Krizia Marie C.

Miralles
II-A HRDM

PREVIOUS SELF VS PRESENT SELF

Everyone of us has our own previous self and present self. Previous self is
ourselves before like our attitudes, action, and our life before when we are younger or
when we are a child. This is the very first version of ourselves. While present self is
ourselves currently. This is the version of ourselves that has gone through everything
we have experience before that made or resulted in our version of ourselves today.
When I was young at the age of 5 years old I started attending preparatory
classes.
Before class started I was so excited because it was my first time studying and going to
school. All my school supplies are new, I can wear a uniform for the first time and most
of all I will meet many new friends but since I was a child and I was naturally shy on the
day I first entered school I cried because I was afraid to go inside our room, I was afraid
my mom would leave me inside the room when she was not beside me. I am
embarrassed to talk to others without my mom who serves as my comfort zone. Until I
was in grade 1 the days continued that I cried every time I entered the room because I
was afraid of being left by my mom. I want only my mom and people I know to be able
to say what I want because I'm ashamed to approach others and I'm afraid of how they
will react to me. But even though it always happened, I still had a friend. When I was
already grade 2 it entered my mind that I should be brave my parents can't always wait
for me outside the room because I'm already grown up and all my classmates are willing
to be left alone even without their parents outside the so I should be also. I became a
typical kid when I was in grade school I had a few more friends but I still remained shy. I
only go with my friends and talk to them whenever there are things needed to do in
class because I am only comfortable with them even with my other classmates and
teachers I can't ask even a simple question because I'm shy. Even going to comfort
room makes me embarrassed because I still have to walk down the hallway and my
mind is dominated by what other students might think and say to me. I was so shy that I
overthink the things that others could say to me. When I was already in my junior and
senior high school year I decided to gradually step out of my comfort zone and try to
build my confidence because something comes to my mind that my parents and my
friends were not always by my side so I should learn to stand on my own and learn to
get along with others. During my junior and senior high school year I reduced my
shyness I learned to get along with others and somehow I was able to express and
show others who I really am. But this college year I gradually got used to my comfort
zone again because there was a pandemic and I just stayed at home with no chance to
meet and socialize with my classmates again so my shyness returned a bit. I am
embarrassed to talk again and approach my classmates especially virtually. My
overthinking mind came back and I started thinking of things they could tell me
especially in online classes that I don't see them personally. But for now I’m okay
continue building up confidence, trying to socialize with my classmates even virtually
and continue to build a better version of myself.
All of us has our own battle in life whether physically, mentally or emotionally. All
of us are building something in ourselves to create the best version of us. What we just
need to do is just go with the flow in life be busy in building yourself and connecting to
other because all of our struggle and hardships in our previous self will be replaced of
the best version of ourselves in the present.