Lesego’s love story

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Introduction

Hay everyone.
I am мαтѕнι∂ιѕσ (Lesego) Mofokeng, but my friends call me Lsg. I am 18 years of age and I am
doing my first year in university.

Let me tell you a little about myself.

I grew up with my Grandparents, they took me in from when I was an infant. I lived in Gauteng (
Johannesburg). My mother lived in Free State ( Lusaka) and my father also stayed in Free State
but he stayed in Thabana Tshwana. My parents passed away while I was in primary school, their
death never really affected me because I wasn’t really attached to them, I would see them once
in a year but sometimes, never. I am a girl who doesn’t really believe in love at first sight and I
have lived with that belief for years, people think that’s the reason I turned out as a tomboy. I
grew up around boys, at first girls thought I was an attention seeker, seeking attention from boys,
others thought I would grow to be a woman who likes man, but truth came out that am just one
of them.

Now that you all know a little about me, I guess we should start my little journey of life. Hope you
enjoy it with me.
Love you guys
from Lesego...
1.

Saturday morning and am woken up by my grandmother, God knows I hate waking up in the
morning, I mean I do that everyday during weekdays because I need to go to school, and here I
am thinking am going to enjoy my sleep and my grandmother just destroys everything.

Her : Matshidiso tsowa, have you forgotten that we have visitors??

Me : Yoh nkgono, so early in the morning, kanti who's vising?? the president??
Her : If you don't wake up now, I will leave you to clean this whole house alone, and better make
sure its clean.

I quickly got up, if you grew up with grandparents, especially a grandmother, you would know
that her threats are not just threats but they do come true. it was about past 6am.

I started helping my grandmother to clean the house, we cleaned up for about 3 hours,
sweeping, moping, washing windows, cleaning cupboards and so forth. I wasn't really aware that
we would be spring cleaning, and its not even the end of the month. ( rolling eyes )

When I was done I went to take a bath and got dressed, I put on my white takkies, black swag
pants, whit vest and a black cap, then I went to the dining room to bid my grandma goodbye, and
also ask her for some cash.
I got to the dining room and she was sitting there watching TV.
Her : knowing you, when you all dressed like that I going somewhere.

Me : well, nkgono, I thought I should give you and your coming visitors some space to discuss
whatever you will be discussing.

Her : we both know that's not the case, you were going to leave whether I had visitors or not, so
don't create excuses.

Me : okay nkgono, you got me, true that. So can I get a R20?

Her : for?

Me : food, please.

Her : why don't you eat now, and then take some bread make toast and take it as your lunch??
When she said I immediately just stared at her, I mean does this lady hear what she's saying.
Who goes around taking lunch to meet up with their friends?? I mean we are going to be chilling
at the park, this is really not happening.

Me : nkgono, am 18 not 7, I could eat now, but am already running late, but to take lunch is out
of the question.

Her : owk then, Hai banaba matsatsia, you always wondering of what will people say, Hai

Me : so?? please.

Her : take

she gave me the money and I gave her the most biggest grin on my face.

Me : thank you, bye

Her : bye, but don't come late, okay

Me : okay

I gave nkgono a kiss on the cheek and left to go to my friends.

I got to the park and found my ouens (friends) sitting at our favourite bench right under the
smallest tree in the park, just at the up left of the park. It was Jabu, Thabo, Bafana and my closest
friend ( also a tomboy ) Masego.
we got the name's Masego and Lesego from Thabo because we were like twins, we mostly like
the same things and dislike the same things.

Me : ouens

Them : awe, awe

Me : bro, tired as never, had to do spring cleaning vandag.

Thabo : spring cleaning?? in the middle of the month nje??

Jabu : yekala umunyumtwana man, she's training to be a good makoti.

everyone laughed, I seriously just thought of jumping at Jabu and beating him up, but Hai that's
what you get for being the youngest in the group. I was expecting Fana to add because Jabu and
Fana just love to joke about me and Msg, but Fana was just quite, yes he laughed but his laugh
was rather fake, you could tell.

Me : hao Fana, you seem to be chilled today, something wrong?? or are you trying out different
personalities??

Fana : ( laughs) nah braza, am just thinking about my young brother.

Me : your brother?? since when do you take time out, to think about your brother??

Fana : well if he's going to be coming this side to visit, I might as well, give time

Msg : hao, I didn't know you had a little bro.

Thabo : well the last time Fana spoke about his brother, was the day he had to go entabeni.

Jabu : yah, and sad thing is, his little bro and him have some personality clash.

Me : oh owk, so when is he coming??

Fana : in 2 weeks time,.

Msg : well at least by then, we will all be done with exams right??

Me : yep

Thabo: yep

Jabu : nop, I finish the third week.

Fana : I will be done.

we continued talking till it was pretty late, we bid each other good bye and I headed back home,
am pretty sure my grandma will really shout at me, I promised not to be late but here I am,
arriving late..

I got in the house and found my grandparents watching TV ( generations ), I walked in and
greeted, I really was not in the mood for being shouted at, but I know I was wrong so I would just
take the punches as they come.

Her : I thought you said you wouldn't come late

Me : sorry nkgono, I wasn't checking the time.

I really thought she was going to go on and on, but at least she just got chilled with me.

I got to my room and put on my pj's and got to bed, I was in thought when suddenly I shut my
eyes and went to lala land.

The next morning it was Sunday and I could feel my grandfather pulling me out of my dreams (
waking me up ), I got up and did a quick 360 in the house, I then went to take a bath. When I was
done I put on my white takkies, white long socks, grey swag shorts, white long sleeve vest, grey
no sleeve hoodie jacket, and a grey bunny hoodie.

people always want to look so formal when they go to church, but I grew being told that I should
take church as my second house, so I go with any comfortable clothing because I go to God not
men.

I then took my bible and we all left to go to church.

after church I decided to call my gents and invite them to my house, as my grandparents have
decided to go to where ever they went. my gents were surely at the park or at Fana's place.

so I called Msg and my buddy answered on the 3rd ring.

Her : Lsg!!

Me : awe braza, where you at?

Her : the park, you coming?

Me : I was thinking you guys could come to my crib.

Her : magriza u daar?

Me : nah, vanished, so I have to check in for the day, am alone.

Her : cool, we will be there, give us few minutes

Me : cool

Her : bra one last thing, is there food?

Me : just come bro (laugh)

she dropped the call and I just smiled. Msg loves food, to the extend where she can do anything,
even kill for food. (just jokes guys). I won’t blame her, I also love food.

30 minutes later they had arrived at my place and we were watching a drama on my laptop and
the drama was called Empire season 2, we were boasting about how Freda gatz is the real
inspiration to me and Msg and the guys were laughing and joking about imagining us rapping. (
rolling eyes).

just as Thabo was talking about leaving, my grandparents arrived, it was just after 5pm
the shock on my grandmothers face could not be better than the shock of a mother finding out
that her child is pregnant. she looked at me then she looked at my friends, then at me again, then
my friends. my grandpa just left .I knew just then that I had to bid my gents goodnight and wait
for a hell of a lecture.
my friends bid goodbye and I took them out the gate, then I took a long deep breath and went
back inside the house.

I got in the house and when to the kitchen and found my grandmother there, so I decided to just
go and talk to her, and tangle her mind.

Me : mm nkgono, am sorry, I should've asked you

Her : like damn you should, what were you thinking bringing boys to the house?

Me : I was bored so I called them to chill with me

Her : Matshidiso, I have already accepted the fact that you are into men's things, but bringing
boys to the house is not ideal.

Me : am sorry ma, next time I will ask before.

Her : ********silence***********

I left my granny there and decided to not say a word, she finished cooking and I went to dish up (
Sunday Koss ), we ate and after I went to do the dishes. when I was done, I went to go have my
beauty sleep. I didn't realize how tired I was until I placed my head on the pillow, I slept almost
immediately.

4
I woke up early the next day, which was Monday. I got up just as my grandparents left for work. I
went to bath then started getting dressed. when I was done I took my books and left for school.
I normally meet up with Msg and her sister ( Lerato) on the bus, but unfortunately today I only
met up with Lerato.
Me : hallo Lerato

Her : hay, Tshidi

Me : bra, my name is Lsg, please stick to that. Nx

Her : you know to be honest, you have a good body to be a girly girl, start appreciating and show
off your beauty, am telling you, men would kill to date you, forget about girls, they don't have
assets.

Me : (sigh) you know you have been saying the same thing for the past 9 months

Her : its not my fault that you and my sister won’t listen.

Me : mxm ( rolling eyes) speaking of your sister, were is she? she sick?

Her : nope, she went to school, early today, she said something about handing in a project.

Me : oh owk

the bus stopped and we got off and went to the school gate, we got in and immediately Mr
Peterson called for me, he was shouting so hard on top of his lungs for me to hear.

I went to him, in his class.

Me : yes sir

Him : Tshidi, I am very proud of your work in maths, you need to keep that up.
Me : thank you sir

Him : good, now remember if you need anything, you can count on me.

Me : I will remember that.

owk now that was weird, I mean Mr Peterson could have just waited for his period to come, so
that he can tell me this, but then its nothing..

school was then normal, nothing new or fresh, just the part of us having a pens down party after
the final paper. the whole day of school I was hoping to see Msg, but nothing.

I was really getting worried.

after classes I went home and still felt like there was something wrong, I got home and went
straight to my bedroom, my grandparents were in their bedroom, so I doubt they heard me come
in, I then decided to call Msg.

she answered just as the phone was about to go to voicemail

Her : brah

Me : bro, were u at?

Her : home.

Me : Lerato said you went to school early moss, but I didn't see you.

Her : yes I went to school, submitted my project, and attended 1 class, after that I left
to go home.
Me : why, u sick?

Her : nah, bro, I am going through something that keeps reminding me that am a flipping girl.

Me : oh man, you on your periods.?

Her : yah bro, listen I really cant talk right now, am tearing apart.

Me : okay shap

she dropped the call. I really feel sorry for her, but you see me and Msg are just tomboys, we
don't date girls, nor boys, we just enjoy our lives. yes we had previous relationships with guys,
and all those guys were just boring, so we kept a low profile..

on Friday after school we departed with Msg but we were going to meet again at about 3pm at
the park.

I got home and placed my books at their places, then I went to make myself toast and some juice,
then I took my hoodie and left because my grandparents were not yet at home.

as I was leaving, I bumped into my grandpa at the door.

Him : going somewhere?

Me : yes ntatemolo

Him : park?

Me : you know me too well.

Him : where's nkgono?

Me : not yet here.

Him : owk, let me not keep you, don't be late.

Me : owk.

I won’t lie, but me and my grandfather, we not so close, we never have a cool, long sentenced
conversations.

when I got to the park I saw my guys laughing and having a good time at our favourite bench
under the small tree, but this time they were with another guy, he was tall, middle bodied, you
could tell that he was a body builder, he was also a dark, chocolate man....
as I moved closer to them, I heard his voice, it was so deep and soft, damn I was starting to
switch off. I got close to them and I just stared at him. he had light brown eyes, and had his eye
brows trimmed in two lines, oh no to mention his lips, they were so soft and cherry like.

I stared at him for about 2 minutes and came back to earth,

Thabo : bra you have been looking at Themba for like days now

Jabu : (laughs) you would swear she didn't notice

Me : ahh no, I was just wondering who he was.

Msg : well that's Themba

Me : wasn't he supposed to come next week only?

Fana : well as you can see, he changed his min.

Themba : guys am here you know, I can hear you, why does it seem like I interrupted plans?

when he spoke that minute, I swear I would go crazy, I started getting butterflies, and growing
hearts in my eyes, and couldn't help myself but smile.

Me : oh no, am just not a new face person.

Themba : well you must be there Lsg, baby of the group?

Me : in the flesh

Themba : well then nice to meet you

Me : pleasure is all mine.

I held out my hand to give him a handshake, but instead he insisted on giving me a hug, he said it
was because I was now like a little sister to him.

I won’t lie but this was like a turn off, so here I am going crazy about the guy and he says that am
like his little sister, mxm.
I won’t lie, when he gave that hug, I swear I felt like I would melt, we stayed and talked, with me
halve in space and halve in hearts. we departed and all went home, for the first time, I was so sad
and didn't want to go home, but I had no choice. I got home and I couldn't stomach anything, I
couldn't eat nor drink water or even sleep.

******Themba*******
when we departed with the guys, I felt a bit off, I mean I know Lsg is some kind of a tomboy or
lesbian, I didn't understand, but still she captured my heart the very moment I saw her
approaching to us. she was cute in those boy clothing and seem to chilled as well.

as I was deep in thought Fana caught that I was not listening to what he was saying. he has
always been this talking tom, but I was never the talking type and me not listening was the first
sign of a fight.

Him : bro, can you at least pretend like you listening.

Me : am sorry, am just thinking about happened today

Him : let me guess, you talking about Lsg?

as he said that my heart skipped a little, how could he have figured out?? am I too obvious?? I
really thought I was doing a great job at hiding things..

Me : mhm, yah

Him : oh, don't worry about her, she is too observant.

Me : meaning??
Him : whenever she is around new people she gets chilled, soft, and distant.

Me : oh, trying to figure who I am ??

Him : yep

when he said that I was relieved, at least he doesn't know that am actually getting crazy because
of this gal, and I don't think she feels the same way.

Him : wait a minute, why are you concerned about someone being distant from you?? normally
you wouldn't care.

Me : *******silent********

Him : no ways!!

owk now am doomed, he's getting the catch now so I might never hear the end of it... ( sigh)

Me : bad neh... (sigh)

Him : so you growing feelings for this Lsg??

Me : yep, am hella so in love bro, I cant even think about anything else.

Him : did you notice that she was wearing boyish, right??

Me : yes I wanted to ask, is she lesbian??

Him: nah, she's a tomboy

Me : what’s the difference

Him : she acts, dresses and behaves like a boy, but she's not into girls.

Me : so she's into guys??

Him : I wouldn't say that but, you can ask her.

we got home and I went straight to my bedroom, I didn't want food nor water, I wasn't in the
mood for my parents so I just bid goodbye and left to go sleep, and for the first time, I couldn't
sleep just because I was thinking of a girl ( Lsg ).

7
*******Lesego******

I woke up the next day and it was Saturday, I wasn't really sure I was going to sleep since I have
been in deep thoughts about Themba. I got up did a quick 360 in the house and went to take a
bath, when I was done I went to the kitchen and found my grandma preparing breakfast.

Me : mhm, seems like somebody craves some white porridge today..

Her : hao, am a old woman now, I need it for my health.

Me : hao ma, you do realize that its the 21st century neh.??

Her : and that's why there's a million sicknesses, in our days there was never so many
sicknesses.
Me : owk, I will make myself some toast.

Her : and who do you think will eat all this porridge?

Me : oh, I thought its just for you and mataima.

she gave me a play full slap on the shoulder with the (fatuku) cloth, and poured me a bowl full of
porridge and I ate. as I was sitting and eating I got a call from Fana..

Me : awe boy

Him : you know am older than you right? (laughs)

Me : (rolling eyes) what ever brah, what got you dialling my number?? I thought we
meeting at 3pm.

Him : cant I just call my braza??

Me : bro you keep forgetting that I have known you for months now.

Him : (sigh) owk you got me, I need a little favour

Me : brah you know am keen when it comes to my braza's. what can I do for you??

Him : my sister has been invited to a private lunch and asked me to babysit her child
but then you see, me and Themba are supposed to go to town. so can you babysit.
Me : why not go with her??

Her : (clears throat)

Me : oh I get it, its owk bring him over.

Him : thanks

I dropped the call and went to the sink to wash the dish's, I then went to the dining room to
watch some TV, after some few hours I heard a knock on the door, I just knew that it was Fana so
I went to open the door.

as I opened the door I had a big grin on my face, but that grin was wiped off by who was standing
at the doing, as earth would have it, it was Themba. such a fine, dark , muscled man standing
there with his brown eyes looking into mine.

Me : (clears throat) oh hay, I was expecting Fana

Him : hay Lsg

we stayed silence for a couple of minutes, I really didn't know what to say, I mean he's standing
here and looking at my eyes, he is a eye contact man if I could tell. we just stared in each other's
eyes, I swear I could just tell this guy that I love him, and we could just live a happy ever after but
life was just cruel.

I mean am a tomboy and I don't picture myself being a girly girl. but for him, I swear I would
change. after a while he broke the silence.

Him : (clears throat) mhm Fana is in the car, he asked me to quickly drop Khanyi.

Me : oh owk
I reached for Khanyi and her belongings and I could feel his touch when I reached for the bag that
was hanged in his hand. when he stroked my hand I swear my blood started to run around.
I quickly pulled my hand in, so that it doesn't seem like am enjoying it...

Him : am sorry, so will you be able to take care of her.

Me : yah sure, so what time will you come fetch her?

Him : do you want me to fetch her?

Me : yes.......no, I mean anyone can come fetch her.

Him : even strangers??

Me : no, stupid, I mean between you and Fana. ( smiles )

Him : owk, at 4 latest.

Me : so, no park for me today??

Him : you can go with her, she's not a hand full person.

I looked at him and smiled, I didn't know he was like this. well, I stepped back and wanted to
close the door, but he had his hands holding the door.

Me : did I forget something?

Him : goodbye?

Me : oh sorry, goodbye, oh and bid my goodbye to Fana as well

Him : will do

Me : owk

he then leaned towards me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. oh my word I could melt, like what
is this guy doing? is he trying to kill me with a love sickness?? I almost fainted and Khanyi was just
sitting on the couch watching cartoons. I first thought he was going to kiss me on my lips, so I
tried blocking him with my hand on his chest. so after he backed off after kissing my cheek, I still
had my hand on his chest, and feeling his heart beat, I swear it was running a marathon.

Him : are you going to remove your hand??

I moved my hand almost immediately and he gave me the most biggest grin.

Me : get that grin off your face, it doesn't suit you.

Him : ( chuckles) I better go bye

he walked out and I just watched him go, as he reached the gate he looked back and smiled, then
I went back inside.

I took baby Khanyi and we went to my room, we played games on my tablet, talked about school,
and even sang the whole time.
baby Khanyi than said that she was hungry so I went to prepare food for her, I made some tea
and bread, with butter and jam, than I took the food to her at the dinning room, because she
wanted to eat watching cartoons. after eating I washed her dishes and decided that we should
sleep, we slept in the dinning room with the TV on.

I didn't hear the knock on the door, but heard my grandma pulling me out of my sleep.
I swear I could literally pinch her.

I got up and my grandma told me that there's someone at the door looking for me, so I then
checked my phone to see what time it was, and saw that I had 5 missed, 3 from Msg, 1 from Jabu
and 1 from an unknown number.

I went to the door and opened the door and saw Themba at the door, he didn't seem chilled,
instead he seemed a little worried.

Me : hay, let me wake Khanyi up, and pack her things.

Him : I could help

Me : nah its cool, you can chill with Fana so long.

Him : Fana left

Me : oh, so you going to walk with Khanyi all the way up??

Him : nope, he will be back.

Me : owk, you can wait for him inside then.

Him : gogo won’t mind??

Me : I will go let her know, just now she starts acting up.

I went to my grandma's bedroom and found her laying on the bed, so I took a deep breath and
went towards her.

Me : nkgono, can I let Themba in the house?? he and Khanyi are waiting for Fana

Her : no problem, as long as there's no funny business.

Me : (chuckles) no ma, no funny business.

I then went back and thought for a minute, what would my grandmother do if she found out that
Themba could be my future husband. (chuckles) I mean not that its true but I wish

I went back in the dinning room and found him sitting on the couch with baby Khanyi on his lap.
baby Khanyi was really enjoying his company, because she was laughing non stop. as I was
watching and smiling along at baby Khanyi, my grandpa walked in..

Him : hao, young man, dumela

Themba : dumela mkhulu

Him : hao, kenywana hao eo?

Themba : tje ntate, kenywana ausi.

Him : owk, manana nkgono ukae?

Me: ka kamoreng.

my grandpa left and I sighed. I then left to go fetch water cause I was thirsty, and also to try and
avoid Themba, cause me and him in one room is just a road to embarrassment. I then heard my
phone ring, but as I was rushing to get it, Themba had already beat me to it.

Him : Lsg's phone hallo

Him : oh

Him : (chuckles) dude, how could you think that??

Him : dude am serious, am just here because of Khanyi, and am also waiting for Fana.

Him : I don't know where he is.

Him : here she is then, let me pass the phone.

he passed the phone to me and I just gave him a ' you in trouble' look
l took the phone and saw that it was Msg on the line..

Me : Msg, braza, what’s up??

Her : so, Themba is already doing house visits?? (chuckles)

Me : don't start with me.

Her : owk, I will back off, so is that the reason why you didn't come today?

Me : I was baby sitting Khanyi.

Her : owk, cool, see you tomorrow.

Me : owk shap.

Her : or are you baby sitting Khanyi again, and Themba will fetch her?? ( chuckles)

Me : shut up, bye..

I dropped the call and Themba gave me a grin, he then placed Khanyi on the side and looked at
me.
Him : can I talk to you??

Me : about??

Him : please come sit.

Me : dude, don't get formal with me, what’s up?

Him : listen, please come sit.

I went to sit next to him and tried by all means to act normal. ( like a boy)
Him : you know from the first time I saw you, I wanted to ask you something

Ohhhhh could this be real, will he ask me out, ohhh owk, let me cool down and chill for a
moment, breath gal breath.

Me : shoot

Him : are you lesbian, or just a gal that likes to dress, act, and talk like a boy?? am
asking because I just don't understand.

wow just wow, so this is the million dollar question, what a disappointment.

Me : did you ask Msg??

Him : well she says she's a tomboy, that means she dresses, acts and talks like a boy.
she also says if love comes she is going to head to it, whether its from a girl or boy
its fine.

Me : ( chuckles) me too

Him : oh, so for example if I start loving you would you change to be a girly girl??

owk maybe I was a little forward to think the question is off, he might be on the right track.

Me : (chuckles) well depends

Him : on??
Me : whether I love you the same or not.

Him : so have you ever had a boyfriend or girlfriend??

Me : yes, a boyfriend.

Him : what happened?? if I may ask.

Me : well, he wasn't a best friend, kind of boyfriend.

Him : meaning??

Me : I wasn't quite free around him.

Him : oh owk. do you have any girl clothing in your closet??

Me : yes, duh.. ( laughs)

Him : (chuckles) owk

Me : why you asking??

Him : just getting to know you better..

10

as we were enjoying our chit chat and laughing around with baby Khanyi, we heard a car hooting
outside and we just knew it was Fana, so I went to check and indeed it was him. Themba took
baby Khanyi, who was fast asleep. he picked baby Khanyi up and took her things and left, I went
to the car to check Fana up.
Me : so were you been??

Him : had to rush to the bank before it closed

Me : ohhh, I had a great day with baby Khanyi, you should really bring her more often.

Him : mhm, seems like some people were playing happy family. (laughs)

Themba : shut up Fana

Me : bye, Fana. you and your stupid mouth

Fana laughed and started the car, while I waved goodbye. unfortunately baby Khanyi was
sleeping so I couldn't say goodbye..

I got back in the house and started cleaning our dirt, then dished up for us and ate, after eating I
went to wash our dishes and went straight to bed, I was thinking about my conversation with
Themba, when I thought of a question. why would he make an example, using me and him??
could it be that he feels the same about me?? many questions no answered.

I always believed that a true relationship/true love can only come to people that have known
each other for some time, I never believed that if you love someone from the 1st time you saw
them ( love at first sight), it would last a life long. and here I was about to experience, if it truly
exists or not..
I mean I so love this guy, and after today, there's no doubt that he feels somehow the same.
isn't this stupid?? I mean I see Themba for the first time and I immediately fall in love, is this love
or lust??

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********1 weeks later*******

this week was a tough week, I just finished my final paper, am officially done with school for the
year, if I passed, which I know I did, I am going to be doing my second year. this week was also
busy because my grandparents were preparing to go to free state for the whole holidays, they
would only come back next year January and they leaving today.

I haven't been in touch with my ouens but never met together, I have been seeing Msg since we
in the same varsity. truly I have been thinking about Themba this whole week and today, baby
Khanyi was visiting me again, I actually asked that she should come and told my ouens that I
would be baby sitting, but at least I will see them everyday from Monday. I admit, am also hoping
that Themba drops baby Khanyi and comes to fetch her (giggles)

as I was preparing myself my phone rang. it was an unknown number, the same number that I
saw a missed call from last week, just about the same day.

Me : Lsg, hola

Themba : hay, its Themba here

Me : oh, hay, sorry I didn't know it was you

Him : its owk, listen we are outside.

Me : you came with baby Khanyi, I thought Fana was bringing her

Him : just open up please, my airtime

Me : (laughs) owk
I opened the door and went to fetch them, we came back in. see it was a very cold day that day.
Me : thanks for bringing her, would you like some juice before you leave??

Him : owk thanks

we spent some time together with baby Khanyi, then few hours later it started raining. owk now
that meant that am keen to being with him till Fana comes, again which is 5 hours from now. I so
wish that this rain stops. ( just joking shame, this rain has timing nje.)

Him : guess I will be staying with my 2 ladies vandag.

Me : your 2 ladies?

Him : yep.

Me : baby Khanyi and??

Him : you.

I laughed and just playfully hit him, he smiled at me and started playing with baby Khanyi.
Him : Lsg, I have something to tell you.

Me : shoot

Him : from the 1st time I saw you, all I ever wanted was to be with you. whenever I don’t
see you, I would go mad, I have never felt like this with any girl, and given that I
saw you in form of being in a boys costume, and I still fell for you, should really
prove something to you.

Me : prove what??

Him : that I love you..

OMG he finally said what I wanted to hear ever since I laid eyes on him, but now that he said it, I
don’t know what to say nor do. so I just stared at him and wondered if I heard right. I mean if I
date him, it will mean that I have to drop all this tomboy thing and start behaving like a girl. and I
am not ready for that, phela this is what I grew up around. I am definitely going to go around
with long sticky nail, and some flipping donkeys tail on my head, not that am against it, its
beautiful but not on me.

as I was staring at him, I heard my grandma calling me, I responded and ran to her bedroom..
I got in and found my grandma and grandpa were ready to go and had suitcases on their bed, I
chose not to go because I had to guard the house.

Me : nkgono??

Her : we are leaving now, please take the bags to the car outside, and call your friend
come help.

Me : owk nkgono

I took the bags to the car then, came back with Themba, we then both packed all bags in the car,
and when we were done I went to bid my grandparents goodbye..

Me : nkgono, ntatemolo, letsamaye hantle

Nkgono : usalehantle ngwangwaka

Ntatemolo : witsware hantle

Me : ketlayetsajwalo

as they were about to leave, Themba came out to bid them goodbye, but baby Khanyi couldn’t
because she didn’t want to leave the phone she was playing with.

Themba : nihambe kahle bantu abadala

Nkgono : nani nisalekahle

Themba : yebo ma

Ntatemolo : nisphathe kakuhle bantwana bam

Themba : soyenzanjalo baba

they said goodbye to baby Khanyi and left. when they had left I sensed a breeze of freedom, I got
in the house and started playing music very loudly, and also starting making food.

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I was getting excited that I even forgot that I have an unfinished conversation with Themba.
Themba took baby Khanyi to my room, because she was now falling asleep, they spend a couple
of minutes in that room than she fell asleep, I mean she was tired and the dripping of rain on the
roof added reason to sleep..
Themba then came to the dinning room and sat down right next to me and looked at me, I knew
that he was looking for an answer to his statement. but I was planning on acting dumb..
I was wearing a swag jean, black sweater and black takkies.

Him : so how long have you been a tomboy for??

Me : dude I grew up around guys, since I was around 4.

Him : wow, no wonder you have a gents mind.

Me : {chuckles) yah

Him : and Msg??

Me : around 6, when she was in grade 1.

Him : oh, so how did you and Msg meet up??

Me : well, we met at school.

Him : and bo Fana??

Me : well, on my birthday this year I was hosting a birthday party at Msg's place
(18th birthday) and we said that anyone could come. so they were invited by Msg's
classmate (bongani).

Him : well how did you become friends??

Me : bongani introduced them to Msg, then Msg introduced them to me (Mrs party). on
that day I was dressed as a boy as usual, so was Msg, so they asked if we sisters
we told them we friends, so then they invited us to Jabu's birthday, it was due the
next month.

Him : oh, I remember they told me to come down for his birthday but I couldn’t.

Me : yep, why the sudden interest?

Him : well firstly I love you, and I want to date you.

Me : ( rolling eyes )

Him : secondly if am going to be the cause of your change than I need to study your core
history

Me : cause of what change??

Him : you seriously don’t think you are going to stay a tomboy, the moment we start
dating right??

Me : and who said we going to date??

Him : I say so.

Me : owk, Mr mphoropheta

Him : watch as it comes true.

we laughed and talked more, he really isn’t serious I mean I know I love him, very much and I
would kill for him, phela I loved this guy the moment I laid eyes on him, and now he is here telling
me what I wanted to hear and now am shutting him out. Mara I cant just drop everything I know
for a life of a girly girl, Hai nyeke.

we went on and on with this topic, till Fana came to fetch baby Khanyi, baby Khanyi was like few
minutes up already, so I bid goodbye and enjoyed a lonely night, alone.

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The next morning I got up, did a quick 360 in the house. I then bathed, got dressed, ate, washed
my dishes and left for church. after church I went home and decided to stay in, cause the
weather was the sane as yesterdays (cold, rainy).

I then called Jabu and he answer on the 3rd ring

Him : ntwana, skhipan

Me : ola, mfethu. listen am not checking in vandag

Him : Hai, me two. entlek the whole crew is not meeting vandag, due to the weather.

Me : sure case. see you soon.

Him : ntwana, I hear you home alone now??

Me : yah, my grandparents left yesterday.

Him : shukuthi manje, so bloma kuwe morê neh??

Me : yah ninga zwakala morê.

Him : sure case gal.

Me : sure.

am glad am staying indoors today, I was so worried on how to face Themba after yesterday. I
watched a movie, ate popcorn, then watched cartoons then ate some descent food then I did the
dishes and went to sleep.

I was waken up by a loud knock on the door, and I could hear people laughing and talking, I
thought to myself ( who's at the door, and what do they want?? could they be my ouens?? nah
cant be.) I looked at the time and it past, to 1, I quickly got up and put on my gown. I went to the
door and opened the door.

and as earth has it, it was my ouens. ( rolling eyes)

Me : oh shucks, bad timing

Msg : brah, did you just get up??

Me : yep, that’s what happens when you home alone.

Msg : (chuckles) true that

Jabu : can we enter in paradise??

Me : mhm wait let me clean quickly

I closed the door and did a quick 360 in the house, after I opened for them and told them to sit
and watch a movie in the dinning room while I go take a bath.

I took a quick bath and got dresses, I than went to sit with the guys. I took my phone out and
ordered pizza, I was so hungry and I didn’t want to cook.

I sat next to Thabo and we watched the movie, I kept on looking at Themba and wondering what
he was thinking, hoping that maybe he was not mad after what I did or better yet what I said to
him the last time we saw each other.

the movie went on and on than Jabu broke the movie moment, Hai Jabu Mara.
Jabu : you know, looking at this guy, he looks more like Themba, or kanjani Tee??

Themba : want to play jokes now?? (laughs)

Thabo : Haibo Jabu, but Themba is tall and dark, this guy is short and light.

Msg : and Themba has a clear face, this guy doesn’t.

Jabu : I meant the way they are so into girls, this guy cant barely keep his mind out
the gutter

Fana : ( clears throat)

Thabo : I get you boy. you talking about yesterdays girl neh??
Msg : oh that girl, bhathi ngubani?? (thinking) oh Leigh

Themba : guys cut it out

Thabo : she's fine shame, your first girlfriend in jhb??

Themba : who said it was my girl??

Me : than who is she??

when I asked this question, my heart was paining, I wanted to scream at him but I just chilled
myself and acted tough, I mean we not dating, so I got to be chilled. Themba could see the fire
through my eyes and he stared at me for few minutes before he answered me. I could see that
he had worry in his eyes and that told me exactly what he was thinking.

Themba : she's just a friend.

Fana : yah, I can confirm that.

Msg : Hai suka, u just speaking for your brother nje

Fana : am not.

Me : owk, whether or not she's your girl, its non of anyone's business, just enjoy your life
in jhb tee. from your buddy Lsg!! (laughing)

Thabo : dasit, Lsg the young princess has spoken.

as we were speaking, someone knocked on the door and I just knew it was the delivery man. I
opened gave him the money and took my pizza.

I brought it in and everyone digged in.

after having pizza I poured everyone juice and we spent the rest of the day speaking and laughing
and listening to music and watching movies.

at about past 6pm everyone left and I prepared to go to bed. I cooked and then dished up for
myself and ate, I really thought being home alone would be great but Hai, its boring as being
locked up in a room the whole day.

I slept immediately as I laid my head on my pillow.

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I woke up the next morning and started doing a deep cleaning, after that I bathed and went to go
buy myself some snacks.

I got to the shop and I didn’t believe what I saw, Themba was in the shop, hand in hand with
some meladow chick. I tried acting matured, besties we are not dating, so I might as well mind
my own business.

I walked in and he was flirting with her, I took what I took, and avoided him. I paid and left to go
back home.

it was not long since I got home then someone knocked on my door. I went to open and, OMW it
was Themba.

Me : what can I do for you??

Him : hay, am good, thanks for asking.

Me : I said what do you want??

Him : can I come in??

I looked at him, then let him in, I then closed the door and looked back at him.

Me : nkao thusa kang?

Him : why do you look so angry??

Me : am not angry darling, just disgusted.

Him : disgusted??

Me : *******silence*******

Him : owk (clears throat) this has to do with the girl at the shop right?

Me : ******silence*******

Him : owk, guess I got you good, listen that was Leigh.

Me : oh that’s Leigh?

Him : yes, I found her at the shop, but you see I saw you from a distance, so I played
along, flirting with Leigh as soon as you got close.

Me : wanting to make me jealous??

Him : did it work.

Me : mxm, I don’t believe you. I think you messed up and now you looking for
an excuse to get away with it.

Him : bae am serious

Me : am not your bae, owk. we not dating, and you telling me that you love me, and also
going around flirting with other girls, is not going to cut it.

Him : am serous

Me : please leave

Him : Tshidi??

Me : please

he came close to me and hugged him, but I never hugged him back. he then whispered in my ear.

Him : Tshidi, I will never double cross you. I know we not dating but I will never flirt or
be with other girls while I have such love for you. never.
when he said this my heart just melted, I know I was angry at him, but he sounded and looked
like he was dead serous. he broke the hug and headed for the door, but watching him leave hurt
me more than seeing him with another girl. so I called him, just before he reached the door.

Me : Themba

Him : Tshidi

Me : if I let you stay, would you let me to lay in your arms??

Him : ( chuckles) anything for my princess

Me : do you know you look like a girl, when you switch your eyebrows like that??

Him : mxm. (laugh)

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I laid in his arms while we were watching TV and slowly drifted to sleep. after sometime, Themba
woke me up and told me he had to leave. I didn’t want him to leave, but it would be a disrespect
to my grandparents if I tell him to stay, so I let him leave. I was so tired I didn’t clean before I
slept. but I was also woken up by a phone call from my aunt

Me : rakgadi ( yawn )

Her : manana, are u already sleeping??

Me : no ma, how you mada?

Her : am great nana, and you?

Me : am good ma.

Her : I just wanted to check on you, and your grandparents are sending their greetings

Me : send my greetings to them as well.

Her : owk, how’s life??

Me : its good so far

Her : owk, huh, manana, I was calling to tell you that you are going to have to come
home.

Me : why ma?

Her : remember the "teach a girl how to be a lady" program??

Me : yes, the one were at the end they choose the best woman to marry the chief's son??

Her : yes, so I kind of like registered you.

Me : ma!! but you know nje that I will never agree to an arranged marriage.

Her : no nana, I will not let that happen, I promise.

Me : why did you register me in the first place??

Her : well, baby you not going to be boyish forever

Me : and what if I want to be??

Her : then you might just start dating girls.

this is really not on, but I could look at the brighter side of this, I could go and learn to be a girl
and change, I mean its worth it, given that I want to date Themba. phela he told me that he loves
me but I cant date him, if we will be both men in this relationship, so I might just consider.

Me : owk rakgadi, how long does it take??

Her : 2 months

Me : owk, when is it starting??

Her : the workshop is on the 2nd of February

Me : so who's couching us??

Her : each girl is being couched by their fam.

Me : oh

Her : yah, so can you come down on Wednesday??

Me : mhm, cant I come on Friday??

Her : owk, you can, we will start on Saturday.

Me : owk goodnight

Her : night

I then went back to sleep

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it was an early Tuesday morning, 1st week of holidays. and I had really missed Khanyi oh and
Themba, but as I was in the blanket moaning about waking up, my phone rang. and it was
Themba.

Me : hello

Themba : jho, no baby nyana??

Me : mxm (chuckles)

Him : anyway, can I ask a favour??

Me : shoot

Him : can I bring baby Khanyi??

Me : sure, plus I miss her

Him : u sure??

Me : yes, I are u crazy, how could you ask me that.

Him : owk there’s another thing

Me : owk

Him : owk, we outside.

Me : what!!

Him : ( clears throat) sorry

Me : its fine am on my way

I quickly dropped the call. is this guy mad. so early, jho. I quickly put on my gown and a doek,
then I washed my face and brushed my teeth then went to fetch Khanyi..

I got outside and saw them at the gate, I then went to them and picked Khanyi up.

Me : hay nana, how you my baby??

I started tickling her

Her : (giggles) am fine

I laughed with her and she seemed so cute

Him : she seems to love you.

Me : yah and I love her too

Him : so you going to be owk??

Me : yah we going to be good.

Him : owk I will come fetch her around 3.

Me : owk

we got in the house and Themba left. she helped me clean, she even bathed with me. I then did
her hair and she did mine, I won’t say she did it pretty but she tried, I got dressed an we went to
cook, she would help me put spices and some things in the pot. when we were done, we dished
up and ate our food at about 2pm.

we then watched cartoons and enjoyed our self with popcorn. after a while, baby Khanyi was
asleep. so I took her to my room and slept with her. after some time at around 4pm, I got up and
realized that Themba has not yet arrived.

I then called him and his phone went to voicemail, I tried again and still it went to voice, I then
heard a loud knock on the door and ran out to see who it was. and it was him.

Me : bro, were have you been, I have been worried sick.

Him : I just ran late

Me : owk now why is your phone off??

Him : its battery is flat.

Me : owk come in.

Him : owk, so where’s Khanyi??

Me : baby Khanyi is sleeping.

Him : wake her up, we need to go.

Me : no Themba, you cant do that.

Him : but we need to leave.

Me : Themba, let the kid rest owk

Him : sigh... (rolling eyes) fine, I will wait, but I just don’t like driving at night.

Me : sit I will pour you juice

I poured us juice and sat down, we listened to music an talked about almost whatever that came
to our minds.

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baby Khanyi then woke up, and came to the dining room, we were laughing so hard that we
didn’t hear baby Khanyi walk in. we were laughing so hard that I playfully hit Themba on the
shoulder then she started speaking

Her : mama Tshidi, why you hitting baba Themba??

Me : well, baba Themba here is hurting my stomach

Her : baba Themba, why you hurting mama Tshidi's stomach??

Him : I love mama Tshidi, I wouldn’t hurt her.

Her : owk, will mama Tshidi and baba Themba love each other??
oh lol, this child must be going nuts. is this a coincidence or what??

Me : yes we will

Him : I will always love mama Tshidi

Me : (chuckles)

we then chilled and then they left at about past 6. I cleaned up the mess and went to go sleep.
am really regretting not telling Themba about me leaving for qwa qwa this Friday but it was owk.
I was about to sleep, but Themba called me

Me : hay

Him : mama Tshidi

Me : (chuckles) wow

Him : I wanted to say goodnight

Me : thanks goodnight to you too

Him : I love you

Me : owk

Him : jho, no I love you too

Me : am not your girlfriend

Him : yet

Me : ok, conversation over, goodnight

Him : (chuckles) owk goodnight

I dropped the call. phela this guy is really something else yaz, kodwa ke I love him, but I won’t let
him know as yet.

I then let my sleep take over and thrifted off.

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the few days went by normally, it was just me and the boring house and phone calls from friend
and Themba.

it was now Friday and I had just packed my bags to leave, I hadn’t told Themba yet, nor the gents.
I had also heard that Msg left, at least she told me so once am in the car I will tell her.
my driver came, and we left. it took us about 5 hours to get home. when we got there I got off
and found my aunt sitting outside. she came running to me to give me a hug, then I went into the
house and gave gogo and mkholo a hug too.

Nkgono : hao nywanaka you came

Me : yes ma

Nkgono : shame, now we need to move cause we heard you will be doing training.

Me : yes ma

Ntatemolo : hai, retlaubona he

Me : owk ntatemolo

they left and I went to go rest, and slept a very deep sleep.

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the next morning, a lady which I didn’t know woke me up very early in the morning, at about 5. I
woke up and saw my aunt coming in the room.

Aunt pam : I see you already met mama Belinda.

Me : what’s going on??

Aunt pam : mama Belinda is here to assist with our program, so the first thing is to know
how to keep the house clean.

I looked at my aunt and at mama Belinda, she sure doesn’t look like a fun person. she then took
my phone as I was about to check my missed calls, and I just stared at her,

Mama Belinda : come, come stop staring, a girl has to keep a fresh house, and no phone
until the final stage.

Me : Mara, ma..

she cut me off and told me to move, I got up, no questions asked and did my bed, I then went to
fetch some cleaning clothing and started cleaning. I swept the whole field, swept the whole
house, mopped were am support to mop. I even cooked and did the dishes, I did all that was
asked off me.

the cleaning "teaching" program went on for 3 days, were all I would do the whole day, was cook,
clean, dish and wash the dishes, for the whole 3 days, now that is not ayoba.
on Monday I woke up early in the morning, I really wasn’t looking forward to cleaning again so I
stayed in bed. but as luck has it, mama Belinda came.

Mama b : Haibo, and than??

Me : hai ma, kekgathetsi, hining ke cleana

Mama : nix makgathala mo, get up

I got up and went to clean, but this time I was told to clean normally and I was also told to fetch
wood, and my aunt went with me. I thought we were going to some near place, but we went
deep in some other place. I just did as told.

days went by and I was in a process of being a fruitful wife. I won’t lie, but being a girly girl is so
much difficult, I mean the nails, the hair, the makeup. phela am used to putting Vaseline, but this
time they taught me a lot of things about skin care.

these 2 months were rather hard, but at least I made it to the end, even though I don’t recognise
myself at this stage. jho, I mean I am hella different.

we went to the final stage an we finished, then all the girls were given 3 bags of new clothing and
shoes from their parents, and also some new blankets.. what really got me thinking was that, I
out off all the girls, was given a new name (matumelo). but I didn’t ask.

we went back home and I started packing for the next day cause I was going back to jhb, I was
supposed to come back with my grandparents, but surprisingly they said they will be staying. I
then packed and got to bed, I dialled Themba's number because I haven’t spoken to him for ages.
and am sure that he's angry, I mean I left without saying and on top of that I didn’t call him this
past 2 months

he answered on the 5th ring

Him : what?

Me : hay

Him : what can I do for you ?

Me : listen, am sorry, I know I should’ve called.

Him : well you didn’t.

