Sil ercoats

Maga ine
Issue

2020-2021
Le er from he Edi or

Hello Reader !

Thi ear ha been a diffic l one for e er one, incl ding

he Sil ercoa eam. We ere no able o ha e cl b
mee ing in he fall, o e had limi ed ime o ga her
bmi ion and p oge her a maga ine in he pring.

The den a Vi a Ridge High School ha e orked hard

o ri e he e piece , and e are pro d o be able o
pre en hem and pro ide a pace here den can hare
heir crea i i .

We hope o enjo I e 4 of Sil ercoa Maga ine!

Ka ie Ellenberger
Edi or-in-Chief
Sil ercoa Maga ine

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 Table of Contents
C A :O G a E ca B Jad M ,
S

The Feeling of Na re b Dako a Fi her .. 3

Where I m From b Ale McBride .5
E er da Color b Adara Ceja Albarran .. 6
Hope b Alie Mi kie ..8
Pa and F re b Ka ie Ellenberger .. 11
I Am. b Adara Ceja Albarran . 12
Merchan Came To To n b Adia Re nold .. 14
Where I m From b Chel ea To h ... 21
The Fic ion in Reali b Pa rick S rahan . 23
A olo l b Ka ie Ellenberger ... 25
Gho S or b Jaden H men .... 26
Fa her Call O o Me b Gene i Andino-Cabrera . 29
Co onball in he Sk b Chri iana Conde ... 31
Mandalorian + Grog b Y ne a Rodrig e .. 32
7 7 7 b Morgan Hall .33
The Gre In Her E e b Helaina Medina ...34
Wa ed Po en ial b Lenora Mi chen ... 35
The An iq e Shop b Pa rick S rahan . 37
No hing More b Fai h Ta lor .... .42

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 T F Na
Da aF ,S

The mall cold paper hin flake ha fall

From he k .
I am par of a er ha come from
Up abo e.
I free e in o de ailed
Blade .
Chilling he air hro gho fall and in er.
Se ing he bea if l holida mood.
Al ho gh hi ma be he ca e, I am al o
De r c i e.
Yo enjo m cold chill nipping a o r no e and o her
Limb .
U ing m pale hi e flake o crea e no ball
Thro ing hem a each o her.
B ilding for o keep arm and co er,
M ch like he indigeno Ala kan
Before o .
Wha o ld o do i ho me?
No more no ball figh
Nor no angel .
J he dr ear h i h he occa ional
Rain orm.
I crea e ec ri for he cr mpling ear h
Dr ing e er da from he
Imperfec ac ion
H man ake.

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I help pre er e hing , op fore from
B rning do n.
I am bea if l and de r c i e
Wi ho me o o ld be
Lo .
Lo from all he 'magical momen '.

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 W I F
A McB d , S

I'm from he Golden S a e

From a place here i ' mmer all ear ro nd

I'm from he a on rfboard

From he o nd for cra hing a e

I'm from here palm ree are m k craper

I'm from he mell of al ea air

And alk on he pier

I'm from R b ' diner milk hake

From ocean n e and golden ho r

I'm from and oe , rf hop , and ice cream cone

I'm from fre h made lemonade

From lemon in he back ard

I'm from a green porch ing

Tha no collec pider eb

I'm from long car ride and card game

From ho el a and ro e 66

I m from here er m famil i , no ma er he di ance

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 E da C
Ada a C a A ba a , J

E er da I ake p o cream,
cream hi e all ,
a all gla of milk,
he blinding hi e
of m ba hroom ligh ,
pale hee of paper con aining grea e pec a ion .

A ki chen fe i e i h orange and bro n and red .

I i arm and comfor ing and m mo her i here, ba hed
in enderne ;
eemingl mmoned b he bro n ear h mell of coffee,
i af in he air mi ing i h a hea enl d ing of red
cinnamon and la rel.
S nligh fil er in hro gh he indo ,
bleeding orange,
a fir , neak ,
creeping in.
Then
earing p he all of he ho e
demanding o be een.

The earl morning i m ed,

a ir in a cold iron bl e k
before b r ing, an e al a ion of pride.
The ra of n make he il er de drop dance.
The car door are gra and diamond,
b il of i ani m all
and flim a a mo h ing.
The no inkle a gree ing a I alk do n m dri e a
cold concre e mee m boo ed fee .

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The road gro l menacingl benea h m fee
a icio a an earl ri er.
M rk black aining he pa che of no
S ark ello line rail he road
M ello brick road.
The air i cri p and m e e are brigh ,
omorro i ano her da .

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 H
A M ,S

A o ng man i on a nea l made bed, li ening o he

pi er-pa er of he rain
And a ching he drop reflec he glo from he
ree lamp arm ligh .
Hi mind repla ing he ame mphonio acca o of
mo rnf l r mpe
And hi ho gh o emp he eemed o drif abo ,
aimle l floa ing
Which ro e he o er helming and omino hi per
Tha n il hen, had onl briefl fli ed hro gh he
forefron of hi brain i h a moo h dance.

Hi mind no longer a on one bjec , preferring in ead

o drif abo in a gracele dance
Tha hi bod belie e he can op i h ear flo ing like
po nding rain.
Brea he, he ind hi per
a i blo a a he clo d o re eal he moon olemn
ligh ,
and if he foc e , e er hing emporaril fade and hi
mind begin floa ing.
He re rn fro ning hen he once again hear he
cre cendo of he r mpe .

