OCD Contamination Fears & sometimes checking

Fear of being infected by blood and being rejected by loved ones

Fear of bringing ‘icks’ back into my safe haven (Home)

Rituals
• New clothes and certain items need to be doubled checked with Rob and he puts the date
on the tag so I know it’s done and then I list the clothes and we check it off as it goes into a
full washing machine – then check the list off when the machine has finished washing – SO
I KNOW THAT ITS ALL CLEAN FOR ME TO WEAR – ITEM eg: NEW PHONE ETC GETS
WIPED OVER

• Using public toilets – I avoid as much as possible and don’t drink much so I don’t have to
go. When I do have to go I give all my stuff to Rob or friend and show that I am not taking
anything in the toilet with me (so that it doesn’t get contaminated – incase I put it on the
floor and there is icks there or drop in the toilet) – on a good day I do not have any rituals –
I might tell Rob about it or show him wiping my shoes on grass to get rid of anything I might
have trod in

• Going away
Clothes – list all the clothes I take with me then when we return Rob checks the list off first
thing to make sure I haven’t brought anyone elses clothes home with me & that I don’t mix
the dirty clothes with clean clothes at home – then we use that list to wash the clothes to
make sure they are clean.
Motels – need to check sheets/pillows have no stains on them – same with sheets – do a
list on phone to check anything stains or marks that are icks to me are still there when we
leave

Trust Issue
Scared of Rob cheating on me – that I am not good or pretty enough to be with and he just stays
cos it’s easier – this kind of stems from when we were first going out at the ages of 16/18 he would
drop me home as I had a curfew and go back to the party and get on with someone else then beg
my forgiveness. What if he goes somewhere with guys and gets drunk and it happens again.

Weight & Exercise

Over the years I have put on weight and binge eat to make me feel better and promise to stop
eating chocolate etc the next day. I did manage to lose 14 kgs but have put back on 4kg and want
to loose it to feel good about myself.
I want to exercise but it just CBF and just want to sit on the couch and binge Netflix and play
computer game.

GENERAL FEELINGS
OVERWHELMED – TIRED – SCARED OF GETTING OLD – HATE NOT BEING ORGANISED
AND NOT KNOWING WHAT MY FUTURE IS – FEEL FAT AND UGLY – NO VOICE