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Church of Euthanasia The Church of Euthanasia

The One Commandment: man's subliminal god

"Thou shalt not procreate"

The Four Pillars:

by hermies purrbuckets
suicide · abortion
cannibalism · sodomy
contents

Human Population:
introduction
7,853,909,221
1. man is a disease
2. woman is a paradox
SAVE THE PLANET 3. child is the victim
KILL YOURSELF 4. the beast
5. anxiety
6. mysticism
7. paranoia
search 8. food
9. self-loathing
10. society
mailing list
11. technology
12. culture
13. murder
14. intelligence
15. economy
16. addiction
17. sex
18. hell
19. suicide
20. man's subliminal god

bibiliography

introduction

"The tragedy, the true catastrophe, is that humanity

continues..."
-Louis Wolfson
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 Somewhere along the line, man got the notion that he, and
his life, were essentially positive manifestations of
phenomena. Perhaps faced with the elemental void of
death, primitive man turned to his immediate experience
and clung to it for dear life.

Perhaps, in lieu of any abiding reason or causality, man

simply felt himself justified to "be." With the inevitable
momentum of procreation, each subsequent generation was
coddled or bludgeoned into adapting the affirmative stance
of their ancestors.

Man, even primitive man, has tended to take life for

granted. Death was the unnatural thing, the result of
malice or mistake, the after-message of the gods, or,
in the Christian world, the result of the Fall from the
garden... [21]

Scientific man now sees that death is the most natural thing
in the world, the omega to life's alpha and a necessary
precursor to further life. He compulsively examines the
inherent biological customs of innumerable flora and fauna,
and chronicles in rapt fascination his own, dreary natural
cycles.

Curiously, though, as man's season becomes more

problematic, stalked from within and without by
environmental decay and psychological breakdown, he
rarely considers his own death as a viable alternative to an
existence devoid of meaning or rescue.

Contrarily, man seems obsessed with clinging to life at all

costs, greedily devouring all resources within reach and
pumping out as many clones of himself as possible. He
seems determined to affirm his life in a vehement act of
self-sabotage, creating in the process a habitat of truly
avernal proportions.

Some, however, have seen the runaway essence of the

whole damn thing:

You are among the many passengers of a large bus

careening wildly down a twisted mountain road. The
bus is being driven by a drunk who is half blind. He
and those near the front are also suffering from some
sort of intoxication from gaseous emissions. They are
also drinking. It is night; not even the moon is out to
provide lighting. The main lights of the bus are broken
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 from near-brushes with the steadily deteriorating old
guardrails that are the only thing between the bus and
a 2500 foot plunge off a sheer face cliff. [18]

This allegory illuminates the predicament an enlightened

creature encounters when waking one day to find himself
woefully alive. Its author, a suicide, sees that the true
remedy to this hapless traveler's woes is the one thing that
is taboo:

You want to stop the bus and get out, but you cannot.
To no one else has it occurred to stop the bus. And it
seems that those in favor of speeding up the bus are
gaining the upper hand... [18]

Indeed, not only is death ignored as the way out, but man
makes the very thought of it a crime, substituting instead a
barrage of neurotic, insular and wholly insupportable life
affirmations.

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man is a disease

"Human life must be some form of mistake."

-Arthur Schopenhauer

Man is a disease. As Schopenhauer once declared, man's

existence must be a mistake. He is a germ who thinks
himself a king. To any problem, there is only one cause:
man, and only one cure: annihilation. That this truth is
ignored, mocked and despised is staunch proof of its
character.

The simple and pure answer to all man's ills is too great for
the living coward to ponder, so he hides in hovels of shit and
waits for the reaper to take him away after all. How pathetic
the sight of a person clinging to life, how laughable the
arrogance of the being who brays to the heavens that he is
actually glad to be alive!

CONTROL

When one looks at this piteous parade of crazed cuckoos,

one instantly thinks of the word "control." What avernal
force keeps these retarded vermin from crashing into, or
killing each other off?

The evil elite's control of the mass is highly effective, largely

invisible, always a source of vainglory for the purveyors of
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 pain and a scourge to the moral sheep-dip writhing in
torment below.

For one to deny this world view as paranoid proves only that
the denier is an oblivious dolt and his opinion hopelessly
naive. There is no way to prove that the secret workings of
the power-mad are not what the lunatic fringe posits them
to be.

LIVING IN HELL

For the enlightened one, who sees life as the torture that it
is, overcoming inertia, loneliness and isolation on this
heartless plane is a tall order, ultimately unsuccessful but a
challenging struggle nonetheless.

Living in a toxic environment tends to undermine any will to

be healthy, creative or constructive. For the visionary meek,
the tasks of finding someone to care for and the opportunity
to care, being accepted by an idiotic population becomes, by
definition, problematic. We will see that the miseries
suffered the unique are based on a false premise, but the
need to feel worthy and loved is natural nonetheless.

WOLF AND SHEEP

It is said that in this sad, mad world, there are only two
kinds of people: those who hurt others and those who
suffer. This infantile wolf/sheep philosophy is certainly
insulting to the sheep, who by implication are urged to
accept this cruel dynamic as some sort of "natural law,"
both inevitable and essential. It appears, however, that this
maxim is not only noxious, but untrue.

If there are only two basic manifestations of the disease

called man, then it must be rewritten that there are those
who hurt others, and those who hurt themselves. Those
who are hurt accept the hurt by remaining alive.

The pained one, contrary to popular myth, does not have to

accept suffering from others. He can either fight back or
leave. Since fighting back is problematic for timid souls,
escape from the tormentor's lair would seem to be the sane
decision.

As the vast majority of humanity are mean, belligerent

ignoramuses, the enlightened soul would be well-advised to
give up the ghost and get out. Unfortunately, most don't see
this option, or deny it in favor of more moaning and
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 gnashing, masquerading under the cloak of "a purposeful
life."

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woman is a paradox

"Don't feed males. Don't breed males."

-Andrea Dworkin

Woman is a paradox. She is the obvious better of her male

correlate in everything: intelligence, compassion, longevity,
creativity. This is made all the more evident by the brutal,
fear-filled persecution and subjugation of woman
throughout history by the paranoid, terrified male.

Man fears woman because she is the magician of

procreation, and by extension, holds the key to his own
existence. One might think this would persuade man to
adore and worship woman. It seems, however, to evoke
more curious reactions: degradation, rape and murder.

On the other hand, woman is a traitor to the truth because

she is breeder of the disease called man, the bringer of
innocent life into this criminal world. What would make
informed creatures ignore the data and perpetuate the
affliction of life?

It seems clear from the testaments of advised female

thinkers that the enduring identification of woman with the
mythos of breeder is primarily a male creation, promoted
for inadvisable self-perpetuation. Sadly, man has
successfully brainwashed the majority of womankind into
believing that their identity and worth is tied up solely in
this barbaric, negative act.

The ability to bring forth life is the one act that man cannot
perform, the one power he covets more than anything else.
Obsessed with his own reproduction, he forces this deadly
job on the woman, to the exclusion of all her invaluable
talents.

Woman's myriad aptitudes, including unequaled capacity for

government, business and art, remain sad potentialities for
the majority throughout their lives. It is disheartening in
these days of reputed female emancipation, to see how
many young, bright women succumb to the knee-jerk
malady of childbirth, thusly abdicating responsibility for a
life abused, unfocused, thrown away.
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 BIRTH CONTROL

If a woman cannot remove herself from the race voluntarily,

and will not refrain from dangerous procreative activities,
(an absurd request in the present atmosphere of
metaphysical decay), then conscious, political birth control,
in the form of tubal ligation, is essential. The woman can
then express her sexuality without fear of accident or
subterfuge, knowing that amongst her crimes on this planet
will not be replication of the pig she melded with.

ABORTION

Regarding abortion: man should kill himself. In lieu of that,

he should kill his children. In lieu of that, he should refrain
from all sexual intercourse. In lieu of that, he should
stubbornly refuse to perpetuate this sorry race of goons, by
practicing permanent birth control in the form of vasectomy.

If all of these roads have been abandoned, and one is left

with the hideous beast growing in womb, the only sane
measure left is to immediately eradicate it from the
uninviting face of the earth.