B he pa e : he no longer re emble a dirge of

r mpe .
Beca e no , heir no e appear in fron of him, making
hi e e dance
A a hole melod began floa ing,
No onl hro gh hi bod , b hro gh he all , hi
 bed hee , and he orren of rain
Un il he hole orld eem o glo i h he no e
nning ligh
And ran por him o a place made of olid hi per .

The er gro nd benea h him q ake from he eigh of

he hi per .
The air i filled i h he rh hm aroma ri ing from he
r mpe .
The o ng man ong e i a a h i h he air delicac of
ligh
And hi ear ca ch he mo inde cribable dance.
E en hen he once again able o hear he rain
He can almo en i ion him elf in ha al erna e orld,
fore er floa ing.

Here in hi room, hi mile di appear , a he no longer

floa ing.
B hen he look back o he indo , he moon i ill
here. Brea he, i hi per .
And finall , he doe . S ar are re ealed from behind he
clo d ha bro gh he rain
While an nh rried decre cendo lead o he comple e
cea ing of he r mpe .
The irrepre ible ho gh finall end heir bl ndering
dance;
A la , he i able o impl be pre en in he moon
con i en ligh .

The o ng man clo e hi e e , feeling relie ed: air ,

almo ligh
B no floa ing
He co ld no drif again, o lo l he ood and mo ed
i h hi hear : a dance.
 Brea he, he hi per .
A o nd gre deep i hin: an plif ing gro p of r mpe
Who promi ed o hel er him like an mbrella if hi ear
once again decided o rain.

Af er man ear , a gen le ligh a hed on hi eeping

hear o rid i of he blinding rain.
From hi er being, a floa ing ne rro nded him, f ll
of mello r mpe ,
So hen he mble in hi dance, he p he on, brea hing
in rh hm i h he moon hi per .

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 Pa a d F
Ka E b ,S

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 IA .
Ada a C a A ba a , J

Where am I from?
I am from m mo her' ear and m fa her' ea .
From pain
And orro
B al o lo e
And jo .

I am from coffee poon clanking again he ink

he igh of longing
for o r home co n r and
he de ermina ion o remain here.
I am from Sa rda morning pancake i h jam pread on
hem
(Mom didn belie e in r p)
I am from C a Ab a on cold in er morning
from la e nigh a ing p i h a book o A A a a!! Ya
D .

I am from he ho e a he dead end of P Road,

i h he and nfini hed road and he hi e fence.
From he carred hand of m fa her, Ma
and he oo hing care of m mo her, Ya .
I am he child of immigran
ho came i h no hing o lo e and
e er hing o gain.

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 I am from Me ico and a a
And a a and m grandparen ho li e here.
From m a , clamoring lo dl
in he backgro nd of m phone call i h ab a.
I am from La S a , he Me ican baker on m block
And Pa D T L for m 15 h bir hda .

I am from b dding ro e b he in o r fron ard o

ee h mmingbird dar ing hro gh heir bloom .
I am from he ro of ree ne o m ho e,
i h branche o hick o co ld ra el o Fair land.
I am from he rain ea on here he gra gre aller han
I a
and I do e in,
i hing I co ld a fore er.

I am from Sa rda pen cleaning o he rich one of

V F a
From F a ha en on n il 1 in he morning
I am from he bl e bo nder m bed,
filled o he brim i h hell , crocker , marble
and he old ondering of a fi e ear old

I am from he momen o i h o co ld free e and li e

in fore er.
I am from ligh and dream ,
From ard and fea her
I am from all he e hing and more.
I am.

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 M c a Ca T T
Ad a R d ,S

O her band of merchan came o heir li le

o n, of co r e. Cara an from all corner of heglobe,
e ing p in he open air marke and filling he pace i h
ho and bargain . The o n a colorf l hen. The
fabric roof of heir make hif all o ld billo pla f ll .
The o n a ali e.
Unlike he o her , he e merchan didn ha e a
e ime o arri e. E en e ima ing ha ea on of he ear
he o ld arri e a impo ible. Mo freq en l
ho e er, he arri ed in he hear of in er, hen he
people piri ere a heir lo e . S ch a he ca e
hen a li le bo , Timo h , ran back home.
I a hem, I a hem! he cried, hro ing open
he door.
Hi mo her, a oman named Ma ilda, opped
kneading he do gh on he co n er. Sa ho?
The il ! I a he il alker coming hro gh
he clo d ! He a peaking of he merchan . Tha a
heir preferred- or onl - mode of ra el acro he plain .
Ma ilda face li p. Go ge o r ibling . H rr
no . She her elf a alread aking he apron off. Ma ilda
had fi e children- o of hom ere ad l and had
alread mo ed o . And e if he ood ne o ei her of
her elde children, he o ld look like ano her ibling in
he line p. Her hair a ill a moo h, heal h bro n and
i h onl he beginning of age gro ing i ible. Had here

