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Sam Rosenthal - Rye - An Erotic Novel
Sam Rosenthal - Rye - An Erotic Novel
Rye
Sam Rosenthal
I love our bodies together, the way Rye feels beneath
my hands.
Strong lean muscles. The slightest curve of breasts. The
smell of her sweat.
I’ve often imagined my ideal girl having the body of a guy
on the college track team. A boyish face, tousled hair, tousled
clothes.
I’ve found it in Rye.
There is something delicate in the way our bodies mix.
The blurring of male and female.
It draws me in, makes me hard.
Red and blue lights speckled across my bedroom, a fire
truck screamed in the Brooklyn night.
Rye said she always felt more like a boy, preferring male
pronouns.
I’ll try to keep this straight.
I kissed Rye’s chest, pulled at the barbell piercing through
his erect nipple. The metal against my teeth, my breath on his
skin; I was mesmerized.
“Matt, go slow,” he said. “I haven’t been with a male in
years. I’m at an unfamiliar place in my life.”
I took Rye as he requested, pressing him to my bed,
fingers tight around his biceps. He watched my every move
with a devilish smile. Cropped dirty blond hair fell across his
eyes. I brushed it aside, his face damp.
His groan mixed with a little snicker, my body against him.
I raised his arms above his head, my face buried in his armpit.
A wet, moist, earthy smell stung up in the back of my nose.
I kissed his skin. His collarbone. Throat. Chin.
He looked into my eyes, whispered, “Fuck me like we
really are two boys!”
I rolled him onto his belly and pulled down his pants,
kneeling between his legs. I admired his ass, and the soft cunt
down below. My fingers spread on his back, tracing the bones
of his ribs. We’re similar in height and weight.
I want to see him naked beneath me in the woods.
\
Rye found me on-line. I’m thankful for the power of that
dating site algorithm. A thirty-one-year-old androgynous female
interested in a forty-year-old male? I can work with that.
Rye’s profile stated he was gay and yet our messages told
me we were flirting. I tried not to overthink the contradiction,
the pixels were staring me in the face.
Our first kiss was on my couch, my hand on the back of
his neck pulling him to me. I still wasn’t sure if I was what he
wanted, having this cock and all. He smiled and eyed my
crotch. Curious. Hungry.
He explained that when he listed as ‘gay’ he meant that
he dated women. But he kind of started thinking that being
gay meant maybe he should try guys, seeing as how he felt so
much like a guy himself.
He pointed to himself, then to me. “Boy plus boy.
Gay. Get it?”
That’s what he is: genderqueer.
\
I walked to the coffee shop with Rye. Unlike our first
evening, this time we spent the night.
“Oh yeah, Matt,” he said, “I’m sure feminine guys like you
get hit on all the time.”
“I’m not feminine!” I said, pushing him away.
He laughed. “Come on, don’t deny it. You’re sensitive and
perceptive. And I totally dig your body. Hot and thin and that
cute butt. I understand why they want to deflower it.”
He made a grab for my ass.
“It’s just how I was built,” I said.
I spun out of his grasp and stood in the snow, glaring
at him.
\
Just last week, I got an email from Rye: Waking up
without you this morning was tough. Why are you so far
away? I absolutely adore being in your bed, your tender
mouth and strong hands on my skin. Your cock in my cunt. I
miss you so much. I miss talking and processing with you. I
wish I could be sneaking into your bed at the end of the
evening. Kisses, your boi.
|1|
\
We identify as ‘genderqueer.’ GQ isn’t about who I fuck
or my sexual orientation but rather my gender identification.
Rye and I each see our genders existing somewhere along the
gradation between male and female, somewhere outside the
gender binary.
Having a boi like Rye as my lover somehow feels right.
\
He lies naked, belly on sheets, up on elbows, shoulder blades
nearly touching. The candlelight sharpens his facial bones.
“Rye, looking down at you it’s hard to tell if you’re a boy or
a girl. Either way, your mouth sure feels good around my cock.”
I’m kneeling on the bed, rocking a few inches in and out.
His warmth and softness engulfs me.
Rye gazes up at me, mouth full. He catches my smile.
The shine in his eyes.
My palm against the stubble on his head.
My cock nearly touches the back of his throat.