To those who opt for adoption, crying, "If you don't want
your child, we do!" one must quickly retort, "By what plea of
insanity, having forsaken the sorry role of parent to this
misbegotten, would I entrust its cursed existence to a
gaggle of demented christian hoods? I'd rather feed my
newborn directly to ravenous lions than expose it to the
lunatic hypocrisy of you foul goons!"

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child is the victim

"They all disowned their parents long ago, the way you are
supposed to."
-Margaret Atwood

Parents are by definition criminals, saddling the punishment

of being on unsullied souls. Parents are also murderers of
their own offspring since it was their haughty act that
condemned each charge to the terrifying sentence of death.

Therefore, all children have the right and obligation to

murder their forbearers, though few have the courage and
insight to take on the task.

There is much more than an infantile "eye for an eye"

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 dynamic at work here; it is much more subtle. Children,
having suffered existence, earn the opportunity to relieve
their tormentors of life. Each fool who idiotically clings to
life, and recklessly drags another victim into it unasked, has
proven himself unworthy of further existence by the gravity
of his carnal blunder.

The child who is forced by brainwashing or cowardice to

remain on the planet, should then certainly benefit from as
much of the parent's resources as possible, be it financial,
social, or emotional. Even something as simple as killing off
one's parents can afford the survivor more air, food and
water, and this possibility should not be ruled out.

Magician/philosopher E.E. Rehmus expresses the crass

arrogance of the parental mindset succinctly:

Human life grows cheaper with every mewling, puking

infant that is born. Any form of birth control, no
matter how unjust or extreme, is preferable to that
tyranny exercised so criminally now by those who, in
their filth, stupidity, rut and obnoxious lust, blindly and
selfishly birth endlessly forth their disgusting progeny
in chaotic, cancerous growth, shoving and forcing the
guilty in with the innocent in this already over-stuffed
planetary rat-box of accelerating madness and
asphyxation. [17]

CATHARI

Rehmus also reminds us of the Cathari, a 12th century

religious sect who saw this world as hell, and condemned
reproduction. The conspiratorial nature of man's self-
perpetuation is stunningly revealed in historical cover-up:

It is most curious that contemporary mention of this

sect almost always ignores (their) insistence that
human reproduction or procreation is the only
unforgivable sin. Since this world is hell, to foist
existence on innocent beings is a crime. [17]

The Cathari were exterminated by the murderous, moronic

Catholic church, vile promoters of man at all costs.

CHILDHOOD

From the moment an infant is tossed into this chamber of

horrors, we can see, if we look closely, his horror and
despair. The child cries incessantly, and is brutally trained to
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 shut up and face its horrible fate.

As the child grows into teenhood and reaches the age of

reason, awareness (and anger) of his situation grows. It is
usually countered by the criminal parents' inevitable
distancing from the child, now declaring, "I owe you
nothing. I cannot field your anger." The anger, of course, is
a perfectly natural and healthy response to the awareness
that one has been tricked in the most monstrous way.

The rest of its life is spent maintaining as much distance as

possible from the terror of life, through meaningless activity
and numbing addictive substances.

From the time a person leaves its mother's womb, its

every effort is directed toward building, maintaining
and withdrawing into artificial wombs, various sorts of
substitute protective devices or shells. [11]

Absurdity stacked upon absurdity, this creature, hiding from

his own shadow, wanting more than anything to crawl back
into the oblivion of the mother, is successfully duped into
declaring that he loves life!

FAMILY DYSFUNCTION

Returning to the disgusting notion of the parent, observe

how many dysfunctional scum have tried to bolster a rotten,
doomed relationship by criminally invoking a tortured soul,
thinking this sorry child could hide or heal its creators'
fathomless defects.

What actually transpires is that the child, in addition to

inheriting the irredeemable psychic burden of life, also
suffers the tormenting despair of the parents who,
wallowing in their pitiful familial remorse, sense now that
they are not only criminals, but abject failures as human
beings.

ZPG

The most cursory glance at this runaway nightmare should

lead even the least intelligent amongst men to passionately
declare, "No more breeding! No more babies! No more
people!"

Alas, this is not the case. Man pumps out defective, cursed
clones of himself in complete negation of sanity. Any
mention of curtailing population, even in this era of
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 sweeping social disintegration, is met with indignant stares
and charges of genocide.

This incredible disparity between the obvious and the

accepted can lead to only one conclusion: Man is out of his
fucking skull.

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the beast

"I felt a kind of forlorn sense of being lost in a world of

incredibly stupid and malicious dwarfs."
-Aleister Crowley

Schopenhauer called it "The Will to Live," that irrational,

insatiable force that leads man to perpetual despair,
constantly striving for and never achieving complete and
permanent dominance over his environment. This will to live
is, curiously, best expressed as well as extinguished by
suicide, though Schopenhauer turned cowardly moral at this
juncture, perhaps fearing popular outrage.

The successful suicide is the most powerful, indeed the only

valid, expression of total dominance over one's
environment. By eradicating one's environment, one
certainly conquers it.

WAR OF WILLS

Man's blissful self-delusions to the contrary, life amongst

men has always been, and must always be, a terrifying war
of wills between demented beasts. The early primitive
struggles of killing to save one's self, and competing with
other savages for food, shelter and safety has been
insidiously transmuted into the less overt, but equally as
life-threatening principles of economic competition,
academic achievement, social popularity, and mental health.

The man who cannot get a decent life for himself due to low
intelligence, mental handicaps, economic deprivations,
timidity, inability to maintain employment, social phobias,
etc. is left to rot by those who have conquered these ills and
gotten the goods that each poor victim of life needs and
deserves.

A decent, humane world would equally distribute the riches

of man's labor and earth's abundance to all, regardless of
wit or need, but the world is a pig and man's inventions are
savage by definition.
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 Capitalism is the law of the jungle functioning in extreme
sublimity. If one can outsmart you and steal your money,
possession or opportunity, he will, with society's blessing.

If his success prompts your failure, this is well and good,

and he is under no obligation to lessen his efforts or help
you regardless of how badly you fail or how this threatens
your livelihood or even existence.

Through it all, you are both obliged to call it "good business"

and shake hands at the end of the battle. This is cruel and
insane, but just "natural" for man. The insane part is to call
it acceptable.

Life, as accepted by most, is merely a state of big fish-little

fish, bullies and victims, the strong tormenting, exploiting
and eventually devouring the weak. To prove this, ask any
bully if he believes in this theory, and he will deny it angrily.

All big fish feel justified in eating you, and no bully

considers himself such. Al Capone felt himself a victim to
the end of his life. This self-righteousness is part of man's
inherent blindness. The terror of life convinces the strong
that it is perfectly okay to rip the weak to shreds.

Perhaps the cruelest part is the largely successful campaign

to harass the weak into believing that this constant
persecution is part of what makes a cogent civilization.

DEFECTIVE

Man is destructive because he is defective. He is spirit, pure

and egoless, that has become trapped in a merciless gown
of flesh by some metaphysical curse or boo-boo. Thus
afflicted, man is an unbalanced, irreparable thing. The spirit
cries for ascendancy and release, but the retarded, terrified
ego wants nothing less than impossible, total control of its
environment.

Thus spirit and ego are mutually exclusive, in fact

confrontational, having entirely different agenda. They war
continually against the other, often in the guise of intellect
versus emotion, diametrically opposed in their needs and
positions, fueling a tendency towards outward destruction
and internal disintegration.

Man appears to be the first thing created that is consciously

aware of himself, and thus of his inevitable demise. Upon
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 registering this fact, he is struck immediately insane. His
entire life is spent in a futile escape from the one true fact:
he is doomed.

DELUSIONS

Even within man's grand delusion of life being a positive

phenomenon, man's defective brain fills his stilted life with
layer upon layer of sub-delusion. He refuses to see, to the
end of his days, his personal and collective decline. He
ignores his body's decay by increasing indulgence or
grotesque attempts at hiding death with the mask of youth.

As a race, he gleefully assaults his planet with the most

perverted barrage of alchemical toxins and fails to see the
connection when the food, water and air that supports him
becomes irremediably diseased.

His total ignorance of the resplendency of death leads to

comical lifelong, planetwide attempts to forsake it. Thus he
makes his playpen a pigpen, and increases his sorrows. Still
he cannot see that he is his own tormentor, that humanity is
its own crime!

