from everything to nothing.

Everything, I saw everything, from up here, the lights, the buildings the cars and
the people
that looked like ants crawling. but from up here, they couldn't see me.
it was a cold and beautiful night, the stars were bright and the moon was shining,
but my life was
still dark. someone comes up from behind, panting, "please! you have to come down!"
I look at them, with an unfazed face. why should I come down? after gaining the
courage to finally
come up here. it's a golden opportunity. "please... my dear.. suicide is never the
option,
there is more in life to enjoy!" they're right. there is more to life than what I
have seen
but I've been waiting for so long it's getting tiring. "please.. there are more
reasons to live.."
suddenly, my body becomes relaxed and calm. I even gave a smile "there are reasons
to die"
I don't know whether life is fair or not. I don't know whether it was fate or i was
just unlucky
but all the events that came into my life, led me up here. I probably have no right
to end my life,
I didn't make myself. it's probably not life, not fate, not luck. it's probably the
people.
this person whose trying to talk me down has probably hurt someone, whether
unintentionally
or intetionally. maybe your life doesn't depend on you. maybe you're life depends
on other people
and other things. maybe you live because you have to accomplish something, for
someone else.
but, I don't care either way, I'm about to cut mine off right here right now. the
person behind me
tries to run toward me, to hold my hand, to keep me from falling. but i leaped, it
felt great
I was looking up at the sky, as the sky was looking down on me, telling me
something,
then I blacked out. it was nothing. there was no sound, no light, no people,
nothing.
I thought I would be happy or safe after I died, but it turns out, that it was just
nothing.