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Unspoken Words

By: Leo John V. Estabillo

Bachelor Of Arts in English
(4th year student)

Submitted to:
Dr, Agnes C. Francisco

English 105A - Creative Writing

A.Y. 2019– 2020
First Semester

December 5, 2019

Let your soul speaks and the world will understand..

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BIOGRAPHY OF THE AUTHOR

Leo John V. Estabillo was born on January 6, 1999. He is currently resid-

ing in Trece Martires City Cavite. He lives with his parents together with his 10
siblings. He is an AB English student in Cavite State University.
He never consider writing as one of satisfaction and only love watching
series and movies. However, as he was taking one of his major subject he even-
tually learned to enjoy writing and sharing his feelings and thoughts. With that,
he came up with a compilation of his piece and made a simple and yet meaning-
ful booklet.

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“Swim with me”
I was created to be here, spend my whole life just to be here. Swim around
and eat around in this deep blue sea. I meet my fellow creatures every day, trying
to survive this circle of life. Run away from the biggest creatures who are trying to
eat us. I always stick with my sardines family and survive as school. That is my
everyday life here under the sea. And yet here I am I thought that is the only
struggle that all my family trying to survive from. All of your fellow human being
do was to destroy our home. Throw all of your dumps here and make us suffer
from this waste. You poisoned my home, my family and our life here. Why
don’t you try to live with us and deal with all of your bad deeds, survive this hell
you throw upon us. Try to swim with me and let’s survive this hell together.
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For his blessings and eternal love, I am thankful and always grateful to God for his
undying support, knowledge and strengths he gave to me.
And of course, I would like to thank my professor, Dr. Agnes Francisco for the
whole semester, because she did not pressured us but instead she gave us encour-
agement with various ideas and sightings to come up with different writing piece.
With that, I pursued and dedicated my inner thoughts and feelings and ended up
in creating my own book called Unspoken Words.
My gratitude to my family, for never stop believing that I can fulfil my dreams and
reach my goal. I am always grateful as they continued supporting my studies and
never gave up on me.
Special thanks to my friends, as we faced our problems and struggles in life togeth-
er may it be financial and personal matters because we never gave up to each other.
We learned to accept our flaws and we continue on supporting each other with joy
and tears in achieving our goals.
Lastly, I would like to thank those people who have been part of my journey in
Cavite State University. For a little to great things, it is still an effort that made me
more courageous and ended up in creating my booklet filled with wonderful things
Thank you...
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“Hesitation”

Ever since I started to learn on how to make a small talk, to make some
friends and to socialize. There is this feeling that always makes me scared and
afraid of. Hesitation always haunts me whenever I am on stage of decision mak-
ing and sharing my feelings. It is because I always doubted myself if I can or I
am able to do the things that I am always afraid of. Fear comes to me first, I al-
ways think of what others may think of me, and what could be their reactions
upon seeing my true self. I always acted depending on what and how they want-
ed. I rely on their judgements and never freed myself on the truth and reality. I
was afraid that they might not accept me for who I am and if I was not able to
meet their expectation. It seemed like, I was always looking for their approval
and their acceptance.
I never wanted things about myself to be boring although sometimes I
convinced myself that it is already boring and not interesting. “Because the truth
is, nobody wants rejection, everybody wants someone to loved, and to be loved.
Everybody deserves the best and kindness.”

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FOREWORD

I was grateful for the time I have spent in creative writing. I learned many things
than the normal students did. I never thought that writing could be one of my sat-
isfaction whenever I feel bored in class.
Some part of this book is filled with my own emotions regarding about different
events in my life and some are my own understanding about different life that mat-
ters in this world.

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CHAPTER 3

“Thousand of words are inside my head and yet only few are spoken.
Only few words are spoken and yet thousand of judgements are being thrown at
my face.”
- L. John

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CONTENTS

CHAPTER 1— SHORT STORIES

How can I tell her? 11
Gigil mo ko love! 13
Strange Dream 16

CHAPTER 2—POEMS
Pudding 21
I click the download 22
Leo John Estabillo 23
Dog 24
Josh toast his juice 25

CHAPTER 3—ESSAYS
Hesitation 29
Swim with me 30

Biography of the Author 31

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“Josh toast his juice”

(tongue twister)

Josh toast his juice with his Coach,

the juice Josh toast
with his coach has a cockroach.

