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Bank of Me
You are now aware that I have opened such an account but everyone (and I
mean everyone) I interact with has one. My friends, my family, my colleagues
and most of all those that I enter into an intimate relationship with. This bank is
well established and on secure foundations. In the beginning, when we begin our
dance together, as you know, I will shower you with love, praise and affection.
The love bombing commences and the extravaganza of giving and delight seems
endless as the golden period begins. The gifts, the holidays, the parties and the
special dates. The incessant and over-the-top communications all dazzle you and
you lap it all up. Whilst this is happening you are creating a monumental
overdraft at the Bank of Me. You are given no notification of this, you are not
told about your limit (there is not one incidentally) nor are you advised of the
punishing, excruciating interest rate. Receive that gift of some jewellery -
kerching, that's another hefty withdrawal. Accept the invitation to go on a long
weekend break with me somewhere hot - ouch, that's going to take some paying
back. Withdrawal after withdrawal is made from your account and it seems like
this can go on forever, but everyone pays in the end.
When I grow tired of you it is time for the account to be put on hold. You have
taken far too much and this is when you start to pay. This bank will now only
accept deposits and those must be deposits of your emotions. The problem you
have is that this bank has massive demands because in order to lend to the new
customer (victim) that has just been acquired we need you to make those
deposits in a bid to balance the books. Not only that but the extortionate interest
rate means that you can never pay back what has been taken out. Yes, you will
make some inroads into the amounts you have borrowed but guess what? When
we see that you have made some progress we will allow you a short golden
period again so your overdraft increases once more. You remain forever
indebted to us, unable to escape this cycle of debt.
Like the spendaholic who is given an extension to his or her overdraft limit you
immediately use it as you fill up with the brief foray back into the golden period.
It will not last. A block is soon put in place again on your spending and we force
you to repay us with anger, tears, frustration and pain. Good morning madam, is
that a bag of misery you would like to deposit? Good, go right ahead. Hello sir, I
see you have some agony to deposit with us today, thank you, be sure to being
some more soon. You will be surprised just how flexible this bank is accepting a
whole host of currencies by way of deposit - despair, rage, sadness, loss of
sanity, loss of self-esteem, hopelessness, dejection, trauma and so much more.
Our ledgers are never prone to error. We detail and recall every withdrawal that
you have made, all of it carefully committed to the bank's memory so that the
outrageous demands for repayment can be made over and over.
There is no financial regulator that can close this bank and it remains a popular
bank with many customers on its books. Just keep in mind that you will never
stop paying for its services .
Yes, you are now going to pay for all of this because you have done
something that I do not like. You probably have no idea what it is but that is
beside the point. You have defied me, slighted me, criticised me and so on
and the upshot and consequence of this is that the massive debt that you have
accrued with me is now being called in and held against you. I will list
everything that I have done for you in tremendous detail. I will ignore any
attempt by you to point out all the things you have done for me. I will reject
any assertion that one does those things out of love and they cannot be held
against somebody later. They can and they will because these are my rules,
not yours and it is time to pay. Your money is no good You are going to pay
with emotion, self-worth, self-esteem and your sanity as I will be
sequestrating all of those to apply against your huge bill.
31. You are obsessed with me, just let me go.
What I mean when I say this to you is that I know you are obsessed with
ascertaining why I have treated you wonderfully, then awfully and then
thrown you to one side. Your obsession with working this out annoys and
irritates me as it causes questions to be asked of me and you are not entitled
to do that.
This statement is often used during triangulation when we have perhaps had
an affair with you and you are now seeking to expose the nature of that affair
to our partner and we would prefer than not to be the case. We will have
smeared you to our partner by explaining that we know you but you will not
leave us alone, that you keep pestering us and you are a trouble maker. We
need to explain to our partner why it is that this person is saying that we have
an affair. We want to portray you as a fantasist, somebody who is an
obsessed stalker and in order to maintain that façade we will tell you that you
are obsessed and you ought to leave us alone.
This serves two purposes for us. On the one hand it allows us to demonstrate
to our partner that we have not done anything wrong or untoward. On the
other hand, it allows us to project on to you and at the same time cause you to
react at our hypocrisy. You will be urged on to explain yourself by us saying
this to you. We gain fuel and also manage to paint you as the problem.
32. Nobody will ever be able to please you.
When we say this to you what we are actually telling you is this,
“You will ever experience a happy and satisfying relationship because of who
we you are, so your best bet is to stay with me. At least I will do you the
honour of putting up with you.”
