Alright, first, not doing a transcription anymore (maybe later, but for now I’ll take

pictures! There will be a tab on my website for them! I think it’s nice to add them because a large
focal point is to maintain childishness rather than purge it from my adaption).
I knew I was going to get bored—I’m awful with long-term projects. Historically, I…
yeah, simply put, not very good with staying on track. I’m definitely going to add a section in my
website detailing my learning experience because… the process has been tough. Not actually
tough because I don’t feel like I’m doing much. I’ve worked on my outline some, but then I…
lost it. So I’ve created a new one, which is probably better anyway because my thinking has
since changed.
Admittedly, I’m very behind as I’ve been overwhelmed with preparing for Cultural
Convention, the event itself, catching up on tests and lessons, and preparing for the SAT. But,
that’s an overused excuse—I don’t like using the word excuse… I prefer ‘explanation’.
Regardless, because of Cul Con taking over my time and draining all of my mental
energy, leaving me consequently bedridden for several days (not really, but as an introvert I took
a long time recovering from such a mental toll), I created schedules. I had a rough draft of a
Lang essay due the next day and I created a timely time-table. I’ve done this before and am still
confused as to why I don’t do so more often. I’m going to create a much more detailed schedule
for my project. It helps me to plan out my day. I’ll link each daily schedule as evidence of critical
thinking, maybe… and then my completed objectives will also be linked. I create my schedules
the morning of, so they’ll come intermittently.
I’ve learned that I can’t operate on schedules that give me a week of free time—I need
specifics or complete free-reign.
I’m not going to deny the fact that I’m far behind, but I am being honest when I say I’m
going to try a lot harder to keep up.
A primary concern I had when choosing a project relating to writing was losing my
passion. In English classes, even if they assign a good book to read, it’s immediately less
enjoyable simply because it’s work. Thankfully, I have not lost my passion for writing.
Un-thankfully (if I can use that as a transition word), all my creative juice has been funneled to
personal side projects rather than my catalyst project. I think I’m going to take time away from
thinking about Catalyst. It sounds counterintuitive, but I don't want this to be work. I want to
have fun when writing this. You can tell, sometimes, when an artist hates what they’re doing.
Even the best actors will lack this air that can’t be recreated. You don’t feel the absence of
enthusiasm in written works, but when it’s there you can tell. I want to be happy with what I
write so—
Yeah. Ending this reflection now. I’ve been researching on my own (as I’ve previously
said, I have my own side projects), but I haven’t been recording all the evidence because I’m not
thinking of work. Of course, I’ll have to go back and add that if I want to get a good grade but…
ending this reflection. Not going to think about researching, or filling out a document. I’ll just
write, and feel, and love, and gosh dang it, I’m going to write.
And it’s going to be good.