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‫ﻣﺮﺩﻱ ﻛﻪ ﺷﺒﺎﻧﻪ ﺳﺮ ﺭﺍﻩ ﺧﻮﻧﺴﺎﺭ ﺳﻮﺍﺭ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺷﺪ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺎ ﺩﻗﺖ ﺩﺭ ﭘﺎﻟﺘﻮ ﺑﺎﺭﺍﻧﻲ ﺳﻮﺭﻣﻪ ﺍﻱ ﭘﻴﭽﻴﺪﻩ ﻭ ﻛﻼﻩ‬
‫ﻟﺒﻪ ﺑﻠﻨﺪ ﺧﻮﺩ ﺭﺍ ﺗﺎ ﺭﻭﻱ ﭘﻴﺸﺎﻧﻲ ﭘﺎﺋﻴﻦ ﻛﺸﻴﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﻣﻲ ﺧﻮﺍﺳـﺖ ﺍﺯ ﺟﺮﻳـﺎﻥ ﺩﻧﻴـﺎﻱ ﺧـﺎﺭﺟﻲ ﻭ ﺗﻤـﺎﺱ ﺑـﺎ‬
‫ﺍﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﻣﺤﻔﻮﻅ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺍ ﺑﻤﺎﻧﺪ ‪ .‬ﺑﺴﺘﻪ ﺍﻱ ﺯﻳﺮ ﺑﻐﻞ ﺩﺍﺷﺖ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﺩﺳﺘﺶ ﺭﺍ ﺣﺎﻳﻞ ﺁﻥ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻪ ﺑـﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻧﻴﻤﺴـﺎﻋﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﺑﺎ ﻫﻢ ﺑﻮﺩﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺍﻭ ﺑﻬﻴﭽﻮﺟﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺻﺤﺒﺖ ﺷﻮﻓﺮ ﻭ ﺳﺎﻳﺮ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺮﻳﻦ ﺷﺮﻛﺖ ﻧﻜﺮﺩ ‪ .‬ﺍﺯﻳﻦ ﺭﻭ ﺗﺎﺛﻴﺮ ﺳﺨﺖ ﻭ‬
‫ﺩﺷﻮﺍﺭﻱ ﺍﺯ ﺧﻮﺩ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ ‪ .‬ﻫﺮﺩﻓﻌﻪ ﻛﻪ ﭼﺮﺍﻍ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﻭ ﻳﺎ ﺭﻭﺷﻨﺎﺋﻲ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﻭ ﺩﺍﺧـﻞ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴـﻞ ﻣـﺎ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻭﺷـﻦ ﻣـﻲ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺩﺯﺩﻛﻲ ﻧﮕﺎﻫﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺻﻮﺭﺗﺶ ﻣﻲ ﺍﻧﺪﺍﺧﺘﻢ ‪ :‬ﺻﻮﺭﺕ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ ﺭﻧﮓ ﭘﺮﻳﺪﻩ ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﻨﻲ ﻛﻮﭼـﻚ ﻗﻠﻤـﻲ ﺩﺍﺷـﺖ ﻭ ﭘﻠﻜﻬـﺎﻱ‬
‫ﭼﺸﻤﺶ ﺑﻪ ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﺧﺴﺘﻪ ﭘﺎﺋﻴﻦ ﺁﻣﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺷﻴﺎﺭ ﮔﻮﺩﻱ ﺩﻭ ﻃﺮﻑ ﻟﺐ ﺍﻭ ﺩﻳﺪﻩ ﻣﻲ ﺷﺪ ﻛـﻪ ﻗـﻮﺕ ﺍﺭﺍﺩﻩ ﻭ ﺗﺼـﻤﻴﻢ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻣﻴﺮﺳﺎﻧﻴﺪ ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺳﺮ ﺍﻭ ﺍﺯ ﺳﻨﮓ ﺗﺮﺍﺷﻴﺪﻩ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﮔﺎﻫﻲ ﺗﻚ ﺯﺑﺎﻥ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻭﻱ ﻟﺒﻬﺎﻳﺶ ﻣﻴﻤﺎﻟﻴﺪ ﻭ ﺩﺭ ﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﺮﻭ‬
‫ﻣﻲ ﺭﻓﺖ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺩﺭ ﺧﻮﻧﺴﺎﺭ ﺟﻠﻮ ﮔﺎﺭﺍﮊ »ﻣﺪﻧﻲ« ﻧﮕﻬﺪﺍﺷﺖ‪ .‬ﺍﮔﺮ ﭼﻪ ﻗﺮﺍﺭ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﺷﺐ ﺭﺍ ﺣﺮﻛﺖ ﺑﻜﻨﻴﻢ ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻲ ﺷـﻮﻓﺮ ﻭ‬
‫ﻫﻤﻪ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺮﻳﻦ ﭘﻴﺎﺩﻩ ﺷﺪﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻧﮕﺎﻫﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺩﺭ ﻭ ﺩﻳﻮﺍﺭ ﮔﺎﺭﺍﮊ ﻭ ﻗﻬﻮﻩ ﺧﺎﻧﻪ ﺍﻧﺪﺍﺧﺘﻢ ﻛﻪ ﭼﻨﺪﺍﻥ ﻣﻬﻤﺎﻥ ﻧﻮﺍﺯ ﺑﻨﻈﺮﻡ ﻧﻴﺎﻣﺪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﻚ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﺭﻓﺘﻢ ﻭ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﺣﺠﺖ ﺑﻪ ﺷﻮﻓﺮ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ‪» :‬ﺍﺯ ﻗﺮﺍﺭ ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻳﺪ ﺍﻣﺸﺐ ﺭﺍ ﺍﻳﻨﺠﺎ ﺍﻃﺮﺍﻕ ﺑﻜﻨﻴﻢ؟«‬
‫» ﺑﻠﻪ ‪ ،‬ﺭﺍﻩ ﺑﺪﻩ ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺸﺒﻮ ﻣﻴﻤﻮﻧﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻓﺮﺩﺍ ﻛﻠﻪ ﺳﺤﺮ ﺣﺮﻳﻜﺖ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻴﻢ‪«.‬‬
‫ﻳﻜﻤﺮﺗﺒﻪ ﺩﻳﺪﻡ ﺷﺨﺼﻲ ﻛﻪ ﭘﺎﻟﺘﻮ ﺑﺎﺭﺍﻧﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺧﻮﺩ ﭘﻴﭽﻴﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺑﻪ ﻃﺮﻓﻢ ﺁﻣﺪ ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﺻـﺪﺍﻱ ﺁﺭﺍﻡ ﻭ ﺧﻔـﻪ ﺍﻱ ﮔﻔـﺖ‪ »:‬ﺍﻳﻨﺠـﺎ‬
‫ﺟﺎﻱ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﻧﺪﺍﺭﻩ ‪ ،‬ﺍﮔﻪ ﺁﺷﻨﺎ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺤﻠﻲ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺧﻮﺩﺗﻮﻥ ﺩﺭ ﻧﻄﺮ ﻧﮕﺮﻓﺘﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﺑﻴﺎﻳﻴﻦ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﻣﻦ‪«.‬‬
‫» ﺧﻴﻠﻲ ﻣﺘﺸﻜﺮﻡ! ﺍﻣﺎ ﻧﻤﻴﺨﻮﺍﻡ ﺍﺳﺒﺎﺏ ﺯﺣﻤﺖ ﺑﺸﻢ‪«.‬‬
‫» ﻣﻦ ﺍﺯ ﺗﻌﺎﺭﻑ ﺑﺪﻡ ﻣﻴﺎﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻧﻪ ﺷﻤﺎﺭﻭ ﻣﻴﺸﻨﺎﺳﻢ ﻭ ﻧﻪ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﻡ ﺑﺸﻨﺎﺳﻢ ﻭ ﻧﻪ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﻡ ﻣﻨﺘﻲ ﺳﺮﺗﻮﻥ ﺑﮕـﺬﺍﺭﻡ ‪ .‬ﭼـﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺯ ﻭﻗﺘﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻃﺎﻗﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺳﻠﻴﻘﻪ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺳﺎﺧﺘﻪ ﺍﻡ ‪ ،‬ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺳﺎﺑﻘﻢ ﺑﻴﻤﺼﺮﻑ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩﻩ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﮔﻤﻮﻥ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻢ ﺍﺯ ﻗﻬﻮﻩ ﺧﻮﻧﻪ ﺭﺍﺣـﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺮ ﺑﺎﺷﻪ‪«.‬‬
