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Gil Fronsdal
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DEDICATION
Acknowledgments ix
2 Hindrances to Mindfulness 5
and Clarity
4 Sensual Desire 23
5 Ill Will 39
8 Doubt 83
III will
Doubt
S im ile s fo r th e h in d ra n c e s
The hindrances can be like “black holes” in the mind. A black
hole is a collapsed star where the gravitational force is so
powerful that even light is sucked in and trapped. When the
hindrances are strong, the light of awareness is pulled into
their gravitational field and we lose our ability to see clearly.
The hindrances are not only present in meditation. They
can frequently occur in our daily life as well, at times casting a
powerful influence on our lives. For example, strong addic
tion to sense pleasure or to ill will can cause people to do
things they regret for decades, maybe even for the remainder
of their lives. Actions motivated by the five hindrances can be
detrimental to ourselves, to others and even to our whole so
ciety.
When they are not strong enough to act like black holes,
the hindrances can still hinder our ability to see clearly. Bud
dhism emphasizes that this lack of clarity causes us to misun
derstand which thoughts, words and actions are harmful and
which are beneficial. With its false promise of gratification,
strong sensual desire can blind us to the consequences of in
appropriate pursuit of pleasure. The pressure of ill-will may
cause us to act before reflecting carefully on the consequenc
es. This is why Buddhist teachings strongly encourage people
not to make decisions while under the influence of a hin
drance. It is better, if possible, to wait to make a decision un
til the mind is more settled or clear.
An ancient Buddhist analogy for the hindrances is a
steady, strong river. If channels appear on either side of the
river, the water is diverted away. As this happens more and
more, the amount of water in the river decreases, as does the
strength of the river current. If enough water is redirected the
river dries up. In the same way, when the hindrances are par
ticularly strong, mindfulness dries up. Similarly, we can have a
strong direction or intention in our lives, but that sense of
purpose can be siphoned off by the hindrances.
Another analogy the Buddha gave regarding the five hin
drances is that of gold. In order to work with it and shape it
into a beautiful object, gold needs to be soft and malleable.
The more pure the gold is, the more malleable it is. The same
is true of the mind. If we purify the mind of the hindrances
then the mind is no longer stiff and rigid; it becomes wieldy
and can be shaped into something beautiful.
An ancient metaphor for how the hindrances
obscure clarity of mind is that of a pond which,
when clean and the surface is still, reflects our
image.
B . E .L . L .A . P ra c tic in g w ith th e h in d ra n c e s
Addressing the hindrances with mindfulness practice can be
divided into five different aspects. These fit into the acronym
BELLA. As many know, "bella" translates into English as
"beautiful." The acronym describes the mind that is revealed
when the hindrances are overcome and mindfulness becomes
strong.
BELLA: Be
When a hindrance appears it is useful to first let it be. This
does not mean giving in to it or intentionally participating
with the thinking it may involve. Rather, it means not acting
on it or reacting to it. It involves the useful training in staying
present for our experience without being in conflict with it.
There is no need to be discouraged, angry or self —critical
when faced with a hindrance. Letting a hindrance be is a prac
tice of finding an inner stability and equanimity in the face of
destabilizing forces.
The practice of letting a hindrance be becomes most effec
tive when combined with a clear recognition and acknowl
edgment of the hindrance. The clearer the recognition and
mindfulness, the more we pull ourselves out of the gravita
tional force of the hindrance, the greater is our freedom from
it. Recognition also ensures our practice is honest and realis
tic.
BELLA: Examine
This is the most important aspect of practicing with the hin
drances. Just as spiritual freedom requires wisdom, so over
coming the hindrances requires us to understand them well.
If we know all their guises and tricks we are less likely to be
tricked by them. Because examination is so important, this
step in BELLA receives the most discussion below.
The Buddha taught a number of areas to explore when in
vestigating a hindrance. These include different aspects of the
hindrance itself, the conditions that cause the arising and
passing of the hindrance and the experience of not having the
hindrance.
Exploring the hindrance in and of itself involves recogniz
ing the components of a hindrance, e.g. its physical, energetic,
emotional, cognitive and motivational aspects. For example,
strong desire may be experienced physically as a leaning for
ward, a tightening of the solar plexus, or a sense of lightness.
