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I'm Living in Someone Else's Shadow.

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G2 weeks ago
Baby u should see a therapist there’s no shame in that
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flower Star011 week ago

The moment you stop caring what people think is the moment you are free.
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Jenely Ramirez6 days ago

gabi doesn’t know who she is either bc she literally wants to be ariana grande like it’s
almost an obsession that’s just my opinion
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Amelia Smith2 weeks ago

No hate to Gabi but I feel that she may be insecure in herself too, she changed her face
and like u were saying, she use to lie a lot to make herself sound cooler or better etc
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Peachy5 days ago

Then maybe stop doing videos where you’re put against eachother. Stop asking your
audience to choose a winner or to vote for the best outfit. It’s clearly unhealthy for you.
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Mexicos from Avocado4 days ago

"its not healthy to live a life where you think you need somebody" That hurt
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Misun Park2 days ago
I feel like both Niki and Gabi have some deep rooted issues
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lil ant4 days ago

Everyone: "animals sense when youre sad" "cute how your dog came to you when you
started crying" My dog: runs away whenever i cry
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Michelle Leyva1 week ago

the nicest and quiet people always have to get hurt it’s so messed up
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Than3 weeks ago

And your twin is living in Ariana Grande’s shadow
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Karina Chan3 days ago

holy shit this is raw. Mad respect.
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Nhung Vo3 days ago

The dog comes to her when she's crying aww
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Mae1 week ago

My mom told me when I was little, “ the ducks only chase you if you throw bread at
them, just like friends”. You can never relay on anyone but yourself.
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SarahJ86592 days ago

why is she giggling about her sister being a pathological liar lmao
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Corinne VerMulm3 weeks ago

I feel like therapy would be a healthy choice for you to make.
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Seida 1012 days ago

Don’t think about „how is my sister doing better than me“, think about „is my sister
doing good“ and if the answer is yes then be proud and be happy for her and move on
with your life. If the answer is not really, then talk to her. She actually needs you! I
believe that sisters are the only honest friends who love you unconditionally.
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Hannah Thompson1 week ago

Can anyones else relate that 2019 is a year of not knowing anything unitl the end, and
feeling realived at the end of 2019, kylie jenner was right, the year of realizing things.
Lol
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Maham C1 week ago

Moral: Everyone finds themselves eventually no matter how much you think u won't
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Kalle Beth6 days ago
you’re worthy. you’re valid.
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Haleigh Anne2 weeks ago

Y’all who are comparing them and saying things like “Niki is better than Gabi”
COMPLETELY missed the point of the video.
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WouldBeEmma1 week ago (edited)

The pressure for girls to be pretty and perfect in this society is heartbreaking and
damaging. I wish you saw yourself the way others see you. Your own person with your
own unique qualities and individuality. You deserve to assert yourself and be your own
person. I understand how your situation could cause deep rooted insecurities and feelings
of insufficiency and codependency. You are completely your own person and have your
own qualities completely separate from her. Sometimes when kids pathologically lie it is
a cry for attention. Plus all of the surgeries and enhancements, she is probably deeply
insecure and searching for external validation. I’m very proud of your vulnerability. You
have so many admirable qualities
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Student Montanna Carroll1 week ago

The scary thing is....I COMPLETELY understand this feeling..
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Rosie Bly Thompson4 days ago

Gabi wasn't confident growing up at all she was clearly just good at hiding it. She got
work done because she wasn't happy with how she looked. Everyone has issues it's just
how to deal with it or let it all affect you
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Ginger Katherina4 days ago (edited)

Maybe this sounds like a hate- comment, but it actually comes from a place of liking you
a lot and wanting to give you an other perspective : Although I understand the point of
the video and apreachiate you making it a topic on your channel I really dislike the
"exposing" you do. Some facts didn't need to be there. It is obvious to every fan that you
try to bash her in every video. I think that's why Gabi puts on this "bitchy" persona when
she is with you (I notice this since years and wondered why she does that with you, but is
lovely on her own channel). That's maybe because she wants to protect herself from your
attitude towards her. People notice that. In your mind you are the victim, but everyone
else sees you as granting her nothing. Not one time she can do something better than you
without a mean comment. You say you are "shy" but I watched Niki and Gabi since the
beginning and I think everyone can agree that you always came across as the "main
influencer" and Gabi as the Prop from an outside perspective. I can imagine your friends
see it as the opposite from the stuff you see. You did it because of jealousy, but everyone
else thought you are more confident, creative and down- to- eath than her, think that she
is dumb or lesser than you and went to Gabis site because they pityed her, like I did. That
was why I followed her own channel, but never yours. A confident, strong and well
rounded person is not as relatable than someone who tries to be nice (she never speaks ill
of you), has a vision of herself that nobody gets and fights for staying true to her (in this
case princess- like style). That's what most people aspire to be or at least relate to on
some level. I bet it is the same with real life friends. People want to protect the weaker
part. The less "loud" one. So everything you witnessed is actually mostly your own fault
(not willingly of course). Nobody likes a negative person, that seems to be confident and
have it all saying she's depressed and bashing someone close to them at the same time. If
you kept being generous, sharing the spotlight, speaking positively of her people would
have liked you waaaay more, and even stick with you in fights e.t.c. But it is not to late to
do that. Just watch your words on your main channel, try to come across more "giving"
and loving especially towards her and I bet your life will get much easier, because people
see you differently. I had similar problems till I realized that it was actually me creating
them, so I went through this myself. You sure aren't the trigger, but made it worse by not
moving on from what others did to you. It could be long over by now. Best of luck for
your future blue babe. (excuse my bad English)
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lalaloveschim2 weeks ago