‫ﻟﺤﻦ ﺳﺎﺩﻩ ﺑﻲ ﺭﻭ ﺩﺭ ﺑﺎﻳﺴﺘﻲ ﻭ ﺗﻌﺎﺭﻑ ﻭ ﺗﻜﺎﻟﻴﻒ ﺍﻭ ﺩﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺛﺮ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﻓﻬﻤﻴﺪﻡ ﻛﻪ ﺑﺎ ﻳﻜﻨﻔـﺮ ﺁﺩﻡ ﻣﻌﻤـﻮﻟﻲ ﺳـﺮﻭ ﻛـﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻧﺪﺍﺭﻡ‪ .‬ﮔﻔﺘﻢ‪ »:‬ﺧﻴﻠﻲ ﺧﻮﺏ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﺿﺮﻡ‪ «.‬ﻭ ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﺗﺮﺩﻳﺪ ﺩﻧﺒﺎﻟﺶ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭ ﻳﻚ ﭼـﺮﺍﻍ ﺑـﺮﻕ ﺩﺳـﺘﻲ ﺍﺯ ﺟﻴـﺒﺶ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻭﺭﺩ ﻭ‬
‫ﺭﻭﺷﻦ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻳﻚ ﺳﺘﻮﻥ ﺭﻭﺷﻨﺎﺋﻲ ﺗﻨﺪ ﺯﻧﻨﺪﻩ ﺟﻠﻮﻱ ﭘﺎﻱ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﺯ ﭼﻨﺪ ﻛﻮﭼﻪ ﭘﺴﺖ ﻭ ﺑﻠﻨﺪ ‪ ،‬ﺍﺯ ﻣﻴﺎﻥ ﺩﻳﻮﺍﺭﻫـﺎﻱ ﮔﻠـﻲ‬
‫ﺭﺩ ﺷﺪﻳﻢ ‪ .‬ﻫﻤﻪ ﺟﺎ ﺳﺎﻛﺖ ﻭ ﺁﺭﺍﻡ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻳﻜﺠﻮﺭ ﺁﺭﺍﻣﺶ ﻭ ﻛﺮﺧﺘﻲ ﺩﺭ ﺁﺩﻡ ﻧﻔﻮﺫ ﻣﻴﻜﺮﺩ… ﺻـﺪﺍﻱ ﺁﺏ ﻣﻴﺎﻣـﺪ ﻭ ﻧﺴـﻴﻢ‬
‫ﺧﻨﻜﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺭﻭﻱ ﺩﺭﺧﺘﺎﻥ ﻣﻴﮕﺬﺷﺖ ﺑﻪ ﺻﻮﺭﺕ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻴﺨـﻮﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﭼـﺮﺍﻍ ﺩﻭ ﺳـﻪ ﺗـﺎ ﺧﺎﻧـﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺳﻮﺳـﻮ ﻣﻴـﺰﺩ‪ .‬ﻣـﺪﺗﻲ‬
‫ﮔﺬﺷﺖ ﺩﺭ ﺳﻜﻮﺕ ﺣﺮﻛﺖ ﻣﻴﻜﺮﺩﻳﻢ ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺭﻓﻴﻖ ﻧﺎﺷﻨﺎﺳﻢ ﺭﺍ ﺑﻪ ﺻﺤﺒﺖ ﺑﻴـﺎﻭﺭﻡ ﮔﻔـﺘﻢ‪ »:‬ﺍﻳﻨﺠـﺎ ﺑﺎﻳـﺪ ﺷـﻬﺮ‬
‫ﻗﺸﻨﮕﻲ ﺑﺎﺷﻪ!«‬
‫ﺍﻭ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺻﺪﺍﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺣﺸﺖ ﻛﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﺯ ﻛﻤﻲ ﺗﺎﻣﻞ ﺧﻴﻠﻲ ﺁﻫﺴﺘﻪ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ »:‬ﻣﻴﻴـﻮﻥ ﺷـﻬﺮﺍﺋﻲ ﻛـﻪ ﻣـﻦ ﺗـﻮ ﺍﻳـﺮﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺩﻳﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺧﻮﻧﺴﺎﺭﻭ ﭘﺴﻨﺪﻳﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﻧﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻳﻨﺠﻬﺖ ﻛﻪ ﻛﺸﺘﺰﺍﺭ ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭﺧﺖ ﻫﺎﻱ ﻣﻴﻮﻩ ﻭ ﺁﺏ ﺯﻳﺎﺩ ﺩﺍﺭﻩ ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﺑﻴﺸﺘﺮ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﻫﻨﻮﺯ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﻭ ﺁﺗﻤﺴﻔﺮ ﻗﺪﻳﻤﻲ ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻮ ﻧﮕﻬﺪﺍﺷﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﻫﻨﻮﺯ ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻛﻮﭼﻪ ﭘﺲ ﻛﻮﭼﻪ ﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻴﻮﻥ ﺟﺮﺯ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺧﻮﻧـﻪ ‪-‬‬
‫ﻫﺎﻱ ﮔﻠﻲ ﻭ ﺩﺭﺧﺖ ﻫﺎﻱ ﺑﻠﻨﺪ ﺳﺎﻛﺘﺶ ﻫﻮﺍﻱ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ ﻣﻮﻧﺪﻩ ﻭ ﻣﻴﺸﻪ ﺍﻭﻧـﻮ ﺑـﻮ ﻛـﺮﺩ ﻭ ﺣﺎﻟـﺖ ﻣﻬﻤـﻮﻥ ﻧـﻮﺍﺯ ﺧﻮﺩﻣـﻮﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻮ ﺍﺯ ﺩﺳﺖ ﻧﺪﺍﺩﻩ‪ .‬ﺍﻳﻨﺠﺎ ﺑﻴﺸﺘﺮ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩﻩ ﻭ ﭘﺮﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﻴﻦ ﻭﺿﻌﻴﺘﻮ ﺑﻴﺸﺘﺮ ﺷﺎﻋﺮﻭﻧﻪ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺭﻭﺯﻧﻮﻣﻪ‪ ،‬ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴـﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﻫﻮﺍﭘﻴﻤﺎ ﻭ ﺭﺍﻩ ﺁﻫﻦ ﺍﺯ ﺑﻼﻫﺎﻱ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻗﺮﻧﻪ‪ .‬ﻣﺨﺼﻮﺻﺎ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﻛﻪ ﺑﺎ ﺑﻮﻕ ﻭ ﮔﺮﺕ ﻭ ﺧﺎ ﻙ‪ ،‬ﺭﻭﺣﻴﻪ ﺷﺎﮔﺮﺩ ﺷﻮﻓﺮ ﺭﻭ ﺗـﺎ‬
‫ﺩﻭﺭﺗﺮﻳﻦ ﺩﻩ ﻛﻮﺭﻩ ﻫﺎ ﻣﻴﺒﺮﻩ‪ .‬ﺍﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺗﺎﺯﻩ ﺑﻪ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﻥ ﺭﺳـﻴﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﺳـﻠﻴﻘﻪ ﻫـﺎﻱ ﻛـﺞ ﻭ ﻟـﻮﭺ ﻭ ﺗﻘﻠﻴـﺪ ﺍﺣﻤﻘﻮﻧـﻪ ﺭﻭ ﺗـﻮ ﻫـﺮ‬
‫ﺳﻮﻻﺧﻲ ﻣﻴﭽﭙﻮﻧﻪ! ﺭﻭﺷﻨﺎﻳﻲ ﭼﺮﺍﻍ ﺑﺮﻕ ﺩﺳﺘﻲ ﺭﻭ ﺑﻪ ﭘﻨﺠﺮﻩ ﺧﺎﻧﻪ ﻫﺎ ﻣﻲ ﺍﻧﺪﺍﺧﺖ ﻭ ﻣﻴﮕﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﺑﻪ! ﺑﺒﻴﻨـﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﭘﻨﺠـﺮﻩ ﻫـﺎﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺒﺖ ﻛﺎﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﺧﻮﻧﻪ ﻫﺎﻱ ﻣﺠﺰﺍ ﺩﺍﺭﻩ‪ .‬ﺁﺩﻡ ﺑﻮﻱ ﺯﻣﻴﻨﻮ ﺣﺲ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﻮﻱ ﻳﻮﻧﺠﻴﻪ ﺩﺭﻭ ﺷﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﺑﻮﻱ ﻛﺜﺎﻓﺖ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺭﻭ ﺣﺲ‬
‫ﻣﻲ ﻛﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺻﺪﺍﻱ ﺯﻧﺠﺮﻩ ﻭ ﭘﺮﻧﺪﻩ ﻫﺎﻱ ﻛﻮﭼﻴﻚ ‪ ،‬ﻣﺮﺩﻡ ﻗﺪﻳﻤﻲ ﺳﺎﺩﻩ ﻭ ﻣﻮﺫﻱ ﻫﻤﻴﻪ ﺍﻳﻨﺎ ﻳﻪ ﺩﻧﻴﺎﻱ ﮔﻤﺸﺪﻳﻪ ﻗﺪﻳﻢ ﺭﻭ ﺑﻴﺎﺩ‬
‫ﻣﻴﻴﺎﺭﻩ ﻭ ﺁﺩﻣﻮ ﺍﺯ ﻗﺎﻝ ﻭ ﻗﻴﻞ ﺩﻧﻴﺎﻱ ﺗﺎﺯﻩ ﺑﻪ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﻥ ﺭﺳﻴﺪﻩ ﻫﺎ ﺩﻭﺭ ﻣﻲ ﻛﻨﻪ! ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﻳﻜﻤﺮﺗﺒـﻪ ﻣﻠﺘﻔـﺖ ﺷـﺪ ﻣـﺮﺍ‬
‫ﺩﻋﻮﺕ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ ﭘﺮﺳﻴﺪ ‪ :‬ﺷﺎﻡ ﺧﻮﺭﺩﻳﻦ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺑﻠﻪ ﺗﻮ ﮔﻠﭙﺎﻳﮕﻮﻥ ﺷﺎﻡ ﺧﻮﺭﺩﻳﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺯ ﻛﻨﺎﺭ ﭼﻨﺪ ﻧﻬﺮ ﺁﺏ ﮔﺬﺷﺘﻴﻢ ﻭ ﺑﺎﻻﺧﺮﻩ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﻚ ﻛﻮﻩ ﺩﺭ ﺑﺎﻏﻲ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺎﺯ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﻫﺮ ﺩﻭ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺷـﺪﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺟﻠـﻮ ﻋﻤـﺎﺭﺕ ﺗـﺎﺯﻩ‬