This comment is designed to attack your self-worth by suggesting that it is
you who has the problem which means that every relationship you enter into
is doomed to fail. We are telling you that your inherent flaw is one which
cannot be overcome or remedied and it is a flaw, a terrible flaw that you
possess.
Of course you are rather easy to please because you are a good person, an
honest and decent person who just wants to be loved and looked after and be
able to give the same in return. The supposed high and unobtainable
standards that we allege you have, belong to us. We cannot be pleased. We
want you and others to try and to try repeatedly. We will give the impression
of being pleased for a period of time and then you are the most wonderful
person in the world, but eventually, as it always has done previously, we will
find some flaw, some error in your approach towards us. Usually imagined
rather than real, but this does not matter because this flaw means we will
begin to hate you and commence your devaluation in order to draw fuel from
you.
When we eventually discard you, this comment will be used in the smear
campaign against you. Heaven knows we tried everything to make you
happy. We will list all the things we did, which were all part of the seduction
stage and then point out that it was not enough. We want people to think that
you have impossible standards and that we are the victims in this who tried to
give you everything and do the right thing but it was not enough.
We want to receive the pity and admiration from other people at trying to
please you. Indeed, if we made speech about this view we have of you, it
would go something like this.
“I don’t know what you want, heaven knows I have tried. Every day I have spent
my time in the pursuit of your happiness. It was easy at first because you seemed
so happy. I don’t think I had seen anybody who acted in such a care free manner.
Nothing seemed to bother you, hold you back or distract you. You moved with
such intent, acted with defined purpose and I must confess I found that
attractive. The singularity of your aim was evident to even the casual observer.
You shrugged off mishaps, shirked disaster and dodged catastrophe as if you had
once pledged that you would never countenance anything that could hinder or
hold you back. It is admirable and impressive. With that ability to glide
effortlessly through life you always seemed happy, or at least that is what I
thought. You made me happy too. Goodness knows you did. You did it better
than anybody else and with such conviction. I can place my hand on my heart
and confirm that I have never experienced anybody like you. Your capacity for
love exceeded anything I had witnessed before. Everything else paled next to
you and your blazing golden sunshine. You chased away the gloom, you lit up
the darkest of days and you always did so with such confidence and fortitude. It
was easy to love you, you made it easy. Who wouldn’t love a god who had
deigned to walk on the earth in such a manner? Of all of the billions making
their way across this planet you came and you chose me. Me. Two small letters
yet you made those letters fill your life and there was no room for anything else.
I had never been the focus of such love, attention and affection and do you
know, I doubt I ever will again. There is nobody like you. I mean that as a
compliment, I honestly do, nobody loved me the way you did. If I had not seen it
happening and felt it envelope me I would never have believed it and believe in
it I did, with every ounce of my being. You know I almost felt obliged to love
you. How could I not after all the things you did for me and everything you said?
I would surely be a cold-hearted harridan to have denied you the most perfect
love after what you showed me. I could no less reciprocate what you gave me
than walk away and I feel hard and deep for you so that it made loving you easy.
I gave everything for you but if I am honest, at least at first, it was no chore, no
arduous exercise or thorny path. It was bliss. You invigorated me, you elated me
and you inspired me. You became the centre of my world and thus I loved you in
every conceivable way that I could, with my eyes, my mouth, my fingers, my
breath and my heart. I woke and the first thing I thought of was you. I found you
filling my thoughts often and repeatedly as I considered how best I could return
your wonderful love. I sculpted my life around yours as I cooked for you, I
shopped for you, I listened to you and I counselled you. I soothed your fevered
brow and held your clammy hand as you slipped into a chaotic slumber. I
laundered your clothes, I searched for your keys, I supported your endeavours
and I lauded your achievements. I made myself the best person you could ever
want by your side and I strove each and every day to maintain our happiness for
our perfect union. I invested everything I had in our partnership as I wanted to be
Robin to your Batman, Hutch to your Starsky and the Sundance kid to your
Butch Cassidy. I portrayed nothing less than the perfect visage to all of those
who admire you. The bended knee people, the hand-kissers, the bowing people
and those at your elbow and over your shoulders. I gave them no reason to doubt
us, to doubt you. I smiled when the pain tried to prevent me from doing so. I
blinked back the tears when they wanted to pour. I searched for answers even
when I began to realise that none would be forthcoming. You made me twist,
turn and dangle as you had me like Don Quixote, tilting at those windmills
because they might be giants. You made me think that enemies lurked behind
every corner, their long-fingered jealousy ready to steal what we had. I searched
for them, ready to strike them down in furtherance of what we have, because I
believed in you and I. I gave every minute of every day to you, I cancelled my
plans, I let friends loose and irked my family in order to give you what I thought
you wanted. I cleaned, I worked, I bathed, I trimmed, I cut, I dieted, I measured,
I washed and I did so all because of you. I had come so far along the road with
you that I was not going to stop because somehow I knew that we would
succeed, all I had to do was find what it was that you wanted. That is me, you
see, I am a giver and you are a receiver. That does not pain me because I have
spent most of my life being a provider and a giver, that is why I was put on the
earth, to care, to worry, to look after and to cherish. That is my role and I have
discharged myself in this role with utter dedication and distinction. I know I can
lie straight in the bed, even more so because you no longer frequent it with me
and do so in the knowledge that I have done everything I could for you. You
could not want for more. You could not want for a better person than. You were
the best for me and I wanted to be the best for you too. They say that when you
are going through hell you should keep on going, but I cannot. These shaking
hands, my scarred forearms and thinning hair tell me otherwise. The incessant
dull ache in my brown, the stoop that I have acquired and the ever present sense
of dread threaten to consign me to oblivion. I thought that if I knew what you
wanted, if I worked and tried, I could ascertain what it was that you wanted and
then I could give it to you and we would be one again. We would be us. We
would be happy.
