Daily.

The thing is I’m the one who made her. I’m the one who made her this comfortable. But I don’t get
anything for it. I tried to be more like her but I failed. Maybe it’s because I don’t need to be like anyone
but myself. Anyways, I think I’ll drag myself out of that group. It’s so annoying to be a trynna-be. Idk.
I’m going to be a new person in 2023. Not completely new tho. I’m a person who faced a lot in life, like a
lot. The person I should be? No. Want to, be is the following:
Mysterious. Idk how to do that without being boring bro. I have to be interesting. But I’m not adventurous
a lot of stories hangouts interesting. I’m books equestrian good marks works on herself interesting. Which
is always, boring. I don’t want that! I want to be adventurous interesting. Idk how tho, I don’t get many
opportunities to be adventurous so it I’ll just find a job and invest. Idk, yeah I’m boring. Call me boring
and think of me this way. Idk a lot and keep to myself. This is mysterious self and I like it. Idc what
others think but I do care abt me and only me.
When I get my drivers license I’m going to apply for a job as fast as possible. If I couldn’t then I’ll take
my car and go to new adventures. Khalsa I’m my own lady no one can stop me. Me and new places.
Unfortunately I have to deal with uae places. Not anywhere else. At the same time I don’t want to travel
alone, and I dnt want to travel w family. I don’t have friends to travel with.. that’s so sad but ig I have to
just deal w it. In the sec semester I have no time to complain I have to get good marks for my scholarship.
I mean I hope so. Idk what to do tbh I feel like I’m trapped and that I’m forced into being this person. But
I’m not forced I’m just really really boring I don’t have anything to do but study and shop and associate w
ppl. I hate associating w ppl in my uni. I’ll run when I finally get to finish this semester. No one will see
me until next one. The thing is that now that I will not be hangout w ppl from my uni I’ll be completely
alone. Of course forgot to mention that my bf is going to travel! Wow now for completely alone.
Anyways I’ll try to distract myself w the driving and writing. I’ll try to, idc how upset I get, I’ll write.
And I’m going for classes for investing. Inshallah as fast as I get my drivers license I’m going to find a
job. The thing is this ain’t gonna work w the job. Because I have to focus on marks. Hmmm so this winter
maybe just write and read? Depressing but I’ll try to make it work.
This winter is going to be boring boring ig it doesn’t really matter. Ill learn investing anyways. I think the
course takes a long time so, yeah I’ll take it.
Anyways so woo-hoo we are here. Boring and prepared for the future. Please stop comparing yourself it’s
not hot