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been more ime he migh ha e checked her face habi all
for an more rinkle .
Three li le children bo nded do n air . Timo h
a he olde ill a home, el e and all for hi age.
Ne a Harrie , and hen George, barel i and e en
hem el e .
Go ge ome hing nice on, he in r c ed, hen
pondered. Soon he hole o n o ld kno , incl ding
heir fa her. She decided o mee him here. And he o ld
be here. Once he fir of he il alker appeared, i a
onl a ma er of ime before he en ire o n a ga hered
in he q are.
Toge her he all headed do n he ree . I a a
hor alk hro gh he neighborhood, he children al a
r nning ahead and being in r c ed o ai . A mall cro d
had alread ga hered hen he arri ed.
The merchan had alread go en off hi il ,
hich made him a all a he olde pine o ea . When
he merchan mo ed, he ere more a ilho e e of he
o il han ac al people. Each ear he children a ked
h he mo ed ha a , and each ear he merchan
ga e a differen an er.
I he fa e - and be - a o ra el, One aid
i h a ink.
We ra el along ide he bird hen he fl o h
for in er, and j happen o pa he lo of o along he
a.
We come from he clo d . The il are j o r
a o ge do n o all of o land-d eller .
S orie for children, o be re. The merchan
o ld al a look a he ad l i h an am ed mile a

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 he ga e heir e plana ion . The cara an of il alker
a al a he ame. T el e member , heir children on
occa ion, and fo r car for ran por a ion of good and
people. The car ere al o po i ioned on he ame reed
like il ha ho ld no ha e ppor ed ome hing of
heir eigh . And e he did. The car mo ed i h more
mechanical mo ion ho gh, bending a he knee ih
no i ible dri er. No one nder ood ho , and no one b
he children a ked.
B a a ,
Ma ilda ho gh . I a n or h q e ioning. An ea
rade-off. Accep he oddi ie of he e merchan , and ge
heir are a re ard.
The merchan ref ed o ell en irel on he fir
da . The ed i for npacking. A h moro a he bird
e plana ion a , if one a ched hem ork, i did begin o
look animali ic, in inc al. The merchan o ld end
one il alker ahead of he gro p, and he re o ld
arri e an ho r la er af er he fir one en a me enger
bird back. Tha a he onl a he eemed o
comm nica e. The merchan ed poken ord o he
illager , b i h each o her, he ei her en me enger
bird or comm nica ed i h nod and bod lang age.
E en i h heir children, ord ere ne er ered. A
mo he merchan o ld e ar ing hi le o gain he
children a en ion.
The fir da of heir i i a ome hing of a
fe i al. Drink and fea ing came freel , and nearl he
hole da a pen in he q are celebra ing. The econd,
hird, and fo r h da ere ric l for b ine .

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 The morning of da o bro gh i h i an
nner ing ilence. O ernigh , he merchan had e p
en . Unlike o her merchan ho came o o n, he e
one did no opera e in he marke . The en ga e no
oppor ni ie for onlooker o peek or e en ea e drop. I
a pri a e. The cro d hif ed e er o of en n il one
man, Ed ard, called o , Oh, go on, Ma ilda, e all kno
ha o an .
Ma ilda bl hed f rio l a a mall ch ckle
pread hro gh he pop lace. She raigh ened her back,
Ma be I ill.
The cro d par ed j eno gh o le her hro gh.
In he ame momen , a merchan epped o of her en .
A dark kinned oman i h a kind mile, ho held he
flap open a Ma ilda epped in ide. A Ma ilda pa ed he
oman, he ho gh here a he o nd of a flock of
bird flapping ildl . She glanced aro nd, and finall
iden ified he noi e o be from he merchan . Impo ible,
of co r e. Impo ible. The oman ore a cloak ha
eemed niform for he merchan , deep bl e i h gold
i ched pa ern . The merchan il ed her head ligh l ,
e e a deep black ha eemed o darken a he en ered
he en . She con in ed o mile, ho gh. The flap clo ed
behind hem, remo ing he nligh . The ligh ha did if
hro gh a d ed red from he fabric i ra eled hro gh.
The a a a able of poli hed golden bro n
ood. The miling oman ook o a por ion of
parchmen and ink. Then i began, a al a , i h he
c omar phra e, Wha i o r i h?
Ma ilda kne none of he o her illager co ld
hear her, b he ill f ed i h her kir , Yo h, plea e.

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 The merchan nodded, I hall be done. Come p
i h an adeq a e pa men for he ear o ho ld r l
be b he fo r h and final da of b ine . And i a
done. An e idence of he beginning age of aging
di appeared. In reali , Ma ilda o ld ha e been gro ing
clo e o i . She epped o of he en , fre h a a flo er,
and ano her per on a bro gh in. Tha a ho he ne
hree da proceeded.
B he fo r h da Ma ilda arri ed a he o n
q are i h ha he ho gh o be adeq a e pa men , all
hree children in o . A p re hi e do e in a ne cage.
Harrie and George kep r ing o o ch i . Timo h a
ncharac eri icall q ie .
I a ab a .
A fe o her ere arri ing i h heir pa men ,
ho gh ome had paid on he da of heir ran ac ion.
Mo had elec ed one kind of bird or ano her. The
merchan eemed o like ha or of hing. O her ill
bro gh po che hea i h coin , mo likel a ed p he
en ire ear for hi one e en . Ma ilda alked for ard
confiden l . She e do n he cage in fron of he lead
merchan , he man ho had been he fir o arri e. He
a alread rro nded b an arra of pa men . He
nodded o he per on before Ma ilda i h a mile, b
hen he rned o her hi e e became cold.
In fficien , he a ed.
Wha ? B - b hi ha al a been eno gh
before.
In fficien , he hr gged and began canning
he cro d.

