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NURSHARIFAH SYAHIRAH
NURSHARIFAH SYAHIRAH
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She may seem cold-blooded, but she is more human, and her
heart more brittle than anybody else, so much so that if you
filled it with human love or betrayal, it would break easily,
which is why, I think, she chose from the start to avoid it all, to
love humanity, you understand? Not to accept it, not to face it,
to avoid it.
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PPROLOUGE One shade happens to softly gleam underneath the sunlight. One
One shade happens to so 🦋🦋🦋e sunlight. shade happens to appear as a delicate puddle of blood.
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What is the literal definition of the word “human”? Such living She looks at him as if he’s the only other person in her own little
creatures have outstanding ways of processing daily information world. He looks at her as [Telephone]
Phone: if she’s his gracious downfall.
in their brain, and showcasing their fickle emotions as if they were Email: [Email address]
His eyes are the opposite of hers, but they both say more than
a glass case waiting for someone other than themselves to break. Web: [Web address]
they even could.
They are empathetic and they are fragile. They are innovative
bastards and they are children harboring unspeakable sin, They say the eyes are the window to the soul.
understanding them is an issue of great complexity. We, as That’s way she refuses to let the truth slip past her inquisitive
humans, arguably give that label to others when we have the eyes.
capability to understand them. We, as humans, fear what we
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cannot understand.
Akane became adjusted to the new surroundings in a matter of just few A customer’s gruff voice demanded another drink before the bartender
weeks. The pub wasn’t too rowdy, she became acquainted with the head could spout a single word. He politely excused himself in order to make
bartender, the customers were typically friendly, and the job pair fairly the drink to avoid angering the customer for poor customer service.
well. Nothing seemed to go wrong nor did any of her decision lead her Akane watched him leave, failing to notice Dazai’s inspection of her
However, on a particular day, the head bartender appeared to be overly He thought of her as nothing more than an average girl who he probably
friendly with a particular customer. It was hard to tell if the tone of his wouldn’t have trouble swaying with sweet, empty compliments. He told
voice sounded forced due to fear, irritation, or pure elation. Although she himself she probably wasn’t worth messing around with as there were
was intrigued with who he cold possibly be talking to, she was too busy other easy women seemingly worth his time. Despite these thoughts, he
serving the customers to bother him. When most of the customers began caught himself observing her eyes longer that he intended to. She
do disperse, her acquaintance called her over to introduce her to the said possessed a pair of hazel eyes that seemingly appeared as if she were
stranger. Her shoulders stiffened by the sudden shout of her name. she daydreaming. They wondered and wondered, desiring to uncover many
timed her slow footsteps approaching them, hoping that she could quickly truths hidden from society in such poised way. How strange, this girl
avoid engaging with the stranger. was very strange. Perhaps, he could have some fun with her?
Akane was slightly unsettled by the stranger’s appearance. They young When she brought her attention back to Dazai and realized his
man wore a dark trench coat over his suit with bandages wrapped continuous stare, she inquired, “Yes?”
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around his neck and forearms. “I think I’ll nickname you Delilah.”
Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion, wondering why he thought it Three years had passed and Akane had left a couple of jobs. It may have seemed
would be appropriate to call her that. “Why?” 3 like a pain, but she did it for a reason that was common for anyone searching for
their desire future. She needed money to pay for her needs, but she wanted to
It took him a while to show any sign of reaction, but when he did Dazai find a job that she was truly happy with. It took time but if it was for her
displayed his usual smile as he cocked his head to the side. Though satisfaction, she didn’t care at all.
bizarre in ways that most people wouldn’t understand, it was his way of
Fortunately, she became an employed at the Armed Detective Agency as a clerk.
showing fascination. At that moment, Akane already predicted that he
Despite not having an ability, her patience and talent of speculation were
was a very unfathomable person. acknowledged by Yukichi Fukuzawa. It paid well, but she was eager to work
with the members who possessed unique abilities. She felt ecstatic and even
“Because it suits you.”
nervous for the upcoming events when she was introduced to the members. Her
That was her first-time meeting Dazai Osamu. Even before she began excitement ended shortly when she heard a familiar voice among the crowd of
working at the pub, he was a regular customer that the head bartender members.
seemed to favor. There were times when Dazai wouldn’t visit the pub for
“Could it be that Akane-chan couldn’t stand being away from me?”
weeks, which explained why she didn’t meet him during her first week of
In front of her, there stood the one and only Dazai Osamu. Four years have
working.
passed, but his personality didn’t change at all. The bandages remained on his
Though, when he did visit, Akane assumed he would entertain himself by neck and forearms, but his right eye was finally uncovered. She remembered the
teasing how such a beautiful woman such as herself would be quite the color of his eyes being much darker, but they were now glimmering underneath
pleasure to flirt with. He would also childishly complain how she should the interior lights. His appearance may have slightly changed, but his behavior
only pay attention to him as the rest of the other customers were too towards her remained the same.
fucked up to hold a proper conversation. She speculated he wasn’t of any “Is It too late to quit?” she muttered as her confidence demised.
harm despite being such an annoyance. He was a carefree man that
However, her lips formed a small smile. Again, whether she was disappointed or
gloated about his bizarre fascination with suicide, but she could barely
relieved was up to anyone’s interpretation.
grasp what kind of person he truly was.
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Almost a year had passed and she finally had enough money to rent a
“That’s how I met Dazai. Did that help you in any way?”
decent apartment that was a bit distant from the pub. She had no choice
but to quit considering it would be too much of a hassle commuting back “No.”
and forth. When she did quit, Dazai didn’t visit the pub on her last day.
Poor Atsushi couldn’t grasp any useful hints. Knowing Dazai’s
Whether she was disappointed or relieved was up to anyone’s
previous appearance didn’t help, nor did his personality since it
interpretation.
remained the same. Atsushi slumped to the floor, finally
He couldn’t fathom how bitter he felt without her when she was just admitting defeat. Dazai was just someone nobody couldn’t figure
supposed to be a way to pass time. That was all she was meant to be from 6 out.
the beginning.
“I’m sorry Atsushi-kun,” Akane wholeheartedly apologize. She Dazai stared down at Akane, causing her to feel like an imbecile
felt awful for not being able to support a friend, but there wasn’t underneath his impish eyes.
much she could’ve done. Just like Atsushi, she also wanted to
“I would’ve felt hurt if it weren’t for your flattering description of
know more about that secretive man. His true intentions were
me.”
never revealed unless he revealed them.
Memo: Encountering Dazai Osamu was never ordinary.
“I hope I explained the story well,” She said to herself. Perhaps
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she missed an important detail in her story? If she did, that would
probably be the reason why Atsushi couldn’t guess Dazai’s Delilah; she who weakened, the woman in the valley of Sorek
former profession. whom Samson loved, and who was his downfall.
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