MY CHANGING PERSONALITY AS A MAN

When i was a kid, I don't care, I don't care about those people around me. As long as I enjoy, I laugh and
smile, that's fine tho. When my mom decided to work abroad, me and my sister were left with our
grandparents. I entered elementary school without any guide from a parent, I am going on our line in my own
while looking at my classmates who were sent by their parents. But, I still made myself and my heart stronger
for me to be inspired and motivated. Growing up with our grandparents is kinda like you're in formal
occasion, you can't do silly things or even a joke. So I limit myself when I'm at home. When ii am with my
friends, I feel the freedom where I can talk what ever I want, do what ever I want and go where ever I want.

I'd never wished to become an achiever. I never wished to get high grades or even receive medals. What I
am really sure about is that I just wanna go everywhere and have fun. Luckily, I've got good grades without
exerting any effort. When days passed by, my mom finally got home. I feel so ashamed because I graduated
in elementary without any medals or awards to be received.

As I stepped in high school, I promised myself and my mom to aim many recognition for her to go up on
the stage. So I become more competitive in all aspects. I joined many contest. I even joined clubs and orgs for
fame in short, my self-esteem became high to the point I've been hurting someone without noticing it.

When the day my teacher announced the Honors list was the day when my mom died and i didn't even tell
her that I am the top 1 in our class, I didn't even make her go up on the stage to hang a medal on me. I
thought i was the saddest and most unfortunate person that day, I cried all night and day. I told myself to be
more competitive, to be more inspired and motivated so that my mom will be proud of me where ever she is.
I also realized that, my mom will be prouder if, I am also a kind hearted person. So my perspective was
changed, I am now more caring person, I am always concerned about the people around me.

I am really sure about that choosing being kind to my companions, was the biggest achievement off all
time. Rather than being a smart student degrading others. By joining orgs, I become more empowered and I
found my purpose.

Since the day i joined SSG and other Organizations, my leadership skills was improved, I started raising
concerns and issues about my fellow students, i become the voice of every Students and representative in
every important occasions where the voice of youth is needed. I began with the simple and small position
until i became thw president. I was sent in different seminars, different contests and workshops. By that my
personality is changing day by day.

As day passes by, problems are continuous along the way. So, i have to be more stronger on facing it. I even
started realizing things around me. In all of the achievements, I have today is not because, I just worked hard
but rather, I have a strong foundation who helped me molding myself as an individual, and that was the
persons behind my back, my friends. I realized that what ever happens, you need someone to lean on. You
need someone to talk to, someone who stays through ups and downs and a shoulder to cry on. Because of
my friends, i found second home. I found purity. So i have to make them feel that there is something worth
while in them. I keep them as a treasure and a blessing as well.

Now, I am here sitting inside my room right next to the window, facing my screen, realizing how i really
changed. How blessed I am not just this quarantine but my entire life. I'm always reminding myself to think
only the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best. That's for now. Thank you.