Energetically it may involve pressure, a rush of restlessness or
an upwelling surge of vitality. Emotionally, sense desire may
involve pleasant emotions like delight, excitement, or eager
ness. Cognitively, sense desire may involve beliefs and stories
we tell ourselves. And, motivationally, sense desire may come
as a strong impulse to act, to cling, or to fix.
Investigating a hindrance’s absence is also important. The
contrast between when it is absent and when it is present can
highlight different aspects of the hindrance. Noticing its ab
sence can also help us better appreciate the value of being
free of a hindrance. Examining the absence of a hindrance
can be a source of delight supporting the spiritual life. I be
lieve the Buddha was pointing to this delight when he offered
the following similes: Being freed from sensual desire is like
being freed from debt; being released from the grip of ill will
is like recovering from an illness; being free from sloth and
torpor is like being freed from prison; freedom from anxiety
and worry is like freedom from slavery and passing beyond
doubt is like completing a perilous desert crossing.
Learning how hindrances arise, how they are removed and
how they can be prevented from arising requires attention
and discernment. This is a way to overcome the hindering
effect of the hindrances. With enough wisdom about them
we learn not to be misled into giving in to a hindrance no
matter which one may appear.
The Buddhist word translated as 'hindrances' also has the
meaning of "covering.” This suggests, we can examine what
the hindrances are masking. For example, desire can be cov
ering loneliness, ill will can be covering frustrated desire, sloth
and torpor can be covering fear, restlessness and worry can
be covering wanting approval and doubt can be covering a
reluctance to commit. Uncovering the roots of the hindrances
is one of the most effective ways of overcoming them. It in
volves learning to notice what we often overlook.
Examine
The hindrance itself
Its absence
How it arose
How it is removed
How to prevent it from arising again
BELLA: Lessen
In addition to identifying and examining a hindrance it can
be helpful to lessen its strength. Relaxing both the body and
mind are often good ways to lessen the intensity of strong
bouts with a hindrance. By noticing tension connected to the
hindrances we can begin to soften that tension. If a hindrance
is overwhelming, lessening its power may require removing
ourselves from situations that reinforce it. Or it may be useful
to direct one’s attention to something that has a calming ef
fect.
Focusing on an antidote to the hindrance can be helpful.
For example, cultivating loving kindness can help lessen ill
will; contemplating unattractive parts of the body may lessen
sexual compulsion.
BELLA: L et go
Once a hindrance is understood well enough it can be appro
priate to let go of it. Sometimes this can be accomplished by
letting up on the pressure propelling the hindrance. It may
involve letting go of the thinking that perpetuates the hin
drance. It might also require letting go of attachments to any
self-identity behind the hindrance.
The ability to let go of the hindrances grows with practice.
As mindfulness strengthens a time comes when mindfulness
becomes stronger than the force of the hindrances. The same
is true with our ability to let go. Letting go is like a muscle
that can become strong; the stronger the muscle of letting go,
the easier it is to leave a hindrance behind.
BELLA: A ppreciate
The path of freedom is nurtured by appreciating the times we
become free. When we have been caught up in an attach
ment, it is useful to value the state of not being caught. When
a hindrance is no longer present it is useful to take time to
experience its absence.
To be mindful and present without being hijacked by the
hindrances is a joy. The relief that arises when the mind is
free of the hindrances is a delight. If you can feel this sense of
well-being, you will know a type of pleasure better than sense
pleasures, better than the energy of ill will. The mind will nat
urally want more freedom, rather than losing freedom to the
hindrances.
Unhindered attention is a treasure. It is what allows mind
fulness to do its most penetrating work of liberation. When
the mind is settled and freed of the hindrances we can look
more deeply into the functioning of the mind and so discover
the fullest possibilities of liberation.
BE L L A
Be
Examine
Lessen
Let go
Appreciate
Reflections on the hindrances
Occasions fo r hindrances
In both meditation and daily life, on which occasions do the
hindrances usually arise in you? What are the common condi
tions for their arising? What are the mental and emotional
states that are most likely to trigger the hindrances? What ex
ternal circumstances elicit the hindrances?
Unhindered
O pportunities fo r practicing
Notice what opportunities you have in your daily life to bring
mindfulness to the hindrances. Are you able to use some or
all of the practices included in the acronym B.E.L.L.A. (Be,
Examine, Lessen, Let go, Appreciate)? Which of these are
most useful for you? What obstructs your ability to practice
with the hindrances? What supports your ability to do so?
