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Sometimes, the pain was too hard to ignore. It dug in with claws and
teeth and tore at my insides. The venom. I could feel it eating away at my
flesh from the injection sites. I’ve learned to stop looking at my arms and
legs, because there was horror in the sight of the dark lines spreading under
my pale skin—skin far more washed-out than it had been when I lived in
the sunny southwest.
In those moments—or maybe they were hours, or days, or weeks—
even memories of my mother weren’t enough to allow me to escape.
Instead, I clung to consciousness, biting off my screams of pain, rocking
back and forth on the floor of the cell, as if movement would speed the rate
of the fire burning up my insides. Speed it enough to kill me.
They wouldn’t let me die, though. The aliens weren’t keeping me
alive because they liked me and wanted to help me. I sincerely doubted they
would ever let me go. At some point, their experiments would end, and so,
too, would I. No doubt on some cold slab in one of the laboratories I’d been
shuttled to by the terrifying robots that escorted me everywhere when I was
outside of my cell or the labs.
Eventually, the pain faded enough that I could slip back into
memories, but the aliens didn’t let me stay there for long. Soon enough, the
door of my tiny cell beeped, and I tensed, instantly alert. Knowing what
was coming.
The door slid open, revealing a robot on the other side. The thing was
like a faceless mannequin from a clothing boutique. It had the shape of a
human, but there was no mistaking it for one. It was made of a shiny white
material, with black rubber-like pieces covering the joints. Sometimes, it
would speak to me, but only to give orders. When it did, it had a tinny,
mechanical voice.
My body still ached, but the fire had died down to embers. Whatever
poison they’d put in my system was leaving it. I suspected they put an
antivenin in at the same time, or directly after. I wasn’t sure, but I didn’t
believe my own immune system was enough to get rid of it.
This point in the process was usually about the time the robot came,
and I held out my shaky hand for the food bar it carried. Without a word, it
handed it to me.
I pulled it close to my chest, cradling it like a lifeline. “No steak and
lobster today? This place is really going downhill.” My voice was little
more than a ragged croak.
The robot didn’t respond to my words, nor did I expect it to. Instead,
its body turned one hundred and eighty degrees, its head remaining fixed on
me—one of the many things that freaked me out about these robots. Its face
—or the blank mask that I assumed was a face—never turned away from
me as it stepped out of the cell. The door closed behind it.
My stomach ached too much for food, but I ate the bar anyway. I
knew better than to resist. I’d tried to starve myself once, and only once.
Waking up with a feeding tube shoved down my throat changed my mind
about such a drastic plan of escape.
After food came rest. I knew I would have at least some time to sleep.
They always let me sleep after my time in the lab. I guess they wanted to
ensure that my body was healthy before starting up the next experiment.
When I awoke, I had no idea how much time had passed, but I felt
significantly better. I felt too good. I feared that another session would be
coming soon. The best way to delay was to appear weakened. I groaned and
moaned as I slid off the cot that jutted out of one wall, limping the two steps
it took to settle myself on the toilet.
My urine burned coming out, but I ground my teeth, clutching the
sides of the toilet bowl, knowing that if I looked into the water, I’d see that
it was pink with blood. In the beginning, this had terrified me, but after so
many sessions that I’d lost count, I accepted it as normal.
As soon as I stood up, the toilet flushed. I scowled at the door,
muttering “I hoped you enjoyed the show, assholes.”
More time passed, and I spent it in memories. The good ones.
Sometimes tripping over a bad one as I walked down into the rabbit hole. I
was dancing at a nightclub with my friend Larissa when the lights went out.
Not the ones in the nightclub. The ones in my cell.
This had never happened before. When emergency lights flickered on
along the floor, I rose slowly to my feet, staring at those beacons in the
darkness. I crept towards the door, stepping lightly as if I might set off
whatever it was that was keeping me in this dream. Nothing changed when
I cautiously reached out and pressed my hand against the smooth surface of
the door. It felt cool against my cheek when I rested my ear against it,
listening—as I had so many times before—and again hearing nothing but
my own heartbeat.
I gasped and jumped backwards when the door suddenly slid open,
the cot hitting the backs of my knees so that I collapsed on top of it. Beyond
my little cell, the corridor was dark, illuminated only by a row of
emergency lights just like the ones in my cell.
I stared into that darkness. Waiting. Fearing. This looked like a way
out. An escape from my hell. But what if it was a trap? A new experiment.
A new and different hell.
I’d seen the corridor beyond my cell many times. Always well-lit,
always empty except for me and my robot escort—and a bunch of
unmarked doors. Some of which led to labs, where I’d been strapped down
and tortured.
Now it was dark, and somehow even scarier than when I’d known
what nightmare awaited me.
I heard a voice whispering in the darkness beyond my cell. The sound
was harsh in the heavy silence. “Hello? Is anyone else there?”
The ability to breathe escaped me as I jumped to my feet, recognizing
the voice—the language—as human. “I’m here!” I almost cried, holding
back the tears with a force of will I didn’t know I had left. “I’m here!” I said
just a little louder, afraid the owner of that voice would move on, passing
me by, leaving me alone in this place.
A shadowy figure paused outside my door, then stepped further into
the light cast by my emergency lights. The way they illuminated her face
concealed her features in macabre shadows, but she was human. So human
that I almost grabbed her in a hug, dissolving into grateful tears.
Instead of doing that, I held onto the last shreds of my control, fearing
that if I touched her, she would disappear like the people in my memories
always did. “Hi.” What else did one say in this situation? I held up a hand
in a half-hearted wave, not trusting myself with any further words. Not yet.
I still struggled to contain the tears, and the fear—fear that none of this was
real, that I was hallucinating, and that I would wake up on another table in
yet another lab.
Her face, twisted by shadows cast from under-lighting, broke into a
relieved smile, then a small laugh as she stepped towards me, reaching out
to me as if she, too, wanted the contact to see if I was real, but was afraid I
wasn’t. “Are you human?”
“Last time I checked, but I haven’t seen a mirror in a while.” I
exhaled in a forced chuckle, wondering if my joke might not be half true.
Who knew what the aliens had done to me?
She did touch me then, her fingers just lightly brushing my tangled
curls, reminding me of my mother. “You’re real.” Her voice sounded
breathless. “I checked all the other cells that I passed and there was no one
in any of them. I thought I was alone.”
I nodded, suddenly feeling a sense of great urgency. I had no idea
why the door was open, the lights were off, and this other woman was free
to wander, but I was guessing that the aliens weren’t going to let that slide
for long. We had to get moving. Where, I didn’t know, but I just wanted out.
Now.
I grabbed the other woman’s arm and pulled her out of my cell.
She followed without hesitation, perhaps coming to the same
realization I had, but she couldn’t seem to stop talking, her words tumbling
out in a breathless rush. “My name is Theresa, what’s yours?”
“Joanie,” I said as I scanned the corridor, searching for the telltale
silhouette of the robots in the darkness. Even in the light, I feared the sight
of them. In the darkness, I wasn’t certain I could handle it.
Theresa followed me down the corridor as we checked each cell,
finding them empty. She passed me when I froze, my eyes fixed on one
door in particular. Unlike the others, it was still sealed shut. It was one of
the doors that I’d suffered behind. I didn’t want to walk past it. When she
grabbed my arm, tugging me towards the turn of the hallway, my mind
retreated from that place, shrinking away, barely able to remain aware as I
wanted to hide in good memories.
We met other women. I vaguely caught their names as I slipped in and
out of awareness. They seemed more alert than I was. Less afraid. I couldn’t
imagine why. One of them had waist-length black hair with dyed-purple
ends and a determined expression on a face that looked to be younger than
mine by nearly a decade. I was jealous of her confidence, but also relieved.
She seemed to know what to do.
Only she didn’t. None of us did. There were four of us, and the only
idea we had was to avoid the robots. So much for group brainstorming.
They talked. I barely listened, my mind wandering—trying to run and
hide. I heard the exhilarating ring of a jackpot, and pictured the flashing
lights. Felt the excitement. Then I realized it was an alarm, and I was aware
again. Aware of where I was. I didn’t want to be there anymore. Without
real thought, I found a place to hide now for real. Like a child hides from
the Boogeyman, only nothing could stop these nightmares. They just kept
on coming, and the other women were pulling on me. Demanding I go
where I didn’t want to. Demanding I move, even though the alarm was
driving me insane.
I’m not here. I’m not here. I’m not here.
I was on the floor, and that horrible dog whimpering sound came
from my throat. Someone rubbed my back, soothing, reminding me of
Mom. When I was a girl, the fighting in the next hotel room would grow
loud enough to invade my dreams, until I awakened in a cold sweat. Mom
would be there, rubbing my back, her breath smelling of cheap alcohol, her
body of cigarettes and strange men. Her mascara would be trailing down
her cheeks from tears that she tried to hide from me, but she was there.
Always there. Until the end—a senseless death that could have been
avoided.
A new nightmare arose out of the shadows behind the warrior-
woman. I remembered that her name was Claire, and she was fierce. Braver
than me. She turned to face the monster at her back, and then rushed into its
clutches with a shout of defiance.
Someone screamed. Then we were running. Leaving the fighter
behind with the monster. My feet thumped out the rhythm of my retreat as
the word “coward” bounced around my mind. She’d distracted it so we
could run, and we’d left her to die.
I heard her shouting, but her words were distant and made little sense.
I had completely retreated now into the darkness inside my head. It was
safer there. Like under the covers, where the man who stood on the corner
watching the girls in their school uniforms couldn’t see me.
The other women were fighting me now. Like I was the monster.
Then I realized they wanted to feed me to it—this horror with scorpion
pincers and wings like an insect. Four arms pulled me closer, and I just
knew there was a stinger somewhere, waiting to strike with more venom.
More agony. I screamed and screamed until I lost my breath. Then my
world went black.
*****
I felt like I was riding on a boat, out at Lake Mead, my body
swaying with the water. Smooth, relaxing movement. But the sounds
around me weren’t relaxing. They were violent. Something out of hell.
Usually, the monsters go away when you open your eyes. At least,
the ones that weren’t human. The ones that were human, well, they never
went away unless you hid.
This time, when I opened my eyes, I discovered that the monster
had changed, and I couldn’t decide if it was for the worse or better.
Tentacles curled around me, cradling me, holding me firmly so my
struggles had no effect. But I wasn’t the only one who’d had no effect with
struggling. Bodies littered the ground around the massive creature, many of
them in pieces. Including the robots. So many robots like the ones that had
taken me to my torture time after time.
Ha! Serves them right, the bastards.
Only now, I was the one in danger. I was the next to be pulled to
pieces. This time, I was determined to face my death with dignity. After all,
hadn’t I wanted this? Perhaps not in this violent a manner, but I’d wanted
the peace. The end to pain.
So I didn’t scream as the tentacle monster lifted me up, pulling me
closer to its upper body. Instead, I stared at it speechlessly, feeling frozen in
the moment, as if the creature and I were part of a painting, one to be
studied at all angles.
Perhaps my mind had truly snapped, because there was a surreal
quality about that moment that made the danger I was in seem distant. That
feeling left me with the boldness to openly study the monster that held me.
It looked almost human above the waist. Only humans weren’t usually so
handsome. Not outside of magazine ads. The eyes though, they weren’t
human—eerie, cold, curious, shiny—like blown-glass paperweights—
beneath long lashes that would put a mascara model to shame.
Its upper body wasn’t much larger than that of a pro wrestler—or a
very big football player. The musculature of that upper body was
impressive, and I marveled that I could take a moment to admire it, even in
the face of my imminent death.
At what should have been the waist, the webbing—the part of the
body that linked all the tentacles to the monster’s upper body— began, and
it took up a lot of space on its own, so that the top of the creature’s head to
the bottom of the webbing looked to be around six feet, leading to a mass of
writhing tentacles. I couldn’t count them, they moved so much, but they
were big, and much longer than the upper body. Each one was long enough
to wrap around me several times, as an array of suckers tugged on my
exposed flesh.
Suddenly, I heard a different quality of sound that snapped me out of
my trancelike state. A huge vault door slid open to my side, and I caught its
movement out of the corner of my eye. Then the tentacle monster
swallowed me.
Chapter 2
NEMON
JOANIE
I was tired of waiting to die, and figured I might as well fight back,
but it didn’t seem to have much effect on the monster that was carrying me.
I couldn’t even see around the coil of tentacles that held me snugly, not
squeezing yet, but I feared they would soon. There was only a small gap of
light where I could suck in grateful gasps of air as I tried not to panic.
I wanted to believe this was all a nightmare, but I’d long since given
up on that delusion. There was no waking up from this. Now, my only
concern was when the monster would eat me. Perhaps it wanted to toy with
me first.
“Help!” I screamed as loud as I could, but I could tell that the small
gap for air wasn’t enough to allow my muffled voice to be heard. I didn’t
know if the other women were still out there, but there probably wasn’t
much they could do to help me anyway.
I felt that we were moving, and moving pretty fast, surprising given
the mass of the monster carrying me. Tentacles pressed against my ears, so I
couldn’t hear much, and I was getting tired of the sound of my own
heartbeat.
What I wouldn’t do for some sad, country ballads, or ethereal New
Age music. I couldn’t even remember the last song I’d listened to. Perhaps
it was at the funeral, when they’d played my mother’s favorite songs until I
couldn’t hear them over my own sobbing.
I didn’t know how long I wallowed in misery, awaiting my imminent
death, before suddenly, I was free. The tentacles uncoiled so fast that I
stumbled as I regained my footing. The slick surface of a metal floor chilled
my bare feet. I’d seen many metal floors lately, most belonging to a lab, and
I couldn’t stop the shivering that shook my body as I stared at that floor, my
naked toes appearing obscenely organic to me against the perfectly smooth,
reflective surface.
Someone grabbed my arm, and I jerked away with a sharp yelp.
“Easy, Joanie. It’s just me. Claire.”
I looked at the tough girl, so young she didn’t even have crows’ feet
beginning their insidious spread around her eyes. She seemed far too
relaxed. Almost happy. But at least there was concern in her eyes when she
studied my face, perhaps sensing I was on the brink of hysteria.
“I’m here too, Joanie.” Theresa joined Claire at my side, her voice
low as she glanced over her shoulder with a frightened expression. “I don’t
know exactly what’s happening, but the monsters are gone, and we’re in the
hold of some kind of space ship.”
Claire shot Theresa a sharp glare. “I told you, Thrax is not a monster.
He’s an alien, yes, but he’s my alien. He isn’t going to hurt you guys.”
“What about the other one?” Tarin was there now too, and they
surrounded me, hemming me in, but it felt good to be around other humans.
So good that I forget to worry about my personal space bubble. Or the ripe
smell of our bodies after being imprisoned. “Your alien just handed Joanie
over to that… thing!”
Claire sighed, pushing tangled hair out of her face. “He needed to
have his hands free to get us out of there. He said Nemon was on our side.”
Even she didn’t sound wholly convinced.
The creature had a name. I didn’t know why that seemed strange to
me, but it did. Giving it a name made it more relatable. I wasn’t sure I
wanted to relate to such a thing. “What do you mean, this Thrax is ‘your
alien?’”
She lifted her chin, her eyes defiant. “He’s my mate.”
The other women gasped in undisguised disgust, but I could only
stare at her, unsure how I should feel. She seemed happy, and proud of her
claim—and of her mate. She seemed to like saying those words, as if the
monstrous form of her lover gave her pleasure—and maybe even a reason
to brag.
“Claire! How can you possibly…?” Tarin’s wide eyes fixed on Claire.
“With that thing?”
Claire took a step closer to Tarin, her gaze hardening to flint. “Don’t
talk about him like that. He won’t hurt you, but if you treat him rudely, I
might.”
Tarin put her hands up and stepped away from Claire. “Hey, I’m
sorry. I didn’t mean to be rude. I was just a little… shocked.”
Claire’s expression softened, and the tension drained out of her
shoulders. “It’s okay. I get why you’d be surprised. I just don’t like to see
him treated like a monster. If you knew Thrax, you’d understand that he
doesn’t deserve that. He’s been through hell.” She gestured to our little
group. “I’m pretty sure we all have.”
The other women nodded, but I could only stare at Claire, pondering
her and Thrax, and the oddity of their relationship. For some reason, my
mind drifted from those thoughts to Nemon, the other monster. The one
Thrax had apparently handed me to during our escape. I’d been too
frightened to wonder how I’d ended up in his tentacles. “What about
Nemon?”
Had he been through hell? And when had I started thinking of the
creature as male?
Claire shrugged. “Thrax didn’t get much time to talk to me about it
before he went to speak to the commander of this ship to reassure them that
he and Nemon will not be a threat. I heard enough to know that they’re
allies, and Nemon is another experiment, like Thrax. Only Nemon escaped
the facility earlier. Years ago. We encountered him in the tunnels beneath
the facility. I thought he had killed Thrax, but it seems like they actually
became friends.” She shrugged. “Or what passes for friendship for two
predatory aliens.”
Tarin glanced around, and it was the first time I thought to give my
surroundings an inspection as well. The hold was large enough to be a
warehouse, with metallic and plastic crates and boxes stacked in neat rows
tied down with strong metal cables. The area where we stood was cleared
space, as if it served some storage purpose that wasn’t currently necessary.
Walls curved high above us to meet a sloped ceiling, and beautiful, slender
women had been sculpted along the ribs of the walls, in a graceful Art
Deco-style.
