“PINAGTAGPO PERO DI TINADHANA “ SQUAD

So I started watching anime these past months and I got to be honest it's legit awesome. I won't judge
Otakus and Weebs now because now, I actually can relate. I have watched a lot of series and movies
and I wanna make a review on each but for now I wanna start with my favorite anime movies so far.
These movies hurt me like hell. It's all beautifully written, something that'll make you think about life
and question a lot of things about your existance. Also makes me jealous because these fockin drawings
had better love life than me. It's deep and will leave something on you, to me, it left a hole in my heart
because I swear these filmsjust hurts.The animation is also on point, the scenery and the aesthetic.. So
damn pleasing. I recommend these anime if you like bittersweet endings and just want some good
existential crisis.

I Want To Eat Your Pancreas

The title of this anime seems misleading because it sounds kinky and creepy at the same time but fuck
this movie for making me cry like a bitch. I mean I already knew someone's gonna die before I even
watched it but the plot twist though, I didn't saw it coming. I don't wanna talk much about this film it's
just so heartbreaking but please watch it, it's tragically beautiful. It's about this anti-social guy who just
doesn't wanna be involved with anyone until this flower named-bitch with pancreatic disease came
along and turn his life upside down (but in a good way). I have loved the connection they built,
something about it makes me want to treasure life. A lonely boy with a dying girl, it's cliché but what
could possibly be more brutal than that ?

The Girl Who Leapt Through Time

This one seems pretty nostalgic for me probably because it's also an old film. It just feels like looking
back to your childhood days. It gives me the flashbacks of golden times when i don't worry much,yah
know just a kid having fun not worrying about anything and it's a breath of fresh air because the film
shows innocence, simplicity and calmness. It's a cute story of a girl who discovered she can travel
through time, as she tries to fix some incovenience in her life and the lives of her friends, she failed to
notice her time travelling is limited and it creates trouble because she's messing time itself. The plot
twist of this is also a big “woah” and I don't know why but something about the ending of this film
that's so satisfying yet heartbreaking at the same time. It's like reuniting with your favorite person then
shortly after, you part ways again. Also the movie quote “Time waits for no one” also wake some shits
inside me. It made me want to live my life to the fullest because time goes fast and everyone and
everything will eventually reached their end. Bruh. Again.Existential Crisis.
Hotarubi no mori e

This one's sentimental too, it's a cute story of childhood best friends so pure and unconditional until
one them just stopped existing and oh well yeah i cried. This film most likely shows leaving your
childhood and living the next chapters of your life but still keeping all the memories of the past with
you because no matter how we don't want it we're all gonna grow old and become functional adults but
that doesn't really mean we have to leave all the memories of our childhood behind. Its all worth
keeping after all, the people we shared smiles and laughters might be gone but the feelings, they are
still there. It's all there, it's real and it happened so It's always nice to look back.. yup memories bring
back memories bring back GIN!I swear Gin is the most beautiful creature of all, he's a cute lil cinamon
roll that should be appreciated always but should be kept away from the world because he's just too
precious for us! And i'm still mad about the ending because i didn't expect that shit. All is well until
that kid happened --- ah i'm so mad.

5 Centimeters Per Second

AKA “Just punch me in the face, It'll hurt less”. Out of all these films I think this one hurts me most
because it speaks about reality. I'm more upset and angry than sad, why?Because this movie showed me
2 people who are rightfully meant for each other (practically potential soulmates) falls out of love
because life won't let them be together. Imagine finally finding your true love but despite your love for
each other, you can't still be together because time, place and the whole focking universe don't want
to.That, that's painful. What hurts more is that it happens in real life. Sometimes we already found the
person who we can call our “one in a million” but we don't end up with them. No matter how much you
love one another, if you're not for each other.. you're not for each other. Maybe in another life .. but
seemingly not in this.Not in this life and not in this circumstance and that shit hurts.To the author of
this story, how could you? How could you sum up the reality of “love that doesn't work out”. How did
you proved that love itself isn't enough to end up with the person you want to share your life with.How
dare you? Man, fuck this film, i'm gout.
It's so hard figuring out how to love yourself, especially when your flaws and imperfections keeps on
screaming at you. How could you love something you wanna get rid of ?Is it really possible?

Yes, you can.

Little by little. It's not something you master in just one try.
It's hard, it's messy but it it's worth it.

You can start by learning about what makes you different.

How you think.
The things you like.
The things you love doing.
Who you love.
What you believe.

Focus on that, that's what makes you who you are not your negativities.
Your flaws and imperfections will always be part of you but it doesn't define you.
Please, remember that.
You deserve love for yourself too.
So please take care of yourself
Be Gentle.
Because this is your life.
This is your point of view.
The world will still continue without you in it
So why care about what it thinks about you?
This is about you.
This is your story.
So make it your own.
Live.

Life started to scare me lately.

So many things just had proved that my life and the lives of the people around me just keeps on
moving forward. So much has changed, everythings not the same anymore.
My friends and I barely see each other.. we started losing connections because of work and their own
relationships. We can't find a day to hang out because we have different schedules.. and then that hits
me .We have our own different paths now, we are all figuring this shit called life but we're on our own
now.I had knew before that someday it's gonna be this way, little by little we started to grow big and so
does our lives. It's something larger now, something that continues to grow and there's no turning
back.It's scary and it's sad...it makes me emotional but it's supposed to be like that in this world.
You can never stop change.
It's gonna happen eventually.
Why is Derma sessions so damn expenssive?

