Professional Documents
Culture Documents
All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not
be reproduced, scanned, distributed in any printed or electronic
form or used in any manner whatsoever without the express
written permission of the author except for the use of brief
quotations in a book review.
lily@lilywhitebooks.com
http://www.facebook.com/authorlilywhite
www.lilywhitebooks.com
A Dark Erotic Thriller by Lily White
If you are interested in reading additional
books by Lily White or would like to know
when new books are being released, Lily
White can be found on:
Facebook and
Twitter
http://eepurl.com/Onoeb
Join the Facebook Fan
Group!!!
If you are interested in receiving exclusive
previews for upcoming novels, or to
participate in giveaways, join the fan
group for Lily White Books.
Target This
Hard Roads
Asylum
Wake to Dream
Four Crows
Is she okay?
Should we help her?
Oh, God, where are they taking us?
It's so dark. I can't see.
I can't.
I can't live like this.
I can't go through this over and over.
He'd lied.
For me.
I couldn't understand why.
Son of a bitch.
And because I'd given Melanie the blanket
that night, Ethan had known just who to go
after to gain my cooperation.
He'd been right during our silent
conversation. I had given up my advantage.
Still, I couldn't help but push him for
answers. "What could you possibly threaten
that isn't already being done to us? You film
women being raped and murdered. It's not
like you can pull out some other horrible
torture from your bag of tricks. This won't
force me to be your little puppet."
"In fact, I can...and it will." Smile gone, his
expression became serious. "This is what I'm
proposing. I understand that for all the hard
work the guards do around this place, they
haven't been properly rewarded. So, I thought,
why not give them a few days of appreciation?
A free for all, if you will, but with only one
particular prisoner. Every guard we have,
maybe even a few of the studio heads, like the
man you heard the other night. Hell, I'll even
allow the cooks and janitors to come in and
have a taste, if that's what they want. Every
single one of them. As often as they like.
Without breaks. Without rules. Without
concern for the amount of hours or days this
woman will suffer their abuse. It won't be a
half hour or even an hour tops before I call cut,
it will be a never-ending conga line of sick,
perverted, painful fucks. Do you understand
how that could be worse than what you've
already seen in my bag of tricks?"
When I didn't respond, he smiled again. "I
see I have your attention. Would you like to
know how you can prevent that from
happening?"
After opening my eyes that had clenched
shut while listening to what he'd planned, I
glanced over to see that all color had drained
from Melanie's face, her body leaned against
the wall beside me because she couldn't trust
her legs to hold her up.
"How?" I finally asked, my will broken so
easily.
"By not only behaving when it's your turn
to be on that stage, but also for spending the
day with me as my assistant. I want you to
understand every aspect of my job, down to
the finest detail. And I want you to do so
without comments, complaints or rude little
accusations that make me feel bad about
myself."
As if that could ever happen. Ethan feeling
bad about himself was like a lion crying over
the gazelle he was shredding with his teeth.
If my heart hadn't been trampled on
already, it would have been crushed by that
one statement. An entire day spent witnessing
Ethan's insanity. I wasn't sure I could survive
it.
But what choice did I have? I wouldn't let
him destroy Melanie. Not like that.
"Fine," I breathed out.
"Good." Moving slightly to his right, he
extended an arm to knock on the door. It
popped open a second later, a guard filling the
doorway with broad shoulders and black
fatigues.
"You can take the second one away now.
Put her back in the cages where she'll be kept
safe." He'd emphasized the word safe as a
pointed reminder of our newfound agreement.
Once we were alone, I crossed my arms
over my chest and tilted my chin in defiance.
"How safe?"
He stilled, his head slowly rotating my
direction, a brow arched arrogantly above his
eye. "I'm sorry. Had we not finished
discussing the terms of our arrangement?"
Playing word games with him wouldn't get
me anywhere. I decided the direct approach
might work. "I want to add a condition."
The corner of his lip twitched. "This should
be interesting."
"I don't want Melanie used for films either.
As long as we have this arrangement, I want
her completely safe."