‫ﺳﺎﺯﻱ ﺭﺳﻴﺪﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﻛﻮﭼﻜﻲ ﺷﺪﻳﻢ‪ ،‬ﻛﻪ ﻳﻚ ﺗﺨﺘﺨﻮﺍﺏ ﺳﻔﺮﻱ ‪ ،‬ﻳﻚ ﻣﻴـﺰ ﻭ ﺩﻭ ﺻـﻨﺪﻟﻲ ﺭﺍﺣﺘـﻲ ﺩﺍﺷـﺖ‪ .‬ﭼـﺮﺍﻍ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺘﻲ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻭﺷﻦ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺩﻳﮕﺮ ﺭﻓﺖ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﺯ ﭼﻨﺪ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﻪ ﺑﺎ ﭘﻴﮋﺍﻣﺎﻱ ﭘﺸﺖ ﮔﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﻧﮓ ﮔﻮﺷﺖ ﺗﻦ ﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺷﺪ ﻭ ﭼـﺮﺍﻍ‬
‫ﺩﻳﮕﺮﻱ ﺁﻭﺭﺩ ﺭﻭﺷﻦ ﻛﺮﺩ ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺑﺴﺘﻪ ﺍﻱ ﺭﺍ ﻛﻪ ﻫﻤﺮﺍﻩ ﺩﺍﺷﺖ ﺑﺎﺯ ﻛﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻳﻚ ﺁﺑﺎﮊﻭﺭ ﺳﺮﺥ ﻣﺨﺮﻭﻃﻲ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻭﺭﺩ ﻭ ﺭﻭﻱ‬
‫ﭼﺮﺍﻍ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺖ‪ .‬ﭘﺲ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻧﺪﻛﻲ ﺗﺎﻣﻞ ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺩﺭ ﻛﺎﺭﻱ ﺩﻭ ﺩﻝ ﺑﻮﺩ ﮔﻔـﺖ‪ :‬ﻣﻴﻔﺮﻣـﺎﻳﻴﻦ ﺑـﺮﻳﻢ ﺍﻃـﺎﻕ ﺷﺨﺼـﻲ ﺧـﻮﺩﻡ؟‬
‫ﭼﺮﺍﻍ ﺁﺑﺎﮊﻭﺭ ﺩﺍﺭ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺮﺩﺍﺷﺖ‪ ،‬ﺍﺯ ﺩﺍﻻﻥ ﺗﻨﮓ ﻭ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﻛﻪ ﻃﺎﻕ ﺿﺮﺑﻲ ﺩﺍﺷﺖ ﻭ ﺑﻪ ﺷﻜﻞ ﺍﺳﺘﻮﺍﻧﻪ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ‬
‫ﻃﺎﻕ ﻭ ﺩﻳﻮﺍﺭﺵ ﺑﻪ ﺭﻧﮓ ﺍﺧﺮﺍ ﻭ ﻛﻒ ﺁﻥ ﺍﺯ ﮔﻠﻴﻢ ﺳﺮﺥ ﭘﻮﺷﻴﺪﻩ ﺷـﺪﻩ ﺑـﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺭﺩ ﺷـﺪﻳﻢ ﺩﺭ ﺩﻳﮕـﺮﻱ ﺭﺍ ﺑـﺎﺯ ﻛـﺮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺭﺩ‬
‫ﻣﺤﻮﻃﻪ ﺍﻱ ﺷﺪﻳﻢ ﻛﻪ ﻣﺎﻧﻨﺪ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺑﻴﻀﻲ ﺷﻜﻠﻲ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﻇﺎﻫﺮﺍ ﺑﻪ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﻫﻴﭽﮕﻮﻧﻪ ﻣﻨﻔﺬ ﻧﺪﺍﺷﺖ ﻣﮕﺮ ﺑﻮﺳﻴﻠﻪ ﺩﺭﻱ ﻛﻪ ﺑـﻪ‬
‫ﺩﺍﻻﻥ ﺑﺎﺯ ﻣﻴﺸﺪ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﻪ ﻭ ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﺧﻄﻮﻃﻲ ﻫﻨﺪﺳﻲ ﺳﺎﺧﺘﻪ ﺷﺪﻩ ﻭ ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﺑﺪﻧﻪ ﻭ ﺳﻘﻒ ﻭ ﻛﻒ ﺁﻥ ﺍﺯ ﻣﺨﻤﻞ ﻋﻨـﺎﺑﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﻋﻄﺮ ﺳﻨﮕﻴﻨﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﻫﻮﺍ ﭘﺮﺍﻛﻨﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻧﻔﺴﻢ ﭘﺲ ﺭﻓﺖ ‪ .‬ﺍﻭ ﭼﺮﺍﻍ ﺳﺮﺥ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻭﻱ ﻣﻴـﺰ ﮔﺬﺍﺷـﺖ ﻭ ﺧـﻮﺩﺵ ﺭﻭﻱ‬
‫ﺗﺨﺘﺨﻮﺍﺑﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﻣﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻧﺸﺴﺖ ﻭ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺷﺎﺭﻩ ﻛﺮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺎﺭ ﻣﻴﺰ ﺭﻭﻱ ﺻﻨﺪﻟﻲ ﻧﺸﺴﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺭﻭﻱ ﻣﻴﺰ ﻳﻚ ﮔـﻴﻼﺱ‬
‫ﻭ ﻳﻚ ﺗﻨﮓ ﺩﻭﻍ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺑﺎ ﺗﻌﺠﺐ ﺑﻪ ﺩﺭ ﻭ ﺩﻳﻮﺍﺭ ﻧﮕﺎﻩ ﻣﻴﻜﺮﺩﻡ ﻭ ﭘﻴﺶ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ ﺑﻲ ﺷﻚ ﺑـﻪ ﺩﺍﻡ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻲ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻧﺎﺧﻮﺵ ﻫﺎﻱ ﺩﻳﻮﺍﻧﻪ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩﻩ ﺍﻡ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺷﻜﻨﺠﻪ ﺍﻭﺳﺖ ﻭ ﺭﻧﮓ ﺧﻮﻥ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺟﻨﺎﻳﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻭ ﻛﺸﻒ ﻧﺸﻮﺩ ﻭ ﻫﻴﭻ ﻣﻨﻔﺬ ﻫﻢ ﺑﻪ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﻧﺪﺍﺷﺖ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻪ ﺩﺍﺩ ﺍﻧﺴﺎﻥ ﺑﺮﺳﻨﺪ! ﻣﻨﺘﻈﺮ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ ﻧﺎﮔﻬﺎﻥ ﭼﻤﺎﻗﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺳﺮﻡ ﺑﺨﻮﺭﺩ‬
‫ﻳﺎ ﺩﺭ ﺑﺴﺘﻪ ﺑﺸﻮﺩ ﻭ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺑﺎ ﻛﺎﺭﺩ ﻳﺎ ﺗﻴﺮ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻤﻠﻪ ﺑﻜﻨﺪ ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻲ ﺍﻭ ﺑﺎ ﻫﻤﺎﻥ ﺁﻫﻨﮓ ﻣﻼﻳﻢ ﭘﺮﺳﻴﺪ‪ :‬ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﻣﻦ ﺑﻨﻈﺮ‬
‫ﺷﻤﺎ ﭼﻄﻮﺭ ﻣﻴﻴﺎﺩ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ؟ ﺑﺒﺨﺸﻴﺪ ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺣﺲ ﻣﻲ ﻛﻨﻢ ﻛﻪ ﺗﻮﻱ ﻳﻚ ﻛﻴﺴﻪ ﻻﺳﺘﻴﻜﻲ ﻧﺸﺴﺘﻪ ﺍﻳﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻭ ﺑﻲ ﺁﻧﻜﻪ ﺑﻪ ﺣﺮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻋﺘﻨﺎﻳﻲ ﺑﻜﻨﺪ ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﻏﺬﺍﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺷﻴﺮﻩ ‪ ،‬ﺷﻤﺎﻡ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺭﻳﻦ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣﺘﺸﻜﺮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺎﻡ ﺧﻮﺭﺩﻡ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﻚ ﮔﻴﻼﺱ ﺷﻴﺮ ﺑﺪﻧﻴﺲ‪ .‬ﺗﻨﮓ ﻭ ﻛﻴﻼﺱ ﺭﺍ ﺟﻠﻮ ﻣﻦ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺖ ‪ .‬ﮔﺮ ﭼﻪ ﻣﻴﻞ ﻧﺪﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﻭﻟﻲ ﺧﻮﺍﻫﻲ ﻧﺨﻮﺍﻫﻲ ﻳـﻚ ﮔـﻴﻼﺱ‬
‫ﺷﻴﺮ ﺭﻳﺨﺘﻢ ﻭ ﺧﻮﺭﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﺑﺎﻗﻲ ﺷﻴﺮ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺭ ﮔﻴﻼﺱ ﻣﻴﺮﻳﺨﺖ ‪ ،‬ﺧﻴﻠﻲ ﺁﻫﺴﺘﻪ ﻣﻴﻤﻜﻴﺪ ﻭ ﺯﺑﺎﻥ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻭﻱ ﻟﺒﻬـﺎﻳﺶ‬
