Date: 2013

At the end of the day, you were in the road. No one else will ask you when you are feeling low.

As lightning flashes city glow like a sparking star. Never ending street lights. It asks you more pleasure
nights. A lady with burning cigarette cheer near at you. Hey man wanna have fun time with me. Many of
young kids fell in those silver nights to conquer their hunger. God bless our city.

Hey KM lady I am no longer in those lust time. You pay for kisses not for the soul. So, no more high hope
on your side. Move your ass from me. A common request in the streets of Kathmandu when elder seek
more thirst in their road. Color of city changes as day light passes by.

Almost my days were spreading layer upon layer. I am almost a lost tree in a concrete jungle. The only
chillax time when I left the office in evening hours. So, spending weekend under the colorful lights has
occupied my more space than in a green villa. Lost in lust and hunger of hunter has now compelled to
run from me. I must say I am a clean adult now.
 Episode One
I am in rush my cell had 8 missed call. Stormy and some thunders in the sky. The evening is different and
light rains fell into. A normal adult guy working in a private firm. Earning below the par I must admit that
fact. Private firm rape adult skills and earn more than they expect. This is a story of every start up firm.
The disappoint feeling is you input your hard ass and in return you get a less penny. This is a sad but true
story. Hard for living but never defeated. The road is continuing to earn more degree of satisfaction.

Phone Rings in a silent mode.

Fren-Hey man, where are you?

Me – I’m leaving, where are you all guys?
Fren- Came here in thamel?
Me- Ok, I’ll be there in an hour
The clock is about to hit 5:30 pm. Wind and light rain are falling down.

Thamel is place where many tourists feel like a glowing city of Nepal. In night it glows and gamble many
hearts. A spotlight in club, singer on hippie style, Junkies and drug diller ramp there. The place that
never want to sleep. Sleepless and puke people almost hanging here and there. Never afraid of dark. A
color of thamel change in night no one knows who owns and digest it. But the fact is you will enjoy your
tour at there. Middle age man chasing young girls, adult chasing dope digger. May be some kind of high
voltage or acid trip to pass the nights.

Sweet teen wants more parties and always paly gimmick characters. But never know they were losing
their virginity in silver light. Anyone will pay for it. The taste of heaven and you say once is not enough.

Driver in a parking lot selling nights for their customers. Fancy smile makes them loaded. This is life.

May be around 6:30pm, I am in heavy traffic jam. A common habit for Nepalese people has to bear dust
and smoke. It’s easy for us. I hardly managed to reach near durbar marg. A lot more missed call from
friends. Ring, Ring oh lord again I am late. No matter I have to hear some slang words from boys too.
Finally, I met them at thamel. Some friends’ queries, you jerk and lier. I have accepted that with humbly.

Friends are shouting where we will move now. Is there any place to hang out? My final words came
purple haze. Shouting thrill and rambling with teasing me. You jerk let’s move. Thanks God it’s Friday.

Never know you will digest your fun or not when you need more.

Purple haze is a hub of many youngster and for overseas people too. It always filled with loud music and
crowed head. Band playing rock and roll from behind. A dying circumstance for me. I love rock and roll.
Sweets girls, man, women, and foreign laid their evening at there. Cheering beer with burning cigarette
and flip flop dance are rising with us. I don’t know from where my energy came from. But when I am in
form, I am a wild cat as said by my friends. I never realized that I did such a terrible thing in high.

Music is a key for me. It has different meaning for me. It’s like fuel for living.

People were filled in big lobby, top roof out there in purple haze. You can blow from anywhere in that
place. At least you are cheering with you. Man have fun!!! Whiskey gin brandy with the glass I’m pretty
handy… AC/DC song is playing here again. Hell, what did they play this is my favorite one? We were hell
out of control. Dancing in wild position everyone eyes on us. For god shake we must stop now. After 4 or
5 minutes we were dam tired and run for rest room. Some friends puked. Never the less it was about to
out of me but I control myself. Oh! It’s too much. Standing on the corner and one last cigarette in hand.
Blowing in the wind I’m in high now. The soul is with me now. Spending 1 hours and leaving for rest
room again. Now time is about to hit 9 pm at clock. Controlling myself and chilling alone. Some of jerk
has left the place. Married friends and in every group, there is one jerk who drink one shot and act like
he has a highest shot among group. Fuck I said.