"I'm not sure you're in a position to demand
that. I've already told you what will happen if
you don't cooperate today."
My own brow arched. "For today. Those
were the terms. But I suspect that you'll want
your little cash cow to cooperate longer than
that. So, that's what I'm offering. My
cooperation, for as long as you can use me, in
exchange for your promise that Melanie won't
be used in a film again."
His brows pulled together in consternation,
his observant eyes searching my face. "You
would do that? Sacrifice yourself to help some
woman you only met a little over a week ago?"
His voice was genuinely confused. "Why?"
Ethan often refers to me as an actress. He'd
used the name at particular times that, until
now, I didn't fully comprehend. At first, I'd
assumed he called me that because I was just
another character on his stage. But at the
moment, I wasn't so sure anymore that his use
of the title had anything to do with my forced
occupation.
Arguing with him had become second
nature. So much so that it was a familiarity
between us. I wasn't terrified of him like the
other women - or, if I was, my mind had
found a way to turn off that terror in an effort
to shelter the rest of me.
I'd been terrified when I was snatched off
the street and stuffed into a van. I was still
terrified after being raped, shipped across an
ocean and walked single file into a building.
Yet, even that hadn't compared to the terror of
watching a woman get shot, seeing Melanie
raped on stage, or watching an asthmatic
woman die in front of me.
It wasn't as terrifying as being turned into a
killer for the entertainment of seedy men.
It was too much, and I think at some point,
the shock of it all had shut me down. It was as
if my brain protected me against a meltdown
and psychological snap by closing off emotion.
Without that emotion, I was nothing more
than a shell of the woman I'd been before all of
the terror, and as that shell, I'd worn a mask of
indifference. Since walking into Ethan's office
that first night, I'd pretended to be someone
I'm not.
That's why he always called me an actress,
not because of what I was forced to do, but
because I was as fake as all the other starlets
he'd hated in Hollywood.
I wasn't strong. I was scared beyond
comprehension. But I hadn't yet admitted it -
to him or myself.
Maybe I just needed to be honest for once.
Not for his benefit. But for mine. I was tired of
not feeling anything because I was afraid of
admitting I was terrified.
"Because it's the right thing to do. And
because I'm a fucking idiot. But really, what
does it all matter? It all washes out in the end
when I'm no longer making you money and
my time runs out."
The strength of my voice died off, each
word becoming a weaker construct, a ghost of
what it should have been. "And if I'm able to
do one good thing in this place, I will.
Because, in truth, I'm scared. Not just scared,
I'm terrified. There's no use pretending
otherwise. Not anymore, at least."
Stepping toward me, Ethan didn't so much
as blink. His eyes were too focused, his
expression pulled taut by whatever thoughts
were running through that messed up head of
his. I took the opportunity to study him back,
to dedicate to memory each line that marred
his skin, each silver hair at his temples that
betrayed his age. It was unfair how those
symptoms of a longer lived life only served to
enhance his appeal. They made him more
human.
Cupping my cheek with his hand, he gently
angled my face up to his. And with a silky
tone of voice that I would never openly admit
weakened my knees, he said, "For once, you're
being honest. I see you, Emma. I've always
seen you staring out from behind false eyes
and lying lips. But even in this brief moment
of raw honesty, you are mistaken about what's
inside you. You don't wear weakness well, so
stop trying to cram yourself into a costume
that doesn't belong to you. You're not scared.
You're tired. You're broken down and whether
you realize it yet or not, you've been forced to
your knees."
Pausing, he let his words sink in, let them
roll across the air until all I knew was the
flavor of them. "But you're not the type to stay
on your knees, are you? You're not the type to
be dominated so easily. And until you see
that, I'll continue playing my games to show
you what truly exists beneath your skin."
My bottom lip quivered, both from pain
and anger. Ethan's thumb swept over the
fullness of it, the taste of his skin seeping into
my mouth on a delicate tendril.
"Is that what this is to you? One big game?"
