?" And no one's tail
doesn't suck either?"Anastasia, you wouldn't just be petty for five minutes
and you would."
like I don't know Olivia is better than me?
Aaron throws himself into the chair next to me and grabs a carrot stick
from my plate.
"Why are we petty?"
"Olivia Abbott," Lola and I answer at the same time, albeit in the tone of
my friend's voice
dislike just burns like that.
"Sexy chick." Maybe the sexiest on campus, Aaron says
casually, clearly not noticing Lola's jaw dropping. "Single?"
"How the hell am I supposed to know, anyway?" He doesn't talk to anyone.
Just
he walks in, grabs the role I'm applying for, and then continues
he lived his life as an anomaly.
Lola is studying performing arts, where there may be an unwritten rule
one must have a huge personality as all
all the colleagues I've met are just like him. To be with them still
an exhausting battle for attention as an outside observer, but for Olivia
herself
it's real, and that seems to bother people for some reason.
"I'm sorry, Lols." But there will always be a next time - I console you.
We both know it means nothing, but Lola still throws one at me
kisses "And if that makes you feel better, the Lutz still won't work."
Aubrey will soon find out about this and exiles him to Siberia.
"Oh, no." You are officially bankrupt, but how are you going to be able to
do it?
ever step on ice? – grins Lola with sparkling eyes as I look at her
a piercing look. "It'll work out, dear." You work so hard.
His gaze wanders to Aaron, who doesn't care one bit about the
our conversation, so he presses his phone instead. "Hey
Ice princess! Don't you feel like helping out a little?
"If?" Sorry, yeah, you're hot too, Lo.
I'm surprised I don't see smoke coming out of Lola's ears as she bellows
Aaron's head for not paying attention.
I slowly retreat to my bedroom, as I don't want to be alone
attracting attention and being in the crossfire of my roommates' arguments.
With Aaron
and living with Lola is like having siblings who are always the same
they wanted to be.
Aaron, like me, is truly one. Two aging Midwestern parents
prodigy who are desperately trying to hold together the
their marriage. Living with others, after eighteen years of being thethe light
of his parents' eyes, it was a big change for both him and us,
who are forced to put up with him and his mood swings.
Now that she's no longer in Chicago, her parents' relationship isn't exactly
best of all, we always know when things are going to turn for the worse
because
then Aaron gets some ridiculously expensive and unnecessary gift.
Like the G-Wagon.
Unlike the two of us, Lola comes from a large family. After he is a
the youngest and the only girl, she was guaranteed the first place at home,
so he has no problem fixing Aaron.
I'm still hiding in my room when my phone starts vibrating and
Ryan's name flashes on the screen.
RYAN
The guys want to have a party tonight. Do you prefer it?
It was like going to some pep rally or something
they go to shit, but now they would rather stay at home.
I just want to be with you.
If.
You could say that to your reflection.
Are you free now?
NO THAN
Standing IN FRONT OF THE FRONT DOOR, I watch Kitty get into the
Uber – which
an Exec of course, lest he should be embarrassed.
I run my hands through my hair while I'm just unable
figuring out how I got here after I swore this year would be different.
I distinctly remember that it was on the way back from Colorado to
California
on our way i told my best friend robbie that a
quarter will be different. I could have told him twenty times over the
course of two days, with coffee
during our full trip.
I lasted three weeks.
Then a person quickly pulls me out of wallowing in self-pity
a mumbling voice coming from behind me. Robbie and my other two
roommates, JJ and
Henry, they're all sitting in our living room drinking their coffee like a
Cast of The View.
"Just look over there," Robbie says smugly. "Well, here we are."
what happened you little rib?Robbie has made my life miserable since we
were five years old. His father, whom even today
sixteen years later I still call you Mr. H, there was the local hockey team
coach in Eagle County, where we grew up. That's why we met and became
friends, and Robbie has been a hump on my back ever since.
Ignoring him and their searching eyes, he headed straight for the kitchen
I go in the direction where I pour myself a cup of coffee, and then instead
of
to give Robbie the pleasure of answering, simply
I will introduce him.
As I down my coffee - which feels like two seconds
I can feel their eyes on me all the time. This is the worst in if
you live with your teammates - nothing is a secret.
JJ, Robbie and I are all grads and have been living together ever since,
that we lived in a dorm room as freshmen, but Henry was a sophomore a
from team.
The guy is a really good hockey player, but he still needs to get used to the
whole social thing
pressure that comes with being on a sports team. He hated living in school
and he found it difficult to make friends outside the team, so we offered
him
move here.
We always had a free room, because the garage became a barrier-free net
was made for Robbie, and Henry was extremely grateful for the
for opportunity.
Although it's only been here for three short weeks, we can already see it
starting
to be more confident - which is probably why he doesn't anymore
I find it hard to help JJ and Robbie with my revenge.
"Why did you knock Kitty Vincent?" Henry asks his coffee mug
above the rim. "Not exactly a nice girl."
Oh yeah, and the kid has no filter whatsoever.
"I'm gonna pretend it never happened, man." Neither does Kitty
he was very excited about it and I don't remember a second of it, so
it doesn't even matter. "I shrug, then walk into the living room and."
I sit down in one of the armchairs. "You three, what the hell."
could you let this happen?
I'm old enough not to put the blame on someone else
for my mistakes? Of course. But will I still try? Nah.
"We tried to stop you from going with her, bro," JJ lies
cheekily, raising his hands in front of him defensively. "You said it was
delicious."smell, and how good it is to hold her ass. How can I stand
between you and the truth?
between love?
I groan loudly as my head begins to throb from the sound. If Jaiden that
claims he tried to stop me from leaving, then he probably called him
the Uber and put me and Kitty in the car.
JJ is a one-eyed kid from somewhere in the middle of Nebraska where the
bird isn't
goes, so when he was young, his only entertainment was to
inspired others.
Her parents always visit here in June so we can join together JJ-
at the Pride parade in Los Angeles, where they always proudly wear the
their pansexual ally badge. Thanks for the time in our house
spend, I managed to get to know them quite well, and that's how I know
that he is also JJ's father
exactly like his son, to the point where I have no idea he's his mother
that he could bear both of them in one household at the same time.
Mrs. Johan is a great woman with the patience of a saint.
Before he leaves, he always fills our fridge with all kinds of curries and
with side dishes, and also has great taste in horror films -
maybe that's why I love him so much.
He might be the only reason I haven't cut it out yet
Jaiden.
Robbie rolls over next to me and wraps his arm around my shoulder, which
I assume is
intended as a comforting gesture.
- Your decision that you will only focus on school and hockey,
it took longer than i expected. Now pull yourself together because
you have to take us to class!
HOCKEY BUNNIES
BOBBY HUGHES
I think I'm dying.
CHRIS HUDSON
Rest in peace, mate.
ROBBIE HAMLET
Are you drinking with us tonight?
BOBBY HUGHES
To quote Michael Scott, I'm ready for more pain.
JOE CARTER
I'll bring the tequila roulette.
HENRY TURNER
Faulkner e-mails us to go to the awards room, not the field.
JAYDEN JOHAL
what the fuck
HENRY TURNER
He sent it an hour ago.
The prize-giving hall is a room used for events in the sports building
in the middle part. Most of us don't go there much unless we're in
troublewe are - the coaches work there when there is no practice or game
and the year
the celebrations are held there at the end. If they call us there, that's it
means that someone really fucked something up and I really hope
that this someone is not me.
"I have no idea what it could be," JJ says as we get into the
to my car. "Do you know Josh Mooney, the baseball guy from my class?"
That
he said, their training will also be canceled. They also need to go to the
awards hall
to go, but half an hour after us. That's fucking weird, man.
It's only been three weeks since the semester started, but what a mess
can we be
ANAST ASIA
THE ENTIRE HOCKEY TEAM FLOWS through the front door and
immediately the
towards the bar cabinet.
I wait until Russ is almost walking past me when
I grab his arm, forcing him to stop.
- To my room! Three-nine-nine-three.
His eyes darken, and then he squeezes out a nervous laugh.
"You're not exactly my case, Captain."
When he tries to go after the rest of the team who are drinking beers
they distribute in the living room, I squeeze his arm even more.
"Today was a fucking long day." Don't want it in front of the whole team
i have to do this.
His shoulders fall forward in defeat, and then, lowering his head, he raises
the
on the stairs like a misbehaving student. I mean, well, practically
now he's really a bad student.
Directly before the start of the season to share on the field a ready
a fucking logistical nightmare - not to mention that there will be a few
domestic ones
our match too. Bass. I can already feel the migraine coming on me, and
more
we didn't put together a schedule for him either.
That brown-haired ice dancing girl almost had smoke coming out of her
ears
earlier. He was surprised he didn't pop a vein on his forehead when he did
his coach told him not to worry about it. I tried to be discreet
to interrogate them, which wasn't a difficult task since she was yelling.
In my heart, I would do the same whenever I can think of “no
worry about him,” so at least we have something in common. Her
boyfriend
it didn't seem to bother him at all, so maybe it would help him
to calm down—or maybe not, based on the way the girl shook him off
about yourself.
Funny little creature. He immediately spoke up, keeping his head down,
but
in the meantime, I think it was as if he had already begun to open up to
me.Minutes earlier, he was clearly on the verge of tears. I hope
he accepts my invitation and we can have a drink, so that it develops
between us
something friendly. It would make the whole situation easier.
I decide to let Russ wait for me for a good twenty minutes, in that a
in the hope that the guilt will consume him a little, and so it won't be like
that
it's hard for me to find out what happened. Then you can listen from above
as the
his teammates laugh and joke without him, but he won't know that a
guys are laughing about how fucking crap this season is going to be.
I feel sorry for them.
So much so that I don't even kick the newbies out like they do in beer
they drown their sorrows. I feel like I should give something motivational
speech, or what I know what to cheer everyone up, but first who
I need to find out exactly how we got into this mess.
When I finally join him, Russ is sitting in the wheelchair and here—
he goes there with him. I expect you to make some pointed remark,
and he will complain that he had to wait so long - because I did
that's exactly what I would have done when I was a cocky little asshole -
but not a word
speak. He sits quietly, waiting for me to make the first move.
"What did you do?" He rubs his palms together, then leans forward and
onto his knees
supports his elbows. It's tense. His face is pale, he mostly looks like he is
he is about to throw away the tac. "Dude, I can't help you if you don't tell
me."
what should I help you with?
- I did not do anything.
I run my hand over my face trying not to lose it
my patience.
"I know you did something and I can't fix it if you're lying."
me.
When I started playing hockey at Maple Hills, our captain was a true
he was an asshole, and everyone hated him for it. I never expected it to be
one
day I will be the captain, but I knew that if it turned out like this, I would
not be like
He. Things are pretty bad for Russ at home, and I know that's not why he
worked
out of his gut to escape from there, and then come here to do it again
treat him the same as his parents at home.
With another member of the team, I might not be so patient, but good
being a leader also means that you know how to achieve that your people
open up to him.I take a place on my bed across from him, watching him at
the same time
or ten different feelings run through him.
"It wasn't a joke, I swear."
"Alright, go ahead!"
"There's this girl at UCLA."
{‡}
. We met at a party a few weeks ago.
We hung out, and then he showed up at every single party I was at. That
I thought he was single, but…” He looks down and the one on his palm
it pokes calluses.
"But?"
"But she has a boyfriend." The guy somehow found out and sent a message
that
I'm going to fucking regret ever looking at that chick. Then
all this came, so this must be revenge, right?
"Are you still in touch with this girl?"
Russ shakes his head.
"As soon as I found out that she had a boyfriend, I blocked her from
everywhere."
"Don't tell anyone about this, okay?" That's why they would be kicked off
the team. Seriously
I say kid! If they ask you what you were doing up here, say that
something is wrong at home or what do I know and you wanted to talk to
me.
"Okay, get it."
I nodded towards the door.
"Go get yourself a beer!"
I'll wait until he leaves the room and stumbles down the stairs before, that
day
for the second time, I would scream my entire swearing dictionary into my
pillow.
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
THE PAST THREE WEEKS have been one of the most stressful periods of
my life.
Aaron Carlisle - God, even his name sounds so dopey -
he was talking to everyone who was willing to listen to him. Into this
including his coach, who told our coach, who told this
he started threatening to rip our limbs off if anyone
don't explain it to him fucking fast, but what the hell is going on here.
Lately I've been spending more time being yelled at and the
with a team, like on the ice. The guys who trashed the field are UCLA
members of his hockey team, which university is our oldest rival. Aaron
didn't
he completely lied: the girl is really pregnant, but that has nothing to do
with it
To Russ.
The poor kid didn't know anything about it all - just that
he thought he had managed to knock over someone's girl. Then when his
brother about everything
found out, she panicked and blamed Russ for what happened.
I guess it was easier to blame a stranger, and I doubt that the
she would have thought her brother would come and screw up our arena.
Russ has aged about ten years since this all started. THE
relief that crossed his face when I told him what we were
actually happened, it was unbelievable. Faulkner and I had a meeting at
With UCLA's coach and team captain, who shared with us the full
story. I've known Cory O'Neill, the captain, for a couple of years now, and
the guy just
he was as stuck as I was.
It was like when Dr. Phil announces the paternity test
result - although in terms of style this band would be better suited to Jerry
Springer.
Perhaps I don't need to say that we are all on thin ice right now
we dance at Faulkner's. He said that the next idiot who is anything
he does nonsense, benching him for the whole season. He said,
cuts off our post-college options - giving up every single game,
until we learn to behave.So for the rest of the year I'll be a ready fallen
angel,
because I'm not sure if Vancouver would need me even if
if they knock me out, or if they tear off a few of my limbs, that's out of the
question,
to go back to Colorado after I leave this behind
place.
Well, what a cliché it is for the guy who has enormous privileges
grew up, do you have a father complex? Yes. But excuse me, father
a huge ass. I'm sure they haven't been hugged enough
in childhood, and now makes it a problem for me and my sister.
Fortunately, I've already managed to drag it a thousand miles away, but
poor Sasha still has to put up with our father since he's just
sixteen. Although I don't think it will drag you away from home even if you
load the
eighteen. The underrated, overworked skiing wonder remains.
Dad is willing to pay serious money all over the northern hemisphere
to her coach if it means Sash could be the next Lindsey V onn.
Ideally without damage, although I'm not sure
our father is very worried about Sasha's safety. All she wants is her
daughter
win.
Fortunately, Dad hates hockey. Careless, violent sports they are
for those who lacked self-discipline and long for chaos, he says
always. So many years ago, Mom signed me up for Mr. H's team. Just then
she got pregnant with Sasha and needed something to wear her out
ever-moving five-year-old.
Contrary to my father's hopes, skiing did not work out, and proudly
I can say that since then I have disappointed him every single day. Not
even that
he wouldn't be surprised if I told him what's going on around here now, but
this
it would only work if I answered his calls, but not very often
I used to.
Besides, he would find a way to blame it all on me.
Robbie's stare is so intense I can almost feel his gaze
burning my skin, pulling me out of my thoughts.
Cuddling him is one of my favorite pastimes, and that's why
they realize why JJ likes being an asshole so much. Robbie in line
he throws things on the floor, taps his phone against the TV remote, and
after a good ten minutes of doing so, he could not get any reaction
squeezes out of me, starts coughing loudly.I stare stubbornly at the TV and
suppress the urge to
I grin. Mike Ross is about to win another case when
Henry nudges him in the side with his elbow.
"Robbie is trying to get your attention." You right now
do you do it from above?
"Great question, Henry, thank you!" Robbie shouts dramatically. - Direct
are you coming at me nathan
When I finally turn to her, she looks at me like a grumpy mom.
"Sorry, buddy." Did you say something?
Robbie mutters something under his mustache, then exhales loudly.
"Have you organized my birthday party yet?"
"You mean your surprise birthday party?" The one about which specifically
did you say you don't want to know anything? That, you know, a real
surprise
be?
Six weeks ago, Robbie said he had a surprise party for his birthday
asks, as party planning is said to be very stressful and time-consuming
up. He didn't want to mess with the logistics of his own birthday, so this is
the
task fell on me. I told him that if it's such a big deal, so be it
you don't have to organize our parties anymore. Then they're an asshole
called me and told me to grow up.
"If the surprise is that you didn't organize any shit, then thanks,
I do not need it.
Henry immediately jumps up, his eyes dart between me and Robbie, and
then
he starts running towards the stairs. Robbie follows with narrowed eyes
his receding form, then turns to me again. I don't care about the whole
thing
and I pretend I have no idea that Henry has been here for weeks
trying not to spoil the surprise. The kid has no poker face
there isn't, and he managed to convince himself now that there were only a
few days left
until the party, he will fail at the last hurdle.
"Calm down, Robert," I say, fully aware that
by using his full name, I'm only going to draw him up even more. - THE
stress is not good for your old heart.
I would have thought we were done with this, but instead Robbie scratches
him
his chin and hums a line. It is not typical for Mr. Self-confidence
it was difficult for him to express himself, so now he managed to do it on
his own
to attract my attention, as he wanted so far.
"Perhaps…perhaps you invited Lola?"Oh, this is going to be fun.
"Who?"
I just manage to dodge the pillow thrown at me.
"Don't be an ass, Nathaniel." You know exactly who I'm talking about.
Three weeks ago, while I was on that unimaginable way
I'll screw it up with Stassie, Robbie is her best friend
met. He refuses to say exactly what happened, saying he
that he is a gentleman, but it is not difficult to conclude after Lola
Saturday afternoon he left in one of Robbie's T-shirts.
I haven't seen her since then so I thought it was a one night stand
just between them, but judging by Robbie's nervous look, maybe not.
"Would you like him to come?" In the hypothetical case that there might
be
party?
"We keep in touch, so yeah." Theoretically.
Robbie has no trouble getting a girl, but I can't pretend
as if he wouldn't change them if he got bored of them. The fact that they
talk and don't
they're just having sex with Lola, a good sign.
- I bought. Are you ready to workout? I ask, carefully changing the subject.
before I divulge the secret details of the party.
"Yeah, just wait, I'll get my warmer first."
Fuck it. Now I have to find a way to get it here
Lola.
ANAST ASIA
TEAM-BUILDING.
A word. Twelve letters. Two hours of hell.