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“Dog”
(Cinquain)

Dog
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loyal, obedient
barks, rolls, licks
A bodyguard of mine
Best friend

Telling your stories is an effective way

of freeing yourself from burden and hatred.
- L. John

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“Leo John V. Estabillo”

(Acrostic)

Let happiness win Equal it with your bright side

Eliminate your worries See the world from what it is and
Overcome your fears Turn it as a better place
Aim for what is right
Juggle those problems Battle from what is wrong
Own yourself and Imagine how beautiful it is
Heist what has been taken from you Living with love
Nick your dark side Living with joy and
Observe how peaceful it is

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“I click the download”
I picked up my phone
and turn the Wi-Fi on,
I browse and it load
then it is now
ready to download
Now I smiled widely
and cry happily
I’ve waited too long and hey!
it’s now ready to play
It’s all because I click the download.
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“How Can I Tell Her?”
I woke up 5 am in the morning with a huge smile and sparkling eyes. It
seems that my dream last night will not fade away and it’s here to stay and hunt
my loneliness and turn it to happiness. Well, I didn’t’ care at all because you
know it is a dream with a girl whom I have a known for a very long time and a
girl that I adore so much. It is not a usual dream since I dreamt of her every
night. It may sounds creepy but still I can’t get enough of that “kilig” moment.
This time I dreamed of her holding her hands while she was smiling at me like
time has no end. We were in a fancy restaurant, talking and laughing together.
So I assumed that it was a perfect date.
Now back to the present, something came up on my mind. This feeling
that I have always fought back and never decided to bring this up to her. I want-
ed to ask her out for real and ask to be my girlfriend. But you know, fear always
comes to me first but this time, I am now fully determined. So I called her and
ask her for bonding time as always. We both enjoy playing table tennis and I
think that’s the reason why I fell so hard for her. We both share the same hob-
bies and never argued on the different things.
“Here we go” I said in my mind. “Can I really tell her? Can I ask her
out? What if she rejects me? Who am I? “I am just her bestfriend and nothing
else. Arghhh!!! Why I can’t tell her? How can I tell her? I never realized that
my mind was out of nowhere thinking all over her. I didn’t realize she was
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standing at my back and calling out my name many times. She looked confused
while I just stared at her and fear started controlling my veins and my body can’t
stop shaking and any minute now I can feel that I’m gonna puked. It sounds so
gross but you know that’s me whenever I feel nervous. I am so pathetic, I have no
courage to tell her that I like her. I am fighting myself back and holding back my
feelings.
Arghhh!!! May God bless my relationships! This is it... “Mace, listen I just
want you to hear me for a moment and don’t talk yet” ok??? I said nervously.
“Ahmm! Mace , you know I like you, I like you the moment I laid my eyes on you
and I just can’t get you out of my mind since then.” So Mace “will you give me a
chance to show you that I like you? Can we go on a date? “Pudding”
“Wow!!! Finally I said it, this feels so good. I never thought this is so easy.” I
said to myself. I looked at her face and see if she wants to run away or slap me but Here comes,
I was so shocked. She was just smiling with tears on her eyes. She ran towards me,
a dog drooling,
hugged me and said “yes” happily.
a cake for pudding,
I can’t believe it. I did it and it ends so well. Thank you lord. You blessed
my love life. I love you so much. I love you Mace…. as furparents singing,
Happy 1st birthday darling.

“The End..” Here comes,

chips for your chick,
like your fur that is think

First let me see

your tail, twirling
your nail, scratching
and then you can flee.

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“Gigil mo ko love!!”
Exposition
One Saturday night, Sintyang and her husband Manny are drinking coffee
in their living room. Suddenly, Sintyang speaks out her rants about research.
She’s so angry about it because she don’t understand the research benefits.
Sintyang: “Why does it seems that most of the people are crazy about re-
search? And all the budget for the farmers goes on research? What the research
will do?” “What do you think love?”
Manny: “Hmm.. No comment love” .

Conflict
Sintyang feels that her husband want to ignore her. But, she continue
shouting and so angry about the research that she don’t understand. She almost
shout to her husband and asking many things.
Sintyang: “Why do people spend that much time and budget for re-
search?” what is it for? Would it help those farmers? What benefits does it give?
I really can’t get how they are so obsessed in studying about things when they can
think of a faster plan to help the farmers.”
Manny: “Don’t shout love, why are you so angry without understanding
the situation well?”