He smiled at the question, the type of smile
that would have melted my heart if I hadn't
known it was pure evil. Like me, Ethan was a
liar. Only where I raged, he seduced. And
where I broke down and admitted defeat, he
swept in for the kill.
"No. This is a challenge. One I gladly
accepted the second I laid eyes on you."
Much like last night, a moment occurred
between us that was too heady to tolerate. The
heat of his palm sunk into my cheek,
spreading like a virus, weakening me until I
lost the ability to function or think clearly. In
him, too, I saw another person staring out
from behind the mask of indifference he wore.
Except there was a slow burn to his inner self,
a mysterious dancer that spun and twirled
always remaining just outside my
understanding because he would never stop
moving long enough for me to see him fully.
The moment ended abruptly, Ethan's hand
sliding from my face, his strong, broad body
moving to cross the short distance of the room
until he was standing by the door. I was stuck
in place, still caught in whatever hypnotic web
that moment of clarity had weaved.
"Let's go," Ethan said, shredding the web
with his back to me and his hand on the knob
of the door. "We have new arrivals to meet."
Shuffling forward on bare feet, I resigned
myself to whatever tasks I would endure as
his assistant. They would tear me apart, I was
sure of it. But I had no other choice. Choice
had been taken from me the minute I was
ripped off that street in Boston.
Still, one question rolled in my mind as
Ethan stepped aside to allow me to walk
though the door. Turning back to him, I lifted
my eyes to say, "You never answered me."
Arrogance blended with just a touch of
humor was the arch of his brow. "Answered
what?"
"Will Melanie be kept fully safe? Unused
for anything as long as I cooperate?"
Stepping close to me, his chest brushed
mine as he lowered his head to speak against
my ear. "How cooperative are we talking?
Would you be willing to spread your legs for
her safety? Pretend to like it despite what's
being done to you?"
My heart fractured into tiny, tinkling
shards. "If I have to."
A beat of silence. "Even if the man between
your legs was me?"
A tremor coursed through my body, such a
tiny thing for how thoroughly it shook me. "Y-
yes," I stammered, unsure why, now, my voice
chose to break apart. I'd already been used in
that way, had been ripped open and stitched
back together. But the thought of it being
Ethan between my legs...
I didn't want to consider what it made me
feel.
He laughed softly, the husky sound like
music against my ear. "It's too bad, then, that
you're not in a position to make demands or
request conditions, because I would have
enjoyed watching you pretend you didn't like
what I was doing to you, even when I knew
how much you actually did."
Abruptly, he stepped away, cold air chasing
in to cover the areas where I no longer felt his
heat. Catching a glimmer behind his eyes as I
peeked up at him from beneath my lashes, I
scowled at the games he still played.
He only grinned in response. "Let's go,
Emma. We have work to do and I'm not the
type of fool that so easily gives up my
advantage."
He winked and I scowled harder.
EMMA
"Put this on."
Catching the clothes Ethan tossed my way,
I stared down at the pale cream silk shirt that
wouldn't cover much of my skin, as well as a
black skirt that was two sizes too small for my
body. "What are these for?"
He glanced at me from across the costume
room he'd led me to from the bedroom. "It's
your outfit for today. You're not on stage and
you're not in the cages. It's only appropriate
you dress the part of an assistant rather than a
slave." Returning his attention to a closet he
was digging through, he added, "You are a
reflection of me today and I can't have you
wearing a basic t-shirt."
My jaw went slack, confusion caressing my
thoughts and forcing a softness to my words.
"You're serious about this? It's not just some
ploy you've staged to torture me?"
Snatching a box from the closet, he turned
to face me, a smirk pulling at his lips. "Did you
just admit spending an entire day with me
isn't torture on its own? If I'm not mistaken, I
think you're beginning to like me."
He tossed the box in my direction. I had to
drop the clothes to catch it. "You're mistaken."
Grinning, he teased, "If you say so. Get
dressed."
Opening the box, I pulled out a pair of red
leather stiletto heels. Holding one up, I looked
at Ethan in question. "What are these?"