HINDRANCES ALONG
THE PATH OF FREEDOM
with inner ease, joy, and wisdom. When we are able to shift
from being pre-occupied with the hindrances to being guided
by freedom, we have made the path of freedom our own.
SENSUAL DESIRE
S e n s u a l d e sire
Of all the desires people can have, Buddhism singles out sen
sual desire, the first of the hindrances, as particularly im
portant. The Pali word for sensual desire is kama-chanda.
Chanda simply means desire. Kama is a strong word referring
to sense pleasure, sensual passion and sexual lust. Together
these two words refer to compulsive preoccupation with sen
sual pleasure and comfort.
Sensual desire can be for food, comfort, physical and sex
ual experiences, sounds, smells, sights, and many other things.
Buddhism also recognizes that sensual desire may also be for
mental pleasures. Some people are addicted to or pulled into
the pleasures experienced in the mind. Examples of mental
pleasure are working puzzles or solving problems. Fantasizing
can also provide mental pleasure. Sometimes the pleasure
comes from imagining what we are thinking about, other
times it may be the pleasure of fantasizing itself which keeps
us caught.
Perhaps sensual desire is singled out as particularly haz
ardous to meditators because reaching for pleasure and avoid
ing pain are more basic than other desires. Even when the
mind is still enough not to be caught up in other desires, the
enticement of meditative pleasures can still be operating and
inhibiting further progress on the path.
While there is nothing inherently wrong with sensual
pleasure, the desire for it is called a hindrance when it inter
feres with our ability to stay present. During meditation, even
the most innocent desire can distract awareness from the ra
zor's edge of the present moment. If we want to stay on that
edge, we need to let go of anything that causes us to slip off.
Reflection
What affect does desire have on your body, your mind, and
your ability to pay attention? What parts of your body are ac
tivated when your desires are strong? Is tension or stress pre
sent with desire? Is your mental state more expanded or
constricted when you have desire? How might desire prevent
you from accurately seeing the object of desire?
Practice
Spend some days noticing your stronger desires for sensual
pleasure. Remember that mental pleasure is also a form of
sensual pleasure. Some typical forms of sensual desire are de
sires related to food and drinks, sexuality, comfort, enter
tainment, exercise. When you are having a strong bout of
desire, do not act on it or distract yourself from it. Instead,
bring mindfulness to what happens to the desire as you stay
aware of it. Stay mindful of it until it is no longer present.
How strong is the impulse to satisfy the desire? How does it
change as you remain mindful of it? What beliefs and justifi
cations might come along with the desire? How long does it
last? How do you feel once the desire has passed?
What do you experience
once a sense desire
has been satisfied?
2 - Being a student of sense pleasure
Reflection
What role does sense pleasure have in your life? How much
are you oriented toward sense experiences? How much of
your day is spent in pursuit of sense pleasure? Which of your
daily activities are influenced by the desire for sense pleasure?
For example, in cooking a meal, how much of the preparation
time is devoted to enhancing the sense pleasure of the food?
Among the things you purchase, how much of the expense
results directly from the greater sense pleasure the object
brings?
Practice
Devote a period of time—at least a few days—to look for op
portunities to study what effect the experience of sense
pleasure has on you. When and what kinds of sense pleasure
are more satisfying and less satisfying for you? What forms of
sense pleasures bring you the greatest feelings of well-being?
What do you experience after a sense desire has been satis
fied?
What meaningful or satisfying feelings
do you have which are not
connected to sense pleasure?
3 - Cultivating contentment
Reflection
What experiences do you have that are more satisfying than
sense pleasures? What meaningful feelings do you have which
are not connected to sense pleasure? How can you nourish
these feelings? How does the presence of these feelings affect
your desires for sense pleasure?
Practice
Actively develop contentment and appreciation for what you
already have. Contentment is not just a way of evaluating or
thinking about our lives. It also involves a relaxation of our
body so that we are more settled here and now. See if you can
let go of some desires then replace them with contentment.
Notice how contentment affects your desires.
Are there wise ways for you to limit
what you see, hear or experience
so that unwanted sensual desires
do not arise?
4 - Safeguarding the sense doors
Reflection
How does your experience of having sense pleasures differ
from your experience of desiring sense pleasure? How do
these differ physically, emotionally and mentally?
