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The wind whistles down the sidewalk of an all-but-abandoned New York street; this
unsleeping city seems to be more tired than most at this hour, with only the bleakest of faces
treading past the damp, forlorn alleys. Lit by the amber glow of the streetlamps, a tired and
overworked researcher pushes her way through the heavy doors of the bar - a place that calls
out to burnt-out dreamers, taking them in and warming their souls with strong drinks and
esoteric conversations.
Tonight, however, there is a cloud over the entire bar as the patrons grapple with the
news of another school shooting. The researcher had just published an article on the survivors
of such events three weeks back, and after hearing the news late that evening, a sense of
helplessness invaded every corner of her being, forcing her to look for some kind of relief. She
needed to talk to someone, to throw all of her thoughts, questions, and emotions at anyone who
was willing to listen. After assessing the scene, she overheard two people at the bar trading their
theories about what those kids could be going through, and she knew she found her outlet. The
figures were startled as she pulled up a stool right between them, but after the initial shock they
were more intrigued than anything. To her left sat the critic, a professor with a passion for
young adult literacy, and on her right sat the sociologist, an activist who guides others along
their own journeys towards healing. As she beckoned the bartender for a drink of her own, the
Researcher: So, you’ve both seen the news as well I take it?
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Critic: Yes, another devastating attack on our youth… I’m no psychologist, but I’d have
to imagine those survivors are going to have a long road ahead of them. God, I hope they’ll be
alright…
Researcher: Unfortunately, you're right on that account. After living through mass
shootings, kids and adolescents tend to face some pretty extreme barriers in terms of mental
recovery. Some of them will bounce back quicker than others, but there’s this concept called
anxious sensitivity that becomes highly relevant to survivors. Basically, if any of the victims
were already prone to a fear of negative social outcomes, isolation, and other risk factors, they
would likely also be more susceptible to PTSD. That PTSD can then lead to some pretty serious
responses… self-harm, panic attacks, unhealthy emotional outlets, and even a death drive.
Sociologist: That’s true of general trauma as well: death of a parent, sexual outing,
severe bullying... any event that disrupts those core needs of safety, trust, and social confidence
can send these kids spiraling towards self-doubt and destructive behaviors.
The rain continues to trickle down the windows as the three stare off, contemplating this
grim reality. The critic pulls out a book from the bag hung haphazardly on the back of his stool
Critic: It seems I’m somewhat outmatched in terms of expertise here, but I have been
reading a couple of books that have some rather heavy themes of childhood trauma… He points
to the colorful looking paperback with the words “I’ll Give You the Sun” cascading down the
cover. The twins in this one faced a litany of traumas. He gestures towards the sociologist. They
went through pretty much everything you mentioned, but also sexual assault and a familial
Sociologist: That sounds pretty intense. If you don’t mind spoiling some of the story, I’d
Critic: Chuckles. I mean you really should read it yourself, but if you’re gonna twist my
arm… Noah, the male twin, definitely dissociates after the death of their mom. He kind of
becomes this shattered subject, which places him in this strange in-between space where he can’t
reconcile between his pre-trauma self and his new broken selfhood. Like many characters placed
in this scenario of compounding traumas, he shuts down. Numb to the world, he abandons his
dreams, fades into the crowd, and tries to avoid his reality.
Researcher: That sounds really similar to what we see in a lot of school shooting
survivors: There appears to be a higher risk of externalizing problems such as conduct disorder
dysregulation, and some of them lack affective empathy (Cimolai, Schmitz, Sood 3). It sounds
like Noah is leaning into that emotional numbness to escape from unpacking and facing his
traumas.
Sociologist: I think it’s interesting that you mentioned how Noah fades into the crowd.
You didn’t seem to mean that in a positive way, but both historically and in present research we
see that the most resilient trauma survivors lean on their friends and social networks to support
them through their reconciling process. If by “fade into the crowd” you mean he found a group
Critic: In some ways, yes, Noah leans on his friends for support. However, by choosing
to prioritize his social sphere, he all but abandons Jude, his twin sister, who used to be his best
friend and his primary support system. He also completely abandons his former personality,
which was quirky, reserved, artistic, and creative, and quickly adopts this very normal, numb,
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and socially acceptable persona in order to fit in. I’d say it’s much more like the emotional
dysregulation that our other friend here was describing. Conversely, Jude becomes manic,
isolating herself from her former friends and grasping on to extreme levels of superstition to
cope with the loss. Similar to other characters I’ve encountered, she focuses on the performative
nature of everyone around her, hyper fixating on the inauthenticity of her peers - and brother for
that matter - and pretty much abandoning her identity, which she also sees as performative.