"Your ruby slippers." Leaning against a far
wall, he crossed his arms over his chest, one
foot moving so that he could hook the ankle of
his right leg over the left. Even when casual,
he was challenging.
We stared at each other for what felt like
hours. Finally I asked the question tumbling
about in my head. "Are you going to turn
around so I can get dressed?"
His eyebrow arched. "Modesty, Emma?
You can't be serious after everything we've
been through."
Huffing out a breath, I couldn't deny he
was right. If any person had seen every
intimate part of me, it was this man. He'd been
the one to inspect me when I first arrived - the
one who had so callously complained that I
was used property.
Ruby slippers. He was such a charming ass.
Never forgetting anything because he'd stored
it away for the precise moment when that
kernel of memory would become useful.
Dropping the shoe in the box and the box to
the floor, I snatched the clothes from where
they'd fallen, tossed them on a chair at my
side and slipped the t-shirt from my body. It
hadn't been my intent to peer up at Ethan at
that moment, but still I found my eyes sliding
his direction, my mind identifying and taking
note of the way he watched me. There was
heat behind his steel gaze, I was almost sure of
it, but one could never truly tell with Ethan.
He had a way of making you believe you saw
something that was never actually there.
While the shirt he'd given me left little to
the imagination, the skirt was like a vice
squeezing my legs together. It was so damn
tight, I wondered how I would manage
walking, especially on four inch heels. I sat
down to strap the shoes to my feet, hoping
they wouldn't fit. Unfortunately, they
did...perfectly.
By the time I looked up, Ethan was
standing in front of me, a hand extended to
assist me from my seat. I would have thought
him a gentleman if I didn't know better.
Accepting it, only because I wasn't sure I
wouldn't topple over as soon as I was on my
feet, I ignored the spark that shot across our
skin. This place was slowly stripping my mind
from me, leaving me stumbling through the
insanity that was Ethan Cole.
"You look lovely." His compliment was
delivered on a deceitful tongue.
I didn't bother thanking him. Believing
anything the man had to say would be
purposefully giving up my sanity. Nothing
was real in this place. But holding on to that
knowledge was becoming harder and harder
with each passing day. It made me wonder
how many of the women trapped here had
already been pulled into madness by the
strong undertow of Ethan's deceit, by the
pulse of inhumanity that promised them this
life had become their new reality.
Fighting against the pull, I was still
discovering how to escape, still mapping all
the different hallways and doors that could
lead to a breach in their airtight security.
Perhaps Ethan's new form of torture would
be the very thing that gets me out of here. But
I would have to earn his trust, which meant I
would have to wear another false mask he
would undoubtedly see through.
"Let's get this over with," I finally muttered,
my legs trapped together and my feet aching
in the heels.
There was dark humor in his voice, "Don't
sound so excited."
Ethan led me out of the room and down
several hallways before I recognized where
we were. Mentally mapping each step, each
turn, I followed along, my expression
tightened the closer we got to a door that
wasn't familiar from one side, but would be
from another.
Opening it, Ethan stepped out first, leaving
me to close it again. My forward motion
stopped the instant I heard the sobbing
coming from the women. Memory crept into
my head - emotion drowning me as I was
returned to the day I had been one of those
women standing in a single file line. Today,
there were only three; a blonde, a brunette
and a redhead.
"I'd like all of you to remove your clothes,
stand side by side, and you can drop the
histrionics. They won't do you an ounce of
good in this place."
Businesslike and astute, Ethan's tone had
lost the trace of humor I normally heard when
he was speaking to me. The memory of that
particular tone traced a finger up my spine. It
was so cold, like a slap of winter's worst
cruelty against your naked cheeks.
Glancing over his shoulder at me, he
winked. My stomach dropped into my feet.
How was it so easy for him to speak to these
women without any hint of humanity, but
then turn and be playful with me? Somehow,
it only made me more confused. My heart
wanted to like him while my mind screamed
that he was a vile, heartless beast.