Practice
One way to avoid getting caught up in desire is to safeguard
yourself at the sense doors. This means two things: First, it
means to limit what you see, hear, or experience so that these
things do not trigger or reinforce your desires for them. Sec
ondly, it involves being attentive to sights, sounds and experi
ences at the moment you perceive them and then leaving
them alone - do not let your mind get pulled into desire for
these things. Devote a few days to practice both forms of
safeguarding. This practice is often more effective if you have
a clear sense of the advantages of not being pulled into the
world of desire.
ILL WILL
The first two of the five hindrances are sensual desire and ill
will. These two hindrances are directly connected to how and
where our attention is directed. Often it is directed at the ob
ject of our desire or ill will. When we are pre-occupied we are
not able to choose where our attention is directed or we are
not exercising our ability to choose. If we do have a choice,
why do we chose to fixate on our desires and aversions? If we
don’t have a choice, how free are we?
Mindfulness practice is dependent on our ability to choose
what we give attention. Rather than allowing strong desire
and ill will to continue unchecked, when we practice mind
fulness we choose to direct attention to examine these hin
drances. Through sufficient investigation, understanding, and
non-reactivity, they can lose their power to preoccupy our
attention. With enough insight, we can even become free of
them.
Ill will, or vy apada in the Buddha’s language, is the desire to
strike out at something. It is motivated by hostility. It mani
fests as wanting to attack, push away or turn away. It can
range from the subtlest inclinations of the mind to the gross
est behavior. Emotional states that express hostility paired
There is no peace in a mind that is like boiling water
with ill will include anger, fury, rage, resentment, indignation,
irritation, vexation, discontent, loathing, abhorrence, grudge,
spite, resistance, avoidance, denial, boredom, criticalness,
fearfulness and complaining.
It is common to call this hindrance “aversion” rather than
ill will. However, there are also healthy forms of aversion (lit
erally, “turning away”) that are not motivated by hostility, and
therefore are not hindrances. For example, it can be a kind
ness to turn away from something that is causing pain. When
“aversion” describes the second hindrance, the word should
be understood to involve ill-will.
Being caught up in aversion and ill will is itself painful. It
constricts the mind and heart. It can also predispose us to
focus on whatever is undesirable which can then trigger more
ill will. For some people, the discomfort that comes from
having ill will is fuel to keep it going; aversion to aversion
perpetuates aversion.
Some people who practice mindfulness discover that ill
will, resentment, anger or aversion are pervasive states of
mind; they can be their default response to events. When en
countering new situations they automatically assume some
thing is wrong and look for what is undesirable or
problematic.
In extreme forms, this hindrance can lead to a very alien
ated life. People with lots of ill will can feel isolated, having
difficulty connecting to others. Aversion can be self-fulfilling;
when other people feel our ill will toward them, they are
more likely to act in ways that give us further reason to have
aversion toward them.
Aversion, together with desire, is the “caffeine of the
soul.” Some people depend on these for their energy, motiva
tion, and even enthusiasm for life. Without either, their life
can feel flat, boring, lonely, or, at times, frightening. As with
giving up coffee, some people go through a “withdrawal”
phase when they stop giving in to these hindrances. It is best
to be patient when going through this phase.
Reflection
What role does ill will have in your life? How strongly does ill
will or aversion operate for you? How free are you from act
ing on ill will? How often do you regret acting on aversion or
ill will? What have been some of the more unfortunate con
sequences resulting from expressing ill will?
Practice
For mindfulness practice, anything can be the focus of mind
ful attention. During this week, spend some time examining
any aversions that might arise for you. These might be quite
small movements of aversion or major outbursts. In situa
tions where it is ok to do so, allow the aversion to be present
without judging it, acting on it, or abandoning it. Notice care
fully how aversion or ill will feels physically. Notice how it
affects the quality of your mind and thinking. How does it
affect your attitude?
Do you hove aversion to aversion?
2 - Attitude toward ill will
Reflection
What are your attitudes toward having aversion? Do you have
aversion to aversion? Are there ways you enjoy or value being
aversive? What pulls you into the aversion? What beliefs do
you have justifying being aversive?
Practice
Study your relationship to aversion and ill will as they arise
this week. This can be both in meditation and in daily life.
Notice the ways that the aversion or ill will are unpleasant
and how you respond to that unpleasantness. Is aversion ever
pleasant or enjoyable? Spend some time talking to someone
about what you discover.
