Since our last meeting I have been losing sleep and been bothered by a lot of

thoughts. So I decided to write everything that I felt so as to gather all my

recollections, experiences and feelings.
Not remembering it happened doesn't mean it never did
A traumatic experience will be unforgettable to the aggrieved party but faint for a
bystander.
I remember you telling dad that your treatment of us is unfair/lugi hindi patas .
Sinabi mo na favorite ako. Bakit ako binili pa ako binili ng crosswind at dapat si
alan ang magbayad ng abogado at dapat pabayaran yung pagpapagawa ng clinic ko.
Ang sabi ni daddy, hindi kailangan bayaran ni alan yung clinic at kung may anak
kang nangangailang ay mauunawaan mo kung bakit.
Nuong inoperahan si daddy sa prostate sa san juan de dios ay sinamahan ko siya sa
operasyon. Hindi naningil yung surgeon dahil med student sko nuon.
Nung naging doktor nina mommy at daddy yung tatay ni earl. Hindi sila pinagbabayad
ng konsultation at ganun din si earl nung namatah na ang kanysng ama.
Nastroke si daddy at naospital sa MCP tanging yung isang kidneh foktor lsng ang
naningil. Dahil dk ko kakilsla.
Inopearahan si mommy sa colon cancer niya at kasama rin ako sa loon ng operating
room hindi rin naningil si Dr Adeviso at yung colon surgeon di Dr. Roxas na mga
naging mentors ko sa DLSUMC. Nang pumunta akonng australia ay inalagaan ninearl
sins mommy at daddy.
Hanggang sa paguwi ko at naospital si mommy. Hindi naningil lahat ng doktor ni
mommy nun.
Ng maodpital si daddy at mastroke ulit ay hindi rin nagpabayad sng mga doktor.
Ganun rin nung maospital ng matagal at namaalam.
Daddy may have treated you badly but why take it on me. I never had a big brother
who i looked up to because he bullied me. Minartilyo sa tuhod at nung maaksidente
ako gamit yung laser mo. Narinig ng mga kaibigan ko sinabi mo na hindi na akk
makakagamit ng kotse mo.Again mas importante pa ang kotse kesa sa buhay ng tao.
Hindi lang mang nagpagpasalamat nz hindi ako namatay. Or mas gugustuhin pa niysng
hindi nagasgas ang kotse niya.
It just shows mas importante ang kotse kesa sa buhay ng tao. Kaya pala tinadyakan
mo si justin nung nagasgasan kotse mo.
Ang punto ko dun sa kotse mo na ayaw mo ipahiram kasi baka barilin ng pulis ay ayaw
mo mabaril kotse mo at si mommy e bakit di mo kami pinigilan. Pinigilan mo ba kami
sa plano namin. It just shows mas importante sayo yung kotse mo kesa sa amin ni
mommy.
Kung naniwala kayo sa palusit niya na ayaw niya ipahiram yung kotse baka mabaril,
think it over. If you agree with his reasoning then you ate terribly flawed.kung
ibang kotse ang gamitin ay okay lang mabaril kasi hindi naman sayo. E paano yung
taong nakasakay. Hindi ka nagalala.
Kapag minura kitang gago at nagsorry ako pero tinanggi kong minura kita, hindi
sincere ang apology na iyon.
Everything has a reason. You used to be my best friend until the power let you
yorget that I'm your kuya. After that time na kumikita ka na ng pera
ourcrelstionship changed. Kaya I never let money rule me. Simple life. I didn't
want to be like you , to weild power over someone because of financial help. Have I
weilded tgat power over sll of you.
Wgrn I went to Australia. I was planning to stay there for good and never see any
of you agsin but i kissed my daughter whom I loved sonmuch kaya I left my high
paying job. Money can not buy you happiness. Tsnong niyo sa mga taga squatter. I
didn't need the money. I needed to be with my daughter.
My plan was once nakapasa ako ng board magaapply ako sa greenpeace at magliligtas
ng mga endangered species. Alam ng mga barkada ko ito kaso nakabuntis ako. I never
planned to have a family. I just wanted to get away from our family and live my
life away from you all. That was my plan.
A few months before graduating from college, I talked to daddy that I don't want to
study medicine. I told him thst I'm gonna apply as a medicine. He told me that what
am i gonna do. Snd told me that i will dtudy medicine. We had an agreement nanpag
bumagsak akondibna akonmagtutuloy kaso kahit na di akonnagaaral pumasavpa rin
akonnjngb1st year. Thrn bunagsak akonnung 2nd year. Kaya bijilinniya akonll ng jeep
para ituloy ko.
It all started in grade 3.
Daddy saw innme the potential to have his dream of having a doctor son which will
be prestigious amongbpeopleb from rural communities.
If daddy scolded you for almost getting kicked out while me getting scolded for not
bring inbthevtop ten.
Denying something that really happened just implies that, that person is ashamed of
whst he/she has said or done. Denying saying it even yhough you did belies the
sincerity in the apology.
Don't tell me that it didn't happen because I remember it vividly!
I have never told marga about what kuya dennis said to daddy about unfair/ in his
words hindi patas na pagtingin o trato
It takes a big man to admit to his mistakes but not admitting to a mistake and
denying it us a bigger mistake
What you're doing is classic gaslighting.
Between me and you? Who has a history of lying. Not me.
You have tormented me all my life.
Nuong nagaway kami ni kuya dino, kinompronta mo ako bakit ko sinuntok si kuya Dino.
Sabi mo gustonmo tayong dalawa nalanv magsuntukan. Ang galing na kuya. Sabi ni
mommy, hindi naman manununtok si Alan ng walang rason.
Parati akong mapapaaway sa rskuwelahan dahil yinutukso akong bakla kasi bakla raw
kuya ko tapos aawayin akonng kuya ko sa bahay. Anong magigiging reaksyon niyo.
How can you forgive someone who denies something that he did
I gave you the chance to redeem yourself and be a big man
At nung tinanong niyo di Marga regarding sa narinig niya, Do you know what duress
is? Kung tanungin ni Tita si Marga at sabihin niya kung anong narinig niya. Huwag
kayong magagalit at sinasabi lang ng anak ko ang totoo. Would Marga tell her
aunties what she really heard, kniwing the consequence of dojng that. What is the
purpose of comfronting someone who just heard your conversation.
I asked Marga what happened and she told me that she was surprised by the sudden
confrontation. If I said something offensive and zoe or christian heard it and told
you. I would apologize and say that I should have known better to utter those words
than to confront my nephew or neice and coerce them into saying that I didn't say
it. I don't want them to lose respect.
Nung napalo ko si Christian nung sinira niya yung alarm clock ko, I apologized to
him one time saying that my action was inexcusable. I gave no excuses, I just
apologized. He forgave me and told me that he already forgot about it. It is
incumbent on us adults to teach children values. What are you teaching my daughter.
You could have explained that she misheard what you were talking about instead of
confronting her. You talked about it among yourselves without denying it to me but
instead opted to confront the messenger. In this incident there should be a motive.
What would be her motive to invent something. She does not have ill feelings
towards you guys. What would she get out of it. She would incur the ire of the
alleged persons.
Mommy talked to me before I was to leave for australia that "Yung mga kapatid mo
nagagalit bakit hindi raw sinabi sa ksnila na pupunta ako ng australia, sabi ko e
hindi pa kasi sigurado nun". Bakit hindi nalang natuwa and remember we were already
estranged in a wsy with each other. Were we close? No. Were we on good terms? No.
Don't tell me to move on because you've done thisvto me almost sll my life.
And if ever I'd have the courage to end my life it will be because of you Dennis
Cosio. You have given me sleepless nights all these years.
The only reason I'm not doing it because of Marga. You won't understandbme because
narcisist people like you and TRUMP fon't have empathy and remorse.
Bakit mo dinedeny na sinabi ko jasi nakakahiya diba. Lumslabas yung insecurity,
shortsighted and selfishness mo.
You apologized to me then when you supposedly gave me "advise", only to bash me
when talking with May. You apoligized to me when I yold you how you traumatized me
all my life , that was when you allegedly tried to stab yourself after being
confronted with your indiscretions. One thing I learned from this is that you need
sincerity.
If your lord Jesus walks up to you today and asks you? "What have you done to your
brother?" W

