I messed up

I️can’t take back what I️said.

I️wish that I️was dead.
These feelings and thoughts in my head, running through me as I️lay in bed.
Tears, heartbreak, it happened again.
The thought of losing her forever stuck in my head.
what am I️supposed to do when I️can’t do anything without you.
The good, the great, in my life, flashing by like I’m saying goodbye.
Stay, please stay my love. I️was angry, jealous, rude to you. My heart it hurts, but
yours does too, I️just wish that I️never said those words to you.
Days, weeks, without your smile, could mean that I️wasted the mile, the mile that we
had so well, the mile that was so swell, the bumps the bruises, all torn down. I️messed
up, real bad.
And now we’re both sad.
Happy is what I️wish you to be, even if it’s not with me.
The thing that hurts, is when I️said “I’ll never let anyone hurt you” but I️hurt you
instead... Forgiveness is hard to give, I️understand, not everything in life I’m going to
withstand.
I’m weak in my mind, weak in my heart. I️hope that you’re not falling apart.
Memories I️want to continue, with you it’s always a new menu. Of fun, hope, charity,
peace. I need you in my life. Can’t you see?
The sky, the stars, even the sea, I would go these distances just to have you with me.
The sun is bright, you know that to be, but when You smile it’s brighter than the
galaxy.
I️hope you know how much you mean to me. I️screwed up bad, can’t you see?
I’m hopeless without you and me.
Friendship is what I️hope we can still be. I️just don’t want you to be mad at me.
I’m just a boy, a young man, with feelings and emotions that can get out of hand. I️
didn’t mean those words I️said to you.
My pain inside is worse than ever before, I️don’t want to feel this way anymore. I️love
you, I️hope you know. but if you love me, is a different story.
I️don’t blame you, a guy like me. It might be better if you did hate me, I’d be crushed,
don’t get me wrong. But if that’s what makes you happy, I’ll be gone.
Forgive me love, is all I️ask. I️can’t do this without you, take my hand.
I’ll get on my knees if I️have to, kiss your hands and feet. As long as you forgive me,
I’ll do anything to get you back.