The art was stylized, but a closer inspection revealed that the
sculptures weren’t human. Their upraised hands ended in short, sharp
claws, and small scales shimmered over their nearly nude bodies.
“We’re on an alien spaceship.” I said it aloud as if I could deny its
truth. The last ship I’d been on had been a flying saucer. I knew that
because I’d seen the outside. I’d gotten a good look while standing on that
deserted road before it had sucked me up and I’d seen my first alien. A
terrifying creature, not at all like the cute little alien toys the tourists buy for
their keychains in Roswell. Slender—but not short—gray skin, long arms
with only three fingers on each hand, the head larger than human, but not
huge like I’d expected. The eyes though. The eyes were what terrified the
most—huge, all black, ovoid eyes that seemed to see the entire universe,
and found it wanting.
I hadn’t been subjected to the sight long before I was knocked out
somehow. When I woke up, I was in a cell. My cell. I never saw the aliens
again. Just the robots.
Now I was on another ship, and from the looks of the sculptures,
these weren’t the same aliens. Thrax wasn’t the same alien either. Nor was
Nemon. The idea that there were so many different kinds of sentient aliens
in the galaxy boggled my mind. I’d thought humanity was probably the
most advanced life form, but maybe, if aliens did exist, then they would be
the grays—like the one I had seen. But to imagine that even more alien
species existed with the power of space travel meant that humanity was like
a primitive backwater species. How could our people not know about this?
Or did they? Was the government truly covering it up?
“What happens now?” Tarin asked.
“I don’t suppose these aliens have a hot tub and a margarita bar.”
They all turned to me like I had just started spouting off words in Greek. I
shrugged. “What?”
Claire was the first to smile. “You seem to be doing a little better
now.”
“You mean I’m not pulling out my hair in hysteria?” I touched my
curls, so tangled now that I wondered if I’d ever be able to comb them out.
“Tried that earlier—almost couldn’t get my hands free.”
Tarin rested a hand on my arm, staring into my eyes with an intent
expression. “You sure you’re okay, Joanie? You’ve been through a lot.”
Heck no, I wasn’t okay, but what good would freaking out do about
it? I’d been there, done that. Over and over again. Right now, I felt
strangely serene. Maybe it was shock. Or maybe it was seeing all those
crushed robots earlier. Speaking of which… “So what exactly does happen
now? I missed a lot of stuff due to tentacle-interference. Are we with
friends or foes?”
Claire bit her lip, which was the first time I noticed that there was a
hole under it—a piercing. “I think they’re allies. I encountered other aliens
like them when I was first put with Thrax. They were prisoners too. The
Iriduans killed them.” Her voice quavered on the last word.
“Are the Iriduans those elf-like aliens?” Theresa asked. “I saw them
on the monitors. Real pretty, but they had blue or green skin.”
Claire nodded. “You probably saw Ilyan and Lania. As far as I know,
they’re both dead.”
“That doesn’t sound like the aliens I saw,” I said.
Once again, I became the focus of their attention.
“Did they put you in with a different kind of alien to breed?” Claire
asked, hugging herself and rubbing her arms.
Tarin gasped as she lifted a shaking hand to clutch the nape of the
hospital gown-style garment she wore that matched the rest of ours. “Is that
why they wanted us? Thank god we escaped so soon!”
Theresa nodded her agreement.
Claire met my eyes, and I could see that she had not escaped soon
enough either.
“I don’t think they were planning on breeding me,” I said, softly. “I
was abducted by the gray aliens. The ones people always talk about.”
“I think those are the Lusians,” Claire said, her brow furrowed,
drawing my attention to another set of holes through one of her eyebrows.
“The Iriduans said that the Lusians had abducted us. I think they sold us to
the Iriduans. At least, that’s what I got from it.”
Tarin crossed her arms over her chest. “So, they’re like, what?
Poachers?”
“That’s assuming it’s illegal to abduct humans,” Claire said.
“Somehow, I doubt that these aliens think it is.”
“So, I spent months picturing my tormentors as those horrible grays,
when really I should have been having nightmares of elf-aliens? I feel
totally ripped off that I didn’t get to see them. It’s so much easier to hate
someone when you can picture their face for your punching fantasies.”
They hadn’t bothered to show themselves to me because they weren’t going
to breed me. Not with my chromosomal abnormality. I wondered if they
had known about it when they bought me from the poachers, or if I was
slipped in with the other subjects by crooked Lusian procurers. I wasn’t
sure whether I was better off being a test subject than a breeder.
Tarin stared at me, her eyes wide. “Oh god! You were a prisoner for
months? You poor thing.”
“I assume it was months. It felt like it.” God, it felt so good to talk to
other people after so long alone. I wondered if I would have been desperate
enough to feel grateful at the sight of one of the aliens—if they had deigned
to show themselves to me.
Claire was about to comment when Theresa made a startled sound,
staring past my shoulder at something behind me.
By the way Claire’s smile spread across her face, I guessed that her
monster mate had returned, so silently that I hadn’t heard a thing. I braced
myself, turning around slowly, while simultaneously backing up until I
stood beside the three women instead of in front of them.
Thrax stood next to another alien that was almost as big as him, but
significantly different. For one thing, the other alien had only two arms, but
that didn’t make it anything remotely resembling human. It was covered in
scales, had thin quill-like spikes poking out of its bald head, and strange,
reptilian eyes.
It held out a hand, palm up. There were three glowing crescents in the
scaled palm.
“Translators,” Thrax said, his voice deep, almost mechanical, as if he
spoke through some device in the ninja-like mask that covered his lower
face.
Claire walked up to him, and he automatically wrapped one lower
arm around her waist as she approached. “Where’s mine?” she asked, her
voice changing to the soft, gushy one that young lovers always used when
talking to each other.
He answered by lifting a translator to gently tuck it into her ear. The
way he touched her was so reverent that he could have been handling a
priceless treasure. I felt like we were intruding on their private moment.
As soon as her translator was fitted, Claire took the three from the
other alien and handed them out to us. None of us had the guts to approach
him, though he stood there so patiently waiting. We fitted our own
translators, not having the benefit of a four-armed alien to help us. To be
honest, none of the others probably wanted that, but I had to admit that I
was envious of how devoted Thrax seemed to Claire.
I wanted that kind of devotion. The thought of being the center of
someone else’s universe—of being a treasure they consider beyond price—
was the kind of stuff that girlish fantasies were made of. The kind of stories
I’d played with my dolls inside the dirty hotel rooms where we’d made our
home while I was growing up. Barbie had a mansion and a man who loved
her—two things that had seemed like impossible dreams for me when I was
a child.
Of course, once I finished growing up, I realized that most people
were the center of their own universe. They didn’t really want to make
room there for someone else. I never could find a man like Barbie’s Ken.
Flowers were begrudgingly bought from the supermarket for Valentine’s
Day without consideration for what I liked. Chocolates were handed off
with suggestions that I don’t eat too many, cuz calories. Negligees were
wrapped up and presented with a smile as if cheap satin and a piece of butt-
crack floss were a gift for me instead of my partner. If Mr. Right ever
existed, some other smart girl had already snatched him up.
I watched Claire and Thrax together as my translator made a few
beeping noises in my ear. It was possible that the net I’d cast when looking
for my prince charming had been too narrow. Thinking of a net made me
think of fish in the sea, which led to thoughts of a certain tentacle alien with
the face of an avenging angel, and the eyes of a cold-blooded predator.
I never would have thought mating with an alien was a possibility, if I
hadn’t seen Claire’s happiness with Thrax. She’d wrapped her arm around
him as if the wings, the exoskeleton, and the pincers—and the pure
alienness of him—didn’t bother her in the least.
Apparently, this galaxy was filled with many different aliens. Surely,
there might be one I could look at with the same adoring gaze as Claire was
giving Thrax. It wasn’t like I had anything to return home to, other than a
mountain of a debt I had no ability to pay. Assuming there was even a way
to return me to Earth, could I go back to my ordinary life after what I’d
been through? I certainly couldn’t tell a therapist how I’d been abducted
and experimented on by aliens. I’d end up in a straight-jacket.
Unbidden, I thought of Nemon again, then shook my head at myself. I
couldn’t imagine why that monster kept invading my thoughts. Yes, he’d
crushed a lot of those robots, which won him a few points in my book, but
surely, I should be more horrified by him than intrigued. I could only
suspect that some part of my rational mind had well and truly snapped, and
now I was at least partly insane. There could be no other explanation.
“Greetings, humans. Please let me know if your translators are
functioning properly.” The spiky alien’s voice was soft and raspy—far less
threatening than his appearance. Strangely, it didn’t seem like he was
speaking English, but I understood him perfectly.
I heard Theresa and Tarin gasp beside me.
“This is crazy!” Tarin said, touching the device that curved around
the shell of her ear, just like mine did.
“I take that to mean they work,” the alien said. He lifted a hand to his
chest. “My name is Prime Commander Tirel. Welcome to my ship, Star
Dancer. You are our honored guests. Please, let my crew know if there is
anything they can do to make your journey with us more comfortable.”
He turned to the side, revealing the hump on his back that was
covered by his futuristic armor. I wondered about it, before being distracted
by a slender female alien who stepped out from behind him, carrying what
looked to be an electronic device like a tablet. She had scales and reptilian
eyes, but her features were softer, and she had no spikes on her head and no
hump under her hard armor suit.
“Second Commander Krea will see you to your cabins.” Tirel
gestured to the female alien. “We also have a medical officer on board, if
any of you need healing.”
Thrax turned his attention away from Claire long enough to address
Tirel. “What about Nemon?”
The Prime Commander nodded to Thrax with what appeared to be
respect. “Your ally is ours now, as well. We do not have a cabin large
enough to house him, but he has already been escorted to the wet-hold. He
has said that he will be more comfortable there.”
“It would probably be safer to jettison him,” Thrax said.
Claire lifted her hand to smack him on the chest, which appeared to
be missing some of the exoskeleton plates that covered the rest of his body,
and then she seemed to think better of it, perhaps recognizing that the hard
armor of his body would hurt her hand. “Honestly, Thrax! You told me he
was your friend.”
“Ally,” he responded. “Besides, I wasn’t telling the commander to
do it. I was only stating a fact.”
The commander chuckled. “I assure you, Madam Claire, your allies
are all safe with us. We’ll confine our jettisoning to our garbage.”
*****
I followed Krea and the other women to the cabins, craning my neck
to get a good look at the ship. It was a work of art, as if the builders refused
to sacrifice form even as they added function. Given the artistry of their
hard suits, which had graceful lines and geometric designs on them as well,
it seemed that they worked beauty into everything they made.
Claire and Thrax had left with the Prime Commander, and I
suspected they were getting special treatment. Once I saw the cramped
confines of our cabins, I realized that Thrax probably would have struggled
to fit into one with Claire, and I got the distinct impression that he would
refuse to be separated from her.
The cabins might be beautiful with their smooth walls and stylistic
supports, but space was obviously a premium on this ship—at least in the
crew and passenger quarters. Not that I was complaining. I’d spent months
in a tiny cell. This cabin was a luxury.
But once the door slid shut behind me, I began to feel closed in. The
walls seemed to shrink around me, the ceiling appeared only seconds from
dropping onto my head. The silence in the room was too profound. The air
cloying. I couldn’t take it. I ran to the door and banged on it, screaming to
be let out.
It slid open almost immediately, and Tarin—who was right next door
—came running. I felt shame and embarrassment as she grabbed my
shoulders, steadying me when I stumbled.
“I can’t be in there,” I whispered, struggling for the breath to speak. I
didn’t know what I expected. Perhaps a robot at the door, waiting to take
me to the lab. I didn’t feel safe, even though I knew we were away from
that place and those horrible mannequin-like bots.
Unbidden, an image of crushed robots littered around Nemon came to
me. I’d fought so much against the robots in the beginning, and their
strength had seemed impossible to defeat. I’d been unable to fight against
their commands. But Nemon had destroyed them.
While I was struggling to catch my breath, Tarin had tapped the
button on her translator that allowed her to communicate with the deck
liaison. “My friend can’t stand being confined in a small space at the
moment. Is there somewhere we can walk to get some fresh air?”
She was quiet as the other person apparently answered, but I had
another idea. “Where is the wet-hold?”
Tarin stared at me in surprise. I was just as surprised. I wasn’t really
thinking of seeing Nemon again, was I? What if he grabbed me and
wrapped me up in his tentacles? What if he really wasn’t a trusted ally? Just
because he agreed to help us escape, didn’t mean I could trust him. Even
Thrax, who was his ally, didn’t really trust him.
But he was strong. Strong enough to kill an army of robots. Maybe I
wasn’t safe from him, but at least I knew that there was no threat he
couldn’t handle. My reasoning wasn’t logical, at all, but then again, my life
was a crazy mess, so expecting things to start making sense now was just
unrealistic.
“Can we visit the wet-hold,” she said, and her translator must have
picked it up because she nodded her head as if she’d gotten an answer. Then
she met my eyes, taking a deep breath. “Krea is sending someone to lead us
to the wet-hold. You sure about this, Joanie? That thing is in the wet-hold.”
Um, duh. I wasn’t going there for the tourist sites, but I kept my
thoughts to myself. I didn’t think she’d understand why I wanted to see
Nemon again. Even I didn’t understand it. Besides, she looked scared at the
thought of seeing him again. I should look that scared myself. Maybe I did.
I still hadn’t seen a mirror.
That realization was enough to send me into a panic as I quickly
assessed my appearance. I was still wearing the hospital gown-like robe I’d
worn for what seemed like forever now. My hair was a tangled, matted
mess, and I hadn’t showered in a long time. If I hadn’t splurged in laser hair
removal treatments a year ago when I hit a rare jackpot, I’d have to contend
with overgrown pit and leg hair on top of all of that.
I couldn’t explain why my appearance suddenly mattered to me at
that moment. I just knew that it did. “I need to wash up. They showed us a
bathroom facility on the way to our cabin right? Let’s meet our guide
there.”
That was one suggestion Tarin could get behind. I wasn’t the only one
who wanted to wash away the stink of captivity.
Chapter 4
NEMON
JOANIE
*****
JOANIE
JOANIE
NEMON
JOANIE
NEMON
JOANIE
The water was cool and soothing on my feet, but the rest of my body
was uncomfortably warm, which had very little to do with the temperature
of the hold. My arm still tingled where Nemon’s suction cups had tugged at
my skin like little mouths. As soon as I pictured them sucking on more
sensitive areas of my body, my core tightened, and the heat that started
between my legs spread through my body, leaving a noticeable blush. Now
I couldn’t get my mind off those tentacles, with their hundreds of little
suction cups, stroking over my body, sucking at my skin.
Before, I had thought myself attracted to him in spite of his
tentacles, marveling at his ripped upper body and refined facial features.
Now, I was more intrigued by those alien parts of him. The parts that
promised an experience beyond anything I could find on Earth.
I studied my feet, dangling in the water, pale like the bellies of two
fish. I was way out of my depth here, and I wasn’t certain what Nemon felt
about me. Protective—unquestionably—but that could simply be an aspect
of his nature, and not something to do with me individually. I’d never asked
him if he would feel as protective for the other women as he did for me,
because I didn’t want to hear him say yes. Not that my new friends didn’t
deserve someone to protect them—after all that they’d been through—but I
wanted Nemon’s feelings for me to be special.
The water would feel amazing against my naked body, but I wasn’t
entirely comfortable stripping down in front of Nemon. He didn’t seem to
think it was a big deal, and I wasn’t certain if that bothered me more than
worrying that he was just trying to get a free show. Clothing wasn’t just
optional for him. It didn’t seem like it was practical.
Coming to a decision, I lifted shaking hands to the seam that trailed
down the length of my jumpsuit from my neck to my groin. It attached
almost like Velcro, only without the bulkiness and loud shriek of the two
sides peeling apart as I separated them.
My pounding heartbeat sped up even faster as I pulled off first one
short sleeve, then the other, unveiling my breasts, though I was still facing
the pool, and Nemon remained behind me—silent, waiting for my decision.
I could feel his eyes on me, and his tentacles were shifting nearby,
unpredictable. Exciting.
As more of my skin was exposed to the warm kiss of humid air, I
really looked at my body and the changes that had been wrought in the
months that I’d been imprisoned. I’d lost significant weight, my breasts
shrinking so much that they sagged lower than someone in their early
thirties should sag. I was embarrassed by the loose skin around my waist,
wondering how many dress sizes I had dropped on my diet of nutrition bars
and pain. A lifetime of yoyo dieting had left my skin with stretchmarks that
seemed to almost glow in the fake starlight.
At least there were no track marks remaining on my arms and legs.
Whatever healing methods the Iriduans had used had cleared those up, but it
didn’t erase the memory of the hundreds of needles that had pierced my
flesh during their experiments.
My body was not beautiful—my skin scarred and loose. As soon as
the jumpsuit lay bagged at my waist—waiting for me to stand up and peel it
off my legs—I felt a sense of panic that Nemon would be able to see too
much of it. That he would be disgusted at the sight of it. I paused, torn
between wanting to rip off the remaining fabric in order to jump in the pool
to hide from his sight, or pull the top of it back up to conceal myself,
perhaps prompting a question from him about why I’d changed my mind—
a question I was too ashamed to answer.
