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Some Heard the Thunder Cry and Some Heard the Thunder Sing A collection of poems by Alan Eby All work Alan Eby

Note: The work in this collection retains its uniqueness and initial spontaneity. All of these poems contain the emotions I was feeling at the time. No additions or revisions have been made to the poems. I want the reader to experience this collection just as I did when I originally wrote it.

I never meant for any of this to happen, but sometimes things happen and we cant control them even if we make the decision to run away. Like a phoenix rising from its Ash, I am reborn now, but my ability to fly is weighed down by the memory of you. You have flown away because I pushed you out of the nest, hoping the pain inside me would heal. Today is a new day and Im taking it slowly.

The Thunder

Gone and it Feels Different

Picking up the memory of you is hard to throw away Both parts Lover and friend A dagger to your heart because of the latter I only know what I dont know what to explain Because youre a closet of emotions that I loved to wear The tremble in my bones shook my roots That were rooted to you Until an axe came down that you meant to apologetically place In your destruction path You are gone and Im gone And it feels different

I Hear It

Do you hear it? The beginning of it I hear it The raindrops from over a mile away as they splash down Creating a mushy ground to walk on That leaves your shoes muddy and wet Which will track in dirt and unwanted things into the house Where you and I once lived together In love and insane with each other But when your love struck out three times The umpire called the game and sent the teams home Yes I heard it all

One Date

Eyes meet White meat Personal whine Red wine Nighttime Culinary thyme Slowly bored Cutting board Ill call you I wont hold my breath

Run Away

My mind was scared Lost in time I had no reason Only your song Resting on my shoulders A brittle piece of land Where friendship plants Its seeds in hand The water from my tears Failed to seep down below Failing us today Is the only job I know Pulling me to stay Pushing me to go I dont know I dont know

Update

I shouldnt care or even remotely ponder your whereabouts But I do My best to push you away is as good as you are at letting me down

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Thunder

Boom It shakes the bones Felt the earth tremble with fear Since the days have been forecasted with doubt And the nights cool with silence Time for the summer air to be renewed Boom Closer to the heart But far away from the ground Something stirring never makes a sound Until now Until now Boom The rain starts to fall A blanket of soft noise that calms The Thunder to sleep With each of its self inflicting rants Brought back by the rousing sleeping sheep Boom

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Border-Line Sacrifice

Here at the seam Where a zipper comes clean A man and woman stand eye-to-eye Fixating blame and resenting their tries Where he sends guilt And where she sends another name He shoulders doubt To her, back to basics she wants, its all a game A year of closed doors That wine reluctantly proclaimed Three months of close encounters Turned out to be unrequited, unrestrained Headstrong says the spirit Along says the heart Near beckons the past Present like a poisonous dart But what she wants inside Is for the reasons to never come out His pride is beaten down Not collared by her route So as his own hero He detaches and walks away From the one he swore hed never leave No matter what she would say A hero makes the sacrifice Of breaking all the ties That bind him or her to a place Where promises go to die

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Hero

I want to save you From all the hurt that wont pass you by But since that hurt is all your fault You can stand there and let yourself cry My heart used to beat weaker Now it pumps with a better inside A new machine ready for work I have nothing left of yours to hide Im a hero I saved myself Im not your hero, anymore

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Optimism/Faith

I wish I had that bright outlook of the future as you do That glimmer of hope in your eye Second chances come every day to you Whereas they come rarely for me, like a calm storm I envy your faith Your ability to believe that everything will be ok You are your own person every day Whereas I am different people each day I plead to regain an understanding of it all A blank piece of paper filled with answers Your questions are instantly answered Whereas mine go overlooked I wish I were you And I wish you were you, again

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The Lightning

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Flash

From inside I see a bright flash of light Outside I go to investigate Nothing But within a few seconds Youre back Back with the same sight but brighter Only for a split second and youre gone away again Another lapse of concentration saddens me Until you flash again Lighting up my sky You and I engage in this playful exchange until the passion storm passes Leaving us both lost and amazed What do I do now that youre gone? In two days time will bring you again So Ill just wait by the window for your flashing call

