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in my week-old footprints
now a mud-bath
there is so much peace
the day following a flood
I want to have
such a deep love for every
morning
that its soft, vulnerable light
drips off my lips
until night comes
between us
—it is a quiet afternoon and I am mourning
well
—my grief wilts only to bloom again
a bit of sand
an entire hole water couldn’t reach
I am a seized catapult
I am a palette of needing
I am a forest of whimsy
I am the moonbeam meeting the sea
I am a rogue wave sinking nothing
every bone keeping me up is etched with longing
there must be a place where nothing hurts
—note
I keep mountains on
my tongue for
when I’m feeling weak
for the days I
can hardly stand
to remind myself
how well the clouds
wear like a shawl
to remember
most days
I am strong
—a lot about undoing
hands full
—in loss
I am so fervently idle
I am a kaleidoscope of wanting
I am every shade of yellow I once was and am no longer
I am the sum of everything that has washed me
in absence
until your bones fade back into the blackness that shaped them
—in trust
I try my hardest
to catch clouds in
my mouth—to taste
their grace and know
a glimpse of being
content in not knowing
where you are
being taken
—God keeps me in his mouth
all I have built / stands taller in my head / soil tends to absorb more than /
nutrients / I had always envisioned my father / broad-shouldered, hair-lipped,
powder on his sour teeth / in fact, he was a plume of perspiration in transit / I
saw either his departure / or his brief stay / unsure what he took / but
definitely didn’t leave more / than droplets on the parts of my face / the sun
rarely touches / where is the altar I pray at / in order to become the astute
definition / of a man / I believed, one will become a man / upon seeing his
father cry once / and never forgetting that one while strong / can also feel /
and feel to the point of becoming a body of water / that swallows young boys
/ and unclenching fists / and leaving a mark of presence / and I am much
taller / before you meet me / I assure you
—as I want, the sky paints with fire
be gentle
as if the night has
never once held on
for too long
as if the bottomless
sky never swallowed
anything dearly loved
fill your mouth
with what is serene
even the tethered moon
swims gracefully in
the black
—a haunting
mother’s hands
a bird’s nest—jostled
potholes warmed
by car tires
a sort of chaos
between fingers
mother’s mouth
a moist cave entrance
a sort of evaporation
a cool place
my name does not
live there
—again
the morning
fears nothing
but not being
tasted
—honest
it shows me how to
become open and remain
whole
—every palm holds milk
drink in wonder
let it fill
your throat
every breath is
a sky
that should not
be absent of
stars
—river
at the end
I want the list of places
I felt the most alive
to be unreadable
as it stretches out
into an infinity
—peppered with far-off stars
I want to walk its length
and feel it radiate as
it guides me to someplace
quiet
be the stars
in my silence
swelling moonlight
through thin blankets
of cloud cover
the slow breathing
just before sleep
rest for my
bones
—medal
If I listen
I hear my lungs
working harder than
my hands
I want to see blood
p o o l i n g
in the corners of
my nailbeds
I want to earn and
fight
for every breath
— the root
have you once felt inspiration from something ceasing / once, I saw a bird
collapse out of the blueness it was once kept in / it plummeted, in silence, and
I thought how / nice it would be to find rest on this afternoon / I am mostly
enthralled in newness / when I am chained to something / unmoving / I baked
my mother a cake on her 57th birthday / because I believed it would be her
last and that her own hand / would bring the sort of bitterness to her mouth /
that her heart could not survive / each birth- day before / we were sure the
call / the one that echoes / would ring out / ironically, as a morning bird /
greeting a new day / and it would be new / in the way fresh absence swallows
sunlight and time and half of every / breath we take / I never thought of her as
a / bird / but as the sky that once / held me / I am the bird / and no one has
ever made me / a nest / not even for one night / not even on my / birthday
—you become a drip
small
—water everything that grows quietly in your chest
what a good thing to be young and to call the creek behind your home
‘brother’ and to be fed by the same
mouth and to spend the most fragile summer nights wondering how one
becomes mighty
and when -if ever- we learn
I take soil
and bury it beneath
the soft skin
of my tongue
I open my mouth
only to let sunbeams in
I speak only growth
—summer storms
I am learning to be
gentle
to be patient
to not light fires
when I cannot see
the stars
—sacrifice/enduring
‘river’ was first published by Terror House Magazine on July 4th, 2018.
‘becoming more’ was first published by Folded Word on June 6th, 2018.
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