I will not manipulate people or situations in order to pursue a romantic relationship. While I am tempted to do so, I realize that manipulating others makes me insecure and betrays their trust. Instead, I will focus on bettering myself and trusting God to guide my path, without controlling outcomes or people. My goal is to keep my heart pure so that I recognize true love, not a relationship built on human hands alone.
I will not manipulate people or situations in order to pursue a romantic relationship. While I am tempted to do so, I realize that manipulating others makes me insecure and betrays their trust. Instead, I will focus on bettering myself and trusting God to guide my path, without controlling outcomes or people. My goal is to keep my heart pure so that I recognize true love, not a relationship built on human hands alone.
I will not manipulate people or situations in order to pursue a romantic relationship. While I am tempted to do so, I realize that manipulating others makes me insecure and betrays their trust. Instead, I will focus on bettering myself and trusting God to guide my path, without controlling outcomes or people. My goal is to keep my heart pure so that I recognize true love, not a relationship built on human hands alone.
PURSUE YOU just to get to you. I will be secure Maybe I’m beginning to like you a lot, even if we do not get to be together but I will never pursue you. as often as I would want us to. I will be happy even if we do not get to know each other Around me, I’m tempted by all these pawns as fast as I want us to. calling me to use them, I will not sulk looking me in the eye, saying if I do not get my way maybe you and I can ”accidentally” bump into in trying to make way each other in a coffee shop; for us to finally talk. maybe we can schedule “friendly dates” with a bunch of conniving friends; I choose to be secure maybe I can start “innocent” topics with you even if such things are way out of my control. over that gleaming chat box, Perhaps my heart will rest more happily ask you things that no one would brand as knowing that I have never orchestrated bad, things I can even send you “wrong sends.” by employing selfish methods; But even this early, I realized never cheated you that albeit pawns are the most numerous by whispering my own words through other pieces in a game, people’s mouths, at the end of the day, never betrayed you they are but by telling you at the end of the day the weakest. that it is I who made everything possible, that it is I who worked behind the scenes, that it is I who controlled and manipulated everything just like some pathetic cheater Don’t get me wrong - in any easy exam. I want to be with you. Just to get to know you more, I am ready to manipulate If anything, maybe I can write these things so many things - about you in secret things I can hide in my heart’s darkest cellars for now things you would never have to know then just tell you everything (laughingly) in the I did. future. And I am so sorry Plenty of time to bide, if so many times to strive, I feel terribly inclined to make things happen to try to improve myself, in a forced manner become a better woman. through the methods I uncannily know; But one thing I’ll never do is pursue you. and always try to get in your way I’ll never do the pursuing even if most of the time, the making way it’s way out of mine. the courting I would never want to know the getting to know how it is to look at you And the trying to be close to you part. knowing that only my own human hands Because it’s not my part. engineered the story I’ll stick to the part that I know - we so thoughtlessly call ours. and that is to keep my heart pure. So pure I choose not to get my hands dirty. That when love finally finds me I’ll know that what I have is divine. My part is to trust God, to fix my eyes on Him, to acknowledge His sovereignty in all my life’s areas I don’t want human hands Not mine. Not yours. I want the only Hands that matter – His. That as I wait, He’ll be my only delight my singular motive, my one true purpose; for His will and His person to become my life's utmost concern. I’ll never pursue you or anyone else. I’ll pursue the One who loves me best, knows me best, and who’s the only authority to deem it best if ever you are the one I should have in my life…
Or not.
Until then, I may find myself liking you too much, but I will never pursue you.