Me : am sorry

Him : bye Tshidi

he dropped the call before I could even answer. I tried calling him several times but he wouldn’t
answer, so I let him be and I laid, in bed, and immediately I slept.
.
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the next morning I got up, cleaned and took a bath, I then got dressed in the most different way. I
put on a high waist jean, a vest and a nice black pump, I had braiding’s on, I put on a bit of
makeup and put on some classes and got ready. as I was leaving the house I went to the dining
room to bid everyone goodbye.

Aunty : mmmhh umutle jwang. ( smiling)

Me : thanks aunty

Nkgono : usotsamaya??

Me : eya nkgono

Natemolo : owk, utsamaye hantle

Me : thanks ntatemolo, bye

Them : bye

I left and got to my driver, I then took a 5 hour drive back home. it was a long drive given that I
was always thinking of Themba, so as I was halve way there, I called him again and thank God he
answered.

Him : hello

Me : hay

Him : how can I help you??

Me : can you come over??

Him : are you back at home??

Me : no am on my way now.

Him : how far are you??

Me : 1 or 2 hours away.

Him : owk

Me : so, will you come over??

Him : sigh.... owk, call me when you get home

Me : owk

I dropped the call and suddenly felt light, I then slept my way through the journey.

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I arrived home, then my driver left, I got in the house and the house just seemed cold. I then
called Themba.
he answered on the 3rd ring

Him : are you home ??

Me : yep

Him : owk am on my way.

I dropped the call , I didn’t feel like cleaning but I had to, so I put on some pumping music and
started cleaning. as I was halve way down, I heard a knock on the door. I just knew it was
Themba. I went to go open for him then went to finish off my cleaning, but this time I was
nervous for no reason. I went back to him and started shaking.

Me : hay

Him : hay

Me : how are you??

Him : I am fine.

Me : listen babe, am sorry

Him : you said that already

Me : *****silence****

Him : so can you tell me why you never told me that you were leaving??

Me : it slipped my mind

Him : owk

Me : I was going to call you but the next morning mama Belinda took my phone, and I got
it back yesterday, and that’s when I finally called you.

Him : who’s mama Belinda??

Me : the mother who made me look like this.

Him : ( chuckles) I see, you look amazing, finally a girly girl??

Me : does this mean am forgiven??

Him : if you could tell me why you called me "babe"

Me : I didn’t call you babe
Him : (stares)

Me : you know you look like a girl when you switch your eyebrows like that?

Him : mxm ( laughs)

Me : thank you for understanding

Him : owk now that its done, care to share about your journey.

I told him everything and he just kept laughing at me. I was glad that we spoke things out and got
over it. after some hours it was late, he then wanted to leave.

Him : owk, its time for me to go.

Me : where??

Him : home

Me : why don’t you just sleep over

Him : cant, are you kidding me

Me : please, its really getting late, and you cant drive at this hour

Him : bed or couch?? (naughty stare)

I laughed my ass out when he said that, waiste Themba hana filter this guy. jhojhojho lol, if
there’s any guy that needs some colouring ke Themba shame.

Me : Themba!!!

Themba : Am just kidding, owk I will stay.

I prepared a my room for him and I took my grandparents room. I changed into pj's then he came
to my room to chill and cuddle me while I drift to sleep. and trust me that’s the most effective
and warm way to go to sleep.

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I woke up next morning, and Themba was not in my bed. I had guessed that maybe he went back
to the other room. I smiled and thought to myself that he's really a gentlemen, respect is one of
the best thing to get.

I heard a knock on my door, and immediately knew that it was Themba, but I didn’t know what
he wanted so early in the morning, so I told him to come in.

he came in and I couldn’t believe my eyes, Themba had brought breakfast for me, in bed.

Me : ncooooooo babe

Him : good morning

Me : (chuckles) good morning

Him : you look beautiful

Me : thanks not bad yourself

Him : how did you sleep?

Me : like a baby

Him : owk. listen I have something for you.

Me : what is it?

he left me and went out, after few minutes he came back with a bunch of flowers, Ruby red, is
what he kept calling them

Me : OMG, where did you get those where?

Him : I ordered them an hour ago.

Me : what made you order them?

Him : well, I went to buy myself a toothbrush, an I thought I should be romantic.

Me : Ohhhhh bae, you such a charmer

I took off to brush my teeth an wash my face, then I came back to the room, and found him
waiting for me, then went to eat with boo.
at about 11am I went to bath and Themba had left to buy himself some toiletries, and some
clothing. to be honest, I didn’t really know that he was a spend or wealthy person. but it was all
cool.

he came back just when I was done making lunch, so he went to take a bath, he came out with
only a towel around his waist and his upper body not covered. I swear I would die from watching
his amazing six-pack, OMG he just shows that he workout.

Me : you should really stop walking around here halve naked

Him : (chuckles) is that why you keep staring?

Me : yes, and I don’t think I will be responsible for what happens after staring.

Him : and what you talking about

he walked up to me as he was asking me this question. now, Themba is like a sexual pervert, but
he's not, he just acts like it. so I took a step back but I was already pressed against the wall. he
came close to me and started kissing my neck, he then touched my waist and moved to my butt
and grabbed it. when I started to enjoy it, he moved back and went to change. I was so pissed.

Me : that is so not fair

Him : you not ready bae

Me : and who are you to determine whether am ready or not?

Him : your future husband

Me : (chuckles) wow, but really, you not being fair

Him : its early days babe

Me : babe I know you for more than 2 months now

Him : but we only dated for 2 days

Me : mxm

we chilled the whole day indoors and watched movies, cartoons and even played games. I really
enjoyed my day with him, then eventually he left, I didn’t want him to leave but reality had just
kicked in.

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the day of school came by and I couldn’t believe that the holidays were over.
I got up early that day and prepared for school, I wasn’t really comfortable with wearing all girly
so I kind of mixed the 2 ( girly girl and tomboy), so I put on my swaggy jeans, a vest with a jean
jacket and a black hoodie. I still kept my long braiding’s on and my nails, oh and I placed a little
make up on.

I went to school and caught up with Msg on the way. I haven’t spoken to this chick for a very long
time. and I really missed him. as I came close, she wouldn’t stop staring and smiling.

Me : Haibo, earth back to Msg (waving in front of her face)

Her : so its true vele, well halve true.

Me : like the new look??
Her : it looks beautiful, gal, it looks very good on you

Me : thanks

Her : so since part of the news is true, do you have something else to tell me??

Me : like ??

Her : like you and Themba?

Me : (chuckles) guess..

Her : (shouts) ohhh myyy flllipppinnnng hhair

Me : shhhh wow (chuckles) its new things

Her : look the bus is here, lets settle down, then you can tell me everything.

we got in the bus and decided to sit at the back sit. lol the other kids in the bus just couldn’t stop
looking at me, I mean I know that most of them thought that me and Msg were lesbians, cause I
remember in my first days, there was one girl that asked me out, (me and Msg were not yet
friends.) and I went to dinner with her, I had a suit on but as she started talking relationship stuff,
I made an excuse to leave and ever since that day I have been ignoring her. her name was (Lucia).

Her : owk, now tell me when did you start dating??

Me : last weekend

Her : as in this past weekend?

Me : yep

she kept on and on about the topic, then the bus arrived at our destination and we got off, as we
got of and headed for the gate, I swear you would think that I was a celebrity. everyone kept
staring at me and giving some comments.

the whole day at school I felt like a celeb, but as I was enjoying the fame I saw Lucia, I was
shocked, so I decided to give a run for it like always, but unfortunately she kept pace with me and
came to me.

Her : why does it seem like you have been avoiding me??

Me : no silly, I was rushing somewhere

Her : well I will not keep you, I just wanted to say you look pretty

Me : thank you

Her : so you a girl, who is into boys now??

Me : (clears throat) ****silence****

Her : I will take that as a yes. you know you don’t just change who you are right??

Me : what do you mean?

Her : what you are doing is insulting us.

Me : how??

Her : you first a lesbian going to dates with girls, 123 you are now a full girl who goes
after boys. its either you lesbian or not.

Me : Lucia, if this is about what happened a year ago, am sorry.

Her : sorry won’t cut it. listen here, if I cant have you, no one will. I have been very patient
with you for about a year now.

after saying this she left me standing there wondering what she meant. I then snapped out of it
and continued my day.

after school I headed to the gate to go home, and Themba was there. I felt like really jumping up
and down. I ran to him s fast as I can and jumped on him and he cached me and spun me around,
we were drowning in laughter. I then looked at my right and met with Lucia’s eyes looking at me,
I then immediately remembered her word. " listen here, if I cant have you, no one will" .

I snapped out of it and we left.

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we got home and he was speaking about how beautiful my new look is. we got home and he said
that he's not coming in because he has a party to prepare for baby Khanyi. I told him that its owk,
then he left.

I was sad that they had forgotten about my birthday, I mean he never mentioned anything about
my birthday and my birthday is just 3 days before khanyi's birthday. my birthday is on valentine's
day so most people will celebrate it without knowing.
it was the first day of school today and it was the 9th of February. my day went well, of cause not
the part where I had to hear Lucia’s nonsense.

***********13 February*********

I woke early this day and decided I am not going anywhere, I am going to do my hair and my nails
and I am going to wax, then I am also going to buy myself some clothing because I am planning
on going to spoil myself tomorrow.

I got up and then I bathed. I got dressed and went to the mall. I got to a mall and went straight to
a salon, it was kind of strange for me to enter the salon, cause I remember some time last year,
me and Msg would swear that we don’t see our self walking in a salon to get some fake
nonsense, but here I am today, getting those fake nonsense.

I got in and asked for a full make over, I even twisted my eyebrows. I got back home and found a
car packed outside my house, I then saw the number plate written TEE, then I just knew it could
be Themba, but when did Themba get a car, I mean he usually uses his brothers car.
I got in and found him sitting in the car, as he saw me he walked out.

Him : wow, look at you, you look beautiful

Me : thank you, what you doing here?

Him : to see my girl.

Me : (chuckles) owk, well your girl is owk.

Him : I can see, so what’s the occasion??

Me : cant a girl just be pretty??

Him : something is missing though.

Me : what??

Him : some tight girly clothing, you know the one that shows your butt, or your sexy
body.

Me : not happening

Him : Mara ??

Me : no

he laughed and we went into the house. then he sat on the couch while I made some juice and
biscuits for us.

Me : here is some tea Mr Ndlovu

Him : wow Mrs Mofokeng, thank you.

Me : my pleasure

Him : while we at it, I need you to be at khanyi's birthday party tomorrow

Me : tomorrow??

Him : yes, why, are you going somewhere??

I had to think and really think. how can this guy be so ignorant. owk I don’t mind going to baby
khanyi's birthday party, but the problem is that I am also turning 19 tomorrow and no one
remembers. Mxm

Me : no...... not really, I will come, I mean I love baby Khanyi, so I wouldn’t miss it

Him : thank you, Khanyi will love this.

Me : so you managed her birthday all alone??

Him : not really

Me : owk

Him : sure, so lets watch a movie, how about we watch empire.

Me : yah cool

I wasn’t really interested in what was happening, I was now pissed that I had to pretend that I am
only celebrating baby khanyi's birthday and watch her get all the wishes and presents while no
one knows that I am also growing. nx, just when I wanted to spoil myself.
he then left and I made my daily duties and headed to sleep.

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the next morning was finally my birthday, I was waken up by a knock on the door. so I went to
check who it was, and it was Themba.
Him : hello

Me : hay

Him : can I come in??

Me : sure

he came in and gave me a hug. I never really thought my birthday would start with a sad face.
Him : you should go get ready, and put this on

Me : what’s that ??

Him : a dress

Me : why should I wear this??

Him : just go please

Me : I won’t, not until you tell me why.

Him : are you always this stubborn??

Me : are you always this bossy??

Him : (laughs) owk, Khanyi has the same dress.

Me : so you want me and baby Khanyi to be twins?? that’s so cuuuteee. owk I will go get
dressed.

I rushed to the bathroom and took a long deep bath, sobbing alone because it seems like
everyone forgot my birthday. no text, no calls, nothing. just me celebrating baby khanyi's party
on my birthday.

I got done and took out the dress that Themba brought for me to wear to baby khanyi's party, it
was black and gold, and it was a shoulder less dress.. at least I will consider this as a small present
for my birthday. I put on the dress and it suited me good, I took the shoes as well, then I went to
meet him in the dinning room

Me : so how do I look??

Him : fantastic. wow, you look beautiful, like a true angel.

he came close to me, while staring at my body and the dress, he then opened a box and took out
a necklace and placed it around my neck, then he took a bracelet and placed it around my wrist,
then he stared at me again and gave me a kiss on the chick.

Him : you really look hot bae

Me : thank you babe

Him : owk now, lets go, before we be late

he opened the door for me and I took my purse and left, he locked my house and followed. we
got in the car and left.
it was rather a long ride, but we eventually arrived. everyone had a masquerade mask on, so I
decided to ask Themba if he's not lost.
Me : is this really the place??

Him : yes.

Me : so were is our mask's??

Him : here

he handed me the mask, then he told me to wait here while he goes and checks on something. so
I stayed and watched as people were coming in. this party doesn’t look like a child’s party, it had
black and gold deco and it was a masquerade party. I would have loved a party like this, its very
beautiful for a grown up not for a child. plus another odd thing is, no kids are at the party, its just
old people.

as I was thinking, someone opened the door from outside, so I assumed it was Themba, and it
was. he was now wearing a different suite, it was the same match with my dress.
Me : owk, so is it going to be triplets

Him : mhm??

Me : the suite.

Him : oh, I thought I should join the twins

Me : were is baby Khanyi??

Him : inside, lets go.

Me : owk.

I got out of the car and moved to the entrance, we got in and inside was dark, but music was
playing, then I heard the music stop, then a piano started to play, as I was trying to find out what
was going on, I couldn’t feel Themba anywhere around me. I then heard someone with a familiar
voice sing a song called forever. and as the lights turned on, it was Themba and some people
started dancing a masquerade dance, when I looked on my right, and there was a big writing
(HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESEGO). I swear I would faint.

Themba wrapt up his song and came to me with 3 boxes in the hand of someone he was coming
with....

Him : happy birthday babe....

Me : you remembered?? so baby Khanyi?? it was all a joke right??

Him : I had to find a way to bring you here without you noticing...

Me : I hate u Themba (crying).....

Him : I love you my sweetheart..

he kissed me on my forehead and smiled at me.....

Him : I got something for you...

Me : really??

Him : here open up...

I took the box and opened it.....

Me : (shouts) wooooooooow, unalemaka....bby (cries) no bby cant...

Him : its yours bby, lets go outside and check it out...

we went outside and there was a black Ferrari, so beautiful and sexy.... I couldn’t stop crying and
this was now to much

Me : but baby, how did you??

Him : well there's something you don’t know about me..

Me : what is it.....

Him : will explain everything when we get home....

I didn’t ask further I just accepted the gift and got back inside...

Themba then knelt down and handed me a 2nd box, it was a small box but bigger than the
wedding box..

I took it and opened it, it was a necklace written our names combined ( thego ) and a bracelet
written the same thing....

Me : wow baby thank you.... I love you

Him : I love you too my love, now for the final gift...
I opened the last box and found an envelope, I then opened the envelope and saw a booking to
London for 4 weeks in June ( in 4 months time) now this got me weak....

Me : bae, London?? (shocked, excited)

Him : I love you, you know??

Me : I love you more....

I gave him a long deep intense kiss and everyone was just taking video's, I didn’t want to let him
go, I wanted to give him my all, my body, but we were not alone so I had to behave..
we then enjoyed the party until it was really late, one of the guys drove my car, yes my car home
and Themba drove me home.

we got home

Him : did you enjoy your birthday??

Me : A lot, thank you so much

Him : well you know I love you so, I guess its goodnight then..

Me : arnt you sleeping over??

Him : want me to??

Me : yes please

Him : why??
Me : because your future wife says so...

Him : (chuckles) well, owk wifey..

we got in and went straight to bed, before sleeping we first day dreamed about our future then
eventually we slept..

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the next morning I woke up in his arms, what a great way to end a birthday party and next week
am giving myself a off week at school ,and now am eventually 19, jho wow what a great day it
was yesterday..

I then tried waking up, but he just held me tight, Mara Themba..

Me : bae, let go

Him : not a chance. (chuckles)

Me : why??

Him : because you won’t come back to bed..

Me : true that, am hungry I want food..

Him : well hold your hunger for two more minutes, please.

Me : but bae.........
Him : thank you

he then held on me tighter, making sure I don’t get a chance to escape, I then just let him be
because there was no use for me to fight him as he already made up his mind...

two minutes was rather 5 more hours, as I slept in his arms again, but when I woke up this time
he was not in bed. I thought that maybe he left, but he would never leave without telling me, nor
even leaving a note.

I got up and went to check if he wasn’t in the kitchen plus I was very hungry. I went and saw no
one, so I then went to take a quick bath. I got in the bath and soaked my body in water ( so much
for a quick bath )

my phone then rang.

Me : hello

Themba : you up?

Me : Tee where are u??

Him : maybe you should come o the grass at the back.

Me : what are you doing there?? I have been looking for you.

Him : miss me??

Me : agg please don’t shoot yourself..

Him : (chuckles) wena Mara, so u coming??

Me : should I come join you??

Him : no thank you, (laughs)

Me : hai owk kge, meet you down in a sec.

Him : owk, love you.

Me : love you more

he dropped the call and I finished off bathing, got dressed in one of his tees and a tights, then I
went to the grass at the back of the house..

Me : Tee??? (shouting)

Him : am this side (shouting)

I went to him an I could smell the smell of braai meat, oh my word, so I followed the smell and
found him.

oh shucks, he was so delicious, he had a tight vest and a jean, his muscles were out. his six pack
was visible and the chest was all I wanted to eat. so I stared at him.

Him : like what you see??

Me : oh yeah, mind if I could eat that for dinner??

Him : (chuckles) u could.

Me : I will keep note..

he laughed at me and led me to the picnic area and we had picnic, it was so beautiful, there was
flowers, music and all romantic Gestures...

Me : ncooooooooo Tee, its so cute....

Him : cute?? what the?? really ??

Me : *laughs* owk nice..

he came close to me and started tickling me....

Me : Tee stop, please (laughing) Tee mane

Him : do you still think its cute or nice??

Me : no Tee is amazing.
Him : good....

we ate and talked till the sun went down, then we watched the sunset..

Him : Tshidi

Me : Tee??

Him : you know I love you right ??

Me : and I love you more.

Him : and nothing in this would will ever change that owk.??

Me : nothing??

Him : yes nothing.

Me : *smiles*

Him : I will be going back to America soon, I need to head back to school..

when he said this I immediately just turned my head and stared at him, I could see
disappointment and change of mood, and that showed me that he didn’t want to leave....
Me : I love you Tee, and I always will, therefore you will find me waiting for you . owk??
he then kissed me on my forehead and let me lay on his shoulders...

when the sun has set, we went back up and went straight to my room. as we were in the room,
he sat on the bed and played music with his phone, then he laid back on his back and let out a
huge sigh, and I saw that he's really debating about leaving.

I then laid on top of him and kissed his forehead, then he held my waiste and looked at me

Him : Tshidi listen.........

Me : Ohhhhh
I then started kissing his neck to his mouth, but he pushed me and looked again in my eyes, I saw
lust in his eyes and continued kissing his lips, they felt cherry and soft, then I started pressing my
body onto his and I could feel his manhood tightening up, he then started grabbing and touching
my body with intense and I did the same. I took off his vest and he took of my shirt, he then
picked me up and placed me under while he went on top. he placed his hands in my nana and
rubbed it a little, now I was feeling him more then ever, I wanted all of him, now. as I was
reaching for his pants to unbotten his pants, he tensed up and stopped..

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Me : what’s wrong??

Him : mhm (clears throat) I got to go bath

Me : Tee...

he left me there and took his toiletry bag to the bathroom. I was so shocked and didn’t know
what was going on. am I not attracting enough or is he still stressed about him leaving me? I
don’t know..

*************Themba*************

it was nice while it lasted, but reality had a way to kick in, how do I carry on with my life Mara,
each.. I love Tshidi with all my life, I would kill for her, but I love her too much that I wouldn’t
want to break her life like this...

I mean I have HIV and she would be the first person I sleep with and infect, no that won’t do, but
I have to tell her. what if she won’t want me anymore, what if leaves me, I cant have that.

************Lesego**********
I decided to follow him to the bathroom, if we were going to be a couple we have to be there for
each other..

I got to the bathroom an he was in a shower, good deed he left the shower door open. he stood
still as the water came down. his eyes was shut and he kept his face down. I took off my bra,
tights, underwear and stepped into the shower with him, I went at the back of him and gave him
a back hug as I kissed his back...

Him : bae, am sorry, I didn’t mean to deny you.

Me : what’s wrong??

Him : nothing ...

Me : Tee speak to me please..

Him : its nothing owk don’t worry about it....

Me : please look at me..

Him : sigh

he turned around and moved a little away from the water to avoid the water getting in his eyes,
then he looked at me straight in my eyes.

Me : you know I am your girlfriend right??

Him : no you not.

Me : WHAT!!!!

Him : yes you not my girlfriend, you my woman, my wife... (chuckles)

Me : mxm, stop playing around Tee, this is serious..

Him : shoot me for trying to clear it up..

Me : (roll eyes) Tee.....

Him : owk, listen lets just take a shower and go to bed, we will discuss this tomorrow
please.

Me : owk...

we took a shower and I could see that he was distracted or disturbed by this thing that he
doesn’t want to speak about it. he would wash my back then stare in space while washing my
back. he was just not himself, and it was our first shower together....

WAIT!!! maybe he's planning our first time together to be romantic, or should it be that there’s
something serious. what situation would it be that he deny me?

we got out the shower and we left to go to bed, when we got to the bedroom we got dressed in
our underwear and slept, but I couldn’t sleep because of this..

Me : Tee are you sleeping??

Him : no, you owk??

Me : no, do you love me??

there was an awkward silence the he looked in my eyes.

Him : you know that I love you more than anything in this world...

Me : then why don’t you tell me, what’s the issue.??

Him : its not easy.

Me : please tell me, I can handle anything, we together forever..

Him : promise to keep an open mind??

Me : yes

Him : it involves some girl

Me : was she your girlfriend??

Him : no, she was someone I knew at school, one of the 'it' girls

Me : owk....

Him : owk so it was our matric dance after party, we were dancing and drinking with the
guys not knowing that I was drugged by Lucy (the girl) he took me to my car and
told my friends that I had to much to drink that I cant walk so my friends took me
home and she came with them, she then told them that she will sort things out
from here, she took me in and now I couldn’t keep my eyes open. when we got to
the bedroom she gave me a pill, I was still stable to see what was happening but
critical to stop her.

Me : what was the pill for??

Him : to make me horny and actively awake.

Me : WHAT!!!

Him : yes, so I started craving for her, I had a girlfriend, but that pill just made me want
something now...... I went to the bathroom with my phone, and called my girlfriend
to come over but her phone was on voice male, so I had no choice cause I wanted
food now, so I went to her and started undressing her, she wanted to first romance
but I wasn’t there, so I quickly undressed her and f****** her.. after 3 rounds I was
out and asleep...

Me : so your girlfriend learned about this??

Him : yes, but the issue is, she told me she was pregnant.

Me : so you have a baby mama???

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Him : not really.

Me : *confused*
Him : well I found out later that she was not carrying my child, so I wanted to be sure, so
I asked her that we should utilise a test, for me to be sure, she refused. I pushed
the issue till she confessed that indeed she's not caring my child, that she just
wanted to pin the pregnancy on me that’s why she drugged me. I still insisted on
a test so we went and did the test.

Me : owk.....

Him : yah, so the test came out and it was true that am not the father, but the doctor told
us that there is another thing swell, he asked us to go on separate rooms and we
went. when I got there and they first read me allot of things then eventually they.......... sigh

Me : they what??

Him : they told me that am .............. *looks down and turns around*

Me : you what?? speak to me Tee.... (look over his side and placed my head on his
shoulder)

Him : am HIV Tshidi owk (covers his head over with the blankets)

Me : (shocked) you, you, you HIV ?

Him : *silence*

Me : sigh bae are you owk?? *starts to cry*

Him : *turns back to me* bae why you crying??

Me : *I placed my head on his chest* please hold me tight..

he held me tight and we both drifted to sleep.

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the next morning I woke up on his chest. I won’t lie but it was rather awkward knowing that my
Tee has HIV, I mean we are bound to be intimate right?? shap we will use protection, but the
thing is how aureate is the protecting from HIV?? and what if we want kids, then what?? but you
know what he's my man and if this means I get HIV then let it be, but we will be a great family.....

as I was deep in thoughts he woke up

Me : morning handsome

Him : morning beauty, how did you sleep??

Me : awesome I guess, you??

Him : with you by my side, am awesome..

he then got up and went to the shower, I wanted to join him, but ever since he came out about
this, I was now scared, I mean I showered with him yesterday and am feeling regretful for that, I
don’t know why because he's my man. but reality just kicked in...

Him : joining me??

Me : yes...........I mean no I need to check my clothing first.

Him : I thought we staying indoors today??

Me : mhm yah, we are, am just checking my clothing, will join you soon though..
Him : owk....

I sat there until I heard the water stop then I pretended to have slept again...

Him : hao Tshidi, you sleeping again.??

Me : kegathetsi jho...*speaking low*

Him : owk, you missed out on a shower with me..

Me : huh Tee no you going to go back

Him : never (chuckles)

Me : will c

Him : hai no, you alone this time.

Me : mxm

I got up and went to shower, when I was done I went to the bedroom and changed, then I went
to the kitchen. I found him cooking and I went to him. few minutes later, he cut himself with a
knife. he looked for something to wipe with, so I ran and fetched a tissue and threw it to him. he
looked at me and looked back at his finger. then he finished cleaning his blood while I was
standing at a distance and asking if he's fine. then he washed his hands and wanted to continue
cooking.

Me : (shouts) no, let me finish..

Him : no don’t worry I will be owk

Me : do you want to get hurt again?? leave I will finish, go relax.

Him : no am fine, I will cook.

Me : brah I don’t want to be affected, move.................

Him : *looks at me with an angry face*

Me : am very sorry, Tee, I didn’t mean to..........

Him : you have said enough...

he left me in the kitchen and left the house, took his car and left. I tried running after him, but
couldn’t keep with the pace, so I let him be. what I said was really wrong, I regret saying that, I
am such a stupid person jazz.. each what was I even thinking??

I thought he would be back late but it was around 22:40 and still no sound of a car or a door
opening, jho how bad, let me try calling him..

he answered just when it was about to go to voicemail

Him : are you not afraid you will get affected through the phone?
Me : Tee please come home.

Him : I am home

Me : I meant with me

Him : that’s not my home, its your grandparents home

Me : baby please, am sorry

Him : last thing I want is to infect you, so goodbye Tshidi

Me : Tee............hello

he hang up on me, jho how can that be, but hai I brought this on to myself... I than decided to
sleep and just let darkness take over...

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***************4 days later***************

it has 4 days and still nothing from Temba. I woke up and headed to school, I got to school and I
met Lucia standing at the gate. I didn’t have a choice but to face her.

Her : hay, I see you took a long holiday neh..

Me : hay Lucia, please am not in no mood

Her : owk, LSG (grins)

my day went well, I saw MSG and we cached up, and I was catching up with school work of cause
and all that. then it was now after school and I headed straight home.

when I got home I saw Temba's car and I started being envious.

I got close and he was standing at the door...

Me : hay Tee

I hugged him, but he never hugged me back...

Me : Tee am sorry

Him : ********silent********

Me : Tee??

Him : Tshidi??

Me : ******pouted******

Him : sigh, we need to talk...

Me : oh, owk.....

I looked at him with a sad look and that moment I knew that I am loosing him...
I opened the door and got inside, he followed and sat on a chair. I then sat on top of him and he
tensed up a bit.

Me : owk, so, what are we talking about??

Him : us.....

Me : baby, ohm about what happened..........

Him : Tshidi, please, let me talk

Me : owk, am listening...

Him : I understand that me being HIV is very difficult for u, I didn’t expect you to stick
around, but you did. but you throwing tantrums like what you did 4 days ago, I
won’t accept that. I love you Tshidi, I really do, but right now I need a supportive
woman, not a judgemental one.

Me : am really sorry Tee, I promise to be fair.

Him : its owk, I get you scared, and I will hold you up to that promise......

Me : could we make up??

Him : how?? (chuckles)

I looked at him and I just felt like having him, right now. I then leant forward to kiss him, I started
out slow, then eventually went intense, deep and strong, he started touching my body and
grabbing it, I grabbed his body too and his manhood started hardening. I know they say sex is not
the solution but I wanted all of him at that moment, the thought that he was Hiv came and I
immediately stopped, he looked at me and immediately he figured my thoughts.
he then sighed and looked down. I then lifted his head and continued kissing him, and didn’t care
about what he had. I kissed him deeply and sat squat position on him, he then picked me up and
took me to the bedroom. he took of my shirt and I took of his shirt then he placed me on the bed
and started sucking my breast one by one and licking my tummy, then I unbuttoned his jeans and
he stopped.

Him : bae, are you sure about this?

Me : yes

Him : you do know you could get infected right??

Me : yes I know

Him : do you love me that much??

Me : I love you more than that.

Him : I f***** love you Tshidi

Me : I know

he continued kissing me, he went intense, then his phone rang, I told him to forget it but he
swore that it might be important. he got off and went to answer his phone, I didn’t know that he
was in the kitchen, as I got in the kitchen and he was actually flirty if you ask me, and as I got in,
he wrapt up has call and hung up....
Me : you didn’t have to drop the call because of me hao....

Him : ahh no, I was done already...

Me : who was it??

Him : my brother, family issues....

Me : oh, everything owk??

Him : mhm yah..

Me : owk, so where were we?? ****leaning forward******

Him : ****kisses me**** I really wish I could but I have to go now.

Me : were to??

Him : mhm home, family matters..

Me : owk, see you when I get back then..

Him : ****kiss me on my forehead****

Me : owk..

he got dressed and left, I was still uneasy with his sudden change of mood, maybe he's still not
free to be intimate with me, given the situation, but its owk...
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**********Themba*********

I never like lying to Tshidi, I really love her, but I was not ready for her to find out what
happened....

so 4 days ago when we fought, I left to go get drunk in a bar, I was so drunk that I couldn’t walk.
so the last time I remember I passed out in the bar and woke up in a weird home on the bed next
to a very good looking woman, whom was very familiar...

I snapped out and woke her up, I swear she looked familiar. I then asked her what happened,
then she told me that we were 'wild and funky' I figured we were intimate, she said that we
forgot to use protection because I was so all over the mood to stop for a moment..
I then got dressed and found my way back home, then next day she called, this gal had my
numbers, and I don’t know how, and I didn’t want to ask. she told me that she’s not feeling well,
then I told her to go to the clinic and stop calling, she dropped the call.

few hours at night she called me, and told me that she went to the clinic and they figured that,
she’s pregnant.

so the 3rd day I went to c her and the doctor to confirm, and indeed she was pregnant.
and today she just called to tell me that she needs me to please buy her vitamins and some
painkillers cause she’s having pains, so I had to leave Tshidi for this stupid mistake that is now
permanent...

I got to her place and rang the bell.

Her : oh, you came, did you get the pills??

Me : sure

Her : come in

Me : mhm, cants, my woman is waiting for me..

Her : does she know about me??

Me : no Lucia, she doesn’t, and we better keep it like that...

Her : mhm, owk, I have been calling you, but you didn’t pick up, why??

Me : really, I didn’t........NO!

Her : what??

Me : I left my phone̸

Her : shoot, oh owk then guess I will c u when u free?

Me : no Lucia, the only time I will c u is when u need something or want to go to the
clinic, owk??

Her : mxm, owk ******rolling eyes*******

*********Lesego********
I heard a sound, but I don’t know from were, it kept coming like every 2 minutes.. after some
time I realised it was Tees phone.... interesting, someone named Lucia is calling?? owk, I
answered..

Me : halo, Tees phone, the owner is not here please call after a while..

Her : I will certainly do that Lesego, thank you..

Me : wait a minute, hold up!!! which Lucia is this??

Her : the one and only baby,

Me : why you calling Tee??

Her : ohhh he didn’t tell you??

Me : tell me what??

as I was speaking to her, Tee walked in, and I looked at him as though he has just committed
murder..

I then dropped the call, and gave him a don’t you dare look....

Him : who was that??

Me : Lucia, your bae!! ****sarcastic smile***** she says I should greet you... I mistakenly
dropped her call, please call her back, she really wanted to speak to her bae. "big
brother"
I than left him there and went to the bedroom, he then followed me and as I was about to shut
the door he held the door open...

Him : baby listen, I can explain...

Me : go on am listening...

Him : I met Lucia at the bar just after our argument, I was so drunk to the point that I
passed out, she took me in and I slept at her place, she tried seducing me but I
tried to play too drunk to have an irraction, besides am in no position to sleep
with anyone at the moment..

Me : mhm?? really?? so you didn’t sleep with her??

Him : no, I didn’t.

Me : mhm owk. how does she have your numbers??

Him : I have no idea, trust me.....

Me : why is she still blowing up your phone??

Him : babe I don’t know, but I always ignore her when she call, you should do that...

Me : mhm owk.

Him : babe I really love you and I will always love you, you the mother of my children,
you the keeper of my heart, you my life babe..
he leaned close and gave me a kiss and gave me a hug, I still have a raw feeling about this, but am
going to have to trust my man. anyway we just have to prepare for our London trip, I just cant
wait....

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I got up early the next day. this situation of Tee and Lucia is really bugging me, could this be that
its Lucia from school, cause she clearly stated " the one and only" OH NO!!
Lucia’s words " listen here, if I cant have you no one will" I need to watch my back.
Temba woke up

Him : debating with yourself so early in the morning?

Me : morning

Him : morning

Me : how did you sleep?

Him : great, an you??

Me : are we communicating via WhatsApp??

Him : mhm? *****confused*******

Me : which Lucia is this?

Him : really now??

Me : answer please.

Him : I don’t know.

Me : is this by any chance Lucia from my school??

Him : your school?

Me : yes

he went quiet for sometime then he quickly got out of bed, went to wash his face, brushed his
teeth, got dressed and left.

I was just there asking him were he is going, but all he could say is that its urgent and he just
remembered.

**********Temba**********

this can not be happening, I knew that this girl looks familiar but to even think its that girl from
Tshidi’s school, this has become personal.

I got to Lucia’s house and called her.

she answered on the 1st ring.

Her : wow, this is really a nice surprise.

Me : am outside.
Her : hahahaha babe so you came to me?

Me : come down please.

I then dropped the call.

few minutes after waiting outside she came.

Me : did you have to take so long?

Her : it was just few minutes..

Me : what game are you playing?

Her : so am playing games by making you wait a few minutes?

Me : stop playing stupid, tell me did we really sleep together?

Her : huh?? mhm...... wh.....what was that?

Me : you heard me.

Her : oh yes, you even couldn’t get enough of me, I must say, you are so powerful that
you even score a baby in our first time. jho, haven’t you asked yourself why Lsg is
not getting the catch??

Me : you leave my woman out of this, talking about a baby, is that child you carrying my
child??
Her : how could you ask me that? what do you think about me?

Me : is it my child ****angry****

Her : I cant believe this.....

she stormed out and went back to her house, I stood there for a while debating about this and
adding numbers. I need to tell Tshidi, I cant keep to this besides she’s my girl.

************Lesego***************

I heard a knock, I didn’t know who it was and I was in no mood for anyone, so I kept a low profile.

the knock got persistent so I went to the door

Me : am coming...

I then opened the door

Me : tee, were have you been, I have been worried sick. you know I..........

Him : I slept with Lucia

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owk stop, rewind, what did he just say?? he slept with Lucia?? OH MY WORD!!!! am about to go
crazy, God help me cause am really going to get a fussy fudge.

Me : what??

Him : am sorry, I wanted .......

as he was speaking I decided to shut the door right in his face and run to my room and locked. I
knew he was going to want to come after me so its better to lock myself in and just be alone.
he came and tried opening the bedroom door, but it was locked, he then started knocking and
asked me to please open, so I just bust in laughter and crying at the same time because I really
felt stupid.

Me : (laughing and crying) wow, how stupid can I be huh?? how stupid can I be??

Him : babe please let me explain, owk open up so I can explain.

I got up from bed and started walking up and down in my room.

Me : explain?? explain?? Temba you want to explain??

Him : yes, I just want to explain.

Me : explain what?? that you were touching, kissing and doing all the things to Lucia??
mhm?? tell me, which Lucia is this??

Him : bae...

Me : is this by any chance Lucia from my school??

Him : *********silence*********

Me : I don’t like jumping to conclusion's so??

Him : yes

Me : what was that?? a yes?? OHHHHHHHHHH

Him : bae listen...

Me : get out.

Him : am not going anywhere, not until I have explained.

Me : Temba leave (started crying) leave Temba leave ( started banging the door from the
inside of her room) why, why??

Him : babe it was a mistake, I was drunk.

I was now helpless, and I was really tied of crying so I decided to sit at the door and listen to his
"crazy" reasoning.

Me : tell me, how was it??

Him : babe??

Me : how was it?? was it nice, amazing, did she do it for you??
Him : I don’t know, I was drunk and unconscious.

Me : so she was so amazing that she had you pass out??

Him : Tshidi??

Me : why??

Him : listen I was drunk and I don’t really know what happened after that, I had so much to drink
because I was still angry at the incident that we had, so I drank so much and woke up at her place
the next day.

Me : so its my fault.

Him : ******silence******

Me : am sorry for pushing you in another woman’s legs, it wasn’t my intension.

Him : babe please don’t do that.

Me : maybe I should ask Lucia how it was, so that I can prepare myself to be better than her.

Him : babe, please.

Me : did you ever wanted to be with me, or was it to pass time, while you aim at Lucia?

Him : I really love you Tshidi.

Me : what a cute way of showing it. (long silence) today?? were did you rush to?? to Lucia??

Him : *****silence*****

Me : (attitude laugh) so you went to her, haven’t had enough of her right?? I guess you still going
to bang her till she catch a baby huh??

Him : mhm, actually she's already pregnant..

Me : what??

I immediately just went blank and stared into space, tears flowed down and my world went
black.

I slept at the door and shut my eyes. I could hear him calling out bae, babe but I couldn’t
respond, my mouth was too tight to open up, my voice was to closed up to come out, my body
was too weak to move, I was just down and out till I fell in a deep sleep, I don’t know whether
Temba stayed or left. #broken....

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I woke up, it was sunny, I noticed that I was sleeping on the floor. my eyes felt heavy, my mind
was a little refreshed, I needed a shower so I stoop up and opened the door and realised that I
locked it. immediately I had a flashback of what I went through yesterday, I took a deep breath
and unlocked the door.

as I opened the door, I saw that Temba was still here, he was actually sleeping on the floor as
well.
I quietly moved over him and went to the shower, I got done and left.

I went to the park and stayed there for a long time, looking at people having fun, couples having
a great Time, children swinging around with smiles on their faces and here I was sad and empty.

after sometime I heard my phone rang. it was Temba so I ignored it. he called again multiple
times and I kept ignoring it, then I placed my phone on silent.

I stayed there for hours on end then I decided to go home.

I got home and was enlightened and surprised to see that baby Khanyi was at home, at the same
time I got dull went I saw that Temba was still here.

Baby k : mama Tshidi!!!

Me : hay nana, how are you??

Her : am good, uncle Temba says you angry at him.

Me : (chuckles) so who brought you here??

Her : uncle Jabu, I told him that I miss you.

Me : I missed you too, give me a hug.

she gave me a hug then Temba came in mumbling something.

Temba : h.........a...y, mhm baby Khanyi why don’t you go fetch your drawing book and
come show mama Tshidi.
Her : owk uncle.

baby Khanyi ran to fetch her book. I knew Temba was about to sing me the am sorry song so I
headed to my room, but Temba held my hand.

Him : Tshidi please.

Me : ********silence***************

Him : Tshidi??

baby Khanyi came back an saw that I was not speaking to Temba so a nosey as she is, she
interfered.

Baby Khanyi : mama Tshidi, why you not speaking to uncle Temba??

Me : there’s nothing to talk about nana, am tired.

Her : can I go sleep with you?

Me : well I want to sleep now, do you want sleep now??

Her : I want to first play dolly games (sad face)

Me : but am dying nana

Temba : let mama Tshidi sleep, I will play dolly games with you, owk??
Her : hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye

I bid goodbye to baby Khanyi and kissed her, I then left to take a nap.

the next morning I woke up and baby Khanyi was sleeping next to me, so I figured she came to
bed late at night. I quietly stood up and went to the bathroom then I went to have some water.
when I got to the kitchen I saw a decorated table for two, I thought Themba was really pushing it,
but when I got close I saw a paper written "for you and baby Khanyi" so I figured its our
breakfast. I may not be talking to Temba but food is one thing I will deny.

I went back to my room and found baby Khanyi playing on the bed.

Me : baby Khanyi, what are you doing, you will get hurt.

Her : sorry mama Tshidi

Me : its owk, lets go have breakfast.

Her : I haven’t brushed my teeth

Me : did you bring a brush?

Her : yes its in my back.

Me : owk, go fetch it

she went and fetched her bag and came back bag with an envelope and her toothbrush.
Her : mama Tshidi, uncle Temba said I must give this to you.

she handed me the envelope, I wanted to tear it and throw it but baby Khanyi was waiting
impatiently for me to open it and read it.

I opened the envelope and started reading....

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Dear Tshidi my love.

I know I have not been the ideal guy to make you happy, and am aware that am the last person
you would want to speak to at this moment. what I did is not fair and I know that it really hurt
you, but I need you to please believe me when I say that all this was not planned. Tshidi I love
you, I will always love you and you will always be my girl. I wrote this letter to inform you that at
this very moment I might be on the plane back to USA. relax! I will not move on, I will keep
myself busy with something important and wait for you to tell me what is the way forward. I am
sorry I left baby Khanyi with you, I ask that you please keep an eye on her while her mom is on a
trip (I also don’t know which trip, she didn’t specify) but she will be gone for about 2 weeks, I
know you love baby Khanyi, she also loves you. Tshidi goodbye, hope to here from you soon. I
promise you Tshidi, I really wanted you and only you, given my status I really thought that the
first person I be with will be someone I love, so that when I infect that person I will know that we
got each other, now here I am, having to support a woman I don’t love because she could be hiv
positive and not to mention having a child with someone I don’t have a connection with,
something I never mentioned having. anyway I prepared you ladies some breakfast, hope you
enjoy. please tell baby Khanyi I love him. Mwa

love you. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

I really love you #goodbye

reading this made me really sad, I even cried, baby Khanyi was looking at me as I was crying.
Her : mama Tshidi!!, why are you crying

Me : this letter is from Themba, it makes me cry

Her : but I don’t like to see you cry, it makes me cry too

Me : owk I won’t cry owk?

Her : owk

Me : uncle Themba said I should tell you that he loves you

Her : where did you here him, were is he??

Me : he wrote it in the letter.

Her : oh, I love him. did he also right that he loves you?

Me : mhm......Hu.......MH......yah!

Her : do you love him??

Me : mhm......Hu.....how about you go eat then I need to go make a call

I decided to call Themba, but he was not picking up his phone, I tried so many times but still
nothing.