– We will do some simple exercises to break the
ice, Brady announces to the crowd. He sounds so enthusiastic.
as I feel. I know you're not in the mood for all this,
since he complained about it all the way here. Coach Faulkner is by his
side, and so is he
at least he looks like he'd rather be anywhere else.
David Skinner - who is becoming a significant hump on my back - wants
some
to see an improvement in the dynamics between the two teams. Brady told
me it was Skinner
he jumped in just when Ruhi, one of the younger solo figure skaters,
he was just arguing with one of the hockey guys for disrupting his practice.
Skinner was thus able to witness Ruhi's very creative hockey words
user's offences.
So now we're doing team building.
What a great way to waste two hours of literally anything
I could spend it with someone else. With that much force, I could even
throw the
my deadline diary, as it seems everyone is busy these days
he sucks at my routine.
Faulkner clears his throat, then looks at Brady for guidance.
Outside of the ice rink, he looks so half-assed, out of place, and
if I didn't wallow in self-pity, for again a
stuck in an awards hall, I'd probably even find it funny.
"I'm sure you've heard of speed dating before-"
says Brady. – My skaters will all sit down at a table.
Hockey team, and you will switch tables every five minutes.
"For the record: this is not a real date," Faulkner finally says. - THE
the goal is to get to know each other a little better. Talk to the
about your plans, your hobbies, the name of your dog, I don't care, but be
yourselfthey are respectful. Hughes, Hudson, Carter and Johal, just to
clarify, that's you
it's for the four of you.
The four guys pretend to be shocked as their teammates
they laugh.
"It's a joke," Aaron groans. "We are not children."
As much as it pains me to agree with Aaron,
it is still so. In the last three weeks, he has given himself and
he behaved so it was a dream to work with him. He even took me out to
dinner
us with Lola to Aiko, a fancy Japanese restaurant, which we don't have
anyway
I could afford it.
He seems to have pulled himself together, and for that I am beyond
grateful.
I haven't seen Ryan much lately as he spends a lot of time with Olivia, but
whenever he comes over, Aaron is always terribly polite to him. I'm trying
to notice the positives so that Aaron doesn't start nagging.
"It might be fun." Some of them are quite good.
Henry Turner, one of the sophomores on the team, really snuck into the
to my heart. One day last week it was about the social responsibility of
companies
I was stressing on my solo essay in the library when she is terribly anxious
came to me with a picture. He introduced himself, said that he was a
member of the hockey team,
and that he heard what happened. He said he couldn't reveal too much,
but that's about it
still want to explain.
And then he managed to tell everything about everyone.
Henry started with Nathan ending it at that moment
to all the funny traditions that he became a captain. Heaven and earth
he swore there was nothing the team, including Nathan, could have done
to prevent this disaster.
To Russ, who set that girl up—well, as it turns out, he didn't
he made it up - things aren't going well at home, and that's the only way he
could do it
to step from that he worked incredibly hard to complete
receive a scholarship.
Nathan knew that if they found out what had happened, Russ could lose
him
his scholarship, and since his parents would not be able to pay the tuition,
he is forced to
would be to return to the life he had worked so hard to
get out. Nathan didn't even entrust the information to his own team—
he is so protective of Russ, despite his wrongdoing.
Henry wanted me to know that Russ wasn't some cocky, rich guy
she is short, but quiet and tries not to get into trouble, and that Henry is
doing thishe can sympathize a lot because he is like that himself. Not much
in the first year
was a friend of hers - even though she's from Maple Hills, the university is
terribly overwhelming
was for him.
He hated coli, but since he had no friends to hang out with
would have been forced to either stay there or move home. To this Nathan
offered him a room in their house, although it is almost unheard of in the
team
it is considered a thing to live with a second-year graduate. From this fact
starting out, he explained to me what a good face his captain is, and
although now
I'm mad at him, I could really give him a chance.
After sharing about all the team members I don't even know yet
some gossip with me, he ended his little speech by saying that I am the
the most beautiful figure skater you've ever seen. After which he quickly
clarified,
that he thinks about my performance and not my looks, and when he
doesn't
I fall on my ass or move like a baby giraffe, my performance
impressive.
And if I hadn't liked him enough after that, he brought me coffee and
helped me learn.
Brady claps his hands to let us begin. The room from Aaron
I sit on the opposite side. Maybe, lately
he acts friendly, but even then I don't want him to interrogate the
my conversations.
These five-minute conversations will work, right? It's only half past two
minutes per person. I can talk about myself for two and a half minutes.
This will work.
I think.
My first "couple" sits opposite me and immediately relaxes me with the
with a big smile. His short-cropped hair bleached the golden brown skin of
his arms
he is decorated with detailed black tattoos, which I can see because of his
sleeve
at that moment he put up with sitting down, then he winked at me.
His jaw is covered with a short beard, and a small silver ring glitters in his
nose.
He seems like the kind of guy you can get into a big fight with.
but in the best sense of the word.
He holds out his hand to me, which seems strangely formal.
"Jaiden Johal, but you can call me JJ."
This is all so embarrassing, but I'm going with it anyway.
"Anastasia Allen, but Stassie will do, too."
"Oh, I know exactly who you are." I consider it my personal mission to
to know every single woman who takes down Nate Hawkins. LargeI'm a
fan of you.
I'm blushing already, so great.
"Thank you?" I think. Tell me about yourself! We have to fill it somehow
these five minutes.
The room is filled with the noise of people talking, which seems like a good
sign. JJ's leg
he stretches out and makes himself comfortable in his chair.
"I'm twenty-one years old." Scorpio Sun, Moon and Ascendant.
I'm from Nebraska, and if you've ever been to Nebraska, you know
that you can't fucking do anything there. He rubs his face
to give yourself time to think about what to say next. "Defensive."
I play position and after graduation I will go to the San José Marlins.
I hate pickles. Faulkner said about sexual things
we can't talk so I have no idea what else to say.
I take a quick look at my phone - ninety seconds so far
volt.
"I'm twenty-one too." I'm from Seattle, I'm single, and
I work at Simone's Skating Rink. I've been figure skating since I was little,
always in pairs, and we've been partners with Aaron since freshman year. –
I start to squirm uncomfortably in my chair, wishing JJ
he would still be talking about himself. – Our goal is to enter the American
team and make it to the next Olympics. "Why is this so hard?"
whole? "I'm studying economics." You want to know my big three
my ticket?
He nods enthusiastically.
- Of course.
– Virgo Sun and Ascendant, Cancer Moon. – JJ immediately hisses and
shakes his head
shake it. - What's wrong?
"Cancer moon." That's a big red flag.
"Tell me the triple scorpion?"
Jaiden raises his hands defensively, hazel eyes widening.
"I'll let you know that we are completely misunderstood."
Glancing at the clock, I see that we still have a minute left.
"Sixty seconds." There's something else?
Then he starts rubbing his palm in such a way that I start to worry, but
what?
is about to ask.
"If you could choose, you'd rather have a fish head, but a human body, or...
would you rather keep your head and have a dead body?I just stare at him
for at least thirty seconds because
I am unable to formulate any kind of answer. It knocks the
a watch on his wrist.
"Tick tock, Stassie." Time is about to expire.
- I do not know.
"Ten, nine, eight, seven..."
"Fish head and human body." I think. God, this is so undi
to think about it.
"It's a great choice," he praises. He seems satisfied with my answer.
Brady blows his whistle to signal it's time to change. JJ winks again
towards me, which will undoubtedly make me blush. "I hope we'll see each
other again."
Time just flies as the guys at my table follow one another.
Three freshmen asked for my number, a guy named Bobby in five minutes
through he was talking about a girl instead of him, when a girl named
Mattie
guy realized that we have an hour together, our whole five minutes with
that
spent that he asked me to explain to him our latest house, the
and he wrote my answers in his mobile phone.
The next time the whistle blows, Robbie rolls over to my table,
and finally it's nice to see someone I know more or less.
"Anastasia."
"Robbie." I'm surprised to see you here.
There might be something between Lola and Robbie, but I'm not sure
in it. Even Lola herself isn't entirely sure. The moment that
found out we were going to have "team building", I was given strict
instructions to find out
Who.
- How are you?
- I'm fine. I hoped that the next four minutes and—
glance at your watch - you'll spend twenty-eight seconds
that you are telling me about your roommate.
Lola is going to blow her brains out when I get home. This is my life
four minutes at best. Lo is an open book - what you see is what you get.
Easy
to tell someone else about it, as he loves everything and he is all time
his most loving and supportive friend.
I'm almost ashamed to say it, but Joe and Kris are dead funny, so
that I am forced to press my hand over my mouth to keep from laughing
out loud, which is annoying since I couldn't think of more
add a hockey player to the list of people I don't consider a hump on my
back.It was just that Henry would be on that list, until the end of time.
The ten minutes of laughter came just in time, since I am in such a good
mood,
when Russ sits down at my table.
At this point, it seems unnecessary to describe hockey players,
because the only word that comes to mind when I look at them is big. This
is Russ
is no exception, but the only thing that makes him different from his
friends is his baby face.
Unlike the others, he doesn't have a beard. Her eyes are large and soft—
like a puppy.
I've never noticed this before, even though I haven't seen him yet
from close. On top of that, he also seems nervous as hell, when I can think
of what
said Henry about being a quiet guy.
"I'm Stassie." And you're Russ, right?
He nods as the tips of his ears turn red.
"Yes." Nice to meet you. Would you like to tell us about yourself?
something? I can't tell you anything interesting.
Oh Russ, why do you have to be such a shy puppy when I want to be angry
be on you?
I start doing the same crap that all the other guys do
I performed. Russ asks questions to get me to talk more and what
the whistle blows and he continues standing, I still don't know anything
about him
neither.
- Nice to meet you! he says gently to me
let.
The task is almost over, and it's terribly annoying that
practically achieved the desired effect. After I listened to it
the desires and goals of all of them, it's hard to be grumpy about having to
to share the field with the guys.
I mean, I said it was hard. It is not impossible.
I know on an exclusive basis, only two are back. The social
my battery is starting to give up the fight, but I'm still trying to get it
together
myself because I know it will be worth it when Henry throws himself a
in the chair opposite me.
"There's no need for that, is there?" he mumbles as he puts his elbows on
the table
supports him, and puts his head in his palm. "Why should I know what his
name is?"
someone's childhood favorite, or when the
their birthday? Only hackers are interested in such things. Me too
I just don't like computers.I am shocked.
In the few face-to-face meetings we have, Henry is always like that
he was calm and relaxed, as if he had just come from a massage. Seems,
Skinner has managed to find the one thing that hangs him: it
forced socialization.
"Please don't tell me about your pets, Anastasia," she begs.
as he runs a hand through his short auburn locks and sighs. "There isn't."
I can pretend to care.
"Would you like to sit quietly?" There will be only one person left after me.
You can have a little rest before the finale.
"That's a great idea, thanks."
Henry closes his eyes and I have no choice but to
I watch him take a little rest. This makes me feel so weird
at the same time, what else could I do? Henry could even go as a model if a
hockey would not suit him. Perfectly symmetrical face, smooth, radiant
brown skin and the sharpest cheekbones I've ever seen on a guy. Beautiful.
"I can feel you staring." Would you stop please?
I'm glad she keeps her eyes closed so she can't see what it's like
my face also turned terribly red. Brady's whistle blows and Henry
with just one fleeting glance in my direction, he catches me.
There's only one person I haven't faced yet, and that's it
the person I fear the most. It takes forever - or
at least it feels that way - when it takes up space. A Maple Hills Titans t-
shirt
and he's wearing gray sweatpants, and I'm hating myself for it
I'm a woman who is turned on by a guy in gray sweatpants. THE
damn it. No, there won't be any dizziness here.
"Hali," he says cheerfully. "I'm Nathan Hawkins."
"Now you're going to play the idiot here for me, huh?"
Ignoring my question, he raises an eyebrow next to his ear.
- And you?
"Nathan, what are you doing anyway?" I ask as I put my arm around her
my hand and lean back in my chair. Nathan imitates exactly. From the
outside
it may seem that we are the least approachable table, which is that
let's be honest, maybe it is.
"Let's start over!" Everyone likes a fresh start, right? Well
then let's do the same. You can't be mad at me forever."I plan on being
mad at you for more than eternity, so there you go."
I feel like you are grossly underestimating me. "He laughs at that, but I
don't."
I know what to do with myself, because I want to smile too
song.
Fuck it.
"Your dedication to the cause is commendable, Allen," he coos. –
I already know you're a figure skater, studying economics, and Seattle-
you come from I also managed to find out that sometimes it is a nightmare
come true
or, at the same time, you can be very sweet. "Immediately at that."
My eyebrows run to the middle of my forehead from confusion, and
Nathan quickly
he adds, "In Henry's direction, not me."
"Henry is nice to me."
His face becomes a little gloomy at this, his charming mask cracks a little.
"I want to be nice to you too." Look, I'm sorry I lied.
My hands were tied and I had to put Russ first. Honestly
I want to be your friend, Anastasia.
"I know and I understand." You don't know me, you can't trust me or what
and that's okay. I understand that, but when I tried to tell you,
how I feel so you can be aware of my point of view, all of it
you settled it by saying I was overreacting.
I feel so naive for sharing this with him, but enough is enough
I've had therapy in my life to try
to communicate my feelings. Everyone keeps saying Nathan is good
guy, so now I'm giving him a chance to prove it.
"I can understand why you wanted to avoid me after that." "With his
hand."
he digs into his hair, pulling the strands as if he is angry with himself. –
I'm sorry, I shouldn't have acted like that. Can we start over?
Then Brady's whistle blows for the last time, but Nathan doesn't move.
He waits for me to answer, his brown eyes almost straight into my fucking
soul
see.
"This puts you on probation." "I sigh."
As he grins widely, the heat floods my cheeks again.
"I'm going to do damn well."
"You do better."
Shit, shit, shit.Eighth chapter
NO THAN
ANAST ASIA
HE HAS THAT tiny, but real chance that at any moment
I spontaneously burst into flames.
Nate's voice is barely above a whisper as he suggests, let's test his theory,
me
however, I can feel each syllable on my skin as goosebumps run over my
skin
first on my neck, then down my chest. My body in that moment
I was told by Nate placing his hands on either side of my head and leaning
in
Shall I bring it.
He's barely touched me and I'm ready to turn him into a puddle
melt at his feet.
I don't know if it's the proximity, the pure adrenaline, or the
tequila, but every single sane thought I have is lost and I get it
myself to press my mouth to his.
Without wasting a second, he ran his hand through my hair falling on the
back of my head and
it grips. His free hand glides over my body, then his palm on my ass
he smooths, making me moan into his mouth.
Nate is everywhere at once - I can't help it
hold on to him and let him do it, and when his mouth is sucking
and nibbles and migrates down my neck, I'm practically in a hurry
air.
I swear when I followed him up here I had no idea this was going to
happen
the end. But he looks so damn good in the tuxedo and that all night
I watched him, as he kept nervously checking to see if the party was going
well, he stole a bit
yourself into my heart. And she's fucking sexy too, did I mention that? All
of it
dark hair, dark eyes, and muscles on the back of muscles.
He kneels in front of me, loosens his bow tie and unbuttons it
the top button of his shirt. Messy - because I got into it first - and
he looks up at me with a flushed face. He runs his hand from my ankle to
my knee and then
back down, and yes, I'm still about to melt.
- Are you sure?"Do you have pen and paper so I can draw you a map?"
Just kidding. Why am I kidding? Why do I find it looks that way?
at me, like I'm not impressed at all, so funny? And it is
sexy?
"I'm not kidding about consent, Anastasia," he says softly.
as he leans forward to plant a kiss on the inside of my knee.
- I'm sure. "I don't even know why I'm sure." But in that
I'm sure I shouldn't be sure. Would not be
I'm allowed to like the way he lifts my leg over his shoulder. That's for sure
I shouldn't be enjoying the way he runs his tongue along my thigh.
It pulls the fabric of my dress aside, and when I put this dress on earlier,
I didn't expect the evening to end like this. I can hear you
he moans in pleasure as he nears the base of my thigh and realizes
that I'm not wearing panties.
The wait is completely exhausting. I know he's doing it right away, as he's
getting
it gets closer and closer, but still doesn't really do anything.
I'm about to open my mouth to lash out at him, try
as his tongue slips between my labia, circling my clit.
A loud, lustful moan fills the room. I don't even notice
this voice came from me until I feel him move
his shoulder as this filth laughs at himself.
Fingers creep up the back of my thighs until they can't
where to go. Huge hands slide on my ass and squeeze it,
as he sucks my clit into his mouth in a way that makes me feel
as if I were floating.
I'm totally done. A writhing, groaning, trembling mass of bankruptcy. THE
damn it. I don't even need to look at his face to know what he's like
he was smug, not that I could look at him at all - because he was present
in a moment he digs it deep between my thighs.
I run my hands through his hair to have something to hold on to
a satisfied moan erupts from his throat, making my stomach churn
butterflies multiply.
I want to say something clever to him, to talk him out of it somehow.
Not to give him the satisfaction of knowing he did it in minutes
turning me into a whining mass of failure.
He lets go of my butt with one hand, and when I look down, one
a pair of brown eyes looking back at me. Almost scorching all the way
through, every little thingwatching me for a reaction, he slides two fingers
into me and 2.5
it finds my g-spot in seconds.
The game is over.
He moves it in and out faster and faster, in perfect coordination with his
tongue
his fingers in me, and if he didn't hold my whole body with his mouth,
I would probably have collapsed by now.
The feeling is getting stronger and stronger as I pull harder and harder
her hair as I scream, my stiletto heels straining against the hard muscles of
her back as
I desperately try to move my hips to ride it
fingers.
"Nathan…" I whimper. My body tenses up like I can't breathe
I get. "Nathan, I'm about to…"
I can't even finish the sentence when I have every bit of it
I'm already convulsing and I cry out, everything is tingling and throbbing as
it is
twitching and squirming, I tighten around his fingers and my whole body
beauty and heat overwhelms me.
Pulling his fingers and mouth away, Nate leans back to get a good look
to take, and then with the most smug expression I've ever seen on his face,
a
he puts his fingers in his mouth and kisses them without even one
would break eye contact even for a moment.
Oh, screw it.
IT'S BEEN SEVERAL DAYS since the party and I'm learning something
new every single day
thing about myself.
