A little silly teenager’s story

I am a teenager, I may think I am mature, but the truth is I am just a little silly
teenager. I think I can handle something, but at last the thing is out of control.
But so what, I get a great excuse; I am a teenager. I look like a bold guy, but you
know what, I am afraid like others afraid of some animals, but the difference is, I
am afraid of human, the same species of mine. I know if someone is afraid of
homosexual, he/she is called homophobic. But how about me, I am a man that
afraid of a kind of creature named human.

When I was studying in primary school, I was liked a kind of freak, I didn't talk
much to others, I spend most of the time in reading, I didn't talk to my family.
After school, I locked my self in my room and listened to my favorite disc and
read my books. Guess what, when I got something important and I needed to
phone to my classmate, I would be very nervous, my heart beating would
increase, and my hands would tremble. I was just afraid. Now, I am better, but I
am still nervous when I need to phone to someone, certainly my heart beating
will increase and I will feel a bit dizzy.

I admit I like/love someone, I will not deny this fact, but the problem is I am not
dare tell my feeling to the one that I like/love. I've already told you, I am afraid
of human. Some people in my age, they are bold to show their emotion. I am
wondering, why they are so bold to face others, especially their love. Am I
considering too much? Yes, I guess I am, I should say, "Go ahead" to myself,
right?

Friends, I need your advices. These LOVE stuff is exhausting. The girl is driving
me crazy. Should I show it all to the girl that I like/love?

Let me talk a bit about my feeling, you know, sometimes, girl love girl is a bit too
exciting to others, so I don't want to make the circumstance to be so
embarrassing. That's no advantages to everyone. BUT, this time I can feel
something special between that girl, and me I don't know how to explain it, I
think there is something. Well, even though I said I can feel something, but I am
not quite sure about anything, maybe I am just over-thinking, or because of my
subconscious.

So, friends, I NEED your advices. I don't want to miss this chance. Thank you.
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