I was so wrapped up in indecision that I jumped when one of his
tentacles brushed against my bared ribcage. It was the slightest touch, and
the tentacle was quickly withdrawn, but it made me glance over my
shoulder at him.
His gaze was fixed on my naked back, the lines of his austere, elven
face hard and drawn, as if he struggled in some inner battle. When his eyes
lifted to meet mine, he released a sharp breath. “You are so beautiful,
Joanie.”
His tone sounded like he meant it, but he hadn’t seen the worst of it.
My back was probably relatively unscathed. I wanted to return to the curves
I had spent most of my life fighting against so that at least I would feel
normal. I shook my head, breaking eye contact to look down at my feet
kicking back and forth in the water. At some point, I had to make a
decision. Leap off into the deep end, or get out of the pool.
It took a moment longer to work up the courage to rise to my feet so
that I could peel the jumpsuit off my legs. As soon as I bent to pull each
pant leg off my feet, I heard Nemon make an audible gasp. I jerked around
at the sound, only to discover that he wasn’t there anymore.
The leaves in the trees and bushes off to my right had been disturbed
by his rapid retreat, and they were still shuddering from his passage.
Tears built in my eyes as I began to pull my jumpsuit back over my
feet, humiliation and embarrassment sitting like a crushing weight in my
chest. I’d literally scared an alien away with the sight of my hideous naked
body. I no longer wanted to swim. I only wanted to get dressed and escape
this place with the tiny shred of defiant dignity that remained intact.
I dressed so quickly that the seam of my jumpsuit was uneven when
I’d finished, but I didn’t care. I pulled my boots on just as quickly,
stumbling as I struggled into them. I felt like a colossal fool. Clumsy,
stupid, ugly….
I froze after setting my second foot down, covered in the
comfortable boot I’d been provided. I knew that voice. That terrible voice
inside my head. It was the enemy that had stolen every precious
accomplishment of my life, the inner voice that took every mean thing ever
said to me and turned it into a song of self-hatred. I’d allowed it to plague
me with doubt. Its refrain had played over and over again after my
miscarriages. Then again after the failure of my marriage, when my
husband hadn’t even bothered to look back as he signed the divorce papers
and moved on with his life, leaving mine in a shambles. It was the voice
that convinced me that something was inherently wrong with me that made
me worthless. Hadn’t that been proven when my grandparents had wanted
my mother to “get rid” of me? Even the aliens that had abducted me had
rejected me for their breeding program because I had no worth to them.
I’d tried to bury that voice by pursuing an elusive jackpot in the
casinos. I’d thought if I could just win big, I would have enough money to
buy a mansion for myself and my mom. I could finally make up for all the
sacrifices she’d made for me, and prove my value to everyone who had ever
doubted me. Instead, I’d only proved again how worthless I was, trapped in
a spiral of addiction and self-loathing. After traveling across the entire
galaxy and becoming an alien test subject, I was still no different.
I was on a damned space ship, hurtling through an ocean of stars at
beyond light speed, powered by an alien race advanced enough to create
these miracles around me, and I was still beating myself up for the failures
of my life, instead of paying attention to my possible future.
So what if Nemon found my body disgusting? Sure, it hurt, but to be
fair, my body was so much different from his. Had I not reacted with horror
to him when I’d first seen him? I’d found his appearance so monstrous, I’d
been certain he was going to kill me. It hadn’t even occurred to me at the
time that my reaction to him might have wounded him, just as I now felt
wounded.
Yet, I had very quickly gotten over my fear. Once I realized that he
was not the monster I’d believed him to be, I found him intriguing—even
compelling. Wouldn’t it be possible to convince him that I could be the
same? I supposed I would have to murder that inner demon of mine and
convince myself of that first.
I had a lot to think about, and my cheeks still burned with my
humiliation, but I wasn’t ready to give up entirely. Although, I figured now
was the time for a strategic retreat while I recovered a bit of my self-
confidence. Besides, I had no idea where Nemon was hiding, and I wasn’t
sure I could find him if he wasn’t ready to be found.
I left the wet-hold, tense as I took each step that brought me closer
to the exit, both anticipating and afraid that he would appear before me, or
come up behind me to stop my escape. I wasn’t certain what I would say to
him if he did that, since his reaction had left my emotions so raw.
He didn’t stop me from leaving, nor did I see any sign of him.
Wherever he’d retreated to—all fifteen or so feet of him—he hid so well
that I couldn’t detect him. The fact that someone as big as he was could
conceal themselves like that was pretty terrifying, and it was little wonder
he left even aliens like Thrax feeling cautious.
I made it to the elevator before breaking down in tears, grateful
when the door slid closed, shutting out the sight of the corridor beyond so
that I could sag against the wall and let the sobs come without fear of being
overheard.
Only a few escaped before I was back on the deck that held my
cabin, and I choked back the rest, chiding myself to pull it together before I
ran into someone else. I certainly didn’t want to explain what had happened.
I paused just outside my door, debating the tiny cabin beyond and
whether I could stand to be cooped up inside there with nothing but my
thoughts and that nasty inner demon to taunt me. Instead of pressing my
hand against the access panel next to it to unlock it, I turned and made my
way to the recreation room.
To my relief, there was no one inside. Most people on this deck
were probably still sleeping. Like humans, the Akrellians were diurnal, but
they used rotating shifts, shutting down the lighting on different residential
decks to approximate daytime and nighttime for their crew and passengers.
Our deck was still darkened for nighttime. As far as I knew, we were the
only passengers in this area, since the Star Dancer had been running a
skeleton crew with no passenger load when they were diverted into Iriduan
territory to seek their warriors.
The Star Dancer was a warship, but Akrellians couldn’t bear to live
without their beauty and comfort, so had decked it out as fancy as any
cruise liner, even though the majority of their passengers were usually
warriors heading off to battle in some galactic conflict or another.
According to Theresa, the prime commander had been distressed when told
that human war vessels were completely austere and utilitarian. He’d
expressed that warriors heading off to a possible—and often likely—death
deserved to enjoy the luxuries that could be found on the Star Dancer in
their last precious moments of life.
Thanks to their appreciation for the finer things in life, every
passenger deck was outfitted with a full recreation room, complete with
access to the GalactaNet, plenty of stored holographic programs, plush
furniture, lush greenery, and artistic flair in all the fittings and surrounding
statuary.
Me and the girls had already explored the hologram offerings and
discovered that the Akrellians loved theater almost as much as dancing and
music. There was plenty to occupy our time if we needed it, but we’d spent
most of our previous visit in the rec room talking to each other.
Now that I had the place to myself, I flipped through the holograms,
using my fingers swiping across the lighted console that sat next to the
longest piece of furniture—a sofa with a strong geometrical design that still
managed to be surprisingly comfortable.
Nothing truly caught my eye as something that could serve as a
distraction from my roiling thoughts, so I settled for a dance video. The
lights dimmed as the holographic image projector lit up, and the end result
was a three-dimensional projection that I could watch from all sides that
looked for all the world like living, breathing dancers, swaying and gyrating
on a stage in front of me.
I realized I’d made a mistake as soon as the beautiful, slender
dancers appeared. Watching the half-naked male Akrellians stomp their feet
and rattle their quills had been entertaining in an eye-candy sort of way.
They had incredible physiques. The females who had then danced onto the
stage—merging their line with the much larger males—made me recall how
not-beautiful my own body was to Nemon, which simply brought back the
embarrassment instead of giving me something to distract me from it.
I was swiping through the videos, looking for something different,
when Theresa came into the rec room, her mouth wide on a yawn.
She saw the video that I was debating watching, and made an
oohing sound as she rushed to join me on the couch. “He’s hot,” she said,
pointing to the Akrellian actor who appeared on the thumbnail for the
holographic play.
I nodded my agreement, before I realized what I was doing. “It’s
crazy, isn’t it? That we think he’s hot?”
She shrugged her shoulders, activating another console that allowed
her to use the food replicator, which dispensed alien munchies we’d
discovered were surprisingly good, especially since they were made from a
nutrient base that was apparently tasteless. “Eh, I think I’m over the whole
‘OMG, he’s an alien, what’s wrong with you,’ phase. You talk to these guys
enough and you realize they’re a lot like humans in some ways.” She
pointed to her temple. “You know, the important ways.”
I gestured to the recreational room. “They think a little different than
us.”
Theresa shook her head. “I don’t believe so. They love art and music
just like humans do. They’re just more honest about its importance in their
lives.”
I studied her thoughtfully, grateful for the distraction from my own
problems. “You thinking of finding an alien mate like Claire did?”
She snorted. “Not like Claire did! No thanks.” She glanced over her
shoulder at the door, making sure that there was no surprise “oh, she’s
behind me, isn’t she” moments before speaking again in a lower voice. “I
think I’d need longer to get accustomed to that. The Akrellians….” She
waved to the holographic projector. “They’re civilized. I can understand
them. Thrax is… more primal. He scares me too much. Claire is way braver
than I am.”
Thrax was definitely more primal, practically growling at anyone
who approached, if they weren’t Claire. Nemon was also primal, though not
quite as anti-social. Neither of them had come from civilizations like the
Akrellians or humans. They’d been entirely focused on survival, and had
never had time for art, music, and theatrics. Perhaps, as humans, we could
no longer relate, but Claire had certainly found a way to bridge the gap. As
for me, I wanted to. I just didn’t think Nemon did, after how he’d reacted.
Chapter 12
NEMON
I stared down at the tentacle growing in a place that had been merely
a scar for so long I had feared it would never return. My genital tentacle had
suddenly and violently burst from my webbing when I saw the slit between
Joanie’s legs as she bent over to remove her clothing. The pain had been
inconsequential compared to the shock of my desperate need to curl all my
tentacles around her and pull her closer to me, entangling her so that my
rapidly growing new tentacle could seek her opening, and press into her
heat as it wanted to. As I wanted it to.
I’d sworn that I would wait for Joanie’s acceptance. Not just to
myself, but also to Thrax and Claire. If I screwed this up, Thrax would
probably kill me, and I would deserve it.
I wouldn’t push her, or rush her, but I couldn’t control my reaction
enough to remain near her. My entire body had rebelled against a mind
urging caution, and escaping the temptation had remained my only option. I
hadn’t even been able to watch her leave the hold, because it would have
been too easy to follow her and capture her in my tentacles, then pull her
back to me.
Father had promised my tentacle would return when I was ready to
breed, and it seemed that time had come. The ache of it stretching and
lengthening so rapidly caused my mantle to tense up and my other tentacles
to writhe in pain. My stomach growled with hunger, and I felt my strength
waning as my energy was sapped to regenerate that part of my body.
Once I was certain Joanie had left the hold, no longer hearing the
sounds of her presence or sensing the vibrations of her movement, I
ventured to the feeding cart the Akrellians had provided for me. I looked at
the delicacies upon it, which I had ignored earlier in favor of sleep. They
were all laid out on small plates, in aesthetically pleasing designs, but at
least there were many of them. Plenty of food. I touched my mouth—so
small and inefficient for the task at hand. I needed to eat. A lot. As soon as
possible.
It had been a while since I’d shifted my bone lattice, allowing it to
break apart to free my mantle so that I could wrap my true mouth around
the entire cart. It would take some time to reorganize the lattice that now
floated in pieces inside my amorphous mantle, but I had little choice. My
tentacles shoveled the food into my gaping maw, and I didn’t bother to take
the time to chew it, swallowing each tiny morsel whole.
I was lying upon the remains of the cart, barely sated, when I sensed
the presence of a visitor to the hold. I adjusted my mantle, opening my eyes
to see if a crew member was bringing more food. Instead, I saw Thrax
approaching. My sigh was a gurgle in this form, my lips too misshapen to
effectively make the sound.
Thrax stopped just beyond the reach of my tentacles, eyeing me with
unreadable body language. Except for his pincers, which opened and closed
slowly, as if uncertain whether he wanted to convey a threat or not. “This is
a different look.”
I tried to shrug, fond of that gesture, taught to me by Father many
years before. It communicated so much, without saying a word.
Unfortunately, I had no shoulders, so my mantle just ended up quivering.
“Was hungry. Small mouth too slow.” It was difficult to form words that
could be understood at the moment. Of my usual facial features, I’d left
only my ear intact, because the translator still clung to it.
He studied me for a long moment in silence. “So, you can do this.
Interesting. I suspected you could change your form.”
He had no idea how much. With the proper practice and enough time,
I could shape my mantle into almost anything, but I preferred to wear
Father’s face and upper body, since it reminded me of our connection, and
the kinship he had shared with me. “Bone lattice. Father made so I could
better mimic.” The lattice was not organic, and floated inside my body in
pieces when it was broken apart, allowing me to fit my mantle into small
and cramped spaces. It took some time to restructure, since there was a
slight lag before the pieces responded to impulses from my distributed
brains and nervous system. Ordering the lattice to break apart was much
faster, returning me to a form that was closer to my original form.
Thrax’s pincers settled on remaining open. “Useful for you. Perhaps
this makes you even more dangerous.”
I blew out a breath that whistled through the loose flesh that was all
that remained of my upper mouth. “This form slow in air. Too slow.
Unwieldy.” I could drag myself back into the water, where I could move
smoothly and easily, but I felt lazy as I digested. Besides, if Thrax wanted
to kill me, he would. Or at least, he’d try before I got my tentacles around
him and crushed him. It was still a debate about which one of us would win.
He had his venom, but I had my own, if it came to that. I chose not to use it
because I rarely needed it. He was faster though. I had to concede that
much. One of his stings might kill me, before I could bind his stingers with
my tentacles.
He pondered my vulnerability, and perhaps his own, before taking a
few steps closer to me. Close enough that I could wrap a tentacle around
him if I felt like testing him. Then he crouched, his wings spreading behind
him, flicking out to capture the rising sunlight projected on the ceiling,
causing rainbows to spark off the surrounding bushes. “You are a
formidable threat. Claire is right. You can be a useful ally.”
“Proved that already. Got mate in return.”
“And what about your future, Nemon? Where will you go from
here?”
I hadn’t dared to contemplate my future beyond winning my mate’s
acceptance. I supposed that after that, I would follow her wherever she
wanted to go, just like Thrax would remain with Claire. How else could I
protect her? “Mate.” I suspected that was enough of an answer for him.
He nodded slowly. “She came to visit you. Has she accepted you?”
“Working on that.” The sudden regeneration of my genital tentacle
had complicated matters, just when she was learning to trust me enough to
make herself feel vulnerable around me. I wanted her trust, but losing
control over my body would certainly destroy my chance to earn it.
He was silent for another long moment. “The Akrellians are taking us
to a space station. I do not know what this is. They have said that after that,
we must make a decision about where we wish to spend our future.”
Space station? I’d seen one of those in a hologram Father had allowed
me to watch. It had floated amongst the stars, housing many different
aliens, and allowing their star boats to come and go as they stuck to it and
offloaded passengers and supplies. I’d been fascinated with the sight, and
had replayed the images of it over and over until my clumsiness broke the
holographic projector. Father had been disturbed that I had managed to fix it
by myself. He’d said I was learning far faster than they’d expected. He’d
wanted me to hide that from the machines. I’d done as he’d asked, careful
not to appear too curious, not to explore too much, though sometimes my
curiosity had gotten the better of my intentions, and my tentacles had
delved into places where they were not supposed to go.
I’d never been able to get the hologram of the space station to work
again, though, even though the projector itself was fixed. It was as if the
image had simply disappeared from the little machine, and Father had
refused to give me another one, or any other machine toys to play with after
that.
Now I would get to see the space station in person, and my mantle
quivered with my excitement. “Space station.”
He tilted his head, his eyes never leaving mine, though my tentacles
started writhing close enough to him to touch. I didn’t have the urge to
touch him though, unlike I did with Joanie. It was easy to keep my tentacles
to myself. “I don’t think the Akrellians want to trust you on the station.”
Disappointment stilled my tentacles. The Akrellians had been
cautious around me, fearful of me, though I’d been careful not to give them
reason to be, yet they seemed to trust Thrax. I would argue with their
wisdom in that, but they weren’t giving me many opportunities for an
interview. If I wanted to, I supposed I could request one with the prime
commander, using my translator to contact him, but I’d been more focused
on gaining Joanie’s acceptance of me as her mate than I had in making
friends with the rare crew members who entered this hold to bring me food.
“Won’t break things. People.”
“We arrive at the station in two weeks. Perhaps you can convince
them of that in that time. I recommend you start by not making your mate
leak salt when she leaves this hold.”
“Leak salt?”
His wings twitched. “My combs detected salt from what Claire calls
‘tears’ on the floor of the elevator when I came down here. You made your
mate cry.” He gestured to my mantle with a lower hand. “Perhaps showing
her this scared her. Some females scare easily.” He shook his head at that.
“Not Claire, though.” His tone was filled with more emotion than it
normally contained.
I was too upset by his words to pay much attention to the wealth of
meaning in his tone. “Made her cry?” It was not because of this body. She
hadn’t seen this. It could only have been because I’d scared her before she
left. Perhaps she had seen how close I had been to losing control. Since her
back had been turned, I’d thought she had missed the twisting and curling
of my tentacles as they fought my will in an effort to wrap around her and
pull her to me. I hadn’t retreated fast enough, though I’d moved faster than
I’d ever moved before. Somehow, she’d known that I was so close to
grabbing her that she’d been frightened when she’d fled the hold.