Stepping up to the stand in front of the
blond woman, he cast a glance at me again
where I stood frozen by the doorway. He
angled his head to indicate for me to move to
his side. I did so on legs that had lost
circulation beneath a vice-like skirt, and
ankles that weren't balanced enough for tall
heels. Managing not to break my neck, I took
my place and scanned my eyes over the
women, pity a pulsing beat in my heart. They
looked back at me silently begging for the help
I couldn't give them.
Ethan's eyes were focused on the blonde.
"Open your mouth."
She did so after several failed attempts.
Snatching her chin between his thumb and
fingers, he turned her head this way and that,
searching for what, I wasn't sure. Were the
women required to have good teeth? Did it
really matter when all the camera would catch
them doing is scream?
Releasing her, he said, "Feet apart, hands to
your side."
She struggled to take the position, her body
trembling as he examined her. I knew what
was coming next, the worst invasion of all.
"Turn around and bend over. Legs kept
apart."
The woman did as she was told, her will
already broken by whatever had been done to
her before she was brought to the studio. I
knew she hadn't been raped, or Ethan would
have made mention of it. But that was only
one degrading act among many. Who knew
what other horrors she'd already lived and
seen?
"Straighten up. Do you have any health
conditions I should be aware of?"
Shaking her head, the women's eyes darted
between Ethan and me. I didn't dare meet
them, couldn't allow her to find any small
hope that, like me, she wouldn't be a beaten
slave.
"Go stand in front of the door to the left."
We moved on to the redhead in the center
to go through the same routine. Like the
blonde, she passed Ethan's scrutiny and was
directed to the left door. Approaching the
brunette woman, I noticed instantly how
young she looked, the terror in her wide eyes
clawing at my heart.
Ethan must have noticed as well. "How old
are you?" he asked before leading her through
the motions. The charm in his tone softened
her eyes. I pitied her for that softness. She had
no idea she was facing a jackal.
"I - I'm eighteen. Well, today I am."
"What's your name?" he asked, breaking
from the script I remembered from the day I
was brought in here.
"J - Joanna."
Tears wept from her eyes. I hadn't even
considered how the women felt during
birthdays and other holidays in here. The
thought hadn't had time to cross my mind, but
then again, with the way the days blended
together I wasn't sure any person could keep
track long enough to know those special days
had come and gone.
"Happy Birthday, Joanna," Ethan crooned,
his malice wrapped in soft velvet. Subtly
elbowing me, his eyes met mine with the
demand that I say something as well. My eyes
narrowed as the words became trapped in my
throat. He merely cocked an amused brow.
Knowing Melanie's life was on the line
helped to loosen my tongue. "Happy
Birthday," I said curtly, not meaning a word of
it.
By this task, he was making me part of this
place and I resented him for it. The first ribbon
of anger weaved through me, not enough to
set my body on edge, but enough to be a
whisper against my thoughts.
"I'll need you to open your mouth for me -"
As Ethan went through the motions of the
examination, I spaced out, unable to endure
the psychic pain pouring off the poor young
girl that had only now become a legal adult. I
wasn't sure where she was snatched from or
how, but I knew intimately the humiliation
she felt in this moment.
Once Ethan instructed her to stand again, I
forced myself to pay attention. "Do you have
any health conditions I should be aware of?"
Her eyes flicked to mine, embarrassment a
color across her skin. "Mental or physical?" she
asked softly.
Ethan and I both snapped our gazes to her.
"Either," Ethan finally answered.
She shrugged her shoulders. "I have anger
management problems," she said, refusing to
meet either of our eyes while admitting it.
I didn't need to look at Ethan to know his
mouth had pulled into a wide smile. "How
unfortunate." Based on the tone of his voice,
he hadn't meant it. "You'll have to stand in
front of the right door."
The girl moved to do as she was told while
I bit down on the inside of my cheek to keep
silent. She didn't deserve the right door. There
wasn't a single woman who hadn't been
driven to mental issues inside this place. She
didn't deserve death for it.
After the women were in place, Ethan
called out to the guards, "Take them inside."
