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My Anxiety
It is difficult to grow up in the Philippines. Individuals want you to have a better life,
whether you are born poor or wealthy. You should do well in school, make new acquaintances,
and drive people away who you do not like. A person's humiliation and dread are increased when
they make an undesirable error. Others are likewise judgmental, speaking out about anything
they see or hear. False rumors are throughout the community as a result of someone's talk about
someone they believe to be foolish. A pretentious individual who believes they are superior
based on their expectations and expertise gained from incomprehensible writings on the internet.
In addition, anytime they receive compliments, whether positive or negative, a horn sprouts in
their head.as they try to be humble. This is the source of my anxiousness. As I entered my first
elementary school, a private Christian institution, my anxiety increased. Because they educate so
badly, the teachers there are dreadful, or at least the most of them are. They want you to answer
perfectly in their perspective. In fact, if you don't respond, they'll humiliate you in front of the
class. Furthermore, they regard pupils like their children, providing love and care, while also
being legally obligated to "correct" them, which lead to power abuse. There was a period in my
own life when I felt ashamed in front of the entire school. Before class begins, we must perform
a morning school ritual in which we begin the day with prayer and make the vow to our school
and country in front of everyone. All of the pupils assemble on the basketball court, where they
are arranged by year level and section. Students are meant to be in charge of all of those
activities. Every day, a different student is selected to conduct the rites. I was once given the task
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of performing the school pledge. I witnessed pupils making mistakes with their promises and
being embarrassed by their friends' laughter. Because the majority of pupils are still unfamiliar
with the school pledge, they just stand there with a microphone in front of their mouths. I was
just standing on the basketball court watching the students do it. Because of what I had
witnessed, I was frightened when it reached my turn to make the pledge. I'm afraid that what
happen to others may happen to me. It did, in fact. After one of the students completed praying,
he handed the microphone to me and I recited the pledge while shaking. I thought I was doing
okay at first since I was standing completely still and couldn't feel anything. However, I began to
witness students in queues lowering their heads and suddenly chuckling. We returned to our line
after concluding the morning ceremonial so that we may proceed to class. And there, in the back
of my mind, my friend whispered to me that I was shaking my right hand and that they couldn't
understand what I was saying because my voice began to slur and my right foot started shaking
as well. I felt my spirit drain into my body as I told my pals this, and I was troubled. I began to
consider how these pupils regarded me. Is that pupil mentally challenged? For the rest of my life,
I was scarred by this occurrence. And every time I give a speech in front of a group of people, it
reminds me of the event that terrified me. That anxiety is still with me today. I am worried and
hesitant whenever there is an incident that requires me to actually talk in front of a class or a
group of people to express my views or ideas. I'm not sure what I should say or do. Is it possible
that I'll insult someone? Is it possible that I'll pass out? Those are my thoughts whenever I have a