Now, my tentacles were slapping the paved walkway in distress,
coming dangerously close to Thrax’s feet. He took a couple of steps away
from them, his pincers spreading open. “Pull yourself together and go to
your mate. Fix this, Nemon. Or you will lose her.”
My tentacles stilled as I tried to lift my bulbous mantle, knowing it
would take several hours before the lattice would completely reform the
skeleton of my upper body in a way that would not scare Joanie even more.
“Can’t lose her.”
Thrax’s defensive posture relaxed, as if he’d finally decided I meant
him no threat. “The other females wish to return to Earth, but your mate has
not made her wishes known to the prime commander yet. If she goes back
to her homeworld, Claire has assured me that you cannot follow. You must
make her decide to stay with you, or you will lose her forever.”
I needed to fix things with Joanie before she made the decision to
retreat to a world that would be beyond my reach, but I also feared that
seeing her again so soon after the regeneration of my genital tentacle would
be too tempting for me. All these years of training myself to have precise,
minute control over every part of my body had seemed completely wasted
when Joanie had unwittingly shown me her glistening opening.
I’d known immediately what it was after Father had carefully
explained how a female Iriduan would breed, though Joanie’s species was
not exactly like Father’s. Their intimate parts were in the same place,
though, and looked very similar. I’d had no interest in mating with the
Iriduan females that I’d been shown in the holographic images. Their slits
had done nothing to excite me or regenerate my mating tentacle. I hadn’t
understood why Father had even bothered to show those images to me at
the time, but my discussion with Claire and Thrax earlier—as well as
Thrax’s words when I’d first captured him—had quickly explained what
had always been a mystery. At some point, Father would have given me
females to choose from for my mate, so that I could create more creatures
like myself to serve the Iriduans. That had been why he’d been so upset that
my genital tentacle had been mistakenly removed along with the other
tentacles that had quickly regenerated.
Father could not have given me a better mate than the one that
Thrax had given me. Not even if he’d searched the entire ocean of stars to
find her. I wondered if he’d known that when he’d set me free.
Now I had to repair what I’d broken, because I’d frightened Joanie
away, and I had no other choice but to go to her and to do so. The worst part
was that I knew she was in cramped quarters, which meant in order to fit
any part of me inside them, I would have to be very close to her. Close
enough that even my inferior nose could smell her with each breath of air I
drew in.
I couldn’t see her like this, though. I had to work on changing back,
and quickly, because too much time had already passed since Joanie had left
the hold. “Will fix this,” I said, even as I activated the impulses that would
restructure the lattice inside me to rebuild my jaw and mouth.
Thrax turned to leave, showing me his back in a demonstration of
either trust or disdain. I chose to take it as growing trust. He might have felt
disdainful, but he wasn’t stupid. “Good. I don’t want to disappoint Claire.
For some reason, she wants you to win your mate. She says she has already
‘shipped’ you and Joanie. Whatever that means.”
Thrax wasn’t much for parting words. After his cryptic statement
about Claire’s plans for me and Joanie, which made no more sense to me
than it apparently did to him, he left the hold. By this time, I could feel the
lattice tingling inside me, pulling together to build my skeleton. My internal
organs would be equally restructured into a different arrangement, which
was painful, though I had grown accustomed to it. While I waited for the
pain to end, I stiffened my skin, changing it as well to return it to the form
I’d had when Joanie had seen me.
*****
My motivation to see her again and fix my mistake had sped up the
process. I had feared it would take several hours, but it took less than one, if
the changing of the sky hologram was anything to go by. I moved quickly
towards the exit of the hold, anxiety over losing Joanie speeding my
passage until my tentacles whipped around me as my cups caught, pulled,
and released the ground beneath me.
The large, sliding door of the hold did not open upon my approach,
but I had seen the crew use the small panel next to it in order to open the
door by pressing their palms against it. I tried to do the same, but there was
no response from the panel.
I debated whether I could tear down the door once I realized that I
was locked behind it, then decided to try contacting the commander of the
ship before I started ripping it apart.
The translator clinging to my ear was a device I had already
explored thoroughly with my tentacles, though I’d avoided the urge to
dismantle it to see how it worked, because I didn’t want to jeopardize my
ability to speak with Joanie for however long it would take to figure out
how to put it back together or request a new one.
It served as a translator for the languages that had been loaded into
it, as well as a communications device to other members of the crew. I
suspected that it also tracked us for the commander of the ship, so that he
was always aware of where we were. He might have chosen to trust us, but
that trust only went so far. Especially when it came to me.
Pressing the small button on the translator opened a link to the crew
liaison who’d been assigned to us. My liaison appeared to be the
commander himself, because as soon as I activated my link, he was the one
who answered.
“Master Nemon, is there something I can do for you?”
His tone was cautious, as if he wasn’t certain what to expect. Given
that this was the first time I’d tried to contact any of the crew, he perhaps
had a reason for concern. I hesitated, trying to find the words to voice my
request.
“Would you prefer more food? Perhaps what was provided was not
sufficient.”
My tentacles curled inwards as I glanced up at the ceilings in the
hold. I’d been under observation so much in Father’s lab that I’d begun to
ignore the cameras, though I had always been careful, as Father had warned
me not to reveal too much intelligence to the observers. I realized that I’d
been too accustomed to hiding in the warrens to remember that there were
always hidden machine eyes watching. I stripped the anger out of my voice,
knowing that it would not serve me well in my current position. “I would
prefer to leave this hold to visit my mate.”
There was a long pause. “If you are speaking of the human female
named Joanie, she is on a deck with space limitations.”
“I’m aware of that.” I glared up at the ceiling. “By now, you should
be aware that space is rarely a limitation for me.”
“You would not be able to fit all of yourself into her cabin.”
“Then we will meet in the corridor. I wish to see my mate,
Commander.” I didn’t say it aloud, but the fact that I would make trouble
for him if he continued to keep me locked up was heavily implied in my
tone.
“Is this female truly your mate? As Thrax and Claire have mated?”
I didn’t like his skeptical tone. “She is my mate, but I have yet to be
accepted as hers. I’m working on that, which is why I need to see her.”
He muttered into the communications link. “Damned Iriduan mating
habits. I pity you. Your creators should have removed the mate imprint from
your genetic code.”
I pushed my hand against the panel. “I’m waiting, Commander.”
I heard a short sigh, before the panel beneath my palm lit up,
scanning it. The door slid open beside me. “Very well, I will warn the deck
crew that you are coming. Restrict your activities to the corridor and
recreational room, please.”
I was pleased that things had gone better than I’d expected. As I left
the hold, pulling myself down the corridor to the cramped elevator, I
pondered his words about imprinting.
I knew what it was, because Father had mentioned it on more than
one occasion.
His descriptions had made having a mate seem like an affliction.
What little I remember of my time before the change had told me that the
females my kind called “life-weavers” were dangerous, but only because
they had a tendency to try and eat me after I gave them my seed threads. I
recalled that being quick to move had been vitally important in living long
enough to share more of my threads with other life-weavers.
The concept of a single mate for life had been a new one for me—to
go with my new form—but one that I had wholeheartedly embraced, even
before I first held Joanie. After years of loneliness in the warrens, I couldn’t
imagine anything better than someone who had committed to share their life
with me—someone to follow and protect, to embrace and hold. To explore
until I learned every inch of her body as well as I knew my own.
If that meant I had to suffer from the “affliction” Father had feared
so much, then I was willing to do so. If my devotion to Joanie was what
happened when an Iriduan found a mate, I couldn’t understand why Father
had been so adamant that it be avoided. Even the thought of Joanie was
enough to make me happy. How could he have not wanted that?
Chapter 13
JOANIE
JOANIE
JOANIE
I was determined that the next time Nemon gave me a massage with
his magical tentacles, I wanted to be naked, and it needed to be a full body
massage. Unfortunately, while he’d worked his miracles, I fell asleep in his
arms, wasting the opportunity to take advantage of our privacy in the rec
room. My translator awakened me when it beeped to let me know someone
was trying to communicate with me.
I lifted my head off Nemon’s chest, noticing to my horror that I’d
even drooled a little on his skin. I quickly swiped at my lips and tried to
brush away the moisture on his skin with my forearm without making it
obvious.
As soon as I started moving, his hands lifted to stroke my hair,
letting me know that he was awake, and probably had remained so the
entire time that I conked out on him. “How long was I out?” I stifled a
yawn, feeling that however long it had been, had not been long enough. I
could have slept on him forever. I’d felt… safe.
“Not long. It has only just past the second hour.”
“Ah! I was out for two hours?” I struggled against his tentacles,
motioning for him to put me down. He complied, though his tentacles
uncoiled from my body slowly, as if they were reluctant to let me go. “Jeez,
they’re going to think we’re having a marathon session in here! No wonder
my communicator is going off.”
As I tapped the button to open the link, I stretched my body,
enjoying the languid feeling of muscles that had been well massaged, while
Nemon’s triple heartbeats had soothed me to sleep. Forget New Age music
and aromatherapy. Nemon’s exotic musk and thumping hearts—combined
with his skillful tentacles—were heaven. I’d never be satisfied with a
regular massage again.
Tarin’s voice spoke into my ear as soon as the link opened. “I am in
awe of your stamina, girl, but can we have our rec room back?”
My blush spread from my cheeks all the way down to my toes. “I
fell asleep. That’s all.”
“Pffft. You don’t have to make up stories for me, especially not
boring ones like falling asleep. I want to hear the good stuff, but you should
unlock the rec room or people around here are gonna start talking… about
how one of you is going to need a medic after all that lovin’. Me and the
girls are taking bets on which one. I chose you for the win.”
I glanced at Nemon, who was watching me with an upraised brow,
waiting for me to explain what Tarin was saying—an explanation he wasn’t
going to get. “All right, we’ll unlock the room now. Just… give us a minute
to clear out.” I didn’t want to face a crowd of people in the corridor with my
blush burning and Nemon wondering what everyone was gawping at.
“No problem. Are we going to need to send in a cleaning bot?” I
could hear the laughter in her voice.
“We just talked and then I fell asleep!” I lowered my voice as I saw
Nemon’s expression close up until it was unreadable. Maybe I was
imagining that fleeting glimpse of hurt that had crossed his face at my
words to Tarin.
His tentacle extended to the door panel, unlocking it. Then he
motioned for me to precede him out of the rec room.
“We’re heading out now, Tarin.” I pushed the button to cut off her
reply, hoping that she and the others would not be on the other side of the
door.
When it opened, the corridor beyond was empty. I stepped out of the
rec room, then backed several paces towards the cabins to give Nemon
room to exit.
Watching him move was both unnerving and awe-inspiring. His
tentacles always preceded him, and I wondered if that was a matter of
survival instinct. After all, if he lost one, they would grow back. They
extended beyond the door opening, curling around the frame, looking for all
the world like the entrance of some horror-movie monster of the deep.
As more of their length poured out of the rec room, they shifted,
curled, and twisted to make room in the corridor for the rest of his bulk.
Then his upper body appeared, his tentacles bunching up beneath his
webbing to make room and help him proceed down the corridor towards the
elevator.
I followed his trailing tentacles, bothered by the fact that he had
barely spared me a glance when he’d left the room before heading towards
the elevator.
When we reached the shiny door, Nemon pressed his palm against
the panel, which proceeded to scan it. He said not a word to me, but his
tentacles made room for me to approach his upper body, curling around me
as if they still wanted to embrace me, but didn’t dare.
“Hey. Thank you.” I waved behind me towards the rec room. “For
listening. For caring.” I rubbed the back of my neck. “For that great
massage.”
He glanced at me, then turned his gaze back to the door as if he
could will it to open faster. “I’ve caused you embarrassment. I heard you on
the communicator. You didn’t want your friends to think we had done
anything but talk.”
I sighed loudly. “That’s because Tarin was teasing me, not because
I’m embarrassed by you. When it happens between us, you’d better believe
I’m not going to pretend it didn’t.”
His head whipped around until his eyes fixed on me. “When it
happens?”
I reached up, trying to touch his cheek, but he was simply too tall.
When he realized what I wanted, his upper body lowered until his face was
just a bit above mine, as his tentacles flattened under him. I stroked my
hand along his strong jawline, then up to trace his high cheekbone. “When
you and I make love, I won’t hide that fact from anyone.”
“Make love?” He turned his face into my palm. “I’ve heard the word
love before. It is an emotion, isn’t it? My father used the word with
skepticism. He didn’t believe it existed. He said all the Iriduan males knew
was enslavement. How does a human make love?”
“So many ways, Nemon. Humans love in so many ways. But what I
meant was when we mate.”
He sucked in a breath, lifting his head away from my hand. “You
wish to mate? You’re accepting me?”
I wasn’t accepting the imprinting. I wanted true love, but I believed
that if I gave it a chance, I could find it with Nemon, as crazy as that was.
Something about him called to me. I had to give this a chance, and chance
was my addiction. One I had yet to confess to him. There would be time for
that, because I wasn’t about to let him go. “I said when, not if. I mean that.”
Chapter 16
JOANIE
JOANIE
NEMON
I couldn’t believe the words she was trying to say to me. After what
had happened earlier, I was certain that Joanie had agreed to accept me as
her mate, but now, she was saying that she didn’t want me. Instead, she
wanted a therapist—whatever that was. I thought maybe I had misheard or
misunderstood her, but she’d pushed my tentacles away and had turned her
back on me.
I struggled to find the right words to say to fix whatever I had broken
between us. It must have been something I’d said or done that had made her
doubt this. Perhaps I had pushed her too fast, my own eagerness to touch
her overriding my better sense. She deserved better than that. She had said
it was too soon, but I was impatient, letting my body set the pace instead of
my hearts.
I’d felt her pain as I’d held her while she told me about her past. I’d
felt every ounce of tension in her muscles, and had worked to knead the
knots away, but I hadn’t been able to touch the wounds inside her, the ones
that made her heart bleed. It was little wonder she felt like things were
moving too fast, when I couldn’t seem to keep my tentacles to themselves
instead of giving her the time to heal.
The words came to me, the reassurance that I would not force myself
upon her, and that I would give her all the time and space she needed, as
long as she didn’t disappear from my life completely. I needed her, but my
need was selfish. Joanie needed space and time to think. I would promise
that to her.
Only I didn’t get the chance to speak those words, because she
suddenly collapsed to her knees, gasping for breath.
Instantly, my tentacles went around her, coiling protectively. I could
feel her muscles tense up as she struggled to breathe. Her pulse rapidly
pounded beneath her skin, and her temperature felt warmer than it should
be. I tasted her physical distress. Smelled it. And felt it as her entire body
suddenly went limp in my tentacles.
“Commander!” My hand shook as I pressed the button on my
translator to contact the commander of the ship.
As soon as his voice came over the line, I said, “I need a healer for
Joanie!” I was shouting, terrified that he wouldn’t understand me, or
respond fast enough to get her to a healer in time.
“We’re sending one down now.” His response was short, clipped. I
wondered if he thought I had done something to her, but didn’t care in that
moment what his impression was, as long as she got the help she needed. I
could protect her from physical dangers, but I couldn’t save her from
illness, and I’d never felt this helpless before.
True to his word, the door slid open just a few short minutes later, but
by that time, I was nearly frantic with fear as I cradled her limp body in my
tentacles. I heard the weapons of the Akrellian guards accompanying the
healer clicking as they trained them on me.
Despite their caution, the healer approached me without fear, her eyes
fixed on Joanie. She carried a scanner and quickly passed it over Joanie’s
body as I held her out. Then she sighed and brushed a gentle hand across
Joanie’s forehead. “Poor female. I wish she had come to see me sooner.”
“Is she okay? Please, tell me she’ll be okay!” I barely restrained my
tentacles from wrapping around the healer’s wrist in desperation.
The healer studied her scanner. “Looks like she had a severe attack of
anxiety.” Her eyes narrowed as she read the readout on the front of the
medical scanner. I’d seen similar devices in Father’s hands before, so I had
some familiarity with it, but I couldn’t see the screen, so had no idea what it
said about Joanie’s condition. She looked up from her scanner and met my
eyes. “What happened before the attack?”
“Please, will she be okay?” I would answer her questions gladly—if it
helped Joanie—but not until I knew for sure that she would be safe.
The healer hesitated, before nodding once. “She’ll be fine. I’ll take
her back to the med bay and get her some oxygen and run a full scan just to
make sure. Her body has been through a lot. The commander really should
have insisted that everyone had a full physical to catch any signs of distress
before now.”
I was able to begin breathing again, and only when I drew in the large
gasp of air did I realize that I had stopped while I was waiting for the
healer’s answer. “She said that she….” I felt reluctant to explain our
conversation to the healer, but if it would make a difference for her to know,
I would tell her everything, regardless of how it made me feel. “She said
that she didn’t wish to be my mate. At least not yet. She said she needed a
therapist, not a boyfriend.” I frowned, recalling the word and feeling it was
inadequate to describe how I felt about her. “It means ‘mate’ in her
language, apparently.”
The healer nodded as she motioned to one of the guards. “Please take
her to the medbay.”
He put away his weapon and approached me. I wanted to cling to
Joanie, but forced my tentacles to extend her unconscious form towards
him, knowing that he would take her where she could be treated.
The healer looked at me with some sympathy in her eyes. “She’ll be
okay. I can’t have you in the medbay. It’s a sterile environment and there
simply isn’t enough room for…,” she gestured to my tentacles, “you, but I
will contact your translator as soon as she wakes up, and I will tell her that
you are concerned about her, so that she will check in with you.”
