“MY LOVE THAT I HAVE FOR YOU IS MY MOST BEAUTIFUL PRAYER TO THE

LORD” (Frt. Edmund Corocoto)

A properly so called love…
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How does one truly love in silence?

11:35pm December 28, 2022

Indeed, it was in silence.

She does not have any response except she said “for now I will not answer the question but she
does have answer, still she keeps it in heart. With this I ponder…

Can I love you from afar, or would this feeling vanish into the abyss, never to be
regained?

Should I go or should I stay?

I can't deny that it remains in my vines from the fact that I remember you during times of
music and days that are associated with such experiences. You are one of a thousand stars in the
universe. Our emotions are valid. They are not sacrificed in vain. You will never be forgotten.
You are a part of my history. Indeed, I can attest that you helped me in deepening in my
discernment. All of this is God's grace; to grow and flourish as a person. To be closer to Him
more deeply and dearly. This happens for a reason. These experiences bring us where God
wanted us to trod. We have separated ways. Many ways yet one destination. A destination to a
Love so Devine. For this, A hundredfold of thanks.

Consequently, I am apt to decide. I am decided. I have to live a life in accordance to my

fundamental option—that is to embrace my calling—a calling to the life of a priest.

I made a clear decision. I'll remain. Who will I remain with? ‘Save perhaps One’- Fr.
Norris Clarke. I thought you were no longer present. I thought my messages for you were void
and null. My feelings and efforts for you seem to have been in vain. I had an insight as a result of
this. The one to whom I am offering roses and a lovely smile does not appear to be reciprocated.
Until such time and point in my desert journey experiencing loneliness. So, I walked into a
setting where I realized you were present. It is you, Lord. You are with me! You journey with
me!

"Kay tagal ko nang nag-iisa.

Andiyan ka lang pala.
Mahiwaga Pipiliin ka sa araw-araw Mahiwaga ang nadarama sa yo'y malinaw,"
Ben&Ben sang.

You are, indeed, Mahiwaga—so Mysterious and Devine. Lord, you are with me
throughout my worry and misery. You are with me both in good and bad times. You stay with
me. You patiently wait for me. You walk with me. You journey with me. I realized then when
you said, Manete in dilectione mea, "Remain in my love (Jn 15:9) ". You know that sometimes
my response to you may fall short of knowing and loving you. This causes for me to depart from
you. That is the saddest thing I had experienced, to be separated from you. Unknowingly, little
by little I did not see you anymore. I become blinded by my whim and caprices. To the extent
that I look for the other, someone to reciprocate my feelings. I cheat on you, Lord. I ask for your
clemency. Subsequently, I hurt her feeling. I abandon her. Forgive me, Lord. I hurt her. Yet this
time I bring her to you. Take good care of her.

Above all, with ardent and humble trust I want to stay with you, Lord. You have the
everlasting love. Whenever I experience this again pierce me with your loving sword. Touch my
heart again. Make it new again. Transform and configure according to your heart. You chose me
first, so I am. I want to abide in you. Lord, may this desire keep burning until the hour has come
to an end. And called me to enter heaven. With the help of your grace, I will entrust to you Lord
all that I have. I am totally yours...Lord help me. I love you... To stay with you is my final and
ultimate way of expressing myself with your unfathomable love for which I find fulfillment and
perfection in your love.

Lord, accept this love of mine thou little it perhaps I know you will make it grow and
burning.