‫ﻣﻴﮕﺮﺩﺍﻧﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺧﺎﻃﺮﺍﺗﻲ ﺭﺍ ﺟﺴﺘﺠﻮ ﻣﻲ ﻛﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﺻﻮﺭﺕ ﺭﻧﮓ ﭘﺮﻳﺪﻩ ﺟﻮﺍﻥ ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﻨﻲ ﻛﻮﺗﺎﻩ ﺻﺎﻑ ‪ ،‬ﻟﺒﻬﺎﻱ ﮔﻮﺷﺘﺎﻟﻮﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻭ ﺟﻠﻮ ﺭﻭﺷﻨﺎﻳﻲ ﺳﺮﺥ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﺷﻬﻮﺕ ﺍﻧﮕﻴﺰ ﺑﻪ ﺧﻮﺩ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﭘﻴﺸﺎﻧﻲ ﺑﻠﻨـﺪﻱ ﺩﺍﺷـﺖ ﻛـﻪ ﻳـﻚ ﺭﮒ ﻛﺒـﻮﺩ ﺑﺮﺟﺴـﺘﻪ‬
‫ﺭﻭﻳﺶ ﺩﻳﺪﻩ ﻣﻴﺸﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﻮﻫﺎﻱ ﺧﺮﻣﺎﻳﻲ ﺍﻭ ﺭﻭﻱ ﺩﻭﺷﺶ ﺭﻳﺨﺘﻪ ﺑـﻮﺩ ﻣﺜـﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜـﻪ ﺑـﺎ ﺧـﻮﺩﺵ ﺣـﺮﻑ ﺑﺰﻧـﺪ ﮔﻔـﺖ‪ » :‬ﻣـﻦ‬
‫ﻫﻴﭽﻮﻗﺖ ﺩﺭ ﻛﻴﻔﻬﺎﻱ ﺩﻳﮕﺮﻭﻥ ﺷﺮﻳﻚ ﻧﺒﻮﺩﻩ ﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﻴﺸﻪ ﻳﻪ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺳﺨﺖ ﻳﺎ ﻳﻪ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺑﺪﺑﺨﺘﻲ ﺟﻠﻮ ﻣﻨﻮ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺩﺭﺩ‬
‫ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﺷﻜﺎﻝ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﺍﺯ ﻫﻤﻴﻪ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﺷﻜﺎﻻﺕ ﻣﻬﻤﺘﺮ ﺟﻮﺍﻝ ﺭﻓﺘﻦ ﺑﺎ ﺁﺩﻣﻬﺎﺳﺖ ‪ ،‬ﺷﺮ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﻪ ﮔﻨﺪﻳﺪﻩ ‪ ،‬ﺷﺮ ﺧـﻮﺭﺍﻙ‬
‫ﻭ ﭘﻮﺷﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﻴﻪ ﺍﻳﻨﺎ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺍﺯ ﺑﻴﺪﺍﺭ ﺷﺪﻥ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻣﺎ ﺟﻠﻮﮔﻴﺮﻱ ﻣﻲ ﻛﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻳﻪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﻭﻧﺎ ﺷـﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺧﻮﺍﺳـﺘﻢ‬
‫ﺗﻘﻠﻴﺪ ﺳﺎﻳﺮﻳﻦ ﺭﻭ ﺩﺭ ﺑﻴﺎﺭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺩﻳﺪﻡ ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮ ﻣﺴﺨﺮﻩ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ ﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﻫﺮ ﭼﻲ ﺭﻭ ﻛﻪ ﻟﺬﺕ ﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻦ ﻫﻤﻪ ﺭﻭ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﺩﻳﺪﻡ ﻛﻴﻔﻬﺎﻱ ﺩﻳﮕﺮﻭﻥ ﺑﺪﺭﺩ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻤﻴﺨﻮﺭﻩ ‪ .‬ﺣﺲ ﻣﻴﻜﺮﺩﻡ ﻛﻪ ﻫﻤﻴﺸﻪ ﻭ ﺩﺭ ﻫﺮﺟﺎ ﺧـﺎﺭﺟﻲ ﻫﺴـﺘﻢ ﻫـﻴﭻ ﺭﺍﺑﻄـﻪ ﻳـﻲ ﺑـﺎ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻳﺮ ﻣﺮﺩﻡ ﻧﺪﺍﺷﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻧﻤﻴﺘﻮﻧﺴﻢ ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮ ﺑﻪ ﻓﺮﺍﺧﻮﺭ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺳﺎﻳﺮﻳﻦ ﺩﺭ ﺑﻴﺎﺭﻡ‪ .‬ﻫﻤﻴﺸﻪ ﺑﺎ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﻣﻴﮕﻔـﺘﻢ‪ :‬ﺭﻭﺯﻱ ﺍﺯ‬
‫ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻪ ﻓﺮﺍﺭ ﺧﻮﺍﻫﻢ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﺩﺭ ﻳﻪ ﺩﻫﻜﺪﻩ ﻳﺎ ﺟﺎﻱ ﺩﻭﺭ ﻣﻨﺰﻭﻱ ﺧﻮﺍﻫﻢ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﻧﻤﻴﺨﻮﺍﺳﻢ ﺍﻧﺰﻭﺍﺭﻭ ﻭﺳﻴﻠﻴﻪ ﺷﻬﺮﺕ ﻭ ﻳﺎ‬
‫ﻧﻮﻧﺪﻭﻧﻲ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺑﻜﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻧﻤﻴﺨﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮ ﻣﺤﻜﻮﻡ ﺍﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﻛﺴﻲ ﺑﻜﻨﻢ ﻳﺎ ﻣﻘﻠﺪ ﻛﺴﻲ ﺑﺸﻢ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻻﺧﺮﻩ ﺗﺼﻤﻴﻢ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻢ ﻛﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻃﺎﻗﻲ ﻣﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﻣﻴﻠﻢ ﺑﺴﺎﺯﻡ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﻠﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺗﻮﻱ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺑﺎﺷﻢ‪ ،‬ﻳﻪ ﺟﺎﺋﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻓﻜﺎﺭﻡ ﭘﺮﺍﻛﻨﺪﻩ ﻧﺸﻪ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﺻﻼ ﺗﻨﺒﻞ ﺁﻓﺮﻳﺪﻩ ﺷﺪﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﺭﻭ ﻛﻮﺷﺶ ﻣﺎﻝ ﻣﺮﺩﻡ ﺗﻮ ﺧﺎﻟﻴﺲ ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻳﻦ ﻭﺳﻴﻠﻪ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﻥ ﭼﺎﻟﻪ ﻳﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺗﻮ ﺧـﻮﺩ ﺷـﻮﻧﻪ ﭘـﺮﺑﻜﻨﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣـﺎﻝ ﺍﺷـﺨﺎﺹ ﮔـﺪﺍ‬
‫ﮔﺸﻨﺲ ﻛﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺯﻳﺮ ﺑﺘﻪ ﺑﻴﺮﻭﻥ ﺁﻣﺪﻥ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﭘﺪﺭﺍﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻪ ﺗﻮ ﺧﺎﻟﻲ ﺑﻮﺩﻥ‪ ،‬ﺯﻳﺎﺩ ﻛﺎﺭ ﻛﺮﺩﻧﻮ ﻭ ﺯﻳﺎﺩ ﺯﺣﻤﺖ ﻛﺸـﻴﺪﻧﻮ ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜـﺮ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺩﻧﻮ ﺩﻳﺪﻧﻮ ﺩﻗﺎﻳﻖ ﺗﻨﺒﻠﻲ ﮔﺬﺭﻭﻧﺪﻥ‪ .‬ﺍﻳﻦ ﭼﺎﻟﻪ ﺗﻮ ﺍﻭﻧﺎ ﭘﺮ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﻫﻤﻴﻪ ﺍﺭﺙ ﺗﻨﺒﻠﻴﺸﻮﻧﻮ ﺑﻤﻦ ﺩﺍﺩﻥ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻓﺘﺨﺎﺭﻱ ﺑﻪ‬
‫ﺍﺟﺪﺍﺩﻡ ﻧﻤﻴﻜﻨﻢ ‪ ،‬ﻋﻼﻭﻩ ﺑﺮ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺗﻮﻱ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻣﻤﻠﻜﺖ ﻃﺒﻘﺎﺕ ﻣﺜﻪ ﺟﺎﻫﺎﻱ ﺩﻳﮕﻪ ﻭﺟـﻮﺩ ﻧـﺪﺍﺭﻩ ﻭ ﻫـﺮ ﻛـﺪﻭﻡ ﺍﺯ ﺩﻭﻟـﻪ ﻫـﺎ ﻭ‬
‫ﺳﻠﻄﻨﻪ ﻫﺎ ﺭﻭ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﺑﺸﻜﺎﻓﻲ ﺩﻭ ﺳﻪ ﭘﺸﺖ ﭘﻴﺶ ﺍﻭﻧﺎ ﺩﺯﺩ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﮔﺮﺩﻧﻪ ﮔﻴﺮ ﻳﺎ ﺩﻟﻘﻚ ﺩﺭﺑﺎﺭﻱ ﻭ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺮﺍﻑ ﺑﻮﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﮕﻬﻲ‬