I nodded, my attention on the guard carrying away my mate—the
mate who didn’t want me. It didn’t matter. I already belonged to her, no
matter what she chose to do about it.
Once they were gone, I retreated to my pool, in my misery seeking
the soothing environment of water around me. I missed the salinity of the
ocean, but my body had learned to adjust—with Father’s help—to any
aquatic environment. As the cool current flowed around me, I settled in to
wait.
Chapter 19
JOANIE
NEMON
When Joanie finally came to see me herself, I was filled with resolve
and determined that I would stand strong against my almost overwhelming
desire to touch her. I had to give her the space she needed, and if I could not
do that for her, then I didn’t deserve her.
Though the healer had sent word to me that Joanie was awake and
doing well—but that she had to rest from the strain on her body—I didn’t
feel truly reassured until I saw Joanie herself walking through the wet-hold
door. It was only then that my entire body sagged against the walkway by
my pool, slumped with relief, though my tentacles trembled in their battle
against my will. They wanted to carry me to her, then wrap her up in an
embrace and touch her everywhere to make certain that she was well and
truly safe. Instead, I forced them into stillness, so that they lay around me,
their quivering eagerness barely visible to me and hopefully undetectable to
Joanie as she crossed the wet-hold to my pool.
And then she was standing before me, looking so beautiful that it
physically ached to hold back from touching her, even with just my two
half-blind hands. Her brown eyes were filled with some emotion I could not
understand, but the light of laughter had long ago fled them. I wanted to see
it return, but didn’t know the words to say to amuse her. Her pearl-pale skin
seemed even paler, except for the tinge of redness on her cheeks as she
looked at me. Her body seemed more fragile than ever, and I feared that if I
broke my promise and touched her, she would break apart.
“Hey,” she said, her voice soft and husky, as if she’d just awoken
from sleep.
“Joanie.” My greeting sounded strained even to my ears. I was
strained. Trying to maintain control over all parts of my body when they
had a mind of their own was difficult where she was concerned. All of me
wanted her with equal intensity.
“I’m sorry,” her gaze slid away from my face to focus on the surface
of the pool behind me, “about what happened earlier.”
I didn’t understand why she was apologizing, since I had clearly
pushed her too far. It was upon me to make the apologies, and to give her
my word that I wouldn’t do so again. “Joanie, do not apologize when
you’ve done nothing wrong. I realize now what a mistake I made.”
Her gaze jerked back to me, her lips parting on a pained gasp as if I
had just slapped her. “A mistake?” Her hands clenched into fists and the
color on her cheeks deepened. “Is that what I am to you?”
It seemed that again I had blundered with her. I reached towards her
with my hands, not trusting my tentacles enough to relax my strained
control over them. “I didn’t mean it like that! You will never be a mistake to
me. I only meant that I had pushed you too far, too fast. I should have taken
things slower with you, but I was thinking selfishly of my own desire to be
with you.”
The tension in her body eased and her expression softened as she let
out a breath. “Oh, you have no idea how relieved I am to hear that.” Her
gaze shifted around me without focusing on me. “So, I know what I said
earlier. How I didn’t want a boyfriend and all….”
I still didn’t like the word. The two components of it translated to a
male child and a platonic relationship. This was not at all the type of image
I wanted her to have of me. “I prefer mate.”
Her smile was hesitant, but it brightened her face. “I think I do too.”
Her wayward gaze finally came to rest on me again. “I was wrong about
needing space. I want to be with you. You have no idea how much I want to
be with you. I was afraid of those feelings and how strong they were, but
now I understand, and… I’m happy with it. With the possibility of us.”
My tentacles jerked against my control, hearing her words and
assuming they meant permission to touch her, but I held them back. She’d
just been with the healer, and I’d been told that she’d worn her body out
since she’d come onto the ship, not eating nor drinking enough to sustain
her and rebuild her strength. Instead, she’d spent that time with me, dealing
with my aggressive push to be her mate. Whether she thought she needed
the time to make this decision or not, I knew she did, and I had to give it to
her. “I’m glad to hear you say that. I want to be your mate more than
anything.”
Her eyes narrowed. “Why do I think there is a ‘but’ on the end of that
statement?”
I sighed, expelling the breath in my lungs as I searched for the right
words to explain. “I want you to be well, Joanie. I could not bear it if you
fell ill again because I was keeping you from taking proper care of
yourself.”
She shook her head, stepping closer to me. “Okay, I’ve been a little
bit neglectful of my body, lately, but I’m going to do better with that. That
doesn’t mean we can’t do this.” She gestured between us with one hand.
She was so close that I could hold her in my arms. I’d had to push my
tentacles behind and underneath me so that they wouldn’t curl around her
boots, tempted then to slide up her legs and find the blazing heat that called
to them from the folds of flesh between her legs. My mating tentacle was so
stiff now that I had hidden it from her view, fearing that it would scare her
off if she saw how little control I had over my body. “I do not want to rush
you.”
She stood on her toes, lifting her hands to curl around my neck,
pulling me down to press her lips to mine.
My tentacles bucked against my mental control, surging and roiling to
be free from me so that they could coil around her and touch her with all the
desire I felt when her soft lips touched mine. I jerked out of her hold and
backed towards the pool, forcing my lower body into the water to cool it
off. “No! I will not rush this for you. We have time for you to heal. I must
rest now. The prime commander came by earlier to talk about what
happened, and he will return soon.”
There was hurt in her eyes, and I knew I’d put it there, but I’d had no
choice. She still wasn’t making good decisions and neither was I, but I was
trying, for both of our sakes. After a long moment of silence, she lowered
her hands, using one to rub at her forehead. “What did he have to say?” She
gasped and suddenly looked at me with concern. “Please tell me he didn’t
blame you for what happened?” She lifted a finger to touch the
communications button on her translator. “I’ll set him straight right now.”
I shook my head, lowering the rest of my body into the pool and away
from her temptation, sinking below the water until only my head remained
above it. “They have mechanical eyes in this hold. He has seen that I did
not harm you.”
The color that flushed her cheeks deepened. “They can see everything
that goes on in this hold?”
I remembered the beauty of her naked body as she’d stood by my
pool, baring herself to me, and I was angry at the fact that anyone but me
had been able to witness that, but we were only guests on this ship. All the
more reason to wait until we had true privacy. “He apologized for how
they’d been treating me, and claimed that he had been mistaken in viewing
me as a threat. He has asked for my assistance in various tasks around the
ship that the crew struggles with.” I would have lifted a tentacle to show
her, but didn’t dare give it that much freedom around her. “I can get into
places that their people cannot.”
Joanie crossed her arms beneath the gentle swell of her breasts,
plumping them up in a most distracting way that made it even more difficult
for me to concentrate on her words. “So, he admits that he insulted you by
his treatment, and then wants to make you do grunt work?”
I smiled at her, wanting to reassure her with my demeanor as much as
my words about how happy I was to have the opportunity to explore the
ship with the commander’s permission. “It was an honor to be asked, and a
sign of trust that he extended to me. I look forward to the tasks, and what I
can learn from them. He has promised that the crewmembers I’ll be
assisting will explain the parts of the ship that are not classified.”
A flash of disappointment crossed her face, before she nodded and
forced a smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “That’s great news, Nemon! I’m
really happy that they’re finally treating you right, and that you’ll get to
explore the ship and do some things you want to do.”
“But something is wrong, Joanie?”
She shook her head. “No, it’s okay. You’re right. We need to take
things slower. Now that you’ll be busy, this will give us the opportunity to
get our heads on straight about… us.” She lifted her hand in a small wave.
“I’d better go and leave you to rest. I want you to be fresh for your first day
on the job.” She winked at me, though her smile was sad. “Don’t you dare
let them underpay you or deny you your lunch hour.” Then she turned on
her heel and headed to the door.
I watched her leave even though my entire body threatened to rebel
against that one tiny part of me that was trying to be strong. Beneath the
water, my tentacles churned with agitation, causing it to foam up around me
on the surface. I’ve never experienced a pain more real and agonizing than
forcing myself to let Joanie walk away. The only thing that kept me from
surging out of the water to pull her back and never let her go, was the
knowledge that this wasn’t an ending to our relationship, but a chance for a
new beginning—one that gave Joanie the time she needed.
Chapter 21
NEMON
The closer we came to the space station, the more I saw of the
commander, Tirel—particularly as I carried out the duties he’d given me.
True to his word, his crew explained a great deal to me, and I learned a
great deal more on my own. More than they would appreciate, I was
certain, but I did not let on to that.
Thrax and Tirel had also taken to including me in their meetings,
which I found fascinating, but which also made it difficult to spend time
with my mate. Of course, that was probably a good thing, since it was
almost impossible for me to be alone with her and not want to hold her, and
treat her like my mate, but I had sworn that I would keep my distance until
she felt ready. Even when she’d tried to insist—several times in the last
week—that she was more than ready—and even threatened that her dreams
were going to melt the sheets on her bed—I didn’t believe her.
She had put some more weight on, and her curves had grown softer
and more rounded, which I truly appreciated, though I had always thought
her beautiful. Only now she didn’t seem as fragile and close to breaking. It
pleased me to see that she was taking better care of herself, though I made
certain she always had something to eat, and something nutritious for her to
drink when she made her visits to my hold. I wanted to feed her myself,
allowing her warm, soft lips to close around my flesh as she took the food
into her mouth, but knew that would be a recipe for disaster, so contented
myself with simply watching her eat to be certain she took enough food.
To help me deal with the desire that was brutally strong and constant
whenever she was around—and many times when she wasn’t, though my
dreams conjured her up in my mind—I made certain we were never alone
together for long. I couldn’t control my body for long periods by myself,
but it was easier when someone else was there—usually Tirel or Thrax, and
sometimes even Claire, who tended to monopolize Joanie’s attention with
conversation that she referred to as “girl talk.” When they were around,
Joanie was safe from my attentions.
I hoped that we’d managed to hide the growing tension between us
from the others, but I believed that Thrax suspected something was
happening, though he never openly pried into my business, which was
something I could appreciate about him. He’d become more like a friend
than an uncertain ally in the days of travel towards the space station, and I
found that I enjoyed speaking with him. Our predatory backgrounds made
us similar in some ways, though we had taken to our new lives differently.
Still, Thrax was mellowing, thanks to his mate.
Tirel was another unexpected growing friendship. The commander
was far more civilized than Thrax, and engaged my curiosity about his
civilization not only with answers to my many questions, but also with
additional information provided by something called the GalactaNet, which
I sank into like it was an unexplored ocean—cautiously, but with
excitement.
Tirel gratefully acknowledged my assistance with the tasks he’d
assigned for me. They had been minor issues, mostly dealing with the
climate control systems and tight tubular spaces that my tentacles could
easily reach, but they’d taught me a great deal from performing them, and
discussing the ship with the crew. The Akrellians were so pleased with my
assistance that they had extended me an offer to settle on one of their
colony worlds. One with wild, untamed oceans filled with dangerous
creatures. They felt that I could be useful to their exploration teams, and I
liked the idea of being useful, and of exploring.
Thrax had mentioned his desire to settle on that world as well,
though he would go where his mate chose to go, even if it meant finding a
way to return with her to her homeworld. Since Earth had plenty of oceans,
I was just as determined that I would follow Joanie there if that was her
wish. She’d mentioned that their governments were likely to capture and
experiment on any alien they found, but I was very good at not being found.
Now that the Akrellians had extended their trust to me, they allowed
me to access more of the ship, and I’d taken to exploring it whenever Joanie
was otherwise occupied. I poked my tentacles into everything, touching,
tasting, feeling, until I began to understand how things worked. I no longer
felt the need to hide my curiosity or my understanding, though the
Akrellians were still surprised when I’d repaired a broken climate actuator
after noticing that it was non-functioning.
Tinkering with things helped occupy me and distracted me from my
frustration at the pace that I had chosen to enforce in my mating with
Joanie. Though my feelings for her were so much more than the desire that
coursed through my body whenever I thought of her, it was still an
undeniable urge, and I still could not come into any kind of physical contact
with her without losing control. She said she wanted that, but could I really
believe it? I needed to be sure, yet my resolve grew weaker every time I
saw her.
I almost managed to hold out until we reached the space station I
still would not be permitted to explore, which Tirel explained was for my
own safety as much as for the crowds on the station. I chose to believe he
meant that, but that didn’t mean I would heed his words. I wanted to see the
station, and I intended to.
But until we docked in port, I had other plans that I could no longer
resist carrying out. I had learned how to disable the machine eyes in the
hold by hacking into one of the panels near the door, and after a discussion
with Tirel—who was not pleased by this—it was agreed that I would not
disable any more of his ship, and he would no longer feel the need to
constantly spy on me. Once I knew that Joanie and I would no longer be
exposed to the watching eyes of the Akrellians, what little remained of my
resolve crumbled. This time, if Joanie wanted to take our mating further,
then I would eagerly agree with her.
Just a day prior to docking at the station, Joanie contacted me on my
translator, asking if I was alone, and for once, I could answer in the
positive.
“I’ll be down there in a moment,” she’d said, her voice breathless in
a way that made my hearts beat in anticipation.
It took far longer than a moment for her to enter the wet-hold, and
the entire time, I’d spent worrying that someone else would show up before
she got there. After all, I’d purposely turned the hold into a busy place to
avoid being alone with my mate, but now I wanted nothing more than for
people to stay away.
As soon as she passed through the door and it slid shut behind her, I
pried open the panel that I’d been working on loosening whenever I was
bored. I readjusted several circuits to bypass the biometric scanner and the
local override switch, so that the door would not open again unless I fixed
it. I shouldn’t have hacked into the ship’s functions like this—again—but I
didn’t want the risk of interruptions. Not now that I could barely think
straight because of my need.
She watched me flip the cover back over the circuits, her brows
pulled together, forming a little crease that I wanted to smooth away. I
pulled back the stray tentacle that tried to do just that before it touched her
face.
“You probably shouldn’t break their ship.”
I shrugged as I released the panel and turned all of my attention
back to her. “I can fix it later.”
“Are you sure you won’t get in trouble?” She twisted her hands
together as her eyes met mine, and I suspected that her nervousness was due
more to what was about to happen than whether I would be reprimanded for
what I’d done. “I don’t want them to treat you with mistrust like they did in
the beginning.”
I wasn’t worried about it at that point. All I wanted was to spend
some time with my mate without the risk of interruptions. I coiled my
tentacles around her ankles, trailing them higher up her legs. “It will be
fine.”
Her breath caught as the tip of my tentacles brushed the skin of her
inner thighs. “So, you’re finally going to touch me?”
I didn’t bother to answer her question with words. My tentacles
were already free to answer, and they weren’t sending mixed messages.
“You never did get a chance to swim in my pool, Joanie.”
She shivered, and a quick brush of my tentacle over her sex told me
that she was wet with arousal. A small moan escaped her parted lips as I
brushed over her again, tracing the slit of her opening over the fabric of her
jumpsuit.
“I couldn’t get my hands on a bathing suit,” she said between quick,
shallow breaths. Noting the way her chest heaved, I curled another tentacle
around one of the fleshy globes, enjoying the soft give of it beneath my
cups, wishing I could feel her skin as I dragged my cups over the firm bead
of flesh in the center of it. The way her body shuddered and her thighs
tightened around the tentacles between her legs made me realize that it was
a sensitive area that heightened her arousal.
I lowered my upper body so that my face was close to hers,
breathing in the air that she expelled, as my own heavy breaths caused her
curls to flutter against her flushed cheeks. “You don’t need a bathing suit.” I
didn’t even know what that was, and didn’t care. It sounded like more
fabric that would keep me from touching her skin and seeing her beautiful
body. I didn’t want her to wear it, when she could just as easily slip into the
water naked.
“Mmm,” she wet her lips with the tip of her pink tongue as my
tentacles plucked at the seam that kept her jumpsuit closed. It began to
separate, pulling away from her body to reveal her soft skin to my hungry
eyes.
“Make love to me, Joanie.”
Her eyelids fluttered closed, her lashes brushing her pale skin as she
squeezed them tightly shut. She swallowed. “I… I want to, so badly. But I
want this to be love.”
I paused in my teasing of her body, my tentacles stilling against her
skin. We’d discussed imprinting in the rare moments that we’d been
together alone, and Joanie was concerned about it, fearing almost as my
father had—that it enslaved a person, and that it wasn’t real love. She didn’t
want to believe that what I felt for her was truly loving her. “I don’t believe
like my father did, Joanie. He thought that love meant enslavement, but I
don’t feel that way about you at all. If this is imprinting, then I am grateful
for it. I’ve never been happier in all my memories than the time I spend
with you. I wasn’t enslaved by love, I was freed by it.”
She shook her head, refusing to open her eyes and face me with her
doubts. “But imprinting isn’t the same thing as love. It’s a biological
process based on pheromones and body chemicals. Nothing more.”
“Who told you that?”
Her eyelids opened, her gaze finally meeting mine so that I could
see her worry and doubt. “I read it on the GalactaNet.”
