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Special Exercise : 3
Cave Meditation
Remember that these exercises are to be developed on your own with the aid of
your intuition. What follows is a general idea of the inner spiritual process that has
worked for me and brought me face-to-face with my ideal model so as to integrate
my conscious self into its Divine Mold, but please allow your intuition to customize
them for you. They are one way of unfolding this incredible process within you, one
that I hope will help you as much as it has helped me. Please read this entire
chapter and begin only when you are sure that you understand all the steps. If you
wish, you can tape them.
Each of the phases of this work will unfold your inner process and energize seed
ideas for your awakening and enlightenment, hence when performed in the right
frame of mind, they will develop in your psyche in a natural way. The symbols you
will be working with are universal “keys” opening to powerful subtle energies within
your being.
Precede any inner work with exercises 1 and 2 as they will purify you from the
negativity and stresses that have been accumulated during your daily activities
and help you enter a higher spiritual plane.
When you are ready, invite your intuition to accompany you on your inner journey.
If you wish, you can ask your intuition to take a special symbolic “form” for you,
allowing your intuition to choose how it wants to appear for you. Always accept the
first impression that comes.
1 - Together, see yourselves enter a dark cave. Make the cave as real as you can,
and, like a hermit, put yourself in this atmosphere for a while. In this dark and
humid place, reflect on your life, on who you think you are, and what you have
done with your life.
2 - Look at the events in your life and relive the most important. Watch them play
out as if you were viewing yourself in a movie, observing from your impersonal
center of being, the ego patterns that you have created. At all times during your
introspection, remember to remain in touch with the center of pure consciousness
and from that neutral point, reflect on the qualities that you have developed and
come to know well. Rekindle your goals and aspirations. Let your guide be the
witness of your reflections and if you feel that you need its assistance, ask for it.
You will find this period of self-discovery rewarding because it will bring up
forgotten memories that need to be consciously discarded.
3 - Try to spend time in your cave everyday, in the morning and at night before
going to sleep. Do not attempt to fantasize or imagine things happening around
you. Try to remain calm and meditative even in your visualization. You create the
atmosphere within yourself to invite the impulses coming from your soul to assist
you in this inner process. This inner space allows you to let go of everything you
no longer need. You are learning to get in touch with the energy of the archetypal
Hermit, which means that you are letting go of all the illusions of the world and
entering a place within you where your inner desire for purification will unfold.
Hence your intent has to be real and powerful.
This is personal work and you will need to create this astral place by yourself with
your thoughts and emotions. In this way, you will also create the astral body of the
Hermit, which your consciousness will inhabit whenever you are in your cave.
By doing this kind of inner work, you are assisting your soul in pouring into your
psyche the qualities and power needed to unfold higher levels of consciousness.
You are also helping yourself to understand better the mystery of who you really
are.
4- Try exercise 3 for at least a week, and when you feel ready, move on to exercise
Special Exercise : 4
When you feel ready, visualize that the room around you is dissolving completely
in an ocean of high spiritual vibrations. Let the waves of energy of your imagination
transport you far away, say, to the top of a sacred mountain.
Within yourself, unfold the energetic qualities of the Hermit, a seeker of solitude
and rest from the turmoil of the world. Look around you and sense that you are a
lone traveler, seeking to find refuge. Try to get in touch with the feeling of being a
traveler who needs to create a sacred space. Your intuition will guide your search,
and find the perfect spot for you. As always, accept the first impression that you
receive.
The place your intuition finds for you will be rooted in your ethereal and mystical
heart and will be your axial pole, the pillar of consciousness and your point of
contact, which will harmonize all the magnetic energies among your subtle bodies.
This place will be a consecrated and most holy inner space, where the energies of
the earth and sky will meet, where the temporal and transient part of your life will
blend and transmute into the infinity of Pure Being.
Let your intuition guide you in the construction of your holy place, the place you will
come to pray, meditate, contemplate, reflect and receive intuitive impulses from
the higher realms. It will be the place where you will make contact and commune
with your soul and higher intelligences. After finding the right place to construct
your Sacred Cell, in your mind’s eye, make your holy place as simple as possible,
putting in only what you really need, such as a bed, a chair, a table, a candle, a
few books and a small window. The atmosphere that you create within your cell is
vital, as its atmosphere will resonate in your mystical heart and consciousness. It
will also prepare you for the process that will put you in touch with your spiritual
DNA.
Visualize light creating your Sacred Cell. It takes form as you watch, and as you
begin to experience the creation of your cell within your being, feel its vibrations
blending softly with the light in your aura, energizing your whole being with its
blazing light.
