LOVEMELI

KEONLYYOUCAN

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t1
Ifellinlovewi t
hpsy chologywhenIcoul dn’tget
i
nt omedi calschool Idreamtofbei nga
psy chiatr
istf
rom t heti
meIwat chedShut ter
i
slandbutunf ortunat el
yt heGodshadot her
plansIcoul dn’tmeett hemi nimum
requirement ssoIendedupf all
i
ngi nto
psy chologyitwasmysecondopt ionanywayso
yeahIaccept edt hef i
rm offerfrom Ukzn
Howar dluckil
yf ormei tcamewi t
hr esi
dence
andf inancialaidt hatmeantIgett oleavethis
placet hatisfil
ledwi thsuper fi
cialpeoplewho
thinkthesunr i
sesandset sont heirass.
Hereist hethingIstaywi t
hmymot heri na
guestofhouseatherbosseshousedon’ tget
mewr ongIdon’ thatethi
spl acei
t’
st hesubur bs
ofRichar dsBayi tt
hepeopl eIhat
et he
Petersonst hefamilythatmymom wor ksf or
.
BeforeIcametostayherewhenIwas14Iused
tostaywithmygrandmot heri
nMandawebut
whenshepassedawaymymot herhadno
choicebuttot
akemewi t
hherbecausenowwe
theonlyli
vi
ngmember softheCelefamil
y.So
that
’showIendedupst ayi
ngwithmymom and
thepeoplesheworksfor.
Mom:“myfeethur
tssobad”Ilookather
f
eel
ingal
it
tlesadshe’
sgett
ingoldersheneeds
t
orest
Me:
“whatcanIdomama?
”
Mom:“
dowest i
l
lhavethoseoi
lyouboughtat
pi
cknpay
?”Inodstandi
ngup
Ourhouseist
hreebedroomswit
hopenplan
ki
tchenanddi
ningareaalongwi
thal
oungewit
h
onebathr
oom
Me:“f
oundt hem”Iscream comi ngoutofmy
r
oom andkneel nexttoherstartrubbi
ngher
f
eet“Idon’tknowhowy ougoi ngtosurvi
ve
wi
thoutthesefootrubswhenIam atschool ”
shesi
ghssadl
yIl
ookupatherwi
thaf
rown
Mom:
“Ial
sodon’
tknowSne”
Me:
“youwi
l
lbef
ine”
Mom:
“makemepr
oudSne”
Me:
“al
way
smamaal
way
s”
Mom: “
li
feishardmychi
l
dpeoplear
ecruel
out
thereespecial
l
yboyst
heywi
llchewyouupand
spityouout”
Me:
“mamaIam notev
eni
nter
est
edi
nboy
s”
Mom: “y
ousaythatnowbutwheny ougett
o
var
sit
yyouwil
lsaysomethi
ngelse”theal
arm
r
ang
Me:“i
tti
met
oser
vedi
nnerr
estIwi
l
ldoi
tfor
you”
Mom:
“thanky
ouSne”
Igettothemainhousewar
mt hefoodwhi
l
e
setti
ngupthetabl
easIam di
shingupt
hefood
Luthandoget
sin,hi
stheel
destsonoft
he
f
ami
l
y
Luthando:“
smell
sgoodinheremam Rose
cook?”Ihadbeencooki
ngsinceschool
swer
e
cl
osednow
Me:“
yesshecookedtoni
ght
”hepeaksov
ert
o
l
ookatwhatIam di
shi
ngup
Luthando:“y
um”hemov esback“ r
eadyfor
Durbanlit
tl
ekid?”Il
ookathi m ali
ttl
econfused
hehasnev erbeennicehisthewor stoft
he
thr
eelitt
lePeter
soneviloffspr
ings
Me:“y
es”It
akethef
oodtothediningar
eahe
hel
psmewhenIam doneIleav
et hem t
oeat
andgobacktomyhouse.
Aft
eranhourIgobackandcl eanupLelet
huthe
pri
ncessofthef
amilyandmiddlechi
ldcomes
i
nasIam washingthedishesshetakesabottl
e
ofwaterandwal
ksoutIfini
shupandl eave.
.
Day
shav
egonebyr
ightnowIam att
het
axi
rankmom hasaccompani edmewel oadmy
l
uggagei nthetaxi
Ihadtobuyaseatbecause
myl uggageisj
ustalit
tl
eoverboar
dnowmy
mothermay beamai dbutshemadesureIam
nevershortofanyt
hing
Mom: “
becarefulSneDurbanisnotasafeplace
kugcwel eamapharathereIst
il
ldon’t
understandwhyy oucouldn’
tgotoUniZulu”
becausei t
’st
oocloseIwantt ot
ellhert
hatbutI
don’tbecauseIknowi twil
lbr
eakhersweet
heart
Me:“Iwil
lbecaref
ulmama”shepull
soutf
ew
not
esfrom herbraandgi
vet
hem tome
Mom: “
monthendi
saroundthecorneryouwil
l
j
usthavet
odowiththi
s”Icounti
tanditr1000
Me:“t
hankyoumama”Iputi
tinmyhandbag
andgi
veherababyki
ssthewayshei
slooki
ng
atmemakesmewantt ocr
y
Mom:“t
akecar
eofy our
sel
f”Inodandshe
wal
ksawayIwatchherwit
htearsr
unni
ngdown
mycheeks
Thisi
sitIam goi
ngtobeonmyownf orthe
fi
rstt
imeinmyl i
feIwi
llhavetober esponsibl
e
andlearnhowtobeindependentwhi l
elearni
ng
howt oadaptt
oanewf asterenvi
ronment .
Iarr
ivedi nDur bant ookat axitot owngotof fat
workshopwal kedtomyr esidencel ooki
ngli
ke
bubut hef ool walkingwithallmyl uggage.I
arr
ivether ethesecur i
tyguardst ookmet othe
RAlucki l
yIhadal readyregisteredonl i
neand
sort
edev erythingoutt heRAwasni cehegav e
memykeyt henhel pedmewi thmybagsgoi ng
tomyr oom
Ra:“
welly
ourroommat ehasalr
eadyarr
ived”I
l
ookattheothersi
nglebedital
readymadeI
don’
tknowwhomyr oommat ei
sbutIal
ready
don’
tli
kehershetookthebedbyt hewi
ndow
Bi
tch!
Me:“yeahIsee.ThankyouagainItr
uly
appr
eciat
ethis”hesmil
esreveali
nghistwo
Gol
dteet
hIst
opmy
sel
ffr
om gaggi
ng
Ra:“youwelcomeSne.Iwi l
lseey ouaround”I
nodandwal khi mt othedoorwhenhewal ks
outIlocktheroom andl ookar oundt here’
sa
kit
chenandabat hroom wi t
hashowerIsi gh
heavi
lyandst arttomakemybedmom made
mebuyt hebeddingsett hatsidewhenIam
donemaki ngt hebedIunpackmycl othesour
them neatl
yint heclosetthenputmybags
i
nsidethesuitcaseputbot hsui t
casesont opof
thecloset.
ThedooropensasIam col lapsingonthebedI
feelexhaust
edandabl ackKim Kardashian
entersIopenl
ydroolsheisbey ondbeautif
ul
withalongweav eIknowweav esImi ghtnot
affor
donebutIknowt hem.She’swearinga
simpledressandsandalsyetonheri tl
ooksli
ke
adesignerdressIi
mmedi atel
yhat eher.
Me:
“hel
l
oI’
m SneCel
e”
Her
:“Zi
yandaDabul
aguessI
’
myourr
oommat
e”
Me:“guessso”shewalkst
othewindowt
ake
outci
garet
teandstar
tssmoking
Ther
egoesmygi
rlcr
ushIam ov
erher
Zi
yanda:
“hopey
oudon’
tmi
ndIsmoke”
NopeIdon’tmindfor
gett
hati
tcausescancer
andthatsecondhandsmoki
ngisactual
l
ymore
dangerous
Me:“i
t’
sokay”If
acet
heot
hersi
deawayf
rom
herandcal
lmom
Mom:
“Snegugu.Di
dyouar
ri
vesaf
ely
?”
Me:
“yesmamaIdi
d”
Mom: “good,
whatyoudoi
ngnow?Behav
ether
e
remembereducati
oni
ssomethi
ngnoonewil
l
evert
akeawayfrom y
ou”
Me:“
Iknowmom andIam l
ayi
ngi
nthebedI
’
ve
madeit
”
Mom:“
good.Makeyourbedev
erydaySnedon’
t
beapi
g”Ij
ustl
aughmom knowsIhatemaki
ng
t
hebedIseenopoi
nti
nmaki
ngi
tonl
ytomess
i
tuphour
slat
er
Me: “
okaymama”weendthecal
lZi
yanda
keepssteal
i
nggl
ancesatme
AsIam wal
ki
ngbackfr
om wor
kshopwhereI
wentt
obuygrocer
yandsometakewayIsee
Raherunst
ome
Ra:“
letmehel
pyouout
”het
akesmostofmy
pl
asti
c
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Ra:
“Sbu….mynamei
sSbu”
Me:“okay”wewal kinsil
enceuntilwegettothe
resi
nt heel
evatorther
ear eotherstudent
sSbu
makessomesmal lconversat
ionwiththem we
getoffatmyfloorhewal ksmet othedoor
Me:“
thankyouSbu”hesmi
l
esbr
ight
lyhi
ssmi
l
e
l
ookscreepy
Sbu:“
youwelcome”hewalksawayasIgeti
n
Zi
yandaisonherbeddr
inkingwi
newhil
e
wat
chi
ngsomet
hingi
nherl
apt
op
Isi
tdownaft
erunpacki
ngmygr
ocer
yandeat
mydinner
Zi
yanda:
“wi
ne?
”
Me:
“not
hanky
ou”sheshr
ugshershoul
der
s
Zi
yanda:“sowher
eyoufrom?”It
ell
her“
ohI
’
m
fr
om Cler
montkwadabeka”
Me:
“cool
”
Zi
yanda:
“youdon’
treal
l
yli
ket
alki
ngdoy
ou?
”
Me:
“it
’snotl
i
ket
hat
”
Ziy
anda:“wel
lwhatyoudoing?I’
m secondy
ear
psychol
ogy”Isi
tinali
tt
leexci
tement
Me:“
real
l
y?I
’
mfi
rsty
earpsy
chol
ogy
”she
gi
ggl
es
Ziy
anda:“y
eah”west
artt
alki
ngget
ti
ngt
oknow
eachother
.
MondayIwokeupexci tedt hiswasi tfi
rstday
ofmyv arsit
ylifeIgotr eadyf orcampusaf ter
havingbr eakfastIl eaveZiy andai ssti
l
l asleep
wedi dourt imet ablelastnight .Igetdownas
thebusl eavesIr unafteritbuti thopelessIj ust
sighinirri
tati
onsomeonel aughsbehi ndsoI
turntolookatt hem I ’
veseensomegood
l
ooki ngguy sbuthet akest hecakehei st all
darkandmuscul arev enthoughhei swear inga
suitIcanst i
lltellthathehasanamazi ngbody
Me:
“itnotf
unny
”
Him:“yourunli
kecaster
”Iroll
myey es“y
ou
goi
ngt oHoward?I’
m goingthatside,wanta
l
if
t?”Hesoundsdi f
fer
entli
kehehasan
Americanaccentbuthelooksblack
Me:
“not
hanky
ouI
’
llt
akeat
axi
youast
ranger
”
Iat
temptt
owal
kawaybuthehol
dsmyhand
Hi
m: “I
’m Sf
undoMkhi
ze,
seenowI
’
m nota
st
ranger”Iy
ankmyhandoffhi
s
Iwantt
oscr
eam goawayhotst
rangerbutI
composemysel
f
Me:
“ni
cet
omeety
ounowby
e”hechuckl
es
Hi
m:“
ti
ll
wemeetagai
nCast
erSemeny
a”
Me:“
Idon’
tknowifIshouldbeoffendedor
what
.Idef
ini
tel
ydi
dn’tt
hinkIwast hatugl
y”I
wal
kawayleavi
nghimlaughing.
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04/
14,
14:
22]Ron:
#2

Mont hsflewbyv arsi

tywasj ustokayIhadn’t
reall
yenjoy edity eahsur eIlovedthef r
eedom, I
l
ov edmyoncei namont hdateswi thmyself
wher eIwentt owat chamov i
eandat eata
diff
erentrestaur antev eryti
me.Ziy andaandI
wer ecool shest il
lsmokedanddr ankherwi ne
l
ikeitwat er,Ididn’thav efri
endsjustpeopleI
vibewithpeopl ewhoIat tendedwi thwehelped
eachot heroutwher ei
tnecessar y.Sbuwasj ust
amazingwechill
edalmosteverydaybesi des
weekendhewoul dgogetdrunkIlovedbei ngin
hi
sroom hehadasi ngl
eroom mor elikeaf l
ati
t
hadabedroom withkit
chenandlounget hat
hadtvhisroom wasli
kemysecondr oom.
Examskill
edmebutImanagedt opassal lfour
ofmymodul esbecauseIhadahi ghDp.
Sbu:“
Idon’
tunder
standwhyy ouhavet
oleav
e
wit
hsuchahugebag? ”Ir
oll
myey esathi
m
Me:
“MrRai
tjustonebag”
Sbu:
“thatIhav
etocar
ryman”
Me:“I
’l
lbuyyouicecream”hesmil
esshaki
ng
hi
sheadi cecr
eam i
sourt hi
ngwebestenj
oyi
t
atni
ght,weeatalmosteveryni
ght
Sbu:
“wi
thwhat
?Youbr
okebeaut
if
ul”
Me:“eishkambe”wel aughheput
smei
nat
axi
andkissesmyforehead
Sbu:“
takecareofyoursel
fthesehol
i
day
sIwant
backandsafefornextsemester”
Me:
“wi
l
ldoboss”
Sbu:
“by
e”
Me: “
bye”hewinksandwalkawayIputonmy
earphonesandgetmysel
freadyf
orthelong
roadhome
WhenIgetof fthet
axiLut
handoistherewait
ing
formei nsteadofmymot herhesmilesbr
ightl
yI
can’thelpbutf r
ownli
kewhatisthi
smandoi ng
herehei ssupposedtobeinPretor
iawherehe
staysandwor ks
Luthando:“l
ookatyoual
lgr
ownupy oueven
grewy ourhai
r”y
eahIgotovert
heshorthairI
grewmyhai randri
ghtnowIhaveboxbraidson
Me:
“wher
eismymot
her
?”Hef
rowns
Fucki
ngcunt
Luthando:
“younev
erwer
eni
ce”If
oldmyar
ms
overmychest
Me:
“wel
l
?”
Lut
hando: “
she’sathomeIofferedtocomepick
youup”helift
smybagandf r
owns“ whatthe
act
ualfuck?Youclosedforonlyfourweeks”
Me:
“so?
”
Luthando:“i
t’
sfucki
ngheavyshi
nyf
ace”It
ouch
myf acewipingandhechuckl
eswal
kingawayI
fol
l
owaf terhim
Me:
“it
’snotshi
ny”Imumbl
e
Wegettohi
sGtiwebot
hgoti
naf
terheputmy
bagi
ntheboot
Lut
hando:
“Ihav
etogopastt
hemal
l
”
Me:
“ity
ourcar
”
Lut
hando:
“your
eal
l
ydon’
thav
etober
ude”
Me: “Luthandoy ouhavetreatedmelikeshit
sinceIcamet oliv
einyourhouse.Remember
thenamesy ouusedtocallme?Rememberhow
youwoul dthrowwaterballoonsatmeev enon
coldday s?Remember ?”Hedi dn’
tsayany thi
ng
afterthatunt i
lwegottothemal lIdi
dn’tgetoff
t
hecarhewentinandcameoutaft
erf
ew
minut
escar
ryi
ngboxesofpi
zza.
Wegethomehegi
vesmet
heboxes
Luthando:“I
’
llgol
eavethi
sintheguesthouse
pleasetakethepi
zzatotheki
tchenoneboxis
foryouandmam Rose”
Me:“
okaythanky
ou”Idoashesai
dthen
pr
act
ical
l
yruntoourhouse“
mama!!
”
Mom: “
kit
chen”Irunthereandal
mostdr opthe
pi
zzabutshetakestheboxandputi tonthe
count
erwehugf oralif
eti
meIhav en’
tseenher
i
nmont hsact
uall
ysinceFebruar
yandnowi t
June
Me:
“Imi
ssedsomuchmama”
Mom:“hushnowdon’
tcr
yyouhome”Ishake
myheadIcan’
tst
opmytearsIhadn’
treal
i
zedI
mi
ssedherthi
smuch
Me:
“mama”Icr
yout
Mom:
“it
’sokaybabyi
tokay
”wepul
lapar
t“y
ou
haven’
tbeenkissi
ngboy
sri
ght?Iwantt
oki
ss
you”Igi
ggleshaki
ngmyhead
Me:“noIhav
en’
tmama”shewi
pesmyt
ear
s
andgiv
esmeababyki
ss.
Weont hecouchcuddl i
ngwhi l
ewat chingwe’ ve
j
ustf i
nishedeat i
ngIam t elli
ngmom al l about
varsit
yshekeepsl aughingatt hesill
ythingsI
tel
l.IfeelhappyIam happyI ’m withmyonl y
familyandI ’
m war mi nthear msoft hemost
l
ov i
ngper soni ntheentireuniverse.Thet opic
aboutmyf atherwasonewedi dn’ttouchmom
alwaysgotangr yandupsetwhenIt ri
edt obr i
ng
i
tupev entuall
yIgav eupl astIwanti stofor ce
hertospeakonl ytofindoutt hatIam apr oduct
ofrapebecauset hat’
susual lythecasewhen
mot hersdon’twantt oanswert hesetypeof
questions.
.
Iwakeupgot
othebathroom washmyface
brushmyt
eet
hIhadtoldmom lastni
ghtt
hatI
wil
lcl
eantodayshecanr
est.SoIgot othe
mainhouseandstar
toncl
eaningasIam busy
moppinginthel
oungeMrPetersongetsinhe
smil
esatmeIsmi l
ebackhehasal waysbeen
ni
ce
Mr
:“howar
eyouSnegugu?
”
Me:
“I’
m wel
landy
ou?
”Henods
Mr :
“I’
m wellt
oo,y
ourmot
herhasyouwor
king
today?”Iwanttor
oll
myeyesbuthi
sanel
der
soIdon’t
Me:
“Yebo”
Mr
:“si
tdownandt
ell
meal
laboutv
arsi
ty”
Me: “Ican’
tifMrsPet ersoncomesdownand
thehousei sn’
tcleanedandbr eakf
asti
snot
donet heywill
bet rouble”hesi
ghsandhe
actuall
ylooksirr
itated
Mr
:“wel
lyouwi
l
ltel
lmesomeot
hert
ime”
Me:
“yessi
r”
Mr:“I
’
vebeentel
l
ingyout
onotcal
lmet
hatf
or
year
sjustcal
lmeuncl
e”
Me:
“okayuncl
e”Lut
handowal
ksi
nhesmi
l
esat
mewhil
egreet
inghi
sdad
Mr:
“I’
m of
ftowor
k”hel
ooksatmeshar
ply
t
henwalkout
Lut
hando:“
youlookbeaut
if
ult
hismor
ningno
shi
nyfaceandall
”
Me:“boybye”Igobackt
omycl eani
ngwhenI
am doneIwentmakebreakf
astbefor
egoi
ng
backtobed
WhenIwokeupIhadbr eakfastt ookabat h
chi
ll
edwithmom t henwentt omakel unch.
Lat
erIcooleddinnert
hatwasbasi call
ymyl i
fe
mom rest
edt heenti
reholi
day sLut handohad
l
eftaft
ert
woofmebei nghome.Iwentbackt o
Durbanwhenmyschool holi
day swer eover
mom accompani edmetot het axirank.
.
Sbu:“areyousur
eyoudon’twanttocomei t
h
us?”Iam onthecouchcover
edinablanketit
Fri
daySbui si
nthebedroom get
ti
ngdressed
hi
sgoi ngout
Me: “
noy ouknowIdon’
tli
keyourf
ri
ends”he
chucklesandcomesbackint
heloungefi
xing
hi
st -
shirt
Sbu:“
youneedtostopbei
ngl
i
ket
hispeopl
e
thi
nkuyazi
tshel
a”
Me:“ai
ntli
keIcar
e”hewalkst
othecouchand
l
if
tmyf eetupashesatdownandputt
hem on
hi
slap
Sbu:“comewit
hme”j ustasI
’m aboutt
o
answerhim myphonerings“
yourmenar e
cal
li
ng”
Me:“
shutup”Ianswert
hecal
ltheni
mmedi
atel
y
gr
oanwhenIhearwhoitis
Luthando:
“am Iget
ti
ngt
hatr
eact
ionoutof
you?”
Me:
“hi
Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“I’
minDur
ban,wher
eisy
ourr
es?I
wantt
otakeyout
odinner
”
Me:
“whosai
dI’
m hungr
y”hechuckl
es
Lut
hando:
“comeonI’
l
lbetherein20mi
nut
es
gi
veyouenought
imetogetready”
Me:
“I’
m byt
hepl
ayhouse”
Lut
hando:
“okaywi
l
lcal
lyouwhenI
’
mther
e”
Me:
“okay
”weendt
hecal
l
Sbu:
“wowsoy
oudogooutj
ustnotwi
thme”
Me: “don’tbespi cy”Igetof
fthecouchki sshi
s
cheekandt akemyphone“ havefunI’
l
l seeyou
tomor row”hej ustnods“ mmh”Iwalkrunupt o
myr oom t akeaqui ckshowerithadbeena
ti
ri
ngdayoncampuswhenI ’
m doneIget
dressedi nskinnyjeansandat uckedindenim
shir
twi thNikesneaker smyphoner i
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wasf ixingmyul tra
Me:
“Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“Iam her
einf
rontoft
hepl
ayhouse”
Me:
“I’
m comi
ng”Iendt
hecal
l
Zi
yanda:
“boy
fri
end?
”
Me:
“no”
Zi
yanda:“
wellwhenyoucomebackI’
llbegone
Kevi
nispicki
ngmeupf ort
heweekend”that
woul
dbehercolouredboyf
ri
end
Me: “
seeyouwhenyoucomeback”Itakemy
bagandleavet
heresisbuzzi
ngthisi
salways
thecaseonFri
daysev
eryoneget
tingreadyto
gooutandexpensi
vecarspar
keddownst ai
rsto
pickupo’
glamour
.
Me:
“hey
”Igr
eetasIset
tl
einhi
scarhehasa
smi
l
eonhisf
ace
Lut
hando:
“lookaty
ou”
Me:“y
ousaidyout
aki
ngmet
odi
nnerI
’
m
act
ual
lyhungr
y”
Luthando:
“yesma’
am”hest
art
sthecarand
dri
veoff
Weputinouror
derandourdr
inkscomeweat
Musgr
avecir
cusci
rcus
Lut
hando:
“sohowi
sschool
andev
ery
thi
ng?
”
Me:“al
lgoodcan’
tcompl
ain.Whatyoudoi
ngi
n
Dur
ban?It’
sli
keyouhat
eyourjob”
Luthando:“
hadbeatt heof
fi
cesthi
ssi
deso
decidedtostay
sf ort
heweekendandhangout
wit
hy oushinyface”
Me:
“st
opcal
l
ingmet
hat
”
Lut
hando:“IseeDur
banistreat
ingy
ougood
youevengaini
ngweightandyoumoreyel
l
ow”
Me:
“I’
venev
erbeensmal
l
”I’
m asi
ze34
Luthando:
“wel
lyoubeaut
if
ulbuty
ou’
veal
way
s
beenbeauti
ful
”
Me:“aha.Youbei
ngwei
rdLut
hando”ourf
ood
comes
Lut
hando:“
thanky
ou,
canIhav
eanot
herbot
tl
e
ofbeer
?”
Wai
ter
:“y
essi
r”hewal
ksof
f
Wef i
nishdi
nneroveral
ightbutal i
tt
lewei
rd
conver
sati
onaftert
hatweinsistedonus
watchi
ngamov iesowedi daftert
hatweleft
.
Lut
hando:
“hadf
un?
”
Me:“
yest
hanky
ou”wenowpar
kedout
sidemy
r
es
Luthando:“I
’
ml eav
ingSunday”Il
ookathi
m
confusedbecauseIhonest
lydonotknowwhat
heex pect
smet odowiththat
Me:
“okay
”
Luthando:“
may
bewecanspendt
omor
row
together
?”
Me:“
Luthandowhati
sgoingonwit
hy ou?
”He
si
ghsandburyhi
sfaceonthest
eeri
ngwheel
Lut
hando:
“thi
sissowei
rddon’
tfr
eakoutand
don’
tbeext
raIknowhowy
oucanbe”hel
ooks
atme
Me:
“wel
l
?”
Lut
hando:
“Ihav
efeel
i
ngsf
ory
ou”
Me:
“fi
l
ms?
”Wel
augh
Lut
hando:
“beser
iousSneguguIl
ovey
ou”
Me:
“uhm …t
hanky
ou”hechuckl
es
Lut
hando:
“justl
i
ket
hat
?”
Me:
“yep”
Lut
hando:“
gosleepIwi
ll
seeyoutomorr
owI’
ll
comepickyouupyoucanhav
ebreakf
astatmy
hot
el”
Me:
“howf
ancy
”heshakeshi
sheadsmi
l
ing
Lut
hando:
“go”webothgetoutoft
hecarhe
walksmeint
hebuildi
ng“seey
outomorr
ow”we
hugandhekissesmyhead
Me:
“by
elut
s”
Luthando:
“ha.a”Iwalkt
otheelevatorwhenI
tur
nasIam get ti
nginIseehim sti
l
lwatchi
ng
mewi thasmileonhisfaceIcan’thel
pbut
smileasIwav eathi
mt heli
ftcl
osesPART2
LOVEMELI KEONLYYOUCAN
[
04/
14,
14:
22]Ron:
#3

Myphonewakesmeupf
rom mysl
eep
Me:
“what
?!!
”
Lut
hando:
“gr
umpymuch?
”
Me:
“whatdoy
ouwantLut
hando?
”
Lut
hando:
“wehav
epl
ans”
Me:
“I’
m st
il
lasl
eep”
Lut
hando:“
wellI
’
m upandr
eadysoIam
comingt
here”
Me:
“Lut
hando!
”
Lut
hando:
“myl
ove”Ij
ustgi
ggl
e
Me:
“don’
t”
Lut
hando:
“pl
easewakeup”
Me:
“onl
ybecausey
ouaski
ngni
cel
y”
Lut
hando:
“I’
m smi
l
ingr
ightnow”Ichuckl
e
Me:
“It
hinky
oubl
ushi
ngt
oo”
Luthando:“whoododo!St
opbei
ngambiti
ous”I
j
ustlaughoutloud“goodnowgetupandbath
I’
l
lbet her
einanhour”
Me:
“okay
”
Lut
hando: “okay ”weendt hecallIjumpof ft
he
bedIhav ethisexci tementbrewingi nsi
deme
i
t’
snott hatIhav en’thadguy scour ti
ngmei t
j
ustthatwithLut handoi tf
eel
sdifferentI’
vehad
aboyfri
endbef oreSboni soGodbl esshissoul
hewasj usttrulyamazi ngmyhighschool
sweetheartunf ortunatelyMrPetersoncaught
usatthemal l onedayheshout edatmeputme
i
nthecart ookmehomeIhear dhi m andmom
shout
ingateachot
herbef
oremom bel
tedme.
Lut
handosmi lesasIwal
ktohim hei
sstanding
out
sidehiscarhelooksgor
geousinal
lblack,
bl
ackskinnyjeansandt-
shi
rtwi
thsneakersand
bi
ker
Lut
hando:“
lookatyoual
ldr
essedup,
isi
tfor
me?”Ist
opwalking
Me:“
Iwi
l
lgoback”hepul
l
smet
ohi
m andhugs
me
Lut
hando:
“youl
ookbeaut
if
ul”
Me:
“st
upi
d”
Luthando:“
Iknow”helet
’sgoofme“it
’scol
d
getin”heopensthedoorformewhenI’
mi nhe
runstohissideget
sinanddriv
esof
f
Me:
“wher
eyoust
ayi
ng?
”
Lut
hando:
“mhl
anga”
Me:
“fancy
”hechuckl
es
Lut
hando:
“thecompanyi
spay
ingf
ori
t”
Me:
“st
il
lfancy
”
Luthando:
“well
yougett
ospendyourday
there”hel
ooksatmebri
efl
y“may
benightas
well?”
Me:
“sl
owdownMr
”
Me: “wow”Ilookaroundhi
sroom we’
vehad
breakfastatt
herestaur
antdownst
air
sthenwe
cameupt ohisr
oom whichisamazi
ng
Lut
hando:
“ni
ceneh?
”
Me:“mor
elikeamazi
ng”It
hrowmy sel
font
he
bedandbounceali
tt
lehel
aysnexttome
Lut
hando:
“sowhoy
oudat
ing?
”
Me:“you”hesi
tsupsoqui
ckl
ythatIj
ustbr
eak
outi
nlaughter
Lut
hando:
“don’tpl
ayl
i
ket
hat
”Ij
ustcan’
tst
op
l
aughi
ng“Snegugu!
”
Me:
“okaysor
ry”
Lut
hando:
“so?
”
Me:
“nobodyIam notdat
ing”
Lut
hando:“good,
nowhav
eyout
houghtabout
whatIsai
d?”
Me:
“gi
vemesomet
ime”hechuckl
es
Luthando:
“don’
tbeaki
dabouti
t”heget
sof
f
thebedtakesmyboot
soff
Me:
“canwegetundert
hecov
ersi
treal
l
ycol
d”
Lut
hando:“yeah”hepull
smecl
osetohi
m aft
er
wegetundert hecov
erandwecuddl
e“t
ell
me
howispsychologysofar”
Me:
“itokayI
’
vef
all
eni
nlov
ewi
thi
t”
Lut
hando:“doy
ouseey
our
sel
ffal
l
ingi
nlov
e
wit
hme? ”
Me:“Lut
handoy ouknowyourmot
herwould
haveaheartat
tackifshewoul
dfi
ndoutabout
us”
Lut
hando:
“mymot
heri
snotabadper
son”
Me:
“your
ightshej
usthat
esme”
Luthando:
“noshedoesn’
tyouknowshe
doesn’t
”
Me:
“Any
wayy
out
oool
d”hechuckl
es
Lut
hando:
“you19I
’
m 23t
hat
’snotol
d”
Me:
“Iwantsomeonemyage”
Lut
hando:“
youknowthatsomeoney
ourage
hasabrai
nofa16yearold”
Me:
“tr
ue”
Luthando:“soIam per
fectforyoubel
ieveme
noonewi ll
loveyouli
keIwi l
landIdon’twant
thesevarsi
tyfuckboysfucki
ngwi t
hyou”
Me:
“soy
our
athery
ouf
uckwi
thme”
Lut
hando:
“yout
alkt
omuchdoy
ouknowt
hat
?”
Me:
“fucky
ou”hechuckl
es
Luthando:
“fuckyoutoo”Ipinchhi
sstomach
“yousoabusive.Lookatme”Idohel eans
downandbr usheshisli
psonmi newej ustki
ss
i
tniceandslowhi sli
psaresosoftandcol dhe
hol
dsmywaistbringi
ngmybodycl
osert
ohi
s
“mmh”wepullapart“
yourl
i
ps”
Me:
“myl
i
ps”Iwhi
sper
Luthando:“tasteamazing”Ilookdownhe
chuckles“kissmeagai n”Il
ookupandwest ar
t
ki
ssingthist i
mewi t
hal i
ttl
eheatIpul
lback
whenIst artfeel
inghishandswonderi
ngover
mybody
Me:“no”it
’sunspokenbutwebot
hknowwhatI
am sayi
ngnot o
Lut
hando:“
obv
iousl
y”hel
i
ftsmeupmakeme
l
ayonhim
.
IwakeupMondaywakeZiyandaupandweget
readyforcampuswhenwereadywehav
e
breakf
ast
Ziy
anda: “
whenislov
ermancomingtoDurban
again?”Ij
ustsmi
leatheri
tOct
obernow
LuthandoandIbeentoget
herf
ortwohecomes
toDur
banal
mostever
yweekendthi
ngsar
e
goodr
eal
lygoodandyesIl
ovehi
m
Me:
“lov
ermani
snotcomi
ngIam goi
ngt
ohi
m”
Zi
yanda:
“ni
ce!
”
Me:“Iknowri
ght.I
’
m soexcit
ed”myphone
r
ings“speakoft
hedevi
l”Ianswer“
heybabe”
Lut
hando:
“mmhmyl
ove”
Me:
“youokay
?”
Lut
hando:
“noImi
ssy
ou”
Me:
“Fr
idayi
sar
oundt
hecor
ner
”
Lut
hando:“butIhav
en’
tseeny
ousi
ncet
hat
weekend”
Me:
“whatshoul
dIdo?
”
Lut
hando:“comedownst
air
sandl
etmet
ake
youtoschool”
Me:“ImissyouLut
handosodon’
tpl
ayl
i
ket
hat
”
hechuckles
Lut
hando:
“comemyl
ove”
Me:“
ifyoumaki
ngafool
outofmeIwon’
t
comether
eFri
day”
Luthando:“yousostubbornjustcomebef
oreI
getlat
ef orwork”hedropsthecall
Me: “l
ooksli
kelovermani
sher
e”Isaywal
ki
ng
outoft heki
tchenwher
ewewerehavi
ng
breakfast
Zi
yanda:
“whatyoumeanheishere?I
t’
s
Mondaydoesn’
thework?
”Igrabmybag
Me:“hi
scompanyhasof
fi
cesher
esohecomes
her
esometi
mes”
Zi
yanda:
“ifhei
staki
ngyoutoschool
givemea
l
if
t”Il
ookatherali
tt
leconf
usedandi
rri
tat
ed
Me:
“thebus?
”
Zi
yanda:
“pl
ease”
Me:
“whatev
erl
et’
sgo”webothwalkoutl
ock
t
hedoorandgototheel
evat
orSbuget
sin
whenwer
eachhi
sfl
oor
Sbu:
“ki
ddo”hepull
smetohi
m wehugIhear
mumbleswepullapar
t
Me:
“di
dn’
tseey
out
hiswhol
eweekend”
Sbu:“
Iknowwasatmlazi
rememberIt
oldy
ou
Fri
dayIwasgoi
ngther
e”
Me:
“ohwel
lIki
ndami
ssedy
ou”
Sbu:
“toni
ghtIam al
lyour
s”
Zi
yanda:“herboyf
ri
endi
sher
esoIdoubt
”Ihear
acoupleofchuckl
esbehi
ndus
Sbu:“
hiZi
yandahowar
eyou?Youl
ookev
ery
ugl
ytoday
”
Ziyanda:“
boybye.Youwishy oucouldhaveme”
wegetoutoft hel
iftZi
yandapullsmyhand
beforeIevensaysomethingIkeeplooki
ng
aroundaswewal ki
ngtowar dstheroadhopi
ng
tospotLuthando’
scarbutIdon’tseeit
Me:
“Iam goi
ngt
ofucki
ngki
l
lhi
sass”
Ziyanda:“
what?”JustasIam abouttoanswer
herLuthandocomesoutofanAudi a4Ismil
e
andbasicall
yruntohim heopenshisarmsIget
i
nt hem wehugt i
ghtl
ymyf eetev
enl eav
ingt
he
groundalit
tl
e
Me:
“youher
e”
Luthando:“f
eel
sgoodt
obemi
ssed”weki
ssf
or
suchal ongti
me
Me:
“whendi
dyouget
?”
Lut
hando:“
li
ke30mi
nut
esbackIt
ookaf
li
ght
ear
lymorni
ng”
Me:“andyoudidn’
ttel
lmey
ouwer
ecomi
ng!
”I
punchhisshoul
der
Luthando:“abusiv
easal way
s.Itwasn’
tpl anned
theycall
edmeatni ght
”hekissesmyforehead
“getinIhavetobei noffi
cei
n20mi nutes”I
pointtoZiy
andashewal kst
ousIintr
oduce
them wegeti nthecarandLuthandodrivesoff
Me:
“doest
hismeanIwon’
tbegoi
ngt
oPr
etor
ia
Fr
iday
?”
Lut
hando:
“nomylovey
oust
il
lcomi
ng,
I’
ll
be
l
eavi
ngWednesday”
Me:
“okaysoI
’
llseey
out
oni
ght
”
Luthando:
“Iwi
llpi
cky
ouupaf t
erwor
kyou
gonnastaywit
hmeuntil
Ileav
e”
Me:“onl
yify
ougoi
ngt
obet
aki
ngmet
o
campus”
Lut
hando:“
ofcourse”Ilookathi
m andsmil
ehe
i
ssofocusedonther oad.Il
eanoverandki
ss
hi
scheek“what
’sthatfor?”
Me:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Lut
hando:“
Iloveyoutoomylov
eIlovey
ouso
much”Igi
ggleandlookoutt
hewindowweget
toHoward
Zi
yanda:“
thanky
ouLut
handoandI
’
llseey
ou
l
aterSne”
Lut
hando:
“sho”sheget
soutoft
hecar
Lut
handohol
dsthebackofmyneckandwe
ki
ss“seey
oulat
er”
Me: “
lat
erbabe”Igetof
fthecarandhedr i
ves
offIwalktocl
asswithastupi
dsmi l
eonmy
faceIknowpeoplethi
nkImustbehi ghon
somest r
ongweedbutIdon’tcarebecauseI
am highonLuthando
Aft
eratt
endi
ngItakeabusbackt
oresIj
ust
smil
easIentert
hebusandwalkt
owhereheis
si
tt
ingIsi
tdownnexttohi
m
Me:
“youl
ooksour
”
Sbu:
“longday”hepull
smeclosert
ohim Iput
myheadonhi schestheput
shisar
m around
me“sawy ourboyf
ri
end”
Me:
“ohj
a”
Sbu:
“youcoul
ddobet
ter
”
Me:
“kahl
ekenj
edon’
tbeahat
er”
Sbu:
“iam j
oki
ngdon’
tki
l
lme”t
hebusst
art
s
movi
ng
Me:
“good”
Sbu:“
youlovehi
m don’ty
ou?”Inod“f
uckthat
heissupposedt
obelikeyourbi
gbrother
”
Me:
“fucky
ouSbu”Imov
eback
Sbu:
“don’
tbeext
ra”hepul
l
smebackt
ohi
m
Me:
“behappyf
orme”
Sbu:
“okay
”
Me:“
good.Iam st
arvi
ngdidn’
tgetachancet
o
makelunchandIam superbr
oke”
Sbu:
“doesn’
tyourboy
fri
endgi
vey
oumoney
?”
Me:“noI’
m notabouttoaskhi
mformoneyI
am notaboutt
hatli
fe”
Sbu:“I
’
llf
eedyouwhenwegett otownIwant
thoseworsrol
l
sfr
om workshop”sal
iv
afi
ll
smy
mouthjustatt
hementi
onofthem
Me:“mmhper
fectIt
hinkt
hat’
sexact
lywhatI
needwi
thagl
assofcoke”hechuckl
es
Sbu:
“youandf
ood”
Me: “
yeahIloveitIknow,Ishouldprobabl
ybe
watchingmywei ghtbutIdonotcare”weget
of
fthebusandwal ktoworkshopbuyourf ood
wal
kbackt oreswegot ohisroom andeat
whi
lewat chingtv
.
Ziyanda:“yout oocomf or
tabl
earoundl over
many oucan’ tbegoi ngtoyourboyfri
end
l
ooki ngli
ket hat ”Il
ookatmy sel
fI’
m wear ing
blackboyfriendj eans,awhitet-
shir
tandbl ack
allst
armyhai risnotdonejustshortafrothat
I’
veroughedup
Me:
“Il
ookf
ineZi
yanda”If
ini
shpacki
ngmybag
Ziy
anda:“Lut
handoisgor
geousandheworks
hi
severythi
nggirl
swanti
fyoudon’
tupyour
gamey ouwill
losehi
m”
Me:
“ifi
tmehewant
shewi
l
lst
ayi
fitnothewi
l
l
moveon”
Zi
yanda:“
don’
tsayIdidn’
twarny
ou”Irol
lmy
ey
esIam soclosetotel
li
nghert
ofuckoffand
mindherownbusiness
Me:
“by
eZi
yandaIwi
l
lseey
ouWednesday
”
Zi
yanda:
“by
e”It
akemybagsandl
eav
e.
Luthandograbsmyneckandki ssesme
passionatel
yassoonasIgetinthecarhi
shand
goesupt omybr easthegi
vesi
tasqueezeI
moani ntohismouth
Lut
hando:
“let
’sgetoutofher
e”
Me: “
okay
”Iwhi
sperandcl
earmyt
hroathe
dr
ivesoff
Lut
hando:
“tellmehowwasy ourday
”Isi
ghand
si
nkbackont heseat,t
hethi
ngshedoestome
makesmef eelfor
eignthi
ngsPART3LOVEME
LI
KEONLYYOUCAN
[
04/
14,
14:
22]Ron:
#4

Ithr
owmy sel
font
hebedassoonaswegeti
n
theroom
Lut
hando:
“youandt
hrowi
ngy
our
sel
font
he
beds.Youbett
ernotdot
hatshi
tatmy
apart
ment”Ibri
ngmyupperbodyupanduse
myelbowstobalance
Me: “t
henmay beIshoul
dn’
tcometoyour
apartment”hepull
smet ohi
m bymyankl
eI
j
ustgiggleloudl
yshaki
ngmyhead“whatyou
doing?!
”
Lut
hando:
“Ihat
eitwheny
ouactl
i
key
oudon’
t
car
e”
Me:“sor
ry”hepull
smecl
osersot
hathi
s
st
andingbetweenmyl
egs
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Me:
“lov
eyout
oo”
Luthando:“I
’
m gonnaor
derusdi
nner
.Any
thi
ng
specif
ic?”
Me:
“what
every
ouor
der
ing”
Lut
hando:
“okaybuty
oubet
ternotcompl
ain”
Me:
“wel
lyoubet
ternotgi
vemesomet
hingt
o
complai
nabout”hejustchuckl
esandwalks
awayhecomesbackaf termakingacall“
baby
doyouthinkIshoul
dputonmor eef
for
tin
get
ti
ngdressedupifwemeet i
ng”
Lut
hando:
“wher
eist
hatcomi
ngf
rom?
”
Me:
“justanswerme”
Luthando:“
noyouper
fectasyouareandIl
ove
thatyourst
ylei
ssi
mpleitsui
tsyouver
ywell
”
Me:
“yousur
e?”
Luthando:“youaskl
ikeyouwouldchangefor
me”wel aughoutloudlybecausewebothknow
thatwon’thappen
Me:
“let
’sj
ustl
eav
ethi
s”
Luthando:
“Imissedyoumylov
e”hecupsmy
facethewayheislooki
ngatmehasmyhear
t
beati
ngcrazy
Me:
“wel
lthi
sisme”
Lut
hando:
“indeed”
Me:
“ar
eyouev
ergoi
ngt
oki
ssme?
”Hesmi
l
es
Lut
hando: “
Iam y
oursasmuchasyoumi
neso
dowhaty ouwanttodo”Ipul
lhi
mtomeand
ki
sshim hardhegroansandfal
l
sont
opofme
Me: “mmh”hehol dsmywai stroll
ingussot hat
Iam ont opofhim hetakesof fmyt -
shi
rtI
’ve
gottensousedt obeingnakedar oundhimI
don’tevenfeeluncomf or
table,besidesmyman
l
ov esmybodymuf fi
nt opstret
chmar ksandall
.
Thedoorbel lr
ingsjustashei stakingmyj eans
offsomehowhehasmanagedt ogetmeunder
him
Luthando:
“tal
kaboutbadt
imi
ngI
’
m sur
ethat
’s
food”
Me:“i
fthat
’st
hecasethengetof
fMrPet
erson
andgogetourfood”heget
soffme
Lut
hando:
“youal
way
shungr
y”
Me:“bet
tert
hinkcar
eful
l
ybef
orey
ousay
anot
herword”
Luthando:“mxm”goest othedoor“cover
yoursel
f”Idoashesay swiththethrowwhil
ehe
opensthedoor“ j
ustputevery
thi
ngont he
dini
ngtable”t
heguydoeshi sbusinessthen
l
eav esaft
erLuthandogiveshi
m money
Me:
“ar
eweeat
ingnow?
”
Luthando:
“nounl
essy
ouhungr
yIwantt
obat
h
fi
rst”
Me:“noI
’
m okaybabe”hewal
kst
omeand
pul
l
smet ohi
m
Lut
hando:
“let
’sshowerf
ir
st”
Me:
“car
ryme”her
aiseshi
sey
ebr
ow
Luthando:“
li
keIl
ovey
ouandever
ythi
ngbutI
don’twanttobr
eakmyback”wel
augh
Me:“st
upidshit
”hetakesoffwhat’
slef
tofmy
cl
othesandalsost
ri
ps“ butyougotanamazi
ng
bodybae”
Lut
hando:
“Iwon’
tev
enr
espondt
othat
”
Me:“
butI
’
m complement
ingy
ou”hel
i
ftsmeup
Iwr
apmyarmsaroundhi
sneck
Lut
hando:
“babydon’
t”
Me:“
Ilov
ey ourbody”heshakeshi
sheadand
wal
kstothebathroom.
Wesitaroundthetabl
eandhav edi
nneraft
er
we’
vefini
shedshower i
ng.Iam i
nmypy j
amahe
i
swearingjusthi
spy j
amabottoms
Luthando:“don’
tpl
aywithyourfoodSne”t
hings
beenal i
tt
lecoldsi
nceIsaidthatcomment
abouthisbodyIdon’tunder
standwhyhisbeing
sourImeanhi sbodyisamazinghisski
nnybut
muscular
Me:
“yesdaddy
”
Lut
hando:
“don’
tdot
hat
”
Me:“
mxm”heshot smeashar plookIrol
lmy
ey
esIknowt hathi
str
yingt
ointi
midatemebut
webothknowthatwon’
twork
Lut
hando:
“justeaty
ourf
ood”
Me:
“am Inoteat
ingLut
hando?
”
Lut
hando:
“don’
tgi
vemeanat
ti
tude”
Me:
“what
ever
”hesi
ghsIl
ookupathi
m
Lut
hando:
“comehere”Iwal
ktohi
m heput
sme
onhisl
ap“wenotf
ighti
ngri
ght
?”
Me:
“Idon’
tknowbuty
oubei
ngmean”
Lut
hando:
“sor
ry”
Me:
“sor
ryt
oo.Il
ovey
ouokay
”
Lut
hando:
“Il
oveyou”wekissshortl
yhepul
l
s
myplat
etohi
ssideandstartafeedi
ngme
Me:
“I’
m notababyy
ouknow”
Lut
hando:
“youmybaby
”Ij
ustgi
ggl
e
Me:
“mom woul
ddi
eifshehear
dyousayt
hat
”
Lut
hando:“
whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odooncey
ou
gobackhome?”
Me:
“Idon’
tknow”
Lut
hando:
“youwi
l
lhav
etosneaki
ntomyr
oom
atni
ght
”
Me:
“noway
sthat
’st
oomuchr
isk”
Luthando:
“weshal l
see”hekeepsonfeeding
meandeat ingatsuchthatweendupeating
fr
om bothplates.Wefini
shedeat
inggotsome
workdoneIdi dali
ttl
ebitofst
udyi
ngwhilehe
checkedonhiswor kforfewhour
sthenwe
wenttobed.
Heputhi shandundermyt opmybody
i
mmedi at
elyreactt
ohistouchashishand
sl
owl ygoesupunt i
litr
eachesmybreastI
’ve
comet oacceptandl ovehi
sobsessi
onwithmy
breastshishandsalwaysgoesther
efir
st
Me:
“babe”
Luthando:
“tur
naround”Idot
hatandhegetson
topofmewest ar
tki
ssi
ngwhichi
sfol
lowedby
slowlovemaking
Lut
hando:“
Iloveyou”heki
ssesmyforehead
andpul
lsoutthengetsof
fthebedgoestothe
bathr
oom fl
ushesthecondom “
openup”I
giggl
eopeninguphecleansmeandthrowsthe
towelonthefl
oorgetsi
nbed“don’
tyoulove
me”
Me:
“youknowIl
ovey
ou”Isnuggl
eev
encl
oser
Lut
hando:
“wel
lsayi
t”
Me:“Il
ovey
ou”wekisshegr
absmybut
tand
pul
l
smeunt i
lIam l
ayi
ngont
opofhi
m.
.
IwakeupwhenIf eelhi
stongueonmypussy
doingunspeakabl
et hi
ngsIgrabthesheetand
groanloudl
yhistonguekeepsgoingincir
cles,
ci
rcli
ngmycl i
tgivi
ngmej oyanddriv
ingme
crazy
Me: “
Luthando”helooksupatmebutdoesn’ t
stopeati
ngmeupIwi ncewhenIf eel
his
tonguepenetrat
ingme“ pl
eeesa”heenter
sone
fi
ngerinashistonguegoesbackt omyclitand
mybodyshakeshesl i
psinthesecondoneand
star
tmov ingthem i
naslowamazi
ngpacemy
bodystartafeeli
ngext
remel
yhotIcanf
ell
it
buil
dingupandupashegoesonandonhi s
paceincreasi
ng“aah”
Luthando: “l
etgobaby”Ishakemyheadhe
goesf aster“l
etgonow!!!
”Igiv
eintohis
commandandcomemybodyi snotevendone
tr
embl ingwhenhesl i
desinhardandfastIcr
y
out“fuck”her ol
lsov
erputti
ngmeont opofhim
str
addl i
nghim
Me:“shi
t”welookateachot hersmil
ingImov e
i
ncircl
eshecloseshi seyesandgr oans.His
handsgoesupandhecupsmybr eastpinchi
ng
mynipplesImoanl oudlytossingmyheadback
Ij
ustwentwildri
dinghim crazy
Lut
hando:“
fucki
ngl
ovey ou”hef
lexeshi
shi
pI
j
ustexpl
odesandcol
lapseonhim
Me:“
shucks”hegr
absmyassandpoundsme
f
astandhardwerel
easet
oget
her
.
Webot
hget
ti
ngdr
essedhel
ooksatmeasIam
standingi
nfrontoft
hemi
rr
ort
ryi
ngt
ogetmy
hairtobehav
e
Lut
hando:
“what
’swi
tht
hef
rown?
”
Me:
“not
hing”het
ouchesmyhai
r
Lut
hando:
“badhai
rday
?”
Me:
“somet
hingl
i
ket
hat
”
Lut
hando:
“whyi
sitnotdoneany
way
?”
Me:“
I’
m broke”If
indhi
sey
esont
hemi
rr
orwe
l
ookateachother
Lut
hando:“
whydi
dn’
tyout
ell
me?I
’
m nota
psy
chic”
Me:
“Idi
dn’
tsayy
ouare”Ipushhi
m backand
movefr
om t
hemir
ror
Lut
hando:
“whatt
imei
syourl
astcl
asst
oday
?”
Me:
“13:
00”
Luthando:“I
’l
lsendy ousomemoneyandy
ou
cangety ourhairdonecall
mewhenyoudone
I’
l
lpickyouup”
Me:
“okayt
hanky
ou”
Lut
hando:“
nextt
imet
ell
mewheny
ouneed
somethi
ng”
Me:“I’
m notyourresponsi
bil
i
ty”Icanf
eel
my
angertr
yingt
ot akeover
Lut hando:
“youmywomansoy oumy
responsibi
li
tyasmuchasIam y our
sasy our
man”heci rcl
eshisarmsaroundmywaist
bringingourbodi
estoget
herIimmediat
elymelt
“tellmeokay?”
Me:“
well
sinceI
’m hereIcan’
tmakemy
sel
f
l
unchsoIdon’
thavelunch”
Lut
hando:
“I’
l
lgi
vey
ousomecash”
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovey
ouSnegugu”
Me:
“ncoohy
oul
oveme”hi
chuckl
es
Luthando:
“mxm l
et’
sgo”hel
et’
sgoofmeI
roughupmyafroandtakemybagashet
akes
hi
sandwel
eav
e.
Iputt
her
200not
einmybagandki
sshi
m
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Luthando:
“don’
twantyoustarv
ingI
’l
lsendyou
themoneyassoonasIgett oanatm”Ilean
overandkisshi
m hesqueezesmybreastIpul
l
backgiggl
ing
Me:“got oworkl
uts”hegrunt
s“lookaty
ou
soundingli
keananimal”hepushesmeback
l
aughing
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovey
ounowgo”
Me: “
byebaby”Igetoutoft
hecarandwalkt
o
thewhit
ecafesoIcanbuycoffeeandabun
befor
emakingmywayt omylect
urehal
l
Lut
hando:
“wow!
”
Me:“IknowIknow”hei
spickingmeupI’
ve
f
ini
sheddoingmyhairi
t’
sav eryl
ongt
wist
Lut
hando:
“lookaty
oul
ooki
ngal
lgor
geousi
t
l
i
keyounotmygi
rlf
ri
endImeanint
hemor
ning
y
ouwereugl
yasfuck”Ipushhi
m
Me:
“fucky
ou”hechuckl
esandki
ssesme
Lut
hando:
“youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbabe”
Me:
“thanky
oubabe”
Lut
hando:
“let
’sgocat
chamov
ie”
Me:
“andwor
k?”
Lut
hando:
“I’
m done”
Me:“okaywel
lI’
dli
ket
ocat
chamov
iewi
thy
ou
Lut
s”hegroans
Lut
hando:
“babyno!Donotcal
lmet
hat
”
Me:
“sor
ryl
uts”
Lut
hando:
“Sne!
!”
Me:
“geesekeepy
ourdr
awson”
Lut
hando:
“Ihat
ethatnamebabymar
n!”
Me:“
okayIgeti
tst
opshout
ing”hebr
eat
hsout
l
oudl
yPART4LOVEMELI KEONLYYOUCAN
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04/
14,
14:
22]Ron:
#5

Wellyear scertai
nlyfl
ewbyandi tbeenblissfulI
neverknewt herewassomet hingmi ssi
ngi nmy
l
ifeuntilImetLut handoandhi sbeenev erything.
We’vegr ownsomucht ogetherhi sbeent here
formei nev erywayt herewer etimeswher e
school gotsohar dthatIwant edt odropoutt o
j
ustgi v
eupbuthepushedmet onotgiveup.
Hebr oughtmet ogetherafterIhadbr oken
downandmademeabet terperson.Icant ruly
sayIdon’ tseemyl ifewithouthim Ijustlove
himtoomuchandt hemostamazi ngpartis
thathel ovesmet oomuchaswel l
.
SbuandIaregr eathisli
keabigbrot herInev er
hadthewayhet akescareofmei sjust
amazingbetweenhi m andLuthandoI ’m never
sortofany
thing.Thet wohadnochoi cebutt o
getalongi
twasn’ teasyatfi
rstLuthandodi dn’t
evenwanttohearawor daboutithedi dn’t
under standwhyIhaveaguyasmyf r
iendbutI
tol
dhi m Sbuwasmor ethanjustt
hathei smy
brothersoheendedupbei ngcoolaftert
hatwe
allhadl unchtoget
hertheyspokeSbuassured
himt hathedoesnotl ookatmei nthatway.
Sbugr aduatedheworksnowatt r
ansnetbased
hereinDur ban.
Ziyanda* sigh*Idon’ tknowwhati swrongwi t
h
thatgirlshej ustdoesn’twantt ograduateshe’s
doingher3r dy earnowshoul dhav egraduated
twoy earsbackIguessi t’
struewhent heysay
beautyandbr ainsarear ar
et hingswhen
combi ned.Herl if
eisallaboutf lashythi
ngs
she’sv erysoci ableandthathadcostheral oti
n
termsofacademi csbutshe’sst il
lbeauti
ful
,sti
ll
allaboutherci garett
eandwi neandmen.We’ ve
becamesuchgoodf ri
endsaf terthreeyearsof
beingroommat ebutnowIdon’ tstaywithher.
Ist
ayoncampusi nasingl
eroom ImeanIam a
postgraduat
estudentnowsoitcomeswitht
he
perks.Iam doi
ngmyhonour si
nindust
ri
al
psychologyi
thar dbutIhav eagr eatsupport
system andLut handoi
spay ingformyf eesthis
yearsinceIdidn’tgetf
inancialai
d.Iam
graduati
ngint woweeksI ’
m bey ondexcited
aboutitIworkedhar dandnowIhadsomet hing
toshowf ormyhar dwork.
Luthando:
“I’
m herebabeIcan’tseeyou”Iwal
k
outgoingtoparki
ngIjustar
ri
vedatt heai
rpor
t.
I’
m spendi
ngtheweekendwi thLuthando
Me:
“Iam comi
ngLut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“ei
shawusheshe”
Me: “
mxm”Iendt hecall.Il
ookaroundfi
nal
ly
spothisnewcarMer cedesC63babehasbeen
workinghardevengotapr omoti
onatwork.He
getsoutofthecarwhenheseesme, Ij
ustwalk
tohim wit
hasmi l
eonmyf acehi
salsosmili
ng
Lut
hando:
“baby!
”Ithr
owmy
sel
fathi
m he
hol
dsmetight
lyl
if
ti
ngmeup
Me:
“Imi
ssedy
ousobad”Ihadn’
tseenhi
min
t
woweeks
Luthando:“Imissedyoutoomyl ovemi ssed
yousobad”heput smedownandcupsmyf ace
weki sspassi
onately
.Itbeenalmostthreeyears
butitsti
l
lnevergetsoldkissi
nghim always
makessomet hi
ngexplodeswithi
nme
Luthando:
“let
’sgoI
’
m sureyouti
red”Icame
backfrom campuswentst
rai
ghttotheair
por
t
Me:“y
eah”heopensthedoorformeIgeti
nas
heputsmybaginthebootthenget
sin
Luthando:
“hungr
y?”Hedr
ivesof
f.Met
ropl
ays
oursong
Us:“
youthatGodlyspeci
alsomebodyIknow
youbesi
desmet urnthi
shouseint
oahome
gimmeonegoodr easonwhyungenzasoy oh
yohyohyoh”wesingalong
Me:
“aahbabyuy
abhi
bha”hel
aughs
Us:“
runni
ngout
tat
hingsIcoul
dprovemysel
f
waytoobusywi
nni
ngimmal osemysel
fever
y
daytheygonnahateonusmamasaidshegon
prayforuscauseIcan’
tdoitonmyown”we
keepsingi
nguntil
thesongends
Lut
hando:
“aahAKAr
eal
l
ydi
dgoodont
hisone”
Me:“
butIhatethedi
ghet hr
owsatDj Zi
nhl
e
wi
ththatbabymamaline”hechuckl
es
Lut
hando:
“yeahwel
li
tiswhati
tis”
Me:“
I’
m goingt
onapal
i
ttl
ewakemeupwhen
wearr
ive”
Lut
hando:
“HawubabyImi
ssedy
ounj
e”
Me:“
pleaseIdidn’
tsl
eepl
astni
ght
,wasup
st
udyi
ngf ort
hisst
upi
dtest
”
Lut
hando:
“youhungr
y?”
Me:
“I’
l
leatwhenwegethome”
Lut
hando:
“okaysl
eep”
Iopenmyey
eswhenIf
eelhi
sli
psonmi
neI
l
ookupathi
m hei
ssmi
li
ng
Lut
hando:
“wehomewakeup”
Me:
“car
ryme”
Luthando:“
thatwill
meangoinguptwice
becauseIcan’tcarr
yyouandyourbagsalong
wit
hf ood”hekissesmypoutyl
ips“don’
tpout
come”
Me:“
okay”Iwhisper
.Wegetoutoft
hecarand
gouptohisapart
ment
Luthando:“
I’
ll
putthi
sfoodonpl
atessoy
oucan
eatbeforesl
eepi
ng”
Me:“
okay”Ileav
emybaginther
oom thengo
t
otheloungemyphoner
ingsasIsi
tdown
“
mama”
Mom: “
heybaby
.Ar
eyouokay
?Howdi
dthe
t
estgo?”
Me:“
I’
m okayi
twentwell
,i
twashar
dbutIhad
st
udi
ed.Howareyou?”
Mom:
“I’
m okaySnedon’
twor
ryaboutme”
Me:“Ican’
tnotworrymamaIst i
l
l t
hinkIshoul
d
hav
ej ustwor
kedinsteadofcomingbackto
school
youneedt
orest
”
Mom: “
noLut handosaidchancesofget
ti
nga
j
obarebett erwithhonours.Youwoul
dhave
st
oppedst udy i
ngonlytostayathomethe
whol
ey earnotf indi
ngajob”
Me:
“Iheary
oumom Ij
usthat
eyourj
ob”
Mom:“don’tdothatt
hisj
obrai
sedyou,puta
r
oofov
ery ourheadandfoodonyourtabl
e”
Me:“
Iknowmom andIdi
dn’
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
.
Don’
tgetupset
”
Mom:
“Iam notupset
”
Me:
“anywayhavey
ouhadachancet
ogot
othe
mal
landlookf
oradress?
”
Mom: “
yesIwentther
etodayf
oundabeauti
ful
one.MrPet
ersonsayshewil
ldri
vemetoyour
school
”
Me:
“why
?Youcant
akeat
axi
”
Mom:
“wel
l
.”Shecl
ear
shert
hroat“
heof
fer
edI
wastal
ki
ngabouti
twi
thhi
m andheof
fer
ed
say
inghewant
stoseeyougr
aduat
e”
Me:“okaywellLut
handowi
ll
alsobether
ehe
sai
dhisgoingtobeworki
nginDurbanand
wouldlov
et ocome”
Mom: “
okaythat’
sgoodhehashelpedyoualot
thesepastyearswit
hhisadvi
cehisatr
uebig
brother
”Ilookathim smi
l
ingherai
seshis
eyebrow
Me:
“yeshi
sabr
otherInev
erhad”
Mom:
“wel
lIwant
edt
ocheckony
ou”
Me:
“whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
”
Mom:
“justf
ini
shedcooki
ngdi
nner
”
Me:
“gor
est
”
Mom:
“okayby
e”
Me:
“by
e”weendt
hecal
l
Lut
hando:
“mam Rose”
Me:
“yeah”
Lut
hando:
“eat
”It
aket
hepl
ateandst
arteat
ing
Me:
“shef
oundt
hedr
ess”
Lut
hando:
“wegoi
ngt
olookf
ory
our
stomor
row
atmenl
ynmall
”
Me:“okay”myal
armrings“Ineedt
otakemy
pi
l
l”Istandupbuthepull
smebackdown
Lut
hando:
“It
houghtwespokeaboutt
hisSne
youst
oppi
ngthepil
l
”
Me: “
andItol
dy ouIam notgoingtostoptaki
ng
i
tLuthando.WhywouldIwantt ogetpregnant?
I’
m sti
ll
study
ingIneedtowor kfi
rstgetmylif
e
stabl
e”
Luthando:
“Iwi
ll
takecareofthebabywil
lhi
re
someonet ot
akecareofity
oujustbei
ng
stubbornf
ornoreason”
Me:“
Iam notgoi
ngt
ofi
ghtwi
thyouov
ert
his”I
st
anduphefoll
owsmetohi
sroom
Lut
hando:
“Inev
erasky
ouf
orany
thi
ngSne”
Me:“Iknowthatbutr
ightnowyouaski
ngfor
toomuchLuthandoanditsel
fi
shofyou”It
ake
outt
hepi l
l
sfrom mybag
Lut
hando:
“babypl
ease”
Me:“noLuthandoandIam notgoingt
otal
k
aboutt
his”hegrabsthepil
lsfr
om myhand
“Lut
hando!!Gi
vethem back”
Lut
hando:
“andi
fIdon’
twantt
o”
Me: “youbeingababy ”hemov esi nsucha
speedt hatbyt hetimeIcat chupwi t
hhimi nthe
toi
lethei salr
eadyf lushingthem “ howdar e
you?!!
”Ishov ehi m off“wheret hef uckdoy ou
getar ighttodot hat”Ikeepshov inghim unti
l
heispr essedont hewal l“
argh!!”Ileavehimlike
thatint hebathroom gobackt ot hebedroom.I
j
ustsobasIgetundert hecov ers
Luthando:“babyI
’
m sorryIdi
dn’tt
hinkplease
don’tcr
yI’l
ltakey
ouaf r
iendofmi netomorrow
hisadoctorhewillgi
veanotherpocketofpil
ls
I’
m sorrypl
easedon’tcr
y”hetri
est ot
ouchme
butImov
eback
Me:
“voest
ekLut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“pl
easedon’
tcr
yI’
m sor
ry”
Me:“Ihat
eyoufordoi
ngt
his.Inev
erhat
edy
ou
l
ikeIdori
ghtnow”
Lut
hando:
“I’
m sor
ryokayIdon’
tknowwhatI
wasthi
nki
ng”hewalksoutandleav
esmetocry
al
one.
.
IwakeupwhenIf
eelhi
m shaki
ngmeIl
ookup
athi
ssmil
i
ngsweetl
y
Lut
hando:
“Imadey
oubr
eakf
astmyl
ove”
Me:“Idon’
twanti
tandgetawayf
rom me”I
hearhi
m si
ghasIam tur
ningf
aci
ngtheother
si
de
Lut
hando:
“youst
il
lmadatme”
Me:
“lookaty
oubei
ngsmar
t”
Lut
hando:
“howcanImakei
tupt
oyou?
”
Me:“l
eavemealone”hepul l
smet ohim bymy
ankl
e“fuckof
fmar nLuthando”hepicksmeup
andsit
sdownsot hatIam straddl
i
nghim
Lut
hando:
“Iwasst
upi
dsor
ry”
Me:
“Idon’
twantababyLut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“IknowIwon’
tpushy
ouwewi
l
lhav
e
ababywhenyouwantusto”
Me:“
okay”heki
ssesmynecksucki
ngonitas
hemovesbackonthebedunt
ilhei
slay
ingonit
Aftermaki
nglovewehadourbr eakfastt
henwe
tookanaughtyshower.Aft
ershower i
ngweget
dressedandgotohisfri
endhegivesust he
pil
lsandweleavegoingtothemall.
Me:“
theselookdi
ff
erentLut
hando”heshr
ugs
hi
sshoulder
Luthando:
“maybei
tbecauseyouwereget
ti
ng
thoseonesatt
hecl
ini
cIdon’tknow”
Me:
“andwhatar
etheant
ibi
oti
csf
or?
”
Luthando:
“thosear
emi
nedon’
twor
ryabout
them”
Me:
“yousi
ck?
”
Lut
hando:
“justf
luenot
hinghect
ic”
Me:
“okay
”
Wegett othemal landspendalmostt hewhol
e
dayIendupf i
ndingadr essatForeverNew
alongwithshoesandacl ut
chbagitsets
Luthandobackaf ewt housandsbuthesaidit
cool.Whenwef i
nishedwegetanear l
ydinner
thengobackhome.
Lut
hando:“
arey
ounotgoi
ngtomodel
forme?
”
Wecuddli
ngint
hecouchwat
chi
ngamov i
e
Me:
“nopey
ouwi
l
lseemegr
aduat
ionday
”
Lut
hando:
“di
dIt
ell
youhowpr
oudIam?
”
Me:“yeahonl
ycoupleoftimesIcanheari
t
agai
n”helaughsandkissesmyhead
Lut
hando:
“Iam pr
oudofy
ou”
Me:
“mmh”
Lut
hando:“
mmh”heli
ft
supmyt-
shi
rthi
shand
i
mmediatel
ygoesf
ormyboob
Me:“mmhindeed”Ifeel
hissmil
eonl
yneckhi
s
ot
herhandi
sbusypushingupmyskirthe
movesmypantyasideandstar
tspl
ayi
ngwit
h
mypussy
Lut
hando:
“al
way
sready
”
Me:
“fory
ou”hest
opsev
ery
thi
ngf
orasecond
Luthando: “IhopesoorI’
llki
l
lamot herfucker
”
heremov eshishandfrom mypussyIhearhi s
zi
p“ takey ourpant
iesoff
”Iquickl
ytakethem
offhel i
ft
smyl egupandentersmef rom
behind
Me:
“yesGod”
.
IwakeupwhenIf
eel
wei
ghtonme
Me:
“ay
ibaby
”hi
sbusyhov
eri
ngont
opofme
Lut
hando:
“itgr
aduat
ionday!
!”Hestar
tst
ickl
i
ng
meanddoesn’tst
opunti
lIam i
ntears
Me:
“baby
”Ibr
eat
hinheav
il
y
Lut
hando:
“yougr
aduat
ingbaby
”
Me:“
coul
dn’
thav
edonei
twi
thouty
oursuppor
t
andy
oupushi
ngme”
Luthando:“
nahmyloveit
sal
lyou”weki
ss
“br
eakfasti
sheregetupsoy
oucaneatandwe
cangetready”
Me:
“yescan’
tbel
ateonmyday
”
Il
ookatmysel
fonthemirrorIl
ooksodi
ff
erent
Lut
handoi
sstandi
ngbehindmewi t
ha
gor
geoussmil
eonhisface
Me:
“thi
sisme”
Luthando:“
thisisyou.Youlooksobeaut i
ful
babe”Iam wear i
ngawhi t
edressi tbel
owmy
kneesmedi um sl
eeveswithasl i
tbetweenmy
thi
ghsandt hetopbackisalllacewithfl
owers
myheel sandclutchbagarenudepi nkIhaveon
ashor t12i
nchBrazil
i
anweav e.Ihadmy
eyebrowsshapedandt i
ntedyester
dayat
Medusasal oonmymakeupi sli
ght.Luthando
takesami r
rorsel
fi
eofust henstar
tt aki
ng
pictur
esofmehi sphoneisfil
l
edwi thmy
pictur
es.
Lut
hando:
“let
’sgo”het
akesmygownandwe
l
eave.Wemeet i
ngmom andhi
sdadoncampus.
Ithr
owmy sel
finmymot her
’sarmsassoonasI
gettoherwehugeachotherti
ghtl
ywestar
t
cryi
ngwepullapar
tshesmiles
Mom:
“I’
venev
erbeenpr
ouder
”
Me:
“mama”
Mom: “don’
tcr
yithappydayandI
’
m soproud
ofyou”shepecksmyl i
ps“mamaisl
ooki
ng
downony ousmili
ngyou’v
emadebothofus
proud”
MrPet
erson:“
weal
lpr
oud”Il
ookathim and
gi
vehi
m afakesmi
l
eIsti
ll
don’tknowwhatthi
s
mani
sdoi
ngher
e
Lut
hando:
“suchacr
ybabySne”Ichuckl
e
Mom:“l
eav
emybabyaloneLut
hando”weal
l
l
aughmom wi
pesmytears
Luthando: “
let’
sgoi nitsti
me”wegoour
separateway sent eringthehal
lusingdi f
ferent
entrances.Thecer emonygoesonunt ili
t’
sour
turnmeandot herpsy chol
ogystudentswewal k
tothef r
ontwhent heycal lmynameSnegugu
HopeCel emyhear tskipsabeat.Icanhear
mom ul ulat
ingf rom thecrowdwhent heyput
thehoodonmybodyIf eelmytearswet ti
ngmy
cheeksIcan’ tdescr i
bewhatIam f eeli
ngatt he
momentnowor dscoul damounttot hejoyIam
feeli
ng.Iwal kdowngetmydegr eemom r ushes
tomeIj ustbr eakdown
Me:
“mama”
Mom: “
hushmychi
ld”Ishakemyheadmy
ent
ir
ebodyist
rembli
ngPART5LOVEMELI KE
ONLYYOUCAN
[
04/
14,
14:
33]Ron:
#6

