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Emma Maloney
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the next day and life wasn't so hard for them. On the other hand I was struggling to adjust to the
new changes in my life, I went from having to worry about little to nothing to almost everything.
But things were starting to easy up on me and it was all good till that one day, that one doctors
appointment. The doctor's appointment wasn't for me, it was worse for me, it was my mother's
doctor's appointment. It was one of the worst days of my life because of those nine words the
doctor said that day that i've learned to hate from the bottom of my heart, “ When are we going
to talk about this cancer?” she said to my mother. My heart sunk and life smacked me in the face,
at the age twelve you are only supposed to worry about a few things: school, chores and what
outfit to wear the next day. At the age of twelve you aren't supposed to worry about losing your
mother.
Let's rewind 3 months earlier to where it all started. It was a saturday afternoon and i
came into my parents room and my mom wasn't gone like she normally would be, seeing she
worked afternoons in the casinos on saturday. My dad rushed me and my little brother out the
room and told us she wasn't feeling good so we played and waited till dinner time when she first
woke up and called us. She didn't look well and asked if we could bring her some water so we
ran out the room and got her some water, but then she drank the water and told us she loved us
and went back to bed. I went to bed not knowing that was gonna be the last time i would talk or
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see her in the next week and the last time i would only have to worry about a few things. The
next day I woke up to my dad waking me up telling me he was taking my mother to the hospital
because he thought she had food poisoning from ihop. He came back that night and told me mom
was at the E.R and that she was gonna spend a night or two at the hospital. Fast Forward 3 days
and i've seen my dad a total of 3 times and mom a total of 0. Throughout the day now I have to
make sure my little brother is ready for school and ready before I leave, i've picked up more
That Friday after school my dad was home and asked how mom was and he told me that
me and my brother were going to see her today and I was so happy to finally see my mom. When
we got to the hospital the lights were dim and the hallways were cold it wasnt full and it felt
horrible being there. We walked into her room and she smiled and opened her arms for a hug, we
stayed there for about 2 hours till mom said dad should take us home and make us dinner. I didn't
wanna leave. I just wanted to stay there with her all night and not leave her alone. Till she looked
at me and said, “its even scarier here at night baby girl.” that was my que to leave so I kissed her
head and left. Now i don't remember much after that point till the day i came home and she was
sitting on the sofa eating chicken biscuits watching netflix. She told me that her doctor said she
can not eat anything with Calcium in it because her calcium levels were too high and it could
stop her heart. She stayed home a lot she went to doctors appointments when I was at school so
we could have more time together. Everytime we would go to the store to get food, I'd search
through what was in it to see if she could eat it or not. Then one day she said let's drive down to
my work so we drove all the way down town to the D las vegas. We walked over to the paycheck
area and she asked for her last paycheck. They asked “what do you mean last paycheck Patty is
everything okay” my mom smiled and just said “ she fired me for not being able to go to work
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for a little”. They handed her the check and waved me goodbye but I was happy mom didn't have
to go to work anymore. She always was working and even on her days off her boss called her in
I started going to as many doctor's appointments as I could with her after school, on the
weekends early morning late evenings. The last appointment i went to was on a saturday, it was
on the other side of town so mom decided to go get us some pops. Our favorite place in town we
got the normal and shared it as always, a number 4 no onion or pepper extra meat. We ate there
because the cold mist on our skin felt good and it got us out of the dry heat. After we finished
eating we still had a while so we went to meadows mall and walked around and smelled all the
candles in bath and body works. But the time finally came and we had to go to the doctors
office,the first doctor's office went quickly they sat and talked and he told her that her results
were in but we had to go to a different doctors office to get told the results. Mom was a little
flustered and we left the doctors office and drove to the next place we sang along to the songs on
the radio. When we hit a stop light and what seemed like ages waiting my mom reached to the
back seat and grabbed a music disk and put it in. The first song was our favorite song ‘If i ever
fall in love’ by shai, we jammed along with it like we always did, we rolled our windows down
and started singing it to the cars next to us till the light changed. Then shortly after we pulled up
When we walked in it was dark and cold it felt like a gloomy place as if its where they
sent people for bad news. We got to the waiting room and my mom checked in as we sat and
” Thats the nurse that i don't like because she can never put the iv in right”.
We both giggled alittle. Then this lady came out with long black hair tied up in a ponytail
and she had beautifully tan color skin and hazelnut brown eyes but a nasty look on her face. She
called my mother and we followed her into the room, i sat on a chair and kinda bent over and
played angry birds. The lady left the room to go get the papers, when she came back she did a
quick check up on my mom then sat there talking for a minute. Then she paused and looked at
me then my look with a nasty face as if she knew it would crush me. She looked at my mom and
That moment was as if the whole world stopped and my heart skipped a beat, I looked up at my
I jerked my head back down and bit my quivering lip and held back the tears. I didn't hear any
other part of that appointment i was too busy trying not to cry my eyes out . All i remember is
thinking to myself,
“What am i gonna do if she dies, ill have to live with grandma. I don't wanna lose her i barely see
her already and now i'm never gonna see her again… i wish i would just wake up and this would
all be a bad dream.” I paused for a second and thought,” please be a bad dream” as i pinched
myself i wanted to burst out crying right there , because it wasn't a bad dream it was reality. I
hated reality i hated the thought of having to go the rest of my life without her.
The ride home was long and quite i just glared out the window as tears rolled down my
cheeks. Every so often my mom look at me and rub my arm or leg, every now and then id look at
her and see tears rolling down her cheek.We got home and sat in the driveway for a minute in
“ I'm sorry baby girl she knew i didn't know therefore you didn't know and she still said it it
She pulled me close to her and kissed my head and i start crying as if there was tomorrow., i felt
a her tears drop off her face onto me. We both pulled away from each other and whipped our
tears off. “Well i think we should make nachos tonight” she said and i giggled.
Those weeks after words were probably the worst weeks for my mental health, but I
didn't realise something. Number 1 being: appreciate the things you have in life because one day
you might not have them anymore. Number 2: always go for the leap in life because you don't
want regret not doing it later on. Number 3: life doesn't care who you are it will always try to tear
you apart, so be strong enough to put yourself back together. Number 4: live your life to the