Resting about 15 minute I order one soft drink and cigarette from friend. Sometime magic happens and
you won’t believe. Accidently my eyes collide with blondie with golden hair lady. She’s under spotlight,
she looks like an angle may be beer charged me high or anything. I am seeing her just like in a movie.
Glowing smile, innocent eye’s hunted me in a spot. Love at first sight. Is that me I am feeling her. My
friend tries to push me to go home. I ask him stay for a while man. A first look that makes me feel in love
again. A high voltage is passing through me every time when I saw her. What’s wrong with me? I
couldn’t understand it. A face that print in my heart now leave from there. But I have your face
laminated in my mind. Oh lord thank for the good Friday. I realize this is mean for good Friday.
 Episode Two
Although I lost my heart somewhere. Remembering one line “when you saw your love for the first time,
then time stop. When your love hides then it’s run like a wind.

I am unable to concentrate in my work. One face that makes me hard for living. I didn’t even know her
name. Now and then college life always sucks me. Spending more time at café rather than in class is my
usual style. That is my legacy. And I do follow this rule till the end of my master degree. I am smelling
taste of love. Maybe I am feeling old spring time in me. Are you crazy? After 3 days I am in control. All
time memory kept inside me. Finally, I realize it’s time for career. No more pain in heart for me. I won’t
that devasting attack in me again.

Office life is quite a busy nowadays. A hard-hearted man shows his wiliness toward us. Almost every
employee hates their boss. So, do I. A new CEO was finally appointed in our office. Vision less but some
kind of maggot’s rat. He always tries to hide from our agenda. Some what we demand our promotion in
a scientific way. But he doesn’t have any idea and sail his tail from us. Now this is tough road for all of
us. Rumors are common in organization, just to keep everyone in illusion. Some fancy news is spreading
towards us that is our salary will be increased in time to come. We settle down for hard ass labor.
However, I believe baring dog never bites. Let see how this pig gonna changed our thoughts. Keeping
our life in edge we work on day and night. The new product is going to lunch soon. Almost all staff are
excited about this notice. And we put our extra effort to promote our product. One thing I learn
marketing is the process of making money from another pocket. This is a real business in a real scene. At
this time, I realize universities book just suck. What they taught us? No matter how many times we had
studied marketing course. At the end this is a picture of it. We are a support staff who technically solve
the application problem, provide a training to the customers, fix the bug and solve the issue of customer
in a humble manner. This is tough work for everyone. We act like one-man army at field. Never the less
software company always treat their support staff as a third-class citizen. These company invest less in
support staff. So, turnover is always high in this area. And one thing in every software industry has a
poor reputation, because sales after service is very poor.

But don’t dream it's over. It’s been 2 weeks I hadn’t met my boys. After finishing support, I return back
to my office. Ideal time is with me now. Other support staffs are also coming in their way. No one can
stay without social media. FB is one of the giant social media of our time. I open it and message my
friend. Hey man when we will gather next time. Plan for coming Friday. It been a while I am in clean
state. Quick reply from friend let me inform other boys too he said. ok buddy my reply.

It’s Friday morning I decided to go college. A same old story. All fellows are north and south pole. Hell,
seem like they are hi-fi. I don’t want to interfere their own time. I always wonder if I have a group of
friends in a college the life will sound good. That never happen in this time. It’s like federal state who
hide their ass from another state. This politic issue is also running in this topic nowadays. Somewhat
federal government will be soon established in Nepal. Lite the last cigarette of morning in café I left for
Tinkune office.