Theceremonyf
ini
shedwewentt
otakepi
ctur
es
thenl
eftf
orgat
eway
Luthando:“
congrat
ulat
ionsbabe”Igi
ggl
eand
reachovertoki
sshischeek
Me:“
thankyoubabeforever
ythi
ngt
heout
fi
t
andt
hehairj
ustever
ythi
ng”
Lut
hando:
“I’
my our
sandy
oumi
nespoi
l
ingi
s
yougi
vesmej oy
”
Me:
“wel
lthanky
oubabe”
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Me:“
IknowLut
handosomet
imesIwonder
why
”
Lut
hando:“Idon’
tli
kethedoubti
ny ourv
oice.
Youevery
thingIneedandwantSney ouwere
madefrom myr i
byoumysoul mate”
Me:
“youmysoul
mat
easwel
lLut
hando”
Lut
hando:“good”hetakesmyhandandputi
t
onhist
high“doy ounoti
ceawei
rdvi
bebetween
dadandyourmom? ”
Me:
“wei
rdhow?
”
Lut
hando:
“it
’spr
obabl
ynot
hing”
Me: “
theywoul dn’tdothatyourfat
herl
oves
yourmot herbesidesmom i soldshedoesn’
t
eventhinkaboutar el
ati
onshi
p”
Lut
hando:
“howol
disy
ourmom any
way
”
Me:
“45”
Lut
hando:
“It
hinkdadi
sli
ke48orsomet
hing”
Me:
“canwechanget
hesubj
ect
”hechuckl
es
Lut
hando:
“Iboughty
ouagi
ft
”
Me:
“real
l
y!!Wher
eisi
t?”
Luthando:“hot
ely
ougoi
ngt
ogeti
twhenwe
fi
nishlunch”
Wegettotheparki
ngl
otandtheyal
readyt
here
weallwal
kinthemall
gototashasweorder
ourf
oodanddr i
nks
MrPeter
son:“
whenar
eyougoi
ngbackt
o
Pr
etor
iason?
”
Luthando:“
I’
m her
efort
herestoft
heweekso
I’
l
lleavesometimeduri
ngt
heweekend”
MrPeter
son:“
itni
cethaty
out
woar
ecl
oseSne
needsabigbr
other
”
Me:
“andLut
handoi
sjustt
hebest
”
Mom:“yeshei
s”Lut
handochuckl
esandpul
l
s
mycheek
Lut
hando:
“li
tt
lesi
ster
”
MrPeter
son:“speaki
ngofl
i
ttl
esi
ster
syou
shoul
dcall
lel
ethu”
Luthando:“okayI’
l
lcal
lheraft
erdroppi
ngSne
offatherres”thewait
erbri
ngsourfoodweall
starteati
ng.Whenweal l
doneMrPet er
son
payst hebil
lthenwewalkouttothecars
Mom:“t
akecar
eofy
our
sel
f.Whenwi
l
lyou
comehome?”
Me:
“June”
Mom:
“that
’ssof
arbutIunder
stand”i
t’
sApr
il
Me:“cal
lmewhenyougethome”wehugshe
gi
vesmeababykiss
Mom: “
Iknowyou’
vebeenki
ssi
ngboy
s”If
eel
myfaceheat
ingup
Me:
“I…Ihav
en’
t”
Mom:
“don’
tli
e”
Me:
“ohGod”shewi
pesmycheeks
Mom:
“yout
urni
ngr
ed”
Me:“cal
lme”shenodsandget si
nthecarMr
Pet
ersonfl
ashesmeasmi leanddri
vesoff.I
wal
kt oLut
hando’scarhedri
vesof
fasIam
doi
ngmybel t“
IthinkImi
ssmom Imi ghtgo
homeoneweekend”
Lut
hando:
“It
houghtschool
wasbusy
”
Me:
“I’
l
lsee”
Lut
hando:“wel
ll
etmeknow”Iputmyheadon
hi
sshoulder
Me:
“I’
m happy
”
Luthando:
“andI
’
m happi
ernowt
hanI
’
veev
er
beenbefore”
Me:“shi
tIfor
gotSbuhadcal
l
eddur
ingt
he
cer
emony ”
Lut
hando:
“cal
lhi
m”It
akeoutmyphoneand
cal
lSbu
Sbu:
“thegr
aduat
e!”Igi
ggl
esof
tl
y
Me:
“Yebo!
!”
Sbu:“
Iam t
aki
ngy
out
odi
nnerweneedt
o
cel
ebrat
e”
Me:
“I’
m wi
thLut
hando”
Sbu:
“tel
lhi
mtobor
rowmey
ou”
Me:
“nott
oday
”
Sbu:
“ohwel
l
.Wecangodanci
ngFr
iday
”
Me: “woul
dlovetogodancingFr
iday
”Il
ookat
Luthandocatchhi
ml ooki
ngatmesoIstickmy
tongueouthelaughsandlookbackatr
oad
Sbu:
“gr
eatt
henI
’
llseey
ouFr
iday
”
Me:
“wewi
l
ltal
k”
Sbu:
“Imi
ssy
ou”
Me:
“Imi
ssy
oubr
o”
Sbu:
“ar
eyouokay
?Needany
thi
ng?
”
Me:
“I’
m okay
”
Sbu:
“don’
tneedcash?
”
Me:“nopeI’
mfineactual
l
yIcoulddowitha
cashinj
ecti
onIsawthesevansatspor
tscene”
hechuckles
Sbu:“y
ouandsneaker
s.Wewi
l
lbuyt
hem
Fri
dayIgothal
fdaywe’
ll
doal
it
tl
ebi
tof
shoppi
ng”
Me:
“gr
eat
”
Sbu:
“okayby
esi
sIl
ovey
ou”
Me:
“lov
eyoubr
o”Iendt
hecal
l
Luthando:
“andwhywasn’
tIt
oldaboutt
he
vans?”
Me:
“Idon’
tknow”
Lut
hando:
“mmh”
Me:
“don’
tpl
ease”
Lut
hando:
“di
dn’
tsayordoany
thi
ng”
Me: “Iam notgoi
ngt odigy
ourass”hejust
breaksoutinlaughter,
ital
oudandcarefree
andcont agi
ouslaugh.
.
Fr
idayaf
terat
tendi
ngIchi
l
lwi
thZi
yandawhi
l
e
wait
ingf
orSbutopickmeup
Ziy
anda:
“al
lIam say
ingi
stel
l Lut
handot
o
hookmeupwi t
honeofhisfr
iends”
Me:
“theyal
lhav
egi
rl
fr
iends”
Ziy
anda:
“ay
imar
nIdon’
tcar
enobodyi
ssi
ngl
e
here”
Me:“yousuchat
ool
”shegi
ggl
espushi
ngback
herweave
Zi
yanda:
“Iknow.May
bey
oushoul
dhookmeup
wi
thSbu”
Me:
“hel
lno”
Zi
yanda:
“aha!Ial
way
sknewy
oui
nlov
ewi
th
hi
m”
Me: “voest
ek.Don’tbecr
azyhismybrotherand
Idon’twanthim shovi
nghisdi
ckinthat
graveyardyougotbetweenyourl
egs”she
chuckles
Ziy
anda:“
Ishoul
dbeof
fendedv
eryof
fended
butfucky
ou”
Me:“y
ounotmyt y
pedear”shet
hrowssomeof
myfri
esatme“don’tt
ouchmyfoodwit
hyour
di
rt
yhands”shesi
ghssadly
Zi
yanda:
“Iam t
hinki
ngofdr
oppi
ngoutSneIam
notmadef
ort
hisl
i
fe”
Me:“
whi
chli
fe?School
?”Shenodswi
thaf
rown
“
anddowhatZiy
anda?”
Zi
yanda:“f
indari
chmanwhoisgoingtomarry
meIjustcan’
tanymor
einf
actIdon’twantt
o
dothi
sanymore”
Me:“t
hat’
sareal
lyr
eall
ystupi
dideaIcan’
t
bel
i
evesuchstupi
dit
yiscomingoutofyour
mouth”
Zi
yanda:
“don’
tinsul
tme”
Me:
“noser
iousl
yZi
yandat
hat
’spur
est
upi
dit
y”
Zi
yanda:“don’
tdothatSnedon’
tpissmeoff
j
ustbecauseevery
thingi
sgoingyourway
”
Me:“
Itr
iedZi
yandat
ogety
out
ost
udyal
ong
wi
thme”
Ziy
anda:
“yeahwell
wenotallcutoutf
ort
he
academi
cli
feanywayImetsomeoneMarcel
Jameshisadoct
or”
Me:
“ni
ceIguess”
Zi
yanda:
“hi
smar
ri
edt
hough”
Me:“
noZiyandadon’
tdothatIt
houghtyour
numberonerul
ewasneverdoamar r
iedman”
Ziy
anda:“whatchoicedoIhave?Andbesi desI
canmakehiml eavehiswifecl
ear
lyshe’snot
doingsomethi
ngrightifhi
sbusyenter
taining
me”
Me:“It
houghty
ouandSam ar
egood”shewas
seei
ngoneofherl
ect
urer
s
Zi
yanda:
“weareImeanwewer
ehi
sjust
st
art
ingt
opull
back”
Me:“Zi
yandapleasef
ocusony
ourst
udi
esj
ust
f
orgetaboutal
lofthi
s”
Zi
yanda:
“it
’snoteasy
”
Me:“j
usttry,
foryourparents?Yourli
ttl
e
si
bli
ngs?Justtryforthem please.Makey our
par
entsproudgivey oursi
bli
ngssomet hingto
l
ookupt o”shehuffes
Zi
yanda:
“Iwi
l
ltr
y”
Me:“goodIwi
ll
hel
pinany
wayIcan”herphone
st
art
sr i
ngi
ng
Zi
yanda:“i
tMarcel
”sheanswers“
hell
o….no
I
’m doneItol
dyouI’
ll
bedone”Igetatextf
rom
Sbusayinghi
sinthepar
kingl
ot
Me:“sbuisher
eIam l
eav
ing”shest
andsupas
Iam standi
ngup
Ziy
anda:“yesI’
m coming”sheendsthecall
“Marceli
shere”Itakemyburgerandmybag
weleave“Idon’tknowhowLuthandocopes
wit
hy ourrat
chetassyoucouldhavelef
tthat
hal
featenburgeratthetabl
e”
Me:
“itmyf
oodl
eav
emeal
one”
Ziy
anda:“I
’
m sur
eSbui sgoingt
ofeedyou”we
gettot
heparki
nglotshestopswalki
ngand
l
ooksaround“t
here’
shiscar”Il
ookatbeastof
acarit
’sbmwi8
Me:
“fuck!
”Shesqueal
s
Ziyanda: “
Iknow”shekissesmycheek“ by eboo
I’
llt
exty ou”asshewalkst othecarthi
sguy
comesoutofi thi
sgoodl ookingal
ldressedup
i
nat hreepiecesl
i
mf i
tsui twithashortfade
theyhughepeckshermout handopenst he
doorf orher
Sbu:
“she’
sst
il
lagol
ddi
ggi
ngwhor
e”
Me:“bi
gbro”wehugti
ghtl
yheki
ssesmyhead
r
epeatedl
yunti
lwepul
lapart
Sbu:“
comelet
’sgetoutofher
eIhat
ethi
s
pl
ace”wel
augh
Me:
“youspentf
oury
ear
sher
e”
Sbu:“Idon’
twanttospendasecondlonger
”we
walktohiscarholdi
nghandswegetinhe
dri
vesoff“where’
sLuthando?
”Hetakesburger
andstartseat
ingi
t
Me:
“atwor
k”
Sbu:“hi
slet
ti
ngy
ougooutwi
thouthi
m
toni
ght?”
Me:
“yeaht
ookl
otofconv
inci
ng”
Sbu:
“buthei
slet
ti
ngy
ougopl
aywi
thot
her
ki
ds”
Me:
“yepdaddyLut
handoi
slet
ti
ngmegopl
ay”
Sbu:
“sowegoi
ngshoppi
ngf
orsneaker
s”
Me:“y
epandy ougonnahav
etogodr
opmeof f
att
hehoteli
nmhlangawhenwedonethenpi
ck
meupl at
er”
Sbu:“youl
i
vingt
hel
i
fenehst
ayi
ngatf
ancy
hotel
s”
Me:
“hi
swor
kbooksaccommodat
ionf
orhi
m”
Sbu:
“don’
tbedef
ensi
veIdon’
tmeani
tinabad
way”
Me:
“al
ri
ght
”
.
Iwakeupandr unt
ot hebat
hroom tovomit
Luthandoget
sinwhileIam st
il
lbusyhepull
s
backmybr ai
dsmovingafewf r
om myf ace
Me:
“goawayIl
ookawf
ul”
Luthando:“y
oulookabsol
utel
ybeaut
if
ul”If
lush
thetoil
etandgorinsemymouththenwashmy
face
Me: “Ithoughtt hemor ningsicknesswas
supposedt obeov ernow”heshr ugshis
shoulderwel ookingateachot heront hemi rr
or.
YeahIam pr egnant23weekst urnsoutwhen
LuthandoandIwer efi
ghti
ngov erhi
m wanting
togetmepr egnantIwasal readypr egnant
appar entl
ytherewasabadbat chwi t
hthepill
s
theywer egiv i
ngusatt hecl
iniconcampusand
unfortunatelyIgott hose.Ofcour seLuthando
washappy
Lut
hando:“comeherebaby”hepull
smet ohi
m
andwrapshisarmsaroundme“ don’
tcr
yit
goi
ngtobeov ersoon”Isni
ffwi
pingmytear
s
onhischest
Me:
“Iwanti
ttobeov
ernow”
Lut
hando:
“sor
ry”heki
ssesmyhead“
comel
et’
s
t
akeabat
hsoIcanf
eesy
out
wo”
Me: “
Idon’
twanttogohomeLuthando”weare
goinghometodayschool
iscl
osedforJune
vacati
on
Luthando:“mylovepl
easeyougoingtostar
t
showingsoonweneedt oletthefami
lyknow
beforethatsoIcanpayfordamagesand
besidesyourmom isexpect
ingyou”
Me:
“whathav
eyoudonet
ome?
”
Luthando:“Snedon’
tplease”hecupsmyfaceI
keepbreathingheav
il
ytryi
ngtostopmysel
f
fr
om crying“youwanttoshower?”
Me:
“yes”hel
ooksatmeasi
fhi
sst
udy
ingmy
f
ace
Luthando:
“Iam sorr
yyougoingthr
oughal
l
theseemotionshoneyandIcan’
thelpy
ou”
Me:“i
tokaythi
sishel
pingj
usthol
dmeandtel
l
meeveryt
hingi
sgoingtobefi
ne”hehol
dsme
t
ight
ly
Luthando:
“Igoty
oubabeIgoty
ourback”Inod
“l
et’
sshower”
Wear r
iveathomeandIbreathoutasweget
outofthecarLut
handocarr
iesmybagt othe
guesthousewhil
eIfol
l
owbehi ndhim wi
thmy
handbagwegetin
Me:
“mama!
”Ther
e’ssi
l
ence
Lut
hando:“
may beshe’
sinthemainhouse”he
l
eavesmybagi nmyroom thenwegotot he
mainhouseIf
indmom inthekit
chencooking
Me:
“mama”
Mom:“y
ouhome”wehug“ you’
vegai
nedso
muchweight
”wepul
lapar
tshepecksmyli
ps
Me: “
youknowIeatal
otofj
unkfooddur
ing
exams”shegreet
sLut
handothenhel
eavesus
alone
Mom:“
howweretheexams?Arey
ouhungr
y?
Gomakey
our
selfsomethi
ngt
oeat”
Me:
“examswer
eokaymyr
esul
tsar
eoutIdi
d
reall
ywellineverythingandI ’
m nothungr y
”I
opent hepotassoonast hesmel l
oflambcurry
fi
llsupmynost r
il
sIf eelmyst omacht urni
ngI
trymybestt oholdi tinbutsaliv
afill
smymout h
Irunoutoft hekitchentot hebathroom
downst ai
rsIletoutev er
ythingIhadeat en
earli
er
Mom: “
areyouokaySnegugu?
”Ilookupather
andf
lushthetoi
l
etIgotothesinkri
nsemy
mout
h
Me:
“it
’sbi
l
e”
Mom: “
areyousure?Iknowy ouhav
ingsexSne.
Li
ftupyourt-
shi
rt
”Ishakemyhead“ li
fti
tup
nowsnegugubeforengikushay
e”
Me:
“no”
Mom: “zokufakaimpama”shewalkscloseto
meImov ebackunt i
lsheget
stomeshel if
tsup
myt -shir
tandpul l
sdownmybr a“umithi
snegugu”t hereissomuchdisbeli
efand
disappointmentinherv oi
cemytears
i
mmedi at
elyfal
l“y
oupregnant
!!
”Itouchmy
cheekasitfeel
shotaf
termom slapsme
Me:“Iwasgoingtotel
lyou.I’
m sorr
y”shewalks
outofthebat
hroom Isi
ghandf oll
owafterher
.I
fi
ndherinourhouseintheloungecryi
ngIkneel
i
nf r
ontofher
Me:“mamaI’
m sor
ryi
twasamistaket
her
ewas
somethi
ngwr
ongwiththepi
l
lsI
’
m sorr
y”
Mom: “
whoisthefather
?”Ilookdown“ who
Sne?
!”Iwhi
sperLuthando“Ididn’
thearyou”
Me:
“it
’sLut
handomom”
Mom:“f
rom wher
e?”Il
ookatherwi
thar
aised
ey
ebr
ow
Me: “
from her
eLuthandoPeter
son”hereyesget
widethenshelet
’soutascream andstandsup
putsherhandsonherhead
Mom: “Jesus.Whathav
eyoudone?The
ancest
orshav et
urnedt
hei
rbacksonus”
Me:
“mom Igett
hatt
hiswasn’
tpl
annedbut
don’
ttal
kli
ket
hatpl
ease”Ican’
tst
opmyown
tear
s
Mom: “
youdon’
tunderst
andwhatyouand
Luthandohavedone.Thi
sist
abooitwil
lki
l
lthi
s
family
”shehasn’
tstoppedwai
li
ng
Me:
“mom wel
oveeachot
her
”
Mom: “
hisy
ourbr
otherSne.MrPet
ersonisyour
f
ather
”hervoi
cei
ssol owIcanbar
elyhearher
Me:
“what
?”
Mom: “I
’
m sorr
y”Isi
tdownonthecoldti
l
es
that
’st
helastt
hingIf
eelbef
oredar
knesstakes
overPART6LOVEMELI KEONLYYOUCAN
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Iopenmyey eswhenIf
eelwat
eronmyf aceI
l
ookaroundIlookar
oundonl
ytofi
ndLuthando
andmymom andMrPet er
sonstar
ingatme
mom iscry
ing
Me:
“hel
pmesi
tupLut
hando”hedoes
Lut
hando:“
arey
ouokay?Whathappened?Your
mom saysyouf
aint
ed”
Me:“
canIbeal
onepl
ease”t
heyl
ookateach
ot
her
Mom:
“why
?”
Me:
“mamapl
ease”
Lut
hando:
“let
’sgi
vehersomespace”
Me:
“st
aypl
ease”
MrPet
erson:
“what
’sgoi
ngonher
e?”
Me:
“Iwanty
ouandmamat
ogetoutofmy
r
oom”
Lut
hando:
“don’
tber
udeSne”
Me:
“theyl
i
edt
omebot
hoft
hem Ihat
ethem”
Lut
hando:
“Snewhat
’sgoi
ngon?
”
Mom:
“Sne”
Me:
“leav
emamat
aket
hatl
i
arwi
thy
ouIwant
y
oubot
houtofher
e”
Lut
hando:
“Sne!
!”
MrPeterson:“
whyareyouspeaki
ngli
kethi
s
Sne?Zolekawhat’
sgoi
ngon?Whyi ssheso
upset?
”Hel ookst
rul
yconfused
Me:
“ whenwer
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lmet
haty
ou
myfather
?”
MrPet
erson:
“oh”hel
ooksdown
Mom:
“Snewesor
ry”
Lut
hando:
“what
’sgoi
ngon?
”
Me: “y
ourfat
herismyf athery
oumybr other
”
Luthandoshakeshisheadandchuckles.His
chucklei
sfil
l
edwi t
hangerhel ooksatt
hem
bothIseemymom shi v eri
ngwhil
ehisdad
l
ooksdown
Lut
hando:“l
eave”Iswal
l
owahugel
umphi
s
voi
ceister
ri
fyi
ng
MrPet
erson:
“Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“leav
e!!Gett
hef
uckoutbot
hofy
ou
now”
MrPet
erson:
“letgi
vet
hem somet
ime”
Mom:“Iam sosor
ry”t
heywal
koutj
ustasthey
cl
oset
hedoorLuthandodr
opstohi
sknees
Luthando:“ohGod”hebr eathsinandoutl oudl
y
andf astt
henhel et
’soutacr yaloudgut
wrenchingcryIgetoffthebedandkneel i
n
fr
ontofhi m“ t
hey’
veruinedus”Icr awlcloser
unti
lourkneesar etouchingIam justcrying
sil
entlyhepullsmehim andholdsmet ightly
“whathav etheydonetous”
Me:“i
thurt
sLuthandoIf
eel
li
kemyhear
thas
beenri
ppedoutofmychest
”
Luthando:
“Sne”Ilookupwel ookateachhe
l
eansdownweki sshesitsdownproperl
yand
pul
lsmet ositonhim str
addli
nghim It
ryt
opull
backbutheholdsmet i
ghtl
y“don’
tpl
ease”
Me:
“Lut
handodon’
tyou,
mybr
other
”
Luthando:“
fuckthatbul
lshi
tIam notaboutt
o
switchoffmyfeeli
ngs.Weloveeachother
ri
ght?”
Me:
“yes”
Lut
hando:
“wehav
ingababy
”
Me:“ohmyGod!Iam pregnantwi
thmy
br
other’
sbaby
”hesmi l
eswipingmytear
shi
s
smil
eissosaditmakesmef rown
Lut
hando:
“thi
schangesnot
hing”
Me:
“Lut
hando”
Luthando:“
noSnenof uckingwayam Ilosi
ng
you”Itryt
ogetoffhim buthekeepsmest i
ll“
no
SneIdon’tgiv
eaf uckyoumywomant hati
s
notgoingtochange”
Me:“
weshar
eaf
athert
hisi
swr
ongi
nsomany
l
evel
s”
Lut
hando:
“youdon’
tlov
emeany
mor
e?”
Me:
“Iam cr
azyi
nlov
ewi
thy
ou”
Lut
hando:
“keepi
tthatway
”
Me:
“I’
mti
redIwantt
osl
eep”
Lut
hando:
“youhav
etoeatdi
nnerf
ir
st”
Me:“noIj
ustwantt
osleep”hest
andsupand
hel
psmest andupwegetundert
hecover
she
spoonsme
Luthando:
“pl
easedon’
tst
ressi
t’
snotgoodf
or
thebaby”
Me:“Iwi
ll
try
.Thi
schangesev
ery
thi
ng
Lut
hando”
Luthando:“
thischangesnot
hing”hekissesmy
headandput shishandonmybr eastIjustsi
gh
andlethim be.
.
Iwakeupi tsmor ningalr
eadyandIam alonein
bedt hesunisalreadypenetrati
ngthr
oughthe
window.Ijustlayont hebedt hi
nki
ngaboutthe
fuckedupsi t
uati
ont hatIam myhand
i
mmedi at
elygoest omyst omach.Idon’
teven
knowhowIam goi ngtogett hr
oughthisall
my
dreamsofmar ry
ingLut handoandlivi
nghappil
y
everaft
erwit
hhimt hatisnowadr eam Iwil
l
nevergettol
iveletalonecont i
nuebeingi
n
rel
ati
onshi
pwithhi m.Asst ubbornaswebot h
areandasmuchaswel oveeachotherwecan’t
changethatwerelatedt hi
sispureincest
.
If
indmom int
hel
oungeshequi
ckl
yst
andsup
whensheseesme
Mom: “Sneguguar
eyouokay ?
”Inodandwal
k
tothekit
chenshefol
l
owsme“ ar
eyouhungr
yI
canpreparelat
ebr
eakfastf
oryou”
Me: “
I’
ll
makeitmyself
”It
akeouteggsgrat
e
cheesewhi
lebutt
erismel
tingi
nthepan
Mom:
“Iam sor
rySne”
Me:
“weoutofav
ocado,
dot
heyhav
esomei
n
t
hemai
nhouse?”
Mom:“y
esIwil
lgogeti
t”Inodshesheleav
esI
makemyscr
ambleeggswithcheeseshe
comesbacktotheavoImixedital
l t
oget
her
makeasandwich.Pouraglassofjui
ceIwent
tot
heloungeatewhil
ewatchingtv
Mom: “
y ourf
atherwouldl
i
ket
otal
ktoy
ou.You
andLuthandotogether
”
Me:“heisnotmyf
atherIdon’
thav
eaf
ather
”
shesighs
Mom:
“wel
lhewoul
dli
ket
ospeakt
oyoubot
h”
Me:
“Ihav
enot
hingt
osayt
ohi
m andy
ou”
Mom: “Iunderst
andy ouhurtandangryprobabl
y
feel
betrayedIunderstandSneIwaswr ongI
shouldhavetoldyouIjustdidn’
twanttolose
myjobhowwasIgoi ngt otakecar
eofy ouifI
wasn’tworki
ng”
Me: “
soy outhoughti
tbestyouli
etome?Look
atwherey ourl
ieshaveputme.I’
vebeenina
rel
ati
onshipforthr
eeyearswit
hmybr ot
herI
am pregnantwithhi
schil
d”
Mom:
“ifIcoul
dtur
nbackIwoul
d”
Me:“j
ustl
etmeeati
npeaceplease”she
noddedandl
etmefi
nishi
ngeati
ng.
Luthandoandhisdadgeti nasIam layi
ngon
thecouchunderabl anketI
’vebeendoi
ngthat
sinceIfi
nishedeat
ingandt ookabath
Lut
hando:
“heybaby”hebendsdownandgi
ves
measoftpeckIpushhim back
Me:“Luthandodon’
t”her
oll
shi
sey
esandlif
ts
myfeetupashesi t
sdownandput
sthem on
hi
sthighs
Lut
hando:
“di
dy oueat
?Iwantedtocomecheck
onyouear
li
erbutIhadtodealwi
thmom”
Me:
“sheknows?
”
Luthando:
“ther
ewasn’
tanyhi
dingi
tsoshe
tookZukoandleft
”
Me:
“lef
t?”
Lut
hando:
“gonet
omyaunt
’shouse”
Me:
“yoh”
Lut
hando:
“Ihopeshedi
vor
ceshi
m”
MrPet
erson:
“Luthando!
!”Thewhol
eti
met
hey
bot
hbeenquiet
Lut
hando:“
yesfat
herIhopesheleav
esy
ou
mom deser
vessomuchbet t
er”
MrPet erson:“
Igetyouangrybutyouwill
not
speakt omel i
kethatboyIam yourfat
heryou
mysper m Iwil
lkil
lyoubefor
eIletyouspeakto
mel i
ket hat
”
Lut
hando:“
youdon’
tdeser
verespectf
rom me
oranyofy
ourki
dswhatkindofamanar eyou”
Lut
handogotup
Me:
“Lut
handocal
m down”
Lut
hando:
“nobabeno”
MrPeter
son:
“she’
syourl
i
ttl
esi
sterst
opcal
l
ing
hert
hat”
Lut
hando:
“she’
smywomanandshe’
shav
ing
mychil
d”
Mom:
“Lut
handono”
Lut
hando:
“wi
thall
respectmam Rosedon’
ttal
k
tome”mom gaspasshesatbackdown
MrPeterson:“Lut
handoIhav
ehadi twi
thyour
att
it
udey oumysonIdon’toweyoushitnow
youwil
lsityourassdownandli
stentome”
Me:
“don’
ttal
ktohi
mli
ket
hat
”
MrPet
erson:
“youshutupaswel
l
”
Lut
hando:
“nowy
our
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
opi
ssmeof
f”
MrPet erson:“nowasIwassay ingzolekatol
d
met haty oupregnantandyout wobeen
togetherforyears.Hadwej ustbeenhonest
noneoft hiswouldhav ehappenedbuti thaswe
can’tchangethepastwecanonl ycomeupwi th
soluti
onsandmov eon.Zol
ekaandIspoke
obv i
ouslyyout woaregoingtobr eakupand
Snei sgoingtohav eanabortion”Luthando
chucklessoftl
yshaki nghi
sheadt henhelooks
up
Lut
hando:
“Idi
dn’
theary
oupr
oper
ly”
Mom:
“itwhatbestf
orev
ery
one”
Me:“whoi
sev
ery
one?Howi
smeki
l
li
ngmy
chi
l
dbest”
Lut
hando:“
younotdoingt
hatSneandwesur
e
ashel
lnotbreaki
ngup”
MrPet
erson:
“don’
tbest
ubbor
n”
Luthando:“shutup”hewhi
sper
s“j
ustf
ucki
ng
shutuprightnow”
MrPeterson:“putsomerespectwheny
out
alk
tomeboy ”theywerefacingeachot
her
breat
hingoneachot her
’sfaces
Luthando:
“outofr
espectformymot herIwi
l
l
walkaway”hegrabsmyhand“ gety
our
handbag”hewenttomyr oom t
ookmybagand
gavememyhandbag
Mom:
“wher
eyougoi
ng?Let
’st
alkaboutt
his”
Lut
hando:
“wel
eav
ing”wewal
koutwi
thmy
beggingbehi
ndusandcry
ing.Lut
handodr
ives
offassoonashegetsi
nthecar.
Me:“
Luthando”we’
vebeendr
ivi
ngf
orhour
sin
si
l
ence
Lut
hando:
“mmh”
Me:
“wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
”
Lut
hando:
“Pr
etor
ia”
Me:
“Lut
handonowecan’
tleav
ethi
ngsl
i
ke
t
hat
”
Lut
hando:“
justsl
eepSneI
’
llwakey
ouupwhen
westop”
Me:
“Lut
handot
akemebackhome”
Luthando:
“youknowIwon’tdot
hatsoyou
mightaswellresty
oust
ressi
ngmychil
d”
Me: “wecan’tleav
ethingsl
iket
hatathome”
Luthando:“Ihavenothingt
osaytothose
peopletheywanty outokil
lmychil
dandthey
wantust obreakup”
Me:“
Luthandowesibl
i
ngst
hisi
swr
ongwhat
wehaveiswrong”
Lut
hando:“Snepl
easeIcan’
tfi
ghty
out
oo”he
j
ustsoundssodefeat
ed
Me:
“okay
”
Lut
hando:
“youl
oveme?
”
Me:
“wi
thal
lthatIam”
Luthando:
“goodbecauseyoumyl
i
fewenot
breaki
ngupov ert
hisshi
t”
Me:
“Il
ovey
ousomuch”
Luthando:“andIlov
eyoumor e.Nowrest
please”Ipushtheseatbackandclosemyey
es
Ihearhim sighandspeedupthecarPART7
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Iwakeupt
oasmel
lofcof
feeIgetof
fthebed
putonmygownandsl ipperswalkoutofthe
room.Ihearmusicandsomewhi stl
i
ng, f
ind
Luthandomakingbreakfastint
hekitchenwe
arri
vedinPr
etori
aearlyhoursofthemor ning
Luthando:
“mor ni
ngmylov
e”heki
ssesmy
for
ehead“sleptwell
?”
Me:“yesbuty
ourchi
l
dishungr
y”hesmi
l
esand
nods
Luthando:“
weoutofav
ocadowegonnahav
eto
goshoppingbutf
ornowscrambl
edeggswi
th
cheesewill
havet
odo”
Me:“t
hat’
sokay
.CanIhav
easi
pofy
our
cof
fee?”
Lut
hando:“
youknowy
ounotal
l
owedt
ohav
e
caf
fei
ne”
Me:“Lut
handopl
easej
ustasi
pwon’
thur
tthe
baby
”
Lut
hando:“no.Wewil
lbuydecaf
.Wr
it
eali
stso
wedon’tf
orgetany
thi
ngIam goi
ngbackt
o
wor
ktomor
rowy
ougonnabebyy
our
sel
fher
e”
Me:
“wel
lthatsucks”
Luthando:“whenareyougett
ingy
ourlicense?”I
shrugmyshoul der
s“youneedtodoitSneI ’
ve
beentell
ingyoutostartst
udyi
ngforyour
l
earners”
Me: “
that
’sseri
ousl
ythelastthi
ngonmymi nd”
helooksatmeandnodst her
eissomuch
sadnessinhiseyesi
tkil
l
ingme“ Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“hmm”
Me:“
Idon’
tli
kei
twhenyouhur
ti
ng”hecupsmy
f
aceandki
ssesmyfor
ehead
Lut
hando:“
babyonl
yyoucanhur
tme”wekiss
“wewill
befi
newewill
movepastthi
swi
thour
chi
ld”
Me:“IhopesoItr
ulyhopeso”hegi
vesmea
peckandgoesbacktothestoveIl
ookatmy
phoneIhavel
otsofmissedcall
sfr
om mom
andanumberIdon’tknowbutI’
veassumedi
t
MrPet
erson“
hheei
Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“jah”
Me:
“yazi
Idon’
tknowy
ourf
ather
’sname”
Lut
hando:
“Bul
elani
”
Me:“al
ri
ght
”heput sourfoodont
hecount
er
andpoursaglassofmilkformewest
artj
uice
andwestarteati
ng.
Luthandokeepswatchingmewi t
hasmil
eon
hisfaceasIloadthetr
oll
eywit
hallt
hej
unk
foodIknowIwi l
lneedforther
estofmy
vacati
onwhileheisatwork
Luthando:“don’
tyouneedatleasttwoof
those?”Histal
ki
ngaboutmynewf ound
obsessionchocolat
echipcookies.Inodand
takeanother1kgpack
Me:
“bythetimeIgi
vebi
rt
hIwon’
tbeabl
etof
it
i
nmyclothes”
Lut
hando:
“si
ncewhendoy
oucar
eaboutt
hat
?”
Me:“si
nceIst
art
ednot
ici
nghowgi
rl
slookat
you”heki
ssesmyhead
Luthando:“don’
tbesil
ly
”hecarr
iesonpushi
ng
thetrol
leyasIthr
owaboxofchocol at
es“wil
l
youcookf ormet oni
ght
?Imissyourcooki
ng”
Me:
“okaywhatdoy
ouwant
?”
Lut
hando:
“uhm –any
thi
ngasl
ongast
her
e’s
l
amb”
Me:
“okaybabe”
Lut
hando:
“thanky
ou”
Me:
“hasy
ourf
atherbeencal
l
ingy
ou?
”
Lut
hando:
“don’
twantt
otal
kabouthi
m pl
ease”
Me:
“okaybaby
”
Lut
hando:
“yeah!I
cecream”Igi
ggl
eathi
s
ent
husi
asm fori
cecr
eam
Me: “
canwegohomeal r
eadyIneedyou”t
he
cornerofhi
smouthst
art
stwit
chinghehas
stoppedwalki
ng
Lut
hando:
“whatdoy
oumean?
”
Me:
“youknowwhatImean”
Lut
hando:
“sayi
t”Il
ookar
ound
Me:
“I’
m hor
ny”Iwhi
spercausi
nghi
mtol
augh
Luthando:“
sowhatmadey ouhor
ny?Fr
ozen
veges?”Il
ookatwherewestandi
ngandhol
din
myl aught
erwebythefr
idges
Me: “
shutupLut hando.Don’
tmakef unofa
hor
nypr egnantwomani tnotri
ght”Isoundsso
whineyIactual
lycan’tbel
iev
ethattonejust
cameoutofmymout h
Luthando:“
yesma’ am.Let’sf i
nishuphereand
gohome”wef ini
shupt hegrocer ygrabatake
awayf r
om spurandleav etheshoppi ng
complex.LuthandoattacksmeassoonasI
fi
nishunpackingwewal ktot her oom wit
hour
l
ipslockedstri
ppingeachot her,hepushesme
andIfalli
ntothebedhemov esf rom myli
ps
andgoesst r
aighttohi
sf avorit
epar tofmy
bodyassoonashest
art
ssucki
ngonmybr
east
Icr
yout.
Il
ookatmyphoner ingi
ngIknowitBulelani
I’
m
i
nthekitchencooki
ngwhil
eLuthandois
watchi
ngsoccerinthel
oungeIdecidefuckitI
am answering
Me:
“hel
l
o”
MrPeterson:“ohthankGody
ouanswer edyour
motherandIhav ebeensoworr
ied.Shehasn’
t
st
oppedcr yi
ng”
Me:
“whatcanIdof
ory
ou?
”
MrPeterson:
“Iknowyouangryandhur
t.You
pr
obablyhaveallt
hesequest
ionsandmixed
emoti
ons”
Me:
“youdi
dn’
treal
l
yanswermyquest
ion”
MrPeterson:“pl
easecomehomethat
’swhat
youcandof orme.Justcomehomealongwi
th
yourbr
other”
Me:
“whywoul
dyoudot
hist
ome?WasInot
wort
hknowi
ngmyfat
her
?Am Isuchadir
ty
secr
ett
haty
ouwoul
ddothi
stomef or22
year
s?”
MrPet er
son:“Snegugui
tnotli
ket
hat.Younota
di
rtysecrety
oumydaught erIl
oveyouyour
motherandIthoughtwewer edoi
ngwhat’s
bestforever
yone”
Me:
“bysacr
if
ici
ngme?
”
MrPeterson:“noofcoursenotangelofcour
se
not
.Wewentabouti tt
hewr ongwaybuthereI
am aski
ngf orachancetofi
xallofthi
s”
Me: “
I’
m sorr
ybutIdon’thavechancestogive
thedamagehasal readybeendone.Yousawi t
fi
ttostaywit
hy ourwifeandyoulegi
ti
mat e
chil
drenandletmegr owupwi t
houtafatherso
j
ustletthi
ngsbeast heyare”
MrPeterson:“Itookcar
eofy oufrom t
hetime
youwerebor n.Themulti
raci
alschoolsyou
wentto.Thel i
festyl
eyouli
vedthegadgetsyou
had,
theclothesony ourbody.It
ookcar eofy
ou.
Whaty outhi
nkyourmot
hercoul
daff
ordal
lof
thatonhersalar
yasamaid?Showsome
appreci
ati
onchil
d!”
Me:“ar
ey ouevenl
isteningtoyoursel
fri
ghtnow?
Iwastrul
ywill
i
ngtolistentoputmyangerand
hur
tasidebutyounotev ensincer
eIhateyou”I
endthecall
andswitchof fmyphone
Luthando:“
Iam sorr
y”hesnakeshi
sarms
aroundmywai stf
rom t
heback“myfatheri
sa
stubbornf
uckerhedoesn’
tknowhowt o
apologi
zethat
’swhyIhaven’
tbeenansweri
ng
hi
scal l
s”
Me:
“Ihat
ehi
m Lut
handoIhat
ethem bot
h”
Luthando:“sodoIbabebutdon’ tbeupsett
hey
notwor t
hit”Isni
ffandheturnsmear ound“no
mor etear
sstopcr y
ing”hewipesmyey esand
ki
ssesmynoset henlicksi
tIlaughpushi
nghim
back
Me:
“gr
oss”
Lut
hando:
“youl
ovei
t”hel
i
cksi
tagai
n
Me:
“I’
m sor
ry”
Lut
hando:
“for
?”
Me:
“bei
ngsomel
anchol
y”
Luthando:“yougoi ngthroughal otthefatherof
yourbabyisy ourbi ol
ogicalbr
otherandwho
youlovedear lyyou’velovedhi
mf oryearseven
beforeyoust art
edbei nginarelationshi
pwi t
h
him”histonef il
l
supwi thhumorashef ini
shes
hissentencemaki ngmegr owl
Me:
“si
l
ly”
Luthando: “
foryou?Itr
ybabeItry”weki
ss.I
tur
nbackt omypot sashetakesoutapacket
ofpretzelsandabot t
leofbeerbefor
egoi
ng
backtot helounge.
Weinbedcuddl
i
ngafterdi
nnerwetooka
showert
oget
her
,gotoutwenttobedmadel
ove
andnowwecuddli
ngnaked
Me:
“doy
out
hinkwedoi
ngt
her
ightt
hing?Not
br
eaki
ngupev
ent
houghweknownow”
Luthando:
“yes”hi
sansweri
sonewor
dand
fi
rm
Me:
“okay
”
Lut
hando:
“tel
lmewhaty
ouwantSne”
Me:“Iwantyou,ourchil
d.Iwantust ogether
happyandmay bemar r
iedbutIcan’thelpfeel
l
ikethi
siswrong.Wedi dn’tknowbeforebut
nowweknowandi t’
swr ongLuthandowecan’ t
haveourhappil
yeverafterwebothknowt hat
andholdi
ngonwi l
lonlymaket hi
ngswor se
whenwebr eakup”
Luthando:“
ist
hatwhaty
ouwantSne?
”He
remov eshi
sar
msf r
om mybodyandminef
rom
his
Me:“noi
tnot.God.Ican’
timaginemyl i
fe
wi
thoutyouLuthandoIneverthoughtIwoul
d
f
alli
nlov
ewi t
hy ou.Sodeeply
.YetnowIcan’t
i
maginewhatnotlovingyouisli
ke”
Luthando:“wecanmaket hi
swor kSnewewill
stayhereinPret
ori
aourchil
dwi l
lknowusas
mommyanddaddyt hat’
sal
lhewi l
lnev
erhav
e
tofindoutwewillmov eonwit
houtour
famili
es”
Me:
“Lut
handoy
ouknowwehav
etobr
eakup”
Lut
hando:“
fuckSne!!
”Hegetsofft
hebedand
swi
tchesonthel
ight“don’
tdot
hissnepl
ease”I
si
tup
Me:“y
ouknowI ’mri
ghtyouknowthi
si st
he
onl
yway .Wejustf
ool
ingoursel
vest
hinki
ngwe
canbetoget
her”
Luthando:“
youmakingt
hisanissuewheni t’
s
notthisi
saboutyouandmeusf uckev er
ythi
ng
andev er
ybodyel
se.Doyouthi
nky ouwill
find
someonewhowi lll
oveyoul
ikeIloveyou?We
madef oreachot
her”
Me:
“Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“pl
easeSnedon’
tdot
hisdon’
t
dest
royuspl
ease”hewalkstomysideandpul
l
metotheedgeofthebed.Hestandsbet
ween
mylegshol
dingmyshoulder
s
Luthando:“t
ellmewhaty ouwantmet odoso
youst ay
.I’
ll
doany thi
ngI’
llgotocourtwecan
getmar ri
edjusttel
lmewhatt odo”Ilookdown
sni
ffingmyt earsareal
readyfal
li
ng“ l
ookatme
Snegugu!!”Myey esshootup“forfucksakes
tel
lmewhaty ouwant ”
Me:“
Ineedyoutol
etmegoIneedy
outobe
j
ustt
hefat
herofmychi
l
dandmybrother
”
Lut
hando:
“Sneno”
Me:“y
ouaskedmewhatIwantandIam t
ell
i
ng
youwhatIneed”henods
Luthando:“i
fthat
’swhatyouneed”hewal
ksout
aft
erswitchi
ngofftheli
ghtIjustst
ayl
i
kethat
notmov i
ngmysni ff
sfil
l
ingtheroom
.
I
nthemor
ningIam wokenupbyLut
hando
shaki
ngme.Icri
edmy sel
ftosl
eepandhe
didn’
tcomebacktobed.
Luthando:“getupandgetreadyyourpl ane
l
eav esi
nthr eehours”Il
ookathim confusedhe
cl
apshi shands“ wakeupsne!”Hewal ksouta
minutelat
erl oudmusicfi
ll
suphislit
tl
e
apartmentIgetof ft
hebedandwal ktot he
l
ounge
Me:
“whatt
hef
uckLut
hando?
!!
”
Luthando:“
sheshi
sagi
rlhur
ryIneedt
odrop
youoffandrushbacksoIcanmakeittowor
k
i
ntimeory ouwanttotakeataxi
to
Johannesburg”
Me:
“asswhol
e”hesmi
l
es
Lut
hando:“okayl
it
tl
esisI
’m sorr
ybutget
goi
ng”heissosarcast
icIf
eel l
i
kepunchi
nga
hol
ethroughhisst
omach
Me:”nxa”Igot
othebat
hroom t
akeaqui
ck
shower
.WhenIcomeoutheispacki
ngmy
bagsIquickl
yputonj
oggerandahoodywi
th
sneaker
sIf i
xupmyhair
Me:“Luthando”helooksatmehiseyesareso
col
dthewhol ewayf r
om Pret
ori
atohereatthe
ai
rportwassilence
Luthando:“
don’
tforgetyourdoct
or’s
appointment
sI’
l
lsendy oumoney .Iwil
ltr
yto
comef ewdaysbeforeyourduedate”
Me:“that
’smont
hsaway
”myv
oicebr
eaksI
’
m
al
readycryi
ng
Luthando:“Iam gi
vi
ngy
ouwhatyouneed.I
’
ll
cal
l youwhenIcan”hewal
ksawayIwatchunt
il
Ican’tseehim.
I’
vebeencr
yingthewholewayt oDurban.As
soonasIseeSbuIj ustt
hrowmyar msathim
heholdsmet i
ghtl
yasIcrylouder
.Idon’tev
en
caret
hatweinpublicandpeopleprobablyt
hink
I’
m cr
azy
Sbu:
“itokayIgoty
oui
tokay
”PART8LOVEME
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whereIhadspentthewholedaycr yi
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thr
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idaysbeforeresis
opened.
Sbu:“
didyoustopcry
ing?Yourfacei
sallr
ed
andswoll
en”Ishookmyhead“ canyoutel
lme
nowwhyy oucall
edmecr y
ingattheai
rpor
t?”
Me:
“Lut
handoandIbr
okeupl
astni
ght
”
Sbu:
“whatdi
dhedo?AndIt
houghty
ouwent
home”
Me:
“Idi
dgohomemom f
oundoutIam
pregnantsheaskedwhot hefat
herissoItol
d
heronlytogettheshockofmyl i
fe.Tur
ns
Luthando’sf
atheri
smyf athert
oo”helookedat
mei ndisbel
i
ef
Sbu:
“don’
tjokel
i
ket
hat
”
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shIwasj oki
ngSbu.Ev
ery
thi
ngi
ssuch
amessandIdon’
tknowwhattodo”hegoton
t
hebedandpull
edmet ohi
m
Sbu:
“Iam sor
ryki
ddoev
ery
thi
ngwi
l
lwor
kout
”
Me:“
howSbu?HowwhenIam pr
egnantwi
th
hi
schi
ld?
”
Sbu:“i
tgoi
ngtobehardbutitwi
l
lwor
kout
don’
tworrytoomuch.St
ressi
ngi
snotgoodf
or
thebaby”
Me:“Ihat
emyparentsf
orputt
ingmei
nthi
s
si
tuati
onIreal
l
ydo”heki
ssedmyhead
Sbu:
“Iam her
efory
ou”
Me:
“Iknow,
thanky
ou”
Sbu:“
sohowisLut
handotaki
ngt
his?I
tmust
haveki
ll
edhi
m hel
ovesyousomuch”
Me:“
Ithi
nkhewil
lbefi
nehonest
ly.Hewasan
asst
hismorni
ng,
all
rudeandcol
dandshit”
Sbu:“hei
sanythi
ngbutfi
nehishur
ti
ngSnehe
j
ustchosetodealwit
hthi
sthatwayinst
eadof
cr
yinginf
rontofyou”
Me:“Ihatehimfort
hewayhetreat
edmet hi
s
morning.Weweretoget
herf
orsolongandhe
t
reatsmel i
kesomegirl
hewasjustfucki
ng”
Sbu:
“youbei
ngemoti
onalr
ightnowSnet
hat
guywoul
dneverdot
hattoyouhelov
esyout
oo
much”
Me:“
ify
ougoi
ngtot
akehi
ssi
dey
oumi
ghtas
wel
ll
eavemeal
one”
Sbu:“
don’tbeachil
dther
earenosidesher
e
youbothhurt
ingandshockedgi
vehimti
met o
heal
”
Me:
“andhehasaner
vet
otel
lmehewi
l
l‘t
ryt
o
comehomef ewday sbefor
emyduedate’that
mont hsawayIsti
llhavefewdoct
or’
s
appointmentsbef
orethatandwesupposedto
fi
ndoutt hebaby’
sgenderhewasexcit
edabout
thatbutnowIam allaloneImi
ghtaswellbea
singl
epar ent
”
Sbu:“youcoul
dnev erbeasingleparentyou
havemeandy oumostdef i
nit
elyhaveLuthando
hewi l
ll
ovehischi
ldandbet hereforhim”I
sni
ffedandsnuggledcloserheheldmet i
ghter
Me:
“Ij
usthat
ethi
sSbu”
Sbu:
“Iknowy
ouhur
ti
ngbuty
ouwi
l
lbef
ine”
Me:
“andnowI
’
m hungr
y”hechuckl
ed
Sbu:“
Iknowyouwon’tcookIdef
ini
telywon’
t
cooksohowaboutIorderussomef oodorl
et’
s
goout”
Me:“or
derI
’
m noti
nthemoodofbei
ngar
ound
peopl
e”
Sbu:
“okaycome”hegotof
fthebedwal
kedt
o
t
heloungeSbuhadat
wobedr
oom apar
tment
i
nbotani
c
Me: “
justgetmeacheesebur
gerwi
thext
ra
cheese”
Sbu:
“youandy
ourl
ovef
orcheese”
Me:“i
tyourni
eceornephew”Iwenttothe
l
oungeopenedthetvandthr
ewmy selfonthe
couchwhil
ehewasinthekit
chenorderi
ng
Sbu:“
hav
eyouspoketoyourmom?”Hesat
nextt
omeandcovereduswit
hathr
ow
Me:
“nonotsi
ncet
hedayLut
handoandIl
eft
”
Sbu:
“cal
lher
”
Me:“noty
etbutIwi
l
lIj
ustneedsomet
imet
o
t
hink”
Sbu:“j
ustremembershedi
dwhatshethought
wasrightatthatt
imeev
enthoughi
twas
wrong”
Me:
“Iknow”
Sbu:
“Il
oveyou”hepul
l
edmet
orestmyhead
onhi
schest
Me:
“Il
ovey
out
oo”
.
Iwaswokenupbyaloudknockonthedoor
.I
gotofft
hebeddr
aggedmyfeettot
hedoorand
opened
Me:“
yes”shejustlookedatmeupanddown
wi
thdisgustal
loverherface“
canIhel
pyou?
”
Her
:“wher
eisSbu?
”
Me:
“wor
k”
Her
:“whot
hef
uckar
eyou?
”
Me:“canIhel
pyouorshoul
dIcl
oset
hedoor
”
shepushedmeasideandgoti
n
Her:
“whatyoudoi
ngi
nmyboy
fri
end’
s
apar
tment?
”
Me:“t
hefactthatyoudon’
tknowmeansitnone
ofy
ourbusiness.Sbuisnother
esocal
lhim
pl
easeandl
eav
e”
Her
:“I
’
m notgoi
ngany
wher
eI’
l
lwai
tforhi
m”
Me:“byal
lmeans”Iwentt
other
oom Iwas
usi
ngtookmyphoneandcall
edSbu
Sbu:
“si
s”
Me:“
somerat
chetassgi
rlj
ustshowedbangi
ng
ont
hedoorl
ooki
ngforyouandnowshewon’t
l
eav
e”
Sbu:“
shi
tthatmustbeNokwashe’
scr
azy
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l
aughed
Me:“j
ustcal
lherandsor
theroutIcan’
tstay
wit
hherunti
lyoucomebackfrom workyou
knowIgotpl
answi t
hZiy
anda”
Sbu:
“lockyourroom andl
eav
eherther
eshe
won’
tdoany t
hingI’
l
lseeherwhenIcomeback
fr
om work”
Me:“okay
”Iendedthecal
lwentt
othe
bat
hroom tookabat
h.
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hher
boyfr
iendIact ual
lytur
nedsoIcoul dleaveIjust
fel
tir
rit
atedbutshehadal readyseenmeso
shecalledforme.Iwentt othem withaf ake
smil
eonmyf ace
Me:
“hey
”
Zi
yanda:“
heyboo”wehuggedandIsatdown
“y
ourememberMarcel
?Babythi
sismygi r
l
Sne”hesmil
ed
Mar
cel
:“heySneI
’
vehear
dal
otabouty
ou”
Me:“
oh?”HelaughedIf
oundmy sel
fst
ari
nghe
wassohotandhehadthiscal
mnessabouthi
m
Marcel
:“not
hingbad.Lookl
adi
eshaveanice
ti
me”hegav eZiy
andaababykiss“
I’
ll
cal
lyou
babe”
Zi
yanda:“okay”hestoodupandleftwe
watchedhiminsilenceunt
ilhedi
sappear
ed
“f
uckinghot”
Me:
“mmh”wegi
ggl
ed
Zi
yanda:
“howar
eyouboo?
”Ihuf
fed
Me:“I
’m okayLuthandoandIhaven’
tspokenin
twoweekshedi dn’tev
encal
ltoaskifIar
riv
ed
saf
ely
”
Zi
yanda:
“I’
m sor
ryboobuti
t’
sfort
hebest
”
Me:
“IknowIdon’
tneedy
out
ell
i
ngmet
hat
”
Zi
yanda:
“don’
tsnapatme.How’
sthebaby
?”
Me:
“she’
sgood”shesqueal
ed
Zi
yanda:
“youhav
ingagi
rl
?!
”
Me:
“yepmyl
i
ttl
ebabygi
rl
”
Zi
yanda:
“doesLut
handoknow?
”
Me:“
yeahIsenthim api
ctur
eofthescanand
ansmstell
i
nghimi t
’sagi
rlbuthedi
dn’tr
epl
y
hej
usttr
ansfer
redmoneyintomyaccount”
Zi
yanda:
“hav
ey outhoughtaboutwhaty
ou
goi
ngtodowiththebaby”
Me:“Idon’
tknowev
ery
thi
ngisf
uckedupI
hav
en’tspokent
omom si
nceIf
oundoutabout
myfatherbutt
hepl
anwastogohomewheni
t
cl
osetomyduedateandcomebackf
or
exams”
Ziy
anda:“l
et’
shopeev er
yt hi
ngworksout
”we
hadlunchthendecidedtodosomeshoppi ngI
wantedtostartbuy
ingthingsformybaby.
WhenSbupickedmeupatIwasbrokeandI
hadl
otofpl
asticsf
rom Wool
wor
thsZiy
anda
andIgotal
i
ttlecar
ri
edaway
Sbu:“woah!
!Thoughtwewer
egoi
ngt
odot
his
toget
her”
Me:“sor
ryIcoul
dn’
tstopmysel
fev
ery
thi
ngi
s
j
ustsopinkandadorabl
e”
Sbu:
“mxm”Il
aughed
Me:“wewil
lst
il
lgot
her
e’sal
ott
hatneedst
o
bebought
”
Sbu:
“wewi
l
lgonextmont
h”
Me:“
okay”wegottohi
sapart
mentwentupI
wasti
redj
ustneededmybedbutIwas
remi
ndedt
hatSbuhasav
isi
torwhenwegoti
n
andt
hewholepl
acesmel
tli
kearest
aur
ant
Sbu:
“Nokwa!
”Shecameoutoft
heki
tchen
wear
ingsbu’
st-
shi
rt
Nokwa:
“baby
”shej
umpedonhi
m hehel
dher
ass
Sbu:
“di
dn’
tknowy
ouwer
eback”heputher
down
Nokwa:“howwoul
dy ouhav
eknownwhenyou
don’
tanswermycal
ls?Youbusywi
thpr
egnant
sl
uts”
Me:
“bi
tchIwi
l
lsl
i
tyourt
hroat
”
Sbu:“
don’
ttalktomysi
sterl
i
ket
hatnokwa
showsomer espect
”
Nokwa:
“she’
syoursi
ster
?OmgI
’
m sor
ry”
Me: “
nxa”Ishovedheraside“ cal
lmewheny ou
donedishi
ngupI ’
m hungry”Ileftt
hem t
here
wenttomyr oom threwmy selfonthebedI
cal
ledLuthandoitrangunti
litgottovoi
cemail
hecal
l
edj
ustasIsi
ghed
Me:
“hel
l
o”
Lut
hando:
“hey
”
Me:
“youdi
dn’
ttel
lmei
fyougotmymessage”
Lut
hando:
“ Igoti
tsorr
yIshoul
dhav etol
dyou.
Sowehavingagirl,
myl i
tt
lepr
incess”
Me:
“yes”Iwhi
sper
ed
Luthando:“
I’
m happycan’twai
tfory
out ogi
ve
bi
rthshe’sgoi
ngtobet hemostbeauti
ful
pri
ncessintheuniv
erse”
Me:“Iwentshoppi
ngboughtsomanybaby
cl
othesthankyoufort
hemoney”
Luthando:
“thatmoneywasfory
ouSne.You
knowwest il
lgoi
ngtobuyhercl
othes”
Me:“Icoul
dn’
tstopmyselfever
ythingisj
ustso
adorabl
ebabe”hecl
earedhisthroat“I…Iam
sorr
y”
Lut
hando:
“itokay
.LookIhav
etogoby
e”He
hungupIj
ustbur
iedmyf
aceont
hepi
l
lowand
cri
ed.
.
Ibr
eat
hedoutasIsawhi
scari
nthepar
kingl
ot
hecameoutofi
tandmetmehalf
way
Luthando:“
hey
”het
ookmybags“
youl
ook
beauti
ful
”
Me:“
Ilookli
keapumpki
n”Iwashugeand
t
otal
l
yy el
l
ow
Luthando:“
abeauti
ful
pumpki
n”wewalkedt
o
thecarIgotinwhi
leheputmybagsi
ntheboot
wewer egoinghomeIhadaweekbef
oremy
duedate
Me:
“howwast
hedr
iveher
e”
Luthando:“
y ouknowmeitwasshort
”wehadn’
t
spokensincethedayIcal
l
edhim whenIgot
backfrom themall
Me:
“okay
”
Lut
hando:
“how’
smypr
incess”
Me:
“readyt
ocomeout
”
Luthando:“
wishwedidn’
thavetogotherey
azi
wishyoucouldjustgi
vebi
rt
hinPret
oriabut
mom can’tgetti
meoffatwork”
Me:“I
’v
ebeenappl
yi
ngf
ori
nter
nshi
psf
ornext
year
”
Lut
hando:
“that
’sgood.St
il
lst
icki
ngt
oour
pl
an?”
Me:
“noIcan’
tst
aywi
thy
ouLut
hando”
Luthando:“
mmhi fy
ousayso”hest
oppedat
thegaragerantowi
mpythencameoutaf
ter
awhilewit
hfood.
Thedooropenedbef
oreLut
handocoul
dknock
Mom: “
snegugu”shelookedthi
nnerandl
ike
shehadagedIhadn’tspokentohersi
nceIl
eft
monthsback
Me:
“Yebo”
Mom: “
getin”shemov
edasi
dewegoti
n
Lut
handotookmybagstomyroom
Lut
hando:
“Iwi
l
lseey
oui
nthemor
ning”he
wal
kedout
Me:
“I’
m gonnagot
obedI
’
mti
red”
Mom:
“SneguguIam sor
ry”
Me:“I’
m overitmom Iforgaveyoulongti
me
agoandIdon’ twanttotalkabouti
tanymoreI
don’
thav etheenergyIam givi
ngbir
thsoonmy
daughterneedsmehappy ”
Mom: “
I’
m gonnahav
eagranddaught
er?
”I
noddedandwenttomyr
oom.
.
Mymom wokemeupwi thatrayf
il
ledwit
h
br
eakf
astIsatupandsmil
edshesmiledback
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Mom: “
Iwi
shIhadexper
iencedal
loft
hiswi
th
you”
Me:
“it
’sf
ine”shesatonmybed
Mom:
“youandLut
handost
il
ltoget
her
?”
Me:
“nowebr
okeupaf
tery
out
oldt
het
rut
h”
Mom:
“Ishoul
dhav
etol
dyou”
Me:
“mamapl
easeIdon’
thav
etheener
gy”
Mom: “I’
m sorry
”Inoddedshewat chedme
eati
ng“youandLut handoaregoingtohavea
beauti
fulbaby.I’
vebeenprayi
ngandy ourfat
her
spoketot heancest
orsaskedforforgi
veness”
Me:
“canIbeal
onepl
ease”
Mom:“
I’m sor
rysneIwon’
ttal
kabouti
t
any
more”
Me:“okaynowcanyouleavemyroom”she
noddedandwentoutl
ookingdown.
LuthandoandIwenttobuythet hi
ngswe
neededforthebabyduri
ngtheday .Hi
smom
hadcamebackf rom hersi
ster
’shouseIhadn’
t
seenherIwasn’tsur
ehowshewasgoi ngtobe
towardsme.Sheneverli
kedmeandnowt hi
ngs
wewor se,
Iwasherhusband’sdaughter
.Iwas
havi
ngdinnerwi
thmom whi l
ewatchingtvwhen
Ifel
tmydressandmyl egsgett
ingwet
Me: “
Ithi
nkmywat erj
ustbr
okemama”she
stoodupfastandpull
edmeupthecouchand
thefl
oorwerewet
Mom: “waitI
’l
lgogetyourbag”shewalked
awayandcameback“ comel et’
sgetyouint
o
cl
eanclothesfi
rst
”shepull
edmet omyr oom I
changedintopyj
amasandagownwhi leshe
packedabagf ormeIcall
edLuthando
Lut
hando:
“mmh”
Me:“mywat
erj
ustbr
okeIneedt
ogot
othe
hospi
tal
”
Luthando:“
shi
tI’
m coming”Ihear
dsome
shuffl
ing“
youi
npain?”Hewasbr eat
hingf
ast
Me:
“nonoty
et”Iendedt
hecal
l
Mom:
“let
’sgo”shewr
appedat
hrowar
oundmy
waistwewal
kedoutj
ustasLut
handowas
cominginwi
thhi
smom
Lut
hando:
“babyy
ouokay
?”
Mr
sPet
erson:
“Lut
hando!
”
Luthando:
“notnow”hescoopedmeupbr
idal
sty
le
Me:“y
ougoi
ngt
odr
opmeLut
handoputme
down”
Luthando:“
youbot
hmygirl
sIwouldneverdr
op
youtwo”hewalkedtot
hecarIgoti
nthe
backseatwit
hmom Lut
handodroveof
fina
speed
Itwasthefol
lowingdayafternoonwhenIgave
bir
thtomybeaut i
fulangelshewassol i
ght
skinnedandbigwithchubbycheeksLuthando
namedherLel ot
handoLonwaboPet erson.
PART9LOVEMELI KEONLYYOUCAN
[
04/
14,
14:
33]Ron:
#10
Hegoti
ncar
ryi
ngpi
nkbal
loonsandat
ake
awaywi
thahugesmi
leonhisface
Luthando:“
mygirl
s”heki
ssedmyfor
eheadand
tookLeloaft
erput
ti
ngwhathewascarr
ying
down
Me:“hey”hecl
osedthecurt
aintogiv
eusal
itt
le
pr
ivacyIwasshari
ngtheroom wit
hanot
her
woman
Lut
hando:
“Shesl
eptwel
l
?”
Me:“y
eahshewasanangel onlygotuponceI
br
eastfedhershewentbacktosleep”
Luthando:“Idon’
twantherget
ti
ngusedto
breastmilkyouhavetogobacktoschool
soon
youstartexamsintwoweeks”
Me: “
Iknowbuti tj
ustfornowandIl ov
ebr east
feedi
ngherLuthando,feeli
ngthatcl
oset oherI
j
ustcan’texpl
ainthefeel
ingbutitamazingand
Iwantitforasl
ongasIcanhav eit
”
Lut
hando:“okaybabyIgeti
t”l
elost
ir
redal
it
tl
e
webothlookedather“shei
sjustsoamazi
ng”
hebrushedhercheek
Me:
“she’
spartyouandme.That
’susr
ight
t
her
eourproduct”
Luthando:
“yesi
tisandthankyouforkeepi
ng
herIknowitwasn’
teasyanditwil
lsti
l
lbehard”
Me:“
Iwoul
dn’
thav
eter
minat
edherev
eni
fyou
t
oldmeto”
Lut
hando:
“Iknowandt
hat
’soneoft
her
easons
whyIl
oveyousomuch”
Me:
“Lut
handodon’
tpl
ease”
Luthando:“
okayIam sorr
ybutjustknowthatI
sti
l
l l
oveyouandIwon’tstopthekindofl
oveI
haveforyoudoesn’
tjustdi
sappear”
Me:“Iknow.Isti
ll
loveyouaswell
”hest oodup
wekissedIhadmi ssedhim somuchIheldt he
backofhisneckashedeepenedt heki
ssj ust
asImoanedl el
ostartedcr
yingwepull
apar t
Lut
hando:
“she’
sjeal
ous”It
ookherandputmy
ni
pplei
nhermouthshesuckedf
uriousl
y
Me:
“yeah”
Luthando:“
Iusedt
osuckont
hatni
ppl
eImi
ss
yourbreast
”
Me:
“Lut
handot
hat
’si
nappr
opr
iat
e”
Lut
hando:
“mxm”
Me:
“I’
myoursi
ster
”
Lut
hando:
“hal
fsi
ster
”
Me:“ouch”hesmiledshaki
nghisheadlel
o
movedherfaceitwasherwayofletti
ngme
knowshe’sful
l“y
oucant akey
ourdaughter”
Luthando:“comet odaddypri
ncess”heki
ssed
heralloverherface“can’
twai
tforhertost
art
tal
kingandwal king”
Me:
“that
’sl
i
keay
earort
wof
rom now”
Lut
hando:
“justt
ohearherscr
eami
ngdaddy
”
Me:
“howaboutuncl
e?YouknowI
’
vet
hi…”
Luthando: “don’tev ensayitunl
essyoutryi
ngt o
pissmeof fSneguguy ouwi l
lnothi
dethatI’
m
herfather.Iwi l
lbeherdadandwhenshe’ sold
enought ounder standwhatisgoingonwewi ll
tell
butdon’ tyoudar ethi
nkI’
m notgoi
ngt oplay
myr ol
easaf ather”hesoundedsoangr yhis
eyeswer et winklingwithtears
Me:“
I’
m sorr
ydon’
tbeupsetIdon’
tknow
what
’swrongwi
thme.Sorry
”
Lut
hando:“shei
smydaughterSne.Mine.
Wit
houtmeshewouldn’tbeher
edon’ttryt
o
downplayhowimpor
tantIam i
nthis”
Me:“I’
mreall
ysorryLut
handoofcourseshe’
s
your
sandy ouasimportantasIam t
oher”he
noddedandkissedherforehead
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovehersomuch.Il
ovey
ouso
much”
Me:“andIl
ovey
ou”hebr
ushedmyhai
randwe
ki
ssed
.
Igotdischargedatthehospit
alaftert
hreeday
s
Luthandocamet ofet
chmewi thhismom
thi
ngswer eal i
tt
leawkwardbetweenherand
mebutsheador edmydaught ersoIdidn’
tcar
e
Iknewshewoul dn’
tharm her
.Wegothome
Luthandocar r
iedmythingswhilehismom
carri
edlelowewentt otheguesthousemom
openedt hedoorwithahugesmi le
Mom: “
comey ourroom iswarm”wewal kedto
myr oom itwassowar mt heheaterwason.
Luthandohadsetupt hecr i
bandputitnextto
mybedt her
ewasanappychangi ngstat
ionon
thefarcornernexttoherpinkchestofdrawer
s
Me:
“thanky
oumom”
Mr
sPet
erson:
“itwhatshe’
spai
dfor
”
Lut
hando:
“mamapl
ease!
”
Mom:“excuseme”herv
oicewast
rembl
i
ngshe
wal
kedout
Luthando:“
lookatwhatyou’v
edone.Wast
hat
necessary
?What ev
erisgoingonwit
hyout
woI
don’twantitar
oundmydaught er
”
MrsPeter
son:“shesl
eptwi
thmyhusbandI
shoul
dhavefi
redher”
Luthando:
“thi
sisexact
lywhyIwantmy
daughteri
nPretor
iawit
hme”
Me:“
giv
ememydaughterandpl
easel
eav
ewe
woul
dli
ket
oset
tl
ein”
MrsPeter
son:“mxm”shegent
lyputl
eloi
nher
cr
ibandwalkedout
Lut
hando:
“I’
m sor
ry”
Me:“
it
’sf
ine.Justcan’
twai
ttowor
ksoIcan
t
akemymom outofher e”
Luthando:“
wellshedidsleepwithherhusband
andhady ou”Il
ookedathi m wit
hmyey eshalf
cl
osedheputhishandsup“ okaysorr
yIwill
checkinyoutwol at
er”hekissedthecrownof
myheadandwal kedout.Mom gotin
Me:
“I’
m sor
rymama”
Mom: “don’
tapol
ogize”shesatonthebed“
can
Itakeherout
?”Inoddedshetooklelo“
so
beauti
ful
”
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Mom:
“whenar
eyougoi
ngbackt
oschool
?”
Me:“
SundaywhenLuthandoi
sleav
ing”itwas
Wednesday“
wil
lyoubeablet
olookafterher
mama?”
Mom:
“yesIwi
l
l”
Me:
“Mr
sPet
ersonwi
l
lhel
pout
”Bul
elani
goti
n
Bul
elani
:“hel
l
o”Ihadn’
tseenhi
m si
nceIar
ri
ved
Me:
“hi
”
Bulelani
:“howyouf
eeli
ng?
”Hetooklel
o“she’
s
soy ell
owandbeaut
iful
.Di
dthedoct
orssay
everythi
ngisfi
newi
thher?
”
Me:
“yes”
Bul
elani
:“goodIwaswor
ri
edaboutdi
sabi
l
iti
es”
Me:
“that
’sj
ustamy
th”
Bulel
ani
:“mmh”hesatont hecouchhekept
brushi
ngherfaceandherhair“
Sthembil
etel
ls
mey ougoingbacktoschoolwhenLuthandois
l
eav i
ngweneedt ogetanannyandmov elel
oto
themainhouse”
Mom:
“Icanl
ookaf
terher
”
Bulelani
:“andIdidn’
tsayyoucan’
tIam j
ust
sayingwhati sgoingtohappenSt
hembil
ehas
al
readyst art
edlookingf
orananny”
Me:
“andIhav
enosayi
nal
loft
his?
”
Bul
elani
:“y
oudoshe’
syourdaught
er”
Me:
“okay
”
Bulel
ani
:“Lut
handoalsothi
nksi
tbestwegeta
nannyandmov elel
otothemainhouse”
Me:
“ifhet
hinkssot
henokay
”henodded
Bulel
ani
:“shel
ooksl
i
key
ouwheny
ouwer
ea
baby”
Mom:
“youwer
esuchacr
ybabyt
hough”
Me:
“Iwoul
dli
ket
orestpl
ease”
Them:
“ofcour
se”t
heybot
hwentoutwi
thl
elo
.
Timej ustwentbysmoot hl
yourdaught erwas
growingbeautif
ullyshewasjustacr ybabynow
andf att
ershewassi xmonthsnow.Lut hando
andIwer ecopar enti
ngl
ikeprofessionalswe
wer eli
kethebossesofcopar enti
ng.Iwas
donewi thmyhonour spassedreallywellIwas
skippingmygraduat i
onj
ustwasn’ tuptoi t
.
Luthandopi ckedmeupf rom theairportIhad
aninterviewt hefoll
owi ngdayatH&A
Recor di
ngsi twasahugecompanyandIhadan
i
nterviewt hereforani nternship.Hedropped
meof fathisapar t
mentandwentbackt owork.
Il
eftmybagsi nhisroom andwentt othe
bathroom t ourinatethenwashedmyhandsasI
wasl eav i
ngIsawal acet hongi twassizesmall
Ij
ustf eltli
kecry i
ngIcoul dalreadyimaginethe
bodyofaper soni tbelongedt oIwashav i
nga
hardt i
mel osingthebabywei ghtitbeensi x
mont hsbutIst i
llont hebigsideIhadl osta
j
eansi zewas38nowbutwhenIgav ebirt
hI
was40.I ’venev erbeensmal lbutseeingthat
thongj ustmademef eelbiggerthanIwas, my
i
nsecur iti
esj ustdoubl edIknowIshoul dn’thave
caredLut handowasmybr ot
herandwehad
brokenupy eahsur eweki ssedev erynowand
then.Itwashar dt ojustmov eonf rom uswel l
formei twasbutcl earlyf
orhi mitwaseasyhe
hadmov edonwhi leIcouldn’tevenent ert
ain
guyswhot ri
edt heirl
uckwi thme.Ij ustwentt o
bedf eelingdr ai
nedaf terchangingt hewhol e
bedding.
Iwaswokenupbysoftki
ssesal
lov
ermyf
aceI
l
ookedathi
m hesmil
ed
Lut
hando:
“wakeupsl
eepyhead”
Me:
“mov
efr
om myf
ace”
Lut
hando:
“Woahwhatdi
dIdo?
”
Me:
“justf
uckof
fLut
hando”hemov
edback
Luthando:
“It
houghtwecoul
dgooutf
ordi
nner
butIguessnot”
Me:
“not
”
Lut
hando:
“I’
l
lor
der
.Tel
lmewhatdi
dIdo?
”
Me:“
yourwhorel
efthertinyt
honginthe
bat
hroom”heopenedhi smouthbutdidn’
tsay
any
thingandcl
oseditthenopeneditagai
n
Lut
hando:
“sor
ryIdi
dn’
tseei
t”
Me:“
mxm”heki
ckedof
fhi
sshoesandt
ookof
f
hi
sbl
azer
Lut
hando:“y
oumadatme? ”Inoddedwhi l
e
watchi
nghim hewast
aki
nghisclothesoffhe
gotonthebedwhenhewasnakedwi thjusthi
s
boyl
eg
Me:
“yes”
Lut
hando:“
why ?
”Hegotonthebedandopened
mylegsget
tingbet
weenthem weki
ssedwhi
le
hi
shandswentcr
azyonmybodyhemoved
downki
ssi
ngmyneck“whyyoumadSne?”
Me:“mmh”hepulledmybr easti
ntohi
smouthI
moanedlouderhestoppedsucki
ngonitand
l
ookedatme
Lut
hando:
“tel
lmewhyy
oumad”
Me:“becauseyouf
ucki
ngmineLuthandoIdon’
t
wantnoskinnywhorel
eav
inghershither
e”he
smil
edandwentbacktomybr east
.
Iwokeupfeel
i
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ngLuthandoandIwent
outf
ordi
nneraft
erwef
ini
shedmakingl
ove
whenwegotbacktohi
sapart
mentwemade
l
oveagai
n.
Luthando:
“stopsmi
li
ngli
keaf
ool
andget
readyyouknowjozi
isfar
”
Me:“mxm suchamoodspoi
l
er”hel
aughedand
pul
l
edthecov er
Lut
hando:
“comel
et’
sshower
”Ishookmyhead
“
yahl
any
awoza”
Me:“Lut
handoyou’
vehadallt
heseski
nny
whorearoundy
ou”hegrunt
edandpull
edmeby
myleg
Lut
hando:
“voest
ekSnesincewhenar
eyou
i
nsecur
eaboutyourbody
”Ihuff
ed
Me:“si
nceIhadyourbaby”hemademesi
tup
andknel
tdowninfrontofme
Luthando:“babyIloveev ery t
hingaboutyour
body”heki ssedmyt highs“ youaphenomenal
womanmybabygr ewinsidey ouandt hatwas
amazingIdon’ tthi
nkthere’ sanythi
ngmor e
amazingy ourstret
chmar ksar eareminderthat
yourbodywasahomet oourbeaut i
fulpr
incess.
Ifyoudon’tlikehowy oulookr i
ghtnowchange
i
tbabeI ’
ll
hel pyouinwhat everway”
Me:
“mmh”
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Me:
“Iknow”hepi
nchedmyst
omachIpushed
hi
m backl
aughi
ng
Ifoundhi
m wait
ingi
nthel
obbywhenIwas
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ervi
ew
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t”Ismi
l
edshaki
ngmy
head
Me:
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hinkInai
l
edi
t”hehuggedmet
ight
ly
Lut
hando:“Iknewyouwoul
dnowl
et’
sgo
cel
ebr
ate”Igiggl
edsof
tl
y
Me:
“hav
en’
tgot
tent
hej
oby
et”
Lut
hando:“
phssthatjusttechni
cali
ty.NowI
hav
etofindabiggerapartmentthenwecan
moveourdaughtert
hisside”
Me:
“I’
m notgonnast
aywi
thy
ou”
Lut
hando:
“mxm”PART10LOVEMELI
KEONLY
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14,
18:
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Thabiso’ scarhest ayedfewhousesawayf rom
homeandwascour t
ingme.I ti
rrit
atedmeto
thecor ehewasbey ondar r
ogant .
Thabi
so:
“comei
nI’
l
ldr
opy
ouof
f”
Me:
“Iwantt
owal
k”
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comeonSnei tsti
llal
it
tl
efarandthe
sunisblazi
ngplusyoucarr
yingabigbagjust
getin”Iopenedthebackdoor“I
’
m notacan
dri
verSne”
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ti
ngmybagher edon’
tbor
e
me”Iclosedthedooraft
erput
ti
ngmybagand
goti
nthef r
onthedroveoff
Thabi
so:
“wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom?
”
Me:
“nowher
eimpor
tant
”
Thabi
so:
“howi
sLel
o?”
Me:
“she’
sgr
eatgr
owi
ngupsof
ast
”
Thabi
so:“can’
tbeli
eveyoudatedLuthandoy ou
knowIalwaysthoughthewasy ourbrotherI
meanyouandLel ethul
ookali
kejustthatyou
l
ight
erthanthem”
Me:
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Thabiso:
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dhavetot
all
ydidbet
terhad
youletmef at
hery
ourf
ir
stborn”
Me:
“thabi
sodon’
tmakemegoof
fyou”
Thabi
so:
“touchysubj
ect
”
Me:“
justdon’
tLut
handoandmydaught
erar
e
of
fli
mit”
Thabiso:“poi
nttakenbutIwasjustsayingI
’v
e
beenaskingy ououtsinceyouwereinhigh
schoolithurt
sSneI ’
vealwaysl
ovedy ou”
Me:
“ohcr
ymear
iver
”
Thabi
so:
“I’
m ser
ious”
Me:
“I’
m noty
ourt
ype”
Thabi
so:
“andwhywoul
dyout
hinkt
hat
?”
Me:
“I’
veseent
hegi
rl
syou’
vebeenwi
th”
Thabi
so:
“don’
tmeanshi
t”
Me:
“mxm”hel
aughed
Thabi
so:
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l
lcall
youlat
er,
may
bewecanmeet
upify
ounotti
red?”
Me:“won’
thavetime”hest
oppedbyt
hegat
e
“
thankyou”Igotofft
ookmybagout.
Iwenttot
hemai
nhousefi
rstfoundmy
daught
eri
nthel
oungeonhersitmeupfl
oor
seat
Me:“baby!Mommyi shome”Ipi
ckedherupI
ti
ckl
edherst omachshegi
ggl
edlooki
ngso
pret
ty“hel
lo”shewaswit
hthenannyNondu
andlel
ethu
Nondu:
“heySne”
Lel
ethu:“
jah”t
heli
tt
lePetersonev
ilof
fspr
ing
wasstil
lrudeashel
ltowardsme
Me:
“hasshebeengoodNondu?
”
Nondu:
“amazi
ng”Il
aughed
Me:
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eli
kecr
yingal
lthet
ime”shesmi
l
ed
Nondu:
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eher
”
Me:
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oldmeshehasar
unni
ngst
omach”
Lel
ethu:
“I’
mtr
yingt
owat
cht
vSnecoul
dyou
shutup”
Me:
“don’
tbeabi
tchl
elet
hu”
Lelethu:“
justbecauseyourmotherf
uckedmy
fatherdoesn’tmeany ougett
otalkt
omel i
ke
that”
Bulel
ani:“
Lel
ethu!!
”Hewasgetti
ngi
nthe
l
ounge“ Snei
sy ourbi
gsi
stery
oushowsome
respectwhenyouspeaktoher
”
Lel
ethu:
“butdaddyshest
art
edi
t”
Bul
elani
:“Iwon’
tsayt
hisagai
n”
Me:“
NondupleasegetLel
othingsbr
ingt
hem
t
otheguesthouse”l
elosl
eptwithmewhenI
washome
Nondu:“okay”Iwal
kedout
.Foundmom
watchi
ngt v
Mom:
“hey
!Youback”
Me:“yeah”shel
ookedatmesuspi
ciousl
yasI
satdown
Mom:
“youhadsexwi
thhi
m,di
dn’
tyou?
”
Me:
“ofcour
senot
!Whatdoy
out
akemef
or?
”
Mom: “nodon’
tli
etome.Icantel
l,
JesusChr
ist
Sneguguheisyourbr
othert
hisi
swr ongy
ou
di
dn’tknowbefor
ebutnowy oudo”
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“Idi
dn’
tnotsl
eepwi
thhi
m”
Mom:“IhopesoItr
ulyhopesootherwi
sey
ou
j
ustbr
ingi
ngyour
selfbadluck”
Me:
“mamapl
easeIam t
ir
ed”
Mom:“mmhay i
siy
oyi
cel
aiv
uthi
we”Ij
ust
l
ookedather
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et’
sgovi
deocall
daddymyl
ove”Ist
ood
upgoi
ngt omyroom
.
Ihadgot tentheinter
nshipIwassohappyi t
wasanewchapt erinmyl i
fet
hingswer esl
owly
comingt ogethertheinter
nshi
pwasonl ysi
x
mont hsIwasdet erminedtomakebest
i
mpr essionandgethi redasapr act
it
ionerwhen
myint er
nshipisov er
.
Mom:
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eSnegugu”Inodded
Me:“monthendwil
lcometheny
oucanmove
backhomeIwill
beablet
osendyoumoney
”
shenoddedwehugged
Mom: “
Iwi
llmissyouandl
elo”yeahIwas
t
akingmydaughterwit
hmeLut handohad
f
oundabiggerapart
menti
nmi drandsoLel o
NonduandIweremov i
ngi
nwi t
hhi m because
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usthadtohavehi
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urdayLut
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etchus
Me:“wewi l
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lseemom thi
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i
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ltakecareofy
ou
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earsdropped
Mom: “hav
ingy
ouwasthebestt
ohav
e
happenedtome”Lut
handogoti
n
Lut
hando:
“let
’sgetgoi
ngSne”
Me:
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l
lbet
her
esoon”henoddedandwal
ked
Mom: “don’
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m waiti
ng”wehuggedshe
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psandwalkedmeoutev ery
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ier
Bul
elani
:“st
ayawayf
rom eachot
her
”
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“real
l
y?!
”
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ani
:“It
oldhi
m aswell
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edmyey
eswe
hugged“cal
lmewheny ouarr
ive”
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“okay
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nthecarLut
handohoot
edand
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oveoffhel
ookedatmeandwinkedIroll
ed
myeyessmil
i
ngandlookedoutt
hroughthe
wi
ndow
Lut
hando:
“ar
eyoubl
ushi
ng?
”
Me:
“no!
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ed
Lut
hando:
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sisgoi
ngt
obeni
ce”
Me:
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handodon’
tpl
ease”
Lut
hando:“ain’
tsai
dnothi
ngbabe”Nondu
cl
earedherthroat“
youalr
ightt
her
eNondu?”
Nondu:“
yesbhutiLuthando”Il
aughedshewas
j
ustayearyoungerthanhim butshecal
l
edhi
m
bhut
i
Luthando:
“don’
tlaughj
ustbecausey
oudon’
t
respectme”
Me:
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Luthando:
“Nonduneedstoteachyouhowt
o
respectmeI’
mt hef
atherofyourchi
l
d”
Me:
“okaybhut
iLut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“wannaki
ssmycheek?
”
Me:
“Lut
handopl
ease”
Lut
hando:
“si
bli
ngsshar
einnocentki
sses”I
huf
fedheputhi
shandonmyt high
Wegott omi drandhour
slater.Il
ookedaround
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apart
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mucht hatLuthandohadpulledover
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hando:
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oom”
Me:
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m notgoi
ngt
obeshar
inga
r
oom wi
thyou”
Luthando:“
mxm Iwon’tbeg”Ichuckl
edashe
wasgoi ngoutaf
terdr
oppingmybagsIputmy
daughteronthebedcoveredher
Nondu:“
wherewil
lIsl
eepSne?”Itookhert
o
t
heotherroom.Weputlel
o’st
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s
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oom.
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o
sleephegotinbehindmeandheldme
Me:
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handoy
oushoul
dn’
t”
Lut
hando:“
yout
hinkt
oomuchIj
ustwantt
o
sl
eepwithmygi
rl
s”heki
ssedmyneck
Me:
“goodni
ght
”
Lut
hando:
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ghtmyl
ove”
Me:
“Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“myl
ove”
Me:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Lut
hando:“IknowmyloveandIlovey
oumor e”
heputhi
shandundermypy j
amatopstr
aightto
myboobandst art
edrubbi
ngit“
whatyousay
wegivel
eloabr ot
her
”
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“hay
iLut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“I’
mjoki
ng.Sl
eep”
Me:
“okay
”
.
Iwokeupwit
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ect
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ngon
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rst
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Lut
hando:
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ning”
Me:“whendi
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o
bedhewasinhi
sroom
Lut
hando:
“youwer
easl
eep”
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Ineedt
ogetr
eady
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what
’s
wr
ong?”
Luthando:
“youwerer i
ghtthi
sisgoingtobe
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tst
ayawayf r
om
youandnowy ouherebutyounotmi nei
t’
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tor
ture”
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Ishoul
dhavetakenBul
elani
uponhi
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fer
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orentmeanapart
ment ”
Lut
hando:
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ustwant
edy
ouandl
eloher
ewi
th
me”
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let’
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twanttobelate
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ost”Iwastaki
nghiscarhe
wasgoi ngtobeusinghisoldgt
iunti
lhefi
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buyerforit
Lut
hando:“
youwon’t
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mynightdr
essget
ti
ngontopofme
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Lut
hando:
“mmh”
Ipulledupi nthest
affparkingear l
yIgotoffthe
carsmoot hedmyblackpenci lskir
tovertucked
i
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tpr
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el
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ookedat
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ofthem”
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hat
”
Her:
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afamilyher
e”
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l
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Her
:“comeI’
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tookoutaphotofr
ameLuthandohadgi
venme
i
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ther
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m Sne”
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l
osne.HowcanIhel
pyou?Whi
ch
depart
mentarei
n?”
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ia:
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ssedy
oumommy
”
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asha:
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ouupHai
l
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kecoll
apsi
ngsomuchf or
pl
ay i
ngitcoolonmyf ir
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04/
14,
18:
44]Ron:
#12

Luthandowaspushi ngthetrol
l
eylelowason
thebabyseatsucki ngonherpaci f
ierasalways,
Ikeptputt
ingthingsi nthetr
oll
eywewer eat
checkersdoi
nggr ocery
.Itbeenfourmont h
sincewegother et hi
ngswer egoodmom had
mov edbackhomeshewentbackt hereaft
er
myf ir
stmonthatwor kshequitherjobIwasso
happyitwasaboutt i
meshewasn’ thappyt her
e
sthembil
eandl elethuweremaki ngherli
fea
l
ivinghel
lIsenthermoneywhenIgotpai d.
Lut
hando:
“youknowI
’
vebeent
hinki
ng”
Me:“
hmm”It hr
ewf
ewpocketofcheesecur
ls
i
nthetr
oll
ey
Lut
hando:“y
ousaidy
oudon’
twanttohav
ea
par
tyforLel
osi
nceshewon’
trememberi
t”l
elo
wasturni
ngonesoon
Me:
“yes”
Luthando:“
butIwantust ocelebr
atemay bewe
couldgotocar ni
valci
tyhavemyf r
iendsbri
ng
thei
rkidsi
tcoul dbefunmakeadayoutofi t
havebreakfastandlunchther
eplaygames”
Me:
“It
hinkt
hat
’sokay
”
Luthando:“
great”heki
ssedmyheadt hen
cl
earedhisthroatIl
ookedatwherehewas
l
ookingsomegi rlwaslooki
ngatusshelooked
beauti
fulwi
thherdarkskinandbigeyesI
watchedasshewal kedtous“ Namhl
a”they
huggedshegav ehim asoftpeck
Namhla:“
heybaby
”shel
ookedatmet henat
l
elo“
isthi
slel
o?She’
ssobeaut
if
ul”she
r
eachedf
orl
elo
Me:“
don’tt
ouchmychi
l
d”shel
ookedatme
t
akenback
Namhl
a:“
andy
oumustbeSne”
Me:
“youhav
emeatadi
sadv
ant
age”
Namhla:“I
’
m NamhlaLuthando’
sgi
rl
fr
iendfor
overayearnow”sheof
feredmeherperfect
ly
manicur
edhand
Me: “mmh”IpushedLut handoasi deand
pushedthetroll
eyf or
war dleavingthel ov
ebirds
stari
ngateachot her“l
ookl ikey oujustmet
yourstepmommymyl ove”Itickledher
stomachshel aughedwhi lebitingherpacifi
er
withhersi
xfrontt eet
h.Luthandocaughtup
withus
Lut
hando:
“I’
m sor
ry”
Me:
“don’
t.Donotdot
hatdonotapol
ogi
ze”
Lut
hando:
“youangr
y”
Me:
“yetIhav
enor
ightt
obe”
Lut
hando:
“Sne”
Me:“
actual
l
yfucki
t!
”Hegr
abbedmyar
m
r
oughl
y
Luthando:
“canwenotdothi
sinpubl
i
candi
n
fr
ontofourdaught
er”Iy
ankedmyarm
Me: “v
oestekLuthandoyoudon’tgett
oputyour
handonme.Whenwe’ r
ey ougoi
ngtotel
lme?
Luthandoyou’v
ebeensl eepi
ngwithmeallt
his
ti
meI ’
m suchaf ool
”
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovey
ouSne”Ishookmyhead
Me: “
noitf
ine”wecar r
iedondoi nggroceryi n
si
lencewit
hl eloblabberi
ngev erynowandt hen
hepaidwelef tIgotinthebackseatwi t
hl elo.
HehadboughtaHy undaiix35itwasbasi call
y
minehenev erdrov ei
tunlesswewer et aking
l
elobecausehercarseatwasi nit
.
Wegottotheapartmentparki
ngItookmy
daught
eroutofhercarseatwentuphewas
goi
ngtobr
ingthegrocer
yinhi
msel
f.If
ound
Nonduwat
chingtv
Me: “
pleaseunpackt hegr
ocerywhenLuthando
getsinwitheveryt
hingandtakeoutatr
ayof
porkchopsIwi l
lcookwhenI ’
m upIwantto
takealit
tl
enap”
Nondu:“
okay.Youcanl
eav
eLel
owi
thmeI
’
ll
watchoverher
”
Me: “
thankyou”Iwentt omyr oom afterputti
ng
l
eloonherplay mateItookoffmyjeanand
shoesgotunderthecov er
sIjustcried.Itwas
hurti
ngsobadlyIfeltsobetr
ay edl
ikeLut hando
tookmyhear toutofmychestandt hrewitin
thebin.Thedooropenedhegoti nandsaton
thebedjustl
ookedatmewi t
hhi sey esfil
led
withguil
tandsadness
Lut
hando:
“Sne”
Me:
“justl
etmebe”
Lut
hando:
“Ishoul
dhav
etol
dyouaboutNamhl
a
Iam sor
rybutIdon’
tlov
eherl
i
keIl
ovey
ou”
Me: “t
here’snot hingy oucoul dsayLut hando
thatwoul dmakemef eelbetter.Iwouldhav e
nevercameont oy ounev er
.Youshoul dhav e
j
ustleftmeal onei twouldn’tbehur ti
ngt hi
s
muchhady oujustl ef
tmeal oneallIwoul dsee
whenl ookingatheri smybr ot her’
sgirl
fri
end
butyoudi dt hi
st omet ous.Youbasi call
y
fuckedupev erythingwewer et oeachot her
evenbef orewef oundoutaboutbei ngsi bl
ings
youruinedal lthoseper fectmemor i
esf orme”
Lut
hando:
“that
’snotf
airandy
ouknowi
tSne”
Me:
“justl
eav
emealoneLuthandopl
easel
eav
e
metodealwi
tht
hisal
one”
Lut
hando:
“Ican’
tleaveyoual
oneher ewhi
le
youint
ear
sy ouknowIcan’t
”Iletoutasoband
buri
edmyfaceont hepi
l
low
Me:“
overafucki
ngy
ear
!!AyearLuthando?!
”He
t
ri
edholdi
ngmebutImovedscreaminglouder
Lut
hando:“Snepl
easey
ouki
l
li
ngmej
ustcal
m
down”Ishookmyhead
Me:“
leav
emealonepl
easeIam beggi
ngy
ou
j
ustl
eavemeal
one”hestoodup
Lut
hando:
“Inev
ermeantt
ohur
tyouIam sor
ry”
Me:“fuckyou”hewal
kedoutwhenIhear
dthe
doorclosi
ngIcri
edl
ouder
Iwokeuplat
erwithapoundingheadacheIjust
l
aidonthebedalit
tleIcoul
dhearlel
ocryi
ngI
gotof
fthebedwor emyuggsandagownI
wentoutofmyroom foundLuthandopaci
ngup
anddownintheloungetryi
ngt
ogethertocal m
down
Me:
“br
ingher
”
Lut
hando:
“Icanhandl
eher
”
Me:“cl
earl
ynotnowgi vememychi l
dLut
hando
bef
oreyoupissmeof fevenmore”hegav
eher
tome“whyi sshewail
ingli
ket
hiswherei
s
Nondu?”Hewasf ol
l
owi ngmeasIwasgoingto
Nondu’
sroom
Luthando:
“shesaidshewantstotakeawalk”I
changedhernappythenfedhershefel
lasl
eep
whileIwassti
l
lfeedingherIt
ookthefoodout
ofhermouthandt ookhertobed
Lut
hando:
“yousogoodwi
thher
”
Me:“I
’m hermot
her”Iwalkedtotheki
tchen
“
Nonducookedalready”Iusual
lycookduri
ng
weekends
Lut
hando:
“Icooked”Inodded“
Iam sor
rySne”
Me:“nodon’
tmaybethisi
swhatIneededt
o
knowsoIcanreal
lyputastopt
othi
smadness”
Luthando:“
noIshoul
dhavebeenhonestwi
th
you”Ihuff
edandlookedathi
m
Me:
“doy
oul
oveher
?”
Lut
hando:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Me:“
thatmeansyoulov
eheryoutwobeen
t
oget
herforoveray
earyouwouldn’
thav
e
st
ayedi
fyoudi
dn’
tlov
eher
”
Lut
hando:
“don’
tputwor
dsi
ntomymout
h”
Me:
“I’
m donet
alki
ngaboutt
his”
Lut
hando:
“thabi
socal
l
ed”
Me:
“whatwer
eyoudoi
ngwi
thmyphone?
”
Lut
hando:
“It
oldy
out
ost
opent
ert
aini
nghi
m”
Me:
“mxm”
Lut
hando:“
voest
ekSnewatchhowy
out
alkt
o
me”Icl
appedmyhandsonce
Me:“
y ou”Ipokedhi
schest“st
ay”Idi
ditagai
n
“t
hefuckoutofmybusiness”wit
heveryword
cameapoke
Lut
hando:
“Sne”hewar
ned
Me:
“what?Whatyougoi
ngt
odo?
”Hest
aredat
me“It
houghtso”
Luthando:“
justdi
shupI’
m hungr
y”hewal
ked
outIroll
edmyey esandst
art
eddishi
ngup
.
IwokeupSatur
daymorni
ngandst
aredatmy
daught
ershewasupsucki
ngonherbot
tl
e
whil
eplay
ingwi
thherf
eet
Me: “morningmyl ove”sheblinkedt henlooked
atme“ weshoul dmov eout.Assoonas
mommyi sper manentatwor kandget spaid
betterwewi llmov eout ”shestartedblabberi
ng
herresponse“ yesmyl ovewegoi ngtoleave
daddyher e”shegi ggledandwentont o
blabberi
ngi twasasi fshecouldhearmeI
foundmy selflaughi
ng.Igotof fthebedt ook
herwi t
hmet othekitchenmadeherbr eakfast
wentt otheloungest ar t
edfeedingher .
Luthandogoti nandsatnextt omeheki ssed
herheadImov edbackwhenher eachedf ormy
chin
Lut
hando:
“sor
ry”Inodded“
yout
wosl
eptwel
l
?”
Me:
“yes”
Lut
hando:
“youst
il
langr
y?”
Me:
“noI
’
m ov
eri
t”
Lut
hando:
“I’
m sor
ry”
Me:
“okay
”
Luthando:“
am Ist
il
lgoi
ngt
otheev
entwi
th
you?”Ishookmyhead
Me:
“noIam goi
ngal
one”
Lut
hando:
“Snedon’
tdot
hispl
ease”
Me:“I
’m notdoi
ngany
thingI’
m simpl
ygoi
ngt
o
mywor kevental
onei
nsteadoftaki
ngmy
br
otherwithme”hewinced
Lut
hando:“okay”If
ini
shedfeedinglel
ogaveher
abaththentookhertoLuthandointhelounge
wenttohelpNonduwithmaki ngbreakf
ast.
Il
ookedatmy sel
finthefulll
engt
hmi rr
orIwas
weari
ngabl ackrippedboy f
ri
endjeanwitha
bl
ackbody sui
tandbl ueheelswit
hal ar
ge
denimjackethangingonmyshoul dersIhad
l
ostweightlotofitespecial
lyar
oundmy
stomachthetr ai
neratthegym wasasl ave
dri
ver.Myboxbrai
dsweret
iedi
ntoahalftop
bunIhadal i
ghtmakeuponwit
hamar oon
l
ipsti
ck.It
ookmybagandwalkedoutofthe
room
Lut
hando:
“youl
ookbeaut
if
ul”
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Luthando:“becareful
don’tl
ikey oudri
vi
ngat
night”Inoddedandkissedlelo’
sf or
eheadher
l
ipsst ar
tedtrembli
ng“shecant elly
ouleav
ing
she’sgoingtocry”
Me:“sor
rybabymommyi
sgoi
ngt
obeback
soon”
Lut
hando:
“youar
e?”
Me:
“I’
mtal
ki
ngt
omydaught
er”
Lut
hando:“
mxm”l elost
art
edcryi
ngassoonas
Imovedfr
om hersight“
soy ouj
ustgoi
ngto
l
eavehercr
ying?
”
Me:“
don’tst
artshitwi
thmeLuthandodon’
t
ev
entrybecauseitwon’
tbepl
easantfort
he
bothofus.Lel
oalwayscr
ieswhenoneofusis
l
eavingitnot
hingnewshewil
lbequi
etaf
tera
minute”
Luthando:
“somuchf
orlovi
ngyourdaughter”I
cl
osedmyey esbr
eat
hedinandoutacoupl eof
ti
mewhenIopenedthem Nonduwastaking
l
elotoherroom
Me: “
Idon’tknowwhatst i
ckyougotupy our
assbutI’
m notdoi ngthi
swi t
hy ou”Iwalkedout
bangingt
hedoorIt ooktheelevat
orgoingdown
totheparkinglotgotinthecarIbreathedout
tr
yingtostopmy sel
ffr
om cryingthenIdrove
off
.
Theev entwasgoingamazi nglywellfewar ti
st
from workwer eperformingitwasn’taf ormal
thingitwasatthehot elball
room therewasa
bar ,
waitr
essesservingfingerfoodsandr ound
tableswherewewer egoingt ositwhent he
program star
tsandwhenf oodi sgetti
ngser ved.
Iwassi t
ti
ngonat ablethatIwasgoi ngt oshare
wit
ht heot
heri
nter
nslooki
ngatthemenuwhen
If
eltataponmyshoulderIl
ookedupitwas
NatashaIsmil
edandgotup
Nat
asha:
“youl
ooksosad”Ismi
l
ed
Me: “
I’
m okay”wewalkedawayfr
om t
hetable
Natashawascool Il
i
kedherwespokeatleast
t
wiceaweeksomet i
messhewouldcal
lforme
t
ohav elunchwit
hherinherof
fi
ce
Natasha:
“yousi
tt
ingaloneatt
het
abl
ewhi
l
e
every
oneismingl
inganddanci
ng”
Me:“
youknowI
’
m notgoodwi
thmaki
ng
f
ri
ends”
Nat
asha:
“youandIbot
h”
Me:“
mydaughter’
sbi
rthdayi
sonThur sdaybut
wecelebr
ati
ngonSat
urdaygoingtocarni
val
ci
tyy
oucouldbri
ngKj
”shesmi ledbr
ightl
y
Natasha:“I
’
dlovetohewi l
lal
solov
ethat
may beevenari
awillwanttocomebutIdon’
t
wanttoruinLel
o’sdayyouknowhowi ti
swith
meandmyfamilybutIwanttocomeIwi
l
l
speakt
oKl
einaboutsecur
it
y”
Me: “
itwon’
trui
nany
thi
ngy
oucanbr
ingy
our
securi
ty”
Natasha: “
thankyouitgoi
ngtobefun.Idon’
t
haveany bodybutmyhusbandandki dshere
theonlytimeIgoouti swi
thmyhusbandor
whenwehav edi
nnermeeti
ngswithhis
businesspeopleandIhavetosmileand
entert
aintheirbr
ainl
essgi
rlf
ri
endsorwivesit
’s
draini
ng”
Me:“wel
lyouhav
emenowIal
sodon’
thav
e
any
bodybutmyfami
l
ythi
ssi
de”
Nat
asha:“
I’
vebeenbur
ntbef
oreSnesoIdon’
t
j
ustopenup”
Me:
“Iunder
stand”
Natasha:“
ooht her
e’stheownerofthehotelhe
andKleinaregoodfriends”shepoi
ntedtothi
s
guyswhol ookedsof amil
iarhewasspeaki
ngto
Kl
ein
Me:
“hel
ooksf
ami
l
iar
”
Nat
asha:
“Sf
undoMkhi
ze”
Me:
“nope”
Natasha:“
comeletmegospeaktothe
or
ganisersohecanmovesomethi
ngsaroundI
wantyouonmyt abl
e”
Me:
“Idon’
tthi
nkt
hat
’sal
l
owed”shesmi
l
ed
Natasha:
“isi
tnotmycompany?”Welaughed
wal
kingtotheorgani
serPART12LOVEME
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[
04/
14,
18:
44]Ron:
#13