33. If it wasn’t for me, you would be nothing.
This comment is purely designed to tell you that you are nothing and we are a
god. When we say this comment to you, it serves several purposes for us.
a. We attack your self-worth so you are made to feel small;
b. We provoke you so you will provide us with fuel;
c. It reinforces our superiority. How wonderful we are to have allowed a
wretch like you to be associated with our kind.
d. It maintains the dynamic of control. You would be a nobody without
being associated with me.
The reinforcement of this message is done so that ultimately you believe it and
therefore you become concerned that if you did try to make a break for the
border and escape us, you really would be nothing. We will support this caustic
comment by pointing out how all your friends are our friends (this is because we
have isolated you from your friends whilst instructing our stooges to pretend to
like you). We will point out that you are reliant on my income (you used to work
but we stopped you doing that because it meant that you were subject to the
influence of other people and we did not want that to be the case). We have
obliterated your social life so that you are reliant on piggy backing ours, we
made you engage in our interests so that you neglected your own and through
such repeated behaviour we make you feel that you are some kind of parasite
that cannot survive without being attached and reliant on us, the host.
The reality is entirely different. We are unable to survive without you because
we need your fuel. We need you and this comment is designed to ensure that you
stay within our grasp and do not go anywhere else.
34. You made me stray.
A classic piece of blame-shifting which we use to rationalise and justify why
we have been unfaithful. Predicated on the victim mentality which we like to
show the world from time to time, we use this when our infidelity has been
uncovered. We are not sorry for what we have done. We feel no guilt or
remorse. In some cases, we might offer up a false apology in order to receive
your forgiveness and drink of that fuel before going out and committing the
infidelity again. On this occasion we do not wish to say sorry. We do not
wish to force out those false tears of insincere remorse. We are offended by
your discovery of our extra-marital activities. Indeed, your exposure of our
behaviour amounts to a criticism because you are telling us that we were not
as clever as we thought we were in covering our tracks and someone as stupid
and dim-witted as you, has actually been able to work something out. This
offends us and this perceived criticism on our part results in us being
wounded. Accordingly, our fury is ignited by this criticism and we lash out at
you by suggesting that it is your fault. We will use this as an opportunity to
deflect from our erroneous behaviour with a string of choice phrases such as:
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“If you hadn’t got so fat, maybe I would have wanted you instead.”
“You never give me any affection these days.”
“You always say you are too tired for sex.”
“You never make an effort for me, is it any wonder I went elsewhere.”
“Why would I want to go to bed with someone like you?”
The transference of blame and the savage comments which associate this
comment is designed to make you react. You provide fuel and then become
embroiled in defending why you are bigger, why you are tired, possibly even
pointing out that you are actually neither, but we are not going to let the truth
get in the way of an opportunity to deflect from our behaviour and draw some
juicy fuel from you instead.
35. I was just thinking about all the good times we had
together.
This is a standard retort to the dreaded question,
“What are you thinking about?”
The mid-range and greater of our kind spend time considering what our next
moves shall be. The lesser of our kind operate in a knee-jerk fashion, but the
other two schools of narcissist operate in a calculated fashion, especially the
greater. You may think that we are just staring into empty space, gazing out
of the window and admiring the view but we are scheming, plotting and
calculating. Do not think of course that we will allow you to be privy to our
machinations that form in our dark minds. You are not allowed to know this.