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Strike the Ground

You say my bark is bigger than my bite Well Im here to show you the truth tonight Im turning off the white noise Focusing on the front, forgetting the back Bring the thunder Bring the rain Ill strike the ground Nothings the same This built up pressure is ready to blow Im finally brave to let it all go These eyes are open and wide awake Ready to make the ground shake Bring the thunder Bring the rain Ill strike the ground Nothings the same No more waiting No more debating No more crying No more dying My atmospheric courage is up sky high Falling is failing when I dont try This rainbows end comes with a price Rollin sevens with the dice of life Bring the thunder Bring the rain Ill strike the ground Nothings the same Bring the thunder Bring the rain Ill strike the ground Nothings the same

Up and Down

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Today I am up Yesterday I was down Tomorrow Ill be down In two days Ill be up Every day is a struggle A battle of lights out Chaos inside my head An order to cease this dread Confirm?

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Forgive The Path That I Take

Say nice things about me because I am headed off Into the light Into the unknown Your chained mind never felt real to yourself So learn to feel again Without me Ill stop in on occasion to see how youre doing But dont expect me to stay To replay As these autumn leaves litter the ground and smell of wind Make promises for the winter To stay warm When Im around you become lost and anxious Like a pound of mystery Focus The way you need to go sounds like whispers in the pines Echoing your past through time A haunting innocent crime Forgive the path that I take Because itd not the one you want me to go Its the one I need to go, for you

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After the Storm

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That Feeling

Melancholy is a disease Memories, I captain them Order them around But sometimes they stage a mutiny and rise above I remember the day I heard that song The melodies like sweet candy for the ears It makes me sad Next came that movie where I was totally immersed A part of said world Away from my own Moving on to the smell of rain on a summer afternoon Outside the windowsill Gently coming down Relaxed but agitated I get these feelings a lot but I go along with them and try not to push them away Because they pull me in and I feel alive again

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What Way

What way do I leave home? In what way did I do you wrong? Where do I take this bag of lies? When can I lose track of time? Your path is another way A ways away from me Tell me what I should do I see no answer today My mind is heavy with the burden Of pushing myself away Your path is another way A ways away from me What way do I leave home? In what way did I do you wrong? Where do I take this bag of lies? When can I lose track of time?

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A Moment

Some days when Im walkingwell, every dayI look at the faces of the passing people and hope to see her Her and I would have a split-second moment where we comprehend each others pain and I would look away and keep walking I wouldnt say a word to her, nor do I have anything to say

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Catch and Release

I once caught a streak of hope And I let it go Not because I was clumsy But because I was afraid Afraid of what could be Of what I wanted to see My present state of frozen debate Has left me freezer burnt with hate Of happiness and interaction Like a House owned by a doctor I cynically mock the world Expressing my doubts of society in close quarters At the end of the day I am branded by my life

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Moving On

There was that old place Which was our first at all It had some good times And there, I experienced my fall Shit at best But it was all ours Nothing to stop us From being unknown stars Besides my failed love And your excess of it We bound the two together And made it fit So its time to move on On to our separate ways Well meet again later Lets say a few hundred days A sad time for me And a sad time for you The walls are all bare On July 31st, a quarter past two Youve taught me to love again And to forget the past Ive taught you to laugh more And to see through your own looking glass Lets save the goodbyes for tomorrow For when we hand over the keys Friends first, family all together Youve become a part of me

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The Keeper

In a box upon a shelf Where promises lie charred and burned Smoke pours out in lumps of black He steps up and takes his turn Lifting the lid with cautious eyes A segment of memories come flooding back Desperately wanting to forget it all Nothing will defend this wanted attack Flying high in ecstasy With fields of love and flowers and dreams A new day brings another round To jump side-to-side along the seam Lost in a frenzy, a ramblin way His mind wanders from what he wants and what is not said Begging his heart to open up To wrap the concept around his head The quota has been filled So he slides the lid back on Another day out of place Another visit alone With all his might and all his strength The box is lifted and torn apart Imploding with confetti, a carnival of the moon The phases are over, silence fills the room Finally, The Keeper, regains his peace

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The smell after that storm is rejuvenating; a majestic splash of new. Theres a fog on the road, about chest high, and I have lost sight of you.