Wegott othetabl
egiggl
ingoverhowthe
organi
serhadreact
edtoNat ashawant
ingme
athertabl
ethepoorguyhadbeenshockedand
str
essedouthisjawdroppedasNatashatol
d
hi
m buthequickl
ycoll
ectedhimselfandsaid
okaynoprobl
em.Kleinwasstil
lstandingwit
ha
groupofmenamongstt hem wasthecf oand
vi
cepresi
dentofthecompany
Kl
ein:
“mylove”hebr
oughtNat
ashacl
oset
o
hi
m andki
ssedhershor
tl
y
Nat
asha:
“mi
ssedme?
”
Kl
ein:
“ev
erysecondyounotcl
osetome”he
l
ookedatme“heySne,youj
oini
ngus?
”
Nat
asha:
“yes”
Me:
“ifi
tnott
roubl
e”
Klei
n:“
ofcoursenot.Youknowever
yoneher
e
besi
desSfundohistheowneroft
hehotel
”I
l
ookedatSfundohewasl ooki
ngatmewitha
smil
eofhisgorgeousface
Sfundo:“cast
ersemeny
a”IlaughedathowI
couldrememberwhyhel ookedsofamil
iar
Nat
asha:
“yout
woknoweachot
her
”
Me:
“notr
eal
l
y”
Sfundo:“
wemetyearsbackshe’
sanamazi
ng
runner
”ever
yonel
aughed
Me:
“your
eal
l
ynotf
unnySf
undo”
Sfundo:“
lookaty
oual
lgr
ownupy
oul
ook
beauti
ful
”
Me:“
thankyou”wewer
einst
ruct
edtoset
tl
e
downfoodwasaboutt
ogetserv
ed
Klei
n:“
gentl
emenwewi l
lconti
nuethi
s
conver
sati
onlater”t
heothersl
eftt
hisgi
rlcame
tousSfundokissedhercheek
Sfundo:“
youtookl
ong,yourememberNat
asha
Kl
ein’swi
feandthat
’sSneladi
esthi
sismygi
rl
Adil
ici
a”
Adi
l
ici
a:“
hell
o”shehadt hi
sbeaut
if
ulaccent
Nat
asha:“
hey”weallsatdown
Me:
“Il
ovey
ouraccent
”shegi
ggl
ed
Adi
l
ici
a:“
thanky
ouI
’
mfr
om Fr
ance.Hav
eyou
beent
her
e?ImetNat
ashaandKl
eint
her
e”
Me:
“noIhav
en’
t”shenodded
Adil
ici
a:“
youshoul
dvi
sitsomet
imesi
t
beauti
ful
”
Me:“hmm”wehaddi
nnerov
erl
i
ght
conv
ersat
ions
Iwaswaiti
ngf
orval
ett
obr i
ngmycarupfr
ont
whensomeonecall
edmynameIturnedandi
t
wasSfundohewaswalki
ngtome
Sf
undo:
“leav
ingwi
thoutsay
inggoodby
e”
Me:“youwerebusywit
hAdi
l
ici
a”It
ri
edcopi
ng
heraccenthel
aughed
Sf
undo:
“youshoul
dn’
tmakef
unofot
her
s”
Me:“I
’m not
”mycarpar
kedinf
rontofust
he
val
etgavememykey s“
thanky
ou”
Sf
undo:
“canIhav
eyournumber
?”
Me:
“no”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m goi
ngt
ogeti
tbuti
twoul
dbe
bet
teri
fyouhav
eitt
ome”
Me:
“nogobackt
oyourAdi
l
ici
a”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“ifIdi
dn’
tknowbet
terIwoul
dsayy
ou
j
eal
ous”
Me:
“ar
ghpl
ease”Igoti
nthecar
Sf
undo:
“she’
sabeaut
if
ulwoman”
Me: “neversai
dshewasn’
t”Iclosedthedoorhe
steppedbackandwatchedmewi thhishandsi
n
hi
spocketIshookmyhead“ heissof ucki
ng
hot”Idroveoff
IgothomeLut
handowasst
il
lupj
ustsi
tt
ingi
n
thel
ounget
hetvwasoff
Luthando:“
Ithoughty
ouwer
egoi
ngt
ocome
backearly
”
Me:“Lut
handoIdon’
thav
etheener
gy.Lel
o
asl
eep?”
Luthando:“
itwaypastherfucki
ngsl
eept
imeof
courseshe’
sasleep”Ishookmyheadwalki
ng
pasthi
m hegr
abbedmyhandroughl
ypul
l
ing
mebackIalmostf
ell
buthehel
dme
Me:“whatt
hehel
li
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
”Ishov
ed
hi
m off
Lut
hando:
“ist
hist
het
imet
ocomehome?
!!
”
Me: “
LuthandoIhadawor kt hingyouknew
whereIwasf orfucksakesthecarhasat racker
Iknowforsurethatyoucheckedi tIdon’t
underst
andwhati syourproblem j
uststop
acti
ngli
keapsy choti
chusband”
Lut
hando:
“ify
oueventhi
nkaboutseei
ng
someoneSneIwi
ll
kil
lyoumyself
”
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mt osi
tathomebesingl
eand
r
aiseyourdaught
erwhil
eyouli
veyourl
if
ewit
h
Namhla”
Lut
hando:
“shehasnot
hingt
odowi
tht
his”
Me:
“mxm y
oucr
azy
”Iwentt
omyr
oom l
ocked
t
hedoor
.
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edt
o
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ionIwentt
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ounddel
iver
yboy
Hi
m:“
MsCel
e?”
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es.Thankyou”Isi
gnedandtookt
hebox
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edroseswentuptomycubicle
Nonhle:
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weekendwithbae”Ichuckl
edandt
ookoutt
he
car
d
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heseandthoughtofyou.Hopeyouhav
e
agooddaybeaut
if
ulfrom Sf
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keto
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thyou*
Isatdownindi
sbel
iefIj
ustshookmyhead.My
phonerangwhi
leIwasstari
ngatther
oses
Me:
“hel
l
o”
Sf
undo:
“munt
uwam”
Me:“
funnyconsi
der
inghowIam sosi
ngl
e.How
di
dyougetmynumber ?
”
Sf
undo:
“Ihav
emyway
s”
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“thanky
ouIl
ovet
her
oses”
Sfundo:“I
’
llsendthem t
oyouev
eryMondayf
or
therestofourli
ves”
Me:
“socheesy
”
Sfundo:
“anot
herwomanwoul
dhav
elov
edt
hat
l
ine”
Me:
“I’
m notl
i
keot
herwoman”
Sf
undo:
“soI
’
venot
iced”
Me:
“I’
m atwor
kSf
undo”
Sf
undo:
“sowhaty
ousayaboutdi
nner
?”
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ewor
ktomor
row”
Sfundo:
“Ican’
twai
tti
l
ltheweekendIneedt
o
seeyou”
Me:
“Ican’
t”
Sfundo:“
I’
ll
picky
ouupf
rom Mi
drandanddr
op
youoff”
Me:
“youev
enknowwher
eIst
ay”
Sfundo:“
Iknowev
ery
thi
ngt
her
eist
oknow
aboutyou”
Me:“t
hatreal
lydoesn’
tmakemewantt
ohav
e
di
nnerwit
hy ou”
Sfundo:“
SneIwillpi
ckyouupatsev engiv
es
youenoughtimetogethomeandf reshenup”
histonecomplet
elychangedf
rom playf
ulto
commandi ng
Me:
“okay
”
Sfundo:
“enj
oyther
estofy
ourdaymunt
uwam”
Iendedthecal
l
Nonhl
e:“
so?
”
Me:“
ha.
asi
si”Iwentbackt
owor
kingonmy
r
epor
t
Igothomel el
orantomeinherwalkerassoon
asshesawmescr eami
ngIdroppedmybag
andmyr osesandtookher
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youmissedmommydidn’
tyou”she
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ggl
edandwentonbl
abber
ingshegiggl
ed
l
ouderhi
dingherfaceonmybr
east
s“l
ooksl
i
ke
y
ouhadar eal
lygoodday”
Nondu:
“hi
Sne”
Me:
“hey
,wasshegood?
”
Nondu:
“al
way
s”Iputl
elodownshecr
iedsoI
t
ookher
Me:“
pleaseputthoser
osesinavasI’
m sur
e
t
heywon’tfi
tinonebri
ngtheot
heronetomy
r
oom”
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butbhuti
Luthandolovesyouthesear
e
beauti
fulsuchaniceapology”Ij
ustsmil
ed
goingtomyr oom Iki
ckedoffmyheels
Me: “guessmommyi sski
ppinggymt oday”we
l
ookedateachot her“
whenar eyougoi ngto
starttalkingmyl ove?”Sheroll
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ngIj ustshookmyheadandt ookof fmy
dressIwor eagownandpi ckedleloupwewent
tothel oungeLut handogotonj ustaswesat
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handot
otakeher
Luthando:
“heyt
her
emypr
incess”het
ookher
“Sne”
Me:
“jah”Ist
oodup
Nondu:“
theylooksobeaut
if
ul”shewasput
ti
ng
t
herosesinthelounge
Lut
hando:
“youboughtr
oses”
Me:“
gif
t”Iwentt
omyr
oom hewasf
oll
owi
ng
me
Lut
hando:
“fr
om who?
”
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“af
ri
end”
Lut
hando:
“mal
e?”
Me: “noneofy ourbusiness”Iwentt othe
bathroom lockedthedoorandt ookahotbat h
gotoutwentt omyr oom andgotr eady.Got
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belowt hekneeandmar oonankl eheelbootI
di
dmyl ightmakeupl eftmybr aidslosemy
phoner
ang
Me:
“yes”
Sf
undo:
“I’
mint
hef
ront
”
Me:“
givemeami nute”Idr
oppedthecallIt
ook
asmall
erbagt
ransferr
edevery
thi
ngI’
llneedin
i
t
Lut
hando:“
andt
hen?
”HeaskedasIwas
ki
ssi
nglel
o
Me:“I
’l
lbebacksoonIgotdi
nnerpl
ans”Igot
outLut
handocaughtupwhil
eIwaswaiti
ngfor
ali
ft
Lut
hando:
“youcan’
tjustsayy
ouhav
edi
nner
pl
ansandleav
e”
Me:
“Ican’
t?”
Lut
hando:
“whoy
ougoi
ngwi
th?
”
Me:
“af
ri
end”
Luthando:
“theonewhogav
eyour
oses”t
hel
i
ft
openedIgotin
Me:“yes”helookedatmehiseyesblazi
ngwit
h
angerunti
ltheli
ftcl
osed.Sf
undogotoutofhi
s
Audir8
Me:
“wow”
Sf
undo:
“youi
mpr
essed”
Me: “nopeI’m usedtot hesety
peofcar s”he
l
aughedandopenedhi sbi gst
rongarmsIgotin
them andi mmedi at
elyf el
twarm ashehugged
met ightl
yIfoundmy selfmoaningwhichmade
him chuckleIpushedhi m back
Sf
undo:
“al
li
ttakesi
sahug”hesmel
tsogood
Me:
“what
ever
”
Sf
undo:
“youl
ookbeaut
if
ul”
Me: “
thankyou”heopenedthedoorIgotinand
gotachancet owatchhi
m ashewal ked
casuall
ytohissi
deasifheownst heworldhe
gotinandlookedatme
Sfundo:“
Ishoul
dhavet
akeny
ournumbert
he
fi
rstti
meIsawy ou”
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yeahwell
”hedroveof
fwej
ustf
ell
int
o
comf
ortabl
esi
lence.
Sfundo:“sohowiswor
kingf
orKl
ein?
”Il
ooked
upandputmyspoondownwewer ei
nthi
s
fancyrestaur
ant
Me:
“it
’sf
unwer
eal
l
yar
eaf
ami
l
yther
e”
Sf
undo:“
yougoi
ngt
ost
aywi
tht
hem af
tery
our
i
nter
nshi
p?”
Me:
“yeah”henodded“
wher
eisy
ourgi
rl
?”
Sfundo:“
wentbackt
oFr
anceshewasher
ejust
fortheweekend”
Me:
“shei
sbeaut
if
ul”
Sfundo: “
IknowIgotagoodey e”Irol
ledmy
eyes“ y
ougonnahav etostopthatIfi
nditvery
offensi
vedisrespect
ful
”hi
stonechangedagai n
hespokewi thsomuchaut hor
itysomething
darkpassedi nhiseyes
Me:
“sor
ry”Iwhi
sper
edhenoddedandsmi
l
ed
Sf
undo:“
howisl
elo?Shei
ssobeaut
if
ull
ooks
j
ustl
ikey
ou”
Me:
“Sf
undohowdoy
ouknowaboutmychi
l
d?”
Sfundo:“
ItoldyouIknowever
ythi
ngt
hereist
o
knowabouty ou”Ishookmyheadasfear
star
tedcreepingal
lover
Me:
“takemehome”hi
sey
eswi
dened
Sf
undo:
“sor
ryIdi
dn’
tmeant
oscar
eyousor
ry”
Me:“y
ouarescari
ngmeSf
undohowdoy
ou
knowthi
ngsaboutme”
Sf
undo:
“don’
tpani
citnot
hingdeep”
Me:
“iti
sdeep”
Sf
undo:“
Snedon’ttakei
ttooser
iousl
ypl
easeI
j
ustdi
dalit
tl
eresearch”
Me:
“youscar
ingme”
Sfundo:
“sor
rydon’
tmeant
o,I
’
m notwei
rdy
ou
canaskNatasha”
Me:
“soy
ouownt
hehot
el?
”Henodshi
sey
es
i
mmedi
atel
ybr
ight
ensup
Sf
undo:
“itandf
ewot
her
sar
oundt
hecount
ry”
Me:
“you’
vewor
kedhar
d”hef
rowned
Sfundo:“notr eal
lywhenmygr andpapassed
awayhel eftmeal lhi
spr opert
iesaroundSouth
Afri
cahewashugei npropertyhadhot el
sand
resort
sallov erthewor l
dev enmal lsatsome
partshedividedt hem basedoncount r
iesthe
restsareownedbymysi bl
ingsandmycousi ns”
Me: “
wowmusthav
ehadl
otofmoney
”he
chuckled
Sfundo:
“yesbutheworkedhar
dforhi
smoney
unli
keuswegr ewupspoil
t”
Me:
“musthav
ebeenni
ce”
Sfundo:
“Iknowyourmotherwasamaidita
goodthi
ngy ouworknowshecanrest
”Inodded
Me: “
that
’sallIwant
.AssoonasIget
permanentatwor kI
’
llgetmysel
fanapar
tment
thenfi
xthingsathomemay bebuil
dmymom a
pr
operhouse”hesmi
l
edandbr
ushedmyhand
ov
erthetabl
e
Sfundo:
“youwil
l.Iwanttot
akecar
eofyouSne
youdeserveev
erythi
ngtheworl
dcangi
ve”
Me:
“Icant
akecar
eofmy
sel
f”
Sfundo:
“IknowandIl
ovet
hatbutIwantt
o
takecar
eofy ou”
Heparkedt
hecari
nfr
ontoft
hebui
l
dingI
l
ookedathi
m
Me:
“by
e”
Sfundo:“t
hankyoufortoni
ghtIhadfun”hehel
d
mychi nbetweenhi
sindexfi
ngerandthumb
“keepyoureyesonmineIloveyoureyes,
sparkl
inggreenver
yrar
e”
Me:
“oh”
Sf
undo:“goi
ngtoDur baninthemor ningt
hat’
s
whereI’
m basedIwil
l seeyouduringthe
weekend”hebrushedhi sl
i
psonmi neandused
hi
stonguetopartmyl ipswekisseditwas
sweetandsl
owwepul l
edapar
thegav
emea
sof
tpeck“I
’l
lcal
lyou”
Me: “
okay”myvoi
cewashuskyIcl ear
edmy
thr
oathegotoutofthecarcametoopenmy
doorIgotoutwehuggedhekissedmyheadhe
wassot al
lmyheaddidn’
tevenreachhischest
Sfundo:“goon”Ismi
l
edandwal
kedi
nthe
buil
ding.
Igoti
ntheapartmentassoonasIclosedthe
doorIwaswelcomedbyahar dslapi
twasso
hardandunexpect
edthatIf
elldownl
lneedinit
Luthando:
hesmi
l
edandbr
ushedmyhandov
er
thetabl
e
Sf
undo:
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Ist
oodupbal
anci
ngwi
tht
hedoorandl
ooked
athi
m
Me:
“youhi
tme”
Lut
hando:“
AndIwill
doi tagai
n.Wherethefuck
wereyouSne?Whodoy out hi
nkputyourchi
ld
tobed?Yououtsl
eepingwithhal
fthetown”
Me: “
okayLut hando”hel ookedatmesur pr
ised
Imov edasideandwentt omyr oom Il
ockedt he
doorIwasn’tev enangryj ustdisappoi
ntedand
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ned.It ookmyphoneand
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om him and
text
s.Icall
edBul elani
Bul
elani
:“Snegugui
t’
ssol
ate”
Me:
“Ineedmoney
”
Bulel
ani
:“It
houghtt
hei
nter
nshi
pwaspay
ing
you”
Me:
“Ineedmor
e”
Bul
elani
:“f
or?
”
Me:
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tmentandf
urni
tur
e”
Bul
elani
:“y
oudon’
twantt
ost
aywi
thLut
hando
any
mor
e?”
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appedme”
Bul
elani
:“what?
!!”Ist
artedcry
ing“
Snedon’
tcr
y
pl
ease.Iwil
lsorthim outj
ustdon’
tcr
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omov
eout
”
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ani
: “
okaymychi
l
dfindanapar
tmentI
’
ll
payforitt
henI’
l
lgi
veyoumoneytobuy
fur
nit
ure”
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“thanky
ou”
Bul
elani
:“whywoul
dLut
handosl
apy
ou?
”
Me: “becausesomeguyhasbeenshowing
i
nterestinmeandIhaddinnerwi
thhim
Luthandogotangry”
Bul
elani
:“i
sthatboycr
azy
?!”
Me:
“ithur
tssobad”
Bul
elani
:“I
’
m sor
rymychi
l
d”
Me:
“goodni
ghtdad”
Bul
elani
:“goodnight.Iwi
l
lsorty
ourbr
othergo
onl
ineandlookf oranapart
mentnowaplace
cl
osertowor k”
Me:“okaygoodni
ght”Iendedt
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cleaned
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inestar
ted
l
ooki
ngf orapar
tments
.
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acketwentoutt othekitchenf oundhim havi
ng
breakf
ast
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m wentabout
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oppositehi
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back
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ort
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ry”
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ogynot
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ntomeIjust
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ousomuchseeing
youmovingonwi t
hsomedoucheiski
l
li
ngme”
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wellt
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iedt omeabouti tnowIam mov i
ngonso
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ookingfor
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mentinNort
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f”
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hando:
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bet
hat
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ort
hebest
”
Me:
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s”
Luthando:
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l
lyoubeabl
etoaf
for
d
renti
ng”
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lpayifever
ythi
nggoesaccordi
ng
t
omypl anevery
thingwil
lbeset
tl
edbyt he
weekend”
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hando:
“Iwi
l
lseemydaught
erwhenev
erI
wantt
o”
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ongasy
oust
ayoutofmyl
i
fe”
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“Iam sti
l
lyourbr
otherandl
elo’
s
fat
herIwil
lalwaysbeinyourl
if
elooki
ngoutf
or
you”
Me:“
youmeanhitt
ingme?Lut
handoy
ouhi
tme
youl
aidy
ourhandonme”
Luthando:“
baby”heheldmyhand“Iam so
sorrybabyyouknowthat’
snotmeI’
v enev
erhi
t
awomanbef or
eneverever
”Iremovedmyhand
fr
om his
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“doesn’
tmat
terbecausey
oudi
dhi
tme”
Lut
hando:
“doy
oul
ovehi
m?”
Me:“Idon’
tknowhi
mt hatwel
lbutheint
erests
me”het i
ght
enedhi
slipsandnoddedIstoodup
wenttori
nsemybowl Ihadaglassofwater
andtookmybags“bye”
Lut
hando:
“by
e”Il
eft
Sf
undocal
l
edwhi
l
eIwasdr
ivi
ngt
owor
k
Me:
“goodmor
ningMrmkhi
ze”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“maCel
e”
Me:“i
tli
keubi
zat
hosebl
ackgr
annyshoes”we
l
aughed
Sf
undo:
“youwel
l
?”
Me:
“yesandy
ou”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m goodmunt
uwam sl
eptwel
ltoo”
Me:
“that
’sgood”
Sf
undo:
“dr
ivi
ngt
owor
kal
ready
?”
Me:
“yeah,
whatabouty
ou?
”
Sf
undo:
“justwokeup”
Me:
“mustbeni
ce”
Sf
undo:
“ifonl
yyouwer
enextt
ome”
Me:
“I’
m sur
eAdi
l
ici
awoul
dlov
ethat
”
Sf
undo:“
don’
tseemy sel
fshar
ingmybedwi
th
mycousi
nmymot herwouldki
llme”
Me:
“mmh”
Sf
undo:
“Iknowy
ouhappy
”
Me:
“mxm”hel
aughed
Sfundo:“
IwishIdidn’
thav
etogoIwoul
dhav
e
takenyoutolunchbutdut
ycal
l
s”
Me:
“Iwi
l
lseey
oumay
beSunday
”
Sf
undo:
“andwhynotSat
urday
?”
Me:
“wecel
ebr
ati
ngl
elo’
sbi
rt
hday
”
Sfundo:“
andI’
m notinv
ited?Youwoundme
Snegugu.Youknowmymot her’
snameisSne
butshe’
sSnenhlanhl
a”
Me:
“wow”
Sf
undo:
“shei
sgoi
ngt
olov
eyou”
Me:
“al
readyt
hinki
ngabouti
ntr
oduci
ngmet
o
t
hepar
entssospicy”
Sfundo:
“Ihav
etof
ucky
ouf
ir
standseei
fwe
fi
t”
Me:
“wowcoul
dyoubemor
eofanass”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m anhonestasst
hough”
Me:“t
hatisn’
tsomet
hingy
oushoul
dpr
ide
your
sel
fin”
Sf
undo:
“Iam v
erypr
oudofmyhonest
y”
Me:
“wow!
”
Sf
undo:
“Iknow”
Me:
“whatdoy
ouknow”
Sf
undo:
“It
otal
l
ychar
myou”Il
aughed
Me:
“no”
Sf
undo:
“don’
tli
e”
Me:
“whywoul
dI?
”
Sf
undo:
“mxm”
Me:
“by
eSf
undo”
Sf
undo:
“lat
ermunt
uwam”heendedt
hecal
l
IwasatNort
hcl
i
ffwi
tht
heagentl
ooki
ngatt
he
apar
tment
Me:“i
t’
sbeaut iful”i
thadtwobedroomswi th
twobathrooms, openareaki
tchenanddini
ng
room,bigloungewi t
haslidi
ngdoorthatopens
uptothebal conywi thanamazingvi
ew
Agent:“
anditsafeyousaidsecur
it
yisapri
orit
y,
thegatetotheundergr
oundparki
ngisremotel
y
contr
oll
edwi t
ha24/ 7secur
it
yguardyousaw
theguardatthel
obby ”
Me:
“Il
ovei
t”hesmi
l
ed
Agent
:“gr
eat
”
Me: “
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mtakingit
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chair
sint
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ookoutpaper
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ledBul
elani
Igothomef oundLuthandoplay
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andcr awl
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li
ng
Me: “mylove”Idroppedmybagpi ckedherup
threwherintheairshelaughedloudl
yasI
caughther“mommymi ssedyousomuch”I
kissedheralloverherf
ace
Lut
hando:
“hey
.Howwaswor
k?Youl
ate”
Me:“
didn’
tknowIhadt
obehomeatacer
tai
n
t
ime”
Lut
hando:“
I’
m nott
ryi
ngtofightwi
thy
ou”
Nondutr
iedtaki
ngl
eloIshookmyhead
Nondu:“
justthoughty
oumi
ghtwantt
otal
k
wi
thoutherintheroom”
Me:“noi
tfi
nethi
sconver
sat
ionisov
er”Isat
downIwatchedl
elopl
ayi
ngwit
hmyf aceand
hai
r
Lut
hando:
“SneI
’
m sor
ry”
Me:
“I’
m notmad”
Luthando:“It
oldNondutonotcookt
houghtwe
couldallgooutfordi
nner
”
Me:“
waswonderi
ngwhymyl oveisal
ldr
essed
upl
ooki
ngsopret
ty”hesatnextt
ous
Luthando:
“shelooksjustl
ikehermommy ”l
elo
crawledovertohi
m hekissedhernoseshe
gi
ggledholdinghi
sface
Me:
“wel
eav
ingnow?
”
Lut
hando:
“wewer
ejustwai
ti
ngf
ory
ou”
Me: “
Ifoundanapart
mentsi
gnedthelease
Bulel
anitr
ansf
err
edthemoneyIgotthekeys
wit
hmegonnast artl
ooki
ngforf
urni
ture
tomorrow”
Lut
hando:
“okay
.Isi
tsaf
e?”
Me:“
yeahIabsolut
elyl
ovei
tlotofspacef
or
l
elot
omov earound”
Lut
hando:
“am Iget
ti
ngakey
?”Il
ookedathi
m
andshookmyheadsmili
ng“
ouchbabe!
”He
hel
dhischestwel
aughed
Me:
“youcanv
isi
tthough”
Luthando:“
mygi rl
swi l
lbether
eofcour
seI
’l
l
visi
tyouifyourboyfr
iendhasaprobl
em wi
th
thathewill
justdeal”
Me:
“hi
snotmyboy
fri
endy
et”
Lut
hando:
“buty
ouwanthi
mtobe”
Me:
“If
indhi
mint
erest
inghi
sdi
ff
erent
”
Lut
hando:
“mxm”
Me:
“let
’sgo”Ist
oodup“
Nondul
et’
sgo!
”
.
Lut
handowokemeupwit
hbreakfasti
nbedon
Thur
sdaywebot
hatei
nsil
encethencuddl
ed
Me:
“wegoi
ngt
obel
atef
orwor
k”
Lut
hando:“
Iam of
fgonnaspendt
hedaywi
th
mypri
ncesswegoingout
”
Me:
“nowI
’
mjeal
ous”
Lut
hando:
“cal
li
nsi
ck”
Me:
“youknowIcan’
t”
Luthando:“
thi
stimelastyearyouwereint
ear
s
andswear i
ngmewi t
hal l
kindsofi
nsult
s”I
giggl
edhepulledmecloserandkissedmyhead
“can’
tbeli
eveourbabyisone”
Me:“wedi
dgoodwi
thhershei
ssuchahappy
chi
l
d”
Luthando:
“she’st
heonlyt
hingt
hatmakes
senseinmyliferi
ghtnow”
Me:
“ev
ery
thi
ngokay
?”
Luthando:“mom keepscall
i
ngmecr yi
ngshe
anddadar ealwaysfi
ghti
ngandNamhl ai
s
bit
chingaboutyouasifthat’
snotbadenough
youseeingthisi
diott
hatIknownothi
ngabout
youwon’ tevent
ellmehisname”
Me:“sor
ryyoustr
essedouty
oucantel
lNamhla
sheshoul
dn’twor
ryaboutmeI’
myoursi
ster
”
Lut
hando:
“Ihav
en’
ttol
dhert
hat
”
Me: “
oh”Igotoffthebed“
maybeyoushould
tel
lher”heshruggedhi
sshoul
der
s“I
’m gonna
getreadyforwork”
Luthando:
“Il
ovey
ouSneandt
hanky
ouf
or
l
elo”
Me:
“Il
ovey
out
oo”
Shesmil
edbright
lyasIsatdownhersecur
it
y
guygoti
njustasIwasgreeti
ng
Nat
asha:
“thanky
ouSet
h”heputdownt
hef
ood
Seth:
“I’
l
lbeout
sideMrsWither
spoon”Nat
asha
noddedandhewalkedout
Natasha:“y
ouj
usti
nti
mel
et’
seatIam
st
arving”
Me:
“yougood?
”West
art
edeat
ing
Nat
asha:
“notr
eal
l
y”
Me;
“wannat
alkabouti
t”
Nat
asha:
“mymot
heri
nlawshowedupatmy
housel
astni
ghtmi
ndy
ouwedon’
tfuckwi
th
her”
Me:
“soshe’
saty
ourhouser
ightnow?
”
Nat
asha:“
noKlei
nwoul
ddi
eifshegot
any
whereneart
heki
ds”
Me:
“isi
tthatbad?
”
Nat
asha:
“wi
llt
ell
youal
labouti
tsomeot
her
day
.Nowtel
lmeaboutSfundo!
”
Me:
“hei
ssohot
”wegi
ggl
ed
Nat
asha:
“soy
ougonnagoonaseconddat
e”
Me:“y
epwetal
kalmostev
eryhouri
fhei
snot
t
ext
ingmeheiscal
li
ng”
Nat
asha:
“hei
sgoi
ngt
otr
eaty
ougood”
Me: “
Idon’twannarusht
hingsorhav
ehigh
expectat
ionsI’
mjustgoi
ngwiththef
low”
Nat
asha:
“that
’sal
lyoucando”
Me:
“yep”
Nat
asha:
“readyt
omov
e?”
Me:“soexci
ted!Thefurni
tur
eisal
readythere
ever
ythi
ngissetandwemov i
ngintomor r
ow
si
nceIgothalfday.Iknowdadispayi
ngf ori
t
buti
t’
smyapar tmentyouknowitexcit
ing”
Natasha:
“Idi
dn’
tgettospendmucht
imeinmy
pl
acewhenIgotinKlei
nmov edmefr
om ther
e
andgotanapart
mentforthebot
hofus”
Me:“aft
erst
ayi
ngwi
thLut
handoIdon’
tsee
myselfmovi
nginwi
thamanunlessi
tmy
husband”
Nat
asha:“
Isti
l
lcan’
tbel
iev
eheslappedy
ouI
woul
ddieifKl
einl
aidhi
shandsonme”
Me: “
knowI ’
vealwaysbeenthatgir
lwhodidn’t
underst
andwhyawomanwoul dstaywith
someonewhohi tt
hem Ial
way ssai
dIwoul d
fi
ghtbackbutwhenhesl appedmei twaslike
mymi ndjustlef
tmybodyIwast ooshockedto
react
”
Natasha:
“I’
m sorrylov
e”shegotupf rom her
seatwehuggedt henpulledapartandlaughed
wipi
ngourtears“justt
hinkingaboutthist
akes
mebackt oaplaceIdon’ twanttogot o”
.
Wemetupwi thev er
yoneatcarnivalci
ty
Natashahadbr oughtKj andAri
awewer ea
l
argegr oupLuthando’ sfri
endscamewi ththei
r
ki
dsandbabymamasmydaught erwouldn’
t
stoplaughing.Iwaswat chi
ngLuthandohewas
ontheponycar ryi
nglelowhenIf el
tsomeone
pi
ckmeupf rom behindIsquealedheputme
down
Me:“youlat
e!!
”Wehuggedti
ghtl
yhegavemea
babykissNatashacl
ear
edhert
hroatwepul
l
ed
apar
t
Sbu:
“ohmyGod”
Nat
asha:
“Si
pho?
”
Sbu:
“Nat
ty”Ikeptl
ooki
ngbet
weent
hem as
theyst
aredateachot
herNat
asha’
sey
esfi
l
led
upwithtear
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Sbuopenedhi
sarmsNatashawalkedt
ohim as
soonashewrappedhi
sarmsaroundhershe
brokedown
Sbu:“i
t’
sokayNatt
ydon’tcry
.Ar eyourki
ds
around?Youshoul
dn’
tcryinfrontofthem”her
securi
tyguar
dwasstandinginfrontofusina
second
Him:“
MrsWither
spoonpeopl
ewil
lst
artt
aki
ng
pi
ctur
es”Nat
ashamovedbackfr
om Sbu
noddi
ng
Nat
asha:
“itokayRy
an”
Ryan:
“I’
m sorr
yma’am butMrWi
ther
spooni
s
ownhisway ”Nat
ashahuffed
Natasha:“
itokay”Ry
annoddedandbacked
awayal i
tt
le“si
pho”Sbusmil
ed
Sbu:
“youl
ooksobeaut
if
ulandgr
ownNat
ty”
Natasha:
“Iam gr
own,
whatar
eyoudoi
ng
her
e? ”
Sbu:
“itmyGoddaughter
’sf
ir
stbi
rt
hday
woul
dn’tmi
ssitf
ortheworl
d”
Nat
asha:
“howdoy
out
woknoweachot
her
”
Me:
“Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
out
hat
”
Sbu:
“she’
smyexf
rom backathome”
Lut
hando:“
Sne!
!”Il
ookedt
owher
eLut
hando
wascall
i
ngme
Me:“I
’l
lbeback”Iwal
kedt
oLut
handol
eftt
hem
t
alki
ng
Lut
hando:
“wemi
ssy
ou”Il
aughedt
aki
ngl
elo
Me:
“youcr
azy
”
Lut
hando:
“It
hinkshei
shungr
y”
Me:“weal
lshoul
dhav
elunchnowanywayso
wecanheadhometheweatherwi
l
lchange
soon”
Luthando:“
okayI’
ll
letevery
onenowthenwe
wil
l meetupattherest
aurantIhav
easect
ion
bookedoff”
Me:
“thankyoufort
hisl
elohasbeenl
aughi
ng
t
hewholeday”
Lut
hando:“shei
smydaughtert
her
e’snot
hingI
wouldn’
tdotokeephersmi
l
ing”
Me:
“wel
ovey
ouandwet
otal
l
yappr
eci
atey
ou”
Lut
hando:
“asIdoy
ou”hehuggedus
Weallst
artedeat
ingasourfoodwasdeli
ver
ed
l
elowassleepi
ngonLuthando’sl
apaf
tereat
ing
andhavi
nghernappychanged
Me:
“Ican’
tbel
i
evey
out
woknoweachot
her
”
Sbu:“noitmewhocan’
tbel
i
evey
out
woar
e
fr
iends”
Natasha:
“soy ouusey
oursecondnamenow”
Sbuchuckled
Sbu:“
Ithoughti
twascool
er.Yourki
dsar
e
ador
ablebutwherei
stheol
derone”
Natasha:
“someti
messhethinksshe’
stoocool
tohangwithherl
i
ttl
ebr
otherandsist
ertodayi
s
oneofthoseti
mes”
Me:
“I’
m gl
ady
oubot
hnotbi
tt
er”t
heyl
aughed
Sbu:“
therei
snopoi
ntaslongassheishappy
I
’m al
lgoodandf
rom whatI’
veseenshei
s
happynow”
Nat
asha:
“howdoy
ouev
enknow?
”
Sbu:“youf
amousNatt
yhaveyouf
orgot
ten”
Natashafr
ownedandnodded
Nat
asha:
“that
’sapar
tofmyl
i
feIhat
e”
Kj:
“daddy
!!
”Weal
ll
ookedatKl
einashewal
ked
tous
Kl
ein:
“babey
ouokay
”heki
ssedher
Nat
asha:
“I’
m okayy
oudi
dn’
thav
etocome”
Kl
ein:
“wasal
readyonmyway
”
Kj
:“daddyt
akeme”het
ookhi
mfr
om Nat
asha
Kl
ein:
“canwel
eav
e?”Nat
ashal
ookedatme
Me:
“wewer
eal
lgoi
ngt
oleav
eaf
terl
unch”
Nat
asha:
“Iwi
l
lcal
lyou”
Me:
“okay
”wehugged
Natasha:“
tel
lsiphoIsaidbyeandI’
llt
alktohi
m
whenIcallyou”shewhisperedwepulledapar
t
“
byeev er
yoneandt hankyouLuthando”
Luthando:“thanky
ouforcomi ngandthegi f
ts”
shenoddedandhel dAria’shandt heyleft
.Sbu
andIj oi
nedinontheconv ersati
onthat
everyonewashav i
ng.Afterlunchwehadt o
wakeupl eloascakewasbei ngbroughtoutwe
al
lsangf orhermydaught erkeptclappingher
handswi thahugesmileonherf aceIhelped
herblowouthercandles.
Lut
hando:
“areyousur
eyoudon’twantt
ocome
wit
hme?I’m goi
ngtohavedr
inkswit
hmyboys
youcancr
ashatmyplace”
Sbu:“
nahI’
m goodbr
uI’
mleav
ingtomor
rowI
needtospendt
imewit
hmygir
ls”
Lut
hando:
“mygi
rl
s”t
heyl
aughed
Sbu:“
speakingaboutt
hegi
rl
slet’
stal
kabout
youl
ayingyourhandonmylit
tl
esist
er”
Lut
handofrownedandnodded
Lut
hando:
“tel
ll
eloIl
oveherwhenshei
sup”
Me:“okaybye”hewal
kedoutwi
thSbuIthr
ew
myselfonthecouchf
eel
ingal
it
tl
eti
red
Nondu:
“I’
m gonnagot
obedi
tbeenal
ongday
”
Me:
“okaygoodni
ght
”
Nondu:“
goodnight
”Iwenttot
heki
tchencut
mysel
fsomecakedi shedupi
cecr
eam went
backtot
heloungemyphonerang
Me:
“heyy
ou”
Sf
undo:
“Imi
ssy
ousobad”
Me:
“wegotpl
ansf
orl
atel
uncht
omor
row”
Sf
undo:
“don’
tthi
nkIcanwai
tfort
hatl
ong”
Me:
“Sf
undo”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m downst
air
scome”
Me:
“Sf
undo!
!”
Sfundo:
“br
ingy
oursexybeaut
if
ulassher
e
now”
Me: “I’
m comi ng”Idr oppedthecallrant omy
bathroom f reshenupIchangedmyt -shirti
ntoa
cleanniceronequi cklyputonmypowderand
l
ipglossbr ushedmyey ebrowsIlaughedatt he
thoughtt hathadt hisbeenbackinv ar sit
yI
woul dn’
thav ebother edwithal
lthis.It ookmy
phoneandwal kedoutf oundSbuandLut hando
stil
ltal
king
Sbu:
“andt
hen?Youl
ookdi
ff
erent
”
Me:
“I’
l
lbebacki
naf
ew”
Lut
hando:
“yourboy
fri
endi
sher
e?”
Me:
“hei
snotmyboy
fri
end”
Sbu:
“mmh”Ir ol
ledmyeyesandwal
kedtothe
l
if
tLuthandogotinasi
twasaboutt
oclose
Lut
hando:
“youl
ookbeaut
if
ul”
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Lut
hando:
“youchangedf
orhi
m”
Me:
“myt
-shi
rtwasdi
rt
y”
Lut
hando:
“don’
tli
eyouev
endi
dyourmakeup”
Me:
“Lut
handodon’
t”
Luthando: “
I’
mj ustsaying”wegotof fi
nthe
l
obbyandwal kedoutt hebui l
dingf
oundSfundo
standingoutofhi scarhel ookedsogorgeous
i
nj ustjeanst-
shirtandsneaker shewasleani
ng
onhi scar
Luthando:
“becaref
ulhelooksli
ketroubl
e”he
wenthiswaywhileIwalkedtoSfundohe
cuppedmyf aceandkissedmeassoonasIgot
tohi
m Lut
handodr
oveof
finaspeedIpul
l
ed
back
Me:
“hi
”hesmi
l
ed
Sfundo:“
hey ”heki ssedmeagainhishands
wentdownhegr abbedmyassIst oodonmy
toesandletoutamoanIcoul df
eelmyself
getti
ngwetwi t
hev erypassi
ngsecondandhis
erect
ionpressingonmyst omachwasn’t
helpi
ngatall Ipull
edbackwhenIf el
thi
sone
handgoingundermyt -
shirt
Me:
“wei
npubl
i
c”
Sfundo:“
andIwouldnev
erl
etsomeoneseey
ou
l
ikethatsor
elax”
Me:
“li
kehow”
Sfundo:“wheny ouext
remelyhornyorwhenyou
havinganor gasm t
hat
’sformetoseeonly”hi
s
eyeswer eredandhiswordsheldsomuch
mor ethanwhathewasj ustsayi
ng
Me:
“okay
”Iwhi
sper
ed
Sf
undo:
“let
’sgof
oradr
ive”
Me: “
Ican’
tmybrot
heri
shomewehav
en’
t
spentti
metoget
heri
nmonths”
Sf
undo:
“di
dn’
tknowy
ouhav
eabr
other
”
Me: “yourr
esearchdidn’
tgi
vey outhat?”He
smiledshakinghisheadIfoundmy selfsi
ghi
ng
bl
issfull
yhissmilewasjustevery
thing
Sf
undo:
“justt
haty
ouanonl
ychi
l
d”
Me:“heisnotmybr ot
herint
hatsensebuthe
putmeunderhiswingf r
om t
hefir
stti
mehe
sawmei nvarsi
tyandhehasbeenmybr other
si
ncethen”
Sf
undo:“
okay
.ButIal
sowantt
ospendt
ime
wi
thyou”
Me:“
youwillt
omorrowandheisleavi
ngaf
terI
dr
ophim of
fattheair
por
tIam yours”
Sf
undo:
“yougoi
ngt
osl
eepov
er?
”
Me:
“isn’
titear
lyf
ort
hat
”
Sfundo:“sleepi
ngov erdoesn’
tmeanwegoi ng
tohav esex”hechuckl ed“whoam Ikiddi
ngwe
aregoingtohav esexbutthatdoesn’
tmeanI’
ll
thinkanylessofy ou.Wecanhav esexmonths
from noworwecangot omypl aceandhaveit
ri
ghtnowi twi l
lnotchangethewayIf eel
about
youorhowIt hinkofyou”
Me: “IseebutIwon’
tbesl
eepi
ngov eratyour
placeanyt i
mesoonwejustmovedinhereI
can’tleav
emydaughterandhernannyalone”
Sf
undo:“
okayIunder
stand.Howwasl
elo’
s
bi
rt
hday
?”
Me:
“ti
ri
ngbutshehadf
un”
Sfundo:“Iwannaaskwhenam Imeet
ingher
butIalsodon’twantt
opush”
Me:“
goodbecausewe’
veonl
yknowneach
ot
herforaweek”
Sf
undo:
“I’
veknowny
ouf
orf
ivey
ear
s”Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
“youknowwhatImean”Iwr
appedmy
handsar
oundhiswai
stsnuggl
i
ngcl
oser“
you
feel
sogood”heki
ssedmyhead
Sf
undo:“
imagi
nehowgoodIwoul
dfeel
ifwe
werel
ayi
ngonabed”
Me:
“soon”
Sf
undo:
“mmh”
Me:
“howof
tendoy
out
rai
n?”
Sfundo:“
everyweekday,mybr
otherandIgota
personal
trai
neri
nDur ban”
Me:
“thoughty
ourf
ami
l
yisov
erseas”
Sfundo:
“myl
i
ttl
esi
sterandherf
ami
l
yst
ayi
n
Durban”
Me:
“sohei
syourbr
otheri
nlaw”
Sfundo:“yeahbuthewasmybr otherbefor
ehe
becamemybr ot
herinl aw.Ourfat
hersarebest
fri
endaswel lasourmot herssoweal l
grewup
togetherwellIwast heoldestbutyeahweal l
grewupasaf ami l
yt henthosetwofelli
nlove
bami
thi
sanaandl
atergotmar
ri
ed”
Me:
“woah”
Sf
undo:
“al
mostbr
okeourf
ami
l
y”
Me:
“thatbad?
”
Sfundo:“
yeaht heyranawaybecauset heywere
scaredmindy oumyf atherandIcanf
ind
anyoneinanypar toft heworldandmysist
eris
alsoli
kethatsomehowt heymanagedtohide
eventakeoutt hei
rtrackers”
Me:
“tr
acker
s?”
Sfundo:
“ourpar
ent
shadt
racker
sinst
all
edi
n
ourbodi
es”
Me:
“what
?!That
’sext
reme”
Sfundo:
“ital
ongstoryI
’l
ltel
lyouonedaywhen
youhavetogetoneinst
all
ed”
Me:
“soy
ourpar
ent
sknowy
ourwher
eabout
sal
l
t
heti
me”
Sf
undo:
“nahIt
ooki
toutIcant
akecar
eof
my
sel
f”
Me:
“yourf
ami
l
ysoundshect
ic”
Sf
undo:
“itnot
”
Me:
“Ishoul
dgoupSf
undo”
Sf
undo:
“butIl
ovehav
ingy
oui
nmyar
ms”
Me:
“Ihav
etogo”
Sf
undo:“
lookupatme”Imov edmyf aceand
l
ookedathim hesmiled“
sobeaut
if
ul”he
l
eaneddownweki ssed
.
Timef l
ewbymyi nternshi
pwasdoneIwas
off
eredaj obwhi chIt ooktheygavemet wo
weeksof fbeforeIst artper
manent l
y.SoIdrove
homewi thmychi ldandNonduwewer egoing
tospendt hosetwoweekswi thmom Ihad
missedhert err
ibly.Wear ri
vedthereatnightI
wasshockedwhenIsawdad’ scarparkedin
theyardIhadn’ttol dmom I ’
m comingwant ed
tosurpri
seher .
Me: “
mmh”wegotof fthecarIcarri
edlel
oshe
wasasleepIknockedandgotinIheardgr oans
andmoansIwal kedcl
osertothesoundsunt il
I
wasoutsidemom’ sr
oom thedoorwasn’t
cl
osed“thehel
l?!
”Dadjumpedof fherIactuall
y
stoodfr
ozenforagoodsecondbef oreIran
outsi
de
Nondu:
“yi
n?”
Me:
“mom anddadar
ehav
ingsex”
Nondu:
“yoh”
Mom:“Sne”shecameoutinagownlooki
ng
downhercheeksal
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Mom:
“Sne”
Me:
“pl
easet
ell
himt
ogetdr
essedandl
eav
e”
Mom:
“wewer
egoi
ngt
otel
lyouSne”
Me:“t
ell
mewhatmama? !Heisamarr
iedman
youcan’
tkeepdoi
ngt
hiswit
hhimyoujust
can’
t”
Mom:
“Il
ovehi
m”
Me:
“mamano”
Dad: “
canweallgeti
nthehouseandt
alkabout
thisbefor
ethenei
ghborsheary
outwo
bicker
ing”
Me:
“youneedt
oleav
e”
Dad:“
snegugugeti
nthi
shouset
hisi
nst
ant
”we
al
lgoti
n“Nonduexcuseus”
Nondu:“
I’
ll
bri
ngi
nthel
uggagewhi
chr
oom
shoul
dIuse?”
Me:“
thelastdoor
”ourhousewasfourr
oom
t
wobedr ooms,ki
tchenandl
ounge,
thet
oil
et
wasoutsideal
ongwi t
hahut
Dad:“y
ourmot
herandI
,wewer
egoi
ngt
otal
k
t
oy ou”
Me:“
abouthowyoufucki
ngherbehi
ndy
our
wi
fe’
sbackagai
n!”
Dad:“
youwatchhowyoutal
ktousSnegugu
youar
enevertoool
dforabeat
ing”
Me:
“mxm”
Dad:
“Sne!Yourmot
herandIwel
oveeach
ot
her”
Me:“
andwhendidy
oureal
iset
hat
?Whenshe
wascl
eani
ngaf
tery
ourwif
e”
Mom:“
Snepl
easedon’
ttal
ktoy
ourf
atherl
i
ke
t
hat
”
Me:
“mxm I
’
m goi
ngt
obed”Ist
oodup
Dad:“Iam di
vor
cingSt
hembil
eIal
readymoved
outofthehouseIwanttomarr
yyourmotherI
l
oveher ”
Me:“goodni
ght
”Iwassodi
sappoi
ntedi
nmom.
Iwenttomyroom f
oundNonduonthebed
Nondu:
“isev
ery
thi
ngal
ri
ght
?”
Me:
“yesI
’
mti
redl
et’
ssl
eep”
Nondu:“
okay”wegoti
nourpy
jamasandgoti
n
bedwit
hlel
obetweenus.
.
I
nthemorni
ngIwaswokenupbymyphone
r
ingi
ngi
wasi nbedal
one
Me:
“babe”
Sf
undo:
“youst
il
lasl
eep?
”
Me:
“yeah”
Sf
undo:
“youdi
dn’
tcal
lwheny
ouar
ri
ved”
Me:“sor
ryIgotsi
det
rackedbywhatIf
ound
whenIgothere”
Sfundo:
“whathappened?”Theconcer
ninhi
s
voicemademef eelal
lfuzz
y
Me:
“st
oryofanot
herday
”
Sfundo:
“okaywel
lImi
ssyouj
ustwantedto
checkonyou.Whenar
eyoucominghere?
”
Me:“Iwi
ll
seej ustnott
odayIam t
ir
edcan’
t
dr
ivetoDurban”
Sf
undo:
“youknowIcanpi
cky
ouup”
Me:
“noi
tokaymay
beIwi
l
lcomet
omor
row”
Sf
undo:“okaymunt
uwam gobackt
osl
eepwe
wi
llt
alkwhenyouup”
Me:“okay
”heendedthecall
Isighedbef
ore
gett
ingof
fthebedIwentoutfoundever
yonei
n
thel
oungebesi
desdad
Mom:
“youup?
”
Me:“
yes”Il
ookedatl
eloshewasl
ooki
ngatme
whi
l
esuckingherbot
tl
e
Mom:
“Iputy
ourbr
eakf
astont
het
abl
e”
Me:
“wher
eisdad?
”
Mom:
“gonet
owor
k”
Me:
“hest
aysher
enow”
Mom:“nohei
sstayi
ngi
nahot
elhecomesher
e
ev
erynowandthen”
Me: “
putastopt
othi
smadness”Iwentt
othe
kit
chenputmyfoodi
nthemicr
owaveshegotin
thekit
chen
Mom: “
itbr
oken”Isighed“Iunderstandy ou
confusedmay beevenangr ybutIlovey our
fat
herandhel ovesmewewantt obet ogether
nowi tuptoyouwhet heryouacceptt hatornot
butwenotst oppingandknowi ngyouhappyf or
mewoul dr
eall
ymaket hingsbetter”Igroaned
Me:
“youl
ovehi
m”
Mom: “
yeshemakesmehappySneal
way
s
has”
Me:
“ i
fyousaysothenIwil
ltr
ytogetusedt
o
t
heideaofyoutwotoget
her”
Mom:
“thanky
ou”
Me:“
getr
eadywecangotot
hemal
lgetsome
gr
ocer
yandamicr
owave”
Mom:“y
ourf
atheri
slooki
ngforahousef
orus
hewant
sustomoveintoget
hersi
nce
sthembi
l
ewi
l
lbekeepi
ngt
hehouseheneedsa
newone”
Me:
“ar
eyousur
ehei
sdi
vor
cingher
”
Mom:
“theyal
readysi
gnedt
hepaper
s”Inodded
Me:
“doest
heki
dsknow?
”
Mom:
“tel
l
ingt
hem t
oday
”
Me:
“Lut
handoi
sgoi
ngt
obepi
ssedof
f”
Mom:
“hewi
l
lgetov
eri
t”
Me:“
hay ikwazekwanzima”Ifi
nishedeat
ing.
Weallgotreadyandleftf
orthemal l
wedidthe
gr
ocer
yt henwentforlunch.
Iwasl ayi
ngonthecouchwat
chi
ngtvbor
edsoI
decidedtocal
lZiy
andamybit
chhadfi
nal
ly
graduated
Zi
yanda:
“boo”
Me:
“mi
ssme?
”Shegi
ggl
ed
Zi
yanda:
“yes.Howi
shome?
”
Me:
“al
i
ttl
ebor
ing”
Zi
yanda:“
youshoul
dcomeseemesl eepov
erin
myflat
”Marcel
wasrent
ingheraf
latinmorni
ng
si
de
Me:“I
’l
lbei
nDur
bant
omor
rowf
oradayort
wo
I
’l
lseeyou”
Ziy
anda:“
cool
Igetbor
edoutofmymi
ndher
e
someti
mes”
Me:
“sor
ry”
Zi
yanda:
“IsawSbut
heot
herday
”
Me:“hav
en’
tseenhi
m si
ncehecamet
olel
o’s
bi
rt
hday”
Zi
yanda:
“Isawhi
m hel
ookedr
eal
l
ygood”
Me:
“leav
emybr
otheral
one”shel
aughed
Zi
yanda:
“Idon’
twanthi
m IgotMar
cel
rel
ax”
Me:
“youandMar
cel
good”
Ziyanda:“
yeahwegoodj
ustnotspendi
ngt
ime
togetherl
atel
y”
Me:
“why
?”
Ziy
anda:
“Idon’
tknowbooallhedoesl
atel
yjust
thr
owmoneyatmeandi tnotni
ce”
Me:
“sor
rybabe”
Zi
yanda:
“wai
thi
scal
l
ingI
’
llcal
lyoul
atery
ou”
Me:“
okaybye”Idr
oppedt
hecal
landcal
l
ed
Sf
undoheansweredi
mmediat
ely
Sf
undo:
“munt
uwam”
Me:
“sendmey
ouraddr
ess”
Sf
undo:
“youcomi
ng?
”
Me:
“yeahI
’
lll
eav
enow”
Sf
undo:
“gr
eatI
’
llsmsi
ttoy
ou”
Me:
“okaybaby
”
Sfundo:“
can’
twai
ttoseey
ou”Igiggledand
endedthecal
lIwentt
omom outside
Me:
“cany
ouwat
chl
elo”
Mom:
“ofcour
seI
’
llwat
chl
elobutwher
eyou
goi
ng”
Me:“I
’
m goi
ngt
oDur
banI
’
llbebackt
heday
af
tert
omorr
ow”
Mom:
“okay
”
Me:“
thankyou”Iwentt
opacksomeclothes
andt
oil
etr
iesIki
ssedmyangelandl
eft
.
Icouldn’
tbeli
evemyey esasIdroveupthe
drivewaythehousewasabsol ut
elybeauti
fuli
t
wasdoubl estorymostoft hef
ir
stfloorwas
glasshewaswai t
ingbythedoorinshortsanda
tanktopwi t
hfli
pflopsIparkedandgotof ft
he
carhel i
ft
edmeupspi nni
ngaroundIcouldn’t
stopgiggli
ngloudlyheputmedownandwe
kissed
Sfundo:“
can’
tbel
iev
eyouher
e”heki
ssedme
againhar
dandfast
Me:
“hi
”
Sfundo:“l
et’
sgeti
n”hetookmybagwewenti
n
“I
’
llgoleavethi
supst
air
sinmyroom”her
an
upstai
rswhil
eIl
ookedaroundther
ewasa
pict
ureofareal
l
ybeauti
fulwomanshewas
chubbyandli
ghtski
nnedherlongweav
efal
l
ing
overherbody
Sf
undo:
“that
’smymom”
Me:
“itbeaut
if
ul”
Sf
undo:
“daddr
ewi
t”Inodded
Me:
“yourf
atheri
stal
ent
ed”
Sfundo:“t
alentrunsi
nthefamily,
wel cometo
myhome”hehel dmywai stbr
ingingmecloser
tohim Iwrappedmyar msaroundhi sneckand
stoodonmyt oes
Me:
“hi
”hewassmi
l
ing
Sf
undo:
“Iam hungr
ycookf
orme”
Me:“mamasai
dIshoul
dn’
tcookf
oraman
unl
esshei
smyhusband”
Sf
undo:“butIwi
llbeyourhusbandsoy
oucan
st
artnow”wekissedhelif
tedmeupand
wal
kedt
otheki
tchenputmeonthecount
er
“
watchy
ourmancookforyou”
Me:
“oohy
ouspoi
lme”heshookhi
shead
Sf
undo:
“sar
casm doesn’
tlookgoodony
ou”
Me:“buty
oudospoil
mebabe”hehadj ust
boughtmealoui
svui
ttonl
uggageset
Sf
undo:“
Ihaven’tev
enbegannana”heki
ssed
mycheek“how’sourdaught
er?Shedi
dn’
tcry
whenyoulef
t?”
Me:
“she’
sgoodshewasasl
eepwhenIl
eft
”
Sf
undo:
“whydi
dn’
tyoubr
ingher
”
Me:“
bri
ngmybabyonmyf
ir
stsl
eepov
eratmy
man’
splace”
Sf
undo:“t
hinkIwon’
tbeabl
etof
ucky
ou
pr
operl
y?”
Me:“yesIdon’
twantanydi
str
act
ions”he
l
aughed
Sf
undo:
“her
eIwast
hinki
ngy
ougoi
ngt
obeshy
about
”
Me:“Idi
dnotdri
vefort
wohourst
obeshyand
youbett
erdel
i
ver”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“nopr
essur
e”
Me:
“ohpr
essur
ebabe”
Sfundo:“mmhwenay ouwon’tbeabletowalk
i
nt hemor ni
ngqhubekanje”Ijumpedofft
he
counterandwalkedtothestoveIhuggedhim
fr
om behind
Me:
“youal
way
ssmel
lsogood”
Sf
undo:
“doI
”
Me:
“youknowy
oudo”
Igotoutoft
heclosetwear
ingmypyj
amasI
foundhi
m onthebedbusyonhisl
aptopheput
i
tasideandpul
ledmet ohi
m
Sfundo:
“youdon’
tbr
ingpy
jamaswhengoi
ngt
o
yourman”
Me:
“say
swho”het
ookof
fmyt
op
Sf
undo:“y
ouhavebeaut
if
ulbr
east
s”hel
aidme
onthebedget
ti
ngontopofme
Me:“t
hankyou”Ihel
dmyselfasIwasaboutto
sayLut
handowasobsessedwiththem het
ook
offmyshor
ts
Sfundo: “
onmybedundermenakednev er
thoughtIwoul dseet heday”Il
ookedupathi m
hisey esburningwithdesi
rehekissedme
slidinghistonguei n,hesl
idhisfi
ngert
hrough
myv agi
naIf eltmybodyshiverhetr
ail
edkisses
from myj awl i
nedownmyneckt omychest
unt i
l hegottomybr east
shepul l
edmyni ppl
e
bet weenhi slipsandsuckedhardmakingme
wr it
heunderhi m
Me:“Aah”hekeptt easi
ngmewi t
hhisfinger
s
whil
emov i
ngbet weenmybr east
ssuckingand
pl
ayingwit
ht hem hemov edfr
om mybr east
s
andcarr
iedonwi thhiskissesall
overmybody
goi
ngdownbi t
ingandkissingmesof t
lymaking
mesquirm andmoansof tlywhenhegott omy
f
eethecamebackupandbi
tmyi
nnert
highI
moanedlouder
Sfundo: “Iwanty ousobadmybodyi sshaki ng”
Icriedoutt hemomenthi stonguepr essedon
mycl i
tbef orepulli
ngi tint
ohi smout hhewent
onsucki ngmet orturingmeendl esslyIcried
wr i
thingIt ri
edmov ingupbuthegr abbedmy
hipshol dingmei npl ace”come! ”He
commandedhi slipsv ibrati
ngagai nstmycl itI
feltmyor gasm hi t
tingmehar dmyupperbody
l
ef tthebedhedi dn’tst opuntilmybodyf ell
backont hebed
Me:“ohGod”hecamebackt omyf acewe
ki
ssedhar dhegotoffthebedandstri
ppedfast
Iwatchedhiminamazement“ yourbodyiseven
bett
ernaked”hechuckledIswall
owedsaliv
aas
hestrokedhishugecockitl
ookedsojuicyand
hugestandingfi
rmlyheputonthecondom and
camebackt ot
hebed.Hegotont opofmehi s
bodycov er
ingmymi ne
Sfundo: “yout asteamazing”mycheeksheat ed
upIhel dhi sneckpul l
inghisfacetomi newe
kissedher ubbedhiscockupanddownmy
vagi nahitti
ngmycl itbefor
eheent eredme
slowl yIgaspedt il
ti
ngmyheadbacksi nkingmy
nailsinhi sbackhehi ssedgoingdeeperunt i
l he
i
sbal l
sdeepIf eelmymuscl esstret
ching
accommodat i
nghi m andtighteni
ngaroundhi m
whi chmakesmegr owlandhest art
smov ingi n
slowdel iciouspaces
Sfundo:“
Ilov
ey ounana”Iki
ssedhi
schestmy
bodywassor el
axedandinjoyouspai
nif
ther
e’sevensuchathing
Me:
“Il
ovey
out
oobabe”
Sfundo:
“sl
eep”heki
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Isnuggl
edcl
osert
ohi
m af
terwebot
hcl
i
maxed
f
rom anamazi
ngmor
ningsessi
on
Sf
undo:
“yougotpl
ansf
ort
oday
?”
Me:“y
eahgoi
ngt
omeetupwi
thaf
ri
endf
or
l
unch”
Sf
undo:
“femal
e”
Me:
“yes”
Sf
undo:
“good”
Me:
“hm”
Sfundo:
“I’
m goi
ngtogoformytraini
ngsessi
on
thengosortsomethi
ngsoutatthehotelt
henI
haveameet i
ngaft
erl
unch.Iam taki
ngyouout
fordi
nner”
Me:
“Iwoul
dlov
ethat
”
Sf
undo:“good”Iputmyt
highov
erhi
sandf
elt
hi
serect
ion
Me:“your
eadyt
ogoagai
n?!”Icoul
dn’
thi
demy
shockwhi
chmadehi
m chuckle
Sf
undo:
“yescan’
tgetenoughofy
ou”
Me:“ha.aI
’m sor
eifwekeepgoi
ngli
kethi
syou
goi
ngt oshootri
ghtt
hrought
hecondom”
Sf
undo:
“ar
eyouonanyt
ypeofcont
racept
ive?
”
Me:
“yeahi
nject
ion”
Sfundo:
“goodnowweneedtogotoadoct
or
andhavetest
sdoneIhat
econdoms”
Me:
“okaywecangoseeyourdoct
or”hepul
led
metol
ayonhim“youknowIlovey
our i
ght
?”
Sfundo:“Il
ovey our i
ghtback”weki
ssedj
ustas
hewasr eachingf oracondom myphonerangI
gotoffhim andt ookit
Me:
“Lut
hando”
Luthando:
“soy
ourf
atheri
sdi
vor
cingmymom
foryourmom”
Me:
“Lut
handot
hishasnot
hingt
odowi
thus”
Lut
hando:“af
terev
ery
thi
ngt
heybot
hputmy
mothert
hrough”
Me:
“Iam notgoi
ngt
oinv
olv
emy
sel
finmy
par
ent’
sbusi
nessIsuggesty
oudot
hesame”
hesi
ghed
Lut
hando:“
your
ight
.Ij
usthat
ethatmymot
her
i
shurt
ing”
Me:
“Iam sor
ry”
Lut
hando:
“wher
eismydaught
er?
”
Me:
“shei
sathome”
Lut
hando:“
whatyoumeanshei
sathome?
Whereareyou?
”
Me:
“I’
minDur
banwi
thSf
undo”
Lut
hando:
“nxa”hehungup
Me:
“oookay
”
Sf
undo:
“tr
oubl
e?”
Me:
“noIdon’
twantt
otal
kabouti
t”
Sfundo:
“whywouldLuthandoi
nvol
vehi
msel
fin
yourpar
ent
sbusiness”
Me:
“becauseourf
atheri
sleav
inghi
smom f
or
mymom”hesatupandpul
l
edmeup
Sf
undo:
“I’
m soconf
usedbyt
hat
”Isi
ghed
Me:“Lut
handoandIar
esi
bli
ngswel
lhal
f
br
otherandsi
ster
”
Sf
undo: “
whatthefuck!
!Youfuckedy
ourown
br
otherfuck”Iwentonandtol
dhimthewhol
e
st
ory“Jesusbabe”
Me:“yes”hepull
edmetohim Isatonhi
m
st
raddli
nghim andwr
appedmyar msaround
hi
sneck
Sf
undo:
“thatmusthav
eki
l
ledy
ou”
Me:
“itdi
d”
Sfundo:“
soyoudi
dn’
tbr
eakupwit
hLuthando
becauseyouwer
en’
tinl
ovewi
thhi
m anymore”
Me:
“I’
minl
ovewi
thy
ounow”
Sf
undo:
“hady
ourfathernotbeenhi
syout
wo
woul
dsti
ll
betoget
her”
Me:
“yes”het
ight
enedhi
sli
psangerf
lashi
ngi
n
hi
sey
es“
Ilov
eyou”
Sfundo:“Il
oveyoutoo”wekissed“ I
’
m goingto
runlatenana”Igotoffhi
m hewentt othe
bathroom Igotofft
hebedwor ehistanktopI
wentdownst ai
rsopenedthetvplayi
ngmusi c
andst ar
tedmakingbreakf
ast.
Hehuggedmefrom behindasIwasput
ti
ng
ev
eryt
hingont
hedinningtabl
e
Sf
undo:“Icoul
dgetusedtothi
s.Imi
ghtj
ust
marryy
ouandmakey ouahousewif
e”he
ki
ssedmyneck
Me:
“Icoul
dnev
erbeahousewi
fe”
Sf
undo:“al
lthewomeninmyf
ami
l
ydon’
twor
k
wetakecareofthem”
Me:“si
tandeat”thiswasaconv ersat
ionIdi
dn’
t
wanttohavebecauser egar
dlessofhowmuch
moneyhehasIwoul dneverbeahousewi f
eI
l
ovemyi ndependence
Sf
undo:
“thanky
ounana”het
urnedmear
ound
weki
ssedshor
tl
ythensatdown
Me:
“shoul
dIdi
shupf
ory
ou?
”
Sfundo:“
noIgotit”webothdishedupfor
oursel
vesst
art
ingwi thf
rui
tsaladbef
ore
mov i
ngtohotbreakfast
Me:
“Iwi
l
lneedt
hekey
s”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lleav
easetf
ory
ou”
Me: “
okaythankyou”heputhishandonmy
thi
ghandpushedi tupunti
lhegottomyvagi
na
Iswall
owedt hel
umpi nmyt hr
oatwhenhi
s
fi
ngeropenedupmyl ipsandstar
tedgr
azi
ng
mycl i
t“Sf
undo”helookedatmeandwentback
tohisfood
Sf
undo:
“eat”Ir
emovedhishandhel
ookedat
meandsuckedhisf
inger
s
Me:
“Ican’
twithyout
ouchi
ngmel
i
ket
hat
”he
smi
l
eddevil
ishl
y
Sf
undo:“
I’
m gonnast
op.Cometomyhot el
whenyoudonewithy
ourlunchi
tinmhl
angaI’
l
l
smsy
out
hedi
rect
ions”
Me:“okay
”wef i
nishedeat
ingIwalkhi
m outhe
hel
dmywai stbr
ingingmybodyclosert
ohiswe
ki
ssedshort
ly
Sfundo:
“Iwi
l
lmi
ssyou”het
ookouthi
swal
l
et
andgavemeabl
ackcard
Me:
“whati
sthi
sfor
?”
Sf
undo:
“what
every
ougetupt
o”
Me:
“Sf
undo”
Sfundo:
“Idon’
tknowgoshoppi ng,
getyourhai
r
donewhatever”heki
ssedmyheadandgoti n
hi
scarIwatchedhim driv
ingof
fbefor
egoing
backinthehousetocleanup
Ispott
edZi
yandasi
tt
ingonacor
nert
ableshe
stoodupwhenshesawmegetti
ngcl
oser
Zi
yanda:
“boo”
Me:
“hey
”wehuggedandsatdown
Zi
yanda:
“lookaty
ou”
Me:
“lookatme?
”
Ziy
anda:“
youl
ookf
abul
ousev
enbackt
oyour
normalwei
ght
”
Me:“y
eahbeengoi
ngt
othegy
m”weor
der
ed
ourdr
inks
Zi
yanda:
“whyacockt
ail
?”
Me:“I
’
m meeti
ngupwit
hSfundoaft
erthisy
ou
knowwinemakesmehornyl
astt
hingIwantis
tohav
ehimfuckmeintheof
fi
ce”shegiggl
ed
Zi
yanda:
“soy
ouguy
sar
ehav
ingsexal
ready
”
Me:“si
ncelastni
ghtwe’
vebeentogetherf
or
al
mosttwomont hsnowIactual
l
ythinkwe
st
art
edlate”
Zi
yanda:
“yeahy
oudi
d”
Me:“sowhat
’supwi
thy
ou?Howi
sthej
ob
hunt
?”
Zi
yanda:“
itokayj
ustnotgoinganywher
e”our
dr
inkscameandweor deredfood
Me:“
youwi
l
lgetsomet
hingandi
tnotl
i
key
oui
n
ar
ush”
Ziyanda:
“yeahIam.Imeanwi t
hthewayMar
cel
hasbeenact i
ngIcantel
lhewil
ldumpmesoon
thatmeansIwi l
lgobacktobei
ngbroke”
Me:
“that
’st
heonl
ythi
ngy
ouwor
ri
edabout
?”
Zi
yanda:
“noI’
vefal
l
eni
nlov
ewi
thhi
m Sne”I
br
ushedherback
Me:“maybeyoushoul
dletgoofhi
m bef
orey
ou
f
all
deeper”
Ziy
anda:“Ican’
tSne,dumpinghim means
l
osingeveryt
hing.Doyouthinkhewil
lcont
inue
topaymyr entandgivemeanal l
owance?He
wil
lcutmeof fcompletel
y”
Me:“gobackhomeZiyandayouacti
ngli
keyou
don’
thaveahomelikeyourpar
entswil
lnot
suppor
tyou”shewavedmeof f
Zi
yanda:
“itnott
hesame.Howi
slel
o?”
Me:
“amazi
nggr
owi
ng”
Zi
yanda:
“get
ti
ngmor
ebeaut
if
ul?
”
Me:
“obv
iousl
y”
Ziy
anda:“y
ouworknowbuty
oust
il
lkeepi
ng
yoursi
gnatur
ehai
rst
yle”
Me:“Ij
ustgotpermanentIwasonlygett
ing
pai
dr7000plusIhadmom t otakecareofl
eave
mealone”welaughed“besidesIl
ovemybr ai
ds
butwecangot othesaloonSfundogavemehi s
car
d”shesquealed
Zi
yanda:
“let
’sgot
obhcaf
tert
his”
.
IwasbackinJohannesbur
gNat
ashaandIwer
e
havi
nglunchatSt
arbucks
Nat
asha:
“howi
ssi
pho?
”Ismi
l
ed
Me:“
hei
sgood.Whenl
astdi
dyouspeakt
o
hi
m?”
Nat
asha:“
yester
dayIcall
edhim whi
lewasat
wor
kIdidn’
treal
izeImissedhi
mt hi
smuch”
Me:
“hesay
sthesameabouty
ou”
Nat
asha:“
Iwanthi
mi nmylif
eIj
ustdon’tknow
howtotal
ktoKl
einabouti
thewi
llgocrazy”
Me:“butyouandSbubeent
alki
ngformonths
nowy oushoul
dhavet
oldKl
einthever
yfi
rst
day
”
Natasha:
“IknowSnejustt
hatIknowKl
einhei
s
possessi
vehedoesn’
twantanyguysar
ound
me”
Me: “
heisyourhusbandIdon’ tt
hinkanyone
knowshim bett
erthany ousowor kyourmagic
andtell
him.Idon’tknowhowhei swhenit
comest ohonestybutifheisanythi
ngli
ke
Sfundoyoubettertel
lhim asap”
Nat
asha:
“youandSf
undo”Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
“Il
ovehi
m Ir
eal
l
ydo”
Nat
asha:
“Icant
ell
”
Me:“
hav
en’
tseenhi
minaweekthoughhei
s
gi
vi
ngmeti
met ost
udyf
ormyboardexam”
Nat
asha:
“howi
sthatgoi
ng?
”
Me:
“I’
mtryi
ngheyjusthopeIpassIreal
l
ywant
t
oberegi
ster
edthenyourhusbandcanpayme
mor
e”
Natasha:“notl
i
keyoushortofmoneywitht
hat
cardSfundogaveyou.Justbecaref
ulhe
doesn’tendupsay
ingquityourj
ob”
Me:
“Iwoul
dnev
er!
”
Nat
asha:“
Ihadt
ofight
,mani
pul
ateandgi
ve
Kl
eincr
azysexf
orhimtoagr
eetomeworking”
Me:“Kl
eini
syourhusbandSf
undoi
sjusta
boy
fri
end”
Nat
asha:
“tr
ue”
Me:“lookwhojustenter
ed”shel
ookedatthe
doorwhereSfundoandKl ei
nwerest
andi
ng
l
ookingli
ketheyjustcameoutofaGQ
magazineshot
Nat
asha:
“sohot
”
Me:“sosexy”wegi
ggl
edt
heyl
ookedourway
andcamet ous
Sf
undo:“
munt
uwam”hepul
l
edmeupwe
ki
ssed
Me:
“youdi
dn’
ttel
lmey
ouwi
l
lbet
hissi
de”
Sfundo:“hadameeti
ngwi
thKl
ein”weki
ssed
againthensatdown
Me:
“howdi
dyouknowwewer
eher
e?”
Natasha:“secur
it
y”sher ol
ledherey
esIlooked
atSfundobuthedi dn’
treactli
kehedoeswhenI
rol
lmyey es
Sf
undo:
“hav
eyoueat
en?
”
Me:
“wai
ti
ngf
orouror
der
”hehel
dmychi
n
Sf
undo:
“I’
vemi
ssedy
ou”
Me:
“whenar
eyougoi
ngbackt
oDur
ban?
”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m her
efort
her
estoft
heweek”
Me:
“toni
ght
?”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lpi
cky
ouup”heki
ssedmyf
orehead
.
Yearl
ater
WaswokenupbytinyslapsIi
gnoredherIhad
sl
eptl
atel
astni
ghtprepari
ngfort
hewedding
Lel
o:“
mamam”shepeckedmyl
ipsandopened
myoneey
ewit
hherhands“mamam?”
Me:“
waah!!
”Shescr
eamedfal
l
ingbackonthe
bed“
whyam Iwokenupsoearl
y?”It
ickl
edher
shel
aughedl
oudl
y
Lel
o:“
papa!
!”ThedooropenedLut
handogoti
n
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Lut
hando:
“whatar
eyoudoi
ngt
omydaught
er?
”
Lel
o:“papa”Il
etgoofhershecr
awledonthe
bedfastrunni
ngtoLut
handohepickedherup
“
hungr
ymamam”
Me:
“okayI
’
llmakey
ourbr
eakf
ast
”
Lel
o:“
iceki
ps”Lut
handochuckl
ed
Lut
hando:
“let
’sgomakey
our
icekr
ispi
es”
Lel
o:“
yeah!
!!
!”
Me:
“lov
eyoubot
h”
Lut
hando:
“lov
eyou”
Lel
o:“ovuy
ou”theywal
kedoutIt
ookmyphone
andcall
edmylove
Sf
undo:
“munt
uwam”
Me:
“Sf
undoy
oust
il
lasl
eep”
Sf
undo:
“ti
rednanasl
eptl
ate”
Me: “
thatwhaty
ougetf
orcl
ubbi
ng”he
chuckled
Sf
undo:
“yeahIguess”
Me:
“whatt
imei
sfl
i
ghtt
oDur
ban?
”
Sf
undo:
“lat
eronIt
hinkat15:
00”
Me:“okaywellIjustgotupaswel lgonnahel
p
mom getreadyt henensur ethatthi
ngsmov e
smoothlyher
ef ort helunch”mom anddad
weregetti
ngmar ried.Theywer egoingtothe
cour
tthencomebackhav elunchwithj
ust
famil
yandclosef riends
Sfundo:
”thi
nkImightj
ustcomet
her
etoni
ght
forsomecarsex
”
Me:
“sogr
oss”
Sf
undo:
“don’
tactl
i
key
ouwoul
dn’
tli
ket
hat
”
Me:
“justbehav
eI’
l
lseey
out
omor
row”
Sf
undo:
“rai
dermi
sseshi
shome”
Me:
“rai
derneedst
ochi
l
landr
est
”
Sfundo:
“letmefacet
imey ou”heendedthecal
l
andfacetimeme“ t
alkaboutbei
ngugly”I
l
aughedcov er
ingmyeyes
Me:
“st
ooopIj
ustwokeup”
Sf
undo:
“I’
mjoki
ngnanay
oual
way
sbeaut
if
ul”
Me:
“Imi
ssy
ou”
Sf
undo:
“IknownanaImi
ssy
ouaswel
l
”
Me:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Sfundo:
“br
ingy
ourt
opdownl
etmeseemy
boobs”
Me:
“baby
!!
”
Sfundo:“l
etmesee”Ibroughtmyt opdown
sl
owl ywhil
egi
ggli
ng“fuck”hebroughthi
s
bottom l
i
pbetweenhisteeth“movethephone
down”
Me:
“Sf
undono”Ibr
oughtmyt
opuphel
aughed
Sf
undo:
“younof
un”
Me: “Sfundoi sthatagirl
’stoponthefloor”he
quicklylookedont hefl
oor“Iknowyoudi dn’
t
fucksomegi rl!
!”Igotoffthebedhejust
l
aughed“ Sfundo!”
Sf
undo:
“dangnanai
tyour
s”hel
i
ftedi
tup
Me:
“oh”
Sf
undo:
“apol
ogi
ze”
Me:
“sor
rybabe”
Sfundo:“getov
eryouri
nsecur
it
iesi
tbeenover
ay earandIhaven’
tgi
venyouareasontonot
tr
ustme”
Me:
“IknowI
’
m sor
rydon’
tbeupset
”
Sf
undo:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Me:
“Il
ovey
out
oo”
Sfundo:“
youmeet i
ngsomeofmyf ami l
y
tomorrowthatmeansI’
m ser
iousabouty ouI
knewIwasser i
ousaboutyoufrom ourfi
rst
dateIlov
ey ounanaIr
eall
ydoy oumyi t
”
Me;
“youmyi
taswel
lbabe”
Sf
undo:
“good.Wher
eisourdaught
er?
”
Me: “somewherear
oundt
hehousewi
th
Luthandoeati
ngshewokemeupsayi
ngshei
s
hungr y
”
Sf
undo:
“youst
il
ldon’
twantt
oint
roducemet
o
her
”
Me:“whent
heti
mecomesSfundopl
easedon’
t
pushmeonthi
s”hegr
unt
ed
Sf
undo:
“Iunder
stand”
Me:
“thanky
oubabe”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lcal
lyoul
ater
”
Me: “mcwaa”hesmi l
edendi ngthecallIwent
outtot heloungemom anddadhadmov edin
togetherdadboughtt hem ahousesmal l
erthan
theonest hembilehadmom al way sreminded
him ofthatwhent heyfightbutshelovedit
Mom:“
youl
ateIwasaboutt
ocomewakey
ou
up”
Me:
“sor
rymama”
Lel
o:“
mamam”
Me:“babywam”shesmi
l
edandcl
appedher
hands
Lut
hando:
“youf
ull
now”shenodded
Me:
“hav
eyout
akenabat
hmama?
”
Mom:
“yescomehel
pmegetdr
essed”
Me:“okay
”shewentt
oherr
oom “
wher
eis
l
elet
huandLwande?”
Luthando:
“I’
l
lgopickthem uplat
erIj
ustcame
earl
ybecauseImissedmygi r
l”hepul
ledl
elo’
s
cheekshegiggl
ed
Lel
o:“
papaay
i”
Me:“y
ouknowthatwhenyouleav
ingSunday
youwil
lgowi
thherandNondu”
Luthando:“
yeahIremembery
out
ell
i
ngmet
hat
butyoudidn’
ttel
lmewhy”
Me:“
goi
ngtoDurbant
omorr
owI
’
m meet
ing
someofSf
undo’
sfami
ly”
Lut
hando:
“al
ri
ght
”Iwentt
omom’
sroom
Me:
“wher
eisdad?
”
Mom: “
gonet
opi ckuphi
sbr
other
”Ihel
pedher
getdr
essedf
ixedherhai
r
NonduandIf ini
shedcleani
ngthehousei thad
beenanhect i
cdayanev enmor ehecti
cnight
whendadsai dlel
ethumuststayandhel pus
cleanshecal l
edhermot hercr
yingsayi
ngwe
turningherint
oamai dsomom sai dwemust
l
etherbe.Igoti nbednextt omydaught er
pulledhertomeshet ouchedmyf aceandwent
backt osleepIkissedherheadandcalledmy
man
Sfundo:“nana”hewasal
readyasl
eepIl
oved
hisjustwakingupvoi
cei
twassodeepand
sexy
Me:
“goodni
ght
”
Sf
undo:“
goodni
ghtnanaI
’
llcal
lyoui
nthe
morni
ng”
Me:“noI
’
llcal
lyouI
’
mti
redIwantt
osl
eepunt
il
l
ate”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lbet
her
etopi
cky
ouupear
ly”
Me:
“hm”
Sf
undo:
“lov
eyou”
Me:
“lov
eyou”
Sf
undo:
“ki
ssl
elof
ormet
ell
herIl
oveher
”
Me:
“okaybabe”weendedt
hecal
l
.
Ikissedlel
oandcov
eredherwit
hherfav
orit
e
blanket.It
ookmybagwalkedoutofmyroom
Me:
“I’
mleav
ing”Iki
ssedmom’
scheek
Dad:
“wher
edi
dyousayy
ougoi
ngagai
n?”
Me:
“Dur
bandad”
Dad:
“why
?”
Me:“afr
iendofminei
shav
ingapar
tyt
oni
ght
dadItol
dy out
his”
Dad:
“mmh”
Me:
“by
e”
Dad:“
tel
lthatf
ri
endofyour
stomar
ryy
ou
bef
orehegivesyouababy”
Me:
“wow”Iwal
kedout
Igoti
nthecarweki
ssedshor
tl
y
Sf
undo:
“hey
”
Me:
“hi
”weki
ssedagai
nandhedr
oveof
f
Sf
undo:
“lel
odi
dn’
tcr
y?”
Me:
“shewasasl
eep”
Sfundo:“
poorbabysheisgoi
ngtowakeupand
l
ookf ory
ouallovert
hehousewhenshe
real
isesyounott
heresheisgoi
ngt
ocry”
Me:“
shewil
lbef
ineLuthandowil
lpi
ckherup
shei
sgoi
ngtospendthenightwi
thhi
smom”
Sf
undo:
“atl
east
”Iranmyhandov
erhi
shead
pl
ayi
ngwit
hhishai
r
Me:
“Imi
ssedy
ou”
Sf
undo:
“thi
sisme”
Me:“l
ovi
ngy
ouhasmademyl
i
fesobeaut
if
ul”I
sanghesmi
ledwi
del
y
Sf
undo:
“cont
inue”
Me:
“Idon’
tknowt
her
estofi
t”wel
aughed
Het i
edmyheel sandr anhishandsupmyl egs
whilewel ookedateachot herunti
lhegottomy
kneeswher emydr essstood.Iwaswearinga
blacklongsl eev
ecot t
ondr esswit
hblackheel
s
myweav etiedintoamessybun.
Sf
undo:
“Igoty
ouagi
ft
”hest
oodupandpul
l
ed
meup
Me:“whati
sit
?”Heopenedatif
fanyjewelr
ybox
andtookoutt
hisbeaut
if
ulwhi
tegoldbracel
et
wit
hcharms
Sfundo:“
Ihaditcust
om madef ory
ouever
yone
ofthesechar
msr epr
esentsomethi
ngabout
youaboutmeaboutourr el
ati
onshi
p”
Me:
“it
’sbeaut
if
ulSf
undo”heputonmywr
ist
Sf
undo:“
neverevert
akeitoffnomatt
erwhat
ev
enifwefi
ghtingdon’
tevertakei
tof
f”
Me:
“Iwon’
tIpr
omi
se”heki
ssedmyhand
Sf
undo:
“good”hegav
ememybagandwel
eft
IthoughtSfundo’
shousewasbi gbutithad
nothi
ngont hishousether
ewasaf ountainin
themiddleofthefrontyar
dl i
keitwasat raff
ic
cir
cletheli
ghtsallar
oundthehousegav eita
warmf eel
ingitwastri
plestory.Thedoor
openedasSf undowasaboutt oopenagi r
l
j
umpedonhi m hecaughtherlaughing
Sf
undo:
“getof
fmeSi
hle”sheshookherhead
Si
hle:
“nocar
rymei
n”heki
ssedherhead
Sfundo:“don’
tyouwantmet ointroduceyouto
mywoman”shegotof fhi
m andl ookedatme
shewassobeaut i
fulwit
hherchubbycheeks
andslim bodyIcouldn’
tunderstandhowshe
wast hatsl
im becauseshehadj ustgivenbi
rt
h
totwinstwomont hsago.Shel ookedatmeup
anddownwi t
haf rownonherf ace
Sf
undo:
“beni
cesi
hle”shegav
emeaf
ake
smil
e
Si
hle:
“hi
Snewelcomet
oourhome”shewenti
n
Sf
undosighed
Sf
undo:“
don’
tpayheranyatt
enti
onl
et’
sgoin”
wewentinf
oundtheloungef
il
ledwi
thpeopl
e
Sihle:“
lookwhoi shomeandhebr oughtagirl
”
awomanst oodupnowIt houghtNatashawas
beautifulbutshehadnot hingonthiswoman
shewasl i
ghtskinnedwithahai rcutherhai
r
colouredbl ondehermakeupwasonpoi ntshe
waswear ingadenim shortdressitdi
damazi ng
thingsforabot tl
eshapebody
Her
:“Si
hlebehav
e”
Si
hle:
“sor
rymama”
Sfundo:“thankyoumom”hei ntroducedmet o
everyoneitwaslikebei
ngsurroundedby
beautif
ulpeoplether
ewastwoot hersl
adi
es
whol ookedlikeayoungver
sionoft hei
rmother
Zama:“welcomet
oourhouseSney
oul
ook
beaut
if
ul”
Br
ian:
“sheremindsmeofyourmom Sf
undo,
whoareyourparent
sSne?
”
Sf
undo:
“let
’snoti
nter
rogat
eher
”
Amel i
a:“i
ll
gocheckiftheydonesett
ingup
dinnercomendalo”Il
ookedatherasshest ood
upshewaspr egnantthetoddl
ergotoffher
fatherandfol
l
owedherwal ki
ngslowlybehi
nd
her
Sfundo:“si
tnana”hepul
l
edmyhandwewent
tositdown
Bri
anna:“
sodoyouwor
kSneory
ouj
ust
spendi
ngSphe’
smoney
?”
Si
hle:
“Iwasaboutt
oaskt
hesame?”Sf
undo
l
ookedatzamawhoshookherhead
Bri
an:“doyout
woworkory
ouj
ustspendi
ng
yourparent
smoney
?!”
Br
ianna:
“dad”
Zama:“
ifyout
wodon’tgetofft
hatshi
tyouhigh
onbel
i
ev emeyouwon’tl
ikewhatwil
lhappen
whenIletSfundorepr
imandyou”theybot
h
r
oll
edtheireyesandstoodupwalkedout
Sfundo:
“mom cont
rol
them bef
oreIl
osemy
cool”
Zama: “Idon’
tknowwhati swrongwi t
hthem
theseday sBr
iannabr okeupwithChanelshe’
s
beenmoodysi ncet hen”Il
ookedatSfundo
confusedhewhi speredthatBr
iannaisalesbi
an
Sfundo:
“wellt
hathasnot
hingtodowit
hSne
andI”hestoodup“I’
l
lgogetyousomethi
ngt
o
dri
nknana”hewalkedout
Sphe:“Sf
undosaysy
ouaregi
ster
ed
psychometr
ici
an,
howist
hat?
”Ismil
edIl
oved
myj ob
Br
ian:“
lookathowshej
ustbr
ight
ensup”t
hey
l
aughed
Me:
“Il
ovei
t”Amel
i
agoti
n
Amel
i
a:“
dinneri
ssetout
side”
Zama:
“ar
eweeat
ingwi
thoutMar
cel
?”
Br
ian:“Idon’
tknowwhati
swrongwi t
hthatboy.
I
shenothome? ”Amel
i
ashoutedforSbaniand
Madisontheycamedownrunning
Amel
i
a:“
wedon’
truni
nthehouse”
Sbani
:“sor
ryaunt
y”every
onestoodupwentout
thebackyar
dlookedevenbet
terthev
iewofthe
l
akejustki
ll
edme
Sf
undo:
“youokaymunt
uwam?
”Inodded
Me: “t
hishouseSfundoi tev erythingIev er
dreamtoff”hesmi l
edweal l settl
eddown
aroundthet abl
ewhenZi y anda’sMar celwalked
outcarryi
ngababymyhear tbeatwentupI
l
ookedatSi hleasshest oodupwal kingt ot
hem
withasmi l
eonherf acetheyki ssedandshe
tookthebabyt heysatdownMar cellookedat
mewi thshockwr i
ttenallov erhisf acebuthe
quickl
ycov eredi
twit hasmi le
Mar cel
:“i
sthi
sSfundo’
sSnesheisbeaut
if
ul
bro.HiSnenicet
omeety ou”Icl
ear
edmy
throat
Me:“ni
cetomeety
out oo.Pl
easeexcusemeI
needtouset
hebathr
oom”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
ltakey
ou”
Me:
“itokayj
ustgi
vemet
hedi
rect
ions”
Zama:fi
rstf
loordownt
hepassage2nddooron
yourl
eft
”
Me: “
thankyou”Istoodwal kedtothebathr
oom
Iwashedmyhandsandbr eathedoutnowI
wishedIhadbr oughtmybagwi thmeIwanted
tocallZi
yandat hi
swasjustmessedup.I
walkedoutfoundMar celstandingopposi
tethe
doorwi t
hhisfootonthewal l
Marcel
:“what
every
out
hinky
ouknowy
oudon’
t
know”
Me:“excuseme?”Hewalkedclosertome
angerblazi
ngi
nhiseyesIkeptbacki
ngupuntil
Iwaspressedonthewallheputhishandson
thewallbymyfacecagi
ngmei n
Mar
cel
:“Il
ovemywi
feSnemor
ethanany
thi
ng
soy oubet t
erkeepy ourmout hshuti fyouknow
what ’
sgoodf ory out hi
sismyf amilyIcan
makey ourli
femi serableforasl ongasy ouwit
h
Sfundo.Youbet t
erst ayoutofmybusi ness”he
walkedawayl eavingmest andingthereli
kea
st
at ueIwassoshakenIcoul dn’tevenfeel
my sel
fbr eat
hingPART18LOVEMELI KEONLY
YOUCAN
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04/
14,
18:
45]Ron:
#19

