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The Psychologist Saint George and The DR
The Psychologist Saint George and The DR
When the average man loses his wife to cancer, 10,000 questions take her place. But when
a man of science loses his wife to cancer, 10,000 reasons take her place (Myrin & Redman,
2011). Why his wife? Will he ever see her again? What was here, which is no longer here?
A degreed psychologist, of all people, should be able to skip the first four stages of grief,
accept his loss stoically, and move on (Kübler-Ross & Kessler, 2005). Oddly, psychologists
and neurologists find such things unbearable . . . knowing all too well what challenges lie
ahead (Sacks, 2009). It is said that even Freud, famous at the time for sage advice on grief,
was himself inconsolable when his own beloved Sophie, and especially her 4-year old son
Heinele, died unexpectedly (Ellis, 2018; “Halberstadt-Freud, Sophie,” 2005).
This essay is about loss. It will attempt to describe what is no longer here, when someone
who must never die, dies. The first task is to figure out what was here. The second task is
to figure out what remains. The third and final task is to ask what wasn’t here before, so that
those who fight dragons like Cancer today, will not fight Regret in the looking glass tomorrow
(Bradbury, 2008; Meinecke, 2013; Numinous Games, 2019).
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the struggle to recall them. Jung, a noted collaborator of Freud’s, spoke of this tendency for
memories to fade (or resist coming to mind) if neglected for too long (Evans, 1957). Nearly
400 years ago, the religious predecessors of psychoanalysts were already wondering why ev-
erything precious flees (Marchant, 1646). They asked, Qui fuit?1 (who or what was here?).
The answer was and still is, that everything that mattered was here, and now it’s missing.
Spinoza (2012) once called that missing piece the complete idea of God. Everything except
the idea of God—a constant sense of comfort—seems to flee (Meinecke, 2019).
Researchers in the past have tried to weigh the soul before and after death, to see what was
here (Siegel, 1980). Psychologists today try to weigh the mind before and after its anomalies
have been exorcised scientifically, to see what was here (Wade et al., 2008). But the very idea
of here avoids definition, let alone the task of articulating what was here. For this author,
what’s missing is what he should have spent more time with before he lost it . . . like his
spouse, his daughter, and his world (Markey & Meinecke, 2020). Time grants people just
one chance to realize how priceless things really are, because every moment together matters
(Backus et al., 2014).
So, what was here? Whatever people felt a part of was here. Everything people knew was
here. Whatever made them feel complete is now missing.
What Remains?
The second task is to figure out what is still here. What survives is still here. What survives
may not know what was here, but it does understand what remains—that it will never be whole
again (Ellis, 2018). How different this is from the idea of survival. What’s missing is suddenly
“too absent to ignore” (O’Grady & Meinecke, 2015, p. 1). It’s like a limb abandoned by its
tree. It aches. It thirsts. It cries out (John 19:28, KJV).
But if less remains, where does this new grief come from? Perhaps grief seizes this oppor-
tunity to exist by filling the emptiness? Maybe painful memories start impersonating what-
ever was lost, accusing the survivor of losing them? Such mental simulacra, as Baudrillard
and Glaser (2014) called them, might even grow weary of waiting, and start impersonating
things before they are lost (Meinecke, 2017). This is not a new idea; Freud himself wrote of
a “special agency” that lets the ego take the place of forsaken objects (Freud, 1917, p. 249).
It seems equally feasible that verbal behavior (spoken thought) is more than just behavior
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Qui fuit is Latin for “Who/what was?” The Renaissance author was asking the reader, what doesn’t stay? In
the author’s dissertation, he wrote: “Marchant (1646) put it so poignantly—with the words ‘Fugit infantia, fugit
pueritia, fugit adolescentia, fugit juvenius, fugit senectus’ (p. 129). These words, translated, remind the reader
that infancy flees, childhood flees, adolescence flees, youth flees, and old age flees” (Meinecke, 2017, p. 174).
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(Skinner, 1957). Perhaps a word or a story pretends to be what it symbolizes when people
lose what that symbol stood for—to safeguard its neuronal survival in the mind (Meinecke,
2017, 2018a, 2018b; Wiesel, 1982)? After all, scavenging is very common in Nature. Why
couldn’t something people mistake for mental or verbal phenomena have evolved to scavenge
common feelings like sorrow (to avoid neuronal pruning)? It could feed on existing physio-
logical processes in the guise of lasting thoughts like guilt, or lasting intentions like revenge
(Meinecke, 2017; O’Grady, 2012).
What remains? Perhaps the question isn’t what remains. Perhaps the question is what
wasn’t here before? What is pretending to have survived?
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Conclusion
What is grief? What is here that wasn’t here before? Grief is a broken URL that once pointed
to the definition of sorrow; grief is a child crying “Marco!” who will never hear his lovely
playmate giggle “Polo!” again. Grief is only here because, around the age of two or so, hu-
mans are taught strange things, such as to pretend that things in the real world which are no
longer there, are still there (Rochat, 2003). This unfortunate learning is called object per-
manence (Munakata et al., 1997; Pepperberg et al., 1997). It lets people set things down and
expect them to stay there until they get back, which is what they do when they leave each other
for work each morning, only to discover that their partner isn’t there when they get back. It
lets people make-believe they are together while they spend most of their lives apart, which
is what they call a job. It’s also why they miss each other so terribly—when one of them dies
before the other, and the surviving spouse wails, “Come back for me!” (Zisook et al., 1998).
It is generally understood that grief arises from the collective anguish of many living
cells—whose unseen referent often dies before they do, just like a widower’s wife (Gündel et
al., 2003). That’s because objects in the real world do not live forever, whereas cognitions in
the make-believe world of the mind cannot grasp the idea of mortality (Meinecke, 2017). Like
valiant cowards in a kingdom of pure perseveration, thoughts taste death many times before
their host’s death (Shakespeare et al., 2011). And when the things those thoughts cherished
for so long stop replying, a new right arm or lifelong companion must be found, and grafted
in. The insensible cycle of hunting, holding, and losing associations goes on and on in each
thought people think inside, like a lonely woman who reads romance novels each night, to
imagine the many lovers she will never hold. This psychologist’s beloved did. Then she died.
So, when a psychologist loses his wife to cancer, in true scientific fashion he usually does
it again to make sure he is not simply having a bad dream. He loses a thousand wives to
a thousand reasons—to discover just one. He tilts at windmills and battles dragons like a
wizened Saint George on an exasperated steed. He loses to the dragon he nicknamed Cancer
every time (Numinous Games, 2019). But he never stops trying to save his beloved Dulcinea,
even though he only lives near Saint George, and is afraid to admit that the dragons he cannot
vanquish are those moments he did not spend with his Lady.
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