Once you have successfully created your Sacred Cell, you can project yourself in
this holy place whenever you feel like it. It is a special space within you where you
will receive and exchange sacred knowledge and commune with the Masters of
Wisdom, each of whom represents a sacred mold, a characteristic type of spiritual
DNA. By visiting often this sacred place, you will become a consecrated being, and
come to realize that a silent presence resides behind your ego presence — your
Perfect Model, the mold that you will, in time, penetrate. The Perfect Mold is also
called robe of glory and the body of light.
After you have constructed your Sacred Cell and you feel in harmony in it, move
on to exercise 5.
Special Exercise : 5
Enter your Sacred Cell in your usual way and light one or more candles
that are on your table. Sit on your chair and close your eyes.
Repeat the breathing exercise so as to relax you even more, and then
ask your inner self or guide to manifest in front of you and appear in your
cell. Your inner guide can take any shape—the ways it can manifest for
you are explained in this book. Remember that whatever shape it takes, it
will be a projection and an extension of your soul, and this will depend on
the level of your attunement with it on the inner planes. Always accept
and trust the first impression that you receive.
Every time you visit your Sacred Cell, you may call upon your inner
guide, and sometimes, it may have a different appearance, aspect or
quality representing your soul. Pay attention to this because your inner
guide is the invisible presence of your Pure Being, veiled behind the
symbolic expression that you see in your cell. Come to know your inner
guide well, and have intimate conversations and confessions. It is
important to develop a closer relationship with your inner guide because,
with time, it will help you unfold a mysterious inner process that will open
for you the path of your awakening to higher dimensions of yourself. This
inner process will give you insights into sacred primordial knowledge and
wisdom that are engraved in your soul.
Take notes in your diary of your experiences and impressions, and record
the intuitions, feelings and thoughts that you receive from the inner
planes.
Special Exercise : 6
Within your Sacred Cell, stand erect, arms at your sides, eyes closed.
Relax and breathe gently, deeply and slowly. Imagine that a glowing
sphere of the purest white light hovers above your head (crown chakra).
The distance between you and the sphere may vary, but accept the
distance that feels right for you. For a few minutes, feel the sphere’s
warmth and dazzling rays surrounding the top of your head, until you
really feel immersed by its rays.
Now see the sphere of light moving down to the region of your third
eye center, between your eyebrows. Imagine the sphere moving into it.
Take a few deep breaths, keeping your attention on the sphere and feel
its energy expanding more and more around your head.
Now see the sphere moving down to your throat chakra. Again, see it
gradually expanding, as the purest light emanates from your throat.
Breathe slowly in and out a few times, keeping your attention on this light.
See its rays illuminating the whole area around it.
When you are ready, visualize the dazzling sphere moving down to
your heart chakra. Take a few deep breaths, and keep your attention on it
as you feel its energy expanding more and more in your chest.
Next, bring your attention to your solar plexus, and visualize the sphere
moving down to the area of your abdomen. Once more, take a few deep
breaths and focus on the light glowing from that place. Feel the energy
expanding gently from that area, healing, discarding, purifying, ever-
expanding, bringing vitality and goodness all around it.
Visualize now the sphere moving to your pelvic area, and take a few
deep breaths, focusing on the power of the sphere in this area. Feel the
energy expanding gently from your pelvic region, discarding, healing,
purifying and expanding vitality and life force.
Finally, visualize the pure light moving down to your feet. See the brilliant
glowing light around your feet. Take a few deep breaths into that region.
As you inhale, imagine that this is your grounding place, your soul’s point
of contact with the earth.
Having stimulated all the spiritual energies within your subtle bodies, feel
that all the projected lights of your soul are resonating in harmony with
each other. Take some time to experience the ethereal qualities that are
pouring into your being. Let them be activated and energized in all your
etheric and astral bodies. Let them vibrate in unison and harmony.
When this happens, it means that you, as a being of light, are attuned
and resonating with the vibrations of your soul’s sacred number. Your
whole body is glowing and resonating with the intent and goal of your
soul. Inhale deeply, holding the image of your mystical attunement with
your soul and, as you exhale, imagine the energy of your soul flowing in
and around you. Now focus your attention on the rays of light radiating
and penetrating your entire body, from the top of your head to the soles
of your feet
Breathe deeply a few more times, imagining that the pure light energy of
your soul is flowing all around your aura. Make it circulate and flow
clockwise, forming a sphere around you. Let the pure energy flowing in
the sphere penetrate through the pores of your skin, let the ethereal
energy of your soul immerse you from the top of your head to the soles of
your feet. Remain, empty, calm and relaxed.