A disaster does just that to a person.
The first thing I learned is that it works well in high heels
running—I found that out when I ran out of Nate's room. Then
I learned that I can't pull myself together, even then,
when I'm actively trying to avoid someone. And also that
I'd be a horrible criminal - I'd be caught right away. He is also overly
excitable and
I'm paranoid. Thanks to that, when I wake up to someone loudly
knocks on my door, my first reaction is to immediately panic.
Ryan's arm around my waist tightens and his head sinks deeper into the
he digs into my neck as his annoyed moan makes my skin tremble.
"Mute it already."There is only one person in this house who is confident
enough
to pound on someone else's door so early in the morning.
"What the hell do you want, Lola?"
"Are you going to fuck, or can I come in?"
Ryan and I didn't even have sex the night before, we just filmed,
after that we fell asleep. We agreed, now that Ryan is about to propose
Olivia, don't date other people, the "extras" part of our friendship is over.
I am not saddened by it, as I have always known it to be
it will end someday. I'm glad I got a best friend
from this whole, otherwise wonderful thing that was between the two of
us.
Ryan pulls his limbs off of me and turns onto his back with a loud
exhalation.
"If we had fucked, you would have ruined the mood right now."
"Okay, I'll come in!" Shut up, Rothwell.
With two boxes on her hip, Lola bursts through the door, then takes it
down
himself on the bed. He covers his eyes dramatically when he sees Ryan
bare chest.
The guy looks at me in disbelief as he pulls up the quilt to
covers himself. Whether we hang out or not, I'd be happy to wallpaper the
my bedroom with a picture of Ryan's naked body. Lola is ridiculous.
"How's my favorite non-love couple doing this morning?" he asks
cheerfully as he throws one of the boxes to me. "We received a gift!"
Ryan yawns and, making sure to keep his body covered,
stretches his limbs.
"I'd rather you woke me up with breakfast instead of a headache."
Ryan's favorite thing about sleeping here is when Lola makes breakfast.
Charming, isn't it?
Lo clicks her tongue disapprovingly.
“Nobody likes drama queens, Rothwell.
"Who did the gift come from?" I ask as I examine the box
he wrote my last name on it in big letters.
"From Nate." – Lola is typing something on her phone, then the phone
rings
video call start indicator, familiar voice. – We have to unfold during a
video call.
Video call?
"Lo, wait…"
- Good morning! says Robbie. "You're beautiful this morning."
"He also has an audience," I grumble before he can even begin
phone sex."Me too," the guy replies. Lola turns to have her back to me and
To Ryan. He holds his phone up so all three of us can see each other.
Robbie does the same, showing Nate and JJ sitting on either side of him,
who
as if they were eating cereal. JJ turns it from his bowl to the camera
looks away and swallows. Nathan also looked up, but nothing could be
read from it
from his face. Robbie doesn't care, he just continues to make noise. –
Open your gifts now!
"Here you go, Rothwell," Lo says as he turns to us again and leans in
to Ryan to hand him the phone. "Make yourself useful and."
be the cameraman.
Finally—feeling like hours after Lo burst into my room—
I tear open the box. It's a strange feeling to open one that was supposedly
given to me by Nathan
gift while sitting on my bed with Ryan. I have no reason to, though
I feel weird.
Oh wait, maybe that's because I've been avoiding Nate since he was five
days earlier he gave me the best oral sex of my life, after which
the first time he sees me in the same bed with someone else.
Maybe that's why. Reaching into the box, I pull out its contents -
a Titans hockey jersey.
Lo squealed excitedly as she held up her own. At the back of it there
it says mitchell and when i turn mine over its the big white one
the name Allen, spelled out in letters, glares at me.
"Thanks, Nate!"
"I heard that's what it takes to get you to listen to me." Welcome to
in a team!
It seems the poor newbie at the door delivered the message at Robbie's
party.
"Pick it up!" Ryan says from behind the camera. "I can't believe it."
I'm in the same bed with two hockey stars. I'm such a glaze list.
"It could have been three if you had said it in time," JJ snorted.
"Shut up, asshole, you're talking about my girl."
Before pulling the shirt over her head, Lola winks at me. Both are enough
we read romantic novels and watched some pretty crappy romantic movies
to know that my type of guys really like the girl.
"I love it."
"We have to go to training." Talk to you later, okay?
"Sure, bye."
- Hey guys! Ryan and I add.Before Ryan hangs up, we hear Henry
speaks:
"Is it Anastasia?" I thought she was avoiding you, Nathan.
Although, apart from a long, loud, mental scream, it doesn't work
to react to Henry's words, immediately two pairs of eyes are fixed on me.
It was funny at first when Lola and Ryan both started staring
to stare, but now, minutes later, it's starting to get a little mean.
"What aren't you telling me?" Lo asks as seriously as he can
in voice.
I thought what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas-
perception is a really existing thing. Okay, I know it's basically Maple
We were in the Hills for a Vegas themed party, but still the rules
they should be valid. It should be a bit irresponsible and risible
to be without having to share this with my friends. Regrettable
way the keepers of Vegas' secrets didn't meet Lola.
"Tell me or I'll call Robbie back and ask."
I sink into my bed and pull the duvet over my head so that no one is
around
I don't even have to look at it.
- At Robbie's birthday party, I ran away.
"If?" they both say at the same time.
I let out a loud breath and grab the comforter to keep Ryan from
he can pull me off. However, he is stronger than me, so I eventually give
up.
"He licked me at Robbie's birthday party, blah blah blah." "No matter what,
Lola."
it's honest and Ryan played with his shocked face to play on my girlfriend
its drama. "It was an accident, a weak moment, and I've been avoiding him
ever since."
"Don't blah-blah-blah here to me." That was almost a week ago! –
screams Lola while flailing her arms wildly. His eyes on Ryan
translates. "Did you know about that?"
"No, I just had a date with Liv on Saturday, so I didn't know."
to go to the party - he says, completely not noticing how Lola's face
twitches
At the mention of Olivia. "Though I would like to know how a person is."
engage in oral sex by accident, Stas. Just share it with the class!
"Fuckhead." I groan and hit him in the chest with my pillow. - THE
I used his washroom. He tried to get me to admit that I wanted to be his
boyfriend
to be and asked if he should beg me now on his knees.
"Classic," Lol says, rolling her eyes.
"He said I just pretended I couldn't stand him.""Yeah, that sounds like the
beginning of a good bit of trouble," says Lola
sarcastically, wrinkling his nose grumpily. "Jump now."
to part.
"Well, when you asked if you should get down on your knees now,
I was honest with him. I told him I only want one
get on your knees if your head is between my legs.
Lola is laughing so hard she can't breathe and Ryan is almost as bad
like him. I'm surprised Aaron hasn't joined us yet,
because that would be absolutely perfect.
"You're unbearable," I mutter as I kiss them both again
I hit him with my pillow. "So he practically took it as an invitation."
waltz. He said, please, and pressed a little speech,
that "we don't joke about consent, Anastasia", but it's so cool
sexy, and seriously, and yes, I practically cut my vocal cords
screaming.
"Did you take it as an invitation to a waltz?" Ryan repeats with his jaw
dropped. - Stas,
you practically announced to him that you wanted to ride his face.
"Not at all!" "There is absolutely no question of that." Just simply
I explained that I don't see anything appreciable in the fact that a guy is my
leg
kneel before him and beg. I don't know how it happened
twisted out during our conversation.
Now, honestly, I blame Ryan for this whole ranking. If he was there
when Lola walked out with Robbie, there would have been someone to do
it
about not doing anything irresponsible with irresponsible, sexy hockey
players.
"Anastasia." - He takes my face between his hands and turns my head so
that
to look at him and not at Lola, who is currently wiping her tears. "If it's a
woman."
he tells me the only time he wants to see me kneel
me when my face is between your legs, then with all due respect,
I move on it. I would have kissed you too.
"Well, practically," I mutter as I free my face, "ha."
you want to go into details, I kissed her.
"You little fish!" Lola says cheerfully. "I can't believe he can."
you should have kept this from us! His eyes flicker to Ryan as he
he's wrinkling his nose again. "Well, in front of me." You two are weird. No
I know what you tell each other, but I can't believe you did it
would have kept this from me!"This will never happen again, Lols, so take
it easy."
yes.
Ryan moans next to me and runs his hand over his face.
"Stas, you know I love you, but you have to stop being like that."
be fucking stubborn. Hawkins is a good guy, screw him or don't screw him,
but
yet since when do you avoid those you mess with?
"You should fuck without a doubt," says Lola a lot
more enthusiastically than I would like.
- I agree. I think you should drop a line on him at least once, Stas. THE
for the sake of science.
Performing arts and English literature are the two least STEM
{§}
person I only know looks at me at the same time and nods in sync and
says:
"For the sake of science."Chapter Ten
NO THAN
HOCKEY BUNNIES
ROBBIE HAMLET
I died.
BOBBY HUGHES
It's weird to just announce it like that, but just say it.
CHRIS HUDSON
can i have your room
JOE CARTER
Can I have Lola's number?
ROBBIE HAMLET
Shut up, Carter.
NATE HAWKINS
RIP
ROBBIE HALMET
Well, it has arrived. Our guest of honor today.
NATE HAWKINS
What the hell are you smoking?
ROBBIE HAMLET
Did you know that Stassie, Summer and Kitty alldo they live in the same
building?
NATE HAWKINS
Now you're just kidding, aren't you?
ROBBIE HAMLET
I wouldn't joke about something that's inherently so ridiculous.
JAYDEN JOHAL
In Maple Tower? Fuck it. I might have to move.
HENRY TURNER
I don't care what the problem is.
CHRIS HUDSON
Neighbors, Hen.
HENRY TURNER
Yeah... But none of them want to fuck Nate anyway,
so why is this a problem?
It's not like there's any danger of being called over.
MATTIE LIU
Shots fired.
CHRIS HUDSON
I feel like Hawkins is totally out now.
JOE CARTER
Oh, because he's waiting for Turner to say he was just kidding.
JAYDEN JOHAL
Does anyone else hear the burp?NATE HAWKINS
I'm transferring to the basketball team. More assholes.
HENRY TURNER
If you switch, you might have more chances with Stassie.
NATE HAWKINS
But why?
HENRY TURNER
She sleeps with Ryan Rothwell.
Maybe the basketball players will come to him.
NATE HAWKINS
You can't know that.
HENRY TURNER
But I know. Said.
NATE HAWKINS
And why the hell would he say such things to you?
HENRY TURNER
Because I asked?
TAIDEN JOHAL
Not that I want to rip the last one off
your nerve, Kapi… But Rothwell knows how
He also fucked Summer.
NATE HAWKINS
Assheads.
ANAST ASIA
IF THERE IS ANY DAY I am exceptionally grateful for Aaron, these are
the days
the competition days.
Unlike my restlessly squirming, panicking self, Aaron
he is calm and relaxed and gently reassures me that everything will be fine.
This
during this time I throw up from nervousness.
Unsurprisingly, he thought we were good and would make the district.
Brady even made a joke that I skated better than him
usually, which can be attributed to my severe head injury.
Of course.
This is exactly how I act every single time. The older he is
I am, the higher the stakes and the more nervous I get. Aaron right
as calm, if not calmer, than when we started in freshman year
to skate together. I think the difference is that with Aaron, I never have
it didn't fall so it wouldn't get further, it never fell and flew through the
on the track and, luckily, he never dropped me.
He never gave himself a reason not to be confident.
We will get through today, but thanks to next month's district
championship
the pressure is even greater now. If we get past that, it can come in January
National championship.
Brady has been blowing me from day one for not having me when I was
younger
I went on. He says I have the talent for it and he doesn't understand
why haven't I participated in international competitions before? That's
honest
answer is that my partner at the time, James, was not at that level, and no
I wanted to find someone else instead because I loved him.
"Absurd" is Brady's favorite word to describe the case.
"You were amazing today," Aaron says as he glances at me
behind the wheel. We usually ride with Aubrey, but today Aaron drove
because
the competition was held nearby. "I can't wait for Lo to see the tape."After
such occasions, Lola is always forced to go from square to square
to watch our performance. He said earlier that he would like to see it
us live too since we were so close but Robbie asked him to leave
for the Titans' first home game of the year.
When Lo brought it up this morning, I expected Aaron to
he begins to heat up, but my partner remained surprisingly cheerful and
he declared that it was okay, Lola would be able to come to the next
competition.
- You too. It wouldn't have worked without you.
"We're a good team, Stas." Sometimes we argue, but not with others
we could get it together. It wouldn't be the same.
He's annoyingly right.
- I know.
"We will get to the top." I feel it in my bones. If you continue
we can get back in shape, you stick to your diet.
This will work.
"Would you like to grab something?" I don't think Lola is back yet
about the Titans game.
"It doesn't work, sorry." We meet up with Cory and Davey and go out for
drinks
one.
My phone starts to vibrate in the cup holder when I pick it up and see
that Lola's name flashes on the screen.
LOL
Your boyfriend is fucking sexy, geeeeeek.
Not my boyfriend.
What's happening?
I hate you.
NO THAN
NOTHING gets you pumped up like the first win of the season
home game.
We played phenomenally. It felt good to go out on the ice again and
to lead the boys to victory. Even Faulkner was happy, and he was
never happy so we must have really played so well
as far as I feel.
We desperately wanted to prove to the coach that we were the last couple
despite the bullshit of the week, we all deserve our place in this a
in a team.
The coach and Robbie immediately sat us down around the table
we take out the match while the memories are still fresh in our minds. This
I usually can't stand it, especially when we're winning, and I don't want
anything else,
just so I can celebrate with a beer or ten.
I don't want to recall the adrenaline going through my body locked in a
room
all passes and goals. The guys felt the same from the moment that
they took a seat - I could see this exactly from the way they drummed their
fingers
on the table, they danced, and obediently dangled each one of them on the
coach
at his word.
Now, for once, there was perfect calmness.
I can't make mistakes this year - every move has to be perfect.
Robbie wanted to finish as soon as possible, and his gaze was constantly
he wandered over to his smartwatch every time its screen flashed.
I knew Lola was somewhere in the building wearing the jersey proudly,
that I sent him.
The parties after the games are always the best. The student unions in the
evening
we start on the street, which is not my favorite place, but after that the
team
half of them have not yet turned twenty-one, and so they are not allowed
to enter the
clubs, it's nice to have a couple of drinks together before we part ways for
the evening.Then we head to the Honey Cup, which, in my humble
opinion, is the
best club in West Hollywood. B, Summer's roommate, who is also a
he's the dumbest mixer ever, he works there and always organizes for us
table.
Now that Henry is living with us, B has made a secret agreement with me
that
let's get the guy in without checking his profile after even
there is no twenty one. I had to promise never to tell anyone about it
I won't say either, lest it end with half the university on his doorstep
ends up, and in return I get him, Summer, and Cami the best
places in our home games.
It's easy for me to keep that promise because if the rest of the team
if he found out what I wouldn't do for Henry, I'd never have peace again.
Minutes after our arrival, the box is already full of bottles, and no
surprisingly - since quite a few drinks had already gone down by then - half
of the team
ass drunk.
JJ and Robbie seem to be pouring each other out with great enthusiasm
their hearts - they pat the other's back and hug each other lovingly
his arm. They toast over and over, even though I have no idea what they're
celebrating.
Joe and Kris continue to stare at Henry as if he were the guy
Discovery Channel, and they are desperately trying to learn how
does it.
Bobby, Mattie, and a few other guys pulled away
make friends with the guests of a bachelorette party on the other side of
the dance floor.
JJ and Robbie finally stop and turn to me as I
I'm still watching people while sipping my drink. JJ laughs,
then he pokes his head towards the dancing Anastasia and Lola.
"Have you managed to screw things up with him yet?"
- Maybe.
I won't even bother to mention how I plan
charming Stas, or how surprised she looked when
I walked past him earlier, leaving him with my friends. From now on
he will be forced to approach me.
ANAST ASIA
THE DARKNESS IN THE BACK OF THE UBER gives you more
confidence than you should.
Maybe the alcohol could be the reason, maybe the joy of getting into the
next race, maybe the way Nathan's body reacts to mine and
as he actively strokes my ego by saying over and over
I'm the sexiest creature you've ever seen in your life.
His hand is about two centimeters away from the fact that this trip home is
more interesting
so be it, but excuse me, I tried to avoid that. I
I tried to sit with Henry, who I knew would do his best to a
our bodies should come into contact as little as possible.
Hell, the guy probably would have insisted I sit down
on the floor in front of the mother-in-law seat, which would have been
perfectly fine for me.
But now I am forced to face the consequences of my actions,
and I have no one to blame for the state of my poor aching wet vagina,
only myself.
My vile, treacherous hips move completely on their own, wide open
and a longing moan escapes my lips as Nate slowly and
judiciously thrusting her hips forward as her hands intertwined with mine
still holding it between my legs.
His other hand slides down my thigh as my arm instinctively reaches for it
he rises to run my fingers deep into his thick, dark hair. My breathing
he slows down as he presses his palm on my stomach, and then starts with
it up, through the
on my belly, then on the curve of my breast, when he runs his finger
around my nipple,
though not decidedly enough to give any real pleasure.
"Nathan," I whimper impatiently. Her chuckle is dark and devilish,
from which I know even without words that he is doing what I do from
above
I want. His hand wanders to the other breast, and with the same ease
he tortures me with his touch, after which my back is bent into an arch in
his palm
I strain just to feel him a little better. "Nathan, please…"I give him a gentle
tug with my hand still gripping his hair,
trying not to notice the goosebumps running all over my body,
every time his hot breath touches my neck.
He finally pinches my tight nipple with his fingers while pointing his nose
to the side
he pushes my head, the beard covering his jaw throbbing wildly
he rubs my pulse point, his teeth nibble gently on my earlobe.
"You only like me when you're drunk and high," he whispers.
- Not true. "I finally let go of the hand between my legs, which was then
there."
I stay as Nate gently rubs my inner thigh. My chest
I twist and look at him over my shoulder, his eyes are dark, his lids are
heavy, as
our eyes meet. "Never, under any circumstances."
I like you.
His lips press against mine as he grabs my throat with his hands. THE
kiss rough and passionate, overwhelming and fiery, and a bunch of others
a word that my brain cannot even recall at the moment. It tightens the
my throat as his tongue explores my mouth, then he moans as my teeth
deep into his lips.
