Ever since my dream is to make my loved ones really proud of me.

If I see how they are

genuinely proud of the milestones and accomplishments that I fulfill, I felt happy but not as delightful
as the other people, I don’t know why but I feel something is lacking and until now, I’m still searching
for it. In everything that I do I make sure, I’ve done my best. I made myself surround by positive
people, and positive thoughts within, to boost my self-esteem, but still, at the end of the day, I can’t
help myself protect from destructive negative thoughts. Honestly, I have doubts about my
capabilities, I am afraid to fail, and I don’t want to be a failure. There were times when I’m trying to
compare my life to others, I wanted to tell them “you are lucky that you have this, you are lucky
because you don’t experience what I am experiencing right now, you are blessed enough that you
have something that I don’t have” I used to complain about certain circumstances that I should not
actually. Am I wrong if I keep myself doing it subsequently? I guess the real problem is not my
situation but the rather myself-my internal environment. In this kind of attitude, I will not be able to
achieve the real success that I wanted. I must start to change by first, appreciating and taking care
of the things that I have, I should realize the available resources that I can use as a tool to my
journey toward a successful life in the future. The body is my primary tool to deal with obstacles that
I can probably encounter. It is imperative that I have a well healthy lifestyle by having regular
exercise, interactive recreational activities, and a healthy diet. My body will be my greatest
investment to take one step at a time to my success. I know I am in the middle of my journey and I
should not give up nor give in and let problems down me. Today I am in college, I’m taking different
subjects at different times, there were instances were my schedule covers my usual lunchtime or
even my dinner time. To cope with this, the thing that I’m doing is to adjust like having advance lunch
or dinner or to have a little snack while I have my class. With those simple things, I can take care of
my whole body. Another important thing to consider is my innate goodness and socio-emotional
aspects, an anonymous once said the most important things in life are not things, but rather, the
most important things in life are relationships. I need to build a harmonious relationship with the right
people, people who can support me no matter what, people who have a clear mind to right me if I’m
wrong, an authentic people who will advise me during my hardest time for my own sake, and people
who will love me for who I am. These people will be my shepherd and compass to direct me to the
right path, these will be my friends, my relatives, and of course my family. I must admit intellect is
much needed to go through different situations especially in achieving one’s dream, this is such an
advantage to other people specifically in the field of academics. Although, there were different types
of intellect, such as; interpersonal, intrapersonal, bodily-kinesthetic, mathematical, and other things.
Just to share this one, from elementary until senior high school I am an honor student, and I think I
am lucky enough to have this honor, even though I have those award, I need to improve my mental
capabilities in order to adapt to the changing environment while I’m achieving my dream-to be
successful in the future, and to make my family happy and at the same time to achieve my true
happiness.