Yet there are signs that man seems to sense that the whole
thing is a bad idea. Educators, for instance, are generally
defensive, angry and paranoid, for they know at root that
they are perpetuating an inferior product. So too with
health-care "professionals," and most others in the service
economy, who smile at the client but whisper, "Worm!" as
they walk out the door.

Everyone hates somebody, and most appear to hate many.

The epidemic delusion that one's personal friends are the
only "good" people, and everyone else is shit, reveals a
partial truth. Everyone is shit. Man is shit.

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anxiety

"Human beings make death the great boogey."

-Alan Watts

Chronic anxiety is the repression of the notion that one

shouldn't be here. One should be dead. Death is the natural
state and life is the intrusive misstep upon that state.
Anxiety is a mephitic cartel of fear and guilt, unresolved
except by death.
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 The feeling that death, either voluntary or involuntary, lies
at the doorstep of man's each future second, creates a
terminally unsettling atmosphere for the loathsome
creature, and whispers disturbing questions: "Should one
impulsively embrace death, or systematically avoid it? How
long can one ignore one's ultimate destiny? How long can
one justify the hunger, greed and shame that perpetuate
this sorry song?

HATRED

Anxiety surfaces in man when he senses how much other

men hate him, their hatred being self-loathing projected. He
realizes that, their individual death-wish suppressed, other
men wish to kill him.

Man sees nothing but death in another man's eyes, and

realizes he would be murdered if at all possible. The
frightened creature would embrace, not reject, this
overture, if he saw what a blessing death would actually be!

FEAR AND SHAME

Man's activities with other men, their neurotic friendships,

toxic bonds and conspiratorial groupings, are based on a
fear reflex to befriend those who scare them. If another
man is your buddy, maybe he won't rape or kill you.

It is thus laughable to see groups of men together. They

bray and cackle and posture strength, but signal their great
cowardice by their choice of company.

Man tries to shame his fellows into both productivity and

passivity by asserting that modern life is a gift, an
adventure, a "piece of cake," while granting that historical
life was hard for the primitive man:

When threatened by a wild animal, by fire or flood,

primitive man felt terror and fled, driven by nature's
most powerful instinct: the instinct for survival. When
attacked by beast or man, he felt anger and fought to
destroy his enemy. When blocked in the satisfaction of
his hunger drive, sex drive, drive to dominate others
and to keep from being dominated by others, he felt
rage and fought to destroy the object or creature that
stood in his way. [21]

How sad that the author does not acknowledge that these
primal appetites and reactions still function in modern man
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 as well, twisted and sublimated into neurosis, psychosis and
physical affliction, causing him untold emotional torment as
he chases windmills and swings at ghosts in a ludicrous
shadow play of primitive survival!

DISTRACTION

One of the most subversive effects of anxiety is that it

makes creative and logical thinking harder for the already
defective thinker. For man to assess his situation
intelligently, he would need space to think, and a safe
environment to do so.

Man, at root not wanting he or his fellows to think clearly

about his predicament, has always made sure that his
cultural environment was one of distraction, compulsion,
and stress, to keep him on a course of mass-think and goal-
oriented competition.

Society instills anxiety in its captives in many ways.

Overpopulation leads to crowding and increased
competition, thus promoting fear, anger and alienation.
Conscious and subliminal messages from the incessant
media maintain a fever pitch of psychic paranoia and
confrontation.

Creepy behavioral modification techniques, like promoting

clothing that is too tight, create a feeling of claustrophobia
that the wearer then projects onto the world and his mind,
the net result being a reduction in his power and freedom
over his surroundings.

Food is primarily designed to evoke anxiety reactions, laced

as it is with sugar, salt and fat, all leading to over-
stimulation of the brain, high blood pressure, and a
tendency towards bodily inertia. That these ingredients are
also highly addictive leads to consumptive eating habits and
the resultant general tendency towards mental paralysis.

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mysticism

"Creation myths are not about the origins of the world at all,
but about the origins of patriarchy which has claimed itself
as the world."
-Jane Caputi

All mystical attempts at describing and harnessing life miss

the mark entirely, for their general purpose is to affirm life,
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 that is, find a system for staying in life, whereas exiting life
is the only true revelation.

Turning spiritually inward to escape the brutal face of reality

is a cowardly, and ultimately unsuccessful act, but spiritual
detachment from material reality can perform a desirable
function.

Through intense awareness of the numbing lethargy of

existence, man can lessen his learned, neurotic attachment
to it, and increase the self's emotional withdrawal from this
plane in preparation for a voluntary denial of life.

The meditator, if he is wise, will go beyond the infantile

"contemplation of naval" antics of superficial gurus and see
the profound nothing that life is, learning to not fear its
eventual annihilation.

Man, fearing the true bliss of death, attempts to placate

himself with intricately woven, ludicrous "mysteries of life,"
such as gods, demons, saviors, reincarnation, karma,
nirvana, transcendence, repentance, and soul pit-stops like
heaven and hell.

To entice fools into accepting this life sentence is dangerous

folly, for not only are these myths wrong, they hinder the
individual's sacred attempt to seek the truth within himself
and discover the stunning, beautiful nature of the gift of
death lain before him.

The atheist declares that religion is vile superstition that has

caused untold misery to its creator, man. Thus, the atheist
is half-right: he sees the hideous lunacy of man's fabricated
gods, but oddly, he still believes in man...

RELIGION IS WRONG

To see how wrong all religions and philosophies are, one

need merely apply a simple two-question test.

1/ Are they life-affirming? If yes, then they deny the truth

of death.

2/ Do they accept suicide, the sacred possession of one's

own life, as a valid option for the enlightened? Certainly not.

The enlightened one can and must immediately discard all

religion and philosophy as evil inanity. All are conscript,
deadly to the soul, fodder for the coward masses, pure
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 poison for the individual. Banish them from your house if
you seek truth!

SPIRIT IS ETERNAL

Man, as manifest on earth, is shit, but his spirit is pure,

eternal. The spirit is trapped in the body, imprisoned in hell.
The spirit fears leaving the body, though it would be
infinitely better back in the primordial void.

The closer man gets to some kind of perceived success in

this life, the more traumatized his spirit. Most men seek
success in the blind eyes of their deluded peers. Thus, most
men have crippled spirits.

What meditation on death reveals is that failure on the

physical plane is the doorway to eternal release. Failure in
life is the spirit's great victory. A conscious and visible
deterioration is purer than all the vain competition amongst
the idiot masses, who rot anyway but refuse to admit it.

THE BUM IS GOD

The bum on the street is the closest thing man has to a god,
a shining example of his ultimate truth, and this is why he is
hated and mocked.

The "failed" man represents the specter of death physically

manifest, man's immutable destiny walking amongst men,
and man's simultaneous pity and revulsion merely
illuminates the complete misunderstanding of his spiritual
objective.

Man's purpose on earth is to leave it, to realize his spirit

demands immediate release. Hell awaits all men who refuse
this vital truth. Thus, hell awaits virtually every man.

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paranoia

"Death is not an evil."

-Epicurus

Who can trust anyone, knowing full well that the loathsome
thoughts which lurk in one's own mind must also dwell in
others, that evil punctuates man's every move on earth?

Paranoia is a natural state of perception, as it acknowledges

the potential negative truth about the universe. It is another
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 subliminal manifestation of the specter of death, an
inappropriate, neurotic attempt to repress that awareness.

Behind the mask of paranoia, as behind all neurosis, lies the

face of death, hiding but always watching, guiding
perception through strange mental filters. Paranoia declares
that the end result of all eventuality is death. Neurosis
begins with the desire to suppress that fact.

Man's problems accrue with the inability to balance

theoretical scenarios with their objective plausibilities.
Mental health and successful functioning lie in knowing the
difference between what others can do to you and what
they probably will.

Paranoia whispers that each of us, in our darkest moment,

is rotten, because we see the rottenness in ourselves and
our actions. It suggests that each of us at core feels utterly
powerless against the beasts surrounding us.

Paranoia projects how we really feel about others; how we

wish harm or death on those we love; how we cheat, lie and
plot. It also suggests the negative potential of any situation.
Your next-door neighbor could in fact be a CIA agent hired
to spy on you; somebody's is.

