Shawn had briefly seen Chris and Cal together so he'd decided to leave them alone since Cal is

pretty dependable. Lizz on the other hand had seemed way too woozy back when she came at the
cabin and he didn't like the idea of her being alone in the cabin "Elizza!" He called out trying to find
her as soon as possible

Elizza is sobbing and lost.

Shawn hears faint sobs and runs over to wear the cries are coming from

"Lizz!?"

He sees her and rushes over to her

Elizza is hugging her knees, sitting on a rock

Shawn walks over to her slightly panicked. He didn't have a good experience last time he saw a girl
on a rock He hugs are tenderly relieved that she doesn't seem hurt. Atleast not physically "What
happened Lizz?"

Elizza keeps sobbing "She hates me. I tried to follow her and get lost. Everyone hate me" she is still
tipsy

He puts softly brushes her off her face and pats her head reassuringly "Hey, look at me, Eli. I don't
hate you, I'm sure no one does. You're way to wonderful for that" He whispers softly, pressing his
forehead against hers. He wipes her tears away with his free hand

She look at him finally "You are right... people don't care enough to hate me" she wipes some tears
with her hand, her make up is ruined, staining her face "I'm sorry..."

"Hey, you don't have to apologise. It's not like that. They do care... I do care" He offers her a
handkerchief from his pocket

she snorts and ignore the handkerchief "Shawn please... Don't give me the talk about how much
people care. I'm... so tired of hearing that, and believing, and try, and get disappointed every fucking
time!" Elizza stutters and her voice get higher as she ramble "Why I'm even here? Just to you all get
someone to laugh?"

He puts it down and just rubs her back listening to her patently "Hey, I don't know what happened
and I'm sorry it made you feel like this. I speak for anyone else but I assure you that you're very
important to me" He says in soothing voice before pouting "And hey, getting everyone to laugh is
my job over here. You're here because you're a dear friend and it helps that you're very hot"

"Sure I am" she just try to stop crying and look at Shawn like trying to find the words but she sighs
"who cares"

"I do, I swear I do" He looks into her eyes with concern and care

"Yeah, it's ok"

"You wanna go back to the cabin with me?" He holds out his hand

"No" she was too afraid of coming back

He sits down beside her "That's fine, I was a boy scout I can survive here" He smiles "Do you wanna
talk about what happened?"
"Nothing happened. I get drunk and Christie is tired of having me not fitting here." she looks away
from him "I'm tired of that too"

"Chris said that to you?" He asks her wondering if Chris would do that. She had even taken her
medicine and he doesn't think she'd say it when she's herself "Besides, you don't have to fit in. It's
the best thing about you. The fact that you stand out and are not afraid of being different" He puts a
hand on her shoulder and smiles "You're rare Lizz, don't let anyone make you feel bad for it"

"why no one believes what I say? Yeah, she told me she was done trying to help me to fit in this
group! she laughs with sadness "My best trait is being the person no one stands around, that's
great." She look at him "Even if you believe it... what matter? At the end, I'm just the backup friend.
A safe choice when no one else is available cause I'm so desperate for attention that I will be waiting
no matter what"

"It's not like that, I do believe. Look, she's got her own issues that she's struggling with so maybe she
isn't as patient as she could be but she still loves you" He gets a little sad seeing how saf she was
but he still tries to comfort her "We do want to stand around you and you're definitely not a back
up. You're important and a priority. I'm not here because no onr else was available Lizz, I'm here
because I want to be here with you"

"I didn't ask her any of that, I don't care. If she is tired, fine. She has the right." she laughs and looks
totally exhausted "No, Shawn, I'm no one else priority. I never was, I'm not and I never will be.
I'm..." her voice is broken "I just want to be the first choice of someone for one time on my life... it's
that so much to ask?" she starts crying again "People only talk me when they don't have any better
to do, any better to talk, any better to fuck... all my fucking life! And it's ok cause I will take all that
shit to not feel alone! I'm so pathetic.." she laughs again and seems to stop crying after a few
seconds of sobbing " You are only here cause I made a scene and force you to stay around... I'm not
better than... " she suddenly stop " I'm just fishing for attention and I suck at that too... "