Instead should you ask what we are thinking we rarely say “nothing” because
that makes us sound like a simpleton and vacuous and we are far better than
that.
No, we will flatter to deceive by telling you that we are thinking about our
good times together. What this actually means is dependent on the time we
say it. If it is said during the seduction it is intended to make you feel wanted
and special so that you will respond in a similar manner, demonstrating that
you are thrilled and pleased that we are thinking about such things so you
provide us with positive fuel. If it is said during devaluation it is intended as a
criticism. We are suggesting that there are now no longer any good times
together because you do not do what is expected of you. You have caused the
good times to end and we want to remind you of that fact. It is reminding you
that there was a golden period and you ought to be doing something to try to
get back to that position by admiring us, adoring us and going the extra mile.
It is set as a trap to lure you into doing what we want by suggesting that the
golden period can be achieved again, although if this happens, it will only be
for a short period of time until the devaluation begins again. This comment,
when said during devaluation, is aimed at making you feel ashamed that you
have let us down, it is designed to make you react and to make it seem that
we are actually sad that the good times we once had do not happen anymore.
We are not sad at all. We do not do sad. It is just another ruse to make you do
what we want and to distract you from the plotting that is going on.
36. Why can’t you be more like….
A classic piece of triangulation. It might be said in a pleasant way under the
auspices of encouraging some self-improvement on your part.
“Why can’t you be more like your friend Janice; she always seems happy.”
“Why can’t you be more like Rose, she looks after herself and is healthy.”
It is another manifestation of our impossible standards that you cannot be
achieved. If you were more like Janice we would accuse you of being too
happy and doing it on purpose to make us feel miserable. You cannot win.
We may want you to dress like someone more glamorous but then we will
accuse you of being a slut. We may suggest that you be more like someone
who does a lot of exercise and then we will accuse you of being vain and
obsessed with your body, giving it more attention than us.
Whatever you do it will not be right but the triangulation we engage
in by saying this comment is designed to: -
a. Make you react by defending yourself and giving us fuel;
b. Causing you to be suspicious and anxious about why we are so
fixated with having you be like this other person;
c. Controlling you be making you do the thing we want, although we
will only move the goalposts later on.
This comment is said to you as a method of triangulation. There is no good
will behind it. Triangulation is a favoured method of manipulation and we
will triangulate with people and with objects. We will create triangles within
triangles in order to confuse and to bewilder.
37. I miss you so much.
What we really mean is that we miss: -
a. Your fuel;
b. You running around after us;
c. Your resources which we took for our own use.
When this is said during seduction it may arise as a consequence of a forced
period of separation. We do not like that. It may be that we have begun the
seduction and in the early stages you go on an already booked holiday or we
have a business trip we cannot move. We keep in touch with you through
technology but we would much rather be with you, physically proximate and
therefore in a better position to speed the seduction towards the conclusion
we want and to ensure we are keeping any prospective competitors at bay.
When this is said during devaluation we are telling you that we miss the
person who always did what we wanted and gave us the positive fuel at the
level and potency that we desired. You may well be stood next to us but we
will still make this comment because we know that it will confuse you.
Talking about missing you taps in to your devotion to love. You are delighted
with the fact we are missing you and it makes you feel special. Alternatively,
you do not understand what we mean (when said during devaluation) but it
still seems to be a wonderful thing that we are saying and during devaluation
certainly a contrast to the horrible treatment we are subjecting you to.
We don’t miss you. We do not actually think in terms of there being a you.
You are out extension, our appliance and what we miss is that appliance with
the fuel it gave. The concept of you as a person with your own likes, interests,
views, opinions, fears and personality is of no interest to us. We have no need
to be involved in that part of you because everything should be about us
instead. We want your fuel; we do not want you. It is your nursemaid, cook,
bottle washer, cleaner, tailor, shopper and general dogsbody qualities that we
miss. We want those and your fuel.
38. I did not mean to hurt you.
What this apparently remorseful comment means is as follows,
“I mean to hurt you but I am not going to accept any responsibility for it
because I am not accountable to anyone, least of all you, for what I do.”
It is well-known that our kind does not do responsibility. We are not to be held
to account. We are never culpable. Nothing is ever our fault. We are free to act
as we please, doing what we want without concern for repercussion or
consequence. Responsibility does not figure in our considerations. There is a
considerable deficit on our side of the equation when it comes to shouldering
responsibility. Nature abhors a vacuum however and therefore since we create
such an absence of responsibility, this raises the question who is going to step in
and accept responsibility? Who is going to take on more than their fair share of
accountability? Who is going to plug the culpability gap? The answer, of course,
is you and this is a significant reason why you remain chained to us and
naturally, we know this to be the case. This is one of the reasons why we choose
people like you.
