“I like your shirt” a sweet innocent compliment on their first meeting that meant differently few

months later.
“Thanks, Camz. Will you stay in my room after the concert?” she didn’t need to think twice.
The pout on Lauren’s face was enough reason to submit.
“You bet. See you later, Lolo. Pizza and cuddles yeah?” Falling in love with Lauren Michelle
Jauregui is the best thing that has happened to her life.

Dirty tissues, trust issues

Glasses on the sink, they didn't fix you
Lonely pillows in a stranger's bed
Little voices in my head
Secret keeping, stop the bleeding
Lost a little weight because I wasn't eating
All the souls that I can't listen to, to tell the truth

“It’s beautiful up here” she doesn’t regret following Lauren’s lead. The panoramic view of the
city lights from the hotel’s rooftop was worth all the sneaking and facing her fear of heights.
“But not as beautiful as you” it was already romantic as it is. Hearing Lauren’s raspy voice
saying those words was the cherry on top. Slowly, she found herself leaning in with the other
girl mirroring her act. The first time their lips met felt like forever in a lifetime. There were
fireworks and butterflies and all the sweet things that they talk about.
“I love you, Lauren” she finally confessed.
“I love you too, Camz” it was as if those five words were enough to get them by anything.

[Chorus 1]
Loving you was young, and wild, and free
Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet
Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses
But loving you had consequences

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU’RE DATING LAUREN?” it wasn’t supposed to happen that
way. She has imagined it before, telling their parents, but neither of them imagined getting
walked in between making out.
“Sinu please---” knowing her mom, nothing would calm her down until she was satisfied with
all her words.
“Mantente fuera de esto, Lauren (Stay out of this, Lauren)” one stern look from Sinu and
Lauren found herself backing away. “Camilita, we need to leave. Ahora! (now!)”

[Verse 2]
Hesitation, awkward conversation
Running on low expectation
Every siren that I was ignoring
I'm paying for it
“This camren thing is getting out of hand. Your PR team is not supposed to clean up after
your mess. They’re out there to promote the brand. I’m left with no choice in this” getting
called in by both EPIC and SYCO management was something they expected after her
mom’s meltdown. What happens after, that they can’t predict.
“We need you both to sign these” just like that a thick pile of paper were laid in front of them.
They didn’t need another contract. “That is an NDA. No one, by all means, should know
about you two. Along with that are clauses that indicates the limitation of your interaction.
Basically your code of conduct in public be it physical or in social media. Come on what are
you waiting for? Sign those” she wanted to protest. She needed to protest. Their relationship
can’t be dictated by these terms decided by the management. “Oh and your parents have
already read and signed those”
“Here” her girlfriend, she’s not sure about that yet, spoke for the first and only time in that
meeting. Her eyes almost bulged out of her eyes once she saw the neat signature printed on
the page. She examined all pages and saw it was also signed. A part of her feels betrayed.
Why didn’t she fight for her? Why didn’t she fight for them?

[Chorus 1]
Loving you was young, and wild, and free
Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet
Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses
But loving you had consequences

“Why? Why did you sign?” she could not just not chase her. There was no way she’d give up
on them. “Lauren goddamnit! Answer me!”
“Because it’s a lost battle, Camz! We can’t just pretend that contract isn’t there. We can’t
pretend we still can happen. We don’t have a choice!” seeing Lauren broken, broke her heart
a million fold.
“We do. Baby, we do. I choose you. Please choose us too” she took the other girl’s hand and
slowly soothed it with hers as if pleading her to stay.
“I can’t. I’m sorry, Camz. I can’t do this anymore.” If Lauren’s tears weren’t an indication that
she was taking it hard too, Camila would’ve believed that this was what her girlfriend wanted.
“Then you have to say it.” she braved.
“It’s over” those two words rung louder than a church bell and it echoed in her head for those
onwards. She walked away fast, thanking heavens she at least didn’t trip.

[Bridge]
No, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Said no, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
I, no, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, mhm

“Wow. Look at this Dinah, ‘I am a bisexual Cuban-American woman and I am so proud of it’
but is she really? She’s proud now? Why can’t she be proud when we were still together?”
invisible smoke were going out of her ears and nose. Lauren just labelled herself to people in
an open letter. Well, she knew her ex-girlfriend were always into dramatics.
“Maybe she changed?” Dinah replied in the most careful manner afraid of hurting her best
friend’s feelings.
“Maybe” she took a deep breath with the saddest thoughts in mind because she knew who
Lauren did this for. Well she knew the people Lauren did this for. For herself and for…”for
Lucy”

[Chorus 2]
Loving you was dumb, dark, and cheap
Loving you will still take shots at me
Loving you was sunshine, but then it poured
And I lost so much more than my senses
'Cause loving you had consequences

“You’re leaving that soon? Camilla, what about the band? Why now? Why so sudden?” the
girls knew she was leaving but they never figured out when. Even the fans knew long before
that it was only a matter of when and how.
“I can’t do all these anymore” she couldn’t believe she’d be the one saying those words now.
“Camz, don’t go. Please” she looked at Lauren’s green eyes, those eyes that she loved so
much. The old spark she used to see in her orbs were gone. This wasn’t her Lauren
anymore. This Lauren belonged to someone else.
“Tell me, Lauren. Give me a good reason to stay.” silence. She was met with nothing but
silence.
“I’m---I’m sorry” Falling in love with Lauren Michelle Jauregui is the most painful thing that
has happened to her life because as much as she enjoyed loving her, it came with the most
painful consequences.

[Outro]
Loving you