If you can lie down, try to take a nap and be open to receive visions and
lucid dreams. It would be better, however, if you could journal this
exercise before going to sleep, as it will unfold a higher aspect of
consciousness during sleep.
Special Exercise : 5
Enter your Sacred Cell in your usual way and light one or more candles
that are on your table. Sit on your chair and close your eyes.
Repeat the breathing exercise so as to relax you even more, and then
ask your inner self or guide to manifest in front of you and appear in your
cell. Your inner guide can take any shape—the ways it can manifest for
you are explained in this book. Remember that whatever shape it takes, it
will be a projection and an extension of your soul, and this will depend on
the level of your attunement with it on the inner planes. Always accept
and trust the first impression that you receive.
Every time you visit your Sacred Cell, you may call upon your inner
guide, and sometimes, it may have a different appearance, aspect or
quality representing your soul. Pay attention to this because your inner
guide is the invisible presence of your Pure Being, veiled behind the
symbolic expression that you see in your cell. Come to know your inner
guide well, and have intimate conversations and confessions. It is
important to develop a closer relationship with your inner guide because,
with time, it will help you unfold a mysterious inner process that will open
for you the path of your awakening to higher dimensions of yourself. This
inner process will give you insights into sacred primordial knowledge and
wisdom that are engraved in your soul.
Take notes in your diary of your experiences and impressions, and record
the intuitions, feelings and thoughts that you receive from the inner
planes.
Special Exercise : 5
Enter your Sacred Cell in your usual way and light one or more candles
that are on your table. Sit on your chair and close your eyes.
Repeat the breathing exercise so as to relax you even more, and then
ask your inner self or guide to manifest in front of you and appear in your
cell. Your inner guide can take any shape—the ways it can manifest for
you are explained in this book. Remember that whatever shape it takes, it
will be a projection and an extension of your soul, and this will depend on
the level of your attunement with it on the inner planes. Always accept
and trust the first impression that you receive.
Every time you visit your Sacred Cell, you may call upon your inner
guide, and sometimes, it may have a different appearance, aspect or
quality representing your soul. Pay attention to this because your inner
guide is the invisible presence of your Pure Being, veiled behind the
symbolic expression that you see in your cell. Come to know your inner
guide well, and have intimate conversations and confessions. It is
important to develop a closer relationship with your inner guide because,
with time, it will help you unfold a mysterious inner process that will open
for you the path of your awakening to higher dimensions of yourself. This
inner process will give you insights into sacred primordial knowledge and
wisdom that are engraved in your soul.
Take notes in your diary of your experiences and impressions, and record
the intuitions, feelings and thoughts that you receive from the inner
planes.
Special Exercise : 9
With the flame in front of your inner eye, slowly imagine that the fire is animating
you and purifying your aura. Then become that flame and let yourself transform
the fire into a pure dazzling light within you. You are embodied by light; the light of
your soul has become that light. Feel it transforming your whole being. You have
entered into your Divine Mold. Rest in it for a while and enjoy the experience.
Do this exercise two to three times a week, remembering that while you do it, you
are also attuning to the spiritual dimension of your being.
Explanations
If you have followed the instructions and have done all the previous
meditations with the right intentions and a pure heart, you will then be
magnetically attracted to your Divine Perfect Model that is now resonating
in you. This will happen because you have entered its Perfect Mold and
have energized its sacred number.
This part of the work is personal and silent. By now, will have been given
ample personal proof of what happens during your spiritual awakening
process. This inner work will have also taught you that you are never
alone, that you are really guided by the invisible hand of your soul, your
permanent witness
For more details on the Permanent Witness and the Spiritual Witness, see the
articles in the “Mystery of Man” series.
This is part two of the transformation of the Chalice into a Grail cup. The symbols include:
A Grail cup
A Cross with four equal branched
Four equilateral triangles
Color brilliant gold
This diagram, which also serves as a mandala, is offered to be meditated upon. We see
here the Chalice transformed into a Grail Cup, which remains the same purified vessel
made of the purest gold. However the four tridents of our previous mandala have
transformed into four equidistant and equilateral branches forming a cross. This new
symbol represents the achieved wholeness in a seeker, and portrays what happens after
the four elements (fire, water, air and earth) within a seeker’s subtle and physical bodies
have been purified and transmuted from within the perfect Mold and transformed into the
Perfect Model. Hence, this diagram depicts the integration and manifestation of the
Perfect Model in the seeker’s everyday awareness. However, because the seeker’s
physical senses can never handle or see this holy and sacred Grail, it will always remain
an ethereal, evanescent and immaterial substance within the seeker’s Pure Being or soul
entity. Nonetheless, this blessed substance will always remain anchored in his/her Perfect
Model and therefore will transmit to the seeker’s abstract mind (or intelligence of the heart)
all the divine and holy emanations and impulsion that it needs.