‫ﺍﮔﻪ ﺯﻳﺎﺩ ﭘﺎﭘﻲ ﺍﺟﺪﺍﺩﻡ ﺑﺸﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻻﺧﺮﻩ ﺟﺪ ﻫﺮ ﻛﺴﻲ ﺑﻪ ﮔﻮﺭﻳﻞ ﻭ ﺷﻤﭙﺎﻧﺰﻩ ﻣﻴﺮﺳﻪ ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﭼﻴﺰﻱ ﻛﻪ ﻫﺲ ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﻛـﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺁﻓﺮﻳﺪﻩ ﻧﺸﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺗﺎﺯﻩ ﺑﻪ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﻥ ﺭﺳﻴﺪﻩ ﻣﺘﺠﺪﺩ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻣﻴﺘﻮﻧﻦ ﺑﻪ ﻗﻮﻝ ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻮﻥ ﺗﻮﻱ ﺍﻳـﻦ ﻣﺤـﻴﻂ ﻋـﺮﺽ‬
‫ﺍﻧﺪﺍﻡ ﺑﻜﻨﻦ‪ ،‬ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻪ ﻳﻲ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺳﻠﻴﻘﻪ ﻭ ﺣﺮﺹ ﻭ ﺷﻬﻮﺕ ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻮﻥ ﺩﺭﺱ ﻛﺮﺩﻥ ﻭ ﺩﺭ ﻛﻮﭼﻜﺘﺮﻳﻦ ﻭﻇـﺎﻳﻒ ﺯﻧـﺪﮔﻲ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻳﺪ ﻗﻮﺍﻧﻴﻦ ﺟﺒﺮﻱ ﻭ ﺗﻌﺒﺪ ﺍﻭﻧﺎ ﺭﻭ ﻣﺜﻪ ﻛﭙﺴﻮﻝ ﻗﻮﺭﺕ ﺩﺍﺩ! ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﺳﺎﺭﺗﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺍﺳﻤﺸـﻮ ﻛـﺎﺭ ﮔﺬﺍﺷـﺘﻦ ﻭ ﻫـﺮ ﻛﺴـﻲ ﺣـﻖ‬
‫ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻮ ﺑﺎﻳﺪ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻭﻧﺎ ﮔﺪﺍﺋﻲ ﺑﻜﻨﻪ! ﺗﻮﻱ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻣﺤﻴﻂ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻳﻪ ﺩﺳﺘﻪ ﺩﺯﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﺣﻤﻖ ﺑﻲ ﺷـﺮﻡ ﻭﻧـﺎﺧﻮﺵ ﺣـﻖ ﺯﻧـﺪﮔﻲ‬
‫ﺩﺍﺭﻧﺪ ﻭﺍﮔﻪ ﻛﺴﻲ ﺩﺯﺩ ﻭ ﭘﺴﺖ ﻭ ﻣﺘﻤﻠﻖ ﻧﺒﺎﺷﻪ ﻣﻴﮕﻦ‪ :‬ﻗﺎﺑﻞ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﻧﻴﺲ! ﺩﺭﺩﻫﺎﻳﻲ ﻛﻪ ﻣـﻦ ﺩﺍﺷـﺘﻢ ‪ ،‬ﺑـﺎﺭ ﻣـﻮﺭﻭﺛﻲ ﻛـﻪ‬
‫ﺯﻳﺮﺵ ﺧﻤﻴﺪﻩ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭﻧﺎ ﻧﻤﻴﺘﻮﻧﻦ ﺑﻔﻬﻤﻦ! ﺧﺴﺘﮕﻲ ﭘﺪﺭﺍﻧﻢ ﺩﺭﻣﻦ ﺑﺎﻗﻲ ﻣﻮﻧـﺪﻩ ﺑـﻮﺩ ﻭ ﻧﺴـﺘﺎﻟﮋﻱ ﺍﻳـﻦ ﮔﺬﺷـﺘﻪ ﺭﻭ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺧﻮﺩ ﺣﺲ ﻣﻲ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ ﻣﺜﻪ ﺟﻮﻧﻮﺭﺍﻱ ﺯﻣﺴﺘﻮﻧﻲ ﺗﻮ ﺳﻮﻻﺧﻲ ﻓﺮﻭ ﺑﺮﻡ ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﻏﻮﻃﻪ ﻭﺭ ﺑﺸﻢ‬
‫ﻭ ﺩﺭ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﻗﻮﺍﻡ ﺑﻴﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﭼﻮﻥ ﻫﻤﻮﻥ ﻃﻮﺭﻳﻜﻪ ﺗﻮ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﺨﻮﻧﻪ ﻋﻜـﺲ ﺭﻭﻱ ﺷﻴﺸـﻪ ﻇـﺎﻫﺮ ﻣﻴﺸـﻪ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭﻥ ﭼﻴـﺰ ﻫﺎﺋﻴﻜـﻪ ﺩﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻧﺴﻮﻥ ﻟﻄﻴﻒ ﻭ ﻣﺨﻔﻴﺲ ﺩﺭ ﺍﺛﺮ ﺩﻭﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﻭ ﺟـﺎﺭ ﻭ ﺟﻨﺠـﺎﻝ ﻭ ﺭﻭﺷـﻨﺎﺋﻲ ﺧﻔـﻪ ﻣﻴﺸـﻪ ﻭ ﻣﻴﻤﻴـﺮﻩ ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘـﻂ ﺗـﻮﻱ‬
‫ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﻭ ﺳﻜﻮﺗﻪ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻧﺴﻮﻥ ﺟﻠﻮﻩ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﻳﻦ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﺗﻮﻱ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺑﻲ ﺟﻬﺖ ﺳﻌﻲ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻭﻧﻮ ﻣﺮﺗﻔﻊ ﺑﻜـﻨﻢ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻓﺴﻮﺳﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺍﺭﻡ ﺍﻳﻨﻪ ﻛﻪ ﭼﺮﺍ ﻣﺪﺗﻲ ﺑﻴﺨﻮﺩ ﺍﺯ ﺩﻳﮕﺮﻭﻥ ﭘﻴﺮﻭﻱ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺣﺎﻻ ﭘﻲ ﺑﺮﺩﻡ ﻛﻪ ﭘﺮ ﺍﺭﺯﺵ ﺗـﺮﻳﻦ ﻗﺴـﻤﺖ ﻣـﻦ‬
‫ﻫﻤﻴﻦ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﻴﻦ ﺳﻜﻮﺕ ﺑﻮﺩﻩ‪ .‬ﺍﻳﻦ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﺩﺭ ﻧﻬﺎﺩ ﻫﺮ ﺟﻨﺒﻨـﺪﻩ ﺍﻱ ﻫﺴـﺖ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘـﻂ ﺩﺭ ﺍﻧـﺰﻭﺍ ﻭ ﺑﺮﮔﺸـﺖ ﺑـﻪ ﻃـﺮﻑ‬
‫ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺘﻴﻜﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺩﻧﻴﺎﻱ ﻇﺎﻫﺮﻱ ﻛﻨﺎﺭﻩ ﮔﻴﺮﻱ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻴﻢ ﺑﻪ ﻣﺎ ﻇﺎﻫﺮ ﻣﻴﺸـﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﻣـﺎ ﻫﻤﻴﺸـﻪ ﻣـﺮﺩﻡ ﺳـﻌﻲ ﺩﺍﺭﻥ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻳـﻦ‬
‫ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﻭ ﺍﻧﺰﻭﺍ ﻓﺮﺍﺭ ﺑﻜﻨﻦ‪ ،‬ﮔﻮﺵ ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻮﻧﻮ ﺩﺭ ﻣﻘﺎﺑـﻞ ﺻـﺪﺍﻱ ﻣـﺮﮒ ﺑﮕﻴـﺮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺷﺨﺼـﻴﺖ ﺧﻮﺩﺷـﻮﻧﻮ ﻣﻴﻴـﻮﻥ ﺩﺍﺩ ﻭ‬
‫ﺟﻨﺠﺎﻝ ﻭﻫﻴﺎﻫﻮﻱ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﻣﺤﻮ ﻭ ﻧﺎﺑﻮﺩ ﺑﻜﻨﻦ! ﻧﻤﻴﺨﻮﺍﻡ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻪ ﻗﻮﻝ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ :‬ﻧﻮﺭ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺖ ﺩﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺠﻠﻲ ﺑﻜﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑـﺮ ﻋﻜـﺲ‬
‫ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﻓﺮﻭﺩ ﺍﻫﺮﻳﻤﻦ ﺭﻭ ﺩﺍﺭﻡ‪ .‬ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﻡ ﻫﻤﻮﻧﻄﻮﺭﻳﻜﻪ ﻫﺴﻢ ﺩﺭ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺑﻴﺪﺍﺭ ﺑﺸﻢ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﺯ ﺟﻤﻼﺕ ﺑﺮﺍﻕ ﻭ ﺗﻮ ﺧﺎﻟﻴﻪ ﻣﻨﻮﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮﻫﺎ ﭼﻨﺪﺷﻢ ﻣﻴﺸﻪ ﻭ ﻧﻤﻴﺨﻮﺍﻡ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﺣﺘﻴﺎﺟﺎﺕ ﻛﺜﻴﻒ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺁﺭﺯﻭﻱ ﺩﺯﺩﻫﺎ ﻭﻗﺎﭼﺎﻗﻬﺎ ﻭ ﻣﻮﺟـﻮﺩﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺯﺭﭘﺮﺳﺖ ﺍﺣﻤﻖ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﺷﺪﻩ ﻭ ﺍﺩﺍﺭﻩ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺖ ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮ ﺍﺯ ﺩﺳﺖ ﺑﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﺗﻮ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﻃﺎﻗـﻪ ﻛـﻪ ﻣﻴﺘـﻮﻧﻢ ﺩﺭﺧـﻮﺩﻡ‬