I then gave up and went to eat breakfast.

************Themba***********

it was really painful leaving Tshidi like that, but my dad had called for me to come back in usa to
take care of his business, I could have told her but since I made a mess I thought I should give her
space to really be alone and think clearly.

few minutes after I got in the plane my phone rang, I looked at it and saw that it was Tshidi, I
decided it ignore it. I wasn’t ready to here her voice cause that would just tear me apart. I kept
ignoring till she stopped calling.

***********Lesego***********

the whole day was just amazing with baby Khanyi, I won’t lie I had moments were I really missed
Themba, I wanted to call again but I rather not.
we spent the whole day indoors and me keeping busy with baby Khanyi. we played, ate and
watched movies.

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************3 years later**********

3 years later and I haven’t heard a word about Themba, he either changed his number, lost his
phone or something else because his numbers always goes to voicemail. the last time we spoke
was a year ago when I called him to check on him, but he cut my call short because he had a
"busy day".

I got up went to shower. came back then put on my jean and jacket and a white Nike snicker. I
then took my water bottle and left.
well its been 3 years now and I have achieved quiet a lot. I am a professional netball player, a
radio presenter, a poet, a motivational speaker, and a dancer, I still have a lot to still achieve, like
being a CA and also owning a hotel or restaurant, I also have rented my own house in jhb (yes, I
left my grandma and grandpa house) am a big girl now.

when I got to the radio station I did my show and I enjoyed it. just so you all know, Lucia gave
birth and working as a sales rep. it was confirmed that Lucia’s child was not Themba’s child and
that she was faking all that to get at me, and at that cost I lost Themba, so me and Themba are
no more(I think so, since we lost contact and I think he moved on) better I also move on.
after my show, I took off and went to my netball practice, I went there and I enjoyed it, it was a
hit practice and I feel ready for the upcoming match in London.

after I went back home took a bath and went to my room, to take a nice relax nap, I got in and
within minutes I was out...

the next morning came and it was the same routine for the whole week. I really missed baby
Khanyi, well now she’s no more baby Khanyi, she’s now Khanyi (well that’s what she keeps
saying) I last spoke to her on the phone about a week ago, she’s staying with her mom and dad at
some plays in Melville.

weeks went by and all I looked forward to was my London netball match in few weeks.
we were leaving the Wednesday and coming back the Sunday of the 3rd week of June.
now that’s a camp to look forward to.

********* 3rd week of June*********

I woke up very early this day, had my things packed yesterday and went to take a bath. I decided
to take a very long bath, just to pass time because I was 7 hours away from leaving.
after the bath I went to eat my breakfast, did my hair got dressed and did everything and still had
about 3 hours to go. this clock was really moving slow, but then I decided to watch a movie, first I
did my popcorns then I went to buy myself a pack of Doritos, I came back got a comfortable seat
and played my movie.
I watched and also forgot about the slow time. until someone knocked on my door, I was so mad
because I had to pause my movie.

I went to the door and opened.

coach : Haibo, you ready?

Me : oh yes ho yes

Her : lets go

I left the door open, and fetched my bags, I took them to the car with the help of other team
mates, I packed my laptop as well and took my popcorns and Doritos and locked my house and
left.

it was a very long flight but at least we arrived after some hours. the place was beautiful, there
was 8 other teams there and also 5 soccer teams (boy soccer teams). we got into our dometries
and relaxed, waiting for the next day for our first match.

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The morning came and we were woken up - well we were already awake - by a very loud sound
like a hooter.

We rushed to the showers and took the 1st privilege of showering first in the showers. After a
few minutes (since we had to shower fast so that others can have hot water) we got out and our
whole team was done bathing - well that was our daily routine, get up before the "hooter" makes
a noise and get to the showers first..
Our coach came and took us to the grounds, we exercised, practiced 2/3 times, then stretched,
after that we started the first match day. We were not the first players but we were the 2nd
players on the left list, playing against the 2nd team on the right list.

We watched as teams played and got nervous when we had to play, we were the second
combo.... There were 6 teams......

We played and won, but almost lost, if it wasn't because of our last lucky score, and fair score (
you can call it penalty score ) that we got during the match. The score was 12-11......

We were so happy but we still had another game to play today at 20:30 just an hour after supper.
I LOVE night games they are just amazing, no heat, no sweating, no funny smells, but the smell of
feet always had a way to show up.. (Lol)........

After the game we went to chill at the dining tables for our healthy snack before bed, and to
relax.... We sat on one big table and later joined by a group of soccer boys.

Boys : hello lady's

Us : hay guys

Boys : may we have a seat?

Me : sure

One boy : hay again my name is Tray, this is Kevin, this is Josh and last is Tino.......

Us : nice to meet yall

Me : well am Lesego, this is Mpumi, Thando, Lerato, Thato, Refilwe and Small.
Kevin : small??

Small : proper name is Lizzy, but because am small bodied, my friends started to call me small.

Tray : so were you guys from ??

Thando : south Africa, you guys??

Josh : African lady's huh !!

Us : yahhhh

Kevin : well we from America....

Me : really ??

Tino : yahhh

So we spoke and spoke and laughed and laughed. We then got our snack's ate and went upstairs
to our dometries.

The days went by and matches passed and it was now Sunday, time to go back home. The
summary of our 5 games is 1st - won 12-11

* 2nd - won 15-12

* 3rd - draw 14-14
* 4th - lost 12-13
* last - won 15-9.....
I have been receiving a missed call from my aunt, but never had the time to actually call her, so I
told myself that as soon as I get in the bus I will call her......

As we were heading to the bus, Tray caught up with me ( well me and Tray started talking a lot
since we met at the dinning hall, we have been "friends" , he has been a great " friend", he is
funny, crazy and loving )
Him : hay Lsg

Me : yes Tray?

Him : so have a great trip back.

Me : u too

Him : so how about I get your digits, then we can keep in contact.

Me : cool

I gave him my digits and gave him a hug, I than went to the bus, not realising the team and coach
have been watching.

I got in the bus, went at the back were Lerato was keeping a place for me next to the window.
When I got in everyone started clapping, screaming like I was some celeb, including coach.

Coach : fast neh?

Me : huh?
Her : you and that guy?

Me : please we just friends..

They went on and on about the situation, but I just ignored them. I then called my aunt, (as
promised)

The phone rang, and she answered almost immediately.

Her : Yoh Manana, I have been calling you since Wednesday.....

Me : sorry aunty, am from London, netball

Her : oh, owk, now that I got hold of you, I need you here asap....

Me : sorry??

Her : manana, not now please, you need to take this seriously.

Me : what's wrong aunt, is it nkgono??

Her : no

Me : ntate molo?

Her : no Nana, they are fine..

Me : so have what's wrong?

Her : its you.

Me : what do you mean its me??

Her : remember 3/4 years ago, when you came for that woman program??

Me : yes!!

Her : well remember, you got a new name??

Me : yes , (Matumelo)

Her : well this name was given to you because the chief has secretly chosen you to marry his son..

Me : WHAAATTT

as I said this loud, everyone in the bus looked back at me with wondering confusing faces.

Her : am sorry.

Me : you knew??

Her : *********** silence **********

Me : WOW!!!!!!!!!
I hung up the phone and started crying, now everyone wanted to console me, but I told them not
to....

Just when life comes normal, this happens.....

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I got home, stressed as ever, eyes red, swollen from crying. I wasn't crying because of this
arranged marriage but Because my only beloved aunt, never told me anything for the past 3
years. Just when I was getting over the Themba issue, then the chief issue appears.....
I was busy playing games on my phone to keep my mind off things when my phone froze my
game for few seconds then baby khanyi's mom's number showed up, she was calling me....

Me : hay mama ka Khanyi.

Her : hay, unjani?

Me : fine thanks for asking, wena?

Her : hai, it's rough but we coping, listen, I called because baby Khanyi wanted to speak to you,
we have been meaning to call last week but busy schedule's we forgot.

Me : it's not a problem, so were is she??

Her : let me get her on the phone.....

She then called out for her and she answered, then in a few minutes she spoke on the phone....

Her : mama Tshidi??

Me : hay baby Khanyi.

Her : mama Tshidi, am not baby Khanyi, am Khanyi...

Me : Lol, owk Khanyi..

Her : even uncle Themba calls me baby Khanyi, why??

Me : Uncle Themba??

Her : yes he called long ago

Me : oo....ohhh it's because when you were a baby we would call you that.

Her : owk, I miss uncle Themba, do you miss uncle Themba?

Me : uh, don't you miss me??

Her : yes, I miss you.

Me : I miss you to nana...

Her : when are you going to visit me??

Me : soon, Nana, soon.

Her : owk, mammy says daddy is waiting for me, bye..

Me : bye baby....

Her mom : am sorry to cut it shot, but she and her daddy are going out.

Me : aren't you going with them?

Her : work....

Me : snap, owk stay well..

Her : you to

I hung up the phone, my night was about to be a long night. Baby Khanyi just opened an old
feeling, that I tried so hard destroying it. Will I ever get over Themba Mara, kanti when will I
accept that its over, for good??

I then thought about this and sleep wanted to take over, so I then went to take a shower, made
some real thinking, with the slow music loud and really going deep in thoughts....

I got out and decided that am going to write my feelings down...( see when I was growing I used
to spit bars with my friends and do street battles, but that ended when we went to university
because we wanted to take a chill bite) so I took a paper and wanted to write a diary, but I ended
up writing a song, a rap song called BROKEN HEARTS.....

I then called Msg ( hoping she would answer, since we haven't spoken in weeks ). The phone rang
and she answered just when it was about to go on voicemail....

Her : braza, jasas, when last did I here from you, jho....

Me : each, I know hay, sorry I wasn't in touch bro....

Her : yah, you and your busy entertainment life neh!!!

Me : yah, I know, Lol and went how's life your side??

Her : eash, if it's not my music stream it's family, but am coping....

Me : good, listen I need your help, actually, I need a favour...

Her : yah shoot...

Me : I need us to record a song together...

Her : (laughs) wooooow wait, I thought you didn't want to enter the music world??

Me : am not, it will be like it's you’re song and you just featuring me...

Her : so you write the song and be part of it, but you giving me the credits and you signing under
as a feature ??

Me : yes...

Her : why??
Me : I don't want to be in the music industry full time, I just want to appear there and there...

Her : owk, send the lyrics and the beat then, I will talk to my producer....

Me : I have the lyrics, but I don't have the beat....

Her : owk, I will organise, so when will we rehears???

Me : send me the address of your studio and your off days this month and we will take it from
there.....

Her : owk, that's fine by me.

Me : good, thanks

Her : owk, night buddy....

Me : are you working late today??

Her : actually you saved me weeks of sleep..

Me : meaning??

Her : I have been meaning to write a hit single for my album (last single), but head is empty...

Me : maybe I could help.

Her : plus I know you are hard core, hay...

Me : Lol........

Her : am serious, hay are you a girly girl now, or have you gone back to your roots since Themba
left??
Me : both.....

Her : oh, you are, how you were when you came from that program of woman??

Me : yah.....

Her : owk, sharp braza, you just gave me reason to sleep early today...

Me : so, you thinking if taking this song that we going to record " thee hit single " ??

Her : yah, why not..

Me : and what if it's not a hit as you expect??

Her : I know it is a hit, I can feel it...

Me : Lol, owk, enjoy your sleep, I think I will also have an early night...

Her : night braza..

Me : sho ntwana.....

She hung up the call and I felt a bit free and little relieved. I then went into my blankets, switched
off the lamp and took a deep breath and laid back. In no time, I was in lala land.....

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The morning came and I felt a little better, I felt like a weight have been lifted off my shoulder. I
wanted to get my mind off things, so I decided to play loud music (RnB). I would dance, sing along
while cleaning......

When in was done, I decided to take a long deep bath, and relax. Then I got in my tracksuits and
laid to watch a movie......

In the middle of the movie, my phone rang, I ignored it, thinking it was my aunt, she was very
persistent, I ended up answering my phone, in a rude way, unintentionally.....

Me : if I don't answer, it's because am not available, or am simply ignoring you, don't you get it??

Voice : ouch!! Am sorry, I promise to get the massage next time.

Ι froze, I didn't know how to answer, I mean the voice sounded like Themba's voice. Even if bathi
ngidakiwe, but this is Themba's voice....

Him : heeeelloooooo!!

Me : Themba??

Him : Tshidi??

Me : how....how....how did you get my numbers???

Him : from mama ka Khanyi...

Me : oh..
Him : how are you??

Me : am happy...

Him : right!!

Me : what do you want ??

Him : you...

Me : don't you think its a little to late for that??

Him : Tshidi??

Me : bye tee....

I hung up. I just didn't expect such surprise, especially from Tee!! Jho hai..... My phone rang
again, I knew it was him, so I tried ignoring him, but I couldn't....

Me : you disturbing me....

Him : I would say sorry, but am not....

Me : excuse me??

Him : if I do something intentionally, then why would I be sorry??

Me : yah, you right, just like you up and left and never looked back. 3 years, just when you settled
in, you stopped calling, changed your numbers, never gave me your new number and moved on.
Nice huh?? I get it.....

Him : (sighs) Tshidi??

Me : I go by the name Lsg, just so you don't know.

Him : what happened to "Tshidi"??

Me : the guy who used to call me that is history now... That name has memories...

Him : oh, well that guy can make up and make more memories...

Me : memories or nigh mares..??

Him : ******* silence*********

Me : bye Tee.

I hung up.... I didn't know what to think, what to do nor what to say to myself..... A part of me
was glad and happy that I finally heard from Themba, but another part of me just wished I had
never met him..... Not that am cruel or something, but I love Themba, I really do, and I got really
hurt when he left me and never made contact. I would sleep in tears, sober all day, so if he thinks
I will allow him to do that to me again then unhappily ushapile fatse shame.....
My phone rang, I thought it was Themba, so I picked up the phone without checking who it was...

Me : are you ever going to give up??

Voice : huh, nope, especially if you going to answer your phone without a "hay"....

Me : huh! Sorry, who's this??

Voice : Tray..

Me : oh hay tray...

Him : bad timing??

Me : nope, just thought it was someone else....

Him : owk, sorry I took long to call. I have been too busy in my job...

Me : a job??

Him : yes, I work for ESA...

Me : ESA??what's that??

Him : Entertainment & Sport's Academy....

Me : what do you do there?

Him : well we look for people who are going to play under our name, e.g., netball, soccer, cricket,
rugby etc. teams and also dancers singers and all that, it's like a combination of all sports and
media. We have a record company, and acting agency, and modelling agency...
Me : jho all of that??

Him : not to brag, but that's not it. Am also working at a law firm...

Me : a law Firm?? Nice..... So are you the owner of all this??

Him : I wish.... But I work for someone....

Me : owk, that's nice, well I understand how busy you are hay....

Him : yah, so how you??

Me : am owk, I guess..

Him : what do you mean, you guess?

Me : well let's just say, am stuck between my family and my life....

Him : you only live once girl...

Me : I know, but its really tough....

U heard a knock on the door, didn't really know who it could be, cause I wasn't really expecting
someone, so I wrapped up my call...

Me : tray listen, there's someone at the door. I will chat to you later...

Him : owk, cool..

I hung up and went to open the door..

I couldn't believe it, it was my aunt with 2 other big man....

Me : aunty ?? What are you doing here??

Her : we here to get you. No malume, keyo Matumelo ( speaking to the 2 man )

Man 1 : Sisi, we need to talk

I let them in and sat down....

Man 1 : I am malume Teboho, this is malume Mushasha.

Me : dumelang bo malume, nna Kenna Matshidiso.

Malume Teboho : owk, I am sure you know why we here matumelo??

Me : (deep breathing) eya malume

Malume Mushasha : then, there's no need for us to Fight with you, you leaving with us....

Me : Mara Malume...

Malume Teboho : no but, we leaving, you need to go pack your bags now, there's a lot to prepare
for.
Me : what about my life malume??

Malume Mushasha : matumelo, we have spoken, go get your stuff right now, or we will carry you
without your stuff, you choose...

I looked at them, they were a little big though, I looked at my aunt, thinking she would say
something, but she just looked down, so I stood up and went to my room, packed everything I
needed and went to the elders....

Me : am done.

Mushasha : let's go

Uncle teboho took my bags, I locked my house and went to the car, and off it went.... I spent my
whole trip quiet...... When we got there they showed me my room and I went straight to bed,
and slept with my headphones in my ears....

I hope you feel how I felt that moment....

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the next day I was expecting an elder to come to my room but no one came, I think they were
just giving me time to come to terms with this whole situation. my phone was off, I think its
because it has been playing music all night. I heard voices coming nearer, so I pretended to be
still sleeping...

they then opened the door of my seemingly bedroom..

chief : I was hoping to find her awake, is this how sleep devours them in jhb??
aunt : am sorry chief, but I think its because she has been working really hard in her job, maybe
she’s tired...

voice : maybe we will come back later, or she will come down when she’s up, its not like I am
going anywhere far, am just around.

chief : owk, son, I guess we should give her space to be free a little

voice : yah, I must admit I wanted to see her, the way you were describing her is interesting.

aunt : she is an amazing girl.

voice : yah, you have told me..

chief : right let us go down..

I heard the voices fade and the door closed, I wanted to open my eyes and move the blankets
over my head, but I had a feeling that someone was still inside. after some time, I opened the
blanket and there was no one, seems like its just my imagination.

as I was about to get out of bed, I heard footsteps, and I got quickly in bed...the door opened.

voice : matumelo!! matumelo!!

I was wondering who it was, it wasn’t my aunts voice so maybe its some female representative.
so I ignored the voice and kept low. but she kept calling and this time she came to shake me.

voice : matumelo!!
me : yes, am awake...

I pretended to stretch myself as if I really was from sleep, it was a really nice looking lady and a
bit old. maybe she is the chiefs sister or wife or even the female representative.

her : hay matumelo, wakey wakey.

me : good morning

her : hope you had a great night?

me : well it would have been the best night if I wasn’t forced to come here.

her : am sorry, I told my husband that this is defiantly not the best thing to do since its the new
generation.

me : so you the chiefs wife??

her : yes, and am sorry that you had to be in this sticky situation.

me : were you also forced to marry the chief??

her : no one told me you were this forward..

me : oh am very sorry!!

her : no its owk, actually you just like me, you like the younger version of me, just a little extra.
me : really??

her : yes, and with me it was different, when they arraigned the marriage I didn’t want, so I told
them that if they forced me, they should make sure that they don’t leave me alone because they
will find me dead (suicide).

me : jho, seems like they didn’t care because you married to him.

her : well, he and his father the late chief came to my house after they were told what I said.
when they arrived they called me and when I came in, I came in with the thought that I will not
change my mind.

me : but you changed it, right?

her : when I came in, I froze.

me : why??

her : he was so handsome, so young, I just couldn’t believe it....

me : you see, your situation is different because you just fell in love with him.

her : yah I know, that’s why I think you should first relax, see our son and maybe you will like him.

me : sounds weird when you say "our son ". maybe.

her : but please don’t do anything that you don’t want, ok

me : understood, so how is your son, like what kind of person is he?

her : to be honest, the last time I actually spend time with him and know what’s going on in his
life was 5 years when he got done with high school.

me : what about holidays?

her : he visits in December every year but just spends time being thought chieftaincy stuff, and
he only visits for about a week...

me : that sure hurts, so how many children do you have?

her : 3, a boy and 2 girls.

me : were are they?

her : the boy studies in America, the one girl has 2 children and is now married, last time I
checked she was working in a boutique, and the last one is still in school and also has 2 children.

then the maid of that house came to our room and said that she wanted to check on me if am
awake so that she can make lunch for me. so I said I will be down in a minute.

me : I feel so nervous going out, what if I bump in with your son, I don’t want to see him...

her : well he's not here, I think.. he will be back for lunch so that’s when you will meet him.

me : owk, let me go, plus am so hungry...

her : owk lets go, don’t worry everything is going to be alright.

we went downstairs and the chiefs wife went to the kitchen to get our food. I was on my way to
the dining room when I heard voices so I guessed it was the chief and his son having an
argument, so I decided to ears drop.

chief : son, I don’t understand what is going on with you, what has London done to you??

son : nothing dad, am just saying that I don’t want to marry someone that doesn’t love me, no!!

chief : its called fulfilling tradition, you going to be a chief one day.

son : dad I have a good life going on, I have a construction company in USA, well am in
partnership with someone, I own 35% shares in that construction company, its not only that but
its the best construction company in USA, we have 5 offices around USA 3 offices around England
and we want to open some in SA that’s why me and partner managed to come, he’s in jhb
preparing and I decided to come here to visit for 2 days to see the girl who "has agreed to marry
me in the arranged marriage willingly" but no, I find out that you even had to force her to come
here, no dad, nop....

chief : if we told you that she is unwilling would you have came ??

son : is that why you lied??

chief : son, please understand..

son : dad, if I cant make time for her, what’s going to happen??

chief : she will understand..

son : not after what my partner experienced. I will not put myself under such depression.
chief : what do you mean??

son : well, 3 years ago, my partners dad who owned 100% of the company, decided to sign over
his shares to his son. he went to London a year after and we met there, he needed capital for
building his offices, so I made an offer he agreed. after few months he wanted to come back to
jhb to see his girlfriend but he couldn’t, we had a lot of projects, clients and all that to sort out..
chief : haven’t this partner of yours heard of a phone call or massage.

son : well , his girlfriend doesn’t know that he is rich, and he wanted to date a girl who is not after
money...

chief : son, please just give it a chance, you haven’t even seen her.

son ; DAD !!! love is not about looks, but about love....

chief : but...........

son : dad I need to go....

he then left...

I didn’t notice the chiefs wife was after me so when I turned back, I saw her.....

me : am sorry, I couldn’t help but ears drop.

her : happy with what you heard??

me : well it brought an old feeing.

her : am sorry....

me : its owk, I hope lunch is not cold??

her : its not, lets go enjoy....

we went to the dining room and enjoyed our lunch and then o help in the house, with the music
loud. it was me and the maid. the chief and his wife have left....

I didn’t hear the chiefs son walk in. I was busy dancing and preparing food with mama Rosie....

him : mhm,mhm,mhm

I quickly looked back and stopped the music then tried to explain..

me : am sorry, I didn’t mean to put mama Rosie in trouble, it was all my idea....

him : you sure did, right...

me : am sorry....

him : am really sorry, lol, I didn’t really want to scare you, I was just popping to see if my dad is
around...

me : so, you the chiefs son???

him : please, I heard what’s going on and am in no mood to discuss anything, I just want to get
my mind to relax, so can I help you guys cook??
me : oh no its alright..

him : mama Rosie??

her : well matumelo, he always cooks when he’s around, best cook I bet..

me : not bester then me, I bet..

him : oh please..

he came towards us, took of his jacket and stayed in his shirt, muscular if you ask me. so he put
the music back on and we enjoyed ourselves...

the chief and his wife came and we were already done and chatting outside, you could say we
were bonding. so when they came in we also came in few seconds after them..

chief : so I see you have met.

son : yes dad, and please don’t start..

chiefs wife : baba please let them be...

chief : owk, fine

me : owk..... sup ready, we were actually waiting for you...

chiefs son : yes and am sure if I cooked it myself, it would ben amazing...
me : oh please, mine is going to be the best.

mama Rosie : guys stop it. lol, hahahahahahahahahaha, listen you both made supper so its going
to be the bests...

chief : they made supper together??

mama Rosie : yes, with music on...

chiefs wife : thanks my children, so lets eat...

mama Rosie : I will be at the kitchen when you need me...

chief : owk Rosie..

me : mama, can mama Rosie please sit with us for supper.

chiefs wife : owk nana... ROSIE!!

mama Rosie : MA !!!!

chiefs wife : come fetch a plate and sit with us....

mama Rosie : ohhh no, mama its owk..

chiefs wife : please I insist..

mama Rosie fetched a plate and sat, then we ate, I finished first because I was really hungry. so
the chiefs son named ( James ) started joking around with me...

him : so you were really hungry huh??

me : don’t start with me.

him : huhhhhh, puppy face!! ( chuckles )

me : kitten face !!

him : puppy face !!

me : oh yah, kitten face...

we looked in each others faces in a playing angry face and then we laughed....
me : please excuse me, may I have an early night...

chiefs wife : yes you may, have a good night....

I gave mama Rosie and the chiefs wife a hug then, gave the chief a hand shake...
James : what about me, you seriously going to go to bed without giving me a shake style

me : shake style??

James : yes what guys do.

me : oh
I then shook his hand in a style form then we laughed and I went to bed...

my personal views. I think he’s a great person, and I like him, he’s an extrovert, funny guy and
just amazing, he reminds me of Themba... some things he say sound like what Themba would
say..... if I didn’t know better I would say they are friends or brothers, but they not, they don’t
even know each other....

I lay on my bed thinking in bubbles, mostly about Themba.... how stupid am I...

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I woke up very early the next day, I was planning on helping mama Rosie with breakfast since I
missed it yesterday. I woke up and went to open the curtains then I saw James stretching
outside. mhm!! talk about a workout buddy.... I knocked on the window for him to see me but he
didn’t so I put on my tracksuit, went to wash my face, took a water bottle and ran out. my aunt
was in the kitchen, so I greeted and just ran out.

me : James!! James!!

he was already doing 1 round around the field. so I waved and he saw me and laughed, he then
signalled for me to follow, but I waited for him.

him : why didn’t you run after me ??

me : waste of energy.

him : oh, you just lazy, puppy face

me : don’t start with me kitten face..

him : aggg please, I didn’t know that you workout.

me : I do, you surprised me.

him : owk then my workout buddy, lets take a run.

me : cool..

we ran our rounds..

*********aunt*********

I was wondering why matumelo ran out like that, so I decided to look out the window and I saw
matumelo and James together. could this be it ?? is it true what my eyes is seeing?? I couldn’t
help but call the chiefs wife and the chief...

me : chief, mama, you won’t believe this.

chief : what??

me : James and matumelo are exercising together.

chiefs wife : really ?? cant be..

me : that’s exactly what I thought mama but its true.

we all went to look at the window and they were very surprised.
chief : I think we should start the wedding preparations

chiefs wife : papa, don’t you think you rushing things??

chief : mme, you can see that they are getting among look ho they be pushing each other.

me : I think they are ready..

chiefs wife : lets let them be.

me : owk

we then went back and sorted the breakfast.

*********Lesego*********

me : what a workout session, I feel sweaty..

him : you are sweaty hao. seems like you have not being working out.

me : come on, I play netball, I do swimming, I joined a dance club and am a rapper, well part time
rapper, and am also a radio presenter. I workout all the time, I even do fitness.

him : really, then since you here, how you going to attend??

me : you father has sent someone to send emails to all my bosses and teachers that I won’t be
around for a few weeks..
him : few weeks?? seems like you still going to stay here mos...

me : yah, but I miss my life..

him : is there no serious career you doing??

me : what you mean serious??

him : like professional?

me : lol, so entertainment is not serious??

him : no it is, but not too serious.

me : hai you lost, anyway, am studying towards a masters in bcom accounting.

him : wait, did you just say bcom accounting??

me : yes....why??

him : well , I didn’t know you could mix entertainment with such a serious course..

me : nothing is impossible

him : tell that to my friend.....

me : what’s your friend got to do with my quote??

him : well he is very interested in playing instruments, and he can sing, he wants to play
basketball , do swimming, go dancing and all that but he’s stuck with his fathers legacy.
me : what legacy??

him : well, he’s father signed halve of his shares of his law firm business to him, and signed over
his whole shares of his construction company to him, and he signed 35% of them to me for
capital. he also wants to buy the ESA from Mr Smith, he’s rather to old, but has a manager who
manages things.....

me : jho, your friend has no life mos..

him : no he has, its just that now he is setting a foundation, then he is going to hire managers to
take care of business..

me : oh owk

him : yah, that’s why I need to sort out this situation so that I can go to jhb to help him build the
office.

me : what situation??

him : our marriage

when he said this I looked at him then he made a funny face then we laughed...

me : you are so stupid..

him : I know..... don’t worry, if you don’t want to do it, then I will speak to my dad..
me : so what if I want to?

he gave me a long stare accompanied with a confused facial expression. then he changed his
expression to a shocked one. the he sighed

him : sigh....... well your choice..

me : o you would marry a girl you don’t know, a girl who you don’t know whether she loves you
or not, what if am after your money, since I know that you own 35% of a construction that is
doing very well and has offices around London, USA, now SA?? what if.........

him : woh, woh, woh, how did you know that the company has offices around London? because I
only told you off USA...

me : ohhh, shucks..... well I was kind of listening to your conversation with your father yesterday.

him : ohhh, is that why you went soft on me, I was wondering how we got to be friends??

me : yes, after I heard you speak like that, I realised that you not really a bad person and so I
thought of befriending you so that I can know more about you...

him : and ??

me : you a great person, I wouldn’t mind being married to you..

him : but??
me : I am still in love with someone. I haven’t seen him for a while now but I still love him so
much. he made contact the day I was forced to come here, and I didn’t give him any chance to
explain himself, that’s because I was really hurt, you know?? know thinking of marrying another
guy just doesn’t seem right....

him : were is he??

me : last time I checked he was in USA but now I think he’s back in jhb, I really don’t know...

him : you really love him hay??

me : yes, you know not even a disease was going to separate us, or a chancer of a girl, not even
his status...

him : what is he doing in USA?

me : he said he was studding there.

him : still studding, not making money??

me : well, when he’s done he is moss going to work..

him : for someone?? jho hai, see if you become your own boss you become rich...

me : jho, hai.......

we were talking when mama Rosie called us for breakfast.

me : are we really going to eat in this sweat??

him : it even dried out..

we laughed and went in....

we then asked to be excused as we would like to go take a bath...

chiefs wife : but there’s only one bath??

James : we will share..

I looked at him and he grinned......

me : no ma αм going to my room, he's going to his room..

James : huh, this girl.... owk its cool.... cant argue with a puppy face....

me : mxm..... will be right back...

we went to take a bath and he got done first then I followed....

after breakfast, I went to help mama Rosie to wash dishes while James went to his room to
answer his emails.. when I was done I went to my room to catch a nap. when I got in I went to
take me phone, since I wanted to check my emails....

I saw 16 missed calls from 1 number, it looked like the number Themba once called m with, so I
assumed it was Themba. I didn’t call back I just ignored....

I checked my emails and saw many emails, as I was checking I saw Themba’s email...
I checked and it was pics of him and baby Khanyi, and old pics of us together then he sent a
massage along saying, " I hope you forgive me, am truly sorry, I still love you and I miss you... love
Tee "

I wanted to cry but I held myself back but as I viewed those pages I literally cried....
after few minutes looking at those pics, he called....

I picked up the phone after a long sigh......

me : *******silence******* (sniffing)

him : Tshidi?? are you there??

me : no...

him : are you owk??

me : (sniff) are you really going to ask me this?? (sniff) huh?? are you?? (sniff)

him : you sound like you crying.....

me : so?? (sniff) its not like you going to magically come here and make me feel better.. (sniff)

him : Tshidi, please??

me : Themba, am getting married, so please stop calling me...

him : WHAT???????????

me : ********silence*********

him : Tshidi, tell me you joking...

me : am not, am moving on...

him : Tshidi...... please...

me : bye Themba,

him : Tshidi, I LOVE YOU....

me : (started crying)

him : listen, I love you, I miss you. you the only girl I ever loved. I know I just disappeared but
that’s because I was struggling at school and went into a tough situation. am sorry....

me : I love you too Tee, but love is not enough....

him : we can make it work Tshidi....

me : too late, am getting married now...

as I was speaking, James came in talking...

James : hay could I use your phone, I......... why you crying??
when he said this I could sense Themba’s anger rising up...

Themba : who’s that??

me : my husband to be...

James gave me that look of confusion...

Themba : Tshidi.....???

me : bye Tee.....

I dropped the call and threw my phone on the bed and walked out leaving James behind....

***********James********

I was wondering who would make her cry like that, maybe its that guy that she loves... she came
back with her faced washed..

me : who was that??

her : my beloved boyfriend

me : why did you tell him that I am your husband to be??

her : if he loves me, he will try and stop me, if he doesn’t so be it.... what did you want??
me : I wanted to borrow your phone, I want to check an email..

her : what happened to your phone??

me : battery flat, please...

her : owk....

I used her phone to log in, then she left, saying she will be back now, so I did what I did then I
deleted my account and went into her account. I couldn’t help but go check her pictures and I
saw a album written dates. I clicked on it and saw pics of him and a child, then him and her.......
me : oh, my word..... the guy that she’s in love with is defiantly my friend, she’s the girl that he is
testing.... well I must say she passed the test....

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*************Lesego************* I went back in and found James staring in shock... me :

BOOM!!!!!! he switched up quickly, looking a bit guilty...

him : oh, huh...... you back??

me : yah, you done??

him : mhm??

me : my phone..

him : right right, huh...... your phone...

he then handed the phone to me and looked in my eyes..

me : oh feeling jealous already??

him : mhm??

me : the pic of my guy, I see you have seen it..

him : oh yah....he’s....he’s handsome.....

me : what’s wrong with you??

him : wrong, a lot is wrong...

me : a lot is wrong??

him : mhm?? huh.....no I meant nothing is wrong...... huh,... I need to make a phone call... huh,
please excuse me....

Me : sure he stormed out, I wonder what’s wrong...

. **********James*********

shucks I got to call Themba...

he answered on the 1st ring....

him : dude, please don’t tell me you calling to tell me you are going to stay long at your family....
me : huh no, I called for something else....

him : what is it then??

me : how’s the search for your girl man, you back together again?? does she understand?? did
she pass the test??

him : wow, lot of questions huh??

me : just want to find out..

him : well I don’t know were she stays, I tried calling her but she keeps brushing me off, I guess I
really hurt her....

me : that hurts man..

him : what hurts me more is that she is going to get married soon.

me : really?? to who??

him : I don’t know, and I don’t want to know because if I do I am going to break his neck

me : well I have something to tell you..

him : what is it? me : please don’t be angry okay, I also just found out few minutes ago..

him : bra, you scaring me....what’s wrong??

me : remember I told you that I was visiting my family for few days??

him : yes...?? me : well the reason is that I actually came to come see my arranged wife..

Him : woooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhw what?? wife??

me : yes, my father has arranged a wife for me..

him : lol, but do you still believe in that?? I mean boy, its not the 90s, we in the new generation.

me : I know but tell that to my dad...

him : boy, you got rights, come on...

me : not when your father is a chief...

him : wait what????? brah, you are the chiefs son??

me : yep.... and that’s not all..

him : what could possibly be more surprising then you being the next chief??

me : the girl I am marrying??

him : don’t tell me you found out she’s your sister...

me : no, come on man...

him : owk, then what about her...

me : she seems to be your girl...

him : huh??....wh....?? haha wait..... excuse me ??

me : yes braza, I just found out....

him : no, cant be, Tshidi would never do that...

me : she also doesn’t like the idea, she still loves you bro, she said so herself...

him : bro, don’t play with me like that...

me : I swear, its her...

him : how do you know, for sure that its her??

me : did you not send her a email with a picture of you and a baby and another picture with
her??

him : I did, the baby was baby Khanyi...

me : did you not call her few minutes ago and a person came in talking then she said its her
future husband...??

him : so you were the one speaking in the background?? you the one she’s marrying??
me : yes.... him : boy, boy, boy, boy,boy, boy, boy, boy, boy........ this doesn’t make sense... .

me : I know... am sorry I didn’t know....

him : I need to verify, am going to call her...

me : nooooo, you cant do that..

him : why??

me : you are going to blow your cover... remember she doesn’t know that you rich..

him : how is she going to know??

me : she knows that I have a friend who is rich, I told her everything about you, not knowing that
you her man, so if you verify she will put one and one together...

him : shucks... owk ... what do I do now.??

me : just come to the wedding, make sure you come early so that I can sneak you in my room
then you can confront her....

him : shucks... shoot..... owk.....

me : shap....

him : braza, please find proof if this girl is really my girl... last thing I need is wrong info....
me : owk, I will call in a few minutes, don’t say anything, just listen, owk...

him : owk me : shap he hung up, I swear he is boiling were ever he is.. so now I need to go make
sure I have the right info, just now its a misunderstanding......

I went back to her and pretended to be sad...

you see my relationship with Themba is very tight, its a mixture of father and son love, brother
love, all kinds of love... I really dig Themba he’s like my big brother, my homie.... I would never
and I mean never do something to hurt him, even if I get in deep trouble cause I know he’s also
going to try and get me in that trouble or be in trouble with me..... its not a fantasy but its true....
when we together he always says negative things to me, I do the same, like in one day in USA he
said to me that the deal with the Chinese was too big for me and also said I cant handle it
because am a amateur, when the big bosses came he met with them leaving me behind then
when he came back he told me that I have a meeting with the Chinese in 2 weeks therefore I
should prepare.... that was Themba for you... says negative to you then speak positive about you
to people.... so I called Themba and placed my phone in my hand as if it was not busy.

then I went in her room...

me : sorry, I had a call to take..

her : sounds serious..

me : yah, your phone made me remember a client..

her : ohhh, I see...

me : so the guy I saw on your phone, that’s your guy??

her : Ohhhhh, jealousy makes you nasty....
me : am not jealous, am just asking......

her : well, kitten face, he is...

me : ohhh, you starting again....

her : ( laughs )

me : so what’s his name....

her : Tee, I mean Themba but I always call him Tee...

me : how did you meet??

her : you will not believe it....

me : try me...

her : well I was a tomboy before..

me : now that makes sense, I always saw that you had that boyish in you, you cant hide it....

her : oh shut up.....

me : owk, so....
her : so he was one of my friends brother, so when he came to visit his brother, we met but we
met as a group, it was my first time meeting him and already he took my heart...

me : love at first sight?? that cant be..... those stuff doesn’t work...

her : to us it does.. I mean it has been years without seeing him, let me say he just abandoned
me, but I still love him. and now he keeps calling and my guess says that he is around, but I don’t
want to see him...

me : why??

her : well he might abandon me again and this time I would be 2 times hurt.... nop

me : owk

we chilled while we were talking and laughing and I also forgot that I had Themba on the line...

. when mama Rosie called us for lunch that’s when I remembered...

her : lets go...

me : owk will be down in a moment..

her : nkosi yam, this guy and phone calls...

me : lol....

I then checked my phone and realised he dropped the call long ago, I then called him back
me : I am sorry...

him : yah "kitten face"... you guys seem to be bonding well, and responding well to the marriage..

me : braza please, don’t start...

him : its owk, I messed up...

me : so did you find proof enough.?? him : yah, its definitely is her... I heard her tell you our how
we met story...

me : yah, very touchy, I don’t know why you wanted to test her because from the beginning she
showed true love...

him : yah, listen thank you..

me : not a problem....

him : sure

me : shap I hung up and went down......

*********Lesego********

since Themba was not giving hope to being my man forever, I decided to take a decision to do
what I think was best for me....

me : excuse me, I would like to say something..

chiefs wife : yes dear...

me : I accept the wedding...

James chocked on his food and the chiefs wife stared at me in confusion and shock, the chief
smiled like he just received money so did my aunt......

James : are you drunk, I mean are you sure??

me : yes

chief : MAMA ROSIE!!!!!!!

mama Rosie : yes chief??

chief : call the family, we having the wedding in 2 days..

chiefs wife : papa, you cant choose a day for them...

chief : is it a problem my child??

me : no chief, its perfect...

James : can I please have a word with matumelo please..

chiefs wife : owk he pulled me upstairs, he looked angry rather disappointed. but I didn’t know
why because its what has to be done..
him : are you okay??

me : perfect..

him : is the pain of your guy getting to you?? is this some sort of revenge??

me : he’s no more my guy, he’s my ex...

him : ntwana, please rethink about this..

me : am going to be your wife that’s it... and if you think its about money, than please now that
its not. I make my own money, you make your own money. and its not like we strangers now, we
not....

him : matumelo...

me : am hungry...

I then went down to finish my lunch...

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I got a call a call later on, it was from tray... well he calls in a long time for someone who’s trying
to be more than friends....

me : hay, tray...

him : hay Lsg

me : how you??

him : am great and you??

me : owk I guess, I am glad I got a call from you, I missed you...

him : you miss me?? that’s the first..

me : hai, don’t be playing games owk....

him : lol, listen I just waned to check on you.

me : thank you..

him : my pleasure, I got to bounce, catch you later......

me : owk.... he hung up. he sure is very busy jho..... but its the thought that counts....

I was playing games when my someone knocked...

me : come in...... it was my aunt and the chiefs wife....

aunt : hay nana...

me : hay aunty...

chiefs wife : hay makoti, I cant believe am calling you this... just yesterday we were in here in
regrets today you going in willingly.....
me : well, I guess its owk...

chiefs wife : we need to prepare, the whole family is coming tomorrow including your
grandparents...

me : really!! phela I miss them, jho....

aunt : yes I invited them.... but please do not mention that this is an arranged marriage, just tell
them you fell in love and he proposed very soon....

chiefs wife : her grandparents didn’t know??

aunt : no....

me : owk, like always, I will do as told....

it was about to be supper so I packed away my things. as I was about to leave my room, my
phone rang... it was msg... snap, I really forgot that we have a song to record...

I answered the call...

me : hay msg...

her : braza, the song ???

me : I m not in jhb at the moment, but you can bring the equipment to were I am now. I will send
you the address...
her : tell me you joking??

me : am not braza...

her : owk is it far?? can I come now or tomorrow??

me : you will need to come today, so that you can get here tomorrow morning, in that way I will
be able to let you in before the family comes....

her : wooooooooooooooow, why does it seem like you in another province??

me : more like another country...

her : WHAT!!??

me : yes, Lesotho

her : haha, no way am coming there, we will record after you come back....

me : please girl, I need to record the song before my wedding... and you can stay in for the
wedding..

her : woooooooooow, a wedding?? are you and Themba getting married?? and you don’t say...

me : no, please come, I need to talk to you, you going to get shocked but I know you will
understand.... so please come..

her : well, you know I love weddings, well just the cake, and you lucky I have a passport. but....
me : but what.......??

her : I will only come if you promise me that we will record 2 songs...

me : 2 songs??

her : yes, well I want to future you in one of my song called "my homie"

me : owk deal

her : cool send the address....

me : shap

I hung up then I went down, then on my way out James came so I went n again and he also came
in.....

him : please tell me why you doing this, if you really fine being my wife, then you need to be
honest....

me : owk, I want to move on, me sticking to Themba will make me go mad. so I want to break
free...

him : am sorry....

me : its owk... you soon to be my husband, but I need you to be more of a friend than a
husband.....

him : owk, less sex more fooling around... (puts on a naughty face)
me : (playful shocking face) ****hits James on the shoulders****

him : lol, just joking

me : lets go, I don’t want "Mr Chief" to be angry, or think we doing something..

him : hai, that’s my dad you talking about.... lol

me : oh sorry, daddy’s boy...

we laughed then we left. went to supper and ate as a family....

after supper I said goodbye to every one and went to my room... when I got there I thought of
Themba so I called him.... he answered on the 2nd ring...

him : am surprised....

me : hay to you too..

him : oh hay, sorry, how you..

me : am good thanks for asking and you??

him : am great.....

me : listen I don’t want us to part on a negative path, I want us to make peace.

him : cool, its okay with me, I also don’t want to part with you badly....

me : great....

him : yah, if you want to go on with the marriage, its cool, I will support you. I will go my way and
you will go your way. I wish you a great marriage and I hope that guy makes you happy, I will
always love you but your happiness comes first.....

me : mhm.....huh.....thanks.....

him : my pleasure, wish you the best...

me : thanks, you to.....

him : owk, I got to go now, bye...

me : sure, bye..

he hung up....

this is very weird, Themba did not beg, fight or anything he just lets me go.... I hate to admit this
hurt me more than anything, I just burst with tears and drowned myself to sleep...

