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enlighten the situation. I put the rest to my shoulder and my bow in hand, In front of me was the
music I had been playing over and over again for the last few days. I began to play and
everything seemed fine until five seconds in she said ok that's enough. I froze, A layer of ice
covered my body.
In 4th grade a new chance came to light. I was able to join the orchestra at my school, penn
elementary. Without questioning it I picked violin out instinct, It just seemed like the more fun
instrument. After one class I looked forward to the rest . Elementary ended and now began
middle school. New campus, new people, starting all over again. As time progressed I made new
friends and adapted but I had left my musical interest behind just as I did with penn elementary. I
was encouraged to continue music by my family but I just ignored their advice. My mom would
say Hijo busca una maestra, ya no te gusta el violn o que? Id respond saying no with the
voice of a spoiled brat. That part of my life was over... or at least I thought it was. At the time my
sense of music was a very awkward mix of dubstep or electronic music. The other ingredient to
the mix was film soundtrack, more specifically John Williams and his masterful work such as the
Star Wars original soundtrack. It was so intriguing to me how his music is what created that
emotion of a film. I would always tell myself without music there is no movie. I thought this
was just my current taste in music, but in a way it sparked something in my brain.
8th grade was when it called to me. I looked around me everyday and everyone had their talents.
The pianists, singers, guitarists, and so on, then there was me. Talentless until someone that
impacted my life came around. I wanted to express it didnt know how. My arts and crafts are as
good as picassos perfect representation of the average face, my voice as deep and rigid as an
untuned bass. And the one talent I used to have left behind. Due to my devotion to them I
decided to begin anew. I went home that day digging the depths of my closet looking for my old
instrument. After much digging I finally noticed the black thread case in the corner of the dark
closet. The flashlight barely defined its shape. I took the case out and slowly opened it not
knowing what I might see after three years of storage. I finally see the familiar red velvet interior
just to find a pair of loose strings snapped from their place. I guess it was a way of the world
telling me you have a long road ahead. I got it fixed in a few days of finally getting up and
making the effort. Finally an old instrument back in my hands ready to be played after its long
wait. The first thing I heard as my bow struck the strings was like nails on a chalkboard.
Whatever I had in mind was not happening any time soon. I could barely read music or tell it
apart. I refreshed my memory as much as possible on notes and their places on the strings. I felt
like I had come back to elementary when I barely started, clueless... but looking forward to what
After months at refurbishing my knowledge I knew there was nothing left I could teach myself
so I sought out a mentor. I visited the website and after much research on the many options I had,
We spoke through the website and I told my story, then the first lesson came around. When I
arrived and knocked on the gated door I shook as I hear the locks being turned on the inner door,
I was depending on the impression I may give. A stranger Id only seen in pictures online came
out through the door. At first glance I could tell she had a gentle soul, a very kind person. Lucky
I wasnt wrong. Souaad Nuoz is one of the kindest and most welcoming people Ive ever met.
this first lesson was basically a review to see what I truly knew. I would speak normally but
inside I wanted to get the lesson over with just to get the embarrassing mess ups and terrible
intonation done. In the end I knew she was going to be a great teacher and that I would learn so
After that May of 2015, Souaad and I met once a week every week for about 30 minutes. It
doesn't seem like much but you can learn a lot in that time. Trust me, I know from experience.
As the lessons continued I had more trust and comfort with her which is something someone
sometimes never finds with a teacher. The difference between elementary and now with Souaad
is that back then we were just a group of 10 - 11 year olds guided by one teacher to play the same
thing synchronized. Here I felt more free. I knew what I wanted to learn and how I wanted to
improve, what my goal was. Each and every lesson I felt an improvement, week by week. Where
I am now wouldnt have been possible without Souaad and I am very grateful for her teachings
and truly admire the talent she has shared with me.
In june 2015 Souaad announced to all her students that there would soon be a recital, this would
be my first time performing alone. Just the thought of being up in front of no more than 20
people made tremble and gave me the chills. The date was set for July 10th and for every day it
came closer to the recital the more I would practice. A few minutes became an hour, from an
hour to a few hours. The trembling got worse until the day came. It took place in Souaads living
room. The audience consisted of relatives of students including my parents of course. I sat and
waited in my own mind until I was next. Once up there my music was on the stand staring at me
along the small crowd. I just began to play. As my violin emitted sound a stiffness came over
me, lucky it wasnt noticeable in the music. The more I played the loser my body got and by the
last part of the piece I just played freely as if no one was watching. I will admit I messed up a
few times but hopefully no one besides Souaad noticed. As the bow was of the string soon after
that last note was played people clapped and I just smiled back hiding the trembling in my chest.
