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Looking at them, however, I wondered how it was that they managed to deal
with
each
other
every
single
day
for
the
better
part
of
three
years.
Ive
managed
to
piece
together
an
idea
of
how
things
were
between
them
long
ago,
mostly
from
the
stories
either
would
tell.
But
its
not
a
complete
picture;
Ive
never
seen
the
complete
picture.
All I know at this point is that they met in school, at college. Theyre the same
age,
only
she
was
three
months
older
and
a
year
ahead.
Not
that
it
ever
mattered,
really;
in
between
classes,
they
read
the
same
books
and
mostly
listened
to
the
same
music.
Thats
what
I
gathered,
anyway.
Well, again: it was a Monday night. When we got to the pub, she was already
there.
She
was
always
there
early
despite
the
fact
that
she
worked
in
the
Global
City
and
the
traffic
was
horrendous.
She was already there and, true to form, was sipping a Cerveza Negra and
nibbling
through
a
plate
full
of
tapas.
Portuguese
coxinhas
this
time,
if
my
eyes
didnt
deceive
me
as
I
peered
through
the
front
window.
Hed seen her. He smirked as he pushed the door open and cheerfully called
out,
Mog,
youre
bloody
early
and
youre
leaving
bloody
early
again,
Ill
bet!
greeting
and
wordlessly
took
a
sip
of
her
beer.
But
she
tilted
up
her
face
for
the
kiss
she
knew
was
forthcoming
and
it
was
loudly
smacked
on
her
cheek.
Not that it matters to him if I leave early or not, she muttered to me as I went
I grinned at her, but didnt trust myself enough to say something about the time
when I awoke in the middle of the night and found my flatmate wide awake and curled
up
on
the
couch,
listlessly
rereading
a
story
shed
written
and
posted
online.
Nick
was
like
that:
callous
and
careless
and
cocky
in
public,
but
painfully
pensive
and
vulnerable
whenever
he
thought
he
was
alone.
I
wonder
if
shed
ever
seen
that
side
of
him.
He boldly forked up one of the croquettes on the plate before her without asking
her
permission,
shoved
it
into
his
mouth
in
one
go.
She
said
nothing,
but
hailed
a
passing
waitress
and
ordered
more
food.
Oh, a sandwich will be fine, Mog, I assured her, knowing she would order
something
more
substantial
anyway.
She
always
said
Nick
and
I
needed
fattening
up.
She rolled her eyes at my request. Then, she turned to Nick who was gobbling
up
her
coxinhas
with
impunity
and
they
went
over
the
menu.
Watching
them
was
like
seeing
my
parents
ordering
at
a
restaurant.
Not
so
surprising;
my
folks
were
just
a
little
older
than
they
were,
having
gotten
hitched
earlier
than
they
expected.
She peered worriedly at Nicks face. Nick, you see, is as pale as a sheet and looks
about
half-asleep
most
of
the
time.
Hes
been
through
a
lot;
I
know
this
because
Ive
been
a
fan
of
his
for
ages.
Hes
been
through
a
lot
and
this
has
pretty
much
affected
his
health.
Not
that
he
says
anything
about
it,
of
course.
Im getting beef, Mog declared decisively after studying the pallor on Nicks
face
for
a
good
five
minutes.
I
dont
like
how
pale
you
are
right
now.
You mean theres actually a time when you like how pale I am? he asked, a
little
amused.
But she doesnt answer him. Instead, she turns to me. Kenneth, has his
I look over to Nick. The glare he throws at me pretty much says Im sunk when
we
get
home.
Knowing
him,
however,
hell
forget
about
it
by
the
time
the
gig
ends
and
we
wearily
crash
home.
Well, he does stay up late, I reply carefully. I dont know about his insomnia,
though.
Its his turn to raise an eyebrow, but the glare has softened into a look of
gratitude.
She
wont
tear
into
him;
she
wont
dig
deeper.
Of
course,
her
expression
speaks
otherwise,
but
she
wont
speak
of
the
matter
again
unless
its
totally
necessary.
She tells the waitress to get an order of salpicao and a plate of grilled salmon
with
garlic
sauce.
If
Nick
hadnt
looked
as
haggard
as
he
did
on
that
evening,
wed
have
been
fine
with
a
four-cheese
pizza.
But
Moggie
was
worried;
she
didnt
like
it
when
Nick
looked
tired.
I
think
alarm
bells
go
off
in
her
head
whenever
she
sees
him
looking
paler
than
usual.
Another waitress stops by the table, placing bottles of pale pilsen before me and
Nick.
He
takes
a
quick
swig
of
his
beer
before
Moggie
says
anything.