He pats her head gently "We're all hardly adults. We've got our entire lives ahead of us. None of us
even know what we want. But I do know that you're worth being somebody's priority. You deserve
all the happiness in the world and we want to be a part of your happiness. I want to be a reason for
your happiness. It's definitely not too much to ask for... It's just that we're all idiots who are
confused" He squeezes her hand reassuringly "That's not true. People talk to you because they want
to. I was super happy when Chris told me that you'd be here on this trip because I've always wanted
to get to know you better" He wipes her tears with his thumbs, cupping her face "You're not
pathetic at all and you don't have to compare yourself to anyone. You're perfect just the way you
are. You know Mat used to talk about you all the time in high school. Initially I thought that he was
dating Chris or something but when I heard him talk about you, I knew that you were special to him
in a different way. He likes you and you're definitely a priority for him as well" He kisses her
forehead gently "You're not fishing for attention Liz, you're just hurt and it's alright to express
yourself"

She shakes her head. People usually don't get and here he don't get it again "That is not what I
mean... I'm not asking for a romantic person that fix my world and me... that will not change
anything... not that kind of... priority. Hear me, no matter what I do, people eventually find a better
one and leave me behind. It happened with every relationship I had... but also with friends... or...
well, everything" she laughs "And now you know metter. I bet you are delighted" "I'm not perfect
Shawn, I'm broken and down, and I don't want to live my life like this... I hate myself" the only
reason she is not crying again is he holding her face but she painfully turn away her face when he
talks about Mat "I never was his priority... and clearly I'm not now. There is always someone else
that he run after. Not matter if a friend or... other thing. Mat said he likes me... but he never acted in
a way that really show me that he feels that way. And... I'm over that now. Here and now... that only
hurt me more." "But I do, Shawn. l... just... look at me... I've been trying so bad to get people to care
about me that I was ok with they hating me"

He sighed a little maybe she misunderstood his words. He wasn't talking about a romantic hero to
save her. This wasn't a fairytale nor was she a damsel in distress. She was a strong independent
woman and she didn't need anyone else to 'save' her or 'fix' her cause she was never broken to
begin with "I'm not talking about a romance that magically solves everything either. I think we both
know it never works out like that. The only person who can make you feel better is yourself, Eli. It's
you who needs to realise how special you are and until you learn to love yourself, no amount of love
from outside could fill the void. You are my priority and and I promise I won't leave you behind but it
doesn't matter what I say if you don't believe me" He looks at her "Yes, I know you a little better
know and yes I am glad that you decided to open up to me. I'm sorry I wasn't able to understand or
be there for you earlier and maybe I still don't get it but I'll try to be there for you because you're my
friend. I'd never ask you to change, cause I admire who you are but if you hate yourself then maybe
it is time for a change. What kind of person do you want to be. You're strong Eli, you can be and do
whatever you want and I'll support and accept you every step of the way" He regrets speaking
about Mat seeing her reaction. He didn't know she thought this much about it "I think I understand
where you're coming from Elizza but he's confused too and I guess he's shy and doesn't know how to
talk to you. The nature of this trip doesn't help. I'm sure everyone here has their hormones on
overdrive and we don't even know what we're doing. Horny, young, confused and naive are not
good combinations and that's what all of us are in this house. I'm not saying you should forgive him
nor am I saying that he's right but I can see his side as well. I think. Maybe he doesn't even know that
you ever felt like that for him. Maybe you never made it clear to him either and maybe he gave up
way before you did because he didn't think you'd ever see him that way"

She looks relieved that he at least understand about all that is not a romantic issue and she hear
him with a faint smile "Yeah, sorry.. it's not like I don't want to believe you... I just... can't do it.
People has been acting that way all my life... it's hard to expect any other thing" She is having a hard
time to control her tears when he keeps speaking "But i can't... I tried over and over... I try to force
myself to act differently, to face people, to not caring... and I don't know what I want or how to
change... I'm just lost and sad... and so much tired. So much... I just can't..." for the first time in all
the time he was with her in the forest she finally leans and hug him, sobbing in his chest "I'm
sorry... I'm so sorry..." "I dont care about Mat... he had his chances... we both, if you want to put it
that way. Now everything is different. Here is different. We both are. " she sobs, trying to get a hold
of herself "It doesn't matter anymore. We talked. I told him. It's over. But he said he was my friend
and he is not acting as a friend either"