People have plotted and murdered innocent strangers

throughout history. You could be next. The challenge with
paranoia is to avoid untoward obsession on negative
potentiality. It causes grief and paralysis in those afflicted
with this heightened state of awareness.

It is essential one believe they will survive any conspiracy

directed at them; even better, knowing death to be an aim
not a calamity, if one doesn't care.

CREATIVE PARANOIA

Steven Starker called paranoia "the opposite of creative

thinking," whereas it is the epitome of creative thinking, the
moreso as it tends not to be life-affirming or comforting,
taking to its logical conclusion the negative potential of a
situation.

The psychological benefits of paranoia are many. A

successful trial with paranoia reveals how fragile that
delusion called "reality" actually is, how thin the line
between consensus reality and one's personal flights of
fancy, and in the long run, how insignificant that difference.
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 The successful paranoid learns not to rationalize or repress
his fears, which would be like bailing out an endless flood,
but to function fully with those fears, with the notion that
reality may be the thing he believes, or something wholly
different.

MADNESS

Paranoia's demand for psychological flexibility leads many to

madness, for man's defective mind by nature cries for rigid
structure. Nothing is what is appears to be, especially man's
errant view of himself. To see this without psychic collapse is
a profound challenge.

Madness, however, traps many souls into that alternate

reality which neither seeks death nor accepts it, and sadly,
the insane are invariably dependent on abusive, ill-advised
caretakers to perpetuate and enhance their sorry state.
Accepting all reality, including death, as valid and positive,
is the only cure for madness, save for death itself.

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food

"Eating is a process of possession, incorporating a part of

the world into yourself."
-Don Gerrard

The conspiracy of man against the individual rears its ugly

head in the vicious machinations of the food-manufacturing
and distribution conglomerates. The goal of corporate food-
mongers is to horde earth's edible resources, killing it,
processing it so that all nutrition is gone, and adding
addictive substances to make its ingestion more a sensory
than a sustenance experience.

The resultant crap is then sold to the individual en masse at

ludicrously inflated prices, with packaging and advertising
proclaiming it to be a healthy product, when it is in fact
lifeless garbage. It is disturbing that so many actually
believe in the nutritional validity of something as
paradoxical, say, as a "fat-free" donut.

CARNIVORE MYTH

A widely perpetuated and accepted myth is that man is a

carnivore and needs meat to live. This is absurd and
demonstrably untrue, merely another proof that the
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 virulent, homicidal germ self-named man needs to torture
and devour any living creature he can lay hands on:

It is obvious that our natural instincts are non-

carnivorous. Most people have other people kill their
meat for them and would be sickened if they had to do
the killing themselves. Instead of eating raw meat as
all flesh-eating animals do, humans boil, bake or fry it
and disguise it with all kinds of sauces and spices so
that it bears no resemblance to its raw state. [16]

FOOD FIX

Man's foodstuffs are designed with addiction in mind. His

inability to function intelligently can be seen in the infantile,
insurmountable addiction to edibles. Rather than change
faulty, life-threatening eating habits by avoiding the
offending substance, man, purveyor to his own despair,
spends enormous time and energy promoting synthetic
imitations of the coveted contraband.

Consider the sad addict who eats organic, overpriced

sesame chips because he was never able to conquer his
craving for greasy potato chips, or the poor fool whose
disgusting love of bacon leads him to eat laughably
tasteless, chemically dangerous parodies of the execrable
strips of slain pork fat. Having never been able to remove
the addiction, man is prone to absurd and foolhardy
surrogates of the cherished object of addiction.

Likewise, food staples are often not what they appear to be.
Carbohydrates, touted as the givers of energy, are addictive
in quality and inflame man's neurotic gluttony.

BEHAVIOR MOD BREAKFAST

Breakfast cereal is a big source of poisoning and subliminal

programming. An ominous, relatively new addition into
mass-market cereals is the raisin.

A disgusting, pustular piece of mock-meat stuck into the

unnatural purity of sterilized, processed grain, the raisin
sticks out like a sore thumb. Can it be just a whim of
manufacturers to insert a piece of revolting fruit to make
the cereal appear more healthy, more organic? Unlikely.

The reason for the raisin's epidemic appearance in cereal is

to get the population used to eating flesh-like items, for the
days shortly after nuclear Armageddon when the masses
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Part of the elite's master plan of population reduction and

societal reorganization is for brother to eat brother and man
to eat child. The power-mongers know that man is not by
nature a carnivore, but he has been trained since birth to
think as a beast, to believe he is king of the beasts. Any
sober observer of the feasting beast will tell you man is king
of nothing.

The one feature man ignores is the one feature, in fact the
only feature which separates him from the animals, a gift of
sorts from the accident of evolution: the power to negate,
to doubt and refuse, to negate a premise, to negate his
existence. Given this gift, he abandons it, preferring to be
just another dumb swine.

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self-loathing

"That's it! We're all the same schmuck!"

-Lenny Bruce

Man loathes himself. He is so phobic about his body, he

demands it be covered. Whether from a natural revulsion of
the offending carriage, or fear that he is so unstable that
the sight of his own flesh will make him fuck or kill
everything in sight, man asserts thusly his grave defect to
the universe.

The loathing of self is a natural, if uncomfortable, state of

being where one takes the horror of existence, the anger at
being aware that one exists, and turns it self-ward, upon
the victim of the crime.

It is very difficult to focus one's anger on the real culprits of

one's pain: the parents, the society before them that
brainwashed parents into thinking that birth was a gift not a
curse, one's mythical gods, or even nature.

PROJECTION

Since the experience of having taken one's rage at the world

and turning it upon one's self is basically unpleasant, the
average person, after emotional assimilation, projects his
self-loathing onto his peers and acquaintances, (not the
cause of his problem, but the nearest objects for scorn),
and thus becomes the generic, garden-variety misanthrope
which comprises 99% of civilization.
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onto the ontological self, either flagellating himself with guilt
and self-punishment, or destroying his psyche slowly
through the curse of addictive mythical delusion (i.e. new-
age philosophies, organized religion, etc).

Self-destructive behavior is by nature self-loathing acted

out, but man misreads it as reinforcement of early parental
dictates that one was unworthy of love. Self-loathing is a
chronic punishment of self for remaining in life, when at
heart one knows that death is the better place.

The enlightened one throws his entire burden of self-

loathing onto its rightful heirs; its creators, be they his gods
and cosmos, the retarded machinations of nature, or his
actual tormentors, parents and society.

Realizing that he is the innocent victim of a cosmic mistake,

the enlightened sees that his every action is by definition
blameless. He despises not himself or others, but the whole
process in general which leads to this hideous state of
hypnosis, and seeks its erasure first in self-knowledge, and
then in self-eradication.

MATURITY

Man deems it a sign of great maturity to move beyond the

anger of being born by forgiving one's parents and
embracing with gusto and thanks the putrid gift one was
bequeathed. This notion is not only psychologically
unsound, it is spiritually deadly. To repress and abandon
one's primal life issue is to assure self-hatred and
intellectual stillbirth, leading to soul-death and mass-think.
All that transpires from the forced espousing of life is self-
loathing ad nauseam and suffering eternal.

Psychologists tell us that maturation consists not of

resisting, but of understanding, molding and oftimes
accepting one's natural (negative) inclinations. As man
progresses through his sordid and hopeless life, he learns
ways of adapting to and coping with increasing numbers of
difficult situations.

Given enough time, certain men might come up with

systems for any contingency, but what's the point? Either
his or others self-loathing will sabotage and mangle all that
his "better" self has struggled to wrought.
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parasitic human bacteria one is ill-prepared for, the
conspiratorial eventuality one never dreamt of. Assuredly,
these negative events will overwhelm the soul afflicted.

Man's self-loathing, actually the very simple confession of a

mistake, could be so easily vaporized by recognition of the
simplest truth. Death remains, through all the struggle and
futile psychic maneuvers, the unwavering punch line to the
ever-recurring joke called life.

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society

"It seems as if there were no progress in the human race,

only repetition. We can almost hear then, if we listen,
singing the same old song..."
-Virginia Woolf

Were one to describe phenomena through the foggy lens of

superstition, one would have to say that life is the
invocation of demons. Since rising above superstition is the
highest goal of intellect, one must revise that thought and
state that life is merely a mistake befallen man.