What can you do so anger and ill will
are less likely to arise?
3 - Avoiding ill will and anger
Reflection
What practical things can you do so ill will and anger are less
likely to arise in you? How can you best prepare yourself so
you can avoid getting angry in situations that normally would
provoke it?
Practice
During meditation and daily life, actively cultivate calmness.
Whenever you notice tension, relax as much as possible. Give
yourself extra time to do things so that you are not rushed. As
a way of being calmer, cultivate a greater sense of content
ment. Notice what influence being calm, unrushed and con
tent have on your tendency to become angry or aversive.
What beliefs do you have
that support your aversions?
4 - Letting go of ill will
Reflection
What beliefs do you have that support your aversion? What
do you believe about yourself or others that tends to result in
aversion? Try to question the authority of these beliefs. What
beliefs can you put aside so that you have less anger or ill
will?
Practice
Look for opportunities to let go of ill will and anger. As if
letting go is a muscle, spend the week strengthening that
muscle. Notice what makes letting go of aversion difficult.
Do you have beliefs that make you resistant to letting go?
Physically, emotionally and mentally how do you feel after
you have let go? If you don’t somehow feel lighter after let
ting go, perhaps you have not let go thoroughly enough. Ex
plore more deeply to find the roots of the aversion. If you
recognize them try to let go of them.
SLOTH AND TORPOR
1 - Noticing energy
Reflection
Give attention to the varying levels of energy and effort
through the day. What role does your energy level play in
your life? Do you think of yourself more as an energetic per
son or a non-energetic one? Are you comfortable with being
energetic? When during the day or during the week are you
most energized? When are you least energized?
Practice
At the end of each day reflect over the day and consider
which activities gave you energy and vitality. What helped you
get re-energized? Was it through rest or through activity?
Then the next day, spend more time than you normally would
doing things which energize or rejuvenate you in satisfying
ways. What makes it satisfying? How do these activities affect
your ongoing mood and mental state after the activity is fin
ished?
What kinds of thoughts, beliefs or judgments
drain you of energy or vitality?
2 - Losing energy
Reflection
Besides natural tiredness at the end of the day, what are some
of the primary ways you get drained of energy and vitality?
What activities do this? What kinds of thinking, beliefs, or
judgments do this? How often does disappointment, frustra
tion, or boredom drain your energy? Do you get tired or
drained from being over-energized or over-busy?
Practice
Chronically worrying is an effective way of getting fatigued.
Spend some time noticing when you start worrying. Focus on
relaxing or letting go of whatever worry you can —be content
if you can only do this for small worries. Spend some days
actively doing what you can to be as worry-free as you can.
Notice how this affects your energy level throughout the day.
What attachments do you have
that interfere with getting
the right amount of sleep?
3 - Sleep and fatigue
Reflection
Getting too little and too much sleep can have a big influence
on fatigue. Please consider your beliefs, attitudes, and practic
es around sleep. Do you regularly sleep less than you need?
Do you often sleep more? How restful is your sleep? How
frequently do you use caffeine to overcome sleepiness? What
attachments do you have that interfere with getting the prop
er amount of sleep?
Practice
Spend a week doing everything you can to get adequate sleep.
If you tend to get too little sleep, go to bed early and get up
later in the morning. If you sleep too much, wake up early.
Experiment with taking fifteen minute nap in the middle of
the day. Notice how getting an appropriate amount of sleep
affects your energy, alertness, and mood. Notice what bene
fits this provides you.
What is your most common
attitude toward making effort?
4 - Arousing effort
Reflection
Are there ways that you are lazy? If so, what are some of the
conditions and reasons for your laziness? What are some of
the healthy alternatives to being lazy? What are ways of over
coming laziness?
Practice
Spend some days experimenting with applying more effort in
meditation. This can be done physically by sitting up straight
er or by doing brisk walking meditation before sitting. It can
be done mentally by putting more effort into being alert and
mindful of what is happening during the meditation. If apply
ing more effort agitates you, try to match the increased effort
with increased calm or inner stillness.
RESTLESSNESS
AND WORRY
1 - Noticing restlessness
Reflection
How often during the day are you restless in either body or
mind? What effect does restlessness have on your life? How
do you tend to act when you are restless? What are some of
the situations that trigger you to be restless? Spend some time
reflecting on what beliefs underlie whatever restlessness you
have.