‫ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺑﻜﻨﻢ ﻭ ﻗﻮﺍﻳﻢ ﺑﻪ ﻫﺪﺭ ﻧﺮﻩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻳﻦ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﻭ ﺭﻭﺷﻨﺎﺋﻲ ﺳﺮﺥ ﺑﺮﺍﻡ ﻻﺯﻣﻪ‪ ،‬ﻧﻤﻴﺘﻮﻧﻢ ﺗﻮ ﺍﻃﺎﻗﻲ ﺑﻨﺸﻴﻨﻢ ﻛﻪ ﭘﺸﺖ ﺳـﺮﻡ‬
‫ﭘﻨﺠﺮﻩ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻪ ﺑﺎﺷﻪ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻪ ﺍﻳﻨﻪ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻓﻜﺎﺭﻡ ﭘﺮﺍﻛﻨﺪﻩ ﻣﻴﺸﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺭﻭﺷﻨﺎﺋﻲ ﻫﻢ ﺧﻮﺷﻢ ﻧﻤﻴﻴﺎﺩ‪ .‬ﺟﻠﻮ ﺁﻓﺘﺎﺏ ﻫﻤـﻪ ﭼﻴـﺰ ﻟـﻮﺱ ﻭ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻤﻮﻟﻲ ﻣﻴﺸﻪ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﺱ ﻭ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﻣﻨﺸﺎﺀ ﺯﻳﺒﺎﺋﻴﺲ‪ :‬ﻳﻪ ﮔﺮﺑﻪ ﺭﻭﺯ ﺟﻠﻮ ﻧﻮﺭ ﻣﻌﻤـﻮﻟﻴﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣـﺎ ﺷـﺐ ﺗـﻮ ﺗـﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﭼﺸـﻤﺎﺵ‬
‫ﻣﻴﺪﺭﺧﺸﻪ ﻭ ﻣﻮﻫﺎﺵ ﺑﺮﻕ ﻣﻴﺰﻧﻪ ﻭ ﺣﺮﻛﺎﺗﺶ ﻣﺮﻣﻮﺯ ﻣﻴﺸﻪ‪ ،‬ﻳﻪ ﺑﺘﻪ ﮔﻞ ﻛﻪ ﺭﻭﺯ ﺭﻧﺠﻮﺭ ﻭ ﺗﺎﺭ ﻋﻨﻜﺒﻮﺕ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﺲ ‪ ،‬ﺷـﺐ‬
‫ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻪ ﻛﻪ ﺍﺳﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﺩﺭ ﺍﻃﺮﺍﻓﺶ ﻣﻮﺝ ﻣﻴﺰﻧﻪ ﻭ ﻣﻌﻨﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺧﺼﻮﺹ ﺑﻪ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﻣﻲ ﮔﻴﺮﻩ‪ .‬ﺭﻭﺷﻨﺎﺋﻲ ﻫﻤﻴﻪ ﺟﻨﺒﻨﺪﻩ ﻫﺎ ﺭﻭ‬
‫ﺑﻴﺪﺍﺭ ﻭ ﻣﻮﺍﻇﺐ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﻭ ﺷﺒﻪ ﻛﻪ ﻫﺮ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻫﺮ ﭼﻴﺰ ﻣﻌﻤﻮﻟﻲ ﻳﻪ ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﻣﺮﻣﻮﺯ ﺑﻪ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﻣﻴﮕﻴـﺮﻩ‪ ،‬ﺗﻤـﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺳﻬﺎﻱ ﮔﻤﺸﺪﻩ ﺑﻴﺪﺍﺭ ﻣﻴﺸﻦ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻜﻲ ﺁﺩﻡ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﺑﻪ ﺍﻣﺎ ﻣﻴﺸﻨﻮﻩ‪ ،‬ﺧﻮﺩ ﺷـﺨﺺ ﺑﻴـﺪﺍﺭﻩ ﻭ ﺯﻧـﺪﮔﻲ ﺣﻘﻴﻘـﻲ ﺁﻧﻮﻗـﺖ‬
‫ﺷﺮﻭﻉ ﻣﻴﺸﻪ‪ .‬ﺁﺩﻡ ﺍﺯ ﺍﺣﺘﻴﺎﺟﺎﺕ ﭘﺴﺖ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺑﻲ ﻧﻴﺎﺯﻩ ﻭ ﻋﻮﺍﻟﻢ ﻣﻌﻨﻮﻱ ﺭﻭ ﻃﻲ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﭼﻴﺰﺍﺋﻲ ﺭﻭ ﻛﻪ ﻫﺮﮔـﺰ ﺑـﻪ ﺍﻭﻧـﺎ‬
‫ﭘﻲ ﻧﺒﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﻴﺎﺩ ﻣﻴﻴﺎﺭﻩ«‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﺯﻳﻦ ﺧﻄﺎﺑﻪ ﺳﺮﺷﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻳﻜﻤﺮﺗﺒﻪ ﺧﺎﻣﻮﺵ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﻣﻘﺼﻮﺩ ﺍﺯ ﻫﻤﻪ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺣﺮﻑ ﻫﺎ ﺗﺒﺮﺋﻪ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺁﻳـﺎ ﺍﻳـﻦ‬
‫ﺷﺨﺺ ﻳﻜﻨﻔﺮ ﺑﭽﻪ ﺍﻋﻴﺎﻥ ﺧﺴﺘﻪ ﻭ ﺯﺩﻩ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺍﺯ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻳﺎ ﻧﺎﺧﻮﺷﻲ ﻏﺮﻳﺒﻲ ﺩﺍﺷـﺖ؟ ﺩﺭ ﻫـﺮ ﺻـﻮﺭﺕ ﻣﺜـﻞ ﻣـﺮﺩﻡ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻤﻮﻟﻲ ﻓﻜﺮ ﻧﻤﻴﻜﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻧﻤﻴﺪﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﭼﻪ ﺟﻮﺍﺏ ﺑﺪﻫﻢ ﺻﻮﺭﺗﺶ ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﻣﺨﺼﻮﺻﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺧﻮﺩ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻪ ﺑـﻮﺩ‪ :‬ﺧﻄـﻲ ﻛـﻪ ﺍﺯ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺎ ﺭ ﻟﺒﺶ ﻣﻴﮕﺬﺷﺖ ﮔﻮﺩﺗﺮ ﻭ ﺳﺨﺖ ﺗﺮ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻳﻚ ﺭﮒ ﻛﺒﻮﺩ ﺭﻭﻱ ﭘﻴﺸﺎﻧﻲ ﻭﺭﻡ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺘﻴﻜﻪ ﺣـﺮ ﻑ ﻣﻴـﺰﺩ‬
‫ﭘﺮﻛﻬﺎﻱ ﺑﻴﻨﻴﺶ ﻣﻴﻠﺮﺯﻳﺪ ﭘﺮﻳﺪﮔﻲ ﺭﻧﮓ ﺍﻭ ﺟﻠﻮ ﻧﻮﺭ ﺳﺮﺥ ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﺧﺴﺘﻪ ﻭ ﻏﻤﻨﺎﻛﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺭﺗﺶ ﻣﻴﺪﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﺷﺒﻴﻪ ﺳﺮﻱ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺎ ﻣﻮﻡ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﺎﺷﻨﺪ ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﺣﺎﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻭ ﺩﻳﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ ﻣﺘﻨﺎﻗﺺ ﺑﻪ ﻧﻈﺮ ﻣـﻲ ﺁﻣـﺪ‪ .‬ﺳـﺮ ﺧـﻮﺩ ﺭﺍ ﻛـﻪ‬
‫ﭘﺎﺋﻴﻦ ﻣﻴﮕﺮﻓﺖ ﻟﺒﺨﻨﺪ ﮔﺬﺭﻧﺪﻩ ﺍﻱ ﺭﻭﻱ ﻟﺒﻬﺎﻳﺶ ﻧﻘﺶ ﻣﻲ ﺑﺴﺖ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﻧﺎﮔﻬﺎﻥ ﻣﻠﺘﻔﺖ ﺷـﺪ ﺑـﺎ ﻧﮕـﺎﻫﻲ ﺳـﺨﺖ ﻭ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺴﺨﺮ ﺁﻣﻴﺰ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺍﻭ ﺳﺮﺍﻍ ﻧﺪﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ » :‬ﺷﻤﺎ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺮ ﻭ ﺧﺴﺘﻪ ﻫﺴﻴﻦ ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﻫﻤﺶ ﺍﺯ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺻﺤﺒﺖ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ!«‬