I go back to where I was and felt every part of my body just loosen as I finally got it over with. A
few students went after me and then the reception started. A few people I had never met in my
life approached me during that time and complemented what I had just done. It gave me this joy
but behind it all I just thought to myself I could do better. My first performance was a success
Around October 2015 Souaad introduced me too ECYS but I ignored it. Later on she mentioned
it again, not insisting but just as a reminder. I told her I still wasnt sure. I left our lesson that day
with the thought front and center. The stage that my brain had built had the audition in the
spotlight. Ive never auditioned in my life, but there is always a first time for everything. That
fall afternoon I filled out the online sign up sheet and just awaited for a response. I was excited
for what was to come. I thought it might be a few days for the symphony to get back to me,
instead weeks went by and no response. I emailed and called and nothing. Maybe they saw my
still no response. The one highlight of my long wait was my brand new violin my dad had given
me for christmas. I checked my email with little to no hope of a response that day, but It didnt
hurt to look. I scrolled after a few promotions to suddenly find a strange email from someone by
the name of Alexandra Keegan. I read... Dear Samuel and family,We received your online
audition application. Your audition is scheduled for Saturday, January 30, 2016 at 9:30am
As soon as I read this a rush of joy had hit me. I showed my mom and called Souaad to
let them all know this was really happening. I re read the email and realized something. I had
only two days to prepare. They came and went although I wished they hadnt. I needed more
That morning on the 30th I woke up very early and my parents drove me all the way up to
cuyamaca college. I had that feeling again, that feeling of time stopping and thinking of all
possible outcomes. The whole ride there I just looked out the window to see all of these cars
driving up north. You would see different drivers with different expressions, I wondered if they
had my same feeling but for different reasons. When we finally arrived I wasnt sure where to go
until I followed the signs. It was a very open space between the car and the actual campus. I ran
to the first stairs I saw that said B-301 3rd floor. I ran the stairs with my music and instrument
in hand. The many flights of stairs exhausted the air in my lungs so when I made it to the top I
was gasping for air, then I saw the room door. I hesitated for a little bit. Who knew what was
past that door. A room full of people for the same reason Im there, or maybe it's the wrong
room. I take a deep breath and walk past the door. It was wide carpet floored classroom. Clearly
a music room as the board had prelabeled music staffs and the room was big enough to fit a
small orchestra, yet it was empty. A few chairs here and there and only two other people besides
me. A very tall white kid, about 17 or 18 was sitting in the middle of the room playing his violin,
probably going over his music for his audition. In the other end of the room was a little girl with
her mom. I arrived on time, a little bit early maybe. I sat by the entrance tuning my violin waiting
for whoever was in charge to call me in. The anticipation was killing.I was lost in thought. After
a few minutes a redheaded woman came out from a back door in the corner of the room. She
called my name with a heavy russian accent. I smirked a little but deep inside I shook. My music
in hand with my instrument at my side out of its case, I followed her to the other room. It was
much smaller than the last space we were in, like a conference room. She sat on a chair around
the long table. In front her was you typical black metal stand. I placed my music down as she
said play whenever youre ready. Her heavy accent still made me laugh inside, it helped
enlighten the situation. I placed the rest to my shoulder and my bow in hand, In front of me was
the music I had been playing over and over again for the last few days. It felt like I might not
even need the music. I began to play and everything seemed fine until five seconds in she said
ok that's enough. I froze, Another layer of ice covered my body. What had I done wrong? Did I
mess up? Did I sound bad, What happened??? All these thoughts rushed my brain like a speeding
car. Is it harder for you when you switch to the E string? she asked me after stopping me. Its
not much of a struggle for me but I guess there is some tension I replied innocently. She then
showed me a trick with your elbow which made it more comfortable. Then she commented on
how teachers nowadays dont teach that anymore although the should. Im sure Souaad had
mentioned it once but Instead of saying anything I just agreed. Well that's it She said with a
high pitch to her voice. Im going to put you with the advanced division. Id signed up for the
symphony orchestra which was below the advanced division. I was in shock from the news I had
just been given but with a big smile across my face. We left the room and went back to the larger
empty room. My parents waiting to see what happened. The redheaded woman, who was indeed
Alexandra Keegan, told my parents all they needed to know, where I had been placed, the music
Id be playing, where wed have rehearsal and so on. I wasnt paying attention. I was just
A few weeks passed and Rehearsals had begun. I was Violin 2 but was mostly intrigued by the
Violin 1 section. The people who had that part were much better than me, they played beautifully
although the key of the music was very heavy and dramatic. It was very astonishing. The
problem was that they were younger than me. I was the high schooler sophomore while these 7th
and 8th graders were playing as if it were their whole life. Why was I not violin 1? It made me
think of the past, how I just brushed this off. It made me regret the three years wasted on a
fantasy of being a djay and electronic music being my life. If I would have continued then I