the fact that we instantly knew this was about Gabi without even watching the video.
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Aishah Khalifa2 weeks ago

Bro. If nikki sees this you will hurt her even more �
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shooters for sope2 weeks ago

i thought it was halsey lmaooo
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cheetoes2 weeks ago

shooters for sope
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Awesomeness2 weeks ago

@Aishah Khalifa How?
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Awesomeness2 weeks ago

@shooters for sope wdym?
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Aponte Anthony2 weeks ago

lalaloveschim honestly
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isabella2 weeks ago

Aishah Khalifa she’s putting this out on the internet. She is putting herself out there to be
criticized
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Betsy Saputo2 weeks ago

shooters for sope BAHAHAHHA OMG IM DEAD
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Rose Redmayne2 weeks ago
lalaloveschim yup
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Danielle -2 weeks ago

Well who else would it be lol
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Yohanna Urbaez1 week ago

No hate but instead of going on YouTube talking about this you should have gotten
profesional help because having millions of people comment and watch this doesn’t make
it better
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crestfallencosmos1 week ago

I’m literally going through this right now with a “friend” and I’m learning I should be
myself and love myself. Never depend on other people. love and accept yourself that’s
the only way you will make it
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Amal5 days ago

I bet gabi feels this EXACT same way about arianna
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AbiInMusic1 week ago

When she said “This is actually really normal to me I sit and I cry and I mope and then I
feel better” uf it hit me, me every day but most of the time I don’t always feel better but
.I’m getting there .
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pakiraju7863 weeks ago
I wish she could focus on her series “The Truth is”, she has a special talent as an
interviewer, that sets her apart. Her empathy, and connection she has, with that one on
one interaction.
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jamie piggery2 weeks ago

worst time to call your sister a pathological liar.
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Claire Hobson6 days ago

maybe one of your new years resolutions should be to be unapologetically YOU
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Lex Danketh2 weeks ago

Daaamn the truth came out during this retrograde, on ALL LEVELS
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Jacil Labang1 week ago

Who else is scrolling through the comments trying to see if Gabi commented
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Skittle Cat3 weeks ago

I feel like no one can move on without confessing.
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Macey M.2 weeks ago
“Being nice never got me anywhere”. It feels like that sometimes. But think about this...
if we were mean. Or jerks to everyone we hated. It would get us somewhere. It would
make us as bad as the people that cause us pain. It would make us one of the reasons the
world isn’t a better place. Being nice does get you somewhere. It surrounds you with
more positive energy weather you notice or not. And you don’t become the problem. The
nicest people, most of the time are really hurting that’s why they are understanding and
kind. They’re the strongest people. It takes strength to be kind.
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Lord Kaileez6 days ago

I feel this way too, I feel like I can’t live if I don’t have a bf it sucks
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Nicole Corr1 week ago

Omg why is she still pretty when Shes crying like I look like a pig when I cry ��
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Rogita0329 Marvelforlife1 week ago

Nun of yal even look like Billie or arianna so idk where people getting any of this from
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N A2 weeks ago
y’all commenting “i like Niki more anyway” “I never liked Gabi she’s this she’s that”.
Neither of them are better than the other. Stop spreading negativity because that’s when
videos like this are made and people are hurting.
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Betty2 days ago (edited)
Jesus loves you ❤️when you see yourself through His eyes you’ll see how beautiful and
valuable and unique you are. There is no other you!
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April Vice1 week ago

I saw a meme that said “what’s the longest part of your morning routine? Finding the will
to live.” For me, that meme is real life some days. Life is struggle but you seem to have
found strength in that struggle!
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Lauras Chronicles2 weeks ago

I feel this on such a deep level, I'm literally crying
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Maddie McCurdy3 days ago

I've always been shy and reserved and a loner, it's a part of my personality, and I always
attract much more outgoing and extroverted... I CANT work with another shy person.
That being said I used to struggle with comparing myself to more outgoing people, and
I've just had to learn that flowers and xmas light are both equally beautiful and unique in
their own ways. I've learned to love my reserved self and learned how to be independent.
I've gradually come out of my skin because my self love, confidence, and
unapologeticness has shown thru. I've never watched you before, but I feel what ur
saying yo the max.
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Mango &cally3 weeks ago