‫» ‪ -‬ﻫﺮ ﻛﻲ ﻫﺮ ﭼﻪ ﻣﻴﮕﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻪ‪ .‬ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺘﻲ ﻛﻪ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﻫﺮﻛﺴﻲ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺩﺍﺭﻩ ﺧﻮﺩ ﻫﻤﻮﻥ ﺷﺨﺼﻪ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤـﻪ ﻣـﻮﻥ ﺑـﻲ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺍﺩﻩ ﺍﺯ ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮﻥ ﺻﺤﺒﺖ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻴﻢ ﺣﺘﺎ ﺩﺭ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻋﻬﺎﻱ ﺧﺎﺭﺟﻲ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺳﺎﺕ ﻭ ﻣﺸﺎﻫﺪﺍﺕ ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮﻧﻮ ﺑـﻪ ﺯﺑـﻮﻥ ﻛﺴـﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺩﻳﮕﻪ ﻣﻴﮕﻴﻢ‪ .‬ﻣﺸﻜﻠﺘﺮﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﺭﻫﺎ ﺍﻳﻨﻪ ﻛﻪ ﻛﺴﻲ ﺑﺘﻮﻧﻪ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺘﺎ ﻫﻤﻮﻧﻄﻮﺭﻳﻜﻪ ﻫﺲ ﺑﮕﻪ‪«.‬‬
‫ﺍﺯ ﺟﻮﺍﺏ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﭘﺸﻴﻤﺎﻥ ﺷﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﭼﻮﻥ ﺧﻴﻠﻲ ﺑﻴﻤﻌﻨﻲ ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﺠﺎ ﻭ ﺑﻲ ﺗﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻡ ﻧﺒﻮﺩ ﭼﻪ ﭼﻴﺰ ﺭﺍ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ ﺛﺎﺑـﺖ‬
‫ﺑﻜﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﮔﻮﻳﺎ ﻣﻘﺼﻮﺩﻡ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺗﻤﻠﻖ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﻴﻢ ﺍﺯ ﻣﻴﺰﺑـﺎﻧﻢ ﺑـﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﻣـﺎ ﺍﻭ ﺑـﻲ ﺁﻧﻜـﻪ ﺍﻋﺘﻨـﺎﺋﻲ ﺑـﻪ ﺣـﺮﻑ ﻣـﻦ ﺑﻜﻨـﺪ ‪ ،‬ﻧﮕـﺎﻩ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺩﻧﺎﻛﺶ ﺭﺍ ﭼﻨﺪ ﺛﺎﻧﻴﻪ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺪﺍﺧﺖ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﭘﻠﻜﻬﺎﻱ ﭼﺸﻤﺶ ﭘﺎﺋﻴﻦ ﺁﻣﺪ‪ .‬ﺯﺑﺎﻥ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻭﻱ ﻟﺒﻬﺎﻳﺶ ﻣﻲ ﻣﺎﻟﻴﺪ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜـﻪ‬
‫ﺍﺻﻼ ﻣﻠﺘﻔﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻴﺴﺖ ﻭ ﺩﺭﺩﻧﻴﺎﻱ ﺩﻳﮕﺮﻱ ﺳﻴﺮ ﻣﻴﻜﻨﺪ‪ .‬ﮔﻔﺖ‪ » :‬ﻣﻦ ﻫﻤﻴﺸﻪ ﺁﺭﺯﻭ ﻣﻴﻜـﺮﺩﻡ ﻛـﻪ ﺟـﺎﻱ ﺭﺍﺣﺘـﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻄـﺎﺑﻖ‬
‫ﺳﻠﻴﻘﻪ ﻭ ﺗﻤﺎﻳﻞ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺗﻬﻴﻪ ﺑﻜﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻻﺧﺮﻩ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﻭ ﺟﺎﺋﻴﻜﻪ ﺩﻳﮕﺮﻭﻥ ﺩﺭﺳـﺖ ﻛـﺮﺩﻩ ﺑـﻮﺩﻥ ﺑـﻪ ﺩﺭﺩ ﻣـﻦ ﻧﻤﻴﺨـﻮﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﻣـﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ ﺗﻮﻱ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﻭ ﺩﺭ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺑﺎﺷﻢ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﺎ ﺭ ﺩﺍﺭﺍﺋﻲ ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮ ﭘﻮﻝ ﻧﻘﺪ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ ‪ .‬ﺁﻣﺪﻡ ﺩﺭﻳﻦ ﻣﺤﻞ ﻭ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﻃﺎﻗﻮ‬
‫ﺑﻪ ﻣﻴﻞ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺳﺎﺧﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻳﻦ ﭘﺮﺩﻩ ﻫﺎﻱ ﻣﺨﻤﻠﻮ ﺑﺎ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺁﻭﺭﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﻪ ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﺟﺰﺋﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺭﺳﻴﺪﮔﻲ ﻛـﺮﺩﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻘﻂ ﺁﺑﺎﮊﻭﺭ ﺳﺮﺥ ﻳﺎﺩﻡ ﺭﻓﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻻﺧﺮﻩ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻭﻧﻜﻪ ﻧﻘﺸﻪ ﻭ ﺍﻧﺪﺍﺯﻩ ﻱ ﺍﻭﻧﻮ ﺩﺳﺘﻮﺭ ﺩﺍﺩﻡ ﺩﺭ ﺗﻬﺮﻭﻥ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﺑﻜـﻨﻦ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻣﺮﻭﺯ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺳﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻭ ﮔﺮﻧﻪ ﻫﻴﭻ ﻣﻴﻞ ﻧﺪﺍﺭﻡ ﻛﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺑﺸﻢ ﻭ ﻳﺎ ﺑﺎ ﻛﺴﻲ ﻣﻌﺎﺷﺮﺕ ﺑﻜﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﺣﺘـﺎ ﺧـﻮﺭﺍﻙ‬
‫ﺧﻮﺩﻣﻮ ﻣﻨﺤﺼﺮ ﺑﻪ ﺷﻴﺮ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺩﺭ ﻫﺮ ﺣﺎﻟﺖ‪ ،‬ﺧﻮﺍﺑﻴﺪﻩ ﻳﺎ ﻧﺸﺴﺘﻪ ﺑﺘﻮﻧﻢ ﺍﻭﻧﻮ ﺑﺨﻮﺭﻡ ﻭ ﻣﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺑﻪ ﺗﻬﻴﻪ ﻏـﺬﺍ‬
‫ﻧﺒﺎﺷﻢ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻲ ﺑﺎ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﻋﻬﺪ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ ﺭﻭﺯﻱ ﻛﻪ ﻛﻴﺴﻪ ﺍﻡ ﺑﻪ ﺗﻪ ﻛﺸﻴﺪ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺑﻪ ﻛﺲ ﺩﻳﮕﻪ ﺑﺸﻢ‪ ،‬ﺑﻪ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻲ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺧﺎﺗﻤـﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺸﺐ ﺍﻭﻟﻴﻦ ﺷﺒﻴﺲ ﻛﻪ ﺗﻮ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺧﻮﺍﻫﻢ ﺧﻮﺍﺑﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻳﻪ ﻧﻔﺮ ﺁﺩﻡ ﺧﻮﺷﺒﺨﺖ ﻫﺴـﻢ ﻛـﻪ ﺑـﻪ ﺁﺭﺯﻭﻱ ﺧـﻮﺩﻡ‬