This is only my fourth time with Rye since meeting in
Brooklyn three months ago. Brief moments spent in each
other’s arms… The king-size provides plenty of room for a
weekend of fucking and laughing. The past two days mainly
spent in bed.
Index cards sit on the nightstand; many ‘to-do’s’ have
been checked off.
He moans as I use his lips and mouth; taking him the way
he likes it.
I reach down to his upthrust ass. I dip the tips of my
fingers into his shaved cunt.
His eyes flash ferocious.
I push his face off me.
“I wasn’t enjoying that, anyway,” he says with a coy
smile.
He adjusts his bangs across his forehead like a cat licking
its paw, nonchalant.
“Naw, you’re just a weary boi passing time...”
“Tick tock.” He looks at his wrist, sighs. “When will that
El get here?”
I wait.
He smiles.
He’s done.
We begin again.
\
I fuck him with three fingers. He’s soaking. He grits his
teeth and bears down onto me, grinding into the bed, gripping
the sheet and clenching his jaw.
I whisper, “This is mine.”
He stares into my eyes, feeling me inside. “Uh-huh.”
I slip my fingers deeper between his legs. “All mine, Rye.”
He rotates his hips, slowly orbiting my hand.
“Yes?” He pleads, nodding slightly, parting his lips,
begging me to fuck them. I finger his rough, spongy inside, he
moans. “Yes?” his voice a whisper.
Hungry seconds tick by.
“This?” I ask, wagging my semi-erect cock in front of
his face.
“My mouth needs…”
“When I’m ready!”
My fingers move fast inside him. Sweat glistens down the
furrows of his spine, his ribs tight against his skin.
He glares. “I’m being good enough.” He rolls his eyes.
“Fuck my mouth”
“Why are you so controlling?” I ask, quietly.
I step off the bed and slap his cheek.
He smiles, oddly pleased.
I stand on the worn rug and grab him by his armpits,
dragging him to the edge of the bed.
I sniff my fingers.
I crouch down. We’re eye-to-eye. I put my hands gently
around his throat.
He twitches, uncertain.
“Now listen,” I say. “We can get dressed and go out if you
prefer. No? Ok. I’d rather finish with you anyway. Knock it off.”
He smiles sweetly, nodding in agreement. Good boi.
I grab his hair, shove my cock between his lips. He looks
me in the eyes as his tongue finds me. I grow hard again.
I reach over his back to his wet cunt, plunge my fingers
within. Two inside, I hit his clit with a third. He writhes,
twisting on them. I feel his come, wet and warm on my
fingers. He rolls into his orgasm as he sucks.
I focus on his mouth now.
I hold his head as I fuck him deep, cutting off his air for
long moments. In the candlelight, my cock disappears into
him. Our bodies so similar. Just like two guys. Except that my
boi has a girl’s body; and yet he is not completely a girl.
I fuck his face. I slam into him. Using Rye’s mouth rough is
hot, unacceptable, and beautiful.
“I’m going to come,” I whisper, my voice raspy.
I rock his head quickly, sliding his lips on my cock to
finish off. He gags as I thrust one final time. And I come. He
drinks me in.
I pull away, my cock falling from his gorgeous mouth.
Arching his back, he lifts off the bed. I kiss my come off
his lips. Lick his mouth, kiss his forehead. His face.
I push him down into the sheets, crawl onto him, and
hold him; it’s sticky between us. I’m tired. Fulfilled.
He kisses my hands.
\
A half hour later, I stand behind him at the mirror,
dressing Rye up in my black button-down shirt. I tie his
purple tie. Our eyes upon each other.
I adjust the knot and ask, “When we’re on the street, do
you think people see us as straight, or as two guys?”
“I get so fuckin’ turned on by that,” he says, beaming.
“When we’re together, our genders come through so well.
There’s no question, we really are two gay boys.”
\
We’re out the door into the warm night. Arm in arm.
“How will you feel,” he asks, “if somebody calls us fags?”
“I’ll laugh and shout back, ‘I’m not a fag, my boyfriend is.’”
He chuckles as we pass beneath a flickering gas lamp.
Purple tie and black button-down shirt… I want to hold him
like this forever.
| 8 | they have dinner, then go to a bar for drinks and flirting, they have
a little disagreement about Bon Jovi, then…
\
He nods, blushing. “Where’d you meet your latest
partner?” he asks.