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the next morning I didn’t want to go out, I mean the family was coming, Msg was coming and my
wedding is tomorrow.... (sigh) wow. how did I get here.???? as I was still thinking whether what
to do today, mama Rosie knocked on the door and told me someone by the name Masego was
looking for me... she even asked whether she was a girl or boy... lol hai mama Rosie mara...
so I went down to fetch her...

me : Haibo why does it look like you came empty handed??

her : hay to you too, and am fine thanks for asking....

me : am sorry, I just wanted to stay in my room whole day., so I thought recording would keep us
busy...

her : wedding details first then recording after...

me : owk, but were is the equipment’s....

her : in the car...

me : you bought a car??

her : her name is mafia, so beautiful

me : mafia??

her : yes, boss...

me : owk, come up......

we went up to my room then I told her everything she wanted to know, how I got to marry
someone, Themba’s reaction and how Themba said his last goodbye...
her : so braza, how do you feel??

me : well, to be honest I was hoping he would fight for the last time... I was so close to telling him
that I love him and I want him to come....

her : braza why are you so attached to him?? I mean he’s not rich, he’s not popular, Ohhhhh snap
you got feelings when you slept with him... you know I heard that if someone is good in bed, its
hard for you to let that person go...

me : believe it or not, me and Themba had never had sex, we would go about wanting to sleep
together but always disturbed......

her : hay, anxavi now.... anyway, lets go get the equipment’s..

me : the family is already here, I don’t want to face them so let me call James...

her : you mean bae..

me : mxm....

I massaged him and he came....

I asked him to fetch the equipment’s and he did, with the help of his cousins... when everything
was set we plugged things in and placed them in correct form... fixed lyrics and placed them to
our eyesight. then we started recording...

we repeated the recording process for a lot of time.... then finally we got it correct... James then
bought us food and drinks because we told him that we don’t want to go down so he would spin
a story for me.... after eating and relaxing we went to the second song. am telling you, it literally
took us the whole day to record these 2 songs... we very fast learners, that’s why, plus we
practiced before recording....

after everything was saved and edited we went for a deep sleep. we only ate once, and because
of this wedding I didn’t seem to be hungry, but Msg, ate before we slept, while I was listening to
the songs.... I don’t like how my voice sounds, but Msg swears its bomb..,..

*********my wedding day********

********James *******

it was early in the morning and I wanted to find out how far was Themba so that we can finish
this once and for all. I called him and he answered in the 3rd ring...

him : hay bro....

me : bro, were you at??

him : am heading to USA..

me : bro are you mad?? your girl be getting married and you going to USA...

him : I give up bro, she doesn’t want me any more, so let her be...

me : braza don’t do this, she loves you..

him : bro, you will get me in USA I sorted the land in SA so our construction company will come
and build our office, it will be our main office because its a big space and its in the main city....

me : really bro!!

him : good luck boy, and please don’t get cold feet just because she’s my girl, if you want to be
with her and she wants to be with you then its owk, I won’t be angry... life goes on...

me : Themba, mfethu

him : I have to go, I need to catch my plane before I loose track of time.....

he hung up and ι was blank....

I don’t know what went into this guys head but he’s surely crazy......

I then got up and went to help with setting the tents and all that has to be done...

*********Lesego*********

yesterday. I got up and went to the kitchen to get some water... I found my aunt and mama Rosie
and the chiefs wife and other woman in the kitchen...

I greeted them and they greeted me back,

chiefs wife : you not suppose to be here, phela James cant see you before the wedding.

me : sorry mama, I just wanted to get water..

chiefs wife : owk, get the water and go back to your room, we will bring food for you girls.....

me : thank you mama... I took the water and went up, then in no time food came to our room,
after some hours I had to prepare so I went to take a shower. I showered and did everything then
some woman came to make my make up, I was really getting annoying because I kept of moving,
phela I wasn’t used to advanced make up...

after, the chiefs wife came and brought traditional clothing for me...

chiefs wife : I got this for you..

me : thank you mama

chiefs wife : I want you to be yourself, you still have time to pull out..

me : yes mama.... she left me to get done and I got dressed.. then I wanted to cry

Msg : brah, what’s wrong??

me : I still wish Themba would just show up, stop this wedding and take me...

Msg : he doesn’t even know were you are...

me : let him track me down...

Msg : jho hai, I don’t know....

me : but its owk, I got James, he’s funny, a nice person so its cool......
Msg : good, now lets get you ready....

my grandparents came, tears showered my face and all make up was ruined...

nkgono : skalla ngwanaka ( don’t cry my child )

ntatemolo : look at how beautiful you are...

me : dumela nkgono le ntatemolo

nkgono : I don’t understand why you never told us..

me : I didn’t have time and it was an unexpected time....

ntatemolo : not even a phone call

me : am sorry....

nkgono : its owk, just be happy, we here now

me : thank you... very much...

I gave both a hug then it was time for me to head down so my grandfather held me and took me
down...

as I walked out the girls started dancing and singing Sotho music. they danced and sang as we
were approaching the guys... as we got there they stopped, then the chief spoke after he spoke
we were told to hold a Sotho stick, don’t know what they call it. so we did then danced together.
my heart was letting go now...

I must learn to love James and learn to leave Themba...... I was finally really letting go...... well.
my new life hay........ lets hope I will be happy....

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it was time to exchange a bracelets, I think its the way to say I do.... he hesitated a little and
looked around as if he was looking for someone, then he put the bracelet around my wrist, I was
very nervous. but put up a smile as he looked at me, he also smiled but his smile was showing
worry and nervousness. now it was time for me to put a Sotho bracelet around his wrist..

well please don’t blame me for forgetting what was that, I am a jozi girl, I grew up around
English....

I looked around to see if anyone was there to tell me to stop, but everyone was happy, smiling
and ululating... I gave James the last look as a friend knowing that after putting this bracelet he is
officially my husband...

I took a long breath then reached for his arm down to wrist to wrap with the bracelet, then I
heard someone calling my name (TSHIDI). I looked around and the voice kept coming near... I
thought to myself that maybe its just a voice in my head.. but as I tried ignoring it, it became
clear and as I looked, I saw a person in a far distance.. it looked like a hobo, or a beggar. people
ran to stop him, but he was fighting back calling my name.... he came forward, but I still couldn’t
figure out who it was... so the chief said that I should carry on and forget about that hobo and
also said that he will send people to help. Msg being a forward person went to check and came
back running....

her : its Themba!!! Lsg, its Themba!!

me : Themba?? ( to myself )
I asked the chief to tell the people to leave the person calling my name, because I wanted to
know who it was......

he didn’t want to listen to me, so my grandfather shouted...

him : HAYYYYYYY!!!!!! LEAVE THAT PERSON NOW!!!!! the chief then nodded to signal to leave
him.. so they left him and he came near..... and as Msg said, it was Themba...

him : Tshidi!!! Tshidi!!!!

me : Themba??

him : please don’t do this....

me : what are you doing?? what’s going on with you....

him : this is me....

I was so confused, he was like a hobo, he was smelly, he was so dirty. I wasn’t even sure if this
was him... to be honest I was happy that he came, but in this state?? I was confused, shocked and
surprised......

the family wanted to know what was going on, and why wasn’t the wedding proceeding but the
chiefs wife told everyone to keep quiet and wait and see what’s going to happen...

I looked back at Themba....

me : what??? Themba??
him : I know I awe you an explanation... listen, the reason why I couldn’t come for all these years
is because I became broke... I couldn’t finish my studies because I didn’t have money to pay my
school fees... so I tried job hunting but no luck, I was later kicked out of my apartment because I
couldn’t pay rent, so I didn’t have money to come back to SA. so I then lived on the streets and
ate from the garbage bins.. I didn’t have a phone to call you, because I had sold it for food.. so
shop owner gave me money to come back to SA and search for my family... when I came here I
called my sister from a public phone and she came to pick me up. then from there she gave me a
small phone so I asked her for your numbers just to hear your voice. I was planning to first get on
my feet then come back to you.. but I was ashamed... so when I heard that you getting married I
had no choice I had to make a way, so my sister helped me to track you down.....

me : so you came here with your sister?? how??

him : with her car, she’s waiting down there, I told her to wait there... she has a passport.

me : ( sigh ) I looked at James and at everyone...

James : matumelo, you cant go back to him... come on he has nothing, I have cars, money,
everything, you won’t lack anything, but with him you will not be taken care of...

I was so shocked with what James said, is he being serious?? he bathing...

me : James??

James : yes, look at him, he’s poor, how long are you going to feed him?? how long are you going
to tolerate his begging?? how long are you going to wait till he finds his feet??

Themba : yes I may not have money, but I love you, with all of my heart, I really love you, like
truly...
I looked at James, then at Themba.. then I looked at the chiefs wife, she gave me a nod then
smiled.... I dropped the bracelet and ran to hug Temba with tears flowing down....

me : why didn’t you say anything, why didn’t you tell me, how could I reject my love just because
he lost material stuff?? I love you...

Themba : I love you too.. when I had hugged him for minutes, people were already moaning
asking what s going on and the chief looked really angry... when I looked in Themba’s eyes, he
was also crying...

me : don’t cry, you will make me cry,. I wiped his tears and the chief shouted..

chief : what is going on?? let the wedding proceed, why you busy hugging hobos in front of your
husband...??

James : dad, its her lover, let it go... please if you know that you stay at the chiefs house and you
are Matumelo’s family, we need to talk, there is a matter to discuss.. please dad...

chief : owk, this better be good....

we went in the house, it was me, my grandma, grandma, the chief, the chiefs wife, my aunt,
Themba, James, Msg and mama Rosie well I asked that mama Rosie should stay...

chief : Haibo, are you really going to bring this hobo in the house??

James : ( laughs ) Themba I think its time...

Themba nodded. I just looked at them with no questions asked.... Themba got up and took out
his phone.. it was rather expensive for a poor person, like really expensive.. it was big and thin,
surly his sister loves him jho.... Themba dialled a number and called someone...
Themba : bro, its time, come up....

after he asked to take a bath...

chief : you sure need it, it might even be the 1st time in ages...

James : papa??

I just looked at the chief and shook my head... James took him to the bathroom and came back...
mama Rosie was making food, then a knock came... James went and opened the door, it was a
young gentlemen dressed in a suit, looking very smart... he gave James a suit bag, then told the
man to wait right in the car.. I didn’t really pay attention to detail, just thought maybe it was a
friend of James... so James took the bag up.. he came back and we waited...

the chief kept making funny comments and his wife kept telling him to keep quiet and wait... as
mama Rosie was dishing up, Themba came down...

he was in a maroon suit, with a nice brushed hair and bearded, he also had a fancy watch, a pair
of maroon shoes and a nice smell of perfume, his cologne spread the whole room.. he was
smelling fresh and amazing and looking amazing.... he had a plastic of the clothing he was
wearing... he went out of the house and came back with lots of plastics of groceries with the help
of the same guy that gave James the suit bag...

now that I think of it, it could be the suit Themba is wearing that was in the bag... I had a lot of
questions to ask, but I sat confused, and wondering with confusion..

me : thank you James for giving him the suit, it looks new, fresh and he looks great.....

James : unfortunately its not my suit...

me : than were did he get it from??

James : ask him..

me : babe??

Themba : do you know how long did I wait for you to call me that??

me : (laughs) tee hle...

Themba : well its mine..

me : what??

Themba : am not actually poor...

me : Themba!!!

I was now angry..

Themba : before you get angry, let me explain

me : am waiting...

Themba : well firstly am James friend and his partner.........

he told us the whole story......

after he said everything we were all shocked... I wanted to punch him, but I just gave him a silent
treatment...

Themba : am sorry, but that was it...

me : ohhh so you James knew all along.... huh?? and you Themba think am a gold digger?? mxm
...

chief : owk then, am sorry for being a rude chief, I have learned my lesson... so I think the correct
thing to do is that the lobola money should be returned to us so that Mr khumalo can pay his
lobola for the princess...

grandpa : we never received money...

chief : what do you mean?? we gave malehlohonolo 1.5 million for lobola, because it was an
arranged marriage....

grandpa : we didn’t know that..

Everybody looked at my aunt and she stayed fixed looking at the table......

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me : aunty?????

aunty : I was going to give nkgono and ntatemolo

chief : when?? it has been 2 years..

me : wait, so aunty, you brought me to the woman changing program, then sold me to get
married once am old...??

aunt : I needed the money, am sorry....

me : how could you do this aunty..

chief : well, you matumelo the reason why we gave you that name is because your aunt
specifically said that we should choose you..

me : why aunty??

aunt : well the chief was looking at this other girl from the program and I heard the chief talking
to his wife that the one will get 1.5 million, so I pushed for you to win....

me : for money?? I ran out and went to my room.....

after some time Themba knocked and entered

him : babe??

me : please close the door the door once you in...

him : ******enters and closes the door******* he came and sat next to me, then I laid on his lap
and faced up...

me : you know I have been wondering why me??

he : you special....
me : ( laughs ) mxm, wena mara... I got something I need you to hear...

he : owk... I went and played the "broken hearts" song to him

him : did you right this song?? I hear you the one rapping, so baby you can rap??

me : yes....

him : did I really hurt you this much??

me : yah, but its over now... did you really think I was a gold digger??

him : no....

me : then why the test??

him : I have been heart broken before so I didn’t want a repetition..

me : what do you mean ??

him : well I once dated this one girl by the name kgomotso, she told me that she loved me and I
believed her because she would do anything for me. only to find out that she was only dating me
because my father was rich and she knew that, those riches would soon come to me....

me : sorry..... tee??

him : yes??
me : the London trip?? any connection to your exposed secret??

him : Yoh, intoyakdala so... lol.... yah..

me : in what manner??

him : its my apartment

me : what????

him : yep....

me : jho......

him : listen, am sorry...

me : its ok... as we were speaking, James knocked and e told him to come in...

James : two little birds sitting on the wall, one named Themba, one named matumelo....

Themba : don’t you dare call my girl with that name...

James : its the only name I know....

me : I am Lesego...

James : but that’s not the one that Themba used to call you with...
Themba : yah I call her Tshidi, and am the only outsider soon to be insider calling her that...

me : lol, what does "outsider soon to be insider" mean??

Themba : hao, don’t you want to be Mrs khumalo soon??

me : Ohhhhh...

James : hai Lesego.... did you tell Themba about our night??

me : our night??

Themba : babe, what’s he talking about??

James : well before I knew that she was your girl, I banged her hard man...

Themba stood up very fast leaving my head to bump on the bed, I as about to defend myself then
James gave me a wink, so I realised that he was fooling him...

Themba : is this true?? trying to play along I pretended to be ashamed...

Themba : Tshidi??? is this true...????

he was getting angry so I wanted to say something but James spoke up...

James : am joking man, you have been shucks.......,.(laughs hard), you could have seen your face
man....
Themba : boy?? you better be joking...

James : am serious, am kidding... nothing happened..... (laughs)

Themba : (you serious, you kidding) what a nice sentence.... Wena Tshidi, you decided to play
along??

me : James got me in, it was too late to back out...

we all laughed and Themba came to sit next to me again and I placed my head on his shoulder....

James : owk love birds, its time for me to bounce, Themba, you going back to jhb today ?

Themba : yah, won’t sleep here...

James : why not??

Themba : braza, we all started of on the wrong foot...

James : come on, my father asked for forgiveness..

Themba : I know but I need to sleep with my teddy bear....

James : teddy........... oh snap, let me go....(chuckles) me : ohhh, I feel jealous.....

Themba : what was I supposed to do?? you were not here...

me : I get it...

Themba : but now that you back, seems like I won’t need it...

me : mhm, call me teddy bear....

we both laughed....

Themba : so are you staying or going back to jhb??

me : I am going back to jhb...

Themba : good, now I can finally know were you stay...

me : lol, but before I need to rest for an our or so..

Themba : owk, let me leave you to it, when you up and about, am just a call away....

me : and were do you think you going??

Themba : Haibo, you want to rest with me ??

me : yes. Themba : you not afraid of what might happen??

me : what’s going to happen?? lol

Themba : I don’t know, maybe jonnie would want to meet kitty for the first time....
me : mhm, I have forgotten that they haven’t met...

Themba : well, if I stay they might meet. I looked at him and we both laughed. then he looked at
me, he wanted to kiss me but I stopped him then pointed at the door...

Themba : rather not, not in the chiefs house.....

me : can I at least cuddle with you till I sleep then you can go...

Themba : sure he lay down and I laid on his chest. and in few minutes I drifted to sleep....

***********Themba***********

I was brushing her hair, then I realist that she sleeping. I wanted to move and let her sleep but I
liked the feeling of her sleeping on my chest so I decided to also sleep.... I set an alarm for 5pm so
that we can have a night drive.. somehow I love night drives, they show you the real beauty of
the city at night especially when you enter Johannesburg..... so after I have set the alarm I
slept.....

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*******Themba******

the alarm went off and I woke up....

me : Tshidi?? Tshidi??

her : mhm??
me : come its time to go.......

her : already??

me : yes.. unless you want me to leave you...

her : ok, am getting up...

me : you look so cute when you just came from bed..

her : mxm...

she got up, I help her pack then took her bags in the car while she went to fix herself.. I found
James outside..

me : you here kanti??

him : yep I just came from duties...

we then talked while waiting for Tshidi to come out...

******Lesego******

I couldn’t believe that finally this nightmare was over, Msg left immediately after the family
meeting we had, and my aunt also left to fetch the money awed to the chief. the chief and his
wife were in the dining room and mama Rosie was in the kitchen. I went to mama Rosie to say
my goodbyes then passed by the dining room....

me : lesaleng hantle bathobabaholo (stay well my elders)

chief : go well my dear..

chiefs wife : go well my child..

as I was about to leave the chiefs wife called me, then I looked back...

me : ma??

her : I need you to please forgive us..

me : its ok mama....

her : keep that man close to you, he truly loves you....

me : thank you mama, will do....

I bid goodbye and left, then I found James and Themba laughing beside the car...

me : nice laughing without me neh??

Themba : very...

they laughed again.....

we got in a car and drove... I spent most of my road trip looking at the stars that Themba was
showing me, and lights that he was showing.... I spend the road also flirting with Themba as if we
were not dating and he wanted to ask me out.... and we were also laughing making jokes with
James.... I won’t lie but James and Themba are a company you can never want to come out of... I
didn’t sleep a wink because I was laughing, and watching stars and looking at lights, I must admit
jhb is a very nice city at night.. the lights are wonderful.... we got to a garage..

Themba : babe??

me : yes??

Themba : your address??

me : oh

I gave them my address and he gave the address to the driver than went to my house..... I got
home and I couldn’t believe that I was back to the cold big house.... Themba took me to my
door.....

Themba : so, will I see you tomorrow??

me : you not going to sleep over??

Themba : nice try, you not going to tempt me please..

I laughed and he also laughed...

me : am not trying to tempt you, just trying to get company..

Themba : well gummy bear, you bought this big house so live in it...

me : ( acting surprised in a playful way ) ouch....

Themba : am kidding... but tonight I cant, I need to go to my house, maybe you can come to my
house...

me : no thank you, I miss my big cold house...

Themba : owk, see you tommorrow...

me : owk...

he leaned in and kissed me while pulling my waist in and tight, I placed my hands around his
neck, he then became intense and I also responded. I wanted him to the highest extend and he
kept brushing my back and squeezing my back like he also wants me. I was loosing it now, I was
becoming miserable so I stopped...

him : mhm... am sorry I should go...

me : you doing this on purpose neh??

him : ( chuckles ) what am I doing??

me : you making me feel miserable, then you want to go...

him : I have to...

me : mxm, its owk, I guess I will have to call someone to take me out of my misery...

Themba : don’t start....

me : owk, then I will bye myself a vibrater...

him : what????

he laughed and laughed till he couldn’t.

me : that wasn’t funny...

him : sorry..... anyway let me go, wena go get that vibrater....

me : mxm ( chuckles ) we laughed and he gave me a kiss and left..

I opened and threw myself on the couch. I slept within a blink.....

*********Themba*********

jho I never felt so miserable in my life, this girl knows how to turn me on, but I have a little
problem, well problems.... these days girls are into this muffing thing, and sucking her soul out of
her, but am not one to do that, am not one to be busy licking and sucking, I myself also don’t
want to be sucked like jonnie is a stock sweet, no......

I don’t know what she’s expecting from me. she could be one of those girls that like all those
things, I don’t want to disappoint. I mean I always here other girls say that even if the love is
strong but if the guy is not good in bed or satisfies you then its not worth dating, so I don’t want
to lose her but at the same time am going to have to sleep with her, but hai I will have to
compromise....
I got in the car and got home.. when I got home I couldn’t stop thinking about Tshidi, eash I
missed her..... I wanted to call her but her phone was off so I figured she got in and went to bath
and slept.... I went to the shower, showered. then I went to bed and sleep.....

*******Lesego*******

the next morning I woke up on the couch. I got up made a cup of tea and drank then went to
bath and went to put my phone on charger, after a few hours I came to check on my phone as it
was charging while its off so I switched it on and went to watch tv.... I realised that I had 7 missed
calls from my dance teacher and 2 from Themba and 1 from my aunt, and a massage from tray....
I called my teacher and she answered on the 1st ring..

him : Lesego, were have you been??

me : didn’t the email explain??

him : well darling I know whenever you sent me an email, you leave little kisses, so how did you
forget now...??

me : owk, you got me, someone else sent those emails, I was in Lesotho

him : owk, thank god you here, am not going to ask hat you were doing there so are you going to
make it for the competition??

me : snap I forgot....

him : I thought as much, make sure you come to practice for these last 3 days then e know that
we ready for the finals..

me : owk coach....
I then hung up and dialled Themba... he answered on the 3rd ring....

him : miss me already??

me : I always do...

him : miss you more...

me : still coming today??

him : huh, nop, actually I was planning on calling to tell you that am heading to London...

me : ohhh wow, here comes another 3 years of not seeing you..

him : lol, silly you.... I will be back around next month..

me : so long??

him : yes...sorry babe got to go he hung up before I could say anything, so I just threw my phone
on the couch and watched my movies....

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as I was watching a movie, I heard a door bell, so I went to check who it was... actually I thought
it was Themba... I opened and it was James..

me : oh its you... him : you seem disappointed to see me..

me : nah, just I was expecting Themba..

him : ohhh, he went to London, apparently one of our friend is getting married so he needed
Themba to help them....

me : wow, that’s nice..

him : yah, and he even listed you as his partner on that day.....

me : wow, in London.???

him : yah......

I then invited him in and made him coffee, then he took out his file.... and tablet...

him : owk so I need to crack your mind..

me : about??

him : theme deco, dress designs, setting, time, place and music and dress code...

me : you came to the right place.... amma make their wedding boss...

him : remember you can be as expensive as you want, they have the money...

me : ok, well were do I start??

him : how about you share your dream wedding, then we can substitute there and there..

me : and steal my idea?? no way...

him : its a win win, we use a part of your idea and I guide Themba into making that dream
wedding for you...

me : owk, that’s sounds like a plan... I mean we not going to get married soon..

him : what do you mean??

me : well next year is lip year and I have always wanted to get married on the 29th of February...
so if he doesn’t propose in the next few months then I will have to push for the next 4 years..

him : what if he proposes in march??

me : then 1 dream of mine is no more.. h

Him : lets hope for the best..

me : but am not in a rush though, so am cool...

him : owk. lets get back to your dream wedding...

me : yah, so I want 3 weddings....

him : huh??????
me : lol, a white wedding, a tradition wedding and the after party...

him : 3 day wedding??

me : no, 2 day wedding..... in the night we have a short white wedding, then a short traditional
wedding towards the morning then go relax, the night from 8pm we can have a chillas as a after
party....

him : oh, that’s nice, you creative...

me : I know and please don’t give them this idea, its mine...

him : owk...

me : so the white wedding... the theme is dark maroon, dress code is maroon and white, the
place should be in an open field no tent... but maroon or red disco lights over seated area and
small lights around the area and my dress should have a glow sleez around my tail and my thing
that covers my face....

him : jho, who did you see do that wedding??

me : no one...

him : jho.... nice...

me : yah.... then I want to have glowing glasses for people to drink in while waiting for the bride,
and the place must stand out, people must see each other and what they wearing, so what am
saying is the lights should really give life including my glowing items... but the lights shouldn’t
give to much light phela my glow dress needs to stand out....
him : mhm owk, the food..??

me : not really concerned about that, as long as its delicious....

him : owk, music...

me : how about love music, strictly love music... slow love music... from old to new...

him : and what about the song that must be played when going down the idle

me : mhm..... I don’t know yet, but I got years to figure that out but for them it could be a old
love song from boys II men....

him :owk, so traditional??

me : normal...

him : owk....after party??

me : dress code.... casual but no nudity.... theme, any colour but no bright colours.... it needs to
be were my wedding was and there need to be lights as well because it would be at night.... I
need house music and also RnB... a speaker and maybe a dj... and I don’t know about alcohol
because I don’t drink... but no, no alcohol....

him : girls like you exist kanti??

me : hao what you mean??

him : you don’t drink, you don’t smoke, you do accounting, you do entertainment, you loyal and
kind hearted and you keep fit, play sports?? jho.... and not a gold digger??

me : yes we exist..

him : jho, but not available I guess??

me : most definitely, but there are others who are still seeking..

him : I wish to find them...

me : you will....

him : owk is that all??

me : yah, last thing, I don’t want fake nails, fake eyelashes, or draw my eyebrows, I believe they
look awesome on other people but disgusting on me...

him : how do you know??

me : well I once went to the woman program and they putted me all those things, everyone
looked dazzling but I looked horrible even if everyone said that I looked fine...

him : so, how you going to do about that??

me : well am going to grow them naturally...I saw a video on YouTube on the oils to mix for your
nails, eyelashes and eyebrows....

him : owk.. your hair??

me : mhm well, since I have grown my afro, am thinking long braids, but tied up in a bun...

him : nice...

me : yah, and the hairpiece needs to be in a maroon and black colour......

him : mhm, you very creative hay....

me : mhm, so any ideas you took??

him : all your ideas are unique so I couldn’t pick any....

me : owk, so what you going to do??

him : how about we search possible ideas then, you can pick...

me : sure

we sat laughing and picked dresses, some he would mock and laugh about it, some he would
drool over, especially suits... we had a great time.. then after long hours he said he had to go...

him : owk, thanks for your time..

me : my pleasure...

him : let me bounce, I need to send these ideas to Themba to give to the couple....
me : sure....

he left and I switched off the tv and put on music so I sang along till I was tired then a love song
came along and I slept along.... maybe I had missing flue... from Themba....
****************James***********

finally I got it, I thought it was going to be suspicious or weird but it went according to plan I
called Themba.. he answered on the 2nd ring.....

him : and??

me : I got it....

him : great...

me : but I couldn’t get pictures, exactly, but a full recorder....

him : its cool, just WhatsApp the recorder to me.....

me : cool....

I hung up and sent the recorder to him and he sent me a thumbs up to show that he has got it.... I
then left....

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*******3 months ********

it is the 14 of February today and still Themba is not yet here, but at least he video calls me
everyday and massages me everyday... today he just massaged me good morning, but never said
happy birthday, instead he said happy valentines day.... later the morning he gave me a call....

me : hai munchy

him : hay darling, I miss you...

me : I miss you more....

him : listen, anytime from now you will receive something smaller nyana from me owk...

me : you mean you coming??

him : nop, I have sent it to you...

me : nchoo baby....

him : yah, happy birthday...

me : thanks baby....

him : love you....

me : I love you more...

him : so tell me how was your morning??

me : awesome I guess....

him : I hope no one is giving you a hard time on your birthday neh...

me : nah no one....

him : owk, chat later...

me : bye...

I hung up and after few seconds I heard the door bell so I went to the door... it was a young man
who had more than what I thought.... so Themba said it was a smaller nyana present but this is
too much....

there were about 6 men going in and out my house putting flowers everywhere and gifts and
teddies in my bedroom, it was chaos.... when they were done they left and I started putting
things rightfully in their places, my house was literally full of flowers and gifts.....

I then called Themba but he didn’t answer, I called again and still no answer... so I made myself
busy and opened one box... it was big like a shoe box, and inside was Nike snickers the the
second box was bigger than the shoebox, inside was a swag pants with its sweater......

I was just happy so as I was about to open the third box I heard another bell... I went there
smiling, because I thought it was another form of presents coming....

as I opened, I jumped up and screamed, I even ran to the couch and sat there and cried... it was
Themba, I don’t know what he was holding. it was only him that I was surprised to see. I cried so
much and he came to me.... sat next to me and then softly laughed....

him : babe, its really me...

I then hugged him tightly..... he pulled back to look into my eyes but I was just too happy.... I then
hugged him again tightly and never let go while crying.......

him : your house looks colourful...

me : mhm, thanks to you...

him : yah, I love you baby girl, I don’t know if you understand this...

me : I do, and I love you even more...

him : no babe, listen, I mean I want to spend my life with you. I want to love you forever, I don’t
want to lose you.

me : you won’t lose me.... am yours forever....

he went on his knees and at that moment I froze I didn’t know what to do.. he took a small box
out and opened it to show me a ring...

him : sigh......... Matshidiso Mofokeng would you please make me the happiest man in this world
and be my wife.....??

I stood still, cried even more than I smiled and said a softy assured yes..... he put the ring on my
finger. and hugged me...

him : Tshidi, I have always loved you from the word go, you have been a wonderful girl....my
rock...
me : stop it tee, you going to make me cry.... he hugged me again...

him : owk, so we need to prepare for Mr Johan’s wedding on the 29th of this month, then after
we will organise our wedding.. ok.??

me : sure thing...

seems like my wedding won’t be on the 29th like I dreamed but maybe on his birthday, that
would be great.....

we sat indoors opening presents and watching movies then we went to a restaurant dressed like
twins... we went to a game reserve and played games... my birthday was so amazing... this was
the best birthday ever..

********28th February**********

we woke up early today to fly to London because his friends wedding was tomorrow afternoon
so he insisted that I do my hair today that’s why a hairdresser was here very early... he insisted
that I do long braiding’s, maroon and black... I kept on telling him that, that was a hairstyle for my
wedding but he said its owk I will change.... so I let him be and they were doing my nails and
makeup... not too much because.... a month ago James asked me to prepare myself ( grow my
nails, eyebrows and eyelashes ) for this wedding, so I did....

so after everything we left... it was a long flight but we eventually got there.... we went into our
hotel ( not his apartment ) then we sorted our clothing..

the next morning, Themba was not here, I tried calling but dololo... so I went to the dining room
and went to watch tv.. I ordered breakfast and eat, then in the afternoon I ordered lunch... after
someone knocked so I figured its him....

it was about 1pm.... I opened but it was some other lot of people with Msg inside...
me : Msg, and than??

her : hao ntwana, we here to get you ready..

me : you do realise that am not the bride, so why am I treated like one....??

her : special treatment hao.....

I sat back as they did my hair as a bun, then they did my makeup, they prepared me and did
everything... after a while someone knocked... it was my grandma with a hanger bag, so I figured
its my dress.

me : nkgono!!!

her : hay baby..

me : how you ??

her : am good wena??

me : am fine nkgono

her : are you not excited??

me : for what nkgono??

her : well your wedding..

me : my wedding is only about to come, its probably a month from now...

Msg : actually its your wedding today..

me : what???

I looked around and everyone agreed.

me : cant be....

I looked at the time and it was passed 3.... I went to look at the dress and it was exactly how I
wanted it to be... even the glowing tilts were there... how could have Themba know...????
snap.... James....... I then started crying...

God knows I don’t deserve this man....

msg : why you crying?? you mesing your makeup...

me : see why I don’t like this make up thing...

msg : keep your tears..

we all laughed... they updated my makeup and I got in the dress... my grandma took me to my
grandpa and when I got to the field, I was supprised to see my dream be placed reality.... tears
droped down, I couldnt hold myself....

I then walked towards themba, I looked at the lights the glows, the glowing cups and evrything I
wanted.... there were even camera people to film our wedding with led rings... as I got to themba
he uncovered my cloth. I saw themba, he was handsome, matched my dress and also he had
tears in his eyes.....

the pastor did his job, we exchanged vows and we kissed... we then danced, ate, took pictures....
everyone was there, my whole family even my aunt... we were on good terms with my aunt
now... and Themba’s family had already paid lobola..... everything was just perfect......

we then went back to our hotel at about 11pm..... he was such a gentlemen, he opened the door
for me and we got in..... when we were inside we went straight to our bedroom, I must say we
had a long night... I got out of my shoes then took my jewelry out, exept my necklace.. I then
went to wash my face to get the makeup off my face.... when I came back he had changed to his
swag shorts shirtless..... so I got myself out of the wedding dress...

I put on my sexy shorts known as bum shorts, and my sports bra.... then deliberatly went to the
kitchen.. I made two smoohies in our sports bottle and brought them in our bedroom were he
was playing fortnight.....

me : I bought you a smoothie...

he turned at me to say thanks but then stared at my body... then looked at me...

him : should I take this as a punishment that I never let you organise the wedding??

me : coming to that subject, why vele??

him : well its not everyday, actually there has never been an incident when a guy supprises his
girl with a wedding..

me : ohhh wow, so you chose to start doing it to me??

him : yah,and I was shocked to find how creative and unique your wedding ideas are...
me : mhm, am creative huh...

him : well, thanks for the smoothie, but am not craving for that right now...

me : what you craving for...??

him : so how about you give me a lap dance since you dressed ready for one...

me : well grab a seat couse am about to make you cry..

him : oh please, I wanna c...

so I grabed a chair and he sat there, I played slow RnB music that has that sexy mood in it.... I
then laped danced. so I grabed his waist pulling his lower body to my lower lower body, making
my v*** touch his p****. then I would sit on his p*** and shake my bum in a slow motion facing
my back on him. then he held my waist and lowered himself to clearly feel me.

then I faced him and danced in a riding motion as I would hold his shoulders and arch my back... I
think he was now feeling me so he laughed and told me to stop because I was kiling him...

I laughed and stood up then I went to grab my smoothie, but he pulled me to the chair... shucks,
he was about to lap dance for me... he lap danced.... I didn’t believe it, tee could move his waist..
he would move like he didn’t have bones. he danced till I also gave up then he laughed.... he
would always make this funny cute emotions and movement with his toungue... I was
supprised... after our dance and laughter, I stood next to the bed and told him that he can go
back to his game, but he just stared and looked at me...

he then came close to me and held my waist than he wispered...

him : would you ride me like you just did when dancing?? I wisphered back..

me : if you make me....

he came close then one thing let to another...

we made love. it was in a most old fashioned way.... no sucking, licking and fingering. just super
old school love making.... ( I will not go into detail, for my viewers respect and my self respect. )

after the whole fun we had.... he then whispered " I love you, mrs khumalo " then I also
whispered back " I love you too mr khumalo ". he then laughed and I just laid back....

I then remembered that he once told me that he is infected with HIV, I was wondering why he
didn’t remind me of that and he also didn’t stop to have a small dought, but hai am his wife now
so I just let him sleep on my chest.....

he moved after sometime and went to get water ( naked) then he brought some for me, then we
went back to bed and I slept on his chest.. we both slept naked.....

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the next day we woke up....

I woke up first, so I started playing with his chicks, he then woke up....

him : if only someone has told me that you annoying.. I wouldnt have married you...

me : ( playing shock ) really now... mxm... ( acting angry )

him : hao manana, you angry now??

me : ******pouts angrily*******

him : ncooooo, look at how cute you are when you angry....

me : mxm.... (I slept him playfully..)

him : come here, my munchy munch..

I went to him and he kissed me... he then went out and got into his undies and swag shorts then I
also got into my panties, shorts and sports bra and opened the tv to play playstation...

him : please don’t tell me you gonna play that..

me : why not? its not like am gonna do anything today...

him : don’t you remember your dream wedding??

me : huh?? him : hao, today is your traditional wedding...

me : babe!!!! you don’t say.... I jumped off bed.... then someone knocked...

him : I think they here...

me : but its only about passed 6.....

him : go open...

me : you go open..

him : jho... he got in bed and covered himself in blankets, the knock was becoming persistant....
so I tried to pull the blankets off themba but he he pulled back.... I went to open and saw my
family and his....

me : dumeland!!

them : yebo....

nkgono : hao, we here to get you ready for the traditional wedding...

ma khumalo : weres themba??

me : bedroom..

ma khumalo : baba, please fetch themba and get him out, we need to begin... he went with my
granny to the bedroom whitch I directed them... I followed them, making sure they go in the
right direction.... we got in the and he was playing fortnight.... he was shocked when his mother
entered... he quickly put a shirt on and left with his father (mind you guys I wore a gown before I
went to open for them )....

as he was going out he kept looking at me and I kept giving him funny faces... as he have left all
woman were left so, halve went to prepare food then some stayed to dress me and help me get
married... we got done.... we went down as it was time for me to get down.... I went down with
ntatemolo and people dancing and singin.... this reminded me of my wedding with james, well
(my almost arrainged marriege )....
I went and themba was there.... he was in a zulu atire and he was very good looking... we went
about our business and did whatever we had to do... after the wedding I spent hours with my
family then I went to the hotel.... when I got there themba was cooking.. when I got in... themba
ran to me and picked me up.. then kissed me and putted me down...

me : it lookes like you miss me..

him : very....

me : something smells nice..

him : yes, am making desert..

me : if you making desert, whats for eats...

him : how about I go and finish my desert then I will show you...

me : show me ??

him : mhm..... I went to the bedroom and changed... he came after some time....

him : so babe how was the wedding??

me : babe it was amazing... I cant believe you actually furfiled everything I ever dreamed of...

him : anything for my babe....

me : so, what we gonna dress for later??

him : the chillas right?

me : yah... thats if you organised it..

him : its part of your dream right?? so yah....

me : so what should I dress?? a casual track pants and its sweater or a jean with its tshirt??

him : how about this....

he reached for a box that I had never seen....

him : here, open up...

me : whats in this....

him : well see for yourself...

I opened up and it was a white addidas trackpants with black writing and stripes matching with
its shirt, also white... then there were all white addidas sneackers... a addidas hoodie also white
with the label in black.... then there was another jewelry box under the clothing.. it was a
necklace and earings...

me : oh my word, thank you bae...

him : well how about you thank me by coming here and showing some love...

I went to him... actually I ran and jumped on him, then we started kissing.... when he started
getting hot, I stopped him...
me : I don’t want us to be late...

him : babe, its only past 4pm now..

me : well...

I quantinued kissing him then he started undressing me.. and one thing led to another ( no
further details ).... he fell on me and I pushed him off couse he was really heavy...

me : babe??

him : yes??

me : *****silence******

him : babe, whats wrong..

me : nothing..

him : talk to me please..

me : no, nothing, huh, let me go bath....

I went to the shower, tee kept trying to find out whats wrong with me, but I just went to bath.... I
showered and he came to shower with me... I really didn’t want to shower with him..... I played
music connecting the speakers with my phone and only depressing love songs were playing... I
sat in the shower and looked down with eyes closed....
****in my mind****

am I really falling hard for this guy?? am scared he might leave me again... does he love me as I
love him?? won’t I regret loving him?? I think am falling to hard for this guy... as I was thinking he
entered into the shower and tears crowled down my chicks. am not one to cry loud, like dramatic
girls, but I just cry silently....

him : babe, whats wrong??

me : ****silent****

him : owk.... crack my mind please...

me : tee, am falling for you...

him : isnt that an amazing thing??

me : I have never fallen so deep

him : well, than I am the lucky one...

me : I love you tee.... I didn’t know what I was to do...

tee came and kissed me. I roughly kissed him back with tears flowwing.. I thought as I kept kissing
me the tears would stop but they flowed even more, his tears also started flowing then we
undressed each other out of our remaining peaces.. we made love.. this love making was
different, he did it as if it was the last day he is ever gonna see me, we both shed tears through
this love making, we were not crying but tears couldnt stop coming down...
this was not just making love, but a soul exchanging process... ( I hope you guys understand... its
hard to explain..)

him : I love you mrs khumalo

me : I love you more....

we got out of the shower,.... I went to go dress and he stayed in the bathroom.. after I was done,
I called for him but he didn’t come I called again and he still didn’t answer, so I went to check at
the other room..

I opened the door and he shouted SUPRISE..... he was wearing the same clothig as mine... exactly
the same..... I just stood there and laughed... we got done and left to the chillas party, we were
partly late but hay, its our wedding party anyway.....

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*****6 days later********

its now 6 days later and its time to go back to reality, meaning back to the radio station, back to
dance competitions ( FYI we won the previous competition ) so it was back to that. also back to
my part time studing ( I really wanna get a phd in accounting ) I still have 4 years to go including
this year, back to netball, plus themba has registered to enter our dance team and also signed at
the soccer club, we also decided to do music and post on youtube.... themba was still sleeping so
I got out to make breakfast for him...

( I wanted to serve him breakfast in bed ).. I got out and put on my silky gown... I went to the
bathroom to wash my face, brush my teeth and wash myh hands, then I went to the kitchen to
make breakfast.... I made toasted bread with butter with some bacon and eggs and viennas, well
it was an easy fancy well known breakfast..