Practice
Give special attention to noticing how restlessness operates
while you meditate. Bring lots of mindfulness to whatever
degree of restlessness you have, no matter how subtle. Notice
where and how restlessness appears in your body and your
mind. How does restlessness affect your mindfulness and
what happens to restlessness when you can hold it in mindful
attention?
What importance do you give to calmness?
Restlessness and Worry Reflections and Practices
2 - Noticing calm
Reflection
What are the times of day when you are most likely to be
calm? How much importance do you give to calmness? What
supports you to be calm? What are the most common condi
tions that cause you to lose your calmness?
Practice
Give special attention to being calm during meditation. Be
fore you meditate spend a few minutes doing some calming
activity. In the beginning of your meditation session focus on
relaxing every time you exhale. As your meditation continues,
tune into any feeling of calmness you may have, no matter
how slight. Notice how calm or tranquility is experienced in
your body and mind. How does calm affect your mindfulness
and how does mindfulness support calm?
How might you wisely
address those issues for which
you have remorse?
3 - Reviewing remorse
Reflection
Consider some of your past behavior for which you have re
morse or which agitate you when you think of them. Over
several days, make up a list of these. Look the list over and
see if you can discern any pattern in the kind of things that
are unresolved. Do they mostly concern events of the past or
about events that are still current? Spend time considering
how you might resolve these issues so that they no longer
cause you to be preoccupied.
Practice
Look over your list of things that are unresolved or that you
have regrets over and find one or two that you can do some
thing to resolve This might involve an apology, making
amends, or having a difficult conversation with someone.
What beliefs underlie
your worries?
Restlessness and Worry Reflections and Practices
4 - Questioning worry
Reflection
Reflect on the beliefs that underlie your worries. Question
these beliefs. Are they true or useful? How did you acquire
them? Why might these beliefs cause you to worry? How do
these beliefs relate to your self-image or ideas of self? Try to
have an in-depth conversation with someone about these
questions. Alternatively, write down your reflections and re
read them later.
Practice
During meditation focus on mindfulness of breathing. Focus
on the calming and stilling effect of focusing on the breath.
Tune into the rhythm of breathing in and out, riding as many
cycles as you can. Try breathing into or through any place of
agitation or tension you have. Sometimes it can be calming to
remember to let go of thoughts at the end of every exhale.
Let go of your agitating beliefs.
DOUBT
P ra c tic in g w ith d o u b t
It can be difficult to recognize doubt when caught in it.
The challenge is to have enough distance or objectivity to see
it for what it is. Indecisiveness or holding back in the practice
are clues that doubt is occurring. Physical tension or pressure
may be evidence we are under the sway of doubt.
To counter doubt, practicing mindfulness of the body
helps. This can show us where we can physically relax to less
en the strength of the doubt. Staying present for our bodily
experience keeps us in the present rather than the future
thinking of the doubts. Relaxation and attention to the body
improves our chances of recognizing doubt as it occurs.
Once we recognize it, it can be helpful to use a mental note
to label the doubt as 'doubt'. When clearly identified, doubt
tends to have less power over us.
When hindering doubt is recognized, there are various
ways of working with it. For mindfulness practitioners a pri
mary approach is to continue being mindful in a non-reactive
way. This means letting the doubt be while cultivating a
mindful awareness which is stronger than the pull of the
doubt.
Mindfulness can be strengthened by recognizing how
doubt distances us from the present moment and from seeing
clearly. When we are caught up in doubt, we are often preoc
cupied in thoughts, concepts and beliefs. To counteract this,
we can devote our self to being present, relaxing the spinning
mind and making effort to disentangle from all the ideas,
thoughts and ideas that are supporting the doubt.
It can also be helpful to feel what it is like to be in a hu
man body that is experiencing doubt. In this case, we are in
terested in what doubt feels like physically, not what we have
doubt about.
When doubt involves a hesitation to commit to the prac
tice, it can sometimes be overcome by applying more disci
pline and resolve to the practice. This is especially beneficial
when the doubts are minor and perhaps do not warrant much
attention. This is also a good approach when the results of
practice itself disprove a doubt.
In the case of major or persistent doubts, discipline may
not be helpful, especially if it entails unhealthy suppression.