Man, despising himself, bands into groups of men, calls it

society, and worships the notion of man that this group of
fools suggests. Loathed and forgotten even in the self, the
individual does not exist. His voice counts for nothing, and
society, only a sinister conspiracy of individuals, is a
tyrannical, dangerous illusion.

While many have noted that society persecutes and

ostracizes the individual, few have gleaned the true reason.
Society, that is, other people, hate the individual, the pure
incidence of specific "man," simply because he exists.

All know at root that existence is a crime and a folly, and all
secretly seek to end it. Society, therefore, punishes the
individual for existing, for having the cowardice and
audacity to exist. Other men punish a man by terrorizing
and tyrannizing him, mocking and hounding his every move.

PREJUDICE

Prejudice is man's crown. No matter what one says or does

concerning a person or group of people, it is all for naught if
the subjects(s) in question simply do not like them.
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bestowing all with equal rights, everyone knows of
situations where they were rejected by the group solely on
personal grounds. This occurs from the gutter to the highest
floors of science, academia and politics. If you are not liked,
you are excluded or destroyed.

There is nothing mental, material or spiritual which an

individual possesses that society does not devalue, destroy
or steal. The congregation of men, being a congregation of
cowards and fools, must of necessity be a toxic union, a
danger to all souls. Woe to the soul who is imprisoned by
men he thought his friends! Woe to us all!

RESOURCES

To see the folly of man's evolution into this mass of writhing

worms, to see that it is essentially a bad idea, one need
merely look at how incompatible his existence has been with
the health and growth of the planet onto which he clings.

Extremely clever at extracting the available resources of the

planet, he has been less adroit at abstaining from
eradication of these finite assets, and of limiting his own
growth to maintain that delicate balance between nature's
need and his own.

The planet is dying. The only reason is man's existence.

Greed, gluttony and indifference have poisoned every inch
of the globe, and many precious necessities of life are now
terminally threatened.

Soon, the very oxygen and water needed to sustain life at

even the most minimal level will become contaminated to
the point of uselessness, and then the parasite may see his
own machinations end his life, a suicide of sorts, but one for
which he can take no credit.

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technology

"The glut of information was dulling awareness, not aiding

it."
-Jerry Mander

Man's insidious obsession on technology and progress in

every field of endeavor has only one goal in mind, again
revealing his misanthropic nature. Each new development
diminishes his dependency on other men.
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 Man, despising men, despises his dependence on them. The
further he can get from other men by technological
advance, the better he feels.

Most advances in science and industry have the conscious

aim of easing man's physical and cerebral burden. The
subconscious desire is to make others obsolete.

Man is not happy unless he has made life harder for the
next man. His ideal goal is to disempower all others, and
make himself self-sufficient and omnipotent. Each man has
this dream. Only the most clever few achieve anything close
to it.

The law of the jungle is supremely evident in the elitist

nature of power distributed by those who own, create and
develop technology, and those who must defer to it,
purchase it, or seek new means of survival because of it.

Man looks proudly at himself, his tedious evolution, his

minuscule advances, his pathetic discoveries, and asks us to
marvel at his progress, his ability to extend the suffering of
life and simplify man's task to the point of stultifying ennui.

What these foul ghouls can't accept is that all man's

delusory progress achieved is for naught as long as man
himself remains a feckless, irresponsible beast.

As long as one man amongst men is unsafe from his

brother's deranged hands, life is a bad idea. Since man will
always be a primal threat to himself, life remains a folly
until it is no more.

COMPUTERS

Contrary to the big lie, technology removes jobs.

Computers, for instance, have created a world of men
physically isolated from one another. Software technology,
employing the very fortunate few, has sent millions of
tradespersons, from typists to mathematicians, graphic
artists to accountants, scrambling for fewer, more
specialized jobs.

CONSUMER RADIATION

There is a microcosmic amount of radiation purposefully

placed into many health and beauty products such as
deodorant, to increase tolerance for radiation, as the
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 nuclear reactors around the globe burst and decay and feed
man deadly daily doses of atomic death. This is also good
preparation for the coming holocaust.

Learning to live with radiation is also the goal of the

patently dangerous microwave oven, now a staple in the
middle-class home. It seems duly curious that a mere
decade after microwave technology was declared by
numerous thinktanks to be too toxic for the mass market,
the planet was flooded with the boxes of death. Soon, all
will own one.

Did they make the microwave safer? Certainly not. They

just made them more palatable to forgetful mass man. Even
today, should one mention toxic radiation to a microwave
owner, he will laugh in your face even as his skin twitches
from a secret atomic scourge.

ELECTRICITY

Electricity, the invisible force all around us, is one of the

great secret contributors to man's post-modern anxiety and
lethargy. It is all the more insidious as it is invisible and all-
pervasive.

One look will show how hopelessly addicted man is to it, his
primary means of propping up his pathetic cardboard
culture. Man's addiction to electricity is not merely to the
products of its service, but also an actual addiction to the
seductive electro-magnetic force of alternating current.

Man sits mesmerized in his easy chair, vaguely aware of a

buzzing in his veins, a ringing in his ears, a sense of being
gently invaded. This is not fancy, but a subliminal sensing of
the bombardment of the body by radio and electrical
impulses that prowl every inch of man's tainted habitat.

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culture

"The happiest man was the one who came nearest to killing
the obvious human desires, hopes and aspirations; the
soaring, starving poet."
-H.L. Mencken

Culture, that cloudy mirror of man's self-delusion, is as

sickly as he is. Science and business offer nothing but
reinforcement of man's basic defects, magnified ingloriously.
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 That malignant label for man's communal distractions, "pop
culture," is little more than an expression of man's
inexhaustible infantility.

Note man's fixation on the music, icons and fashion of his

youth. Supposed "adults" strut about in sneakers and
baseball caps, whistling songs from their teenhood, looking
like third-world street urchins or expressionist autisms.
Their laughable image suggests they are pickled in eternal
adolescence, a situation ripe for exploitation by the elite.

Different avenues of culture offer a variety of dead ends,

some of which afford a modicum of interest. All show the
great zest with which man tries vainly to distract himself
from his enigmatic place in his world, and his inability to sit
still long enough to intelligently ponder his fate.

Art is the closest one can get to death without dying. In

great art, one can sense the life process unfolding to its
logical conclusion, see the artist evolve into a spiritual
being.

Art is a powerful expression of the ambiguity of the life

experience, the grappling of the inner mind with the
incompatibility of life and death, and though it is a cheat
because it is not death, great art opens the door of the mind
to the efficiency of death that is more powerful than any
intellectual or dogmatic caper.

Art then functions like a kind of universal awareness

practice, not unlike the mindfulness of southern
Buddhism or the 'Attention!' of Zen. [7]

ALIENS

All of the recent crap about fools recalling abductions by

curious somnambulist aliens is one of many signs of man's
imminent crack-up. These and other delusions are the
expected psychotic reactions resulting from man's
suppression of the disturbing truth that he is insane, and his
world is dying.

NEAR-DEATH

The same is true of the epidemic of "near-death"

experiences, fortunate survivors telling of white lights and
tunnels of love. These phenomena have been traced to
universally experienced chemical processes in the brain, and
have no more supernatural import than the average case of
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Again, the deranged and terrified individual seeks to adopt

some comforting, infantile worldview that will take the edge
off the internal terror threatening to erupt at any moment.
These anxiety-fueled delusions act as panacea for those
who cannot bear the pain of their folly and their doom
without the trappings of myth and fantasy.

TELEVISION

Television is an insidious, highly-addictive brainwashing

device. It destroys one's thoughts. Man indiscriminately,
passively absorbs ludicrous amounts of informational
imagery, then arrogantly claims that negative propaganda
has no effect on him, that he can pick and choose what is
being fed into his mind. This is like claiming that one can
devour a feast of foodstuffs and not digest that which is bad
for him.

The planet disintegrates daily, yet man focuses all his

energy on his immediate ego-needs. He is blind to the
realities of life like overpopulation, crime, disease, pollution,
economic collapse, environmental disaster, and his own foul
stupidity.

MUSIC

Popular music is designed to be a surrogate thought

process, constantly droning in one's head even after the
recording stops, seducing man with deceptively banal
messages, all life-affirming and group-oriented.