“And you believed that?” My tentacles loosened from around her
legs, pulling away from that damp heat I craved so much that it was a battle
to retreat from it. Instead, I lifted my hands to cup her face, wanting her
focus to be on mine. “My father said that even the Iriduans don’t understand
imprinting. They’ve studied it for generation upon generation. They have
yet to crack its mysteries, but what I do know—what he knew—was that it
is much more than a physical desire. Something within an Iriduan male
causes him to recognize the one female who was meant for him as soon as
he sees her, and her image, her perfection, entwines with his spirit, so that
he can never forget her.” I stroked her soft skin, brushing my sensory-dulled
fingers over her warm cheeks, wishing I could use my tentacles instead, but
they were feeling rebellious, wanting to return to her body to finish their
exploration.
“I read about imprinting on the GalactaNet too, Joanie. Perhaps you
didn’t see the article that I did. It was written by a mated Iriduan male. He
spoke of the perfection of his mate. Of how she made him want to be a
better person, and how each aspect of her spirit complemented his. Like all
Iriduans, he’d been raised to fear imprinting, and to resent females and view
them as threats to his free will. But once he was mated, he realized that he
hadn’t lost his free will at all, and he’d gained something even greater—the
ability to bond with another person and know that she was the other half of
him that he’d been missing his entire life.” I brushed a thumb across her
soft, plump lips, looking forward to the moment when I could touch them
with mine again. I’d dreamed about that one brief contact when she’d
kissed me before, and I had pulled away. “How do humans define love?”
She sighed, her breath warm against the skin of my thumb. The
depths of her eyes were still filled with concern, and I felt like there was
something she wasn’t telling me, but I wouldn’t rush her. She’d trusted me
with some of her darkest memories. If she needed to talk, I would be there
for her, but I would not push her. “Pretty much like that. It just doesn’t
happen so quickly for us.” Her lips pulled into a frown. “And sometimes,
we get it wrong. Like with Michael.”
I pressed my thumb gently against her lips, not liking to hear that
creature’s name pass them. Never again would I let her experience the pain
he had put her through. He had failed her. Failed to be the kind of mate she
deserved. He certainly didn’t deserve any place in her memories, but I knew
she could not release the bad ones simply by wishing it. She’d told me
about how her past was a place of sorrow and joy, woven so tightly together
that one grief-stricken moment could not be separated from another
moment of happiness. “I love you, Joanie.”
She stared into my eyes, and I could see the doubt crowding behind
hers—the terrible words that her mind always spoke to her eating away at
her confidence in the certainty of my tone.
“Let me make love to you. Let me show you how I will cherish you
and worship you. I swear to you, there is no one in this galaxy who could
love you more than I do.” My tentacles surged back to her body, encircling
her thighs, her waist, her arms. They wanted to hold her and feel her, but
nowhere near as much as I needed her to understand and accept my words.
She closed her eyes again and nodded. “Yes.”
I didn’t need any more encouragement than that. My tentacles
pulled her jumpsuit away from her upper body, peeling it off her arms, even
as my cups stroked over her skin, which pebbled in tiny little bumps she
called “goosebumps.”
One tentacle returned to curl around her breast, and I was fascinated
by the curve of it, the softness, and the gentle weight of it as it swelled
against my cups. The beaded point that I had felt earlier—that had given her
pleasure when I’d touched it—was dark pink against her pale skin. I
plucked at it with one of my cups and her entire body jerked in response,
her eyes snapping open.
Her pupils were large over the brown irises with their green flecks.
“It feels like you are sucking on it.” She moaned as I plucked on it again.
When I ran a tentacle between her legs, it came away wet, my cups
filled with her taste and heady fragrance of arousal.
I encircled the other bared globe, plucking at that beaded tip as well,
marveling at the taste and texture of her skin—so different from mine, but
so perfect for me.
Tentacles, finally freed to do as they demanded, tugged her jumpsuit
past her waist, then down below the juncture of her thighs, where her sex
glistened, wet and waiting for their exploration.
I wanted to look at that view, to drink it in, as I was finally able to
now that she had accepted me, but I was too transfixed by her face—the
wonder and pleasure that played across it as I touched her, exploring her
body to my content.
Her lips parted on a sigh—her eyelids lowering until I could barely
see the gleam of her irises behind them—when my tentacle returned to that
place between her legs, finally rubbing against the sensitive flesh there. My
cups tasted, gently tugging as they explored the springy hair that covered
her pelvis. When they encountered a small pearl of flesh hidden within the
folds of skin above her warm entrance, they closed over it, pulling it deep
into each cup that passed over it.
Her reaction was nearly enough to destroy what little control I had
left. She shuddered in my grasp, grabbing my forearms with a desperate
grip to steady herself, as if I would ever allow her to fall. Hard, quick gasps
escaped her parted lips with each tug of my cups on that part of her sex. The
tentacle around her waist tightened enough to hold her still as her hips
thrust against the tentacle between her legs. Her gasps turned to moans, and
then short little screams as her nails dug into my arms.
“Oh, god, I’m gonna come!” She gripped my arms, holding on as if
she were about to plummet into some deep chasm.
I lifted her up enough for several tentacles to drag the jumpsuit off
her body, casting it to the side as I allowed them all to move over her naked
skin. She writhed in my hold as my tentacles explored her body, drinking in
the beauty of it, the perfection of each curve and line, each curled hair that
rasped under their cups.
I wrapped two tentacles around her ankles, spreading her legs
farther so that the one that was driving her to distraction could slide through
the moisture that made her sheath slick. My mating tentacle—already
stiffened—trailed up the soft skin of her inner thigh, my other tentacle
shifting to make way for it, while still tugging on the flesh just above her
opening.
Probing my stiffened tip into her damp folds nearly caused me to
lose the threads of seed that I had spun for her before it was even inside her.
Her taste was incomparable, and I neared sensory overload from that alone.
She whimpered as I parted her folds with my engorged tip. I froze,
staring at her face for a sign that she wanted me to stop. Her eyes fluttered
open when all my tentacles stopped moving. “Oh, please, don’t stop! I’m so
close!”
That was all that I needed to hear. My tentacle slipped inside her
warm passage, its tight heat closing around me in a sensation that I had no
parallel for. Mating with a life-weaver had been nothing like this. Nothing
in my life had ever felt this good. I delved into her depths as her fingers
clawed at my arms and her moans and whimpers grew more frantic.
This time, I had no doubts about the sounds she was making,
especially since she whispered the words, “deeper,” and “more,” as I
plunged my tentacle into her. When her body arched in my hold—the curve
of her back deepening sharply as she threw her head back—her curls
bounced against the tentacle that held her by the waist. I felt her internal
muscles clenching around me, pulsing like a rapid heartbeat. Her voice was
like the siren’s call, a song of ecstasy that lured the unwary to their doom.
I was already lost. If this was my doom, then I welcomed it.
Chapter 22
JOANIE
I’d never had an orgasm as powerful as the one Nemon gave me. I
sagged in his tentacles, shaken by the strength of the pleasure I’d just
experienced. I felt his mating tentacle still hard inside me, and my body still
clenched around it, as if loath to release it.
My hips swayed as he thrust it into me, though a quick glance
between my legs showed that I had not taken much of its length. He was
careful, and for that I was grateful, because as good as he felt inside me, I
doubted I’d have had the sense to stop him before he plunged too deep.
My first orgasm had only been the prelude, and I already felt
another one building, since his cups were still tugging at my clit and nipples
like little sucking kisses. His tentacles coiled around my body, creeping
across my skin, leaving little marks in their wake. It was an indescribable
feeling that was so erotic that I couldn’t speak, beyond begging him in
barely coherent words not to stop.
I wanted to touch his body, but I felt too unbalanced to release my
death grip on his arms. I wasn’t afraid that he’d drop me, but my feet
weren’t even touching the floor. It was disorienting to be suspended while
being penetrated and pleasured in so thorough a fashion that sometimes I
forgot to breathe until I had to gasp in ecstasy.
I climaxed a second time, my clit hypersensitive as he sucked on it
with his cups. It was only after that peak passed that I felt steady enough to
run my hands up his arms to his hard, muscled shoulders.
He pulled me closer into his body so that my chest was against his.
Only his tentacles still playing with my nipples remained between us. The
skin of his upper body was not as textured as the flesh that covered his
tentacles. It was almost like silk, it was so smooth, the only hair on his body
being on his head, lashes, and eyebrows. I clutched him with one hand,
while rubbing my other hand over his chest, leaning forward to kiss the
strong column of his neck.
He lifted my chin with one webbed hand and lowered his head so
that his lips touched mine.
I realized that he didn’t know how to kiss as he held his lips there,
but he must have remembered my attempt to kiss him before he pulled
away from me.
I tilted my head, my lips parting on a moan as his tentacle continued
to move inside me. I coaxed his lips to soften with mine, moving them over
his slowly and deliberately, trying to maintain focus even as his tentacles
plundered my body.
He mimicked my movements until his lips were playing with mine,
our breath mingling in a way that was even more intimate than his tentacle
inside me. This part of him was the vulnerable part. This was where he
could be wounded permanently.
I buried my hands in his silky hair, deepening our kiss. My tongue
trailed along his lips, and as soon as they parted, I slipped my tongue inside
his mouth, only hesitating for a moment as it passed his sharp teeth.
His flavor thrilled my taste buds. It was sweet, but complex, like a
fine wine—the kind of drink I’d never really been able to afford. I drank to
my heart’s content now, enjoying every last sip of him.
Our bodies entangled in a way that wasn’t humanly possible, and
Nemon did things to me that I could never have experienced if I hadn’t been
taken from my home and my life back on Earth. Claire had been right.
Nothing that had happened to us was normal. And for the first time, I truly
appreciated that fact.
When Nemon climaxed, I drank in his cries of pleasure as his
mating tentacle tensed inside me, then pulsed as it released its seed. He
didn’t immediately pull away from me, or withdraw his softening tentacle
from my body, as Michael might have done, his mind already on the
football game he wanted to watch, or the briefing he wanted to review.
Instead, Nemon’s tentacles changed their stimulating touches to
soothing ones, stroking and massaging my body as if he truly did cherish
me. He curled me into the nest of them as he lowered us both to the ground.
“You know, we never did go swimming,” I said against his lips
when he broke our kiss.
“I never would have made it to the water without touching you.” His
eyes searched my face. “And once I touched you, I wasn’t going to be able
to stop.”
I smiled, sated in a way I’d never experienced in my life as I
glanced at the broken door. “You know, we are literally right next to the
door. You think they’re recording us on their security cameras?”
A slow smile tilted his lips. “They are no longer recording this
hold.”
I narrowed my eyes on him. “Are you sure of that?”
He touched my face with his fingers, tracing my features as if he
was fascinated by them. “I strongly objected to their mechanical eyes, and
the commander took that into consideration, giving his word that I would no
longer be under surveillance.”
“Did you break their ship, Nemon?”
His smile spread into a toothy grin. “I fixed it afterwards.”
*****
JOANIE
It was difficult to part with him, especially after what had happened
between us. I’d spent the last two weeks in a constant state of arousal and
nervous indecision, and finally, I’d been able to experience what my erotic
dreams had only teased me about. Only my dreams had been nothing
compared to the reality of it.
We hadn’t had much to say after the second time we made love in
his pool, and were content to simply hold each other and explore each
other’s bodies with curious hands, and in his case, many curious tentacles.
Eventually, though, the water temperature grew uncomfortable for me, and I
felt the exhaustion setting in, telling me that it was time to rest. We would
be docking with the Ubaid Space Station soon, and I had an ordeal ahead of
me. One that Nemon would not be there to protect me from.
We were to tell our stories in front of the entire Cosmic Syndicate. I
thought that was madness. Why draw us out into the open, where the
Iriduans might be able to find us, but the prime commander insisted that we
meet the Syndicate and make our testimonies in person. Apparently, many
of the member species did not trust anything they could not witness with
their own eyes or sense with their other various senses. In order for them to
believe us, they had to see us in person. Some of them could apparently tell
if we were lying just by being near us.
The idea of being surrounded by even more aliens would have
terrified me even a few days ago, but as I stood in the elevator waiting for it
to open on my deck, I felt like I could take on the entire galaxy. I felt
incredible. I knew it was probably all the endorphins from our lovemaking,
but I’d never felt this good in any memory I stored in my mind, not even the
ones that I used to avoid dealing with my reality. Not even my best
memories came close to the memory of being with Nemon, making love to
him until we were both trembling with the power of our climaxes.
On our deck, I checked the corridor to make sure none of the other
girls were around before stepping out of the elevator. I knew that they
would be able to tell what I had been up to. I was certain my face was as
bright as a neon sign given how good I felt. I wasn’t ready to discuss what
had happened with anyone yet. It still felt too intimate, too precious to share
it, even with the women who had become my best friends.
I’d been very circumspect about my feelings for Nemon with the
other women, particularly Claire. It wasn’t that I was ashamed about my
love for him—quite the contrary. I wanted to announce it to the galaxy with
a planet-sized megaphone, but before we’d actually made love, I’d been
afraid to speak of what was happening between us, worried that I would
awaken from that beautiful dream, or that something would happen to end
it, and then I would have to explain to them why that burgeoning
relationship had failed. Instead, it was just easier to blow all their inquiries
about me and Nemon off, explaining that we were only friends, when we
were so much more to each other.
Now that we’d truly mated, I felt more secure about what existed
between us, but the intimacy was too much to share, and I knew Tarin—at
the very least—would have questions that would feel too invasive at the
moment.
Claire was more tactful, but I’d seen the questioning looks she’d
given me whenever the subject of Nemon had come up around her. I’m sure
she suspected that something was happening between us, despite my
protests to the contrary. Given that I’d seen a lot of Thrax hanging out with
Nemon lately, she no doubt knew that I couldn’t stay away from Nemon,
but she also had to know that we hadn’t been alone much in that time, and
short of the time we’d spent in the rec room with it locked, there hadn’t
been an opportunity for us to do anything.
On my way to my cabin, I felt the slide of something wet between
my legs that compelled me to detour to the bathroom for a shower. I figured
at some point, his seed would leak out, but I wasn’t expecting the sight that
greeted me when I shrugged out of my jumpsuit and kicked it aside as I
prepared to step into the shower.
A couple of long whitish-yellow strings slid out from between my
legs once the fabric was no longer pushing them against my skin. I froze at
the sight, my heart pounding. Then I quickly glanced over my shoulder at
the door before stepping inside the shower, activating the opacity on the
clear door that kept the water from spraying everywhere.
Once hidden from anyone who might walk in, I cautiously touched
one of the strings, wincing as I pulled it from my body, though it didn’t
cause any pain. It was slightly squishy—like overcooked pasta, and was
about as thick as spaghetti—and I didn’t think I would ever eat spaghetti
again after my mind made that comparison. Where my fingers pinched it, it
broke open, spilling a translucent fluid onto my skin that glittered as if there
were tiny lights inside it.
“Gross,” I muttered, then shook my head at my own squeamishness.
I had just had sex with an alien. I shouldn’t have expected things to be
normal in the semen department.
It would definitely take some getting used to, the fact that I had
semen strings coming out of my body, but now something Nemon had said
to me about his species—before he was changed—made sense. He’d
referred once to the females of his kind, calling them life-weavers, and
saying that the males spun “seed threads” so that the females could weave
new life from them. It was an almost poetic description that was a little bit
less charming in reality.
I took some comfort in the differences between us though. In my
previous marriage, I had wanted nothing but to get pregnant and carry a
healthy baby to term. Now, I was grateful that Nemon and I would not be
compatible genetically. There was no way someone as alien as he was could
possibly procreate with a human, much less one whose chromosome
abnormality made only a small percentage of my eggs genetically viable.
I’d learned enough about genetics during all of my struggles with my own
fertility to understand that even between humans, it was a damned miracle
that the process worked. Between a human and an alien—particularly one
like Nemon—it was a scientific impossibility.
Granted, the Iriduans had taken human females as breeders, but I
assumed that they were planning on splicing DNA, or doing some arcane
type of scientific intervention to make such offspring viable. Without any
scientific help, there was no way it was happening.
Though I still wanted a child, I could not justify bringing a hybrid
into this galaxy simply for my own selfish desire to have a baby who shared
mine and Nemon’s traits. Sure, I had a fantasy about a cute little baby with
tiny tentacles flailing about, but I was realistic enough to understand that
such a child would suffer from the challenges of being a hybrid, and would
be the only one of his or her kind. I couldn’t do that to my child.
That issue was out of my hands, fortunately, because I had to admit
that I might end up being tempted to try and make it happen, even though I
couldn’t handle another miscarriage. My heart had broken every time I’d
lost a baby, each time leaving scars that kept it from fully healing. Until
Nemon.
After removing the seed threads from my body, I finished up my
shower, watching the shimmering seed rinse down the drain, wondering at
the way it sparkled. The strings themselves were kind of gross, but the
liquid inside them had been almost pretty, like translucent glue filled with
very fine glitter.
After I dried off and dressed in a fresh jumpsuit, putting my dirty
one into the laundry chute, which sucked it down into the cleaning machine,
I headed back to my bunk, nearly stumbling in my exhaustion. I hadn’t been
sleeping well lately, my dreams too filled with either lingering nightmares,
or erotic dreams about Nemon, to allow me to get a restful sleep.
Even now, I was nervous about what the next wake cycle would
bring. It would take hours to dock in port, and even after that, Claire had
insisted that we all wait for the delivery of clothing she’d ordered from the
GalactaNet that was waiting for us in port, because as she’d said, we needed
to “dress human, and show the galaxy that we were there to be reckoned
with.”
