Real story of spiritual enlightenment e kundalini.

I am Brazilian and I can not speak English but want to tell my story and if poss
ible get a spiritual orientation, I'm using google translator
Tell quick rundown on what I went through to reach the direct experience of enli
ghtenment in 1991 (was 19) suffered a car accident in which I hit my head, but s
pecifically the forehead on the steering wheel, almost 6 years of headache over
human to sleeping actually only slept 1 hour per night in the first 4 years, the
fact is that it took me to a mental concentration beyond human to endure the pa
in,,,,,,, also entered a period of profound reflection on attachment to matter,
since the car was my mother and she suffered because I hit your car, I just thou
ght it was only matter and nothing more, did all the examinations of the time, v
arious experts, and not computed tumografia discovered nothing abnormal, I also
began to feel a sort of enormous pressure on the genitals and muscles enregecime
nto the coast about 15 cm below the neck and began to feel as if my body was goi
ng into a violent pressure inside, sometimes felt the pressure so strong that th
e genitalia masturbated to relieve pressure and also began to feel as if anchore
d on the planet, also began to feel like I'm disconnected from the world, univer
se, a creepy feeling, it seemed that it was an errant stone, not felt anything f
or anyone, it seemed that my heart had dried completely, felt no love for anyone
or anything, I started having thoughts macabre, but it was like a part of me wa
s there watching everything that was happening inside me, in my mind, seemed I w
as struggling in my own mind with an army of millions, every day I felt clarifyi
ng my own mind all the time, I started studying spiritual, spiritualist, yoga, R
amatis books, and apply the teachings of Jesus, and everything felt Ramatis it w
as good for me, I started attending a Kardecist center and participate in charit
able works during this period met a girl that made my heart move, but at the sam
e time felt that one day she would let me, I began to feel love for her, somethi
ng that amazed me so far because I did not feel anything or anyone and anything,
felt a walking robot, and after 1 year of dating she left me, she was already 1
6 and I 24, the fact is not had sex and I treated her like a goddess, so the way
to play it,. talk to her, but not trasavamos, over time she and I began exchang
ing caresses but sharp, burning more horny in the popular, but I felt that my ch
est growing for her and also felt the love coming out of her skirt love chest, a
s if I was absolved his magnetism, his energy, while I was doing charity work in
the center as distributing soup to the needy and the gospel I applied myself, I
became a vegetarian and started to watch my words, and my thoughts kept inside
dialogue, it was as if I was explaining another being within myself, that increa
singly became more gentle, docile, I tried to get rid of the pain that consumed
my head, in a state of quiet desperation, after 1 years of dating we decide to h
ave sex, but I was too sensitive, and I was very nervous, could not sleep with h
er, just failed, I had no erection (because I was feeling like my body was being
transformed from the inside, I felt energy moving within the my body and how I
was going through a kind of rejuvenation and biological evolution, felt the inte
rnal organs being remade), we made other attempts, but even with erection was ve
ry nervous and had premature ejaculation, was picking up energies of the environ
ments she eventually leave me, and after three days walking and acting like a zo
mbie I heard in my ear on my bed before bedtime a voice saying to forgive her, a
t the same moment I said a prayer with all my heart for her and for all humanity
, thick tears streamed down my face and my heart exploded like a bomb, I felt a
lot of energy moving from genesic to the heart chakra, also felt like you were b
reaking layers within my heart and I felt a presence within the living target ch
est inside me at the same moment I felt that two beings appeared in my room with
a sense of infinite love for me, one of them touched my forehead and feel an en
ergy flooding and fell asleep immediately after years practically without sleep,
was my first night's sleep about 8 hours later years, come flying me to a diafa
mo place and there talked with a female entity who felt it was lit and told me t
hat she would return when I woke up the other day something inside me had change
d, felt love for people and established a deadline of 10 days to return it, what

really happened, but the dating was no longer the same, felt that soon she woul
d let me definitely, one day kissing had something appalling, felt that she had
destroyed me in a past life and feel a deep hatred for her, but went in a matter
of seconds, I had the intuition that should love her deeply and I did that, my
love for her only grew, but at the same time growing by people, people I never m
et, animals and even stones, my nightly prayers began to feel tears coming down