It is not enough. I want to know it closer to me - it has to be closer
be with me He relaxes his grip, his mouth wanders along my jaw
along, kissing and sucking my neck, his voice hoarse, as the
moving my hips rhythmically, I tighten them against his.
"Don't tell me you don't like me when I feel it on my thigh
how wet you are, Anastasia.
"You could feel it on your hands if you finally did something."
I'm so close to taking matters into my own hands
although I don't know where masturbating on his lap would get us anyway
on the bar/curse scale. A normal person would be concerned about the
viewing public, but
I could scream until the windows break, and we
our incredibly drunk friends wouldn't even notice. And then the
beyond drunk, Taylor Swift's “Cruel
Summer" before Kris turned the volume up to max.
We're in our own little world back here - the air is hotter and denser, the
tension steals the last drop of oxygen from my lungs.
I couldn't even tell you how far we are from Maple
From Hills, or how long has it been since I climbed in here and
I settled into Nate's lap. He spreads my legs wider with his knees,as he
presses his lips to mine again, this time even more possessively, more
more commanding. His nose touches mine.
"Can you be a good girl and keep quiet?"
I nod, ready to finally feel his long, thick fingers
they relieve the throbbing between my legs. Instead, however, one finger
delicately
he drags it along my clit until I can't stop myself from blowing it
one from frustration.
"I'm this close to doing it myself." tell me now
if you don't know what you're doing Nathan.
The last time I ranted about his inability to satisfy a woman,
proved me wrong.
His free hand slips into my hair at the nape of my neck, then tugs on it
look up at him. He rubs my clit more and more decisively before one
a contented moan escapes my throat and my jaw goes slack,
as the pleasure runs through my terribly tense and sexually frustrated body.
As his fingers are replaced by the edge of his palm, even more so with his
other hand
he squeezes my hair.
"One day I'm going to blow that pretty little mouth of yours, and then I
won't."
you will be such a demanding, impatient little bitch.
He presses his mouth to mine, silencing my moans of pleasure.
as he sinks two fingers into me, dilating me madly.
I shouldn't have promised to be quiet.
I don't even have to speak, just the cupping of Nate's fingers-
his smooth voice as they come in and out of me would be enough for
anyone to know
what we do. The music continues to blare, our friends for everything
they are paying attention, but not to us, and the familiar, red-glowing
delight runs through them
on my spine.
"Your pussy is so perfect," Nate hisses into my ear. "So wet and."
narrow.
My hips move wildly against his hand as he pulls away from my lips
incomprehensible pleas and moans ring out. My knees are trying to close
and my body would pull away from the feeling that was increasing inside
me.
Nate is holding mine open with his own leg and I'm about to
I fall headfirst into ignorance.
"Are you enjoying yourself for my pleasure?" Enjoy it on my fingers,
Anastasia, just show me
and for me, how it will feel when I stick my cock deep into you.He lets go
of my hair and puts his hand over my mouth to stifle my screams,
as the orgasm goes through my body and I do my best
I will do it to break the window with my voice.
Every part of me trembles, and the pleasure goes through my body as it
does
my eyes widen and my back arches away from Nate who
he moves his fingers in and out until the spasms stop,
when I lean against his chest like a boneless, sticky, satisfied mass.
He carefully pulls his fingers out of me, then his lips to my wet forehead
press
"Open your mouth!" he says to me, and when I look up at him in
confusion,
a strange light shines in his eyes. I take my word for it as it is too satisfying
I'm not ready to argue with him, and I'm just waiting with my mouth open.
Two
he presses his wet finger against my tongue, and I immediately feel the
intoxicating, salty taste.
"Suck it!" Feel how fucking delicious you are! he whispers.
- Well... - The music suddenly stops, and my whole body freezes,
and my eyes widen as Nathan quickly pulls his fingers out of the
from my mouth and releases my legs so that I can close them.
"Does anyone want to make out?"
NO THAN
UBER FISH
UBER FISH
ANAST ASIA
I AM UNSPEAKABLE AT THIS MOMENT.
Nate is ten minutes away from me when I'm only fifteen minutes away
back to midnight. All night he kept writing and begging for clues,
where am I? However, I didn't give in my waist like I did
no one else after I swore them to secrecy.
The more parties he goes to where I'm not there, the angrier he gets
on yourself. He wasted too much time checking student union parties,
which
it hurt his chances, and now I'm just waiting for the minutes to pass.
Twelve more minutes.
I answer the incoming video call and smile when his face is grumpy
loading my screen.
"You're still in L.A., aren't you?"
"Tick tock, Hawkins." You're running out of time.
He runs a hand through his hair, then sighs in defeat.
"This is my punishment, huh?" Why it dragged on every day all week
training? You're still mad, aren't you?
I get up from the bed and walk around the room while the phone is on the
holding it from my body, I keep my eyes fixed on his face.
"What do you think?"
"Of course you're still angry." He sighs. - I know.
I walk around the edge of the room and watch the recognition
it floods his face.
"You should know not to talk about my time on the ice, Nathan."
Nine minutes.
"You're in my fucking room," he says without any emotion. –
Why the hell did I have to run all over Maple Hills if once the
are you in my room
"Didn't anyone tell you there was a party?" But it's weird.
"I'm going to skin them.""But it's too bad you're so far away and won't be
back by midnight." –
I sigh dramatically. I'm enjoying every second of it. "That."
I think I'll go down and find someone else to give the chit to. Be careful
to you on the road, Hawkins.
"Anastasia, wow…"
It was pretty easy to convince Nate's friends to drink one
a bit.
JJ
IM listening to you.
How about,
if you were having a party
after you leave?
Which is only after midnight
find out
NO THAN
ANAST ASIA
IT'S HARD to have the BEST SEX OF YOUR LIFE when the guy you
thanks to that, it's unimaginably annoying.
"Look at my neck, Nathan!" – I fume when I get out of the shower
I see my reflection. It didn't even occur to me last night
let me check, but the suction marks are pretty damn spectacular this
morning and
they have become ugly, they almost jump off my neck. "I look like one."
I was attacked by a leech! Who are you? The fucking Dracula?
"I'll buy you a scarf when I stop by Target," she says
in a nonchalant tone as he examines his masterpiece. In the mirror
I see the unmistakable pride flashing on his face. "Don't be anymore."
such a drama queen.
"Shouldn't I be a drama queen?" If you give me a scarf, I swear
I'll choke you with it - I retort as I roll the towel off myself,
to dry off. "I'm teaching a class for children this morning." You know that
what do the children notice? Fuck everything.
"Compared to how small and cute you are, there's a lot of anger hidden
inside."
in you - he coos, then presses a kiss to the ugly wounds on my neck.
- I hate you.
"You don't hate me." - His hand slides on my bare stomach, then my body
pulls him to his. The towel hanging from his biceps doesn't hide one bit,
how excited he is at the thought of not going to work. THE
his voice is deep and dark as he whispers in my ear: "I wish you again."
"Mmmm." I feel.
"Give it up so we can go back to bed."
Why am I getting wet from two little words?
Why did I hesitate for half a moment to quit?
Is this what it's like to be charmed?
"Not everyone has daddy's money in their account, Hawkins"
I tell him coming to my senses as I slip away cursing under my breathfrom
his arms.
Even then, muttering, I threaten that next time it will be me
I hug him when he gets into his car - and he still does
grinning like a wild apple.
Last night was nothing. I don't know how it all accumulated
could it have been sexual frustration or the excitement of the game, but
the guy
he knows how to use his tail for the greater good.
I don't think I slept. It's more likely that it's simple
I passed out from the exhaustion caused by being brushed so well. Today
in the morning when I stepped into the shower and mentioned it to Nate
between my legs
throbbing, dull pain, he asked if he could give him a healing kiss.
Then he gave. Even twice.
"Would you like me to go upstairs?" he asks as he parks at my building,
so I can change before work.
I shake my head.
"You're just distracting me." I will be fast.
My real reason is that I don't have the energy to handle Aaron's reaction
to the way I show up on Nate's page with suction marks on my neck.
Fortunately, Aaron is still asleep when I enter the apartment. THE
reaching my bedroom, I decide that only turtlenecks are acceptable today
clothing. As soon as I had sufficiently covered the abominations on my
neck,
I head back down to Nate's.
"I wouldn't be able to concentrate if you were my skating instructor." -
THE
reaching over the center console, Nate puts his hand on my thigh and his
fingers
it draws patterns on my skin, right up to the track of Simone. When finally
we stop in front of the track, he turns to me with a hopeful expression. "I
can watch
how do you teach
"It's out of the question," I say as I jump out of the car and
I grab my bag. "Thanks for the ride!"
"Stassi!" - he shouts after me, just as I was about to close the door. "Later."
we could meet?
I pull my deadline diary out of my bag and turn the page to October 23rd.
Work, study, training, dinner.
- I am not sorry. I'm busy. Hi Nate!
- Stas! he shouts again, before I stop. "What about tomorrow?"
My eyes glide over October 24th."No, I have a plan." I have to go, and if
you call after me again,
I'll kick your car. I can't be late, bye!
I haven't even walked in the door when my phone starts vibrating
in my pocket.
NATE
Monday?
I'm busy.
Tuesday?
I'm busy
I'm fucking
How do you know this?
Ditto.
Strange coincidence.
Let's go together.;) Of course.
Strange coincidence, my ass.
The little ones seem extra excited today, so by the time I sit down for
lunch, already
I'm totally tired. I'm just trying to decide what to eat when the
my phone vibrates on the table and Nate's name flashes on the screen.
NATE
Ffs
3?
No offense.
Scout honor on my word.
Why?
NO THAN
We've been parked in front of the house for three minutes now and still no
sign of Stassie
indicated that he wanted to get out, so we'll just sit here any longer-
less comfortable in silence.
Clutching the strap of her bag, she stares into the distance, her body with
eyes
he visibly tenses up. I know you're lost in thought right now
he overthinks things, and since I don't want to disturb him, a little more
I'll let him wallow in them.
A few more minutes pass and her lips are still drawn into a thin line,
so I extend my hand towards it and run it gently with my finger
on his face, then I clear my throat to attract the
attention. I wrap one lock of her hair on my finger before she turns to me
listen to what I have to say.
"Would you like to play mom and dad?"
- What? He sounds confused, which I can't blame. His eye
small wrinkles appear next to him as he gives me a strange look. –
Daddy-mama?
"Like the one you played as a child."
His face slowly smooths out, the corners of his mouth just turn up.
"And what does that include?" We'll pretend to be us
the boys mom and dad?
"We'll forget about the outside world until tomorrow." I mean, if it's JJ's
mom
he calls me, I'll beat him, but besides that, how do you usually say when
are you posting all kinds of motivational crap out of the blue? - only
positive
energies.
"I'm not even kidding!" I really am such a positive personality - he says
the ebet to the stake, lying to us. Puffs a line and arms
defiantly crosses it in front of his chest, but then is unable to hold on and
his played-out grumpy image softens. "Have you always been this cute?"
You're not at all what I expected."Yes, exactly as my mother raised me to
be." If I like you, I like you.
I'm an all-or-nothing person, always have been.
A small spark of panic ignites in me when they realize that
maybe you'll misunderstand my words after that, like last time
we talked about what he was looking for, but then luckily he laughed.
"Based on your status on campus, I thought so."
you've already covered half of Maple Hills by now. The title of captain
practically guarantees you can get anyone, right?
"I really brushed it off, and yes, that's pretty much what it means."
I'm not sure he expected that answer because his eyes
he turns around and just stares at me.
- HE.
"Are you seriously condemning me for my male promiscuity?" You, the just-
nothing-
queen of commitment? "His jaw drops and he's about to try."
stuttering to argue with me, but I don't give him the chance to do that,
because
I enjoy that you don't get to talk. "Sleeping with someone and liking
someone."
two different things. If I like someone, I want to be near them
and I want to know him. It's not often that something more happens
I want from someone, however, when it turns out like this, I make him the
most important.
"God, you're so clingy," he grumbles, his face flushed. One
he reaches for the door opener with one hand, while he clutches his bag
with the other. –
Let's go inside the house before the kids start a fight.
It's a great feeling when your best friends like the girl you like
she likes him, but we've barely entered the house when she spots me
behind me
Anastasia, and they switch to golden retrievers again. If not your own
I would see it with my own eyes, I wouldn't believe it. I've known these for
years
guys, and I've never seen them act like Stas and
With Lola.
Henry speaks first.
- What are you doing here? Don't you feel like going to the movies with us?
Are you staying for the evening?
Stassie wraps her arms around my waist, leans into me, then grins at me,
before glancing back at Henry.
"Nathan kidnapped me because he wants to play daddy and mommy."
"You can always call me daddy, Stassie," JJ calls out to her
from the couch."Head up!" – I gently push Anastasia towards the stairs
with my hip. –
Stop being such a scumbag, Johal. He doesn't need you.
JJ let out a loud snort.
"I don't think so." Everyone needs me.
As Anastasia heads for the stairs, Henry's brow furrows.
"Not for me, JJ," he mutters under his breath.
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
HOCKEY BUNNIES
ROBBIE HAMLET
Email from Faulkner: awards hall at 7:30.
MATTIE LIU
Damn it, I should have been a basketball player.
HENRY TURNER
You don't have hand-eye coordination
what you need for the basket, Liu.
NATE HAWKINS
I feel like my brain
would simultaneously try to transition into jelly and
would try to set himself on fire.
JAYDEN JOHAL
Need a painkiller, mate?
NATE HAWKINS
Better hit me in the head with a shovel.
CHRIS HUDSON
I'm sure you won't have to ask Faulkner twice.
HOCKEY BUNNIES
JOE CARTER
Hawkins, you fucking idiot. What the hell is going on here anyway?
BOBBY HUGHES
I haven't been so stressed since then
I understand that rubber does not protect 100%.
JAYDEN JOHAL
Let's stop for a word! What?
CHRIS HUDSON
How do we play without our captain anyway?
JAYDEN JOHAL
No, let's not get over this rubber thing yet?????????
NATE HAWKINS
Until Aaron can skate, that is
I can't train either, I can play.
NATE HAWKINS
I go over to Stassie and
I try to talk to him.
See you later.
ANAST ASIA
I've been sitting in front of Maple Tower for OVER THIRTY MINUTES
and still no
I managed to get myself to go inside.
I spent fifteen of those thirty on the phone with Lola, as
i tried to get him to give my name to the porter to get a code a
to the elevator. In the next fifteen years, I mentally prepared myself for that
Throw Anastasia out.
When I found him, Faulkner confirmed what the guys had said.
Aaron's injured hand couldn't handle the load while they were on the ice -
a fall
in the process he tried to catch Stassie, but that only made him more
successful
break yourself.
"I'm sorry, Hawkins!" Faulkner said as he took a beer from the
from the mini fridge and handed it to me. "We'll know more on Monday,
but that's it."
by the looks of it, Skinner wants to put you back on the bench.
I don't care what happens to me at the moment. The
I'm interested, as always, in what's going on with the team, but mostly just
Stassie
in my head. I won't be able to knock him out of there until my own two
I can't see with my eyes that he is fine.
My stomach is in a painful spasm the whole time in the elevator.
Fortunately, Lo doesn't
he requested to be removed, so I entered the building.I knock three times
on the door and step back. It's sickening to my stomach
pain intensifies, and my heart seems to beat wrongly.
On the other side of the door, that typical, slightly raw Brooklyn sound is
heard
tone of voice, which I am so used to that it offends me, then
the door opens and Lola leans against the door frame.
"If you bang me, Nathan, I swear, your dick's in a snot bottle."
will do it in my room, and I will make it my holy mission never to
don't be happy anymore
- I bought.
Holding on to my sweatshirt, he stormed into the apartment, then huffed
close the door behind me.
"Stassie is in her room and doesn't know you're here." Be with him
patient. She's a tough girl, but she's really broken right now. - Behind his
back
Aaron peeks out of his room and when he notices me, it tricks him
door. “You lost control of everything, Nate. It's not like that
a girl who tolerates well when she is not in charge.
"I'm cutting." I want to see him because I miss him and because I worry
about him.
Lola gives me a careful nod and then gets out of my way.
"He misses you too."
At this moment I have no right to desire anything—
I'm just grateful that I've made it this far. But one
my tiny, selfish little girl really hopes that I won't
Finding Ryan Rothwell on the other side of the door.
I gently tap the door with my finger, then from inside
a soft "Free!" sounds, I press the doorknob.
Anastasia gives me a horrified look, then sits up in bed
hiss from the sudden movement.
He's wearing my shirt.
- Hali.
Great start, Hawkins.
Stassie blinks at me like she doesn't realize it's me.
I enter his room, closing the door behind me, while all the way
I keep a fair distance between us.
"Hi," he whispers.
"I know you don't want me here, but I heard what happened." Even
I had to see you if you're going to tear my head off for this, Anastasia. My
own two
I had to see with my own eyes that you were okay.He pulls his knees to his
chest, then pulls the t-shirt over his bare legs and
he nods. At the moment, he looks anything but well
there is
"You paint better than the last time you were here." I did not know that
you tend to have migraines. It was pretty terrifying.
I take a step towards her bed and when she doesn't react to it
disastrously, I'll do another one.
"I didn't mean to scare you, and, uh, sorry for throwing up." And
everything
for other things as well. I fucked up, but not in the way you think.
- I know.
- You know?
He rests his chin on his knee and sighs.
"I know, Nathan."
She looks so broken. His face was pale and puffy, his eyes red—
either from crying, or from rubbing it, or both. Her hair,
what usually tumbles over her shoulders in shiny waves is now a tousled
mess
it's tied up in a ball on top of her head and she looks like one overall
deflated balloon.
"Stassie, can I hug you?" You look like you could use a hug and,
well i missed you so much.
"That would be nice," he says so quietly I can barely hear him.
I kick off my shoes and climb into bed. Stassie stretches out her legs to
what
I immediately notice the fresh bruises from yesterday. Not knowing how
position myself, finally I sit leaning next to his million pillows, that's
enough
close to our feet touching.
It's as if we made it up during the two weeks we spent apart,
how can we be near each other, but when I put my arms around her,
Stassie a
he crawls between my legs and buries his face in my chest.