As an empathic individual you have many traits which appeal to us. One of these
traits is having a strong moral compass so that you "do the right thing" and you
accept responsibility for your actions. That is attractive to us in itself. However,
you go further than this. You are blessed or cursed, dependent on how you
regard it, with the fact that you are over-responsible. Not only will you rightly
accept blame when it is genuinely your fault but you will accept responsibility
for us as well. This is extremely appealing. How does this over-responsibility
come about?
"He is tired, that is why he shouts at me, I should have let him rest."
"It is just the way he is, I pick up the pieces, that is what I am here for."
The repeated reinforcement that you are to blame coupled with your natural
propensity for wanting to accept responsibility means that we know we can
easily have you burdened with accountability and you will invariably accept it.
This then paves the way for us to inflict other manipulations against you based
on your acceptance of fault and guilt. You accept you are at fault so then we are
entirely justified in shouting at you, cold-shouldering you, stopping you going
out or having an affair. Having you as the one to blame suits our purposes to
maintain our perceived superiority and provides us with justification for
punishing you so that we receive further negative fuel.
This over-responsibility will extend into making excuses on our behalf when we
have stormed out of a family occasion. It is our secretary ringing a client and
apologising for us when we have been rude to somebody. It is a sibling who tries
to play down our outrageous behaviour and finding something to explain it
without pinning the blame where it ought to be pinned; on us. You accept that
you are to blame and you become our spokesperson when dealing with other
people as you are left to defend the indefensible. Not that you will get any thanks
for any of this of course.
Why then do you feel such a need to be over-responsible for us? Where does this
trait stem from? I have seen it within my own family with my sister. From an
early age you have been subjected to such blaming behaviour when it was never
actually your fault. This causes you to believe that there must be something
wrong with you and that you are not good enough. In order to deal with this
sense of inadequacy that was instilled in you most likely in your childhood you
seek to over-compensate and decide that you will become good enough by being
the receptacle for all blame, irrespective of real culpability. You have been
convinced that you deserve this abuse, this blame and it is your duty to shoulder
responsibility for what we do and what we do not do, in order to become
worthwhile. It is easier to accept blame than fight against it because this is
fulfilling the role that has been created for you. Always being to blame has
caused you think that you deserve it and in order to do something about that state
of affairs, you address it by accepting even more blame in order to reach an
accord with what you regard your role to be.
We know that you need to feel responsible. It is a central plank of the empath's
constitution and we will exploit this by always blaming you, passing
responsibility onto you and walking away from accountability. We will not laud
you for such a selfless act of accepting responsibility but rather seize the
opportunity to use it to justify our further foul treatment of you. You are at fault.
You therefore deserve to be punished. You accept this and the repeated
application of this only serves to reinforce and extend your sense of being
responsible for us.
It is akin to being given six of the best with a cane at school for something you
did not do and then asking,
39. Just come back and everything will be all right.
This comment will be used as part of a benign hoover, designed to cause you
to come back under our spell means,
“I will behave for a short period of time to make it look like everything is all
right but it will not last, but I don’t care about that so long as you come back,
because you should do.”
We know that you have walked away from us or perhaps after having been
discarded you have decided to stay away from us. We do not want that. We
want to drink some delicious hoover fuel. We need to get you back and we
know that as an empathic individual you are a sucker for: -
a. Remorse;
b. Apologies;
c. The chance to fix things;
d. A sinner come to repent.
Accordingly, this comment which is a complete lie is designed to make you
think we know that we have done wrong and that if you come back we will
improve in our behaviours and change.
We know you cannot resist the opportunity to see that this is the case and
with the mimicry that enables us to show that we are sorry, guilty and
remorseful, we will draw on our memory of those copied emotions in order to
convince you that coming back to us will be the right thing to do.
This image of having realised the error of our ways, when combined with the
allure of a reinstated golden period will prove extremely difficult for you to
resist. We know this and thus this comment will be used as an olive branch
and an incentive to get you back where we want you. In our grip and under
our control once again.
40. I didn’t mean it.
This is akin to the comment about not meaning to hurt you. What we are
actually saying to you is,
“Of course I meant it. Every word. I meant it because being nasty and
horrible is what I have to do to get control and draw negative fuel, but now I
realise that you are trying to escape me. I don’t want that to happen. You will
cut off my fuel and you will damage my status. That cannot happen.
Accordingly, I will retreat from what I did in the typical fashion by claiming
that I am not accountable for the bad feeling that has arisen from what I have
said or done.”