I was about to pour the juice in the glass with ice cubes but themba showed up..
him : hallo honey
me : hay bee
him : oh so am a bee now?? how about I sting you.. huh??
he came close to me with the atempt to pinch me, I was standing in front of the breakfast
becouse I didn’t want him to see but when he came to pinch me I had to move, so he saw the
breakfast and stopped and smiled....
him : so, you woke up to make breakfast??
me : duh!! you ruined my supprise..
him : lol, but this doesn’t mean am gonna stop trying to sting you since am a "bee"..
he came towards me, so I tried to stop him. me : wait, wait... I called you bee because you called
me honey..
him : how does that click??
me : come on man.. only bee's love honey..
him : oh snap, what a romantic phrase....lol
me : now, gummy bear please go back to bed and pretend to sleep so that I can bring your
breakfast..
him : what??
me : please.... he went to the bedroom then slept... I came in holing the food then woke him up...
he laughed and said I was relly stupid.. he took the food and placed them aside then went to the
bathroom.... he came back then we ate.. after we started playing around hitting each other with
pillows and tickling each other then we went to the l
iving room to play playstation ( some racing car game ) so we played and had a great day.... we
then played phone pranks on families and friends and call centers... that day was a bomb... we
spent most of the day playing around and enjoying each others last day honeymoon... we only
took a 6 day honemoon because of our lives and things we need to do, but our true honeymoon
will be in june or december, we havent decided yet.....
the next day came and we woke up early to make it to our morning flight... we had matching
items in colour. we left and cought the plane.. we took videos in the plane, played around and
chilled. it was rather a long flight but we enjoyed it...
we got there and we took an uber to an unknown place... me : babe, last time I checked I was
staying in jhb, but it was not so surbaban an quiet.. are we going to your place??
him : nop..
me : babe, am tired, who are we visiting now??
him : my dad..
me : what??
him : and we here.....
I didn’t have time to be squilling so I just got out the car... it was rather a big house, there was a
man aproaching to fetch our bags.. I thought mabye he was sent by tee's father... we got in and it
was amazing, I was taken to a "GUEST ROOM" and there was a walk in closet, a nice bathroom
and it looked to be big for a guestroom, if the guestroom is so big I wonder how big is the main
room. I droped my things and themba came in
him : so, do you like our room??
me : it lookes big...
him : I know hay..
me : so weres your father.??
him : so you really thought this is my fathers house??
me : isnt it??
him : no....
me : whoooooow, do you mean to say this is our house??
him : yes, this is the main room..
me : woooow... I screamed and huged him..
me : but what abourt my house??
him : rent it out...
me : nice idea... another income..
him : you know you can just drop school, drop your job at the radio station and just let me feed
you..
me : are you mad??
him : nop...
me : bro, listen up, I love radio presenting, dancing, doing accounting, netball and all
entertainment, I could do these without pay and still love it..
him : wow...
me : mhm...
him : my baby making bombs..
me : I know...
we laughed then unpacked and went to an early bed ( we were so tired that we didn’t even bath
)...... I woke up during the night, I was having stomach cramps. mabye this is my stomache
working, I mean after all that holiday and stuffing myself with food my stomach is upset.... I
drank some aloe to remove any wrong thing in my tummy...
after som time I felt the need to go to the bathroom.... then I went back to sleep.......
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this stomach cramps have been going on for weeks and I actually didn’t tell themba about them,
they were just small cramps untill today.. I came home straight after school it was aBOUT 1PM so
I called my doctor and he said I should drink milk and relax untill he came...
themba didn’t really know that I had my own doctor, it was a minor detail that I never talk about
unless am sick... so after a while the doctor came and knocked ( I had given him the new address
). I went and opened the door to let doctor max in...
him : good afternoon mrs mofokeng
me : mrs khumalo
him : sorry??
me : am mrs khumalo now, I just got married...
him : well, congratulations..
me : thank you... come in.. he came in and I took him to the sitting room so he unpacked his bag
and started doing his stuff... he suspected pregnancy just as I did, but the thought of buying a
pregnancy test and knowing just killed me.... so he did scans....
him : mrs mofokeng, I mean khumalo, congratulations, your expcting...
me : I knew it... so what were the pains for.......??
him : its normal, it usualy comes the first 2 months of pregnancy for some, others less, others
more, others non. it depents on your body.. as for you miss your body is really sensative.. so its
gonna be a tough one..
me : gee thanks doc..
him : well thats not all, I have picked up some complications, am going to have to get you to the
hospital to find out more things....
me : what do you mean??
him : its still uncertain so I need you to please calm down and lets do more tests in 3 months time
owk..??
me : owk... the doctor left... I then went to my room and cried... the reason I cried was because I
rememberd that themba is HIV.. soo this is it, I have finally dedicated my all to him... I was in
deep sleep when themba was busy shaking me... I hate being waken up...
me : themba!!! go back where you came from and leave me alone...
him : owk, I will go back to palesa, plus she gave me a good one just now, mabye I should go for
round 2...
I quickly stood up, giving him a WHAT THE ****** face....
me : what did you say..
him : relax relax, am kidding....
me : its not funny....
him : love you...
me : now that am awake, what do you want??
him : I just wanted you to wake up...
me : really Tee, am tired...
him : you have been sleeping alot these days huh!! like a pragnant woman...
I looked at him then smiled...
him : what??
me : well, I am pragnant...
him : you bugging??
me : am serious...
him : bro, don’t play like that...
me : I aint playing...
I took the scans and showed them to him, then he jumped, up and down, and kissed me and
sang, I just stood there and smiled..
him : am about to be a father, am about to be a father...
I laughed when he was saying that while dancing....
him : babe, am about to be a father to baby jr ( started crying )
me : babe, don’t cry...
him : ***sniff*** thank you.....
me : love you...
him : from now on, no work, no school, you staying indoors...
me : no dancing, netball, all that??
him : no, I don’t want my baby to be moving around, he's gonna be dizzy...
me : what the**** lol we laughed and he went to make food for us, we ate.... after we went to
bed, and he placed his head on my tummy and slept.....
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I woke up during the night and couldnt sleep again.. so I went to the kitchen and made myself a
sandwitch... I ate and made a smoothie and sat in the dining room to watch tv.. I didn’t hear
themba come in, he just came behind me and went BOOM!! I screamed very hard only to realise
its themba.. he stood there laughing..
me : bro, don’t do that..
him : I got you didn’t I??
me : no you didn’t..
him : stop lying bae
me : mxm, get outa here...
him : hahahahaha what you doing, watching tv this time of the night??
me : I got no sleep...
him : shame.... me two, what you watching?
me : a movie...
him : owk, can I join?
me : sure.. we watched the movie together... and you guys won’t believe this but we were
watching a action movie ( you can never go wrong ) so after the movie I forced him into watching
chick flicks and within the 1st hour I fell asleep just as he was getting sleepy, I guess he saw me
sleep then also gave in because in the morning I woke up with him sleeping besides me... I woke
him up and told him its time for me to bounce... ( wish I never said that )
him : sorry babe, what did you say ??
me : I said I need to go..
him : I thouight I made it clear that you resting
me : bae, am not even 6 months yet..
him : so??
me : its only then that am allowed meternity leave...
him : owk, cool..
me : you just gonna let me go, just like that??
him : mhnm...
I went and took a bath and went to my daily duties... when I came back to work themba was still
not around, I last saw him in the dance class. so I did what I usually do ( cook and tidy up the
place ). it was now 10 pm and still nothing...
I tried calling him but still nothing, so I just went to bed and slept.... during the night I heard
noices so I figured he just came.. I ran down..
me : were do you come from..
him : work..
me : work, at this time ??
him : am not employed, io run a company, owk??
me : come on bro, be honest..
him : am serious, call james...
when he said that I believed him, so I just looked at him and went back up.. he came behind me
till we got to our room..
him : you stressing over nothing, and my baby jr wants no stress...
me : come home early then I won’t stress..
him : lol, yes boss lady...
he got undressed then went to sleep, he didn’t kiss me today nor say he loves me like he always
does, and he didn’t cuddle with me, he just faced his back at me and slept.. I didn’t know why,
but I just accepted it and slept...
the next morning I woke up without themba next to me.. now I started nowing that something is
really fishing... but I went to bath and did my rounds then left to my daily job... when I came
back, there were alot of cars packed outside.. I rushed in because I thought themba was hosting a
party in our house without talking to me first... I got in and found that it was dark... I switched the
lights on because I couldnt see nor hear anything.. as I switched the lights on, everyone shouted
SURPRISE!!! I stood there and there was a big writing written WELCOME TO MOTHERHOOD...
I couldnt see themba, so I tried looking for him. but msg and my owens took me to the back, I
was fighting them to go back untill I heard a piano playing, I looked back and it was themba on
the piano.. he played the piano then started singing... I was flatered.... after he came to me...
him : guess you were about to eat me alive huh??
me : well I feel like eating you right now...
him : mhm, please don’t o this, you know you cant handle me...
me : mhm really, lets see about that.. I went to my room I mean our room busy looking back
giving him a sign to follow... he followed telling everyone that he is coming, "he just wants to
speak to me in private" he came in the room and found me standing next to the bed... he came in
and locked the door..
me : so lover boy, why you staring??
him : observing my meal before I eat..
I laughed. he then came closer with his eyes fixed on mine then he reached for my lips and kissed
me slowly and gently... one thing led to another and like always he fell on me...
me : dude, you kno you heavy man..
him : cant help it, you took all my energy...
me : you deserve it...
him : bae, if this is how I will get punished everyday then am gonna be a bad boy for life...
me : oh my word...
we laughed... we then went to do a quick bath then went down back to the party.... after the
party I kinda like went straight to bed and slept.... themba can join me after some time....
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****4 months later*****
I woke up in the middle of the night crying in pain, themba was asleep but woke up as soon as I
started crying.. the pain was un bearable... themba took me in the car and drove me to the
hospital, and before I could reach the hospital I got a black out...
*****themba*****
I was so scared, I have never been so scared in my whole life....
I waited at the waiting area and no doctor came... I waited for hours. we came at around 2am
and the doctor only came to me at around 6am, I was sleeping on the bentch when they came to
me...
doc : sorry sir, sir...
me : yes...
doc : you are the one who brought mrs khumalo right??
me : yes, is she owk...
doc : am afraid I have bad news....
me : no,no no no no no no... ( I started crying ) it cant be.... doc : listen mr khumalo..
me : no, my baby, my baby.... shes not dead right..??
doc : no mr khυмαℓσ
umalo, but her pragnancy is very complicated, in such a way that shes going to be here till she
gives birth because anything at this moment could make her lose the children shes carrying.
me : children??
doc : yes sir, shes carrying twins.
me : oh man...
doc : we still running tests so I think its better you go home and relax then you will come back in
the afternoon, because we not gonna discharge her till she gives birth..
me : but thats months from now... I think shes only 5-6 months pagnant...
doc : yes, she could give birth early...
me : mhm owk... I then went back home and took a derp bath since it was already morning then I
went to sleep... I woke up at 2pm and the 1st thing that came to my mind was my baby (Tshidi)
and the kids... I quickly bathed and packed fruits and food then drove to the nearest shop to buy
chocks and flowers and also brought a radio that had a usb with all her music in...
I went to the hospital and rushed to the doctors, so luckily I found the same doctor I spoke to
earlier..
me : afternoon doc, am here for mrs khumalo, can I see her??
doc : afternoon mr khumalo, mrs khumalo is fine and yes you can see her. follow me.. he walked
and I followed him, till he got to a ward were my baby was. she was awake, so I got in and gave
her a kiss, she had a amile on her face....
I placed the flowers around the room to give the room a little colour. then I pluged the radio and
put the usb in to play her own recorded songs with mine and our duo.... then I gave her the
package.,
me : how are you ??
her : I am scared bae ( starts crying ), what if am going to lose my babies...
me : listen, babe you won’t lose the babies, owk, you won’t.. stop stressing..
her : baby am scared...
I went close to her and huged her.. the doctor then came in....
doc : mrs khumalo, you do know that you should relax, don’t stress and be calm..... we don’t
want you losing your babies...
her : yes doc...
doc : mr khumalo, can we give mrs khumalo to rest please...
me : owk doc, baby, I will come tommorow owk...
her : owk... thank you... I love you..
me : I love you too....
I left... whent home and relaxed.. I informed everyone (her work, her dance class teacher, and all
the other teachers or bosses) then I told james to keep both hands on because I am looking after
my wife..
********lesego*********
it has been 3 weeks now, and themba has been very supportive, you would swear he was the
pragnant one.... yesterday the doctor told me that he had something to tell me.... so he was
called and he posponed to today.... themba came in.....
him : babyyyyyy..
me : hay...
him : its been weeks now, any information??
me : nop, I don’t think am even close to giving birth, but the doctor wanted to speak to us..
him : about what??
me : apperantly I have complications in my womb.
him : I already know, they told me that weeks ago...
тhe doctor then came in...
doc : am glad I cought you both...
me : please take us out of our missary..
tee : is my baby owk.. will she be fine...
doc : I have good news and bad news....
tee : bad news first....
doc : unfortunatly, one soul is gonna be laid of when mrs khumalo gives birth..
me : what?? what does that mean??
doc : when mrs khumalo gives birth, either one of the twins will pass away if not both, or..
tee : or what doc??
doc : ***sigh*** or mrs khumalo will pass away. and the twins will live...
I screamed, I started crying... I saw tee crying as well and the doctor kept saying hes sorry... I kept
crying and crying..
tee : and the **sigh** the good news??
doc : mrs khumalo is being discharged tommorow..
tee : thank you..
the doctor left and it was just me and tee... I cried in Themba’s arms till I fell asleep...
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when I woke up the next day, themba was not where I last saw him, so I figured he left and I was
taken to sleep.. after a while the doctor came...
him : mrs khumalo, are you ready to go home??
me : doc, is there nothing you can do to make all 3 of us to live..??
him : am sorry, theres nothing I can do, its only the mercy of God that can save you...
I gave up and saw themba come in.. he looked messed up, it was like he wasnt himself, he looked
defeated and like he lives on the streets..
themba : are you ready to go?? he asked me that in a down hurt voice...
me : you owk..??
him : am fine,... doc, can we leave??
doc : yes, I will get on with the nurses..
the doctor left and themba helped me get dressed ( he brought a tracksuit for me ). the nurses
came and fixed my discharge papers. themba hardly said a word, nothing.. he took me to the car.
he opened the door for me and drove home... when we got home he took me in the house made
me food and got me in bed.. then he just left.. ( mind you, he never utured a word the whole
day... ) so I just slept...
*******themba*******
I went back in my car and took a long drive around. I was driving around for hours.. history is
repeating itself. this took me back to my mothers insident.. so when I was young my father was
busy building an empire while my mom was keeping us safe and being there for us.... so I loved
my mother more than everything, I didn’t want anything to hurt her.....
so one time she got sick, and when I say sick I mean really sick. when she was sick she once told
me that when I have grown I need to look for a woman who will be with me through thick and
thin and a woman who will be like her ( she loved my father so much that she stayed with him
even if he didn’t have time for her ) so one time I came from school and found my mother laying
on the ground helpless. I shouted asking for help but no one came, so I called the ambulance and
they came to take my mom to hospital... her advice stayed in me... at first I would just date and
later realise that they only around because of the financial gain they gonna get... but Tshidi was
different, shes even more than perfect..
when I first saw her, she was "a boy" but I still fell for her, she changed because of me, accepted
me without knowing that am rich, she accepted me hen I told her that am HIV ( which am not )
she even didn’t hesitate to sleep with me, she accepted me when I told her that am a street boy
(I lied) at her arrainged marriege with james.. she just kept accepting me... now she knows me,
axcept the part that I lied about the HIV sagga. truth is I wanted a true wife, I wanted worst
casses to find my princess and I found her..
I was really worried about my mom. my dad came home misserable. that was the first time I saw
my dad terrible. thats when I realised that my dad really loved my mom... we went to hospital
the next day and the doctors were running around my mother ward, we tried to ask what was
going on but nothing... we sat there for hours only to find out that my mom has passed away...
that day I felt like a huge lump has covered my throat. and that was the first and last time I loved
a person so much... before Tshidi...
now that love has showerd to Tshidi, something like this has to happen... I mean shes holding my
babies, I havnt even got to know thm but I already feel bonded to them.. I even can feel that they
are boys... u lebo no lethu... my boys... I don’t wanna lose either of them expecially Tshidi... the
thought of loosing one of them just makes me crazy. actually I feel like its my fault..... I took the
last drive then went home....
I got in the house and went straight to my room, I found Tshidi sleeping, she was sleeping
peacefully, I couldnt help but stare at her.. after a while I went to take a bath...
. *******lesego*******
I heard the barthroom water go off so I figured themba is back and hes taking a bath.. I got out of
bed.. my stomache was a little still in pain.. I went towards the door, themba was playing slow
depressing music.. my baby was really hurting... I got in the bathroom and saw him just soaking
his body in the bath, I went to him then he sat up when he saw me....
me : its really gonna be owk..
him : no its not..
me : listen, sobing around won’t help, we should be trying to make memories ( good ones )
him : for what?? huh?? for me to remember once you gone.??
me : bae, there is a chance that I might not pass away..
him : does that supposed to make me feel better?? I mean I have already come to terms that am
about to be a father to 2 babies. and have a beutifull wife... but now I need to accept that one of
my 3 mastertears is not gonna make it??
me : babe, please...
he wanted to say something but I just placed his head on my chest... I didn’t care about the fact
that he was wet.. I just wanted him to calm down.... very short ( sorry guys I was in a hurry )
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the next morning themba was cool, he took me to the park, we had picnic and some fun games at
the game store, we had so much fun and played so much... we had great food and all that... so
after our fun day we came back home we had bought ourselfs some gifts and all...
so themba bought me a big size teddy, tall enough to be my size and I bought him a watch.. so
we went to our room to view everything we bought...
him : babe, remember when you said we need to make good memories??
me : yes..
him : so I decided to buy my twin babies these...
me : baby.....!!! he took out some nice blue baby clothing... they looked the same,
him : this is for you, I also got myself the same outfit...
me : tee, whats going on??
him : you see, my mom always told me that God never lets his children down... no one is gonna
pass away..
I just went towards him and huged him.... then I remembered that its been a while since I went
to church, and I know my grandma didn’t raise me like that, she raised me to be a God fearing
woman.. but my question was, now that themba mensioned his mother, I wonder were she is..
me : babe..
him : yess...
me : you mensioned that your mom told you that God never lets his children down..
him : yes, and I should believe that, you too should believe it..
me : but you hardly talk about your mom..
him : mhm.... huh...yah...
me : were is she??
him : huh.... she...(clearingthroaght).... huh... she passed away...
me : ohhhhh, am sorry....
him : its owk.. he went to bed and jumped on the bed full kit and just laid there.. I left him there
because I was craving something sour.. so I went to the supermarket because I didn’t have
anything sour in the house... I went to buy sour candies and gums then came back home... when I
came back themba was still sleeping so I had my gums and candies then also went to bed...

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*** a month later****
themba left me alone today. he went to sort some business stuff... for this whole month we have
been enjoying day in and day out and he has been very chearful and happy.. I woke up and got
something to eat then after eating I went to watch tv... I was 7 months pragnent.. I had a big
bump for a 7 month pragnant woman, I guess its because they are 2 of them...
I started feeling pains, they started out small then they got really painfull I called themba, but his
phone kept on going to voicemail.. then I called my doctor and in about few minutes my doctor
came with the ambulance....
I new that the time has come, I couldnt pray, I was literally weak and swimming in pain, I couldnt
move.. but one thing for sure is that in few minutes time, either am gonna recieve 1 baby or no
baby or they are not gonna see their mamma... I cried so much, wishing that I could see
Themba’s face for the last time.. that I could hear him say he loves me and also make him
promise that he will take care of my babies...
I had to give my babies life so I called the doctor before he could deliver my babies.. in pain I
talked to him..
me : doctor??
him : yes..
me : is it popssible to save my babies..??
him : we don’t know yet, we trying to make sure we save all of yourl ( you and the babies) but its
a slim chance...
me : please, I have lived my life, I am happy, what are the guarantees that if you let me die, my
babies will live..
him : the chances are high, but its possible that one baby might pass on..
me : I need you to focus on saving my babies, not me... even if I die, its owk, atleast I will know
that my babies are living...
him : but mam....
me : please....
him : ***sigh**** our job.....
me : would you risk a childs life to save your own??
him : no mam, but......
me : then do it......
him : ***sigh*** yes mam....
me : thank you... please give me your phone, I would like to record a massage for my husband
him : owk.
he gave me his phone and I recorded a massage and asked the doctor to give it to him when he
arrives... then my time was up, it was now time to go....
*****themba****
I wraped up everything and went back home... I got there and didn’t get a sign of my beautiful
wife... I figured that mabye she went to the store, since she always goes to the store when shes
craving something that is not in the house... I wanted to call her but realised my phones battery
was flat... so I went to charge it, then went to take a shower... after I came back got dressed and
still Tshidi is not yet at home... I was starting to get worried..
so I opened my phone so that I could call her... I found so many missed calles... 5 from her 3 from
unknown and 2 from an office number.. I firstly called her and she didn’t answer, I called again
and still no answer..
I then called the unknown number to find out who it was... the person answered on the 2nd ring.
him : mr khumalo?? is this you?
me : who is this??
him : this is doctor max, mrs khumalos doctor...
me : oh, I didn’t know my wife has a doctor..
him : ohhhh, huh, its a good thing you called, we have been trying to get hold of you since your
wife was taken to hospital..
me : WHAT!!! hospital?? whats wrong??
him : I think shes going to deliver..
me : oh snap, did she go to the usual hospital??
him : yes.. me : thank you.
I got there and ran in the hospital... I got a doctor in reseption..
me : doctor, doctor, is mrs khumalo fine??
him : you must be mr khumalo
me : yes..
him : well am not the one dealing with mrs khumalo, but I will call for the doctor who is..
he left and the doctor that was talking to us a month ago came..
him : mr khumalo, we have been trying to call you..
me : my batery was low...how is she??
him : its time, shes currently giving birth and she wants you to listen to this..
I took the phone and pressed play to listen..

***recorder***
themba my love..
mabye by the time you get here and listen to this recorder I would have passed on.... I want to
say I love you and I will always love you.. you have done so much for me.. I need you to really
take care of my babies... one last thing, I have asked the doctor to make everymean to save my
babies and let me go... he said it had a high chance of working so I am setting myself free for my
babies... please don’t blame the doctor, he tried to talk me out of it but I refused...
I need you to move on, and find a good woman to take care of my babies for me.. I love you tee, I
really do... goodbye...
I felt like I could scream...
me : were is she??
doc : sir, I cant let....
me : were is she??
he showed me the ward and I ran there.. I wasnt supposed to go inside so I looked through the
window... not moving... its over, shes finally gone, shes finally gone.. I then screamed in tears
then ran out to my car... I banged the driving weel with my head, I was so angry at myself
because I was not around when she needed me, I was just busy with work...
I started the car and drove around... I wasnt really consentrating on the road, but I was driving
carfully.. when I got to the robots I didn’t see the truck turning, so I passed, but it was already
late when I saw it coming towards me...
BOOM!!!!
I had a big ban on my head as I hit the floor then classes kept piessing my body then I saw
flashing lights and people running towards me, but in few minutes everything became blure and I
blacked out...
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*****lesego*****
I woke up and saw myself in a weird room, well I couldnt really clearly see because I was seeing
blury.... but after some time I could see properly, I thought I would see themba but no sign of
him....
me : my babies, my babies, my babies..
I started shouting and a doctor rushed to my bed....
me : doc, my babies?? were are they??
him : mam, please relax...
me : no, I want to see my babies....
the doctor called a nurse to bring my babies then he told me to calm down and wait then he
left... after some minutes a doctor came to check up on me... and the nurse followed with my
babies..... I was given my babies and I couldnt believe it... my two boys were healthy as ever and
they so looked alike and they were just like their father... that reminded me of themba....
I called another doctor who was busy with my curtains... and the nurse took my babies and
promised to bring them back later...
me : doc??
him : yes, mam
me : doc, can I get my phone..
him : huh, owk
he handed my phone to me and the first thing I did was call themba's phone... I called and called
and called... but no answer.... I then called james....
him : lsg??
me : hay james..
him : how are you??
me : well, am happy since me and my 2 babies are owk...
him : what!!! you delivered already, when??
me : 2 days ago, I was unconciouse and I just woke up today, and saw my babies for the first
time...
him : woooow, I bet themba is happy, that would explain his suddern disapearence..
me : what do you mean suddern disappearence??
him : its been 2 days since his phone was off and there has been no sign of him...
me : wait?? you trina tell me that you also don’t know were themba is ??
him : wait!! hes not with you??
me : no....
him : snap...
me : I need to go...
I hung up and called themba's phone again, and still no luck..... themba?? were are you?? the
doctors came and told me that in the next 3 days I will be discharged...
*****doctor*****
when mrs khumalo woke up, I wanted to tell her about his husband, but I didn’t want an incident
were she will be too stressed and sad that she ends up not recovering... I spoke to all doctors that
when they discharge mrs khumalo they need to tell me so that I brake the news to her.....
***** 3 days later****
****lesego****
today was my discaharge day and still nothing on themba... I had my bags packed and babies
clothed and ready to leave, I called the uber because themba was no were to be fount. I hope hes
not one of those runaway dads... but he wouldnt because he was more excited to be a dad then
anyone I knopw.. now that was weired....
I got all my things then I went home to go and freshen up.... I got home, freshened up, freshened
my babies up..( jaden and jade) then got ready for sleep..... I placed my babies in bed then I slept
with them.. we didn’t really get to do the nursery but baby clothing were more than enough... so
it was a good night......
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its 6am and I never slept a wink... my boys have been keeping me up for hours.. so finally they
were asleep so I managed to get myself some breakfast and ate... later I got a call from the
doctor...
me : hay...
him : hay mrs khumalo, hope you well...
me : yes am well, how can I help you doc....
him : its more of how we can help your husband mam....
me : what do you mean?? you know were themba is??
him : yes, hes in hospital...
me : what???
him : he has been here for days, we didn’t want to tell you because you had to heal first..
me : what!! WHAT!! what happened??
him : car accident..
I froze, he told me hes unconciouse and he damaged his brain really bad... I didn’t know what to
do, so I just took my babies and went to hospital... I got there and the doctor showed me his
room...
I went in and I saw a very different version of themba... he was laying there, helpless, it was my
first time seeing him so helpless, he was all bandaged and drips all over him like he was a magnet
attracting them... his eyes were shut closed... I looked at them with the wish to see him open
them but nothing,no sign of hope..... I picked up my babies..... and hoped that mabye he would
wake up for them....

me : hay babe, its me Tshidi (sigh) please wake up (crying). I made it, you told me I would make it
and I did... you said that no one was going to die, and indeed no one died... I still have my babies..
jade and jaden.. they so preciouse and loving and they look just like you... I havnt really gave
them zulu names because I was hoping that mabye you would come and give them..... please
wake up baby, I miss you... and know, god is with you....
I took a big break then went to cry myself down... I called james to tell him were themba was .....
I went home and my life for once was broken.....
*****3 months later*****
I am back at work, I have been visiting themba everyday (well almost everyday) I sometimes find
his father or james in the ward then I would go back home.... I hired a nanny to look after my
babies as I go to work... it was golf day today (friday) so I got in my jeans, golf shirt, and
sneakers... and a cap... then I took an uber to the venue....
I got there and I found joe waiting for me....
me : joe, how are you??
him : well, now that I have seen you am great...
joe is a lawyer of our radio station.. so we had a live broadcast at the golf couse.. hes a nice
person very friendly and always flirting with them girls...
me : lol. I see..
him : so, hows your husband??
me : still unconciouse...
him : you know what would deffinatly wake him up???
me : what ??
him : if you start bringing a new guy in your life...
me : mxm, please
him : try it out you will see....
me : nop...
him : come on...!!!
me : lol, forget it...
him : just trying my luck...
we went and did golf then we had to come back home...joe volunteerd to get me home, so he
drove me home and we arived...
me : thank you, very much...
him : its a pleassure.. don’t you want me to walk you to the door??
me : no, its owk, I will manage...
him : owk, take care...
we locked our eyes together then I shifted mine immediatly when I realised, then I got out the
car and headed to the house door... I looked back one more time then I saw him still looking at
me... apart of me wished he was themba... but my themba was in hospital..
I got in the house ( my nanny is a inhouse nanny) so I played a little with my babies then headed
to sleep.....
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it was still early in the morning, I decided to visit themba, he was still unconciouse, actually the
doctors said he was getting worse.. which really hurt me.. I got my boys dressed and I also got
dressed.. on my way out I went to sofies room my nanny....
me : sofie, sorry for just budging in...
but I wanted to tell you that I am going to the hospital with my boys... so you can relax at the
moment and we will see you when we come back....
her : owk, mamm
me : I told you to call me Tshidi...
her : yes Tshidi..
me : owk bye..
her : bye...
I then left.... I got to the hospital and went to themba's ward.... I got there and I started talking to
him, not even sure if he could hear me... кαяєи started crying so I had to attend to him, then
after some time, themba's machines started going off making noise.. I called the doctors and they
told me to please leave.. I didn’t know what was going on, all I know is that I feared his life and I
was crying like crazy...
I had a thought that am gonna live my life without him... I went home, I was a mess, confused,
sad, angry, just everything was a mess.... I got home and I saw joe's car outside, so I figured sofie
let him in... I got in the house, and saw joe sitting on the couch... sofie came to me and took my
boys to go bath...
me : joe, what you doing here??
him : Tshidi, you look terrible...
me : its tee, he's machines went off...he.....
him : shhhhhhhhh, don’t cry..
me : I don’t know joe, what am I gonna do??
him : its gonna be owk, just relax....
me : sigh..... I don’t know joe...
him : how about a slow nice cup of coffee, it will do you good...
me : am gonna need something stronger than that....
him : how about I take you to a party huh??
me : joe, you know I don’t drink or smoke or do all of that, am a church girl...
him : I know, but it wouldnt hurt just to be numb for a little...
I debated with myself.... thought really hard, then I figured " you know what, am 23 and I got to
live alittle, so why not??
me : owk, lets do this.. we left, in his car... then we got to a place called the hub... we got in and
sat down....
me : this place lookes so weired, I don’t feel this place, am about to go...
him : but we just got here...
me : this is a mistake...
him : woooow, listen relax..
I breathed heavy and relaxed... it started out with easy drinks, then moved to storm, the reason I
decided to drink it was because it tasted like juice you know, like it didn’t have any funny taste or
sour or bitter taste so, I fount it easy to drink, not knowing that it was really fast on the knees
expecially if you drink it while sitting down. well thats what I did..
I was so drunk that I tried smoking oka, but it chocked me then I tried to smoke ciggarets then I
coughed till my chest burned (no more cigars for me, but mabye I would try to smoke the oka
again). I started smoking oka till I could.. I felt light, but seeing things 5 times or blury even
laughing my way through everything...
I would laugh and laugh even laugh at very little things... then I would really seem like I blacked
out but still now what was going on....
******joe******
Tshidi was becoming too comfortable, she was drunk. I didn’t really drink alot because I was
driving so I let her to be loose.... she didn’t really drink alot but she got drunk as if she drank a 6
pack of storm alone....
she actually just drank 1 big bottle and she drank halve like shes drinking water than drank the
other halve calmly while smoking oka.... the day passed, the night passed and I was messed up, I
know I should’nt be drinking but Tshidi kept daring me to drink shots...
I went on with it because I was gonna call uber... when the time came for us to go, Tshidi was so
atached to the dancing floor, so I took her, called the cab and drove home... I made arraingement
to leave my car and fetch it tommorow.. I was drunk but not too drunk, but on the other hand
Tshidi was messed up, she couldnt stop talking... I could handle her non stop talking self, but I
couldnt handle her calling me tee all the time....
we got home and I took her in the house (her house ). then I took her to her room that sofie
sjhowed me... I droped her off the bed then wanted to leave but she stood up and pulled me.
her : were you going tee??
me : Tshidi, am not tee, am joe... tee is in hospital
her : lol...... thats funny...
she was really drunk, but I realised she was out when she wanted to undress me...
me : what are you doin??
her : getting whats mine...
me : listen......
her ; shhhhh
she kissed me, very slow.. I had my weakness because I always had a crush on her and I really
liked her... so as she kissed me, I was really weak that I fell in... I started kissing back, huged her,
grabed her and really held her....
I laid her, enjoyed it, but with guilt....she kept on saying tee, thats what gave me guilt, but the
opportunity comes once.... when I was done I fell on her and kept quite..
her : arnt you gonna tell me that you love me?
me : I love you..
her : I love you too tee....
I moved away and got dressed then I called a uber to get me home and left her sleeping.. but I
left a note....
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***lesego****
I woke up next day feeling really hungry and my head paining like hard.. I felt really tired... I went
to first check on my boys then made food for myself then went back to bed and left sofie take car
of the rest... woke up " I took it and opened it... dear Tshidi am sorry if you think I took advantage
of you,please forgive me love joe... I wasnt sure what he meant but I was really tired to make
sense of it so I fell asleep again....
later I woke up again and went to check on my boys, I took them so that I could spent some time
with them while and sofie can rest.... I checked my phone and there was about 4 missed calles
from joe and 2 from james... I called james first... because I knew it was about themba's news....
he answered on the late ring...
him : finally, you too busy these days huh??
me : please don’t yell, I have a headache...
him : you drink now??
me : what you mean, how did you know??
him : I came last night, and sofie said you left with your guy friend to a club...
me : sigh... I needed a stress relief..
him : in alchohol?? I thought you better than that... your husband need you here but you busy
partying...
me : james...
him : its owk, I just wanted to tell you that themba woke up...
he hung up... I couldn’t believe it... besights james being all extra at least my baby is awake..... I
took my things, took sofie and my boys because sofie was like a sister now... we drove... I got to
the hospital rushing to Themba’s room then I met james on the pathway, he was sitting down
looking all sad and a mess, when he saw us coming he stood up coming to us... here goes
drama....
me : if you trina stop me from seeing themba, then you have another thing coming...
him : oh please, why would I do that.
he greeted sofie and the boys then he looked back at me..
him : we have a problem... actually problems...
me : what do you mean?
him : please promise me, you won’t freak out..
me : am already freaking out, whats going on??
him : owk, themba won’t be able to walk again...
me : what?? I went past james really rushing to themba's room but he grabed my hand...
me : what now, themba needs me...
him : themba has a memory loss, he proberbly won’t remember you just like he doesn’t
remember me ...
me : what are you telling me??
him ; go and find out, I just wanted to tell you upfront...
I ran and went to his room then I got in, sofi came behind me with my boys...
me : hay themba...
him : hay.... am manqoba, not themba, I think you got the wrong ward...
me : babe, its me, Tshidi... your wife...
him : (fakes smile and laugh) huh... I have a wife?? thats funny...
me : funny??
I wanted to cry, and I also wanted to tell him that not only is he a husband but he's also a father
to 2 boys... but I decided to keep that info within me... I went out crying tears fit to cover a river...
I then went to speak to a doctor...
me : doc, whats going on...
him : he's suffering from memory loss and we don’t know how long its gonna last but he won’t be
able to walk again.... am sorry
me : will he ever remember me, us...
him : yes but we not sure when...
me : when will he be discharged??
him : he was supposed to be discharched in a weeks time but he will need more monitoring...
me : oh.... sofie then tapped my back...
her : Tshidi, I really think its time to go home... I looked at her then I agreed and we all left.. I kept
on looking back hoping that it would be a dream, but dololo... we got home, got the kids in place
and sofie attended them and I soaked myself in food and drink.....
then later joe came and found me really messed up... he sat down with me and I laid on his
thighs as he brushes my hair then I fell asleep....
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****2 weeks later******
today themba is coming home, I visited him 3 to 4 times at the hospital but he still never
remembered him. james was also hurt for the fact that he doesn’t remember him too. I cleaned
the room and made food... after few hours I heard a car outside so I thought it was them...
I went to get dressed, I put on my black addidas swag pants, a white nike sneaker, a white vest
and a black addidas sweater.... they rang the bell so I went to open for them.... themba was
sitting on a weel chair, pushed by james...
me : hay,
James : hay Tshidi
themba : hay bro, so you wanted me to stay with you and your girl??
James : she's not my girl..
themba : whatever mahn. they got in and went to the dinning room.
james : Tshidi, his nurse will be coming tomorrow morning to look after him...
themba : is she beautifull?? sexy??
james : bro, shut up... lol... you will see her tomorrow...
james and themba were going well, even though he didn’t know him but the brother hood was
there.... I pulled james to the kitchen...
me : what are you doing??
him : what you mean??
me : why you putting ideas in his head??
him : am not, he doesn’t remember much but we kinda grew close through the visiting and
because you would always also visit he thought that you my girl and am ashamed of letting it go
public thats why you got confused...
me : I got confused??
him : yah, he said that you kept on saying you his wife...
me : but I am...
him : go easy on him owk....
themba called james and we both went to the dinning room...
james : am about to leave now, hope you take care...
themba : hai jay, you telling me you gonna leave your wife with me, alone?? you just knew me
for 2 weeks and you trust me around your house and your girl??
james : shes not my wife...
themba : I saw the ring on her finger... its not healthy to brush her off like that..
james : but am honest.. shes my sister...
themba : ohhh, marriege problems.. am sorry..
me : its owk....
themba : jay, you staying then...
james : yah, don’t want you messing my sis....
I was brushed off well I felt like I was brushed off, he doesn’t remember anything. like its as if we
never had no connection... I dished up and we ate then he wanted to go sleep because he was
tired so james took him to his room...
when james came down I went to him...
me : so, I guess I sleep in the guest room...
him : yes, for now, I will go to the other guest room...
me : but what if he needs you..
him : I told him to call me when he needs me...
me : owk...
as james whent to sleep I went to themba's room to look at him, I stood at the door then began
to cry..... I went to my room and started crying very hard..... then after sometime, joe called..... I
wanted to pick up but my instincts told me not too... so I let it go to voicemail and went to
sleep....

