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building two years before she met my dad—oh, did you hear
about it? Everyone had heard about it. Six people dead, including
her neighbors on both sides, and it happened ten minutes after
she left for work one morning.
She talked about the chest infection I got when I was two.
I was in the hospital for days, and I should have died.
When I was little and fell and scraped my knee, my mother
would always whisper the same thing in my ear. Other mothers
said, “Shh, it’s okay,” and coaxed the tears away with a soft-
serve cone. Mine said, “Come on, Danielle. You’re the girl with
nine lives. You take after me.”
I don’t think she ever whispered that in Jena’s ear. That’s
the difference.
I always pretended to believe her just so she would leave
me alone, but I knew my mother was full of crap. I knew not to
take her seriously. Her words floated above my ears, leaped out
of windows and into trees, were carried away by birds and
dusty-winged moths and other things I knew to be true.
Then Jena happened.
Nothing and everything is true. We are papier-mâché in a
world with a cardboard sun. There is no such thing as cold or
heat or time. We are all the same people, constantly being re-
born and redying, and every time we think it’s the first.
A month ago, we found out Jena’s treatment isn’t working
like they’d hoped and that she needs bone marrow. We thought
I’d be the one to help her. I have marrow and plenty of bone
and I am her twin.
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But we are too different and the doctors can’t break me
into splintered little fragments to save Jena. Mom and Dad
aren’t a match either, but I am her twin.
Everything Mom had ever said crept back in under the door
of my room, tucked itself in my ears when I was sleeping. I hid
it under the pillows and breathed it in at night. I couldn’t fall
asleep either. And I can’t forget.
Am I the girl with nine lives?
I wish I could forget.
One of the times Mom told her story—about when we’d
survived, our nine lives—my Uncle Stephan was visiting. He
was some college professor that was a friend of my dad’s, one of
those people you call “uncle” without ever knowing why, with-
out them earning the title. Abandoning his standard topic of
conspiracy theories for a while, he started talking about all the
explanations for the nine lives myth. He said that every time
a cat loses one of its lives, that life is released into the universe,
to be caught by another cat. Not all cats are born with nine
lives, but those that aren’t can keep as many as they can catch.
One extra life, or two, or three.
As one life shortens, the other expands.
Now my mother tries to stay awake, while I try to fall
asleep.
My eyelids finally collapse on themselves just as the sun
feels it’s safe to come out of hiding. It’s less than two hours before
school starts, but that’s the way it always goes.
The next thing I know, Mom is shaking me awake and
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joking about how much I like my beauty sleep. I play along,
turning over and waiting until the last possible minute to get
up and go.
By the time I shower and get downstairs, the only other
person I’ve seen today is Mom. Dad’s already at work.
“Morning, Danielle.” I jump when I hear Jena’s voice from
the top of the stairs. I always aim to be out of the house before
she’s awake.
“Hey,” I say. She’s leaning against the railing, looking down
at me.
I’ve never understood why anyone would mix Jena and
me up. We are fraternal twins, and since elementary school,
I’ve been about an inch taller. My hair is long, brunette, and
straight, while hers was wavy, sort of a mousy brown.
“I’m late for the bus.”
She frowns, because she knows I’m not, but I’ve already
grabbed my backpack, deciding against breakfast, and am head-
ing toward the front door.
It is bright out, but cold. Dirty, weeks-old snow is slathered
unevenly over the ground like a moldy spread on an open-face
sandwich.
When the bus finally pulls up at the stop down the street
from my house, I drag my way to the back, placing my back-
pack in the seat beside me, and pressing my face against the
window, eyes shut, until we get to school.
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nerd with zero social skills. Always has been. He has also al-
ways been lanky, with bluish-gray eyes and blond hair.
I prop my face up in my hand and continue. “I’m sure it has
a synonym. It’s like the word ‘diarrhea.’ ”
As luck would have it, Mr. Halbrook just happens to be
dropping off my test, and he shoots me a disapproving look.
I’m not sure if it’s because of my test score or the conversation
I’m having. Probably both.
I give him a winning smile and tuck my test into the back
of my notebook without looking at it. “Everybody calls it ‘diar-
rhea’ or ‘the runs,’ which are equally as bad as each other and
the condition that they describe. Don’t you think?”
Jack keeps his head down, staring intently at his notebook.
A test paper with a circled green 98 lands in front of him.
“Wow, good job,” I say.
“Thanks.”
“Anyway,” I continue, doodling on the inside cover of my
notebook. “Whoever came up with those words deserves to
be shot. But it turns out another synonym for diarrhea is
‘Montezuma’s revenge,’ which is a thousand times better. And
actually makes me wish I had it.”
A few people are eavesdropping on our conversation now,
and I hear them snicker. Jack is still ignoring me. Lauren is
fascinated with her test. I wonder how she stands it, being per-
fect. There’s nothing to feel guilty or angry about, nothing to
improve or argue over.
“So I was just kind of wondering if it’s the same thing with
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cramps. Maybe it can be, like, the Serpent’s Revenge or God’s
Revenge or something.”
“Like the Garden of Eden.” Jack looks as surprised as I feel
that he spoke up.
I nudge him with my shoulder. “Somebody listened in Sun-
day school.”
He goes back to ignoring me. Presumably Jack Penner
doesn’t enjoy being patronized.
“How did you do?” Lauren whispers, as Mr. Halbrook an-
nounces that we’ll be “exploring the relationship between the
economy and math.” At least he’s making the effort to relate
them today.
“Not very well,” I answer even though I haven’t actually
looked at it. But looking is overrated, a waste of time.
“You know,” she whispers back, “with a little effort, I bet
you could be smart again.”
I give her a grateful smile but don’t say anything.
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