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Fictionstory
Fictionstory
LaurenCarr
Mrs.Rutan
CreativeWriting
16December2015
ACalamity
Anotherxonthefamilytree.Anotherlovedonegonetoosoon.Anothermemorylefttohaunt
mythoughts.
Hello...yes,ImLeah,atighteningfeelinginmythroatbeganasthenextfewwordsspilled
out,herdaughter.
Thewords
accident
and
didntmakeit
lingeredinLukestruckasthephoneslippedfromthe
gripofmyhand.
Thiscantbehappening!Ithasntevenbeenayearsincewelostdad.
Thoughts
ofthepastranfranticinmyheadasIstaredattheblurringgreenofthepassingtreeswithout
realizingLukesanxiousdarkbrowneyesjumpingbackandforthfromfocusingontheroadand
me.Iwaslostinthought.
Leah,heturnedtolookatmeLeah,thenthetruckjoltedtohaltthrowingmybodyforward
toonlyberestrainedbytheseatbeltacrossmychestLeah!screechedLukeashisvoice
progressivelygrewlouderwithconcern.
ThereisntarightwaytoinformsomeoneespeciallyLukeaboutthenewsgiventomebya
completeandutterlyapatheticstranger.ThetruckcametohaltonthesideoftheroadasLukeno
longershiftedhiseyesbetweentheroadandmeinsteadtheoncecomfortingbrowneyesturned
intoexpressionlesseyesthatonlyfocusedonthelongingdarknessoftheroadahead.
HowdoI
tellLuke?WhatamIsupposedtosay?
Questionsbouncedaroundmyheadasrealitycreeped
backintomymind.IbegantoshiftmybodytowardsLukehopingIcouldbuildupthenerveto
speak.
Therewasanaccident...thewordsslowlypouredoutofmymouth,adriverswervedinto
momslane...shedidntmakeit.Myvisionbecameblurryastearsbegantoformasthelastfour
wordsescapedmylips.
Silence.
Luke?Iwhisperedasmyeyescapturedthesightofhiswearyface.Hedidntmakeasound
noranymovementsIquestionedwhetherhewasevenbreathing.Hewassimplystaringoffinto
thedistanceasifwaitingforsomethingtooccurasiffrozenintime.
Whatdowedo?Whatisgoingtohappentoustome?thepalmsofmyhandsslidbackand
forthasafeelingofyearningforanswersfilledme.Noresponse.
Idontknowwhattodo.I
dontwanttobelieveanyofthisIdont.
Carr,2
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Daysofsilencefollowedasthefuneralapproached,leavingmetocomefacetofacewiththe
realismofaparentlesslife.
Whydidthishappentome?Whydidyouhavetogo?Iwasntready
tobeonmyown.
Ithoughttomyselfasmybodyfacedtowardsthemidnightblackcasketthatis
nowhometotheremainsofsomeoneIcalledmom.Thecreakofafloorboardechoed
throughouttheemptychurchasLukewandereduppastthebarerowsofpewswherethepeople
wholovedandadmiredmymomsaidtheirfinalgoodbyes.
Leah.Hestopsinhistracksandgentlyplaceshishandonmystiffshoulder,Itstimetogo.
Thesoundofhisserenevoicebroughtmebackfromtheendlessthoughts.Thosewerethefirst
exchangeofwordsbetweenthetwoofussincethenightIreceivedthephonecall.Ithadbeen
fivedayswithoutconversations,fivedayswithoutbreakingdownintotears,andfivedays
withoutgrieving.
ButIfidgetedwitheachfingerasifitwereanervoushabit.ImdontIcantsay
goodbye.IcouldfeelitIcouldfeelmyeyesbegintowaterandthepainofnotwantingtolet
gowerestuckinmythroat.
YoudontitsnotagoodbyeHisarmswrappedaroundmeasheslidintothepewtosit
down.Itstimetogonow.Wevegoteachothertolookafter.Themomentofcontenthad
disappearedasLukecalmlyrosefromthepewandthenlookedinmydirectionforsomething
maybeasignofunderstandingfromme.
Okay.TheonewordwasallIcouldmanagetosayifIweretosayanymore,IdontthinkI
couldkeepmyselftogether.
ItsjustmeandLuke.Wecangetthroughthis,right?Icant,butI
haveto.IhavetodoitforLuke,butformealso.
Theconversationsthatoccupiedmymindmy
thoughtsweretheonlyformofcommunicationIcouldhandle.
Okaywasthelastwordtocomeoutofmymouthbeforethedaywhereeveryfeeling,every
thought,andeverymemorycamerushingoutmynervousbreakdownorsothename
professionalscallit.