But
shes
busy
writing
something
in
a
small
notebook;
not
surprising
as
she
writes
for
a
living.
So-so, she replies, not looking up from her writing. But she puts down the pen
and
sits
back,
wearily
closing
her
eyes.
Nick
regards
her
worriedly.
They
talk
a
lot
online
in
the
daytime;
its
like
they
keep
each
other
company
even
virtually.
I
think
she
didnt
say
something
to
him
earlier
that
day.
I am tired, she replies, eyes kept closed. What with the traffic and my crazy
boss
acting
crazier
than
usual,
Im
all
in.
She
opened
her
eyes
and
smiled
sadly
at
him.
I
was
actually
thinking
of
giving
tonight
a
miss,
you
know.
Only,
I
was
already
on
the
shuttle
to
Makati
when
I
thought
of
that.
He said nothing. But he took her hand and kissed the back of it before leaning
You went home to your mum and dad over the weekend, she said. It was a
He nodded. Havent been home for a couple of weeks, you know, he said. He
grinned cheekily at me. And Ken and I were getting on each others nerves, so we both
went
homeward
bound.
But
he
grew
serious
again.
Mog,
weve
talked
about
this.
When
are
you
going
into
business
for
yourself?
I
dont
see
you
spending
the
rest
of
your
life
building
up
other
peoples
brands
while
ignoring
your
own.
She turns to him, a stricken look on her face. I think this was one of the things
that
have
kept
them
walking
on
eggshells
around
each
other.
She
has
chronic
fatigue
syndrome;
shes
worn
out
and
torched
out.
Hes
mentioned
this
to
me
time
and
again;
and
he
worries.
He
never
tells
her
to
her
face
that
he
does
worry,
but
he
does.
I can tell, however, shes trying to put a brave face on it. Im okay, she tells
him,
resting
a
hand
on
his
arm.
She
manages
a
very
small
smile.
Ill
manage.
Oh,
and
another
thing
She
rummages
for
something
in
that
Union
Jack
knapsack
of
hers
and
I
sit
up
straight,
knowing
full
well
that
if
shes
rummaging
through
it,
theres
a
treat
or
two
in
store.
She
places
a
large
tub
of
what
appear
to
be
chocolate
cookies
on
the
table.
But,
when
she
opens
it,
they
turn
out
to
be
chocolate
discs
topped
with
nuts
and
what
I
believe
to
be
dried
fruit.
Here
you
go.
Mendiants, Moggie replies with a smile. French chocolate discs with fruit and
nuts.
These
have
cashews,
macadamias,
bits
of
dried
mango,
and
dried
pineapple.
Her tone is proud as she explains what shes given to us, and rightly so. Moggie
bakes
her
own
bread
and
pizzas;
she
feeds
us
cookies
and
cake
and
homemade
candy.
Nick
complains
that
he
doesnt
really
like
sweets
and
that
she
doesnt
have
to
bring
something
for
us
every
Monday.
But
Ill
be
damned
if
he
doesnt
scarf
down
every
single
treat
shes
ever
thrown
his
way.
Your cooking has come a long way, Mog, Nick declares around a mouthful of
dark
chocolate.
He
turns
to
me,
jerking
a
thumb
at
her.
When
we
were
kids,
she
baked
a
batch
of
what
were
supposed
to
be
chocolate
crinkles.
Punyeta,
the
damned
things
were
hard
as
rocks
and
I
nearly
broke
a
couple
molars
trying
to
eat
them.
He
yelped;
I
suppose
she
kicked
him
under
the
table
because
she
was
glaring
at
him.
What?
he
exclaimed,
staring
mirthfully
at
her.
Its
true:
you
were
a
damned
bad
cook
when
we
were
kids!
He
reached
for
another
mendiant.
Thank
God,
youve
improved
over
time.
Ill bet Im a better cook than you are, she snapped back waspishly, for all that
I dont think you ever practice, Nicky. Youre so caught up in your music you
He winces at this because its true. I cant remember how many times his
mother
has
called
our
flat
to
check
if
hes
had
anything
to
eat.
When
Nicks
gone
into
composition
mode,
he
completely
forgets
everything.
He
gets
lost
in
his
music.
A
good
thing
for
the
artist;
a
potential
disaster
for
the
man.
when
hes
seriously
callous.
Even
in
the
dim
light
of
the
pub,
you
could
see
the
ribbon
of
pink
running
across
his
face.)
Ill take your word for it, Moggie says with a shrug. But she clinks bottles with
him,
anyway.
Still,
she
looks
a
little
sad.