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*****themba*******
I woke up the next morning, so james gave me this button phone to call him because he says that
my phone broke at the accident... I called him to my room and he later came with a laptop.....
me : working so early in the morning??
him : actually I wanted to show you something..
me : owk...
he opened the laptop and showed me pictures....
I looked at them and I was amazed, I saw pictures of me and his sister, it looked as if we were
close, there were even pictures of me kissing her and being all lovey dovey... I looked at james
then continued looking at the pictures... I saw me in all black suits and all formal wear with
james, we looked like we were brotheres or something, mabye thats why we have this strong
connection....
I also saw small pics of me an a man that used to visit me at the hospital and few other people....
me : what does this mean??
him : your someones husband themba...
me : what??? he gave me a ring..
me : who's ring is that?
him : yours, we took it off your finger before you woke up,
me : why??
him : it went for cleaning since it was bloody then they kept it for safety...
me : ohhhh..
him : yah, and the woman I said was my sister, she's your wife..
me : yah, I see that now on this pictures... I have been brushing her off
him : yah, and themba you own businesses..
me : what?
him : yes, you own a construction company and a law firm. and am your partner and friend...
me : (chuckles) wooow... about my wife, why isnt there chemistry, like no connection??
him : I don’t know mahn, but try.....
I got refreshed and got dressed then went downstairs.... I found Tshidi with 2 babies... if she's my
wife then these are my kids, I thought..... I asked james to push me to her...
me : hay, huh... ( clear throat ) is that my kids..
her : mhm... sorry, did you just say your kids??
me : yes, arnt you my wife..??
her : huh!!... you remember now??
me : no, I saw pictures of us , james showed me.... so it made sence why you were saying you my
wife.... he also gave me my ring back, so that means we married....
her : ohhh, huh, yah these are your kids..
me : what are their names??
her : jade and jaden...
me : they don’t have zulu names??
her : no, they don’t...
me : they look really small, how ol are they??
her : 4 months...
me : 4 months?? so you gave birth while I was in hospital??
her : no, before, but few hours later you got in an accident...
me : how did you feel??
her : I didn’t know, I thought I would be dead...
me : huh?? you didn’t know I was in hospital?? how??
her : when I gave birth you were not here, I got unconcious for 2 days after giving birth, when I
woke up, I tried calling you to tell you that I made it, that non of us died.. but I couldnt get hold of
you...3 days later I found out that you were in hospital from the day I gave birth...
me : wooow, that must have been a awfull feeling??
her : yah, but its cool, now you alive...
I took my boys and looked at them... and immidiatly I felt love... I felt the connection... I even
wanted to cry.. after a while playing with my kids, the nurse came... well seems the nurse was
gonna sleep over till am recovered... she did her daily duties day in and day out, and I would try
to remember stuff, and I got exercises to try and walk again...
days past, weeks past, months past and I started having flashbacks of when I was young, my
passions and dreams and family.. so one day my father came... he rang the bell and I went to
open ( update.... I could walk now, it was few months later now.... Tshidi had left and was now
staying at her own house.. ) I opened then stared at this man... and imediatly an image popped in
my mind... he was my father....
me : father??
him : you remember me son...
me : yes, well not everything but I remember...
we talked and talked then it was time for my art time.... I bid goodbye then we left to our art
room.... I wanterd to do something different so I played music..... we started paintingwith our
hands and the mood got real... I looked at the nurse then the image of thsidi apeared, I
remember her now... I held her hands.. when I look at her she's not the nurse but she's Tshidi... I
held her face went close then held her hands, I started dancing with her... then I kissed her, held
tight then I looked again at her eyes.... Tshidi, Tshidi was all I saw...
****lesego*****
the reason I left that house was because I felt cold, themba was not feeling me and I just couldnt
handle it... I went to themba's place because I needed something that I left... I didn’t see him in
the dinning room so I asked james were he was and he said art room... went there and opened
the door, the music was so loud that they didn’t even heard me come in... themba was kissing
the nurse, now this is a scene that I would never forget... I ran out leaving the door open then
rushed to my place....
james wanted to know what was going on but I just ignored him and left... I was crying, so I called
joe to meet me at my house.... I got home first.. cryed till I couldnt cry then the bell rang, I
figured it was joe...
I then opened and saw it was joe... him : whats happening, you sounded so upset?? I grabed him
then kissed him, not locking the door I took him to my bedroom.... he tried stopping me but I told
him to shut up.... he kept on pushing but I told him to keep quite and make love to me.... we
kissed and made love.... I did the process in pain and crying, but I did it and went to sleep when
he fell on me.... I know what I was doing was wrong, but I didn’t know what to do......
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*******themba********
the next morning I was wokken up by a knock on the door... I woke up very irritated and opened
the door, it was the nurse...
me : hay, isnt it to early to be knocking on my door...
her : when feelings get involved, things change..
me : what do you mean??
her : yesterday?? you.... I mean don’t you remember??
me : well, remind me...
her : you kissed me, told me you love me..
me : no no no no no, I love Tshidi, and that will never change..
her : but?? huh
me : am sorry, I thought you were her...
her : oh, you were using my physical touch to match your imagination..
me : no, I mean......
her : no, its supposed to happen, its part of the recovery process... I just didn’t think it would
happen on me..
me : am sorry..
her : what are you still doing here??
me : what??
her : go get her..
me : right!! I got out and went to james room, I knocked... after some time he opened..
me : mahn, do you die when you sleep??
him : bro its like 6am in the morning, I so wish you still used a wheel chair..
I playfully hit him on the shoulders...
him : so, what do you want??
me : do you know were Tshidi lives??
him : yah..
me : take me to her
him : are you drunk??
me : no, am high, now get me to her...
him : wait, why?? bro you remember her now..?
me : I remember boi, I saw everything yesterday, the feelings are back the connection is
popping.... bro lets go..
him : well let me get my stuff...
me : well get going before I punch your face...
him : mahn seems like the old themba came back fast...
me : lol, I will wait at the car...
I went to the car and sat while playing games on my phone to pass time... after an hour I went
back in the house about to pop his head but luckily he was about to come out.... he came out..
him : where were you going??
me : coming to fetch you, I almost went to pop you...
him : am here now, can we go??
me : thank you mahn.. him : bro, what?? you wanna kiss me know??
me : hahaha, nah, I will just hug you....
I huged him and we went to the car.... we drove and drove to a beautiful house in jhb.... he
pulled up and I took a deep breath...
him : we here...
me : I guess its time...
him : warning, she's a fiesty one..
me : warning taken.... can I go now..
him : arnt you gonna go with me...
me : wanna come??
him : please...
me : you such a girl.. we laughed then we went to the door...
I wanted to ring the bell, but I noticed the door was not locked and closed... so I pushed the door
and there was no one at the front... I looked at james with the confused look...
me : are you thinking what am thinking??
him : robbery??
me : don’t make a sound, they could still be here...
him : cool, let me check the bedroom, I suspect they could be there...
me : my baby better be owk....
him : what if they armed, we don’t have a gun...
me : owk, I will go in, if I shout damn it, you run and call the cops, owk..
him : owk....
me : cool... I went in the bedroom, I swear if she's not in here am gonna go mad.... what if they
shot her, I mean its very quite, or mabye even kidnapped her..... damn I gotta get my gut
together..... I quickly opened the door and damn I wish I hadnt.... this chick was in bed with
another man..... I must be dreaming....
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I wanted to jump on him, but I kept my cool, so I took a chair and sat down while looking at
them... I texted james to come up with a knife, he came with a table knife... I told him to come up
quietly... when he got up and opened the door, he was shocked, I signaled for him to be silent....
we sat down, james kept telling me to go but I told him to be quiet... we waited for couple of
minutes more than Tshidi moved to turn on the other side....
we waited literaly 2 hours before she woke up.... she got a big fright that she screamed when she
saw us... and that woke his lover up...
joe : babe, what is........ (looks at us)... oh no, who are you, what do you want?? you better leave
before I call the cops..
me : how you gonna do that without a phone?? he started looking for his phone then I showed
him that I had it and I had Tshidi's phone...
Tshidi : how did you get in here??
me : next time darling, if you know that you gonna be getting all nasty, you should always make
sure the doors are locked...
james : I so admired you Tshidi, thought you were very unique but you just like all other girls...
the only difference is that you good at hiding your true self....
Tshidi : am......
me : sorry?? is that what you about to say?? please girl, shut your mouth...
joe : you don’t tell my girl to shut her mouth owk...
I looked at him then I quickly stood up and beat him up... Tshidi was busy crying and holding me,
so I told james to hold her back.... I beat that guy till he couldnt breath an blood was spilled
everywere... james then let go of Tshidi and held me, dragging me to the car...
me : why?? dude why??
him : lets just go dude....
we drove and we got home... I got out of the car pissed as ever, I was really mad very mad... I
then whent to my room, knelt on the floor and prayed, well its been a while since I really prayed
without a reminder... mostly I was in tears but I said a word or 2.. "god forgive her, for she
doesn’t know what she is doing" james burged in while I was praying and crying, I guess he
figured I was praying so he stayed and listened to me crying and that made me embarrased when
I opened my eyes and saw him...
me : bro, don’t you know its rude to listen to peoples conversations...
him : sorry, but I didn’t want to miss a show that only broadcast ones in a lifetime...
me : (chuckles) you mean me crying??
him : yah, priceless..
me : (laughs) shut up bro...
him : am sorry mahn, no man deserves this...
me : its owk him : want a hug??
me : then you gonna want a kiss right??
him : (lol) come here.... come here....let me kiss you...
he was just being playfull, he always plays like that and that stuff is really funny, wish you could
see his face when he does that and how he pulls his lips..
me : bro cut it out... lol
him : now let me hug you...
he huged me then cut it out.. then we went to the living room to play games... after some hours,
there was a bell on the door..... james went to open and I heard a voice..
voice : good evening sir, we looking for mr khumalo
I turned around and it was the police.. I stood up and went to them....
me : I am mr khumalo, how can I help you...??
police : sir, you are under arrest for assault, you have the right to remain silent.............
he kept on talking, telling me of what they say always... two policeman came and handcuffed me
then took me to the car, james know very well not to be jumping aroung, he immediatly just
called my lawyer while I went to the car.. the car drove and I arrived at prison....
its strange, I didn’t have fear, no worry I was just angry that Tshidi actually would let this happen
after everything she did....
*********lesego**********
when themba left I wanted to go after him but joe was really in a bad state so I quickly went to
get a bowl of water, cloths and a first aid kit... I treated his wounds then when I was done... I gave
him pain killers. he would not stop talking about how he was gonna make themba pay... after
hours he left....
I wanted to call themba but I thought he was still in flames so I let him cool of... in about 2 hours
or so I got a call from james..
me : hay, listen am sorry, I.......
him : cheating on him wasnt enough huh??
me : what???
him : what did he do to you?? huh??
me : james I........
him : you what?? you didn’t get the reaction you want now you threw him in jail huh??
me : what do you mean??
him : so you gonna play dumb huh??
me : jame........
him : you know what, mabye its a good thing that you sent themba to jail, hope he becomes
hardcore and start being a playboy... you hurt my boy you hurt me.... he hung up and I was left
shocked... " themba in jail ?? "
I immediatly called joe... he answered on the 2nd ring...
him : hay boo
me : did you do it??
him : what??
me : did you sent themba to prison??
him : so you heard..... I was gonna tell you...
me : joe, are you out of your mind??
him : no, listen if themba is gone, we can have time to ourself..
me : you such a piece of work...
I droped the call and hurried to the police station...
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********lesego*********
I got to the police station and went to the security man standing at the door...
me : excuse me sir, were do I go if I wanna visit a person in here??
he led me to the other officer and they asked me who I wanna visit.. I told them then they took
me to the visiting window ( I don’t know what they call them ) and went to call him.... when he
came, he looked very angry, he placed his face fixed on mine and sat on the chair with such
attitude. mind you I have never seen themba with such attitude. I was scared, nervouse, all the
things you can think of.. feelings were just playing around with me...
me : hay..
him : *****silence*****
me : am sorry, I didn’t know....
him : ******silence******
me : please say something??
him : are you happy??
me : babe, you need to believe me when I say I had nothing to do with this..
him : believe you?? I believed you when you said you loved me, but look were we are now..
me : babe..........
him : how did you pass all my tests and still not be the one??
me : what?? you got your memory back??
him : partly, yes.... and I wish I hadnt, in that way I would have never went to your house...
me : am sorry, owk, but its not my fault...
him : really?? who's fault is it?? huh??
me : well, I saw you kissing the nurse, so.....
him : so you wanted to pay revenge on sleeping with another man.??
me : no its not like that...
him : listen, I better leave before I say something I will regret...
he stood up pushed his chair in then looked back to me.....
him : anyway, when I kissed the nurse I thought it was you, but I didn’t sleep with her.... I loved
you so much to do such thing to you....
he left, I couldnt even utter a word.. I stood up and left, when I got outside I cried really hard... "
what did I do, what mess did I get myself into, themba was a great guy, he was a wonderful guy..
I really messed up" I went home and called joe to come over, I wanted to give him a piece of my
mind.... I heard the bell and I quickly went cause I thought it was joe... but as I opened the door it
was james...
me : oh, its you..
him : expecting someone, your lover to be specific??
me : no, I just wasnt expecting you...
him : right,..
me : so, how can I help you.?
him : I wanted to look into your eyes and ask why you sent themba to prison??
me : I didn’t, really I didn’t know, I only found out when you told me on the phone....
he looked at me and I really didn’t know what to say
him : fine, not that I believe you, but I also need your help..
me : with what??
he handed me his phone and there was a picture of themba being taken by the police online...
this post had so many views and shares....
him : its also in the papers... we need to help clear his name...
me : how??
him : you need to come clean with what happened to the press..
me : what do you mean " come clean "??
him : you need to tell everyone why themba did what he did...
me : you mean, tell everyone that I cheated on him, thats why he beat that guy up...??
him : yes, its good points... given that you did that while he was still recovering from his
accident...
I looked down thinking about this... then as I was about to speak.. someone was at the door.. I
wasn’t thinking that I was expecting joe, so I just opened up.... joe was at the door, holding a
bottle of champagne and a bunch of flowers and he had a big grin on his face... if I knew this guy
was so annoying I wouldnt have done things with him....
he doesn’t get the point that it was a mistake... he is exectly like lucia....
james : huh!! so you were expecting someone?? huh??
me : j......
him : its cool, I see were your love and loyalty is...
james left and joe just looked at me...
joe : what was that about??
me : you are so disgusting.... leave....
joe : bu.......
me : I said leave...
joe : tsh.....
me : leave damn it........
I pushed him out and closed the door and locked the door...then I went to my room to cry my
eyes out, so my kids were in their room with their nanny so I had to lock my room so that the
nanny doesn’t come to me with my boys, I don’t wanna upset my boys.... I cried my self to
sleep.... I was full kit....
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I woke up the next day very early in the morning... after I went to my babies room and saw the
nanny still sleeping.... I went and sat next to them then started crying again as I picked them up (
they were still sleeping ) then as they woke up they started cryin... the nanny woke up...
her : mam? are you owk??
me : ***whiping my tears*** am owk...
her : mam, I mean Tshidi, I am also a woman, I understand what you going through..
me : what do you know??
her : I know whats going on, I mean am always in the house and when you guys speak y'all shout,
so I heard and seen whats going on... how your husban beat that guy and he sent him to prison
and now they think you did it...
me : its all my fault hay.....
her : no, the guy is the one who took advantage on you..
me : but I allowed him...
her : owk, wether its your fault or not, it doesn’t matter.... the question is what are you gonna do
about it....
me : sigh..... well I think I know what to do....
her : so do it... not only for yourself, but for your kids and husband...
me : owk.... listen I need you to come help me film a video..
her : owk... what you gonna do...
me : am going to do whats right.. firstly I am gonna go bath then apply make up, fix my hair then
we will be ready.... owk??
me : sure, I will be here with the kids when you done...
her : sure....
I went to get a bath then did my make up and went to call the nanny.... she came with the boys
to the dinning room then I sat down and got prepared...
her : you ready??
me : yes.. her : 3....2....1.... action..
me : good morning everybody... my name is maTshidiso khumalo.....
I said everything that happened, from the time I was pragnant, to the bad news, to themba's
accident, to themba lossing his memory, to me seeing him lusting on the nurse, to me being
jelouse, to me being unfaithfull and to the beating themba gave joe... I mensioned everything
and concluded....
me : what themba did is not wrong, anyone was gonna do the same thing if provoked... joe is
lucky to be alive... its all my fault, imagin, being in the situation were you not yourself then when
you find yourself, you find out that your supposed wife is cheating.... what could you have
done....?? am sorry...
as I started crying, the nanny switched the camera off and looked at me and consoled me...
her : should I??
me : yes, please.. she did it, she posted it online... I really miss themba, I miss my old relationship
back... I wish everything will clear and I will get themba back....
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*****week 2******
its been 2 weeks since I droped the video.. no word from themba, no word from james... I was
just playing around with my sons and the nanny took a couple of days off ( well I insisted that she
does because I needed time with my babies, since its the only thing I have..... oh and my
grandparents..) I was in the kitchen, music playing loud.... and my boys in their prima and me
entertaining them by cooking and singing along while dancing...
I heard the bell go on.. I went to the door, trying to think who it could be.... when I opened the
door, it was james and themba.. all in black suits... and well themba looked fresh as ever.. like, he
reminded me of when he looked this fresh at lesotho when I first found out about his royalty
(riches).... I didn’t notice I was staring...
james : (clearing throaght) you drooling...
me : mhm??
themba : can we come in?
me : sure..
I lead them to the couch, went to switch off the music then took my boys to be next to me as I
sat at a one seat couch... there was a weired silent, then themba signald something to james,
then james stood up...
james : can I go to the guest room with the kids?? I would like to bond a little with them..
me : hold up... what?
james : can I leave you and themba in private please.??
me : james, last time you were here, you went off at me.. and now you gonna pretend like
nothing happened??
james : so I was overreacting??
I don’t know why I was pissed, I guess I wanted attention or something, because I do know that
james had every right to be angry... but themba kept quite, as if he wasnt there... he kept looking
irritated but wouldnt say a word...
we were busy arguing when themba shut us down...
themba : won’t y'all just SHUT UUUUUP!!!!!! y'all acting like damn kids right now, like really...
Tshidi, why must you always be so extra?? why must you be so loud.. I mean we get the point,
you had an argument with james, he left you hot on the stove forgetting to put you off.. ʝαмєѕ,
why should you be debating with loud empty cans??
me : hold up, am a can now?? huh?? am a can no?? thats it... get out...
themba : don’t you dare start with me cause am shut you up....
he looked strickly in my eyes and his yes were a bit redish... I mean this guy is from prison (
speaking of prison, I wonder how he got out?? what if he excaped? ) prison guys get tough.. but
its been over 2 weeks so he couldnt have become tough so fast... but hay I didn’t want to take a
chance, expecially after he beat up joe so badly...
me : *****silence*****
themba : just as I thought... now james please excuse us...
james left with my boys and I sat were I was sitting... then he cleared his throught and looked at
me in my eyes....
him : I saw what you did for me...
me : huh??
him : your video.. congrats to almost 200 000 views..
me : thanks, so how did you get out of jail...??
him : I excaped...
me : WHAT!!! are you mad??
him : **laughs** you could have seen your face.... am kidding, your lover dropped the charges...
me : he's not my lover....
him : then what is he??
me : a colleague and a friend..
him : that service you... right..
me : themba......
him : listen, I didn’t com here to open old wounds.. I came to ask one question that has been
really buging me for days....
me : yes??
him : how many times, did you sleep with joe??
I looked down and got a bit emotional... as I looked up to see his face, I saw his eyes filling with
tears and I just couldnt take it... so I first lied...
me : once....
him : are you sure...
he looked at me... he's eyes were telling something so I actually bursted out the trueth..
me : owk, mabye twice...
him : mabye??
me : owk, twice.....
when I said that, he wanted to cry... I saw this cause he quickly wiped away a tear thinking I cant
see...
him : did you enjoy it??
me : huh??
him : be real with me...
me : themba I cant answer that question....
he dropped his head down and placed his hands on his face.. then he sighed loudly and sniffed as
if he was crying..... one thing I know fo sure, is that I really hurt themba.....
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Themba gave a silent treatment for about 10 minutes, then finally looked up straight in my
eyes...
him : so you slept with him 2 times, that means he was making you feel things.. huh?? taking you
to cloud 9....
me : silence
him : you catching feelings??
me : no ..... am not...
him : its cool.... I get it....
me : but....
him : bro, I love you soo much, but I cant be with you...
me : what do you mean??
him : I want a divorce....
me : huh??
him : yes, and my boys....
me : WHAT????? you crazy....
him : thats it am not about to fight with you.. prepare my boys for this weekend okay, and i will
update you about the divorce in few days time.. he stood up and left, I didn’t have the energy to
debate nor fight him, it was too much to take in... a few minutes later, james came out gave me
my boys and left... I figured he might have called him... I wasnt in the mood for anything and my
boys were hungry for my attention... I wanted to sleep but my boys were not having it, plus the
nanny was on leave....
****themba*****
when I got in the car I finally let a huge sigh and got thinking.. Tshidi's hurtfull reactions and tears
were all that was in my mind... but I wasnt backing down.. I mean I love Tshidi so much but I cant
live like this... just when I thought I found loyalty I get this betrayal...
I called james and after a minute he came out... he came in the car and saw me in deep
thoughts...
him : snap out bro, whats up.??
me : am divorcing Tshidi, and taking my kids to live with me..
him : what?? you crazy mahn??
me : what?
him : bro, you divorcing Tshidi?? why?? you love that girl....
me : I know I love her... I love her too much that you notice but does she love me the same??
him : she does bro...
me : well, I don’t think so.... she's just like all my exes... the only difference is why she cheated on
me..
him : what do you mean...?? how could you compare her to all those sharks..?
me : bro.. my exes dated me for money, she was the first person to date me without knowing
that am rich, even when I faked to be poor, she still loved me, so why would she cheat??
he just hook his head and drove on... I spend most of the road trip with her in my mind... could
this be the true end for us???
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it was friday today and I knew themba was coming to fetch the boys, I woke up early and went to
take a bath while my boys were still sleeping.. I made sure I bathed fast because my plan was to
take my babies and go to my grandparents..
I took a quick bath and when I was done I woke my boys up ( and I know thats cruel but I had too,
am not about to loose my babies ) and I bathed them... after sometime I was packing my stuff
and my babies stuff.... I don’t know how I got to forget about the time and slow my pace but
after a while I heard a bell... mind you halve my bags and my boys bags were already in the
dinning room....
I knew it was them, damn I messed up, I quickly took the bags to the room and took the kids to
the room too... I then went to open the door.... well unfortunatly it was james alone.. am saying
unfortunatly because a part of me still wanted wanted to see him....
me : you alone??
him : you wanted me to be with someone??
me : huh, no... I told him to come in then he sat on the couch....
him : I came here to get the boys..
me : cant you change your friends mind..??
him : nah, cant..
me : well, if he cant come here himself then am not giving you no boys, and you cant fight me...
him : Tshidi don’t do this...
me : its my boys, james... don’t you understand??
him : Tshidi...??
me : no james, my boys are not going anywere....
him : don’t push me into calling themba...
me : call him I don’t care....
he took his phone out and went to call him.. I know it may sound hush but this was the last
minute strategy I could come up with... so secret was to get themba here and try to let him be
alone then find a way to get him into the bedroom and thats the only way to soften him up... in
that way we can come up with something else.... james wrapped up his call and came to me...
him : are you always this stuborn??
me : well is he coming??
him : do you really want him to come to fetch the boys or you just wanna see him??
me : ****silence****
him : lol..... yall got a twisted love going on...
he sat down, I gave him some juice and we waited... after some time... themba rang the bell and
james went to open.... he entered and came straight to me..
him : am here now, can I have my boys...
me : owk, fine.... but first can I talk to you...
him : owk... make it snappy...
me : in private...(I looked at james)
james : I will go to the office... call me when you on the way...
themba : cool... J
ames left and he looked at me....
me : owk.... firstly I would like to say am sorry... I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness, but
please hear me out... you already taken everything from me... my boys, my marriage and mabye
my happiness for now... but am really sorry, like really sorry..
him : owk, you sorry, I get it... well am also sorry and I forgive you...
me : thank you....
him : my boys......
me : in the bedroom, their things are also packed...
he went up to the bedroom and I followed... he got in and went to the boys, picked them up
placed them into their primes and took their bags... I was standing at the door, so I got in, went
to my closet, closed the door and started crying... I knew the plan was not working, I had to
accept that my boys are going and themba really don’t want me anymore...
I cryed so hard but also trying to keep my voice down and that made me feel like I had a lump in
my throat... the last time I cried this hard was the time themba told me that he slept with lucia....
I thought he had left but I heard a knock on the closet door...
him : Tshidi, I think you should say goodbye to the kids... and please wipe your tears, you don’t
wanna upset them right??
I didn’t say anything, I just whiped my tears, but they were not paticipating.. I got out, with a fake
smile on my face but full tears flowing on my cheeks..
him : Tshidi, no tears...
me : (whiping my tears, but not paticipating ) well they not paticipating, can I say my good bye...
he handed me the kids and I sat on the bed, talked to my babies... after a small talk, I placed
them back on their prima... I wanted to go back in the closet, but themba pulled me...
him : am not trying to punish you...
me : owk....
him : am seriouse..
me : owk..
him : Tshidi, don’t be like this..
me : sorry...
him : I see you also packed your bags, you going somewere??
me : yep...
him : to your grandparents??
me : nop...
him : were??
me : don’t know...
him : owk.... I wanted to leave...
him : Tshidi??
me : what??
him : come here...
he came close to me and huged me, at first I didn’t want to hug him back but at the end I did... he
huged me tight then he pulled back.... when he did he looked at me and he also had tears in his
eyes...
me : let it all out (wisper)
he then kissed me intensly.. we fell on the remote and it turned the radio on and there was a
playlist playing on the 947... there was some really emotional music playing, it was the time of
the breakfast club... as we kissed our tears were making out... as we removed our clothings tears
were till flowing out... we both were having an intense hurtfull moment full of tears....
we kissed, tore clothing (literaly), scrached, bit each other, sucked each others necks and
bodies/souls exchanged, all this through tears... after he came, and I came, we didn’t sleep like
usuall, we cuddled and cried, like literaly crying while hugging like we each others teddy bears...
what could this mean??
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there was a long silence after the "coming" all I could here was his heart beat, my breathing and
his breathing and also the movement of my boys playing with their toys... I just stared in space
waiting for him to break the silence... I didn’t want to move, I didn’t want to sneeze or even clear
my throught because I was afraid that would take us back to reality... could it be that mabye he's
also waiting for me to break the ice?? or mabye he's also wondering like I am....
I started having a strong pee, but I didn’t want to move, but I really couldnt hold my pee so I just
gently got up and went to the bathroom.. well since I was already in the bathroom, I brushed my
teeth, got in the bath, played music and relaxed....

after a while I heard my boys crying so I quickly got out with a towl wraped around me and my
hair still dripping water, and I was still wet ( I just literaly got out the bath and ran to my boys)
well I guess themba beat me to it.. he was there, playing with them and feeding them, he had a
trouser only with his abs freely showing off...

me : thank you...

him : mhm (chuckles)..

me : what ??

him : nothing...

he smiled and raised one of his eyebrow... that moment I stared to the point that I didn’t even
notice him put the baby down... he was talking but I wasnt listening, just staring and being in my
own fantasy...

him : hello, anybody home?

me : mhm?? huh?? you talking to me??

him : no, am talking to the walls.. (fake smile)

me : am sorry, mxm, what were you saying??

him : your staring...

me : am sorry, I betta go bath..

I want back then I went back in the room to get my clothing... I went in continued bathing then
got out, then themba went into the bath and I stayed with my boys.. when he was done he came
out and sat on the bed.. he droped his head down in a manner that he might just say " Tshidi,
about what happend......" so to avoid that I just spoke....

me : I know what we did does not clear things up, so a penny for your thoughts??

him : **sigh** I love you Tshidi, I still love you even after evrything you did...

me : but.......??

him : I don’t know....

me : what does that mean??

him : Tshidi, I really don’t know.....

I kept quite, so did he... I don’t know wether we coming or going.... it has been minutes since we
were quite and I was really becoming impatiant......

me : you know what am not doing this with you... I am not gonna be played with.. please.. just
then you wanted nothing to do with me, and not so long ago we were matching in tears, whats
this??

him : am hurt Tshidi owk... I didn’t expect you to be sleeping with another man, not you babe...
do you know what went through my mind when I think of that picture?? huh??

me : am sorry...

him : Tshidi.... its like breaking a glass.... do you think if you break a glass its possible to glue it
back with every single tiny peace??
me : no...

him : exactly... you can only replace it..

me : do you mean to say, you gonna replace me??

him : I mean... my heart is the glass, you broke it, and it will never be perfectly how it was before,
unfortunatly, you cant replace it... Tshidi... my love for you is still strong even after you broke the
main thing that keeps me alive...

me : you speaking in riddles...

him : I wanna be with you, I wish I could, but love alone is not enough...

me : themba??

him : I need you to promise to try..

me : I will try,actually I will do that....

I went to him and huged him.... then he huged me tight too..... he then smiled and looked in my
eyes...

him : mamakhe

me : bai 2

him : hahaha... mamabo

me : bababo

we both laughed because that sounded weired... that time a very huge happiness hit my heart...
and I realised that indeed he is my happiness..... we then took the kids and went to get them
bathed then we watched movies and played some games.. now that was a very wonderfull day
for me....

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life was great for us, I moved back to his place and rented out my place ( that was a way to stop
me from leaving whenever we argue).. it was the 22 of may today, and its his brthday.. I didn’t
really did much on his birthday for these passed years ( thats why you never read on it) all I
would do was cook for him or buy him a suit or buy a watch, thats all.. but this year I was
planning something amazing and childish... so early in the morning I woke up and went outside, I
filled 3 buckets with water then hid them.. then I placed a chair with a card on it.. I then dialed
themba's number and called him......

him : babe?? were you at??

me : come dowm..

him : mhm??

me : come down...

I then dropped... he came down, he was on some cute rolles wearing some cute outfits.. but I
wasnt backing out my plan...

him : whats with the chair??

me : theres a card on it....

him : so do I have to sit??

me : yes...

he sat down and took the card..I took a rope and quickly wrestled him to the chair till I got to
wrap him around the chair... I quickly fetched the water before he could loosen himself... I
managed to pour him with 2 buckets of water and a halve then he got loose.. the card was wet, I
didn’t care because I had just written I love you on it... he was laughing and wet....

then he got in the house and the fun started.. I would dance to him and and sing to him... we
played games.. made videos.. challenges then the door bell rand... I fetched the delivery and told
him to stay in the bedroom with the kids...

I came and I went to him.. he looked confused and shocked... I then went on one knee.. and
handed him a bunch of flowers..

me : my love, I know that its weired, me giving you flowers, but you deserve them.. I love you
papa te̸e̸..

he laughed... he took the flowers, then I gave him another gift.. it was a full set suit... black and
maroon with the pins, watch, hat, shoes, everything then I bought him the most expensive colon
with other toiletries...

I also got us tickets to the upcoming world cup, now that really got him excited... after all the
presents.. I took him to the restaurants and went to play soccer (I lost) but I enjoyed... we went
to game shop to play games. then we went bowling, golf nd ice skating.. it was a hella great
party. for the first time I made something amazing for his birthday, now thats amazing..

we came back home and I gave him a foot massage, then it went to a back massage, then it went
to some goofy stuff ( no further details) (lol) james had taken the boys before we went out so we
were all alone... but we wouldnt end his birthday without his kids.. so we had told james to drop
them off at around 10... so after the goofy part, we had about 30 minutes then my boys arrived...
james left and we slept with the boys on the bed.... BEST FEELING EVER... just 4 of us, against the
world... I really love my family...

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its been few months now and we have been nothing but a happy family.. my boys were growing,
crowling and doing a little mumbling... themba gave them zulu names. few weeks after we made
up... (siyabonga and siyanda ) today, themba's father called for a meeting. I had no idea what he
was going to talk about... so we woke up early and cleaned up, then we prepared lunch and set
the table...

after few moments, the bell went on and we thought it might be his father, and indeed it was...
but he wasnt alone, he brought 2 other big looking guys, I assumed they were his business
partners or friends, but they were themba's uncles.....

me : dumeland bathubabahulu (good afternoon elders)

I had a long dress, sandals and a doek.. I always kept my head down avoiding eyecontact with my
inlaws.. I also had my shoulders covers with a light wide scarf...

them : yebo makoti..

I went to the kitchen. I then watched from a distance, themba led them to sit and started talking
to them... I wonder what brought them here... I wondered... then I came back with a tray of tea
and some buscuites, I didn’t want to give them heavy food as yet... I gave them and gave them
sugar, tea/coffee and milk to put for themselves, then returned the them to the kitchen and
came back...

me : I will be in the bedroom with my boys...

I headed to my boys, picked them up, but themba's father called me...
baba khumalo : makoti!!!!

me : baba?? baba khumalo : woza la mtanami ( come here my child) I went to him, carriying my
boys.. baba k

humalo : sit down..

I sat down... themba stood up and took siyanda/jaden and sat with him and I sat with
siyabonga/jade....

baba khumalo : we have a great issue we need to talk about, thats why today I came with your
uncles ben and thami.....

uncle ben : yebo, it involves the kids...

uncle thami : we are aware themba that you have given the kids their zulu names..

themba : yes I have..

uncle ben : whats their names.??

Themba : u siyabonga no siyanda...(saying with a smile)

uncle ben and uncle thami asked to take the kids... we gave them and they sat with them... my
boys were not really scared of people so they never cried..

baba khumalo : nice choice of names son..... so in short their both siya..??
Themba : (chuckles) yes...

baba khumalo : oh, lol...

uncle thami : themba, now its time to introduce them to their ancersters...

I immediatly sat straight and looked at themba, then looked at his uncles and father, then look
back at themba... WHAT??? themba looked at me with the same shock, then hesitated to speak..

uncle ben : don’t tell me you forgot..

baba khumalo : son, you know am not a traditional man, but I was told that this is the most
important ceremony..

Themba : but I don’t have to do it...

uncle thami : what are you saying?? that you don’t find this ceremony important??

Themba : I mean uncle, this ceremony is for traditional people, am no near than being
traditional... am fully christian...

uncle ben : so being a christian means you reject tradition??

Themba : well, what are you asking me, uncle??

uncle ben : am asking, does your church teach you to abondorn tradition??

themba : its not the church uncle, its my decition...

uncle thami : and where did the decition come from??

Themba : uncle, I can not pray to God and still call aporn ancersters, whitch are people who
passed away??

uncle ben : since you wanna be speaking about God.. didn’t his son die and we all still call aporn
his name??

Themba : he resareccted and was seen after resareccting, did those ancersters resarect??

uncle ben : boy, the ancersters are like the messangers of God, were do you think prophets and
traditional healers come from??

themba : uncle even the devil can give people the power to heal, bless and give life but only if it
benefits him... he gives and takes..

uncle thami : am not about to sit here and listen to this rubbish... khumalo, talk to your boy..

baba khumalo : son, I think its better to do this, just to be away from curse..

Themba : baba, if curse is what is brought to me, then let it be, God will remove the curse...

uncle ben : makoti, please speak to your husband...

I didn’t know what to say, most of the time I was keeping my head down and listening to the big
debate.. I had noticed that themba's father was also saying the least.... I thought of something to
say... it was hard but eventually I came up with something...

me : how about I dish up some food and evrybody calms down...

Themba : Tshidi, theres so food that is gonna be dished up, and theres no calming down, sorry if I
sound disrespectfull but theres no ceremony that will be done... Tshidi, take the kids and go to
the room...

I stood up, went to the uncles and took the kids as I bid goodbye, then I went to the room... I
stayed in the room for close to an 30 minutes then I heard footsteps.. and I quitly opened the
door because I knew it was him...

me : are they gone ??

themba : yes

he got in and jumped on the bed, face down... I went out and dished up food for us.. I took the
food to the room and placed them on the table.. I poured us juice and shook him to come eat..

me : bae, come eat..

he stood up and I handed him the food and we ate... he didn’t even finish his food and his juice...
I took his plate and drank his juice (it was delicious) then went to wash the dishes... I came with a
massage oil and a rub... he was laying on his stomache again, so I sat on his butt and tried to take
off his shirt... (he thought I wanted some romance)..

him : Tshidi, no..

me : (chuckles) what??

him : don’t think about it please...

me : am not thinking about anything, just a massage...

him : oh, a massage?? go ahead then..

I took off his shirt and started massaging him, very gently and smooth, using the oil with my
hands and a rub.... then I went up to his neck... then down to his feet.... when I was done...I
thought he was sleeping, because he was still and his eyes were closed.. but he wasnt..

him : you cheating.....

me : what do you mean (chuckles)

him : you havin't massaged my front..

me : what front??

him : my abs, chest and my arms, I mean muscles...

I wanted to laugh, but I held myself....

me : okay then, turn around...

he turned and faced up, then I placed oil all over his upper body and massaged his upper body...
he was there laying as I sat on his manhood and massaged him.... he didn’t react, but just relaxed
and enjoyed.... I have one big drama king......

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when I was done, I got off and he sat up...

him : oooooo, I feel refreshed

me : I know I have magic hands..

him : hahahahaha....

me : now mr, its time for my massage...

I took of my dress when I said that, I was left with a tights and a bra and he was just giving me a
naughty look..

me : nononono, don’t even think about it..

him : what?? cant I admire what is mine.??

me : LOL, owk then, my massage, please..

him : fine, lay down..

I lay on my stomache and he untied my bra at the back and I took it off, then he placed oil on his
hands and massaged me... I lay flat and enjoyed the massage, it was very relaxing, expecially
when he goes up to my neck... when he was done, he went to my feet. it was very ticklish and I
would always pull my feet or squash it and that really makes him off, and then I would laugh...but
its not my fault that my feet are so tickilish... he even likes tickling me when I say something out
of order and he is massaging my feet.. then he was done..

him : owk my lady, now turn around so that I massage your front..

me : ohhh nononono, boy I don’t trust you...

him : come on, it wouldnt be fair for you to massage me and I don’t, phela its a very nice
experiance....

me : well if you say so.....

I turned around and faced up, he gave a big grin as he placed oil on my breast and stomache... he
started massaging me and as he said, its the most amazing experiance ever... he kept on moving
his hands very low, almost close to my v-line... then he would play around my belly botton and
playing with my breast...

I won’t lie, this really turned me on, and I started moaning alittle, I played too relaxed to realise
that I was moaning, but my aim was to get him in the mood... I started biting my lips and moving
my head side by side with my eyes closed... he stoped..

me : what now, don’t tell me you done??

him : no, am not, I wanna get a special oil..

me : owk...

I laid there with my eyes closed, then jade started crying and jaden was playing with his toy, but
when he heard his brother cry, he had an upsetting facial expression..

I quickly picked up jade and fed him... then I played around with the both of them... because I
had nothing on my upper body, jaden and jade would always play with my boobs, and themba
came in...

him : no boys, no touching touching my boobs... you have your owk food..
me : tell daddy " this is also our food"

he laughed and sat with us on the floor and took his tablet to play a cartoon videos.. then he took
my hand..

him : can I finish what I started..??

me : cool, but the kids..

him : they have something to entertain them...

I stood up and laid up again and closed my eyes... I was expecting more oil on my skin, but
instead I felt the most colest thing on my belly button..

me : what?? themba?? is that ice??

him : shhh, enjoy the coldness bae..

I laid back and waited for him to place the ice again... it was really cold, like I could help myself
but arch my back and grap the sheets, expecially when he droped the ice from betwen my breast
down to my v-line...

he sat squat position on me and that made it worse, because when I arched my back I would feel
his manhood and everytime I do that his manhood became hard.. but hay, thats what I wanted
from the begining right?? lol...

I was waiting for another ice when I felt his lips touch mine.. as he kissed me intence responded
with the same intensity.... he started grabing and I grabed then he pulled me towards him and I
held him tight.. I unbuttoned his trouser and took it halve way off, and he pulled it out.... we got
undressed and things happened as we went to cloud 9 and back... after he fell on me and I
pushed him off..
me : themba... you know you heavy naaaa...

him : lol...

I checked my boys and found that they were still crowling around and the tablet was playing on
its own...

me : so much for entertainment

him : huh??

me : the boys are not watching the videos, they busy playing with their toys and crowling
around..

him : when they start to walk, we gonna have a problem..

me : lol..

I stood up as butt naked as I am and picked them up... I wanted them to sleep, but they were not
having it, they wanted to climb off the bed... so I had to sleep halve awake..... while themba
sleeps deeply...... the struggle of being a mother......but I got no regrets....

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I felt someone pulling the blankets and I opened one eye to check and it was jaden... I picked him
up and fetched jade aswell, I placed them on the bed and themba also woke up..

him : they sleepy??

me : yes, finally, now I can sleep...

him : lol... I will keep watch of them don’t worry, you go to sleep...

me : owk.. I then freely slept..

****themba****

it has been few minutes since Tshidi has been sleeping, then I recieved a call from my aunt..

me : mamncani??

her : themba whats wrong with you??

me : what??

her : abo malume told me everything..

me : yeah right, I hope they also told you that I am not doing that ceremony..

her : themba you putting your kids in danger...

me : no danger shall prosper in my kids life, in Jesus name..

her : does your wife agree with this?? or did she put you up to this??

me : leave my wife out of this... as a father I say no..

her : themba, you gonna regret this..

she hung up the call and I just shook my head...I don’t understand people at some point.. I mean
its owk if my family believes in ancerstersm but that doesn’t mean they should force me to
believe as well....

I then decided to leave things be, I checked my emails, responded to some.. I then went on
youtube to watch some videos, I mean I was bored and I didn’t want to wake Tshidi up, she
needed to rest... after a while I fell asleep aswell but not deep in sleep. but after a while I woke
up to go to the toilet...

as I woke up I heard jaden breathing very heavy and painfully. I tried putting him in a good
sleeping position but still it was like it was getting worse... I woke Tshidi up...

me : bae!!!! bae!!!!

her : themba!!! this better be important..(waking with one eye closed)

me : its jaden...

she quickly opened her eyes and looked at me then at jaden.... she tried waking him up but he
was not crying and not waking up.... Tshidi started crying heavily thinking jaden was dying.. I
quickly called the hospital that we on our way and took the kids and drove to the hospital... when
we got there, the doctors took jaden and we stayed behind... Tshidi was very emotional...

her : bae, I thought that it was my luck to make it alive with both my kids.... but no..(crying)

me : babe, no one is leaving no one, owk...

her : themba, my baby....

she cried and I just held her.... after a few moments.. the doctors came..

doc : mr and mrs khumalo??

me : yes...

doc : this is really serious......

me : what is going on doc??

doc : the problem is unknown, but he show that they are unwell

me : you not making sense doc..

doc : he was having heavy breathing troubles... and he tends to be having a failing heart..

me : meaning ??

doc : he has limited time to live..

me : does he need a heart transplant??

doc : no, he is too young to have a heart transplant, so he only has 2-3 months to live... am sorry
sir...
I couldnt help but break down.. I looked at jade and he was just in his mothers hands not
knowing what was happening.... I wonder what was going on, I wonder why all this is happening
to us... but I say in jesus name.. my child will see his 10th birthday...

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**a week later***

***Lesego***

G̸its been a week, jaden has not been the same... we have been going to cancelling and we have
been praying more and fasting more.. themba's family were on our backs about the ceremony or
else jaden would be nomore.. but I told themba to not loose heart...

today we decided to take jaden for a special prayer... so I prepared my kids and themba got
ready, we left.... after the prayer we came back home... jaden was like very weak... he wasnt
crying alot like before or even laughing... my heart was distroyed...

we got home and started cooking,,, after I dished up and we all had food.. the house was dull,
themba was stressed and most of the time he was staring in space... and I was also just in
thoughts... I then decided to call my grandparents.. my grandma answered on the 2nd ring...

her : hao, ngwanaka...

me : ngono, how are you??

her : am great and you??

me : (started crying) am coping ma..

her : ahhhh, whats wrong??

me : its jaden ma, he's not well

her : did he catch flue??

me : no ma, I think this ancerstrial ceremony situation is causing this..

her : eash my baby, God is with you..

me : yes ma, I know..

her : yes, don’t doubt that... He is protecting you, don’t forget, this might be a test.. pass it..

me : thank you ma...

her : don’t be forced to do what you don’t believe in, you live your life. believe in what you
believe in, make the bible your guider...

me : owk

her : hows mkhwenyana?

me : he's doing owk ma..

her : send our love to him..

me : owk
her : let me go nana, will call you again, your grandfather needs me, he is also sick..

me : what’s wrong with him

her : old age nana, but he will be owk...

me : I will put him in my prayers...

her : do so nana, we will also put jaden in our prayers...

me : send my love to him

her : owk, will do...

I got off the phone and realised themba was walking in..

me : I was on the phone with my grandma..

him : how they doing?

me : they owk, grandpa is sick though....

him : will he be owk??

me : yah, he will, oh, and they send their love to you..

him : did she literaly say that??

me : yes..

him : owk.. I then went to my kids and played with them and themba also joined... I hope
everything will be owk.... semi final

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***a month later****

(the boys birthday) its the 7th of october and the second month of Jaden’s countdown, its either
this is his last month or he still has one month to go..... jaden was not becoming better, instead
he was becoming worse, he was starting to be like a zombie (doesn’t cry, doesn’t laugh nor even
crowl) he would literaly just sit were you placed him and he would either sleep or just lay and
stare in space...

I have been crying day in and day out, I have also literaly lost weight because of this stress..
themba on the other hand has been really tight with the bible and prayers and going to church... I
also decided to join him a week ago, now we fighting together.. theres no use crying over a
situation so I decided to take a faithfull decition.. its God or death... since it was jade and jadens
birthday, I wanted to do something amazing for them...

so I took them to a kids show, I made sure to take as many pictures as possible... then we went to
a restaurant to eat... then we took them to a game spot, were they play with their plastic balls
and all... we had a great time, but jaden was not active... he spent all his first birthday as if he was
forced to have a birthday,.... I was worried sick...

we came back home and went straight to bed... I got the kids to sleep in our room as always since
jaden had his episode...

in the morning, I heard a baby cry, I thought it was jade, he was crying very painfully, I got up to
find out that jade was asleep and he just woke up because of the cry of jaden... I got very happy,
not because I was happy that his crying but because finally, after so many days of not crying he
finally lets out the cry... I took him and fed him while themba tried to get jade back to his sleep...

******1 year later*****

today is exactly one year later... its my boy's second birthday and guess what...... jaden is still
alive... he's active, happy, smilling and naughty.. (lol) I must say, God is really great... themba's
family were shocked that not doing the ceremony didn’t really cause any harm, even though yes
it did have a drag in our lifes, but we managed to go through it as a family....

themba pushed a faith that was impossible to many, even to myself, but I backed him up because
he was my husband and I loved him... today we were having a big day of the difference of last
years birthday and todays birthday.. I am truely blessed to have a husband like themba and for
him to give me kids like my boys...

we were at home when themba decided to cook my favourit meal... jade and jaden were busy
running around the house with their matching full kid addidas outfits, guess they loved them
more then what I bought (full kid nike outfit), but no worries they will wear it on sunday when
they go to church....

I got this weird smell, that really upsetted my stomache because I immediatly ran to the
bathroom... themba came rushing to see if am owk..

him : bae are you................ yuk, thats disgusting...

me : get out..

I said that standing up to flush... then I went to him with the attempt to kiss him (I knew he wasnt
gonna kiss me, so I was fooling around)

me : come kiss me...

him : ohhh, nooooooo

me : lol, come... mwa mwa..

him : bro, am never gonna kiss you owk, you got some disgusting things on your mouth... whats
wrong?? want me to get a doctor..??

me : no, if you kiss me, I will be alright..

him : oh no girl, aint happening..

me : owk, then I will kiss you..

I started chasing him and he would run away screaming like a girl... jade and jaden would laugh
as he starts picking them up and hiding his face behind them then putting them down and
jumping couches...

me : man am tired..

I then went back to the bathroom and brushed my teeth then went to sit down... the smell was
still there, even stronger.. so I opened windows, sprayed some spray and themba brought the
meal..

me : what did you put in here??

him : nothing, just the usual..

me : I cant eat this, I rather have a smoothie or a salad please...

he stared at me for a while then smiled... he then went and made me a salad and a smoothie... I
took my smoothie and poured it in the salad and mixed it then went upstares to eat were the
smell was not sorrounding...

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***Themba***

I went up after a moment because Tshidi was not coming down... I went up and jade and jaden
were following me, then I got in the room and Tshidi was sleeping...

this girl had red puffs dipped in yogured then he had ice-cream mixed with buiscutes... her salad
mixed with a smoothie and some buns with chips and mayonais... this was one big mess... I
wonder whats wrong with her... I mean only pregnant people eat like this.......

hold up, what if she's pregnant?? I quickly got my phone and orderd a pregnancy test online....
while I wait, am gonna have to make sure the boys are clean, cause right now they are a mess...

I bathed the boys, got them clean, then cleaned the room in which Tshidi made a mess in... after
a moment, I heard a bell, then I quickly went down cause I knew it was my delivery... I placed the
pregnancy test next to her and watched her and my boys.. my boys actually slept the minute they
got done with their bath... after a few minutes, I couldnt wait so I woke her up..

me : baby!!! baby...

her : mhm....

me : wake up...
her : babe, am tired...

me : well, it wouldnt be fair to be always sleeping, when wil I bond with my 3rd child??

her : huh?? she quickly got up and looked at me...

her : what did you say?? a 3rd child??

me : yes...

her : so you got another girl pregnant??

me : no, you dummy girl... I got you pregnant....

her : mxm, if you trina trick me in the conversation of having another child, you got your face
dumped boy...

me : I got my face dumped?? owk... theres a pregnancy test...

*****Tshidi***

I looked at the pregnancy test and I was like hold up, vele vele when was the last time I got my
periods?? shuks 2 months back..... holy cow... themba could be telling the truth, ngipopile... I
took the test and waited... we were both so impatient but I was very scared, and he was very
excited.... a few moments later, the results came out and indeed.....

I AM PREGNANT.... he was so happy and even went to wake the boys up just to tell them the
news (not that they even understood what he was saying) then he took them back to sleep......
him : ohhhhh, baby number 3..

me : shut up...