“I met you in Brooklyn, by the subway stop.”
“The one before me,” he says, with his best annoyed-
school-teacher-scowl.
“At camp,” I say, reaching out to straighten his tie.
“Camp?”
“You remember, those weekend sex retreat things I told
you about.”
“Oh, right. That camp. I was thinking maybe you meant
camping with your son or something.”
I push him up against the lamppost. The light flickers. I
pin him to the wet metal with my crotch. He gasps. I feel his
body through his clothes. I take the bottle from his hand and
set it on the sidewalk.
He watches me, whispers, “I never used to think at all
about cock. And now it’s all I can think of.”
“And then that bitch, she was talking and talking...”
I turn my head. Two rednecks are coming out the door of
a dive bar twenty-feet away. They’re huge. Beat up trucker
caps, denim jackets with ripped off sleeves, oily jeans.
Redneck One stops in his tracks. “Do we gotta put up
with fuckin’ faggots everywhere?”
Us? Faggots? I rationally want to defend myself by
pointing out that Rye is female. But we pass for a couple of
skinny boys fooling around on the street. Fuck!
Rye slaps my hands from his nipples, smacks my
thigh away.
He punches the air, giving them the middle finger.
“Rye!” I quickly push his arm down.
He shoves me aside.
They walk toward us, muttering threats.
“There’s a bird over here with your fuckin’ name on it,
asshole!” Rye shouts.
Is he trying to get us killed? What were we thinking, going
out with Rye dressed like a guy?
Blood pulses through my ears, trucker boots beat the
pavement a few feet away.
“Let’s run,” I whisper, grabbing Rye’s arm.
“Run? I’m not fuckin’ running!” His voice echoes in
the silence.
I push his chest to get him moving. He hits the pole and
the lamp flickers again.
“We scared ‘em,” One says with a drunken slur.
“Hardly worth a night in jail to crush little faggots like
that,” Two says.
“Repent!” One laughs, brushing against me as they pass.
I roll away from the contact to shield Rye, expecting a
punch in the kidney or a knife in the spleen.
“Fuckin’ pussy!” Rye says.
Was that for them, or me?
“Butt fuckers!” One says, with a sneer.
“You bet.”
Rye springs at him.
I catch him with an arm across his chest. His nostrils flare.
“Rye! Stop.”
\
After they turn the corner, I hold his face and kiss him to
reassure myself we survived.
I punch him in the gut.
He doubles over and groans. “What the fuck was that for,
faggot?” he says, puttng up his dukes with elbows in his belly.
“You asshole! You nearly got us killed.”
He rubs his stomach. “Nothing happened.”
I slump to the curb and sit beside him under the street lamp
which has flickered back on again. I drink from the bottle.
“I grew up tough,” Rye says, snatching the bottle from my
lips as he sits. “When I get shit, I give it right back.”
“You’re goddamn insane,” I shout. “I think I’m gonna
puke.”
He shrugs, kisses my forehead, pushes my shoulders
down. My head rests in his lap.
We sit in silence. I notice the stars. I’m starting to breathe
regularly again.
“Ok,” he says. “Now you’ve learned something new about me.”
“That you’re a stupid animal?” I shout.
“I will keep in mind your discomfort with danger.”
“Discomfort with danger?” I jump up and squint, inches
from his face. “Damn it Rye! Those guys…” I drop my head
into my hands. “They were going to kick our asses or kill us. I
can’t let something happen to you.” I hit his shoulders,
knocking him back. “Sometimes maybe you should just keep
your mouth shut!”
He stops grinning. Looks at me in silence.
He’s thinking.
I wait.
He peels the corner of the label off the bottle.
Eventually he looks at me. “I have to be myself in any
situation. Don’t try to take away my voice.”
“Come on, that situation was extreme. I’m picturing you
in some crappy New Orleans hospital, tubes in your gut. And
for what?” There are tears in my eyes.
“In the past other partners squelched…”
“I’m not your other damn partners!” I shout. “I’m not
taking away your voice. I felt I was about to lose you. I… shit!
I thought you were going to die.”
“Oh Matt.” He puts his hand to my cheek. “I’m not gonna
die. You would have protected me.”
“I would’ve goddamn outrun you!”
“I think not.” He smiles, shaking his head. “I’d leave you
in the dust.”