An equilateral cross, the major channel of communication, represents the Son of Man, the
sign of the seeker’s awakened Perfect Model. It is not a Christian symbol. The four
branches or arms of the cross meet at the center of the Grail, bringing and achieving the
necessary balance and equilibrium between all the planes and subtle bodies within a
seeker.
The central point is an invisible one that remains unmanifested on the axial pole of the
world axis. Hence it prevails as the non-material center of the Grail. It also represents the
non-material core of Pure Being, or the Absolute Consciousness or Divine Void within
each one of us. This center is where the Invisible Presence of the Divine Face abides
unmanifested unchanged and immovable forever, and yet its divine semblance and
reflection are activated and energized within each Perfect Model.
The central vertical branch represents the world axis harmoniously blended within the
ascending world axis in the seeker. It shows also that the earth element, the Malkuth (the
tenth Sephiroth in Qabalistic symbology), arises and soars towards the Unknown God or
Absolute Being through the vertical arm of the cross, which is also the middle Pillar of
Consciousness. That is why this vertical arm of the cross becomes also the base on which
the Grail stands firmly on the ground. This base is formed by a triangle with its apex facing
upwards and represents two things:
The horizontal arms of this cross represent consciousness stretching itself outwardly in
ordinary consciousness to encompass the whole world of creation. And, when both
vertical and horizontal arms of the cross meet in the center of the Grail, their meeting point
enlightens and illuminates Cosmic or Christ Consciousness in ordinary self-
consciousness.
The Presence of our Soul Entity or pure Being resides in the hidden center of the cross
and this same Presence of pure Being resides in the mystical heart of a seeker, whose
heart is continuously nourished and filled with the elixir and nectar contained in the holy
Grail.
In spiritual alchemy, this inner work is called “the Work of the Sun.” In Kabbalah, the Grail
is the center of Tiphereth on the Tree of Life, which is why it is made of the purest gold.
The triangle that forms the base of the Grail Cup is an equilateral triangle representing the
element of fire, the fire of Kundalini rising, purifying and transforming the heart and psyche
in a seeker. From there, it rises up towards the crown chakra.
The cross, too, is made of the element of “fire,” the fire that purifies and unifies the
different aspects within a seeker. This ”fiery” cross has been created and manifested with
the essence and substance of the Grail itself. However, this “fiery” cross appears only
after the purifications and initiations are first completed in the sacred Chalice and its fiery
“tridents” have done their mystical work (see first Chalice diagram). The “fiery” cross on
this diagram is made of the purest gold, which represents symbolically perfected matter
and the fiery substance of the cross, transformed into the purest Light of Being.
The above offers just a few hints to help you in your mystical work. Please remain open to
any other intuitive revelations that come.
The Process
After having done all the exercises and the work with the previous Chalice, meditate and
reflect on the Grail in this section.
I recommend drawing and coloring the diagram yourself (using thick paper) so
that it manifests and unfolds its potency and quality in your psyche. Use a brilliant
and dazzling gold color for the chalice, the four triangles and the cross. Use the
diagram as a mandala and meditate on it, as it contains the whole process of
unfolding Cosmic Consciousness. I recommend also that you sit comfortably in a
meditative position and place the diagram in front of you. Concentrate on the
diagram for a while. Then close your eyes and visualize it coming alive in your
mind’s eye. Make it vibrate with life and energy. Gradually, make it become larger
and larger and see yourself plunge into the pool of energies. Stay in that state for a
few moments and when you feel refreshed and rejuvenated, come out of your
meditation knowing that the blueprint of this sacred diagram is still working within
you. You can do this exercise as many times as you wish.
Draw this mandala and color it so that its energy blends with yours and becomes
part of you, created and activated within your subtle bodies and place the diagram
in front of you. Concentrate on the diagram for a while. Then close your eyes and
visualize it coming alive in your mind’s eye. Make it vibrate with life and energy.