My body knows what to do better than my mind. Gently
I pull him closer and wrap my arms around him. Then in his body
all the tension goes away, and I can breathe properly again.
Until her shoulders start shaking and her fingers a
they cling to my sweatshirt. I press my lips to his forehead
while her sobs can be heard, then getting louder and louder
becomes
"Shh, baby." Nothing wrong.- Everything... - His voice cracks in the middle
of his sobs -... a big one
chaos.
I smooth my hand on his neck, then trace it with my thumb
her face until she stops crying and lies still on my chest
not limp.
I keep my arms around his body, I don't say a word, I just hug him,
until you are ready to speak. Just the soft sound of his breathing
I listen when he finally speaks.
"Sorry for the booing."
"Hey, I threw up and then I passed out in your bed, Stas."
I can handle a little crying. Do you want to talk about what happened?
He lets go of my body and for a moment I think he's going to run away
in front of me, but then instead facing me, he sits on my hip in a riding
position.
I rub her bare thigh while she wipes away the mess with her palm
tears from his eyes.
"Have you ever been dropped from a great height, hundreds of people."
in front of your eyes?
"I once fell off a ski lift."
Stassie snorts and shakes her head.
- Of course. "He's playing with the drawstring of my sweatpants and he's
not looking."
on my face. "Everything went great." We practiced and practiced and
Aaron was fine. We were nearing the end of our number, the raise came,
and the
his wrist simply gave out.
Saying this, his voice shakes, which feels like
they would have cut me in the stomach. He finally looks at me, tears in his
eyes
they sparkle.
"I-I thought my head was going to explode." Everything happened so fast.
Aaron caught me on the way down, but then I kicked him in the leg as
spun out. He has such horrible cuts and bruises, and so do I
I feel so damn guilty.
I trace a particularly angry-looking bruise with my finger
on the inner side of his thigh.
"It's not like you got away with it easily."
"I landed on my feet instead of my head, Nate." It could have been much
worse
would be. "His whole body is shaking over mine and I don't know how."
let me fix this. "Aaron managed to put my foot on the ice, that one."
he said keep skating and somehow we managed to finish."And then what
happened?"
"I threw up, then I burped." He snorted mockingly. –
We waited for our points and by some miracle we managed to get through.
We were perfect until that moment, or I don't know. - He laughs, but the
there is no joy in his voice. Her laughter slowly turns to tears,
until he's half laughing, half crying. Seeing my incomprehension, he shrugs
his shoulders,
because he doesn't know what's going on either.
I pull his body to mine and start rubbing his back, as I did again
bursts into sobs. He wraps his arms around my neck and rests his head on
my shoulder
drives it. His sniffles and sighs tickle my neck, and so much
I have no idea what to do.
His cheek presses against mine, his breathing deepens. Then it's his nose
he presses it against my nose, puts his hands on both sides of my face, then
holds it there,
until he puts his lips on mine.
Everything is so much slower than usual. I miss the usual urgency,
a sexually frustrated rush, as is a drunken, initiated fog. Just
it's me, and he, sober, his soft body under my palm and his tongue, which
gently straining against mine.
Stassie pulls away from me, then runs her hand lovingly along the
on my beard, and in the meantime I see that a thousand questions are
swirling around the beautiful blue
in his eyes.
"Nathan, do you want to play daddy and mommy with me?"
"Always."
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
THE FIRST DISCOVERY YOU MADE following this little figure skating
experience
I do, is that I have the same Tuesday schedule with Anastasia, and
we both finish at two. We should be learning, but we just ended up
at Maple Hills Plaza.
You know when a red button appears in a movie that no one can see
you shouldn't press it either, you'll find yourself with the screen
do you scream when someone just presses you at the end? Anastasia is my
red
my button. I know I shouldn't touch it, but I want it, and down
will scream my head off if I do.
Now she looks so cute, as she passionately explains,
how important it is to skate in the right clothes.
"Stop staring at my lips and pay attention!" he snarls.
"I'm listening." I still don't understand why I can't wear it
sweatpants.
"Just don't, okay?" We'll buy you kitty pants.
So cute.
- Yes, Madam.
The first store doesn't sell men's clothes at all, the second doesn't
nothing that goes up my thighs but the third one is perfect.
- What do you think about this? Stassie asks as she holds up one of the
in my size.
"It's leopard print, Anastasia."
"I see that." What do you think?
Raising one of my eyebrows, I lean against the hanger."You mean leopard
print isn't enough of an answer?" It will be the best
if we categorically exclude animal samples. At least this way we save time.
Just as Stassie is about to argue with me, my phone rings.
Father. I'll press it.
I put the phone back in my pocket and when I look at it again, Stassie
lifts another pair of kittens.
"Then the zebra pattern is also shot?"
- Exactly.
"Are you absolutely sure about that?" Because your thighs would look great
in this.
"If you want to see my thighs, I'll be skating Calvin Kline."
in my underpants. Problem solved. Food? "He doesn't even think about it."
bother to answer. "Then I'll take that as a no."
After scouring the array of black and non-animal print options,
I can find a few in my size. Anastasia grunts back and forth and
grumpily looking at my "boring" clothes as I pay, then we
we leave the shop behind.
I reach for his hand, then immediately remember and pretend
I would just stretch. As we walk silently towards the breakfast area, I see it
from the restless look on his face that something is bothering him. Just
when it's already
I'd like to ask what's wrong, my phone rings again.
Father. I'll press it.
We sit down at a table a little further away from the crowd, where the
silence while Anastasia continues to paint in the same way.
"What's on your mind, little pig?" I mumble.
"The NHL."
I didn't expect that.
– I wholeheartedly support diversity in sports, Stas, but
I'm afraid you're a bit small for hockey, I tease him. "Why are you
brooding?"
about the NHL?
"All I can think of is how peaceful my quarter will be, because of it."
you go to canada to wrestle moose or what do i know. –
He shrugs and forces a smile on his face. "It's all nonsense." Forget it
away!
"I'm impressed you think I could handle a moose, but."
I don't think they frequent downtown Vancouver. –
I laugh. "I'm not sure if you're aware of this, but."goes from L.A. plane to
Vancouver. If you ever feel like it
to disturb your peace and visit me.
He was about to answer when my fucking phone rang again
start. Dad, again. I'll push it, again. Anastasia runs through her hair and
he sighs.
"Since I'm here, you can pick up the phone."
- I know.
"I won't freak out if you talk to other girls." "He elbows me up."
on the table, he puts his head in his hands. "The fact that you can't fuck
me"
doesn't mean anything else.
Rolling my eyes, I push my phone towards him on the table.
"Three-nine-nine-three."
Stas immediately shakes his head and tries to push the phone back towards
me.
"Nathan, you don't have to…"
I punch in the code myself as it apparently wants to respect the
my private sphere. I see him waging a fierce battle with himself, and then
finally
glances at my phone screen and sees that my call list is practically different
is not listed, only Father.
"It's complicated."
"Ah, okay, well, uh," he stammers. "Anyway, I was serious."
I mean, I don't expect you to be celibate for two months.
I snort, then watch his eyes widen uncertainly.
"We're going to spend so much time together, Anastasia." Every
opportunity
I'm going to grab you to hinder your sex life. Naturally
you do whatever you want. But good luck getting one together
number with someone who is not me.
His eyes light up, his face immediately flushes.
"Did you mean this to be cute?" Because I'm quite possessive
sounds toxic.
The corner of my mouth twitches up - I love how my day takes a turn like
this
took
"Stop bothering me with this shit." I saw how dirty the books were
are on your shelf. He covers his mouth. "So, what do you want?"
- I am well, thanks. I'll eat it when I get home, but for you
just buy what you want.
"You have some objection to being away from home."
individual?"No, but I have to keep my diet."
"Your diet?" "For everyone who spends even a little time."
With Anastasia, it is clear that she has a very complicated relationship
is with the food. I swear, half the time it's because of his bad mood
hungry.
"Aaron and I have a meal plan together." During the week, I prepare the
food and everything. We have to organize it.
"It's cool that you're so disciplined," I say cautiously. - The correct
nutrition is in my curriculum, so a lot of that stuff
I deal with. I'd love to take a look at your meal plan if you don't have one
do you object to it?
He reaches into his bag and pulls out my archenemy: a
deadline diary. He flips through it until he finds a note that
then he handed it to me.
"If you really want to."
Oh, screw it. Vegetables. Vegetables. A little protein. Vegetables.
I pull out my phone, open the calculator, and that's about it
I calculate the quantities. "Who compiled this list?"
"Aaron."
His answer is not surprising, but still disappointing. This is the one time
I get speechless. My feelings for Aaron Carlisle are understandable
they are not very positive, and I think he deserved it. But that's fucking
weird.
Either he has no idea about proper nutrition, or he does it right away.
"Anastasia, you eat very little." You're not taking in enough
nutrients.
I'm trying not to sound like I'm yelling at him, or
I would downplay it - it's not his fault. He takes the note back and runs it
through
look at the list.
- What do you mean?
– Your body burns calories just by existing. So feed it
you need your body to live. For someone who likes skating and
strength training burns as many calories as you do, you need more
eat so that your muscles can regenerate properly.
- I'm fine.
"If you don't eat enough, you'll be more prone to injuries and serious
injuries."
for health problems. You've always made it so easy
bruises like lately?His brain must be spinning a thousand times right now.
He froze motionless and it seems
trying to understand what I said.
- Maybe? I'm not sure.
I noticed not so long ago that it is constantly full of blue-green spots.
Until now I assumed it was due to falls and similar things, but
now that I've seen them up close, I know how serious they really are.
- Ugly bruises can be a sign of nutrient deficiency. You are a lot
tired? Nervous? Are you irritated for no reason? Menstruation has changed
your cycle?
"Jeez, Nate." - He looked around, puffed up, to see if he was listening
someone us. "I'm tired, nervous, and irritated because I'm working hard."
he continues more quietly. "Then you probably know better than anyone
that this is."
it's just like that.
"Stas..."
"As for my menstrual cycle, which sucks anyway."
it's none of your business, I'm on birth control that stops it completely.
Already
I haven't had a bleed in years.
He crosses his arms in front of his chest and leans back in his chair.
Defiance, anger,
and a dash of uncertainty. I didn't mean to pull it up, but this
I won't let him eat like that either.
– There are hardly any carbohydrates on this list.
"And?"
"You need carbs, Stassie." I'm not asking you to gobble it up
from fast food, but you need more calories, baby. I can put it together for
you
a new plan. We'll give them both to Brady and let him see
which one do you like better.
"Okay." He shrugs. - Whatever.
"Did Ryan ever see your meal plan?"
He furrows his brows.
- What? No. Why?
I remember that phone call last month - I've had it on my mind several
times,
to bring up what ryan said but so much has happened that quite
so far I haven't had a chance to do that.
"Ryan once said Aaron pokes his nose in what you eat."
Stas rolls his eyes.
"Never mind Ryan!" If it were up to him, he would eat KFC every single
night
would feed me, and that is simply not realistic. I do not have anyI have a
superhuman metabolism like him. Aaron sometimes says that
he struggles to pick me up and Ryan gets grumpy.
What the fuck.
"You say you have a hard time lifting it?"
"If I don't stick to the plan, then yes." My weight sometimes yoyos
a little.
I rub my face and try to suppress the turmoil inside me
anger. The whole arena situation means not only on the field but
we also have to share the gym and I've seen Aaron with ease
lift twice Anastasia's weight. He might not be a big guy,
but strong.
"That guy is a total neurotic, Stas."
"Don't be so dramatic!"
"I don't want to fight about it because it's not your fault." But this guy
he's controlling you and I'm going to show Brady how
let me prove it.
Stas closes his eyes and blows and rubs his temples.
"You're giving me a headache."
"Because I care about you."
"There's no way you could take care of me in a way that doesn't hurt me a
lot."
problem?
"We'll solve it together, I promise."
Reaching over the table, he places his hand on mine and squeezes it
my fingers.
"I'm going to get us some food." I'll be back.
I try not to notice that his voice cracks when he says this
he says.Chapter twenty-five
ANAST ASIA
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
HOCKEY BUNNIES
JAYDEN JOHAL
Nate, when Stassie dares someone like thatto speak who is not him.
JOE CARTER
:'(
When Stas isn't there, when you wake up.
CHRIS HUDSON
:D
When he says it's nothing but hide and seek.
SASH HAWKINS
Sumptuous.
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
"I WILL NOT BUY HER fucking underwear," I declare for the umpteenth
time.
"Good day, can I help you with something?"
We all turn to the polite voice that has confused the world
his most pointless debate. The salesgirl looks at us like she's a ghost
seen, and I think we're actually a little scary when we do
we stare.
The girl's face is flushed, but she does her best to cover her lips
maintain eye contact with a friendly smile. I don't envy anyone who
forced to work in commerce at this time of the year.
"Yes, he can." Help settle this dispute please! JJ says as he does
push me out of the way. "Don't you buy pajamas from time to time?"
Is it a fucking bad idea for your cork barn? The girl's eyes widen slightly,
but
he quickly pulls himself together. "You don't think she'd be any happier."
something like that? "He's holding up the lace that you've been wearing for
a quarter of an hour."
we argue and he just stares at her, waiting for her to come to his side.
I box with such force on my biceps that it is beyond me.
"Don't call him my scumbag." It's not.
"You're right, Jaiden," Henry says with a smug little smirk.
I know I'm going to be very angry with him.
"You can't call Stas your douchebag when it's been a month or so."
he doesn't even let her near him. At this point, it's just his barn.
Of course, I didn't tell anyone about the night before. Not today either
from the morning. Which I spent by putting my hand on his mouth
I squeezed her so she wouldn't wake anyone up while she almost flattened
her
my bare dick. Based on what Henry thinks I grabbed the
in the friend zone, we seem to be getting better at being discreet.
After all, we spent the previous evening - and this morning - thinking that
we make up for the weeks during which we behaved properly, I'm done
surprised that I even have the strength to walk around the plaza.The girl
snorts loudly and puts her hand to her mouth in shock.
After that, however, he quickly pulls himself together and charms the
customer service representative back
smile on his face.
"I'm sorry, underwear is a rather, um, intimate gift, so if not."
sure, I agree that pajamas are the safer option for you
for.
"How about I buy her some underwear?" JJ coos as he picks up the
panties that match the corset and holds them in front of Hen.
Henry has been staring at the salesgirl ever since she walked in,
and from here on, I think it will be difficult for the girl to beat the
from his head as Hen stands there with lacy underwear at her crotch.
Henry
she blushes and pushes JJ away while something is very wrong with
Christmas
with an appropriate epithet referring to him under his mustache.
I'll scratch the beard on my chin and give you a blow, mainly because
right now, I could be lying with my cock all the way into Stassie
in bed, yet here I am, at Maple Hills Plaza, with these two
with wild fowl.
"I'm afraid Faulkner will be even more mad at me if I rip the."
arms.
I look again at the hanger full of pajamas next to us, and that
I think the one in my hand is the best. Stas specifically said he wanted to
some nice pajamas to wear around the boys. It doesn't strain the
boys in my house, but sometimes it happens when a glass goes down
for water in a t-shirt, other hockey players he doesn't know that well are
there too
they are playing video games and it makes you feel a little uncomfortable.
Besides, if I wanted to buy her underwear, JJ and I certainly wouldn't
I would do it with Henry.
I can hear Henry terrorizing the poor girl—accusing her of
flinched or something.
"Leave him alone, Hen!" I grunt as I grab something
floral print pajamas and I'm sticking to what I've already picked out.
I'll leave them to make fools of themselves, and I'll go
to take a look at the nearby offer. When I return I hear
as Henry tells her about the big red bow on our door,
and she brushes off that her roommates are attention-seekers, to which I
shrug
one, but Jaiden seems to be downright offended by it, which is all
makes it funnier.She lets out a heavy sigh.
"Okay."
"Okay, so I'll see you later then?" Henry says strangely
in a cheerful voice. I discreetly glance at JJ, who is already staring with a
surprised expression
me. We don't usually witness the magic or whatever
better, we're forced to simply watch the women throw it at Henry
themselves.
This girl is pretty, so I can see why Henry is interested in her—
tall and slim, long, silky brown hair, big brown eyes, full lips,
and has glowing, tan skin. I'd say it's just Henry's case, but really
I don't know what his case is either, because I never saw him twice with
the same a
with a girl, and each conquest looks completely different.
- What is your name? Hen shouts as she tries to run away.
"Uh." "Poor girl is probably figuring out what to say right now."
– Gen.
"Hey Gen!" – we shout with JJ, ignoring the other customers
how strange he looks at us.
Another ten minutes later, I decide I can't decide, so,
Much to JJ's annoyance, I buy both pajamas. The two guys
I'll send it to the front of the store while I pay, and as soon as we're done,
I'll go home. Stas
I already bought your main gifts, so I think I'm fine.
I walk up to the cash register and put the pajamas on the counter, then
immediately
they are shocked to see summer is the one serving.
"Hello, you stranger," he says politely as he pulls her closer
the pajamas and scan the barcode. "To your sister?"
- No. "What is he to me?" "To Anastasia."
- HE! I saw the video, but I didn't know you were together... - says a
tapping on a cash register.
"We…um, stunning girl." "I hand him my credit card."
while I still don't know what to call Anastasia
in front of others. "Are you coming to the party later?" I think Henry just
did
forced one of your colleagues to come.
"It won't work tonight, sorry." - He puts the pajamas in a bag,
then he hands it to me and it's all so awkward. Not that at all
Summer I know. - We are going to mass at Cami's church with her family,
Briar is flying to New York tomorrow for Christmas. Your plane leaves
early.
so we don't even drink."I thought Briar was from England?"
- Also from there, but his parents moved to New York last year. His two
brothers go there
to school. Her younger sister Daisy, on the other hand, is at Maple Hills.
- Wow! I had no idea that his family was so big.
Forcing a smile on her face, Summer nods.
"I put the block in the bag." I hope Anastasia likes them.
Merry Christmas, Nate!
"You too, Summer."
Well, that was unnecessarily embarrassing.
By the time we get home, the house looks like Santa threw up
would be.
I think Lola added extra alcohol to the eggnog because she's Stassie
he is in extra good spirits as he dances back and forth in the lounge a
in his leprechaun. Although she calls it a leprechaun, it's actually a tiny,
green dress with a pair of leprechaun shoes she bought at the costume
shop.