I smiled at the thought of her picking out and designing all of our
clothes, complaining that she had to do it all online and couldn’t sew them
herself. She’d spent hours creating looks for all of us, and her own look had
been impressive and bold—she called it cybergoth. I thought her look
would suit her perfectly. There was nothing ordinary about Claire.
She’d allowed us to choose more subtle outfits for ourselves, and I’d
selected a very simple dress in a retro style reminiscent of the 1950s. I liked
the look of that era, perhaps because I’d spent so much time dreaming that
my life was like that of the mother in those old black and white television
episodes—sending her kids off to school, kissing her loving husband
goodbye as he went off to work, then taking care of her beautiful, peaceful
home and visiting with her friendly neighbors during the day. It was the
kind of life that had only been a distant dream for me when I was a little
girl, and it had seemed like heaven. Everything had seemed so perfect in
that fantasy television world, when nothing about my life was, in the cold,
gritty reality where I’d grown up.
As I lay on my cot, staring up at the sloped ceiling, I contemplated
what had happened between me and Nemon. There was no going back, but
I’d already known that. I think I knew that from the moment I had
awakened in his alien embrace the very first time and looked into his eyes.
My body—altered as it was by Iriduan DNA—had instantly recognized
him, and it had only been my mind that struggled to catch up. Now that it
had, I was wholly committed to the idea of us being together and making a
life out here in the galaxy.
Thoughts of Earth would always be bittersweet, and one thing I
would regret was not being able to visit my mother’s grave regularly to
place fresh flowers atop it. Perhaps her ex-husband would occasionally
make the journey from Europe to do that for me. I didn’t think he ever
stopped loving her, though he hadn’t been able to live with the problems
that had plagued her—one of which had been me.
Sleep finally claimed me when my roiling thoughts could no longer
fight against sheer exhaustion.
When I awoke, it was only because an announcement was spoken
into my translator that we had docked at port and the human passengers
were requested in the cargo hold.
It took only minutes to jump out of my cot and slip my shoes on,
and then I rushed through my morning routine before heading down to the
cargo hold to meet my friends. I knew what we would be waiting for, and it
felt a bit like Christmas morning.
By the time I got down there, Claire was already digging into a
metal shipping crate, and Theresa was already holding a handful of fabric,
stroking her fingers over the material with a small, distant smile as she
stared down at it.
Tarin stood beside the crate watching Claire pluck items out of it,
and we all made oohing sounds as she withdrew jewelry and shoes.
Once Claire handed me the shirtwaist dress she’d designed for me, I
understood Theresa’s reaction to the fabric in her hands. Mine was a soft,
linen-like material, colored a charcoal gray that seemed to complement the
paleness of my skin, instead of drawing attention to it, but it wasn’t the
color, or the style, or the heels that were ordered to match it that made me
feel so happy to see it. It was the meaning behind it.
For the last two weeks—and the months before that—I’d been a
prisoner, then a guest on an alien ship. I’d worn loose hospital-like gowns,
I’d been stripped naked, humiliated, tortured, then barely clothed again, and
though I’d finally been given plenty of fresh, clean jumpsuits that were
quite comfortable and sleek, they were all the same. Though the Akrellians
loved beauty and art, clothing design was one place where they didn’t spend
much effort, since they apparently didn’t wear much on their homeworld,
and when they did dress up, it was for ceremonial purposes, which were far
too elaborate for functionality. So their uniforms were bland and austere, in
stark contrast to how they approached their other aspects of life.
But even if I had been dressed in fancy costumes or lush alien robes
the entire time I’d been on the Akrellian ship, I would still clutch this
precious dress to me, my heart beating with eagerness to put it on. Because
it was a human design, and I’d feared for so long that I would never take on
that identity again. Being human on Earth meant being part of something
greater than oneself, though I had never recognized that in my previous life
—before I realized that there was an entire galaxy of sentient aliens to
contend with. Being a human in space surrounded by aliens made me feel
adrift, struggling to determine where I fit in.
Nemon helped so much with that, but I still needed this, and now I
understood why Claire had been so adamant that we “dress human” for our
meeting with the syndicate. We were making a statement with our manner
of dress, which would be quite a bit different from what we were going to
see on the station. We were identifying ourselves as human, and owning it
with pride, after the Iriduans had treated us like expendable inferiors.
Once loaded down with all our packages, we headed back up to our
deck to get ready, since the Syndicate hearing would be starting within the
next quarter-spin. From what I understood, that only gave us about four
hours to get ready for the most intimidating meeting we’d ever attended.
Nearly two hours later, by the Akrellian timer, I stared at myself in
the mirror in the dressing area of the deck bathroom. I looked like a
different woman. Claire had ordered some alien device that would steam
and then roll our hair, and had tamed my curls into a sleek hairstyle that
perfectly complemented the dress I wore. The skirt of my dress swung
loose, brushing my bare skin just below my knees, the charcoal shade
deepening my eye color and turn my mousy brown hair into the same
beautiful chestnut color that Nemon always took on when he was near me.
I only wore a touch of the makeup that Claire had ordered, but it
gave me a fresh look, and when the girls were finished with me, they all
stood back and admired their work.
“You look perfect! Like you just stepped out of one of those old
black and white TV sitcoms,” Theresa said, admiring my dress and hair.
“Only you have a lot more color,” Tarin added.
Claire studied me, only half-finished with her own outfit. “I envy
you your complexion, Joanie. I can never get my skin that pale.”
I laughed at that. “Trust me, this is the palest I’ve ever been. In
Vegas, I was always sporting either a tan or a sunburn.”
After a few more complementary remarks, the other women turned
their attention to their own outfits, and I turned mine to Nemon, and how
much I wanted him to see me like this. Sadly, despite how much the
commander now seemed to trust Nemon, he still wouldn’t allow him to
leave the ship while we were in port. His reasoning was sound. Nemon had
a tendency to allow his curiosity to lead him into trouble. Thrax had very
little curiosity about the station, and wouldn’t try to slip away to explore it.
Nemon just might be able to slip away from even a hypervigilant security
detail.
Still, I felt like it was incredibly unfair to deny Nemon the chance to
see the station for himself, when he was so excited about it. I was sure—
well, somewhat certain—that he would remain focused on his security
while still getting to look around.
The commander would not be convinced of that, so Nemon had
been asked to remain in the wet-hold, and I headed down to him, because I
wanted nothing more than to see him again before heading out into the
unknown station, wishing he could be by my side. I also couldn’t wait to get
his reaction when he saw me dressed like this.
My stomach fluttered with nerves as I wondered how he would
respond to me. For the first time in what felt like forever, I was actually
wearing underwear and an undergarment beneath my fitted bodice that
lifted up “the girls” until they were round, plump, and firm instead of
sagging. My silhouette was very feminine, and I felt more beautiful than I
had in ages, even before I was abducted. But would he think I was beautiful
like this? Dressed like a human?
He was already out of his pool, and I could tell that he’d been doing
his version of pacing around the wet-hold, but when I entered, he turned to
me and froze, his alien eyes staring at me as his mouth hung open, his
happy greeting dying on his lips as he took me in.
I walked slowly towards him, but didn’t get very far before his
tentacles surged towards me all at once. Suddenly, they were touching me
everywhere, brushing at the fabric of my dress, the skin that was bared just
below it, the lightly powdered skin of my cheek, and the practically
shellacked roll of my hairstyle. I pulled away from that last questing
tentacle, not wanting to mess up what had taken my friends a while to fix.
“Joanie?” He shook his head. “You look so….”
I did a little spin, causing his tentacles to curl back as my skirt flared
up, revealing more of my legs. “Do you like it?”
He stared wordlessly.
I began to worry. I stood on my toes in my shiny new heels and
waved my hand in his face. “Yoo hoo? Anyone home?”
His distracted stare sharpened a bit. “I’m trying to control myself. It
is not easy. You look so beautiful.” His gaze trailed from my toes to my
hair. “You have always been beautiful to me, and I will always prefer you as
I saw you last sleep cycle, but this….,” a tentacle gestured to me, quivering
a little as he pulled it back away from me, “you are like a light shining upon
the surface of the water, drawing me from the darkest depths to investigate
what manner of treasure could glow so brightly.” His tentacles curled tight
against his body. “I do not want to let you leave this ship, lest others will
see my treasure and try to take her.”
He knew how to make a girl feel complimented. I would give him
that. Well, to be fair, I would give him everything, but I still shook my head
in admonishment when one of his tentacles trailed up my leg and slipped
under the loose fabric of my skirt. “I have to leave soon. We have this
damned meeting to get over with.”
“You seem tense.” He gave me a sharky grin. “We should do
something about that before you go.” His tentacle trailed higher,
encountering the lacy material of my new panties. He froze again for a
moment, before he breathed out on a long sigh, his eyes closing. “You are
here to torture me, aren’t you?” His tentacle traced the lace pattern over my
mound, and then trailed along the edge of the panty, capturing it to pull it to
the side so that a second tentacle that slipped beneath my skirt could play
over my clit, dragging the cups along the sensitive flesh and down to my
moist entrance.
I felt my knees start to buckle as his suction cup began to tug on my
clit. A tentacle wrapped around my waist, supporting me as I sagged with
pleasure. “Don’t mess up my hair,” I gasped between heavy panting as
more tentacles surrounded me, seeking the skin that was left exposed by my
dress.
“I’ll be careful,” he said softly. His tentacles curled around my legs
as he lifted me off the ground and towards his upper body. Beneath my
skirt, they writhed around my inner thighs as one magical tentacle
continued to pulse on my clit. Then I felt the stiffened tip of his mating
tentacle probing at my soaking entrance, delving into the slick folds to
penetrate as deeply as he could.
I cried out in climax as the slide of his mating tentacle inside me set
off the orgasm that his manipulation of my clit had built up.
He kissed me carefully on the lips, mindful of the light coat of gloss
that I’d swiped over them. Then he moaned as his mating tentacle began the
rhythm that would bring us both to a powerful climax.
After his tentacle pumped inside me, releasing the string seed that I
wondered how I should deal with, he lowered me to the floor, where my
heels had fallen earlier, forgotten as he “relaxed” all that tension inside me.
He steadied me on my feet, providing support as I slipped my heels
back on. Then he leaned down to give me another sweet kiss that was just
the merest brush of his lips against mine.
“I’m feeling less tense. I have to admit.” I grinned at him, my
muscles still weak from the pleasure he’d given me.
His answering grin was broad and self-satisfied. “Any time you
need me to help you relax, you let me know.” When his smile faded, it was
replaced by a slight frown. “I really am worried about you out there. I
respect Commander Tirel, but do not like him keeping me from protecting
my mate.”
I sighed. “I’m so sorry, Nemon. I wish you could go too. Believe
me! But the commander is sending a security detail, as well as attending the
meeting himself, and don’t forget Thrax will also be there.”
He nodded. “That is the only reason I am not fighting Tirel openly
on his decree that I remain behind. I trust that Thrax can protect you from
most threats you might face.”
I eyed him suspiciously. “What are you planning, Nemon?”
He shook his head at my expression. “It would be better if you do
not know, so that you can deny you had any foreknowledge later. Just know
that I won’t let my mate be unprotected on the station.”
I twisted my fingers together in front of me, not liking the
implication behind his words. “Nemon, please don’t do anything that will
get you in trouble with the Akrellians. You’ve earned their trust and built a
friendship with the commander. You don’t want to jeopardize that with
impulsive actions.”
He lowered his upper body until we were nearly eye level. “There is
nothing impulsive about wanting to protect you. It is something that is in
my blood, a drive that beats in all three of my hearts. It will always be there,
and so will I.” He kissed me softly before pulling away. “You should head
towards the cargo bay. They will be searching for you soon.”
I stared at him for a long moment with indecision, before finally
sighing. “Be careful, Nemon. I want to protect you, too, you know.”
He grinned at that. “I know, my mate. I will not put myself in danger
unless I have to. They’ll never even know I’m there.”
As crazy as that sounded—given Nemon’s massive size—I almost
believed him.
Chapter 24
JOANIE
*****
After deciding where our future lay, Theresa and Tarin informed me
in no uncertain terms that we would be heading to the Leisure Ring—a
public area filled with neon holographic advertisements that made me think
of Vegas. Perhaps what Sin City might look like in some distant future.
With Syndicate security looking out for us, the commander was free
to head back to his ship with his detail. Claire had opted to return to the ship
with Thrax, because he didn’t want to seek his leisure, didn’t see the
purpose in it, and was eager to get his mate back in their private cabin.
We’d been guaranteed additional safety under Syndicate Protection
after giving our testimonies, and now anyone who brought harm to us while
on the station would face serious backlash from the Syndicate. Because of
that reassurance, the three of us decided to check out Leisure Ring, though
initially, I resisted the idea. I was eager to return to Nemon and tell him that
I wanted to go wherever he did for our future together. Besides, I was
worried about him. I didn’t know if he’d tried to escape the ship to come
after us, or if he’d realized how bad an idea that was and had stayed put. At
any rate, I should have returned immediately, along with Claire, Thrax, and
the Akrellians, just to let him know that everything had gone well.
But this would probably be the last time I saw Theresa and Tarin,
since they were set up with the Lusian pilot who would take them back
home to Earth the following Ubaid Standard day. They wanted to see the
nightlife in Leisure Ring, and they wanted me to go with them for one last
girl’s night. I couldn’t say no to that. They’d become like my sisters, even
in the short time we’d known each other. Given what we’d been through,
relationships grew quickly. I was going to truly miss them.
We rode a bullet-train-like vehicle through the Core Tube that
connected all of the station rings, and it was surreal to stand on the crowded
transportation, so much like a sleeker version of a subway on Earth,
surrounded by a variety of aliens of all shapes and sizes. Most of the other
aliens paid us little attention, though I didn’t think it was due to lack of
curiosity, so much as the Syndicate security escort that got on the train with
us.
Only two guards, but they were both hulking Ultiman, and
apparently, they weren’t the kind of alien people messed around with. It was
a pity that the guards were taciturn and not inclined to visit with us, but at
least their presence deterred any other aliens from approaching us. As cool
as it was to see so many aliens, it was another thing entirely to be immersed
in the crowd of them. Without Thrax around, we were probably going to
start blending in.
We exited the train at Leisure Ring Station and followed the crowd
to an elevator, where we waited for our guards to scare off any aliens who
tried to join us in the confined space, leaving us alone as we rode it out to
the Leisure Ring.
This ring was always in a night-cycle, but like Vegas, it was the city
that never slept, being obviously an adult playground, complete with
casinos, clubs, restaurants, and the ubiquitous establishments of ill-repute. I
felt the familiar burst of adrenaline as I walked past noisy casinos filled
with aliens honking, hooting, hollering, and making sounds that had no
Earth analogue as they either won—or more often lost—their credits.
Like most Vegas casinos, their casino floors opened right up onto the
walkways outside, so tourists could stroll in out of the crowds and just take
a seat at one of the many machines with their holographic screens
displaying games I’d never seen before. I recognized the way the lights
flickered and the sound of jackpots going off, and my blood pumped faster.
We’d been given over a thousand credits each as a gift from the
Akrellians for playing our role in their complaint to the Syndicate about the
Iriduans. It was a generous gesture, especially since they had fed and
clothed and transported us, but it was nice not to be left penniless once our
job was complete. Theresa and Tarin were determined to spend all their
credits, since they wouldn’t be much use on Earth, but some of the
souvenirs they picked up in the Leisure Ring might be.
As I trailed after my excited friends, who were eagerly anticipating
the coming evening, my gaze swept the dimly lit, crowded thoroughfare
that passed through the many different establishments. If the aliens were
suddenly changed to humans, this thoroughfare could be Las Vegas of the
future, though I couldn’t read any of the signs. In fact, it almost seemed like
a dream of home with an extra-surreal quality to it.
Theresa waved to a casino entrance in front of us that was less
crowded than the others, and we followed her inside, our dour guards on
our heels, eyeing everyone around them as aliens shifted out of their path—
aliens that barely spared us a brief glance with two eyes, or four, or six, or
even eye stalks, before quickly looking away again.
It was difficult to focus on what Theresa and Tarin were saying as
my gaze strayed over the machines, then searched deeper into the casino
where there were tables with strange cubes and spheres floating above
them, surrounded by aliens that were obviously there to place bets. No
matter how different the games, or even the bodies that played them, it
seemed that some things were universal. The fact that gambling was one of
those things didn’t surprise me.
My mouth went dry as I stopped in front of a machine, studying the
three-dimensional holo display that hovered over the console. It was a
simple match-up game, something even a primitive human could easily
comprehend. The demonstration played over and over again as I watched,
and my fingers itched to feed my card of credits into the slot.
“Would you care for a drink?” A smooth, sultry voice speaking
some alien language that my translator understood snapped me out of my
fascination with the machine.
I turned to face the female alien. She was covered in fur, but had
humanoid feminine proportions—quite generous ones—that were on
display in a tight-fitting uniform that barely covered her groin area and left
her long, sinuous tail free beneath the little skirt. She had a short muzzle on
her face, and large ears, but I couldn’t decide if she looked more like a cat, a
bear, or a dog—or none of the above. Her eyes were almost human, though
the golden amber color would be unusual amongst humans. “I don’t
suppose you have margaritas here?”
She glanced at the heavy tray of drinks balanced easily on her arm.
“If you can describe it to me, I will ask our bartender. He can usually
replicate regional favorites.”