Major doubts may need to be dealt with directly such as by
questioning deeply held beliefs, attending to unresolved feel
ings or challenging ingrained convictions about self-identity.
Some people have a strong tendency to resist change of any
type, including new perspectives and understandings. Doubt
can become a tool of resistance for inhibiting change.
When doubt involves uncertainty about the practice or
the teachings, it helps to study, learn and reflect on the dhar-
ma itself. Discussing it with a teacher or having a talk with a
dharma friend may also help in this regard. Having a clear
understanding of the Buddha’s teachings on what is skillful
and what is unskillful can go a long way toward overcoming
doubt.
Confidence in one’s capacity to practice is very important.
For people plagued by doubt in their own ability, it can be
useful to develop self-confidence. Many people overlook
what they are capable of and focus instead on what they think
they cannot do. Taking time to consider and feel happy about
what one can do— even the smallest of things—can strength
en confidence. Approaching one’s practice in small incre
ments may slowly develop confidence. For instance, resolving
to be aware of each breath throughout a meditation session is
unlikely to build confidence, whereas resolving to stay with
two breaths at a time may be more effective. Once one has
confidence in two breaths, one can move on to three breaths,
then four, etc. Surprisingly, spending less time thinking about
oneself can help with confidence. This is because self
preoccupation tends to undermine healthy self-regard.
Finally, it can be helpful to remember something that in
spires you in the practice, such as a teaching, a person, or
some experience you have had. Bringing this to mind may
remind you of why you are doing the practice and how much
you value it. It may gladden the heart enough to clear away
the clouds of doubt. It may even encourage you to rededicate
your efforts to transform everything into your path to free
dom, including the hindrances.
Doubt
Reflections and Practices
1 - Facing doubts
Reflection
Consider carefully what doubts you have in relation to medi
tation practice and/or Buddhist practice. Are you skeptical or
uncertain about any of the teachings? Do you doubt your
own ability to practice? Are you ambivalent about some of
the goals or results of practice? Does this uncertainty affect
how you practice? In what ways might doubt interfere with
your practice?
Practice
Write up a list of ten questions you have about Buddhism or
about meditation practice. Try to come up with questions
which have a direct bearing on how and what you practice.
Of these ten questions, spend time thinking, studying, and
discussing with someone the most significant one for you.
What are the primary ways
you feel confident as a
meditation practitioner?
2 - Confidence
Reflection
How would you rate the strength of your confidence in medi
tation teachings and in yourself as a meditation practitioner?
Over the time you have meditated, in what ways has your
confidence fluctuated? What are some of the reasons for this
fluctuation? With your involvement with meditation, what are
the primary ways that you feel confidence?
Practice
Before each session of meditation, remind yourself of those
things that give you confidence in the practice. Let that con
fidence support you during meditation. How does doing this
affect your meditation practice?
What are some of the conditions
you can put into place which might
support your confidence and resolve
with mindfulness practice?
3 - Conditions for doubt
Reflection
What are the situations, conditions and beliefs which are
most likely to trigger doubt? What effect do frustrations and
difficulties in meditation have on the arising of doubt? What
are some of the conditions you can put into place which
might support your confidence and resolve in mindfulness
practice?
Practice
Each time doubt, uncertainty, hesitation, or indecisiveness
occur in meditation, use the mental note “doubt” to label it.
Clearly note it several times and see if you can free yourself
from being influenced by the doubt. Doubt involves belief.
With the help of mental noting, can you be mindful enough
of the act of believing that you can find freedom from belief?
At the end of a meditation session, reflect how often you
noted “doubt.”
Is any part of your life challenged
by your meditation practice?
4 - Conflicted about practicing
Reflection
Do you have any fear or hesitation about what might happen
to you when you practice meditation? Are you frightened or
resistant to possible meditation experiences? Do you feel con
flicted doing meditation because other activities seem more
important? Are you worried that meditation practice will
change you in ways that make you uncomfortable? Is any part
of your life challenged by your meditation practice? Please
discuss these fears and concerns with someone.
Practice
If you are aware of any fear or conflict as you meditate, bring
your mindfulness directly to the felt experience of the fear or
conflict. Use your attention to become more familiar to how
it is experienced as opposed to what you believe about it. Try
using mental noting to see if you can free yourself from being
entangled with the sense of conflict. Simply know that it is
there and notice what happens to it as you stay present.
AFTER THE
HINDRANCES