This is us shirking responsibility again. This comment is trotted regularly in
order to explain away something bad that we have done once we realise that
it might actually cause us a problem. You cannot link us to this because we
did not mean what has happened to happen. It is complete nonsense.
Everything we do is done for a reason. Amongst the lesser of our kind they
will not realise this, they just react and respond but there is a reason behind it.
We do not speak without calculating the damage that can be caused from our
words first. We do not act without the action serving our purposes in some
way, whether it is gaining fuel, controlling you or gaining some residual
benefit.
When we tell you that we didn’t mean it, what we mean is,
“I meant it but I didn’t want you to be able to use my words or actions against
me because I am never to be held to account.”
41. I will change.
No I won’t.
The lesser narcissist sees no reason to change because there is nothing wrong
with him.
The mid-range narcissist sees no reason to change because although he
understands that much of what he does hurts people and causes chaos he
knows no other way to achieve what he wants and therefore is beholden to
these modus operandi forever.
The greater narcissist sees no reason to change because he suspects change
can never be effected because to change would be to destroy what he is and
what he wants the world to regard him as. The greater narcissist also sees no
reason to change because he enjoys the power that he wields, the effect of his
machinations and his likeness to a god as he moves people around like so
many pieces on a chessboard.
Lesser narcissists will rarely make this statement. The mid-range and greater
will do so because we know that you want us to change, to heal, to be fixed
and to improve. You want us to see the error of our ways. Not because it
means you are right but because you believe that there is something good
within us and you want to salvage that, nurture and let it grow. By confirming
that we just might believe the same as well and therefore we will change, we
latch onto one of your core beliefs.
This statement is often thrown at you when we fear losing you. It usually
forms part of a preventative hoover designed to stop you from leaving us in a
situation whereby other fuel sources may be low and/or the new primary
source of fuel has not been sourced or embedded. This generates a situation
of grave concern, almost panic on our part and the desperation for fuel
manifests by coming out with such a game-changing comment such as this.
It is a lie.
We do not believe we need to change. Why should we alter what is a highly
effective way of operating just because you want us to?
We do not want to change.
We just say it to get our way.
42. I know I have a problem.
This comment is uttered in the similar vein to the one above. It is a desperate
comment which is hurled at you to prevent you from departing and cutting of
our source of fuel.
It is not often heard being said by a lesser narcissist because his lack of
awareness means he does not see a problem least of all think that he has one.
He may link it to some other manifestation – excessive drinking, physical
violence, drug taking, womanising, gambling and so forth – but he will not
know the underlying cause. He may admit that certain behaviour is a problem
but then do nothing about it.
The mid-range narcissist will realise that certain manifestations of his
behaviour are problematic in terms of how they affect people but he is not
able to identify the source. His declaration that he knows he has a problem is
actually an honest admission and one which might lead him to at least be
guided towards some kind of therapy although he will not accept any of the
conclusions that might be reached about him and/or avoid detection through
playing the assessor in a certain way.
The greater narcissist knows that he or she has a problem but is not to
prepared to address it. He or she will not know the exact cause of this
problem but will have a greater awareness than most as to possible causes
and manifestations. He or she will wear this problem though as a badge of
honour. It is only a problem viewed through your world view, not ours.
Indeed, this supposed problem is a way of operating and doing so effectively
and you only call it a problem because you are weak and unable to deal with
it. The greater narcissist also knows the value of making such an “admission”
before you in terms of making him or her seem like some troubled soul that
needs the soothing ministrations of the caring and compassionate empath, so
that you do not walk away from us but instead stay and administer the
healing and fixing that you believe is your role in respect of somebody like
us.
43. If you listened to me, this wouldn’t happen.
You are an idiot a fool and incompetent. I am not. I know everything. I do not
make mistakes and I was set on this earth to lead and to be a pioneer. I forge
forward and get things done. You do not listen to me enough and this is why I
hate you. If you listened to me, you would be assured of my brilliance and
you would also give me the fuel that I deserve. You would ensure that there
were no problems (until such time as I determine there are in order to
continue my manipulation of you) if you listened to what I told you.
Once again this is also a method of ensuring that there is no accountability on
our part. We may have just unleashed our fury against you, a medley of
insults and barbed comments amidst the flailing fists. We know that such
behaviour is wrong, necessary but wrong. This means we must seek to retreat
from any position of accountability and therefore we have to shift the blame
on to you.
