Self-Reflection

I was born in one of the far plunged barangay of Paranas Western Samar, I am
the eldest child of 4 and the first granddaughter of my grandparents both sides. Due to
the location of our hometown, the basic livelihood of my parents is only farming and
they don’t have any stable source of income, and because of that we sometimes
experience sleeping with a growling stomach. The situation of my family pushes me to
strive in life and to study, because I believe that education is the key for my success
and for me get my family out of poverty. But my school days didn’t became easy for me
and for family, because new higher grade level means new hardship, new sacrifices and
higher financial support for me. Every week my parents needed to choose between
giving me the money for my allowance or buying it a rice for our daily needs. I can’t
anymore count, how many times giving up cross my mind, I always tell myself that
maybe working is the best choice for me to end the agony of my family just to support
my study. But I don’t know if I thank God but yes, I am thankful that pandemic came
because at last my parents doesn’t need to choose because I was able to stay at
home, and staying means that no allowance needed and I able to help my parents while
studying at the same time until I finished high school.
As I unlocked a new journey of my life which is stepping at tertiary level of
education, a new problem unlocked also. I had a difficulty choosing a course to pursue
in college, because I had a problem choosing between studying at the school near me
or at the school that offer a course that surely will help after I graduate. But through the
help and advices of some of my family I was able to come up a decision which is where
I am and what course pursuing right now. Others might say that it’s too early for me to
plan my future but yes as early as now I’m already planning my future and where and
what offices I would apply someday. And if God will grant my wish I plan to work on our
beloved municipality after I graduate college. That’s why I’m hoping and praying that
this pandemic come to an end.
As of now the only ambition of mine is to finish my study, and have a stable job in
the future. A job that will support me and my family for our daily needs. It maybe bit
impossible but ten years from now I foresee myself sitting on one of the office table in
the office of agriculture in our own local Government unit as a regular employee serving
my own community.