Hat would you say. Would you still lie to him like how you accepted the holy
communion inspite of violating the sacraments? I can look up to my God straight and
say to him, I told the truth.
You blame mommy again for thinking about charging me for the construction of my
clinic while I heard it from you during our family tslk with daddy. That's when the
unfair treatment among us surfaced initially from the horses mouth.
I didn't flex my muscle by bragging that I've helped our parents more than you
guys. That's not me, hindi ako katulad ng iba na sukfulan ang yabang.
This just proves how pathetic you are to lie and blsme it on our deceased parents.
Lying rather than admitting ones mistake then blaming it on our dead parents is an
repugnant behaviour anď personality.
When Marga heard your spouses talking about the unfair treatment is a byproduct of
your sentiment. You were the ones who coined the word that I am daddy's favorite.
Ang tagal ko na sinabi sayo May yung mga hinanaing ko. Never did any one among you
call me up to deny or explain. Don't tell ma hindi mo sinabi kina kuya Dennis yung
pinagusapan natin.
The reason why I was narrating how I was taufht how to run a clinic was because you
May were lecturing me back then on how to run it. That I should look at patuents
coming yo our house.
That is so condescending. I have never told Kuya Dennis or Dino what to do
regarding anything only when asked.
Kaya si mommy bago namatay kaming dalawa ni kuya Dino ang binabanggit dahil slam
ni mommy ugali niyong dalawa.
Masaya ako ng hindi ko kayo nakikita. Kontento na ako na alagaan at gabayan ang
anak ko.
You chose this path not me.
When we clash is just a reaction to what you do to me. I never initiated thd
gonflict.