In a neurotic attempt to fill the unbearable void of silence,

man clings to music and other media until it becomes
impossible to think one's own thoughts. Most don't miss
them.

RADIO

Rock music stations have one goal in mind: the

degeneration of brain cells, to facilitate mass-think in
zombie men. Rock stations solicit and conquer already low-
mentality, dysfunctional flotsam, primarily teens and mental
defectives, and further degenerate their feeble brains with
an assault of earsplitting dissonance and sophisticated
subliminal messagry.

The basic aim is to create a non-thinking, reactionary

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culture, rather than taking control of it and thinking for
himself. These brain-dead goons make hard-fucking, hard-
working citizens, and in conglomerate they make mean
armies too. Thus the preponderance of rock and roll "fans"
in the military, and in the construction industries.

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murder

"The universe is an intelligence test."

-Timothy Leary

Murder is an unnatural act, since it is a deflection of one's

true goal, self-annihilation. It is an extremely
understandable act, however, inasmuch as it flexes a
powerful innate desire to extinguish life.

As one is unable to see the wisdom, nay necessity, in

extinguishing life, the moreso he desires to extinguish
others, not out of mercy, but an empathic projection of
one's own loathing.

The escalation of murder for no reason at all shows that

man's eternally suppressed self-loathing is reaching a peak,
ready to burst in a blood bath of long-overdue genocide.
That this death is called for and timely is unquestioned. That
it need be perpetrated on others rather than initiated
voluntarily by the self is unfortunate.

Man's obsessive monologue about murder, demanding death

penalties for criminals and shallow tears over the "untimely"
death of innocent children, reveals a neurotic expression of
one's personal death wish. The sympathy or anger
expressed at murder or unsolicited death badly masks envy,
a wish to take the dead one's place.

If life had been essentially a good idea, needing only time

and love to perfect it, one might look to the history of the
world to see signs of moral evolution, trends suggesting a
decrease in man's insatiable interest in annihilation. Such is
not the case.

WAR

War continues unabated, aided now by bestial technological

advances manned by drooling idiots who massacre
thousands with a grisly stroke of the scientific wand and
blithely salver, "It saved many lives..."
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from without, and has as its targets, primarily anonymous
others. As with the thrill kill, the victim of war suffers
because he has caught the momentary gleam of hate in the
killer's eye.

Unlike the thrill kill victim, war casualties usually share not
even a modicum of parallel with their killers. War, as all
killing, is self-loathing projected, a partially cruel act of self-
punishment, giving the other what one wants most himself,
that is, death.

DOMESTIC VIOLENCE

Domestic squabbles fueled by alcohol and mental defect

continually turn into death sentences for one or both
parties. And the relatively recent ascent of the thrill murder,
man torturing and slaying an often smaller and weaker
specimen than himself just for fame, kicks or sexual
release, suggests a species gone sicker by the minute,
begging his illusory "gods" to intervene and exterminate.

MERCY KILLING

Mercy killing is an entirely different matter, a rare act of

great courage and hopefully, with all of the belated focus on
euthanasia, an increasing trend. Ideally, parents en masse
will soon realize their grievous error and put an end to the
life of their misbegotten, bestowing the great gift of
nonentity on them and recovering a tiny fraction of the
psychic damage rent on their tortured little souls.

But one should not weep long over the cause of one's
departure from this fey barnacle. Murder, suicide or natural
cause all have the same releasing effect. Death is death,
pure, and very simple. It is the blissful, eternally-awaited
release of the spotless spirit from the stinking, deformed
entrapment of matter.

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intelligence

"His mind was contaminated with nothingness."

-Gil Brewer

What passes for intelligence on this psychotic plane is

merely an exercise in cerebral auto-eroticism, insular
arguments of a faulty brain rationalizing the existence of its
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THOUGHT CRIME

Those who are cursed enough to be ahead of their time are

mocked, ignored and reviled if lucky. If not, they are
harassed, persecuted, exterminated.

Man's consensus of collective denial must be upheld at all

costs; thus all seers or visionaries who dare speak the truth
must be slaughtered to preserve the fragile insanity of the
whole.

Enlightened beings have always had a rough time of it

amongst men of ignorance, but this conflict reveals not one
but two truths. That great minds are summarily dismissed
by the mass of pigs with a flippant, "Wow, what a cunt!"
reveals not merely the lack of intelligence in the speaker,
but the inherent defect in man's cherished process called
"thinking".

Since man can never successfully separate logical thinking

from subjective, self-interested thinking, cannot honestly
delineate where his own knowledge ends and opinion,
assumption or wish proceeds, there is no way in which man
can draw a rational conclusion to anything. Man's thinking is
always poisoned by his fears, hopes and dreams.

FAULTY

Man's insular arguments to the contrary, it is disheartening

to see how two brains, given exactly the same problem to
solve, will invariably come up with entirely different, in fact
antithetical, conclusions. While cute as a parlor game on a
slow night, it does certainly suggest a grave defect in the
apparatus.

This disparity has nothing whatever to do with always-

cherished "original" thought. Creative thoughts emanating
from a fertile mind will have no parallel. Given a problem to
solve, however, man should be able to achieve a similar
conclusion as his fellows. As he does not, we doubt the
machine.

THOUGHT CONTROL

Seers know at heart that the mass of men is in conspiracy

against the thought processes of the individual, flawed as it
is:
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thought is this: that it will be swamped under a flood
of human silliness.... It is possible for clever cynical
men to control (the many) by supplying them with
drugs, by keeping them from reading good books or
thinking original thoughts, changing them ultimately
into idiots by giving them a good time. [10]

This "conspiracy" has always existed against original

thought, especially applicable to the taboo of suicide:

The aim of those who try to control thought is always

the same. They find one single explanation of the
world, one system of thought and action that will
(they believe) cover everything; and then they try to
impose that on all thinking people. [10]

This can be tested simply. If one does not have the right to
exterminate one's self at any given moment for any given
reason, he lives in a thought control prison and must rebel.

MASS THINK

Man, suspicious of his mental capacity, is terminally

defensive about his opinions. Knowing he's probably wrong
on any count, he desperately seeks to align his opinion with
that of the masses. It's as if he's been told somewhere that
his opinions must conform to mass opinion, and is thusly ill-
prepared when called upon to think for himself. Thinking for
one's self is, at root, a subversive act.

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economy

"Capitalism is founded on greed and envy."

-Charles Long

The powerful elite who run the world are full of self-loathing
for being too cowardly to die. They turn that loathing onto
those weaker than they, namely the masses, and achieve
endless delight devising ways to manipulate and torture the
poor fools below who don't get the joke.

MEDIA

Notice firstly how all media, though violent and nihilistic, is

essentially life-affirming and non-conspiratorial, rarely
giving even the faintest clue as to the error of existence, the
emancipating power of individual or collective suicide, and
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elite.

The media focus energy on consumption, comedy, sports,

melodrama and all the other effluvia of man's little life, as if
it meant anything, even to its owner. The "big" events, if
covered at all, are mentioned with ever-ascending
ambiguity. One never hears the truth of any given situation.

The economy of a free-market society exists for one reason:

to enslave the mass of men and keep them groveling for
peanuts to paste over their heads on rainy nights. What
poor sap has not succumbed in at least one dark moment of
his life, to the absurd fascist notion, "I gotta work if I wanna
eat!"

SLAVERY

The vast majority of humans work for shit, and those with
great power don't work at all. They just take.

Who has not heard of some poor lunkhead who, having

suffered divorce or other economic setback, solemnly
shuffles off to two or three jobs a day just to keep the bills
and alimony coming, because he sees himself as "a good
man?"

That man probably gets drunk at night in front of the TV

and goes to church on Sunday to reaffirm this inner tyranny,
yet still somehow views his life as essentially "good."

How the evil brainwashers of man must laugh down from

their ivory towers on this fool's wormlike stupidity, seeing
the magnificent trick they've pulled on the poor orphan.
Someone should kill that man and give him the peace and
glory he deserves!

ECONOMIC GUINEA PIGS

The economy is manipulated by the evil ones to maintain a

state of unbalanced stupor amongst the hoi polloi,
sometimes withdrawing a commodity like coffee or gasoline
just for the fun of seeing all the worms cry and wriggle in
withdrawal.