He nods his head in understanding "I get that. It's not easy to unlearn all of that pain but I know you
can do it step by step with time. It's not about not caring or hiding your feelings or being someone
you're not. That never works and is way too exhausting. You just have to choose who and what you
care about carefully. You can rely on me when you're tired. I'll never give up on you so don't give up
on yourself" He hugs her back holding her tight against his chest, while running his hand through
her hair soothingly "That's alright, I'm not saying you and Mat need to be a thing but you too
definitely need to talk, whenever you're ready. I'm sure he does want you as a friend and I'm sure he
has several things to say to you. And maybe, just maybe you can let him know how you feel as well"
He continues comforting her when he realises she's trying to control herself "Hey, don't worry, let
it all out, cry as much as you want to. It's really important to not keep these things inside"

"I've been saying how I feel all the time... people just don't listen or care..." she sobs "I promise, I
try... I really do" She clench her teeth as he ask her to let it all out "I can't... cause I don't know if I
could stop... or if I will do something bad..." she sobs "I need to grow up... and act like and adult...
and stop feeling like this... or people will leave me again, bullying me, huritng me... I'm not weak...
I'm not weak anymore"

"I'm sorry I didn't listen before but I'm listening now. And I know that you're trying your best which is
why I know it'll be okay. Because I believe in you" He pulls her closer, hugging her tighter "It's
alright, I'm here with you. I'll catch you if you fall and I'll find you of you lose your way so let it all out
for once. You don't have to force yourself to grow up, you're still young. Do things at your own pace,
like you always have and screw those who hold you back. You're right, you're not weak at all Liz.
You're on of the strongest girls I know"

she is just crying, broken down for a few minutes, unable to put words in her mouth "I'm sorry, I'm
sorry" she keeps apologizing even if her voice is getting lost in the crying. She trembles and hug
him until she finally, slowly, seems to not have any more crying inside, for now "I don't know how
to do any of that... I'm so lost..." she finally said

He just holds her letting her cry, being there for her without saying anything for a while "Don't
apologise, you have done nothing wrong" He repeats softly, making sure she knows that crying or
beint vulnerable was never a bad and it wasn't something to be sorry for "That's alright, we'll
figure it out together in due time. Together" He gives her a reassuring smile

"but I hurt people so much... I hurt people acting like a child... I make people uncomfortable around
me... and that is why I'm alone " she repeats when he told she did nothing wrong "I'm so sorry... I
can't stop it..." she clings to his arms "I'm fine... you don't... have to stay if you don't want. You can
leave too" her voice tremble and even if she said that she is digging her fingers in him, not wanting
to leave him go

"Caring for someone comes with getting hurt sometimes but that's alright no one will hold it over
you. And you don't make anyone uncomfortable, we just don't want to hurt you. And you're not
alone, I'm here with you and I don't want to leave. I like being with you" He says in a soft, gently
voice

"Just... let me stay here a bit more... we can go to the cabin in a minute... " she is in his chest, his
shirt ruined with her makeup smeared all over it, her face totally messed up

"That's alright we can stay here for as long as you want. Scout's honour" He chuckles a bit not caring
about his shirt. All he cared about right now was his friend

After a few minutes Elizza starts dozing off and she pull her out of the hug "We should go..." she
stumble as she stand up. Still not totally sober, her hurted foot, and her emotional explosion
makes her feel weak and tired

"As you command m'lday" He says with a cheesy grin. He could see that she wasn't in the best
condition so he picked her up and took her back to the cabin. He got her some water and then laid
her down on her bed

She scream "what are you...!!" she blushes "Pu-ut me down! I'm not a child!"
"Not a child, a princess" He grins

she blushes hard "I'm not that either" she reply with a soft voice and pouts, but stops fighting him
"you really need to stop carrying short people on your own... it's awful" she said, putting her arms
around his neck to stop bouncing on his arms

"You might as well be and I'm carrying you because you're hot and I'm a pervert. It has nothing to do
with you being short" He says laughing a bit

she push his shoulder "Dork" she lays on her bed when he finally put in there and curls. She knows
she should clean her make up but she is too tired "why you put me in my bed... I'm not sleepy...
you... wanna fuck me while I'm drunk? Perv..."

"It's not like I don't want to but we'll that when you're sober, I just wanna cuddle right now" He grins
"Or is that too perverted?"

"that's lame" she laughs as she is dozing off

"When you're in your senses, yes" He doesn't stop her but he tries not to stare because that would
feel wrong. He then just holds her untill he falls asleep...

Elizza falls asleep with one tit out her top and his face resting on Shawn chest

Eli