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 W a a a ? he panicked, Sir, ha
o ld be S fficien ?
Tha i ha I m looking for.
She pa ed, E c e me?
He didn an er, finall opping on Timo h . He
poin ed o he bo , Thi ill be fficien .
Wha !?
The merchan e ended a hand, and Timo h ook
i i ho he i a ion.
Yo can ha e m child!
I ha alread been decided.
Ma ilda looked aro nd for omeone, an one ho
o ld help her. Someho , he hadn no iced he q are
clearing o . She a alone. The onl o her o l , be ide
her famil and he merchan - ho he a beginning o
do b had a o l a all- ere a flock of pigeon ha cooed
abo . She rned back o Timo h , ho a looking p a
he merchan . The merchan p lled o a mall cloak
iden ical o hi o n and rapped i aro nd he child.
When Timo h looked back he eemed apa he ic o ard
her.
Can I ake i back? Tear bl rred her i ion, I
an o ake i back- plea e, le me ake i back.
A deal i h canno be ndone. I ha been
decided and e all m li e i h i . Yo r o h for one of
o r o h . A fair rade.
No i i n ! Gi e me back- The merchan
grabbed Timo h and he di appeared in a p ff of
fea her . Ma ilda knel o he gro nd, eeping and
cl ching he fea her a if ha o ld bring hem back.

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 The ne ear, he didn allo her children o go
o he q are. Or he ne ear. Or he ne . B he did
al a ee one of her children. A li le bro n haired bo
r nning aro nd i h he o her merchan children a if he
a one of heir o n. I a a if Timo h didn e en
recogni e her o be hi mo her. He ne er ackno ledged
her, n il he ear came ha he m ha e grad a ed in
heir rank . I a Timo h ho held open he en flap
ha ear a Ma ilda epped in ide for ano her i h.

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 W I F
C aT ,S

I am from hair ie , enni hoe

And bagg bl e jean
I am from he ind and chill
And he ree ha blo
I am from a h mid clima e
And he er cold no

I am from he Ken ck Bl egra and modera e air

Tha make he fr i j righ and rare
I am from he familie and he gif
o all he plea e and hank o

I am from bike ride

And he kinned knee of knee ha hi
The hard gre concre e

I am from he brigh bl e ea
And he b mp a e along he a
I am from he a er aro nd m fee
The colde lake I o ld a

I am from he bigge of familie

Tha almo eem nreal
B i ac all er lo el

I go da b da i h a a ing from home

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 There' al a ano her da
Al ho gh man o her go b hi ho gh
I help a lo along he a

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 T Fc R a
Pa c S a a , J

The k a dark and gloom oda a he clo d

began o cr and make i rain. E er one a mo ing
abo , going o heir job , home , or here er he ere
going. I a among he people alking, b I had no
de ina ion, no here o be. The rain began o fall harder
and harder, ho gh nobod became e . No he road of
he ree , or he indo of he k craper , no hing a
ge ing e .
A I con in ed o alk I came acro a mall
flo er hop. The rain a ill po ring do n o er he ci ,
like a fa ce po ring a er in o a ink. I looked pon he
flo er o ee ha he hop had. Mo of hem ere
i hering and d ing, here a no hing happ abo hem.
E en ho gh he flo er ere i hering a a , people came
p and bo gh hem. I didn make an en e, h o ld
o an o b a flo er ha ill die oon and lo e i
bea ?
The more I alked hro gh he ci , he more
orro f l hing I a . I eemed like no hing in hi orld
a good an more. Like o r plane o ld cra h and b rn
a an momen . Then I heard foo ep coming from
behind me. And a girl I kne arri ed, appearing o of
brea h. She a a kind friend o ard me, b e e been
o of o ch. I ho gh ha he had abandoned me, b
here he a , anding in fron of me. The girl a looking

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a me i h a kind look in her e e and he reached o her
hand o ard me.
I a ner o , I didn e en kno if I co ld r
her in hi horrible orld e li ed in, ho gh her e e ere
f ll of jo and r . I reached o and grabbed her hand
onl o feel hole again. S ddenl he orm di appeared
o of no here, he flo er bloomed and became
bea if l, and he orld a hopef l again. Then me and
he girl en o go and ca ch p. Ma be he a e feel
abo he orld can affec o r o n i ion of i .

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 A
Ka E b ,S

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 G S
Jad H ,J

Silence. I had ne er heard ch q ie ne before,

almo like I a dreaming i , hen a a e of cold relief.
The pain from m or o p had ani hed in a blink of an
e e and ddenl e er hing en dark. I all had happened
o q ickl . I don remember m ch b I remember ha
hen m e e had opened again, i a no from he
per pec i e of m h man bod looking p in o he k , i
a he per pec i e of ome hing looking do n a
m elf. Shock hi me a I a m elf i ho he aid of a
mirror or reflec i e rface, i a an odd e perience ha
a be i ne plainable. I hadn e en reali ed ha had
happened o me, I had forgo en ho I e en go in o hi
i a ion, and ill, I can no ell o ha happened. I
lo l reali ed ha if I a looking a m elf hro gh
ome or of medi m, i had o be ome hing pec ral or
piri al, like I a being re rrec ed. I co ldn mo e, I
co ldn alk, I co ldn e en blink, I a ck looking a
m elf bea en p. Then, I a ome hing, an almo
errif ing p rple ligh , i looked like a UV ligh and i a
p lling me. M glance had hif ed from m bod raigh
o he ligh , and I fel a if ha e er medi m I a in a
ge ing maller hile I a being dragged in o ha ligh . I
an ed o cream, I an ed o kick and ge o of
ha e er I a in b i a impo ible. Clo er and clo er
and hen, ilence again.