Economic engineers achieve the same result (shock testing)

in studying the behavior of the economy and the consumer
public by carefully selecting a staple commodity such as
beef, coffee, gasoline or sugar, and then causing a sudden
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everybody's budget and buying habits out of shape. Then
they observe the shock waves which result by monitoring
the changes in advertising, prices and sales of that and
other commodities.

And, one might add, a change in occurrence of murder,

violence, depression and alcoholism. Man is so dependent
on his fellows in such pivotal, pathetic ways, it is sobering to
think how easily the elite could pull the string and watch the
vermin eat each other alive. Birds in a cage die without
seed.

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addiction

"What do you mourn with your tears?"

-Marj

Addiction is an easy and popular delusional "escape" from

life's ills, based on the false assumption that a pleasurable
stimulus can be obtained without its depressive and
debilitating antithesis.

The dependent fixation on drugs, alcohol, food, sex,

material possession, or dogma is a trap every being alive
has fallen into countless times. Immeasurable suffering
emanates from the attainment of one's supposed desires.

The lesson one learns from addiction is that one cannot

escape life except through death. The difficulty in
attempting to escape life while alive is so great that none
but the strongest few can control intake of the addictive
substance, and the vast majority of addicts constantly fear
the specter of overdose.

The logical conclusion of an overdose being, of course, the

long-sought death experience itself, it is obvious that all
addicts, like all essentially healthy beings, seek death, but
due to personal cowardice and societal brainwashing believe
what they really need is a "pain-free" life.

What becomes addiction often begins as something quite

humble, evolving into a neurotic reaction to basic needs.
Addiction disguises a hunger that can ultimately only be
quenched with primal things.

COFFEE
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obsessing on just those natural substances which cause him
the greatest psychic harm. Coffee, for instance, creates
physiological schizophrenia. Acting as a stimulant, it
overworks the brain; as a diuretic, it depletes the body of
nutrients and energy.

Coffee raises the mind up and debilitates the body

simultaneously, a feat also performed efficiently by alcohol.
Of course the end result of indulgence in either substance is
total disintegration of all functions.

ALCOHOL

Alcoholism is often a toxic reaction to mere thirst, mutated

over the years by society's enforcing of strange, toxic
beverages to the individual who, as a biological being, needs
and craves only water. By the time the average moron is
full-grown, his thirst has been so twisted that he sees it as a
sensuous/aesthetic appetite, not a biological one.

This conditioning by society, along with the individual's

obvious predilection to self-destruction, explains the
apparently retarded behavior of many who will, even on the
hottest day of the year, spend their last dollar on a beer and
ignore a free water-fountain nearby.

One must constantly remind one's self what it really is that

is needed, as one toys with the idea of adapting harmful
behavior. As most have painfully learned, addiction often
starts as a choice and ends up as a necessity, dragging pain,
fear and decay along with it.

CONSPIRACY

The conspiratorial nature of an addiction-oriented culture is

transparently evident by the amount of wealth and energy
spent on reinforcing the addictive life-style. Compare the
energy spent and revenue garnered from mass alcohol
consumption with the minuscule pittance spent on education
and rehabilitation of same addicts.

Rehabilitation programs are few and far between, hideously

understaffed and under-funded, located in ghetto hovels or
dangerous, inaccessible medical labyrinths. This disparity is
not an accident, or the reflex of an economic principle.

Man wants his fellows addicted, to not think clearly, and

certainly not to rebel against their macabre existence. So
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The obstacles to rehabilitation act as a deterrent, shaming

or befuddling the potential rescue to remain in the numbing
netherworld of "managed" addiction, ideally neither
succumbing to overdose, nor struggling hard enough to
seek release from the infernal disease.

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sex

"Sex is unclean, not because of the pleasure, but because of

the suffering it brings..."
-Theodore Roeszak

Sex is a vile, disgusting act, all the moreso as it is so

addictive. All sexual acts derive from a toxic urge to beget
other beings, to summon innocent creatures to the fever of
birth. The act of sex is the invocation of a demon, the
demon that imprisons souls on the nightmare physical
plane.

Man, living in a state of high hypnosis from virtually the

moment of birth, seeks sex above all else as he approaches
puberty. To the average miscreant, sex is the alpha-omega
of existence. To him, it means ego, love, companionship,
power, acceptance, conformity, holiness, all form of
psychological nonsense.

Sex is the prime hallucination which taunts man. Man fucks

woman, and immediately is rendered insane by fear of other
men fucking her. Because his pact with her is tentative, he
fears the loss of power that the loss of access to her
fuckhole would invoke.

There is no more miserable man on earth than one who

cannot have sex, though he should be the happiest man
alive. That is how completely twisted the universe has made
the insane derelict "man".

GAY/LESBIAN

It matters not if the sex act be straight or gay, and no seed

need be germinated. The intent of sex is its crime. No
amount of cum-sucking or ass-fucking can disguise the
spiritual import of the act, which is evil and murderous.

Some whine that it makes sense, since procreation is a sin,

to opt for alternative sexual life-styles such as gay and
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 lesbian. While procreation is missed in most gay/lesbian sex
acts, the gesture of begetting, even in a sterile example,
still invokes the demon of soul-killer to earth, and
strengthens his power.

Thus, the case against alternative sexual life-style is not

based on morality, and is an absurd hallucination. It is
based on the metaphysical principle that one invokes by
gesture, and the physical product, even in potential, is
totally irrelevant to the spiritual intent:

It is not because it is pleasurable that sex is a sin, it is

because it makes the babies. More souls for hell....
feeding the devil. [19]

OMNIPRESENT

Unfortunately, sex is a universal tool of attraction and also

the object of that attraction, the force behind all gender-
based action. The amount of energy spent obsessing on the
sexual is pathetic and disheartening, energy that should be
spent on assuring one's imminent demise.

Indeed, a false sense of security prevails in contemporary

society, so deep is the conspiracy to keep man ignorant of
his curse and cure. Man seems intent on pretending to the
very end, and the dying beast continues to pump out little
monsters at an alarming rate, even as individual and
societal psyches collapse into dust.

Even the weakest couples are aware of the dire chances for
familial survival. With an 80% divorce rate, it seems that
no-one really expects their tawdry little bond to flourish, yet
it stops no-one from trying.

At times, a macabre fascination with destruction seems to

actually fuel the sex drive, and as man is innately
destructive, sex will remain one of man's cardinal
infirmities.

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hell

"For this world which thou dost inhabit is itself the realm of
darkness and this very flesh is thy perdition."
-Ecclesiastes

Is life truly hell, or merely purgatory? Certainly no-one with

half a brain, or a heart, could see this pathetic zoo of
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whether this experience of life is in fact, the worst of all
possible worlds, the actual, temporal hell, or merely an
anticipation of the sentence that may await the ever-so-
unfortunate cosmic traveler.

If this life is purgatory, then it is merely the potential of hell,

showing the sniveling coward all of the terrors that could
befall him, and giving each just enough terror so that they
remain in a perpetual state of panic and submission.

But is not the constant, mad dread of calamity, in fact, the

calamity itself? Is not the potential of hell indeed hell? Is
drowning, or the constant fear of drowning, the more soul-
deadening experience? Isn't the fear of pain equal to the
pain?

Purveyors of myth try to convince man that life is not hell,

merely a metaphor, a purgatory, a karmic training ground
for possible future destinations. This is a dangerous and
absurd lie. There can be no worse situation than the one
man finds himself in.

Life is hell, because every birth is an accident, an

unconscious act of the borne. Not one soul breathing
desired to be here, and a choice made by others is
assuredly a prison.

CHILDHOOD HELL

Aside from the family by definition being the murderer of its

charges, one can easily recall a personal experience of one's
self or a close acquaintance where the family unit, far from
providing a safe harbor for the individual to grow and
prosper, was a living hell of mental, emotional and often
physical torment, the youth's loved ones the source of
interminable grief and pain.

Many a child was raped and beaten by their guardians, and

virtually all the remaining waifs suffered extreme trauma
and panic as a result of internal discord between two (or
more) dysfunctional apes, or the more direct assault of
hatred, mental anguish, emotional neglect and abuse.