Gradually, make it become larger and larger and see yourself plunge into the pool
of energies. Stay in that state for a few moments and when you feel refreshed and
rejuvenated, come out of your meditation knowing that the blueprint of this sacred
diagram is still working within you. You can do this exercise as many times as you
wish.
HERMETIC - ESOTERIC - MYSTICAL PHILOSOPHIES
In the practical work that we have before us we shall regard the Grail as our receptivity to
the divine vocation that we are called to perform. In some Eastern systems of yoga a
small picture of the master or guru is visualized in the heart center. Do the same, but
instead of projecting an image become your Perfect Model and then visualize the Grail.
You may choose to visualize the one that worked for me, but it can be any other cup or
dish or any form of container that your intuition and imagination suggests.
Remember that the Perfect Model represents - the lost Heavenly Beloved - Your Divine
Self..
Visualize, the Grail, before your heart. You may well find that it tends to coalesce with
your physical heart inside your breast. You may feel your heart blazing or receive other
reactions. This is a subjective test showing you that your inner process is working and a
sign that you are unfolding the "Perfect Mold" - "your spiritual DNA" - and that you are
entering a new level of concentration and attunement with the Masters of Wisdom and the
source of Primordial Wisdom.
The building of this symbol of the Grail aligns one with the whole Eucharistic tradition,
going back to pre-Christian days of the sacrament of bread and wine. In written tradition
this goes back to the strange being Melchizedek, whose effigy is to be found in Chartres
Cathedral, to whom Christ was likened in the Epistle of the Hebrews.
This Melchizedek, King of Salem, priest of God Most High, met Abraham
returning from the rout of the kings and blessed him; and Abraham gave
him a tithe of everything as his portion. His name, in the first place,
means "King of righteousness"; next he is king of Salem, that is, "king
of peace". He has no father, no mother, no lineage; his years have no
beginning, his life no end. He is like the Son of God; he remains a priest
for all time. Consider now how great he must be for Abraham the
patriarch to give him a tithe of the finest of the spoil. ( So far, Hebrews
Chapter 7. The original reference to Melchizedek is to be found in
Genesis 14.)
The use of this symbol of the Grail is in itself an act of consecration and one's readiness to
become aware of the Will of God or Pure Being in one's own life and destiny. In this
consecration to Destiny, one does well to realize that one is never alone, however lone or
long the furrow one has to plough may seem.
Remember that your present thoughts have arisen dependent upon past
thoughts and desires. Your future thoughts will arise dependent upon
your present thoughts and desires. It is no good for you to worry and
think about the past or try to envisage the future. That is the way to more
suffering and unrest. You must learn to control your thoughts now. You
must bring your mind to peace tranquility now – and you will be sowing
the seeds for like thoughts in the future.
It is hoped that these exercises and essays will help you concentrate and
unfold the awesome mystery of your own being!
END
PART II
As for the word "The Nazarene", the meaning is: "He who reveals what
is hidden".
The apostles before us used to employ the terms: 'Jesus the Nazoraean
Messiah', which means 'Jesus, the Nazoraean, the Christ "The Anointed
One".
Remember: The last name is "Christ", the first name is "Jesus", the
middle name is "The Nazarene".
Hence the Name "Jesus Christ the Nazarene" means; The Anointed One,
the Giver of Truth - The Bringer and Source of Redemption - The
Revealer of what is hidden - The Enlightened One who has the gift to
Awaken others... .
If the Teachings are truly understood and put into practice, we will become as
Jesus. The Christ within will become fully manifest, just as It did with the Master.
We will have uncovered and Realized that Perfection, that Pure Spirit, which has
been the True "us" all along.
You have been given many hints and clues to unravel the unfathomable Mystery
of your own spiritual Substance and Essence...!
How can we link the archetype of the Perfect Model with the idea of an
Absolute Being? The answer to this question is that even the most
abstract idea of what is Absolute Being remains a human concept. So,
why do we have to create a Perfect Model if it is a concept that we create
in our minds? Each person be it a philosopher, a mystic or an atheist has
a certain perception of what the origin of creation of man is and he will try
to explain it according to his conditioning and understanding. Since it is
consciousness that creates and recognizes the world in which we live in,
it is therefore natural to say that anything that man imagines and creates
is rooted and based on a concept. Thus even the most profound truth can
only be delivered to others through ideas and words and these are only
human ideas that originate in the ego of man. Consequently, even when
a mystic receives an insight or truth based on intuition, his understanding
and explanation of it will have to be expressed through a concept and
then be explained to others. Accordingly, intellectual understanding of a
concept is an important first step, as it helps unfold a resonance in the
psyche of the listener. Moreover, even enlightened masters must use
concepts to explain away their experiences and wisdom to others. Since
the center of an enlightened person and that of Absolute Being coincide
and are the same, Divine Knowledge and Wisdom pour in him as divine
impulses. These impulses, however, are the living Presence of Being and
cannot manifest in the world of duality. To do so they should first be
reflected in the thought process of a sage before being transformed into
words and communicated to others. That's why an enlightened person’s
thoughts come directly from the source of Absolute Being before being
interpreted and developed into concepts which he simplifies to the level
of understanding of his audience. We live in a world of duality, meaning a
world in which the ego plays the game of “this is me – and this is not me”.