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 I a lef alone in o ano her dark place i h onl
m ho gh . I had no idea ha a happening, b for
ome rea on, I a no cared. Then, he oice of a man
poke, Who are o ? I a conf ed beca e I didn ee
an bod in hi dark place, b I ried o re pond i h
Plea e, help! b I co ldn alk, I a ck. Hi oice
onl go lo der, Who are o ? M nkno n medi m
ar ed o feel pre re like I a being q ee ed in
omeone hand. The man aid If o do no kno ho
o are, I ill end o back o learn. and hen ddenl a
bla of hi e ligh hi me. I don remember ha
happened af er ha , b I oke p in a bed, i h nligh
j hi ing m e e and a clock o m righ ha had aid
9:23 AM on i . I o ched m head a i had fel like I had
he or migraine. I go p and looked aro nd he room
o ee ge - ell card and lo l ro ing flo er . I alked
hro gh he open door do n a hall a o in e iga e. The
hall had pic re of a famil . I a a fa her, and a mo her,
o i er , and one on. I ho gh o m elf, ho are
he e people? a I alked do n he hall, a he end of he
alk a here a a door open ligh l . I hear omeone, a
oman. She o nded p e b I co ldn ell ha he a
a ing.

I alked f r her in o he room, r ing o a oid

being no iced. The oman a i ing on her maroon
colored bed holding a pic re, he a cr ing. I alked in o
he room, conf ed, and a ked, Hello, ho are o ? She
didn e en look p a me, i eemed like he didn e en
no ice me. I a ked again, hen no re pon e. S ddenl he
aid i h a obbing oice, Wh did o ha e o go o

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 oon? he placed he pic re do n be ide her, and I a
ome hing ha I o ld ha e ne er imagined I d ee. I a
a pic re of me, i ing in a ho pi al bed. I began o alk
back ard, errified of he r h ha hi one pic re had
n eiled o me. Thi oman i mo rning he lo of me,
b I e claimed: I am righ here! I ho gh o m elf,
Thi can be r e, i impo ible! The oman began o
ge p and alk righ hro gh me o he hall a . A he
a alking a a , I co ld ell ha he a hi ering. The
r h hi me like a rain, I a gone, and no , I a a
looking a m famil .

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 Fa Ca O M
G A d -Cab a, S

God,
Do o hear me?
Cr ing o o o .
M hear long for o r lo e.

God,
Do o feel m pa ion?
The earn in m o l.
Fa her, lo e me like I long for.

God,
Yo bring me jo .
I o r lo e, no a o .
Be- ill m hear I kno o r grace.

God,
One da e ill mee
To pend all e erni oge her
Wa ching do n on ho e e lo e
Thi make me feel a lo be er.

Thank o God for all o do

Yo r pre ence fill e er room.
Yo r lo e i like no o her
No ord can compare.
Yo re m God.

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There no hing el e o here.

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 C ba S
C a aC d ,J

Co onball in he k ,
So of and fl ff .
I an o lie do n on o like a bed,
Beca e o eem o comf .

Co onball in he k ,
Wha are o o far a a ?
Come do n o me,
So e can pla .

E er here I go, I ee o in he k .
I i h I had ing , o I can fl .
Soaring hro gh he kingdom kie , feeling free.
Ma be hi i here I an o be.

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 Ma da a +G
Y aR d ,S

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 7 7 7
M a Ha , J

He hen dre hi ord, and le hem bo h.

S ord , armo r, ba le
Con an c cle of dea h and fear.
A Tho and And One Nigh .
S ord ha drink blood.
The me allic mell of ar.
The a ra of dea h lingering.

A :T ba a
AT a A O N b N a R -K a

T a a H a b
b :a a .

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 T G I H E
H a a M d a, J

B if an one a k , ell hem e're fine ere he la

ord I had old her hen e ere anding on op of he
cliff i h he dead ello gra nder o r fee and he cri p
harp ind pre ing on o r face from he ocean hore. I
a gloom , no po of da ligh , j he gre clo d ha
rro nded ha reflec ed off of he darkne heocean
ho ed. S anding here on he edge, no a o nd made,
j looking in o he di ance of he ne er ending a er. I
looked o er m ho lder and a he face ha once had
e er hing he an ed hipped a a from her f re. If
e old ho e go here, e o ldn' be ali e and be free
like e are a hi er momen . So hen a ranger come
p o , e are no he ame people ha e ere
e erda or he da before and he one before ha .

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 Wa dP a
L aM c ,S

We a h man ai
We ai i h he po en ial o do ome hing
To do ome hing grea
B onl fe ill accompli h heir dream

The ob acle ma be oo high o o ercome

Like a mall child anding ne o M . E ere
Ye ome ha e made i o he op

Like a oman anding on he and

Wan ing o cro he ocean
Ye o r ance or had o cro he ocean

Like a man hinking abo he mile ahead

Wan ing o keep going b hi fee are earing o
Ye people r n mara hon for f n

H man le do b drag hem do n o here heir goal

eem impo ible
B ome of he fe people p h pa ha do b
The p h hro gh he bo ndarie of heir bod
The ell heir mind o j keeping p hing for here
almo done

B man can no do hi
Man people o ld ra her a in comfor

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In ead of p hing heir ph ical bo ndarie he go and
i on he co ch

So he q e ion I m a king i
Wha ill o do?

Will o p h he bo ndarie and limi ?

Or ill o cc mb o he comfor ?