Sorry pero mas naniniwala ako sa anak ko. Napaniwala niyo si Tita pero ako hindi.
Yung ang importante sa inyo.
I just want to be left alone. Mas masaya ako na hindi ko kayo nakikita kahit na
namimiss ko na mga pamangkin ko. I'm willing to sacrifice that. I'm happier and
healing this way. I don't need your insincere apologies. Just remember this
everytime you take your holy vommujion that you lied instead of apologizing. Thou
shall not bear false witness againdt thy neighbor.
Lugi ako sa inyo. Nakuha niyo ang gusto niyong kurso nung college. Nakapagtrabaho
na kayo psgkagraduste ng vollege. Nabibilinjoyo ang gusto niyo. Samantala ako
naghihintayblsngbng paskonpsra msgkdpera pambili ng gusto ko. Nang akoy magkaroon
ng pagkakarson kumita ay biglang sidingilin ako sa psgpapagawa ng clinic.
Maswerta ka kuya dino at msy na hindi kayo minsltrato ni kuyacdennis.

Remaining silent and ignoring the lies emboldens the liar

You were caught in your own lie wgwn you denied that dad bought you a car and
forgot he bought you a volkswagen, a laser and a lancer. When confronted denied
that he bought them himself.

Sabihin mo lugi ka kasi 2nd hand na kotse binili sayo. 4 pa tayo pinaaral nung
binilinka ng kotse. Ako nalsng ang nagaaral nung binili sko ng kotse.
With what happened duringbour meeting, you are alleging thst I imagined egerything
and me and my daughter are liars.
You had all the time to deny everything and even accused marga of eavesdropping
I only have contempt for you. You have connived with each other to hide and deny
the truth abd gaslight your wah through facts. You have provided me anguish but
don't ever do the same to my dsughter.
As parents any help given to our children is not expected to be repaid. It pains me
how you paint our parents as liars and would let their children fight among
themselves.
If you know that someone lied and commited a mistake and you didn't say anything
and connived to cover it up makes you complicit to the act. Remember nung wake ni
mommy kinukwento mo na nakaawsy niyo si tutuy regardjng something about the
expenses. It just shows na you confide and decide together regsrding damily
problems.
I just want to be left alone.
Where did that idea come from. From an insecure person who influenced their dpouses
into thinking the same
The reason why you are doubting everything I say is because you are afraid of your
own ghost.
Kaya kita tinatanong kung bakit kita tinawag na gago kasi may dahilan. May dahilan
kung bakit ako nagalit sayo. Katulsd nung nagalit ako kay tita. May dshilan.
Before I sldo felt na luhi jayo kasi I wss gaslighted. I never tried to
readonnoutbuntil napuno na sko sabinyo. It suddenly dawned on me.
Sabi mo ate luz, pagpasensyahan ko ang kuya ko kasi di naman siya prpekto. Di ko
hanap perpektong tso kundi kapatid.6