In the same vein as “you made me do it”, your failure to listen to me and by
implication do as we want and submit to our control, has been regarded as a
criticism by us. This ignites our fury. We lash out and you suffer the brunt of
it. We divest ourselves of responsibility but also at the same time lay down a
marker for the future by telling you that if you listen in the future (i.e. do
what we want) then this horrible treatment that you have just endured will not
need to happen again will it?
Of course you may avoid it happening again but we will shift the goalposts
and alter the battlefield so that you have no hope but to cause a criticism and
then the fury is ignited again. You will once more be reprimanded for not
listening.
44. I need a break from all of this, just for a short while.
What you are being told here is as follows: -
“Your fuel is not giving me what I want. I need to change that. By saying this
I will upset you because you think that we are breaking up. I will give you
some hope however that it is only for a short while so that you do not go
elsewhere. Instead, I want you upset by this cessation in the relationship but I
want you to give me fuel still through your anxiety and worry. I want you
checking in with me still in order to persuade me to come back sooner. I also
want this short break because there are a couple of other prospects that I
would like to check out and my capacity for doing so will be hampered if you
are very much on the scene. I don’t want you getting wind that I putting in
place potential replacements, I don’t want those replacements thinking that I
am with you and being reluctant to being seduced. By referring to “all this” I
am suggesting that it is your fault, not mine. I am under some kind of siege
from you and your bad behaviour and I need to have a period of respite from
it. You ought to grant it me because I am making you feel guilty by
suggesting it is your fault.”
When the suggestion of a short break is countenanced this is a manifestation
of our double-standards. You are expected to wait, your life put on hold and
provide us with fuel. We can do as we please without accountability (well it
isn’t like we are together is it?).
45. Why do you make do this to you?
Another declaration from the stable of avoiding responsibility. This is often
said by the lesser of our kind after an unbridled and uncontrolled against you.
You have ignited the fury and the resultant assault, often physical, has left the
lesser narcissist infused with fuel but knowing there may well be
repercussions. The shame at such behaviour rises within and this causes a
need to blame shift and move the shame from him to you. He does not
understand what this shame is because of his lower functioning nature, only
that he cannot be held to account for what happened. His loss of control must
be as a result of what you have done and by making this statement he is
divesting himself of accountability in order to rationalise what he has done.
Should a greater narcissist say this to you, he is less likely to engage in a
physical assault because it is less sophisticated and thus beneath him. It also
creates an evidential difficulty which the greater narcissist, charmer that he is,
could do without in terms of scrutiny and therefore he will not go down this
route often if at all. I know I do not. The greater narcissist will utter this
comment after some form of awful manipulation and knowing full well that
he does not care and whilst he is to blame because he did it, the reality is that
it was caused by this horrible, weak specimen that he has been chained to.
The expression of this statement is done to continue the pain and humiliation
of the sobbing victim by causing them to explain why they have brought this
terrible treatment on themselves. They have to explain what it is they have
done so that their sense of shame and punishment continues.
46. I will never let you go.
If this is said during the seduction period, you will think it romantic and
endearing. You will respond accordingly and provide fuel.
If this is said during the devaluation period it is to frighten you into believing
that this terrible treatment is going to keep on going and there is no escape for
you. You will react accordingly and provide fuel.
This is a true statement.
Once we begin our seduction of you we regard you as belonging to us. You
have signed an unwritten contract whereby you will fuel us until you draw
your last breath. We are entitled to do as we please to you, you are always
linked to us even if you leave and find someone else and because of this we
have an unfettered right to keep returning to you time and time again, even if
we discard you and/or you escape us.
We create a link between you and I which will last until either one of us dies.
It may sound romantic; it may sound foreboding but what it is is the
manifestation of our clear belief that you are our property. You are our
appliance that we can use and abuse however we so choose and you have no
right of complaint or appeal against this state of affairs.
47. I will win you back.
You have decided that you have enough and you have walked away from us.
You may not however have made yourself completely uncontactable and
therefore we are able to deliver the above message to you in some form.
When we make this declaration what we are saying to you is as follows: -
“I am a noble knight, a champion and for whatever reason you have made a
poor decision. I know you love me. I know you adore me and I know there is
nothing more you want than for you and I to be together, but I understand. I
understand you have moments of weakness where you are susceptible to
listening to the words and lies of others and this is what has happened here. I
blame you and I do not. I understand it is difficult for you because after all
you are a lesser person than I and such is my generosity of thought and
tolerance, I realise that you will have your head turned from time to time by
somebody else. I have prepared for that eventuality and I knew that it may
happen. I have been nothing other than dedicated and loving. I know there
have been some testing times but as I have told you, those have been caused
by outside interference in our world. I am pledging to you now that I will win
you back. I shall win you hand through the application of my chivalrous ways
as the white knight that I a. My armour shines and is resplendent. My lance is
long and true. I will not be swerved from my task and with my sword of true
I shall cut down these dragons that have poisoned your mind and turned you,
albeit momentarily against me. They will be slain and I shall rescue you from
their grip and you shall be most grateful for me doing so as this is what you
want. You have been conditioned to regard yourself as the damsel in distress
and I am prince charming come to rescue you. This is what you really think
and I shall play up to those conditioned ideals by making the romantic and
noble declaration that I shall win you back.”