He shot me a curious glance before opening
the center door for us to walk through. As
soon as it was closed, I couldn't stay quiet any
longer.
"Why did you send that girl to the right
door? She was barely an adult. She doesn't
deserve that!"
Twisting slowly to stare at me, Ethan's jaw
ticked. "I can't be sure, but was that a
complaint?" He cocked that brow of his I now
wanted to rip from his handsome face. "I
could have sworn we had an agreement that
complaints weren't allowed."
The ribbon of anger in me was now pulled
taut across my body, like a violin string that
could be plucked. I knew the color of it
highlighted my cheeks, the force of it radiating
from my eyes in daggers aimed straight at the
heart of Ethan.
Ignoring the subtle warning, I argued,
"She's just a kid."
"She's eighteen."
"That's too young," I argued at his back.
He rounded on me, our faces suddenly too
damn close. "She's prey, Emma. She always
has been. And regardless of her age, she's now
a part of this place, for better or for worse. We
are not a hotel, despite your demands. We do
not bring in women to protect them and keep
them safe in their cages. They are fodder for
the predators. Hopeless souls that will
eventually be destroyed. Would you have
preferred the girl have gone through the left
door and been subjected to years of abuse
rather than suffering the hour it will take to
dispose of her? Each one of you has a time
limit of twenty-four years old. That poor child,
given her age, would have endured six years
of this abuse rather than one or two. Is that
what you want for her?"
His words froze me in place, but not
because of the girl. "What do you mean
twenty-four years?" I asked softly.
"I mean that when a woman reaches that
age, she's sent to studio B for her final
performance. It's happened to every woman
who came before you, will happen to every
woman who is here now, and to every woman
that comes after you. It's a rule set in place by
the studio heads and there's nothing you or I
can do about it. So, I apologize for finding a
reason to give that a girl a quick death, but
five years is too long for her to endure this
abuse even by my standards."
He turned around and walked away,
leaving me standing in place. The ribbon of
anger inside me expanded into a thick cord,
small threads of rage, indignation, and fury
tugging into place until it grew thicker and
heavier.
I stood stunned, not only by the acrid
emotion spinning and building inside me to a
point of dizzy chaos, but at what Ethan had
admitted during his explanation. My brows
drew together in response to the whisper of
truth that dragged the tips of its ghostly
fingers across my thoughts, the tiny window
that was opened so that I could peek beyond
the shadows of Ethan's professional mask, the
small kernel of doubt that had lodged
between my teeth until I wanted to pick at it
incessantly.
Knowing the girl was younger than what I
assumed was normal, understanding that her
suffering would endure far longer than the
rest of us, Ethan had gone against routine,
against established rules, and had chosen a
fate for the girl that would be kinder
somehow.
I couldn't wrap my brain around it, couldn't
grasp it in my palm without it becoming liquid
and sliding through my fingers, but still, it was
there and I struggled within myself not to look
at Ethan differently, to wonder...
No. There wasn't even a touch of humanity
inside him. There couldn't be if he was willing
to direct these films day after day without so
much as blinking an eye at their cruelty. He
wasn't allowed to hint at a heart he didn't
have. I wouldn't let him plant a seed inside
me that would grow into doubt about what I
already knew about him.
Not him. Not the Director. Not the man
who existed in Hell just so that he could
ensure it was as perfectly horrifying as it
should be.
"No," I called out, forgetting about the
agreement and all the threats that had forced
me to accept it. "You can't do that. You can't
pretend that you're doing something decent
for these women by choosing how long they
suffer. You can't pretend that you have
potential inside you to care. You won't trick
me into thinking you have even the slightest
sliver of a soul."
Stopping again, his soft voice was full of
ice. "Do you honestly believe the rules don't
apply to you?"
I didn't answer because I wasn't sure how
to respond. He'd taken the subject and flipped
it without bothering to explain what he meant.
Standing dangerously still, Ethan didn't so
much as glance back at me while waiting for
my response.
Weak as a mouse, I finally said, "I don't
know what you mean."