Robbie randomly stacked glasses and mugs with me in the Twister
carpet, and instead of helping, Henry has been with Stas and
He hangs out with Lola. I've done something before that I'm sure now
that it was a mistake: I told the girls that Henry was a Christmas present
tried on a girl while shopping. They are totally into this now
by clicking on this.
Anastasia immediately started asking about something Daisy was with
I'm supposed to have stopped Henry from having sex. Already that
afternoon
second time I heard the name Daisy. Henry just wasn't checking with
Briar's sister
add the juice? If so, I didn't remember meeting the
with a girl. Then it suddenly dawned on me—it was months ago when
Henry threatened to steal my girl.
JJ shows up with said new girl plus one of her friends and
I can see Stassie trying not to stare at them. Robbie
climbs onto the carpet and grinds the
throat to get the company's attention.
I take a sip of my beer - Robbie is in his element when he is
he can be the center of attention, I love watching him at this time.
"I welcome everyone to the first official drunken Twister game." THE
the rules of the game are very simple: if you touch it, you drink it.
Bobby elbows me in the side and then exclaims,
"The title of your sex video!" – Then Rob introduces him.– The game is
over when someone falls, takes off their hand or the
feet off the carpet or refuses to drink. Stassie, JJ, and Joe are already in,
we need two more people, Robbie continues.
Henry places his glass next to me on the windowsill.
"I'll play."
Stassie points at me and yawns that You, however, before voluntarily
could I apply, JJ exclaims:
"Gen plays too!"
The poor girl is completely distraught as she turns to face everyone.
I can hear Mattie and Kris gushing about how sexy Gen is
however, he sets his sights on one person who reciprocates this. No
i can tell if jj is playing cupid now or hoping gen
then she gets tangled up with him so that she can use it to pull Henry's
brain.
Robbie claps his hands together and fucks her like she's in training
I would be with Brady. Until I spent some time away from it, I didn't even
notice
I thought Robbie was a complete mini-Faulkner. And he was clearly stuck
in it
a dash of Brady too.
"Stas, Joe, you stand on this side!" Henry, you go there with JJ and
Gen. Everyone take off your shoes and, um, maybe stretch a little? No
I know too.
Stassie, with a wide, drunken grin on her face, lunges at me. He kicks her
his elf shoes, then wraps his arms around my neck and chuckles to himself
he presses his mouth to mine.
"Protect my shoes with your life!"
He won't even let me answer, but jumps back to the
to the mat and make out with Joe. If everyone didn't know by now, what?
is going on between the two of us, well, they will know after tonight. From
that moment on
since the party started, one way or another, we've almost grown together.
THE
our friends don't care about that, although I think some money has
changed hands a
following bets.
I turn my attention back to Robbie.
"Can you not be bossy?"
"Shut up, Hawkins," he retorts, rolling his eyes. Already
for about fifteen years my main entertainment has been to pull Robbie's
brains and
I have no intention of stopping this now.
Robbie finally stops arguing with me and starts the game. Business
it turns out that all the girls have to do is move their legs, but Joe and
JJvery, very confused.
"Stas, right hand is yellow!" Robbie shouts over JJ and Joe's fight.
The moment Stassie bends over, I understand why it started
all my friends at that moment staring at me that Robbie
he called out what he had to do.
As soon as Stas places his hand on one of the yellow circles, Henry blows.
"Anastasia, please get your ass out of my picture."
"It's not even in your picture!"
Her ass is definitely in her picture. And how the situation is still
to make matters worse, her clothes are just enough to cover her - if only a
little longer
it slides up, all the suction marks on her inner thighs will be visible
I left.
"Nathan!" Henry shouts as he stretches his neck looking for me
in audience. "What is your blood pressure at the moment?"
Yeah, the kid knows me.
"Pretty tall, man."
- You see? Because your ass is in my mouth. You will kill him.
The game continues until Henry raises his hand a
off the carpet to flirt with Gen, and Anastasia immediately
she bounces back to me to get her shoes back.
Standing on tiptoe, he gently touches his lips to mine, then softly like this
speak:
"My legs hurt, but I want you so much."
Yes, Henry is right. This chick will be the death of me.
I LOST MY LEFT.
While I went to the bathroom, the guys started sniffing Henry,
who disappeared into the laundry room with Gen. The indiscreet snooping
scared him
poor girl and dashed Henry's chances as he swore
revenge on all of us. I've never been so happy about that
I'm missing something.
I don't have what it takes to hook the
my horn with Henry because of Anastasia. If I had been there when the
guys
he was prevented from taking Gent upstairs and not after that
If I could find Stas, then Henry's room would be the first place I would
look.There's nothing sexual between them, but I seriously think
Anastasia would gladly marry him on a platonic basis.
Chatting with a few people I haven't seen in a while,
I do my best to avoid it
questions, why I didn't play, while I looked at the
I'm looking for my girlfriend.
Stas finally appears at the bottom of the stairs, where he stands and stares
in the room. His outfit is no longer visible as it is a Titans t-shirt
wears that almost engulfs his body.
It feels weird watching him from across the room, but he's so fucked
it's so beautiful that I couldn't take my eyes off it even if I wanted to.
Finally, he spots me in the kitchen, his mouth in a breathtaking smile
drags on, and the satisfaction I feel when I realize it, me
searched for, incomprehensible.
Stas is halfway across the living room toward me when a pair of arms
wraps around him, stopping him, and an unpleasant feeling begins to grip
the
my stomach
The guy buries his face into Stassie's neck and my blood pressure spikes
again.
Do I even have the right to be jealous? I mean, Stas is not my girlfriend,
but still there is something between us. I'll always be a little jealous Ryan
To Rothwell? Maybe, but I hope not.
I know Olivia broke up with him. Anastasia had coffee with Ryan
yesterday,
and the guy told him that Olivia had her own problems and a leg
he was always at the door. Do you think you can get it back now?
Anastasia?
I try not to disturb them, but it's hard for me to stay in one place.
It's hard for me to go against my instincts, but it never ended well if
I tried to force monogamy on him. I think Ryan is whispering in his ear
something, as Stassie suddenly takes her arm off him and backs away from
him
big step.
I can't hear what they're saying over the music, but I can see it's Rothwell
ass-drunk and take Stas wherever he can. Stassie gives him a friend
a hug, hopefully because that's the end of their conversation, Ryan
and leans down to plant a kiss on the top of her head. When Stas backs
down again
a step, Ryan looks up and notices that I'm watching them - half-heartedly
he scratches his chin and then gives me a shy smile.I'm still watching Ryan
half-heartedly shuffling when I feel
as Stassie wraps her arms around my waist.
"So you saw me." Why didn't you come to my rescue? _ grunts,
as he stands on tiptoe and presses a kiss to the corner of my mouth.
"I didn't know you needed rescuing." "With his big blue eyes."
he looks straight at me, furrowing his brows. "I know he's a good friend of
yours."
I didn't want you to think I was immersing myself in your stuff.
"Um, okay, Mr. Diplomatic." He wraps his arms around my neck. –
Save me next time. I love Ryan, he's a great friend, but he's the only one
the guy i want to hug you is you.
Fuck it.
- I bought.
"Ryan likes to pickpocket and he's drunk, but I put him in his place." Don't
be mad at him
that's why! I think he's sad for Liv.
I am so relieved. I would have been able to at that moment
to storm off that Rothwell has touched her—or worse, can
I would have stormed over to them and caused a scene. I could deduct
would have all kinds of stupid conclusions, with which I could then screw
everything up
would be. I brush Stassie's hair out of her face and tuck it behind her ear,
then I place my hands on both sides of his neck and start to stroke gently,
as he looks up at me.
- What did you say to him?
"That I'm with you, and you can't go back and forth, because you don't."
I want you to think bad. Is that okay? Sorry, I didn't know what
I could say.
He rocks nervously on his feet, still wearing the elf shoes.
I lean down to put my lips on his and enjoy it,
as his tongue rubs against mine.
"Sounds perfect to me."Chapter thirty one
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
ANAST ASIA
I'M STILL HALF Asleep when I turn over in bed and Nate
I reach for his side, where instead I find only a note.
There are so many options that I don't even know what to start with.
Finally, I start with the smoothie, which, standing in my new favorite
place, a
I eat it looking at the back garden. It's as beautiful as it gets
it would have been copied here from some Christmas card. It doesn't seem
real.
It takes me about ten seconds to figure out what I want
do. I quickly find my skates and jacket and then
I head out to my new favorite ice rink.
I don't even ice dance, I just enjoy the spectacle when I can
I notice a deer watching me from the distant trees. Living in L.A
the last few years have been quite a drag, after all my life before that
I was able to enjoy life in Washington.
In Maple Hills, the closest thing to wildlife is the student union
quarter.The deer steps on the frozen ground, running through the trees, so
one
I glide a little closer. I forgot to ask Nathan where
leads this part of the lake, but as they bend over the trees while everything
small, frozen drops of water glisten on their branches, as if from a movie
would have been conjured here.
As I reach the edge of the forest, the deer is still watching me from the
trees,
but then my phone rings, which scares him away. I take off my gloves,
and I raise the phone to my ear a little grumpily.
"Hello?"
"Hey, where are you?" Nate asks. "I just got back and nowhere."
I can't find you either.
"I was just trying to make friends with a deer, but your call scared him off"
I grunt, scanning the trees with my gaze.
"With a deer?" Where are you?
"I skate on the edge of the forest." Just like Snow White
I would have had a moment and everything.
"Anastasia, it's not safe…"
But I can't hear the end of his sentence.
Because the ice cracks under my feet, and the water at that moment
it paralyzes my whole body that my head falls below the surface.Chapter
thirty-eight
NO THAN
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
ANAST ASIA
WHAT IS MY NAME?
How the hell can I not think of my own name?
Ian Hawkins is standing next to me like Darth Vader, his hand towards me
outstretched, ready to introduce myself, not even my lame name
by the way. Nate squeezes my knee. It's meant to be soothing, but only that
it reminds me to listen when I should be talking.
"This is Anastasia Allen, my girlfriend." Stas, this is my father, Ian
Hawkins—
Nate says calmly as he laces our fingers together.
Nate's father looks exactly how I imagine Nate in his thirties
Later. He is tall, square-jawed, with dark brown hair and large brown eyes
there is If he wasn't my newest archenemy, I'd even say so
he's handsome, but that's out of the question.
"Mr. Hawkins, nice to finally meet you!" I squeeze it out
of myself accompanied by the most artificial smile in the world, while I
shake it like that
and his hands, as if we were politicians. He sits down directly with me
face, and I can't wait to spend the whole lunch feeling awkward
make eye contact with him.
Although at the moment he is more interested in Sasha's dress.
"You didn't even think to take off what you were wearing on the plane?"
says Ian
roughly. It would be impossible to say that he traveled for fifteen hours - a
there is not a single crease in her clothes, her hair is perfectly styled. But
that's it
from a single sentence, the only one of which is a sneer directed at the
adolescent's daughter
His comment tells me everything I need to know about Ian Hawkins.
Sasha's whole posture changes, she pulls herself together, her chin drops.
I can't watch this.
"It seems to me that you're comfortable in your own skin, Sasha." I wish I
did too
I would have worn sweatpants - I say as cheerfully as I can
it just blows my mind.That's enough to get Ian's attention again—a
our eyes meet, but as much as I want to, I don't
I turn my head. I feel like I just gave it to her
permission to criticize, to judge me. I can see how
takes a look, the way his gaze wanders first to my face, then
walking down, he inspects my outfit. His mouth tightens.
"Just tell me about yourself, Anastasia."
"What would you like to know, Mr. Hawkins?"
- Feel free to just call me Ian and let's get on with it, there's no need for
that
for formality. Judging by the way my son is about to squeeze your hand
circulation, I'm sure he's very attached to you—
he says accompanied by a small laugh that ignores all good humor. - What
if
shall we start with where are you from?
– Originally from Seattle, Washington, but now Maple for a few years
I live in Hills for school.
Our drinks arrive, the waiters work diligently and silently
in the presence of their boss. Nate can't seem to take his eyes off his father,
but
he mumbles a "Thank you!", as he does with the hand he's using
he's not clutching mine, he's reaching for his Sprite.
"You're welcome, Nate!" says a sweet voice. We both look at the same time
up, and just like that we see a beautiful blonde woman putting down a vase
Ian
edge.
He has pretty green eyes and a smile, roughly the same age as us
blinding. He looks at Nate as if he knows him, and there's something in his
eyes that
which makes my skin tingle. An unpleasant feeling settles in
in my stomach, and then it takes my breath away when I realize that this is
it
the feeling is jealousy.
"I didn't know you were in town," she continues, completely
ignoring my existence. "You should have told me."
Nate's grip loosens, and then my heart sinks as he lets go
hand, but then reaches towards my face and tucks my hair behind my ear,
then
he puts his arm on the back of my chair and tickles my shoulder with his
fingers.
"You asked for it without ice, didn't you?" he asks, nodding towards the
drink
someone put it down in front of me.
More like the ice cubes floating in the drink and the steam running down
the side of the glass
I'm focusing on the woman Nathan is definitely dating
he went to bed sometime.I have to stop, this is all pointless. I never feel it
in Maple Hills
like this. There it doesn't bother me who has visited her bed, but here, her
father and
in front of her sister, I feel the white-hot envy running through my body.
"Come on?" Um, yes, but it doesn't matter.
Nate takes my glass in his hand and holds it out to her.
"He didn't ask for ice." "His voice is sharp, much sharper than ever before."
I've heard it too, and it's strange to see him so measured.
She looks shocked as she takes the glass from his hand while
he's still not looking at me - but he's looking a lot at Sasha, who has his
palm
he tries to hide his grin behind it. Too long goes by without
anyone would speak up.
"That's it, Ashley," Ian says slowly as the weirdness sinks in
into a small scene. "Bring Anastasia a drink without ice, as she asked, and
tell me."
Mark that we are ready to order.
His sharp tone snaps Ashley out of her reverie.
- Indeed sir.
"And Ashley?"
"Yes, Mr. Hawkins?" - the girl answers briskly, as her shaft spins
around.
– Anastasia is a member of the family and also our guest. I will do
as if you had enough decency to look at him at all,
and apologize to him for your mistake as you would anyone else
you could also do it with a guest. Don't let this happen again, or a new year
you can spend it looking for a job.
I need every single muscle in my head to work
state should not fall to the floor. Nathan starts squirming in his chair and
again
grabs my hand. Ian pours himself a glass of water and takes a sip
one of them.
- So where were we? At school. What are you studying?
I tell him that I am a third-year business management major
I am the only one who has already turned twenty-one, because a year later
I started school after I was adopted at the age of five, and to my credit
saying, Ian nods in the right places and asks the questions in turn.
My new drink arrives as Nate and Sasha sit in silence -
they're probably grateful they're not in the limelight. I will get a
little rest when the waiter comes to take our order. Nate
he leans over and presses his lips to my temple.- What do you want? –
Then he continues in a whisper: – I'm so proud of you, baby.
You are so good.
I can't answer him as Sasha is trying to order one
chicken burger with fries, which her father says no to.
- He asks for chicken and cashew nut salad, the dressing to go with the
salad.
"But dad, I…"
"No, Sasha."
I hate this and every critical thought that has ever crossed my mind
on my mind about my parents, now it weighs on me and it's suffocating
I feel guilty because they never made me feel like shit
as much as I feel right now just watching Ian like that
deals with Sasha. The words are out of my mouth before I can
I could stop them.
"The world doesn't come crashing down just because he eats a burger."
For the first time since we sat down here, Ian feels some sort of emotion
constantly indifferent on his face. He raises his eyebrows, his lips
he squeezes it and suddenly he doesn't look like Nathan at all. Only
he doesn't have the soft eyes and comical grin that Nathan has when he
raise your eyebrows in surprise.
"Not that you had anything to do with it, but Sasha did."
you will have a competition soon. You have to stick to your meal plan, he
warns
Ian.
"Me too, but one burger won't ruin your career."
If you want to eat a burger, let him eat it. I want a burger too - I snap
me too.
I don't know why I behave like this, why I pull it up on purpose
the man I want her to like me, even if I don't
I like. I can't help it. I want to protect Sasha from all this
thoughts that will haunt you about eating for a long time to come
even after her father no longer tells her what to eat.
I don't even want that French burger. I wanted a salad
to order.
Nate squeezes my knee in support.
"Can we have three chicken burgers, Mark?" Just no salad.
Mark glances at Ian, who places his menu on the table, then agrees
he nods as a sign. When Mark walks back into the kitchen, at length
exhaling with relief, I immediately feel the weight ofwhich I just did. Sasha
keeps her eyes fixed on her drink, and meanwhile the
gnawing on the skin of his thumb.
"I don't like my staff behaving so brazenly."
before, Ian says in an emotionless voice.
"Dad..." Nathan interrupts.
"I'm talking to both of you," he grumbles. "Maybe you enjoyed being one."
you could pretend you were the boss here for a while, but as long as you
were in my restaurant
you eat and sleep in my house, until then I expect you to show me
something
respect. – Nate's body is tensing up, and I can feel it tensing up
the tension thickens, but before things can escalate further,
Sasha speaks.
"You're a figure skater, aren't you?" That's your sport, isn't it, Stassie?
And that's enough to get Ian's attention, so let's get started
in front of the whole dance.
***
RIGHT NOW, NATHAN'S ROOM seems like the only safe corner
throughout the house.
The lunch, I think, could have been worse, but let's say it was much better
too. According to Nathan, it went quite well, which is a rather strange
view for me
in the light of it, I am forced to seriously reflect on how much
things are going wrong here, if that's what counts as good.
Nate's father is throwing a big New Year's Eve party today, which the
resort is all about
year for the guests who spend the holidays here and
they count on our presence.
As Nate naps on my stomach, I can't stop thinking that the
don't let my thoughts wander Mila Hawkins, Nate and Sasha's mother
towards. Still, what a wonderful woman she must have been next to such a
husband
was he able to bring two such wonderful children together?
I remember weeks ago—before I realized
that I have no chance of getting away without humming into this guy -
Nate told me he was the way his mother raised him. Complete
he puts his heart and soul into things. Nate thinks his mom would have
loved it
me - and Lola too - because he adored stubborn and determined women.