***4 years later***

today is my birthday... my 2 boys are 6 years old now and my baby girl is 3 years old (well 2 years
and 8 months) they have prepared a nice homecooked meal for me and my boys were having
their first school year this year... themba had finally managed to open 4 offices of his company in
SA and we had bought 6 houses cash.. 3 in SA(jhb and CT and durban) 1 in uk(london) 2 in
USA(nyc and florida) we also had cars.. I hade 2 hotels and restaurants. (a african hotel and
restaurant and a modern hotel and restaurant).... I also was a dance teacher and a owner of a
production team, we both were also owners of a sports academy... everything was going well and
amazing... life was good...

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*** 4 months later***

today is my baby girls birthday... its the 8th of june... yep she's a winter baby. I wanted to give
her a zulu name but themba had a name already which was mbali and I gave her a english name
jane.... I guess I wanted to keep the J as a common letter among my kids...lol....

so we thought we should make a very nice birthday for her, so we invited all the creche kids and
parents then we invited the sunday school with their parents... we also made jumping castles,
small play grounds with toys, and a ball pool... we also baked cakes, had face paints and all
that....
we had music and everyone was enjoying.... evryone was having fun, kids were laughing and
playing and jane was also having fun... jade and jaden were also having, but mostly they were
playing by themeselves....

I could see that jade was kind of different, he loved playing with girls, and loved dolls... the last
time jade used my lipstick and wore my dress, when jaden saw that he laughed and took him to
us, for us to laugh, surely jaden didn’t know what he was doing, he just thought we would find it
funny....

themba was furious, he got up angry and picked up jade agressivly and went with him upstairs...
themba must have grabed jade very agressive because jade started crying and that made jaden
started crying aswell, I ran after him to make sure he doesn’t hurt my baby.... as I got upstairs, I
found him in our room, rubbing jade's face with anger and stripping my dress off him and
shouting at him "jade u a boy, boys don’t wear this"....

so seeing him with girls at jane's party reminded me of that moment... I made sure not to keep
my eyes off him, just incase themba looses it.....

as I was there, I saw him coming to me...

him : hay babe, so everything is good??

me : yah, all is well...

him : were's mbali??

me : there....

him : my boys??

me : over there...
luckly when he looked, jade and jaden were playing together, so that was cool...

him : I just came from the office, sorry I didn’t come intime to help you set up...

me : its cool, I know work can really be a mission...

him a; yah...

so we talked and laughed and enjoyed ourself, after the party, we bathed the kids and send them
to bed, then we went to clean the yard, it was cleaning and messing agin because he would want
to hit me with the dirt playfully....

we finished cleaning hours after then we went to take a bath...

I went in first then he went after, we were both just so tired and as we placed our heads down
we blacked out...

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my alarm went off at 5am and I wished it never had gone off, because I was really tired, but the
excitement off what was going to happen at work today helped me fight the laziness and the
sleep....

I also had to remember that I was a mom now, and not only a mom but a doctor, teacher,
councillor, friend and all that.. given that jade and jaden are in school now doing grade 1.... jane
is still in creche and soon also going to school so I had to come to terms to the fact that my
babies need me...
but mostly themba's needs also needs to be met.... I am mrs khumalo now, so I need to make
sure that Tee is happy....

as yall know, I am an owner of 2 restaurants and 2 hotels.. I have managers there, people who I
pay to make sure that everything goes according to place, then I was the owner/boss... I would
only go there unexpectedly and check on the staff and the place, wether the hotel rooms were
clean or if the customers were happy....

mostly I was involved with my production team and sports academy, unlike themba he is always
on a go... even if he hired a manager to take care of things, he is sometimes needed at the place
physically for deals and contracts....

so he has a more tougher job then I....

he was off today and I had to go to my production team because we had a competition coming
up....

so I quietly got up and went to take a bath after I wore my gown on top off my underwear...I
didn’t want to get dressed because I still had to bath the kids and make breakfast and make lunch
for them then wash the dishes when am done, then help them brush their teeth then only after
that shall I get dressed... wouldnt want to mess myself....

I wanted to wake themba up to help me with the preparation of the kids, because he always
helps... but it was his day off and he was sleeping peacefully so I made myself superwoman and
swore to do everything alone....

I woke jade and jaden up, then I bathed them, I then clothed them and made them lay next to
themba as I go wake jane and bath her.... after bathing jane I went to check on jade and jaden
and these kids were not laying, they were busy play fighting with their father on the bed....
I got in with jane in my hands, all dressed up...

me : jade!! jaden!! yall gonna get yourself dirty...

jade : no we won’t mom, we on the bed...

me : who told you that??

jade : I just know...

me : waphapha hle..

jaden laughed as jade pouted...

themba saw him pouting I guess because Immediatly I saw him softly hitting jade on the mouth..

themba : don’t pout, only girls do that...

jaden would just laugh...

I stared at themba and he just looked at me and then back at playing with them....

me : come, lets go have breakfast....

they cheerfully went down running but themba stayed behind... I turned to leave but he stopped
me...
Tee : bae.???

me : yessss...

Tee : do you think am a bad father??

me : can we talk about this when I get back from settling the kids??

Tee : sure....

I went down and themba's question haunted me the whole time....

I dished for them then I left them there with jane on her baby seat so that she wouldnt move...

me : jade! jaden! you sit here and eat owk, no moving around owk....

both : yess mom....

me : watch yourl sister and make sure I find yall clean and seated like this when I come back...

jaden : owk mom..

jade : were are you going mom??

me : am going to check on dad owk....

jade : is he sick??
me : no baby, he is just sad....

jaden : why??

me : sigh........ just eat yall food owk, I will tell you when I come back...

both : yess mom....

I then went up... when I got in, themba was in the shower so I sat on the bed, trying to figure out
why themba asked me that question... just in a split he got out of the shower with only a towel
wraped around his waist..... I don’t know why but I always get turned on when he is like that....
him : ohh, you dropped the kids already??

me : nop, they in the kitchen, having breakfast...

him : why didn’t you wake me up to help you..??

me : you really looked peacefull when you were sleeping so I didn’t want to wake you up...

him : thats very thoughtfull for you, but really uneccessary...

me : mhm......

him : anyway its cool.....

me : themba, about what you said.....

him : let it go...

me : you not a bad father....

him : owk..

he was not facing me, so I held his face and made him look at me, then I stared at him.... he had
fear and a look of lost, like he lost something....

me : baby, whats wrong....??

he just stared at me then he kissed me...

I pulled back...

me : themba!! speak to me.....

him : sigh....... do you think, jade is gonna be gay??

me : I don’t know...

him : I have failed him....

me : no you havent...

him : yes I have....

he looked really sad and down, so I huged him and before I knew it we heared someone scream..
we looked at eachother and ran downstares....
when we got down, we realised that a glass had fallen...

me : what happened??

jaden : I wanted to pass my left over juice to jade because I was full and I asked him if he wanted
it and he said yes, so I passed it with style, like pusing it just as they do on tv, but jade couldnt
catch it so it fell....

themba : who screamed??

jaden : jade...

me : he cut himself...

themba : how did you cut yourself jade??

jade : I wanted to pick up the pieces so that you and mom will not shout at jaden and me, so I
picked them up but got cut really painfully...

as they were talking I went to get the 1st aid kit and cleance the wound and plaster it...
themba whent up and changed then volunteered to take the kids to school....

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I think I might have fallen asleep and didn’t hear themba walk in....

he woke me up...
him : sleeping again?? should I expect a baby number 4??

me : lol, now you crazy, remember I am preventing, we use condoms and lastly I just got off my
periods yesterday.... soooo nop....

him : lol..... mara babe why you preventing vele, we could just use condoms, I just don’t trust
that...

me : don’t worry mahn.....

him : so, are you also off today??

me : nop, I am going to my production team, we need to practice...

him : cant they practice without you??

me : yes they can but I wanna be there...

him : more than you wanna be here??

me : no, themba... I wanna be here, its just.......

him : you wanna be with them more than with me.... I get it...

I didn’t know what to do now..... you know its being a while since themba changed... like he has
become a little controling and has alot of anger hidden in him.... I really thought we were cool
but seems like there's something wrong with him....
I then took my phone and called my helper to go on without me as I won’t be coming in today..
hloni loves me and likes flirting with me, but he knows I will never flirt back because am
married....

me : hloni, listen I cant come in today, could you please take over for today??

him : whats wrong?? you sick??

me : nop, am not...

him : so you just lazy??

me : no....hahahahahahha, hai wena, its personal...

him : well, not that am happy but I get it....

me : thanks skat.....

him : you owe me though!!

me : owe you what??

him : a kiss!!

me : ohhh please, why would I wanna kiss you??

him : as a thank you...

me : am married hloni, hold yourself.....

him : I still wish you would divorce him and marry me....

me : never gonna happen...

him : owk... beautifull

me : hahaha.... bye hlonie....

I hung up.... and as I turned I saw themba looking at his fingers with anger on his face..... t̸he̸ ̸ l̸ast̸
time I saw such anger, someone got beat up....

me : huh..... I concelled.....

him : who was that??

me : my helper...

him : female or male ??

me : male....

him : so yall always so flirty??

me : well, he knows am married...

him : obviously because you have a ring on your finger but that won’t stop him from getting what
he wants...

me : themba that won’t happen, are you still angry at me...??

he just left.....

********themba*******

I won’t lie, I was pissed as a red bull.... I guess I had not forgiven Tshidi for what she did to me.... I
drove around and stopped at a restaurant... it was one of Tshidi's restaurants...ihad my meal
then sat for some time... a lady approached me...

her : such a nice man sitting alone?? why...

me : well we also need time to think don’t we...??

she looked at my finger and saw my ring...

her : wife problems??

me : if I say no, will you go??

her : man of attitude, I like...

me : woman of being lost, I don’t like...

her : well you can help me be found...

me : no thank you, but I will let my collegues know about you, mabye they would be up for
that,,...

her : are they mascular and handsome like you....??

she said this touching my shoulders down to my arms then held my face...

me : well no one is like me.... they either below or above....

her : your wife must be lucky...

me : very lucky, but ungratefull...nx

her : you see, who knows, you might be here thinkin, while she is with another person in bed....
I quitly looked at her and immediatly the image of her and that man from the past shot back...
and immediatly I stood up and left....

before I left I went to a store and bought a "horny pill"....

the pill wasnt for her to be horny and for me to get her out of her missary, but it was for me to
punish her... I wanted he to be horny and I was gonna lock the door and watch her be missarable,
making sure she doesn’t musterbate or do something to satisfy herself....

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*****lesego*****

Themba left in such anger, I wonder where he went.... I wanted to leave and go to my team but I
was afraid that would really make themba worse.... So I waited for him....
I really waited long though, so I decided to sleep....

*****themba*****

I got home, parked my car and went in the house... There was no sign of Tshidi in the kitchen so I
went to the living room, DOLOLO... I quickly went to the bedroom and I found her sleeping... I
looked at her for a long time then I went Downstairs to make some juice....

I went down, poured us both juice and then I poured the pills in her drink....

At first I didn't want to do it, I didn't want to see her in that misery but I took that thought out by
thinking of what she did to me. .. Another man inserting his little ****** in my food, that image
was forever stuck in my head.... To make matters worse she did it Twice....

I became so mad thinking about that, that my face became so hard and my fist hit the table, and I
blad.....

I relaxed and took our juices up to the bedroom, I made sure to mark hers so that I don't get it
mixed up.....

I got the room and I opened with my elbow since my hands were in duty...

Me : babe, baby wake up......

Her : not so loud...

Me : get up, I got us some juice...

Her : mhm... **giving me a 'what you up to' look**

Me : I know what you thinking owk... Am sorry, I shouldn't have reacted like that.. Owk?

Her : what have you done to my Themba ??

Me : hahaha, am still me baby am still me....

She sat up and I gave her the juice...

My attention was watching her drink and wondering when it will kick in, she kept talking and
talking but I couldn't hear what she was saying an I didn't care.....

After a few minutes she went to the bathroom, that was my chance to lock the door, so I did and
hid the keys... Then I sat back at my chair and waited for the big moment....

She came out, wearing her red silky underwear and a gown on top, open .... She came to me, she
sat on me and I could feel Mr John down there getting hard, but I held myself, she danced on me
drawing on Mr John with her kitty, I was now really feeling hard.... She then kissed my neck and
sucked it, then she kissed me.... I kissed back, holding her tight, grabbing her but and kissing her
neck, I made sure to leave a few Hickey's on her neck, breast and belly and thighs... As she was
undressing me, I stopped.....

Her : babe, please I want you now....

Me : I don't ..

Her : baby please...

Me : don't baby me..

Her : what did you do?? Themba??

Me : I fed you horny pills, and guess what?? I gave you 5...

Her : are you crazy, but baby I forgive you, now please take me out of this misery....

Me : no.....

She kept trying to get Me to have sex with her but I refused.... Even though she got butt naked
and trust me I was hard as a rock.... I then got an idea....

Me : you want me to help you??

Her : please...

Me : we doing it my way...

Her : owk

I told her to sit on the bed am coming..

I went to make a call...

Me : spha

Him : themba

Me : favour...
Him : anything...

Me : organise me a rope, a girl and a gun...

Him : killing someone ??

Me : no, teaching someone a lesson...

Him : cool, were u at..??

Me : same grip.

Him : very lucky, I got some people on that side, you will get the delivery in 5-10 min..

Me : sure, price??

Him : 5K

Me : owk... Cool...

I went up an this girl was fingering herself so I stopped her an kissed her, she ripped my shirt off
and went to the jean then the phone rang.

Me : I will be back...

Her : no....
I just left an hurried... I wasn't to worried that she would satisfy herself because on the paper it
says it lasts for 12 hours. .. So it would take her 4-5 rounds for her to be owk...

I went down picked the phone it was my delivery. So I fetched it... The girl was hot and up to no
good, my phone rang and it was spha..

Me : I got it.

Him : you happy.??

Me : I will let you know when am done but by the look of things she's gonna be great...

Him : am glad I could help....

I told her to stay down for a minute then I hid the gun, I went to her. ..

Her : babe, am going crazy please. .. ..

Me : lay....

Her : finally....

I then fastened her on the bed tight that she can't move then, I went kissing her... She moaned
and would pick her back up because she wanted me to go down....

I went down, kissed close to her kitty, she screamed and moaned then I stopped...
Her : please don't stop....
She was miserable, she was weak, she was fighting, I have never seen her like that, but I didn't
want to stop ...

I went and called Blondie and she came...

She came in the room and she looked at me....

Me : I will first watch then, you can have me...

She went to Tshidi...

Her : themba who is this, why on earth is she here?? THEMBA!!!!

Me : you making noise...

Her : tell her to leave and focus on me please am dying...

Me : she will help you...

Her : am not lesbian mahn...

Me : non of my business...

***** lesego*****

I couldn't believe this, I was very mad, but I was also very wet.... I tried to fight but themba took
out a gun....
I stared at him...

Me : what are you doing??

Him : you gonna let her do you, owk??

Me : no never....

He shot up and pointed the gun straight at me...

Me : you really gonna shoot me??

Him : Blondie do her.

She got on top of me, she kissed my neck, belly thighs, now I was really wet, she then put her
tougue on my clit and I was a really holding the rope and pulling because I could feel I was about
to come.....

When I came I first shook then I released.. It happened a few times then themba called Blondie...

Him : Blondie I want to taste my wife..

Her : owk

She stepped aside...

Him : no blondie, I want to taste her on your lips..

I went crazy, I wanted to break that bed, I wanted to really kill both of them....
Themba placed the gun on the table and kissed the flipping chancer.. They kissed an kissed, he
would kiss her whole body.....

I cried screamed but nothing helped.....

Then few minutes after kissing, he sends Blondie away, paying her money then he looks at me... I
was pissed....

He came to me, I kicked him and tried getting him off with my feet, since my hands an body was
fastened.... But he managed to come down to my face.....

He wispered...

Him : am not sorry.... How does that feel??

Me : go jump in the river ....

He choked me and kissed me. I kissed back with tears escaping my eyes then it went tense. After
he was in me, making love to me with full control, it was passionate, emotional, and painful... We
both came and he pulled out and laid on me..... He was heavy but what I was focusing on was his
heartbeat, it was beating fast, like he was running and his body was unusually hot....

After he let me loose and I was on top of him slapping and beating him for making me do this, I
was shouting and screaming, insulting him but he just kept quite... He took a shower as I cried
and got done, he smelled so lovely. . then he got out of the door taking his gun..... He looked at
me standing at the door....

Him : am not sorry......

Then he left...

I was left crying and crying as I went to bath as well.... I could smell his cologne in the bathroom...
I used his soap, was to bath and used his colonge after and his lotion then I wore one of his
tees..... I changed the sheets and cleaned the room and sprayed the room. So that it can have a
very nice smell...

Then I went to sleep, mind you I had forgotten that kids need to be fetched from school.....
I just slept dead with themba's words in my head...... "I am not sorry".....

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I woke up and immediately panicked when I realised I had not fetched the kids..... I jumped up.
Never cared about how I was dressed and how I looked, I only had Themba's tee on and my
pumps.... I ran out and headed downstairs...

When I got there I found themba seating on the table helping jade and jaden with their
homework and Jane seated on her swing chair and playing with her toys ...

I wanted to thank him. But I was really pissed with him and I was sure gonna give him the silent
treatment.....

Me : my babies ......

Jade and jaden came running to me and hugged me....

Jade : hay mom, look what I did

He left to fetch a drawing, meanwhile jaden was interrogating me ....

Jaden : mom, dad says you didn't fetch us because you were sick, is it true??

I looked at themba and he was busy on his phone....

Me : yes dear. Daddy is right ..

Jaden : what's wrong??

Me : I don't know baby...

Jade came back and gave me a drawing ..

It was Jane, him, jaden, me and themba .... He drew me and themba holding hands....

Me : it's really amazing....

Jade : you smell like dad ....

Themba looked up and met my eyes then he looked down....

Me : yes I do babe ..... Now go back and do y'all homework...

I then took Jane and played with her, after a while I placed her down and made myself tea... And
sat down and enjoyed my tea....

After they had eaten and bathed and headed to bed I went in the room and I heard the water
running so u figured that themba was bathing.... Later he got out with just a towel wrapped
around him.... This reminded me of the first time we made love .. We were so in love, he was so
innocent and bright, now he is all angry and dull and the love has gone pale, I wonder why ......
Me : why Tee??

He looked at me and picked up his left eye brow.....

Him : what you on about??

Me : why did you do that to me?? Why??

Him : I don't know..

Me : you don't know themba?? Can you freaking hear yourself?? You crazy mahn..

Him : am crazy??

Me : yes you crazy....

Him : you know who's crazy?? A person who cheats on another person on their worst situation, a
person who goes down on another nigger while his man is sick .. Now that's crazy.....

Me : themba that was years ago...

Him : yes you right, but the pain makes it feel like it was yesterday....

Me : themba?? But that doesn't give you the right to do what you did....

Him : what I did was nothing, there's still more to come....

Me : what??? You must be freaking kidding me, I thought you forgave me. .

Him : I did, but I didn't forget....

Me : why don't you just freaking devorce me Mahn, once....

Him : nah, I still love you ...

Me : no you don't.... Tee...

Him : I do.....

Me : do you seriously want to go through this road??

Him : am already through the free way honey....

Me : well, let's play bro....

I grabbed my stuff and went to the bathroom, I locked the door and placed music very sofly .. I
was thinking of what just happened, I can't believe me and themba are so distant, I mean I love
him, I really do deeply love him but it seems like he doesn't love me anymore....

Now we all about playing a game of revenge and hurting each other. .. That's sick .. But we in
already and I have already got in so I might as well plant revenge.... He can't do me dirty and get
away with it.....

I bathed and got done .. I wrapped my body with a towel and got out ... I found themba seating
on the bed with his boxers and his laptop....
I didn't say a word... I just motioned myself and got myself in PJs, as I got in bed and attempted
to sleep he spoke....

Him : I am sending the kids away ..

Me : excuse me...

Him : yes ..

Me : you will do no such ...

Him : well war is about to break loose, you want my kids to experience that??

Me : go to hell Mahn,...

Him : you can follow me....

He gave me a grin and looked at his laptop ..

Him : they will be staying with my uncle and his wife....

Me : my kids are going nowere...

Him : we will see...

Me : oh please go die....
I slept and left him clicking his laptop ... This freaking niggar think he won, then he has another
thing coming.....

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*****1 week later****

Its been a week now, and am full deep falling in salt, I wonder how themba is keeping up because
he should be dying of blue balls because we never made love for the whole week..... I know you
wondering how is that possible.... So eversince he did what he did to me, we have never
connected....... I love him, very much but this was a game he started so I will finish it......
So themba took the kids to his uncle... I was fighting him at first but now that I think of it, I am
glad that he did.....

So I was alone, themba went to work... So I was just alone thinking and bored, I was mostly
thinking of my messed up love life....

I then got a call, from one of my new friends thandi, we met at the production and she's the only
one that understands me since she's also married.....

Me : hay thandi..

Her : you have been awol skat, what's wrong??

Me : themba!!

Her : eash, what has he done??

I told her everything and she was shocked like hella shocked....
Her : huh girl!! No....

Me : yah....

Her : Sho, so do you want to go out??

Me : nop, I rather think of revenge...

Her : so you want to revenge now??

Me : yes...

Her : what if I say I have a good plan for you...

Me : inform me...

She told me the plan and that was the best plan alive....

So I got ready and wore the most tight revealing clothing ever......i̸ applied make up and made my
hair.....

Thandi was going to come fetch me in an hours time....

The hour came and she came....

I went to open the gate...

Her : girl you sure getting that revenge babe....

Me : let's hope it goes according to plan...

Her : trust me it will work.....

Me : owk so let's bounce, but you gonna drive....

Her : owk, no problem.....

We got in the car and drove to whatever club she organised for us.....

We got there and sat at our table.... A few hours later there were guys at the opposite table and I
took my chances... I started making eye contact with one of the guys...

He then came over....

Him : good evening ladies...

Us : hayyyyy

Him : can I get your names please...

Thandi : am thandi...

She shook her hand...

Me : am lsg..
He held my hand and kissed it then he looked me in the eye and smiled.... I had no feeling but
simply a plan in motion.....

Him : could I have a moment with you....

Me : sure....

So we went out and we stood at the balcony...

Him : so how are you??

Me : can we speak in the most private place, like the bathroom..

Him : huh...mhm.... OK...

We left and went to the bathrooms.... (FYI, we already had a deal with the security that as we get
in the bathroom he should lock the door and open only when themba comes, we showed him the
picture do that he can identify him....)

We got there and I pulled him close... As I kissed I video called themba with my back hand and he
answered, I had a headphone pin so that the guy an kissing should not notice.....
I looked at him and he was furious, I hid my phone and told the guy I need to quickly go in the
toilet.... I went in and looked at themba again, then I dropped the call and called him normal call,
then after went back and kissed that guy again....

I placed the phone on the baisens and I made sounds....

Thandi was to text him the club we in as I got in the bathroom, so I figured he saw the text but
didn't mind till he saw me kissing another guy and him hearing moans surely made him mad
because after a while he came in fuming but to my surprise he just stood there and looked at
me.... I smiled and continued.... But he came towards me and pulled my hair then told the guy to
kick rocks...

Guy : bro, what you doing??

Him : bro, leave before I make you....

He left and we followed with him pulling my hand.....

He placed me in his car and we left....

We got home and he pulled me to the bedroom....

Him : your a hoe now??

Me : did you like it??

Him : (chucles in anger)

Me : you can continue were he left off...

Him : you crazy...

Me : for you yes...

He rough grabed me and he let his anger fall, then he picked me up and started ripping my
clothing out... I couldn't complain and then I also ripped his clothing and we kissed like maniacs
and we kissed like we were seeing each other for the last time...
We kissed roughly and touching each others bodies like a maniac... We then made love... Our
bodies were moving like crazy, he was moving fast like crazy but I couldn't complain because it
was passionate, fun, pain, lovely and all that.....

When we both came he fell on me and I didn't even mind pulling him off...

He shifted and looked up, I wanted to get dressed but he pulled me....

Him : why do we have to be like this??

Me : you started...

Him : I know and am sorry...

Me : wow, I thought you made it clear that you not sorry....

Him : yes am not sorry, but am sorry...

Me : huh??

Him : you Won’t get it Mrs khumalo...

Me : I guess I won't...

Him : yah, but I love you...

Me : I love you too....

I slept on his chest...

***themba****

When I saw what Tshidi did, I was very mad, but I knew that she wasn't going to do it but you can
never know what might happen, Tshidi can be a loose canon....
I love her very much, and I don't know what came over me to do what I did. But what's done is
done, but then she got his revenge, I hope now things will be back to normal....

84

****lesego*****

Indeed everything went back to normal... Its been 3 weeks now and our marriage is as strong and
new as it was when we first got married... We were really happy and counselling really did us
good.... Yesterday I got a Facebook request from Lucia..... Yep thee Lucia.....

She even sent me a massage saying "its not the end, marriage won't save you"...

This text really kept me up all night and I was really worried and curious.. I wanted to reply but I
just let it slide...

Themba was still asleep when I got up... I wanted to sleep but I couldn't because of this text...
I went to the bathroom and when I came back themba was awake. .

Him : for a moment I thought you left...

Me : without saying goodbye?? Never.

Him : how are you beautiful??

Me : I have never been better handsome...

Him : mhm, the sound of that just makes me horny...

Me : mxm, shut up...

Him : make me...

I dropped my nightdress down and was left with my underwear then I took my bra out and
dropped my panties... I saw him become miserable an this was the themba I missed ... He's eyes
became so low that you would think he was smoking weed...

I then turned and pretended to go to bath... And he came rushing to me...

Him : and were do you think you going??

Me : shower...

Him : you playing dirty huh??

Me : I made you shut up, so what more is left for me??

Him : well am still talking arnt I??

I leaned in and went on my toes and kissed him, he held my waist and picked me up placing me
on the bed, he slowing kissed me while undressing himself then thrusted me....
Am sure we got up to 4 rounds then it was time out for him, especially because I was in control
on our 4rth round...

Him : you really can ride girl...

Me : hai, I gotta take control one time.. Make you feel things...

Him : babe you can make me feel things everyday...

Me : I intend to...

Him : jhooooooo, let me go, before this girl breaks my virgin ears..

Me : hahahahahahahahab, wena?? Virgin ears??

Him : hai, let me be...

Me : habahabahahab, hai wena....

He went to go open the shower then came out.

Him : wanna join??

Me : we will never finish..

Him : hahahahah, don't you trust yourself??

Me : I do, its you I don't trust...

Him : hahahahah, I will try an behave...

I smiled then joined him an as I knew, we spent long minutes in the shower...
I got out running an laughing.... He wanted a second round in the shower so I ran...

Him : am gonna get you for this...

Me : love you...

Him : I don't

Me : I know you do....

Him : don't

Me : do..

Him : don't...

He came out and attempted to play angry so I went to kiss him an he started touching me...

Me : so you don't love me??

Him : no, I love you more than anything... Actually not more then my kids..

I kissed him while sitting on him...

Him : I better run before this lady hooks me up. Am already hooked....

Me : lol...

He got dressed as I made breakfast halve naked (bikini shorts and sports bra)... He ate his
breakfast and took his lunch and gave me a kiss squeezing my butt...

Him : see what you did??

Showing me his woken up John ...

Me : oh ayeye....

He tried getting it, but it was already late...

Him : you better make it up to me when I come back...

Me : I promise...

He kissed me again ..

Me : you don't wanna leave do you??

Him : nop, eash Mara my babe why Mara....

Me : go you gonna be late...

Him : can I skip work??

Me : no bye...

I pushed him out and kissed him for the last time and he left.....
I was still daydreaming of him as I had breakfast but reality brought me back to Lucia's text....
WHAT IS HER PROBLEM NOW????

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I spent the entire day unsettled and uneasy...

Later that day themba came back from work... And I was busy making supper..

Him : hay beautiful..

Me : hay...

Him : how are you my munchies?

Me : am happy.. ***fake smile***

Him : huh.. So you happy huh??

Me : yes !!

I said this looking away...

He came towards me and kissed my neck and and back hugged me...
Him : I know you not well munchy. What's up..??

Me : nothing..

Him : owk listen how about you get done with supper, join me for a bath and let's have a bath
talk owk...

Me : Owk

Him : I missed yoi..

Me : I missed you too...

Him : I love you...

Me : I love you too...

He had a consernd look on his face... He went up and I finished my supper...

After I was done I went to the bedroom and found themba laying on the bed facing up... You
could see he was concerned ..

I went to him and laid on him and laid my head on his chest and listened to his heart beat...

Him : what's wrong Tshidi??

Me : Lucia!!
Him : who??

Me : Lucia, your ex..

Him : babe, she wasn't my ex.. And where does this come from??

Me : she texted me on Facebook..

Him : what did she say??

Me : she said marriage won't safe me and many more...

Him : is this what made your mood down??

Me : yes... Themba what if....

Him : I love you munchy, I will never hurt you again... Trust me..

Me : I know, I love you too...

We stayed in silence and ended up falling asleep on his chest...

****themba****

I wonder what Lucia is up too, but I shouldn't worry because I love her and I would never hurt
her.....
I brushed her hair as she slept on my chest and ended up sleeping with my hand on her waist and
her head on my chest....

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***** 2 weeks later*****

I was waken by kisses on my face and when I opened my eyes it was themba.....

Him : morning beautiful...

Me : morning handsome...

Him : how was your night...

Me : my nights are always great when you by my side...

Him : mhm... Is that so.? Lol (kisses me).

Me : mhm.. Lol... (Kisses him)

Me : so, seems like you have an early day...

Him : yah, I have a meeting in Melville... Will be back around 4..

Me : am gonna miss you...

Him : me too... Oh, breakfast is ready downstairs...

Me : oh, what could I be without you?? And am starving....

Him : am your hero baby....

He kissed me on my forehead and got out...

I just laid on my bed facing up...

I fell asleep again and woke up around 11am...

I got up and went to take a bath because I had a radio show to do at 14:00 till 16:00, so I need to
be at the radio station around 13:30...

I got ready and had my breakfast as lunch... I realised that I had missed calls from themba, he
must've called when I was still sleeping.....

I called him back and his phone sent to voicemail, I am sure he's in a meeting....
I heard a bell, I wasnt sure who it could be so I went out to check....

I don't know why I didn't think of just looking threw the window or talking via the intercom, but I
decided to go straight to the gate...

I got out and slowly approached the gate... I was nervous, I didn't understand why....
As I got closer I couldn't believe it....

Me : ohhhh hell no, hellll nooooo..

Her : hay babe, didn’t you miss me??

Ohhnh shucks, it was Lucia, she was wearing a black hoodie an a track pants.. I wonder what
she's up to...

Me : how....why....??

Her : social media babe, that's how I located you...

Me : why?? What do you want??.

Her : you disowned me for themba...

Me : how Lucia??

Her : when you decided to date him and forget me..

Me : please leave...

Her : no...

Me : owk, I will call themba an he will remove you...

I left attempting to get my phone to call themba, but as I was about to head to the door heard a
huge sound as if a gun was fired, I also felt a warm painful ping on my waist.. I fell on my knees
touching my waist were the pain was... I looked at my hand only to realise that I was bleeding...
That son of a dragon actually shot me....
I started seeing things blurry and saw people approaching the gate.. And the next moment I got a
black out....

***themba***

I had tried calling Tshidi but she never answered so I guessed that she went back to sleep... I then
went to a meeting and after the meeting I saw Tshidi's missed call... I tried calling again but she
still didn't answer...

Later as I was in the office my phone rang... It was the alarm security...

Me : Mr khumalo speaking hello..

Him : good afternoon sir, we have received an alarm notification few seconds ago, its actually still
on....

Me : WHATT!!!

Him : are you aware of this sir??.

Me : no, am not even home, my wife is home and she's not answering my calls...
Him : its owk sir, we just got a sign that our emengancy team has arrived...
Me : thanks, am also on my way home...

I got out rushing like a maniac... As I got to the corner of my house, I saw the ambulance leave
and the police putting a yellow tape..

I pulled up and ran to the crowed...

Me : what's happening...

Police off : sorry sir please step back....

Me : don't flipping tell me to step back, this is my house and my wife is in the house...

Him : sorry sir, I didn't know, but still you can't step in as yet.. Its still being cleaned...

Me : cleaned from what??

Him : a lady was shot sir, and she is taken to the Helen Joseph hospital.....

Me : WHAT??

I couldn't even wait for him to explain further, I ran to my car and drove madly to the hospital....
The last time my wife was in hospital it was a moment of life or death and here we are again, why
do all this have to happen to my baby Mara, why not me at least.??

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***themba***

I got to the hospital and asked to see my wife, they never let me in, they told me to Wait outside
until they are done examining her and when its safe for me an her...

I really didn't care about much, I only wanted to know if she was owk... After waiting for about 3
hours, the doctor came to me...
Doctor : Mr khumalo..

Me : how is she??

Doctor : she's critical at the moment... We have doctors and nurses doing everything possible to
help her ..

Me : will she be owk?? Will she wake up ??

Doc : its still early to tell, but don't worry sir, she's in good hands..

He left and I sat down, dropping my head down In my hands, then I Shed tears... They say "men
don't cry", but am human too so I really didn't care....

**3 days later**

I got up, freshened up and went to the hospital, till this day, Tshidi hasn't woken up.. I bought
flowers on my way to the hospital... I got there and found her grandfather and grandmother,
aunt and other family members, 2 aunts.. My dad and uncle were also there...

Me : sanibonani..

They all greeted back...

Gogo : mkwengana, how are you..

Me : am holding on gogo, and you??

Gogo : as times goes my boy...

I could see that ntatemolo was not owk..

Me : mkhulu, are you well??

Mkhulu : yes, son in law, am healthy..

Me : but you don't look right nje...

Mkhulu : am right son...

Gogo : I also saw that he was not well, I told him to see a doctor but he refused...

Me : babomkhulu I can get you a doctor to check on you now...

Mkhulu : I said am fine.. Don't worry so..

I let him be... When visiting time came we were told that we can enter....

Me : you all can go, I will check on her when you are done...

Dad : owk son...

They all went to check on her then after few minutes they came out, I think my dad pushed them
to finish fast so that I can have time with her alone...

I went in and saw the state she was in...

Her face was light up, she was beautiful, she was in peace, she looked innocent.. Me just looking
at her made me wanna cry...

I sat down next to her and held her hand..

Me : hay wifey.. I got flowers for you.. They smell really great, just like you..... (Short silence).... I
missed you, you know....I Missed your smile, laugh and crazy self.... (Silence and starts crying)....
Baby I need you.... I am nothing without you... The house is cold without you... My day is dull
without you and my life is meaningless without you.... I need you to fight baby, not only for me
but for jade, jaden and Jane... Please babe.... (Long silence)... I started singing a song of love,
while rubbing her hands.. I laid my head on her and after a while I slept....

89

**lesego**

I opened my eyes and saw that I was in a room that looked like an hospital and as I opened and
saw clearly, I saw that I was indeed in the hospital room... But there were flowers and gifts all
over the room and that really cheered me... I saw that I wasn't alone in the room, someone was
laying on my bed... I checked and it was themba, I started brushing his hair and crying...

I also missed my kids.. (Jane, jade and jaden)...

The doctor came...

Doc : hay Mrs khumalo, welcome back..

Me : I would say its good to be back, but am In serious pains..

Doc : should I wake Mr khumalo so that you can rest.?

Me : no please, am very happy that my husband is here..

Doc : owk mam, do you need anything??

Me : some water please..

Doc : yes mam..

He left and came back with water, and that's when themba woke up...

I quickly signaled for the doctor to pretend that am stil not well and I quickly closed my eyes...

Doc : hay Mr khumalo..

Me : hay doctor, am sorry, I fell asleep...

Doc : not a problem sir, actually we glad that you are still here, we have a problem..

Him : what problem, doc, is my wife owk??

Doc : well, you'r wife is actually getting worse....

Me : what??

Doc : am sorry sir....

I couldn't help but want to laugh, but I kept a serious face....

Him : nononononono.... Baby!! Baby!!

He was busy touching touching me till I burst out laughing... And I hurt my self.....

Me : hahahahahahah, hay babe...

He looked rather confused....

Him : what, what's going on??

He looked at the doctor....

Doc : am sorry sir, it was your wife's idea..

Him : he, Mrs khumalo, you really wanna see me die of a heart attack...

Me : no Mr khumalo I just wanted to steer your feelings....

Him : hai Mara, baby....

He came and kissed me on my forehead..

Me : babe, I think you kissed the wrong spot..

He looked at me with a smirk on his f̸a̸ce̸ ̸

Face.. Then looked at the doctor...

Doc : please shout when you need me. . he exited....

Him : so you say I missed a spot huh??

Me : yes...

I smiled and he kissed me on my lips...

Him : aaaaaaaaahhhhhbh, baby, help...

Me : babe, are you owk, what's wrong??

Him : my back, my back...

I wanted to call the doctor then he held my hands..

Him : got you...

He gave me a smirk and I gave him a smack on the shoulder....

We kissed and our kiss was passionate, it even got me weak and wet...
I wanted to move my legs so that I can show him that I want him, but I couldn't move my legs.. I
tried harder but still I couldnt feel my legs...

I stopped and looked at him..

Him : am sorry, I know you still in hospital but Mr Johnny wants to know if Mrs kitty is ready...?
I laughed, I was shocked though but I couldn't hold my laughter...

Me : stop it themba, you very naughty..

Him : I can't help it...

His eyes were very low, and his pants were full... I mean am in a situation and this guy is getting
an erraction.. Hai...

Me : themba mahn, focus...

Him : am trying...

He sat down and looked up..

Me : what's wrong babe, you not playing me are you..?

Him : no babe, am not, I just had to decrease the heat, you know..

Me : I really wish I could help you babe, plus am also wet, like dripping wet…

Him : yooooiooooooh women, eash...

Me : babe, owk am sorry... But on a serious note, I can't feel my legs...

Him : huh??
Me : I cant feel my legs..

He ran to call the doctor and when the doctors came back I started getting worried..

Doc : mrs khumalo.

Me : yes doc..

Doc : I need you to relax..

Me : owk..

He exemined me and did all that he did....

Doc : can you feel anything??

Me : no...

Doc : we will run tests and get back at you..

Me : oak̸.

Him : thanks doc..

Themba stayed with me for hours, he wouldn't wanna leave me and I also asked for favours from
the doctors to keep him here for long...

***next day***
The next day I woke up early, I had asked themba to come with my toiletries when he comes...
After a while the doctor came with some paperwork..

Doc : mrs khumalo?.

Me : yes doctor..

Doc : I have news for you..

Me : yes, doc..

Doc : we have done some tests and x-rays and found that you may not be able to work again..

Me : WHAT??

Doc : am sorry mam...

He left an I was left with tears and anger...

I won’t be able to work again... Yesterday we were busy with each other that we didn’t discuss
the shooting...

I was really destroyed, but I won't allow this..

Later that day themba came with my toiletries...

Him : morning babe…

It was around 11am..

Me : morning..

Him : you don't look fine babe, what's up??

Me : nothing..

Him : sweety, please talk to me..

Me : sigh..... I...I. I..

Him : what, babe??.

Me : baby I...

I started crying..

Him : babe?? You scaring me...

Me : I won't be able to walk again babe….

Him : what??

Me : yes.. Am going to be stuck in a wheelchair forever...

Him : shucks... Whoever did this will really deal with me..
Me : Lucia..

Him : huh??

Me : it was Lucia who shot me...

Him : Lucia??

Me : yes...

Him : how??

I explained what happened, and he didn't take it well, he got really angry and unsettled.. He
didn't say much, he just stood up kissed me on my forehead and left.. I wasn't sure what was
running in his mind, but one thing I know is that, he is going to drive around, if not, he is going to
drive to the free way and race himself down.. Crazy husband I have...but after that he will surely
go looking for Lucia and were ever he finds her, he will kill her...

Now that I feared.. Not because Lucia is gonna die, but because themba is gonna go to jail.. Lucia
is not worth themba going to jail for...

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***themba***

I drove around till very late at night, I then drove to a free way... I got there and got out of the
car, I checked if there were a lot of cars or not but there were few cars...

I got in my car and started Reffing.... I then counted down from 5.......4......3......2.....1.......Go
I raced myself down also drifting were I have to turn.. I overtook cars and raced really fast, I was
way past the driving limit but I knew there were no traffic cops so I was good...

I raced till I was out if gas, I then drove to the gas station and filled my tank up and drove home....

***1 week***

I woke up next to my wife, she got discharged yesterday so I was the first time I slept next to my
wife at our house in our bedroom after the insident... Tshidi is now using a wheelchair, when she
came home yesterday she wasn't emotionally well.. The police took Tshidi's statement and they
are now on the search for Lucia...

I got up and saw that Tshidi was still sleeping... I went to the bathroom brushed my teeth,
washed my face and went down to the kitchen to make breakfast... As I was making breakfast I
heard Tshidi scream..

I ran upstairs..

I opened the bedroom door and Tshidi was on the floor...

Me : babe??

She just looked at me with teary eyes and looked down.....

I quickly helped her up...

Her : let me go themba..

Me : babe, let me help, please..

Her : no, themba you don't understand...

I made her sit on the bed..

Me : then make me understand babe..

Her : no, you will never understand, please take me to the toilet...
I picked her up bridal style and placed her on the toilet seat...

Her : owk thank you, out…

Me : but..

Her : I will be fine tee, out...

Me : owk, please shout when you need me..

Her : owk..

She shut the door and I stood right at the door to make sure she is really owk...
***lesego***

I tried removed my pants and panties and pee'd then I tried dressing again... It was really hard... I
pushed hard to stand and walk on my own.. I know the doctor said I may not walk again, but
there's a possibility that I may walk again, so I hold my thumbs up..

I tried standing up. I held the door and tried standing up and again I fell...

I don't know how themba heard that I fell, I just saw him rush open the door..

Him : really?? I knew you wouldn't listen.

Me : its not you who have to live depending on people for help..

He shook his head and picked my up bridal style to the bed....

Me : I don't know what to do now themba...

Him : just don't worry and let your trainer help you...

Me : you might as well leave me themba, go and find a new girl, a girl that will satisfy you and
give you whatever you want, my time is up..

Him : hahahahabahahahabahah, really?? Girl if you trying to get rid of me you gonna have to kill
me because am going no were...

Me : am serious babe..
Him : am also serious... I love you and I will always love you... Remember, in sickness and in
health....

Me : but how will I ever make love to you?? I mean I will be like this forever...
Him : you think to much.....

He kissed me and went down to fetch breakfast.. He got up and we had our breakfast... Today he
was going to teach me to move the wheelchair around.... He bought me the one that moves like
a car.. Like you driving... But the stairs was the only problem... Besides the fact that we have not
made love and that its really depression for me to be living like this, we are good....

**4 weeks**

**lesego**

It has been a long month... An I know you won't believe this but me and themba have not made
love ever since the incident... Today themba had to go to work.. I know you problably wondering
were Lucia is and if she won't be back to kill me.. Well Lucia was attested...

So I was free with being alone.. At first themba was scared and he would call every second
minute....

He still calls now but not every minute but he calls very often..

I was sitting on my wheelchair an watching cartoons, I don't know what made me turn around,
but when I turned around Lucia was standing at the door...

Me : Lucia??