Am I mad?
Oh yes I am, because first of all I didn't asked for a fockin sensitive acne prone skin also it's not my
fault we not rich so i'm in a very terrible situation right now I just really wanna punch someone right
straight in the face
bitch it's just too much I'm not sad anymore bitch I AM MAD! LIKE REALLY I DONT GIVE A
DAMN ANYMORE! I JUST WANNA CURSE THE WHOLE WORLD BECAUSE OF THEIR
DAMN STANDARDS OF BEAUTY THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO REACH IF YOURE FOCKING
BROKE! (well ofcourse if you got good genes but welp guesss we failed to have that)SO YEAH
FUCK THIS AND FUCK THAT! I SPENT TONS OF MY SALARY TO BEAUTY PRODUCTS
THAT'S RECOMMENDED BY DERMATOLOGIST AND I ALSO SPENT MONEY ON DERMA
SESSIONS BUT FUCK IT ITS STILL FUCKING THERE AND I. AM. PISSSSSSEDDDDDD !
BRUH I GOT 0 CHILL NO MORE!

AM ICURSED? DO I NEED TO CONSULT A PSYCHIC OR AN EXORCIST? BECAUSE BITCH I

SWEAR I AM BETROTHED WITH SOME FOCKIN DEMON OR SUPERNATURAL BEING
I SWEAR THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG!
THIS IS NOT NORMAL
I AM BEING CURSED
BECAUSE IM TOO MUCH OF A BITCH!

MAY GOD HELP ME ON THIS BECAUSE I NO LONGER CAN;T

I SWEAR I'M ABOUT TO GIVE UP MY LIFE AND JUST BE A WITCH OR SUMTHIN BECAUSE
I ALREADY LOOK LIKE ONE LIKE DAMN t -_- t fock this shet!

Im leaving bye
Kuzu no Honkai (Skum's wish)

First of all this ain't porn but I won't recommend it either

This show is just fucked up on so many levels
Bruh Idk what to feel about it
But it's interesting though. Twisted, dark and so messed up
I had a hard time finishing this because damn, I AM so PISSED!
The main characters? DUMB
The side chracters? DUMB
Every character is so focking dumb AF like they are ALL so irrational and reckless my gad
That's probably the point of this story.To show how stupid we can be when we're in love,
We know no logic
We know no rules
We just go for it.
Honestly the series is good at representing how toxic love could get when the love is one sided.
Especially if it's young love.
When you're young and inlove it seems like it's the only thing that matters.
So when you got your heart broken from that, it makes you think that that's your last and there's no
tomorrow, like everything is final. Like thing's won't change and the hurting won't stop and that person
can never be replaced. Soyour whole life crumbles and it feels like it's the end of the world.

So I kinda understand why the main characters are that desprate...but they are still stupid.

I am also bothered by the ending because ofcourse I've been rooting for those two idiots to end up
together somehow but they didn't and that made me extremely angry.
It actually makes sense though, because I guess it won't work.
They don't need eachother to fix their own.
You know what they need?
Some fockin PSYCHOLOGICAL HELP!
They just need to consult a therapist and fix their own issues
They remained lonely because they tried to seek what they lack from other people, they always try to
make someone “The answer” which makes them more lonely because they depend their happiness on
someone, and we should never do that.
Just like us, they are lost and fragile and sad and very human.
They also got issues and need some patching up on their own.
If we rely our happiness on them we might lose ourselves to them and God knows how awful might
that be so it's a NO,NO!
There's no one out there who can help us other than ourselves.
So I think the endings fine it's just so wrong that they raised my hope on those two idiots actually
falling in love but anyways it's cool bro.
All in all.
I hate this show for stressing me out like this but thanks to this show I also realize that i'm still smart
somehow.

Not everything works out for everybody so if you try on doing what everybody else is doing you may
fail. If you wanna be truly happy do not focus on what everybody else is doing, focus on what you're
doing instead. Be good at it, happiness comes out from things you are capable of.

Life Hack:
If you ever feel depressed, just forced yourself to do something hard like for example writing a novel or
something. i tried it and 1 paragraph into it and Im starting to idle and already got bored of it so I
declared that i'm okay now, i'm healed,i ain't sad anymore! see.. it helps. Try it.

Meditating notes:

Be simple...and don’t try to become something or to capture some experience.

Minsan naiinis na lang ako, pero di ko sure kung san or kanino ako naiinis. Sa sarili ko ba? Sa buhay
ko ba? Sa mundo? Sa kanilang lahat? Basta naiinis lang ako. Kasi hindi ganto kasi hindi ganyan.Kasi
wala ako nito, wala ko nung ganyan. It bothers mo so much and then i'll get depressed..the more I look
into my life , the more I see myself... I don't like it. This is not what I expected, this is not what I
want.Siguro kaya i'll never be happy was because of that.And it sucks cause i'm the one doing this to
myself. I wasn't sad, I just thought about things I couldn't have and couldn't become.. and it makes me
think.. am I really worth it?why am I like this?
I'm getting desperate so here:

This is a prayer for the acne gods and goddesses

Blessed be my face
My acne, my blemishes and my scars, may you not be stubborn
May my pimples stop being annoying, may they come and go.
I finally accepted the fact that i'm not gonna have a clear skin like ever
So please atleast, just let me have light breakouts
Please let my cystic acne come out like once a month or something
May they heal fast and shall they not spread in my face especially on my nose and chin
May my blackheads and whiteheads be gone
May my pores be close and not be clogged
May my oily face be not
May my cheeks not be so red
May my anxiety cease out
Tommorow i'll get hurt again
But let me be depressed but still fresh
I'm just tryina have a good life so tonight imma fight back
Tiktok on the clock but the party won't stop
Amen.

This film most likely shows leaving your childhood and living the next chapters of your life but still keeping all the gg

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