Adrian Rufo P.

Naragas January 23, 2017

Medieval Philosophy Rev. Fr. Jenor Luis
My Will towards His

At some point in my life I ask myself “Wait a minute, why do I keep on doing these
things? For what reason do I keep on holding on to these efforts I have been doing?” These
questions come especially when I am tired of something or I am in crisis. Because of this
desolation my doubt comes and makes me cease on working for a moment to think.

Living here in the seminary exercises my capacity to think, contemplate and reflect of my
life. I am always so passionate on my life here in the seminary. I always feel optimistic with its
structure, knowing that it can help me grow as a better priest or a simple man in the future. This
necessity makes me enthusiastic in doing my works well. It inspires me to work hard in order to
achieve that goal. Everyday living and following the structures was a hard work. But on my hard
work I often get exhausted. I felt like my life became regular and routinary. Because of this
feeling it made me question things that make necessities dubitable. Is my life really boxed to that
necessity? And if I am boxed to that necessity, do I still have free will?

In our lesson on Saint Augustine Philosophy’s: Understanding Human Predicament, it

tackles two central issues.1st: the primacy of the will and 2nd the fact that love motivates all action
both human and divine. The doctrine of the primacy of the will has two dimensions: God and
humanity. In respect to God, everything in the universe is a result of his free and sovereign will.
Second, with respect to us, everything human is to be explained on the basis of the will. He also
added that nothing determines the will. The will is completely free and anyhow moved in the
direction of what it chooses to love. Reflecting on these statements makes me feel very glad. It
answers all my doubt in my life. It opens my mind to this new perspective. Saint Augustine was
right. All my action, my hardwork is the result of my will towards what I love. My goal is
uncondionally good and my fundamental option in life. Perhaps this is what God will’s me to do.
And if it really do then God! Your will be done.

I regret for feeling that way and for doubting God’s will. I was ignorant. But it did not
make my efforts futile, instead it makes it more meaningful as I exercise more on my capacity as
a giver of meaning. Now, I have a new inspiration to move on. My new motivation that is not
limited to necessities. My will towards what I love—the uncondional Good, my will that is His
will. The “will” that will make me free and fulfilled.