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 T A S
Pa c S a a , J

I kno hi i n going o make en e, b I migh

a ell ell o abo ha I a . I a a fe ear ago,
depending on hen o fo nd hi book. I an o ell o
abo m grandmo her old an iq e hop and ha I
di co ered. When m grandmo her pa ed, he lef me her
old hop in her ill. I a n planning on bringing back he
hop; b I did an o ee ha m grandmo her had for
merchandi e and ee ha I co ld ell.
I ook he ke and opened he fron door o he
old hop. I fel range o be back in ide here again. I
ha en been in ide in 15 ear , before me and m mom
mo ed a a from he b rb and in o he ci in ano her
a e. I a j like I remembered i , r n do n f ll of
no hing b j nk in m e e , B he ere rea re o m
grandmo her. There a ome old, r ed, and raigh p
eird ff ha m grandmo her collec ed, b e didn
j dge her.
There ere lamp i h a el a he end , pl
pla e , c p , bo l , and ea po ha ere all r ed and
looked er old. I mbled on an old de ice I hink a
called an abac , o be hone I didn kno ha half of
he e i em ere. When I en o grab i I began o feel
eird, like I a hall cina ing. I hen a ancien Greek
ma hema ician orking i h abac , one e en had he
ame one I a holding on o. I dropped he abac in a
panic and began o back a a from i .

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 I backed in o a pile of ma k and one fell in o m
hand . I a a hocke ma k, and hen I a a a hocke
adi m. A fierce game be een o eam a occ rring.
I a one pla er ka ing a bi oo fa and ran in o he all,
cracking hi ma k.
I dropped he ma k and I a back in ide he
an iq e hop. I began o r n n il I lo m a in he
ma e of an iq e . I hen fell on o a orn pillo and a a
bea if l field. There ere heep e er here I looked,
here m ha e been 100. B before I co ld calm m elf,
all he heep began o r n a a from ome hing.
A I rned aro nd, I a a pack of ol e
r nning o ard hem. I a clear ha he ere h ngr ,
and on heir men oda a lamb chop . I ried o r n o
a e hem b I a no here near fa eno gh. S ddenl
he i ion ended, and I ran o of he ore. I hen
remember a a ing m grandmo her ed o a , E er
an iq e ha a or .
For he ne fe da I a ed in m ho el room
r ing o proce ha I a . The hocke pla er,
Ma hema ician , and he heep co ldn ge o of m
head; i fel like he ere ck here in a li le pen or
ome hing. I co ldn leep for he la fe nigh . I a o
re ed, i fel like I a going o fall o er and die a an
momen , B I had o keep m head on and foc , b a
oon a I aid ha reali ha ered.
I fell back ard from m anding po i ion, in o a
orld of fic ion. The floor began o cr mble a I ar ed o
fall do n in o a o er of ab . I fel like I a falling for
ho r , eeing he ame all i h no hing o change. I
oon a glo ing k -bl e phere falling aro nd me.

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Each one gre bigger o here I can ee clearl ha a
in ide of hem. I a all he i ion I a in he old hop.
Fir ere he ancien ma hema ician i h heir abac e ,
hen he hocke pla er i h he cracked ma k, and finall
he herd of heep being cha ed b ol e . B he fo r h
one a he mo hocking for me. I a m grandmo her
ri ing on a piece of paper.
S ddenl I heard a o nd from he back of m
head. I a a bea if l angelic oice ha oo hed m o l.
A fir i o nded like ind in m ear b oon, i began
o make en e.
There a ecre in he hop, a lo rea re o be
fo nd. B i i hidden from bo h igh and o nd. To find
hi rea re o m no lea e and a . hen come back
o me o e ma pla . no come o he hop and find he
or . Abo o kingdom figh ing for glor . B he o
king are oo blind o ee, he more he figh , he fa er
heir kingdom fall ill be.'' he ang in m ear.
I had no idea ha he oice mean b oon
e er hing en black. I heard a ma c line oice calling
o for me, and a lo d beeping o nd in he backroom. A
I opened m e e I co ld ee I a in a ho pi al room. The
doc or old me ha I fain ed from a high fe er, and one of
he room er er fo nd me ncon cio on he floor.
I fel a bi off, hich m ha e been from he
fe er, B I co ldn ge he oman oice o of m head.
I need o find a or abo o kingdom a ar, and he
more he figh he ooner heir kingdom ill fall? I pen
m en ire i i in he ho pi al r ing o fig re o ha i
mean . Once I a free o lea e I headed raigh for he

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an iq e ore. I opened he door and looked aro nd for
ome kind of cl e o find ha I a looking for.
I earched hro gh all he book , b fo nd
no hing abo o kingdom a ar. I looked and looked
and looked b ill fo nd no hing. I a abo o lea e
hen ome hing ca gh m e e. I a he old che board
ha me and m grandmo her ed o pla oge her. I a
ill in good condi ion oo, b hen I ar ed o hink.
Tha hen I reali ed i , I a ppo ed o look for he
che game no a book. T o kingdom a ar i h each
o her and he longer he figh he fa er he kingdom ill
fall. Or he longer o pla he game, he clo er omeone
i o lo ing. I grabbed he che board and a i ion began
o fill m reali .
Bo h a king and a oldier ere arg ing hile he
ca le I a in ide began o fall. I a he che board I
a holding ne o he king hrone. The king hen en
o a pain ing ha looked er familiar. He pre ed he
cen er and he pain ing changed o a or of afe. The
i ion hen ended and I reali ed I had een ha pain ing
ome here here in he hop.
I looked aro nd n il I finall fo nd he pain ing,
i a he one behind he checko co n er. I en behind
and remo ed he pain ing from he all, onl o find a li le
c bb behind i . In ide a a rolled p piece of paper, and
I grabbed i and began o read i . I a a le er o me from
m grandmo her. Then ano her i ion filled he hop a I
a m grandmo her ri ing he le er a her de k. A he
ro e I co ld hear ha he a ri ing and her oice
filled he room.