48. I don’t want to talk about it.
When we make this statement to you, this is what we mean.
“You have me bang to rights and I cannot fathom out a way of deflecting you
at this moment in time. I hate feeling like this and I hate you for making me
feel like this. Why do you have to do this? I do so much for you and this is
the way you treat me. I am backed into a corner, my bridges are burnt and I
have run out of get out of jail cards. I will not however every accept I wrong,
at least not with sincerity or conviction. I might say it as part of a ruse to get
what I want, but that is another thing. I do not want to talk about it because if
we do you will just keep landing further accurate blows against me and this
will weaken me so I am just going to put a halt to it right now by drawing a
line in the sand, laying down a marker and saying enough is enough. If you
now proceed when I have made it patently clear that this conversation is at an
end you are trying to cause trouble, you are seeking to usurp my authority
and this gives me the go-ahead to attack you. In fact, please do so because
then that will quickly move us away from this awful situation where I am
backed into a corner with very few options. This comment is one of last
resort and is done to make you try and cross the line and push home the
advantage which you have secured, but if you do it will allow me to unleash a
maelstrom against you and seize the moral high ground once again, so go on,
keep going and see where it takes you.”
49. I cannot do this anymore.
Of course I can. I can keep doing this forever because as I have mentioned
above this is forever. Yes, there will be times where I will disappear. Yes,
there will be occasions where I am good to you again, then bad and then
good. The purpose of saying this is purely to upset you. I have no intention at
all at leaving you. Why would I when you give me so much wonderful
negative fuel through this period of devaluation? I am going nowhere but it
does not harm to suggest to you that I might. It keeps you on your toes and
ensures that I am able to exert control over you. I keep you guessing, anxious
and confused and I also ensure that your fuel keeps flowing.
I also say this to make it sound like what we have is arduous and horrible. It
is for you because I treat you badly but this is enjoyable. I get to do what I
want, I am never wrong and you have to bear the brunt of my shocking
behaviour towards you. It is a playground for me and I am not going to give
that up. Never. Still, I want you always one heartbeat away from thinking that
I am going to walk out on you, that you are not doing enough for me so you
will try harder, you will avoid the egg shells more effectively and you will
keep on trying and trying to please me. This is a great way of controlling you
by threatening you with the loss of me although it is never going to happen.
Accordingly, it you hear this, do not think that I am going to leave you. I am
not. I am just controlling you and seeking a reaction from you.
50. I am sorry.
No I am not.
I am never sorry.
I don’t know what sorry means.
I just say it because it sounds good and it stops you from leaving.
I just say it because it sounds good and makes you cry tears of relief.
I just say it because it sounds good and makes you do what I want.
Sorry? It’s not an apology.
It’s a weapon.
Further required reading from H G Tudor
Evil
Narcissist: Seduction
Narcissist: Ensnared
Manipulated
Confessions of a Narcissist
More Confessions of a Narcissist
Further Confessions of a Narcissist
From the Mouth of a Narcissist
Escape: How to Beat the Narcissist
Danger: 50 Things You Should Not Do with a
Narcissist
Departure Imminent: Preparing for No Contact to
beat the Narcissist
Fuel
Chained: The Narcissist’s Co-Dependent
A Delinquent Mind
Fury
Beautiful and Barbaric
The Devil’s Toolkit
Sex and the Narcissist
Treasured and Tormented
No Contact: How to Beat the Narcissist
Revenge: How to Beat the Narcissist
Adored and Abhorred
Sitting Target: How and Why the Narcissist Chooses
You
Black Hole: The Narcissistic Hoover
A Grimoire of Narcissism
Cherished and Chastised
Red Flag: 50 Warning Signs of Narcissistic Seduction
Ask the Narcissist: The Answers to Your Questions
Darlings and Demons
Black Flag: 50 Warning Signs of Abuse
Your Fault: Blame and the Narcissist
Elated and Eroded
Outnumber Not Outgunned
All available on Amazon
Further interaction with H G Tudor
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