Therefore whatever one receives from the depth of one’s being has to be
projected into the world of duality in order to take substance and be
formed as ideas and concepts. Therefore, no one can really prove
anything to anyone else in a belief of an Absolute Being because this has
been created as a concept. The same goes for believing in reincarnation,
or in a Perfect Model. So why insist on explaining away the concept of a
Perfect Model?
As you breathe, become aware of the areas of your body where you feel
tense and breathe into those parts, imagining that the in-breath is
loosening the tension and the out-breath is carrying away stress and
tension, creating space inside you to relax more and more with each
cycle of your breathing.
Be aware of your body, of sensations and feelings, of the mood you are
in as you breathe, relax, and let go.
Notice your thoughts as they come and go. Simply observe, being aware,
letting thoughts and feelings flow, and as they flow, let go with every
breath, relaxing and releasing tension … relaxing … allowing the tensions
to melt … to dissolve and disappear with the slow, steady rhythm of your
breath … becoming relaxed and aware … calm.
This exercise helps you create harmony between the various levels of your being. Begin
with the breathing exercise or another that you prefer. When you are fully relaxed, imagine
that your aura is being surrounded by a soft blanket of pure energy. Visualize it taking the
shape of a spherical cocoon. Let the space within your cocoon become magnetic and let
your intuition choose one of the pure colors of the rainbow. Accept the first color that
comes.
Visualize the color filling the cocoon. Let yourself bathe in its pristine clear light. Let your
whole being be immersed in it. Imagine that, like a sponge, your whole being is absorbing
light through the pores of your skin, penetrating, cleansing and healing your etheric and
astral bodies. You are now completely purified and sealed in your cocoon of pure light.
Remain in it for a few minutes, breathing its purity.
Do exercises 1 and 2 daily for at least a whole week. Then add exercise 3 for the
following week, but always precede it with exercises 1 and 2.
by Ramesh Balsekar
At the end of the day sit alone, quietly, for about 20 to 30 minutes, and
think of one or more actions during the day which you were convinced
were "your" actions. Find out if you decided, out of the blue, to do that
action; or, was it some thought or event which started that action over
which you had absolutely no control? Then, investigate the course or
process of that action and find out how much real control you had over it.
If your investigation has been thorough and honest, you will come to the
conclusion in every case that every action which you thought was "your"
action turns out to depend on several factors over which you had truly no
control. In other words, you come to the conclusion that no action was
truly your action. Of course, it is needless to say that you are doing this
investigation - and observe how honest and thorough it is – even this
investigation itself depends upon God's will!
Once this investigation begins - and proceeds, day after day - you may
find that it has become an obsession which could be termed "the dark
night of the soul"! But this need not necessarily be so. How smooth or
difficult the process of this investigation becomes, would itself be the will
of God. The important point is that when the ego is finally convinced that
he cannot truly call any action "his" action, the ego is faced with the
significant question: if no action is my action, and actions actually happen
without any necessity of a "me", then who is this "me" I am so concerned
about? Is there a "me" at all?! The question becomes an unbearable
pain, arising from the gut, from the Source, and the answer finally comes
from the Source: "My dear child, there never was a 'me' to suffer the pain
of life and all there has ever been is “I”, the Source from which the
manifestation has emerged, and it is “I” alone who has been functioning
through the billions of human beings." An action happens because that is
the will of God; the results or consequences, whatever they are, are also
the will of God. The human object cannot know the results or
consequences of any action - the same action need not produce the
same consequences every time. And what is more, the consequences of
any action will not be restricted to only the individual organism through
which it happens - it could affect many others who had nothing to do with
the original action. Thus, for instance, a decision made by the head of a
large business enterprise could affect, for better or worse, not only the
one who made that decision but many others: the many other businesses
connected with the large enterprise and the many employees of the
business concerned.