and a growing love for people, animals,, felt the energy coming out of my chest,
something else began to happen was that I started focusing on the forehead, inc
reasingly when he prayed, because I read in some book that spiritual light annih
ilated the psychic bacilli mind and that they were coming from past lives barely
lived and what was needed incenera them through the light, I began to pray conc
entrating on the forehead and felt a very strong energy at a point on the forehe
ad between the eyebrows like an ember buried on my forehead, the funny thing is
that the pain did not subside, did was increase, but I grew stronger inwardly, I
started feeling a walking fortress, no longer complained internally of enormous
pain felt in the head actually started to thank, it was like something redeemin
g at that time was already studying everything that came ahead in terms of spiri
tual books, spiritualist, yoga, etc, in endless thirst for knowledge, but felt t
hat studying much that was very superficial, had not yet read anything about kun
dalini and how its mechanism worked and how it worked in relation to sex with lo
ve, in my dating Sarros and tried to continue the sex, but I could not and she w
as nervous, but I played more with veneration and she told me that she felt so m
uch love for me that was afraid, told me that after we got when I kissed her she
felt her heart in flames, as if something had,, opening at the same time I knew
she also activate your heart chakra, continue dating a while, but I continued t
o feel that dating would not go ahead and that I should prepare myself for the m
oment of rupture, and that's what I did, was living in a way that felt out of my
chest love for everyone and everything felt the same energy, the spiritual cent
er he attended one of my hands skirt I felt very strong energy that was used to
cure also started to catch people's thoughts, both incarnated as disembodied, as
if I knew essentially what people were thinking and feeling, my head began to w
eigh as if it weighed 1 ton, it was as if my whole being was inside my head, I c
ontinued studying and applying it on myself while all the good wished for people
, I began to feel an infinite humility, treated all beings until,, ants with aff
ection and love, sometimes felt a light to invade my mind, but could not tell wh
at it was when there was a break from dating, I feel a sadness without end, but
still felt a growing love for her and all beings, he felt he had opened a hole i
n my chest, in a lecture in Kardecist center he frequented something strange hap
pened, but I did not give much importance at the time, the moment was an ardent
prayer blessing the people, the world, all suffering, I felt that something was
simply attached to the base of my spine with a tremendous force but that did not
hurt me, after two weeks we had finished dating I went to a nightclub with a fr
iend, but the night before bedtime ,, (now I was able to sleep) I felt someone a
n inner voice told me that I would be given a rare opportunity that something bi
g was going to happen, I did was sneer, and said inwardly, "what will be, as alr
eady 'passei through so much, as this endless pain that consumes my head and thi
s moral heartache for opening a hole in my chest, before proceeding, I mean that
when I slept, it was like waking from beyond,, felt it was going to many beauti
ful places and spoke telepathically with entities of light, and also felt like p
ervades sounds for me that I was the sounds heard over there,, sounds beautiful
and harmonious,, you can not explain right,, returning to the disco, arriving th
ere began to dance like a normal young, the nightclub was full, and I was behind
a girl dancing a few cm of his buttocks, but without any sense of sensuality, b
ut suddenly feel a tremendous force in the genitalia and an overwhelming erectio
n along with a fire that looked like a blazing volcano with a pressure that look
ed like a giant magnet sucking the energies of the environment and a sense of en
ormous lust, and wanting to engage in that girl in your buttocks, startled and i
mmediately moved to place even felt the energy around at the other place I retur
ned to dance normally, but the girl who was in front of me her hair got stuck in
my button of my shirt and tried to loosen it and caught my attention so harshly

and I responded with authority that she came too far back, I managed to undo th
e entanglement of her hair on the buttons of my shirt and she continued to dance
in front of me, she was very beautiful, I suddenly feel again the deafening wav
e of heat and a vigorous erection with a strength of a giant magnet, as if a vol
cano erupt wanted, not to mention the feeling of lust, desire to possess her the
girl and feel an inner voice telling me to just watch, so I did and gave me an
infinite desire to make a prayer right there in that place, I prayed the prayer
asking God would never betray the infinite love I felt for my ex girlfriend, tea
rs fell from my eyes, as I was half light nobody realized at the same instant I