“Race you back to the hotel.”
“It wouldn’t change a thing if we succeed or not…”
“What?”
“I’ve got you, brother, which is quite a lot.”
“Christ! You’re quoting Bon Jovi?” I stand.
He yanks me back to the curb, hands me the bottle.
“Whoooah-oh,” Rye sings.
“Ok. Now can I tell you to shut up?”
He shakes his index finger, singing, ‘Nooooooo-oh …’
hey, make sure you don’t squelch my voice.”
“Come on! I didn’t want you to die. I love you!”
We look at each other. Shocked.
“Did you just say…?” He squints at me.
“Oh man! I did. Didn’t I?”
“There’s a first,” Rye says.
We kiss.
“Did that sort of surprise you, Rye?” I ask.
“The fact that you don’t like Bon Jovi?”
I smack my thigh. “You know what I meant!”
“It was… um? Unexpected.”
Part 2
| 15 |
I’m in the dining hall, eating my lunch the next day. She
keeps smiling at me. Winking, over at the buffet. She’s the
typical NASCAR/MILF blonde. I’m sure most guys would have
wood for those breasts, the tan, the sun-bleached hair.
I’m focusing on my salad, hoping she gets distracted.
Dear God! She’s walking over with her tray. I figure I look
unconventional enough that I would trigger her never-going-
to-happen-o-meter? It doesn’t mean I’m interested, just
because I’m in shape and biologically male.
“This seat taken?” she asks, pulling it out with her
studded boot and settling in before I can respond.
She tells me about the drive down from Scranton, her
submissive husband arranging the linens and making the bed
back in the cabin, and maybe I’d be interested in a little three-
way after lunch? Don’t worry, hubby will only be a spectator.
I wouldn’t need to do anything with him.
Unless I wanted to.
If I go that way.
She winks.
This is how I want to spend my lunch?
I can’t get it up for people I don’t find appealing, even in
a place like SexxCamp where everyone’s fucking everyone.
And at the same time, I don’t like doing rejection. I always
feel cruel and self-absorbed.
I cough out something polite and convoluted about being
genderqueer.
“Oh,” she says, pride hurt. “Well, I should have figured a
young guy like you wouldn’t be interested in an older lady
anyway.”
“Young guy?” I mutter. I’m pretty confident I’m older
than she is.
The chair next to me slides, Ruth sits down.
Blondie sees the perfect opportunity to exit.
“Anywho, the offer is there if you change your mind.
Cabin C. Drop by, handsome.”
\
“Ah Matt, who ist that young man?” Ruth asks.
“Young man?” I ask, looking around.
“It ist the one in the dungeon last night I am thinking of.”
I blush. She’s asking about the twenty-four year old dude
from Baltimore I was fooling around with.
“It seems you break a new barrier, perhaps?”
I look at her.
“It ist ok to discuss, it ist me.”
She raises her chin, encouragingly.
“Mark has the kind of body I find attractive.”
“We are all in these bodies that like to feel good.”
“The problem is my brain, not my body. I still worry what
people will think of me if they know I am fooling around
with a guy.”
“If possible, you let go of that. Go with your flow, not
with fearful perceptions. It ist wonderful to explore.”
“I mistook Mark for a girl when I first saw him.”
“Yes, yes! If you find that person attractive, play with him
or her. And make clear, confess you are confused exactly
about who is who. But it doesn’t matter. Tell the truth. Send
your energy out for discovery. There are many options of the
many, many genders of the world.”
| 21 |
The next day after lunch, I’m walking into the breezeway
by the pool. I see Rain talking with someone. I slow down as I
watch him. He’s in a bathing suit top, a towel wraps his waist.
He’s looking really good. Very fuckable! Oh, wait.
Rain’s… Rain’s not into fucking the cock.
Damn shame!
He stands with his knuckles curled on his hips, rocking
side-to-side as he talks with an older man in a leather vest and
leather pants.
You know the kind of guy: Sir Dommy Dom. Serious,
overbearing, everyone with female apparatus is a potential
submissive in his mind.
Leather pants in ninety degree heat? Come on!
Oh, I know. I should cut Sir D some slack. He’s in his late
fifties. That makes him nearly from my pop’s era. I guess you
can’t really expect a guy like that to change. Based on what
I’ve noticed about him at past camps, he’s still trying to prove
who wears the pants. It seems he views gender as a battle he
has to win.