Researcher: It sounds like your author is exploring both sides of the emotional response
spectrum here. Obviously, there’s Noah’s numbness, but it sounds like Jude is falling into the
category of hyperarousal, where some victims try so hard to bounce back from their emotional
pain that they become exaggerated versions of themselves. Basically, they externalize everything
to avoid their internal fears. You mentioned sexual assault earlier. Was Jude the victim?
Critic: She was, and the aggressor was someone in her previous friend group. A huge
part of her hyper fixations is on her own appearance. She goes from presenting as a more
vivacious, fun-loving young girl to a girl in hiding, constantly wearing oversized sweatshirts and
baggy clothes to hide her body, which I see as a direct response to her sexual trauma.
Sociologist: You’ve mentioned how both twins have gone through some major
personality shifts after the death of their mom. I’m interested in knowing how their adults and
peers reacted to these shifts. Obviously, many would be aware of what the twins were going
through, but was there any major pushback or reactions to their changes in personality?
Critic: For Noah, not really. If anything, his new personality falls more in line with
societal expectations, which makes it easier for him to connect with people he used to find
inaccessible, like his dad for instance. Noah reconciles with his father after the death of his mom,
whereas Jude becomes somewhat estranged from their father. Jude’s extreme superstitions and
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hyper imagination place a barrier between her and the rest of her remaining family. They don’t
know how to handle her overactivity, and that extends to other adults and peers in her life as
well.
Sociologist: I suspected that would be the case. As a society, we’ve been moving towards
a more neoliberal worldview where individual responsibility is king, which means it’s easier for
us to blame victims for their responses to traumas. Neoliberal ideologies offer an “unrestrained
actor” model in which poor decision-making and a lack of self-restraint lead to harmful
behaviors. Combining insights from rational choice and utilitarian theories, neoliberal ideologies
suggest that individuals are self-interested agents whose lines of action are driven by a risk-
versus-reward calculation (Irwin 64). Noah’s personality shift aligns with the neoliberal
worldview, which makes it easier for him to fade into the crowd as you mentioned earlier.
However, Jude’s inability to align with societal norms due to her traumas is also a natural
response, but that doesn’t make it any easier for others to reconcile her differences.
Unfortunately, when these third parties don’t work to try to help Jude with her emotional
regulation and prefer to label her as odd or unconforming, they further isolate her and exacerbate
the problem.
Researcher: I definitely agree, especially about the need for third party support. Using
which takes a concerted effort on the part of school officials and teachers to correct. Since
trauma responses can vary so widely, as Noah and Jude exemplify, it’s important to give
survivors individual attention to assess their needs and help guide them in their journey of
recovery. At the risk of spoiling the entire book, I’d love to know if Jude ever receives that all-
Critic: She does, thankfully. After struggling with her arts-based program, she is guided
to a sculpting mentor who eventually helps her come to terms with her trauma through her art.
To her credit, she recognizes that her sculpting could be an effective outlet for her emotions early
on, and puts in the effort to seek out this mentor in order to aid her healing process. Ultimately,
her choice to take that initiative might have saved her from herself.
Sociologist: I’m glad. Otherwise, it would have been quite a tragic story. I’m also
grateful to hear you mention that she deserves some credit for her own trajectory shift. Much of
my work has focused on the ideas of self-activism, self-advocacy, and empowering victims to
start their journeys toward recovery. That’s not to say I’m taking the neoliberal worldview that
we all should be responsible for ourselves and ourselves alone, but rather that the process of
healing becomes much quicker and more effective if the victim is a willing and active
participant. Third parties are vital to ensuring the affected individual has a support system for
when they stumble, but there’s so much power to be found in the self and we can’t ignore that.
Researcher: Yeah, I think you’re right. She stares into her cup, remembering why they
started this conversation. Looking over at the newscast… I know more than most how tough it's
going to be for them, but hopefully those kids can pull through this. It’s just not fair. They
deserve a world where they don’t have to suffer all this trauma, all this devastation at such a
young age, but for now they're stuck dealing with the messes we’ve created. Guess it’s our job to
help them get to the other side as safely as possible, and to pick them up when they’ve fallen in
The three finish their drinks, and after a brief goodbye, they go their separate ways. The
city streets aren’t as warm as the bar, and the researchers' tears mix with the puddles on the
rough concrete.
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Works Cited
Cimolai, V., Schmitz, J. & Sood, A.B. Effects of Mass Shootings on the Mental Health of
Irwin, Katherine. “‘You Kind of Find Yourself Helpless’: Teens’ Identity Constructions and
Latham, Don. “Melinda's Closet: Trauma and the Queer Subtext of Laurie Halse Anderson's