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 Dear Ma he , M grandmo her began, I ll be
gone oon, b don be ad for me. I did all ha I an ed
o do in m life, marr o r grandfa her. I had m famil
dream i h o r mo her, a n , and ncle . And I finall
go o ee m grandchildren gro p in o ama ing men
and omen. I didn' add hi o m ill b plea e keep he
hop open, i he one hing I an o keep a m legac .
Beca e if o remember ha I aid abo ho e er
an iq e ha a or . Well, Ma he , hi ore i m an iq e.
I onl i h e had more ime, I ll mi o Ma he .
Thank o , Grandma.
Tear ere ar ing o roll do n m face, I ha en'
heard m grandmo her in o long. I a like an old friend
came back af er man ear of being apar . I decided o
keep he hop open and r n i m elf. Year en b and I
ill ne er forge ha happened in ha an iq e hop. I
old man an iq e and ar ifac , b he one hing I kep
i h me a he le er ha held he la of m
grandmo her' oice

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 N M
Fa Ta ,S
We all ha e dream . A break from reali a o r
bodie re . Some a dream are o r bcon cio
ho gh , he ho gh e acq ire b can' proce i hin
he aking a e. O her belie e ha dream are por al
in o an al erna e reali . Tr h be old, I don kno ha
ca e he e range phenomena o occ r, b ha I do
kno i ha he e dream ha n me o ide of m
l mber.
When I a j fif een ear old, I a diagno ed
i h chronic in omnia. A big ord for a common leep
di order normall ca ed b e reme re and men al
heal h di order like an ie and depre ion. For me
ho gh, m lack of leep a ca ed b none o her han
ha came d ring. E er ime I d clo e m e e , I d en er
he hoe of omeone clo e o me.
I began i h m ncle, hen m be friend. I d
li e o heir da aking heir place in heir ork and
heir home li e , eeing ho he li ed. E er nigh i a
omeone differen b al a omeone I kne ; n il I
dream of her.
Viole Sch fer a a grade higher han me, o e
ne er alked m ch. The onl rea on I kne abo her a all
a beca e her ork of poe r h ng on he chool all
poke ol me . She had an incredibl bea if l mind and
deep emo ion ha co ld onl come from an
nder anding of r e h man emo ion. The e al a
re ona ed i h me and he h r ing I d feel in m o n life. I

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kne he a in pain b ... No hing prepared me for ha
I a going o face in he i ch.
I ar ed like an o her; I a oke in an nfamiliar
room i ho an recollec ion of ho I go here. Her
room a packed o he brim i h polaroid and
book hel e i h an incredible amo n of ork . The onl
eird hing a ha none of he book eemed o ha e a
i le or a hor on he co er. I aro e o find ha he ho e
in hich I a in a comple el emp .
The da eemed o be going q i e ell e peciall
for a i ch. To m rpri e, Viole kep a planner in her
bag ha no onl li ed her cla e b ome of her
in ere hich helped me nder and ho o ac more like
her o no dra oo m ch a en ion o m elf. Af er chool
e er Frida her and a gro p of o her alen ed den
o ld ge oge her and read heir orie and poem o
each o her. The gro p a ra her ne and had onl been
formed abo o eek prior b Aiden Wolfe and
Graham K nig from her AP Wri ing cla . Graham al a
eemed ra her jealo of Viole o he ne l fo nd
friend hip gen inel conf ed me b , a long a i made
her happ ha ' all ha ma ered. Pl , he da her and I
happened o i ch a he da heir gro p a o mee .
I approached Graham a 11:40i h ha l nch
period. No onl o a k abo here he mee ing a o be
held b I fel i o ld help Viole ociall if I ook a fe
ep ociall for her. A I made m a o ard he able
he ere ea ed a , an immen e feeling of dread came
o er me. No hing eemed o of place; he gro p of
den eemed cheerf l eno gh, alking among each
o her a he a e b ... Some hing a rong, I co ld feel

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i . I reached he able and a I did a immedia el gree ed
i h no hing more han di g ed and conf ed glance .
Need ome hing? Aiden broke he ilence, looking a me
a if he had ne er een me before. I replied impl a king
abo he mee ing loca ion o no make i an more
a k ard b o m di ma , he bo h denied kno ing
ha I a alking abo .
A bi di appoin ed, I re rned o he do ble ra h
can hich Viole a b e er l nch period and began
reading ome of he ork he had ri en in her
no ebook. I o ld e pondered ha had happened more,
b i o ldn be m ch help. I a med he j didn
an o be een differen b heir peer for befriending
omeone a q ie and h a Viole . A I read on, m
pocke began o ibra e. M picion had been
confirmed, a I had hree ne me age all from Graham
her elf. I ho gh e d agreed o onl alking af er chool,
o kno he andard I m held o here. Being een i h
o o ld h r he bo h of and o kno e can ha e
ha . No i h he compe i ion coming p. End of
me age one.
Wh d o a k abo here he mee ing a ? I
al a in he greenbel behind he chool, if ha ere o
change, I d me age o . I ear o re ac ing o eird
oda Vi, did o hi o r head or ome hing? End of
me age o. The final and la me age a he one ha
r l ood o ho gh. I a n m ch differen from he
fir b ome hing abo i made m omach drop.
Make re no o ell an one abo he e mee ing , oka ?
I kno i a eird req e b a I aid before, i ' for he
be nobod kno ha e e been hanging o . Af er