Her : hay sweet...

I thought I was dreaming, I thought maybe it was a bad nightmare...

Me : what are you doing here?? Arnt you supposed to be In prison..

Her : oh yes, I escaped, so before they find me again, I need to get my revenge...

Me : what's wrong and with you?.

Her : you wrong with me..

Me : huh??

Her : I loved you, you gave me hope that I would find love again, then you change and become a
girly girl and date themba, ever since you dated him, you distanced yourself from me.. And told
me to back off..

Me : Lucia I was never lesbian.. Owk, I was just a Tomboy...

Her : then why did you give me hope....??

Me : am sorry Lucia, listen you are very beautiful..

Her : ohh shut up..

I kept quite and looked at her...

Her : I want you to break things up with themba, divorce him and love me... Be a lesbian again
and we could live happily ever after...
Me : s...sure..I...I could do that...

Her : put him on loudspeaker..

Me : sure...

I was really scared and Wished that he would pick up the fear and come help me....

91

***lesego***

I took out my phone an dialled themba's number....

He answered on the 2nd ring.. And I placed him on loudspeaker..

Him : babe??

Me : hay themba...

Him : ouch, owk did you just call me by my full name..??

Me : themba stop playing around I need to speak to you...

Him : am worried babe, what's wrong??

Me : I am......am....n..no...lo...longer...in....l...lo.....love... With you...am...sorry...

I almost burst in tears but it was taking everything in me not to cry because Lucia was holding a
knife an signaling to me that if I give any hints shes gonna kill me...

Him : what??????

Me : I will be gone by the time you get here... Bye themba...

I switched the phone off and burst in tears.... Lucia came and hugged me... I felt like pushing her
away but I didn't want her to act out and end up killing me... Plus am trying to buy time and hope
that themba comes here before we leave...

Her : ncooow baby, you love me that much??

Me : yes I do...

Her : don't cry babe, we are about to have a great life together...

I faked a smile but God knows that my heart was racing...

Her : so how about you go upstairs, get a boyish outfit since you lesbian and pack then go....
I didn't say anything, I just faked a smile and moved the wheelchair....

She helped me up the stares and we got into me and themba's bedroom...

I took my kappa swag pants and jacket (black and white), a black vest and a Nike black an white
sneaker... I had to really look like my old self when I was still staying with my grandparents...
I always had a fit body, because I do sports and dancing as a career.. So I had a six pack and
runners leg....

Lucia helped me dress up, then I took my Nike cap and placed it on...

I won't lie, I really remembered my days before I met themba, while I was on that thought I
remembered msg, I wonder if she was still alive.. Wash my best friend, its been months...
Lucia helped me back...

***themba***

After the call I was really unsettled, I was in the office busy and with paperwork when I got that
calm and there was something wrong with that call... Tshidi was not herself, she was not owk...
After a while I decided to go home and find out what was going on....

I called for James...

He entered the door after some time....

Me : jay... I need to get home now...

Him : come on themba you know you can't.. You have an important meeting in 10 minutes...

Me : I know but I can't be in that meeting.. You gonna have to take over..

Him : what's wrong at home kanti??

Him : I just received a call from Tshidi, telling me that its over...
Him : huh?? Tshidi?? Hai unbelievable...

Me : you see??

Him : nah, theres more..

Me : that's why I gotta go...

Him : what are you waiting for?? Go...

Me : so you will cover??

Him : yah, go...

I quickly left an drove like a maniac to the house....

I got there opened the gate parked in and entered the house..

***lesego***

We both heard a car pull in an she looked at me panicking...

Her : now listen to me, you are to not say a word about me being here, owk..?

I nodded....

Her : and you better tell this themba that you don't love him anymore or else I will kill him...
I nodded again..

Her : good...

She went into the bathroom....

Then I heard themba calling my name... My bags were on the bed and I was all dressed and
ready, now I had to find a way to hint to him that Lucia is here.. And I hope that the fact that am
upstairs will make him wonder how I got there....

He kept calling my name and Lucia was peeking through the bathroom door to make sure I am
still cooperating...

He finally came upstairs...

The door opened and he stared at me..

Him : there you are... What's going on here??

Here goes nothing...

Me : as I said, I don't love you anymore... I have already packed am leaving...

Him : babe, I don't understand. What did I do??.

Me : just accept it themba...

I kept tapping my fingers and drawing on my wheelchair on his side, but he was not noticing
anything....
**themba**

I was really confused, like why would Tshidi want to leave me just like that... I love her, I really
do....

I then remembered that I had left Tshidi downstairs when I left so how did she get upstairs...??

Me : Tshidi??

Her : its lsg...

Me : huh??.

Her : lesego is my name, lsg...

Me : no, that name was when you were still a tomboy, I never used it because am not your
friend, am your husband and to me you not my braza you my wife...

Her : ex wife

Me : what?? Are you serious??

Her : yes... Am changing to being a proper lesbian now.. It was forever my call.. You aporoched
me like that..

Her : huh?? Anyway, how did you get here??

Her : huh??

Me : how did you come upstairs??

Her : I can walk now...

Me : really??

Her : yess..

Me : show me....

Her : mxm, I don't want...

I looked at her very confused... I was really confused... This was real, she was really leaving me
and becoming lesbian, she was dressed like a boy, talking like a boy and acting like a boy with all
the gestures... But she kept tapping on her wheelchair and writing something...
I decided to follow what she was writing ...

|''''') |'''''''''| '''''''|''''''' |,,,,,,|

|,,,) |''''''''''| | | |
I then looked at the bathroom door and it was slightly open, then I looked down and saw
unknown shoes.. I didn't even want to hear it.. I then pretended to agree to Tshidi...

Me : so you lesbian now huh??

Her : yes...
Me : what about the kids..??

Her : I can keep them..

Me : no I wanna keep them....

Her : owk... Can I go now??

Me : can I give you something??

Her : what??

I went in my closet and took her paperspray. She bought it after the Lucia sagga... Wow.. What if
its Lucia in the bedroom...

I took the paper spray an then rushed slowly to the bathroom, opened the door roughly and
BOOM!!!.. I was hit by something and blank I switched off...

92

**lesego**

Me : themba?? Themba??

Her : shut up lsg, he's dead..

Me : you are crazy Lucia, you need help!!.

Her : no, I don't need help, but I need you...

I didn't really put what she said in my mind. All I was looking at was my babe, my better heart,
the father of my kids, my breath, my all... I wish he's not dead, I hope he's still alive...
Lucia went to him and felt his pulse..

Her : don't worry dolls, he's still alive, he has just passed out.. So before he wakes up we need to
move..

Me : am not going anywhere..

Her : excuse me??

She said this rushing towards me and strangled me..

Her : what did you say??

Me : I said, I am not going anywhere (tears flowed down my cheeks)

She squeezed my kneck more an this time she was chocking me...

Me : Lucia, you chocking me..

She didn't say anything, she just chocked me more...

Me : Lucia please...

She let go of me.. And I coughed...

Me : khk khk khk khk khk khk khk (coughing)

She walked away from me and started rubbing her head....

Her : am not a bad person, am not a bad person, am not a bad person, am not a bad person...

She then looked at me and walked towards me and sat on my lap with her back facing were
themba was laying...

Her : am I a bad person??

Me : no!

Her : then why don’t you want to listen to me?? Why did themba have to be involved?? You
know, all I wanted was you.. Do you want me??

I didn't know what to say plus I was scared...

Her : you don't...

She stood up again and walked around the room like a mad person screaming and shouting, then
she stopped and looked at me...

Her : you have to choose lsg.. Its either you die or you marry me... What's it gonna be?
I stared at her and swallowed my saliva...

Her : 2 minutes to decide...

As I was trying to find a solution, Lucia took out 2 big packets of pills and a bottle of water....

Her : time is up.. What's it gonna be??

Me : Lucia, I have kids, I have a family.. You really need help Lucia and I can help you to find
useful help...

Her : thanks.. So that means you not gonna marry me...

She came with the bottle of water and the pills.. She squeezed my cheeks for me to open my
mouth and placed halve the tin of pills in my mouth and poured water and it went down my
throat... She repeated the process 4 times so that all 2 tins of pills can go down my throat...

Her : good, now its time to wait till you eventually black out...

Me : please let my kids know that I love them.. (Crying)

Her : yah, and also let them know that mommy drank 400 pills In one go.. Nice... Will do...but
they won't miss you.. As for themba I will take care of him..

I didn't say anything I was just waiting for the pills to kill me....

Lucia was walking towards me when a gun went off…

I screamed in fear and closed my eyes...

When I opened my eyes themba was on his feet holding a gun and Lucia was bleeding on the
flour....
Me : themba!! (Weak)

Him : babe, are you owk??

Me : lucia.... (Breath)...M...made.....(breath)..me..(breath)..drink...(breath)...pills...

Him : WHAT?? shucks.. Listen no matter what I want to to keep your eyes open an talk owk..

He gave me my phone so that I can call my kids and speak to them.. As he was calling the
ambulance.. He didn't leave my site, he kept providing air an waking me up when I closed my
eyes...

After a while the ambulance came and I was taken to hospital...

***themba***

This is really a curse.. Not so long ago Tshidi was in hospital and now she is going back again... Jho
not good...

I took Tshidi downstairs after I heard the ambulance outside... I didn't want them coming to my
room and seeing all this.. Am not ready to go back to prison... But again I thought being fair an
not having guilt and bad curses in my life and kids life I don't have much of a choice...

After Tshidi left with the ambulance I stayed behind thinking what to do, then I picked up my
phone and called the cops... After I called my father, uncle, Tshidi's grandma and grandpa, and
lastly my kids, telling them that I love them and that I will always love them...
The cops came and did their work and I was under arrest...
Cheers to the bad life.. I feel bad for my kids... Daddy is in prison an mommy is in hospital...
WHAT COULD GO WRONG????

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***themba's dad***

I was thinking about themba's call that I received yesterday afternoon when James came rushing
with a newspaper in his hand...

Him : taima, you gotta see this...

Me : what??

He handed me the newspaper and it was my son (themba) being handcuffed my the police and
entering in the police car.. I then read the title loud....

Me : WIFE IN HOSPITAL HUSBAND ARRESTED, COULD THIS BE ABUSE??

Him : this is nonsense..

Me : could this be true?? Is my son abusive?? Could he have Beaten his wife??

Him : no never, I know themba, he would never do it...

Me : what about the call??

Him : you also received it??

Me : did he call you too??

Him : yes, telling me he loves me, which is something he never says..

Me : this looks bad..

Him : am going to see him today, wanna join..??

Me : no, I rather keep my mind at ease...

Him : owk old man...

Me : hai, am still young...

Him : (chuckles) owk cheers young man...

Me : (laughs)...

James left and I was left with my thoughts.....

***James***

Shucks, old man seems very disturbed by this, but this can't be, I know themba, an he would
never lay his hands on anyone...

I drove to the polistation with a lawyer I organised for themba... We got there an we called for
themba.
We sat there and waited then he came in...

He looked clean, I can say that the orange uniform suites him...

Me : still looking fresh even at your worst??

Him : yah, genes of a handsome father...

Me : lol... Listen this is pule, your lawyer..

He shook his hands and greeted him..

Me : did you see the papers??

Tee : yes!!

Me : how??.

Tee : well, I know one of the guards in here, so he makes my life a little easier because he knows
my true story of why am here and he believes it.

Me : is that the only reason why he is good to you?? Keeping you fresh??

Tee : owk, he also asked for a favour, that I try to find space for his son at my construction
company...

Me : owk...
Pule : Mr khumalo, sorry to disturb but could you please tell me really what happened so that I
can help you ...

Tee : sure.

I made sure to listen clearly.. He told us everything and we were left shocked an out of words to
speak...

Pule : well, seems like this is a straightforwardcase...

Me : wait, so how's Tshidi??.

Tee : well, I asked my uncle to check on her, he said she still hasn't woken up, seems like her
body reacted badly to the pills, plus there were many pills, so it kinda took time to remove them..

Me : how are you though??

Tee : am clean but damaged inside..

Me : so pule, how long could he be in prison??

Him : well, this case on its own for us to close it, it might take 5 months...

Me : 5 months??

Pule : yes, self diffence cases are very tricky especially if there was no witness..

Me : what about Tshidi's medical report??

Pule : it might help, but we don't know what to expect so let the first month's pass and let's see
what happens...

Me : don't worry man you will be free....

Tee : that won't heal my heart, but seeing my wife alive will...

Me : she will be fine mahn....

Pule : we better get going..

Me : owk, see you later mahn..

Tee : cool...

We left...

**themba**

I remained seated and watched them leave...

I then looked at the guard...

Him : sir, why didn't you shout, "NO CONTACT" when I handshaked my lawyer??

Him : you the most respected person in the business would, you don't have any bad report
except for the assault..
Me : (chuckles) this prison is weird, you even do background checks??

Him : well if you in the public eye, everyone wants to know more about you..

Me : owk, thanks, can I go to my cell now....

He took me to my cell and I walked in...

So in the cell I was with 5 men, I always watch my back because one of them wanted to beat me
up yesterday when I first came in here but the guard was standing at the gate the whole
afternoon till this morning, but now he is not here....

1st guy : vandag they not watching you huh??

I kept quite...

2nd : the boss is talking to you...

I just looked at them and kept quite again....

1st : entlek you hit woman huh??

I still kept quite...

1st : huh.. You tough on woman yet you can't speak with men, huh.. Weak busted..
He grabbed me by my shirt and stroke me with a fist then he picked me up again and gave me a
fist again and fell down, then he started kicking me and kicking me... I was really weak I just
didn't have energy to say anything.. Mostly thought of my wife and kids....
I wonder how would this Journalist feel if he/she knew that his/her fake assumption might cause
me my life....

He kept beating me hard an hard the others kept cheering others just waching then he stopped...

1st : how does it feel huh?? How does it feel, when you weak, no power, no words, just pain....
I still didn't say anything... He let me go and I dragged myself to my bed and went to sleep in
tears...

I was crying because I was being punished for something I didn't do and also my wife was In
hospital.....

94

**james**

I woke up the next morning and went straight to my phone, checking what's trending since I
really wanted this themba scandal to fade away... I felt really bad for my boy, I mean being
accused of abuse when all you did was protect and save your wife, really is heartbreaking...
I checked my phone and I couldn't believe what I saw... These stupid journalist really have it bad
for themba...

I rushed to clean up and shower then headed to visit themba, he has to see this... As for themba's
dad, he's gonna flip...

I drove....

I arrived and asked to see themba...

I was waiting for sometime then the door opened, and what I saw was rather shocked...

Me : themba?? What happened??

He was very bruised around his face, his eye was swallon and black.. Mahn he was really roughed
up...

Him : it's nothing boy..

Me : what do you mean its nothing??

Him : the guy who did this, vowed that he is gonna beat me up everyday until he feels like I have
really learned not to beat up a woman...

Me : this is about to get worse..

Him : what do you mean??

Me : there's a new story out with the heading " a fighter" with your picture, your wife's picture
and Joe's picture..

Him : right.. They linked my previous assault with this lies??

Me : yah, and its the same journalist...

Him : I wonder who it is..

Me : its time people really knew what you did mahn.. Or else things are gonna get worse for you..
Clients are starting to pull out, no one wants to work with an abuser..
Him : but am not..

Me : I know, but the world doesn't..

Him : sigh..... Owk...

Me : let me go take care of business, and please speak to the guard to put you in another cell..

Him : right...

I left...

***themba***

I went back to my cell and the beater was still there, but I was saved by a guard that was standing
there... I was in the cell for a couple of minutes then I was called to see a visitor... I thought it was
my dad, because j have never seen him since I was here...

I went and it was my lawyer...

Me : hay pule

Him : themba.

Me : how can I help you..??

Him : your court date is tomorrow..

Me : owk, thats great.

Him : owk, so I will see you tomorrow..

He left and I went back to my cell..

The guard was no more there so I knew that I was about to get a beating..
Me : I want to say something to all of y'all before you decide to rough me up for the wrong
reasons..

1st guy : we don't wanna hear it…

Me : well beat me up because I killed a phsyco woman who fed my wife 400 pills, and shot her
and because of that my wife is on a wheelchair, now beat me up for that, not because of a lie
that I abused my wife.. Right now she's in hospital fighting for her life and am here in prison not
being able to be there with her... Understood..

When I said this I was very emotional, I was even crying softly.. There was silence..
I sat down and waited for them to start beating but they didn't.. Instead the guy who beat me
came to me..

Him : really??

Me : yah.. So if you wanna rough me up, please rough me up for the right reasons..

Him : I don't know what to say.. Its just that my sister was killed by her husband..

Me : am sorry, were is the husband??

Him : why do you think am here?

Me : ohh..

Him : for your sake you better be telling the truth because if you lying, am gonna kill you..
I just looked at him and smiled then I laid and looked at the cillings...

Me : God father, if you listening to me, please save my wife, she doesn't deserve this.. Take me
instead..

I said my prayer and slept....

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Her : themba stop (laughing) stop...

Me : who's stupid? (Laughing) huh, who's stupid..?

Her : not you not you...

I tickled her till she actually farted

Me : hahahaha, did you just fart?? Lol...

Her : hahahaha, I couldn't keep it in..

Me : mhmmhmhm, it even smells...

Her : no it doesn't..

Me : yes it does..

Her : am gonna sit on your face..

She attempted to reach my face with her butt, I kept trying to get my face away and laughing.
.
Me : owk babe, quite it..

Her : you still think it stinks..??

Me : should I tickle you??

Her : owk, I quite.. Hahahahah..

I placed her down then looked at her, I kissed her, she then grabbed my but and squeezed it..
Then she bit my lower lip gently as we kissed and pulled out laughing..

Me : I love you...

Me : I love you too...

She then reached for the couch pillow without me knowing and hit me with it then she ran ... I
laughed looking at her as she ran then I followed running after her...
Me : if I catch you you gonna pay..

Her : oh please grandpa you too slow…

Me : I ran to her upstairs and caught her before she got to the bedroom..

I picked her up and placed her on my shoulder as I slapped her butt.. I then threw her on the bed
and also threw myself on the bed, then out of nowhere jade, jaden came running in and jumped
on the bed on top of us.. Jade was holding Jane.. Then we all laughed and laughed...
Then immediately I slowly heard someone wake me up and the voice become loud...

Woooooow so I was dreaming... Each I really miss Tshidi...

The guard called me and got me to prepare for today's case...

96

***lesego***

I woke up and realised that I was in hospital... Its really getting tiring, I mean this is the 3rd time I
land in this hospital.. 1st time was when I was giving birth to my boys and almost lost my life,
then the 2nd time I was shot by Lucia, look here I am again the 3rd time being fed pills...
Lol, am starting to feel like I am like a cat... I got 9 life's.. Hahahaha...

After a while a doctor came…

Doc : good morning mrs khumalo, how are you feeling??

Me : a bit hungry and thirsty and tired....

Doc : I see the hospital has become your second home..

Me : I guess death really wants me hai...

We laughed then he came to check up on Me.....

Doc : you need to rest, I will get you something to eat and drink..

Me : thanks...

He left.. After a while I was given food and water.. Well am used to hospital food given that am
always here...

I ate and then laid back to relax... I really wish to see my kids and themba.. Speaking of him, I
can't wait for him to come....

Later that day, the doctor came again with a police officer...

Doc : mrs khumalo, the officer would like to ask you a few questions...

Me : it's owk doc...

Doc : owk, shoot if you need me..

Then doctor then left..

Officer : Mrs khumalo…

Me : yes mr officer..

Him : I am detective mohapi and I have a few questions regarding Mr themba khumalo..

Me : what?? What about themba?? Were is he??

Him : he has been charged with the murder of Lucia Peterson ..

Me : what?? How?? No Mr mohapi, that is not fair, I am in here because of Lucia and I was
previously shot and came here weeks ago because of Lucia and if it was not for my husband
shooting Lucia I would've died... Themba can't go to prison he was trying to protect me..
Him : owk mrs khumalo can you please start from the beginning of how you m̸et Lucia and the
reason why she would want to kill you just to help us, help your husband..

Me : owk....Lucia an I were in the same school, that time I was a tomboy I was doing my first year
in university of jhb, I kinda led Lucia on when I went with her to dinner... She was into me but I
wasn't interested.. She never had a problem at that time when I told her that I am not
interested.. But later when I met themba (my husband) she said " listen, if I can't have you, no
one will"..

him : was that her exact words??

Me : yes, I will never forget those words.. They would always play in my mind when I saw her at
school..

Him : when was this??

Me : my second year.. Years back..

Him : owk continue please..

Me : owk.. So I later just decided to ignore the words and move on with life... Then few weeks or
months later themba and I had a fight.. You know couple arguments and he stormed out..... Later
I found out that Lucia drugged themba and pretended to have slept with him which she didn't
and told themba that she is pragnant... Themba and I fought and themba went to USA to go
schooling... As themba was gone.. I decided to look this up. It looked really suspicious..
Him : what makes you say that??

Me : lucia's words..

Him : how did you know that it was the Lucia you went to school with..??

Me : one time themba was rushing somewhere and left his phone.. It rang and the caller name
was Lucia.. When I answered I asked which Lucia was this, and she was like " the one and only"....
I didn't get it at first until I asked themba if this was Lucia from my school an he said yes..

Him : so did he tell you that Lucia drugged him.??

Me : no, he said he doesn't remember that scene, that he was unconscious the whole time...
Him : owk please continue..

Me : so... I hired a PI to find out if the child is themba's baby or not.. I still had themba's
toothbrush...

Him : and..

Me : I got the papers that stated that he was not the father... So I confronted her and she backed
off... I even got a call from themba telling me that Lucia called and told him that he's not the
father. And I told him that I know, but I refused to explain how I knew... Years passed.. It was
weeks ago, I got a friend request from Lucia telling me that marriage won't save me.. I told
themba but themba told me to just forget about it... The next day themba went to work and
there was someone ringing the bell. I was stupid not to look threw the window or speak through
the intercom instead I went straight to the gate.. I saw it was Lucia.. I asked her why she was here
and she would tell me that I have left her an that she found my location through social media and
that themba snatched me.... I tried to turn an go back in the house to go call themba but she shot
me and I was here in hospital...

Him : how did your husband react to this??

Me : he didn’t say anything, he just stood up and left..

Him : were did you think he went to??

Me : he went to go race at the freeway racing path or he was just driving normally around..
.
Him : how would you know that??.

Me : he once did that when I was in hospital to deliver twins, the doctor had said that one of us
might not make it... But we all made it, but when I came out I was told he was involved in an
accident.. He had a memory loss.. Later when all was fine and he remembered he told me
everything..

Him : that must be just after he got out of prison for assault??

Me : yes, an there is a video online explaining why he assaulted that person ..

Him : yes, everyone saw it.. Please continue .

Me : weeks after Lucia was arrested this incident happened.. Few days ago, she sneecked in the
hous
I then finished telling what happened...

Him : thank you mam.. For your time and get well soon.. Also I promise that justice is done..

Me : thanks..

He left and I stayed in my thoughts and prayed for the police to really get true justice...

** themba**

We got to court and the process went on, I was given bail of 12000, as this matter was being
investigated.. So I got my clothing and james was waiting outside...

Him : ready to go home big guy??

Me : no, I want to go to Tshidi..

Him : owk...

He drove me to the hospital an all that was in my mind was my wife and kids....

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We arrived at the hospital and I went inside Tshidi's room.. Funny.... There were about 4 people
in her room, I saw that before I got in.. I looked at James and he was as confused at I was... I
opened and immediately I was amazed by what I saw... Firstly my baby was awake and smiling
again and she was all laughing.. Not to mention that the people in the room was my brother
(Bafana), Jabu, Thabo and lastly Msg (Tshidi's former best friend).. I was just amazed and happy...
As we walked in they all turned to look at me...

Fana : huh, our prison bull is here...

We all laughed... Fana sure is still crazy..

Me : wow, its sad I never got this kind of welcome when I was in jail..

Jabu : bro, as you said "jail".. You can never put "welcome" and "jail" in the same sentence..
We laughed...

Thabo : but on real grounds, we just landed today, and thought we should pass by her first, since
she's been our last born..

Msg : and it's been years...

Me : well, it is been years guys...

Jabu : I hear this has become the second home for your family??

Me : yah, hectic..

Msg : speaking of family, were are my kids??

Me : at home.. With my uncle...

Tshidi : guys, its so great for all of y'all to be here...

James : clears his throat....

Me : sorry, guys this is my best friend, james..

They greeted each other...

Thabo : hai, I heard you and lsg are very successful huh!!

Me : story for another day.. Right now I wanna focus on my wife.. Wifey
I made my way to kiss her.. She blocked me..

Her : now only you wanna greet me??

Me : am sorry babe, I was being interrogated by these lost and found souls..
I started getting slaps on my back..

Me : ouch..

Fana : lost and found souls??

Me : Eash, Eash hai father, where did you pick these forbidden fruits...

I was slapped so much again and I ran around Tshidi's bed..

Me : jho jho jho, hai, I Better not say anything else..

Tshidi was laughing her lungs out and bursting in tears..

I looked at her and pouted…

Me : come near..

I leaned in and kissed her, we shared a passionate kiss.. But was interrupted by this animals....
Lol...

Msg : get a private room guys..

Jabu : ewww come one, am still a virgin…

Fana : hahahaha oh virgin??

Jabu : yah hao, kinga??

Msg : hahahaha..

I sat on Tshidi side listening to them..

Fana : so james, how did you meet this donkey??

James : through business..

Jabu : woow, y'all are best friends as well as business partners??

Msg : yah, and almost married lsg..

Thabo : what??

Msg : yes, he's the james that was arranged to marry lsg..

Jabu : woow.. And they still remained bros..

Me : yah, we still bro's.. He took your space fana...

Fana : ouch, am hurt, please call the doctor, am about to die.. Help!!

He was being crazy, like he always do.... Jabu made a gun with his hands and pointed at me..

Jabu : you killed my Braza...

He pretended to shoot and made sounds with his mouth.. I pretended to react to the shots then
msg and thabo and james pretended to be police men.. Tshidi was just laughing... Its amazing
that james just warmed himself in this craziness.. Now all of y'all know how crazy we are
right...lol...

**lesego**

They kept on talking and talking and playing games.. I just mostly laughed...
Later the doctor came to tell them that I needed rest...

They all left promising to come back tomorrow... Themba left making sure that he got a good bye
kiss.. Lol...

I rested and went to sleep...

.
Later that day I woke up, I wanted to stand up and go to the bathroom but rememberd that I
can't walk.. I suddenly really got mad an sad.. I then tried to stand an walk but couldn't.. I tried
even more and ended up falling and hurting myself... The doctor found me down...

Doc : mrs khumalo, what are you doing??

Me : trying to do what I grew up doing.. Walking..!!

Doc : mrs khumalo please, take it easy...

Me : so easy for you to say, you can walk..

Doc : mrs khumalo...

I didn't say anything, she got me up an I laid there as my tears fell down..

Doc : mrs khumalo??

Me : you can leave now doc...

Doc : please try not to hurt yourself..

I kept quite and he left...

So much for coming back to life, I shouldve just died...

**a week later**

I woke up and found themba busy with his phone... Actually he was busy smiling with his phone..
I swear if he is busy cheating, I am gonna kill his girl without a doubt..
Me : should I be worried..??

He became jumpy and locked his phone ..

Him : mhm..??

Me : nvm...

He then nodded and went to shower.. Normally he would throw his phone on the bed and leave
it there... But this time he went with it to the bathroom...

So I have been locking myself in the house for the passed 3 days.. The squad tried to get me out
but I refused.. But my nurse comes everyday to help me walk.. After that I lay in bed.. This
wheelchair is even becoming useless, because its of no use, the only time I use it is if I go shower
or use the bathroom.. So yah, that was how I lived since I got here...

I also remember the time fana and them came to visit, he received a call and when he answered
it he left me alone in the bedroom, then came back to beg me to go downstairs bit I refused... I
have not yet confronted him of cheating I just kept it to myself..
.
Am about to get a body.... I swear...

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**2 days later**

Her : wow, you making progress, you just walked 15 steps today....
Me : yah, but with your help...

Her : you need to take it easy, and be happy of your achievements...

Me : right!!

Her : if you continue like this, you will be walking soon...

Me : thanks nurse...

I pulled my self towards the bed and immediately felt a sharp pain on my knee...

Me : aaaaaaaaaaaaaaAaaaaaaaaAaaaaa!!!!

Her : what is is Mrs khumalo??

Me : my knee, my knee, aaaaaaaaa my knee......

Her : owk hold me tight..

She got me laying in the bed facing down then went to fetch a cream or something, she rubbed
my knee with it and it was paining as whatever...

She even exercised my knee and it was even more painful.. When she was done she rubbed the
other one, I don't know why because it wasn't painful but I guess she was being proactive about
the pain...

Her : that would be it for today…

Me : what was the pain for??

Her : it might be because you might start walking again or simply because you pushed your knee
to the furthest pain...

Me : owk..
.
Her : so please rest owk..

Me : owk..

The nurse left and I was just there laying on the bed...

Today I was left with mama Joyce, she is a woman themba hired to take care of me when he is
not around, like make me food, help me go to the bathroom and all that.. So mama Joyce took
the nurse out....

For these passed days themba has been acting weired, I don't know why, I suspected cheating
but then I remembered that every time he does weired things, he does surprises for me... So I
just didn't know which is which....

Mama Joyce came in with a tray of food while I was laying on the bed...

Her : Tshidi, my child, I brought your food....

Me : thanks mama.... Have you eaten??

Her : yes I have, now I just need to make sure my child eats..
Her : thanks mama..

Her : owk, I will be downstairs cleaning, so if you need me just call me, I will keep my phone close
to me at all times...

Me : owk mama...

It was around 11am.. Themba had left to go to work... So I played music with my phone and laid
in bed, end up sleeping....

**themba**

So today was my off day and it was a great day to do the welcome party for Tshidi, mabye if she
sees her kids, parents, uncles, friends, and aunt, she will be more free and happy again instead of
always locking herself in the bedroom...

So I asked mama Joyce to call me once Tshidi is done with the nurse and done eating, so I was
with the gang (jabu, thabo, fana, msg and James) waiting for that call....

I had already called every family member of mine and hers to come to the house at around 3pm..

At around 12pm I got the call from mama Joyce…

Me : sanibonani ma..

Her : nebo mtwanami, Tshidi is sleeping now..

Me : really?? Owk thank you ma, we on our way....

Her : hurry....

She hung up...

Me : guys it's on..

Jabu : so, how we gonna decorate the house without her hearing us??

Me : mama Joyce is gonna play her music loud, that way she won't hear anything..

Thabo : gospel??

Me : obvious.

Msg : Eash, aowa...

We all laughed and drove to the house... We already had decorating stuff that we bought days
ago and his it... So we got there and already mama Joyce was playing her music...

**lesego**

I was woken up by the mixer of songs.. My phone was playing music and seems mama Joyce was
also playing gospel.. It was soothing gospel so I switched my phone off and listened to the
gospel... Before I slept I wanted to go to the bathroom, so I wanted to call mama Joyce but I
really wanted to push myself... I went on my legs,and stood up..

YALL I STOOD UP..... I then took baby steps to the bathroom... It literally took me about 20
minutes to get to the toilet seat because I would stand an not move when my knee starts paining
then when it stops I continue with baby steps...
I eventually got to the seat and did my business... But now I was not prepared to take another 20
minutes to get to bed, plus my knee is paining.... I called mama Joyce...

Her : am coming Nana...

She hung up and came indeed...

I heard her calling me..

Her : Tshidi!!

Me : in the bathroom mama!!

She came, opened and stared at me in shock...

Me : I know, I know..

Her : how did you get here??.

Me : I walked... Even though it took me 20 minutes....

Her : you serious right now??

Me : yes mama..

Her : so why don't you walk back??

Me : my knee, can't take it anymore..

Her : owk, let's go then..

She helped me up and helped me back to the bedroom.. I got there and laid down...

Her : ohh, I hope you don't mind the sound…

Me : no mama, am actually also enjoying it..

Her : owk, rest well..

Me : thanks mama...

I then heard something that sounded like something has fallen...

Me : mama, is themba around??

Her : huh..mhm.. No, he isn't...

Me : what just happened?? It sounded like something fell and there's such a good smell coming
from the kitchen...

Her : ohhhhhhhh, my....

Me : what mama??
Her : I had placed a table on the couch when I was cleaning, am sure that's what fell, I hope its
not broken..

Me : its not a problem...

Her : yah, an the good smell, that's me cooking...

Me : so early??

Her : yes, it really takes time to make what am making.

Me : what is it mama??

Her : you will see when am done...

Me : (pouting) owk..

I smiled and she left leaving a kiss on my cheek..

**themba**

Me : how could you bump the table..

Thabo : I was not looking mahn, I was busy checking my phone...

Msg : focus bro, focus...

We continued... So I was busy cooking an checking the pots.. Mama Joyce was making some
traditional food.. And I was making some morden Italian and African food...

At around 2:40pm we were done and cleaning up the mess around the house... The deco was
done, the food was awesome and everything was owk... I then went upstairs to my baby, I had
told mama Joyce to take care of the visitors as they come in.. African time.....

I went upstairs, I wanted to get a good reaction out of her, like I wanted to prank her, just to see
if she still loves me... So I got the gang to create a fake hickey(love bite) on my neck.. Its about to
go down... I also kinda used the perfume I bought for her and sprayed on myself. It was a
perfume I wanted to give her as a present today...

I got in... I saw she was sleeping so I hid my phone at a counter while it was recording... The gang
also wanted to see her reaction...

I then went to wake her up..

Me : hay babe...

She woke up, and immediately frowned her nose...

Her : what's that smell??

Me : mhm??

Her : themba, were have you been??

Me : work, why??

Her : dressed like that??

Me : it was casual Friday..

Her : was is perfume Friday as well??

Me : mhm??

Her : you have this woman perfume smell...

I laughed looking the other way, so that she sees the Hickey...

Her : THEMBA?.???

Me : what??

Her : get out...

Me : babe??

Her : don't babe me, out mahn...

Me : what are you talking about?? I was spraying perfume on myself to see which on smells good,
for you...

Her : where is the one you bought??

Me : I didn’t buy any, all the perfumes were not at the right smell...
Her : you cheater.....

Me : what did I do??

Her : you have a hickey on your neck..

Me : a hickey?? Lol.. Hahahaha yah

Her : oh its funny huh??

Me : babe??.

Her : get lost..

She wanted to cry...

Me : babe, don't cry owk, its a prank...

Her : prank?? Really??

Me : yes babe, am serious...

Her : don't lie to me bro, hows that a prank when you be smelling like a woman, and having a
hickey.?? How do you explain that??

Me : I can't!!

Her : mxm, get lost...

Me : am kidding look... Give me five minutes to explain....

Me : start....

I went to fetch my phone and paused the video, then I showed it to her..

Her : am still not convinced, you couldve done this for me not to ask questions....

Me : owk..

I did a multi video call to my gang an they confirmed then I hunged..

Her : not convinced... They could be covering for you...

Me : really babe, owk wait...

I went to clean the fake Hickey off and the perfume that I bought for her, I only took the perfume
I didn't want to spoil my surprise...

I then came back...

Me : here..

I gave her the perfume and showed her the make up on the tissue that created the Hickey and
showed my neck that was clean...

She stared at me then started slapping me and I moved...

Me : you damn lucky I can't walk, or else...

Me : or else what...

I gave her a smirk then leaned forward to kiss him... We missed then mama Joyce knocked..

Me : come in..

She came in..

Her : its time...

Me : thank you..

She then left.. I looked at Tshidi and she was confused...

Her : its time for what??

Me : you will see....

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I helped her up and placed her on the wheelchair, then took a blindfolder and placed it on her
eyes...

Her : babe?? What's going on..??

Me : just trust me baby, now let's go..

I drove her and we went down the stairs...

Her : u dare make me Fall, I am gonna punch you my niggar...

Me : well please shut it...

Her : haaa themba, I feel like am gonna slip and Fall...

I scared her into falling an she screamed....

Her : themba mahn, son of a handsome father...

Me : hahahahahah just know you in trouble...

Me : what did I do?? Themba don't tickle me...

Me : I won’t... But my dad will …

Her : huh??

We were alteady down so I took the blindfolder off and everyone shouted "SUPRISE"....
she looked surprised and held her hand on her mouth and started crying...

Jabu : Ncaaaaaaw....she's getting emotional....

Me : leave my wife mahn...

As I was speaking I just heard Tshidi shouting in tears " MY BABIES" and jade and jaden came
running to her and Tshidi's grandma came carrying Jane...

I saw jade had lipstick on his lips and seems like he also had nail polish, huh!! I was really angry
and off but I remained calm for my wife...

She looked happy to see them, so did I.. After greeting mommy they came to me and I huged
them tight... Especially jade, he just breaks my heart with this thing he's doing....

We all enjoyed the party and our babies were now back for good... She spend more time with her
grandparents and her babies.... She never gave me a little attention but I am not complaining, its
her party anyway... I still will get her attention after the party so I let the others have her
attention while they can...

We had a great party and all was well and it was time for gifts... She opened and opened being
very happy then she got to my gift... It was not written who it was from...

Her : woooooow, secret admire...

She opened it and found what she always wanted, a violin...

She cried and looked at me..

She then mimed

"I LOVE YOU".. I laughed and she continued opening till she got another gift from me.. It was
flowers, chocolates, cards, ready bear and wool made roses...
Her : ncoooooo babe, woolen roses...?? Ncaaaaaaw..

Me : mimed " I LOVE YOU"

we went back to enjoying and then it was time for her to make a speech..

Her : thank you all for coming, thanks babe for bringing my family and kids.... They really gave me
happiness again, and u... Thanks to my friends for coming all this way to make my day.. So lately I
have been depressed and sad, but y'all managed to make me happy again... I love you all and
mostly you themba, you my sunshine..

I went to her and hugged her then all was well....

After the party everyone went home and it was me, my wife and my kids...

**lesego***

After the party themba took me upstairs and placed me on the bed..

Me : you so full of surprises..

Him : I know, am romantic..

Me : a hahahaha, Right...

Him : I love you mrs khumalo, I love you like I just saw you...

Me : I love you too Mr khumalo..

Jane was crawling on the floor and jade and jaden playing around..

Him : siya??

Jade and jaden : dad!!

Him : hahahaha.... Hai I forgot y'all both siya..

Me : stop making my kids dome...

We laughed then themba went to tuck them in bed and Jane..

Then he came to bed... We talked then eventually slept...

During the night I wanted to go to the bathroom.. Instead of using the wheelchair, I walked.. I
walked and reached there in pain but persistance... It took me long but I was doing it... I came
back and slept.. Themba sleeps like a dead person, he doesn't even feel when am out of bed...
The morning came and I was woken up by pains in my legs.. I drank my pills and laid back, as it
healed I looked at the sleeping themba.. I went again at the bathroom and this time when I came
back themba was awake and shocked...

Him : baby you walking??

Me : no am crawling...

Him : hahahaha, baby is walking...

He came running to me an picked me up and spun me around...

Him : my baby...

He was making lot of noise and dancing and singing.. That hr boys came rushing in... Themba
placed me on the bed and ran to pick the boys up and spin them..

Him : mommy can walk.. Mammy can walk...

The boys were rather just laughing but confused and enjoying being spun around...
That was the best moment of my life.... Themba really seemed happy and all crazy... We were all
laughing and crying....
I am really blessed to have such a family....

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29 Feb 20__

***Lesego***
Today is our anniversary and this big headed surprising husband of mine hasn't said anything to
me... Well I am not worried nor angry because I know that he's trying to make me think that he
forgot our anniversary.... So it is 7am and we have been up since around 5am...

I was in the bedroom when Themba walked in...

Me : you can stop pretending tee, I know you haven't forgot our anniversary...

Him : huh?? (Shocked)

Me : nice acting babe, I am not stupid...

Him : yah, (fakes laugh)... Happy anniversary...

Me : babe, don't tell me you forgot!!

Him : see, I wasn't checking on dates you know...

Me : THEMBA!!

here I am thinking that this guy was faking it, but this guy is really serious... Haibo is Themba a
professional actor or did he really forget our anniversary... First "on date" anniversary... Meaning
its our first actual anniversary (29 Feb) but the previous years we would celebrate it on the 28
Feb with the kids and on the 1 march just the 2 of us... Oh just so yall know am PREGNANT with
TWINS again... Themba is a monster....(lol).. An I can. Walk perfectly... I am only 5 weeks
pregnant so I haven't started showing...

Back to this situation...

Me : Themba you not serious...

Him : Hai, at least it's still morning so I could do something fast...

Me : tee, you really forgot our anniversary??

Him : am sorry babe really....

Me : it's owk, priorities...

Him : don't be like that...

I got up to go take a bath while Themba bathed the kids... Jane and Themba are super close..
Jane's first word was papa... SAD... and she always runs to her dad when she's running away from
something...

After my shower I got out and found a set of outfit and jewellery’s on the bed... I just smiled and
moved ahead... Am not angry, because he's trying to make up for forgetting, but what if I had not
reminded him?? Was this day going to pass without celebrating?? And then wait another 4 years
to get to out actually date again?? A lot was on my mind... But I just had to thank God that I
spoke up...

I was now dressed.. I had a maroon tight, long dress with an open back and open leg slit.. It had
little glitters on the from chest and matched the maroon glitter heels... I had the matching
jewellery’s and a nice handbag...

Themba came in with the kids and I was stunned... An this made me ask whether he really forgot
or was just acting...

He had a maroon suit, black on the inside.. He was wearing exactly as jade and Jaden and I was
wearing exactly as Jane..

Me : you didn't forget didn't you??

Me : actually I had this ordered long ago, see I was a little prepared... So me forgetting isn't really
a big deal...

Me : oh..

I put in my make up and jade wanted me to put him makeup as well...

Jade : mammy, can I also put some??

Jane : that’s only for girls...

Jade : but it's not written only for girls..

Jaden : you don't see daddy outing it, do you??

Jade : no, maybe daddy doesn't want to, well I want..

Themba looked at him and just shook his head.. He took out a zambak..

Themba : jade, men put this..

Jade : jee, thanks daddy...

We got done and left..

Mind you I have no idea which restaurant we going to...

We got in the car...

We drove, talking laughing and having fun... We would also sing along to songs, Jaden and
Themba didn't like the sing along... Jaden says it makes him look gay... Lol...

We got to the jet and it took us around place and we would see the top of the places.. I was
mostly happy that I get to share this moment with my kids for the first time... The jet dropped us
at a close by place were there was an ocean and a big ship on stand by....

Me : Themba ?? What’s up??

Him : mhm... The sky is up babe

I playfully slapped him and laughed...

Him : owk, I didn't really forget our anniversary, I faked the reaction because I kind of knew u
might catch me out..

Me : you are so full of surprise.. Like literally...

Him : that's because I love you...

He held my hand and we took our kids hands and made way to the ship...

We had dinner, danced under the stars and kissed under the sunset... Our babies were having fun
too an playing with food.. Yall having kids is no child's play.....

We had a great anniversary.

***months later****

I have given birth to Jordan and Jayda.. Yes its a girl and a boy.. Their Zulu names is Jordan
(Luyanda) Jayda (Lethu).. I so love my family.... THE J SQUAT...

I am really happy for my family...

Thank you all for enjoying with me.. That's all from me and my family....

#THE_JAY_SQUAT
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