Icoll
ectedmy sel
fandwalkedoutSf undostood
upashesawmeappr oachi
ngandpul ledthe
chairformeaf t
ersi
tti
ngdownhepushedi t
backin.Wehaddi nneroverl
ightconversati
on
withthem questi
oni
ngmeaf terdinnerwehad
dri
nkswhi l
ethehelperscl
eanedupandt ook
thekidstobed.SfundobrushedmybackwhenI
yawned
Sf
undo:
“weshoul
dleav
eSnei
sti
red”
Ameli
a:“
itwasgoodmeet
ingy
ouSne”Ismi
l
ed
noddi
ng
Brian:“
welcomet othefamilySneweal ar
ge
familythi
sisn’
tevenhalfofusbutwel oveand
protecteachotheralwaysyoupartofusnow”
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Brian:“
SfundoIwil
lcal
lyouther
eissomethi
ng
weneedt otalkaboutI
’
llspeakt
oyourfat
her
fi
rst”
Sfundo:“okay”hestoodupandhel pedme
standupt heyall
huggedusevent houghSihle
andBrianna’shugwascold.Marcel whi
speredI
mustnotf orgetwhatwespokeaboutwhi l
ehe
huggedme.ZamaandBr i
anwalkedusoutwe
gotinSfundo’scarhehootedanddr oveof
f.
Sf
undo:
“howwast
hat
?”
Me:
“itwasf
ant
ast
icbabeIl
ovey
ourf
ami
l
y”
Sf
undo:“I
’
m sor
ryaboutmyl
i
ttl
esi
ster
sthey
wi
llwar
m uptoyou”
Me:“i
tokaynotevery
oneisgoingtoli
keme.I
j
usthatethatt
heyimpli
edI’
m wit
hy oufor
money”
Sfundo:“webothknowt hati
snotthecase.We
l
ov eeachotherever
ythi
ngelsethatwegetout
ofthi
sr el
ati
onshi
pfall
sunderthat”
Me: “
isthi
showital
way
sgoingt
obe?Peopl
e
assumingI’
m wi
thyouf
ory
ourmoney”
Sfundo:“Idon’
tknowbabeandIact
uall
ydon’t
fuckingcareyounev
ergoi
ngtogetanywherei
n
l
ifeifyoustopli
vi
nganddoingy
ouev er
yti
me
someonesay ssomethi
ngmeant oyou”
Me: “
iteasyf
oryoutosayyounott
heonebei
ng
accusedofbeingagol
ddigger
!!
”
Sfundo:
“don’
tyoufucki
ngdarerai
sey
ourv
oice
atmeSneIwi l
lnottel
lyouagai
n”
Me:
“sor
ry”heshookhi
shead
Sf
undo:“mxm.YouhurtIgetthatandI’
m sor
ry
i
tbecauseofmysist
ersbutthatdoesn’
tmean
y
oushoul
dst
artdi
srespect
ingme”
Me:“Isai
dIwassor r
ySfundoIam notgoi
ngt
o
apol
ogizeagain”therestoft
hewayt ohi
s
housewassilence.
Hegotof
fthecarandwenti
nthehouseI
si
ghed
Me: “wellt
hanky ouf oropeni ngmydoory ou
suchagent l
emanmyl ov
e.Nxa”Igotof fthecar
sl
ammedt hedoorandwenti nt hewhol efirst
fl
oorwasdar kwi t
hjustthel ightf r
om t he
outsideshinningthroughIwentupst air
sfound
hi
mi ntheclosetgettingdr essedi nhi spyjamas
weal wayssl eptnakedunl essoneofusi s
sulkingsoIguesshewassul kinghewentout
whi l
eputti
ngonhi stop.Ichangedi ntomy
pyjamascl eanedmyf acewi thf acial wi
pesI
wentt obrushmyt eethandgoti nbedswi tched
offthesidelamp.Wewer ebot hf aci ngaway
fr
om eachot herItookmyphoneandcal l
ed
Luthando
Lut
hando:
“hey
”
Me:
“heyhowar
eyou?
”
Sf
undo:
“I’
mtr
yingt
osl
eep”
Lut
hando:“
I’
m goodandy
ou?Howdi
dthe
di
nnergo?
”
Me:“
hissi
ster
sthi
nkI’
m wi
thhi
mf orhi
s
money”Sf
undosatupandswi
tchedonthel
i
ght
Lut
hando:
“shi
tar
eyouokay
?”
Sf
undo:
“Sne”hewar
ned
Me:
“letmespeakt
omydaught
er”
Lut
hando:
“okayLel
oit
’smamasayhel
l
o”
Lel
o:“
eyomamam”
Me:
“eyol
elowam”shegi
ggl
ed”ar
eyouhav
ing
f
unwit
hpapa”
Lel
o:“
yes!
!”
Me:
“goodbutmamami
ssesy
ou”
Lel
o:“
missesy
ou”
Me:
“yesl
elowam”shel
aughed
Luthando:“
wellnotshewon’tbetal
kingshe’
s
al
readyrunningoutofther
oom laughing”
Me:“
I’
ll
seeyouguy
stomor
row,
whatt
imear
e
youl
eavi
ng?
”
Lut
hando:
“mor
ningandy
ou?
”
Me:
“notsur
ewhenmyf
li
ghti
s”
Lut
hando:
“okaywewi
l
ltal
ktomor
rowl
ovey
ou”
Me:
“ki
ssherf
ormet
ell
herIl
oveher
”
Lut
hando:
“wi
l
ldo”weendedt
hecal
l
Sfundo:
“si
ncewhendowet alkaboutwhati
s
happeni
nginourr
elat
ionshi
ptoourexes?”
Me:“I’
m notdoingt
hiswit
hy ouSf
undoj
ust
cont
inuesulki
ngfornoreason”
Sfundo:“Snedon’
tpi
ssof
f”Il
aiddownf
aci
ng
awayf r
om him
Me:
“It
houghty
ouwer
eal
readypi
ssedof
f”
Sf
undo:
“Sne”
Me:“I’
m notdoi
ngthi
swithyouSf
undonot
t
onightIalr
eadyhadtodeal
withy
ourfami
l
y
j
ustleavemealone”
Sfundo:“nana”hetur
nedmet olookathim and
l
aidnextt ome“ I
’
m sorr
y”hekissedmy
foreheadandheldmet i
ghtl
y“I
’m anass
somet i
mesbuty oudealwit
hmeIl oveyou”
Me:“
Ilov
eyout
oo”weki
ssedhet
ookof
fmy
py
jamas
Sf
undo:“Ihat
eal
lthesecl
othesbet
weenus”I
l
aughed
.
Wel
andedi
nJhbhi
sdr
iverpi
ckedusup
Sf
undo:“
pleasecomebacktot
hehot
elwi
th
me”heheldmyhandskissi
ngt
hem
Me:“
wespokeaboutt
hisSf
undoImissl
elo”he
f
rownedandgav
emepuppyey esIgi
ggl
ed
Sfundo:
“pleaseIl
ovesl
eepi
ngandwaki
ngup
nexttoyou”
Me:
“Sf
undodon’
t”
Sf
undo:
“mov
einwi
thme”
Me:“y
ouhar
dlyi
nJhbwhatwoul
dbet
hepoi
nt
oft
hat”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lbeher
emor
e”
Me:“l
elodoesn’
tknowy ouSfundoy
oucan’t
j
ustgofrom st
rangert
obasicall
yafat
heri
na
minut
e”
Sf
undo:
“howwil
lsheknowmewheny
oudon’
t
wantmetomeether
”
Me:
“youwi
l
lmeether
”
Sfundo:“moveinwi t
hmepl easethepenthouse
i
sbi gnanapleaselel
owi ll
gett ohaveherown
room sowillhernanny”hispenthousesuiteat
hishotelwasreall
yhugedoubl estorywit
h5
bedroomst hewholef i
rstf
loorwasopenpl an
andt hei
nteri
orwasj ustamazingithadan
amazi
ngv
iewofsandt
on
Me:
“letmespeakt
oLut
handof
ir
st”
Sf
undo:
“gethi
sper
missi
on?
”
Me:“nobutl
eloishisdaught
erIcan’
tjustmov
e
i
nhisdaughterwit
hmyboy fr
iendwit
hout
t
alki
ngtohim”
Sfundo:
“Ihat
eitbutIunder
stand.Ir
eal
l
ywant
youguystomov ei
nwi t
hme”
Me:“Idon’tknowhowdadi
sgoi
ngtor
eactt
o
memov i
nginwithamanwhoi
snotmy
husband”hesighed
Sfundo:
“doy ouwantustogetmar ri
ed?
”I
l
ookedathimi ndi
sbeli
efofcourseIwantedto
getmarri
edtohim Il
ovedhim butforhi
mt o
askmel i
kethatwit
hthisdef
eatedtoneasifit
somethi
ngher eal
l
ydoesn’twanttodobut
mightdoifIwanthimto
Me:
“noIdon’
t”heimmedi
atel
ylookedli
keal
l
t
hetensi
onj
ustlef
thi
sbodyIlookedathi
m al
l
ov
erhi
sface
Sfundo:“
buty
ouwoul
dlov
etost
aywi
thme
ri
ght?”
Me:
“yes”
Sf
undo:
“thenwewi
l
lmov
eint
oget
her
”
Me:
“okay
”Iwhi
sper
edheki
ssedme
Sfundo:“speaktoLuthandoandcont actmy
assist
anthewi ll
arr
angemov ersforyouanda
stor
er oom atthehotelf
oryourfurni
ture”
Me:
“okay
”
Sfundo:“
youdon’
tseem happyaboutt
his”I
gavehim af
akesmileandkissedhi
m deepl
y
Me:
“Il
ovey
ousomuchSf
undomkhi
ze”
Sfundo:“
Ilov
ey oujustasmuchifnotmore”he
pull
edmet ostraddl
ehim“can’
tyougetsome
ti
meof fatworksowecangot oBev er
lyhi
ll
s
meettherestofmyf amil
y?”
Me:
“Iwi
l
ltr
yandseei
fIcan’
ttakemyl
eav
e
soon”
Sf
undo:“
thankyouIspoketomom int
he
morni
ngshereal
lywantstomeety
ou”
Me:“
I’
ll
seeSf
undoyaziIf
eelt
ir
edcanyouj
ust
dr
opmeoffatmyapart
ment”hemovedback
Sf
undo:
“whati
swr
ong?
”
Me: “
not
hingIjustwantmydaughter”Icould
feelmytearswanti
ngIfall
Isuddenl
yjustfel
t
ti
redemotional
lyandphysi
cal
lyIwasjust
exhaust
ed
Sf
undo:
“tal
ktomemunt
uwam t
ell
mewhat
’s
wr
ongsoIcanfi
xit
”
Me:
“ther
eisnot
hingwr
ong”
Sfundo:“
nanaplease”mytearsdroppedhis
eyeswidened“j
esusChri
stSnewhatdi dIdo?”I
couldhearanxi
etyi
nhisvoiceSfundohated
seeingmeintears
Me:“
I’
mt i
redSf
undo”hepr
essedmyf
aceon
hi
schestandbr
ushedmyweave
Sfundo:“
hushbabyyoukil
li
ngmej
ustcl
ose
youreyesandrest
”Inodded
Iwokeupi nbeditwasdar kIswit
chedont he
l
ightIwasinSfundo’sbedroom atthe
penthouseIgotoffthebedwalkedt ot
hecl oset
putonhi st
-shi
rtIwentdownstai
rs.Icouldhear
himt al
ki
ngasIwaswal kingdownt hestair
s
Sfundo: “
Idon’ tcaredadIdon’ tgiv ear at’
sass
there’sapossi bil
i
tytheyar esibli
ngsy ouseem
tof orgetthatmom i snotmybi ologicalmot her”
hel ist
enedt ohi sfatherashewaspaci ngup
anddown“ noofcour senott hat’
snotwhatI
meandadandy ouknowi tIlovemom mor e
thanany t
hingsher aisedmeandgav eme
amazi nguncondi ti
onal l
ov e…….Il oveherdad
afterAngel aInev ert houghtIcoul dlov e
someoneel seandIl ov eherIreallydo…. .well
dowhaty ougot tadodadandl etmeknow….I
don’ tknowwai ti
ngf orhert ogetleav eatwor k
thenwewi l
l come”Icont inuedgoi ngdown
whenhest artedsay i
nghi sgoodby eshet urned
andlookedatmeasIreachedt
hebott
om of
thestai
rshesmi
ledandmetmehalfway
Me:
“hi
”weki
ssed
Sf
undo:
“feel
i
ngbet
ter
?”Ishookmyhead
Me:
“I’
m hungr
y”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“Ior
der
eddi
nnershoul
dbeupsoon”
Me:“okay
”heki
ssedmyf
orehead“
arey
ou
okay
? ”
Sfundo:
“asl
ongasIgotyouyeahI
’
m okay”he
huggedmeti
ghtl
yandbreat
hedout“Il
oveyou
somuchSne”
Me:
“what
’swr
ong?
”
Sfundo:
“nothi
ng”Idroppedtomykneesand
pull
eddownhi ssweatpant
s“ nana”Ihel
dhis
cockstr
okingitwhi
leIkeptmyey esonhishe
wentharderandharderwit
hev erypassi
ng
secondhegrowledwhenIst artedsucki
nghis
ti
p.PART19LOVEMELI KEONLYYOUCAN
[
04/
14,
18:
45]Ron:
#20

IgothomeMondayaf
terwor
kjusti
tchi
ngt
o
hol
dmybabyIhadmissedhersomuch
Me:“l
elowam”Iscr
eamedassoonasIgoti
n
shecameoutofherroom r
unni
ng
Lel
o:“mamam!”Ipi
ckedherupkissedheral
l
overherf
aceshegi
ggledsweet
ly“mamam”
Me:
“nj
an”
Lel
o:“
yapi
ya”Igav
eherasof
tpeckonherl
i
psI
wal
kedfur
theri
n“papa?
”
Me:“
papaisnother
ewewill
cal
lhi
m okay”Isat
downtookoutmyphonef
aceti
meLuthando
Lut
hando:
“mygi
rl
s”
Lel
o:“
eyopapa!
!!
”Sheki
ssedt
hescr
een
Lut
handoandIl
aughed
Lut
hando:
“ey
olel
owam”
Lel
o:“
yapi
ya?
”Il
eftt
hem t
alki
ngwentt
othe
ki
tchenfoundNonduf ini
shingupwi t
hdinnerI
drankwaterandwentt omyr oom changedint
o
l
eggingsandat -
shi
rtlelocameinr unni
ngand
gavememyphonet henr anout
Lut
hando:
“Imi
ssher
”
Me:“she’
syourst
hisSat
urday
.I’
vebeen
meaningtotal
ktoyou”
Lut
hando:
“about
?”
Me: “Sf
undowantsmetomov einwit
hhi m”he
rubbedhisface“
Iwantt
omov einwit
hhi m
Luthandobutyouknowthatmeanshim bei
ngin
l
elo’sli
fe”
Lut
hando:
“youj
ustmett
hisguyl
i
key
est
erday
”
Me:
“Lut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“itt
het
rut
h”
Me:
“we’
vebeent
oget
herf
oray
earandahal
f”
Lut
hando:
“dadwon’
tappr
ove”
Me:
“Idon’
tneedhi
sper
missi
on”
Luthando:
“Idon’
ttr
usthi
m whati
fhehur
ts
l
elo”
Me:
“whywoul
dhehur
tlel
o?”
Luthando:“peopl
ear
etwistedoutther
elast
thi
ngIwanti ssomefuckermolest
ingmy
daughter”
Me:“Luthando!
!!Howcanyouevensaythat
wit
hast rai
ghtf
ace?!Iwoul
dnevereventhi
nk
ofmov i
nginwithhimifIdi
dn’
ttr
usthim”
Lut
hando:
“wel
lIdon’
ttr
usthi
m”
Me:“Lut
handopl easeIl
ovehi
m Iwantt omov e
i
nwithinhemakesmehappy .Don’tIdeserve
tobehappy?Tobewi t
hsomeonewhol oves
meandcherishesmeashedoes?Ev eny oucan
seehowhelov esmey ousai
dsoy ourselfthat
youcanseehel ovesme”
Lut
hando:“
whyishenotmarr
yingyou?Iknow
hewasrai
sedinAmeri
cahisf
ami l
yismodern
andal
lbutyouknowt
hat’
snothowwedo
t
hings”
Me:
“wewanttost
ayt
oget
herandwenotr
eady
f
ormar
ri
age”
Lut
hando:
“lookl
etmet
hinkabouti
tSne”
Me: “y
oubeingahy pocri
teNamhlamov edin
wi t
hyousheget stospendweekendswi t
hlel
o
forallIknowshecouldbehar mi
nglelobutI
trustyoutoensurethatnot
hingl
ikethat
happens”
Luthando:
“youri
ght.Itrustyouenoughtoknow
thatyouwouldneverletanyonehurtl
eloI
’m not
soldontheideabutifitwhatyouwantthendo
i
t”
Me: “
thankyou.I
’
v eappl
iedfortwoweeksleave
I’
m goingtomeethisparent
sdoy ouwantlelo
andNondut ocomet oyouforthoseweeksorI
coul
dsendt hem home”
Lut
hando:
“I’
l
ltaket
hem”
Me:
“okaywel
lwewi
l
ltal
klat
erI
’
llpr
obabl
y
mov
ethi
sweekend”
Lut
hando:
“I’
l
lcal
lbef
oreherbedt
ime”
Me:“
bye”Iendedt
hecal
landl
aidont
hebed
wi
thahugesigh
.
Sfundometusdownstai
rsinpr
ivat
eparki
nglot
heopenedmydoorwithahugebr i
ghtsmi
leon
hi
sf aceweki
ssedshort
ly
Sf
undo:
“wher
eisshe?
”Ichuckl
ed
Me:“lookatyouallexci
tedl
ikeakidi
nacandy
st
ore”hepushedmel i
ghtl
ywhil
elaughi
ngas
Nondugotoutt heothersi
deIopenedthedoor
l
eloraisedherhead
Lel
o:“
outmamam”
Sfundo:
“Godshesoundsj
ustl
i
key
ou”It
ook
herout
Me:
“lel
oIwantyoutomeet
”Il
ookedatSfundo
“
whatmustshecall
you?
”Heshruggedhi
s
shoul
der
slel
oli
ft
edherhandsup
Lel
o:“t
akeme”hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandt
ook
her“
eyo”
Sf
undo:
“hel
l
o”
Me:“ourbags?”Hewhist
ledandsomeguys
r
ushedov ert
heytookourthi
ngsandl
eft“
babe
t
hisi
sNondushei slel
o’snanny”
Lelo:“
nonu!
”Sfundochuckl
edandshook
Nondu’shandshewasopenlydrool
i
ngat
Sfundoheendedupfrowning
Me:
“Nondu”
Nondu:
“sor
ry”
Sfundo:“l
et’
sgoupandgety ouguy sset
tl
edin”
headjustedhishol
donl el
oandheldmyhand
wewal kedtotheelev
atorwit
hNonduwal ki
ng
behinduswegoti nhepunchedinthecodeto
thepenthouse.Theelev
atoropenedupinthe
foyer
Sf
undo:
“youshowt
hem ar
oundnanaI
’
m goi
ng
t
omakeaqui
ckphonecal
l
”
Me:
“ okaybabe”heki
ssedmeshortl
yandgav
e
melelo“l
et’
sgoupstai
rs”wewentupst
air
s
“
Nondu”
Nondu:
“yes”Ist
oppedwal
ki
ngandl
ookedat
her
Me:“ar
ewegoingt
ohaveaprobl
em?Isawt he
wayyouwer
elooki
ngatSf
undo”sheshookher
head
Nondu:
“I’
m sor
rySneIdi
dn’tmeantoI
’
mreal
l
y
sor
rynowewon’thaveaproblem”
Me:“heisgoodl
ookingIknowbutIdon’
t
appr
eciat
eyoustar
ingathimli
kethat
”
Nondu:
“wil
lneverhappenagai
nIpr omi
seyou
I
’mreal
lysor
rySnepleaseIcan’
tlosemyjob”
hert
ear
swer ealr
eadyfal
li
ng
Me:“youwon’tl
oseyourjobj
ustknowthat
t
hereareboundari
esSfundoi
soffli
mitheis
mine”shenodded
Nondu:
“I’
m sor
ry”Iopenedt
hel
astbedr
oom
Me:
“thi
sisy
ou”wegoti
n
Nondu:
“it
’ssobi
gandbeaut
if
ul”Inodded
Me: “
itisandithasaconnecti
ngdoortolelo’
s
room”Iwentt otheconnecti
ngdooropenedit
SfundoandIhadgoneshoppi ngforLelo’
s
room itwasabsolut
elybeauti
ful
“thi
sisyour
newr oom lel
owam”
Lelo:“t
oys!!
”ShewiggleddownIlethergo
downshewentar oundt ouchi
nghertoys“papa”
shepickedupapi ctur
eofLuthandoIlookedat
thepictur
eIhadn’tputitt
herei
twasact ual
l
ya
pictur
eofthem bothleloandherpapa
Sfundo:
“Igoti
tfr
om y
ouri
nst
agr
am hadi
t
fr
amedf orher
”
Me:“t
hankyou”henoddedandwal
kedi
nhe
ki
ssedmyforehead
Sf
undo:shelookshappy”hewasner
vousabout
l
elonotl
iki
ngthepenthouse
Me:“It
oldy
ouj
ustgethernewt
oysshewi
l
lbe
happy”
.
Myjawdroppedfr
om themomentthecardrove
t
hroughthegat
edriv
ingupthedr
ivewaybut
whenthehousecameintov
iewIcursedSfundo
l
ookedatmewi t
haf r
ownonhisface
Me:
“itf
ucki
nghuge”
Sfundo:“
don’
tswear .It20000squarefeet,
15
bedroomsallwit
hbat hrooms, gy
m,i
ndoorpool,
ci
nema, t
woplayrooms, enter
tai
nmentroom
andwholelotunnecessar yshi
t”
Me:
“justhowr
ichi
syourf
ami
l
y?”
Sfundo:
“I’
m notgoingtoanswerthatmoneyi
s
notimportantSne”onl
yarichpersonwoul
dsay
that
.Hegotoutt hecarandhelpedmegetout
wewenti nthehouseIstar
tedshaking
Sfundo:
“don’
tbenerv
oustheyalr
eadylov
eyou”
Igavehim at
ightsmi
lewefoundever
yonein
thelounge“eveningfami
l
y ”hi
smot herstoodup
withahugesmi leonherfacetheyhugged
ti
ghtlyhekeptkissi
ngherhead“I’
vemi ssedyou
somuchmom”
Sne:
“I’
vemissedyouevenmore.Don’
tstay
awayfr
om homet hi
slongagai
n”hi
sli
tt
lesist
er
st
oodbetweenthem tr
yingt
opushhermom
away
Aphe:
“mommyha.
agoaway ”t
heypul
ledapar
t
l
aughi
ngSf
undopi
ckedherupt
heyhugged
Sf
undo:
“mi
ssedme?
”
Aphe:“
alotSf
undo”heki
ssedherheadandput
herdown
Sf
undo:
“whenIl
eav
eyougoi
ngt
osout
hAf
ri
ca
wi
thme”
Aphe:
“nopedidn’
tmissy out
hatmuchsomi
ss
mewiththat
”theyal
llaughed
Si
mphi
we:
“Idon’
tunder
standwhyshehat
es
SA”
Aphe:
“Idon’
that
eitjustdon’
tli
kei
t”Si
mpi
we
cametostandi
nfrontofme
Si
mpi
we:
“hel
l
o”
Me:“
hel
lo”hewassotal
ll
ookedexactl
yli
ke
Sf
undoalldar
kandgor
geous.Heopenedhis
ar
mswehugged
Simpiwe:“
heardityourf
irstt
imeoutofSA.I’
ll
showy oual
readytomorrowIknowallthebest
places”
Me:
“ohI
’
dlov
ethat
”
Aphe;
”met ooandwewil
lgoshoppi
ngwi
th
mommy ,
rightmommy?”
Sne:“ri
ght.Excusemymanner sSnegugujust
thatt
hissonofmi nehadn’tbeenhomei n
months”wehugged“ wel
comet oourhomei t
nicetofi
nallymeety ouI’
vehear dsomuch
aboutyou”Il ookedatt hi
sgor geouswoman
shelookedsocl eanwi t
hnomakeupandher
weavet i
edint oaponyt ail
wear ingabody
huggingmaxidr
esswhi
chdi
damazi
ngt
hings
forherbi
gbody
Me:“i
tni
cet
ofinal
l
ymeetyouaswel
landy
ou
hav
eanamazinghomethanky
ou”
Sf
undo:
“wher
eisdad?
”
Vuyani
:“I
’
m her
e”hewascomi
nginholdi
nga
gl
assofwineandagl
assofwhatl
ookedli
ke
cognac
Sf
undo:
“nanat
hat
’smyfather
”hegavethe
wi
netoSneandki
ssedhershort
lybef
ore
wal
ki
ngtomegivi
ngmeahug
Vuy
ani
:“y
oul
ookj
ustl
i
kemywi
fe”
Si
mpi
we:
“eewudadno”v
uyani
chuckl
ed
Vuy
ani
:“don’
tbest
upi
dSi
mpi
we”
Simpi
we:“mom dadiscal
li
ngmestupi
d”Sne
j
ustgi
ggled.I
tfel
tsoweir
dref
err
ingt
o
someoneelseasSne
Sne:
“ar
eyouki
dshungr
y?We’
veal
readyhad
di
nnerwasjustwai
ti
ngf
ory
out
oar
ri
vebef
ore
weallgot
obed”
Sf
undo:“youhungr
y?”Ishookmyhead“
weat
e
i
nthejet
”
Sne:
“wel
lbedt
imey
out
woi
tschool
tomor
row”
Aphe:
“canIski
pmommy
?Pl
ease”
Vuyani
:“nogotobed”sher
oll
edherey
est
hey
sai
dgoodnightandl
eft
Sfundo:“wewi
llal
sogot
obedseeyouinthe
mor ni
ng”heki
ssedhi
smom’scheek“
Ilov
e
you”
Sne:
“lov
eyout
ooandi
tgoodt
ohav
eyou
home”
Sf
undo:“
I’
ll
takey
ououtf
orbr
eakf
asti
nthe
morni
ng”
Sne:
“okay
”hehel
dmyhand
Me:“
goodni
ght”hi
sparent
ssai
dgoodni
ghtwe
wal
kedoutdownthepassaget
oanelev
ator
“
youhav
eaf
ucki
ngel
evat
ori
nthehouse?
”
Sfundo: “don’
tswearSne.Yesasy ou’
veseen
thehousei shuge”wegotof fthet hi
rdfl
oor
walkedunt ilwegott othi
sdoubl edoorhe
openedwegoti n“thi
sismyr oom”t hewhol e
room lookedbi ggerthanmyent ireapart
mentI
j
ustst aredathim andt ol
dmy selfIam not
goingt ocommentany mor eabouthow
ri
diculouslyri
cht hesepeoplewer ehepulledme
tothecl osetmybagswer ealreadyunpacked
“doy ouwantt ot akeaquickshowerf ir
st?”
Me:
“abat
hmay
bei
twi
l
lhel
pmef
all
asl
eep”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lfi
l
lupt
hewat
erf
ory
ou”
.
Iwokeupi nbedaloneSf undohadt akenhis
mothertobreakfast.Igotoffthebedwentt o
thebathr
oom washedmyf aceandbr ushedmy
teet
hIwentt otheclosetgotdr essedin
sweatpantsandSf undo’
st-shirt
.Iwent
downstair
stherewashousest affallaroundI
askedaroundunt
ilIf
oundmywayt othe
ki
tchenIwasstar
vingfoundacheft
here
Me:
“goodmor
ning”
Him: “
mor ningmsceleIwast
oldtopr
epare
breakfastforyou.I
sther
eany
thi
ngspeci
fi
cthat
youwoul dlike?”
Me:
“I’
m goodwi
thwhat
every
oucanmake”
Him: “y
esma’ am.Woul dy ouli
kecof f
eewhile
youwai t?
”Inoddedhepour edmecof f
eeIsat
ont hebarstoolVuy anigoti
ndr essedinathree
piecetail
oredsuitthismanlookedsomuchl i
ke
hischil
drenev enthegirl
sjustthattheywere
l
ightskinnedliketheirmother
Vuy
ani
:“ma’
Cel
eunj
an?
”
Me:
“ngi
yaphi
l
aandy
ou”
Vuyani
:“I
’
m good”hepour edhimselfcoff
ee
andsatacrossme“ sodoy oulovemysoni tnot
aboutmoneyright
”justl
i
ket hatstr
aightt
ot he
poi
nt!
Me:“Il
oveyoursonIl
ovedhi
m bef
oreIknew
aboutal
loft
his”
Vuyani:
“good.Ibel
i
evey
ou,
nowt
ell
meabout
yourfamil
y”
Me:
“whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
oknow?
”
Vuyani
: “
any t
hingyouwil
li
ngt osharethereisn’
t
mucht ofindjustyouandyourmot hersince
yourgrandmapassedaway .Didyouknowy our
motherwasadopt edwellnotlegall
ybuty eah”
hedrankhi scoff
eeasofhehadn’ tjustpull
eda
rugunderme
Me:
“Idi
dn’
tknow”henodded
Vuyani:
“youknowSfundo’
smom wasal
so
adoptedbytheChangs”
Me:
“Sf
undodi
dtel
lmet
hat
”
Vuyani
:“don’
tyout
hinkther
esemblance
bet
weeny ouandmywi f
eisali
tt
lecrazy
”
Me:“Idon’
tknowifI’
m bei
ngst
upidorwhatbut
Idon’
tthi
nkIunderst
andwhatyoutr
yingt
osay”
heshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s
Vuyani:“
justputt
ingmythought
soutt here”he
stoodup“ seeyoulat
erIgotameet i
ng”he
ki
ssedmycheekandwal kedout.Isatthere
confusedashell.
Sf
undogotinthecl
osetasIwasget
ti
ng
dr
essedaf
terbathi
ng
Sf
undo:
“hey
”weki
ssed
Me:
“youback”
Sf
undo:
“yessor
ryIt
ookl
onger
”
Me:“i
tokay”hepi
ckedmeupandwal
kedt
othe
bedhelai
dmedown
Sf
undo:
“yourbr
east
sar
eget
ti
ngbi
gger
”
Me:“t
ryi
ngtosayI’m gaini
ngweight
?”Heshook
hi
sheadsmilingIheldthebackofhi
shead
br
ingi
nghisfaceclosetomi neweki
ssed
Weallset
tl
edi
naroundthet
abl
eandstart
ed
eat
ingwhil
eweli
stenedt
oAphetal
kabout
schoolandhowirr
it
ati
ngherFrenchclassis
andthatsheshoul
dgov i
sitheruncl
einFrance
soshegetsusedtothecultur
ewhent hebutl
er
camein
Hi
m:“sir
”weal
llookedathim“MrsMkhi
ze
j
uni
orisatt
hegate”Sfundocl
ear
edhi
sthroat
Sf
undo:
“whati
sshedoi
ngher
e?”
Him:“
shewant stogetinshoul
dweopenthe
gatef
orher?”Il
ookedatSfundotry
ingt
ohol
d
backmytearsSfundowasmar ri
edwhenI
l
ookedaroundeveryonewaslooki
ngatme
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04/
14,
21:
18]Ron:
#21

Sf
undo:
“don’
tsendheri
n”
Sne:
“Sf
undo”
Sf
undo:
“nomom whatdoesshewant
?”
Vuyani
:“y
ouwi
l
lhav
etot
alkt
ohert
oknow
that
”
Aphe: “don’
tsendheri
norIwil
lki
l
lhermysel
f
hasn’tshedoneenoughdamageSfundohas
mov edonnowshewant st
orui
nthisaswel
l”
Snesi ghed
Vuy
ani
:“st
ayoutoft
hisAphel
ele”
Aphe:
“ohbi
temedaddy
”
Sne:“Aphelel
e!!
”Shesai
dsomethi
nginwhat
soundedlikeChineseSi
mpi
welaughedsodi
d
vuyani
Sfundo:“noIwantnot hi
ngtodowi t
hthat
woman.Howdi dsheevenknowIwashome”
theyallshruggedthei
rshoulder
s“don’
tsend
herintellhersheisnotwelcomedhere”
But
ler
:“y
essi
r”hewal
kedaway
Me:
“excuseme”Ist
oodup
Sfundo:“nana”Ijustwal
kedaway“Sne!”I
walkedtot hekit
chenouttothebackyardIsat
downhecameoutr unni
ngandknelti
nfrontof
me“ I
’m sorry”
Me:
“youmar
ri
ed”
Sf
undo:
“Iwasmar
ri
ed”
Me:
“don’
tjustsayt
hatexpl
ain!
!”
Sfundo:
“youangryIunderst
andandI’
m sorr
y
butSnedon’tmakemeangr yaswelli
twon’tbe
pl
easantIwill
notteachyoumannerswhil
ey ou
i
nmypar ent’
shouse”
Me:
“sor
ryIshoul
dn’
thav
eyel
l
ed”
Sf
undo:
“Angel
aandIar
edi
vor
ced”
Me:
“why
?Whathappened?
”Hesi
ghed
Sfundo:“shecheated.WhenIgotmy
i
nherit
ancesi xyear
sbackIhadt ost
art
tr
aveli
ngal otshedidn’
twantustomov etoSA
permanent l
ysoIwasbet weenhereandther
e.
Sheclaimedshegotl onel
ythatIdi
dn’
tmake
ti
mef orhert
hatIchangedIwasnott
heman
shemar r
iedt
hatwhyshecheatedsowe
div
orced”
Me:
“whydi
dn’
tyout
ell
me?
”
Sfundo:“
Idi
dn’
tthi
nki
twasi
mpor
tantI
’
m
sorry
”Isi
ghed
Me:
“doy
oul
oveher
?”
Sf
undo:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Me:
“younotanswer
ingme”
Sfundo:
“noIdon’
tlov
eherany
mor eshehur
t
meourdi v
orcewasamessitj
ustaddedtot
he
hurt”
Me:“
hadshenotcheat
edy
out
wowoul
dst
il
lbe
t
oget
her?
”
Sf
undo:
“yes”Inodded
Me:“i
sthatwhyyouwon’
tmar
ryme?Because
ofherandwhatshedi
d?”
Sf
undo:
“It
houghty
oudon’
twantt
ogetmar
ri
ed
andbesi
desi nmyeyesweal readymarr
iedwe
j
ustdi
dn’thaveaweddi ngwedon’tneeda
pi
eceofpapersayingwel ov
eandwe
committ
edt oeachother”
Me:
“okay
”weki
ssedhest
oodupandpul
l
ed
meup
Sfundo:“I
’
m sor r
yIdidn’ttellyou.Il
oveyou
babyIloveyousomuch”t henmar rymeI
almostsaidIdon’tknowwhyIwant edSfundo
tomar r
ymesobadl ybecausewi thLut
handoI
wasokaywi thnotmar ry
inghim may beitwas
becauseIhadt oldmy selfthatonceIgetstabl
e
atworkmar r
iageandf amilywouldbet henext
stepbutnowi twaslikeIwasst uck
Me: “
Iloveyoutoo”wekissedslowl
yhe
grabbedmyassImoanedget ti
ngcl
osertohim
someonecl ear
edthei
rthroatwepul
ledaparti
t
wasSi mpiwe
Sf
undo:
“sup?
”
Si
mpi
we:
“mom sai
dtocheckony
out
wo”
Sfundo:“
wegoodlet’
sgo”weal
lwenbackt
o
thedinni
ngr
oom Sfundopul
l
edoutt
hechai
rfor
meIwentbacktoeating
Vuyani
:“yourmot hert
hinksSneguguis
pr
egnant”againjustli
kethat!
!Sfundochoked
onhisfoodIbrushedhi sbackgi
v i
nghima
gl
assofwat er
Sf
undo:
“ar
en’
tyougoi
ngt
osaysomet
hing?
!”
Me:“
don’
tshoutI’
mrightnextt
oyou”Aphe
gi
ggl
ed“noI
’m notpr
egnant”
Sne:
“hav
eyoudoneat
est
”
Me: “
nobutIknowmybodyandI
’
vebeen
pr
egnantbefor
esoIwoul
dknowbesi
desI’
m on
aninj
ect
ion”
Si
mpi
we:
“youhav
eababy
?”
Sf
undo:
“whydoy
oul
ookdi
sappoi
ntedmom?
”
Sne:
“justthati
twoul
dbeni
cei
fyouwoul
dhav
e
ababySf undo”
Me:“y
esIhav
eadaught
ershei
stwogoi
ngon
t
hree”
Si
mpi
we:
“shemustbebeaut
if
ul”
Sfundo:
“mostador
abl
ebabyever
”hetookout
hi
sphonewenttohispi
ctur
esandgav
et he
phonetoSi
mpiwe
Si
mpi
we:
“sher
eal
l
yis”
Aphe:
“aahnowIwantababy
”
Vuyani
:“Aphelel
edon’tmakemegocrazy
”hi
s
tonewentallangryandaut
hor
it
ati
ve
Aphe:
“oohdaddyrel
axIhaven’
tevenstar
ted
myperi
odev enmybodyknowsI’m st
il
lakid”
wealll
aughedAphewasdramatic
Vuy
ani
:“Snehandl
eyourchi
l
dpl
ease”
Sf
undo:
“st
opst
aringatmydaught
erandgi
ve
memyphoneback”
Aphe:
“whatdoesshecal
lyou?
”
Sf
undo:
“daddy
”
Vuy
ani
:“ar
eyouherdad?
”
Sfundo:“
I’
mtryingtot
hesepastmonthst
hat
they’
vebeenstayi
ngwithmehavebeeneasy
she’sasweetchil
d”
Me:
“hei
samazingwit
hherspoi
lsheral
it
tl
ebit
t
oomuchformyli
ki
ngbuttheyl
oveeachother
”
Sne:
“youshoul
dhav
ebr
oughtherwi
thy
ou”
Me:“shei
swi t
hherfather
”shenoddedwe
f
ini
sheddinnerthenwenttohav
edrinksi
nfr
ont
i
nthetvroom.
Hepul
l
edmecl
oset
ohi
m Iki
ssedhi
schest
Sf
undo:
“Imi
ssl
elo”
Me:
“Iknowmet
oo”
Sfundo:
“maybewewi
l
ljustspendt
hisweek
hereandgohome”
Me:
“okay
”
Sf
undo:
“youknowI
’
m buy
inghert
hatdogshe
want
s”
Me:“noyoucan’
tSfundowhowil
ltakecar
eofi
t
andbesi
desweliveinapent
houseadogneeds
ayar
dbaby ”
Sf
undo:
“wewi
l
lmanage”Isi
ghed
Me:
“yourmom i
staki
ngmeshoppi
ng
t
omorrow”
Sfundo:
“I’
ll
giv
ey oumyot
hercar
dtheoney
ou
havewon’twork”
Me:“
okayt
hanky
ou”her
oll
edusov
erget
ti
ng
ont
opofme
Sf
undo:
“tel
lmesomet
hing”
Me:
“hm”
Sf
undo:
“yousur
eyounotpr
egnant
”
Me: “
SfundoIknowyoudon’twanttohavea
babywi t
hmejustl
ikeIknowyoudon’twantt
o
mar r
ymesor el
axI’
ll
makesur eIdon’
tget
pregnant”
Sf
undo:
“Inev
ersai
dIdon’
twantt
ohav
eababy
wi
thy
ou”
Me:“
let
’snottal
kaboutthi
situpsett
ingmeI
woul
drathery
ouf uckme”helaughed
Sf
undo:
“okay
.Howdoy
ouwanti
t?”
Me:
“har
dandf
ast
”
Sf
undo:
“asy
ouwi
sh”
.
Il
ookedatmyselfi
nthemirr
orSf
undowas
si
tt
ingonthecouchwatchi
ngme
Me: “howdoIlook?Yourmom i
salway
s
dressedwel
l”hestoodupandwalkedt
ome
huggedmef rom behi
ndki
ssedmyneck
Sf
undo:“
youlookper
fectmuntuwam Imi
ght
j
ustgowit
hyousoIwi l
lfi
ghtof
fal
lthemen
whoaregoi
ngtobedrooli
ngovery
ou”
Me:
“mxm”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“youl
ookbeaut
if
ul”
Me:
“doIbaby
?”
Sf
undo:
“yes”
Me:“
okaythanky
ou”hepr
essedhi
ser
ect
ionon
myass“oh”
Sf
undo:
“heagr
ees”
Me:“I’
m gladkhabazelaapproves.Nowmov eI
don’
twantt okeepy ourmotherwaiti
ng”I
pushedhim offmeusi ngmyassIt ookmybag
wewal kedoutgoingdownstairsfoundhismom
onhisfather
’slaptheywerekissingitwas
real
l
ydeepSf undocl ear
edhisthroattheydi
dn’
t
stop
Sfundo:
“comeonmany oucant
ell
wei nthe
room”hisdadshowedushi
smiddl
ef i
nger
Sfundoshookhi
sheadwewentoutlaughi
ng
Me:
“wow”
Sfundo:“
theyjustli
kethat”westoodi
nbythe
carthedri
veropenedt hedoorj
ustasthehouse
dooropenedvuy aniandSnewalkedout
Wesatdownatt
her
est
aur
antIwasdogt
ir
ed
thedri
verhadt akenourpaperbagst ot hecar
hehadt omaket wot r
ipsSneshopsl ikea
prof
essionalshoppershel i
ter
all
yforcedmet o
buylotofthi
ngsaf t
ershesawt hecardSf undo
hadgivenmei twasn’tjustnormalshopsI
usuall
ybuyfrom itwasexpensi vedesigner
shops
Sne:
“howi
smysonsnegugu?
”Ismi
l
ed
Me:
“hi
sgoodper
fectact
ual
l
y”
Sne:“ helookshappyhi sfatherandIwer e
worriedaf terthediv orce.Itlef
thim exhausted
Angel ajusttookev erythi
ngwhenshel eftthen
shetr i
edt akinghismoneyl uckil
ywehav et he
bestlawy ersshedi dn’tgetthatmuchandal l
thankst oVuy ani,
Sf undowassodr ainedby
everythinghewant edt ogi veherany t
hingand
everythingshewant edasaset tl
ement.Asi fher
cheatingwasn’ twor seshewentt othemedi a
clai
mi ngshei sleavingSf undobecausehewas
abusiv eandshewasn’ thappysoshef ound
comfor
tandprot
ecti
oni
nt hearmsofanother
mansherui
nedSfundo’
sreputat
ionnotj
usthi
s
butt
hefamil
ynameaswel l
”
Me:“musthavebeenhardtimesforhim.Ican’
t
event
hinkabouthurti
ngSfundoinanywaylet
al
oneli
ket hat
.Heissuchanamazi ngper
son
andIl
ovehi m somuchmydaught erl
oveshim
andhetreatsherl
ikeapri
ncess”
Sne:“
I’
m gl
adhefoundyou.Zamatel
lsme
Bri
annaandSi
hlewerenotsonicet
oy ou”
Me:
“yeah”
Sne:“
Ispoketot
hem theyapologi
zedt
heysai
d
theyj
ustdon’
twantanotherAngel
a”
Me:
“Il
ovey
oursont
oomucht
ohur
thi
mli
ke
t
hat
”
Sne:“
wecomi
ngt
oSAsoonwoul
dlov
etomeet
l
elo”
Me:
“youwi
l
l”
Sne:
“may
bewewi
l
lspendf
ewday
sinJhb”
Me:
“t
hatwoul
dber
eal
l
yni
ce”
.
SfundoandIwer espendingtheweekendin
Durbanhehadanev entt
hatwehadt oatt
end
Saturdayni
ghtsodur i
ngthedayIdroveto
Ziyanda’
sflatwhil
ehewasbusyatt hehotel
.I
hadn’tseenherformonthsIactual
l
yhadlast
seenherbef or
eIhaddinneratMarcel
’shome
Zi
yanda:
“soy
eahhedumpedme”
Me: “
sor
ryboo”Iwasactual
l
ygl
adthatheputa
stoptot
hismadness“sonowyougoingt
ogo
backhome?”
Ziyanda:“notyet.Ther entispaidupf orthe
nexttwomont hsIwasact ual
lythi
nkingabout
getti
ngsomeonet or enttheotherroom and
withmyi nternshi
pIcansur vi
ve”someone
knockedont hedoormor eli
kepounded“ t he
fuck”shest oodupgoi ngt oopenthenextIsaw
wasaf ootonherst omachwhi chmadeherf l
y
tothefloorIquicklystoodupj ustassi hl
eand
Bri
annagoti
nIjustwi
shedthefl
oorcoul
dopen
upandswall
owmeIwast i
redl
i
kewhymustI
al
waysbecaughtupindramaPART21LOVE
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Si
hleki
ckedherst
omachr
epeat
edl
y
Me:
“st
op!
”
Bri
anna:“wel
lwell wellwhatdowehav ehere? ”
TheybothlookedatmeasZi y
andawast ryi
ng
tostandupbutSi hleputherfootonZiyanda’s
neckherheeldigginginZiyandastar
tedcrying
Me:
“comeonSi
hlel
etgoofher
”
Si
hle:
“whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eSne?
”
Bri
anna:“
justwhenwewer
est
art
ingt
owar
m
uptoyou”
Zi
yanda:
“what
’sgoi
ngonSne?
”IpushedSi
hle
of
fherandhel
pedherst
andupshehi
dbehi
nd
meIalmostl
aughed
Si
hle:
“Snedi
dyouknowshewassl
eepi
ngwi
th
myhusband?
”
Zi
yanda:
“oh”
Me:
“Iknewshewasi
nar
elat
ionshi
pwi
th
Mar
celbu.
.”
Br
ianna:
“ohhel
lnodon’
tev
ent
ryt
ojust
if
yit
”
Me:“willyoushutBr i
annaGody out al
kal otjust
l
etmet alk.Ididn’
tknowi twasy ourMarcel up
unti
lthedinnerthenhet hreat
enedmesay ingit
noneofmybusi nessandhewasr ighti
twas
andstil
lisnoneofmybusi ness.Iam not
gett
inginvolvedinthi
sIhav emyownshi tgoing
on”Sihl
et ri
edtograbZi yandafrom behi
ndme
Ziy
anda: “Idi
dnothingwrong!
!Idi
dn’
tcheaton
youy ourhusbanddidyoushouldbeoutther
e
sort
ingthisoutwithhim”
Br
ianna:
“bi
tchy
ouknewhewasmar
ri
ed”
Me:“
Mar
celwentaft
erherandhei
stheone
t
hati
smarr
iednotZi
yanda”
Sihl
e:“she’
srightt
hisi
sallMarcel
’
sfaul
t”she
soundedsobr okenhertear
simmediat
elyfel
lI
walkedclosertoher
Me:
“I’
m sor
rysi
hle”
Sihl
e:“don’tpi
tymeyouknewall
longyou’
ve
beenlookingatmeandseeingafoolsodon’
t
actli
key oucarenow”shewal
kedout
Bri
anna:“wealr
eadyconsi
der
edyouaspartof
thefamil
yandwhatyoudidtoSi
hlei
swrong
Sney oushoul
dhavetol
dher”
Me:
“itwasnoneofmybusi
ness”
Brianna:“
soyousayjustwonderi
fSfundowi
l
l
thi
nkt hesame”shewalkedoutZi
yanda
breathedout
Ziy
anda:“
thankyoui
fyouwer
enother
eI’
m
suret
heywouldhavebeat
enmeupmore”
Me:
“justshutupZi
yanda!
!Fuck!It
oldy
oul
ong
ti
meagot oendthisshi
tnowyougotme
i
nvolved.I
fSi
hlegoescryi
ngt
oSfundohewil
l
beangryatme”Igrabbedmybagandwalked
out.
Ical
l
edSf
undowhi
l
edr
ivi
ngoutofZi
yanda’
s
fl
at
Sf
undo:
“munt
uwam”
Me:“youbackf
rom t
hehot
el?Ineedt
otal
kto
you”
Sf
undo:
“why
?What
’swr
ong?I
’
lll
eav
enow”
Me:
“ify
oust
il
lbusyi
tokay
”
Sf
undo:
“noI
’
mleav
ingnow”Isi
ghed
Me:
“okay
”
Sfundo:“Iloveyouokay
?Ev ery
thi
ngisgoi
ngto
befine”IletoutasobIjustgotsoemo“nana
don’tcryplease”
Me:
“I’
m sor
rySf
undoIdon’
twannal
osey
ou”
Sf
undo:
“youwon’
tlosemenanaI
’
m dr
ivi
ngof
f
okayj
ustcal
m downf
orme”Isni
ff
ed
Me:
“okay
”
WhenIpar kedt
hecarinthegaragehecame
outtheki
tchendoorandjoggedtomehe
openedthedoorandpull
edmeoutIcr ashedon
hi
schest
Sfundo:
“I’
m her
e”hekissedmyfor
ehead.He
pi
ckedmeupbr idal
styl
eandgotinthehouse
hesatonthecouch“tal
ktome”hepushedmy
weavefrom myface
Me:
“itSi
hle”
Sfundo: “whatdi dshedot oy ou”Itoldhim
everythingIwat chedhisfacegof rom concer
n
toangr yasIt ol
dwhenIt ol
dhi m howMar cel
threatenedmehegotmeof fhim andst oodup
het ookt hevaset hathadfreshf l
ower sonthe
coffeet abl
eandt hr
ewi tt
ot hewal li
tbroke,
piecesandwat eralongwi t
ht heflowers
splashedev erywher e
Me:
“Sf
undo!
!”
Sf
undo: “I
’
llki
l
lhimfir
stl
yhecheat
sonmyl i
ttl
e
si
sterthenhethreat
ensmywomanI ’l
lfucki
ng
br
eakhi sbones”hegrabbedhi
scarkeysIheld
hi
sar m
Me:
“babypl
ease”
Sf
undo:
“noSnehewi
l
lnev
erl
ear
n”
Me:“
lett
hem sor
titoutSf
undopl
easedon’
tget
i
nvol
ved”
Sfundo:“hei
nvolv
edmewhenhehadt he
audacit
yt ot
hreat
enyou”hey
ankedhi
sarms
offandwentoutIranaft
erhi
m
Me:“Sf
undowait
!!
”Hegoti
nhi
scaranddr
ove
of
finaspeedIcal
ledhi
m
Sf
undo:
“Sne”Ist
art
edcr
ying“
Snedon’
tcr
y”
Me:
“comeback”
Sf
undo:
“no”Icr
iedl
ouderhegr
unt
ed
Me:
“pl
easeIdon’
tknowwhatIwi
l
ldoi
fyou
don’
tcomebacknow”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lbehomei
nami
nut
e”hewhi
sper
ed
Me: “okay ”Iendedt hecallandsatdownwi t
h
myl egst uckedundermeIcoul dn’
tstopcryi
ng
atthatpoi ntIwasn’tev ensurewhyIwascr yi
ng
butmyt earswoul dn’tstopcomingoutunti
lhe
camebackl essthanf i
vemi nut
esafterhehad
l
eft
Sfundo:
“baby
”Isobbedl
ouderhepi
ckedmeup
andsatdownwithmestr
addli
nghim“I
’m sor
ry
pl
easestopcryi
ng”
Me:“
Idon’
twanty
ouf
ight
ingwi
thy
ourbr
other
”
hewi
pedmyface
Sfundo:“
IknowI’
m sorr
y”heki
ssedmyhead
“whatcanIdotakeyoufeel
bet
ter?
”Ipout
ed
Me:“wel
lyoucanmakel ovetome”helaughed
l
oudl
ycarelessl
ythr
owinghisheadback
l
ooki
ngsogor geousIbrushedhi
scheekwith
mythumb
Sf
undo:
“ist
hatal
l
?”
Me:
“yessi
r”
Sf
undo:
“pr
omi
semet
onotcr
yagai
n?”
Me: “
Ican’
tpr
omi
sey
out
hat
”hest
oodup
chuckli
ng
Sfundo:“It
houghtasmuch”helai
dmeont he
carpetgett
ingbetweenmylegs“i
fyouwer
eto
haveany t
hingyouwantint
hewor l
dwhatwoul
d
i
tbe”
Me:“
worl
dpeace”welaughedIt
il
tedmyhead
ashest
art
edki
ssingmyneck
Sfundo:
“oursecondy
earanni
ver
sar
yiscomi
ng
up”
Me:
“yes”Ibr
eat
hedout
Sfundo:“
whatdoyouwant
?”Hest
art
ed
unbutt
oningmyshi
rt
Me:
“Ihav
eev
ery
thi
ngIwant
”
Sf
undo:
“nanaIr
eal
l
ydon’
tknowwhatt
oget
y
ou.Iam cl
uel
ess”
Me:
“wast
hinki
ngaboutwhi
teChr
ist
mas”
Sf
undo:
“Chr
ist
masi
nNewYor
k”
Me:
“yes”
Sf
undo:“t
hat’
safami
lyt
hing”hesuckedonmy
br
easthar
dmakingmegapsIheldhishead“t
ell
mewhaty ouwant
”hewentontosuckthe
ot
herone
Me:
“car
”hel
ookedatme
Sf
undo:
“whatki
nd?
”
Me:
“r8l
i
key
our
sbutwhi
te”hesmi
l
edbr
ight
ly
Sfundo:“I
’
m notsur
eIf
eelcomfor
tabl
ewi
th
youdriv
ingsomethi
ngt
hatpowerf
ul”
Me:“
babyy
ouasked”hewentbackt
oki
ssi
ng
me
Sfundo:“Idon’
tevenknowwhyyouwer ecryi
ng
nowy oureyesareall
redandpuff
yev enyour
noseispink”Ifr
ownedwewer egett
ingready
fortheeventandmymakeupwasnothel
ping
outwithmyf aceIl
ookedl
i
keI
’
vebeencry
ing
fordays
Me:
“st
ooop”
Sf
undo:
“don’
twhi
ne”
Me:
“mxm”hel
ookedatme
Sf
undo:
“bhandi
lami
str
aight
”
Me:“
ozongi
yekakebhut
i”hechuckl
edf
ixi
nghi
s
t
ie
Sfundo:“youlookbeauti
fulnanawit
hherred
puffyeyesandpinknosey oulookl
ikel
elowhen
youf or
cinghertoeatvegetabl
es”
Me:
“mxm”hel
aughed
Sf
undo:
“soungr
atef
ul.I
’
m compl
ement
ingy
ou”
Me: “
stopmessingwi thme”henodded
i
nnocentlyIr
oll
edmyey esandpushedhim
awayf r
om meIf i
nishedupdoingmyf acehe
tookmycoatandhangi tonmyshouldersI
t
ookmybagandwel
eft
Me:
“babe”
Sf
undo:
“hm”
Me:
“wi
l
ldi
nnerbeser
vedt
her
e?I
’
m hungr
y”
Sf
undo:
“youar
enev
erf
ull
”
Me:“Sf
undo!
!”Hel
aughedandbr
ushedmy
t
high
Sf
undo:
“I’
mjoki
ng.Yest
her
ewi
l
lbedi
nner
”
Me:
“babeam Igai
ningwei
ght
”
Sf
undo:
“nope”
Me:
“youbei
nghonest
?”
Sf
undo:
“ay
ikeSneguguy
es”
Me:
“okay
”
.
Sf
undo:“
lel
o!”Heshoutedassoonaswegot
of
ftheel
evatorl
elocameinthefoy
err
unni
ng
Lel
o:“
daddy
!”Sher
ant
ohi
m wi
thherar
ms
openhepi
ckedherupandt hrewheri
ntheai
rI
hel
dmybreathshelaughedloudl
yashecaught
her
Sfundo:“
daddymissedy
ousomuch”Blue
camet ousrunni
ngandbar
kinghel
i
ckedmy
ankle
Me:
“voest
ekmgodoy
i!
!”Sf
undol
aughed
Lel
o:“
mamam noswear
ing”
Sfundo:
“tel
lherl
elowam”weall
gotint
he
l
oungeNonduwaswat chi
ngt
vwegreet
edand
satdown
Lelo:“whatdidyoubuyf orme? ”Sfundodugi n
hi
spocketandcamebackwi thasmal l boxshe
openedi t“oohdaddy !
”Sheki ssedhi scheekit
wasani cecream charmf orherbr acel
et“ i
t’
s
ni
cebutIwantsomet hi
ngel se”hel aughedand
duginhi sotherpocketandpul l
edoutchocol at
e
“yeaah!!Loveyou”shet ookherchocol ateand
gotoffhi mranalongwi thBluer unningnextto
her
Me:
“Ihat
ethatdog”
Sf
undo: “
heisherfr
iendnanashelov
eshim”I
watchedhergi
ggli
ngasblueli
ckedherf
ace
Me:
“lel
odi
dpapacal
lyou?
”
Lel
o:“
yes”shest
oodupandwal
kedt
omeI
pi
ckedherup“mi
sshi
m mamam”
Me:
“wewi
l
lcal
lhi
m bef
oregoi
ngt
obed”
Lel
o:“
canIgot
ohi
m?”
Me:“Iwi
ll
cal
lhi
m andaski
fhecancomepi
ck
youup”
Lel
o:“
okaymamam”
Me:“
Imi
ssedy
ousomuch”Ist
oodupputher
onmywai
st
Sfundo:
“I’
l
ljoi
nyout
woinamomentgot
ta
checksomethi
ngoutdown”
Me:“okaybabe”heki
ssedl
elo’
sheadt
henwe
ki
ssedshortl
y
Lel
o:“
comebl
ue”wewentupgotont
hebedI
cal
l
edLut
hando
Lut
hando:
“mygi
rl
s”
Lel
o:“
papa!
!”Hechuckl
ed
Lut
hando:
“pr
incess”
Lel
o:“
missy
oupapa”
Lut
hando:
“mi
ssy
out
oo”
Me:
“Lut
handocomepi
ckherup”
Lut
hando:
“buti
tMondayt
omor
rowIgotwor
k”
Me:“
you’
vebeensobusyLuthando”Il
ookedat
l
elo“
goplayi
nyourr
oom lel
oI’l
lcomethere
nownow”
Lel
o:“
okay
”shewal
kedoutwi
thBl
ue
Luthando:“
wor khasbeenbusySnebutIhad
herlastweekend”
Me:“
letherspendtheweekwi
thy
ouNonduwi
l
l
bewi
thherasal ways”
Lut
hando:
“yeahI
’
llcomepi
ckt
hem upIal
so
mi
ssher
”
Me:“may
betomorr
owIjustgotbackfr
om
Dur
banwannaspendt
henightwithher
”he
smi
led
Luthando:“okaysi
sI’l
lpickt
hem upaf
terwor
k
tomorrow.Youhav en’
ttoldmewhatwedoing
forherbir
thday”
Me:“youknowhowshei sobsessedwithfr
ozen
soSfundowantedtotakehert
oDi sney
land
Par
is”heti
ghtenedhi
sjaws
Luthando:
“lel
oismydaught
erSnel
et’
snot
for
getthat
”
Me: “noonehasf or
gotten.Itwasjustat hought
obv i
ouslynodeci si
onregar di
nglelowi l
lbe
madewi t
houty ou”herubbedhi sfacei n
frust
rati
on“ cal
m downLut handoify oudon’t
wanthert ogoshewon’ tgowewi llhaveaparty
forheraty ourhousehav eawhol ef rozen
themei twillbebeauti
fulshewi l
lloveit”he
nodded
Lut
hando:
“thatsoundsbet
ter
”
Me:
“seey
out
omor
row”
Lut
hando:
“okay
.Lov
eyou”
Me:
“lov
eyou”
Sf
undo:
“whoy
oul
ovi
ng?
”
Me:“i
tLut
hando”henoddedandwal
kedt
othe
cl
oset
Lut
hando: “
bye.OhbythewayIproposedt
o
Namhl aandshe’
spregnantwewantthe
weddingtobebefor
eshegi v
esbi
rthsoalett
er
toherfamil
yhasalr
eadybeensent”
Me:
“oh”hesi
ghed
Luthando: “
I’
vebeenmeaningt otel
lyoujust
thatthingshavebeenhecti
c”Inodded“ pl
ease
don’tbeupset”Icoul
dn’thelpbutthi
nkhadhe
notbeenmybr ot
heritwouldbemehei s
mar r
ying.Namhlawasget t
ingtohave
everythingt
hatIwanted
Me:
“congr
atul
ati
ons”
Luthando:
“I’
m sor
rySne”Inoddedandended
thecall
Sfundo:
“youshouldbehappyyourbrot
heri
s
gett
ingmarri
ed”Iqui
ckl
ywipedmyt ear
s
Me:“
I’
m goi
ngtoplaywi
thl
eloi
nherr
oom”I
wal
kedoutbef
orehecoul
dsayany
thi
ng.PART
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14,
21:
18]Ron:
#23

Hegr
abbedmyarm whenIwasi
nfr
ontofl
elo’
s
r
oom aboutt
ogeti
n
Sfundo:
“youcryi
ngbecauseyourbrotheris
gett
ingmarri
ed.Whatthehel
liswrongwi thyou?
Howdoy outhinkthi
sismaki
ngmef eel?”
Me: “
noI’
m notcr
y i
ngbecauseofhi
my ou
assumingthi
ngsthatar
enotnecessar
y”
Sf
undo:
“don’
tpat
roni
zemeSne”
Me:
“yout
ryi
ngt
ofi
ghtwi
thmeIwon’
tlety
ou”
Sf
undo:
“whyar
eyouwi
thmei
fyoust
il
ll
ove
hi
m?”
Me: “
Idon’tl
ovehiml ikethat.Letgoofmyar m
youhurti
ngme”hehel dittighter“
Sfundoyou
hurti
ngme”It r
iedtwisti
ngandy anki
ngitouti
f
hisholdhejustpressedev entight
erhisfi
nger
s
diggi
nginmyski n
Sfundo:“
Iwil
lnotsi
tandwatchy
oucr
yov
er
anothermanIam nott
hatweak”
Me:“l
etgoofmei thur
ts”It
riedpushi
nghi
m
“
Sfundo!
!”Thedooropenedlelocameout
Lel
o:“daddy”hequickl
yletgoofmyar
m and
knel
tinfrontofher
Sf
undo:
“angel
”heki
ssedhercheek
Lel
o:“
yougoi
ngt
opl
aywi
thmeandbl
ue?
”
Sf
undo:
“yesl
et’
sgoi
n”t
heywenti
nIwentt
o
ourroom andsatont hebedIjustletmyt ear
s
fal
llet
tingoutsobsmyar mswaspai nf
ulandit
wasbr uisedal
readygett
ingswoll
en.Myphone
rangjustasIwasget t
ingunderthecov er
safter
gett
ingi nmypy j
amas
Me:
“mama”
Mom:
“hey
”
Me:
“ar
eyouokay
?”
Mom:
“yes.Yousoundl
i
key
ou’
vebeencr
ying”
Me:
“I’
mfi
nemama”
Mom: “
what
’swrongSne?Tal
ktome”Iheard
dadaski
ngwhatiswr
onginthebackgr
ound
Me:
“not
hingmamaI
’
mfi
ner
eal
l
y”
Mom:“i
sitbecauseLut
handoi
sget
ti
ng
mar
ri
ed?”
Me:“noI
’
m happyf
orhi
m hel
ovesNamhl
a”she
si
ghed
Mom:
“okayIwasj
ustchecki
ngony
ou.Your
f
atherwant
stospeakt
oyou”
Me:
“okay
”
Mom:
“Il
ovey
ou”
Me:
“lov
eyoumama”
Dad:
“Sneguguy
ourmot
hersay
syounotokay
”
Me:
“I’
m okaydad”
Dad:“sheisupsetnow”Ifounditfunnyhow
dadwat chedmom beingmistreat
edf ory
ears
butnowhewant snothingupsetti
nghermy
mom isaqueendadt reatsherli
keonesheget s
ever
ythingshewantsandneedsi nar edbig
bow
Me:“I
’
mfi
ner
eal
l
yshehasnot
hingt
owor
ry
about
”
Dad:“
willyoubehomef
ort
hel
obol
a
negot
iat
ions?”
Me:
“no”
Dad:
“whynot
?”
Me:
“doIneedt
obet
her
edad?
”
Dad:“
itwouldbeniceifyoucamesoyoucan
helpy
ourmot heroutaroundt
hehousewhen
yourf
ather
sgether e”
Me:
“I’
m notcomi
ngI
’
m busy
”
Dad:
“youdon’
tev
enknowt
hedat
e”
Me:
“I’
m busyf
ort
her
estoft
hey
ear
”
Dad:
“sowewi
l
lseey
ouChr
ist
mas”
Me:
“nowegoi
ngt
onewYor
k”
Dad:
“yourboy
fri
endi
staki
ngy
out
her
e?”
Me:
“yeswet
aki
ngl
elowi
thus”
Dad:“hhm”heendedthecal
lIgr
oanedand
cover
edmy sel
fwit
hthecomfort
er.
.
Iwokeupinthemor ni
ngwithSfundosleepi
ng
farf
rom meIhadn’thear
dhim getti
nginbed
l
astnight
.Igotof
fthebedwentt otakea
showergotoutwenttotheclosetIl
oti
onedgot
dressedinnavyanklegr azerpantswi t
hawhi t
e
l
ongsl eeveshi
rttuckedi nandnav yanklest
rap
heelsIlef
tmyweav elose.Itookmybags
walkedouttheclosethewasst i
llasleepI
sighedandwalkedout .Igotdownst airshad
cerealmyarm wasst il
lhurti
nglikefuckand
reall
ybrui
sedNondugoti njustasIwas
fi
nishingup
Me:
“mor
ning”shesmi
l
ed
Nondu:
“mor
ning”
Me:“
pleasepackf
oryouandlel
oLuthandowi
l
l
pi
ckyouuptodayyougonnaspendaweekwit
h
hi
m”
Nondu:
“okay
.Wet
aki
ngbl
ue?
”
Me:“yeahot
herwi
selelowill
cry
”shel aughed
noddi
ngIstoodup“Sfundoissti
ll
asleepit
beenahecti
cweekendf orhi
m makesur ewhen
l
elogetsupshedoesn’tgotoourroom”
Nondu:
“okay
”Il
eft
Me: “
IunderstandIwaswr ongbutIwasn’ teven
cryi
ngbecauseLut handoi sgett
ingmar ri
edI
wascr yi
ngbecauseNamhl aisget t
ingtohav e
whatIwantt hat’
sit.Nowhei sbeingpet t
yhe
hasn’tcal
ledandIdi dn’tr
ecei
vemyMonday
fl
ower sI’
m surehet ol
dhisassistanttonotget
them becausetheycomeev eryMondaysohe
hadhi sassi
stantcallthefl
ori
standcancel the
orderforthi
sMonday ”
Natasha:“
heishurti
ng”wewer
ehav
ingl
unchi
n
arestaur
antatsandtonci
ty
Me:“
heshoul
dhaveaskedmewhyIascr
ying
i
nst
eadofmanhandl
ingmeli
ket
hat”
Natasha:
“rel
ati
onshi
psar
ehar
dify
oudon’
t
communicateopenly
”
Me:“
haveyoutol
dKlei
naboutSbu?
”Ir
aisedmy
ey
ebrowsheshookherheadf
rowni
ng
Natasha:“
I’
m notgoi
ngtotellhi
mt here’
sno
poi
ntI’v
estoppedtal
ki
ngtohim hewant susto
getbacktoget
herIwil
lnotcheatorleavemy
man”
Me: “
Ican’
tbel
iev
ehewant
syouback!He
hasn’
tsaidany
thi
ngt
omeaboutthat
”
Natasha:
“Iknowr ight!Li
keIwoul
dev
erl
eave
myhusbandIl oveKl ei
nsomuchwe’v
ebeen
t
hroughshittogether”
Me:“
I’
ll
cal
lhi
mlat
eraskhi
mifhehasl
ost
mi
ndorwhat”
Nat
asha:
“di
dn’
tyousayhehasagi
rl
fr
iend”
Me: “hedoeshi sbeendati
ngthi
scoloured
chickNokwandabeent oget
herf
oryearsshei
s
crazyasf uckwedon’tcli
ckbutwecivil
towar
ds
eachot herforSbu’
ssakesoIdon’tknowwhat
gamehei splayi
ngat”
Nat
asha:
“I’
vebeent
hinki
ng”
Me:
“that
’snev
eragoodt
hing”
Natasha:“
mxm”welaughed“Kl
einandIhave
thi
shouseweusuall
yleasei
ntheHampt onit
beauti
ful
andhugeIrememberhowy ousaid
yougoi ngtobei nNewYor kforChri
stmassoI
wast hinki
ngwel easethehousetogetherwe
cangot othecit
yforChrist
masev etheyhav
e
thisceremonywher etheyli
ghtthi
shugeass
treeitabsolut
elybeauti
full
elowil
ll
oveit”
Me:
“soundsgr
eatl
etmespeakt
oSf
undo”
Natasha:“ohhewill
agr
eet hatmangivesyou
every
thingyouwant”wegi ggledbutourgi
ggl
e
wasshor tli
vedwhenSfundowal kedinthe
rest
aurantwithsomegirlheheldherwaistas
hehelpedhersitdown
Me:
“fuckhi
m”
Nat
asha:“Iknowherheoncecamewithhert
o
t
hebusinessawardsfewyear
sback”
Me:
“fuckhi
mfordoi
ngt
hist
ome”Iwi
pedmy
t
ear
s
Natasha:
“don’
tcryI
’
m sur
eweexagger
ati
ngi
t
pr
obablybusi
ness”
Me:
“hehasf
uckedherIcant
ell
.Theyt
oo
f
amil
iarwi
theachot
her
”shewav
edf
orour
wai
tr
essandaskedf
orthebi
l
l
Natasha:“
may bebuthei
sy oursnowifI
crumbledeveryt
imeagirl
Kleinhasfucked
showedupIwoul dbeendiedbynow”Ishook
myheadmyt ear
swouldn’
tstopcoming
Me:“mxm”ourbill
came“ t
akeittot
hatt
able”
shenoddedandtookitt
oSf undohel
ookedat
meandpaid“let
’sgo”westoodupandleft
.
Igotathomet osil
enceanddar knessIj ust
huf fedandwentaroundt hefirstfl
oorswi t
ching
thel ight
son.NowIwi shedIhadn’ tsentl eloto
Lut handoIwentupstairsswitchedt heli
ght son
i
nt hepassageandourr oom Iwentt othe
closetchangedintoshor tsandal osecr opt op
withuggs.Iwentt otheki t
chenandst arted
cooki ngwhil
ehavingagl assofwi nemusi c
play i
ngsoftl
yIwascooki nglambchopswi t
h
stirfryandroast
edpot atoes.Iatebymy self
whi lewatchi
nganepi sodeofdoubt .
Sfundocameinwhi
leIwaswashi
ngthedishes
hetookoutabot
tl
eofwateranddr
ankit
Sf
undo:
“hi
”
Me:
“hi
”
Sf
undo:
“I’
dli
kesomef
ood”
Me:“okay
”hewenttot
hel
oungeaftert
akinga
bot
tl
eofbeerIdi
shedupf
orhi
mt ookittohim
Sfundo:“thankyou”Iwentbacktothedi shes
thenwentupt oourr oom It
ookabat hthen
wentt obed.JustasIwasf al
li
ngasleept he
comf ort
erwaspul l
edoffmehegr abbedmy
ankleandpul l
edmet ohim
Me:
“whatt
hef
uckSf
undo!
!”
Sfundo:“
whatthef ucki
sy ourprobl
em
Snegugu?Fir
stl
yy oucryoveryourextheny
ou
sulkthewholeday.Whyt hefuckareyou
makingmef eell
ikeshit
?”Istoodup
Me:“Iwasnotcryi
ngov
erLut
handoIdefi
nit
ely
wasn’tsul
ki
ngthewhol
edayoverhi
m!!
!”I
shookmyhead“ youhaveaf ucki
ngnerve
Sfundoafterthewayyouactedt odaypar
adi
ng
thatwhorelikeshe’
sthefuckingqueenof
England”
Sf
undo:
“wat
chhowy
out
alkt
ome”
Me: “fucky ouSf undof ucky ouf ormaki ngme
feell
ikeshi tandf uc…”hesl appedmehar dI
slappedhi m backwi thallmymi ghthesl apped
mehar derIf ellont hef l
oorhi sshoemade
contactwi thmyst omachi nahar dbl owIcr i
ed
outandscr eamedsor ryhedi dn’tstophi skicks
changedi ntopunchesandsl apsal laroundmy
bodyIst oppedcr yi
ngandapol ogizi
ngIst ar
t ed
prayingf orGodt oj ustletmegetoutoft his
ali
ve, prayingthatheev entuallygetstiredand
stopsbutwhenhef i
stedhishandi nmyweav e
andliftedmyheadupIknewi wasdy ingasmy
headsmashedbackont het i
ledfloorIhearda
cracksoundbef or emyey esshutdownPART
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#24

Iwokeupindar knesswiththeli
ghtfrom t
he
passageshinni
nginjustalit
tl
eItookmy
remotenexttomeswi t
chedonthel i
ghtI
l
ookedaroundIwasi nasingl
eroom Sfundo
wasasleeponthest udiocouchIrangabellfor
anurseshecamei naft
erawhil
eandsmi led
Her
:“MsCel
eyouf
inal
l
yup”
Me:
“canIgetsomewat
er”
Her
:“okayI
’
llgeti
tfory
ou”
Me:
“I’
minpai
n”
Her:
“I’
m gonnacal
lyourdoct
ortel
lheryouup
andgethertoor
dersomemedi ci
nef ory
ou.
Canyoutell
mespecifi
call
ywhereithurt
s?”
Me:“ever
ypar
tofmybodyespeci
all
ymyhead”
shenodded
Her
:“I
’
llbebacki
nami
nut
e”shewal
kedSf
undo
cl
earedhi
sthroatandwal
kedt
othebedhe
l
ookedawfulhiseyesr
edandpuf
fy
Sfundo:“
Iam sososor
rySneIdon’
tev
enknow
wheretobegi
nnanaIdon’
tknowwhat
happened”
Me:“whydidy
ouhitl
i
kethatSfundo?Likeyou
don’
tlov
emel i
keI
’
m somest r
angerthatyou
don’
tcare”
Sf
undo:
“nanaI
’
m sor
ry”
Me:“not
ell
whydi
dyouhi
tmel
i
ket
hat
”he
l
ookeddown
Sf
undo:“
Ihavenoexcusenot
hingIsaywi
l
l
makeyoufeel
bett
er”
Me:“
Idon’
twanty
out
omakemef
eel
bet
terI
j
ustwantt
oknowwhy
”
Sfundo:
“Igotangr
yIl
ostmycool
I’
mtr
uly
sorry
”
Me:
“okay
”hel
ookedatmeshocked
Sf
undo: “
nana”t
henursegotinwi
thajarof
waterandapaperdi
shwithinj
ect
ions
Her
:“Igoty
ourmedi
cineher
e”
Me:“t
hankyou”sheputsomei
nmyi nmyI
V
l
ineIf
acedawayaspainshor
tthr
oughmyvei
ns
Sfundo:
“sor
rynana”heki
ssedmybandage
head
Her:“
alldoneandnowt heshoul
der”she
i
nject
edmyshoul der“
alldonesor
ry.I
tgoingt
o
knockyouout”
Me:
“thanky
ou”shel
eftIdr
ankt
hewat
er
Sf
undo:
“howy
ouf
eel
i
ng?
”
Me:“
thepai
nisfadi
ngIf
eel
ali
tt
ledi
zzy
”he
br
ushedmyface
Sf
undo:“
I’
vebeensoscar
edyoujustwoul
dn’
t
wakeupthepastt
wodayshavebeenhell
”
Me:“mmh”If
acedawayfrom hi
m hesighed
andcametot
heothersi
dethatIwasfacing
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lmaket
hisr
ighty
ouwi
l
lsee”
Me:
“ismyphoneher
e”
Sf
undo:
“yesev
ery
onehasbeencal
l
ing”
Me:
“canIhav
eit
”
Sfundo:“t
oldthem someonebrokei
nthe
penthouse”Icoul
dn’tbel
i
evethener
veofthi
s
monitor
Me:
“myphone”hegav
eitt
omeIcal
l
edmom
Mom:
“hel
l
o”
Me:
“mama”Ibrokedownshekeptaski
ngwhat
i
swrongsheendedupcr
yingaswell
dadtook
t
hephone“dad”
Dad:
“tal
ktomet
ell
mewhathappened”
Me:“hehi
tmedadI ’
minhospi
tal
inpai
n”dad
st
art
edbreat
hingheavi
l
y
Dad:
“we’
llbet
herebefor
ethesunisout.Tel
l
t
hatsonofabi
tchtorun”heendedthecall
Sf
undo:
“I’
m sor
ry”
Me:“
don’ttouchme!
!Ouchawu”f
eltl
i
keat
rai
n
j
ustwentthroughmyhead
Sf
undo:
“nanacal
m downpl
ease”
Me:“
justdon’
ttouchmeandIwanty
out
o
l
eav
e”
Sf
undo:
“Iwon’
tleav
eyouher
e”
Me: “f
ucki
nggoSfundoIhat
ey ou”Idi
dn’
twant
him nextt
omeIwasdonewi thhim Iwasgoi
ng
toleavehi
m andneverl
ookback
Sf
undo:“
Snecalm downforGodsakest
hebaby
i
salr
eadyatr
isk”Il
ookedathi
m
Me:
“whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?”Hesmi
l
ed
Sf
undo:“y
oupr egnant5mont hs”Ilookedat
hi
mindisbel
iefmyper i
odshav ealway sbeen
i
rr
egul
areversinceIstar
tedtheinjecti
onthat’
s
whyIdon’
tpayat t
enti
ontothem
Me:
“how?
”Hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“wel
lyouknowhow”Ishookmyhead
andst
art
edcr
yingl
oudl
y
Me:
“Idon’
twantt
his”hef
rowned
Sf
undo:
“wow”
Me:“
justgoawaySf
undoplease”thenurse
cameinrunni
ng“
Idon’
twanthim here”
Nur
se:“sor
rysi
rbutI
’
m gonnahav
etoasky
ou
t
oleav
e”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m notl
eav
ingherher
e”,
Me:
“Idon’
twanty
ouher
e”
Nur
se:“
I’
m cal
l
ingsecur
it
y”hewal
kedoutj
ust
asSf
undo’
sphonerang
Sfundo:“Lut
hando…..voestekstayoutofmy
business”hedroppedthecall“
Imessedup
nanaI ’
m sor
ryI
’llmakethi
sbetteryouwil
lsee”
Me:
“justgopl
ease”secur
it
yguar
dsgoti
n
Secur
ity
:“pl
easel
eav
esi
r”hel
ookedatt
hem
fr
owning
Sf
undo:
“Icoul
dfuckt
hebot
hofy
ouupdon’
t
eventhinkofcomi ngcloset
omeIam notin
themood”hi stonewassof l
atandcoldIsaw
theguardslookingateachotheroneoft
hem
actual
lytookast epback
Me:“
Sfundoplease”hekissedmycheekand
wal
kedout.Icr
iedmy sel
ftosleep.
.
Iwaswokenupbysomeoneshaki ngmelight
ly
Iopenedmyey est
omeetapairofblueones
star
ingatmeshesmiledIbr
oughtmybedup
soIcouldsi
tthenr
ubbedmyey es
Doc:”MsCel
egoodmor
ningI
’
m doct
or
Ott
oman”
Me:
“mor
ning”
Doc:
“sogl
ady
ouupy
ougav
eusqui
teascar
e”
Me:
“I’
minpai
n”
Doc:“
Ihavet hem gi
vingyousomet hi
ngfort
he
pai
neveryfourhoursunfortunat
elyIcan’
tgi
ve
yousomethingstrongerbecauseofthebaby”
Me:
“howi
smybaby
?”
Doc:“str
ongboyy ouhaveinther
ejudgingfrom
thebrui
sesar oundy ourbodyheshouldn’
thave
survi
vedbuthei sperf
ectl
yfi
newej ustgoi
ngto
keepacl oseey eonhimf ort
herestofyour
pregnancy .Doyouhav eanob/gyn?Icould
recommendonef oryouheworkshereinthe
hospit
alv erygood”
Me:
“I’
dli
ket
omeethi
m”
Doc: “good.Wedi daCTscanony oubecause
wheny ougother ey ouwer einar eall
ybad
shapeunf ortunatelyyourskul li
sfracturedbut
everybadnewscomeswi t
hgoodnewsy ou
won’thav etogof orsurger yt
hedepr essed
segmenti slesst han5mm bel owt heinner
tabl
eofadj acentbonesoi twillbeabletoheal
i
tselfhowev erI’
m goi ngt oputy ouonl otof
medi cati
onmostf orpai nsandsomeant i
biot
ics
andsomet hi
ngf orsei zures”Inoddedwi thtears
runningdownmyf aceshesi ghed“ Imaybe
speakingoutoft urnbutifyouneedt ot alkto
someonewehav eapsy chologi
stIcoul dbook
anappointmentf oryouI’veseenvictimsof
domest i
cv i
olenceI’v
ebeenonemy selfitisnot
ahealthysit
uat i
onespeciall
ywhenchi l
drenar e
i
nvolved”thehost essbroughtinbreakfast
Me:
“thanky
ou”shenoddedandl
eft
Doc: “Iwil
l tell
them t obr i
ngy ouy ourmedi cine
afterbreakf ast.I’l
lcheckony oulaterpl ease
rememberwhatIsai daboutt al
kingt o
someone”shewal kedoutIgotof fthebed
wal kedtot hebat hroom Ididmybusi nesst hen
washedmyhandsIl ookedatmyf acemyl eft
cheekwasswol lenandr edIt ookof fthe
hospi t
algownIwaswear i
ngIhadbr ui
sesal l
overmybodyIj ustst ar
tedcry i
ngIcoul dn’ t
believeitthatSf undomySf undot heonewho
hasbeent reatingmel i
keaqueendi dt histome
tomybody .Itouchedmyst omachi tstilll
ooked
normal j
ustf el
thar dIf oundithardt obel ieve
thatI’vebeenpr egnantf ormont hsbutIhadn’ t
r
eal
i
zedit.Iwentoutwhi
l
esnif
fi
ngandwipi
ng
mytear
sIwentbacktobedandstar
tedeat
ing.
SfundogotinjustasIgotoutoft
hebat
hroom
afterbat
hinghewascarryi
ngabagandsome
fl
ower sal
ongwi t
hball
oonsandapaperbag
Sfundo:“morningnana”Ij ustlookedathi m“I
broughtyouy ourpyjamasandt oil
etri
es”Itook
thebagandt ookt hegownof fhewi nced“I’
m
real
lysorrySneI’m soashamed”Igoti nmy
warm pyjamasandwentt obed“ havey ouseen
thedoctor?”Inodded“ Ibroughty ousome
goodiesandy ourfavorit
emeal Iwentpast
tashas”
Me: “well
wherei
sit
?”Hechuckledandtookout
thefoodputt
ingi
tonthet
ablethenbroughti
t
closertome
Sf
undo:
“theyhav
en’
tser
vedl
unch?
”
Me:
“no”t
hedooropenedmypar
ent
sgoti
n
Sf
undo:
“Mr&Mr
sPet
ersonhel
l
o”
Dad: “i
sthi
shim? ”Inoddeddadmarchedto
Sfundoandpunchedhi m har
dangerfl
ushedi
n
Sfundo’seyesIactuall
ygotscaredf
ormy
fatherbutSfundoquickl
ycov er
edhi
sanger
withremorse
Sfundo:“MrPetersonIam r eal
lysorr
ysir”dad
threwanotherpuncht hentwomor eSf undo
mov edfrom hi
m shakinghi shead“si
rI’mreall
y
sorryi
twasami stakeIletmyangergetbet ter
ofmeIl oveyourdaught ershe’
smyhear t
”
Dad:“
getout.Idon’
twantyourexcusesI
cer
tai
nlydon’
twantyouclosetomydaughter
”
Sf
undo:
“I.
.”
Me:
“goSfundoIal
sodon’
twanty
oucl
oseto
meIwantyoutost
ayawayfr
om mepl
ease”
Sfundo:
“Il
ovey
ouSne”hewal
kedoutmom
rushedt
omeandtouchedmyf
ace
Mom:“howar
eyou?
”Ij
ustst
art
edcr
yingal
l
ov
eragain
Me:“I
’
m pregnantmamaIt houghtIwasdone
wit
hhimthatI’
llgetacleanbreakfrom hi
m and
nowIfi
ndoutI’m pregnant
”
Dad:“JesusSneguguy
ounev
erhear
dof
condoms!”
Mom: “
Bulel
ani!Notnowpl
easeshe’
sgoing
t
hroughoutenoughdon’
tst
artwi
thyour
r
ight
eousness”
Dad:
“your
ightmyl
ove.Sor
rySnej
ustt
hatthi
s
i
samess”Inoddedmom pull
edmyheadtoher
st
omach
Mom: “
ever
ythi
ngwi
l
lbej
ustf
iney
ouwi
l
lsee”
Lut
handogotin
Lut
hando:
“si
s”wehuggedheki
ssedmyhead
Me:
“can’
tbel
i
evehedi
dthi
stomeLut
hando”
Lut
hando:
“it
’sokayhewi
l
lgetwhati
scomi
ng
tohi
m”
.
AftertwodaysIwasdi scharged.Ihadn’
tseen
Sfundosincethedaydadchasedhi m outofmy
room hewasn’tall
owedt ov i
sitme.Iwasgoing
homef ortwoweekswhi l
ethereIwasgoi ngt
o
l
ookf oranapartmentbecauseIwasmov i
ng
outofSfundo’
spent houseIwast rul
ydonewi t
h
him.GuessitwasGod’ splanf ormetokeep
breaki
ngupwi ththefathersofmychi l
dren
becausefir
sti
twasLut handoandnowi twas
Sfundo.
Theel
evatoropenedwegotof
fIwaswi
thmy
par
ent
,lel
oandNondu
Dad:
“bequi
ck”
Me: “y
esdad”wewentupstai
rswit
hmom
foll
owingusIgotinmyroom Sf
undowasl ay
ing
i
nbedf aci
ngther
oofIwentt
othecloset
start
edpackingmysuit
casehegoti
n
Sf
undo:
“what
’sgoi
ngon?
”
Me:“I
’m goi
nghomefort
woweekst
henI
’
llbe
backandI’l
lmoveout
”
Sf
undo:
“don’
tbecr
azy
”
Me:
“I’
m notbei
ngcr
azy
”
Sf
undo:
“younotl
eav
ingmeSne”
Me:“
I’
mleav
ingyouSf
undoI’
m donewithy
ou”
hewal
kedcl
osertome“Sf
undoplease”
Sfundo:“
I’
m sorr
ySneImadeamistakeI
’l
l
neverdoitagai
nIpromi
seyouIswearonour
son’sl
if
e”
Me:
“asony
oual
mostki
l
led”
Sfundo:“
Iam sorrynanapl
easegi
vemethi
s
onelastchanceIpromisey
ouIwil
lnev
ereven
asshoutaty ou”
Me:“Idon’
thaveachancetogi
ve”Ipul
l
edmy
sui
tcasehestoodi
nfrontofme
Sf
undo:“pl
easeI
’
lldowhat
every
ouwant
pl
ease”
Me:“I’
m sor
rySf
undonowthatyou’
vestar
ted
beat
ingmeupIknowy ouwon’tst
op”hewent
onhi
sknee
Sfundo: “mar r
yme.Pleasemar rymeIl ovey ou
SneIcan’ ti
maginemyl i
fewithoutyouandnow
wehav eachi l
dpleaseletusbeaf amily.Just
usy out hebabyleloandmeourownf amily”I
shookmyheadcr yi
ngIwant edmar r
iagebut
notliket his
Me:“
I’
m sor
ryt
oo”Iwal
kedoutf
oundev
ery
one
down
Dad:“l
et’
sgo”hetookmysui
tcasemom t
ook
l
elo’
sweal l
lef
t.
Wegoti ndad’
scarandhedr ov
eof fIl
ooked
outthewindowcr yi
ngasweleftt
hebuildingI
l
ookedupatourf l
oorwel
lhi
sfl
oorwi t
ht ear
s
bl
indingmyv i
sion.PART24LOVEMELI KE
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04/
14,
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#25

