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Let Me Tell You
Let Me Tell You
I am not okay. I am not always strong. I do not have all the answers - I don't even have half
of them. If I love you at all I've probably hated you with a passion at least once. I'm not
always happy to see you - but I am always glad you're there.
I am home.
And I am missing things I thought I'd let go of. Battling things I thought I was okay with.
Loving things I never thought I'd like.
I am not doing one little thing I don't want to do. If I am reading a book for anything but
sheer pleasure I put it down. If I don't want to get out of bed I don't. If I don't want to go I
stay home. If I am annoyed, bored, or restless I get up and walk away. And for once in my
life, I actually don't care how you might feel about that - whoever you are.
And even though every moment of these last two years has been filled with love, God, and
promise. Even though I was blessed beyond reason. Even though I cannot thank Him
enough for all the love and laughter He brought into my life -
It was long. It was hard. It was confusing. It was lonely. It was rough. It was changing. It was
exhausting.
I am exhausted.
I've decided that's okay. It's okay that I'm tired. It's okay that I don't have it all together. It's
okay that I'm struggling with things I thought I was okay with.
And I'm doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing, with the exact people I'm supposed
to be with, at this exact time.
If I do nothing more this Summer than love strong, talk deep, think long, and simply be
then I'm okay with that.