The world holds a taboo against obsessing on how terrible

one's childhood was, preaching instead to forgive one's
villains and focus on the present. But the world is a pig, a
lunatic brute blind with fear and rage at its karmic capture,
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 and must be aggressively ignored if one is to ever see the
light.

Stories of drunken-brute fathers and spineless-whore

mothers, or psychotic-murderous mothers and distant-
abandoning fathers are legion, and a strong yet sometimes
unfocused anger towards one's parents is the rule.

Certainly, the real reason for the anger is the smoldering

hatred one by nature must have for the venomous buffoons
who gave one life. Too often, unfortunately, it comes out in
diluted ways, and even years of therapy rarely brings one to
the revelation of the truth.

THE ONE TABOO

It is a crime and conspiracy against your fellow man to

actively, vocally wish one's self never born. In fact, it may
be the one taboo left in this age of "everything goes."

Even the fool who actively decries people and says life is a
joke immediately adds that he has some interests or
projects that keep him going.

To acknowledge that you aggressively hate life is seen as a

sign of weakness or mental illness, so thorough is the
brainwashing of your ancestors, so tight the lid of secrecy
on the one truly enlightening fact of the whole universe:
"Life is hell; you have nothing to fear from death; so go!"

BULLIES

One finds many goons who bray that they love life. These
men are fools, so deluded they know not what they say. Or
they are bullies, the ones whose self-despair is so great that
they successfully cause harm and grief to weaker mortals,
and get their pleasure and relief off those who suffer
profound karmic torment.

We are all bullies in degree. Those who would not or could

not harass another human being would gladly strangle a
kitten if they got a chance. It is a natural reaction to
suppressing one's primal rage at life, to wish imminent
harm on anyone weaker than yourself.

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suicide

"Ah, that death would annihilate it, it would be infinitely

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-Shakespeare

Suicide is the only unique and positive act an intelligent

individual can make in this mockery of an existence. It is
the only sane answer to the cosmic mess man finds himself
in.

The only answer to all man's problems, individually and

collectively, is to achieve his utter demise. That one has not
killed one's self yet is a sign that he is a coward, a dullard, a
failed human being, unless possibly he takes his life
tomorrow. Thus, everyone currently on the planet, including
author and reader, is a total and abject failure.

The ideal state of affairs at some point in the near future,

when the enlightened see finally the futility, horror and
greed of existence and the approach of intolerable social
and economic conditions on this raped planet, would be for
people to band together under the banner of "the
emancipated," and to collectively take each other into the
state of bliss so long awaited, so foolishly denied.

The individual feels fear, doubt and confusion regarding his

own demise. Surrounded by friends of like mind, joining
hands, strengthened by the resolve of the group, they could
all lose their fear and perform one final, beautiful act,
perhaps shining a light of sanity on the terminally dull, who
may eventually get it after all.

THE SECRET OF LIFE

The secret of life is to deny it, not by the mental or spiritual

tricks that gutless philosophers and unfocused mystics
constantly invent, but to physically and defiantly end the
cursed, worthless thing.

Certain enlightened ancients perceived suicide as an

intelligent and enlightened spiritual gesture, and as life on
this planet becomes more absurd, painful and dangerous,
one would hope that masses of semi-intelligent might have
the same idea at the same time.

FEAR AND DOUBT

Why not end it this minute, the reader asks? He already

knows the answers: fear and doubt. The ending of anything
takes courage and intelligence, and the crossing of any
bridge requires a certain elusive bravado.
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 Most men have none of these qualities, and for many it
takes a lifetime to summon up the courage to shuffle
through another pathetic day. Very few have the clarity to
see that the only way out of life is death, and there is no
palpable reason to wait for fate to pull the string.

Doubt about our "purpose," (an absurd notion,) or our

"eventuality," (a worthless consideration,) poison almost
every mind against its only pure goal: his own destruction.
No man alive has not at some point realized he would be
better off dead; and the tiniest fraction of them then had
the nerve and character to follow this train of thought to its
transcendent conclusion.

No-one is immune to fear and doubt; thus, the earth is hell

merely by the fact that not one soul living on it desired to
be born, or desires, at heart, to be alive. What possible
solidarity could exist amongst such a motley crew?

DESTRUCTION

Man is mystified by destruction, sensing subliminally its

primordial appeal. We have learned a great deal about the
how of things. The why, however, eludes us, and as long as
this is the case, we will have a yearning for the marvelous,
the explosive event in history.

This is because man sees, usually at a repressed level, that

there is no "why" to his existence. It is a mistake that he
spends endless time and energy trying to rationalize.

Thus, the morbid lure of destruction, the end of

existence in object and animal, holds powerful
charisma for him, as he projects his own, secretly
desired demise onto the cataclysm. [7]

Man wants to kill experience. He wants to kill himself. This

book will never be heard, but perhaps the idea behind it will
ascend into consciousness at some lucent moment in time.

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man's subliminal god

"Man cannot, and will not, face reality."

-George Gurdjeff

Man's subliminal god is the invisible force that guides his

actions and thoughts, unrevealed until the end of his sorry
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showing its face except in protracted venues and sterilized
postures, primarily in the safe venting of harmless levels of
dysfunction.

Man's subliminal god is his darkest secret, the one truth

shared by all his fellows, his greatest terror, his worst
nightmare. Man's subliminal god is fear.

Not merely fear of man, for that is articulated in war,

addiction and hatred. Not merely fear of death, for that is
exploited consciously in every stream of life. Man's deepest
dread is of fear itself, the crippling awareness that he is
powerless against all forces in the universe, including his
destiny.

FEAR INCURS MADNESS

Fear is the inevitable psychological dysfunction that occurs

to each man upon realizing that he is alive with no reason,
and will die without warning. It is the germ of neurosis that
ensures that his every move will be dictated by unfocused
insanity.

Fear robs men's souls of their freedom to hear the truth

within. Fear is not a lofty metaphysical abstraction, nor is it
a groveling peasant's boogeyman. It is a label for the
negative force that inhabits and cripples the host.

That it is a curse is arguable; that is it crippling, assured. Its

ontological origin is of no import. One need not know the
history of a virus to fight it.

AWAKENING

The mystic's and philosopher's cry for "resignation of will" is

the babble men scream while erroneously clinging to life.
When will man awaken and realize this hideous game with
no rules and no winners must be, was designed to be,
ended in one pure, conscious gesture of self-negation, being
as it is the alpha and omega of existence, the one genuine
concord twixt emotion and intellect, the most profound
resignation, the most noble assertion of all?

There are those who would argue that suicide is not a taboo
at all; that it has been around, and utilized by many, since
man began his giant fumble on earth. Suicide as a
phenomenon has indeed been around since the dawn of
suffering, but primarily as anomaly, an unfortunate stab
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 against dire circumstance, a tardy means of escape from
protracted illness, an emancipation for those under extreme
political or sexual oppression, or as a resolution in various
states of mental illness. Always, these reactions to
unbearable circumstance were condemned as evil, tragic,
unnecessary.

Suicide needs to be finally seen as the metaphysical savior

it really is; a healthy, valid option for any individual, of any
age, at any stage of life, under any circumstances, and most
importantly, for any reason at all, even the most impulsive.
If suicide is not accepted as a sound "life-style choice" given
any situation, it is still taboo, and must be challenged.

In addition, suicide should be a concept positively presented

to youth as early as possible, and potential suicides should
be counseled and supported in their decision by society, the
act assisted whenever possible.

This will alleviate the messy, tragic and wholly unnecessary

specter of failed attempts, which result in neither life nor
death but a deformed revision of hell for the sorry escapee.

Sadly, there are those who would shout at this argument,

"But if suicide were available to everyone as an immediate,
healthy way out of one's problems, then everyone would do
it!" The obvious answer to this naive rant would be,
"Hallelujah! That is the whole point! For everyone to die! For
man's reign to cease!"

At this point, most turn and run from the image of their own
pitiful nonexistence. The enlightened, however, see that this
vision of non-extant humanity, and a planet finally free from
torment, rather than being the malevolent nightmare most
fools fear, would be the most sublime utopia one could
possibly imagine.

If man were a positive phenomenon, he wouldn't cause

himself such unbearable suffering. His existence is a
mistake. He must see this clearly, embrace his true destiny,
and shed forever his rotten carcass to become what he was
all along: spirit, immortal and pure.

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