Thet
woweeksj
ustf
lewbyi
twast
hewor
stt
wo
weeksofmyl if
eev enbr eakingupwi t
h
Luthandodi dn’thurtli
kebr eakingupwi th
Sfundo.Thef i
rstweekhehadcal l
edev erydayI
endedupswi tchingof fmyphone, t
hef ollowing
weekonWednesdayaki dknockedont hedoor
sayingauncl ecal l
edSf undowasaski ngf orme
Ididn’tevengocheck.Asi fmi ssingSf undo
wasn’tbadenoughIhadt odeal wit
hlel oasking
meaboutherdaddyev eryday .Luthando’ s
l
obol ahadbeenont hepr eviousweekend
everythingwentwel l
,ev erythinginhisl ifewas
goinggr eatforhim.Hehadboughtahouse,
j
ustbeenpr omot edtov icepr esident,
hewas
havingababyandget tingmar r
iedtosomeone
helov ed.Ont heotherhandmyl i
fewasf ucked
up.
I
twasFr i
daynightwewer eleavi
ngthe
fol
lowi
ngdayhadal readyf
ounda3bedr oom
housetorentIneededmyf urni
tur
esoIcall
ed
Sfundoheansweredi mmediatel
y
Sf
undo:
“nana”hewhi
sper
edhear
inghi
svoi
ce
j
ustbrokebackt
ear
sIthoughtabouthowhe
keptonsayi
nghewasgoingtokil
lmeashehit
me
Me:
“hi
”Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Sfundo:“
youhaven’
tbeenansweri
ngmycalls
thenyourphonewasoffandyoudidn’
tcome
outwhenIwast her
e.Imissyounanayouand
l
eloImissmyf amil
y”
Me: “
Ijustcall
edtotel
lyouthatI
’
m goingto
needmyf ur
nit
urebackI’
ll
sendat r
uckto
col
lectitt
omor row”
Sf
undo:
“nanapl
easedon’
tdot
hispl
easedon’
t
gi
veuponusonourlove”
Me:“youalmostkill
edmeSf undoyousmashed
myheadont heti
l
esy oual
mostkill
edme”I
sni
ff
ed“ IbeggedSfundoIapologi
zedyou
cont
inuedtobeatmeup”
Sf
undo:
“nanagi
vemeachancet
ofi
xthi
s”
Me:
“Ij
ustwantmyf
urni
tur
eSf
undo”
Sfundo:“I
’
llgi
veyouyourspacewhil
eyouheal
andthinkthi
ngsthr
oughyoudon’thavet
o
mov eoutI’
llmov
eoutstayinDurban”
Me:
“noI
’
m mov
ingoutal
readyf
oundapl
ace”
Sfundo:“wehavi
ngababySneandIwantmy
sonraisedbybot
hhispar
ents”
Me: “I
’
llsendat ruckformyfur
nit
uretomorr
ow
bye”Iendedt hecallhecal
ledIdecl
inedhi
scal
l
hesentat extsay i
nghelovesmelelocamein
myr oom lookingsad
Lel
o:“
mamam”
Me:
“lel
owam”
Lelo:
“Iwantdaddy
”Isi
ghedshest
artedcr
ying
“IwanttogohomeIwantmydaddy!”Mom got
i
n
Mom:
“whyy
ouwat
chi
nghercr
y”
Lel
o:“
kokoIwantdaddy
”
Mom:
“cal
lLut
hando”
Me:
“shewantSf
undo”
Mom:“oh.Thi
siswhaty ougetwhenyou
i
ntr
oduceeveryguyyougetinarel
ati
onship
wi
thtoyourdaughter
”shewalkedoutIface
t
imeSfundo
Sfundo:
“nana”hel
ookedsoawf
ulhi
sbear
d
hadgrown
Me:
“lel
oiscr
yingf
ory
ou”
Sfundo:
“gi
vemeami
nut
eI’
l
lcal
lyoubackj
ust
now”
Me: “
ohokay”heendedthecall
Ipi
ckeduplel
o
putti
ngheronmythighandwipedhert
ear
s
“daddywil
lcal
lj
ustnowtotalktoy
ou”
Lel
o:“
Iwantt
ogot
ohi
m Iwantt
ogohome”
Me: “
lel
opl
easeI’
mt i
red”shenoddedSfundo
cal
ledbackaft
erf
ivemi nut
esIanswer
edhe
hadshavedandchangedhist-
shir
t
Lel
o:“
daddy
!”
Sf
undo:
“lel
owam Imi
ssy
ousomuchy
ouand
mama”
Lel
o:“
Iwanty
oudaddyIwantt
ocomehome”
shest
art
edcr
yingagai
n
Sf
undo:“
Snecomehomeyouupset
ti
ngher”I
br
oughtl
elot
omychestr
ubbi
ngherback
Me:
“don’
tdot
hatSf
undodon’
tusemychi
l
d”
Sf
undo:
“ourchi
l
drenSnet
heyneedusbot
h”
Me: “I
’
m notdoingthi
swit
hy ou”Iendedthecal
l
“I
’m sorr
ybaby.Wouldyouli
keformet otake
youtoMcDonal d’
sgetyouahappymeal ”she
shookherhead
Lel
o:“
Iwantdaddy
”
Me:“
youwi
l
lseehi
mtomor
row”shel
ookedat
me
Lel
o:“
Iwi
l
l?”
Me:
“yes”shenoddedsmi
l
ing
Lel
o:“
okayl
et’
sgobuymyhappymeal
now”I
l
aughed
Me:
“youhappynow?
”
Lelo:
“yes”If
ixedmy
selft
henwal
kedt
omom’
s
room dadwasatwork
Me:
“cany
oubor
rowmeoneoft
hecar
s”
Mom:
“wher
eyougoi
ng?
”
Me:
“goi
ngt
obuyl
eloahappymeal
”
Mom:“
getmeabi
gmact
hekey
sar
eint
hef
ir
st
dr
awer
”
Me:“t
hankyou”It
ookt
hekey
s“l
et’
sgol
elo”I
pi
ckedheruptookmywal
l
etwel
eft.
.
Wemett heagentatthehouseIsignedthe
l
easedadpai dthedepositandr
entf ort
henext
fourmonths.Thehousewasamazi ngwi tha
hugey ar
dandinanest at
e.Wewai tedforthe
truckpeopl
e
Dad:
“Idon’
tknowwhyy
ouj
ustcomehome”
dadwantedmetoresi
gnatworkandgoback
homelookforaj
obaroundhome
Me:
“dadpl
easemyl
i
fei
sher
enow”
Dad:
“exact
lyy
ouneedaf
reshst
art
”
Me:“
I’
m okayhere”t
hetr
uckcame“t
imet
oput
t
hoseoldmusclestowor
kdaddy”
Dad: “
mxm I’m noty ourcar
toonwena”we
l
augheddadhel pedt heguyswit
hset t
ingup
everyt
hingthewayIwant edthem tothendad
paidandtheylef tIwenttogetNonduandl el
o
i
nt hebacky ar
dwel ockedandleftgoingt
othe
penthouse
Sfundowaswait
ingi
nthefoyerwhenwegot
offtheel
evat
orl
elor
antohim hel
ift
edherup
andhuggedhert
ight
lyki
ssi
ngherhead
Sf
undo:
“mi
ssedy
ousomuchl
elowam”
Lel
o:“
daddywegotanewhome”
Sf
undo:
“ohr
eal
l
y?”Shenoddedsmi
l
ing
Lel
o:“
mamam sai
dwecomi
ngt
ogetourbags”
Sfundo:
“gotot
heloungeIboughty
ou
somethi
ng”heputherdownsheranof
f
Me:“Nonduy
oucanst
artwi
thpacki
ngy
our
bags”
Nondu:
“okay
”shewentupst
air
s
Sf
undo:
“MrPet
erson”
Dad:“
hur
rySne”Inoddedandranupst
air
sto
ourr
oom.Sfundogotinwhi
leIwashalf
way
Sf
undo:
“soy
our
eal
l
yleav
ingmeSne”
Me:
“yes”
Sfundo:
“butwehav
ingachi
l
dSney
oucan’
tdo
that
”
Me: “
chi
ldr
engetr
aisedbysepar
atedpar
ent
s
al
ltheti
me”
Sfundo:“
andoursdoesn’
thav
etobepar
tof
thatst
ati
sti
cs”
Me:
“Sf
undopl
easeIhav
eal
otgoi
ngonr
ight
nowj
ustgi
vemeabr
eak”
Sf
undo:
“whatcanIdof
ory
out
oseeIl
ovey
ou”
Me: “
I’
venev erdoubt
edyourl
oveformeIam
notgoingtost ar
tnow.Weloveeachot
her
Sfundothere’snoquest
ioni
nthat”
Sfundo:“
thendon’
tleav
emeImadeami
stake
don’tgi
veuponme”
Me: “youbeatmeupl ikeadogSf undoIhav e
chil
drennowIhav etoputt hem f
irstIam not
goingt ohav emychildrengrowupwat chi
ng
theirmot herbei
ngapunchi ngbagIwi llnot
spendwhat ’
sleftofmyl i
fehidi
ngbr ui
ses
beforey oufinal
l
ykill
meIwon’ t
”-
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lnev
erdoi
tagai
nIswear
”
Me:
“theyal
lsayt
hat
”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m nott
hem”
Me:
“Idon’
twantt
otaket
hatchance”
Sf
undo:
“Ican’
tbel
i
evey
ougi
vi
nguponmej
ust
l
i
kethatl
i
keInevermat
ter
edl
i
key
ounev
er
l
ovedme”Ishookmyhead
Me:“
don’
tdot
hatdon’
ttr
ytomani
pul
atemei
t
won’
twor
k”
Sfundo:“Il
oveyouI
’l
lgi
vey
ouyourspacebut
don’tt
hinkI’
m gi
vi
nguponusIam notl
ett
ing
yougo”
Me:“youmightaswel
ll
etmegobecauseIam
notcoming”
Sf
undo:
“soy
ousay
”hewal
kedout
Sfundo:“
I’
m nott
aki
ngi
tSne”Iwasgi
vi
nghi
m
backhiscard
Me:“
wenottoget
herany
mor
eIam notgoi
ngt
o
usey
ourmoney”
Sf
undo:“
ifyouwon’tusef
oryour
sel
fusei
ton
l
eloandt
hingsfort
hebaby”
Me:
“Sf
undoman”
Sf
undo:
“keepi
t”heknel
tinf
rontofl
elo“
daddy
i
sgoi
ngt
omi
ssy
ou”
Lel
o:“
I’
m goi
ngt
ovi
sity
oudaddy
”
Sfundo:
“yesnowyouhavethr
eehomes.One
withmamaonewi t
hpapaandonewi t
hmey ou
suchaluckygi
rl
”shegi
gglednoddi
ng“Il
ove
youokay”
Lel
o:“
Ilov
eyoudaddy
”heki
ssedherf
oreheadI
pi
ckedherup
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lmi
ssy
ou”
Me:
“sowi
l
lI”
Sf
undo:
“Il
ovey
ouokay
”
Me:
“okay
”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lcal
lyouaboutt
hebaby
”
Me:
“okay
”
Sfundo:“I
’
mr eal
l
ysorrynanaI
’
llnev
erst
op
sayingsorr
yforwhatIdi
d”
Me:
“I’
l
lseeyou”Iputl
eloi
nhercarseatwent
t
omyseatanddroveoff
Lel
o:“
wegoi
ngt
oournewhomemamam?
”
Me:
“yesl
elowam”
Lel
o:“
yeah”
Me:
“justy
oumeandt
hebabynow”Iwhi
sper
ed
.
Iwaswokenupbymyphoner
ingi
ngi
nthe
morni
ngitwasSat
urday
Me:
“yes”
Sf
undo:
“hel
l
onana,
youst
il
lasl
eep?
”
Me:“yesSfundoi
tmorni
ngandi
t’
sthe
weekend”hechuckl
ed
Sfundo:
“justwant
edtosayhappyanni
ver
sar
y
andtakey out
obreakf
ast
”
Me:“Sf
undowebr
okeupt
her
eisnot
anni
ver
sary
”
Sf
undo:
“comeout
side”
Me:
“youdon’
tev
enknowwher
eIst
ay”
Sfundo:“
Ial
way
sknowwher
eyouev
erymi
nut
e
oftheday”
Me:
“youbei
ngcr
eepy
”
Sfundo:“comeoutI ’
m parkedinfr
ontofthe
gate”Igroanedandgotoutoft hebedIwent
outthroughthekitchenIstoodfr
ozenbyt he
doorrighti
nf r
ontofmewasawhi t
eAudi r8
withahuger edr i
bbonIwalkedtothecarand
l
ookedar oundtherewasnoonej ustthena
RangeRov erEvoquecameupandpar ked
behindther8Sf undocameout
Me:
“whatt
hehel
l
?!!
”
Sf
undo:
“happyanni
ver
sar
ymunt
uwam”
Me:
“Sf
undowebr
okeup!
!”
Sf
undo:
“noI
’
m gi
vi
ngy
ouspace”
Me:“I’
m notgoingtotell
youtotakei
tbacki
ta
beastofacarandIf ucki
nglovei
tsothankyou”
hesmiledbri
ghtlywehuggedIjustmoaned
makinghim chuckl
eIhadmi ssedbei
nginhi
s
ar
msandIwasal
way
shor
ny
Sf
undo:
“thanky
ouf
ort
aki
ngi
t”
Me:“youknowmeI ’
m agol ddigger”we
l
aughed“ y
ouboughty ourselfsomethingnew
aswell”heshookhisheadsmi l
ingandpulled
myhandwal ki
ngt otherangeheopenedt he
backdoorthereweret wocarseat sonepink
andblacktheotherblueandbl ack“I
’m
conf
used”
Sfundo:“y
ougonnaneedt
odr
ivear
oundwi
th
thekids”
Me:“Sf
undo!!
”Ipushedhim heshr
uggedhi
s
shoul
ders“
Ihavetheix35”
Sfundo:
“itLut
hando’
sanditt
imeyout
ooki
t
backtohim hehasababycoming”
Me:
“Sf
undo!
!”
Sfundo:
“st
opscreami
ngmyname”Ishookmy
headastear
sstart
edf
all
i
ng“
shi
tnanaI’m
sorry
”
Me:
“Il
ovet
hecar
sthanky
ou”
Sfundo:“
bot
hyour
snanafull
ypaidandi
nyour
name”Inoddedwehuggedhegrabbedmyass
l
ift
ingmeup“I’
vemissedy
ou”Il
ookedathi
m“ I
l
ov eyousomuch”
Me:
“Sf
undoy
ouhur
tmeIcan’
tgobackt
othat
”
Sfundo:“y
ouknowami st
akethatmot herstend
todowhenr aisi
ngt heirdaughters.Theyteach
them tobestronginsteadoft eachingthem
howt ohealyoudon’ tneedtobest r
ongSney ou
needtoheal andtrustmewhenIsayIwi llnever
dothatagainsoy oucancomebackt ome”
Me:“i
tnotaboutbei
ngst
rongSf
undo”he
ki
ssedmyf or
ehead
Sf
undo:“
gobathsowecangooutIhav
eaday
pl
annedoutf
orus”
Me:
“Sfundo”heshookhi
sheadandwal
kedi
n
t
hehouselel
owasupwat chi
ngt
v
Lel
o:“
daddy
!!
”Heputmedownandt
ookherI
l
eftt
hem i
nthel
oungewentt
omyr
oom.
.
Tomef l
ewbysmoot hlyIwasnow8mont hs
Sf undoandIt al
kr egul
arly
.Luthandohadgot t
en
traditi
onallymarri
edalreadyitwasabeautiful
cer emony .Iwasinbacky ardwatchi
nglelo
swi mi ntheportablepoolLuthandohadbought
forherwhensomeoneknockedont hefront
door
Me:
“babyI
’
m comi
ng”
Lelo: “
okaymamam”Igotupwi thali
ttl
e
struggleandwalkedinasIgotinthepassageI
coul dseethem st
andingoutsi
dethesli
ding
doori twasSfundoandhisparentsSfundohad
abl ueeyeitwasshutswollenandhisarm was
brokenIwal kedtothedoorandopenedi tev
en
hi
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Me:“
geti
n”theydid“
excusemeforami
nut
e
l
eloi
sinthepool
”Iwentout“
comeonbaby
t
imetogetout”
Lel
o:“
no”
Me:“l
elocomenow”sheswam t
omef
rowni
ng
Igotherout
Lel
o:“
Iwasst
il
lswi
mmi
ng”
Me: “Iknowandyouwil
l swimtomorrow”we
wentt oherr
oom Idr
iedherupt hengother
dressedinshor
tsandt-shir
twewentoutofher
room
Lel
o:“
mamaIwantahotdog”
Me:
“okayI
’
llmakei
tfory
ou”
Lel
o:“
andj
uice”
Me:
“okaybaby
”
Lel
o:“
Imisspapa”wegotinthel
oungeshe
wentt
owardstheki
tchenbutwhenshenot
iced
Ihadstoppedwalki
ngshest
oppedandlookat
met henshescr
eamedandraninthel
ounge
“daddy!
!”Hepi
ckedherupandki
ssedhercheek
Sf
undo:
“Imi
ssedy
ousomuch”shegi
ggl
ed
Lel
o:“
whathappenedt
oyoudaddy
?”
Sfundo:
“If
ell
”Ir
aisedmyey
ebr
owheshookhi
s
head
Lel
o:“
sor
ry”
Sne:“i
sthi
sthebeaut
if
ull
elo?
”lel
olookedat
herandgotoffSf
undo
Lel
o:“
hel
l
o”shehuggedher
Sne:
“hel
l
o”
Me:“
I’
m goi
ngt
omakel el
osomethi
ngt oeat
.
Woul
dy oul
i
kesomet
hingtoeatordr
ink?”
Sne:“justj
uice”Iwentt
ot hekit
chenmadel el
o
herfoodateonehotdogt hencall
edhershe
star
tedeatingItookthejuiceandbiscui
tst
o
thelounge
Vuyani
:“si
tdownma’ Pet
erson”Inoddedand
satdown“fi
rstl
ySfundohassomet hi
nghe
wantstotel
lyou”
Sf
undo:
“I’
mreal
l
ysor
rySneappar
ent
ly”
Sne:
“dontsayappar
ent
ly”
Sf
undo:“Ihavei
ssuesIshoul
dn’
thavegott
enin
arel
ati
onshipwhi
leIhadnotdeal
tcomplet
ely
wi
thAngelacheati
ngonm. .
”
Me: “
soyoubeatmeupbecauseoft heshi
t
yourexputt
ingyouthr
ough?!WasIther
e
Sfundo?
!!Di
dIperhapshel
pherfucktheguy
shewascheatingonyouwit
h”
Vuy ani
:“cal
m downSneoryoumightjustpop
thatchil
doutnow”hechuckledal
ongwi t
h
SfundobutImai nt
ainedast
rai
ghtfacehe
clearedhisthr
oat“
sorry”
Sfundo:
“ i
tnotl
i
kethatnanaI’
mjustsayi
ngit
seemslikeihavesomekindofangeri
ssues”
Sne:
“speakupman!
!”Sf
undol
ookeddown
Sfundo:“I
’m sor
rynanamom gotmea
psychologi
standI ’minangermanagement
cl
assesI ’
m workingonmy selfsoIcanbea
bett
erpar t
nertoy ouandabet terfat
hertoour
chil
dren.I’
l
lneverstopapologizingtoyou”
Me:“wor
konbeingbet
terfory
our
selfandy
our
chi
l
drenIam donewi
thyou”hesi
ghed
Sf
undo:
“Iunder
stand”
Sne:
“Ihopeyoubreaki
ngupwithSfundowon’t
makeyouwantnothingtodowit
hust her
estof
thef
amily
.Youhavingourgr
andchi
ldSnethat
makesyoufamil
ywewantar el
ati
onshipwit
h
him”
Me:
“I’
m notgoi
ngtokeephi
m awayf
rom hi
s
f
amil
yI’
m notpett
y!”
Vuyani
:“wenotsay
ingy
oupet
ty”l
elogoti
n
rubbi
nghereyes
Lel
o:“
mamam Iwantt
osl
eep”
Sf
undo:
“comeI
’
llt
akey
out
obed”shewal
ked
t
ohim hepi
ckedherupandwal
kedoutoft
he
l
ounge
Vuy ani:“
I’
v ebeenspeakingtoy ourfather”I
l
ookedathi m confusedhesmi led“yesy our
father.I’
m surpri
sedhedi dn’
tcallyouwewer e
thereear l
ierontopaydamagesbutt hat’
snot
thepoi ntwe’veapologizedtoyourfami l
yf or
Sfundomaki ngyoupr egnantoutofwedl ock
andobv i
ouslyhit
ti
ngy ouheshoul dn’thave
donet hatunderanyci rcumstances”
Me:
“yesheshoul
dn’
thav
e”
Sne:“wejustwantedtoapologi
zeonhi sbehalf
Idon’
tknowwhathasgot t
enintohim Sfundo
wasn’tr
aisedli
kethatwe’veneverhi
thim he
hasneverseenhisfatherr
aisehishandatme
orevenshoutathim”Inodded
Me: “
Ithoughthewasgoi
ngtokil
lmeIlov ehim
Ireal
lydobutIcan’
tgobacktohi
m hegr abbed
myhai randsmashedmyheadont heti
l
esI
can’t
”Snecamet osi
tnextt
omebr ushi
ngmy
backIwascr
ying
Vuyani:
“wenotsay i
nggobacktohimthat’
sup
toyouwej ustdon’
twanty
ouhatinghi
m and
taki
ngitoutonthechil
dbykeepi
nghimf r
om
hisfamil
y”Inodded
Me:
“Iwon’
t”Snewi
pedmyt
ear
s
Sne:“
I’
m sur
ethatmusthav
ebeent
raumat
ic
fory
ouwesor r
y”
Me:
“itokay
”
Sne:“comehere”Igotinherar mssheheldme
ti
ghtl
y“ I
’
m sosorryyouhadt ogothroughthat
”
Inoddedwepul l
edapartshewi pedmyt ear
s
“yousobeauti
fulyoushouldn’tbei
nt ear
s”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m sor
rynana”Il
ookedathi
m
Me:
“lel
oasl
eep?
”
Sf
undo:
“yes”
Vuy
ani
:“weshoul
dleav
eyout
orest
ma’
Pet
erson”
Me:“okay”weal
lstoodupIwal
kedt
hem
out
sidethepar
entsgoti
nthecar
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lseey
ouar
ound”
Me:
“whathappenedt
oyou?
”Hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“dadf
uckedmeup”Iwi
nced
Me:
“sor
ry”henodded
Sfundo:“Iam r
eall
ysorrySneI’
l
lst
ayawayf
rom
youunlessitaboutthekids”
Me: “
thankyou”hekissedmyforeheadandgot
i
nthecart heyl
eftIwentbacki
nl ockedt
he
doorIwarmedapi eandwenttobedat ewhi
le
l
ayingunderthecovers
.
ItwasChr i
stmasdaywewer eathomeandI
wast hreedayspastmyduedat eSfundowas
stayi
ngatahot eli
ntownwai ti
ngforwhenIgiv
e
birt
hwehadj ustfi
nishedlunchaft
ercoming
backf r
om churchwhenmywat erbr
okedad
rushedmet othehospital
whenwegott here
Sfundowasal r
eadywaiti
ngbytheentrance.
Fewhour sl
aterIgavebir
thtoahealt
hy
bouncingbabyboythatwenamedMpi l
onhle
NkanyeziMkhizemybabi eshaddi
ff
erent
surnamesandi tbot
heredme.
Sf
undowalkedi
nwit
hthenur
sepushi
ngLonhl
e
i
nhiscoti
twasthef
oll
owi
ngday
Sf
undo:
“howy
ouf
eel
i
ng?
”
Me:
“I’
m okay
”
Nurse:
“somebodyishungry”Isatupasshe
gav
emeLonhl eIstart
edfeedinghim hesucked
onmybr eastf
ordearli
fe
Sfundo:“
Ilovewat
chi
ngy
ouf
eedhi
m”t
he
nurseexcusedher
sel
f
Me:
“itst
il
lhur
ts”
Sfundo:“yougoingtogetusedt oit
”hebrushed
Lonhle’
shairhewasl i
ghtskinnednotli
kelel
o
butstil
ll
ightskinnedwi
thlotofhair“mom
wantsmet ofacetimeherI’
l
l waitf
oryouto
fi
nishfeedinghimfirst
.Ameli
aandSphear eon
theirwayth..
”hisphoneranghet ooki
toutof
hispocket“it
’sAmelia.Si
si…..okayI
’m coming”
heendedt hecall“t
heyhere”hewentout
Me: “
looksli
keyouaboutt omeetsomeofy our
famil
ymyNkany ezi”hejustst
aredatmeasi f
hecansee“ Ihopey ougr owtolookl
ikeyour
daddyhei ssuchagor geousman”Ihear d
chucklesandgigglesatthedoorIturnedand
sawSf undowithSpheandAmel iaIf
eltshades
ofembar r
assment
Sf
undo:“
Ihopehel
ooksl
i
kemeaswel
l
”Ir
oll
ed
myeyes
Me:
“what
ever
”theygoti
nandgr
eet
ed
Ameli
a:“
heissocuteSnemyGodhei
sgoi
ng
tol
ookli
keSfundo”
Sphe:“
andhowdoyouseethatmyheart
”his
tonewasfi
l
ledwi
thamusementwealll
aughed
Amel
i
a:“
hehashi
sfacest
ruct
urebabey
oucan
seet
hat
”
Sphe:
“hei
ssoy
ell
ow”
Sfundo:
“youshoul
dseehi
ssi
sterLonhl
ehas
nothi
ngonher”
Ameli
a:“
canIhol
dhi
m”shet
ookhi
m“hei
sso
l
ight
”
Me:
“2,
5kghei
ssmal
l
”
Sphe:
“youhadhi
m ci
rcumci
sed?
”
Sf
undo:
“yeahbet
ternowt
hanl
ater
”
Me:
“hecr
iedsomuch”
Amel
i
a:“
shamemanmypoorbaby
”
Sphe:
“wheni
sther
estoft
hef
ami
l
ycomi
ng?
”
Sf
undo:
“aunt
yZamasai
dal
i
ttl
elat
er”
Ameli
a:“Mar
cel
iscomi
ng?Hehasn’
tbeen
answer
ingmycall
s”
Sf
undo:“hehasn’
tbeental
ki
ngt oanyoneaf
ter
Si
hlegav
ehimt hediv
orcehejustdi
sappear
ed”
Amel
i
asi
ghed
Amel
i
a:“
dadsai
dweshoul
dgi
vehi
m space”
Sf
undo:
“hei
sinNewOr
leans”
Sphe:
“youf
oundhi
m?”
Sf
undo:
“yeahIdi
dthemot
her
swer
egoi
ng
cr
azywi
thworry”
Amel i
a:“hehasnoonet oblamebuthimself
howcanhecheatonSi hleaft
erev
eryt
hing
they’
vebeent hr
oughfighti
ngsohardtobe
togetherthat
’sl
ikeSphecheati
ngonmeaf ter
wef oughtsohar df
orourlove”
Sphe:
“Iwouldnev
ercheatony
oumyhear
t”
Ameli
asmiled
Ameli
a:“
IknowbecauseifyoudoI ’
l
lpackmy
chi
l
drenupandmov etoanothercount
ry”we
l
aughed
Sphe:“
youtwoarer
eal
l
yov
er”Amel
i
api
nched
hi
m“ ouchbaby
!”
Amel
i
a:“
shutup”
Me:
“itokayandy
eahweov
er”
Sf
undo;
“Iaskedhert
omar
ryme”
Me:
“youonl
yaskedbecauseIwasl
eav
ingy
ou”
Sf
undo:
“canIaskagai
n?”
Me:“noSf
undowearedonenot
hingyoudoor
saywil
lmakemecomebacktoyou”
Amelia:“
haslel
oseenherbrot
her
?”Imouthed
thankyoutoherforchangi
ngt
hesubj
ect
Me:
“nomom sai
dtheywi
l
lcomedur
ingl
unch”
Sphe:“Ihopeshewon’tbejeal
ousl
i
keNdaloit
tooksomet i
mef orhert
ogetusedtohavi
ng
anotherbabyi
nthehousebutnowshel ov
es
Mininhl
esheisalwayswithher”
Sf
undo:“
lel
oisbubbl
ywit
hanopenheartshe
wi
lll
oveherl
it
tl
ebrot
herf
rom t
hewordgo”
Me:“
IhopesobecauseIwon’
tbeabl
etodeal
wi
thatant
rum”
Amel i
a:“ar
eyougetti
ngasecondnanny?Igota
secondnannywhenanannyi sstr
essedoutand
i
rri
tatedtheydon’
ttakecar
eofthebabi
es
properl
y”
Me:
“Ihadn’
tthoughtabouti
t”
Sf
undo:
“weget
ti
ngasecondnanny
”
Me:
“okay
”
Ameli
a: “
may begetsomeonewit
ha
qual
i
ficati
onshecanstartpr
epar
ingl
elof
or
wheny ousendhertoschool
”
Me:
“that
’sgoi
ngt
obeexpensi
ve”
Sf
undo:
“fi
ndonef
orusAmel
i
a”shenodded
Ameli
a:“I
’
llcal
ltheagency
”thedooropenedmy
par
entsgotinwithl
elo
Lel
o:“
daddy
”
Sfundo:“
lel
owam”hepi
ckedherup“
you
gett
ingbi
g”shegi
ggl
ed
Lel
o:“
kokomakesmeeatal
ot”het
hrewheri
n
theairshelaughedloudlywakingupLonhl
ehe
cri
edhisvoicewassosof tIt
ookhim and
star
tedfeedinghim astheygreeteachot
her
Sf
undo:
“comeseey
ourl
i
ttl
ebr
other
”
Lel
o:“
myl
i
ttl
ebr
other
?”
Sf
undo:
“yest
hisi
syourl
i
ttl
ebr
otherLonhl
e”
Lel
o:“
hel
ooksl
i
kemydol
ldaddy
”
Dad:“
spoketoy ourf
atheryest
erdayhewant s
tohaveawelcomecer emonyforMpilonhle”oh
for
gottomentionvuyanianddadweref r
iends
nowIdon’tknowwhybutt heyspokeregularl
y
Sf
undo:“hedidment
iont
hatbutwehav
en’
t
di
scussedit
”
Dad:“hm”theystayedwit
hmeunt i
lthedoct
or
chasedthem outthenl
aterZamaBri
anSihle
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Istayedathomef orthr
eemont hsSf undodidn’
t
seethebabyaf t
erIwasdi schar gedf rom the
hospitalbecausedadwoul dn’tall
owhi mt o
comehomeandmom woul dn’tal
lowt hedadt o
l
eav ethehouseSf undot r
iedf ighti
ngi this
parentscalledbutmypar ent sstuckt ot hei
r
rul
es.Sf undowasf rust
ratedbutt her ewas
nothingIcoulddoabouti tsowef acet imed
oftenandourl it
tl
eNkany ezi wasgr owi ngup
fastgaininglotofweightwhi chwasgr eat
becausehewassuchat i
nynewbor n.
WhenIpulledupinmyhouseSf undowas
al
readyparkedoutsi
dethegarageIjustl
aughed
andparkedbehindhi
m hegotof ft
hecarand
openedthebackdoorthekidswereasleep
Sfundo:“
goopent hedoor
”Ijumpedofft
hecar
wenttoopent hedoorhegoti ncar
ryi
ngl
eloI
tookLonhle.Sfundocamebackoutandhelped
Nonduwi t
ht hebagsthesecondnannywas
goi
ngt
ocomet
omor
row
Sfundo:
“hel
ookssopeacef
ul”Ihadj
ustput
Lonhlei
nbed“hei
ssogrown”
Me:
“yousawhi
m ev
ery
day
”
Sfundo:“v
iat
hephone”heki
ssedLonhl
e’
s
poutyli
ps“GodImissedt
hem somuch”
Me:“wel
ll
elot
oldy
ouev
ery
dayt
hatshemi
sses
you”
Sf
undo:
“canIst
ayunt
ilt
heyup?
”
Me:“Sfundohowdoyougetint
hegatewithout
them cal
li
ngme?”Herubbedhi
sheadlooki
ng
down
Sfundo:“
Ihavethegateremot
e”Il
ookedathi
m
shockedIstar
tedshaki
ngmyhead“lookdon’
t
fr
eakoutjustcal
m down”
Me:
“youhav
eaf
ucki
nggat
eremot
e!!
”
Sf
undo:
“hushy
ouwi
l
lwakeupLonhl
e”
Me:
“Sf
undo”
Sfundo:
“youmywomanSneIneedt
ohav
e
accesstoyou”
Me:
“fi
rst
lyIam noty
ourwomanandsecondl
y
t
hat
’snotri
ght
”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m sor
ryy
ouf
eel
thatway
”
Me:
“howdi
dyougeti
t?”
Sf
undo:
“I’
m nott
ell
i
ngy
out
hat
”
Me:
“gi
vei
ttome”
Sf
undo:
“no”
Me:
“Sf
undo!
”
Sf
undo:
“ev
eni
fIgi
vei
tyouI
’
llgetanot
herone”
Me:“
Sfundowebr okeupdoyouunderst
and
t
hat
?Howwi l
lyoushowingupuni
nvi
tedmake
myboyfr
iendfeel
?”Hisf
acechanged
Sf
undo:
“don’
tfuckwi
thmeSnewhatboy
fri
end
ar
eyoutal
ki
ngabout?
”
Me:
“ImeanwhenImov
eon”
Sf
undo:
“Idon’
tknow”Isi
ghedandsatdown
Me:“y
ouneedtostopt hi
sSfundowearedone
andwereall
ynotgett
ingbacktoget
herandyou
tol
dmey ou’
veacceptedthat
”
Sf
undo:
“youdon’
twantmeany
mor
e?”
Me:“
Idon’
t.I
fitwasn’
tforLonhl
eIwoul
dn’
t
ev
enbetal
kingtoyou”
Sfundo:“I
’
llseethem t
omorrow”hestoodup
andgav emet hegateremot
ebef or
ewalking
outIgroanedandstoodupwal kedtothe
l
ounge
Nondu:“i
sthenewnannygoi
ngt
osl
eepi
n
l
elo’
sroom?”
Me:“yeahIneedt ogobuyabedtomorrowand
somegr oceryyoutwoaregoi
ngtohaveto
worktogetherasateam andt
akecareofmy
ki
ds”shel aughed
Nondu:
“ofcour
se”
Me:
“don’
twanty
ouguy
snotget
ti
ngal
ongso
bei
ngsomuchfri
endst
haty
ouf
orgett
otake
car
eoftheki
ds”
Nondu:“al
right
.Arewegett
ingpaidthesame
money?”Ilaughedli
keIhadagoodl oudl
augh
t
henstoodupwentt ot
hekitchenIl
ookedat
t
hemenuandor dereddi
nner.
Luthandocal
l
edmewhenhewasatthegat
eI
spoketothesecur
it
yguar
dst
heyl
ethi
min
Me:
“lel
opapai
sher
e”
Lel
o:“okay
.Whywon’tLonhlewakeupmamam?
Iwanttoseehi
m bef
oreIleave”
Me:
“Idon’
tknowbaby
”
Lel
o:“
guessIwi
l
lseehi
m whenIcomeback”
Me:
“youcomi
ngbacktomor
rowsodon’
twor
ry”
t
her
ewasaknockonthedoor
Lel
o:“comei
n”Ismil
ed.Lut
handogoti
n“papa!
”
Sherantohi
m hel
if
tedherup
Lut
hando:
“pr
incessoohy
oul
ooksogr
own”
shegiggledhegaveherababyki
sshehel
dher
atdistancel
ooki
ngathershecoul
dn’
tst
op
giggl
ing
Lel
o:“
papaIeatal
otnow”
Luthando:
“Icansee”shehi
dherf
aceonhi
s
neck
Me:“I
’m al
soher
eyouknow”hel
aughedand
putl
elodownwehugged
Lut
hando:
“lookaty
oubei
ngamot
heroft
wo”
Me:
“mxm”
Lut
hando:
“wher
eist
hel
i
ttl
eone?
”
Me:
“asl
eep”
Lut
hando:
“iny
ourr
oom?Iwantt
oseehi
m”
Lelo:“
comepapa”shepull
edhi
shandthey
wenttomyr oom.Theycamebackcar
ryi
ng
l
elo’stoi
l
etr
ybag
Lut
hando:“
hei
sbeaut
if
ulpi
ctur
esdon’
tdohi
m
anyj
usti
ce”
Me:
“Igi
vebi
rt
htobeaut
if
ulbabi
es”
Lut
hando:
“yesy
oudo”
Me:“don’
tworryyourbabywi
l
lal
sobe
beaut
iful
”hechuckl
ed
Lut
hando:
“hopeso”
Me:“
yourwif
eisabeauti
ful
womanshewi
l
l
gi
veyoubeaut
if
ulbabi
es”
Lut
hando:
“howar
eyou?Li
ker
eal
l
y”
Me:
“taki
ngitonedayatat
imemykidsmake
mehappytheygi
vemesenseofpeace”
Luthando:“
that
’sgood.Youwi
l
lfi
ndy
ourpr
ince
charming”
Me:
“got
taki
ssf
ewf
rogsf
ir
st”hel
aughed
Luthando: “
guessIf al
lunderthef r
ogs”I
noddedgi ggli
ng“youknowhel ovesy ouri
ght?
Notmor et hanIl
ov edyoubuti tprett
ycloseand
Idon’tthinky ougoingtobeasl uckashav i
ng
mor ethant woguyst olov
ey oul i
kethat”
Me:“andIlovehim aswellweloveeachot
her
nodoubtittheabusethatIcan’
ttake”
Luthando:“I
’m notsayinggobackt ohim Idon’
t
l
iket heguyhei stooarrogantbutheisgood
withy ouandlelo.Iwantyoubot hhappyithur
ts
meSnewhenIam sohappyi nmyr elat
ionshi
p
andy ounot,notjustasanexbutasy our
brotheraswel l
.Ican’
thelpbutthinkthathad
wenotbeenr el
atedwewoul dbehappy
together”
Me:
“I’
mfi
neIhav
emyki
ds”
Lut
hando:“t
heynotgoingt
okeepy
ouwar
m at
ni
ght”Ir
oll
edmyey es
Lel
o:“
papal
et’
sgo”
Lut
hando:
“wai
tlel
o”
Lel
o:“
nol
et’
sgo”hesi
ghed
Me:
“thequeenhasspoken.Il
ovey
oul
elo”
Lel
o:“
lov
eyoumamam”t
heyl
eft
.
Afterbuyi
ngthebedandgi
vi
ngt
hedel
i
very
guysaddressIwentt
omeetupwit
hNatasha
forlunch
Nat
asha:“heybabe”wehugged“
youl
osi
ngt
he
wei
ghtfast”
Me:“
Ihardl
ygai
nedanywei
ghtandmom made
mestr
apabeltonmystomachfewday
saft
er
gi
vi
ngbir
th”
Nat
asha:
“howi
sli
tt
leLonhl
e?”
Me:“
growi
ngandal
wayscry
ing.Sotel
lmewhy
di
dyoucal
lmecry
ingl
astni
ght?”Shesi
ghed
andt
ookoutamagazi
ne
Natasha:
“got
ot heback”Idi
dandcover
edmy
mouthwithmyhandi nshockitwasapi
ctur
eof
herandSbukissing
Me: “
Natasha!
!”Shestar
tedcry
ingIcal
ledour
wai
teroverpaidforourdri
nks“l
et’
sgo.Didyou
dr
ive?”Sheshookherhead
Nat
asha:
“nocamewi
thadr
iver
”
Me: “
comebabe”sheputonhersungl
asses
that
’swhenIst
art
ednoti
cingpeopl
ewere
star
ri
ngmorethanusual
.WegotinmycarI
droveof
f
Nat
asha:
“ooht
hisi
sni
ce”
Me:
“it
’sabeast
”
Nat
asha:“maybeIshoul
dbuymy
sel
fonef
or
mybir
thday”welaughed
Wegottomyhousepouredj
uicef
oruswe
wentt
ositi
nthebacky
ard
Me:
“tel
lmewhathappened”
Natasha:
“IwasinthemallHai
leycal
ledmeon
mywayf rom wor
ksayingsheneedsnew
hockeyki
tsoIwenttobuywhenIwasl eavi
ngI
bumpedintoSbuheinsist
edwehav eadri
nk
wh..
”
Me:“hedi
dn’
teventel
lmehei
sher
e!”She
shr
uggedhershoul
der
s
Natasha:“
sowhilehav i
ngadri
nkhejustki
sses
meandi ttookmef ewsecondstor
eactbythe
ti
meIpushedhi m backsomeguyswer e
al
readytakingpi
ctures”
Me:
“ohGod”
Natasha: “
Kleinjustbargesintheclosetwhil
eI
waschangi ngl astnightandthrewthe
magazi neatmeal ongwi t
khmycel lphonebill
hethinksI’m cheatingonhi m.Itr
iedexplai
ning
buthewoul dn’tletme”
Me:“I
’m sososorr
yNatashaGodIcan’t
i
maginewhaty oumustbegoi
ngthrough”she
shookherheadcry
ing
Natasha:“Ij
ustcan’tbel
ievehethi
nksIwould
cheatonhi m Sne.HeknowshowmuchIl ove
hi
m whywoul dhethinkIcanevenenter
tai
n
anotherguy?”
Me: “
heishur
ti
ngandconfusedthepi
ctur
eis
ther
easwellasthephonebil
lwit
hall
thecal
ls
betweenyouandSbuIdon’twanttol
i
eNatasha
i
tlooksr
eal
l
ybad”
Natasha:“
heshoul
dhav
egi
venmeachancet
o
expl
ain!
!”
Me:“
yesheshoul
dhavebutmaybey
oushoul
d
gi
vehi
m achancetocal
m down”
Natasha:
“whatchoicedoIhav e?Hehasn’t
beenhomesincelastnightbuthecall
edtell
i
ng
mehewi l
lbesleepi
ngatSf undo’shot
el”I
l
aughedshelookedatmeconf used
Me:“
hei
salsomadatmeIt hinkitf
inal
l
y
si
nki
ngi
nthatwedone”shelaughed
Natasha:“
ifIwascr
azyIwoul
dsayl
et’
sgoout
getdrunk”
Me:
“youdon’
tev
endr
ink”shesi
ghed
Nat
asha:
“itagoodt
imet
ost
artdon’
tyout
hink”
Me:“noitnot
.Youshouldn’
tdr
inkj
ustbecause
youhurt
ingorst
ressed”
Nat
asha:
“If
eel
li
keanass”
Klei
n:“
youshoul
d”welookedatthem wal
ki
ng
toushewaswi t
hSfundoIjustsi
ghed
Natasha:“
babyIsweart
oyouther
e’snothi
ng
goingon”shest
oodandwrappedherarms
aroundhi
swaist
Klei
n:“
y ouhur
tmebabyandtotal
ly
embarrassedmeevery
onethi
nksy oucheat
ing
onme.Hav eyouseentheent
ert
ainment
news?”Sheshookherhead
Natasha:
“I’
m sor
ryKl
einI
’
m sosor
ryIwas
st
upid”
Kl
ein:
“yesy
ouwer
e”
Natasha:
“st
ooop”hel
aughedandki
ssedher
head
Kl
ein:
“I’
m sor
ryIdi
dn’
tsl
eepathomel
ast
ni
ght”
Nat
asha:
“youhur
tme”
Kl
ein:
“youst
il
lhav
elotofexpl
aini
ngt
odo”
Nat
asha:
“Iknowbutcanwegohome”
Kl
ein:
“let
’sgo”
Natasha:
“I’
l
lseey
ouatwor
ktomor
rowSne”we
hugged
Me:
“by
ebabe”t
heyl
eftIl
ookedatSf
undo
Sf
undo:
“hi
”
Me: “howdidy ougetinthegat.
.”hepull
edme
tomesof astandsmashedhi sli
psonmi newe
kisseddeeplyhegrabbedmyassl i
ft
ingmeupI
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04/
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21:
18]Ron:
#28

Hel
aidmeont hebedandqui
ckl
ygotont
opof
measItr
iedgett
ingup
Me:“
Sfundonow.
.”Heshutmeupwithakiss
heki
ssedmesodeepl
ymoansinv
oluntar
il
ylef
t
mymout
hhepushedupmydr
ess
Sfundo:“ f
uckImi ssedy ou”heki ssedmypussy
overmypant yt henhel pedmeoutofmydr ess
helookedatmesmi li
ngheki ssedmyneck
cir
cli
ngwi thhi stongueandsucki ngoncer tai
n
spots.Hewentdownl eavingsof tkissingand
bit
esal lovermybodyhebi tbot hmyi nner
thi
ghsmaki ngmybodyj erkandmecr youtI
couldalreadyf eel mypant yget tingwet terand
wetter.Het ookof fmybr aandhel dbot hmy
breastsIsquir medandmoanedGodknewhi s
touchwasdoi ngcr azythingst omybody .I
hadn’tbeent ouchedorki ssedl iket hatin
mont hsandt hef actt hati twasSf undowho
wasdoi ngal lofthi smadet hi
ngswor se.Hi s
tongueci r
cledmyni ppleflickingandpr essing
beforehepul ledi tintohismout hIcr iedout
softl
y
Me:“
Aah”hesuckedonmybr easthar
dasgood
asi
ffel
tIhadt
opushhim back
Sf
undo:
“babe”
Me:
“yourchi
l
d’sf
ood”hel
aughed
Sf
undo:
“It
ast
edt
hemi
l
k”
Me:
“don’
t”
Sf
undo:
“buti
tfeel
sgood”
Me: “
justdon’tsuck”henoddedandkissedthe
spacebet weenmybr eastsbef
oremov i
ngt o
theotheronehedr ewcircl
esaroundmyni pple
andfli
ckedhi stongueonitbef
oresucking
soft
ly“feelssogoodbaby ”
Sfundo:“Iknowbaby ”hekissedmyst omach
goingdownl eavi
ngbi t
emar ksandbl owing
warm aironthemar ksher i
ppedmypant ies
i
ntot wopiecesmymout hflungopenhe
openedmeupexposi ngmycl itandranhi s
tongueoni tmybodyshi ver
edIhear dhim
chuckle.Hesuckedonmycl i
tgentlyandl ight
ly
grazedoni twit
hhisteethbef orehemov ed
downandent er
edhistonguei nmyv aginamy
bodyj
erkedImov eduphepul
l
edmedownand
hel
dmei nplace
Sfundo: “behave”Inoddedhegotof fthebed
andt ookof fhisclot
hesIwat chedhi
m car ef
ull
y
whi l
ebitingonmybot tom li
p“l
ikewhaty ou
see? ”Inodded“ youcan’tspeaknow?”Hewas
busyst rokinghisbigblackcockanditwasj ust
standingt herereadytoattackandalr
eady
drippingal i
tt
leIkneltonthebedwant ingto
tasteit
Me:“comecl
oserIwanttot
ast
e”hisey
es
t
urneddar
kerdesi
ref
il
li
ngupinthem
Sfundo:“baby
”hewalkedcl osertomeand
grabbedthebackofmyneckweki ssedhard
deeplyhewouldbit
emyl i
psmaki ngmemoan
ourtonguedancetogethertasti
ngeachot her
’s
mout hshemov edhi
slipsfrom mymout hand
wentt omyneckbiti
ngitandsucki nghardhe
l
ift
edmeupandpr essedmeont hewal l
before
enteri
ngme
Me:
“fuck!
!”Icr
iedoutashegr
oanedl
oudl
y
Sfundo: “
shi tbabyf eelsev enbet t
er ”he
withdr ewandsl ammedi ntomehar dmaki ng
megoupt hewal lIscreamedl ouderhemov ed
fastandhar dIhadmynai l
sbur i
edi nhisback.
Hest oppedmov ingandpr essedhi sforehead
onmi nebr eat hingl oudlywel ookedateach
otheri ntheey esandst artedlaughi ng.Het hrew
meont hebedpul l
ingoutandl ai
ddownnextt o
met henl i
ftedmeupmaki ngmesi tonhi sface
histongueent er i
ngmeImoanedsof tl
yand
heldhi scockIpl ay edwi ththet ipIst art
ed
rammi ngitont her oofofmymout hhecal led
outmynamei nawhi sperandhel dmywai st
mov ingi ti
nci rclesmaki ngmer i
dehi st ongue
forasecondIst oppedbei ngbusywi thhiscock
andobser vedt hepl easureofhav i
nghi stongue
i
nme.Hespankedmyasshar dImoaned
l
ouderandst artedr i
dinghi stonguef asterwhi l
e
Isuckedonhi st ipwhi lestrokingt hebasewi th
myhandhegr oanedhi sli
psv ibratingonmy
pussyhi shandst art
edr ubbi ngonmycl itI
shookmyheadbuthedi dn’tstophewas
maki ngithardf ormet of ocusonsucki nghim.
Mybodyst ar
tedshaki ngasIf el
tanorgasm
approachi ngIst oppedsucki nghim andsat
properlyonhi sf acegrindingandmov i
ngin
ci
r cl
esr i
dinghi stonguehi sfingersonmycl i
t
wentf asterIhel dmybr eastsmassagi ngthem
pinchingmyni pples
Me: “
Godyes!!
”Icamehar
dandthrewmybody
nexttohi
sfaci
nguphecametomeIopened
mylegswidehechuckl
edandgotbetween
them
Sf
undo:
“Il
ovey
oumyl
i
fe”
Me:
“Il
ovey
out
oo.I
’
llbl
owy
oul
ater
”
Sf
undo:
“I’
l
lhol
dyout
oit
”heent
eredmesl
owl
y
Me: “
mmmhy ees”hefl
exedhishipgoing
deeperhi
tti
ngmygspot“ fuck”Imatchedhi
s
rhyt
hm aswemov edt
ogetherslowl
yholdi
ng
eachotherhi
sbodywasf ull
yonmi ne.My
musclest
ight
enedar
oundhi
scockhemov
ed
hi
sfacefr
om neck
Sf
undo:
“lookatmeSne”myey esfl
ungopent
o
hi
scommand“ Il
oveyou”Inodded“
comefor
mebabyletmefeely
ou”
Me: “
I’
mt here”Icamemybodyshaki ng
vi
olentlyhewai tedf ormet of i
nishbef orehe
l
ift
edmyl egsput ti
ngt hem onhi sshoul derand
wentcr azyfuckingmehar dIscr eamedl ouderI
waspant i
ngshaki ngmyheadhekeptgoi nghis
sweatdr oppedonmyst omachhewast ear
ing
mypussyupandnotbei ngapologet icli
kehe
waspuni shingmebutIl ovedev erysecondofi t.
Hepul ledoutandf l
ippedmeov ermaki ngme
l
ayonmyst omacht henspr eadmyl egs
enter
ingmef r
om behi ndslammi ngintome
hardhepoundedmehar dseparat i
ngandl i
ft
ing
mybut tcheekst hrust i
ngindeepl ywhi le
spankingandpi nchi ngmyass.Hepul l
edout
anddr aggedmyj uicestomyanal Ishookmy
head
Sfundo:“ssh”hewhisper
edasi fhei
s
smoothingandhushingdownawounded
animalhebi tmyneckenteri
ngmeandmov ed
back.Hewentbackt ofuckingmehardhis
fi
ngerslowlymadeitwayi nmyanalIcr
ied
l
ouderbitingthepi
ll
owIfeltful
l
Sfundo:“shi
tbabyi
tmakesyourpussyfeel
eventighter
”heenter
edt
hesecondfingerwe
bothgroanedatthesameti
me
Me:
“sf
uuundooo”
Sf
undo:
“tal
ktome”
Me: “
itfeelssogoodbabystartmoving”he
chuckledandstart
edmov ingslowl
ywhi l
e
mov i
nghi sfi
nger
sincir
cles“fast
erbaby
harder”
Sfundo:“yesma’am”hedi dthatandal li
ttook
wasf ourthrust
sIcamelikenev erbeforethe
wholeroom becomedar kIfelthismov ement
goingfasterandhegrowledcr y
ingoutlike
somewi ldanimalbef
orehecol lapsedont opof
me“
fuckIl
ovey
ou”
Me:
“hm”
Sf
undo:
“can’
ttal
k?”
Me:“hm”hechuckl
edandgotof fmehepul l
ed
metolayontopofhim Iopenedmyey esand
l
ookedatlazi
l
yhekissedmyf orehead
Sf
undo:
“dontl
eav
emeagai
n”
Me:“nomakubanzi
maI’
m notl
eavi
ngyou
agai
njustpr
omisemey
ouwi l
lnev
erhi
tme
agai
n”
Sfundo:
“ipr
omi
se”heki
ssedmyheadasI
dozedoff
Iwokeupwhent
heroom wasdar
kSfundowas
pl
ayi
ngwit
hmyhairIl
ookedupathi
m he
smil
ed
Sf
undo:
“youup”
Me:
“howl
ongwasIasl
eep?
”
Sf
undo:
“fewhour
s.Lel
oisback”
Me: “
okayI
’m sur
eLonhlei
swonder
ingwhyhe
hasn’
tseenmei nhour
s”
Sf
undo:“hewokeupwhi
l
ebackIhear
dhi
m
cr
ying”
Me:
“okay
”Iki
ssedhi
m“I
’
m st
arv
ing”
Sf
undo:
“letmet
akey
out
odi
nner
”
Me:
“Iwoul
dlov
ethat
”
Sf
undo:
“Il
ovey
ouSneIl
ovey
ousomuch”
Me:
“don’
tev
erhur
tmeagai
nSf
undo”
Sfundo:“nevert
hesepastmont
hshavebeen
hellonearthIwil
lnev
erputusi
nthatsi
tuat
ion
again”
Me:“good”IkissedhischestandgotoffhimI
wal
kedt othebathroom “Sfundo!
!”Hecamei n
r
unningIwashol dingmyneckl ooki
ngatthe
mir
ror“yougav emehi ckey
s”hesmi l
ed“Sfundo
wetoooldf orthi
sshit
!Whatwi ll
peoplesay?”
Sf
undo:
“Idon’
tgi
veaf
uckaboutpeopl
eyou
mineIwasbr
andi
ngy
ou”Iscr
eamedi
n
f
rustr
ati
on
Me: “y
oucan’
tdothi
sSfundoIwor
k”he
shruggedhi
sshoul
dersandcametost
and
behindme
Sf
undo:
“sor
ry”heki
ssedmyneck
Me: “
youdon’
tevenmeant hat”helaughedand
enter
edhisfi
ngeri
nmeIt hrewmyheadonhi s
chestmoani
nghet ur
nedmear oundandlif
ted
meupsatmeont hesinkenteri
ngmesl owly
Iopenedmycl osettookoutblackjeansand
bl
ackl osetanktopIgotdressedthenputon
mar oonanklebootwithamar ooncoatIhadmy
naturalhai
rti
edinaneatbunIputonmar oon
l
ipst i
ck.It
ookmyphoneandwal kedoutfound
Sfundoi nt
heloungewi t
hthekids
Me:
“wecanl
eav
e”
Sf
undo:
“youl
ookbeaut
if
ul”
Lel
o:“
youl
ookbeaut
if
ulmamam”
Me:“
thankyousweet
y”Iki
ssedhercheek
Sf
undostoodup
Sf
undo:
“whatshoul
dIdowi
tht
hisl
i
ttl
eman?
”
Me:
“youf
edhi
m?”
Sfundo:
“yebo”Itookhi
m“ packabagy
ou
gonnasleepoveratmyplace”
Me:
“askdon’
tjustt
ell
me”hesmi
l
ed
Sf
undo:
“will
youpl
easesl
eepov
eraty
our
man’
splace?”
Me: “
Ithi
nkwemov ingfastsleepover
sare
extr
emewej ustst
artedbeingtoget
her”he
chuckled
Sf
undo:“y
ougotjokes”Ismil
edandwentt
o
Nondu’
sroom If
oundhertherewi
thNacy
Me:“
I’
mleav
ingI
’l
lcomebackt omor
row”t
hey
gi
ggl
edIl
ookedatthem conf
used
Nondu:
“youwer
esol
oud!
”
Me:
“ohGod”Igav
eNacyLonhl
ewhi
l
ethey
l
aughed“t
akecareofmykids”Iwalkedout
goi
ngtomyroom packedfewclothesina
duf
fl
ebagItookmymessengerbagandhand
bagwenttot
heloungefoundlel
olaughing
l
oudlySf
undoti
ckli
ngher
Me:
“I’
m done”Sf
undost
oodup“
byesweet
y”
Lel
o:“
byemamam”Sf
undocar
ri
edmybagswe
wal
kedout
Iwal
kedi
nther
est
aur
antathi
shot
eli
twas
empt
y
Me:
“Sf
undo?
”
Sf
undo:“
wantedpri
vacy”t
heli
ghtswere
di
mmedwi thj
ustonetabl
esetupwit
hcandl
es
onthet
able
Me:“
try
ingt
ocharm me?”Henoddedsmi l
ing
andl
edmet ot
het abl
ehepull
edachairoutf
or
meandpusheditbackaf
terIsatdown
Sf
undo:
“yougonnahav
ewi
neorchampagne?
”
Me:
“wi
ne”henoddedatt
hewai
ter
Wehaddi nnerov erlightconv ersat ionwhenwe
fi
nishedhepul l
edmeupwedancedt oslow
musi chehel dmesocl osel
yandt i
ght lyhekept
ki
ssingmyheadi tfeltsogood.Hemov edback
Il
ookedathi m alit
tleirri
tatedhehadf eltso
goodpr essingagai nstmebutwhenhewenton
onekneemyj awdr oppedanLor raineSchwar tz
ri
ngboxmyhear tst art
edbeat i
ngf astIdon’ t
knowhowmanyt imesI ’vewentont heinternet
l
ookingatt heser i
ngsheopenedt heboxi t
showedt hemostbeaut iful
ov alsnappedpi nk
diamondr ing
Me:
“baby
”
Sfundo:“IneverthoughtIwouldev erwantto
getmar r
iedagainletalonefal
linloveagain.I
’
ve
hurtyouSneguguI ’vehurty
ousobadl ythatI
di
dn’tthi
nky ouwoul dcomebackt omebutme
beingstubbornIdidn’tgi
veupandIam gl adI
di
dn’tgiveupot herwiseIwoul
dhav el
ostmy
tr
uelovet hemot herofmychildren.Youmake
mewantt obeabet termeabet terfat
herand
sureashellabetterhusband.I ’
llt
reatyouso
goodSneI ’
l
lwor shipthegroundy ouwal kon
beli
evemey ougoi ngt obethemostl ov
edand
spoil
twif
eint heentireworld.Iloveyouso
muchandI ’
llspendt herestofmyl i
feprov
ing
thattoy
ou.SneguguPet ersonwi l
lyouplease
givemethehonorofbei ngy ourhusband?Will
youmarryme? ”
Me:“y
es”Iwhi
sper
edwi
tht
earsr
unni
ngdown
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Iwokeupi nthemor ningandgotof fthebed

Sfundowasspr eadoutont hebedlooking
gorgeousallnakedwithjusthisboyleg.Igoti
n
thebathroom openedt heshowerIwentt othe
mirrorpushedbackmyhai rtyi
ngitt
hat’swhenI
noti
cedmyr i
ngIlookedati tspar
kli
ngwi t
ha
smileonmyf ace.I twasabeaut i
ful20car at
s
withasilverbandt hediamondwashugeI ’ve
al
way sdreamtofmyengagementr ingbutev en
i
nmydr eamsi tdidn’
tlookthisgoodSf undo
haddoneanamazi ngjobinit.Itookashower
gotoutgoi ngt otheclosetIlotionedgot
dressedinamar oonpencilskirtandabl ack
bl
ousewi thbl ackheelst i
edmyhai rint
oaneat
bun.Itookmybagswal kedoutIwal kedt othe
bedshookSf undo
Me:“
babywakeup”hegroanedandf
acedt
he
ot
hersi
de“Sf
undoIneedtogotowork”
Sfundo:“
hm”hegotupandpul
l
edmet
ohi
mI
fel
lontopofhi
m
Me:
“Sf
undoman!
”
Sfundo:
“resi
gnf
rom wor
k.St
ayathomeand
takecar
eoftheki
ds”
Me:
“youknowt
hatwon’
thappennowdr
iveme
t
owork”
Sfundo:“
youdoknowt
hatwhenwegetmar
ri
ed
yougoingtohav
etost
opworki
ng”
Me:“
SfundoIwil
lnotst
opwor
kingnowst
op
t
hismadness”
Sf
undo:
“youcomi
ngbackher
eri
ght
?”
Me:
“yesbutI
’
m goi
ngbackt
omyhouse
t
omorrow”
Sfundo:“
whenar
eyoumov i
ngbacki
n?act
ual
l
y
Ineedtobuyusahousef
ir
stsowecanall
mov eint
her
e”
Me:
“ther
esnor
ush”
Sf
undo:
“Iwantmyki
dswi
thmeSne”
Me:“
thengotakey
ourki
dsl
ett
hem movein
wi
thyouift
hat’
swhaty
ouwant
”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“whyy
ouj
eal
ous?
”
Me:“mxm”Igotof
fhi
m wentoutl
eav
inghi
m
l
aughing
Sf
undo:
“wai
tI’
m comi
ng!
!”
Me: “
voestekI’
l
l t
akeanuber”Iwentdownstai
rs
str
aightt
ot hefoyerhecamerunni
ngbarefoot
carr
yingasweat erandwear
ingsweatpant
s
Sfundo: “
somoody”wegotint
heelev
ator“
you
knowi fyoumissedt
odayatworkt
heywould
understand”
Me:“
Ihaven’
tbeenatwor
kinf
ivemont
hs
Sf
undo”
Sf
undo:
“exact
ly!Anext
radaywon’
thur
t”
Me:
“youbet
ternotst
artwi
thme”
Sfundo:“don’tyouwanttospendt hedayinbed
withyourfiance”Il
ookedawaybl ushi
nghe
chuckledandhel dmywaistpressingourbodies
together
Me:
“can’
tbel
i
eveIam mar
ryi
ngy
ouf
ool
”
Sfundo:“
babyyouandIbot
hknowt
hatIam
catch”Ir
oll
edmyeyes
Me:
“sof
ull
ofy
our
sel
f”
Sf
undo:
“thoughty
ouf
oundi
tsexy
”heki
ssed
myneck
Me:
“Ido”
Sf
undo:
“youknowIl
ovey
ousomuchr
ight
”
Me:“Iknow”t
heel
evat
orst
oppedatt
hepr
ivat
e
gar
agewegotoff
Sfundo:
“myqueen”heopenedt
hedoorformeI
gotinhecl
osedi
tandwenttohissi
de.He
droveof
f
Me:
“don’
tfor
gety
ouneedt
opi
ckmeup”
Sf
undo:
“al
ri
ghtf
iancee”
Me:“youdoknowt
haty
ouneedt
osendl
obol
a
r
ight
?”
Sfundo:“I
’l
lcal
ldadwhenIgetbackt
othe
penthouse”
Me: “
Ilov
emyr
ingt
hanky
oubaby
”Iki
ssedhi
s
cheek
Sf
undo:
“I’
m happyy
oul
ovei
t.Thi
nkIf
uckeda
babyi
nyoul
astni
ght
?”
Me:
“wow!
”
Sfundo:“nowthatwe’vest
artedmaki
ngbabi
esI
don’twanttostop.Iwantf
ivebabi
essothr
ee
mor etogo”
Me:
“Iam notpoppi
ngoutf
ivebabi
es!
”
Sf
undo:
“whynot
?”
Me:
“ai
boSf
undono”
Sf
undo:
“hm”
Me:“
I’
m havi
ngonemor
ebabyt
henI
’
llgetmy
t
ubesti
ed”
Sf
undo:“
okaybabyift
hat
’swhaty
ouwant
”I
l
ookedathi
m conf
used
Me:
“justl
i
ket
hat
”
Sf
undo:
“yep”
Me:
“Idon’
ttr
usty
ou”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“good”Ishookmyhead“
youdi
dn’
teat
br
eakf
ast
”
Me:
“wokeupl
ate”
Sf
undo:
“wannadr
ivepastwi
mpy
”
Me:“noI
’
llj
ustgr
abcof
feeatwor
kI’
l
lhav
e
l
unch”
Sf
undo:
“Idon’
twanty
oust
arv
ing”
Me:
“I’
l
lbef
ine”
Igoti
nherof
fi
ceshest
oodupcomi
ngt
ome
Nat
asha:
“babe”wehugged
Me:
“yougood?
”Wewentt
osi
tdown
Natasha:“y
eahI ’
m get
tingthere.Kl
eini
ssti
ll
upsetwithmef ornottell
i
nghim aboutSbu”the
securi
tyguardbroughtourlunch
Me:“itwil
lpass”west
art
edeat
ingshe
squealed
Natasha:“
that
’sahuger
ock”shegrabbedmy
handlooki
ngatmyr i
ng“
itsopret
ty”
Me:
“thanky
ou”
Nat
asha:
“sohepr
oposed?
!”
Me:
“Isai
dyes”
Nat
asha:
“youtwoweren’tev
ent
ogetherwhenI
l
astsawyouyest
erdayandnowyouengaged”
Me:
“hehasmesi
ngi
ngLov
eont
hebr
ain”
Us:“
itbeat
smeblackandbluebuti
tfucksme
sogoodandIcan’
tgetenough”wesang
Nat
asha:
“buthehaslear
nthi
slessonheknows
t
hati
fheevenslapsy
ouy ouar
eleavi
nghim”
Me:“
IknowandIwill
real
lyleav
ehim.
ev
ery
thi
ngjustwentr
eall
yfastbutIam happy
”
Natasha:
“gi
rlwi
tht
hatr
ockany
onewoul
dbe
happy”
Me:
“I’
vemi
ssedhi
m”
Nat
asha:
“I’
m sur
ehehadmi
ssedy
ouaswel
l
”
Me:
“canyoubel
i
evehei
sal
readyt
alki
ngabout
meresi
gni
ng”
Natasha:
“isi
tsomet
hingy
ouwi
l
ldo?
”I
shr
uggedmyshoulder
s
Me: “
Idon’
tknow.ImeanIwouldlovetositat
homebewi thmykidsbutIal
solovemyjobI ’
m
sti
l
lgoingtothi
nkabouti
tandifIdoresi
gnI
woulddoitwhenwemar ri
ed”
Natasha:“
Itr
iedwell
Istay
edathomef
ory
ear
s
butitget
sboringv
eryeasi
ly”
Me:“t
hat’
swhatI’
m wor
riedaboutaswell
.
AnywayIcal
l
edSbuearl
ieronbitchni
ggadidn’
t
answermycall
s”
Nat
asha:
“I’
m somadathi
m”
Me: “Idon’
tli
keitwhenmypeopl edon’tget
along.Icanalreadyimaginehowmy
engagementpar tyisgoingtobe,Klei
nwi l
lwant
tokillSbuthenthere’
stheZiyandaandSi hl
e
situati
on”
Nat
asha:
“ital
readydoomed”shewasl
aughi
ng
Me:
“don’
tdot
hatNat
ashay
azi
Ifeel
li
ket
her
e’s
j
ustt
oomuchdr
amai
nmyl
i
feIneedabr
eak”
Natasha:“wehav
eabeachhouseincapetown
Icouldtakeyout
herethi
sweekendgetabr
eak
fr
om everythi
ngj
ustyouandI
”
Me:“asi
fKl
einwoul
dal
l
owy
out
ospendt
he
ni
ghtawayf
rom hi
m”
Natasha:
“itwi
l
ltakel
otofconv
inci
ngImight
evenhavetobuynewli
ngeri
e”wegiggl
ed
Me: “
ist
hathowyougethi
mtoagreet
othi
ngs?
Ineedti
psSfundoi
stoost
ubbor
n”
Natasha:“Iwaitforhi
mtogetreal
l
yhardthenI
askitdoesn’talwayswor
kifwhatI’
m aski
ng
doesn’tguaranteemysaf
ety”
Me:
“Klei
ndoesn’
ttakechanceswheni
tcomes
t
osafety
”
Natasha:“we’
vebeent
hroughshi
tbecauseof
securi
tyconcer
ns”
Me:“y
ou’
venev
ertol
dmewhathappenedIj
ust
knowwhatI
’
vereadabouty
oubei
ngabduct
ed
andal
loft
hat
”
Nat
asha:“
itnotconv
ersat
ionweshoul
dhav
ein
t
heoffi
ce”
Me:
“al
ri
ght
”
Nat
asha:“
sowhenar
eyouget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed?
”I
l
aughed
Me:“Ij
ustgotengagedl
astni
ghty
out
heonl
y
per
sonI’v
etold”
Nat
asha:
“thatmeansIgetapar
t”
Me:
“mai
dofhonor
”herey
eswi
dened
Nat
asha:
“Snet
hat
’shuge”
Me:
“Iwantt
otakei
t”
Nat
asha:
“wi
thpl
easur
ebabeI
’
dbehonor
ed”
Me:“good.JustknowIwantacr
azybr
idal
shower”shesmiled
Natasha:
“ofcourse”shesighed“
areyousure
youwanttomar r
yhim Sne?Hedidputy ouin
t
hehospitaly
oust i
llsuf
ferfr
om migr
aines
becauseoft
hatacci
dent
”
Me: “IknowIl ovehim andwantt obewi t
hhim
forther estofmylifebutIalsoknowt hatIam
sti
llscaredofhim Idon’ttrusthi
mf ul
l
yIcan’t
sayt hathewi l
lneverhitmeagainandbel i
eve
thosewor dsi
thardNat ashareal
lyhardbutI
l
ov ehim somuch”
Nat
asha:“don’
tyouwanttowai
tbefor
egett
ing
marri
edtohim.Waitunt
ily
ounotscar
edofhim
unt
ilyout
rusthi
m”
Me:“apieceofpaperi
snotgoi
ngt
ochange
any
thingNatasha”
Nat
asha:
“besi
desmakey
ouhappy
”
Me:
“yes”
Sf
undoopenedthegateanddr
ovei
nIshook
myheadhechuckled
Sf
undo:
“sayi
t”
Me:
“notwor
thmyener
gyorcar
eatt
he
moment”
Sf
undo:
“thi
sisabeaut
if
ulest
ate”
Me:“smal l
housesthough”heparkedoutsi
de
thegarageIgotoffthecarhehadinsi
stedwe
getthekidsfordi
nnersayi
nghemi ssesthem
Lel
o:“mamam!!”Sheopenedherar
msIt
ook
herIcoul
dhearLonhl
ewaili
ng
Me: “
gotodaddyoutsi
de”Iputherdownand
wenttoNondu’
sr oom Ifoundhert
ryi
ngtoget
Lonhlet
ocalm downIt ookhim“whyishe
cry
ingli
ket
his?”
Nondu:
“hef
ell
”
Sf
undo:
“youfucki
ngdr
oppedmychi
l
d.You
wantmetofi
reyou”
Nondu:
“I’
m sor
rybhut
iSf
undo”
Sf
undo:“
whatt
hefuckwereyoudoi
ng?
”She
l
ookedatmeasIwalkedout
Shemustdeal
wit
hSf
undoal
one!
Lel
o:“
mamam daddysay
swegoi
ngt
odi
nner
”
Me:
“yesbabygot
ell
Nacyt
ogety
ouaj
acket
”
Lelo:“
okay
!!
”Sher
andownt
hepassagej
ustas
Sfundocameout
Sf
undo:
“nxawhodr
opsababysosmal
l
!!Gi
ve
hi
mtome”hetookhi
m
Me:“I
’m goi
ngt ochangei nt
oflatshoest hen
wecanleave”Nonducameoutofherr oom
sni
ff
ingandwi pinghertearsIsighedandwent
tomyroom Ichangedmyshoes.Sf undogotin
whenIwast akingajacket
Sf
undo:
“wet
aki
ngt
her
ange”
Me:
“thekey
sar
eint
hebedsi
dedr
awer
”
Sf
undo:
“okay
”
Lel
o:“
daddyar
ewegoi
ngt
ospur
?”
Sf
undo:
“ist
hatwher
eyouwantt
ogo?
”
Lel
o:“
yesIwantt
ogot
her
e”
Sf
undo:
“askpr
oper
ly”shegi
ggl
ed
Lel
o:“
daddycanwepl
easegot
ospur
?”
Sfundo:
“okaywewi
l
lgot
her
e”hechangedt
he
route
Me:
“I’
mreal
l
ynoti
nthemoodf
orspur
”
Sf
undo:
“shamer
ightLel
owam”
Lel
o:“
shamemamam”
Me:
“mxm”
Sf
undo:
“yousomoodyt
oday
”
Me:“
Ifeel
exhaust
edSfundoandNat
asha
want
stotakemetocapetownthi
sweekend”
Sf
undo:
“Icant
akey
out
ocapet
own”
Me:
“noi
tgoi
ngt
obej
ustNat
ashaandI
”
Sf
undo:
“okay
”Il
ooksathi
m sur
pri
sed
Me:
“okay
?Justl
i
ket
hat
?”
Sfundo:“
mytherapi
stsai
dIshoul
dlety
oudo
thi
ngsthatmakeyouhappyeveni
fitwi
thout
me”
Me:
“wow”hepar
kedt
hecarwegotoutIt
ook
Lonhl
ecov
eredhi
m wi
thabl
ankethecar
ri
ed
Lel
owewalkedi
nthemal
l
Lel
oclappedherhandsast
hewai
tr
essbr
ought
ourf
ood
Sf
undo:
“di
dmamast
arv
eyoumyLel
o”
Lel
o:“
star
ve?
”Sf
undochuckl
ed
Sfundo:“nevermind”thisl
adycamet ostand
nexttoourtableIlookedathershelookedlike
shejustcameoutofamagazi neshootwi t
h
thatthi
nmodel typebodyherlongweav efall
ing
aroundherheadcar ryingaGuccibagwith
fl
owerpr i
ntsthatlookedexact
lyl
iketheone
Sfundohadboughtf orme
Lady:“Sfundo”shecall
edhi m wit
hanAmer i
can
accentIlookedatherfrowningSf undolooked
upIlookedathi mjustintimetocat chshock
beingwritt
enalloverhisfaceIwat chedthem
l
ookingateachot hertherewassomuch
tensi
onbet weenthem Icouldn’tf
igureoutwhat
kindoftensionitwas.Iactual
lyfeltl
ikean
out
siderl
ooki
ngi
n.PART29LOVEMELI
KE
ONLYYOUCAN
[
04/
14,
21:
18]Ron:
#30

Sf
undo:“Angel
a”themomenthesai dhername
If
eltsomepowerfulsenseofangerbrewingl
i
ke
whatthefuckwasthiswomandoi ngherenot
j
ustSouthAfri
cabutAfri
ca
Angel
a:“
canwet
alk?
”
Sfundo:
“asy oucanseeIam havi
ngdinnerwi
th
myf ami
ly”shelookedatt
hekidsthenatme
andgavemeaf akesmil
e
Angel
a:“hel
l
oI ’
m Angel
aMkhi
ze”Ishookmy
headchuckl
ingindi
sbel
ief
Me:“Iam notgoi
ngt
oshakey
ourhandnowI
suggesty
oukeepmov i
ng”
Angel
a:“
Iam her
etospeakt
oSf
undo”
Me:
“andi
fyoudon’
twantmyf
ootony
our
cheekIsuggesty
ouwai
ttospeakt
ohi
m when
heisal
onenotwhenheiswit
hhisf
ami
ly”
Sf
undo:
“Angel
ajustl
eav
e”
Angel
a:“
SfundoIwantt
ospeakt
oyou”
Sfundo:
“leavebefor
ey ouupsetmyfiancee
evenmor eandIdon’twanttogetangryinfront
ofmychi l
dren”shelookedattheki
dsLelowas
busywithherburgerwhileLonhl
ewasasl eepin
hi
scarseat
Angel
a:“canIcallyou?Idon’
thav
eyourSA
numberIwenttot hehotelt
heywoul
dn’
tletme
uptothepenthouse”
Me: “your
eall
ytesti
ngmypat i
ence.SfundoI
don’twanttolosemycool i
npubli
candwi th
thekidshere”Ipushedherasi
destandingup
Sfundostoodupaswel lasIwastakingLonhle
Sfundo:“Angel
aleavenowyoumakingme
angry”hespokefir
ml ywi
thhi
steet
hshut
togetherevenIgotscar
edali
tt
lewhil
eAngel
a
st
art
edshaki
ngshenoddedqui
ckl
y
Angel
a:“
Idon’
thav
eapl
acet
ost
ayi
nIj
ust
l
anded”
Sfundo:
“gotothehot
elt
ellt
hem t
ogiveyoua
suit
eift
here’
saprobl
em t
ellt
hem t
ocallme”I
l
ookedathiminshockwhil
eAngelasmil
edand
l
eft
Me:
“Lel
ost
andupwel
eav
ing”
Lel
o:“
mamam?
”
Sf
undo:
“shei
sst
il
leat
ing”
Me:“
weleavi
ng”Ipul
ledherupwewal
kedoutI
washol
dingherhand
Lel
o:“
myhandishurti
ngmamam”Il
oosened
myholdonherhand
Me:
“sor
rysweet
y”
Lel
o:“
mamam whati
swr
ong?
”
Me:“not
hingsweetywej
usthav
etogohome.I
wi
ll
makey ouahotdogwhenwegethome”
Lel
o:“
wit
hfr
ies?
”
Me:
“yes”
Lel
o:“
okay”Sfundocaughtupwi
thusandl
i
fted
Lel
ocarr
yingher
Sf
undo:
“ wasthatnecessar
ySne”Ishothi
ma
l
ookhelookedaway .Wegotinthecarandhe
dr
oveof
f .
Iwatchedhim dr
ivi
ngtohi shot
elanddidn’
tsay
anyt
hing.Whenhepar kedinthegarageandgot
outIwatchedhim openingthebackdoortaki
ng
outLelowhohadf al
lenasleep
Me:“
putbackmychi
l
dandt
akeushome
Sf
undo”
Sfundo:“
don’
tstar
twi
thy
ourbul
l
shi
t”hecl
osed
thedoorIgotout
Me:“Lonhledoesn’
tev
enhavemil
kornappi
es
her
eSf undoandlel
osti
ll
needst
obathandget
i
nherpy jamas”
Sf
undo:
“youwi
l
lfi
ndev
ery
thi
ngy
ouneedi
n
t
hei
rroom”hewal
kedt
owar
dst
hel
i
ft
Me:“howthefuckdoyouexpectmetolockt
his
car
!”Heturnedandl
ookedatmecoldl
y
Sf
undo:
“wat
chhowy
ouspeakt
ome”
Me:
“orwhat
?Yougoi
ngt
ohi
tme”
Sfundo:“youwoul
dlovethatwouldn’
tyou?I
won’tgiv
ey out
hesati
sfacti
on”ItookLonhle
from hi
scarseatandcl
osedt hedoorhelocked
thecar.
Wegoti
nthepenthouseImadel
eloherf
ood
t
henwokeherup
Lel
o:“thankyoumamam”shest ar
tedeati
ngI
wentbackt otheki
tchenwarmedLonhle’
s
puri
tyIfedhim asIl
istenedt
oLelospeaki
ngt
o
herSfundoashehel pedhereatwhenshewas
donetheystoodup
Sfundo:“
I’
llbathherandputhertobed”I
nodded.Ifi
nishedfeedingLonhl
ewentupst
air
s
gavehim abaththent ookhi
mt oourr
oom I
qui
cklyshoweredputonSf
undo’
st-
shi
rtIwent
tobed.Sfundogoti
n
Sf
undo:
“she’
sasl
eep”
Me:
“okay
”
Sfundo:“y
ousawt
her
e’sanext
racoti
nlel
o’s
room ri
ght?”
Me: “
youdi
dn’
tbuyamoni
torIwon’
thearhi
m
cr
yingint
hatr
oom”
Sf
undo:
“buthowwegoi
ngt
omakel
ove”
Me: “
youmustbecr azyi
fyout
hinky
ouwill
evengettolookatorevensmel
lmypussyaft
er
thatst
untyoupull
ed”
Sf
undo:
“whatdi
dIdo?
”
Me:
“ar
eyoust
upi
dorj
ustpl
aini
diot
ic?
”
Sfundo:“
watchhowyout
alktome.WhatwasI
supposedtodowhenshedidn’
thav
eaplacet
o
sl
eep?”
Me:
“thi
sisGaut
engt
her
ear
ehot
elsal
lov
er
t
hispl
ace”
Sfundo:
“babydon’
tdothi
slet
’snotf
ightov
er
hershe’
snotworthi
t”
Me: “
notwor t
hit?Hel lSfundoyousatthere
star
ingatherasi fshe’stheonlyli
vi
ngthingI
watchedmyf iancest ari
ngatanotherwoman
ri
ghtinfr
ontofmet heny ougoandgivehera
suit
einyourhot eltheverysamehot el
y oustay
i
n.Whatisshedoi ngherSf undowhatdoesshe
wantfrom you?”
Sf
undo:
“Idon’
tknowIhav
en’
tspokent
oher
”
Me:“di
dyouknowshewasi nthecount
ry?
”He
l
ookeddown“fucki
ngper
fect”
Sf
undo:
“Idi
dn’
tknow”
Me:
“don’
tli
e”
Sf
undo:
“Iswear
”
Me:
“whenl
astdi
dyouspeakt
oher
?”
Sf
undo:
“whenourdi
vor
cewasf
inal
i
zedf
ive
y
ear
sback”
Me:
“youl
yi
ng”hegr
unt
ed
Sf
undo:
“shehasbeent
ryi
ngt
ogeti
ncont
act
wi
thme”
Me:
“whenwer
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lme?
”
Sfundo:
“wewerenott
oget
herf
ort
hel
ast
sevenmonths”
Me:“ohdon’tusethatshi
tasanexcuseasi
f
youevenrespect
edt hebr
eakup”
Sf
undo:
“sor
ry”
Me:
“whydi
dn’
tyout
ell
me?
”
Sf
undo:
“Idi
dn’
twanty
ouget
ti
ngupsetl
i
key
ou
ar
enow”
Me:“that
’sbecausesheshowedupwhi l
ewe
werehavingdinnerwit
hthekids.Andthat‘
hel
l
o
I
’m Angel
aMkhi zeshit
’youexpectmet obe
happy.Whyisshest i
l
lusingyoursur
name?Did
youbuyherthatbag?”
Sfundo:
“ofcoursenotAphewant edmetobuy
i
tforhersoIboughttwof ory
ouandher.Idon’
t
knowwhyshei ssti
llusi
ngmysur nameInever
askedherbabeandIdon’tcare”
Me:“goodni
ght
”Igotundert
hecov
ersand
pul
l
edLonhletomychest
Sf
undo:
“I’
m sor
rybabypl
easedon’
tbeupset
wi
thme”
Me: “
I’
m overt
hiswhol
ethi
ngSfundogobuy
herahouseifyouwanttol
ethernameher
chi
ldrenaf
teryou”
Sfundo:“
babydon’
ttal
kli
kethatplease”he
cameandkneltbymybedside“Ilovey ouSneI
l
ov eyousomuchandIam sosor rythatmy
pastishur
ti
ngyou”
Me:“i
tokaySf
undoi
tnoty
ourf
aul
tthaty
ou
car
eabouther
”
Sf
undo:
“Idon’
t”
Me:
“don’
tdenyi
tbecauseIam notsay
ingi
tto
makeyoufeelbadhadIbeenmarri
edto
someoneelseIwoul
dsti
llcar
eaboutt
hem
evenaf
teradivor
ce”
Sfundo:
“cari
ngaboutherdoesn’
tmeanIl
ove
youanyless”
Me:
“yes”
Sf
undo:“t
hanky
ouf orunderst
andi
ng”heli
ft
ed
meupandputinthemi ddl
eofthebedthengot
i
nbehindme.
.
Iwaswokenupbymyphonet
henextmor
ning
ri
ngi
ngi
twasdad
Me:
“dad”
Dad:
“it07:
15andy
oust
il
lasl
eep”
Me:
“shi
t”Isatupqui
ckl
y“I
’
mlat
e”hechuckl
ed
Dad:“wel
lIgotaninterv
iewforHrManagera
fr
iendofminehasthiscompanyandthey
l
ookingforone.Ial
readyknowthepayisbet
ter
thanwhereyouworki
ngother
wiseyouwoul
d
haveboughtahousealr
eadyi
ftheywer
epaying
youri
ght”
Me: “
Icanaffor
dahousedadIjusthadn’
tbeen
thi
nkingaboutbuy
ingandIdon’
thaveenough
experiencet
oqual
ifyf
oramanagement
posit
ion”
Dad:“
li
keIt ol
ditbel
ongstoaf
ri
endofmi
neso
youneedtobei nDurbant
omorr
owmorni
ngfor
youri
nter
view”
Me:
“dadIhav
eaj
ob”
Dad:“
justhumoryourdaddycomef
ort
he
i
nter
view”Isi
ghed
Me:
“Iwi
l
ltr
yandgett
hedayof
ftomor
row”
Dad:“good.Igotacal
lfrom Vuy
aniyester
day
hetel
lsmeSf undoproposedIdidn’
tevenknow
youtwower ebacktogether
”
Me:
“yes”
Dad:
“nowIspoket
oyourmot
herandwebot
h
thi
nkyoumarry
ingSfundoisnotagoodi dea
especi
all
ynowwheny oujustgotbacktohim
andwedon’tt
hinkheistherightguyf
ory ou”
Me:“
oh”Ifel
tsodisappoi
ntedbutt
henwhat
wasIthi
nki
ngaft
erhebeatmeupobv iousl
y
t
heyweregoingt
osayt hat
Dad:“wedon’twantt
otel
l y
out onotbewith
hi
m butitdoesn’
tmakeushappysocany ouat
l
eastnotrushthi
ngsli
kedon’tmarryhim”
Sfundocameoutoftheclosetall
dressedup
andgorgeousinathr
eepiecesuitputt
ingon
hi
swat ch
Me:“dadcanwetalkdur
ingmyl
unchhourI
hav
et ogetr
eadyforwork”
Dad:“
okaybutmakesureyoucall
weneedto
t
alkbutIser
iousl
ydon’
tthi
nkyoushoul
dmarr
y
t
hatboy”
Me:“
byedad”Iendedthecall
andsi
ghed
Sf
undobentoverandkissedme
Sf
undo:
“mor
ningbaby
”
Me:
“youdi
dn’
twakemeup”
Sf
undo:
“youneededt
her
est
”
Me:
“Ihav
ewor
kSf
undo.Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
”
Sfundo:“capetownhavemeet
ingt
her
eandI
needt ocheckthi
ngsathot
elI
’
vebeen
neglecti
ngit”
Me:
“youdi
dn’
ttel
lme”
Sf
undo:
“musthav
esl
i
ppedmymi
ndsor
ry”
Me:
“whenwi
l
lyoubeback?
”
Sf
undo:
“twoday
stops”heki
ssedme
Me:
“I’
m goi
ngtoDur
bantoni
ghtorear
ly
t
omorrowmorni
ngIhav
eaninter
viewther
e”
Sfundo:
“Iheardyouspeakingt
oyourfather”I
noddedandgotof ft
hebed“ wewil
ltal
klaterI
needtoleavenow”hecuppedmyf acewe
ki
sseddeeplyIgotclosert
ohisbodyandleta
moanashegr abbedmyass
Me:
“webot
hrunni
ngl
ate.Il
ovey
ou”
Sf
undo:
“Il
ovey
oumor
e”
Me:
“Ihaven’
tfor
got
tenabouty
ourex”Iwentt
o
t
hebathr
oom
Sf
undo:
“Il
ovey
oul
i
keI
’
venev
erl
ovedbef
ore!
!”
Ipar kedout
sidethegaragegotoffthecar
helpedLelooutthentookLonhlewewal kedi
n
thehousef oundthenanniesinthekit
chen
eatingweexchangedgr eeti
ngsIwenttoput
Lonhl einhi
scotandwentout .Nonducameto
measIwasaboutt ogetinthecar
Nondu:
“canwet
alk?
”
Me:
“I’
m al
readyl
ate”
Nondu:“
Ijustwanttoapol
ogi
zeforl
astnighti
t
r
eall
ywasami st
akeIj
ustl
eftt
heroom fora
minut
eIdon’tknowwhathappened”
Me:“
itokayNondujustmakesur
eyoucar
eful
wi
thhim hei
ssti
llababy”
Nondu:“I
’mreal
l
ysor rypl
easeapologizet
o
bhutiSf
undohewassoupsetIdi dn’tgeta
chancetoapol
ogize.Ineedthi
sjob”
Me: “
IknowNondui tokayreal
l
yIjustwenta
l
itt
lecrazywhenIheardhim wail
i
ngliket
hat
”
shenodded
Nondu:
“thanky
ou”
Me:
“wewi
l
ltal
kwhenIcomeback”
Nondu:
“okay
”
Il
andedinDur banandtookanubertoSfundo’
s
houseIgotdinneronmywayt her
e.Itooka
batht
hencal l
edNonducheckingonmyki ds
aft
erthatIcal
ledSfundo
Sf
undo:“myli
femyl
ovemyhear
tmy
ev
eryt
hing”
Me:
“someonei
sinagoodmood”
Sfundo:“
whowoul dn’
thewhental
ki
ngtohi
s
beauti
fulandsexyfi
anceewi
thcur
vest
odiefor
.
Il
ov eyoubaby”
Me:
“yout
alki
ngl
i
kesomeonewhoi
sgui
l
ty”
Sfundo:“
ifi
tlov
ingy
ouIam gui
l
tyf
ort
hen
punishmebaby ”
Me:
“wowIdon’
tev
enknowy
azi
”hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
“howwast
hef
li
ghtbabe?
”
Me:
“shor
tasal
way
s”
Sf
undo:“
dadsaysyourf
athersai
dthel
obola
won’
tbehappeni
nganyti
mesoon”Igroaned
Me:“yes.Ispoketomyparentst
heythinkwe
movingfastconsi
deri
ngthatwejustf
ixed
t
hingsaftermonthsofnotbei
ngtogether”
Sf
undo:
“whatdoy
out
hink”
Me:
“Iagr
ee”
Sf
undo:
“youdon’
twantt
omar
ryme?
”
Me:
“Idoj
ustnotnow”
Sf
undo:
“when?
”
Me:
“gi
vemesomet
imeSf
undo”
Sf
undo:
“gi
vemeaf
ucki
ngt
imef
rame”
Me:
“don’
tgetangr
y”
Sf
undo:
“ar
eyoucal
l
ingof
ftheengagement
?”
Me:
“Idon’
tknowr
ightnow”
Sf
undo:
“cal
lmewhenyouknow”hehungup
PART30LOVEMELIKEONLYYOUCAN

[
04/
15,
11:
01]Ron:
Lov
eMeLi
keOnl
yYouCan

I
nser
tthi
rt
yone.
..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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edupatt heparkingl
otofthehuge
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ll
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y
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tomeetamanasmuscul arasSf undowellhis
fatherandBr ianwer emorebutt heydon'tcount.
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nghisdimplesashecamemy
wayandext endedhi shand 
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"goodmor
ningMrKhumal
o" 
Hi
m:"
Mrkhumal
oismyf
atherI
'
m Li
am"
 
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am"
 
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am:"andy
oumustbeournewHrManager
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ookedatmewit
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ow
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am:
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" 
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m st
il
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ngtohavetopasst
he
i
nter
v i
ew"hesmil
edshaki
nghishead 
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usther
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ract
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Liam:"It
houghtMrPet
ersonhadspokent
oyou
becausemydadsaidtheyspokeandthej
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yours"
 
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" 
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sitpl
ease"wewentt
osi
tdown"
woul
d
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kesomethingt
odri
nk"
 
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am: "pl
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m apr
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her
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etoy ouI'm al
it
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skeptical aboutyoubeinginmanagementsi nce
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ustwor
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m happytoheart
hat
.Wejustwai
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ng
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egalguy.Woul
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contr
actint
hemeant i
me?" 
Me:
"yespl
ease"het
ooki
toutandgav
eitt
o
me 
Li
am:
"I'
l
lgi
vey
ouf
ewmi
nut
es"
 
Me:"thankyou"Hewentout.Ireadthecont
ract
anditwasamazi ngthesal
aryandthebenef
its
werejustamazing.Ical
l
eddad 
Dad:
"Sne?
" 
Me:
"youknewdi
dn'
tyou?
"Hel
aughed 
Dad:
"yes.Howi
sthecont
ract
?" 
Me:
"amazi
ngdad"
 
Dad:
"theny
oucan'
tsayno"Isi
ghed 
Me:
"myl
i
fei
sinJohannesbur
gdad"
 
Dad:
"yourli
fei
swher
ey ouy ouwanti
ttobeas
l
ongasy ouhavey
ourchil
dren" 
Me:"
Lut
handowil
lhaveaprobl
em wi
thme
movi
ngl
elo"t
hedooropenedLi
am walkedi
n
wi
thawhit
eman 
Dad:
"hewon'
tst
andi
nyourway
" 
Me:"Ihav
etogowewi
l
ltal
klat
er"Iendedt
he
cal
l
 
Li
am:"
thi
sisGeor
geOsbor
neourl
awyer"I
st
oodweshookhandst
henweal
lsatdown
Iwal
kedoutoft
hebui
ldi
nggoti
nmycar
smil
i
ngItookmyphonecal
l
edSfundo 
Sfundo:"
yes"Igr
oanedwehadn'
tspokensi
nce
hedroppedthecall
onmelastni
ght 
Me:
"youst
il
lmadatme"
 
Sf
undo:
"yes"
 
Me: "
Idon'
tknowwhaty ouwantf rom me
Sfundo.MaybeIshouldjustcancelthe
engagement"hedidn'
tsayany t
hing"anywayI
call
edtotel
lyouthatIgotthejobIjustsi
gned
thecontr
actIhavetoputinamont hnoti
ceat
work" 
Sf
undo:"
congrat
ulat
ionsIhavetogo"hehung
upagai
nIscreamedinfrust
rat
ionIwantedto
hi
tsomethi
ng.Iputmyphonedownanddr ove
of
ftogatewayIwasmeet i
ngupwi t
hZiyanda.