felt that something exploded in a violent force in the genitals like a volcano a
nd climbed into my heart and felt a burst of light opening in my chest when I le
ft the nightclub felt something strange and special screaming inside me that I h
ad won, I got my car and I went home to bed with the feeling that something extr
aordinary had happened, coming home,
to lie in bed to do my prayer feel an energy being sucked from the base of a col
umn force and pressure from another world, a heat like it was on fire and my gen
itals as they prayed big tears ran down my face as I felt something climbing the
column with a deafening noise, something wonderful and scary, but I gave myself
to God at that moment, and felt the energy arriving at the base of the neck and
felt an incredible lightness in the body, I fell asleep immediately, the other
day I woke up with an infinite joy it seemed that everything was good, I felt a
joy that felt like it would explode at any time and an infinite love for people,
walked and looked like it had not body weight, felt like an inflatable balloon
to soar, that same day I went with my brother seek my father at his job I had 25
years, we were in the back listening to soft instrumental music in the car, whe
n suddenly I looked out the window for a loose horse on the ground near the road
, just feel an infinite love for them and I was suddenly the horses and they wer
e me, and I saw that I was all that time, it was a Monday, I kept feeling love r
adiating from my chest spontaneously to everyone and everything, when I was show
ering, already taking cold bath, at the instant the water fell on me, I felt the
chakras it falling over it, I could feel all the chakras, had no thoughts and a
sense of unity when it was on Wednesday, I attended a lecture at the spiritual
center who attended, but as far as the speaker spoke, I just felt like hugging p
eople actually looked like he was in another dimension when,, I just find some p
eople who were distributing soup for needy people arrived, they saw a ragged chi
ld and that was not stinking bathing several days, made ??me want to pick her up
, but my mind went into action,, to say "this child is splitting" and the real m
e, "I said I'm not unlike her,, have to uproot any feelings of superiority "and
picked her,, and started playing with her ??and pointing at the moon (full moon
beautiful,,)) and was talking to her moon, and,,, suddenly an infinite joy came
over me,,, and the soles of my feet felt million volts flooding me, I was pure e
nergy, when I look at the moon I was her, and it was all,, was the whole univers
e, ,, simply disappeared,,,,, I no longer had a sense of humility and infinite p
ower, while a love that seemed it would burst took care of me when I got home,,
simply fell asleep consciously, it was as if the other side were also without ce
nter in unity spread throughout the cosmos, when I woke up, I noticed that the s
ounds of the birds had an amazing harmony sounds I was, I began to hear divine s
ounds,, I was also at the same time they heard that, and had no mind,, outsized
thoughts of pure intelligence began to thunder in my mind, knew everything insta
ntly but without intellect,, while felt the unity of intelligence,,, interpenetr
ating everything and everyone I was all that and was not ,,, nothing was in that
state of love, unity with the cosmos 3 months, had no time, past, or future,,,
I,, I was being,,, the name you want to give,, and felt a respect unlimited for
everything, since my body became the body of the ant, my father, mother,, people
who have never seen,,,, distant planets you can not explain in words seemed mys
tical experience than I did not exist and there while my body seemed that defied
the law of gravity, felt as if floating on the floor, had absolutely no weight
and started staying awake with full consciousness even in sleep. I discovered wh
at is nirvana, but knew nothing about it then, I know now because I have read se
veral books on the subject and kundalini, lost the opportunity of enlightenment

because it wanted to know news of my ex girlfriend, I tried a girl who was a fri
end of my ex girlfriend and had had an affair with her (had sex when we were in
together), the result let me take their sensuality and took some fun with it, no
t even got to fuck, but I ejaculated and feel the energy down the spine, I got b
ut be warned even on top of the hour as a thunder in my mind told me "if you do
this you may not recover in life" but gave no importance, result lost enlightenm
ent, kundalini down, and today I have 43 years, I am well sexually experienced,
but it does not interest me anymore, only the lighting interests me, my lighting
was at 25, and I'm ready again to try to spiritual ascension, the more interest
ing that after a decade one that my ex girlfriend ended dating with me, we met a
gain and married, but I have to admit I no longer feel love for her, but still c
ontinue with it because I have two daughters and I intend to enlighten me anyway
, because I feel that is an inner commitment of my soul. ?