He also raised Sasha to be like that before he died. When his father is not a
nearby, I can see the sparks of it in Sasha, and I wish it wasway to bring the
five of us back to L.A.
"You can think really out loud sometimes," Nate growls against my stomach
lying down. He looked up at me, his eyes dreamy, his face flushed. "What's
going on?"
in your mind?
"The party," I lie.
- We do not go. He's big and you'd hate him, he says, as he
he kisses my belly button back. "Anyway, this room can be the."
best to see the fireworks.
"Your girlfriend would probably spit in the drink anyway."
Nate lets out a big sigh, leans his head back on my stomach, and then he's
sad
he looks up at me.
"I wish no one had been there before you, but I can't change the past."
yes. But I can promise that there will be no one after you. But
Ashley was never my girlfriend. We were children. We went to high school
together and
we slept a couple of times when I came home for the holidays.
"I'm just teasing you, I swear." I'm sorry, I don't even know why
i am jealous I swear I don't usually feel this way and
I don't care what you did to me, I really don't. It is not even
I think it's about sex, I guess it bothers me more because she's a girl
it matches the version of you that exists here. With the one who wears
snow boots and the
he plays ice hockey on the lake in his backyard. You let yourself go so much
here, for me
I managed to pull together the most stressful situation ever and
simply…
"Anastasia," he says gently, cutting me off from my flurry of words. "That's
why."
I let myself go because you are here. I'm enjoying it for the first time in
years
that I can be here, and this is only because you are here with me.
I don't have a version that would be better without you by my side.
"Your parents were on my mind," I admit reluctantly. - What kind of
your mother must have been great if you managed to be such a great person
grow out of you.
He crawls up the mattress until his face is in line
with mine as I rub my nose against his.
"He was the best." I'm not even a bit like my father
Stas. I swear I'll be so good to you. You will never have to because of this
worry about it. – The seriousness on his face breaks my heart, and that's it
idea that Nathan could ever be mentioned on the same page as that
absurd with his father."I know, Nate." I swear I know, and not for a second
I doubt you. I'm so lucky and for a second
nor do I take it for granted.
He touches his mouth to mine, first gently, then more passionately,
more demanding as I run my hands through her hair and let my legs
place yourself between Love just oozes out of him, his every touch
tender and full of care, his every look and moment special
for me, for us. And when he penetrates me, which makes me squirm
underneath, he whispers in my ear how much he loves me, how perfect he
is
I am for him and how lucky he is.
I can't even count how many times my body squeezes his
how many times I dig my face into his chest, his neck, his pillow
how many times do I have to stop and tell myself, even before his name
I would shout. His fingers tighten against the flesh of my hips, guiding me
as it were
it penetrates deep into me that I feel him right in my bones. His chest
he waves wildly, his stomach tightens, his vein pulsates madly in his neck
as
I press my lips to it.
And when he shoots his seed into me, he hugs me so tightly that
I don't know how they can expect to ever be two separate again
let's be human.Chapter forty-two
NO THAN
"FUCK YOU, HAWKINS." It was only yours for weeks, now you can't
help it
to share it for a lousy minute?
I wasn't even doing anything when Lola suddenly
he started throwing insults at me. Well, more specifically, as I passed the
next to their partner, I leaned in to plant a kiss on the top of Stassie's head,
but
other than that I didn't bother them. However, Henry…
"You're not the only one who needs to talk to him, Lola," he grumbles
guy crossing his arms like a grumpy little kid and swinging the
boat-sized legs on the coffee table. "I have muscles too, you know
that."Cutting across the room and winking at Stassie instead of the
I would go near him because Lo scares the hell out of me, I'll take off my
clothes Hen
next to it.
"So what's up?" "I hand him a beer while the guy
he looks at me like I have two heads. "Yours?" I can help?
"I don't have muscles... but I could have muscles if I wanted to have
muscles." More
I could be like Lola. I could have more muscles than you guys
together.
"Nobody's got more money than Lola," Robbie whispers as he shrugs
glancing back above him, he checks to see if Lola is listening. "All of them."
metaphorically rather than in an actual sense.
When we got home, it took about fifteen minutes to discuss everything
with guys, but Lola can't do anything in fifteen minutes. THE
fifteen minutes is the minimum warm-up time.
After spending an entire hour whispering in the kitchen, Anastasia
she walks over to me and squeezes her ass between me and Henry.
"Did you have a nice Christmas, Henry?"
"You drowned," he replies.
This startles Stas a bit, and he turns his head towards me, then again
looking quickly at Henry.
"I know, but I'm fine now." Nathan pulled me out of the lake.
"You could have died." He stares at his hand instead of Stassie and no
I know why I'm surprised by this. Henry loves Stas like a
would be his sister, and he wrote to me every day to make sure
Anastasia is fine. I thought that would be enough to calm him down, but
I was clearly wrong.
"But I'm not dead and I'm here now," Stassie says gently,
as he rests his head on Henry's shoulder.
The guy suddenly gets up and storms out into the kitchen, where he stares
at her for a longer time
the contents of the fridge as it should.
"Can we go to bed?" I'm tired, Stassie tells me
quietly. I glance at Henry and nod, knowing that the
a kid needs some space.
I follow Stassie upstairs, we work together to do the laundry,
we undress and comb our hair until we are ready to
let's fall into bed. He snuggles up to me and runs his finger along the
on my chest."I miss your bed."
"Do you want me to buy the same mattress here?"
"No," he says, drawing out the e as if to say yes. "Nothing."
it makes sense, you'll graduate in half a year anyway. It would just be
another thing that
you have to carry me away from here.
"Yes, but you'll still be here."
I'm tempted to fail and have to do the year over again
then I can graduate with him. Strange? Yes. Are you interested? No. THE
However, I think Vancouver Vipers would be interested, and that's the
only reason
to attend classes.
Anastasia pulls away from me, then crosses her legs and looks at me.
"Nathan…I don't want to live here next year." Especially after you in
Canada
you will be.
- Why not? – An unpleasant feeling settles in my stomach and that
I wish I could go back in time half a minute to not start
into this conversation. "Why do I get the feeling you're up to something
like that?"
tell me what I don't want to hear?
"Maybe you don't want to, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't."
let's talk about it. – He chuckles and then places his hand on my thigh. "I
love it"
that you guys enjoy living here. Seriously, I have no idea what it's for
I would have started without you. But, as I have said countless times
to you, I want to go back to my apartment.
"Do you want to live with the guy who keeps insulting you?" - I say
rough, much rougher than I wanted.
"Look, I know you probably don't see much sense in this, but."
he doesn't have to be. Lo told me what I was missing until
I've been without a phone and I think Aaron is finally ready to
let's sort things out.
"Anastasia, he was disgusting to you." A lying scumbag.
You don't need it.
"Yes, I am well aware of that!" Over and over again
I can't imagine what he did, but I wouldn't say it's his kiss
I wanna be. And I do need it. He's my skating partner and ha
I just don't want to start all over again after two years of suffering
I'm really not ready, I have to find a way to be together again
we can work.
"I fucking hate this.""I know, baby." And I love that you're so protective,
but...
living here has always been a temporary solution. You know how hard it is
to spend every single moment with you while I know it's six months
will you get out of here soon?
"I'm not happy about having to move either, but you know there's nothing
else."
my choice!
"That's not what I meant, Nathan." Well of course I want it to be
play in your dream team. Even if you don't already have a contract
I would support you wherever you go. He sighs, and to this voice that
I hear it so often and I know how mentally draining it is
this is the whole situation, I hate to hear that our Christmas break is
coming like this
end "I mean six months from now I want to be excited."
because of the things ahead of you, not to cry because I don't want to
move away I think it will be much easier to be in my own apartment again
I live.
He touches his finger to his lips, and his legs start to bounce - he's nervous.
My heart
hammers wildly.
"What aren't you telling me?"
He starts caressing his hand on my thigh, comforting me even before he
does
you would tell me no matter how terrible the news you have.
"Aaron can go on the ice again." I just wanted to tell you in the morning
because that's how it is
we had a long day but i guess that means you can go again
to play hockey.
To be able to play again should be music to my ears,
but instead i feel like stassie is slipping out of my hands.
"So we're not going to skate together anymore and you want to move
out—"
I snap up. "Then from now on it's only the Thursday evening number."
I will be? When can you make room for me in your schedule?
I regret this the moment the words run out
number.
Anastasia's eyes widen and I see her body tense up.
"You're troubled, Nathan, but please don't talk to me like that."
I'm sorry, but the shame that fills me won't let me
speak louder than a whisper.
"You're my boyfriend and I love you." We will meet so often
as much as possible, but you have already decided what will happen. Just
I want to listen to Aaron, that's all."You have a big heart, Stas," I mutter as
I pull him back to me.
I immediately feel better as soon as he is in my arms again. - No
i want aaron to crush her even more than before. I don't trust the
however, I trust you and your judgment, man. Whatever you decide,
I will be there by your side.
Stassie falls asleep in no time, and I just listen
the soft breaths of his breath, letting them soothe him as much as they
could
may. The thing doesn't really work and I end up falling asleep with it on
in my head, how much I don't trust Aaron Carlisle.
***
ANAST ASIA
NATE
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
I'M LYING FACE FORWARD on the couch in the living room when
something
a whisper disturbs my self-pity.
I look up to see JJ, Henry, and Robbie in their arms
each holding a mug of coffee, whispering to each other like old ladies
in the bingo hall.
- What is that? I moan.
"Did you throw me out yet?" - asks JJ as he leaves the retirement circle and
sits down
in an armchair opposite me.
- No! - I snap, and then sit down on the couch properly, because so
it seems that this will end in a house council. I knew it was in my fucking
room
I should have stayed out of sight, but the morning workout
I was very busy and I couldn't bring myself to climb the
on the stairs.
JJ puts his mug down on the coffee table and raises it in front of him
defensively
his hand.
"It's okay, don't cry," he says sarcastically. "If Stas didn't throw."
you, then why do you paint so fucking miserable?
Henry throws himself down next to me, gives me a half suspicious, half
look
a sympathetic look, and a few moments later Robbie appears
holding a mug of coffee for me.
I definitely feel like I've been attacked, but I guess
I should be thankful that I have friends who don't do it
from above, when I'm obviously in a bad mood. Sinking into the couch
I sigh heavily and knock down my coffee to pass the time because
where the hell do I even begin?
"Stas says I'm not paying attention to what he's saying." Angry with me,
but also infinitely understanding when I'm such an asshole, which makes
me
I just feel worse. And I miss it."But you really aren't paying attention, so
why are you surprised?"
are you angry Robbie says without hesitation.
"Yes, I'm listening!" I confirm. "I can hear it fucking clearly."
another chance for that asshole. I listened when he told me that
move out. I listened when he said he was going to fucking couples therapy
with him.
"Compared to how smart you are, sometimes you can be a total idiot,
Hawkins, JJ says, shaking his head, his usual comic grin gone
trace. This time it's totally serious. - Stas is the most determined person,
the only one i know. I have no doubt that he will achieve everything,
whatever you want from life, because you don't hesitate to make sacrifices.
what would have been
if they don't sign you?
"I…"
"Nana, don't feed me some crap." He laughs. "You would have lived up to
it."
it lays down your foundation for all kinds of nonsense that you feel like
doing, and so on
you could, because there is the family business you can rely on.
Stassie doesn't have a savings account. He doesn't have a family business. If
it won't be
a successful skater, then you will probably be hired as an instructor or
whatever
worse, in some chore he hates.
"Why are you teaching me about my own girlfriend's life, Johal?"
"Because you're only focusing on the show and you're being fucking selfish!"
Stassie can't be a pair without a pair of skaters. Smart decision, Nate.
He uses Aaron to achieve his goals because he has no other choice.
You should be proud of him for being so strong, and he only ran so much
from you.
to be fucking jealous and petty, which makes you a poor girl
he feels bad about something that is already hard enough for him.
Henry and Robbie are painfully silent as JJ tears up. Henry
he squints at his coffee cup, slurping the drink for just a moment
you don't even have to look at me. Robbie fixes his eyes on me, but on his
face
nothing can be read.
"You two aren't going to say anything?" I growl.
Rob shrugs.
"Look, JJ is right." You know he's right, that's why you're here now
so freaked out. We know you love her, Nate. Do you think I'm happy for
him?
how does Lola spend her time with Aaron? Of course not, but both of us
big girls. Big, stubborn little girls. Based on what you said
to us, and what, erm, Lola told me, Stas clearly no longerhe could have
told you that he didn't want to be Aaron's friend. I think,
you have to decide if you are willing to drive him away because of your ego.
"It has nothing to do with my fucking ego!" I'm worried because the woman
he's into
I'm in love, spending time with someone who treats me horribly
with him.
"Yes, it's your ego that sucks," Henry mutters next to me, not even looking
up
about his coffee, which he is still sloshing around in his mug. "That."
you think Aaron will manipulate her until Stassie forgives him
and then he won't need you anymore. I liked that he needed you.
It makes you feel important. You know Aaron hates you and that's why
you believe, then he will keep Stassie away from you. Which just goes to
show
you have no idea how strong she is, and you don't even understand how
strong she is
love you.
Without a doubt, this is one of the most gruesome of all time
intervention.
"So I understand you all think it's one."
am i an asshole
Robbie clears his throat and laughs.
"Just to clarify, I've been thinking that he is one since kindergarten."
you are an ass.
"I didn't know you when you were in kindergarten," adds JJ. "But."
I think if you did, I would have considered you an asshole too. You know
that
we love you man but you brought stassie here you let us live with her
and we get to know him and now we love him too. We don't want it
ruined
do something so fucking special. That's what Aaron wants.
"I don't think you're an ass, Nathan," Henry says quietly. –
I think you should imagine yourself in Stassie's shoes. If you and JJ
you'd fight, but in the meantime we'd have a match and you'd need one
for a defender who helps us win, would you let him play. You would put it
all aside
drama and you would focus on winning. Stassie does exactly that.
"You're going on a date tonight, right?" Robbie says, and when I nod,
smile. "Talk to him about it!" He needs to know you're there for him
in case.
"You three have nothing better to do than play fucking Oprah."
with me?
This then breaks the tension in the room as the three of them
they make me laugh. JJ smiles and pokes Henry playfully."At least we're
finally not staring like Henry."
desperately trying to get that girl from the Christmas party - so are we
was her name jenny or something?
"You still haven't found it?" What did you say to that poor girl?
Did you join witness protection or something? - I giggle, then the
my smile widens even more when Henry throws one at me
look, as if he would like to ignite a fire with his bare gaze.
"I'm sorry, Nathan." We can't all keep harassing each other until then
girl until she starts walking with us. Some of us need someone out first
find out who the chick really is, okay? I…
I can't hear what he says after that because it's JJ, Robbie and me
we scream with laughter.
ANAST ASIA
NO THAN
THE ONLY thing wrong with the most restful sleep of a person's life is that
eventually you have to wake up.
It's so peaceful here in the morning, which is a stark contrast to walking up
the stairs.
at the taping that goes on in my house. Not to mention what it's about
about a dispute over who drank the rest of the coffee. As your alarm goes
off,
Stassie starts squirming in my arms, moaning and grumbling about the
noise doesn't stop right away, then, cursing under his mustache, he starts
looking for a
your phone.
While we lived together, I got pretty good at faking sleep—
which is also called stealth mode. The couple spent separately
thanks to the night, however, I got rusty, because when I beat the bass
he calls his screaming phone, I can't stop laughing.
"Just laugh, Hawkins, and see what happens," says one
between yawning and aggressively tapping your phone screen.
"Come here, Morcipofi." "Smiling, I pull his body to mine." –
How are you? Is there anything I can do to make you feel prepared?
He rolls on top of me, resting his head on the hand on my chest.
"Won't you skate for me?" I'll keep sleeping, you will
you write me how it went.
– I mean, I can try to pay off the judges, but in case
you want me to take your place, I don't think it's a stretch
overalls would suit me.
Today feels awfully important, and I'm honestly surprised
that Stassie isn't totally out of it, but then that thought barely crosses my
mind
on my mind, Stas throws himself off me, then runs into the bathroom and
the toilet
empties the contents of his stomach.
Fortunately, he had already warned in advance that on the morning of the
races out of ten
throw up nine times with nervousness and don't panic about that
after all, he suffers from morning sickness. He also said that vomiting is a
sign thatthat I must go, as from that point on a biped is nervous
it's going to be a nightmare and you don't want me to see that.
By the time I get dressed and bring him a glass of water from the kitchen,
he is already coming
out of the bath and luckily it only smells like peppermint, nothing else.
"That was my sign to go, wasn't it?" I ask him how
I lean down to plant a kiss on his forehead.
"Thank you for spending last night here!" "He hugs you tight." "Now."
I would be much worse off if you weren't here. Good luck today
for your match! I won't check my phone, but I will call you if
I got back to the hotel, okay? Then you also write how it ended.
I was so focused on Stas's race that I almost forgot
to play UCLA today. Hopefully that's all by now
pitch-damaging drama is a thing of the past, because the UCLA team is full
of greats anyway
with guys. Since our universities are so close, we see each other often
each other in clubs and parties, and apart from that, a little healthy
rivalry, they are one of those teams that are quite fun to play with
to go on ice.
The National Figure Skating Championships are held in San Diego, and it
is
lasts all weekend. They will perform their first choreography today, then
if they get a high enough score, the next one comes tomorrow. Anastasia
he was extremely understanding when I told him I was going to have a
match,
so I can't go with him - he was ridiculously sweet and said
that it's okay.
But what I didn't tell him was that once the game was over,
I'm already jumping in my car and speeding down I-5
let me see him. I'll give him one last pep talk, I'll tell you
him how much I love him and how proud I am of him, then
I'll let him do his thing.
In contrast to the calm surrounding Stassie's apartment, the guys a
they bring their usual crazy form when I get home.
Stepping into the living room I am confronted by JJ, Henry, Mattie and
Russ
all standing on the couch in suits. Mattie using the table as a springboard
he jumps to the chair at the far end of the room - the table creaks under his
weight
under, but luckily it doesn't collapse. I take a look at the four of them,
waiting for someone to say something.
Robbie, holding a large mug of coffee in one hand and his bike in the other
he is pushed forward and rolls out of the lounge. He's already wearing his
suit, and already aheadI can feel the upcoming lecture about not screwing
up the game anymore
before. But then instead, he just shrugs his shoulders and is alone
explains with a sentence what the hell is going on here.