Idi
dasomeshoppingwhil
ewai
ti
ngforZiyanda
Ihar
dlyspentmymoneyev
ersi
nceSfundoand
Ist
art
eddatingIhadjustali
tt
lebi
tov
erhal
fa
mil
li
oninmyaccount .Zi
yandacal
l
edmewhenI
wasintheparki
nglotputt
ingmybagsint
hecar
Iwenttoheratoceanbasket 
Ziy
anda:"boo"wehugged"i
tabsol
utel
y
gorgeousSneitl
ookssoexpensi
ve"shewas
holdi
ngmyhand 
Me:"t
hanky oubabe"wesatdownandorder
ed
dr
inksIneededaglassofmerlotmyemoti
ons
wereal
lfuckedup 
Zi
yanda:
"howar
eyou?
"Ihuf
fed 
Me:
"I'
m goodI
'
llbemov
ingbackt
oDur
ban"
 
Ziy
anda:"
what?That'
sgreatI'
vemissedseei
ng
youwheneverIwantt
o"Ilaughed
Me:
"yeahj
ustgotaj
obt
hissi
de"
 
Zi
yanda:
"that
'sgr
eat
" 
Me:"howi
sMazwi?"Shesmi l
edshewasseeing
t
hisguyMazwit
otall
ynothertypehewas
worki
ngent
ryl
evelatanaccounti
ngfi
rm he
washerageandt
otal
l
yinl
ovewit
hheract
ual
ly
t
heywereinl
ovei
twassuchabeaut
if
ulsi
ght
 
Zi
yanda:
"hei
sokay
" 
Me:
"yougl
owatt
hement
ionofhi
sname"
 
Ziy
anda:
"Il
ovehi
m Snel
i
keIreal
l
yIl
ovehi
m
andhemakesmesohappy"
 
Me:
"that
'sgood.Howi
sthei
nter
nshi
p?"
 
Ziy
anda:
"great
.Li
keeverythi
ngisjustamazing
babeIam sohappyImightnothaveMar cel
'
s
moneyanymorebutIam real
lyhappy" 
Me:
"that
'sgood"
 
Zi
yanda:
"andyouhowar
emybabi
es?
"It
ooka
si
pofmywi ne 
Me:"t
heygoodLel
oisj
usttheLel
oyouknow
andLonhl
eisal
wayscr
ying"
 
Ziy
anda:"
whenar
eyoumovi
ngher
e?Icanget
tospendt
imewit
hthem"
 
Me:
"Ihav
etoser
veamont
hsnot
iceatwor
k" 
Ziy
anda:"
areyouhappySne?Youlosi
ngweight
babeyourassandhi
psaredisappear
ing"
 
Me: "r
ightnowno.IthinkIl
ostmy sel
final
lthat
Sfundohasgi venmeI '
veal
way swantedthe
fi
nestt hi
ngsinli
febutIwantedtoworkfor
them nott obegiv
enthem li
keSfundohasbeen
doing.Ijustdon'
tknowZiyandaIreal
lydon'
t" 
Ziy
anda:"
fewmont hsagoIwoul dhav ecal l
ed
youandsaidsti
ckitoutyoujustbeingcr azybut
ri
ghtnowallIcansayisfol
lowy ourheartonl y
youknowwhaty ouwantandneeddon' tstay
wit
hhimifhemakesy oumoresadt hanhe
makesyouhappy .Moneyisnotev ery
thing" 
Me:
"that
'sr
ichcomi
ngf
rom y
ou"wel
aughed 
Zi
yanda:
"yeahIknow"Ist
art
edeat
ing 
Me:"
Ineedanot
hergl
assy
azi
shoul
dhav
e
or
der
edabottl
e" 
Zi
yanda:
"sdakwa"
 
Me:
"li
feal
l
ows"
 
.
Sfundosentadr i
vertopickmeupatt heairpor
t
becauseapparentl
yhewast oobusytopickme
up.Hereall
ywaspushi ngmet ocall
ingoffthe
engagement.Thedr i
verdroppedmeof fatmy
houselel
orant omeasIent er
edthehouseI
droppedmybagsandpi ckedherup 
Lel
o:"
missedy
oumommy
" 
Me:
"hhahasbeent
eachi
ngy
out
ocal
lme
mommy" 
Lel
o:"
Nacy
" 
Me:
"wher
eisy
ourl
i
ttl
ebr
other
?" 
Lel
o:"
eati
ng"wewenttot
heloungef
ound
Nondufeedi
ngLonhl
eIgr
eet
edandsatdown 
Me:
"wer
etheygood?
" 
Nondu:"theyalway
sgoodjustt
hatIthi
nk
Lonhl
eisget t
ingsi
ckhisnosei
sblockedsi
nce
l
astnightandhehar dl
yat
e" 
Me:
"may
beIshoul
dtakehi
mtot
hedoct
or"
 
Nondu:"
youact
uall
ybothoft
hem youkept
post
poni
ngtheyneedtogett
hei
rvacci
nati
on"
Me:"
canyougetthem r
eadypl
easewewil
lgo
t
othedoct
orthenhavelunchy
oubothget
r
eadyaswell
"
Nacy:
"okay
"Iwentt
ogetmybagsandwentt
o
myroom.

Someoneknockedont hedoorIwasi nthe

l
oungewat chingt vwhi l
ehav i
ngwi neal
oneI
al
readyknewi twasSf undohewast heonly
personwhogott hrought hegatewi t
houtcal
li
ng
me.Iwentt oopensi ncethedoorwasl ockedit
wasalreadylatenightev eryoneelsewasasleep
Iwasjustcatchinguponmyr eal
i
tyshows. 
Sf
undo:"
hi"weki
ssedshor
tl
y"y
ou'
vebeen
dr
inki
ng"
 
Me:
"geti
nit
scol
d"Iwal
kedbackt
othel
ounge
wit
hhimf ol
lowi
ngmehel if
tedmeupandl aid
onthecouchputti
ngmeont opofhim Isni
ff
ed
hi
m catchi
nghisscentandbreat
hedoutIhad
missedhim sobadl
y 
Sf
undo:
"I'
veal
somi
ssedy
ou"
 
Me:"whatishappeni
ngtousSfundo?Whyam I
hur
ti
nglikethi
s?"Mytear
sdroppedIsni
ff
ed 
Sfundo:" I
'
m sor ryIwassuchanassy esterday
andt henightbef orebabyIj ustlostmymi nd
wheny ousai dy oudon' tknowi fyouwantt ocall
offtheengagementornotandIwast al
ki
ngt o
youabouty our esigningatwor kst ay
ingat
homet heny out akeanewj obwithmor e
responsibil
iti
esIwant edt obuyusahouseher e
Iwasal readyl ookingathousesbutnowy ou
mov ingtoDur ban.I'm happyy ougott hejob
youdeser vei tbabyIl ov eyousomuchIwantt o
seey ouachi ev eallyourdr eamsandgoal sbaby
Iwanty out oshi nebr i
ghtl i
keadi amondy ou
areIwi l
lsuppor tyouinev erypossiblewayIwi l
l
beyournumberonecheerleaderIpr
omiseyou.
Iwil
lhelpyoui
nanywayIcant oensurethat
yourdreamscometrue.IwantyouhappySne
butIwantyouhappywithme"  
Me: "
Iwantt obehappywi thy ouSfundo.Idon' t
wanttolosemy selfandf orgetmydr eams
becauseIam busyspendi ngy ourmoneyand
try
ingtobeaper fectmot herandwi fe.YesI
wanttobeaper fectmot hert omychi l
drenand
wifetoyoubutIdon' tknowSf undoIr eall
ydon't
knowIhav eallt
heseemot i
onsgoi ngonandal l
thi
sdoubtaboutwhet herIam doi ngt heright
thi
ngornot .Li
kerightnowi tnotev enaboutmy
parent
snotwant i
ngmet ogetmar riedi tabout
menotbei ngsureifIwantt omar ryornot " 
Sfundo:"whatcanIdotoer
aseal
lyourdoubt
s
myl ove?Il
ovey ousomuchandIwanttomarry
yousobad"  
Me:
"Sfundoyoudi
dn'
tev
enthi
nkabout
mar
ri
agebeforewebr
okeupinfacty
oudi
dn'
t
seeyoursel
fget
ti
ngmar
ri
edev
eragai
n.What
changed?" 
Sfundo:"Ireali
zedIhavearar
eexpensi v
e
gemstonemyl oveandIam notlosingyou"I
noddedhel i
ft
edmyf aceandwipedmyt ears
"don'
tcallofftheengagementpl
easei twill
breakmyhear twecanhavealongengagement
i
fmar ri
agei sscari
ngyoufornowi tfi
ne" 
Me:
"okaywewil
lhav
ealongengagementbut
wewil
lst
il
lst
ayi
nsepar
atehouses"
 
Sf
undo:"
Ilov
eyouSneguguIl
ovey
ouso
much"
 
Me:
"Il
oveyout
oo"wekisseddeepl
ypouri
ngal
l
t
heemoti
onsweweregoingthr
oughint
hekiss
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Iwokeupfeeli
ngwar m andlovedandhappy .
Lastni
ghtSfundoandIspenthour stal
ki
ngand
dri
nki
ngwinet henwemadesl owl ov
eunt i
lI
coul
dn'
tstopmybodyf r
om shakingwef el
l
asl
eepineachot her
'sar
ms. 
Me:
"baby
" 
Sf
undo:
"hm"
 
Me:"letgoofmeIneedt
ogetreadyf
orwork"
hekissedmyneckImoanedandfel
thi
sli
ps
for
mi ngasmil
e 
Sf
undo:
"ski
ptheday
" 
Me: "
youknowIcan' t"hemov edfr
om myneck
start
edtrail
inghiski
ssesdowngoi ngt
omy
breasts"babystop"heshookhishead
conti
nuingIpushedhi m of
fli
ghtl
y 
Sf
undo:
"youdon'
twantme?
" 
Me:
"yepI'
mt ot
all
yoveryoumetsomeonenew
i
nDurban"hechuckl
edandlookedupatmehi
s
ey
etwi
nkl
i
ngwi
thmi
schi
ef
Sfundo:"guessIshoul
df uckyousohar dthat
youforgetaboutwhoev eryoumet "Ishookmy
headwi t
hahugesmi l
eonmyf ace 
Me: "
nopeIdoubty
oucan"hewentfur
ther
downkissi
ngmehel i
ft
edmylegsputt
ingmy
thi
ghsonhisshoul
der
s 
Sfundo:
"yousure"Inoddedwithagoofygri
n
"mmhsol i
tt
lefait
hony ourf
uturehusband"
 
Me:
"pr
ovey
our
sel
f"
 
Sfundo:
"weai
mtopl
easeMr
sMe"hest
art
ed
eati
ngmeup 
Me:"y
eees"hel
ooksupj
ustIam enj
oyi
ng
mysel
f 
Sfundo:"
babe"Ilookathi
m hehastear
sinhis
eyesIimmediatelyt
ryt
ositupbutheholdsme
downi nafi
rmy etgent
lyway 
Me:
"babywhati
swr
ong?
" 
Sfundo:"pr
omi semey ouwi l
lneverleaveme
SneguguImay beanarrogantasssomet imes
butIloveyousomuch"hi stearsdroppedIfel
t
painshootingthroughmyhear t"j
ustnevergiv
e
uponmenomat ter
.IwoulddieifyouleftmeI
don'tthi
nkinfactIknowt hatIwon'tsurvi
ve
withoutyou" 
Me:"babypl
easey ouhurti
ngme.Whatis
wrong?"Heshookhi sheadIsatupandpull
ed
hi
mt omychestIlaidbackont hebedwit
hhim
ontopofmebr ushinghisback"t
alkt
ome"  
Sfundo:
"ther
eisnot
hingwrongIj
ustdon'
twant
toloseyouSneyoumylif
e" 
Me:"
youwon'
tl
osemeSf
undoIl
ovey
out
oo
much"
 
Sf
undo:
"Iwantanot
herbaby
" 
Me:
" nowyouacti
ngcrazy
"helaughedand
movedhisfacef
rom mybreastwekissed
Icall
edLut
handoduri
ngmyl
unchhourhe
pickedupi
mmediatel
y
Lut
hando:
"babymama"Il
aughed
Me:
"wow.Ishoul
dfeel
off
endedy
azi
" 
Lut
hando:
"what
'
supbeaut
if
ul"
 
Me:
"howi
sbabySel
unat
hi?
" 
Lut
hando:
"sheisgoodgrowi
ngupf
astand
get
ti
ngfat
terbutgood"
 
Me:
"that
'sgood"
 
Lut
hando:
"what
'
sup?
" 
Me:
"Igotaj
ob"hesi
ghed 
Lut
hando:"
dadt
oldmeIwasj
ustwai
ti
ngf
or
youtot
ell
me" 
Me:
"thatmani
ssosneaky
"wel
aughed 
Lut
hando:
"that
'sy
ourf
ather
"
Me:"
soy
ouknowIam t
aki
ngy
ourdaught
er
wi
thme"
 
Luthando:"y
esIknow.Idon'tknowhowitgoi
ng
towor kbutwewi l
lmakeitworkbutIwil
lbei
n
mydaught er'
sli
feIam herf
athernoty
our
fi
ancee"
Me:
"yesLut
handoweal
lknowt
hat
" 
Lut
hando:
"Iwi
l
lgetherwhenev
erIwanther
" 
Me:"
wheneverandwewi
l
ldi
scusshol
i
day
sas
t
heyappr
oach" 
Luthando: "
yes.I
tgoi
ngtowor kaslongasyou
andSf undorespectt
hatIam herfat
herwe
shouldn'thaveanypr
oblem"
 
Me:
"samegoesf
orNamhl
a"hel
aughed
Luthando:
"youknowyouain'
tgott
aworr
yabout
thatNamhlahasherhandf
ulwit
hNathi
" 
Me:"
Sfundolov
esLelohelov
eshersomuch
andwantst
ogivehertheworl
d" 
Luthando:
"sheal
readyhast
hewor
ldgi
vent
o
herbyherpapa" 
Me:
"agi
rlcanhav
etwowor
lds"
 
Lut
hando:
"hhm asazi
" 
Me:
"thanky
ouf
orbei
ngunder
standi
ngabout
memov i
ng"
 
Lut
hando:"
Itol
dyout
hatIwanty
ouhappy
maror
o" 
Me:
"IknowandIappr
eci
atet
hat
" 
Luthando:
"goodnowIgot
tagowegoi
ngt
o
sandtonci
ty.Il
ovey
ouli
tt
lesi
s" 
Me:
"lov
eyout
oobr
o"weendedt
hecal
l

Hepi
ckedmeupfrom workhewaswi
tht
he
ki
dsi
nthecarwekissed 
Me:
"hel
l
osweet
y" 
Lel
o:"
hel
l
omommy
" 
Me:
"wher
eyouguy
scomi
ngf
rom?
" 
Lel
o:"
shoppi
ng"
 
Me:
"hadf
un?
" 
Lelo:"y
epwesawpapaandaunt yNamhlawit
h
thebaby "It
urnedandl
ookedatthem shewas
smi l
i
ngLonhl ewasbusysucki
ngonhis
pacifi
er 
Me:
"real
l
y?!
"Shegi
ggl
ednoddi
ng 
Lel
o:"
papasai
dIl
ookpr
ett
yli
key
oumommy
" 
Me:
"papawasr
ight
" 
Lel
o:"
butdaddysai
dwecan'
tst
ayl
ong"she
fr
owned 
Me:"doyoumi
sspapaandaunt
yNamhl
a?"She
nodded 
Lel
o:"
alot
" 
Me:
"wantt
ogost
aywi
tht
hem f
oral
i
ttl
e?"
 
Lel
o:"
please"
 
Me:"okayIwi
l
lspeakt
opapasohecancome
gety
ou"  
Lel
o:"
yeah!
!"Il
aughedf
aci
ngt
hef
ront
 
Me:
"soy
ousawLut
handoatt
hemal
l
" 
Sf
undo:
"yeah"
 
Me:
"hmm"
 
Sf
undo:
"hmm"
 
Me:
"di
dyouf
eedmychi
l
dren?
" 
Sf
undo:
"whywoul
dn'
tIf
eedourchi
l
dren?
" 
Me:
"Angazphel
a" 
Sf
undo:
"nki
ngay
aphapha"
 
Me:"mxm"helaughedandpushedme"
sucha
shi
tt
yperson"
 
Sf
undo:
"that
'snotev
enawor
dmyl
ove"
 
Me:
"nowi
tis"
 
Sf
undo:
"ar
eyouhungr
y?"
 
Me:
"nohadabi
glunchwi
thNat
asha"
 
Sf
undo:
"howdi
dshet
akey
our
esi
gni
ng"
 
Me:"sheunder
standsbutsheal
sofeel
sli
ke
she'
slosi
ngmyf ri
endshi
pandthathur
ts
Sf
undoj
ustbecauseIam l
eavi
ngdoesn'
tmean
wegoi
ngtostopbeingf
ri
ends"
 
Sfundo:
"di
dyout
ryt
oassur
ehert
hatwon'
t
happen"
 
Me:"IdidbabeIl
oveNat ashaIwillmakesure
ourf
riendshi
pdoesn'
tjustv ani
shesbecausewe
noti
nt hesameprovi
nce"  
Sf
undo:"IknowbabyIknow"Isi
ghedandsank
ontheseat 
Me:
"I'
m notl
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
hismov
e" 
Sf
undo:"i
twhatyouwantt
houghmyl
oveso
ev
eryt
hingwi
llbefi
ne"
 
Me:
"andIst
il
lhav
etof
indahouse"
 
Sf
undo:
"It
houghtwehadahousei
nDur
banmy
l
ove"
 
Me: "
thaty
ourhouseIwantmyownplace
SfundoIdon'
twantusmov i
ngi
ntoget
her
beforewemarri
ed" 
Sfundo:"
there'
snopointinthatSnenopointat
all
.Evennowi tl
ikewehav emov edi
ntogether
mov i
ngallyourthi
ngstomyhousewon' tmake
youitchorsmellanydi
fferent
" 
Me:
"real
l
ySf
undo?
"Hel
aughed 
Sf
undo:
"justsay
ing"
 
Me:"i
fwemov eintogetherwhat
'
sthepoi
ntof
usnotgett
ingmarr
ied?"Heputonthi
sful
l
bl
owngrin 
Sf
undo:
"yout
ell
memyl
ove"
 
Me:
"Iseewhaty
oudoi
ngSf
undoi
twon'
twor
k" 
Sf
undo:
"Lel
owam"
 
Lel
o:"
daddy
" 
Sfundo:
"woul
dyouli
ket
ost
aywi
thmommy
anddaddyagai
n" 
Lel
o:"
li
keal
way
s?"
 
Sf
undo:
"yesmyLel
o" 
Lel
o:"
andLonhl
etoo?Imi
ssLonhl
ewhenIam
wi
thpapa"
 
Sf
undo:
"andLonhl
etoo"
 
Lel
o:"
yes!
!"Hechuckl
ed
Me:
"that
'snotr
ight
" 
Sfundo:"y
outryi
ngt
obestubbor
nforno
reason"heopenedt
hegat
e 
Me:
"don'
tev
enknowwhyy
ouhav
emyr
emot
e" 
Sf
undo:"
youjustgoi
ngthr
oughabal
lof
emot
ionsri
ghtnowaren'
tyou?
" 
Me:
"isy
ourexwi
fest
il
lher
e?"
 
Sfundo:
"yesIspentl
astni
ghti
nmybedwi
th
her"
 
Me: "
yaziyouthi
nkyou'
vemadei
tinl
i
fewi
th
yourstupi
djokes"
 
Sfundo:"
Hawubabe.Butshedi
dcheckoutof
thehotel
toady
" 
Me:"
suckmyf
aceSf
undo"hechuckl
edshaki
ng
hi
shead 
Sfundo:
"somuchdi
srespect
"heparkedthecal
l
andpull
edmyfacet
ohi swekissedshor
tly
.We
gotofft
hecart
ookt
heki dsi
n 
Lel
o:"
Ndu!
!Daddyboughtmeabunny
"Il
ooked
atSf
undoshocked 
Nondu:
"real
l
y?Letmeseei
t"Lel
olookedupat
Sf
undo
Lel
o:"
wher
eisi
tdaddy
?" 
Sfundo:"
I'
ll
gogetitnow"hewentt
othe
bedroom If
oll
owedhim 
Me:"youboughtheranot
herpetSf
undo?She
can'
teventakecareofBl
ue" 
Sfundo:"
shewant
edoneandshel
ovesBl
ue"he
putLonhl
edown 
Me:
"GodSf
undo!
" 
Sfundo:"don'
tbeextr
amyl ove"heki
ssedmy
foreheadandwalkedoutIgroanedandtookoff
myshoes.Igott othel
oungeashewasget ti
ng
i
nwi thar eal
l
ycutewhit
ebunnyLelowas
bounci
ngupanddown.Sf
undoopenedi
tcage
badtooki
t.
 
.
Timef l
ewbyIhadser vedmylastdayatwork
theprevi
ousday .Weweregoingtomov einf
ew
daysIhadalreadyhir
edmover sIwasgoingt
o
keepmyf ur
nitur
ei nt
hestor
ager oom at
Sfundo'
shotel.
 
Sfundo:"
Itol
dyoutwohoursagoandIwas
comi ngy
oushoul
dgetready"hewasst
andi
ng
behindmeasIwasdoingmymakeup 
Me:
"yeahwelly
oursonwant
edatt
ent
ionbuthe
i
ssl
eepingnow"heki
ssedmyhead
Sfundo:
"Ical
ledSihl
eear
li
eronshesaidt
he
i
nteri
ordesi
gnerisdonewit
htheki
dsrooms
andthewholehousehasbeenchil
dproof
ed"
 
Me:
"that
'sgoodonel
esst
hingt
owor
ryabout
" 
Sf
undo:
"whaty
ouwor
ri
edaboutmyl
ove?
" 
Me:
"howwi
l
lpeopl
etr
eatmeatwor
k?"
 
Sfundo:"t
heywil
ll
oveyoumyloveyouar
ea
verylov
eableper
son"heki
ssedmyheadI
fi
nishedoffmymakeupwithabrownli
psti
ck 
Me:
"youj
ustl
oveme"
Sf
undo:"
toomuchandIkeepfal
li
ngdeeper
wi
thever
ypassi
ngday"It
urnedwehugged 
Me:"
Ilov
eyousomuch"hebentdownki
ssi
ng
myneck

Heopenedt hedooratt herest

auranti
nhi
s
hoteleveryonescr eamedsurpri
seassoonasI
gotinIcov eredmymout hwithmyhandIwas
sosur pr
isedSf undokissedmycheek.Natasha
walkedtousandhuggedme 
Nat
asha:
"don'
tcr
y" 
Me:
"how?Why
?" 
Natasha:"
youdidn'tt
hinkwewoul dl
ety
ougo
wit
houtapr opersendoff"Il
ookedar
oundi
t
wast hepeoplefr
om workmost l
ymy
depar
tment
 
Me:
"whodi
dthi
s?"
 
Nat
asha:"
bigmanoverher
ehir
edapl
anner
"
Sf
undochuckl
edKl
einhuggedme 
Kl
ein:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
 
Me: "
thanky ou"Sfundot ookaglassof
champagnef rom thewaitergaveitt
ome.I
wentar oundgr eet
ingandmi ngli
ngwith
everyone.Wehadabeaut i
fuldi
nnerIrecei
ved
presentsf r
om almostev ery
oneIjustletl
oose
andhadf un.Wespentt henightinhi
s
penthousef uckingli
kecrazypeoplewhoj ust
gotoutofpr i
son. 
.
Wehadmov edt
oDurbanitbeenaweeknowI
sti
llhadtwoweeksbeforeIhadtostar
twor
k.
Lelolovedhernewhomeshewentcr azy
screamingandrunni
ngaroundwhenshesaw
theswimmi ngpoolmydaughterl
oves
swi
mmi
ng.Ev
ery
oneset
tl
edi
nreal
l
ywel
l
.

SfundoandIwer ei
nacaronourwayhome
fr
om hisfri
end'shousewewer eli
steni
ngto
musichewassi ngi
ngalongtoTheeLegacy-
sthandwasam whenhi sphonerangitwas
connectedtotheBluet
oot h
Sf
undo:
"Si
hle"
 
Si
hle:"Sfundo!
!Helpme!!
"Shewascr
ying
Sfundohi tt
hebrakeshar
dthecar
sbehindus
hootedloudlypassi
ngus 
Sfundo:
"wher
ear
eyou?
"Hedr
oveof
fina
speed 
Sihl
e:"
homehei
sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lmeSf
undohe
hasagun" 
Sf
undo:
"hi
de"
 
Sihl
e:"
don'tdropthecall
"weheardpoundi
ng
thenMarcel'
sv oi
cescreami
ngforhertoopen
thedoor"I
'
m scar edSf
undo"shecri
edlouder
 
Sf
undo:
"ar
eyoui
nyourr
oom?
" 
Si
hle:
"yes"
 
Sfundo:"gotothecloset.Behi
ndhissuit
s
there'
sabluebuttonpressitfol
lowthesteps
whent hedooropensmakesur eyoulockthe
doorwheny ouenterthepasswor dshoul
dbe
yourbirt
hdayorSbani'sitgoi
ngtoleadyouto
thesaferoom ify
oul ockthedoorhewon'tbe
abletoenterfr
om outside" 
Si
hle:
"I'
min"
 
Sf
undo:
"don'
tcomeoutunt
ilIcal
l
"shesni
ff
ed 
Si
hle:
"okay
" 
Sf
undo:"
whatdi
dyoudo?
"Shecr
iedl
ouder
wai
li
ng 
Sihl
e:"
hefoundoutIhavebeenseei
ng
someoneelsebuthehadnor i
ghtt
ohitme
Sfundoweseparat
ed" 
Sf
undo:
"justwai
tther
e"
Sfundojumpedof ft
hecarassoonasi t
stoppedinfrontoft
hemai ndoorIfoll
owed
behindhimrunningIfoundhim upst
airsalr
eady
fi
ghtingwit
hMar cel
.Theywerebeat i
ngeach
otherupcrazil
yIscr
eamedwhenahugepunch
l
andedonSf undo'scheekhespatoutbl ood
samet ime 
Marcel
:"Idon'twanttohurtyouSf undobrostay
outoft
his"Sfundosmi r
kedbef orehethrew
backaheav ypunchthatlandedMar celonthe
fl
oorSfundokneltnextt
ohi m start
edbeating
hi
m senseless 
Sfundo:"fi
rstl
yyoucheatonmysi st
erforyear
s
thenyout hreat
enmywomanasi fthat'
snot
enoughy oupullagunoutatmysi ster
"hekept
punchinghim ashewassay ingthis.Itr
ied
pull
inghim backMar cel
wasn'tmov ing
anymor ehehadst oppedfi
ghti
ngback 
Me:
"Sf
undoy
ouscar
ingme"hest
oppedand
stoodupwal
ki
ngt
ohi
m hi
sey
eswer
esocol
d
anddead 
Sfundo:"
I'
m sor
rybaby"hepul
l
edmet ohi
s
chestandwrappedhisarmsar
oundmeSihle
screamedasshewascomi ngoutoft
hecl
oset 
Si
hle:"Sfundoyouki
l
ledhi
m!!"Ilookedatwher
e
Marcel wasandhewaslayi
ngt herenotmovi
ng
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Si
hle:
"Sf
undoy
ouki
l
ledmyhusband!
!"
 
Sfundo:"geesedr
amaticmuch"hehadt
his
boredlookonhisface
Me:"
Sfundo!
"Ipushedhi
m backSi
hlewas
wai
l
ingSfundowalkedt
othebathr
oom came
backwit
haglassofwat
erpour
edi
tov
er
Marcel
'
sface 
Sf
undo:
"Idi
dn'
tki
l
lhi
m hei
sjustr
est
ing"
 
Sihl
e:"
stopsmirki
ngy
ounotbei
ngfunny"he
l
aughedbutquickl
ycl
ear
edhist
hroatwhenI
shothi
m alook 
Sf
undo:
"whydi
dyoucal
lmeher
eSi
hle?
" 
Sihl
e:"Iwasscar
edbutIdidn'texpecty
out
o
beathim upli
ket
his"heshruggedhis
shoulders 
Sfundo:"wel
lthatwi
llt
eachhi
mt oneverhi
tyou
again"Il
ookedathim wit
harai
sedeyebrowli
ke
thefuckeral
mostkil
ledmenowhei sacti
ngli
ke
thi
s 
Sihl
e:"say
syou!Youal
lhy
pocrit
esMarcel
cheatedonmeandwhenIf i
ndmy sel
fsomeone
el
seheact sl
ikeamadmany oubeatupSne.
."
 
Sf
undo:
"what
?!"
 
Si
hle:
"yeahIhear
dmom andmamat
alki
ng"
 
Sfundo:"
mxm.Let
'sgomylove"heheldmy
handwewalkedoutwegotinthecarj
ustas
Bri
annawaswalki
ngoutofher
'swithavery
beauti
ful
whi
techi
ckwit
hshortblondehai
r 
Br
ianna:
"heyf
am"
 
Sf
undo:"
youtwobacktogether?Youhavethe
mostwei
rdrel
ati
onshi
p"theothergi
rll
aughed 
Her
:"don'
that
eonusSf
undo"
 
Br
ianna:
"shecheat
sal
ott
hat
'
sherpr
obl
em"
 
Her
:"r
eal
l
ybabe"t
heyst
art
edar
gui
ng 
Sf
undo:"
let
'
sgo"hewhi
sper
edwedr
oveof
f
l
aughi
ng 
Me:
"whoi
sthat
?" 
Sf
undo:
"Chanel
heronandof
fgi
rl
fr
iend"
 
Me:
"onandof
f?"
 
Sfundo:"onemomentt heyt
ogetherthenext
theynottheyreal
l
yl ov
eeachotherbutChanel
can'tst
ayfait
hfulandBri
annai
scr azysothey
fi
ghtalot.Briannawasoncear restedfor
beat
ingupChanel '
ssi
depi eceputthepoorgir
l
i
nhospitalluckil
ytheparentshaveconnecti
on
ever
ywher esoshewal kedawayf ree" 
Me: "
Idon'
tunder
standwhyy ourf
ami
l
ythi
nks
vi
olencesol
veseveryt
hing"
 
Sf
undo:"If
eel
li
key
out
aki
ngaj
abatme"I
si
ghed 
Me: "
Idon'
tsor
ry.Ij
ustdon'
twantmychi
l
dren
exposedtovi
olenceIcan'
thav
ethat
" 
Sf
undo:
"theywon'
tbe"
 
Me:
"pr
omi
seme"
 
Sf
undo:"
Ipromi
semylove"Iputmyheadon
hi
sshoul
derheki
ssedi
t 
Me: "
Idon'
tli
ket
hewayy
ouhi
tMar
cel
itwasn'
t
necessar
y" 
Sf
undo:
"IknowIj
ustl
osti
t"
 
Me:
"It
houghty
ouwer
ewor
kingony
ouranger
" 
Sf
undo:
"Iam baby
.I'
m sor
ryIl
ovey
ou"
 
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"

Lel
orantothedoorwi
thBl
uebarki
ngbehi
nd
her
.IopenedmyarmssoIcantakeher
 
Lel
o:"
daddy
!"Shej
umpedonhi
m 
Me: "
ouchyoujustli
ket
ohurtmommydon'
t
you"shegi
ggledhidi
ngherf
aceonSf
undo'
s
neck 
Sfundo:"
gotomommy "shel
ookedatmeand
openedherarmsItookher"t
ell
mommyhow
muchy oulov
eher"
 
Lel
o:"
Ilov
eyousosomuchmommy
" 
Me:
"mommyl
ovesl
elososomuchaswel
l
" 
Lel
o:"
canIhav
eicecream?
"Shebat
tedher
l
ashesatmepouti
ng
Me:
"af
terdi
nner
" 
Lel
o:"
daddy
?" 
Sfundo:
"afterdinnerangel"shenodded
fr
owningLonhl ecamet ot hefoyercrawl
i
ng
Sfundopickedhim up" hell
obigboy "het
hrew
hi
m Lonhlestartedlaughingloudly 
Me: "
Sfundoifyoudaredr opmybabyIwi
llki
l
l
you"hechuckledandst oppedt
hrowi
ngLonhle
wewal kedtothelounge 
Sf
undo:"wher
eisNonduandNacy
?"Nacycame
i
nfrom t
hekit
chen
Nacy
:"wecooki
ngdi
nner
" 
Sfundo:"
okay"shewentbackt
otheki
tchen
Lelorant
oher" woul
dyouli
kesomet
hingto
dri
nkbaby?" 
Me:
"dr
yredbaby
"heputLonhl
edown 
Sf
undo:
"cr
awlal
ongboy.Yoursonneedst
o
st
ayawayfr
om mybear
d" 
Me:
"youneedt
oshav
e"hewal
kedt
othebar
 
Sf
undo:
"youl
i
kemybear
d" 
Me:"act
uall
yIdon'
ti
tt i
ckl
esmewhenyou
goi
ngdownonme"hel ookedupatmeashe
waspouringhi
sscotch 
Sf
undo:
"her
eIwast
hinki
ngi
tdoest
hemost
" 
Me:
"nope"hecamebackandgav
ememywi
ne 
Sf
undo:
"sdakwa"
 
Me:"
asifyoudon'
tl
iket
het
hingsIdot
oyou
whenI'
m dr
unk"
Sfundo:"
ohIlov
eit
.Comesithere"Iwenttosit
betweenhisl
egswekissed"
mymot herwant
s
tothrowusanengagementpar
ty" 
Me:
"di
dyout
ell
herwenoti
nar
ush?
" 
Sf
undo:
"yesbaby
" 
Me:
"okayt
henshecandoi
t"
 
Sf
undo:
"athome"
 
Me:
"babythat
'ssof
arnotev
ery
onecanaf
for
d
t
ogothere"
 
Sf
undo:
"wewi
l
lfl
yev
ery
oney
ouwantpr
esent
babyy
ouknowthatBr
ianhasajetweal
sohav
e
afami
lyj
ett
hatwon'
tbeanissue"
 
Me:"l
ikedoIeveninv
iteSbuandZiyanda
consi
deri
ngwhatisgoingon?Theymyf r
iends
SbuismybrotherIwantthem t
her
e" 
Sfundo:"
youinv
itewhoeveryouwantev eryone
will
havetounderst
andthatityourdaytheyall
shouldbehav
eanddeal wit
ht hei
rshitaf
terour
event"
 
Me: "
okaybaby "lel
ocamei nwit
htwocupcakes
Ihadbakesy esterdayshegaveonet
oLonhle
shekissedhischeekhegi ggl
edandpout
edshe
peckedhisli
ps 
Sf
undo:
"shehassuchagoodhear
t"
 
Me:
"theyl
oveeachot
her
" 
Sf
undo:"
maybeweshoul
dgi
vet
hem anot
her
l
it
tl
ebrot
her
" 
Me:"
SfundoIwon'tgi
veyousexi
fyoudon'
t
st
opthi
s"helaughedandbi
temyear 
Sf
undo:
"okaynomor
ebabyt
alks"
 
Me: "
thanky ou.Ireal
l
ydon'
twantababyright
nowSf undoweshoul dwai
tforLonhl
etogoto
schoolatleast" 
Sf
undo:
"okaybaby
" 
Me:
"Idon'
ttr
usty
ou"
 
Sf
undo:"Ij
ustt
hinky
oushoul
dtakea
pr
egnancytest
" 
Me:
"Sf
undopl
ease"hel
aughed 
Sfundo:
"hmm"heki
ssedmyneck"
doy
ouknow
howhappyyoumake?"
 
Me:
"tel
lme"
 
Sf
undo:
"sosomuch"Igi
ggl
ed 
Me:
"youandy
ourdaught
er"
 
Sfundo:"
yousobeaut i
fulandyoual
lmineI'
dkil
l
foryoubaby"Ibeli
evedhim.thewei
rdestpar
tis
thatIact
uall
ylovedthathewouldki
l
l f
ormeit
mademef eelhappy 
Me:
"Iknowbaby
" 
Sfundo:"
sodon'
tcheatonmedon'
tev
ent
hink
aboutit
" 
Me:
"Iwoul
dnev
erIpr
omi
sey
ou"
 
Sfundo:"
yournewwor kpl
aceisdominat
edand
yourbossisLi
am"It r
iedmovingfr
om hi
schest
soIcanfacehim buthepull
edmeback 
Me:
"howdoy
ouknowt
hat
" 
Sfundo:"
Iknowev er
ythi
ngt her
eistoknowand
mor ewheni tcomestoy ou.AsIwassay ing
Li
am isaf uckboyalwayshasbeenal way swil
l
behet hi
nkshecangetanywomanhewant s
nowIwanty outounderstandthatchancesare
hewi l
lwanty ou"
 
Me:
"nohewon'
t"
 
Sfundo:
"youav
erybeaut
if
ulwomanSne
beli
evemehewil
l"
Me:
"howdoy
ouknowhi
m" 
Sf
undo:
"hei
sSphe'
sbi
gbr
other
" 
Me:
"woah!
" 
Sf
undo:
"yes"
 
Me:
"smal
lwor
ld"
 
Sfundo:"
Indeed"wewerest
il
ltal
ki
ngabout
stupi
dthi
ngswhenSi hl
egoti
npulli
nga
suit
casewithaduffl
ebagontopofit 
Si
hle:"
Idi
dn'
twanttogotothehotel
.Thegir
ls
ar
ei nt
hecarpl
easehelpmewiththem"Ist
ood
upwewentoutsidecamebackwithhert
wins
Sf
undowasst i
l
lsit
ti
ngonthecouchwatchi
ng
wewentupstai
rstoaguestr
oom 
Me:"wi
l
lyouneedacotLel
odoesn'
tuseher
's
any
more" 
Sihl
e:"please"weputthem onthebedIwentto
getthecotf rom Lel
o'
sroom wentbackfound
hersit
tingont hebedcryi
ngIputthecotdown
wenttosi tnexttoher 
Me:
"whatcanIdot
ohel
p?"Sheputherhead
onmyt highsandjustconti
nuedcryingI
brushedherbackwest ayedthereforov
eran
hourshewasj ustcr
yingunti
lSfundocamein
carry
ingLonhle 
Sf
undo:
"di
nneri
sready
" 
Me: "
wewillbethere"henoddedandli
ft
ed
Si
hle'
sheadcuppi ngherfaceheki
ssedher
ey
est henherforehead 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
ouokay
?" 
Si
hle:
"okay.Pl
easebr
ingt
her
estofmyst
aff
fr
om thecar"
 
Sf
undo:
"okay
"hewal
kedout
Me:
"ar
eyoual
i
ttl
ebet
ter
?"Shesmi
l
edweakl
y
Si
hle:
"thanky
ouf
orj
ustbei
ngher
e" 
Me:"
youmightnotl
ikemeSi
hlebuty
ou
Sf
undo'
ssi
sterIcar
eabouty
ou" 
Si
hle:"
itnott
hatIdon'
tli
keyouj
ustt
hatyout
he
fi
rstgi
rlSf
undobroughthomesi
ncethedi
vor
ce
andAngel
areal
lyhur
tmybr
otherwej
ustdont
wanthi
m hur
ti
ngagain"
 
Me:
"Il
ovehi
mtoomucht
ohur
thi
m" 
Sihl
e:"nowIknowandI
'
m sor
ryIwasabi
tcht
o
you" 
Me:"
let
'sj
ustmov
einbutf
ornowdi
nneri
s
wai
ti
ngandweshoul
dlett
hetwi
nssl
eep"
 
Si
hle:"
okay
"wewentdownst
air
sandj
oined
ev
eryonearoundt
het
abl
e 
.

Iwasr unningaroundl i
keaheadl esschicken
Sihl
efoundamusementi nmydi stressher
parentwer ecomi ngSfundohadgonet of et
ch
them from Bri
an'shomewher etheirfamilyjet
hadlanded.Br i
anhasf ucki
ngr unwayi nhis
backyard!Likethemani sridicul
ouslyrichthe
worsepar tisthatSfundo'
sf amil
yi sevenmor e
ri
ch. 
Si
hle:
"wi
l
lyoust
op!
" 
Me:"Ij
ustdon'
twantt
hem t
hinki
ngIcan'
ttake
car
eofSfundoortheki
dsorourhome" 
Sihl
e:"
everythi
ngisperfect
"shehuggedme.
Wehadgot tencloserovertheweekshehad
beenstayi
ngwi thus.Marceloncetr
iescomi
ng
herebutSfundomethi m atthegat
ehewasn't
evenall
owedt oenterthegate.
 
Me:
"Idon'
tknowwhyIbei
ngl
i
ket
his"
 
Sihl
e:"
metoobecauset
heyalr
eadyloveyou
andyougavet
hem abeaut
if
ulgrandson"
 
Me:
"wher
eist
hatgr
andson?
" 
Si
hle:"
okayroom wi
ththenanni
esandthe
ot
hers"Sfundocameinwit
hhisparent
s 
Sne:
"baby
" 
Sihl
e:"mommy "t
heyhuggedt
henshethrew
hersel
fatherf
atherhehel
dhert
ight
lyshe
start
edcryi
ng 
Vuyani
:"excuseus"hecar
ri
edherandwal
ked
outtot
hepat io 
Sf
undo:
"daddy
'sgi
rl
" 
Sne:
"yeah"shesoundedsadIact
ual
l
yfel
tfor
her"
wherearemygr andki
ds"
 
Me:
"pl
ayr
oom"
 
Sfundo:"Iwi
llt
akey oumother"shehuggedme
kissi
ngmycheekandwal kedoutwithSfundo
foll
owingherIlookedar
oundandsi ghedfeel
ing
l
ikeanout si
derbutIact
uallywasanoutsider

Mar celandhi
sparentscameov erfordinner
thingsweretenseduri
ngthedinneritwas
sil
encebesidestheforksandkniveshit
tingt
he
plates 
Vuy
ani
:"y
ouagr
eatcookma'
Pet
erson"
 
Br
ian:
"real
l
ygr
eat
" 
Me:
"thanky
ou"
 
Sfundo:"thatwhyIam marry
ingher"Ibl
ushed
hekissedmycheekast heywerechuckl
eswent
ar
oundt het abl
eIstoodupcoll
ecti
ngthe
di
shesSi hlehel
pedmeout  
Me:
"howy
ouf
eel
i
ng?
" 
Sihl
e: "
Imisshim sobadly,
seeinghi sjustmade
memi sshim moremademer ealizehowbadl yI
l
ov ehim.YouknowI '
venev erbeenwi thanyone
buthim evenwiththeguyIwasseei ngIdidn'
t
l
ov ewenev erevenhadsexhei stheonlymanI
knowbuthowdowemov eonaf t
ersomuch
hurt.HehurtmeSnei fitwasn'tformyki dsI
woul dbebrokenbutIam keepingmy self
togetherbecauseIhavechildr
enwhoshoul dn'
t
seemebr okenordead"Ibrushedherar m 
Me: "
Iwon'tt
ell
youwhatt odobesi
desto
fol
lowyourheart
.Isti
llf
eelst
upidf
orgoing
backtoSfundoafterheputmeinthehospit
al
butIam sohappywi t
hhim Il
ovehi
m somuch"
Wewal kedbacktotheloungewhereev
eryone
wast
alki
nganddr
inki
ngwegoti
njustasBr
ian
andv
uyaniwer
est
andingup 
Br
ian:
"let
'stakear
ideboy
s"zamaandsne
st
oodupt oo 
Zama:
"ar
idet
owher
e?"
 
Vuy
ani
:"getsomebeer
s" 
Sne:
"ther
eisbeeri
nfr
idge"
 
Br
ian:
"let
'sgo"Sf
undoandMar
cel
stoodup 
Zama:
"ifyoudar
ehur
tmysonsIwi
l
lki
l
lyou
bot
hmy sel
f"
 
Sne:"Iwil
lhel
pher"VuyaniandBr
ianboth
ki
ssedt hei
rwif
e'scheeksandwal
kedout
Sfundowalkedtomeandcuppedmyf ace
ki
ssingmedeepl y 
Sfundo:"
getaf
ir
staidkitr
eadyformeanda
hotbathwit
hdetol
I'
llbebacksoon"
 
Me:
"Sfundono!
"Myt
earsdr
oppedheki
ssed
myfor
eheadandwal
kedout
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Il
ookedatt
hem t
heywer
elooki
ngatme 
Sne:
"youdoknowt
hatSf
undoi
sst
rongr
ight
?" 
Me: "whathappenedl astt i
mehi sfatherbeat
him up?"Shef rowned" andSf undodidn'tdo
anything!Idon'tunderstandwhyt hisfamily
thi
nksv iolencesolvesev er
ythingthatswhythey
all
abusi ve!!Whywoul dy ouletthi
shappen"  
Zama:
"nowwat
chy
our
sel
fyoungl
ady
" 
Sne:
"shei
sri
ght
" 
Me: "
excuseme"Iwentupcheckedonmykids
theywerebot
hasleepIwenttomyroom cal
l
ed
Sfundo 
Sf
undo:
"baby
?" 
Me:
"ar
eyouokay
?"Hegr
unt
ed 
Sf
undo:
"I'
l
lbehomesoonsl
eep"
 
Me:
"Ican'
t"
 
Sf
undo:"
tr
y.Don'
twor
ryaboutmeIcanhandl
e
mysel
f"
 
Me:
"youcan'
texpectmet
onotwor
rySf
undo!
" 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
oubaby
" 
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
 
Sfundo:
"sl
eep"heendedt
hecal
lIwentt
o
showerqui
cklyt
henwenttobed

IwaswokenupbySf undogetti
nginbedI
swi
tchedtheli
ghtsonandlookedathi
m he
wasfineIhel
dhisface 
Me:
"di
dtheyhi
tyou"
 
Sf
undo:
"nobabywej
ustt
alked"
 
Me:
"ar
eyousur
e?"
 
Sfundo:"
yesmylov
e"heswit
chedoffthel
i
ght
andgotontopofmerest
inghisheadonmy
breast
s"wegoingt
oSpai
ninthemor ni
ngto
watchsoccer
" 
Me:
"that
'sni
ce"
 
Sf
undo:
"hm"
 
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?
" 
Sf
undo:
"not
hingbaby
" 
Me:
"itcan'
tbenot
hingy
ounotokay
" 
Sfundo:"
youalwaystel
lmei
tokaynott
obe
okay"Iki
ssedhishead 
Me:"
wewi l
ltal
kabouti
twheny
ouf
eel
li
kei
t.I
won'
trushyou"
 
Sf
undo:
"thanky
oul
ovenobodyunder
stands
meli
keyoudo" 
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e" 
Me:
"debat
abl
e" 
Sfundo:"
youwi
sh"Ismi
l
edandheldhist
ightl
y
asmuchashewasheavyIl
ovedfeel
inghis
weightonmybody 
.
Iwokeupf i
rstSf undowasst il
lasleepIdon't
knowhowwemov edbutIwokeupont opof
him.Igotof ft hebedwentt othebat hroom
washedmyf acet henbr ushedmyt eet
h.Igotto
theclosetputonSf undo'st-
shirtandsweat
shortswithsl eepersIwentt ocheckonmyki ds
Lonhlewasupbusycr awlinginhiscr i
bhe
squealedraisinghi shandswhenhesawme.I
l
ift
edhi m upchangedhi snappywewent
downst ai
rs.Ihadcof feewhi l
efeedinghi m
oatmeal Nonduanddancecamei nwe
exchangedgr eeti
ngst heystartedmaki ng
breakfast
 
Lonhl
e:"
mmh"heshookhi
sheadi
ndi
cat
inghe
i
sfull
 
Me:
"youal
mostf
ini
shedbaby
"heopenedhi
s
mout hIfedhi mthelastbi toff
oodhemade
thatbbrrrsoundspi t
ti
ngt hefoodallovermy
face"Nkany ezi
!"Iheardlaughterbehi
ndmei t
wasSneshewascar r
yingLelowithVuy ani
standingbehindt hem 
Vuy
ani
:"comeher
eyounaught
yboy
" 
Me:
"letmecl
eanhi
m upf
ir
st"
 
Vuyani
:"I
'
lldoit
"hewi
pedhim wit
hhist
-shi
rt
"mywifetel
lsmeyoudon'
tl
ikethewayweraise
ourchi
ldr
en" 
Sne:"don'
ttwistmywor
dsVuyani
"hechuckled
si
tti
ngnexttomeasIwi pi
ngmyfacewit
ht he
papertowel 
Vuyani
:"okay
"hestaredatmeIstaredri
ght
backIwasnotaboutt ol
ethi
mi nt
imidat
eme
hesmil
edshakinghishead"st
ubbornashell
" 
Me: "
Idon'
twantmychi
l
drenexposedt
o
vi
olence"
 
Vuy
ani
:"doy
out
hinkIexposedmychi
l
drent
o
vi
olence?Don'
tl
ookdownonmypar
ent
ing
ski
ll
s" 
Me: "
Iam notbutIdot hi
nkthereisbet t
erway
tohandl ethingst hent obeatpeopleupI 'm not
beingdisrespect fulbutIwouldr eal
lyappr eciat
e
i
tfory oust oppedbeat i
ngupSf undohei smy
fi
ancet hef atherofmychi l
dIshouldn'thav et o
l
ookathi m beat enupwi thbrokenbones
becausehi sf atherthoughthewasdi scipli
ning
him.Itdoesn' twor kthatwayt hisci
rcleof
vi
olencewi t
hint hi
sf amil
ymi ghtcomet oaf f
ect
LonhleandIwi llnothav ethat.Iwil
lnothav e
mysont hinkingv iol
enceisaf orm ofdiscipli
ne
becausei tisnot "Vuy anil
ookedatSnesmi l
ing 
Vuyani
:"y
our
ightshe'
sexact
lywhatSf
undo
needs"
 
Sfundo:
"andwhatisi
tthatIneed?"Heasked
gett
ingi
ntheki
tchenbeforeki
ssingmycheek 
Vuy
ani
:"Snei
swhaty
ouneed"
 
Sf
undo:
"ofcour
seshei
s"hehel
dmychi
nI
mov
edbackhel
ookedatmeconf
used
Me:"
notonf
rontofy
ourpar
ent
sSf
undo"I
whi
sper
edhechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
"theymustl
eav
eourhouset
hen"
 
Me: "Sfundo!"Hel i
ftedmeupput ti
ngmeov er
hi
sshoul der"Sf
undono! !"Hespankedmyass
walkingoutIl ookedupathi sparent
swatching
uswi thsmi l
esint heirf
ace.Heputmeont he
chairbyt hepool andgotont opofmestart
ed
ki
ssingmeheputhi shandsundermytopand
squeezedmybr eastsImoanedinhismouth
beforepushi nghim back 
Sf
undo:
"mmh"
 
Me:"
comeI
'm sur
ebreakf
asti
salmostdone
andy
ougav
etogetreadyforl
eav
ing"
 
Sfundo:
"youst
il
lgoi
ngt
ogat
ewaywi
thmom
andSihl
e" 
Me:
"yeszamaandBr
iannawi
l
lmeetust
her
e" 
Sf
undo:
"buysomet
hingni
cef
orme"
 
Me:
"li
ke?
" 
Sf
undo:
"bl
ackandsexy
"Ismi
l
ed 
Me:
"wi
thl
ace"heki
ssedmehar
dandf
ast
 
Sf
undo:
"youknowmet
oowel
l
" 
Me:
"ofcour
seIdoy
oumi
ne"
 
Sf
undo:
"ti
l
ldeat
h"

Ifi
nishedget ti
ngdressedinblackri
ppedj eans
wit
hkneeheel boot
sablackbodysui tandl ar
ge
denimj eantiedmyhai ri
ntoaneatbunIneeded
togetmyhai rdoneIactual
lywantedt ocutI
missedhav i
ngshorthair
.Itookmybagwent
downst air
ssihleandSnewer ewaiti
ngf orme.
Thet wins'
snannyhadcameshecomes
somet i
mesi fNacyandNonduwi ll
beneedi ng
hel
pwi tht hekids
Si
hle:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
 
Me:
"sodoy
ou"
 
Sne:"
mybabies"Ismil
edasshehuggedus
bi
rthwel
eft
.Iwasdr i
vi
ngSihl
ekeptsi
ngi
ng
al
ongtomusic 
Si
hle:
"mommy
" 
Sne:"y
esbaby
"Si
hlel
ower
edt
hev
olumeont
he
radi
o 
Sihl
e:"
hasdaddyev
ercheat
edony
ou?Don'
t
l
ie" 
Sne:"
noyourf
atherhasnevercheat
edonme
j
ustl
ikeBri
anhasnevercheatedonzamaI
don'
tknowwhereMar cel
gotthi
smadness
fr
om" 
Si
hle:"
butbay
andaandBandi
l
ear
ethesame
wel
l wer
ethesame"
 
Sne:"yes"shesi
ghed" y
oudeser vesomuch
bett
erSihleI'
vebeentell
ingy outhatsi
nceyou
werejustababybuty oulov ehim andonlyyou
canmakeadeci si
onwhet hertostayorleave
butweasy ourf
amilywil
l supportwhateveryou
deci
ded"
 
Sihl
e:"
heisallIknowandbesi
deswhowil
l
wantamot herofthr
eebesi
desMarcel
wil
l
neverl
etmemov eon" 
Sne:"
yeahhewouldneverhisfat
her
stri
ed
tal
ki
ngtohimlastni
ghtbutheisasstubbor
n
ashell
whenitcomestoy ou"
 
Si
hle:
"I'
mjustgl
adnoonegotabeat
ingl
ast
ni
ght"
 
Me:"I
'm wi
thyouont hatIdon'
tthinkIcant
ake
seei
ngSfundohurtagain"Snelaughed 
Sne:
"tothi
nkVuyani
thoughthewasbeat
ing
hi
m upforyou"
 
Me:
"itonl
yhur
tme"
 
Sihl
e:"
Iknow.Ifel
tthesamewaywhenSfundo
beatupMarcelIendedupcry
ingandwant
ingt
o
hi
tSfundo" 
Sne:
"lov
ecanmakey
oust
upi
d" 
Si
hle:
"hasi
tev
ermadey
oust
upi
d?"
 
Sne:
"asmuchasdaddyhasnevercheatedon
mewehavewentthr
oughotherstr
uggles"
 
Si
hle:
"lov
esucks"
 
Sne:
"speakfory
our
sel
fdearIam happywi
th
myhubby" 
Me:"yesspeakf
ory
our
sel
f"wel
aughedwhi
l
e
Si
hlepouted

Wemetwi thzamaandBri
annaattashasthey
werealr
eadyhavi
ngchampagnethewaythese
l
adiesdri
nk.Wegreet
edsi
tt
ingdownBr i
anna
huggedSne 
Br
ianna:
"youdon'
tl
ovemeany
mor
emom"
 
Sne:"
youwon'tgettoheaveni
fyout
ell
li
es
Bri
anna"Br
iannalaughed 
Zama:
"Chanel
isj
oini
ngus"sher
oll
edherey
es 
Sne:
"thoughti
twasagi
rl
sday
"It
ri
edhol
dingi
n
myl
augh 
Bri
anna:
"stopandbeni
ceshei
sgoi
ngt
hrough
somethi
ngssheneedsmeandmamadragged
mehere" 
Sne:
"soy
oudi
dn'
twantt
obewi
thus"
 
Bri
anna:"
ifIhadtochoosebetweenspendi
ng
ti
mewi t
hy oulotandmywoman"shechuckled
"Iwoul
dbewi thmywoman"  
Si
hle:
"sohur
tful
" 
Zama:"Idon'
tevencar
erightnow"chanelcame
tous"Chanelsweet
heart
"shewassosar cast
ic
Icoul
dn'tev
enholditi
nshehuggedher  
Chanel
:"Zamalooki
ngbeaut
ifulasal
way s"she
ki
ssedzama'scheekthengr
eetedtherestofus
"l
adi
esifyoudon'
tmindcanIhav eawordwi th
mywoman"  
Br
ianna:
"what
'swr
ongbaby
?"Shest
oodup 
Chanel
:"l
et'
stalkout
side"shehel
dherwai
st
l
eadingheroutsi
de 
Sne:
"shei
ssobeaut
if
ul"
 
Zama:
"suchawai
st"
 
Si
hle:
"mama!
!"
 
Zama:
"ay
iongi
yekewena"
 
Si
hle:
"theyl
oveeachot
her
" 
Sne:"
sti
l
ldon'tunder
standhowshecanjust
deci
detobeal esbi
anwhenshe'
sneverhada
boyf
ri
endbefore" 
Sihle:"
youtooeducat
edtobesay
ingsuch
things"Ij
ustkeptonl
aughi
ngwhi
ledri
nki
ngmy
alcohol 
.
I
tbeenamont handwor kwasj ustamazi ngmy
team wasbri
ll
iantLiam givememyspaceev en
thoughhekeptawat chonmesay i
ngheneeds
tomakesureIdon' tbitemor ethanIcanchew.
Hewasagr eatbosst hough,alit
tl
ef l
ir
tati
ous
butitwasn'
tweirdbecausehewasl ikethat
withever
yotherfemal ewor ker
.Thewhol e
envi
ronmentatworkwasj
ustni
ceandfr
ee.
Lobolahadbeenpai
dIhadtobegdadt
oall
ow
fori
ttohappen.

Ilookedar oundt hejetandsmi l

edwewer e
goi ngt oLosAngel esformyengagementpar t
yI
wassoexci ted.Iwasi nthejetwi t
hSfundo,
Lut handonNamhl a, SbunZiyanda, myparent
s
NondunNacy ,
andLel onLonhle.TheJames
fami lyhadflewear li
eronintheirfamil
yjet.
KleinandNat ashawer egoingtohi r
etheirown
j
etZi yandaalmostdi dn'
tcomebecauseofher
situationwithSihleandMar celbutIwant edher
ther eandshewant edt oseeBev erl
yhi
ll
s
Sfundo:
"canweuset
hebedr
oom"hebi
tmy
ear 
Me:"
wasthi
nki
ngmypar
ent
scoul
dsl
eept
her
e"
hegr
oaned 
Sfundo:
"guessy our
ightj
ustt
houghtwecoul
d
havesomecr azyshi
t" 
Me:
"bat
hroom whenmypar
ent
sar
easl
eep"he
smi
l
ed 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovehowyoual
way shornyremi
nds
meofwhenyouwer
epregnant"Il
ookedathi
m
smil
i
ng 
Me: "you'vemademef alli
nlovewi t
hsex"
SfundoandIwer esi
tti
ngont hetwoseat erI
wasl ayingonhischestsit
ti
ngbet weenhi slegs.
Heputhi sheadundermyassi nsidemyt rack
pantsst rai
ghti
ntomyv agi
naIbr eathedoutand
l
ookedar oundnoonewaspay ingattent
ionto
ustheywer edr
inki
ngandhav ingsnackswhi l
e
tal
king 
Sf
undo:
"al
way
sready
" 
Me:"Iwon'tbeabletoholdmymoansi fyou
don'
tstop"heenteredthesecondfi
ngerand
movedt hem ar
oundbef or
ewithdr
awing 
Sf
undo:"
canyourparent
sgotosl
eepal
ready
"I
l
aughedashekissedmytempl
e 
.
Everyoneint hecarwasamazedbyt hehouse
aswepul l
edupi nthedrivewaywegotof f
Sfundowascar ryi
ngLonhl ewhowasasl eep
Lelowasal soasleeponLut hando'schestwe
metVuy ani andSneI'mt hef oyerSfundo
i
ntroducedhi sparentstothepeopl et heydidn'
t
knowt henthest afft
ookt hem upshowi ng
everyonether oomst heywer egoingt ouse. 
Sne:"howwast hefl
i
ght?
"SheLonhl
ewho
openedhiseyesandsmiledl
ooki
ngatSne
befor
ef al
l
ingri
ghtbackt
osleepi
twassocut
e 
Sf
undo:
"wasokaymom wegoingt
osl
eep
pl
easet
akecar
eoftheguest
s" 
Sne:"
ofcourse"wetooktheli
ftgoi
ngupt
ohis
room Ij
ustst
rippedandgotundert
hecov
ershe
goti
nandhel dmef r
om behi
nd 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
ou"
 
Me:
"Iknowkhabazel
a"hegr
oanedpr
essi
nghi
s
gr
owi
nger
ect
iononmyass 
Sf
undo:
"babywheny
oucal
lmet
hat
"Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"sl
eepSf
undo"
 
Sf
undo:
"okay
"

Wegotdownst airsever
yonewasi nthe
entertainmentr oom havi
ngdr i
nkswhil
ewaiti
ng
fordinnert hepartywasgoi ngtobethe
foll
owi ngday .IwenttoZiyandashewas
standingwi thSbuandLut handoandNamhl a.
Sihlecal l
edformej ustasIwasget t
ingto
Ziyandashel ookedatmewi t
hasadsmi l
e
Ziy
anda:
"go"Imout
hedsor
rysheshookher
head 
Me:"
hey"Igr
eet
edgetti
ngtothem shewas
wi
thBri
annaAdi
li
ciaandChanel 
Sihl
e:"y
ourfri
endkeeplookingatmyman"she
hadmov edoutoffSfundo'
shousewasstayi
ng
athishotel
inthepenthousesheandMarcel
wer
eseei
ngamar
ri
agecounsel
l
or 
Me:"comeonSihl
eIthoughty
ouwer
eov
er
t
his"sher
oll
edherey
es
Adi
l
ici
a:"
wheni
sAphecomi
ng"
 
Bri
anna:
"shel
andedalr
eady
"Aphehadgonet
o
Romeonaschool t
ri
p 
Sihl
e:"speakoft
heshedev
il
"Aphewas
enter
ingtheroom 
Aphe: "
whatt hehellisthathomewr eckerdoing
here?"Shehal fshoutedcomi ngt ouspoi nt
ing
atZiyandat henstartedspeakinginFr enchI
heardfewgaspst hereandt herefrom people
whower est andingclosetousIj ustknew
whatevershewassay i
ngwasn' tpleasantIjust
sai
dashor tprayerasIsawmy selfwalki
ngt o
herIwasr eadyt oslapthetasteoutofher
moutht ry
ingt orui
nmyweekend
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04/
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11:
10]Ron:
Lov
eMeLi
keOnl
yYouCan
I
nser
tthi
rt
yfi
ve.
..
.
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Islappedhersohar dshef el
lthenIgotontop
ofherstartedpunchingherendlessl
y.Iact
ual
ly
reali
zedthatIwasdr eamingwhenshegott ous
withabitchyface 
Sihle:
"behav
eAphe"Apherol
l
edhereyes"
don'
t
ruinSne'
sweekendoryouwil
lgeti
ntr
oubl
e
withSfundohetol
dustobehave"
 
Me:"excuseme"IheardSi
hleshouti
ngatheras
Iwal
kedt oZi
yanda"youguysheardthat
?"They
l
ookedatmeconf usedIbreat
hedout 
Lut
hando:
"what
'
swr
ong?
" 
Me:"
not
hing"wewerecall
ed.weall
wenttothe
di
nni
ngroom wher
edinnerwassetIsatnex
tto
mymanheheldmychi n 
Sfundo:
"Si
hlet
oldmewhathappenedIspoke
toAphetheywon'
tbepr
obl
em"  
Me:"
Idon'
twantany
thi
ngr
uini
ngt
hisf
orme
Sf
undo"
 
Sf
undo:"
andIwil
lmakesur
enoonewi
l
l"we
ki
ssed"
Ilov
eyou" 
Me:
"lov
eyout
oo"

Ithrewmy sel
fonthebedsti
l
ldressedithad
beenal ongdayourfami
li
escombinedwas
hugeandmor ewer egoi
ngtobecomi ngthe
foll
owingday.Hegotontopofme 
Me:
"I'
mtoot
ir
edbabe"
 
Sf
undo:
"wantamassage?
" 
Me:"please"hegotupandpul l
edmeupt ook
offmydr essthenmademel ieinmystomach
hestartedmassagingmediggingdeepIkept
moaningandgr oaningi
tfel
tsogreat
.Heput
thepil
l
owunderme 
Sf
undo:
"hhm"
 
Me:"
what
?"Iscr
eamedasIf
elthi
m sl
ammi
ng
i
ntomehar
d"Sfundo!
!!
" 
Sfundo: "sorr
ysor ryIt ri
edbabyIr eall
yt r
iedbut
..
.y ou...you...youshoul dn'
thav ebeen
moani ngl i
kethat !Andy ourassisjustthere
l
ooki ngsoj ui
cyso. .
.fuck"Hest art
edmov i
ngin
andoutf astpressingmedowngr untingli
kean
animal Icouldf eel hi
ssweatdr oppingonmy
backIhadt ohur rymyf aceont hepi l
l
ows
becauseIkeptscr eami ng.Hegr untedlouder
grabbingmyweav eashecamehar dt hen
coll
apsedonme" sor r
ybaby " 
Me:
"di
dn'
tev
engett
ocl
i
max"hewast
ooqui
ck 
Sfundo:
"sorrybabyI'
l
lmakeituptoyou"helai
d
downbreathingheavi
lyIl
ookedathi
m hisf
ace
waswetwi t
hsweathepul l
edmet ol
ayont op
ofhim"Ilov
ey ou" 
Me:
"mxm"hel
aughedandki
ssedmyhead 
Sf
undo:
"sl
eepmyqueenI
'
mtoot
ir
ed"
 
.

WaswokenupbySfundosl
idi
ngi
nmeI
moanedandl
ookedathi
m hesmi
ledbr
ight
ly 
Sf
undo:
"mor
ningmyqueen"
 
Me:
"mor
ningmyki
ng"hest
aredmov
ingsl
owl
y 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
ousomuch"
 
Me:"Iknowbaby"Ipul
l
edhisf
acet
ominewe
ki
ssed.Ihadj
ustcamewhensomeonest
art
ed
knocki
ngonthedoorhard 
Lel
o:"daddy"sheknockedagai
n"daddy
!!Iwant
you"hegroanedcoll
apsingont
opofme 
Me:
"go"
 
Sfundo: "
shutup"Ilaughedashegotof fI
foll
owedhi mt otheclosethegotdressedin
sweat pant
sandt anktopwhi l
eIworeadr ess
Lelowasst i
llknockingIwenttothebathroom
cleanedmy selfupwashedmyf acebrushedmy
t
eetht
hengotout
.If
oundSfundoandtheki
ds
i
nthebedl
aughi
ngasSfundowastickl
i
ng
t
hem 
Lel
o:"
mor
ningmommy
" 
Me:
"morni
ngbaby"Iki
ssedherandLonhl
e
"
howdi
dy ougether
e?"
 
Lel
o:"
grandpav
ee"
 
Sf
undo:
"heprobabl
ydidonpurposethatbi
tt
er
ol
dman"IlaughedandtookLonhl
e 
Me:
"letmegof
eedhi
m" 
Sfundo:
"Ineedcof
fee"weal
lwentdownst
air
s.
Vuyanil
aughedaswegotintheki
tchen
Sf
undo:
"Idon'
tknowwhaty
oul
aughi
ngatol
d
man"
 
Vuy
ani
:"don'
tcomef
ormesonIdi
dnot
hing"
 
Sf
undo:
"mom doy
ouseey
ourhusband"
 
Sne:"Iam notget
ti
nginvolv
ed"shetol
doneof
thehelper
st ogoaroundtel
li
ngever
yone
br
eakf
asti
sset
 
Sf
undo:
"I'
m goi
ngt
ocat
chy
ouf
orwhaty
ou
di
d" 
Vuyani:
"mylastborni
stoogrownIdon'
tsee
howy ouwouldpull
thatof
f" 
Sne:"
growupy outwoandVuy anil
etthekids
havesex"shewalkedoutleavi
ngmef eel
i
ng
dif
fer
entshadesofembarrassmentandthese
twomenwi thhugesmirksonthei
rfaces 
Lel
o:"
daddywhati
ssex?
" 
Vuyani
:"t
hat
'smyexi
ts"hewal
kedoutaswell
Sfundol
ookedatmeIkeptf
eedi
ngLonhle 
Lelo:
"daddy
? "Lut
handogoti
nwi
thNamhl
a
"papawhatissex?" 
Lut
hando:
"what
?" 
Lelo:"
sex"ev
eryt
imeshesai
dthewor
dSf
undo
winced 
Lut
hando:
"Sf
undowhatt
hehel
l
?"Namhl
akept
gi
ggl
i
ng 
Namhl
a:"comeher
eprincess"shetookherand
wal
kedouttot
hepati
owher ebreakfastwasset
up 
Sfundo:"
fuckI'
venev
erbeensospeechl
essand
scaredatthesameti
me" 
Lut
hando:
"Ial
mosthadahear
tat
tack"
 
Me:"youbothsodramati
c"Ist
oodup"t
akey
our
son"Sfundotookhi
m Iwentout
side

IwasinSfundo'sroom wit
hZiyandaand
Namhlaandt hemakeuppeopl edoingour
facesandhairwhil
ehavingwine.Wehadspent
thedayshoppingandtomor r
owSf undowas
taki
ngussightseei
ngwewer egoingt ol
eav
e
thedayaft
ertomor r
ow. 
Namhl a:
"thi
sisl
if
ethough"NamhlaandIwere
notbuddiesbutwewerecivi
ltowar
dseach
otherImeanIhadnochoicebuttobenicet
o
hershet
ookcareofmydaught
erwhenshewas
wit
hherfat
her
 
Zi
yanda:
"Iagr
ee"
 
Namhl
a:"
li
ket
hishouse"
 
Me:"It
hinki
ttoomuchandwenaNamhl a
Lut
handojustboughtabeaut
if
uldoubl
estor
y" 
Namhl a:"
Iknow!AndIl ovemyhouseIt old
Luthandoi ttobi gf orjustthef ourofusandhe
wasl ikeIwi l
l havet ofil
li
twi thlit
tlePet er
sons"
Igav eheraf akesmi l
eandsi ppedonmywi ne.I
stil
lcouldn'thelpbutf eell
ikeNamhl aisli
ving
thelifethatwassupposedt obemi newi t
h
Luthando.Ist i
lll
ov edLuthandodon' tthi
nkI'll
everlov eSfundol i
kehowIl ovedLut handobutI
didn'tcompar ethem Iwoul dn'
tev endr eam of
compar i
ngt hem t heybot htoodi fferentandI
l
ov edt hem di f
ferently.
Zi
yanda:
"thengett
owor
kinggi
rl
" 
Namhl
a:"
mydaught
eri
sst
il
lababybutIwi
l
l
givehim morechildr
ennotlikeIgotany t
hing
elsetodobei ngahousewi f
e"Ilookedather
thinki
ngthosewor dsshouldnev ercomeoutof
mymout h.Sfundogotintheclosetthegayguy
whowasdoi ngmyf acemov edf rom i
nfrontof
me 
Sfundo:"
babyyousti
l
lnotdr
essed.Theguest
s
havestar
tedcoming"
 
Me:"
I'
llgetdr
essedbabygi
veusf
ewmor
e
mi
nutes" 
Sf
undo:
"mor
eli
keanhour"hemumbl
ed
maki
ngmerol
lmyeyes 
Me:
"don'
trushus"heki
ssedme 
Sf
undo:"
youlookbeaut
if
ulal
ready
"Ifel
tcheeks
hi
tt
ingup"Il
oveyousomuchbaby "
 
Me:
"Il
ovey
oubaby
" 
Sfundo:"
ladi
es"hegavethem anodtheyal
l
saidheeeeySfundosmil
edandwalkedout 
Gay
:"y
ourmant
hough!
" 
Zi
yanda:
"toohot
"

Sfundocameinthecl
osetIwasal
onestanding
bythemirr
orhehadawidesmileonhi
sf aceas
heheldmywaist
 
Sf
undo:
"howdi
dIgetsol
ucky
" 
Me:
"youmusthav
edonesomet
hingt
opl
ease
t
heGods"
 
Sf
undo:"I
ndeed"heturnedmear oundand
l
ookedatmeIwaswear ingablackstr
apl
ess
mermaiddresswit
hnudepumpheel shewas
weari
ngablacksuitandshir
t 
Me: "
youl
ookgor
geousmyki
ng"heki
ssedmy
cheek 
Sf
undo:
"Ist
il
lpr
efery
ouwi
thoutmakeup"
 
Me:
"Iknow"
 
Sf
undo:"goodt
hingyouknow.Greatt
hingsis
ev
eryonewhoishereknowsthatyoumine" 
Me:"
andtheyknowyoumineaswel
l
"Iwr
apped
myarmsaroundhi
swaist
 
Sf
undo:
"yousot
err
it
ori
al"hewassmi
l
ing 
Me:"
Ilear
ntfrom y
ou"hemademef
acet
he
mi
rr
orandt ookaphotoofus 
Sfundo:"
mom hir
edphot
ogr
apher
stot
ake
candidshot
s" 
Me:
"that
'sni
ce"
 
Sfundo:"l
et'
sgo"wehel dhandsgoi ngt othe
elevat
or.Everyonet urnedt ousaswest epped
i
nt hebackyard.Ev erythingwasj ustso
beauti
fulSnehadr eall
yout doneher sel
fit
l
ookedl i
kesomet hi ngt hatcameoutofa
magazine.Ther ewasev enalivebandanda
hugetableundert hest retchtentwher ewe
wereallgoingtosi ttoget herandhav edinner,
waiter
sserv i
ngdrinksandf i
ngerfood,with
couchesandcockt ailtablesnchai r
s.Floati
ng
l
ightsandflowerpet al
si nthepool .
 
.
Ihadwokenupev er
yonehadal readyleftfor
si
ght seei
ngbesi desmypar entsbecause
Vuy aniwantedusal ltot al
kthatiswhySf undo
didn'twakemeupear ly.Thepreviousnighthad
j
ustbeenbl iss,everythi
ngIev erdreamtof fand
mor eIwast rulyhappyIcoul dn'tstopthanki
ng
Snef ororganizingitforus.SfundoandIsat
downwewer einv uyani'sst
udySf undoheldmy
handpl ayi
ngwi thmybr acel
et.
Vuyani:"somywi feandIbeenholdi
ngontothi
s
forfewmont hsSnewant edtodealwit
hthis
fi
rstbeforetel
li
nganyone.NowIwantev ery
one
especial
lyyouzolekatounderst
andthatmy
wifeneededt ocomet oter
mswi thal
lofthi
s
beforetell
i
ngany oneevenyou" 
Sf
undo:
"dadwhati
sgoi
ngon?
" 
Dad:"
Iwouldal
sol
i
ket
oknow"v
uyani
clear
ed
hi
sthroat
Vuy
ani
:"Sf
undoandSner
ememberhowI
alwayssaidSnel
ookslikemywif
e?HowIwas
resear
chingther
elat
ionbet
weenyout
wo" 
Sf
undo:
"gett
othepoi
ntdad"
 
Sne:
"don'
trushy
ourf
atherSf
undo"
 
Sf
undo:
"sor
ry"
 
Vuy
ani
:"wel
lIf
oundZol
ekawasadopt
ed"
 
Mom:
"weknowt
hat
" 
Me:
"youknewgr
annywasn'
tyourmom?
" 
Mom: "
yesshenevertol
dmewhomypar ents
arej
ustthatIwasnother
sandt
hatshedidn'
t
haveafamily"
 
Vuyani: "
wel l
turnsouty ourmot herusedt o
workatanor phanageshest oppedwor king
ther
ewhenshet r
iedadopt i
ngy ouzolekaand
coul
dn' tbecauseshedi dn'
tmeett hestandard
soshest oleyouandr anaway .Nowmywi fe
wasal soi nthatsameor phanageluckil
yshe
mettheChangsaf teryouwer egoneandt hey
adoptedher "
 
Sne:
"youmysi
sterZol
eka"
 
Vuy
ani
:"t
winsi
ster
" 
Sf
undo:
"whatdoest
hismeanf
orSneandI
" 
Vuyani:
"boythisisnotabouty
ou.Alway
str
ying
tostealt
hespot l
i
ght"Icoul
dn'
thol
dinmy
l
aughterIlaughedunti
lIcri
edever
yonewas
l
ookingatmewei r
dly 
Me:"
I'
m seri
ousl
ycursedIkeephav i
ngkids
wi
thfamil
y"Iwascryinghyst
eri
call
ySfundo
br
oughtmet ohi
schestandwr appedhisarms
ar
oundmybody" I
'm nevermeanttobehappy"
[
04/
15,
11:
10]Ron:
Inser
tthi
rt
ysi
x..
.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sfundo:"
babyeveni
fIhadmom'
sbl
oodinmy
veinsIwasn'
tgoi
ngtol
etgoofy
ouSnegugu
I
'm obsessedwit
hyou"
 
Vuy
ani
:"Snei
fther
ewasapr
obl
em wi
thy
ou
bei
ngwit
hSfundoIwouldhaveputastopt
oal
l
oft
hisl
obol
awouldn'
thavebeenpaid"
 
Dad:
"andVuyaniy
oudidn'
tthi
nkt
ol etusknow?
Howlonghav
ey ouknownaboutt
his?" 
Vuy ani:"cl
osetoay earIstartedresearchi
ng
whenSnest ar
tedmeet i
ngourf ami l
y.Idon'
t
under standhowy ouallcan'tseet he
resembl ancebetweenmywi feandSneshe
basicallylookli
keherdaught erevenmy
daught ersdon'tcl
osetot heirmotherlikeSne
does"  
Mom:"wejustdi
dn'
tpayat
tent
iont
oit"mom
wascr
yinganddadwasbrushi
ngherback 
Vuyani
:"ki
dsexcuseus"Sfundonoddedand
st
ooduphecar ri
edmeIl ookedathi
m and
smil
ed 
Me:
"Icanst
il
lwal
k" 
Sfundo:
"andIsti
l
lcancarr
yyouev
ent
hough
you'
vebeengaini
ngweight
" 
Me:"I
'm notevengoingt
oent
ert
ainthat"wegot
i
ntheelevator"atr
uemanwouldtakethe
st
air
s"hechuckl ed
Sfundo:
"don'
tev
entr
y"wegotinhi
sroom he
threwmeonthebedIbouncedal
it
tl
e 
Me:
"can'
tbel
i
evey
ourmom i
smyaunt
" 
Sfundo:"
sheismorel
i
keyourmom si
ncethey
twins"
helai
dnextt
omeIsnuggl
edcloset
o
him 
Me:
"It
houghtIwasl
osi
ngy
ouf
orasecond"
 
Sf
undo:
"nothi
ngwi
l
lgetmeawayf
rom y
ounot
ev
endeath"a
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"heki
ssedmyf
orehead 
Sfundo:
"howdoy
ouf
eel
aboutmom bei
ngy
our
aunt"
 
Me:"Idon'tknow.Il
ovey ourmom justt
hatnow
Iam rel
atedtoyourcrazysist
ers"hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
"itact
ual
l
ymakesense.Youal
lcr
azy
"I
punchedhi
m"andabusi
vet
oo"
 
Me:
"shutup"
 
Sf
undo:"
evenrudeanddi
srespect
ful
nott
o
ment
ionl
oud" 
Me:
"wow!
"Ij
oinedhi
minl
aughi
ng 
Sf
undo:
"buty
oual
lbeaut
if
ul"
 
Me:
"thanky
oubaby
" 
Sfundo:"doest
hismeanisgoi
ngt
obet
aki
ng
yoursidewhenwef i
ght
?" 
Me:
"Sf
undo!
!"Heki
ssedmycheekl
aughi
ng 
Sf
undo:
"I'
m cur
ious"
 
Me:
"yousuchababy
" 
Sfundo:
"let
'
stakeawalk"hegetof
fthebed
andmademest andupIgotonhi
sbackhe
walkedout.
 
.
Iwokeupandwentt
oshowerl
eav
ingSf
undo
sleeping.Af t
ermyshowerIwentt ot
hecloset
l
ot i
onedt hengotdr essedinablackmedium
sleevebelowt hekneedresswit
hheels.Iti
ed
myweav ei ntoamessybunputonbr own
l
ipstick.Itookmybagsandwal kedoutthe
closet 
Me:"myki
ng"Ishookhimli
ght
lyheopenedhi
s
ey
esandblinkedacoupl
eofti
mes"I'
mleavi
ng.
Il
oveyou"
 
Sfundo:"
Ilov
eyoutoobaby"Iki
ssedhischeek
"don'
tfor
getwetaki
ngthekidst
ot hedoct
or
appoint
mentisat13:
30" 
Me:"
Ihav
en'
tfor
got
ten.Pi
ckmeupatt
he
of
fi
ce"
 
Sf
undo:
"okay
"hecl
osedhi
sey
esf
all
i
ngbackt
o
sl
eep

Ihadj
ustf
ini
shedameeti
ngwithmyst
affwhen
Li
am wal
kedinlooki
ngal
lgor
geous
I
nhissui
t.Nowdon'
tgeti
ttwi
stedbei
ngwi
th
Sf
undodidnott
urnmebli
nd. 
Li
am:
"Gugu"
 
Me:
"Nzuzo"hesmi
l
edr
eveal
i
nghi
sdi
mpl
es
Li
am:"
howwasthemeet
ing?St
il
lhav
ingsome
pr
obl
em wi
tht
hem?"
 
Me:"itwentwell
andeveryt
hingisgoingpret
ty
wellIthi
nktheywerej
usthosti
lebecausethey
di
dn'tknowme"hesatont hedeskf aci
ngme
hi
skneest ouchi
ngmeImov edbackput ti
ngmy
l
efthandont hedesk
Li
am:
"whenar
eyouget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed?
" 
Me:
"soon"
 
Li
am:
"Sf
undoi
sal
uckyman"
 
Me:"
Iam thel
uckyoneheisanamazingman"
hesmil
edandIswearLiam hasgot
tengi
rl
sto
dr
opthei
rpant
iesjustbyhi
ssmile 
Li
am:
"mmh"
 
Me:
"mmh?
" 
Li
am:
"whaty
ouj
ustsai
dsoundsr
ehear
sed"
 
Me:
"itnot
" 
Li
am:
"letmet
akey
out
olunch"
 
Me: "
Ihaven'
tbeent oworkinaweekIneedt o
catchupplusI'
l
l beleavi
ngduringlunchtime
taki
ngmychi l
drentot hedoct
or "hetooka
pict
urefr
amef rom mydeskt hathadapi ctur
e
oflel
oandLonhl e 
Li
am:
"beaut
if
ulchi
l
drent
heyl
ookl
i
key
ou"
 
Me:
"thanky
ou"
 
Liam: "
letmel
eaveyoutoworkbeaut
if
uldon'
t
forgetthemanagementmeet
ingat15:
30" 
Me: "
willbether
e"heputhisel
bowsonhis
thi
ghsinchingclosertomeIcl
earedmythr
oat
andmov ingback" Li
am youal
i
ttl
ebitt
ooclose
tomyf ace"hechuckledandmovedback 
Li
am:
"sor
ryMr
sMkhi
zet
obe"
 
Me:
"sar
casm doesn'
tl
ookgoodony
ou"
 
Li
am:
"soot
hert
hingsdo?
" 
Me:
"that
'snotwhatImeant
" 
Li
am:
"whatdi
dyoumeanbeaut
if
ul?
" 
Me:
"Li
am goaway
"hel
aughed 
Li
am:
"whatdi
dIdonow?
" 
Me:
"youpay
ingmetowor ksol
eav
emet
odo
t
hat
"hegotofft
hedesk 
Li
am: "
ver
ywel
l.I
'
llseey
ouatt
hemeet
ing"I
noddedhewal
kedout

Igoti
nthecarwekissedshor
tl
y.Hel
ookedat
mesmi l
i
ngafterwepull
edapart
 
Sf
undo:
"myqueen"
 
Me:"
heybaby"heki
ssedmyf
oreheadand
dr
oveof
f"Lel
owam"  
Lel
o:"
hel
l
omamam"shesoundedsosad 
Me:
"what
'swr
ongpr
incess?
" 
Lelo:"
daddysay
swegoi ngtot
hedoctor"her
l
ipsstart
edtr
embli
ng"Idon'
twanttogetan
i
njecti
onmommyi thur
ts"shekeptwi
pingher
tears 
Me:
"sor
rybaby
" 
Sf
undo:"
Iwi
llbuyyouwhat
everyouwantify
ou
beagoodgi
rlanddon'
tcr
y"shesnif
fed 
Me:"don'
tcr
ybabyIwi
l
lmakesur
eitdoesn'
t
hur
t"
 
Lel
o:"
daddywi
l
lyoubutahamst
er?
" 
Sfundo:"
yespri
ncessi
fy oubeagoodgir
lfor
daddytodayIwil
lbuyyouyourhamst
er"I
l
ookedatSfundofrowning 
Lel
o:"
okayIwon'
tcr
y" 
Me:"y
oureal
l
yneedt
ost
opbuy
ingher
ani
mals"
 
Sf
undo:
"pet
s" 
Me:
"fi
ne.St
opbuy
ingherpet
s!"
 
Sfundo:"
don'taboutatmeI '
mr i
ghtherebaby
.
ShelovespetsbabyI '
mthinki
ngofbuil
dingher
aroom nearthecottagebuyhermor ehave
them st
aythere" 
Me:"
sheisst
il
lababywhowi
l
ltakecar
eofal
l
t
heseani
mals?"
 
Sf
undo:
"meandher
" 
Me:"Iam notgoingtotal
kyououtoft
hisam I
?"
Hesmi l
edshakinghishead"asl
ongasyou
don'
tbuysnakesy ouknowtheymyworst
phobia"
 
Sf
undo:
"Iknowbaby
"

Iwalkedoutoftheboar dr
oom aftert
hemeet i
ng
i
twasal r
eadythest af
fhadleftal
readyitwas
j
ustusmanagement .Iwenttomyof fi
ce
packedupmyt hingsloggedofftheiMac.Itook
mybagsLi am walkedinasIwaswal kingtothe
door
 
Li
am:
"leav
ing?
" 
Me:
"obv
iousl
y"Il
i
ftedmybagsup 
Liam: "
itmyparentsanni
ver
sarytomorr
owso
myf athertookhertoPar
isfort
hisweekthey
comi ngbackFridaymysibl
i
ngsandIare
throwingthem alunchonSatur
day.Wouldyou
l
iketocome? "
Me:
"butIdon'
tknowy
ourpar
ent
s" 
Li
am:"y
ourparent
swi
l
lbet
her
easwel
last
he
Jamesfami
ly
"
Me:
"canIbr
ingSf
undo"hesmi
l
ed 
Liam:"
ofcour
seevenifIhadsaidnohewould
haveshowedupthatf
ami l
ythi
nkstheycont
rol
theworl
d" 
Me:
"I'
m mar
ryi
ngi
ntot
hatf
ami
l
y" 
Li
am:
"andIf
eel
sor
ryf
ory
ou"
 
Me:
"Li
am i
fyouwantust
obecool
don'
ttal
k
l
i
ket
hat
" 
Liam: "touchybutokay"hekissedmycheekand
IswearIf rozef
orfewseconds" seeyou
tomor row"hewi nkedandwal kedawayitt
ooka
mi nutef ormetocoll
ectmy selfandwal
ktomy
car .
 