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This is how many people love Niki �
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agb dank meme6 days ago

gabi is still lying lmao. saying she’s friends with ariana. she’s just a fan
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idk5 days ago

agb dank meme she’s not really just a fan, they do know each other
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agb dank meme5 days ago

idk ariana knows other fans and has connections with them but gabi acts like she’s special
when she gets the same treatment as others who have been around for awhile or have a
follow back. she acts like she’s best friends with ariana when she’s not. ari is just nice to
every fan like she should be
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Alexa Vevo5 days ago

agb dank meme not really. Ariana dosent just invite anyone to be in her music videos
lmao. Obviously they had a friendship. How is gabi lying ?
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agb dank meme4 days ago

Alexa Vevo they didn’t have a friendship, ari was just being nice to her and wanted to
help stop the hate she was getting
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done4 days ago

@agb dank meme ari invited her to a show at her sweetener tour and spoke to her
backstage lmao, sure they may not be best friends but im pretty sure they're more friendly
than an average fan and ari would be. Why do you care anyway? It's literally none of
your business. Also the fact that you think gabi somehow "thinks she's special" is just you
projecting your own negativity onto her. If ari treated you the same way you'd have the
right to believe that you were friends too.
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agb dank meme4 days ago

done i’m a fan myself so i know that ari treats them all the same. obviously a local “fan”
won’t get a notice but ariana and gabi aren’t best friends and probably won’t hang out at
each other’s houses like arianas does with her real friends
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Cailynne Nielsen4 days ago

agb dank meme girl did u miss the whole point of the video this was not meant to dis
Gabi it was to say she needs to find herself so why find the need to comment this Gabi is
Arianas friend but she also is a fan what’s wrong with being both? Are u saying it’s bad to
support your friends? Cus that’s all Gabis doing
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Alexa Vevo3 days ago

agb dank meme girlllllll !!!! They are friends!!!! Ariana dosent just invite and pay any fan
to be in her 100 million viewed music video!!!
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Mariah McCaleb3 days ago

Shes been backstage at her concerts at least twice and was personally invited there by
ariana? They're probably not bestfriends but it's more than just a random fan.
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KawaiiProductionsYT3 days ago

I don’t think Ariana even likes gabi..
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Ana Enamorado2 days ago

The other one living like a queen while the other suffers from depression like ohhh
okayyy�
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Katherine Faye Rodriguez3 days ago

you’re one of the most humble people i know, don’t compare yourself to anyone and
most of all your sister. you may think that people are so much better than you, but it not
true. you’re so much more different than her and everybody else and thats what makes
you unique. its not true that sometimes shes better than you because she accepts the fact
that you’re twins and she’s a nice sister to you. i also feel that people are better than me,
but those times make me the person i am. don’t feel bad for yourself, you’re unique and
don’t feel like gabi is better than you. you two are influencers i bet she loves you so
much. may people love you as much as they love gabi.
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Amanda Dorey1 week ago

3:19 is the cutest moment when the dog looks at Niki! ❤️❤️
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Rosie Mitchel3 weeks ago

No offence but your hurting your self by making the “who wore it better” challenge..
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Mikayla Goodemoot2 days ago

Maybe have a conversation instead of inadverdently making fans choose a side?
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Life of Stef5 days ago

im gonna be honest I cried a little....
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Amanda Lynn1 day ago

Honestly I thought i was the only twin who felt like this
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Jessica2 days ago

This absolutely breaks my heart. I think you’re doing a great job being on you’re own
and it’s normal to cling or feel you need someone especially when it comes to a
sibling/twin as it’s one person who always has you’re back or to make you feel safe. Gabi
and you are completely different that’s no lie but I think you could be more like that if
you didn’t feel the need to be so nice or try to please everyone, you’re allowed to say no,
you’re allowed to feel how you do, you’re allowed to be pissed off or hurt but I truly
believe it’s in you, you just need to find it in you, no one is better than you, you’re you
and that’s the best you can be, stay strong Niki, we love you girl!
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TypicalNora3 weeks ago

it’s so weird how i’ve always seen the both of them the complete opposite. I always
thought niki was the outgoing twin and gabi was more reserved
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Hannah1 day ago

Everyone : "You're better than gabi." Do you not get the point of this video?!?!
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R J3 days ago
I think this video came from "Who Styled It Better" video from their Niki and Gabi
channel �
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Lu Lu1 day ago

Ur sis is living in Ariana grande’s shadow so don’t be sad �
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XxXxSummerXxX x2 days ago

I know how you feel I was in my friends shadows for years, he made friends and he
would drag me into it, he was a nice person but then he just changed, said mean stuff, and
etc and only a few months ago I broke up my friendship with him, It was a little hard at
the start but I’m still moving on, hanging out with my own best friends �
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mblabezza4 days ago
I’m the loser of the family (I have 5 siblings) and everyone constantly reminds me. -_-
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