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My name is Jon Chapman. I’ve read that in medieval England, Chapmans were
peddlers of random crap. My paternal grandfather was Irish, not English, but I’d assume
that Chapmans were the same profession in Ireland. Maybe I’d be wrong. Being from
Ireland my grandfather and his kids were very Catholic. My name is Jon. Very Catholic.
My brothers’ names are Matthew, Joshua, and Michael. All very Catholic. We were
raised to be Catholic, church, Sunday school, baptism, and confirmation for all of us. I
hated church as a child because I didn’t like taking an hour out of my time on Sundays
adolescent because I never heard god despite that everyone else seemed to. I felt like I
was missing something. Church was where I first experienced Fear of Missing Out.
Church was where I first questioned authority. Church was where I decided that I was
not Catholic.
but mom is not. My mom was never a catholic, but she went to church with my family
faithfully as far as I could tell at ten years old. She went on Sundays, did communion
and prayed, a perfect mold of any member of such a somber congregation. She was
present but she wasn’t there. She went to church for my dad despite the difficulties in
their marriage. One night when I was ten, she left a note on the counter and left to live
with her sister for months. In her note, she said she loved us and needed time. She and
my father were experiencing difficulties. To this day I’m not sure why, but I’ve heard
rumors of infidelity that I’m inclined to believe. My dad took us to a gas station for some
candy, and when we came back it sunk in that she was gone. I laid on our hard kitchen
floor and cried for 15 minutes until my dad picked me up and carried me to bed.
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I remember very little about when mom was gone, but it was different when she
came back. She stopped going to church. Until that point, I thought that you had to. If
you were catholic, you went to church. I assumed no one wanted to, because it was
boring. I knew that when I wasn’t in my family home, I wouldn’t go to church anymore.
I never asked many questions as a child. I was curious about many things
especially in the elementary sciences, but I assumed that the world was a cut and dry
place. My dissatisfaction with church life taught me to question things, especially people
in an authoritative position. Before I realized that church was not for me, I’d assumed
that adults were always smart and right. After, I was a pain in the ass for substitute
teachers. I can’t remember the teachers name, but I remember a science class
discussing gears. We were talking in science about how belts, gears and pulleys
interacted. The substitute of the day (wish I could remember her name) tried to explain
that two pulleys connected by a belt that wasn’t twisted would rotate in opposite
directions. She then demonstrated on a little device that was simply two red pulleys
connected by a belt, with yellow arrows drawn on the pulleys. The yellow arrows pointed
“See? They spin in opposite directions!” she’d exclaimed, beaming proudly at her
“ That’s not what I said, no.” she was kind in her first correction, but I pressed
her.
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“No, the arrows are pointing in opposite directions, but the pulleys are spinning in the
same direction.” After this, she was visibly upset. She left a note for our homeroom
teacher regarding my rude behavior, without admitting that she was wrong. That teacher
taught me that people in positions of authority weren’t always right, an important lesson
for a burgeoning young punk. The event also earned me the reputation of a nerdy know-
it-all (distinctly un-punk) which I was. In middle school, I learned two things: nerds aren’t
popular and how to pretend I was not a nerd. In middle school, I wasn’t going to be a
nerd, or a jock, or a cowboy. I’d be whatever the situation required. I’d Chameleon.
with their surroundings on a whim. In reality (or maybe just the reality of pet
I thought I was the first, wearing plaid and wranglers. Just like many classmates,
or at least the most popular ones. I didn’t want to be me, because being and acting
nerdy didn’t get you laid (In middle school and high school, I was fairly certain that
social credit like this was the key to popularity and happiness). Being punk didn’t give
much social credit either, but it did make one of female classmate’s dads hate me (more
authority to be against). I loved that. It seemed logical at the time to blend in and get
some social credit. In reality I never blended into anything. Like the chameleon that
turns white and red as soon as you open its cage, I was just mismatched, irritable, and
In high school, I tried a different approach. I met Frank in high school. Frank was
an ambassador for emo culture, and I was very interested. Dressing a little weird,
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growing hair out and listening to inaccessible music? Sounds like a great time to me. I
was done with trying to garner social credit, but instead of learning to love myself for
what I was, I decided to give up on myself. If no one liked me, I needn’t like myself
either (through all my years, my friend Nathan has actually never left my side, but I was
a little too self-important to see that. He’s also one of my only remaining friends from
Milk River). I indulged in a culture of sad music and complacency, and it created a
desire to change myself whenever I left. I graduated high school in 2012 with honours,
and decided that when I left, I’d reinvent myself so that I would be popular. That
I decided that I’d function best moving into residence in my first year at the
University of Lethbridge. I wanted the full university experience. I moved into D/E1, the
basement floor of uHall residence with Nathan on the last weekend in August of 2012. I
was excited to meet everyone, and most importantly, reinvent myself based on their
expectations. Our first night, everyone on the floor sat in the common room exchanging
majors, interests, and favourite booze. We met our R.A.’s (who were quite cool for
R.A.’s) and they gave us the rules rundown. Don’t sleep with people on your floor, be
kind, don’t drink outside of rooms/pods, etc. It was also the first time I met Russell.
Russell was commanding the discussion in the common room. My previous experiences
with anyone popular (like a certain jock named Darcy) led me astray. As soon as I saw
Russell babbling his drivel in the common room I thought man, what a douchebag. After
a short time listening and not really talking to anyone, I left to my room to play skyrim.
attractive girls) to that knob. I would never admit this to myself, but I was jealous. This
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dude had a shine, and I thought it was a thing that I needed to be popular. In the early
days of the first semester (when I still went to class), I woke up at 7:45 everyday, to
shower and eat before my 9:00 am class. Everyday as I stepped out of the shower
wearing flip flops and wrapped in my towel, I’d grab my toothbrush and stand at the sink
beside Russell. He also brushed his teeth at 8:00 every day. It became pointless to
avoid talking to him. Besides, if I did, I might have an in with some cute girls/ friend
groups.
As it turned out, Russell was kind of a nerd. He was a new media major that
loved Mass Effect and Dead Space. He loved to play some Call of Duty and Halo as
well, video games that I really liked. He didn’t hide it though. He talked about his actual
hobbies and interests, and was still a popular dude. We started grabbing lunch and
dinner together. We played video games together. We drank together. That douche
or that being popular was necessarily even important around the right people. He didn’t
blend and no one faulted him for it. I needed to know, but I wouldn’t learn the