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Vann Reflection Essay
Vann Reflection Essay
5 June 2017
experience that is unique to oneself, but yet, it can be a shared and unifying
experience. There is no linear pattern with reflection. You do not always start at
rock bottom and end elated or vice-versa. There are waves of ups and downs, with
Throughout life, you face many contemplative times that often result from
the end of an old era or the beginning of a new. But right now, I find myself in
somewhat of a purgatory state. Where am I? Where have I been? Where will I go?
Thirteen academic quarters. It took 1349 days from my first class at the University
amount of growth has occurred. But what does this all mean? Where do I even
start?
This reflection will not start with a family history dating back seven
generations. It will also not start with my first day in kindergarten. Knowing where
to even start reflecting has been a sort of reflection in itself. Telling the story of the
last four years of my life cannot be encompassed in an academic vacuum; so many
I will start by discussing the reasons why and how I even found myself in this
position. All throughout my life, my parents have engrained the value of a good
but I know that I am privileged to be where I am. My parents and relatives have
escaped war and famine to create better lives for their children and their parents.
They had uprooted their entire lives whatever small amount they had back in the
Thai refugee camps to seek refuge in the United States. Understanding the value
College was never an option for mebut not in the way you might expect. I
beyond middle school. But, for as long as I can remember, college was never an
option in the sense that I always had to go regardless. My parents worked hard to
establish their lives here in the Pacific Northwest. They have completed jobs in the
service industry and in the manual labor industry in agriculture and forestry. They
have worked hard, both physically and mentally, to provide an opportunity for their
children to have better lives than they did. These experiences have allowed me to
try to appreciate the educational experiences Ive had to the fullest extent.
experienced in life through friendships and hardships. For now, Ill talk about the
former.
paths. In total, I have been in college for six years. My first two years were in
Running Start, a Washington state program that allows high school students to
attend community college to work towards an associate degree while also fulfilling
their high school requirements. These first two years were aimless; I had just
wanted to get enough credits to graduate and get good enough grades to attend
clueless look on my face in the fall of 2013. I signed up for a Freshman Interest
Group that was titled something along the lines of Social Media Technology. This
was when Facebook was in its peak level of cool; I knew going into the tech field
would mean the potential to make a lot of money in the future. Money = success,
right?
The road to riches was, like many of the routes that outline the journey of my
life, winding and full of dead ends. My experience in the classes left something to
be desired. The competitive nature of the departments I was exploring created this
environment of exclusivity and pretentiousness that were full of pomp, but lacked
passions from high school: health. I began taking more courses that focused on the
social determinants of who we are and why. This holistic social science framework
was stressed in the public/global health courses I had taken. Seattle is a hub for
medicine, health, and biotechnology. I was definitely in the right city to pursue this
field. However, I found myself struggling to connect with not only the natural
doing here at UW? Am I wasting my time? What will my parents think? (For a
language barrier.) My education was slowly slipping out of my control. I did not
The only thing I knew for sure was that I found solace in being outside and
taking in what the city had to offer me. For large portions of my week, I would
spend time aimlessly wandering through the various neighborhoods in Seattle. I
would hop on a bus, pick a random number, and get off the bus after that many
stops. I was head over heels for the city and I could feel my mental health
improving. At this point, something in my head had clicked. My love for the city and
my passion for the social aspects of health could be combined in an urban planning
program. I did not know of any program at UW that was like that; I continued to try
friend of mine one time over coffee. She was currently enrolled in CEP 200 for fun
and told me the program was similar to what I was looking for. She was talking
about her Individual Study Plan project that was coming up and it honestly just
blew my mind with how much intentional control CEP gave its students. I applied
The path to CEP was a tough one and it did not get any easier once I was
admitted. However, I found a program that allowed for educational growth that I do
not think can be achieved in other programs. The amount of control I had over my
education and my path at points throughout CEP, I can confidently look back and
At times, I found myself struggling with some of the key components of CEP
to form connections with most of my peers. I understood the value and importance
of the network that the cohorts formed, but I found myself to be an outsider in this
respect. That is not to say that this was the intentional work of my peers or it was
something that I found pointless; it was just something that I thought I did not need,
which was difficult to confront as the CEP network was so strong. My support
network was elsewhere, and I was happy to have them separated from my
academics.
These strong networks that I had failed to integrate within had brought me
networks turned into cliques. The cliques became these entities that would
dominate conversations and further isolate people like me. Thankfully, I have had
conversations with a handful of my peers and the professional staff that have
allowed me to come to terms with this scenario and find ways to work around
these issues.
CEP is truly a collaborative, embodied educational experience. At times, it is
forced through retreat, governance, and committees. One thing that people do not
talk about when being pushed out of your comfort zone is what to do when youre
out; do you just sit there uncomfortably? Through CEP, I have learned how to
overcome being uncomfortable with situations. Each week for two hours, I had to
confront it head-on, and eventually, you ask yourself Why are you even
I have learned that not everything is going to work out as planned. You might
have to work with somebody with different values or you might have to find ways
to be vocally passionate about an issue. CEP has taught me more than any other
the classroom, while also learning a lot about myself in the process. While the paths
I have paved myself have led to dead ends, u-turns, roundabouts, and more, I know
that this map is still in the works and I am excited to see where my final destination
will be.