.
Ifoundmy sel
fputti
ngi nal i
ttl
ebitmor eeff
ort
onwhatIwaswear ing.ItwasSat urdaywewer e
goingtoOy st
erBoxt hat'
swher et heywere
havingalunchforhispar ents.Sfundogotinthe
cl
osetlookingdevil
i
shlyhandsomei ndarkink
ri
ppedskinnyjeansabl ackshi r
ttuckedinwi t
h
brownGucci sl
ipperswithbr ownbel tanda
caramelli
ghtsweaterov erhisshoul der
s. 
Sfundo:"
youl
ookbeaut
if
ulnana,
arey
ou
done?" 
Me:
"yeah"It
ookmycl
utchwel
eft
.
Thewhol ethingwassetupout sidet hehotel
wassobeaut i
fulwit
hamaz ingv i
ewoft he
beachev eryt
hinglookedsobeaut i
fulitjust
mademewantt ogetmar ri
edt hatv erysame
dayatt hatvenue.Isawmypar entsf i
rst
standi
ngwi thanothercoupleIjustknewi twas
Liam'sparentsthemanl ookedexact lyli
kehim,
hisfatherhadhisarm aroundhi smot her'
s
waistshewassoshor tandt i
ny.Wewal kedto
them theywer el
aughingatsomet hingshehad
Liam'sdimples 
Me:
"mama"
 
Mom:"Sne"wehuggedshegavemeababy
ki
sst
henIhuggeddadhekissedmyhead"
you
l
ookbeauti
ful
" 
Liam:"
shedoes"Ilookedbackhehadj ustgot
tousIlookedatSfundohehadthisfr
ust r
ated
l
ookonhi sface"
Gugut hesear
emypar ents
Mntungwakamahandt hembalikababamy
mom"  
Me:
"ni
cet
omeety
oubot
h"
Yammy
:"ni
cet
ofi
nal
l
ymeety
ouSnegugu"
 
Nz
uzo:
"we'
vehear
dal
otabouty
ou"
 
Sf
undo:
"ohreal
ly"NzuzolookedatLi
am
smil
i
ngbef
orelookingatSfundo
Nzuzo:
"ofcour
se,
herf
atherandIar
egood
f
ri
ends" 
Me: "
ohIseeAmel i
alet
'sgogreetbaby
"It
ook
hi
shandwewal kedtoAmeli
ashewaswi t
hthi
s
cutecolour
edboywhowascar ryi
ngher
daughterMini
nhle 
Sf
undo: "
youar
egoingtoresi
gnatthatpl
aceI
am notaski
ngyouIam t
ell
ingSnegugu"
 
Me:
"youcan'
tdot
hat
" 
Sfundo:"hewantsi nyourpanti
eshewant s
whatismi neIwillnotgiv
ey outohim ona
sil
verplatt
er.Youdon'tneedthemoneyy ou
don'tneedshitfr
om thatstupidcompanyand
thi
sisov erIwil
lnottalkaboutitany
mor eyou
will
handi ny ourresi
gnati
onMondaymor ni
ng"I
di
dn'tevenhav ethewordsIwassoangr yat
hi
mf orthinki
nghecancont rolf
orthi
nkingIam
somel it
tlesubmi ssi
vewomanwhoonl yli
vesto
pl
easeshi m andIwasangr yatLi
am forgiv
ing
Sfundot heimpr essi
onthathewantsme
Me:
"soy
oudon'
ttr
ustme"
 
Sfundo:
"thi
shasnothi
ngt
odowi
tht
rust
"we
gottoAmelia"
sis"
 
Ameli
a: "heybigbro"theyhuggedti
ghtly"hey
Sne"wehuggedIcoul dn'
tevenpretend.EvenI
coul
df eelthatmyhugwascol d"t
hisisSphe's
smallbrotherNathan"theboylaughed
Nathan:
"hiSne"Igavehi
m afakesmil
e.Ij
ust
wantedtogohomenotev enSfundo'
shouse
buthomeinRichardsBay.
[
04/
15,
11:
10]Ron:
Inser
tthi
rt
ysev
en.
..
.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wedi dn'
tevenst
ayIwasnolongeri
nthemood
aft
ergreeti
ngBri
anandzamaIwesaidour
goodbyestomyparentsandl
eft
.Theri
deback
tohishousewassil
ence.

Sfundo:"
Idon'
tunderst
andwhyy
ouangr
y"Igot
outthecarbangedthedoor
 
Lel
o:"mommylook"l
eloscr
eamedasIwal
ked
thr
oughthel
ounge 
Me:"notnowlel
o!!
"Iwentupst
air
stakingt
wo
st
air
satat i
me.Sfundogotint
heclosetasI
wastakingmyshoesoff 
Sfundo: "
youangryIgetthatbutyouwill
not
andIr epeatwil
lnottakeyourangeroutonmy
chil
dren.Soy ouwil
lgodownst ai
rsandlookat
whatlelowasshowi ngy ouorsohelpmegood
Snelelowi l
lnotbetheonlyonewhoi scryi
ng"
 
Me:
"sonowy
ougoi
ngt
ohi
tme"hechuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
"don'
ttempme.AndnoIwon'
tri
ght
nowy ounotwort
hthesetbackIwil
lbeputt
ing
myselfini
fIl
etmyangercontr
olme"hewalked
outIbreat
hedoutandwentdownstai
rsaf
ter
weari
ngmyf l
ops.Foundl
eloonSfundo'
slap
cry
ingItookher
 
Me:
"mommyi
ssor
rysheshout
edaty
ou"
 
Lel
o:"okay
"Iwi
pedhert
ear
sthenki
ssedher
pout
ylips 
Me:"showmommywhatyouwantedtoshow
her
"sheshowedmeherwri
st"
oohprett
y"she
smil
ed 
Lel
o:"
NacyandImadei
t"
 
Me:
"wher
eismi
ne"
 
Lel
o:"
didn'
tmakei
t"
 
Me:
"oh.Whynot
?"Shegi
ggl
edasIf
rowned 
Lel
o:"
okayIwi
l
lmakeanot
heronef
ory
ou"
 
Sf
undo:
"I'
m goi
ngt
oor
derl
unch"
 
Lel
o:"
bur
ger
!"Hel
ookedatme 
Me:"
mxm"Iturnedmyattent
ionbackt
oLel
o
"
wherei
syourbrot
herbaby?"
 
Lel
o:"
sleepi
ng"
 
Me: "
whyar
eyounotsl
eeping?"Shegi
ggl
ed
hi
dingherf
aceonmybreasts 
Lel
o:"
I'
m notababymamam"
 
Me:
"buty
oumybaby
" 
Lel
o:"
ha.
a"Iki
ssedherhead 
Me:
"mommyl
ovesy
ousomuch"
 
Lel
o:"
Lel
olov
esmommysomuchaswel
l
" 
Me:"whatdoy
ouwantt
odof
ory
ourbi
rt
hday
pr
incess?
" 
Lel
o:"
Idon'
tknow"
 
Me:"hha!Youdon'
tknow?!
"Shelaughedl
oudly
nodding"doyouwantapar
ty?Youdidn'
thav
ea
part
ylastyear
" 
Lel
o:"
yes!
" 
Me:
"okay
"

Igotoutofthecl
osetaf
terIhadtakenabat h
andputonmypy j
amasSfundowasal r
eadyin
bedbusyonhi si
Pad.Wehadn'tspokensince
thatl
it
tl
eepisodeint
heclosetwhenwecame
back.Igoti
nthebedandf acedawayfrom hi
m.
.
Iwokeupi nbedalone.Wehadspentt henight
onthefarendsofthebed.Ijustgotoutofthe
bedfeel
ingexhaustedli
keIwasemot ional
ly
drai
ned.Imadethebedt hensatonitwhileI
call
edNatasha
Nat
asha:
"heyy
ou"
 
Me:"I
'
m soti
redNat
ashal
i
keIdon'
tev
enknow
any
mor e"
 
Nat
asha:
"what
'swr
ong?
" 
Me:"Sf
undoi
sdri
vi
ngmecr azy.Hedoesn'
t
t
rustmehethi
nksj
ustbecausesomeguy
want
smeI
'
llopenmyl
egsandcheatonhi
m" 
Natasha:"Iwasaboutt
ogotothemallwi
th
AriaI'
l
lcancelandseei
fIcangetaf
li
ghtt
o
there"
 
Me:"
comewi
thherwecanall
gooutI'
l
ltagLel
o
al
onghav
eagi
rl
'sdaybr
ingHail
ey"
 
Natasha:"
shehasahockeygamei
npor
t
El
izabethKl
eint
ookherther
e" 
Me:"okaycal
lmewheny
out
akeof
fI'
l
lpi
cky
ou
upattheair
port
" 
Natasha:
"okaybabe"weendedthecal
lIwent
downstai
rsfoundSfundoandt
hekidsi
nthe
ki
tcheneati
ng 
Lel
o:"
mor
ningmamam"
 
Me:"morni
ngLelowam"Ikissedhercheek
wenttoNonduinthel
ounge"pleasegetLel
o
r
eadyformemakesur esheiswar m"
 
Nondu:"
okay"Iwentupst
air
s.Sfundogoti
nthe
bat
hroom whil
eIwasinthebathtub
Sf
undo: "
whereareyougoing?"Ij
ustignored
hi
m" SneguguIam tal
ki
ngt oyou.Youcannot
j
ustl
eav ewithmydaughterwhil
ey ouangry
wi
thouttalki
ngtome"Ifeltl
ikeaskinghi
m
wherewashewhenLut handoandIwer e
makingLelobutIknewthatwouldbeal ow
bl
ow
Me:"
wegoingoutIt
hinkgat
ewaymeet
ingup
wi
thNat
ashaandAria" 
Sf
undo:
"wast
hathar
dtosay
" 
Me:
"leav
emeal
oneSf
undo"
 
Sf
undo:"al
lIdoistoprot
ectyouandourf
ami
l
y,
whatwehav e.Il
oveyoubabyIl
oveyouso
much" 
Me:"
IknowSfundoIl
ovey
out
oo"hel
eaned
downandki
ssedme 
Sf
undo:
"thanky
ouf
orunder
standi
.
."
Me:
"Iam notqui
tt
ingmyj
ob"henodded
Sf
undo:
"asl
ongasy
ouknowt
hathi
sbl
oodwi
l
l
beonyourhandsbecauseIwi
l
lki
l
lhi
mI'
m not
evenj
oki
ngaboutthat"
Noli
eIl
iter
all
yshi
ver
edbecauseIknewhe
meantt
hosewords 
Me:
"Sf
undopl
ease"
 
Sf
undo:
"hei
smyenemySnepi
ckasi
de"he
wal
kedoutl
eav
ingmewi
thmyj
awonthefl
oor

Lel
obouncedupanddownasNatashaandAr
ia
madethei
rwaytousatt
heai
rpor
t 
Lel
o:"
Ari
a!!
"Theybothr
anmeet
ingeachot
her
hal
fwayandhugged 
Natasha:"
heyboo"wehugged"
you'
vebeen
cr
ying" 
Me:
"justal
i
ttl
e"shesmi
l
ed 
Natasha:"
comeongi
rl
s"weal
lgoti
nthecarI
dr
ov eoff
 
Me:
"whatt
imei
syourf
li
ghtback?
" 
Natasha:"
at21:
30someonei
sgoi
ngt
omi
ss
herbedti
me"Ari
agiggl
ed 
Me:
"she'
shappyaboutt
hat
" 
Lel
o:"
mommyi
sar
iagoi
nghomewi
thus?
" 
Me:
"wegoi
ngtot
hemallbabywegonnawat
ch
amovi
eandpl
aygames"
 
Lel
o:"
butIwantt
oshowhermyHamst
er"
 
Ar
ia:
"canwegoaunt
ySnepl
ease"
 
Me:
"wecanspendt
hedayatSfundo'
shouse
wewil
lgett
otal
kpr
oper
lyany
way "
 
Natasha:"whydoy
oukeeponsay
ingSf
undo'
s
house?" 
Me:
"becausei
tis"
 
Nat
asha:
"ity
ourhomeandhei
smar
ryi
ngy
ou"
 
Me:"
Idon'
tknowsomet
imesIt
hinkIdi
da
mi
stakeaboutmov
ingi
nwit
hhim" 
Natasha:
"wewil
ltal
kproper
lyl
ater
"Idr
ovepast
cappucci
nosandcol
lect
edthefoodwehad
or
der
edonourwayt
her
e

Weset t
ledont
heroofpat
iowi
thourf
oodand
dr
inks.Westar
tedtal
ki
ngaswewereeat
ing.
Sf
undocameup 
Sf
undo:
"Mr
sWi
ther
spoon"Nat
ashasmi
l
ed 
Nat
asha:
"hey
" 
Sf
undo:
"goodt
oseey
ou"
 
Nat
asha:
"youhav
eabeaut
if
ulhome"
 
Sfundo:"t
hanky ou.Ij
ustcameuptogreet
.
EnjoytherestofyourSundayl
adi
esI'
l
lstayout
ofyourhair"hewentbackdown 
Natasha:
"ar
ethi
ngsthatbadbetweenyoutwo?
Usuall
yhecan'
tkeephi
slipsandhandsoff
you" 
Me:
"hewant
smet
oresi
gnatwor
k" 
Natasha:"
what?Why
?It
houghhewasal
labout
support
ingyou"
 
Me:"t
hatwasbef
oremybossshowedhimt
hat
hewantsmeandther
eisalr
eadyhi
stor
y
bet
weenthetwofami
li
es"
 
Nat
asha:
"oh"
 
Me: "Ifeelli
kehedoesn' ttrustmeNat ashaand
i
thur ts.JustbecauseLi am want si nmypant i
es
doesn' tmeanIwi lll
ethim.Yeahsur eheis
att
ract i
v enodoubtandhehast hatsexyt hing
goingonbutIam wi t
hSf undoIl ov ehi
m Idon't
seemyl i
fewithouthim Iwouldnev erdo
anythingt ojeopardi
seusandwhatwehav e.I
seri
ousl ydon'tseemy selfwi t
hany onebuthim.
Iknowwhathi sexwi f
edi dtohim andIwoul d
neverdot hattohim soIshoul dn'thaveto
sufferlikethisbecauseofheract ions" 
Nat
asha:"
hav
eyouspoket
ohi
m?Tol
dhi
m al
l
oft
his?
" 
Me:
"Sf
undodoesn'
tl
ist
ent
ome"
 
Nat
asha:
"andy
oudon'
tl
ist
ent
ohi
m" 
Me:"that'
snott
rue"shegavemethatar
eyou
forr
eal l
ookIsi
ghed"Idoli
stent
ohim
somet i
mes" 
Natasha:
"youbothstubbornhumansbutwe
spokeaboutthi
sSneIt ol
dy outotal
ktohi
m
gethimtocommuni catewit
hy ou"
 
Me:
"If
eel
tir
ed"
 
Natasha:"Idon'
tunderstandwhyi st
hat
whenevery ouandSfundoar egoi
ngthrougha
r
oughpat chy oual
way ssoqui cktot
hinkof
l
eavinghi
my etyoualway sclai
m howmuchy ou
l
ovehim andwoul dnev erleavehi
m" 
Me:"
that
'snott
rueIam notqui
ckt
oleav
ehi
m
Nat
ashaIlovet
hatman" 
Natasha:"butyounotcommitt
edtost
icki
ng
wit
hhi mthroughitall
.Youact
ual
l
yactli
keyou
don'tneedhimi nyourl
if
eandhehasbeen
tr
yingwebot hknowt hat
" 
Me:
"Ican'
tbel
i
evey
ousay
ingal
loft
his
Nat
ashayouknowIt
ookhi
m backaf
terhe
f
ucki
ngfr
actur
edmyskul
l"
 
Natasha:"youshoul
dn'thavegonebackt ohim
i
fyougoi ngtokeepbringi
ngt hatupall
thetime.
Hemessedbel ievemehef uckedupbi gti
me.
Youshoul dhavefor
givenhim andwentabout
coparentingwit
hhim notgottenbacktogether
i
fthisishowy ougoingtotreathim" 
Me:
"younotbei
ngf
air
" 
Nat asha:"everytimeSneev er
yt i
mey out wogo
throughsomet hingyoubr ingthatupandI 'm
prettysurenotj ustwi t
hmebutwi thhim aswell
,
thatwon' tdoy ourrelati
onshipanygood"Idi dn'
t
sayany thingbecauseIknewshewasr ight"I
knowy oulovehi m andi tobvi
oust hatheis
crazyabouty ou.Doy ouwantt histowor k
Sne? " 
Me:
"ofcour
seIdo"
 
Nat
asha:"t
hendon'
tlethi
m betheonl
yone
whoisfi
ghti
ngfori
t.Andyoucan'
tbearound
peopl
eheisn'
tcool
wit
h,hi
senemi
eswi
l
luse
youtohur
thim" 
Me:"
soyousayingImustqui
tmyj
ob?Il
ove
t
hatj
obNatasha" 
Natasha:"Iam notsayi
ngquitthatshouldbe
yourdecisi
onbutr ememberitnotjustabout
youonlynowi taboutyourf
ami l
y.Myauntsay s
wheny oustartafamil
ywithamany ougiveup
t
heIf orus" 
Me:
"Iheary
ou"
 
Nat
asha:
"yout
woar
esogoodt
oget
her
" 
Me:
"wel
oveeachot
her
" 
.
IwokeupMondaymor ni
ngSfundowasst i
ll
asleepathi
sendoft hebedIjustsighedIhat ed
fi
ghtingwit
hhim andhewasr eall
ygoodat
sulki
ngital
wayskill
edme.Imov edcl oserto
hi
m gotont opofhim hegrabbedmyass
dir
ectedtopussytositonhismorninger ect
ion
Iki
ssedhi
sneckwhilemovi
ngmywaisthe
moanedsoft
lyImovedupandunbut
tonedhi
s
pyj
amatopheopenedhiseyes 
Sfundo:"morni
ng"hishuskyv oicesent
goosebumpsov ermybodyIr anmyhandsov er
hi
spackshel etathroat
ymoan.Iwentbackt o
ki
ssinghisneckgoingdownhi sbodyleavi
nga
tr
ailofhardbit
eshekeptgr oaningandmoaning
Ipull
eddownhi spyjamapant shiserecti
on
sprungfreel
yIswall
owedl ookingatithe
chuckled
Sf
undo:
"doasy
oupl
ease"
 
Me:
"Sf
undoy
oukeepget
ti
ngbi
gger
" 
Sfundo:"
Idon'
tthi
nkthat
'spossi
blebabyI
'
m
sureitst
oppedgrowi
nglongtimeago" 
Me:"Idon'
tthi
nkso"Isuckedontheti
phardhis
bodyjer
kedhemoanedl ouderIt
ookitoutand
ci
rcl
edthetipofmytonguearoundit
.
Hejoi
nedmei
ntheshoweraf
terourexpl
osi
ve
sessi
on 
Sf
undo:
"soy
ougoi
ngt
owor
k" 
Me:
"itMonday
"henodded"
justl
i
ket
hat
?"
Sfundo:
"youwon'
tl
ist
ent
omeandIwon'
tfor
ce
you" 
Me:
"real
l
y?"
 
Sfundo:
"yes.Doy ouSneI'
m overt
alki
ngor
argui
ngaboutthisI'
m notgoi
ngtogiveLi
am a
secondofmyl i
feanymore" 
Me:"
I'l
lresi
gn.Wasgoi ngtohandi
nmylett
er
t
odaybutmycont ractsaysIhavet
oserv
ethree
monthsnoticegi
vi
ngt hem ti
metofi
ndanot
her
manager" 
Sf
undo:
"thr
eemont
hsi
sal
ongt
ime"
 
Me:
"fai
thandt
rust
" 
Sf
undo:
"fai
thandtr
ust
"wekissedheli
ft
edmy
l
egupandenteredmeslowl
ywhil
estar
ingdeep
i
nmyey
es"
Ilov
eyou"
 
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"hewentdeeperIscr
eamed

ThedooropenedLi
am goti
nlooki
ngal
i
ttl
e
fur
ioushesl
ammedt hedoorshut
 
Liam:"whatthefucki
sthi
s?!
"Heputthepaper
hewashol di
ngonmydeskandi twasmy
resi
gnati
onlett
erIhademail
edi
t 
Me:
"It
hinky
oucanr
eadyLi
am"
 
Li
am:"don'
tdothat.Don'
tbesar
cast
icSne,
whati
sgoingon?" 
Me:
"I'
m sur
eyour
eadt
hel
ett
er"
 
Liam:"
didheputyouupt
othi
s?Thi
sisSf
undo,
youlov
et hi
sjob"
 
Me:
"Il
ovemyf
ami
l
ymor
e" 
Li
am: "whatthehel
ldoest
hathav
etodowi
th
anyt
hing?" 
Me:
"Idon'
thav
etoexpl
ainmy
sel
ftoy
ou"
 
Li
am:
"hi
sinsecur
eandy
ouent
ert
aini
nghi
m" 
Me:"leavemyoffi
ceLiam Iwil
lnotl
etyou
di
srespectmymanl i
kethat"hewalkedtomy
si
deoft hedesk 
Liam:"
doyouwantmeSne?Isthatwhyyou
resi
gni
ng?Youdon'
ttr
usty
oursel
faroundme"
 
Me: "
ohdon'tt
hinksohi ghlyofyourselfLiam
younotall
that.Youhotandsexybutt hat'sthe
onlythi
ngyouhav egoingf oryour
self,themanI
shareabedwithev er
yni ghthasmor e"he
pull
edmeupIcr ashedonhi schest"thef uck"
hecuppedmyf aceandki ssedmedeepl yhe
grabbedmyassandputmeont hedesk 
Li
am:
"youwantmeSneandi
tscar
esy
ou"
 
Me:"f
ucky
ou"hepushedmydressupand
pul
l
edmet ot
heti
pofthedeskgett
ingbet
ween
mylegs
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04/
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11:
10]Ron:
Lov
eMeLi
keOnl
yYouCan
I
nser
tthi
rt
yei
ght
..
..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ipushedhi
m backwhenhet
ri
edpul
l
ingmy
panti
esdown 
Li
am:"
what?"Hi
seyeswer
eal
lsmal
landr
edhe
wasbr
eat
hingheav
il
y 
Me:"
Iam notdoi
ngthiswit
hy ou"Ipushedhi
m
f
urt
herandjumpedoffthedesk 
Li
am:
"doy
ouwantt
his?
" 
Me:
"noIdon'
t"
 
Li
am:
"may
beIshoul
dn'
thav
emov
edsof
ast
" 
Me:"
IthoughtIwasgoingtost
aythet
hree
mont
hsnot i
cebutI
'm sorr
ythi
sismyl
astday
" 
Li
am:
"nowy
ouact
ingcr
azy
" 
Me:"
thenfinel
eav
emetobecr
azy
"hegr
abbed
myarm"letgoofmeLi
am!
" 
Liam:"
younotresi
gni
ngIwon'
tacceptthi
sshi
t
andifyourmanhasaprobl
em wi
ththattel
lhi
m
todealwit
hme" 
Me: "
thisi
snotaboutSfundoitaboutme"I
yankedmyarmf rom hi
sholditwasturningred
wherehewashol di
ng"ifyouwanttosuemedo
sobutIam donewiththiscompany"Istart
ed
packingmythi
ngsashewaspaci ngupand
down 
Li
am:"okayf
ineIam sor
rySnebutpl
easedon'
t
l
eaveIneedyouthecompanyneedsyou"
 
Me:
"youwi
l
lfi
ndsomeonemor
eexper
ienced"
 
Li
am:
"Iwanty
ou"
 
Me:"
youcan'
talway
sgetwhaty ouwant"he
wal
kedoutbangi
ngthedoorIsatonthechai
r
wi
thahugesigh

Sfundowasplayi
ngwitht
hekidsi
nthemini
parkhehadbuil
tfort
hem whenIgothome 
Me:
"hey
"hel
ookedatmewei
rdl
y 
Sf
undo:
"whyy
oubackatt
hist
ime?
" 
Me: "
turnsoutIdon'
thav
etoserv
emynot
ice.
I'
m goingtogoputonsomethi
ngcomf
ort
able
andjoinyouhere" 
Sf
undo:
"okaybaby"hehel
dmyhandasI
moved"
Iloveyouokay?
" 
Me:"okay"Iwentupstair
s.Iwentstr
aightt
othe
cl
osetchangedintoasummerdr esswithali
ght
j
acketandf l
i
pf l
ops.SfundogotinasIwas
ty
ingmyweav e 
Sfundo:"
canwet
alkaboutwhyy
oubackso
earl
y" 
Me:
"isi
treal
l
ynecessar
y?"
 
Sfundo:
"Iwoul
dliket
oknowandI'l
lfi
ndoutbut
Iwouldli
keyoutobetheonet
ell
i
ngme"  
Me:"hewasangryt
henheki
ssedme"he
noddedcl
enchi
nghisj
aws 
Sf
undo:
"howdi
dyour
eactt
ohi
m ki
ssi
ngy
ou?
" 
Me: "
Ipushedhi
m backt
hentol
dhi
mtof
uckof
f
Ipackedmybagsandlef
t" 
Sfundo:
"ar
eyoubei
nghonestwi
thme?
"I
nodded
Me:
"Iswear
" 
Sfundo:
"okaybaby
"hepul
l
edmet
ohi
m we
hugged 
Me:
"Il
ovey
oubaby
" 
Sf
undo:"
IknowandIl
ovey
ouaswel
l
"he
ki
ssedmyhead 
Me:
"ar
ewegoi
ngt
obeal
ri
ght
?" 
Sf
undo:
"yeswear
e" 
Me:
"okay
" 
Sfundo:
"ar
eyousur
etherei
snothi
ngyouhave
totel
lme?Iwoul
dhatetofi
ndoutyoul
iedt
o
me" 
Me:
"ther
eisnot
hingt
otel
lbabypl
easebel
i
eve
me"
 
Sf
undo:"Ibel
i
eveyou"hepickedmeupwal ked
overt
obedbadlai
dbot hofusdownIsnuggl ed
cl
osertohim"may
bey oucanst ar
tpl
anni
ngt he
weddi
ng" 
Me:"yeahIshould,
Iwill
lookf
orapl
annerf
ir
stI
can'
tdoitbymy sel
f" 
Sfundo:
"whatev
ery
ouneedorwantbabyj
ust
saytheword"
 
Me:"kissmeplease"helif
tedmyfaceupand
welookedateachot herbefor
eheleaneddown
andkissedmehel i
ftedmemaki ngmel ayon
topofhim 
Sfundo:"t
alktomemyqueen"hewhi sper
sIfelt
l
ikejustbythathereachedsomet
hingdeepin
meIj ustcr
ied"t
ell
mewhatdi dhedotoy oumy
queen" 
Me:"Ij
ustwanttoloveyouSfundowit
houtany
hear
tache,
withoutanydrama.Teachmehow
t
oloveyour
ight
"hecuppedmyf
acewi
pingmy
t
ears 
Sfundo:"y
ouarelovi
ngmejustri
ghtmyqueen
don'tputyour
sel
funderpr
essur
eplease"
 
.

Itbeenclosetoamont hIwasof fi
ciall
yast ay
athomemom andIwasact ual
lylovingIhad
metwi thaplannerIwaspl anningl elo'
s4t h
birt
hdaymypr incesswasgr owingsof astI
couldn'
twaitforthefollowi ngy earshewas
goingtostartschool.SfundoandIwer est il
l
arguingaboutithewant edherhomeschool ed
sayinghecan'tprotectheri fshei sspendi ng
mor ethanfi
vehour sawayf rom homeev ery
weekdaybutIwasn' thear ingawor dabouti t
becauseIwasser i
ouslynotaboutt ohaemy
chil
dbehomeschool edl i
kesomepr esident's
daughtersheneededt obear oundchi l
dr enher
age.Myphonehadbeenof fforweeksnow
becauseLi
am justwouldn'
tstopcalli
ngSfundo
hadbeenquietbutIknewi twasonlyamat ter
ofti
mebeforehesnappedandr earr
anged
Li
am'sfacebuthistherapysessionandanger
managementclasseswer ereal
lyworking.

WaswokenupbySfundobr
eathi
ngheav
il
yon
myneckontopofmerubbi
nghisdi
ckupand
downmypussyhit
ti
ngmycli
twithi
t
Me: "
hm"heenteredmesl
owl
y.Wemadesl
ow
passi
onat
elove. 
Sfundo:"
isthereanyt
hingyouneedmetohelp
with?"Wewer enowtakingabathIwassit
ti
ng
betweenhislegsrest
ingmyheadinhischest
 
Me:"nobabybutdon'tl
eavethehouseunless
youabsolut
elymustbecauseImightneedyou"
i
twast hedayofl
elo'
sbirt
hdayparty
Sf
undo:
"howisevery
onegoingtogeti
ntouch
wi
thwhenyourphoneisof
f?" 
Me:
"I'
l
lswi
tchi
ton"
Sfundo:"
Ithi
nkitt
imeIhadat
alkwi
thLi
am
aboutboundari
es"
 
Me:"
babypleasewedon'
twanty
our el
apsi
ng
hei
snotwor t
hity
ou'
vebeenworki
ngsohard"
hegr
unted
Sfundo:"
youri
ghthei
snot"wef
ini
shupand
getoutofthebat
hheleav
esmewashingt
he
batht
ub

Thef amilymember sstar

tedar
ri
vingjustaf
ter
10:00, Sf
undo'spar
entsalongwit
hApheand
Simpi wearri
vedtheprevi
ousdayinthemor ni
ng.
Lelo'
spar tywastur
ningintoal
owkeyf ami
ly
reunion.Iwentouttocheckhowt hesetupwas
goingoni nthebackyard 
Lut
hando:
"ev
ery
thi
ngl
ooksbeaut
if
ul"heki
ssed
mycheek 
Me:
"itdoes.Shei
sgoi
ngt
olov
eitshel
ovest
he
movi
e"t
hethemewasAli
ceinwonder
land.The
whol
ebacky
ardwast
otal
lyt
ransf
ormed 
Luthando:
"shebet
terl
oveit
.Itcost
ingmea
for
tuneandnowNamhl aisal
readyplanni
ng
Nathi'
spart
y" 
Me:"fi
rstNathiwil
l beturni
ngonelike5mont hs
fr
om nowsot hatdoesn'tmakesense,secondly
l
elodidn'
thaveapar tyl
astyearsheonlyhad
her2ndbirt
hdaypar t
yandthirdl
yIdidsayIcan
payforthewhol ethingorwecanpayhal fhal
f"
Lut
hando:
"shei
smydaught
er"
 
Me: "
Iknowt hatandnobodysaidshewasn'
t
yourdaughterLuthandoevensheknowsthat
sheisyours" 
Lut
hando:
"doesshe?Honest l
yspeakingdoes
sheknowthatIam herf
athernotSfundo"I
si
ghed 
Me:"shewil
lknowwhenshecanunder
stand
butr
ightnowshehastwofat
her
s" 
Lut
hando:
"andonemot
her
" 
Me:"
don'
tbri
ngthatt
omebecauseiti
sNamhla
whowantedLel
otocall
heraunt
yandnowshe
i
susedtoit
" 
Lut
hando:
"Iknow"
 
Me: "
everythingwil
lbefi
neLuthandoyouwil
l
see.Sfundowoul dnevert
akeLeloawayfrom
youhej ustlovesherandthat
'sagoodthi
ng" 
Lut
hando:"
IknowthathelovesherIlov
ethatI
j
ustdon'
twantherl
ovinghim morethanshe
l
ovesme" 
Me:
"shel
ovesy
oubot
hequal
l
y" 
Lut
hando:
"hm"
 
Namhla:
"thi
siswher
eyoutwoarehidi
ng"
Lut
handosighedasi
fhei
sirr
it
ated 
Lut
hando:
"wenothi
ding"
 
Me:
"excuseme"Iwal
kedof
fgoi
ngt
otal
kwi
th
t
heplanner
By14: 00t hepar t
yhadst artedt hekidswer e
runningar oundt hebacky ardpl ay i
nggamesand
eatingj unkLel ohadn' tstoppedl aughingand
foll
owi ngAr i
aar oundal ongwi t
hNdal o.The
elderswer estandingi nsmal l groupsdr i
nking
andhav ingf ingerfoods.Af terl unchLut hando
broughtoutt hecaket heki dsst artedbounci ng
andsi ngi ngal ongaswesanghappybi rt
hday
forLeloi twassuchabl i
ssf ul sightmypr incess
l
ookedext r
acut einherpi nkpr incessdr ess.As
thesunsett hechi ldrenwer et akeni nsidemost
ofthepar entshadbr oughtt hei rnanni es.Adj
cameoutmusi cstartedpl ay ingwedr ankwhi le
meatwasget t
ingdone.Iwassi tti
ngon
Sfundo' sl apmymanwasget tingdr unkandI
l
ov eddr unkSf undohewasf unandt otall
y
chil
dish.Kl ei
nwasal soget tingdr unkwhi ch
wasi rri
t atingNat asha.Mar cel andSi hlewer e
maki ngoutl ikehighschool ki dsl uckil
yZi yanda
hadl eftshedi dn'tstayshej ustdr oppedof fthe
presentkissedleloandl eftherboy f
ri
endwas
takinghertoJhb.Sbuwassi tt
ingabi tfarfrom
uswi thLuthandoandsomeofLut hando's
fri
endsIwoul dcat chhim stari
ngatNat asha.
Afterdinnermypar entsal
ongwi thSf undo's
parentsandMar cel'
sparentsallleftgoingto
theJameshouset akingthefamilykidswi th
them.

Thesunwasstart
ingtori
sewhenSf undoandI
fi
nall
ycuddl
edt
ogetheraft
erfucki
nglike
rabbi
tsheal
waystakestoolongtocum when
hehasbeendri
nki
ngsomet i
meshedoesn' t
comeatall
Sf
undo:
"myl
ove"hel
i
ckedmycheek
Me:
"myki
ng"
 
Sf
undo:"Iam bei
ngsoooososeri
ousri
ghtnow"
Il
aughedhejustsoundedsost
upid 
Me:
"okaybaby
" 
Sf
undo:
"Iwantbabi
es"
 
Me:
"met
oo"hebi
tmycol
l
arbone 
Sf
undo:"
Iwantanot
hersonthr
eemor
eboy
sI
wantLel
otobemyonlypri
ncess"
 
Me:
"met
oo"hegi
ggl
edl
azi
l
y
Sf
undo: "
Ithi
nkyouneedt
ostoptaki
ngt
he
i
nject
ionsoIcanfuckababyi
nyou" 
Me:"Iwon'
ttaketheshotthi
smonth"hemov
ed
backsoIcouldseehisfacehehadawide
goofygr
in 
Sf
undo:
"Iwantt
omar
ryy
ouf
ir
st"
 
Me:
"I'
l
ltel
ltheweddi
ngpl
annert
ohur
ryup"
 
Sf
undo:
"soweget
tingmar
ri
edsoonandy
ou
gi
vi
ngmebabi
es" 
Me:
"yes"
 
Sf
undo:"
fuckIl
oveyou"hecr
ashedhi
sli
pson
minehi
sdickst
art
edtwit
chi
nghewassti
lli
n
meandgetti
nghardagai
n.
[
04/
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11:
10]Ron:
Lov
eMeLi
keOnl
yYouCan

I
nser
tthi
rt
yni
ne.
..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

WaswokenupbysomeoneshakingmeI
openedmyeyesfoundSf
undoandLonhl
e
st
aringatmeIpul
ledupt
hecomfort
ercover
ing
mybody  
Me:
"baby
?" 
Sf
undo:
"hungov
er?
" 
Me:
"noI
'
m good"
 
Sfundo:"every
oneisget
ti
ngreadytogooutfor
brunchwakeup"IsatupLonhlerai
sedhisarms
formet otakehim.Hepushedthecomfort
er
downr eachingformybr
eastandputiti
nhis
mout hSfundochuckl
ed
Me:
"hashehadbr
eakf
ast
?" 
Sfundo:"
Ithi
nkso.I
'm sur
etheyfedhim
becausetheyj
ustgotback"Inodded
Me: "
babythere'
snomi l
kany more"hekepton
sucki
ngIwasbr ushinghishai
rIheardthe
camer asoundandlookedupSf undohadtaken
apictureofuswithhisphoneIjustsmil
ed
shaki
ngmyhead 
Sf
undo:
"itabeaut
if
ulsi
ght
" 
Me:"howi
sthi
sgoi
ngtoworkoutwitht
henew
baby
"hesmil
edandki
ssedmyforehead
Sf
undo: "
I'
m surebytheti
met hebabycomes
Mpil
onhlewill
be2y ourbreastwon'
tevenbeon
hi
smi nd"
 
Me:
"tr
ue"
 
Sfundo:"
letmetakehim soyougetr
eady
"he
tr
iedtaki
nghim butheheldont
omet i
ght
er
wantingt
ocr y
 
Me:
"got
odaddyLonhl
e"
Lonhl
e:"
hm a.
a"hewasshaki
nghi
shead 
Me:
"takehi
m" 
Sf
undo:
"nohewi
l
lcr
y" 
Me:
"howam Isupposedt
otakeabat
h?"
 
Sf
undo:
"youknowIdon'
tli
kei
twhentheycry"I
st
oodupandgaveLonhl
etoSfundohestar
ted
wail
i
ng"Sne!
" 
Me: "ayihewi l
lgetoverit"Iwenttothe
bathroom t ookashower .Gotoutwentt othe
closetloti
onedt hengotdr essedinapeachof f
theshoul derlosemaxi dressandgol dsandal
s.
Iputonl ightmakeup, brushedmyweav eand
putonaf lowerhairband.Iwal kedouttookmy
phonet henwentdownst airs
Me:
"goodmor
ning"t
heygr
eet
edback 
Sne:"
ist
hist
het
imeamot
heroft
woshoul
dget
up?"
 
Me:"whent
hosehasgr
andmasy
ep"she
l
aughed
Sf
undo:
"tel
lherbaby
"Vuy
ani
hadLonhl
eonhi
s
chesthehadf
all
enasl
eep 
Me:
"shoul
dwego?I
'
m st
arv
ing"
 
Sf
undo:
"yeswemeet
ingev
ery
oneel
set
her
e" 
Aphe:
"Idon'
tunder
standwhyIcan'
tgowi
th
youSf
undo" 
Si
mpi
we:
"youaki
dknowy
ourpl
ace"
 
Sf
undo:
"thanky
oubr
o"t
heyf
istpumped 
Mom: "
Ithi
nkbythet
imeyougetbacky
our
f
atherandIwoul
dbegone" 
Me:"whyyouleavi
ngsoearl
y?"Dadhadt
aken
hi
sreti
rementfr
om work 
Dad:"
wehav inglunchwit
hNzuzoand
Yamkelani
.NzuzoandIhav ebusi
nesst
o
di
scuss"vuyanichuckl
edwhil
eSfundor
aised
hi
seyebrow
Me:"cal
lmewhenyougethome.Let
'
sgobaby
"
heheldmyhandwelef
t 
Sf
undo:
"I'
m notsur
ehowIf
eel
abouty
our
f
atherbei
ngbuddybuddywithLi
am'
sfat
heri
t
makeswanttolooki
ntothi
ngs" 
Me:
"babyl
et'
sjustl
eav
eitasi
tis"
 
Sf
undo:
"hm"
 
Me:
"Nodo,
NodoNodo,
Gar
arar
aforme
Nodo,
NodoNodoSenr
ereo
Nodo,NodoNodo, shakar
aoweNodo, Nodo
Nodo,Garar
araf
ormeo, ehhh"Ist
art
ed
si
ngi
ngalongtoDav
ido-if,
Sfundojoi
nedme 
Us:"Gi
rly
ou’r
ebeauti
fult
ooMynumberone
tunt
unSipburukut
utuForyourlov
et utuIgo
chookyouchukuchukuoBi koobianujuShey
youdomej uj
uCosi mfeel
ingthejujuAndy ou
knowsaynobodyholyButInogot el
lyoustor
y
Igot
tabey
ourman,
Igot
tabey
ourman
Lemmet alktoy ou,sayaf
ewthi
ngsGir
lim
feeli
ngyouWhati supt oy
ouSheyyouknowI
gatyou"hepulledmycheekandconti
nued
singi
ngwhilelookingatme 
Sfundo: "
Iloveyou, Il
ovey ouIl
oveyou, Ilove
youIl oveyou,IloveyouTher e’
snothingabov e
youTher e’
snot hingabovey ouAbovey ou
abov eyouBr i
dgeteh, Il
i
key ourminIskirtoOh
gir
lyoucar rysenseoI fItell
sayIl
ov eyouoMy
money ,
mybodyNaurownobabyThi rtybi l
l
ion
fortheaccounto, yeh
Versaceandguccif
oryourbodyobaby
"I
pushedhim backsmil
i
ng 
Me:
"youhav
esuchat
err
ibl
evoi
ce"
 
Sf
undo:"hha!
!If
eelsoinsul
tedImeanher
eI
wasthi
nkingIam onsomeJohnLegendti
p" 
Me:
"ha.
ababy
"Iwasl
aughi
ng 
Sf
undo:"
yougoingt
obemywi
fey
oushoul
dn'
t
besay
ingthat
" 
Me:"speakingaboutbei
ngy ourwif
eI'
m
meetingupwi t
htheplannerTuesdayandwe
hav
en' tdeci
dedonthedate" 
Sf
undo:
"amont
h" 
Me:"
ha.
aIam onl
ygett
ingmarr
iedonemont
h
won'
tbeenought
oplanwhatIwant
" 
Sf
undo:
"whaty
out
hinki
ng"
 
Me:
"fourmont
hs"
 
Sf
undo:
"sof
ar!
"Igi
ggl
ed 
Me:
"okayt
hree"
 
Sf
undo:
"st
il
lfarbutokay
" 
Me:
"wi
l
lyoucomewi
thme?
" 
Sf
undo:
"It
hinkIhav
eameet
ing"
 
Me:
"babyy
oudon'
tev
enknowt
het
ime"he
smi
l
ed 
Sfundo:"
Igotbackt
obackmeet
ingsmy
queen" 
Me:
"younoti
nter
est
edar
eyou?
" 
Sf
undo:
"sor
rybaby
"Ir
oll
edmyey
es 
Me:
"whenImakey
oubr
okedon'
tcompl
ain"
 
Sf
undo:
"yout
heonewhoi
sgoi
ngt
obest
uck
wi
thabr
okehusband"
 
Me:
"wehav
ingi
ther
eri
ght
" 
Sf
undo:
"whatev
ery
ouwant
" 
Me:"
that
'sadanger
oust
hingt
osayt
oa
woman" 
Sfundo:"
whenI'm say
ingi
ttomywomanI
doubt"Ij
ustshookmyhead

Wefoundevery
oneattashasi
twasKlei
n&
Nat
asha,Lut
hando&Namhla 
andMarcel
&Si
hle 
Si
hle:
"lat
easal
way
s"wehugged"
heysi
si"
 
Me:
"hey
"wegr
eet
edev
ery
oneel
se 
Sf
undo:
"youor
der
edal
ready
?" 
Marcel
:"y
eahwewer
ehungr
y"Sfundowav
ed
ov
erthewait
erweor
der
edourfood 
Lut
hando:
"wasl
eloupwheny
oul
eft
?" 
Me:
"yeahl
eftt
hem pl
ayi
ng.Whatt
imei
syour
f
li
ght
?" 
Lut
hando:
"16:
00.CanIseeheraf
tert
his?
" 
Me:
"yep"
 
Sf
undo:
"wher
eisBr
ianna?
" 
Si
hle:
"tookaf
li
ghtt
oJhbi
nthemor
ningChanel
i
sthere" 
Me:
"Nat
asha"
Nat
asha:
"yesbabe"
 
Kl
ein:
"I'
m babenother
" 
Nat
asha:
"Kl
einI
'
m st
il
lmadaty
ou"hef
rowned
Kl
ein:
"sor
ryIgotdr
unkbaby
"theguy
slaughed 
Me:"I'
m meet
ingupwi
ththepl
anneron
Tuesdayyousai
dyouwanttocome" 
Si
hle:
"yousett
hedat
eal
ready
" 
Me: "
thr
eemont
hsf
rom nowj
ustnotsur
eoft
he
exactdate"
 
Namhl
a:"
Iwantt
oloset
hebabywei
ghtf
ir
st
l
astthingIwantistobeaf atbride"Luthando
clear
edhisthroatIhonestl
ydidn'tknowhowt o
respondtothatbecauseshewasal ready
smallert
hanmei tjustfel
tli
keshe'st hr
owing
shade 
Sihle:"
girl
ifyouhaven'
tlostyourbabyweight
evennowwheny ourdaughteri
ssevenmont hs
alreadythere'
snohopef oryouandy oushould
reallyworkhardbecauserightnowyoulooklike
anoutofshapeduck"  
Marcel
:"Si
hle!
"Sf
undowasl
aughi
ngsof
tl
y
al
ongwithKlei
n
Natasha:"
Snelostherbabywei
ghtqui
ckl
ynow
sheisbacktoherthi
cksexysel
f"
 
Sfundo:"
yesal
lthatassandhipsnotfor
gett
ing
thethi
ghthi
ghsthatmakemegosocr azy"my
cheekswereheati
ngupfrom blushi
ng 
Me:
"baby
"hecuppedmyf
ace 
Sf
undo:
"mychubbycheeks"heki
ssedme
deeplyandsl
owly"Il
oveyou"hegav
emeasoft
peckthentur
nedhisatt
enti
onbacktot
heguy
s
Ibroughtmybott
om li
pbetweenmyteet
hwhil
e
smili
ng 
Nat
asha:
"lookatt
hatst
upi
dsmi
l
e" 
Me:"shutup!"Theylaughed.Thelaughterwas
endedbysomeonecl ear
ingthei
rthroatweall
l
ookedupi twasLiam Sfundo'sj
awscl enched
thesamet i
meIhel dhishandast heother
for
medaf ist
 
Li
am:"hel
l
o"t
heother
sgreet
edback"
itgoodt
o
seey
ouSneyoulookbeaut
if
ul"
 
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantLi
am?
" 
Li
am: "
wasj ustgreeti
ng,
IsawyouwhenIwas
passingby .Pleaseanswermycall
swhenIcal
l
"
Sfundot r
iedst andi
ngupIpul
ledhi
m down 
Sf
undo:"boyifyoudon'
twal
kawayy
ourf
ami
l
y
wi
llbur
yy ou"Li
am smir
ked
Li
am:
"rel
axman"
 
Me:
"Li
am goaway
" 
Marcel
:"Isuggestyouli
stent
oherandwalk
awayLiam becauseifoneofusfuckyouup
ri
ghtnowi tonl
ygoingtoupsetAmeli
aandyou
notworthit"
 
Li
am:"
nowwewoul dn'twanttoupsetmypret
ty
l
it
tl
esi
steri
nlaw"heturnedandwalkedaway 
Me:
"baby
"Iheldhi
scheekshegav
emeaweak
smi
l
eandkissedme 
Sf
undo:"
giv
emeami nute"hest
oodup.Ki
ssed
myfor
eheadbef
orewalki
ngawayIst
oodup 
Mar
cel
:"si
tSne"
 
Kl
ein:
"gi
vehi
m al
i
ttl
espace"Isatbackdown 
Lut
hando:
"whatwast
hatal
labout
?" 
Marcel
:"j
ustast
inki
ngdogt
hatdoesn'
tknowi
t
bel
ongsoutsi
de"

Wef
ini
shedbr
unchwi
thoutSf
undocomi
ng
back.Hehascal l
edMar celtomakesur et hatI
getar i
debackhome, Iwassowor riedabout
him andhewasnotanswer ingmycal ls.Ispent
theridebackhomewi thmybr ainwor kingon
overdriveatthatmomentIwasn' tsurei fhe
wasj ustangryatLi am oratbot hLiam andIor
evenatmeonl y.Itwasdr iv
ingmecr azy.Wegot
homel elometusatt hef oyerscr eamingf orher
papaLut handoliftedherupt hrowingheri nthe
air
.Iexcusedmy selfandwentupt omyr oom.

IwokeupwhenIfel
tthebedmov ehepul
l
ed
metohisbodyIt
urnedtofacehi
m 
Me:
"hm"
 
Sf
undo:"sl
eepmyl
ove"Ist
il
lhadmyey
es
cl
osed 
Me:
"wher
ewer
eyou"
 
Sfundo:
"sorr
yIlef
tyouIhadsomethi
ngI
neededtotakeoff
,I'
mreal
lysor
ry"
 
Me:
"It
houghty
ouwer
eangr
yatme"
 
Sf
undo:
"Icoul
dnev
ernotev
eni
fIwant
edt
o" 
Me:
"youl
oveme"
 
Sfundo:"
morethanwordscouldeverdescri
be"I
fel
thisli
psbr
ushingmi
nebef or
ehet ookmy
bottom l
i
pbetweenhi
slipssucki
ngsof t
ly
[
04/
15,
11:
10]Ron:
Lov
eMeLi
keOnl
yYouCan

I
nser
tfor
ty.
..
..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

IwokeupwhenSf undowaski
ssi
ngme
goodbyeIhel
dthebackofhi
sneckdeepeni
ng
theki
ss 
Sf
undo:
"Iwi
l
lseey
oul
ater
"If
rowned 
Me:
"Idon'
twanty
out
ogo"
 
Sf
undo:
"comeseemeatt
heof
fi
cel
ateron"
 
Me:
"Iwi
l
lbr
ingy
oul
unch"
 
Sfundo:"
somet hi
ngprepar
edbyy ounot
bought"wekissedagainandpul
ledapar
taswe
heardasoftknockhewentt ot
hedoorand
camebackcar ryi
ngl
elo 
Me:
"mor
ningLel
owam"
 
Lelo:
"morni
ngmamam"hekissedherf
orehead
thenputherdownont
hebedLelocr
awledto
meshegotnexttomeandputherheadonmy
chest 
Sf
undo:
"lat
ermyangel
s" 
Me:
" l
ater
"hewal
kedoutLel
oandIwentback
t
osleep

WhenIwokeupLel
owasalsoupplay
ingwi
th
myhai
rshesmil
edwhenshenot
icedmyeyes
wer
enowopened
Lel
o:"
mommyI
'
m hungr
y" 
Me:"whydidn'
tyougot
oyourroom andcal l
Nondu"sheusedthemoni
torinherroom tocal
l
f
orNondubecauseofthegateatthestai
rcase 
Lel
o:"
didn'
twantt
omommy
.Iwant
edy
out
o
wakeupfir
st"
 
Me: "okay"wegotoffthebedIwenttothe
bathroom washedmyf acet
henbrushedmy
teethbeforewewenttoherr oom soshecoul
d
washherf aceandbr
ushhert eet
h.

Itookaf i
nalel ookatmy sel
font hemi r
rorinthe
cl
osetIwaswear i
ngblacktrackpant switha
whitebodysui tandbl ackankleheel bootwith
fl
owerpr i
nts.If ixedupmycur l
st ookmybag
wentdownst airs.Itwastvtimeforl el
oand
Lonhle.Iwentt ot hekitchentookt hepicni
c
basketandl eft.

Me:
"heySt
eve"hemov
edf
rom hi
sdesk 
St
eve:
"Mr
sM hel
l
o" 
Me:
"ishef
ree?
" 
Stev
e: "
noheisonanconf
erencecall
butgo
ri
ghtinhesai
dtosendyouri
ghtin"
 
Me:"okay
"Iwentpasshisdeskgoingin
Sf
undo'soff
ice.If
oundhim busyonhi
siMache
l
ookedupandsmi ledasIwalkedcl
osertohi
m 
Sfundo: "yesasIhadsai dIalreadyf oundthe
si
ghti tasmal l
islandjustoutsideTanzani ai
t
actuallyfall
sunderTanzani aitperfect.NowI
needy ouguy stoputt ogetherat eam forme.
Mywi f
ej ustgotinbr i
ngingmel unchsowewi l
l
continuewi ththislat
erI'l
lgetSt evetoschedule
everything" 
Person: "
weneedt ogov i
ewthesightImean
thepicturesaregoodbutinordert
oput
everyt
hingt oget
herIneedtogothereandsee
theplace" 
Per
son2:
"yesIagr
ee.Ican'
tst
artwi
thany
thi
ng
wi
thoutgoi
ngt
her
efi
rst
" 
Sfundo:"getyourper
sonalassi
stantsto
communi catewithStev
eseteverythi
ngupso
wegooutt her
enextweek"Istar
tedsetti
ngup
ourlunchoncof feet
ablenextt
ot hecouch.I
wentoutt oSteve 
Me:
"St
eve"
 
St
eve:
"Mr
sM"
 
Me:
"Ineedt
wobot
tl
esofwat
er"
 
St
eve:
"I'
l
lgeti
tfr
om t
heki
tchen"
 
Me:"t
hanky ou"Iwaitedforhi
m whil
ehewent
t
othekitchenuntil
hebr oughtbackt
hewater
.I
wentbacktot heoff
iceSfundowasdone 
Sf
undo:"
mybeaut
if
ulwif
e"hehel
dmywai
st
br
ingi
ngmybodycl
osert
ohim 
Me:
"noty
et"weki
ssed"
Ibr
oughty
oul
unch"
 
Sf
undo:
"looksgood"wesatdown 
.
#Nar
rat
ed

Klei
nst
aredathiswifeasshegotr eadyfor
workhewantedhertostopworkingj ustdi
dn't
knowhowt oapproachthesubj
ectbecausel ast
ti
mehetriedt
obr i
ngitNatt
ywoul dn'
theara
wordofi
t 
Kl
ein:
"myl
ove"
 
Nat
ty:
"yesbaby
" 
Kl
ein:
"youknowmyal
bum i
sfi
nal
l
ydone"
 
Natty:"
thatgreatbaby"Nat
ashawast r
uly
excit
edf orherhusbandhehadbeenwor ki
ngon
thealbum foralmostthr
eeyearsnowitwas
goingtobehi slastal
bum atr
uecoll
ectors
i
tem 
Kl
ein:
"nowcomest
hehar
dpar
t"
 
Nat
ty:
"pr
omot
ingi
t"sheknewt
hismeanthe
wi
l
lbeawayf
rom homeal
ot 
Kl
ein:
"yes"
 
Natty:"
meaningIhavetotakealeaveatwork"
thatwastheagreementifKlei
nrel
easesan
album Natt
ystaysathomeandl ookaft
ert
he
chil
dren 
Klei
n:"wast hi
nki
ngmaybeyoujustresi
gn"he
heldhisbreathandwat
chedNatty'
sfaceasshe
processedwhathewassaying 
Natt
y:"
Sfundof
il
ledy
ourheadwi
tht
his
st
upidi
ty?
" 
Kl
ein:
"don'
tber
udeandno"
 
Nat
ty:"
sor
rydi
dn'
tmeant
ocomeacr
ossas
r
ude" 
Kl
ein:
"al
ri
ght
" 
Nat
ty:"
canIt
hinkabouti
tbabepl
ease?Il
ove
wor
king"
 
Kl
ein:
"justt
hinkabouti
t"hest
oodupf
rom and
t
hecouchandki
ssedher
 
Nat
ty:
"Il
ovey
ouKl
einIl
ovey
ousomuch"
 
Kl
ein:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e" 
Kj:
"mommy !
"Hescr
eamedouti
nther
oom
comingt
othecl
oset
 
Nat
ty:
"yourson"
 
Klei
n:"weneedtogivehi
m ali
tt
lebrot
her"
Natashagi
ggledshehadactual
lybeenthi
nki
ng
abouthavi
nganotherbaby 
Natty:"
yes"Kl
einlookedatherinshockshej ust
walkedoutsway i
ngherhipsKleinbroughthis
bottom l
ipbet
weenhi steet
hwhi l
ewat chi
nghis
sexywifehegroanedasshebendov erpicki
ng
upKj andwishhecoul dhaveherjustl
ikethat
fr
om behind 
Kj
:"mor
ningdaddy
" 
Klei
n:"morni
ngchamp.Whyyouhere?Goto
auntySusansoshecanfeedyoubr
eakfast
beforeIt
akeyoutoschool
"
Kj
:"I
'
m notgoi
ngt
oschool
" 
Nat
ty:
"andwhyi
sthat
?" 
Kj
:"I
'
m si
ck"hef
akedacoughmaki
ngKl
ein
l
augh 
Kl
ein:"
nicetry
"het ookhimf r
om Natt
yand
wal
kedoutgoi ngdownst ai
rsfoundAri
aand
Hai
leyhavingbreakfast
 
Gir
ls:
"morni
ngdaddy
"Kl
eingav
eKj
toSusanso
shecoul
dfeedhi
m 
Kl
ein:
"mor
ningmypr
incesses"
 
Ar
ia:
"daddy
?" 
Klein:
"yesmyangel"hesmil
edsweetl
yathis
gi
r l
sallheneedednowwasonemor eboyt o
balancethi
ngsoutthenhecoul
dbesatisf
ied
witheveryt
hing 
Aria:
"wherei sourothergranny?Lelohasthree
granniesdaddy"Klei
ncl earshi
sthroatnot
knowinghowt oanswert hatquest
ionitwasn't
l
ikehehadn' tbeenthinkingabouthismom and
hiswifehasbeenhint
ingt
hati
taboutti
mehe
forgav
eherthegrudgewasn'
tnecessar
ynow
l
otofy ear
shavepassed 
Hail
ey:"
youknowourgr annywenttoheav
en
Ari
aItol
dyout hatIdon'
tknowwhatyoutryi
ng
todo"hi
sheartbrokeevenfur
ther
 
Nat
ty:"
Hai
leywhotol
dyout
hat
?"Sheasked
get
ti
ngint
hekit
chen 
Hai
ley:
"ittheonl
ythi
ngthatmakessenses
mom.Wehav enevermetgrannyal
lweknow
ar
epictures"
 
Natt
y: "
pleasecometot heof
fi
ceaft
erdroppi
ng
thekidsoffatschoolweneedtotal
k"she
l
ookedatherhusbandt heyhadasil
ent
conversati
onKlei
nsighedandnoddedhehad
beendr eadi
ngthi
stalk 
Klei
n:"
okaymylove"Nat
tyki
ssedtheki
dson
thei
rcheeksbef
oreki
ssi
ngherhusbandandl
eft
forwork
Klei
ngotintheoffi
ceNat t
ygotupf r
om the
chairbehi
ndthedeskandwal kedtothecouch
shekickedoffherheelsandlaidontopofKl
ein.
Thiswashowt heyspokeaboutt hi
ngsnowt hi
s
cl
oset oeachotherfeel
ingeachother'
shear
t
beatsandthehotnessoft hei
rski
ns. 
Natt
y:"Il
ovey
ousomuchKlei
nWither
spoon"
andshemeantthosewor
dsfr
om t
hebottom of
herheart
 
Klei
n:"IknowNat asha.Weloveeachother
deeplythat'
showwe' vemanagedt osurvi
veall
ourtr
ailsandt r
ibul
ati
onsoverthesepastyears.
Wear efinal
lyatahappyplacetheselastfew
year
shav ebeenpurebli
ssbri
ngingKourtback
toourliveswil
ljustcr
eateamess"  
Nat
ty:
"It
hinkshehasl
ear
ntherl
essonIt
rul
y
do"
 
Kl
ein:
"Idon'
tknowbaby
" 
Nat
ty:"
li
fei
sshor
tKl
einwebot
hknowthat
.
For
giv
ehernowwhil
eyoust
il
lhav
eachance"
 
Kl
ein:
"Iwi
l
lcal
lher
" 
Natty:
"cal
lhernow"shesatupmov i
ngfr
om his
bodyhealsosatupandt ookouthi
sphone
dial
i
nghismot her
'snumberhesti
ll
knewitli
ke
thebackofhishand.Itt
ooksometimebefore
sheanswered
Kour
t:"
Klei
n"hi
shear
tski
ppedabeat
 
Kl
ein:
"mot
her
" 
Kour
t:"
ohGod"shest
art
edcr
ying"
Klei
nmyson
i
sthatyou?
" 
Kl
ein:
"yesmot
heri
tme"
 
Kourt
:"Kl
einIam sosor
ryIt
rul
yam.Pl
ease
for
giv
emepl ease" 
Klei
n:"
I'
v efor
giv
enyoumom.Theki dshave
beenaskingaboutyou.NatashaandIhav
e
beentalki
ngwet hi
nkmay beyoushoul
dcome
outhereforadayorsomet hi
ng" 
Kourt:
"Iwouldlovethat
"shesnif
fed"
Iwould
real
l
ylovethat.I'
l
lbethereassoonasIcan"
 
Kl
ein:
"okay
" 
Kourt
:"Il
oveyouKl
einandI'v
emissedy
ou"
Kl
einendedthecal
landlookedathi
swi
fe
Natt
y:"ev
eryt
hingi
sgoingtobej
ustfi
ne"she
openedherarmstheyhel
deachother
.
Me: "wow"heki ssedmycheek.Wewer epull
ing
upatt heHampt onhousewher ewewer egoing
tospendt heremai ningDecemberholidayswith
theWi ther
spoons.I twasthe23wewer egoing
toleaveont he4thofJanuar ysowewer egoing
tohav eChrist
masher easwell ascel
ebrat
e
Lonhle'sbir
thday,SneandVuy aniwer
enot
happyaboutuscel ebrat
ingLonhle'
sbirt
hday
withoutthem butitiswhatitis.
Sfundo:
"itabeaut
if
ulpl
acemaybeIshoul
dget
usaholidayhouseher
einst
eadofl
easi
ng" 
Me:
"It
hinkIwoul
dlov
ethat
" 
Lelo:"Ar
ia!
!"Il
ookedoutthewi
ndowAriawas
standingbythedoorwit
hherparent
sand
si
blings 
Lonhl
e:"
mmhha.a"mysonhatednoi
se.The
carst
oppedweal
lgotoutSf
undowascarry
ing
Lonhl
e 
Me:
"heybabe"
 
Nat
asha:"
hey"wehuggedthenIhuggedKl
ein
t
hekidswereal
readyi
nsi
de 
Me:
"itcol
douther
e" 
Klei
n:"
getint
hefir
epl aceison"weal
lgoti
n
thehouseasthehelperswerebusywi
thour
l
uggage"howwast hef l
ight
" 
Sf
undo: "
longmanLonhl
ekeptusonourt
oes
cr
awlingaroundandt
ryi
ngt
obalanceont
hings
whil
ewalking" 
Kl
ein:
"hei
satt
hatage"
 
Me:
"thi
shousei
samazi
ng"
 
Nat
asha:
"wantat
our
?" 
Me:"please"shehel
dmyhandandwestar
ted
goi
ngar oundthehouse"
howareyouandt
he
baby?"Shesighed 
Natasha:
" Idon'
tevenknowwhyIagreedto
gett
ingpregnantKl
einisal
readyt
reat
ingme
l
ikeanegg"Ismi l
ed 
Me:
"justembr
acei
t"sher
oll
edherey
es 
Natasha:"
Stazzyandhiswif
ear
ecomi ngfor
di
nnertomorrow"StazzywasKl
ein'
sfr
iendhe
st
ay edi
nthecity 
Me:"y
ouendedupgoi
ngt
odogr
ocer
y?"She
nods 
Natasha: "
Klei
nhi
redacheft houghhesai
dhe
spoket oSfundoabouti
t"Ishruggedmy
shoulders 
Me:
"justf
orChr
ist
mas?
" 
Nat
asha:"noshewi
l
lst
artt
omor
rowunt
ilwe
l
eave"Inodded 
Me:"
goodbecauseIam sol
azyt
heseday
s"she
gi
ggl
ed 
Nat
asha:
"may
bewebot
hpr
egnant
" 
Me:"
IdoubtbecauseIjustgotof
fthei
nject
ion
hi
ssper
m can'tbethatquick"
Nat
asha:
"younev
erknow"
 
Me:
"howi
sthesi
tuat
ionwi
thKour
t?"
 
Nat
asha:"
thekidsl
ovehavi
ngherar
oundsowe
t
aki
ngitonestepatti
me" 
.

SfundoandIfini
shedupwithourmeet i
ngwi t
h
theweddingplanner
.Ever
ythi
ngwascomi ng
togetherr
eal
lywell
.Ourweddingwast hree
weeksawayandIwast womont hspregnantwe
wereatav er
yhappypointi
nourl i
vesitl
ike
ever
ythi
ngwascomi
ngt
oget
herr
eal
l
y
amazingl
y.
 
Sfundo:"I
'l
lmeetyoubackathome"Inodded
whilefr
owning.Hewasr eal
lybusyt
hesepast
mont hswitht
hisproj
ecthewaswor ki
ngonin
Tanzaniasohewashar dlyhomebuthemade
ti
mef orimport
antthi
ngs. 
Me:
"wi
l
lyoubehomef
ordi
nner
?" 
Sfundo:"
yes"weki ssedhebr ushedmy
stomachandhel pedmegeti nt hecar"
Ilove
youMr sMkhize"wehadal readywenttot he
courtwit
hourwi tnessesandgot t
enmarried 
Me:"Il
oveyoutoohubby"heki
ssedmy
f
oreheadthencl
osedthedoorIdr
oveof
f.

Ihadst oppedatrobotandwastal
kingtomom
ont hephonewhi chwasconnect
edt othe
Bluetoothabouthergoingt
oJhbfort hefi
nal
fi
tti
ngofherdr ess.Ial
sost
il
lhadtogot oLas
Angel
esf ormyfinalfi
tt
ingwithmybr i
desmaids
andmyf l
owergirls.Whenoutofnowher ethi
s
tr
uckcrashedintomycarwhi chrol
ledover
twi
cebeforeitl
andedoni tsroofIf
eltanot
her
carhi
tmebef oreitwasl i
ght
sout.

[
04/
15,
18:
50]Ron:
Lov
eMeLi
keOnl
yYouCan

I
nser
tfor
tyone.
..
.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

#Nar
rat
ed

Sfundo:"Idon'tcare!
!All
Iknowi st
hatIgave
youandy ourteamsadeadl i
neandf r
om whereI
am standingitlooksli
kethatdeadl
inewon'tbe
met"her oaredf r
ight
eni
ngev er
yoneinthe
boar
droom 
El
ena:"butSf
undoit
"Stevebur
stinthe
boar
droom causi
ngevery
onetolookathi
m 
Sf
undo:
"thehel
lSt
eve?
!" 
St
eve:
"ami
nut
eMrM"
 
Sf
undo:"whati
sit
?It
oldy
ouIdon'
twantt
obe
di
stur
bed" 
Steve:"
itMrsM"t heybot
hwentoutStev
e
l
ookedatSf undof eel
i
ngali
tt
lener
vouswhi
ch
onlyir
ri
tat
edSf undomore 
Sf
undo:
"tal
kman"St
eveshi
ver
edal
i
ttl
e
St
ev e:
"MrsM wasinacaraccident"Sf
undo
st
umbl edbackali
ttl
ehishear
tstar
tedachi
ng
asifsomeonejustputadaggerthr
oughit
 
Sf
undo:"whaty
oumeaninacaracci
dentIj
ust
l
eftherl
i
keanhourago"
 
Stev
e:"
they'
vebeent
ryi
ngtogethol
dofyou.
Yourmotheri
nlawfi
nal
lygott
heoff
ice
number
" 
Sf
undo: "
wherei
sshe?"Hewhisperedast ear
s
st
artedfal
li
ngdownhischeekshequickly
wi
pedt hem "
wherei
smywi fe?!
!"St
evejumped
ali
tt
le
St
eve:
"atnetcar
emhlanga"Sf
undorant
ohi
s
of
fi
cegrabbedhisphoneandcarkey
s

Sfundo:"wher
eismywi f
e"heshoutedscari
ng
therecepti
oni
st.Hehadjustar
ri
vedatthe
hospit
al 
Her
:"si
rpl
easecal
m down"
 
Sf
undo:
"don'
ttel
lmet
ocal
m down"
 
Her
:"Ican'thel
pyoui
fyoudon'
tl
etmehel
pyou.
Whoisy ourwif
e?"
 
Sfundo:"SneguguMkhi
zeshewasi
nacar
accident
" 
Her
:"y
es.Thedoct
orsar
ebusywi
thhersi
rif
y
ouwouldjustwai
tinthewait
ingr
oom whi
l
e
t
heybusyandadoctorwil
lcomespeaktoy
ou"
 
Sf
undo:
"Iwantt
oseeher"Zamar
ushedt
o
Sf
undoassoonasshesawhim 
Zama:"baby
!"SheopenedherarmsSfundogot
i
nthem.Ast i
nyasshelookedcomparedtohow
bi
gSfundoisheactual
lyfel
tali
tt
lecomfor
tin
herar
ms 
Sf
undo:
"mom"
 
Zama:
"itokaybabyshei
sgoi
ngt
obeokay
bot
hherandthebaby"
Sfundo: "I
'
m soscar edIdon'twanttolosemy
wife"hebr okedownbr eakingZama' shear
tshe
hatedi twhenherchi l
drenwer ehurt
ingshe
mighthav enogi v
enbi rtht
oSf undobutshe
wat chedhim growupshet reatedhi
ml i
kehis
ownandi treal
l
ybr okehersoul t
oseehimli
ke
thi
s 
Zama:
"Snei
sst
rongSf
undobel
i
evei
nher
" 
Sfundo:
"whatwi
l
lIsaytoourchi
ldr
en"t
hey
pull
edapar
tzamakissedhi
scheek 
Zama:
"hav
eyouspokent
othedoct
ors?
" 
Sf
undo:
"noIwast
oldt
owai
t"t
heysatdown 
Zama: "
Icall
edev eryone.VuyaniandSnear e
tr
yingtogetairspace.Sihl
eandMar celwere
busywiththeswi mmi nglessonsforthetwins
buttheysaidtheyont heyway .Bri
anjustlef
t
Jhbhewast hereforlunchwi t
hBriannaand
ChanelbeforetheyleftforFrance"
 
Sf
undo:
"okay
.WhataboutSne'
sfami
l
y?"
 
Zama:"herpar
entscall
edmet heyownthethei
r
wayalr
eadylef
t"Sfundonoddedhewas
st
art
ingtofeeldef
eated,hi
sangerandanxi
ety
wasturni
ngint
odef eat
.

Aft
erwhatfel
tli
keal i
fet
imeforSfundowhich
wasact
uall
yal i
tt
leoveranhourthedoctorgot
i
nthewait
ingroom itwasnowf i
ll
edwith
Sf
undo'
sfami
l
y,Sne'
spar
ent
swer
est
il
lont
hei
r
way
Dr
:"SneguguMkhi
ze?
"Sf
undowasal
readyon
hi
sfeet 
Sf
undo:
"I'
m herhusband.I
ssheal
ri
ght
?" 
Dr:"we'
vemanagedherandt hebaby.Wejust
tookherforanmriscanjusttobesur eofhow
thi
ngsare.Shehi
therheadpr et
tybadlywewil
l
knowmor eoncethescanr esult
scomeback
butfornowsheisstabl
ej ustfewbruisesonher
facecutsther
eandthere" 
Sfundo:"
sosheandt
hebabyar
eoutof
danger?
" 
Dr:
"unti
lwegetthescanresul
tswecan'tbe
sur
e"Sfundosatdownfeeli
ngevenmor e
def
eated.Hej
ustwantedtocrawlunderthe
cover
swi t
hhi
swi f
eandsnuggleclosetoher 
Zama:
"thanky
oupl
easekeepuspost
ed"
 
Dr
:"excuseme"t
hedoct
orwal
kedout
 
Sihl
e:"
sheisgoi
ngtobeokaybi
gbr
oyouhear
d
thedoctort
heybot
hokay
" 
Br
ian:
"wher
eist
heot
herdr
iver
?" 
Marcel:
" t
heysaiditwasahi
tandr
unt
het
ruck
dr
iverdidn'
tstop" 
Sfundo:"f
indwhoeverwasdr
ivi
ngthatt
ruck
accessthepubli
ccamerasIwantt
hisperson
found" 
Br
ian:
"letf
ocusonSnef
ir
st"
 
Sfundo:
"Iwil
lfocusonmywi
febutIwantt
hat
sonofabitchfound"
 
Marcel
:"I
'l
lstar
tworki
ngoni
t"hest
oodup
ki
ssedSihl
e'scheekandwal
kedout
.

Iknewj
ustbyhowt hewholepl
acesmeltt
hatI
wasint
hehospital
.Iopenedmyeyesand
l
ookedaroundIwasinasingl
eroom hadt
hings
connectedtomystomacht herewasan
ul
trasoundmachinenexttomeIcoul dheart
he
baby'shear
tbeati
ngjustsoft
ly.Ipr
essedonthe
al
arm, afewsecondslatert
hedooropenedand
anursewalkedin 
Him:"Mr
sMkhizey
ouawake"Inoddedmy
thr
oatwashur
ti
ngIhadsomet
hingaroundmy
neck 
Me:"wat
er"t
hedooropenedSf
undogoti
n
l
ooki
ngli
kehehasageddoublehi
sagehi
s
bear
dhadgrownalot
Sfundo:"baby"Ij
uststar
tedcr
yinghetooklong
str
idescomi ngtome" babyi
tokay"heheldmy
handskissingmyf or
ehead"pl
easedon'tcryyou
hurti
ngme"  
Me:"mythroathur
tsIneedwat
er"t
henur
se
hadalr
eadyleft
 
Sfundo:"
justwaitmylov
e"hecuppedmyface
andgavemeal ongbabyki
ss"I
'
vebeeni
na
neverendingni
ghtmare"
 
Me: "
whydoIhaveal
ltheset
hingsonmy
stomachSf
undo?Whatiswrongwithour
chil
d?" 
Sfundo:"
hej
ustneedsl
it
tlehelpandsome
att
enti
onbutt
hedoctorassuredmehewil
lbe
fi
ne" 
Me:"
Idon'twantt
oloseherSf
undopl
easedo
somet
hing"
Sfundo:
"babyourbabyi
sfi
neHEi
sst
rong"I
rol
ledmyeyes 
Me:
"she"
 
Sfundo:"st
il
lstubbor
nwashopi
ngthatcar
accidentwouldhavegav
eyouachangein
att
itude"
 
Me:
"hey
"hel
aughedki
ssi
ngmyf
orehead
Sfundo:
"I'
m sogladyouupI'
vebeengoingout
ofmymi ndwithworryandt
hekidshaven'
t
st
oppedaskingforyou" 
Me:
"myki
dsSf
undo"t
henur
segoti
n 
Him:
"Igotyouwat
erMr sMkhize"hepoured
someinthegl
assSfundohel
pedmedr inkit
 
Sf
undo:
"ist
hedoct
orst
il
li
n?"
 
Hi
m:"nosi
rbutourni
ghtdoct
orwi
l
l becoming
t
ocheckonMrsMkhizeinafewminutes"
 
Sf
undo:
"okay
"hewal
ksout"
Ilov
eyou"
 
Me:"
I'
m sur
eI'
m ugl
ySfundoIcanf
eel
thathal
f
ofmyfacei
sswoll
en" 
Sfundo:"
Idon'
tloveyoubecauseofyourface
SneguguImeani tanabsol
utel
ygorgeousface
butther
e'smoretoyouthanjustt
hat"
 
Me:"howareyougoi
ngtomar
rymewhenIam
ugl
y"hechuckl
esandpl
ant
sabigf
atwetki
ss
onmycheek 
Sf
undo:
"yousocut
eandext
raatt
imes"
 
Me:
"I'
m notext
ra"
 
Sf
undo:
"weget
ti
ngmar
ri
edi
ntwoweeks"
 
Me:
"justki
ssme"
Itmorni
ngandIwaswokenupbyt inyki
sses
comingfrom t
wodif
fer
entsetofl
ipsIopened
myey esandfoundmychi
ldrenki
ssingmyface 
Lel
o:"
mamam"
 
Lonhle:
"mamamama"hecl
apshi
shead
exci
tedl
y 
Lel
o:"
mommyy
ouawake!
" 
Sfundo:"mor
ningMr
sme"heki
ssesmy
forehead 
Me:
"thanky
ouImi
ssedt
hem"
 
Sf
undo:
"theymi
ssedy
ou"
 
Lel
o:"
gogoandgrannyandbot
hgr
andpaar
eat
homegrannywascryi
ng"
 
Me:
"ohr
eal
l
y?"Shenoddedf
rowni
ng
Lel
o:"
shesai
dshemi
ssesy
ou"
 
Me:
"andwhyar
eyounotatschool
?",
Sf
undo:
"ohoh"
 
Lonhl
e:"
ohoh"wel
aughed 
Lelo:
"Ialsomissedyou"whol
ebunchofpeopl
e
camei ncarr
yingbal
loonsandf
lower
sasifmy
room neededmor e 
Si
hle:
"si
siy
ouup!
" 
Me:
"heyki
d" 
Si
hle:
"I'
m ol
der
"shehuggedme 
Mom:
"Sne"
 
Me:
"I'
mfi
nemom andt
hebabyi
sfi
ne"
 
Sne:"we'
vebeensowor
ri
edSf
undohasn'
tsl
ept
fordays"
 
Dad:
"weal
lhav
en'
tsl
ept
" 
Vuyani
:"Iam sureIhear
dy ousnorewhenI
wentpasty ourr
oom inthemor ni
ng"Marcel
andBri
anl aughedwhil
edadl ookedir
ri
tat
ed
Sne:
"vuy
ani
" 
Vuy
ani
:"mybeaut
if
ulwi
fe"heki
ssedherneck 
Sf
undo:"canthi
sbeaboutmywi
fenot
ev
eryoneelse"
 
Si
hle:
"Iagr
ee"
 
Me:"y
ouguy
sdidn'thavet
ofl
yher
eImeant
he
weddi
ngi
sgoingtohappensoony
ougoi
ngt
o
havet
obehereagain"
 
Vuyani
:"ohwenotcomi
ngtotheweddi
ngI
hav
eani mpor
tantmeet
ingt
hatsameSatur
day
i
nMi l
an" 
Sfundo:
"dad!
"Hesoundedsohur
tIj
ustl
ooked
down 
Sne:"
youtwoar
eal
readymarr
ieditnotabi
g
deal
thatwewil
lmi
ssthewedding"
 
Sf
undo:
"justl
eav
enow"
 
Si
hle:
"cal
m down"
 
Vuyani
:"geesey
ousosensit
ivei
tli
keyout
he
pr
egnantonenotSnegugu.Wejustj
oki
ng"
 
Sne:"
youmynieceSnemor eli
kemydaughter
si
nceyourmotherandIareonepersonof
cour
sewehadt ocomewhenwehear dyouhur
t
andyoumydaughterinlaw"t
heothersl
aughed
whil
eIjustsmi
ledshaki
ngmyhead.
.

#nar
rat
ed

Itwasaweekbef oretheweddingSnehadbeen
dischargedshet hedoct orswer
ehappywith
howshehadr ecoveredbutwest i
l
labit
skepticalaboutthebabyshehadt ogofor
weeklycheckupsunt i
lthedoct
orishappy
.

Sfundogoti nthewarehousewhereMarceland
thei
rfatherswer einwhatl
ookedli
kealounge
dri
nkingandt akingwhil
eAngelaandt
het r
uck
dri
verwer esit
tingatafarcor
nerti
edup
Vuy
ani
:"y
oul
ate"
 
Sf
undo:
"mywifej
ustgotoutoft
hehospi
tal
gi
vemeabreak"
Bri
an:"
shewasoutofthehospit
alt
hreeday
s
backdon'
tgi
veupthatbul
lshi
t"
 
Sf
undo:
"ohhomxm"
 
Marcel:
"canwej ustgett
hisoveranddonewi
th
Si
hleiskeepingmeonat ightl
eashIcan'
tbe
goneforlong"Vuyanil
aughedstandi
ngup 
Vuy
ani
:"sowhati
sit
?" 
Sfundo:
"Ineedt
otalktoher
"hewalkedovert
o
whereAngelawaspull
i
ngachairandsati
n
fr
ontofher 
Angel
a:"
Sfundopl
ease"
 
Sfundo:
"hav
en'ty
oumademesufferenough
Angelawhykil
lmywi
feandki
d" 
Angel
a:"Iwassupposedtocar
ryy
ourchi
ldr
en!
Youpromisedmet haty
ouwill
onl
yhave
childr
enwit
hme.Youkeptont ell
ingmet
owai
t
thatyounotreadyforchi
l
drenandnowshehas
threechi
l
drenwhileIhavenothing" 
Sfundo:"Angel
ayoulef
tmenottheot
herway
aroundyoucheatedandlef
tMeAngelaIwoul
d
haveforgiv
enyouwewoul dhav
eworkedonus
Il
ov eyouthatmuch"
 
Vuy
ani
:"l
ove?
!" 
Br
ian:
"Sneguguwon'
tbepl
eased"
 
Marcel
:"i
ndeedandshel
ooksl
i
ket
hecr
azy
t
ype" 
Sf
undo:"
wil
lyoual
lshutup!Justgi
veusspace
pl
easeandyousoknowthatImeantlov
ed" 
Vuy
ani
:"habewedon'
tknowshi
t"
 
Angela:
" y
oust i
l
llovemeSf undo"Sf
undo
l
ookeddownf eel
ingdrai
ned.Brianl
ookedat
Vuyanitheyshookthei
rheadscommuni cat
ing
wit
htheireyes 
Vuy
ani
:"son"Sf
undost
oodup 
Sfundo:"
leav
eAngelanevercomebackt o
southAfr
icaactual
l
ytoAfri
cajustdisappear
becausenextti
meIseeyouIwi l
lkil
lyouand
yououtofallpeopl
eknowthatIcan"hest ood
up 
Marcel
:"i
fSnefi
ndsoutAngelawasbehi
ndher
get
ti
nginanaccidentandthaty
oul
ethergo
shewil
lhateyouSfundo"
Sfundo:
"mywi
fel
ovesmeandshewon'
tfi
nd
out" 
Bri
an:"l
ett
inghergoisnotagoodideaSfundo"
Sfundoshookhisheadwalki
ngoutVuyanitook
outhisgun 
Vuyani:
"hemi ghtnotbescaredofhi swif
e
l
eavinghim butIam fr
eakingterr
ifi
edofmy
wif
eandSnegugui sherdaughter"heshot
Angelaonherf or
eheadthebulletwentoutthe
backofherheadshedi edsamet i
met henhe
shotthetr
uckdr i
veramultipl
etimes.Thenthey
al
lwalkedout 
Br
ian:
"cl
eant
hatmessup"
 
Guy:"
shoboss"t
hethreeoft
hem goti
nthei
r
car
sanddroveoffgoi
ngthei
rsepar
ateways
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Sfundocamebackhomel ooki
ngdr
ainedhe
couldn'
tev
enent
ertai
nLonhlewhohadranto
hi
m andhuggedhisfeet
 
Me:"
arey
ouokaybaby?"Hehel
dmyhand
maki
ngmestandIcuppedhi
sface"
whati
s
wr
ong?Tal
ktome" 
Sf
undo:
"youknowIl
ovey
our
ight
?" 
Me:
"yesandIl
ovey
ou"
 
Sf
undo:
"Iwoul
dnev
erhur
tyou"
 
Me:
"met
oo"weki
ssed 
Sfundo:"Ilovey ou"hel etgoof fmeand
switchedof fthet vpluggedhi sphonet othe
speakerMaxwel l -prett
ywi ngsstart
edpl ayi
ng.
Hebr oughtmecl oset ohi m wrappi
nghi sarms
aroundmywai stIstoodonmyt oesand
wrappedmi near oundhi sneckwest art
ed
mov ingslowlywhi l
elisteningtotheangelic
voiceofMaxwel l.Hel if
tedmeupast hesong
endedandt ookmeupst ai
rstoourroom 
Me:"
babywi
l
lyoutal
ktomepl
ease"hewas
l
ayi
ngmeonthebed 
Sf
undo: "wor kisstr
essingmebabythingsare
j
ustrefusingt ocomet oget
her
"Iwaslooking
di
rectl
yintohi seyesandIcouldj
usttellhewas
l
yi
ngbutIl etitpassIwasnotint
hemoodof
pr
obinghi m 
Me:"
ever
ythingwi l
lcomet oget
herhubbyyou
wi
ll
see"Ibroughthisfacet ominewekissedhe
t
ookoffmyt -shi
rtandkissedmef r
om my
j
awlinegoingdownmyneckwhi l
emassaging
mybr east
sandpi nchi
ngmyni ppleshe
conti
nuedgoi ngdownunt i
lhereachedmy
stomachhel ookedatitshaki
nghi shead 
Sf
undo:
"Ican'
tbel
i
eveweal
mostl
osthi
m" 
Me:
"shei
sst
il
li
nther
efi
ght
ingt
osur
viv
e" 
Sf
undo:
"Icoul
dn'
tpr
otecthi
m ory
ou"
 
Me:"babyweokaydon'tbeaty
oursel
fupabout
i
t"heputhisheadonmyst omachIheldhi
s
headsinki
ngmyf i
nger
sinhishai
r 
Sf
undo:"Idon'tknowwhatIwoul
dhav
edonei
f
Il
ostoneofy ou" 
Me:
"weher
ebabysodon'
tthi
nkabouti
t"
 
.

Me:"Ican'
tbel
i
eveIagreedtothi
s"Si
hle
gi
ggledandspankedmyassi twasFr
iday.My
weddingwasthefol
lowingdaywehadhadt he
bri
dalshoweryesterdaywiththeelder
sand
todayi
twasbachel oret
teparty.Wehadthe
bri
dalshoweratSfundo'shotel wehadaspa
daythenhadearlydinnerwhereIwasshower ed
withsomanygiftsofwhi chmostwer eli
nger
ie
andsoundingadvice. 
Bri
anna: "
comeonitgoingtobef i
ne"t
helady
putont hebl
ondeshortBrazi
l
ianweaveonmy
headaf t
erdoi
ngmymakeupweal ll
ookedso
di
fferenti
nblonde,
red,bl
ueweav esandheavy
makeupwear i
ngskimpyoutfi
tsandstr
ipper
heels 
Natasha: "
Idon'
tknowabouty ourhusbandsbut
Iknowi fKlei
nwalksthroughthatdoorhewi ll
notbepl easedatal
l"wewer eatt hepenthouse
ofSfundo'shotelwewer egoingtospendt he
nighthereandgetreadyheret hef ol
l
owingday
eventhought heweddingwasgoi ngt otake
placeatBr i
an'
shouse 
Adi
l
ici
a:"
yourhusbandsneedt
ochi
l
l"Ist
il
l
coul
dn'
tgetoverhowgor
geousthi
swoman
wasandheraccentmadeitwor
se 
Me: "
youokaybabe?"IaskedZiy
andashe
giggl
edandcarr
iedonsippingonher
champagne 
Zi
yanda:"
I'
m goodbabej
ustt
hatweal
ll
ookso
di
ff
erent
" 
Me:"
itsucksthatIcan'
tdr
ink.Thi
sbabyi
snot
maki
ngt hi
sfunforme" 
Sihl
e:"
that'
smynieceornephewyoucarr
ying
ther
ewat chwhatyousay
"Iroll
edmyeyes 
Nat
asha:
"I'
m al
sonotdr
inki
ng"
 
Me:
"bi
tchasi
fyouev
erdr
ink"
 
Nat
asha:
"Ican'
tev
enhav
ecoke"
 
Si
hle:
"Isaywecr
asht
heguy
spar
ty"
 
Br
ianna:
"no!
" 
Me:
"youj
ustwantt
ospyonMar
cel
" 
Nat
asha:
"itwoul
dbef
unt
hough"
 
Ziy
anda:
"nahwedoi
ngourownt
hing"Ist
ood
up 
Me:"i
fIfalli
nthere'sshoesther
ewon'tbea
weddingtomorrow"weal ltur
nedandlookedat
theel
evatorasitpingedbeforeopeni
ngandmy
manwal kedoutlookingdangerousl
yhandsome
asalwayshef r
ownedashet ookinhowIlook 
Bri
anna:"
ha.
aha.
aSf
undogoaway
"he
chuckl
ed
Sfundo:"
I'
m hereformywi
fenotyou"he
walkedtomeandhel dmywaist"
Idon'tl
i
ke
yourshoesy ouwi
llbr
eaky
ourneckoreven
worsehurtthebaby" 
Me:
"theymakemyl
egsl
ookl
onger
"hegr
inned 
Sf
undo:
"Iknowev
ensexi
ert
o" 
Me:
"youl
i
ke?
"Heshookhi
shead 
Sfundo:
"tooharmfulchubbycheeksnotonl
y
will
youhurtyour
selfImightendhavingt
okil
l
someonebecausey outoosexallthemenwill
beafteryou"hi
shandswentdownt omyass
"t
hesepant sl
ookl
iket heypai
ntedony oumy
assisall
exposedandmyhi psaswel l
"he
spankedmyassgr abbingitandkissedme
deepl
yImoanedpr essingmybodyhar der
agai
nsthisIfel
thi
ser ecti
on 
Brianna: "
uhm hel
lowesti
l
lintheroom!"It
ri
ed
mov ingbackbutheonlydeepenedthekissand
pickedmeupt heyst
art
edhitt
inghisback
screami ngtoputmedownhedi dwhile
l
aughi ng 
Sf
undo:
"youl
adi
esar
ejeal
ous"
 
Amel ia:"
goawaySf undo"Ismi l
edIlikedAmel i
a
she'ssuchal adyeverythi
ngaboutherscr eams
gracey oucan'tev
ent ellt
hatsheisrelatedto
BriannaIwasr eal
lysurprisedtohearthatshe
andSphef i
ghtIheardhert al
ki
ngtozama
cryingaboutthem havingt omoveagai n
becauseofSphe' sjob 
Br
ianna:
"tel
lhi
m"Si
hlepushedhi
m al
ltheway
t
otheel
evat
or
Sfundo:"
Ilov
eyoumyqueen!
!Tomorr
owityou
andI"thewayhesai
ditmademycheeksheat
up
Me:"Il
oveyou"hegoti
ntheel
evat
orIj
ust
si
ghedhappil
yasitcl
osed 
Ziy
anda:"hhelookathowredyourcheeksar
e!"
TheylaughedwhileIcov
eredmyfacewi t
hmy
handsgiggli
ng 
Me:
"shutupZi
yanda"
 
Si
hle:"
Iser
iousl
yhopey ouwi
l
lnev
erhur
tmy
br
otherSnehelovesyou"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
mtoo"

West art
edatt herest
aurantatthehotel
for
dinneranddr i
nksbefor
ewel eftfort
heclub.I
watchedt hesewhoresgetti
ngfuckedupasi fi
t
theirpar
ty. 
.