Those frustration time in office and same old routines are continue. My pending works are finishing
now. And decided to call my jerk friend. Ring gone. Hey Do you have any plan for toady evening. He
replays. No man I am quite busy. Three friends replay the same things. Fuck me. Losing hope in a
shadow and I made my way back to home. Nowadays south Indian move is very popular in us. Gather up
the remote and tune the Set max for resting my night with South Movie.
Life cost you more when you are empty. Never chased butterfly you’ll be bachelor. I quit all those lies
memory in me. Hey grow up man.
 Episode Three
Awakening late in the morning. Remaining all bullshit hard work ship at one place. I decided to cheer my
day at cafe. You know about load shedding. How corrupted people make us believe by underestimate
our resources. This is a nation-wide problem. All pigs head are busy in barging to sell our resources. Load
shedding fuck us at every time. No light in Kathmandu suck us. Whole things down at once. Who has a
favor on it? Politics ruin our system. Whatso ever our words will not be counted this is for sure. We are
the product whether you believe it or not.

At late afternoon around 2 pm. I had a call from friend. It’s annoyed me. Because they hadn’t received
mine call at once. So, this is a human nature and newton third law apply. In relationship it ruins what the
hell’s happening. Thank god I am save from it. Again, call begin to annoy me. I picked it up. First word
fuck why you are calling me? Stop it now.
Fren with soft voice-where are you?
Me- café
Fren- Came here in chettrapati we are having get together right now.
Me- Don’t’ have a penny now. Leave it.
Fren-Didn’t worry we will manage it yaar.
Me- Ok, mother flower I will be there in an hour.

Normal dress up. I am running like the wind to reach at there. All boys are gathering there. What the
heck is happening here. So, what we supposed to do now? Is there any plan? One friend shouted wow a
rice beer. A nepali style beer and fantastic in cheap price. When you have a less note you can afford it. A
rice beer. I am furious and drink it down. A little charge on me. Who gonna pay? There is some sponsor
you don’t have to worry about it said by friend. We settle down our evening in a Star restaurant.
Affordable restaurant in chettapati. Many tourist and local guys come here to taste rice beer. Pretty
famous among local market. I must have agreed on it. Additional 3 or 4 mugs were ordered. When you
are in high. Some shit happens every time. Old story about life, chick talks, breaking heart talks, more
over fucking office life and hated topic about politic were juggling at us. One last ghampe shot and we
were over from there. Burning cigarette in hand one friend asked us. Hey why don’t we move to purple
haze. Some of fellows replay we have emptied our pocket. No man it’s over. We should move home
now. In every group there is one hero who will show he had a lot more in his pocket. We said it’s ok. If
someone is offering you free as a gift accept it. So, do I humbly accept this invitation. All boys are ready
to give more shot on it.

Around 7;30 pm we set down to purple haze. Same old place and people are rumbling. Nothing has
changed it. But one thing about thamel is. Thamel is a lizard king. It has different color in the morning, in
day and in night too. God knows how this thamel acts us. But we love to be here once again. 3 bottles of
beer and one pack of cigarette. Old story continues. We were sitting in the middle of bar. Almost clock is
about to hit 8:30 pm and crowd is growing louder. Quickly I made a call to home. That I will be settle
down in brother home. When I am in high, I always pick my cell and made a deny call that I have a work.
This is my style. Permission granted from home. And I am a lizard king now.

Road house blues playing “future uncertain and the end is always near” true my friend. I am feeling
missing in me. I have no control in me. I am searching for love. Love me some body. The place is not
much fun as before. A lonely time in this place. She brings love to me again. I am searching her but this
time I have no luck on me. Two weeks ago, I have seen an angel in same place here.

Everything must be written before it happens. No one has denied this fact. I am losing my nerve no more
good days in my pocket. A tender feeling in me say she will be there or she is here. I don’t have any idea.
In pain you burn more. Even that liquid can’t touch your nerve with its hardness. It’s like a pale color of
liquid. This is how I am refereeing my Saturday. No name, no address and no hope. An extreme feeling
of battle losing solider in thamel is soaring inside.

What happen it happens for good someone has once said to me.
Episode Four