I’d put my money on Rain in that battle.
At the moment, Sir D strikes me as perplexed.
But quite stern.
Are they negotiating? I can’t imagine that, he doesn’t
seem Rain’s type. Then again, what do I really know about
Rain’s type?
Well… aside from liking me.
I start to catch their conversation.
“The thing about hemp rather than nylon…” Sir D says.
“…I was texting my friends back home,” Rain cuts in,
stepping on Sir D’s schtick. “I was telling them what camp
lacks is the really creepy dudes. The ones you find fuckin’
their hamburger bun in the dining hall behind the soda
machine!”
“There’s a camp rule forbidding sex in the dining area,”
Sir D says in another attempt to top Rain.
“Damn fascists!”
“The fascists had many interesting ideas about restraint…”
“If you want to fuck your hamburger bun,” I say, cutting
in, “you got to take it to your cabin. I mostly drag my buns
out back and use them as bait to attract various woodland
animals.”
“Delicious, sexy woodland animals.” Rain licks his lips.
“The, uh…” Sir D says.
“The four-legged ones?” I ask. “Or the two-legged ones
who wish they had four?”
“You mean you’ve never fucked a chipmunk?” Rain asks,
brow furled. “It’s an experience, let me tell you.”
Sir D tightens his jaw and fumes.
“I’m sorry, Sir,” I say. “A boi is meant to be teetering
dangerously on the edge of annoyance.”
“Especially an adolescent,” Rain adds.
I reach out my hand, he takes it hesitantly.
Sir D shifts menacingly in our direction as I quickly
chaperone Rain away.
\
“People are stupid,” Rain says as we walk arm in arm. “I
hate how that kind of dom thinks they can top anyone with a
cunt. They try to humiliate and take it all the way to
the edge.”
“He didn’t seem like he was taking it all…”
“No, I subdued him with Death Snark. He was stunned. I
was going to devour his corpse.”
“Rain, I thought Death Snark was how you flirt?”
“Flirt. Kill. Death Snark serves many purposes. Honestly,
I’m at the point where I’m no longer apologetic for only
wanting to play with people I find mentally attractive. I was
stockpiling my reserves when you walked up. I was preparing
to deal an especially deadly final Snark Assault.”
“Well, you run along with that stockpile of yours. Oh hey,
how do dudes like us usually say goodbye?”
“We punch each other in the nuts!” Rain says, making a
noodly muscle.
“There’s an idea. You work on that.”
Part 3
| 29 |
It’s been four long weeks since New Orleans. I’m sitting
with Rye on his backporch in Pilsen, his neighborhood on
Chicago’s West Side. He puts his legs across my lap.
“I’m quite sweet on you right now,” he says. “I’m relaxed
when I’m with you. You don’t know me when you’re not around.”
“We need to find a way to be together.”
“I’ll be pretty free this summer.”
“Could you imagine moving to Brooklyn?” I ask.
“Oh? I’m the one who has to move?”
“Well I can’t. My son.”
“I know, I know. And I have my career. Though it does
seem that more and more of my teacher friends are living in
New York these days.”
“And I’m there!”
“But I don’t want that to be my reason to move,” he says.
“If I make a change it has to make sense for my whole life. I’m
not saying that’s the final word on it. We’ll keep having this
conversation.”
He springs out of his seat. “Let me show you the chickens
before it’s too dark.”
\
They strut in and out of their wooden coop.
“That big one’s Red. And over here is our compost bin.”
I press against his thigh as he opens the lid. “I’m into this
wrestling outfit, but I think maybe I’d like it even better if you
took it off.”
“I would…” He looks back at the house. “Roommates.”
“Ok, then. Go to your room, strip and wait for me in
your bed.”
I swat his ass to speed him up. He yips and darts for
the porch.
| 30 |
Rye sits naked on the sheets playing with his maroon
strap-on cock.
His room is minimal. A desk, a chest of drawers covered
with plants, a full-length mirror.
I sit on the bed as I slide off my boots. “What time do you
have to wake up in the morning?”
“Ugh, six-fifteen. Have you met Wrigley?” he asks, holding
the cock out to me.
“Hello!” I say, taking Wrigley from his hands. I put it
between my lips, going down on it. Sucking slowly, trying to
reach the balls. He smiles big as he watches that.
