Peejay Delacruz

"Beautiful"

This word lingered in my mind the moment I laid my eyes on you. I admit that it started as an
attraction and wasn't anything serious. I kept in mind that I was just mesmerized by the beauty you
hold.

But I knew then that something is not right. You made me feel something beyond the stars. You...
you captivated me with just a single glance. How did you do it? I'm not even fond of fangirling over
celebrities yet you made me feel this way? Just... the nerve of you!

Weeks passed and I haven't seen you within my lair. I began concluding then that my infatuation
came to its limits. I was happy. But at the same time, it felt empty. Until that day. I was buying
something in the canteen when I accidentally stomped on someone's foot. And hell, the moment I
lifted my gaze it felt like heaven opened its gates for me. It felt surreal standing near you. I feel
happy and... at the same time shallow. I never thought I can be happy while my heart is aching. That
was the start of my crushing phase to you. I pulled strings to know you better and I was even fazed
to know that we knew each other! We were childhood friends, but I don't have the guts to start an
interaction with you. I can't even maintain an eye contact with you. I guess this will leave a nasty
bruise huh?

Months passed and a lot of things changed. Except, of course, for my crazy feelings. It was a
rollercoaster ride, Peejay. I never thought someone will be able to make me question my worth. The
fact that you don't even know my name. It hurts... It hurts that I can't even finish a day without
looking in the mirror and scold myself for being too fragile towards a person who doesn't even know
my existence.

I thought admiring you from afar will make me contented. But I didn't even realized that I was falling
deeply each passing day. Well, this infatuation got my freaking heart crazy. To the point that I can't
recognize its beat anymore. Because it screams your name. It jumps whenever I see you happy, and
it breaks when I didn't have the chance to take a glimpse of you.

Wala nang mas sasakit pa sa tanawing madalas kong masaksihan; ang matamis mong mga ngiti
habang katabi siya.

But don't worry, I respect her. I respect you.

I won't even try to go near you.

I wish the best for the both of you.

Soar high and attain your dreams. And by then, I will always look up at the sky and thank Him for
giving me such an inspiration to aspire myself. I was lost, but I followed the rays of your sun and it
led me to a garden of opportunities. Thank you for living, Peejay.

Love is truly like a volcano, beautiful yet destructive.

From: Afar