"The floor is lava."
"Then that's enough for you."
"But not as much as you." Go put on your suit, a domestic
we just can't be late for the game anymore.
It doesn't take long for me to get dressed and I'm about to get into the car
when
my phone starts vibrating.
UBER FISH
We just started
and Brady makes us listen to ABBA.
He also sings.
JJ says call me
they can put down a duet.
Yeah, probably.
ANAST ASIA
Flickering lights surround us from all sides, and my chest like that
it's tight that I can't breathe.
I try to push myself away from him, but he holds my face too tightly, and I
don't
I want to direct a scene on the ice, since roughly thirty cameras are thirty
takes this moment from different angles.
He takes it.
Everyone will see this. Many have already seen it - they are watching it
right now.
Nathan is watching from home. He watches us kiss.
I'm about to get sick.
Aaron finally gets off me, leans back, and throws me a victory
glance. He raises his hand and starts waving to the crowd and that's it
I need an ounce of self-control not to start crying right here,
in front of everyone. My body moves completely by itself, a
leading off the ice to Brady's smiling face.
Of course he's smiling - we were perfect. Each
I felt it in every movement, every twist and turn, every single a
in the second we spent on the ice, we were in perfect harmony. Up to
until the very end, when Aaron slapped my mouth without my permission
mouth and ruined everything.
I take the full-backs from the coach's hand, I dodge it
a hug, with which he tries to take her prisoner, and then I walk down the
tunnel, away from the
from cameras and from Aaron.
I can barely see the exit a few meters away as my eyes well up with tears
healed, blurring my vision.
- Stas! Aaron shouts from behind me, and I can hear it in his voice: he's
screwed
confused. He doesn't understand why I storm away from him when I do
we should celebrate our outstanding performance.
Our mind-blowing performance.It's this kind of performance that gets
people's attention - kind of
of people we want to pay attention to us.
Aaron's hand wraps around my bicep, stopping me before I can
my choice but to face it. I want to look strong, I want to, like that
make it seem as if he didn't affect me, but that doesn't work,
because my tears are running down my face.
"We're done, Aaron." You've gone too far this time.
His eyebrows practically run to his hairline.
"What do you mean by 'we're done'?" We were fucking perfect!
Bardy appears behind him, his gaze darting cautiously between the two of
us
between.
"We have to wait for your scores." Anastasia, I know you are troubled
or, and we'll sort this out later, but right now you need to wipe away your
tears
and you have to steel yourself for the cameras. "My chest is big."
he flinches as they almost suffocate him with their wary eyes. - I know,
my treasure,” Brady murmurs. "I'm so sorry, I really am." But you have to
focus on your career. We'll sort this out later, I promise.
"I don't understand what I did," Aaron says with all kinds of emotion
without. - I do not understand. Stop crying, we need to know how many
we are in place.
- No! I'm done, I say sobbing. "I couldn't shake him off."
about me. He refused to stop. I did not want to. You do not
you let me go I'm not doing this anymore, coach. I don't want, I don't want
I do not want.
The exit door opens behind us and it's the biggest of my life
to his surprise, Nathan runs into him. I watch over my shoulder as
he comes to us, takes one look at my teary eyes and already knows
that this was not some little trick. That kissing is not part of our
performance
volt. That we didn't pretend to be in love for the sake of the cameras and
the judges
we are
"Oh shit, even that," Aaron grumbles.
- Are you okay? Nate asks as he pulls her close and tight in horror
hugs me He gently wipes the tears from my eyes with his thumb as he
I look up at him and shake my head.
"I want to go home," I say between sobs.
"That's fucking ridiculous, Anastasia." I'm sorry if I upset you,
okay? I was just carried away by the heat of the moment. People wanted it,
and so did II just wanted to give them this. I won't do this anymore, if that
much
you're freaking out because of a silly little trick.
"You don't fucking cut it, do you?" Nathan rages as he lets go of me
and walks up to Aaron. Before I even have a chance to tell him not to
do nothing, he punches Aaron in the face as he sprawls on the floor. Brady
yet
before screeching his name, she grabs his arm so Nate can do anything else.
"You forced yourself, you bastard!" Nathan yells at Aaron, who
he squeezes his increasingly swollen face.
- Oh, my God. Everyone calm down! Brady shouts. – Hawkins,
get out of here Aaron, get up! "Finally just losing control in her hair."
grips "Anastasia, hold on for the next fifteen minutes, please." Then
we'll talk, I promise.
With Aaron, we can certainly look like a ready-made disaster, just like in
front of the camera
we are sitting on the bench waiting for our scores.
My eyes are puffed up, and one side of Aaron's face, though
it is partially covered by the ice pack that the field doctor put on it, it is
swollen.
Brady is sitting between the two of us, grasping our free hand with both
hands, and he's present
at the moment, I can't even imagine three people like the three of us
you don't want to sit in front of the camera.
The scores are coming, based on which we are in first place
among those who have already performed their number, but I am not even
able to
be excited about it. It's over. I sit motionless, not caring about anything
With Brady and Aaron's squeals of joy. The coach is on the comforter
around my shoulders
twists his arm, but as soon as the camera light goes out, indicating that the
the recording is over, I'm already jumping up and going to look for him
again
Nathan.
"Anastasia, wait!" - shouts the coach, I hear the echo of his steps
behind my back. I slow down and turn around to see him with his arms
outstretched
jogging towards me. "I'm sorry he did that to you."
"I'm done."
"You keep saying that, but what does it mean?" he asks cautiously.
I see Aaron coming towards us from the results room. so calm
as if he had nothing to worry about. "You can't stop the."
skating for a kiss, Anastasia. I do not let.
"I won't stop," I say as I look over his shoulder at Aaron,
who will come to us in the meantime. "I'll just never date Aaron."
to skate anymore.Aaron blows at this, and the almost irresistible takes over
him
he wants me to draw one on the other side of his face.
"You will never find another partner, and even if you do, you have a
chance."
nor prepare in the next two years. Are you seriously planning to
will you make your Olympic debut at the age of twenty-seven? Stick to
reality
on the ground, jesus. Just accept my apology, Stas. Then the future
we will discuss it with Dr. Robeská this week. We need to pull ourselves
together for tomorrow.
Look how fucking good we were together! We…
I'll let him say it, trying to sell himself like a Frenchie
real estate agent. And when he finally shuts up and is so terribly smug
he's grinning because he thinks he's bought me again with his shit,
I turn to Brady again.
"From now on, I will go solo." If our score were enough for the
to continue, please tell the organizers that I gave up.
As she begins to realize what this means, Aaron grabs her hair.
"You can't switch to individual." Don't you fucking dare do that
with me, Anastasia. After all I've done for you, fuck you. Do not be
such a stubborn bitch! You're not even good enough to be alone
compete. Oh, my God. Oh, sweet, fucking God. You're ruining it
my life.
"Enough of that!" Brady complains.
"I'm going to find my boyfriend, then I'm going home." Goodbye Aaron.
"Stas, please!" he begs.
"I didn't do anything but trust you the whole time, Aaron." Two and a half
years
through him, I brought his parents into this relationship, into our
friendship. You
and you didn't do anything else, you only used and manipulated, conned
and that
You told me I wasn't good enough to be your partner
flies. Well, it finally dawned on me. You don't want me and that's it
it's okay because I don't want you either. I'd rather skate alone
and I risk failing rather than succeeding with you. THE
victory is worth nothing if it comes at the cost of hating myself when
I'm with you.
I don't even give him a chance to answer, but head back to the main one
waiting room to find Nate. On the one hand, they are liberated,
I feel light and free, but on the other hand, a bigger,
a much more serious part of me is ashamed and disappointed that he ever
did
I believed that we could have a normal partnership.The moment he sees
her, Nate jumps out of his chair and rushes over
Shall I bring it. I don't even give him a chance to ask if I'm okay
especially since I'm worried, then I'd start booing again, but instead
please take me back to the hotel so I can collect my things.
On the way between the arena and the hotel, I can't bring myself to
I check my phone, but I know there are countless messages waiting for me.
Fortunately, I haven't unpacked it yet, so I'll just pick it up
I drop off my suitcase and key card at the reception, then we're off
onto the highway back to Maple Hills.
I watch mom's name flash on the screen for about the thousandth time, but
I don't pick up, I just let voice mail take the call. Nathan
he didn't say a word, but ever since we got into the car, his hand has been
nowhere
on my legs, where it rests on the back of my head, gently purring, and
sometimes on the comforter
squeezes me so I know he's by my side.
The radio goes silent as Dad's name flashes on the screen, letting us know
that there is an incoming call from him.
"They'll be mad at me." They spent so much money on this dress…
"They won't be angry, baby." It's clear they're worried about you.
can i record
I nod as he takes the call.
"Hello!"
"Nate, I'm sorry to bother you." Maybe you didn't talk to Annie? Julia
keeps calling him, but he doesn't pick up. We watched the streaming and
it's like
he seemed troubled. Between the two of us, Julia is very worried.
"He's here with me." – Nate quickly glances at me, then back at me
turns it on the road. "He's sleeping." He was very exhausted and it
exhausted him. We're on our way
back to Maple Hills. Anastasia, um, wasn't really happy that it was Aaron
he kissed her. It wasn't part of their choreography, and I, um, no
I'm sure she'd still want to be Aaron's partner.
I'm not happy about Nate lying to my parents about me, but not yet
I am ready to face them.
"I'm not surprised," Dad grumbles. "That ice pack..."
Nate clears his throat.
"I hit you." But I want you to know…
Before he can even finish his excuse that he's not inherently aggressive
man, father cuts his words."No explanation needed." He deserved it
I think. We are so proud of Annie. It was phenomenal, absolutely
until that rush ruined it. Then tell him to call me
us when you wake up please. We want to make sure you're okay. Juice
we can fly to L.A. if you want, but no pressure.
My parents hate flying, so being offered this again
tears come to my eyes. The only thing that will bring me back is me now
theoretically I'm asleep so I can't be sobbing in the background of the call.
Nate squeezes my thigh.
- It will be. Thanks for calling.
"They don't sound angry," I say to myself.
"Because they're not," Nate confirms.
- STOP TRYING to seduce me all the time. See you in thirty minutes
I'm with Skinner and I still have to shower.
Anastasia, walking directly above my navel, stops saying
kiss all over my chest and then look up at me with that big blue one
with eyes that I fucking love so much. Yet how can someone
someone who looks so innocent can make such a mess? On his lips
with the most comical smile ever, he sits up a little, then crawls all over my
body
along the way, he presses an almost virginal kiss to my lips, then turns away
from me and
he lies down next to me on the bed.
"What do you think he might want?" he asks as he pulls the
blanket so that I can formulate a normal answer and not be distracted by
the
my attention is the fact that her breast is exactly in line with my eyes.
"I don't," I mutter as I pull closer to him and
I run my hand over her soft skin. "Probably intended for human sacrifice."
or something like that.
Anastasia nods in agreement and then snuggles up to my body again.
"It's understandable." You think your father will let me stay here after you
are you freaking out? We can only move into our new apartment at the end
of the school year, and no
I think the streets of Maple Hills were made for me.
"I think he'd rather throw me out on the street, but there's a good chance
he'll
that he doesn't even notice that I'm dead for half a year, so I think
you will be fine.
My relationship with my father is just as rosy as it's ever been. The
the only semi-normal thing he'd done lately was
that he gave Sasha a little way out to come with the Hamletsto Denver and
see our candlestick with them when there earlier this month
organized by the NCAA
{‡‡}
championship.
Which we won anyway—not that Dad noticed,
even if he is there. I'm glad Sasha saw us win -
Along with Anastasia and her parents. I can still hear Collin
his voice as he kept telling me and everyone who
he was only willing to listen to how unspeakably proud he was
on me. It was an emotional day, so many saints. Even Faulkner and
Robbie-
also had its moment.
University could not have ended more perfectly than this
for my hockey career, and it was made even more perfect by the fact that
with whom I could share it.
"If they are sacrificed, can I have your trust fund, or will your father take it
back?"
Stassie asks, then giggles as I run my fingers into her side
deep thought "I can have your blessing to marry me."
To Henry?
"No and no," I say as strictly as I can.
"I want you to wear black for the rest of your life and never again."
start with no one else.
"Ugh," he moans, half grunting, half laughing, as he starts to squirm.
"This."
it will really mess with my plans for spring break next year.
She screamed laughing as I pulled her out of bed, put her on my shoulder
and
I start the shower with him.
***
COACH
UBER FISH
It was hard to digest the fact that I won't be here next year, but the
knowledge
that Stassie won't have to face him on the field, or
bumping into him at parties takes a big weight off my shoulders.
Next stop on the list is the sports building to talk to the coach.
When I walk into his office, it's like he's munching on an all-you-can-eat
bagel.
He immediately narrows his eyes and I can see that he is already yelling in
his mind
with me. Finally he swallows what is in his mouth and says with a half
moan:
"I can't even eat my breakfast in peace anymore." Thanks to you
to clowns and my daughters, I will turn gray before my time.
I take one look at his completely shaved head, then agree
I nod.
"Did you want to see me, coach?"
He wipes his hands on a napkin and pushes his half-eaten bagel aside."We
need to discuss who will take your place as captain." Here is
it's time to think about who you give the title to, just like Lewinski
did to you. Have you thought about it yet?
I already started thinking about who my successor would be,
when he was benched last year. Since I wasn't on the ice, I had time
observing the team, seeing them as Faulkner and Robbie do and
I managed to observe a lot of things.
"He'll laugh..."
"I won't, but just tell me."
"I think Henry would make a great captain," I say honestly. –
Calm guy. Once I'm gone, he'll be the best player on the team.
He'll always be honest, he won't screw around. It will be now
third-year, which means the team will have two years with the same a
with a captain.
Faulkner ponders this for a moment, humming to himself.
- Okay. Let me talk to Robbie about what he thinks.
"We've already talked about it, and he agrees that Turner is the best
choice."
Robbie will stay at Maple Hills to get his master's degree,
so he will continue to coach the team. Since the assistant coach usually
paid employee, we all hope that when he finishes the
school, they will give him the job.
A couple of weeks ago, we sat down over a lot of beers and discussed,
who should follow me. Henry's confidence grew so much
since he moved in with us that I believe he will be able to cope with the
pressure that comes with a leadership position. Beyond that, no one can
rise
debate as to whether he would be our best player.
"Let me think about it," Faulkner says, reaching for his bagel.
indicating that it was time for me to pull away and leave him alone. "Then
in training."
we meet.
Since I'm already on campus, I'll drop by the library for a couple
for books I need to prepare for my final exams, then
I'm going home.
When I get there, the house is full and too many hockey players are
crammed into the
on my furniture.
"Don't you guys have your own house to go to?" Instead of
will you eat all my food and stink up my living room?The handful of middle
fingers are raised towards me, a few groans are heard, and then
finally Kris answers.
"Your girlfriend promised we'd get pad thai."
JJ and Anastasia went through that Vietnamese cooking class a couple of
weeks ago and
since then this place is like a restaurant. They decided that was it
they try different food and cuisine as much as they can. Each other
they cook standing next to each other, secretly competing with each other
to see who can prepare the
better main course or starter, or who makes the best side dish. Then
when we sit down to eat, they just sit there smugly, enjoying the
abundance
praise that the guys give them.
I'd rather not even mention to Stas that I'm almost sure
Bobby and Mattie live exclusively on mirelite pizza, so long after that
they'll come for dinner now that JJ and I graduated.
I fight my way through the bodies crammed into my living room and
messy and I head towards the kitchen. Stassie just had some bean sprouts
cuts while watching the wok intensely.
"Hi, sweetie," he smiles. "Dinner is ready."
I tilt her head back and plant a kiss on her lips, enjoying her body
it's like mine right away.
"You know you don't have to feed everyone, right?" I do not expect.
Chuckling, he returns to work.
"You know I love doing this." Like it's the size of a pallet
my child, but instead of being small and cute, they are huge and drink
and they swear. It's nice to see you two spending some time together,
especially after
some of you will be gone soon. It seems that Thai food is for everyone
favorite - they showed up as soon as I told them to.
"Anastasia Allen, don't you have baby fever?"
Her chin drops and a pink blush appears on her cheeks as she
he keeps blinking as if unable to believe that with such accusations
respect
"No way!" I'm just a good friend and roommate.
I can't stop laughing at this. Sometimes she's so fucking cute
that I have no idea what to do with it.
"You're the best friend and definitely the best roommate." He loves…
"What do I hear about the best roommate?" JJ interrupts me as he does
push me away from the stove. "Get out of our kitchen, Hawkins." It's just
culinary here
masterwork in progress and you are in the way with your tasteless
attitude.Stas looks at me with raised eyebrows as I back out of the kitchen.
Distasteful attitude, he gapes at me while trying not to laugh at me
himself as JJ begins to teach him how to serve. I look -
from a safe distance – as they scoop everything into bowls and unload the
beer pong/for our dining room table.
"To the trough!" - shouts JJ at the top of his voice, and the guys
immediately hurry up
they start towards the lounge.
Lola and Robbie are already sitting at the table, taking the best seats, and
then
the others also get in, their mouths hanging open at the sight of the offer in
front of them.
The clinking of cutlery and hums of praise fill the room and
the sound of sighs. Stassie brings out the last plate of egg rolls and I bring
out the last plate
I can't take my eyes off him as he stands there alone
smiling at the band.
To the girl who only ate salad, she didn't want to date anyone, and who
he couldn't stand the hockey players, there's no trace of him anymore.
He squeezes himself into the chair next to me and then packs his plate
with his food and moans happily as he stuffs a Villány pasta into his mouth.
He slaps Bobby's hand when he tries to steal an egg roll from the
from his plate and stares at him with piercing eyes until the kid collapses
shake Then his gaze softens as he turns to me and notices that
how good I laugh at their little skirmish. Not the least bit remorseful
for making Bobby even more afraid of him, he jerks her off
his shoulder.
"Egg rolls are my favorite."
"You're my favorite," I whisper as I lean over and
I press a kiss on her flushed cheek.
"Even if I had a hook in place of my hand?"
"Even if you had a hook in your hand, Anastasia."Epilogue
ANAST ASIA