I
do
wish
youd
take
better
care
of
yourself,
Nicholas.
I look up sharply at this and see a stricken look on his face. He opens his mouth
to
say
something,
but
nothing
comes
out.
He
sighs
and
quietly
excuses
himself
to
go
outside.
He was still awake when I woke at two AM to hit the john, I reply meekly. He
looked
worried
about
something
and
he
sat
up
reading
all
night.
I
decided
not
to
tell
her
what
he
was
reading.
Instead,
Maybe
hes
thinking
of
a
new
album
concept
or
something.
That man, she declared in a long-suffering tone, needs someone to take care
of
him.
It
doesnt
help
matters
that
we
can
see
Nick
through
the
front
window.
There
are
a
number
of
girls
around
him;
the
usual
groupies
who
show
up
at
the
bar
on
Monday
nights.
Fangirls.
Working
acquaintances
of
Nicks,
mostly
from
our
label.
Moggies
expression
looks
cold,
even
flinty.
But
theres
a
sadness
in
her
eyes,
a
loneliness;
a
longing.
You know, Ken, she says, her expression unreadable. We can barely take care
And hed look out for you, I thought sympathetically. I remembered one night
when
Nick
woke
up
screaming
from
a
nightmare
and
he
managed
to
blurt
out
that
he
dreamt
that
Moggie
had
gone
away
without
telling
him
and
he
couldnt
find
her
Moggie And the tears had come so easily to a man who was such an expert
at
hiding
his
feelings.
Its
Moggie,
Ken.
Shes
gone.
Shes
left
me.
Shes
had
enough
My mind kept running towards that old Beatles song, the one with the line: with
a
love
like
that,
you
know
you
should
be
glad.
I
wondered
why
Nick
insisted
on
staying
as
blind
to
the
fact
that
Moggie
obviously
loved
him.
I
mean,
really:
the
woman
worried
herself
sick
over
him.
The
look
on
her
face
as
she
watched
him
talk
and
laugh
with
those
other
girls
spoke
volumes.
She
was
jealous;
she
wanted
to
fight
someone
for
him.
But
there
was
an
air
of
defeat
about
her
person.
I cant compete with all that, she remarked quietly, noting that Id been silently
observing
her.
She
shook
her
head,
chuckling
ruefully
as
she
did.
Im
not
as
pretty
nor
as
perky
nor
as
bubbly.
I
cant
compete
with
all
that.
I looked at her, then returned my gaze towards all those bubbly girls outside.
Sure,
they
were
pretty
but
pretty
girls
are
a
dime
a
dozen
these
days
(and,
really:
you
cant
even
be
sure
if
theyre
even
real
girls!)
Sure,
they
were
bubbly
but
you
just
couldnt
talk
I
mean
properly
talk
to
any
of
them.
I cant relate in detail what happened next. All I remember is excusing myself
from
the
table
to
do
my
set.
By
this
time,
the
pub
was
already
full-up.
I
dont
know
what
got
into
me.
But
I
saw
red
when
I
saw
the
sadness
in
Moggies
eyes,
Nicks
seeming
callousness
towards
her,
and
the
way
he
seemed
to
be
flirting
with
all
those
cheap
tarts
outside.
Suddenly, everyone inside the pub was singing along with me. Even Moggie was
With a love like that, I sang, you know you should be glad.
With a love like that, you know you should be glad! the audience all but
shouted,
making
the
bottles
at
the
bar
shake
with
the
force
of
their
singing.
Nick presently came back inside, startled that I was singing a song that he knew
wasnt
part
of
the
setlist
wed
agreed
upon
before
we
left
the
flat.
I
could
see
the
color
draining
out
of
his
face.
I
think
Moggie
saw
it,
too,
because
she
rushed
towards
him
just
in
time;
he
was
beginning
to
sway.
She
dragged
him
back
to
her
table,
called
for
a
glass
of
water
quick,
damn
it!
and
she
was
checking
his
pulse.
Your heartbeats racing! I heard her say, her face just as ashen as his from
He didnt answer and I suddenly stopped playing. Hell, it was like the entire pub
had
fallen
silent.
And
then,
before
anyone
could
say
anything,
he
grabbed
her
close
and
did
something
that
he
probably
should
have
done
ages
ago.
He kissed her.
He kissed her, yes; right in front of a packed pub on a Monday night, in front of
You are not going anywhere, he said. Im driving you home later.
But she began to protest, eyes wide in shock, her face flushed pink.
point
like
that?!
I
led
the
crowd
in
a
repetition
of
the
chorus:
With
a
love
like
that,
you
know
you
should
be
glad!
Yeah,
yeah,
yeah!