Mom:"youlooksobeauti
fulSnegugu"Inodded
whi
let
ryingtost
opmyt earsfrom f
all
ingshe
wasal
readycryi
ng 
Me: "thanky oumom"Il ookedoutt hewindow
mymanwasal r
eadyst andi ngattheendoft he
aisl
edr essedi nabl ackt uxedowi thawhite
shirtandal avendert ie.Nextt ohimisBrandon
hisbestmant heni tthegr oomsmenKl ei
n,
Mar celandSi pho.Mymai dofhonorwas
Ziyandaandmybr idesmai dswer eNat
asha,
SihleandBr iannat heywer ewear i
ngstr
apless
mer mai dl
av enderdr esseswi thlacebackand
theirweav esleftlose.Themat ri
mony
ceremonywasi nt hegar dent hathadt
hev i
ew
oftheseat hesetupwassi mpleandbeautiful
.
 
Me:
"pl
easegi
vemeamoment
" 
Natasha:
"don'
ttakel
ong"theyal
lwalkedoutI
satdowntouchi
ngmyst omach.Ihadsomany
mixedemot ionsbutIwasmost lyexci
tedand
happycouldn'twait
.Afterf
ewmi nutesthedoor
openedIlookedatitexpecti
ngmyf at
her
becausethebr i
desmaidshadal r
eadywent
downt heaislebuti
twasLut hando
Lut
hando:
"hey
"Ist
oodup 
Me:
"hey
"hel
ockedt
hedoorandcamecl
oser
t
ome 
Lut
hando:
"soy
our
eal
l
ymar
ryi
ngt
hisi
diot
?" 
Me: "
Lut
hando"hegroaned.Onl
ymypar ents
andSfundo'spar
ent
sknewwehadgot ten
marri
edalreadywel
laswellasBrandonand
Ziy
anda
Lut
hando:
"areyousur
eaboutt his?
"Heci
rcl
ed
hi
sarmsaroundmywai stbr
ingingmybody
cl
osert
ohis 
Me:
"don'
tpl
ease"
 
Lut
hando:
"wel
oveeachot
her
" 
Me:
"I'
venev
erquest
ionedt
hat
" 
Luthando:"t
henwhatar
ey oudoi
ngmar
ryi
ng
thi
sf ool
?"Ishookmyhead 
Me:
"don'
tdot
hisLut
handoy
oumybr
other
" 
Luthando:"
let'
sgetawayf rom her
e.Go
somewher ewher enobodyknowsusst art
afr
eshwi t
hourki ds"hecaughtmyt ear
swith
hi
st humb"justusbabywecoul dhaveour
happil
yeverafteryourfai
rytal
eending"
 
Me:
"Lut
handono"
 
Luthando:
"fuckt
hatwer
elat
edSnenot
hingi
s
stoppi
ngusandnocanstopus"
 
Me:
"Namhl
a" 
Luthando:"
youknowi ty
ouIlov
ejustl
i
keyou
l
ov emewej ustset
tl
ingwit
hNamhlaand
Sfundo" 
Me:"Ican'
tdot
hisLut
handoi
tnotr
ighty
oumy
br
other" 
Lut
hando:"
wecanjustfor
getaboutt
hat
.Sne
pl
easeIcan'
ttakei
tany
mor eIl
oveyouIcan'
t
handlet
hishurtany more.Havi
ngtopret
end
thatIam happyIjustcan'tI
'
m ashel
lwit
hout
you"someonest art
edknockingonthedoor
 
Dad:
"Snei
tti
me"
 
Lut
hando:"
please"Il
ookedatt
hedoort
henat
hi
m" Il
oveyouSne" 
Dad:
"Sf
undoi
sget
ti
nganx
iouscomeonSne"
 
Me: "
howar ewegoingtodot hi
s?"Hebrushed
hi
sl i
psonmi nebef
or epull
ingmybot t
om li
p
betweenhiswestartedkissingslowl
yshutti
ng
outever
ythi
ng
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Ipushedhi
m backshaki
ngmyhead 
Me:
"damni
tLut
hando!Don'
tpl
aywi
thmy
emot
ionsl
i
ket
his"
Lut
hando:
"Il
ovey
ouSne"
 
Me:"
andIlov
eyoubutthati
sov
er.I
'minl
ove
wi
thSfundoi
thi
mthatIam mar
ryi
ng" 
Lut
hando:
"onl
yIcanl
ovel
i
ket
his"
 
Me:"andonlyhecanlovemel ikehedoes.You
bot
hdi f
fer
entandIlovethat
.Ilovehim
Lut
handoIam mar r
yinghim Idon'
twanttohurt
hi
m hehasbeenhur tenoughIcan'taddtoit
.I
l
ovehim Ireal
l
ydohemakesmesohappy "
 
Lut
hando:
"wel
oveeachot
her
" 
Me: "
wheny ouhady ourtradit
ionalweddi
ng
Luthandodidn'tyouthi
nkabouthowmuchy ou
l
ov emet hen"helookeddown" t
hat'
sthething
withyou!Itnotthatyoulovemesomuchy ou
j
ustdon'twantt oseememar rySfundowell
toughbecauseIam mar ryinghiminfactI'
ve
alr
eadymar ri
edhi m"
 
Lut
hando:
"whaty
oumean?
"BynowIcoul
d
hearmom'svoi
ceaswellast
hepl
anner
'son
theot
hersi
deofthedoor
 
Me:"Lut
handogoI
'
m al
readyl
ate"Iwentt
o
openthedoor
 
Dad:
"whatt
hehelli
sgoi
ngon?"Lut
hando
cl
ear
edhist
hroatandwal
kedt
owardsthedoor
 
Mom: "
wi pey
ourlipsLuthandoandwewi ll
tal
k
aboutt
hislat
er"shelookedattheplanner"
can
yougetthemakeupguyupher "shenodded
andwalkedaway  
Dad:"
Ican'
tbel
iev
ey out
wowoul
ddothis!I
don'
tevenknowwhattodoIf
eel
beat
ingthe
shi
toutofyouboth"
 
Lut
hando:"
mxm"hewal
kedawaydadl
ookedat
meIlookeddown

Sfundobr
eathedoutasIwalkedouthelooked
sohandsomeZonkewassingi ngsof
tl
yasI
st
artedwal
ki
ngdownt heaisl
e. 
Sfundo:"
hi"Ismil
edheshookdad'
shandthen
tookmyar m wewenttotheal
tar"
youl
ookso
gorgeousmyl ov
e" 
Me: "sodoy ou"t hepr iestcl earedhi st hroatI
giggledasSf undowi nkedatmeSf undo:
"chubbycheeks"hehel dmyhandsi twast i
me
forthev ows" Inev erthoughtIwoul dbeher ei n
frontofourf ami l
iesandf r
iendsr eadyt ot akea
wi f
er eadyt omakey oumywi febutJesus
Chr i
stI'venev erbeensohappysoi nl ov e.Ev ery
momentIspendwi t
hy oui sj ustfil
ledwi thbl i
ss
Ilovey ouIl ov eourchi ldrenal lthreeoft hem
andI '
lllovet heonest hatwewi llhav einf utur e"
Igaspedmaki nghi m chuckl e" yesmyl ov ey ou
stil
lgoingt ogi vememor echi ldren"Ishookmy
headev eryonel aughed" Ivowt omakey out he
happi est,mostl ov ed,mostpr otected, most
spoilt,mostcar edf orwomanI '
mt hewhol e
universe.Iv owt omakey ouandourchi ldrenmy
fir
stpr i
or i
ty.Iv owt obef ait
hf ultoy ouandour
l
ov eal way sandf orever.Iv owt ofi
ghtf ory ou,
tofightandpushf oryourdr
eamstocomet rue,
toensur ethatyouworktobethebestyouthat
youcanpossi blybe.Iwil
ll
oveyouevenwhen
wef ighti
ngev enwhenIam notl
iki
ngyouat
thatMonetIwi l
lst
il
ll
oveyou.Il
oveyouMrs
Mkhi ze"hecuppedmyf acethepri
estcl
ear
ed
histhroat
Pr
iest
:"noty
et"Igi
ggl
edasSf
undogr
oaned
Me:
"myki
ngy
ouser
iousl
yrai
sedt
hebar
" 
Sf
undo:
"Ial
way
sdo"Ir
oll
edmyey
es 
Me:"asIwassayi
ngbefor
ey ourudel
y
i
nter
ruptedmeMrMkhizeIloveyouSfundoI
l
ovey ousomuch.Youseeevery
thingthatyou
sai
dtomeIam say i
ngbacktoyou"wel aughed
Sf
undo:
"soor
igi
nal
Mrsme"
 
Me: "
onaser i
ousnote.Ivowtoloveyoualways
andforever
,tofi
ghtforyouforourl
ove,tobe
fai
thf
ultoyouuntil
theendsoft i
me.Iwilll
ove
youandpushy outoachieveally
ourdreams
anddesir
es.Iwi
ll
obeyy oubutIwi
l
lnotsubmi
t
toyou"herai
sedhisey
ebrow 
Sf
undo:
"ist
hatso"
 
Me:"don'ti
nterr
uptme.Iwil
lensuret hatour
homei salwayswarm andfi
ll
edwi t
hl ove.I
mightnothav easmuchmoneyasy oudobutI
haveothermeansofensuringthatyouar et he
mostspoi l
tman"Iwinkedathim hebi this
bott
om li
pshaki nghi
sheadli
ghtly"Iwi l
lprotect
youandourchi l
drenwit
hallmymi ghtbabyI
l
ovey ou"
 
Pr
iest
:"whatmorecanIsaybesi
dest
hatInow
pr
onounceyouMrandMr sSfundoMkhi
zeyou
maykissyourbr
ide"
 
Sfundo:"aboutf
ucki
ngt
ime"hecuppedmyface
andkissedmedeeplyasourfami
lyandf
ri
ends
cl
apped

Nat
asha:
"sot
ell
mewhywer
eyoul
ate?
"We
wereintheguestr
oom t
hatwewer
eusi
ng
changi
nginSfundo'
shotel
wher
ewewere
goingtohavether
ecept
ion
Me:"wewillt
alklaterbabe"shel
ookedatme
wi
tharaisedeyebr owsodidZiyanda"gir
lfi
xmy
dr
ess"shelaughedandhel pedmeout .Iwas
wear
ingalightlavenderbodyhuggingdress
wi
thatrail
 
Sihl
e:"
youl
ooksobeaut
if
ulsi
s"sheki
ssedmy
cheek 
Me:
"thanky
ousi
s.Youal
ll
ookbeaut
if
ul"
 
Br
ianna:
"weknow"
 
Me:
"besi
desy
ouBr
ianna"
 
Br
ianna:
"youwi
sh"shest
uckhert
ongueout
 
Me:
"si
l
lychi
l
d" 
Ziy
anda:
"soyour
eal
l
ynotgoi
ngony
our
honey
moon" 
Si
hle:
"herchi
l
disst
il
li
ndangerwhatdoy
ou
expect
"shesnapped 
Me:
"si
hle"
 
Ziyanda:"itokay"Sihl
eroll
edherey es.
someoneknockedt hedooropenedi twasthe
pl
anner .Shet ol
dusev eryoneiswaiti
ngforus
soweal lwalkedoutmett heguys.Wewal ked
i
nt hehall Ij
ustlookedaroundinawe,
everyt
hingwasj ustbeauti
ful
lydecorat
editwas
al
lwhi t
ewi t
hat ouchoflavender
Sf
undo:
"doesi
tmeety
ourexpect
ati
ons?
" 
Me:"
itabsol
utel
ybeaut
if
ulmyl
ove"heki
ssed
mycheek

Sfundo:"
youlookedsobeaut
if
ulyousti
ll
beauti
ful
"wewer ei
ncapetownathishotel
.We
weregoingtospendfewdayshereandleav
ea
daybeforeIhadtogotothehospi
talf
ormy
checkup 
Me:
"thanky
ou.Hel
pmeoutoft
hissoIcan
shower
" 
Sf
undo:
"canIj
oiny
ou?
" 
Me: "no"heunzi ppedmydr esssl owlywhi l
e
grazingmyski nwithhisfingers.Igotoutoft he
dressandwal kedt ot
hebat hroom.Tooka
quickshower .Ihadgot tenawaxy esterdayat
thespa.Hewentt oshowerwhi leIgotdr essed.
Iloti
onedmybodywi thbabyoi l t
henst arted
getti
ngdr essed.Iputat hongt henacor set
foll
owedbyst ockingandagar terbelt,Ibrushed
myweav ethenbentasIwasput tingonmy
heelsbutIf el
thim standingbehi ndpr essinghis
erectiononmyass 
Sf
undo:
"leav
ethem"
 
Me:"j
usti
maginehowi twil
lbewheny oumake
l
ovetomewi t
hthem aroundyourneck"he
cl
ear
edhisthr
oatIstoodupandt urnedtoface
hi
m hewascompletelynakedwithhisdick
st
andingf
ir
mlyIswallowedspitasIlookedati
t 
Sf
undo:
"yousosexy
"hewal
kedar
oundme
l
ookingatme"
fuck"hebr
eat
hedinmyneckmy
bodyshookal
i
ttl
e.Heranhi
sfi
nger
supmy
arm sl
owly
 
Me:
"baby
" 
Sfundo:
"Idon'tevenknowwher
etostart
ki
ssingortouchingwhenyoul
ookli
kethi
s"I
ti
l
tedmyheadexposi ngmyneck 
Me:"st
arther
epl
ease"Iwhi
speredbot
hhis
handswentdownmysidesunti
lhegottomy
ass 
Sfundo:"
Ilov
ethi
s.Myfavori
tepar
tofyour
bodysoexposed"Icoul
dfeelt
hepoolbetween
myl egsj
ustbyhi
sbreat
honmybodyandhi s
handstouchi
ngme 
Me:
"babypl
ease"
 
Sf
undo:
"ar
eyoubeggi
ngMr
sMkhi
ze"
 
Me:"y
es"Isnappedmaki
nghi
m chuckl
ehe
l
if
tedmeup 
Sf
undo:
"soi
mpat
ient
"hewal
kedov
ert
othe
bedandputmeoni tIopenedmyl
egswi
de
gi
vinghi
m al
ltheaccess..
..
.
2y
ear
slat
er

Iwoul dbel yi
ngi fIsai ditbeeneasyori tbeen
hardbutwe' v
ebeenhol dingonandf ight ing.
Ourki dsaregr ownSf undogott hatsecondson
hewant edwenamedhi m Enzokuhl e
PhilasandeMkhi ze.Hei sar eplicaofLonhl eso
theybot hlookl i
ket heirfatherj ustmor el i
ght
skinned.Leloisst illtheprincessoft hef ami l
y
overlyspoiltbybot hLut handoandSf undo.
Sfundof oundoutt hatLut handoandIki ssedon
ourweddi ngdayhel osthi scool andf ucked
Luthandouphesul kedforaweeknott alkingto
meandsl eepingi nt heguestr oom.Af terEnzo' s
fi
rstbirt
hdaypar tywef i
nallywentt oour
honey moon.Wespentaweeki nPar i
sanot her
i
nRomet henanot herinMi lanl astlywewentt o
hisresortinTanzaniaitwasmyf ir
sttimether
e
Icouldn'tgowhent heywerelaunchingit
becauseIwasheav il
ypregnanttheplaceis
absolutelybeaut
if
ul.

Enzo:"
nomama!!"Thatwashisfav
ori
tewor
d
'
no'andhecoul
dnev ernotbel
oud 
Me:"babyyouhavetoeat"Iwast
ryi
ngt
ofeed
hi
m hisoatwhichhehated 
Enzo:
"dada!
" 
Me:"y
ourdadawon'tgetyououtofeating
br
eakfastsmartman"Nondulaughed.Shewas
st
il
lwithustheki
dslovedherandIlovedher
 
Nondu:
"eatEnzo"
Enzo:
"dada!
!"
 
Me:
"dadai
satwor
k" 
Lonhl
e:"
Enzoeaty
ourbr
eakf
astl
ookI
'
m eat
ing
mine"
Enzo:
"no!
!"Ihuf
fed 
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"Hesmi
l
ed 
Enzo:
"cocosmama"wel
aughed 
Lonhl
e:"
no"
 
Enzo:"
shushhhl
oh"hepr
essedhi
sfi
ngeronhi
s
l
ips 
Me:"
eatthi
sthenyouwill
havecocosf
orl
unch"
hef
rownedhisli
psstar
tedtr
embli
ng
Lonhle:
"her
ewego"andoncueEnzost
art
ed
wail
ingasifsomeonedi
ed 
Sf
undo:"
thehel
lbaby"hegoti
nthekit
chen
dr
oppedhismessengerbagonthef
loor 
Lonhl
e:"
hedoesn'
twantt
oeatdaddy
" 
Enzo:
"dada!
!!
"Sf
undot
ookhi
m"cocos"
 
Sf
undo:
"gi
vehi
m whathewant
" 
Me:
"youbackear
ly"
 
Sf
undo:
"meet
inggotcancel
l
ed.I
tokayBi
gboy
don'
tcr
y"hewasbr
ushi
ngEnzo'
sback 
Enzo:
"cocosdada"
 
Sf
undo:
"justgi
vehi
m babypl
ease"Igr
oaned
Me:"
okay!Nondupleasemakesomeforhi
mI'
l
l
cl
eanuphereSfundowill
feedhi
m" 
Nondu:
"okay
" 
Sfundo:"
hav eyoucalledlel
o?"School
swere
closedsoshewasspendi ngaweeki nJhbwi
th
Luthandoandhersi st
er.LuthandoandNamhla
brokeupappar ent
lytheywer ebot
hnothappyi
n
theirmarr
iage.Namhl ablamedmef orher
fail
edmarriageshecal l
edmeonceswear i
ngat
me, shehatesme. 
Me:
"Iwi
l
lcal
lherwhenI
'
m doneher
e.Why
?" 
Sf
undo:
"Imi
ssmypr
incess"
 
Me:
"shame"Iki
ssedhi
scheek 
Sfundo:"
Ilov
eyou"hel
i
ftedmychi
nweki
ssed
short
ly
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oohubby
"
[
04/
15,
18:
54]Ron:
Inser
tfor
tyf
our.
..
..
.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Icall
edLuthandowhenIwasthegateofhis
estat
e.HeopenedthegateIdrov
ein,whenI
gottothegateofhi
shouseIrangtheint
ercom
thegateopenedIdrov
eupthedriveway.The
dooropenedasIwasgetti
ngoutofthecarLelo
andLunathigotout
 
Lel
o:"
mommy
" 
Lunathi
:"hel
l
oaunt
y"Ipi
ckedherupand
huggedLelo 
Me:
"hel
l
ogi
rl
s" 
Lunat
hi:
"daddyi
sint
hebackwi
thmommy
" 
Me:"ohyeah?"Lelonodded.Wegoti
nthe
housegoingstr
aighttotheback"
hel
l
o" 
Lut
hando:
"hey
" 
Namhl
a:"mxm.Comebabyl
et'
sgo"Iputl
unat
hi
downsherant
ohermom 
Lunat
hi:
"ar
ewegoi
nghomenow"
 
Namhl a:"
yesbaby.Saybyetoyoursist
erI
'l
lgo
getyourbagsfrom yourr
oom"lunathir
anto
Lel
ot heyhuggedasNamhl awalkedout 
Lut
hando:
"comehugdaddy
" 
Lel
o:"
Iwi
l
lmi
ssy
ouNat
hy"
 
Lunat
hi:
"canIv
isi
tyousi
siy
?"Lel
olookedat
me 
Me:
"ofcour
sey
oucancomev
isi
tbaby
" 
Lunat
hi:"
canIgonowdaddy
?Pl
easepr
ett
y
pl
ease" 
Lut
hando:
"letmegospeakt
oyourmot
her
" 
Lunat
hi:
"mommywi
l
lnev
eragr
ee"shesounded
sosad 
Luthando:"
waither
e"Lut
handowenti
nthe
houseafterf
ewmi nut
esIhear
dshout
ing 
Me:
"wai
ther
e"Iwenti
n 
Namhla:"
mydaught
erwi
l
lnotgot
othatwi
tch'
s
houseLut
hando"
 
Me:
"guessI
'
mthewi
tch"
 
Lut
hando:
"Isai
dwai
tout
sideSne"
 
Me:"
Iwoul dneverhur
tLut
hando'
sdaught
er,
my
ownniece.Il
oveher" 
Namhl
a:"
shei
snotgoi
ng"
 
Me: "
pleaset
here'
sst
il
ltwoweeksl
eftbef
ore
schoolsopenshewil
lj
ustspendaf
ewday s
withusinDurban"
 
Luthando:"
excuseuspleaseSne"Iwalked
upstai
rsandgotlel
o'sbagswenttoputt hem i
n
thecar.Namhlawalkedoutwit
hlunathi'
sbags
thr
ewt hem i
nthecarIwasusing 
Namhla:"
ifmychi
ldevendr
opsasingl
etear
SneguguIwil
lwi
pethefl
oorwi
thyourf
atass" 
Me:
"Oookay
" 
Namhl
a:"
I'
m ser
iousSne"
Me:"r
elax"Iwenti
nthehouseasshedr
oveout
"
gir
lsl
etgo"  
Lut
hando:
"pl
anet
icket
?" 
Me:
"jet
"hesmi
l
ed
Lut
hando:
"mustbeni
cet
obemar
ri
edr
ich"
 
Me:
"what
ever
" 
Lut
hando:"
gobeforeyourhusbandstar
ts
cal
l
ingorevenworsecominghere" 
Me:"shutupLuthando"hewalkedusoutand
huggedhisgir
lsgiv
ingthem babyki
sses.We
gotinthecar"
okaybabiesbuckleup"
 
Them:
"okay
"Idr
oveof
f

Me:"babywehome!!
"Iscreamedaswegotin
"
lel
otakeyourbagsupst
airsputl
unat
hi'
sint
he
r
oom nexttoyour
s" 
Lel
o:"
okay
" 
Me: "
baby!
"Iwentaroundlookingforhi
m.
Foundhim wi
ththeboysplayingcarsinthe
tenni
scourt"
I'
vebeenlookingforyou" 
Sfundo:
"sorr
ybaby"Ibentdownandkissed
hi
m" weplayi
ngEnzoishav i
ngt
roubl
ewi t
h
ri
dingonhisown" 
Me:"
heissti
l
lababySf
undoputhi
mint
hecar
wi
thLonhl
e" 
Sf
undo:
"wher
eismypr
incess?
"
Me:
"inthehousewi
thhersi
ster
"hel
ookedat
megri
nning 
Sf
undo:"Namhl
alety
out
akeherdaught
er?
"We
l
aughed
Me:"wel
ll
unat
hiwant
edt
ocome"hepi
ckedup
Enzo 
Enzo:
"mamam"
 
Me:
"comebi
gboy
" 
Enzo:
"no!
!"Sf
undol
aughed
Me:"
notfunny.CometomommyLonhl e"her
an
t
omeIpi ckedhim up"
let
'sgohav
ecocos
l
onhl
e" 
Enzo:
"mamam t
yake"
 
Me:
"no"hest
art
edcr
yingIl
eftt
hem l
i
ket
hat
 
Lonhle:"butmommyIdon'
twantcocos"I
chuckled 
Me:"
okaybaby
"Iputhi
m down"
runal
ongLel
o
i
sback"
Sf
undo:"y
oulikei
twhenmysoni
scr
ying"Enzo
wassti
l
lcryi
ng 
Me:"yoursoni
salway
scr y
ing.I
'
llmakesome
cocos"Iwentt
otheki
tchen"wherei
sNondu?"
 
Sfundo:"
int
hecottageIt
hink.Feedhi
m Iwant
tocheckonlel
o" 
Me:"okay
"heputEnzoont
hehi
ghchai
rand
l
eft
 
Enzo:
"mamam"
 
Me:
"babyEnzo"hest
art
edbl
abber
ing

Sfundo:"
Ihaveasurpr
iseforyou"wewerein
bedcuddli
ngwhilewat
chingabl ackandwhi
te
mov i
ethekidswereal
readyinbed 
Me:
"whati
sit
?Ihav
eev
ery
thi
ngIneed"
 
Sf
undo:
"itsomet
hingwe'
vebeent
alki
ngabout
" 
Me:"y
ouboughtmeani
sland"hel
aughedand
ki
ssedmyhead 
Sf
undo:
"weal
readyhav
eani
sland"
 
Me:
"wehav
eev
ery
thi
ng"
Sf
undo:
"babyy
ougoi
ngt
olov
ethi
s" 
Me:"Il
oveitwheny ouspendmoneyonmebut
notwhenitunnecessar
y" 
Sfundo:"
oohthi
sisnecessar
ymyl
oveso
necessar
y" 
Me:
"yousoundexci
ted"
 
Sfundo:"
Iam andner
vousaswel
l
.Hopey
ou
l
ikeit"
 
Me:
"whenwi
l
lIgeti
t?"
 
Sf
undo:
"tomor
row"
 
Me:"nowI'
m exci
ted.I
sitj
ewel
ry?Ihav
e
enoughoft
hat" 
Sf
undo:
"itbet
ter
" 
Me:
"bet
tert
handi
amonds?
!" 
Sf
undo:
"waybet
ter
" 
Me:
"weshal
lseeMr
" 
.

Igetdownstair
sfi
ndthetvonmyf avor
it
esong
i
splayingSfundoi
sinthekit
chenreadi
ng
somethingonhisi
Padwhi l
ehavi
ngcoffeeI
star
tedsingi
ngoutloudwhil
ewalki
ngtohim 
Me:"I
'm morethanj
ustanumberheyheyheyI
doubtyou'
l
lfi
ndanotherheyheyheysoev
ery
singl
esummerI 'l
lbetheonet hatyou
rememberandIbet terfindyourlov i
nIbett
er
fi
ndy ourheartIbetterfi
ndy ourlovinIbett
er
fi
ndy ourheartIbetterfi
ndy ourlovinIbett
er
fi
ndy ourIbetterfi
ndital lmylovenot hi
ngis
gonnat earusapar t
"Istoodi nfrontofhim wi
th
myasspr essi
ngonhi sdi ckandst art
ed
shaki
ngmyasst werking 
Lelo:"
mommyno! !
"Istoppedandl aughed
al
ongwi thLel
oandl unathi
Sf undokept
adjust
inghissweatpantstr
yingtohidehis
erecti
on
Sf
undo:"I
'
llbeupst
air
s"her
ushedoutt
he
ki
tchen
Lel
o:"
isdaddyokaymom?
" 
Me: "y
esbabyhej
ustneedstopee"Ipi
cked
them bot
hupputthem ont
hecounter"
okay
cereal
s.Whatdoy
ouwant ?"
 
Lunat
hi:
"cor
nfl
akes"
 
Lel
o:"
oatswit
hraspber
ri
es"Imadethem t
hei
r
cer
ealNondugoti
ncarryi
ngEnzo 
Me:
"Lonhl
eisst
il
lasl
eep?
" 
Nondu:
"yep"Sf
undocamebackgr
inni
ngl
i
kea
f
ool 
Me:
"whatdi
dyoudo?
" 
Sf
undo:
"yououtoft
issueoi
l
" 
Me:"ewuuSf
undogr
oss"Ishov
edof
fhi
m
l
ight
ly
Sf
undo:
"whatwasIsupposedt
odo?
" 
Me: "
JesusChri
stthi
sman"hekissedmyhead
andtri
edholdi
ngmywaist"don'
ttouchmewit
h
thi
shandsyoudirt
yman"helaughed
Sf
undo:
"woow!Somuchl
ovef
orabl
ackman"
 
Me: "na.
amynigga"hescopedmeup" Sfundo!
!"
Her anoutoft
hekitchenl
eavi
ngthegi
rlsinafi
t
oflaughter
.Helai
dmeont hecouchandgoton
topofme 
Sf
undo:
"mywi
fe"Ihel
dhi
shead 
Me:
"hi
"weki
ssed

Me: "baby
"Ilookedathimi ndisbel
iefwewere
atzimbali"y
ouboughtusahouse? "Ilookedat
thismansioninfrontofust hehousewashuge
andamazi ngfrom thefrontint
hemi ddl
eofthe
drivewaystoodaf ishpond.Wet ookthestai
rs
goingupt othemai ndoorheunlockedt he
glassdoorthensliditopen
Sfundo:
"welcomet oournewhome"wewal ked
i
n, t
hefi
rstf
loorwasal l
glassandemptyitwas
hugeopenar eabutthekit
chenhadpr
ivacy 
Me:"wow"west eppedout.Ithadanamazi
ng
vi
ewoft hebeach.Nextt
ot hehugepoolwasa
j
acuzziandabraaiarea 
Sfundo:
"let
'
sgoup"Ifol
l
owedhimthesecond
fl
oorhad6ensui
tedbedrooms,
twoext
ra
roomsonewasgoingtobeaplayr
oom andthe
otherstudy/li
baryfortheki
ds.Thethir
df l
oor
had7ensui t
edbedr ooms,ahomeof fi
cefor
hi
m, aroom hewant edtoturni
ntoagy m.The
mast erbedroom hadav iewofthetenniscour
t,
basketballcourtandami nipl
aypark.Thewalk
i
ncl osetwast wicethesizeofthehousein
mhlanga 
Me:"babyt
hisi
stoomucht
her
e'sonl
yfi
veof
us"
 
Sfundo:"
there'
smyparentsandy ourparent
s
pluswehav efr
iendswhoalway shavetostayi
n
thehotel
whent heyvi
sitbecauseourhouse
i
sn'tbi
genough"  
Me:"Idon'
tknowSf undoi
ttoohugeIfeel
uncomfortabl
e"heheldmywaistbr
ingi
ngmy
bodytohis 
Sf
undo:
"youdon'
tl
ikei
t?"Hesoundedsad 
Me:
"Il
i
kei
tbabyguessIwi
l
lgetusedt
oit
" 
Sf
undo:
"youwi
l
l.Youcangeti
ntouchwi
than
i
nter
iordesi
gnerandst
artmaki
ngi
tahome"
 
Me:
"okay"hel
i
ftedmeupandpr
essedmeon
t
hewall
 
Sf
undo:"whaty
ousaywemar kourbedr
oom"I
wrappedmyarmsaroundhi
sneckandkissed
hi
m deepl
y

Wehadj ustfi
nishedeati
ngdi
nnerSfundowas
wat chingt vwit
ht heki
dswhil
eIwasl oadingt
he
dishesi nthedishwasherwhentheintercom
rangi twasZi yanda
Me:
"sup"
 
Zi
yanda:
"bi
tchopent
hegat
e" 
Me:"whatyoudoinginmyhousesol at
e?"She
showedmehermi ddl
efingerIopenedthegat
e
l
aughing.Fewminuteslatershegotint
he
house 
Lel
o:"
hel
l
oaunt
yZee"
 
Ziy
anda:"hel
l
obabi es"sheki
ssedal
lthei
rhead
andhuggedSf undobeforecomingt
othe
ki
tchen 
Me:
"hey
"wehugged"
what
'
swr
ong?
" 
Zi
yanda:
"not
hing"
 
Me:"t
henwhyyouheresolat
e?"Shesi
ghed
andsatont
hehighchai
r 
Zi
yanda:
"Iwantt
otal
ktoy
ou"
 
Me:
"letmef
ini
shupher
e" 
Zi
yanda:
"okayr
edorwhi
te?
" 
Me:"red"shewentovert
othecell
arandgota
bot
tl
eofwi nepouredsomeofus.Ifi
nishedup
andjoinedherov
erthecount
er 
Zi
yanda:
"don'
that
eme"
 
Me:
"tal
ktome"
 
Zi
yanda:
"soI
'
vebeenseei
ngt
hisguy
" 
Me:
"ni
ce"shegavemeat i
ghtsmi
le"hei
snot
mar
ri
edri
ght?JesusZi
yandayoucan'
tgoback
t
obei
ngasi
dechi
ck"
 
Zi
yanda:
"I'
m not
.Gi
vemesomecr
edi
t"
 
Me:
"wel
ltal
ktome"
 
Ziy
anda:"
pleasedon'
that
emei tst
art
edoff
l
ightl
ywhenIwasi nJhbf
orconfer
ence"
 
Me:"
Irememberthatwasl
i
ke8mont
hsback.
..
wai
tjhb?
"Shenodded 
Ziyanda:"i
tst
artedoffasjustsexbutthemore
wespentt imetogetherthemor ewereal
ised
thatitmorethanjustsex"Ifel
tli
keIwas
suffocat
ing"weloveeachot herSneandwe
don'twanttosneakar oundanymore" 
Me:"
you'v
egottobef
ucki
ngki
ddi
ngmer
ight
nowZiy
anda!
" 
Zi
yanda:"Il
ovehi
m andhemakesmesohappy
I
'v
enev erbeent
hishappy
" 
Me:"
haveyoual
way
shadat
hingf
orhi
m?Ev
en
whenhewaswit
hme?"
 
Ziy
anda:"no!GodnoSne"Ishookmyheadand
gulpeddownmywi nebef
orepouri
nganot
her
gl
ass 
Me:"
Ican'
tbel
iev
et his.Therehast
obesome
unwr
it
tenr
uleagainstthis"
 
Zi
yanda:
"wel
oveeachot
her
" 
Me:
"fuckno!
"
[
04/
15,
18:
54]Ron:
Lov
eMeLi
keOnl
yYouCan

I
nser
tfor
tyf
ive.
..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Zi
yanda:
"Snepl
ease"
 
Me:
"leav
eZi
yanda"shegasped 
Zi
yanda:
"Sne?
!" 
Me:"Ineedt
othi
nkIwil
lcally
ou"Igotof
fthe
chai
r"l
etmewalkyouout"shenoddedand
st
oodupshesai
dgoodni
ghtt
oev
ery
oneand
wewal
kedoutsi
de 
Zi
yanda:
"I'
m sor
ry"
 
Me:"i
tokay"shegoti
nhercaranddr
oveIwent
backtothehouseIopenedt
hegatef
orherthen
wenttotheloungeaf
terwat
chi
ngherdr
iveoff 
Sf
undo:
"ev
ery
thi
ngokay
?" 
Me:
"lat
er.Okayki
dsbedt
ime"
 
Lonhl
e:"
ha.amommy "hewhi
nedSfundost
ood
upEnzohadfall
enasl
eepwhi
lel
ayi
ngonhis
fat
her
'schest
 
Me:
"nobedt
imeev
ery
onest
andup"
 
Lel
o:"
onemor
ehourmommy
" 
Me: "noupnow"t heyal lst
oodupmumbl ing
what evertheywer emumbl i
ng" y
ourfatherwil
l
tucky ouin"theyfollowedSf undoupstair
s.I
switchedof fthet.v.lockedthedoorsturnedon
theal ar
m bef or
egoi ngupstairswit
hwhatwas
l
eftofmywi neandagl assofwhiskeyfor
Sfundo.If
il
ledupthebathtubwithhotwater
andbathsaltsandfoam thenli
tthecandl
es.
SfundogotinasIwast akingof
fmycl ot
hes 
Sf
undo:
"wannat
alkt
oyourhusband?
" 
Me:"geti
nf i
rst
"Igoti
nthebatht
ubashetook
ofhi
sclothesandgotinbehi
ndme.Imoved
backrest
ingonhim heki
ssedmyhead 
Sf
undo:
"Lonhl
ewantat
vinhi
sroom"
 
Me:"Iwon'
tevenent
ert
ainthatbecausewe
bot
hknowt hatwon'
thappen" 
Sf
undo:
"may
beI
..
."
 
Me:"
noSfundoy
ouar
enotbuy
ingat
hreey
ear
ol
datv"
 
Sf
undo:
"okaybaby
" 
Me:
"I'
m ser
iousSfundoory
ouandIar
egoi
ng
t
ohaveproblems"
 
Sf
undo:
"Iwon'
tIswearbaby
" 
Me:
"good.Zi
yandacamet
otel
lmet
hatshei
s
i
narel
ati
onshi
pwi
thLut
handot
heyl
oveeach
ot
her
" 
Sf
undo:
"mmh"
 
Me:
"yep"wer
emai
nedsi
l
entf
orawhi
l
e 
Sfundo:
"doyouthi
nky
ouhav
ear
ightt
obe
angryovert
hat
?" 
Me:"
babyI
'
m notangr
yI'
mjustshockedt
hat
'
s
al
l
" 
Sfundo:
"let
'
shopesobecauseIwi
llnothav
e
youupsetovery
ourexmovingon"
 
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouSf
undo"
 
Sfundo:
"canti
maginemyl
i
fewi
thouty
ou
SneguguIneedyou" 
Me:"ineedyou"heli
ft
edmeupmaki ngtur
nso
Isi
tonhim str
addli
nghim.Imovedupand
sl
owlysatonhim havi
nghiser
ecti
onsli
dein
me. 
.
Lonhl
e:"
Iwantt
ogot
oo"
 
Lel
o:"
itgi
rl
sonl
yLonhl
e" 
Lonhl
e:"
that
'snotf
air
!Youdon'
tspendt
ime
wit
hanymoreLelo"
 
Lel
o:"IdoLonhl
estoplyi
ng"henoddedcr
ying
myhear tbr
okebutIwasn'
tgoi
ngtoget
i
nvolv
ed
Lonhl
e:"
younotmysi
sterany
more"her
anof
f
wipi
nghi
stear
sLel
oturnedandsawme 
Lel
o:"mom"shest
art
edcr
yingwhi
chmade
l
unathicr
y 
Me:
"eh"
 
Lunat
hi:
"sor
rysi
siydon'
tcr
y" 
Lel
o:"
sor
ryt
oonat
hy"t
heyhuggedst
il
lcr
ying 
Sf
undo:
"andt
hen?
" 
Me:
"I'
m soconf
used"
 
Sf
undo:
"whenar
eyoul
eav
ing?
" 
Me:"now"Iki
ssedhi
m"gi
rl
slet
'sgo"t
heypul
l
ed
apar
t 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
ou"wel
eft
 
Lel
o:"
mommy
" 
Me:
"yesangel
" 
Lel
o:"
Lonhl
emademecr
y" 
Me: "
youal somadehi
m cr
yangelhei
syour
l
itt
lebrotherandhemi
ssesspendi
ngti
mewith
youhel ovesyou"
 
Lel
o:"
Ilov
ehi
m" 
Me:
"Iknowangel
" 
Lel
o:"
Iwi
l
lspendt
imewi
thhi
m"
Me:
"good"

WemetSi hl
eandt
het
winsatTheOcean
Ter
race 
Si
hle:
"heysi
s"Iki
ssedhercheek 
Lelo:"
hel
loaunt
ySi
hle"weal
lgr
eet
edeach
otherandset
tl
eddown
Chl
oe:
"whoi
sthi
sLel
o?"
 
Lel
o:"
nat
hymyl
i
ttl
esi
ster
" 
Sophi
e:"
yourmot
herhadanot
herbaby
" 
Lel
o:"
nomymot
heri
snothermot
her
" 
Me:"
youal
ltal
ktoomuch.Let
'
sor
der
"Si
hle
wav
edoverawaiter
 
Si
hle:
"theynev
erst
opt
alki
ngoncet
heyst
art
" 
Me:"
theymouthsaret
oobig"t
hewai
tergott
o
usweallpl
acedouror
der
s 
Si
hle:
"IsawZi
yandai
nthemor
ning"
 
Me:
"wher
e?"
 
Si
hle:
"mugg&beanMar
celandIwer
ehav
ing
br
eakfast
.Shewaswi
thsomepeopl
ehavi
nga
meeti
ngIthi
nk"
 
Me: "shecameovertomyhousey est
erday
tel
li
ngmeshehasbeeni nar el
ati
onshipwit
h
Luthandoforthel
asteightmonthsandt hey
don'twanttokeepitasecretanymoretheylov
e
eachot her
" 
Si
hle:
"wow!
" 
Me:
"Iknow"
 
Si
hle:
"youov
erhi
mri
ght
?" 
Me:
"ofcour
seI
'
m ov
erhi
m" 
Si
hle:
"theni
tshoul
dn'
tbeapr
obl
em"
 
Me:
"yout
hink?
" 
Si
hle:
"yes"
 
Me:"buthei
slel
o'
sfat
herl
i
kemyexshecan'
t
bedoingmyex" 
Sihl
e:"
sheisalr
eadydoi
ngyourex.Shewasn'
t
aski
ngforpermissi
onshewastel
li
ngyouwhat
i
shappening"
 
Me:
"IguessIhav
enosayi
nitbutIdon'
tl
ikei
t
guessasti
megoesonI
'
llbeokayIj
usthav
eto
l
eavewithi
t" 
Si
hle:
"don'
thur
tmybr
otherSne"
 
Me:"
Iwouldnever
.Il
ovemyhusbandmor
e
t
hananyt
hing"
 
Si
hle:
"good"
 
Me:"y
ouandMar
cel
arer
eal
l
yhappyt
hese
day
s" 
Si
hle:
"yeah.Br
iannaandChanel
wantababy
" 
Me:"t
heynotevenmarri
edy
et"wel
ookedat
eachotherandl
aughed
Si
hle:
"that
'sr
ichcomi
ngf
rom y
ou"
 
Me:"
saysyou!YouhadSbaniwheny
ouwer
e
j
ustababyyoursel
f"wel
aughed
Si
hle:
"Sbani
ismamaanddada'
sbaby
"
Me:"ev
enwor
se.Sohowar
etheygoi
ngt
odo
t
his?
" 
Si
hle:
"Br
iannawi
l
lcar
ryt
hebabybuti
tgoi
ngt
o
beChanel
'
seggandasper
m donor
" 
Me:
"wow"
 
Sihl
e:"
Briannadoesn'
twantt
ogetmarri
ed
Chanelhasproposedtwi
cealr
eadysheal
way
s
saysno" 
Me:"
butChanel
lov
esherandshel
ovesheras
wel
l
" 
Sihle:"
theyspentthef
ir
stthreeyearsofthei
r
relati
onshi
pfight
ingbecauseshecan'tbe
faithf
ulIguessshedoesn'tt
rustheryet
" 
Me:"
thatsucksbecausethey
'vef
oughtsohar
d
f
orevery
onet oacceptt
hem andl
ifekeeps
f
ucki
ngthem up" 
Sihl
e:"
theywi
l
lbefi
ne,
theywor
k.Theydon'
t
needtobemarri
ed"
 
Me:"
let
'sst
opt
alki
ngaboutpeopl
e"she
gi
ggl
ed 
Si
hle:
"yeah"
 
Me:"
youhavet
oseet
hehouseSf
undobought
f
orus"shesmi
l
ed 
Si
hle:
"Iwaswi
thhi
m whenwewentt
ovi
ewi
t"
Me:
"youl
i
e!"Shenoddedsmi
l
ing 
Sihle:
"If
elli
nlovewithitfr
om thewor dgowe!
Wehadseenaf ewot herswewer eactual
l
y
consider
ingoneinlaLuciai twasal
sonicebut
whenwesawt hatoneSf undowaslikethi
sis
thehouseSneandIar egoingtorai
seour
chil
drenin.Hesaidthatbeforeweev enwent
i
n"  
Me:"i
tabeaut
if
ulhousej
ustt
oobigIdon'
teven
knowhowNonduandIwillmanagecl
eani
ng
ever
ythi
ng"
 
Si
hle:"hi
reacl
eaner
.Nondutakescareofthe
ki
dsright?Sohi
resomeonewhowi l
lcleanthe
house" 
Me:
"Idon'
tknow.Idon'
twantlotofhel
per
s
t
hat
'swhyweletgooftheothernannywhenI
r
esi
gnedatwor
k" 
Sihl
e:"
wehav
etwocleaner
sathome,
ananny
fort
hetwi
nsandachef"
 
Me:
"her
e?"
 
Si
hle:
" y
eah.Woahwehavelotofst
affathome
i
nBev erl
yhi
ll
sevenahousemanager"
Me: "butthat'
sunderst
andabl
ey ourhomet hat
sideistoohugeImeant hehouseitsel
fthen
there'
slikethreecot
tages"
 
Si
hle:
"yeahmygr
andpar
ent
swentov
erboar
d" 
Me:
"moneydr
ivespeopl
ecr
azy
" 
Sihl
e:"
no.Mygrandfat
her
'spar
entswer
epoor
soheworkedreal
lyhardt
oachiev
eallt
hathe
hadthendaddyandmyuncleChri
sdoublei
t"
 
Me:
"whi
chcount
rydoy
ouhav
e?"Shesmi
l
ed 
Si
hle:
"Ihav
eUni
tedAr
abEmi
rat
es"
Me:
"that
'swher
eDubai
is"shenodded 
Si
hle:
"yepandAbuDhabi
" 
Me:
"danggi
rly
ourmaki
ngmoney
!" 
Si
hle:
"Iact
uall
yhavemoremoneyt
hanMar
cel
butwedon'tt
alkaboutt
hat
" 
Me:"t
hat'
sunder
standabl
e. 
Sowhoi
staki
ng
car
eofital
l"
 
Si
hle:
" t
hemanager
sbutSf
undoov
erl
ooks
ev
erything"
 
Me:
"ApheandSi
mpi
we"
 
Sihl
e:"Si
mpiwehasUni
tedkingdom andAphe
hasItal
y.Dadist
aki
ngcareofthingsfort
hem
unti
lthey21anduni
ver
sit
ygraduatesthenthey
gettodecidewhatt
odo" 
Me:
"that
'sni
cey
oual
lsetf
orl
i
fe"
 
Si
hle:
"soar
eyou"Ishookmyhead 
Me:"
Ionl
yhavemyqual
i
ficat
ionsi
fSf
undoand
Iwer
etodiv
orce"
 
Sihl
e:"
youwoul
dgethal
fofeveryt
hingt
hathe
hadifnoty
ouwil
lgetmai
ntenancefort
hekids
andspousal
" 
Me:
"nott
hesame"
 
Lunat
hi:
"aunt
ySne"shewaspul
l
ingmyar
mI
l
ookedather"Ineedt
opre"
 
Me:
"okaybabyl
et'
sgo"

Af
terl
unchwewentt ogetournai
l
sdonet
hen
wentoursepar
ateways.

Me:"
heymybabies"If
oundt
hem wat
chi
ngt
v
wi
ththei
rfat
her
 
Enzo:
"mamam"
 
Lonhl
e:"
heymommy
" 
Sf
undo:
"heymommy
"Ichuckl
edandsaton
hi
m 
Me:
"heydaddy
"weki
ssed 
Sf
undo:
"howwasl
unch?
" 
Me:
"good"
 
Sf
undo:
"hadf
uncat
chi
ngupongossi
p" 
Me:
"Idonotgossi
pSf
undo!
"Hest
art
ed
smi
rki
ng 
Sfundo:
"youmeantotel
l mey ouact
uall
yspent
thewholedaywi
thoutt
alkingaboutsomeone
else"
 
Me:
"what
ever
" 
Sf
undo:
"myl
i
ttl
egossi
pgi
rl
" 
Me:
"babyno"hepul
l
edmet
ohi
schest
 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
ou"
 
Me:
"whatwoul
dyoul
i
kef
ordi
nner
?" 
Sf
undo:
"beef
" 
Me:
"inst
ew?
" 
Sf
undo:
"yeah"
 
Me:"
okayI
'l
lgost
artcooki
ng"weki
ssedshort
ly
t
henIwentt
othekit
chen.It
ookoutbeefputi
t
i
nt hemicrowavetodef
rostthenboi
ledrice.I
roast
edsomev eget
abl
esandstart
edonsal ads.
Theinter
com rangIwentovertoi
tand
answereditwasacarIdidn'
tknowabl ack
bmwx6 
Me:"y
es"awomanshowedherf
aceont
he
camera
Her
:"opent
hecar
" 
Me:
"excuseme?Andy
ouar
e?"
 
Her:
"I'
m her
eforSf
undo"Iputt
her
ecei
ver
down 
Me:"Sf
undocomeher
e"hegotinandkissed
mycheek"youhav
eavisi
tor
"helookedatthe
scr
een 
Sf
undo:"
shi
t"heopenedt
hegat
ethewoman
dr
ovein 
Me:
"whoi
sthi
s?"
 
Sf
undo:
"mymother
"hepull
edmyhandwe
wal
kedtot
hemaindooropenedi
tasshewas
par
king.Shegotoutofthecarmyjawdr opped
shewassogor geousallski
nnyandli
ght
ski
nnedwearingleggi
ngandt hi
ghbootswitha
kni
tt
edjersey
Sf
undo:
"mot
her
" 
Her:"i
st hi
st henewwife?Whatisitwit
hyou
andy ourfatherandfatyel
l
owbonewomen.
Sheact ual
lylooksli
keyourst
epmot her"I
col
lectedmyj awandfrownedather
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Sfundo:
"don'
ti
nsul
tmywi
feNonhl
e"sher
oll
ed
hereyes
Nonhl
e:"
comehugy ourmotherSf
undo"he
si
ghedandwalkedt
ohertheyhuggedshe
ki
ssedhi
scheek 
Sf
undo:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
 
Nonhl
e:"yougotmarr
iedandst
art
edaf
ami
l
yI
hadtohearfr
om themedia"
 
Sf
undo:
"don'
tactl
i
key
oucar
eNonhl
e" 
Me:
"Ineedt
ocheckont
hepot
s" 
Nonhl
e:"
ofcour
seIcar
eSf
undoy
oumyson"
 
Sfundo:"
arey
ououtofmoney
?Ist
hatwhyy
ou
here?"
 
Me:"I
'l
lj
ust.
.uhm y
eah"Iqui
ckl
ywentint
he
housewentt
oconti
nuewithcooki
ng.

Sfundogoti
nt hehousepul
li
ngasui
tcaseswi
th
hi
smot herwalkingbehi
ndhi
m.Iwasalmost
donewithcooking 
Sf
undo:
"baby
"Iwentt
othem 
Me:
"yes"
 
Sfundo:"
sheisgoi
ngtospendfewdayshere"I
gavehim aboredl
ook.Hedoesn'
tevent
alkto
mehej ustt
ell
sme.Iwentbacktotheki
tchen
Nonhl
e:"
yoh"
 
Sf
undo:
"babywhati
swr
ong?
"Hewasf
oll
owi
ng
me 
Me:"pl
easesetupt
het
abl
eI'
m al
mostdone
cooki
ng" 
Sf
undo:
"Sne?
" 
Me:"
Sfundowil
lyoudot
hisordoIhav
etodo
ev
ery
thingi
nthi
shouse?
!" 
Sfundo:
"okayI
'l
ltakethi
supst ai
rsandcome
backtosetupthetablejustdon'
tshout
"he
walkedoutasIhuffed.

Weallsataroundthetabl
eandstart
edhav
ing
di
nnerthekidskeptl
ookingatNonhl
eand
l
ooki
ngbet weenSfundoandi. 
Me:
"eatst
opl
ooki
ngar
ound"
 
Lonhl
e:"
daddywhoi
sthi
s?"
 
Enzo:
"yeah"
 
Me:
"nobody
.Fi
nishy
ourf
ood"
 
Nonhl
e:"
I'
m notnobody
" 
Me:"wheny
oui
nmyhouseandhaven'
tbeen
i
ntr
oducedt
omepr
oper
lyyouar
e" 
Nonhl
e:"
youj
ustgoi
ngt
oletherspeakt
ome
l
iket
hat"
 
Sf
undo:
"canwepl
easef
ini
shdi
nneri
npeace"
Nonhl
e:"
keepy
ourwi
feonal
eash"
 
Me:
"ohbi
teme"
 
Sf
undo:
"Sne!
" 
Me:
"don'
tcomef
ormeSf
undo"
 
Lel
o:"
mommycanweeati
ntheki
tchen"
 
Sfundo:"
y esprincesstakeyourbrot
hersand
si
ster"t
heyst oodupSf undohelpedthem wi
th
carr
yingtheirpl
at es 
Nonhl
e:"
youdon'
tknowmeandy
oubet
ter
r
espectme"
 
Me:"youal
sodon'tknowmeandy ousur
eas
hel
lbett
err
espectmei nmyhouse" 
Nonhl
e:"
myson'
shouse!
" 
Me:"myhusbandandt
hef
atherofmychi
l
dren
i
nfactyoutheh.
."
 
Sf
undo:
"Snegugu"heshout
edIl
ookedathi
m
wi
thmyeyeshalfshutandst
oodup 
Me:"
makesuretheki
dsdon'
tst
ayuppasst
hei
r
bedt
ime"Iwal
kedaway 
Sf
undo:
"babyI
'
m sor
ry"
 
Nonhle: "
Angelawasneverthi
sr udetome"it
tookev er
ythi
nginmet onottellhertogofuck
hersel
f.Igotinourr
oom slammedshutt he
doorlockingit
.Hetri
edopeningi tt
henstart
ed
knockingIsti
llhadmybackpr essedont he
door 
Sf
undo:
"babyIam r
eal
l
ysor
ry"
 
Me:
"goawaySf
undo"
 
Sfundo: "
Ishouldn'
thaveshoutedI'
m sor
ry"I
openedt hedoorwel ookedateach"theat
tit
ude
ony ourfacethough"Ismil
edal i
tt
lehegotin
andpi ckedmeup 
Me:"y
ougoi
ngtobr
eakyourbackI
'
m af
at
yel
l
owboneremember
" 
Sf
undo:
"youmyf
aty
ell
owbone"
 
Me:"
hey
!"Ipunchedhisshoul
derhet
hrewme
ont
hebedlaughing 
Sfundo:"don'tpayatt
ent
iont
oNonhlebaby
she'sabeaut i
fulbi
tt
erwoman.She'
sbeenl
ike
thateversincedadchoosemom"  
Me:
"Idon'
tl
ikeher
" 
Sfundo:"
youcanhaveteawit
hmom andgossi
p
abouthowmuchy oubothdon'
tl
ikeher
" 
Me:
"wewi
l
l.Whati
sshedoi
ngher
e?"
 
Sfundo:
"she'
sbeent ravel
li
ngforyear
s.Ever
si
nceIgotmyi nheri
tanceandwasabl etogi
ve
hermoneyshequi therjobandclai
medshe
wantstoseethewor l
dandsi
nceIcanaff
ord
forhert
odot hatIl
ether
.Theonl
yti
mewe' v
e
communi cat
edoverthel
astt
enyearswas
whensheneededmoney " 
Me:
"howi
syourr
elat
ionshi
pwi
thher
" 
Sfundo:"wedon' thaveany .Mom r aisedmebut
Nonhlealsor aisedmef r
om t hetimeIwasbor n
unti
lIwasov er10.Dadonl ysentmoneyand
sawmel i
keoncei nev er
ymont hbutwhen
mom camei nthepi ctureitallchangedImov ed
i
nwi ththem shef orceddadt ospendt imewi th
met obei nvolvedi nmyl ifeheev enst ar t
ed
comingt omyr ugbyandsoccergames, wehad
boysday sy ouknowhest artedsay inghel oves
mewhi chwassomet hingbot hmypar ents
nevertoldme.Il ov emom sher ai
sedme
excepti
onallywel lbutNonhl eisstil
l mymot her
Iwil
lalway scar eabouthert hatwoman
str
uggledwi thmewhendadwasn' twor king" 
Me:
"ofcour
sey
oucar
eshe'
syourmot
her
" 
Sfundo:"
Itol
dhert
ost
ayoutofy
ourwayt
hisi
s
yourhouse" 
Me:
"soshe'
sst
ayi
ng?
" 
Sfundo:"
justf
orawhi
lebabyshesaysshe
needstofigur
esomethingsoutshei
sdone
tr
aveli
ngthough.Wasthinki
ngmaybewhenwe
mov etothenewhouseshest ay
shere"
Me:"i
tgoi
ngtot
akemont
hsbef
oret
hathouse
i
sreadySf
undo!
" 
Sfundo:"
babypl
easeandshesay
sshewant
sto
gettoknowtheki
ds" 
Me:
"ay
ibabykodwa"
 
Sfundo:
"pl
easest
handwasam"heki
ssedmy
neck"pl
ease"
 
Me:"
fi
ii
i
neebuti
sshecomest
omesi
deway
sI
wi
ll
checkherSf
undo"
Sf
undo:"shewon'tIpromi
se.YouknowIcan'
t
dothi
sthingcal
l
edl i
fewit
houtyou"
 
Me:
"mmh.Begr
atef
ulIl
ovey
ousomuch"
 
Sf
undo:
"I'
mver
ygr
atef
ul"
 
.
Iwokeupi nthemorninginbedalone.Iwentto
thebathroom t
ookashowergotoutl oti
oned
gotdressedinsweatpantsandatanktop.I
wenttocheckont hekidstheywereallnoti
n
thei
rroomsIwentdownst airsf
oundthem
havi
ngbr eakf
asti
nthekitchen.
Me:
"mor
ningbabi
es"
 
Them:
"mor
ningmommy
" 
Me:"wehaveav
isi
torNondu.Sf
undo'
s
bi
ologi
cal
mom,haveyouseenher?"
 
Nondu:
"noIhav
en'
t"
Me:
"guessshei
sst
il
lupst
air
s" 
Lel
o:"
daddysai
dtot
ell
youhel
ovesy
ou
mommy "
 
Me:
"okaybaby
"Idi
shedupbr
eakf
astf
or
my
sel
fandpour
edcof
fee 
Nonhl
e:"
morni
ngmybabi
es"shewasget
ti
ngi
n
t
hekit
chen 
Theki
ds:
"mor
ninggr
anny
"Ir
aisedmyey
ebr
ow
Nonhl
e:"
morni
ngSne.CanIhavebr
eakf
ast
?"
Nondust
art
eddishi
ngupforher
 
Me:
"mor
ningNonhl
e" 
Nonhl
e:"
suchanoi
lybr
eakfast
,youshoul
d
r
eall
ybewatchi
ngwhatyoueat"
 
Me:"t
hankyouforinputNonhl
ewewi
l
ltakei
t
i
ntoconsi
derat
ion"
Nonhl
e:"
howi
sitt
haty
oul
ooksomuchl
i
ke
Sne?"
 
Me:"
she'
smymother
'st
win"shel
ookedatme
asi
fI'
vegr
ownhor
ns 
Nonhle:"t
hatcan'tberi
ght"Ishr
uggedmy
shoul
ders"hhe!!Sfundohaslosthi
smind,
his
fat
herincl
uded" 
Me:"Sf
undoandIweret
oget
herf
ory
ear
s
bef
orewefoundout
" 
Nonhl
e:"mmh"Ilookedathershelookedmi l
es
awayIgotachancetostar
eatsher eal
lywasa
beaut
if
ulwomani twashardtobel
ievethatshe
hadachil
dwhowasi nhislat
ethir
ti
es 
Lel
o:"
mommy
" 
Me:
"yesbaby
"
Lel
o:"
canweswi
mtoday
?" 
Me:
" i
fthesunget
stoohot
.Andpapai
scomi
ng
t
opickuplunat
hi"
 
Lunat
hi:
"when?
" 
Me:
"todaybaby
"
Lunat
hi:
"okayImi
ssdaddyandmommy
"
Nondu:
"let
'
sgobat
hgi
rl
s"
Me:"
Nondupleasemakesurel
unathi
'scl
othes
ar
ewashedandpackedformeplease"
Nondu:
"okay
"shewentupst
air
swi
tht
hegi
rl
s 
Lonhl
e:"
grannywher
ear
eyoucomi
ngf
rom?
" 
Nonhl
e:"
from myhome"
Lonhl
e:"
okay
"
Nonhl
e:"
isl
unat
hinoty
our
s?"
 
Me:
"she'
smybr
other
's"
Nonhle:
"you'
vegi
venSf
undobeauti
fulbabi
es.
Yourgenesmakeupforyourf
aceatleast
"
Me:"I
'
m notev
engoi
ngtoentert
ainy
ouol
d
bi
tt
erwoman"sher
oll
edhereyes 
Nonhl
e:"
thatwasacompl
i
ment
"
Me:"i
sthatso?I
'
m notst
upidNonhl
eandIam
def
ini
tel
ynotapushover
" 
Nonhl
e:"
weshal
lsee"
 
Me:
"mxm"wecont
inuedeat
ingi
nsi
l
ence

Luthandocall
edwhenhewasatt
hegateI
openeditforhi
mthenwentt
owaitout
sidef
or
hi
m.
Lut
hando:
"heysi
s"
Me:
"Lut
handoy
ouasswi
pe"
 
Lut
hando:
"woah,
whatdi
dIdo?
" 
Me:"whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
meaboutZi
yanda"he
gr
inned 
Lut
hando:
"what
?Youj
eal
ous?
" 
Me:"i
sthatwhyyouwithher
?Lut
handonothat
gi
rlhashadherf
airshar
eofhear
tbr
eaks"
 
Luthando:"
nahitnotIactual
lyl
oveheri
ttoo
earl
ytosaybutIthinkIcanhaveafutur
ewi t
h
her.Areyoumad?Shet oldmey out
wohav en'
t
spokensinceshetoldyou" 
Me: "
I'm notmad.Wasj ustshockedthat
'sal
l
butifyoubot hhappywitheachotherIhaveno
problem justdon'
thur
therLuthandoplease"
 
Lut
hando:"
whataboutme?YouknowwhenI
l
ove,Il
oveful
l
y.Andyouknowyourf
ri
endshe'
s
alit
tl
eofabitchatti
mesbutIf
ell
forher
regardl
essofthat
.Shei
stheonl
ywhocan
actuall
yhur
tme"  
Me: "
welly
ouwentf
orherknowi
ngwhatty
peof
apersonshei
s.Havey
oualwaysbeen
at
tractedt
oher
?Evenwhenwewer et
oget
her
?"
Luthando:"
no.Ihat
edherwhenweweretalked
evenafterwebrokeupshewasabi
tchIdidn't
wantherinfl
uenci
ngyou" 
Me:
"mmhi
fyousayso"
Lut
hando:
"comeony
ouhav
etobel
i
eveme"
Me:
"Ibel
i
evey
ou"
 
Lut
hando:
"Il
ovehersi
s"Isi
ghed
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Ilookedatmyhusband, hewasst il
lasleep.
Sfundowor kedf rom homenow, heonl ywentt o
theof fi
ceoroutoft hepr ov i
ncei fhehad
meet ings.Iwat chedhi m sl eepi ngpeacef ul wi t
h
hisdar klipssli
ght l
yopenbr eat hingi nandout
sof tl
y ,Ij
ustsighedhappi ly .Ilov edhi m Itrul y
did, we' vebeent hroughourshar eoff uckups
butwej ustcameoutst rongerandmor ei nl ove.
Ikissedhi sli
psandgotof ft hebed.Iwentt o
takeashowergotoutwal kedt ot heclosetI
l
ot i
onedmybodyandputonunder wearaf ter
thatIputonakni ttedjerseyt henj eansbutt hey
refusedt ogoup, theygotst uckbymyt highs.I
feltlikecr yi
ngIwasgai ningwei ght ,thisst ay i
ng
athomet hi
ngwaski l
l
ingme.Ihadabsol ut ely
not hingkeepi ngmebusy .Thej eanswer easi ze
fucki ng38whi chmeantnowIhadt ostar t
buy ingsi ze40, Ihadwentf r
om asi ze34t oa
size40andIknewIwasst il
l goingt ogai nmor e
wei ghtbecauseIhadnot hingt odo, Iser i
ousl y
don' tknowhowt hesewomenf lourishint hi s
housewi
feshi
t.
Sf
undo:"ar
eyouokaymyqueen?
"Ilookedat
hi
mt hr
oughthemir
rorhewasst
andingbythe
cl
osetdoorl
eani
ngonthefr
ame
Me:"Ikeepgai
ningwei
ghtSf
undo!Myj
eans
don'
tfitany
more" 
Sfundo:
"sorrynana,
shoul
dIt
akey
oushoppi
ng
fornewjeans?" 
Me:"i
tnotj
ustaboutt
hat
!Ar
ghy
ouj
ustdon'
t
geti
t!
" 
Sf
undo:
"hel
pmegeti
tsoIcanhel
pyou"
 
Me:
"I'
m get
ti
ngmor
efatSf
undoasi
fIneed
mor
emeat "
 
Sfundo:"
younotfatnana.Youthick.Yougot
amazingcurvesandIlovethem,Ifindthem
sexyIgettur
nedonjustbyt hesi
ghtoft hem"
 
Me:"
younotbeinghel
pful
Sfundo"hewal
kedt
o
meandwr appedhi
sarmsaroundmywaist
t
henkissedmynecksucki
ngoni t
Sfundo: "
Iloveyou.AsJohnl egendsay
s,all
of
mel ovesal l
ofyou,al
lyourcurvesandall
your
edges"hepr esseshiserect
iononmyassandI
getast upidsmileonmyf ace
Me:
"mxm getawayf
rom mey
ouhor
nyf
reak"
 
Sfundo: "
Ilovey
ouokay?I
'l
lpopinthe
bathroom thentakey
outogatewayfor
breakfastandsomeshoppi
ng" 
Me:
"okay
"heki
ssedmycheek

Igotdownstair
sfoundNonhl ewat chi
ngtv
whil
ehav i
ngcoffeeitbeenamont hsi
nceshe
cameher e.Wedon'tli
keeachot herbutweciv
il
forthesakeofthekidsandSf undosowest ay
outofeachother'
swaybutshel ovesmy
chil
drenfort
hatItol
eratehershitwhenshe
star
tsit.
 
Me:
"goodmor
ning"
 
Nonhl
e:"
youl
ookal
i
ttl
ecut
ewi
thy
ourf
at
yel
lowsel f
"Iroll
esmyey esandsatdown.I
endedupget t
ingdressedi nabl acktightf
it
ti
ng
l
ongsl eevemaxi dressandbl ackvans.Thanks
toWool worthsandt heirspanksmyst omach
l
ooksf lat
s.Ihaveabl ackbi kerjacketandmy
Malaysiancurlsareleftlose. 
Me:
"thanky
ouNonhl
e"
Nonhl
e:"
Ilov
eyoursar
casm,
itmakesmyday
"
Me:"andIhat
ey our
s,i
tkil
l
smyv i
bes"Nondu
camedownstair
scarryi
ngEnzowit
hLonhle
fol
l
owingbehi
ndher  
Lonhl
e:"
hel
lomommy "Ipickedhim upsathim
onmylap,mysonissuchamama' sboyunli
ke
Enzowhoactsl
ikeIdi
dn'tcarr
yhimf orni
ne
monthsandhadtogetcuttogivebir
thtohim.
Me:
"mor
ningmybaby
,sl
eptwel
l
?" 
Lonhl
e:"
yesandI
'
m hungr
y"
Enzo:"
I'
m al
sohungry,
Iwantcocos"hewas
crawl
i
ngont hecouchcomi
ngtome 
Me:
"nococosi
tcol
dtoday
" 
Enzo:
"ha.
aIwantcocos"
 
Me:"andIam say
ingno"henoddedIl
ookedat
hi
m surpr
ised
Lonhl
e:"
wowmommy
" 
Me:
"Iknow"webot
hgi
ggl
ed 
Nondu:
"okaycomeI
'
vedi
shedupoatf
ory
ou
t
wo" 
Nonhl
e:"
comeI
'
llf
eedy
oubi
gboy
"shepi
cked
upEnzo
Enzo:
"gr
anny
?" 
Nonhl
e:"
yes"t
heyst
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
 
Lonhl
e:"
wher
eisdaddy
?" 
Me:
"upst
air
s"
Lonhle:"
whenwi
l
lIal
sogot
oschool
mommy
l
ikelelo"
Me:
"wheny
ouol
denoughbaby
.Nowgoeat
"
Lonhl
e:"
daddy
!" 
Sfundo:"mypr i
nce"hepickedhi m up.Iwatched
Sfundotickli
nghim andsmi l
edLonhl ewas
l
aughingsohar dhist ear
swer edropping.He
tookhimt othekit
chenandcameback.Il ooked
athim bi
tingmybot tom li
phel ookedso
gorgeousi nj
ustnavyskinnyjeansandawhi tet
-shi
rtwit
habl ackjacketandsneaker shisshort
faderoughedup 
Sfundo:
"stopstar
ingImi ghtj
ustt
akeyour
ight
now"Ismiledshakingmyhead.Hehelpedme
up"youlookbeauti
fulnana" 
Me:
"youmakemehappy
" 
Sfundo:"
wheny ouhappyI'
m happyandour
chil
drenarehappy"heki
ssedmycheek

Westart
edatcircusci
rcusforbreakf
ast.We
f
oundSihleSfundo'
sfr
iendhavingbreakfast
wi
thhiswifeSthesowej oi
nedthem attheir
t
abl
e
Sthe:"howi
smyLelo?Il
ovey
ourdaught
er
she'ssuchacut
ey"
 
Si
hle:
"shei
sgoi
ngt
obemydaught
eri
nlaw"
Sf
undo: "
Iwil
lkil
lSabel
oifheev
enl
ooksatmy
pr
incessli
kethat"
 
Sihl
e:"
don'
tyouwantcowsmyman"Sf
undo
chuckl
ed
Sf
undo:
"no.
" 
Me: "
youj ustlov
eherbecauseshehast he
samenameasy ourcousinSthe"shegiggl
ed
sweetly"she'sokayjustcompl ai
ningabout
schoolitwor senowsi nceitwint
er" 
Sthe:
"ohSabel
oist
hesame,
ever
ymor
ningi
s
chaoti
c" 
Me: "
sti
llt
hinki
ngofsendi
nghi
mtoboar
ding
school?
" 
St
he:
"si
hlesai
dwewi
l
lvi
sitt
hatt
opi
cwhenhe
i
sdonewi
thpr
imar
y" 
Me:"that'
sagoodidea.Ij
ustfeel
li
kesendi
nga
kidt
oboar di
ngschoolwhil
einpri
marymakes
them feel
li
ketheybei
ngabandoned"
Si
hle:
"thanky
ouSne"

Iendedupgoi
ngshoppi
ngwi
thsthewel
eftt
he
menatDrosdoingt
hei
rownshi
t.

Sf
undo:
"baby
" 
Me:
"mh"wei
nbedcuddl
i
ngaf
termaki
ngl
ove 
Sfundo:
"Ihav
etogotoDubai
therei
s
somethi
ngwrongwit
hthehot
elaccount
s" 
Me:
"someonei
sst
eal
i
ngmoney
?" 
Sf
undo:
"itl
ooksl
i
ke"
 
Me:
"oh"
 
Sf
undo:
"ar
eyoucomf
ort
abl
ewi
thl
eav
ingt
he
ki
dswithmom"whenhetrav
elsoutoft
he
count
rySneormom comestost
aywiththe
ki
dsunti
lweback 
Me:
"noI
'
m not
"
Sfundo:"mom can'
tcomeher
ewhil
eNonhl
eis
here,Nonhl
esavageandyouknowhowmom
i
s" 
Me:"
Iwill
cal
lmom i
nthemorni
ngi
fshecan'
t
comethenIwon'
tgowit
hyou"
 
Sfundo:
"ha.
ababyIdon'
tknowhowl
ongI
'
llbe
gonefor"
Me:
"whenar
eyoul
eav
ing?
"
Sfundo:"WEshoul
dbeleav
ingtomorrowbutwe
havetof i
ndsomeonewhowil
ltakecareofthe
ki
dsf i
rstsowewil
lleav
eassoonast hati
s
sort
ed" 
Me:
"okaybabyI
'
m sl
eepy
"
Sf
undo:
"sl
eepnanaIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"lov
eyou"heki
ssedmyhead
.

Ilookedatt
hiswomanwanti
ngtoki
llher
Sfundowaslooki
ngatmeheactual
l
yl ooked
scaredwhil
eNonhlehadasmuggri
ninher
face 
Me:
"saywhatnow?
" 
Sf
undo:
"baby
"
Me:
"shuti
tSf
undoMkhi
ze"
 
Nonhl
e:"
comeonSneshel
ooksbeaut
if
ul"
 
Me:"babygouptoyourr
oom andchangeout
ofy
ourunifor
m soy
oucanhav el
unch" 
Lel
o:"
okaymommy
"sher
anof
fpul
l
ingherbag 
Nonhl
e:"
wewentpastwi
mpyandat
e" 
Me:"whoint
hehellgavey
ouarightt
orelaxmy
daught
er'
shai
r?!Sheisaf
ucki
ngbaby" 
Nonhl
e:"
itwashar
mlessSnei
tforki
ds"
Me:"Ipref
err
edherhai
rasanafr
oshedoesn'
t
needtohaverel
axedhai
rinor
dertol
ook
beauti
ful
!"
 
Nonhl
e:"
Iknowt
hat
!Shei
sav
erybeaut
if
ul
chi
l
d" 
Me:"
Ithi
nkyou'
veoverst
ayedy
ourwelcomei
n
myhouse"shel
ookedatmeshocked 
Nonhl
e:"
itj
usthai
r!
" 
Me: "
Sfundocal
l St
evetel
lhimt ogetar oom for
yourmotheratthehotel
"Ileftthem standi
ng
ther
ewi t
hthei
rmout hsopen.Ist oppedwalki
ng
andli
stenedtothem whent heyst ar
tedtal
ki
ng
Sf
undo:
"whatwer
eyout
hinki
ngmot
her
?"
Nonhle:"Ir
eall
ydidn'
tmeananyharm Sf
undo
youhav etotal
ktoherIwasrel
axi
ngmyhai r
andleloasked.Pl
easeIwouldneverhur
tmy
grandchil
drenIl
ovethem" 
Sf
undo:
"youshoul
dhav
ecal
l
edSnef
ir
st!These
areherchi
l
drenyoucan'
tjustmakedeci
sions
fort
hem wit
houtconsul
ti
ngher"
Nonhle:
"talkt
oherSfundopleaseIlov
estayi
ng
her
ewi t
ht heki
dsIl
ov ethem.Ireal
l
ydidn'
t
meananyhar m.Iwasjustdoingwhatshe
wanted"
Sf
undo:"
shei
saki
dsomet
imeswhatshe
want
sisnot
"
Nonhl
e:"don'
tbehypocr
it
ical
Sfundoyougi
ve
t
hesekidsanythi
ngandevery
thi
ngtheywant
" 
Sfundo:"
notifi
tnotgoodf orthem ori
fitgoi
ng
toupsetthei
rmother"Ilef
tthem l
ikethatand
wentupstair
stolel
o'
sr oom 
Me:
"heybaby
" 
Lel
o:"
I'
m sor
rymommy .Sorr
yIaskedgr
annyt
o
rel
axmyhair
.Pl
easedon'tbeupset
" 
Me:"itokayI'
m notupset
.Doyoulovey ournew
hai
r?"Shenodded.Herhairwaslong,Ihadonly
cutherhairwhenshewasj usst
artedwalking
aft
erthatIgr
ewi
tintoanafro"okay.Got
ell
daddytomakeyoulunch"Icar
riedherof
fthe
bed.

Sfundogoti nourroom aft

erfewmi nutesIwas
j
ustsitt
ingont hebedbusyonmyi Padl ooki
ng
atthepicturesZi
yandahadj ustpost edofher
andLuthandot heylookedsogoodt ogether.My
peoplewer ehappyitwaslikebesidesNonhl e
everyt
hingwasf l
owi ngwell
. 
Sf
undo:
"baby
"
Me:"noSfundoIwantthatwomanoutof fmy
housethepenthouseatthehotel
isusuall
y
emptyputhertherebef
oreIlosemymi nd"
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Sf
undo:
"butbabywemov
ingsoon"
Me:"Sfundo.Nonhl
eandIwi
l
lki
l
leachot
her
butokay"
Sf
undo:
"thanky
ou"
Me:"onl
ybecausewewil
lbemov
ingtot
henew
housesoon"hepul
ledmebymyankl
etohi
m 
Sf
undo:
"Il
ovey
ouwi
fey
" 
Me:"Il
oveyoutoo"weki
ssed"
youmadey
our
daught
erlunch?
" 
Sf
undo:
"Nondudi
d" 
Me:"okaycomeher e"Ipull
edhi
mt olayontop
ofmeandki ssedhi
m It ookof
fhist-
shir
the
pul
l
edbackchuckl i
ng 
Sf
undo:
"yousur
eyounotpr
egnant
?" 
Me:
"shutup.Youknowmytubesareti
edand
wewil
ltr
yforababywhenEnzois4" 
Sf
undo:
"justchecki
ngmyqueen"wewentback
t
oki
ssingher
oll
edusov
erget
ti
ngmet
olayon
t
opofhim.

Iwentdownst air
saf terfr
esheningupt oget
star
tedondi nnerleav i
ngSf undoasl eep.Nonhl
e
waswat chi
ngt vwhi lehavingagl assofwi ne.I
wentstrai
ghtt otheki t
chent ookoutr ibsfr
om
thefri
dgeIhadmar inatedt hem i
nt hemor ni
ng.
Wasgoi ngtogr i
llsomer ibsandmake
butt
ernutandcr eamedspi nach.Nonhl egotin
andsatont hehi ghchair.
Nonhl
e:"
Iwoul
dli
ket
oapol
ogi
ze"
Me: "i
tokayNonhl
eIjustreall
ywishyouhad
cal
ledme.Leloismychildy oucan'
tmakesuch
decisi
onsforher
.Ihadmyr easonsforkeepi
ng
herhairanafr
o"
Nonhl
e:"IwaswrongandI'
m sorr
ybutyou
knowIloveher
,Il
ovethem Iwoul
dneverhar
m
them"
Me:"Iknow.I
'
m sor
ryt
oof
ort
hewayIspoket
o
you"
Nonhl
e:"
shoul
dIpackmybags?
" 
Me:"nowewi
l
lbel
eav
ingf
ort
henewhouse
any
way "
 
Nonhle:
"canIcomest
aywi
thy
oual
latt
henew
house?"
 
Me:
"nowy
oupushi
ngi
t"wel
aughed
.

Wemov edi ntothenewhouse, itwasso

beaut i
ful Icouldn'
tbeli
ev ei
t.Neverinmy
wildestdr eamsdi dIthinkIwoul donedaybe
stayingi nsuchahouse.Thei nteri
ordesi
gner
hadout doneher sel
f,al
l Idi
dwasgi vehera
roughi deaofwhatIwant edandshedel i
ver
ed
amazi ngly .
IwokeupSaturdaymorningwewer ehosti
ng
fewfr
iendsandourfamil
yoverforahouse
warming.Sf
undowasalreadyupjuststar
ingat
me 
Me:"wei
rdo"hechuckl
edandki
ssedmy
f
orehead
Sf
undo:
"mor
ningnana"
 
Me:"
baby"hegotont
opofmeIopenedmy
l
egshesett
ledbet
weent
hem 
Sfundo: "
I'
m notlookingfor
war dtotoday"I
sighedhispar entswerehere,stayi
ngwit
hus
andwehadl eftNonhleinourpr evi
oushome
butshewoul dal sobeheretoday .My
relat
ionshipwithherhadgot t
enbet t
eraf
t ert
hat
wholehai rsi
tuation.
 
Me: "
ever
ythi
ngisgoi
ngtobeokayasyousai
d
yourdadcanhandleNonhl
e,heput
sheri
nher
placewhenitcomestomom"  
Sf
undo:
"yeahIguess.NowcanIgetmy
mor
ningl
azysex"Ismi
l
ed 
Me:
"wi
l
lyouev
ergetenoughofmypussy
?" 
Sfundo:
"noti
nami l
l
iony
ear
snana"hemoved
backandsli
deint
omeslowl
yunt
ilhewasal
li
n
makingmybackarch.

Iwentdownstair
sandgotstar
tedonmaking
breakf
ast
.Ihadt ohi
retonewhelper
sthe
housewastoohuget henNonducouldonl
y
focusonthekids.
 
Lel
o:"morningmommy"shewasgetti
ngint
he
ki
tchenIli
ft
edherupsatherdownonthe
counter
 
Me:"mor
ningmommy '
spr
incess"shepout
ed
herl
i
psIkissedher
 
Lel
o:"
isdaddyst
il
lsl
eepi
ng?
" 
Me:"
nobabyheisjustali
tt
lebusyi
nhi
sof
fi
ce.
Wher
eareyourbr
others?
" 
Lel
o:"sti
llsl
eepi
ngIt hi
nk.CanIhelpyou
mommy ?"Igaveherabowl wi
theggstobeat
.
Wemadebr eakfastwhil
ewespokeabouther
school,
herfri
endsandhowsabel ohi
taboy
whohadpushedherwhi letheyhadswimming
peri
od.

Itookafi
nalelookatmy selfonthemirror,
Iwas
wearingapeachof ftheshoulderl
osemaxi
dresswit
hitmat chingchokerandsandals,I
hada40i nchmar oonPeruvianthatIl
eftl
ose. 
Sfundo:
"youl
ookbeauti
ful
myl
ove"hewal
ked
tomeandheldmywai st
 
Me:
"thanky
ou"
 
Sf
undo:"mostofourguest
sar
eher
e"wewer
e
j
usthav
ingacasualthi
ng 
Me:
"ar
ethewai
ter
sser
vingdr
inks?
" 
Sfundo:"yesandf
ingerf
oods"It
urnedar
ound
andwr appedmyarmsar oundhi
sneck 
Me:"Il
ovey ouMkhize"hesmiledl
ooki
ngmore
gor
geoust hanever"Idon'
tknowwhatIwoul
d
dowithoutyourl
ove" 
Sfundo:"
youdon'
teverhavetof
indout
becauseyouwil
lal
way shavemylov
e"Ist
ood
onmyt oesandwekissed.

Wegotdownst
air
s,Iwentt
omyt
womomsas
soonasIsawt
hem 
Me:
"mommy
!"Shesmi
l
edbr
ight
lyandhugged
me 
Mom:
"lookaty
ousobeaut
if
ulandgr
own"
 
Sne:
"sher
eal
l
yisbeaut
if
ul"
 
Me:
"whendi
dyougether
emom?
" 
Mom:
"justf
ewmi
nut
esago"
Me:
"hav
eyoumetNonhl
e?"Theybot
hlaughed 
Mom: "
nobutIknowal
lther
eist
oknowabout
her
" 
Me:"y
outwodon'tpr
ovokeherandshe'
sreal
l
y
nott
hatbad.Shel
ovestheki
ds"
Mom:
"andwel
ovet
heki
ds"
 
Sne:
"yes"
 
Me:"
don'
tstar
ttr
oubl
eyout
wins.Letmego
gr
eetev
eryoneel
se"
 
Sne:"
gobeagoodhost"Iwal
kedtowher
emy
gi
rl
sweredr
inki
ngasusualbesi
desNat
asha
Me:
"ladi
es"
 
Them:"
hey
"Igrabbedaglassofchampagne
fr
om t
hewait
ersthatwaspassi
ng 
St
he:
"yourhousebabe!
" 
Zi
yanda:
"amazi
ng"
 
Me:
"thanky
ou"
 
Sihl
e:"you'
vedoneagoodjobwit
hmaki ngit
l
ookl i
keahome.Ilovethepi
ctur
er oom"Ihada
room i
twasal l
whit
ewi t
hourf
amilypict
uresal
l
overevenontheceil
ing 
Me:"
Ithi
nki
tmyfavori
teroom r
ightaft
ert
he
mast
erbedr
oom"Iwinkedtheyallgi
ggl
ed 
Nat
asha:
"behav
e" 
Me:
"justsay
ing"
 
Br
ianna:
"itr
eal
l
ybeaut
if
ul"
 
Me: "howi st hehousehaunt ingony ourpar t?"
Shewaspr egnantandl ookingforahousei n
capet own.Br i
anhadt hr ewaf i
twhenhef ound
outBr i
annawaspr egnantandpl anningtomov e
i
nwi thChanel whi l
enotmar riedbutBrianna
stoodhergr oundsher eall
ydi dn'
twantt oget
mar r
ied.Ev entuallyBr i
ansof t
eneddownashe
al
way sdoeswheni tcomest oBr i
annaIt hinkit
becauseoutof fallhiski dssher eall
ywaswi l
d.
Shegotexpel l
edatv arsity
,hadt ospenday ear
i
nr ehabaf tersher anof fandwentont ourwi th
arockbandt hat'swher eherr el
ati
onshipwi t
h
Chanel startedi tgotsot oxictheywer ebot h
doingdr ugsBr iannaov erdosedandendedup
i
nacomaf oramont h.
Bri
anna:"i
tnotcomingalongwell.Wewantto
buyatCli
ftonbutever
ythi
ngthereishugeand
wewantsomet hingsmallandreall
ycl
oseto
thebeach"
 
Si
hle:
"youwi
l
lfi
ndsomet
hing"

Weal lsett
leddowni ntherooftoppat i
owher e
alargetablewassetupf ordinner.Thewai ter
star
tedwi t
hser v
ingthefir
stcourse.Wehad
di
nnerov erli
ghtconversati
onsfil
ledwi t
h
l
aughterandl otofharmlessteasing.After
di
nnerwewentdownt othebacky ardwehada
barsetupt herethesepeoplelovetheiralcohol
andadj f
orsomemusi c.

Sfundoaskedforevery
one'sattent
ionandt
old
thewaiter
stogiveeveryoneaglassof
champagnebecausehehasat oasttomake.
Hest oodi
nfrontofmeandki ssedmycheek.
Sfundo: "
youknowhowl ifecanbe, itchanges
overni ghtbuthav i
ngy ouhasmadei tsoeasy .
Youl ov emei nawayIknowonl yy oucan.AndI
knowt hatnomat terwher el i
fet akesuswe
goingt obeal rightbecausewhatwehav eisreal
andwewi llalway sst i
ckt oget her .Ilovey ou
SneguguMkhi zewi thev er ypar tofme.Idon' t
knowwher eIwoul dbewi thouty ouandy our
l
ov e.You' vegiv enmet hr eebeaut ifulchi l
dren
andy oust il
l owemeonemor e"Ihear dlaught er
andj ustsmi l
edwi pingmyt ear s" you'vemade
mewantt hingsact uall
yneedt hingsIt houghtI
hatedandcoul dhav enev erseenmy sel fhav e
beforey ou.Godknowswe' vehadourshar eof
problemsandIcan' tpr omi sey out hatwewon' t
hav emor ebutIcanpr omi sey out hatIwi ll
try
mybestt oensur ethaty ouandourchi l
dr enare
alway shappyandpr otect ed.Soi nal landal lour
chil
dr enhav esomet hi
ngt oasky ou"hel ooked
atwher etheki dswer eandwav edov ert heyran
tohim wi thgoof ysmi lesont hei rfaces 
Lonhl
e:"
wil
lyoumar
rydaddy
" 
Enzo:
"yes"
 
Lonhl
e:"
noEnzo!Sayagai
nnoty
es"
 
Enzo:
"ohoh"wel
aughed"
agai
nmommy
" 
Sf
undo:
"youal
ostcauseson.Letst
artagai
n" 
Lonhl
e:"
wil
lyoumar
rydaddy
" 
Enzo:"agai
n!!
!"Lel
otookoutar
ingboxf
rom her
pocketandopenedi t
 
Lel
o:"
please"
 
Sfundo:"
let
'srenewourv owsnana"Inoddedas
hetooktheringfrom Lel
oandsliditi
nmy
fi
ngeritwasjustasmal l
whitegoldband
coveredinsmalldiamonds 
Me:"yes.Il
oveyouSfundoandonl
yyoucan
l
ovemel ikeyoudoI'
l
l f
orev
erbegr
atef
uland
appr
eciateyourl
ove"

THEEND
.