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Rising Action
The issue became serious when Sintyang didn’t stop her curiosity and in-
quisitiveness regarding the funds of DOA that supposed to help the farmers. All
her anger has fired out to her husband Manny.
Sintyang: “Don’t you think that it would cost too much for a study like that?
“There’s more we can do with the budget instead of wasting too much time in re-
searching about that. “I think that the money would just go to waste if we spend it
on research” “What do you think love?”
Manny: “ Yeah, I think, but you know if there’s a research, definitely there
could be an application of it and don’t be idiot love! Just kidding! hahahahaha”

Climax
They started to fight verbally. Sintyang can’t understand what’s the im-
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portance of research. She keep rebutting with her husband why they were so crazy
about it.
Sintyang: “It’s not funny, I’m a smart person, but I don’t really get the point
of that research blahblah. Do farmers want that research?” “Don’t they want you
to help them?” “So why does the budget goes to research? Huh? Tell me!”
Manny: “If you don’t have any idea, will you please shut your freaking
mouth and don’t shout!” “Will you please calm down?” Try to show your true self darling
And let your worries hanging
Falling Action There, my love
Manny is smart and he realized fighting with hi wife is pointless, so he ex- You can feel free like a dove.
plained calmly what could be the benefit of research and what is good they can get
from it. - L. John

Sintyang: “I didn’t mean to shout, it’s just that I don’t know about that. I
didn’t know that there’s more research and spend money for that senseless
study.”

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developing something better for the country”

Resolution
Finally, Sintyang realized what her husband trying to point out and apolo-
gized for not seeing the importance of research.
Sintyang: “Thanks love, I really understand now, I owe you. Love you!”
Manny: “No worries love, love you too.”

“The End…”

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“Strange Dream”
It was one sunny day and the sun was blazing hot. I woke up early that
morning, sweating profusely but full of excitement, because finally, I’m going to
enter university. I have always imagined my first day in the university ever since I
was a child. The excitement almost made me want to shout and dance on the
street. I was greeted by the huge signage at the entrance of Cavite State Universi-
ty which reads its rules and policy. I went straight to class and sat on my usual
seat.
Inside the classroom, we were all listening to our professor while she was
discussing something. We were all listening intently and interacting actively in
the discussion, except my seatmate. Our professor called her name many times
but she did not hear at all for she was not clearly paying attention. All of us was
staring weirdly at her like she was some superstar or comedienne. Even though
she looks quite funny, I decided to nudge her and told her: “Pay attention.
Ma’am is calling your name”. Our professor, now shaking furiously, shouted at
her and decided to drop her from the class. My seatmate was dumfounded and
she cried really hard. She was so confused but she eventually left the room.
Suddenly, I was surprised when my professor angrily called out my name.
“You are her seatmate and I presume you two were talking to each other that is
why she was not paying attention earlier!” “I- Mma’am… we were not talking ear-
lier. I was listening to the discussion”, I nervously told her. “I do not need your
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way. Since I was not moving from my seat, my professor literally shove me out of
the classroom. I cried really hard while thinking of what my parents would say. I
will definitely embarrass myself and make them disappointed.
I went home after that incident and told my parents of what happened.
They got so furious and shove me out of the house. “We do not have a child who
is a class drop-out! From now on, forget that you belong to this family!” Terrified
and shaking, I wandered at the street with no idea where to go. I was stopped and
blinded by something in front of me. All I heard was a loud screeching sound and
the next thing I knew, I was lying on the ground. There was blood all over me and
I cannot feel anything. I realized that I was just hit by a vehicle. All I could do was
exhale a soft whisper “I did not expect that my first day of university would end up
this way”, and then darkness swallowed me.
I jolted awake, the morning sunlight leaking through my bedroom window.
I was shaking, sweating, and breathing heavily. I took a sharp inhale and realized
that I just woke up from a very bad dream. “My daughter, you need to prepare
now. You do not want to be late to your first day of class”, I heard my mother
calling out from the kitchen. I relaxed upon hearing that and I cannot help but
smile. I am glad and relieved that it was all just a dream. Eventually, I decided to
get up and prepare for my first day in the university.
“The End…”
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