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 chool, mee b he ri er and make re nobod follo ,
b I ha e o go. People are a king q e ion .
I a aring a he me age for a hile before
h ing he phone off; Wh a he o ner o abo
o her people kno ing abo o r mee ing , I mean all ha
eemed o ake place d ring a poe r reading o h a
i ch a big ecre . Were he doing ome hing el e o
here, Some hing Viole didn ri e do n? I didn ha e
m ch chance o hink i hro gh comple el a he l nch
bell rang ca ing m ho gh o mo e a a from he
mee ing and o ard m ne cla .
The re of her cla e en b moo hl and
hank o Viole ' in ro er ed na re, nobod approached
me or a ked q e ion hen I a n par icipa ing in
cla room di c ion . A he chool bell rang and I lef
m de k he reali a ion ha I had o mee Graham af er
chool o ed i h m ner e . Wha a g nna happen o
in he dep h of ho e ood and h a I ha ing ch a
horrid feeling abo i ? A I approached clo er o ard he
greenbel , I co ld feel m hear bea picking p i pace,
h mping lo der he clo er I a o he ri er... I a
comple el lnerable, ha ing no hing on me be ide m
phone, m rapper keeper, and m no ebook f ll of
Viole bea if ll ri en poem . C rio l e en ho gh
he o her had lef in o he greenbel before me, hen I
came acro he ri er I a comple el alone. I remo ed
m hoe and dabbled m fee in he ri er hinking abo
all he hing I a going o read and alk abo i h he
ill ab en d o, p lling o m phone o ee if I had an
mi ed me age from hem. M phone remained emp of
no ifica ion , I a beginning o lo e hope and began

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 anding p and grabbing m hing . J hen I heard
Graham' oice approaching. He Vi, orr e re a bi la e
Aiden lef hi bag in he cience lab, o e had o go back.
The inded d o ood on each ide of me bo h r ggling
o ca ch heir brea h. I co ld onl ee Graham a he angle
I a anding b I co ld hear Aiden behind me. I
oka . Viole ' q ie oice almo blended i h he ligh
bree e pa ing among he ree aro nd hem. I hone l
ho gh o g ere gonna lea e me randed here. I
ried o ch ckle a bi b changing he one in her oice
a e raordinaril hard. I rned o look a Aiden and
ha ' hen I reali ed ha he feeling in m g a n'
rong.
He a miling incredibl ide and a n'
breaking hi e e con ac i h Graham ho no a
behind me. B hi a n he n e ling hing... In hi
hand a a large, ben me al ba eball ba . Sorr i had o
come o hi Vi b , e can le o in hi compe i ion.
Don' ake hi oo per onall , i ' no ha e don like
o or an hing b ... Yo r ri ing co ld ge fir place
and e need hi . She ch ckled a bi and Aiden began
lo l mo ing clo er. I don need he no ebook... I
ered o ing he mall gro ping of paper o ard
Graham, I don care abo he compe i ion ha m ch,
j plea e don h r me... I mbled o er m ord
r ing o fig re o ha o a ne . Aiden a righ ne
o me a hi poin giggling like a child, and m ear began
ringing. The fear in ide me made me feel almo na eo
and m e e filled i h ear kno ing ha if I made a
mi ake, i co ld end iolen l . I migh onl be a
compe i ion, b e need he mone . We co ld b a lo

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 i h he $500 pri e... Yo on ake ha from . We
on le o ake i ! I on . I on e en ell an one
abo hi j plea e, le me go. I began obbing a hi
poin kno ing ha he didn in end on le ing me lea e...
In ide I co ld feel ha hi a n j abo he
compe i ion. Viole and he d o had been con an l
compe ing ince elemen ar chool, b he al a came
p hor hen i came o o r ri ing iole . I ried o open
m mo h b a I did he or happened. Aiden ba
cla hed in o Viole ' ho lder, ending her in o he ri er
belo .
The econd her bod made con ac i h he ri er
I a oke. I a in m o n bod , m o n room and he
en e of dread in ide me a more han I co ld bear. Af er
ha da Viole ne er re rned o chool and he amo n of
g il I fel ore a me e er da for mon h . If onl I had
done ome hing differen ... Ma be I co ld e opped i .
Ma be I co ld e a ed her... Graham' g il ca ed her o
rn her elf and Aiden in o he police and hen her bod
a fo nd, i confirmed ha he had old he police,
ca ing he o o be arre ed. B af er ha nigh I ne er
leep. I m oo cared of ha ing ano her i ch, of omeone
el e being h r or killed beca e of m mi ake .
I ' been a mon h and i feel impo ible o keep
m e e open... I e ried e er hing from caffeine and
r nning, o illegal b ance b I can a a ake
an more. I m o ired ha I e beg n eeing and hearing
hing ... Seeing and hearing her. A I ri e hi Viole i in
he room i h me... And he elling me o clo e m e e .
I m errified b I can keep m elf from i fore er. Sleep

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i calling, here' hoping ha hi l mber ill hold no hing
more han an a erage dream. I g e e ll ee on' e...
- F nn Pfl ger

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