I set it on the nightstand next to the clock. Nine-twenty.
I spread his legs and suck on his lips. A wet, earthy smell
fills my nose. A hint of iron. I explore him, tasting him. I circle
his clit with my tongue. He groans and shifts in the sheets.
He pushes down onto me as he shudders and comes.
\
“Now we’re going to wrestle,” I say, “to put the lie to
rest.”
“Lie?” he asks, opening an eye.
“That you can beat me,” I say.
“Of course I can beat you,” he says.
“Stand over there!”
He obliges; gorgeous.
I strip.
“Hands on your head!”
His hands clasp his neck behind his ears. He stands still. I
touch the hair growing in each armpit, a nice boyish addition.
I tug the hair on his mound, he twists, squirming in place. I
examine his muscles, my hand on his back, ass, arms.
“I can completely pin you,” he says.
I shove him to the bed and dive on top. He tangles his
legs around me. We struggle, rolling, our hands sliding on
sweaty skin. We grunt and laugh as we fight. We’re evenly
matched. I’m above him, my body skims against his cunt. I
align my cock. His eyes flare, I’m inside him.
“You weren’t even trying,” I say, disappointed.
He bares his teeth.
He wedges his knee into my side, jamming it against me
and throws me out. He smiles a wicked smile. We struggle
and he knocks me down, smashing his forearm across my
chest. He’s harsh! I lie on the bed panting, searching for a
way back inside.
I force him onto his back. I stab my knees into his thighs,
he squirms. I gouge my thumbs into the soft spots beneath his
collarbones and he howls in pain. I penetrate him quickly,
pushing down against his cervix, fucking his last few inches.
“This is harder than I thought!” he says, his breathing
rushed. “I guess I want to fuck more than I want to fight!”
I hold him with my weight on his thighs and his insides.
My thumbs digging into his chest.
He smiles at the pain. “How do you know me so well?”
He tightens around my cock. I feel every bit of him.
I bury my face into his armpit; I inhale his aroma.
I lick sweat from his chest. I suck his nipple, pull the
metal piercing with my teeth, then I lick gently again. I slide
in his wetness.
I push my thumbs in harder.
He gasps. “It’s tough but it’s also amazing.” He floats in
the endorphins, his eyes subdued. “Can you hit me, here?”
He points to a spot on his chest just below my thumb.
I rest my palm against the bed, taking a deep breath. I
watch, waiting. When he turns to kiss my wrist, I catch him
off guard with a punch to his chest.
He winces.
One hit with every thrust. The intensity grows.
He wrinkles his nose.
“Should I stop?” I ask.
“Fuck, no! It hurts but it feels good.”
I keep pounding him, occasionally digging a knee into his
thigh. His hand circles his clit, his body curves to mine, he
groans and comes fast, his pleasure spiked with pain.
I hammer him, as his orgasm subsides. His body tenses
with each hit, his face scrunched tight. His discomfort sure
looks good as I fuck him.
He drifts on the ache. I get off on that displeased sneer.
“Damn,” I shout, punching a final time as I come.
I kiss him. He attacks my mouth in a frenzy, his fingers
scratch me.
“Fuck!” he shouts. “I like kissing after what you did. It
feels so dirty. And that dirty feels so sweet.”
| 33 |
\
The room is dark, he climbs into bed. I pull him to me.
His smell fills my nostrils.
“I understand BDSM,” I say. “I’m not freaked out by that. I
feel bad that I hurt you. You, Rye!”
“I’m fine.”
“I don’t feel good.”
“What else?” he asks.
It rushes up from deep inside and spills out in tears. “I
liked how your face looked.” I sit up and pull myself together.
“I was turned on, coming while you were in pain.”
He pulls me back down, wraps my arms around his chest.
“We’re in your bed,” I say. “It feels too real.”
“It’s fantasy, Matt. One of the infinite possibilities. I would
never allow somebody to abuse me in my real life.”
The words ‘abuse me’ are not sounding good at all.
“Ok,” I whisper, unconvinced. “Because I love you, Rye.”
He holds my arms.
“And I wouldn’t love myself if I hurt you all the time.”
“No way!” He snickers in the darkness. “I wouldn’t want
you to do that every night.”
I like that idea: Rye every night.