‫ﺭﺳﻴﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﻳﻪ ﻧﻔﺮ ﺧﻮﺷﺒﺨﺖ‪ ،‬ﭼﻘـﺪﺭ ﺗﺼـﻮﺭﺵ ﻣﺸـﻜﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻣـﻦ ﻫﻴﭽﻮﻗـﺖ ﻧﻤﻴﺘﻮﻧﺴـﻢ ﺗﺼﻮﺭﺷـﻮ ﺑﻜـﻨﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣـﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻣـﻦ ﻳـﻪ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺮﺧﻮﺷﺒﺨﺘﻢ! ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﺳﻜﻮﺕ ﺷﺪ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺳﻜﻮﺕ ﻣـﺰﺍﺣﻢ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻓـﻊ ﺑﻜـﻨﻢ ﮔﻔـﺘﻢ‪ » :‬ﺣـﺎﻟﺘﻲ ﻛـﻪ ﺷـﻤﺎ ﺟﺴـﺘﺠﻮ‬
‫ﻣﻴﻜﻨﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﺟﻨﻴﻦ ﺩﺭ ﺭﺣﻢ ﻣﺎﺩﺭﻩ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻲ ﺩﻭﻧﺪﮔﻲ ‪ ،‬ﻛﺸﻤﻜﺶ ﻭ ﺗﻤﻠﻖ ﺩﺭ ﻣﻴﻴـﻮﻥ ﺟـﺪﺍﺭ ﺳـﺮﺥ ﮔـﺮﻡ ﻭ ﻧـﺮﻡ ﺭﻭﻳﻬـﻢ‬
‫ﺧﻤﻴﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﺁﻫﺴﺘﻪ ﺧﻮﻥ ﻣﺎﺩﺭﺵ ﺭﻭ ﻣﻴﻤﻜﻪ ﻭ ﻫﻤﻴﻪ ﺧﻮﺍﻫﺶ ﻫﺎ ﻭ ﺍﺣﺘﻴﺎﺟﺎﺗﺶ ﺧﻮﺩ ﺑﻪ ﺧﻮﺩ ﺑﺮ ﺁﻭﺭﺩﻩ ﻣﻴﺸﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﻳـﻦ ﻫﻤـﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻧﺴﺘﺎﻟﮋﻱ ﺑﻬﺸﺖ ﮔﻤﺸﺪﻩ ﺍﻳﺲ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺗﻪ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﻫﺮ ﺑﺸﺮﻱ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺩﺍﺭﻩ‪ ،‬ﺁﺩﻡ ﺩﺭﺧـﻮﺩﺵ ﻭ ﺗـﻮ ﺧـﻮﺩﺵ ﺯﻧـﺪﮔﻲ ﻣﻴﻜﻨـﻪ‬
‫ﺷﺎﻳﺪ ﻳﻪ ﺟﻮﺭ ﻣﺮﮔﻲ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭﻳﺲ؟ ﺍﻭ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﻧﺪﺍﺷﺖ ﻛﺴﻲ ﺩﺭ ﺣﺮﻓﻬﺎﺋﻴﻜﻪ ﺑﺎ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﻣﻴﺰﺩ ﻣﺪﺍﺧﻠﻪ ﺑﻜﻨﺪ‪ ،‬ﻧﮕـﺎﻩ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺴﺨﺮﺁﻣﻴﺰﻱ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺪﺍﺧﺖ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ »:‬ﺷﻤﺎ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺮ ﻭ ﺧﺴﺘﻪ ﻫﺴﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﺑﻔﺮﻣﺎﺋﻴﻦ ﺑﺨﻮﺍﺑﻴﻦ!« ﭼﺮﺍﻍ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺮﺩﺍﺷﺖ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺗـﺎ ﺩﻡ‬
‫ﺩﺍﻻﻥ ﺭﺍﻫﻨﻤﺎﺋﻲ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﺍﻃﺎﻗﻲ ﺭﺍ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻧﺠﺎ ﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻳﻢ ﻧﺸﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺷﺐ ﮔﺬﺷـﺘﻪ ﺑـﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻣـﻦ ﻧﻔـﺲ‬
‫ﺗﺎﺯﻫﺎﻱ ﺩﺭ ﻫﻮﺍﻱ ﺁﺯﺍﺩ ﻛﺸﻴﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺳﺮﺩﺍﺑﻪ ﻧﺎﺧﻮﺷﻲ ﺑﻴـﺮﻭﻥ ﺁﻣـﺪﻩ ﺑﺎﺷـﻢ‪ ،‬ﺳـﺘﺎﺭﻩ ﻫـﺎ ﺑـﺎﻻﻱ ﺁﺳـﻤﺎﻥ ﻣـﻲ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺧﺸﻴﺪﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﺑﺎ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ‪ » :‬ﺁﻳﺎ ﺑﺎ ﻳﻜﻨﻔﺮ ﻣﺠﻨﻮﻥ ﻭﺳﻮﺍﺳﻲ ﻳﺎ ﺑﺎ ﻳﻜﻨﻔﺮ ﺁﺩﻡ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻩ ﺳﺮﻭﻛﺎﺭ ﭘﻴﺪﺍ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ ﺍﻡ؟«‬
‫ﻓﺮﺩﺍ ﺩﻭ ﺳﺎﻋﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻇﻬﺮ ﺑﻴﺪﺍﺭ ﺷﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﺮﺍﻱ ﺧﺪﺍﺣﺎﻓﻈﻲ ﺍﺯ ﻣﻴﺰﺑﺎﻧﻢ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻳﻨﻜﻪ ﺁﺩﻡ ﻧﺎﻣﺤﺮﻣﻲ ﻫﺴﺘﻢ ﻭ ﺑـﻪ ﺁﺳـﺘﺎﻧﻪ ﻣﻌﺒـﺪ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺪﺳﻲ ﭘﺎ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺘﻪ ﺍﻡ ﺁﻫﺴﺘﻪ ﺩﻡ ﺩﺍﻻﻥ ﺭﻓﺘﻢ ﻭ ﺑﺎﺍ ﺣﺘﻴﺎﻁ ﺩﺭ ﺯﺩﻡ ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﻻﻥ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﻚ ﻭ ﺑﻲ ﺻﺪﺍ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﭘـﺎﻭﺭﭼﻴﻦ ﭘـﺎﻭﺭﭼﻴﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﻣﺨﺼﻮﺹ ﺷﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﭼﺮﺍﻍ ﺭﻭﻱ ﻣﻴﺰ ﻣﻴﺴﻮﺧﺖ‪ ،‬ﺩﻳﺪﻡ ﻣﻴﺰﺑﺎﻧﻢ ﺑﺎ ﻫﻤﺎﻥ ﭘﻴﮋﺍﻣﺎﻱ ﭘﺸـﺖ ﮔﻠـﻲ‪ ،‬ﺩﺳـﺘﻬﺎ ﺭﺍ ﺟﻠـﻮ‬
‫ﺻﻮﺭﺗﺶ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻪ ﭘﺎﻫﺎﻳﺶ ﺭﺍ ﺗﻮﻱ ﺩﻟﺶ ﺟﻤﻊ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ‪ .‬ﺑﻪ ﺷﻜﻞ ﺑﭽﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺯﻫﺪﺍﻥ ﻣﺎﺩﺭﺵ ﺩﺭﺁﻣﺪﻩ ﻭ ﺭﻭﻱ ﺗﺨﺖ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩﻩ ﺍﺳﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﻓﺘﻢ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﻚ ﺷﺎﻧﻪ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻢ ﺗﻜﺎﻧﺶ ﺩﺍﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﺍﻭ ﺑﻪ ﻫﻤﺎﻥ ﺣﺎﻟﺖ ﺧﺸﻚ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻫﺮﺍﺳﺎﻥ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺑﻴﺮﻭﻥ ﺁﻣـﺪﻡ ﻭ‬
‫ﺑﻄﺮﻑ ﮔﺎﺭﺍﮊ ﺭﻓﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﭼﻮﻥ ﻧﻤﻲ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﺭﺍ ﺍﺯ ﺩﺳﺖ ﺑﺪﻫﻢ‪ .‬ﺁﻳﺎ ﺑﻪ ﻗﻮﻝ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﻛﻴﺴﻪ ﺍﻭ ﺑﻪ ﺗﻪ ﻛﺸﻴﺪﻩ ﺑـﻮﺩ؟ ﻳـﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻳﻦ ﺗﻨﻬﺎﺋﻲ ﺭﺍ ﻛﻪ ﻣﺪﺡ ﻣﻲ ﻛﺮﺩ ﺍﺯ ﺁﻥ ﺗﺮﺳﻴﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﺳﺖ ﺷﺐ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﻗﻼ ﻳﻜﻨﻔﺮ ﺩﺭ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﻜﻲ ﺍﻭ ﺑﺎﺷﺪ؟ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﺯ ﻫﻤﻪ‬
‫ﻣﻄﺎﻟﺐ‪ ،‬ﺷﺎﻳﺪ ﻫﻢ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻳﻜﻨﻔﺮ ﺧﻮﺷﺒﺨﺖ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺧﻮﺷﺒﺨﺘﻲ ﺭﺍ ﻫﻤﻴﺸـﻪ ﺑـﺮﺍﻱ ﺧـﻮﺩﺵ‬
‫ﻧﮕﺎﻫﺪﺍﺭﺩ ﻭ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﻫﻢ ﺍﻃﺎﻕ ﺍﻳﺪﻩ ﺁﻝ ﺍﻭ ﺑﻮﺩﻩ ﺍﺳﺖ!‬

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