Pivoting on his heel slowly, Ethan's gaze
met mine, a sheet of ice crackling down my
body at the malice coloring his eyes.
Creeping forward on casual feet, he smiled
that lazy, dangerous grin. "I have already
warned you what will happen if you refuse to
cooperate. And yet, here you are, still arguing,
still making comments that are above your
place. I'm not one to repeat myself, Emma.
One more word out of that rebellious little
mouth of yours and I'll not only throw your
friend to the wolves, I'll tie you to a chair, sit
you in that room, and make you watch the
entire thing."
We were nose to nose by the time he
finished the threat.
"As for what I choose to do in this studio
with the women who are dropped off at my
door, that is none of your damn business."
His arm struck out, his fingers twisting in
my hair as he pulled me closer. Tears welled
in my eyes, the pain pushing them out as
strands broke away from my scalp. Ethan's lips
were pressed to my ear, his breath a warm
blanket against my chilled skin. "And
regardless of all that, who are you to accuse a
person of pretending to be someone they are
not? All I see when I look at you is a scared
little actress wearing a pretty costume and
saying practiced lines while desperately
hiding who she really is."
Whimpering at the fire burning across my
scalp, I let the tears spill down my face. Ethan
didn't care, his deep voice pure menace. "Now
apologize before you piss me off."
"I - I'm sorry."
He released me, the sudden movement
knocking me off balance and dropping me to
the floor. Ethan stalked off without another
word, fully expecting for me to follow him.
Pushing to my feet, I did what was
expected of me.
We were in his office before he spoke again,
his hand snatching a stack of papers from the
desk. "We'll be going to studio B in a half hour.
In the interim, I need to go over the script. I
suggest you sit down for a while. Quietly."
Warning given and received, I slunk to the
couch, sitting at the farthest end to have as
much distance between us as possible. Tears
were seeping from my eyes, but not from pain
or fear. That cord of anger inside me was now
a full rope, one stretched so tightly that the
smallest threads were snapping.
The knuckles of my hands were white from
how hard I clasped them, my inner cheek
chewed raw. But I knew better than to push
him again. At that moment, he was drowning
me in his contempt, pouring it over my head
while holding my mouth open to swallow it.
Nothing at all.
However, this time was different.
...
Day in.
Day out.
Nothing changed...except for my moments
with Ethan.
No...
To My Muse,
I hope this letter finds you well. In fact, I hope it
finds you better than that. I hope it finds you
healthy and whole, happy and living a life
deserving of the light and fire you carry inside. It
would break my heart to learn that you retreated
inside yourself again after returning home.
By now you know that the studio was never
discovered after your escape, and I'm sure you
know that the films have continued being dispersed.
What you don't know is that I'm no longer the
man directing them. I'm not sure that it matters to
you, or if you still feel for me now as you did when
we last spoke, but it was important to me that you
know I left the studio behind and have moved on
after completing my life's most important work.
I guess I should make some confessions before
going further in this letter, confessions that will
most likely anger you or hurt. But I hope you can
understand why I did what I did, why it was
important to me to get the details just right.
You're a hard woman to miss, Emma, and it
doesn't surprise me that the men who stole you had
chosen you specifically to take. Despite your belief
that you're simply an average person with nothing
special that sets you apart, you're so much more
than that. Your humility alone is astonishing, but
when combined with the beauty of your face and
the force of your inner strength, you stand out
among the crowd without even realizing it. It's
what drew me to you the instant we met. It's what
inspired me to direct my greatest film, to fulfill my
life's dream.
You inspired me. Like no other person has or
will ever do again. It's a shame that the
accomplishment will be one that only a few people
will see. How many depends on you, and your
decision is your own. If you take it to the police, I'll
understand, but something tells me you won't.
Why have you never given the police my name?
And thank you for giving, at least part of it, to our
son…
http://eepurl.com/Onoeb
Join the Facebook Fan
Group!!!
If you are interested in receiving exclusive
previews for upcoming novels, or to
participate in giveaways, join the fan
group for Lily White Books.