That was the tricky part, but what made me hesitate to attempt it
wasn’t the challenge of describing my favorite alcoholic treat, it was the
entire atmosphere around me. I was in a casino. After everything I’d been
through, and all I’d done, I’d wound up right back in a place like this, with
the only money I had left in my pocket, ready to piss it all away on a night
of entertainment, when all I really wanted to do was return to the ship and
curl up with my mate, make love until we were both exhausted, and then lie
awake cuddling while we discussed our future.
“What the hell am I even doing here?” This wasn’t what I wanted in
my life anymore. Casinos had been my escape from my misery—their
colorful lights and fun, carnival sounds, and the complimentary drinks, had
allowed me to avoid dealing with reality, but in the end, they’d only added
to my misery. Now, I was happy. I’d found meaning in my life. I had
friends, and a mate who was far more important to me than a place like this
could ever be.
The waitress blinked at me. “I’m sorry. Perhaps there was a
translation error.”
I shook my head at her. “No, I’m sorry. I was talking to myself. I’ll
pass on the drink, thank you.”
She nodded, her ears tilting backwards as if she were disappointed.
“Okay, flag me down if you change your mind.” Then she spun on her
shapely legs and sauntered away, her tail swishing behind her.
I dismissed her from my mind and looked around for Theresa and
Tarin. They were standing by a potted plant that looked like nothing on
Earth, unless cotton-candy colored feathers grew on trees somewhere
hidden from nature documentaries.
I started walking over to them, when I noticed that they were
speaking intently, and Theresa had tears running down her cheeks. I sped up
my steps until I reached them.
I put a hand on her shoulder. “Hey, Terry, what’s wrong?”
She quickly turned her head away from me, swiping impatiently at
her cheeks. “It’s nothing, okay. I don’t want to talk about it.” She shot a
glare at Tarin, who shook her head, crossing her arms over her chest.
I also looked at Tarin, hoping for some explanation. She shrugged.
“You heard the lady. Discussion’s closed.”
Hurt stabbed at me that I’d been left out of the discussion in the first
place. “I see.”
Theresa quickly hugged me. “It’s nothing personal, JoJo. It just…
hurts to keep talking about… him. I just want to forget all about it. I can’t
wait to go home.”
I’d suspected what was causing her tears, but I hadn’t wanted to pry.
She had to make her own decisions, and unlike Tarin, I wasn’t trying to play
matchmaker to the aliens with all my friends. I often thought that Tarin
encouraged everyone around her to date aliens because she herself wanted
to, but was too chicken to give it a go. “If you’re sure that everything’s
okay, Terry, I’ll respect that, but if you need to talk….”
Theresa pulled away from me and shook her head, her gaze
searching the casino. “Hell, I don’t need to talk. I need to drink. A lot!”
Tarin grinned, grabbing Theresa’s arm. “Then let’s not waste time
with waiters. Let’s get to the bar and plant our butts.” She nodded at me.
“You coming, Jo?”
I’d barely heard her words, because as they were talking, I’d spotted
a familiar face in the crowd for only a brief moment before he turned away.
Somehow, Nemon had found us in the casino, and he was watching us until
he caught me staring at him. No doubt he didn’t want the girls to see him,
since he was an escapee from the ship. I knew it was him even though he
wore a hood that shaded the top half of his face, and a clear mask that
covered the lower half. I could still see his lean, aristocratic nose, and his
shapely lips. His features were unmistakable.
“Jo?”
I didn’t want them to know that Nemon was here. Not that they
would necessarily call him out or tell the Akrellians, but still, he wasn’t
supposed to be on the station. There was a possibility one of them might
give him away to the Syndicate security guards who were still watching us
from a respectful distance. “Hey, I’ll join you in a bit, okay. I’m gonna take
a moment to freshen up.” I waved vaguely in the direction where I hoped
there might be a restroom.
Theresa turned in that direction. “I could freshen up too.”
Tarin started walking towards the back of the casino floor, her gaze
searching for the restrooms. “Yeah, I feel fresh, but I’m interested to see
what a bathroom in an alien casino looks like.”
Damn. They took off towards the bathroom, and I allowed my steps
to lag, walking slower and slower until they’d left me behind. Even the
guards were so focused on keeping up with the two women plowing
through the crowds that they didn’t seem to notice that they’d lost one.
I felt guilty about bailing on them, particularly since this was our
last night together, but once I found Nemon and reassured him that I was
fine and would meet him back at the ship as soon as we were done hanging
out, I would find them again, and we could finish out our night.
I caught sight of Nemon again near the entrance of the casino, just
before two Ultimans lumbered by in front of him, deep in a growling
argument, their perfectly groomed fur braided with energy beads that
provided an impenetrable shield if they were attacked. Like our guards,
these were intimidating creatures. They were one of the most advanced
species in the Syndicate, though humans only knew them as Bigfoot, since
they’d visited our planet pretending to be little more than smelly ape men in
order to study us, while human cryptozoologists searched for proof of their
existence.
When they cleared the path, I saw that Nemon had disappeared, and
I rushed towards where I’d last seen his hooded form. Then I caught sight
of his cloak outside in the crowded thoroughfare. I was impressed that he
managed to move his bulk among the other aliens without bumping anyone
or having his tentacles stepped on, but there were other large aliens out
there, their steps shaking the ground as they passed, so Nemon might not
even be that surprising to people. Plus, based on what I’d seen of him, he
was maintaining his height at just around six feet or so, which wouldn’t
draw any attention from the crowd, where that height seemed to be on the
small side for male aliens. Except for the child-sized aliens that dodged
between legs, or the really tiny aliens that I had to be careful not to step on,
most of the aliens on the station fell within a human adult size range, or ran
much larger.
I wove through the crowd, following Nemon as he passed several
casino entrances and a brothel display window where alien females eyed
him hungrily. I wasn’t able to get a clear view of him because I was too far
behind and there were so many aliens in front of me, but his progress was
somewhat slow and halting, as if it was difficult for him to move quickly,
which wasn’t surprising when he probably had to keep his tentacles curled
tight against him to avoid tripping everyone, instead of under him, which
would make him much taller.
Suddenly, Nemon slipped into the alley beside the shop, and I
rushed after him, dodging around the last group of insectoid aliens that
crawled at a slow pace between me and the alley. I hesitated for only a
moment before I followed into that dimly lit area. Nemon was down there.
He wouldn’t allow anyone to harm me. Not that anyone seemed to be
paying any attention to me.
I saw his form, shrouded by a shadowy cloak, near some scattered
containers that smelled like rotting garbage. I guessed alleys were pretty
much the same everywhere. Poor Nemon had to be suffering, since his
tentacles could also taste the foul ground around us.
“Nemon!” I called out, so happy to finally see him again, even
though I worried about him being off the ship and potentially getting in
trouble for it.
He froze, and then slowly turned towards me, the light from the
neon sign that spilled from the other exit of the alley sparking off the clear
mask that covered his lower face, but still revealed its features to me. It was
Nemon. But it wasn’t.
I gasped and took a couple of steps backwards, my heart pounding
as I stared at a stranger with my lover’s face.
He held out a hand—one without claws or webbing. “Wait! Please
don’t go.” His voice was low, husky, as if he wasn’t accustomed to using it.
I paused in my retreat, though I knew I should turn and bolt back
towards the safety of the crowds. Still, his voice had sounded pleading, not
threatening. “Who are you?”
He lifted his hands to his hood, pulling it off his head to reveal my
beloved’s face, only with eyes that were definitely those of a stranger. This
version had golden-yellow iridescent skin that shimmered in the muted
light. “My name is Halian. I was once Professor Halian. Nemon is… was…
important to me.”
I took a cautious step closer, staring at his face, noting the similarity
to Nemon’s. It was almost a perfect replica, except for the skin tone and the
eyes. “Oh, my god! You’re Father!”
He smiled beneath the clear mask, and the curve of his lips
reminded me so much of Nemon that I took another step closer to him. “So,
Nemon still calls me that.” He sighed, his breath fogging the mask for a
moment. “I’m so glad to hear that he lives. I’ve been afraid that he would
be caught or killed.”
“He thought you’d been caught or killed.” I narrowed my eyes,
pointing at him in accusation. “You never came back for him like you
promised. He was stuck down there in those warrens with no one to talk to
for years!”
Halian stared down at the debris-covered ground of the alleyway. “I
am sorry for that. Deeply sorry. I was able to escape before the facility
became aware of my betrayal, but they tracked me down later and captured
me. I have only recently escaped my own imprisonment.” There was a
haunted quality to his tone that I recognized. It appeared that we humans
had not been the only ones tortured by the Iriduans.
“That’s terrible, Halian. I know what it’s like to be a prisoner of the
Iriduans.”
His gaze whipped up to meet mine. “I heard about that. Your
testimony and that of your fellow humans was broadcasted to the station
during the hearing. I apologize for what you’ve suffered.”
We’d known that it was being broadcasted, but it still embarrassed
me to realize that my pain had been exposed to the entire civilized galaxy.
Yet at the same time—because it was out in the open—the Iriduans could
no longer deny what they’d done. They had to own up to the atrocities that
they’d committed.
I didn’t even care about that now, though. There was something
more important to consider. I could give Nemon the perfect gift. I could
return his father to him. “Nemon would love to see you again!” I took
another step closer to Halian, until I was only a few paces away from him.
He seemed so much smaller than Nemon now that I was close, even though
his body was hidden beneath the bulky hooded cloak. I realized that he was
probably pretty slender in comparison to Nemon’s beautifully muscled
frame.
Halian shook his head, his lips quirking up at the corner in a
regretful half-smile. “I could no more approach Nemon near an Akrellian
ship than I could go near my own people now, though I would love to see
him again. You have no idea how much I hoped for a reunion, but Nemon is
out of my reach.” He sighed out another fogging breath into his mask, and I
realized suddenly why he was wearing it.
He was an unmated Iriduan male, at risk of imprinting if he detected
the right pheromone signature that triggered whatever it was that caused
imprinting. Nemon had said that his father had feared such a fate. It was
little wonder he wore a filtering mask to avoid it.
Given the extreme similarity between Nemon and Halian—at least
in their facial features—I wondered if he was at risk of imprinting on me, or
vice versa. I didn’t feel particularly drawn to him. Certainly not how I had
been right in the beginning towards Nemon, but Claire had mentioned that
Ilyan had imprinted on her the moment he had scented her, and he had
provided his DNA to create Thrax, so it was possible that it would work the
same way with Halian.
Now, I wished I had a handy mask like Halian did, but it was too
late for that. If I had imprinted on him, I thought I would feel something,
but I guessed I would have to wait and see what happened when we parted
ways. I prayed that I would be fine, and hoped that the fact that I felt
nothing even approaching my fascination for Nemon when I looked at
Halian was a good sign. I needed to focus on the conversation, because I
was certain that Nemon would want to know every word that his “father”
had to say. “I realize that the Iriduans and the Akrellians are enemies—
particularly now—but maybe there’s some way to convince the commander
to let you at least speak with Nemon. After all, you went against your
people to do what was right in freeing Nemon. That has to count for
something.”
His smile was the saddest I’d ever seen. “I betrayed my people.
Believe me, that counts, but not in a way that would earn any trust or
respect from our enemy.”
I could practically feel his pain, his tone was so distressed. “You did
what was right. You stopped those horrible experiments on Nemon and set
him free. He remembers that, and does not blame you for the pain you
caused him.”
He studied me with eyes that were nearly as gold as his iridescent
skin. “He told you all of that? You must be very special to him.”
I couldn’t keep the sappy smile from showing on my face. “He’s my
mate. He imprinted on me.”
His eyes widened, and then narrowed again as his brows dipped in a
frown. “Imprinted? Nemon? That’s not— explain what you mean, please?”
I realized that he wasn’t happy to hear the news, and then wanted to
smack my forehead for blurting it out like a happy announcement to
someone who clearly viewed imprinting as an affliction to be avoided. “I
realize that your people aren’t happy about imprinting, but Nemon is. I
swear it. And I am as devoted to him as he is to me.” I bit my lip, hesitating
as I wondered whether I should reveal everything to this stranger, but then I
decided to tell him the truth. It was clear that he still cared about Nemon’s
happiness, and he had sacrificed so much to set Nemon free. I wanted him
to know that Nemon had not been enslaved to an uncaring woman. “The
Iriduans did something to me so that I imprinted on Nemon as well.”
Again his eyes widened, and they remained that way as he stared at
me. His lips parted, though no words came out.
“I will take care of Nemon, and love him more than anyone else
ever could. You have my word on that.”
He visibly shook himself, his cloak shifting to reveal his ragged
clothing beneath it, a far cry from the elegant robes I’d seen on the few
Iriduan males who had passed us in the crowds. As a matter of fact, I didn’t
see any sign of Halian’s wings either. “What you’ve told me, it’s not
possible. There is no way to transfer the affliction to a female. We have
tried! By the emperors’ sacred crowns, we have tried for generations, to no
avail!”
I began to feel a sense of doubt at his absolute certainty. I’d been so
sure. Even Lariasa had been convinced that my overreaction to trying to
break things off with Nemon had been because of a possible imprinting, but
surely an Iriduan male would know the most about such things. “I feel so
strongly for him, and I have since I first met him. That’s what made me
think….”
His eyes were sympathetic. “If my people were capable of isolating
the gene that causes imprinting, we would have done so long ago. Your
devotion to Nemon sounds like something else. Perhaps, it is something
particular to your species.” His tone sounded doubtful.
“Then what is this Iriduan DNA doing inside me?”
He shrugged, and then winced at the motion, as if it pained him. “I
cannot say for certain, but I heard your testimony to the Syndicate. It
sounded as if they were testing your immune response against a variety of
biological agents. It’s possible that they spliced immune-specific Iriduan
code into your DNA to use you as a test subject prior to injecting Iriduan
subjects. They would have also been using your blood to create antivenin.”
“That’s monstrous!” I shivered, rubbing my arms.
His sad smile returned. “You’re surprised by that? My people can be
cruel in pursuit of the greater good. Humanity is distantly related to my
kind. We share a common ancestry. Once, your world was an Iriduan
colony, a very long time ago, before we added many of the alterations to
our genetic code, and before your people began to breed with the primitive
sentient apes on your world.” He sighed. “It’s not surprising that my people
view humans as useful test subjects for early trials.”
“Wait.” I held up a hand, trying to process everything he was telling
me. Unlike Claire, I’d never had a conversation with our captors, but she’d
told us what they’d said to her, and Halian was telling a very similar story.
Still, it was so hard to believe that we had once shared ancestry with these
aliens. “So, you think they used me as a test animal for their immune
system experiments?”
He nodded. “As I said, I cannot be certain, but implanting the
modified code into your DNA to boost your own immune system would
allow them to study your response to the modifications and how effective
they were before using them for our own people. It sounds as if it was
successful, based on your survival of the experiments.”
“Why would you call such a thing for the ‘greater good’? There’s
nothing good about what they did to me. No justification for it.”
He looked away from me, studying the trash bins nearby as if there
were secrets hidden within the refuse. “It is easy to make that judgement
when your world is hidden away, forgotten or unknown by those species
that might endanger it. My people are not so fortunate.”
“You freed Nemon, so clearly even you understand that there are
some lines you just don’t cross. No matter what.”
His eyes met mine again. “That is true. There are lines we should
never cross. I wish I could see Nemon again. He was like a son to me.” He
smiled, and this time it wasn’t a sad expression. “He was so incredibly
curious when he awakened in my laboratory. At first, I didn’t realize the
extent of his intelligence, and had plans to increase it to that of a trained
animal, never imagining that it already surpassed that of most sentient
species in the known galaxy.”
I wasn’t that surprised to hear this. Nemon’s understanding of the
Akrellian ship had grown in leaps and bounds just from him exploring on it.
When his curiosity had a purpose, he learned very rapidly, and I imagined
that must have been alarming for the scientists who were experimenting on
him. “I think he’s a genius, but then again, I might be accused of being
biased.”
Halian laughed. “You would not be the only one, though I do not
believe it is bias, so much as observation that tells us this about him. Still,
he had a childlike quality to him that charmed me, despite his intelligence.
He was always eager to learn, and eager to please. He did not hurt others
out of malice or hostility, and always regretted accidents. There was
innocence in him that I wouldn’t have expected from a predator such as he
was when we captured him on his home world.”
I could only agree with his assessment of Nemon’s character, though
there had been nothing childlike in his exploration and desire to please me.
“He’s sweet, loving, kind… he’s perfect.”
Halian was silent for a long moment, before he nodded, his sad
smile returning. I didn’t know how anyone could make an expression that
was supposed to be happy look so strained and miserable, but he managed
it. “He is all that you say, though it is surprising to hear such emotion for a
male coming from a female. I cannot see Nemon in person, but I would like
to ask you a favor.”
I blinked, trying to catch up in the conversation, since I’d stopped
listening to his words after he’d made the comment about females that had
snagged my curiosity. “Are they really so bad, your females? Do none of
them return your devotion?”
He lifted a hand that clenched into a fist in front of him. “What do
you think, human? Our females have evolved to take advantage of our
malady whenever they can. They do not feel for us as we do for them. It is
rare for one of them to return our slavish devotion.”
I almost pitied the Iriduans, even though I still hated them for what
they’d done to me—although, if Halian could be believed, my love for
Nemon was all my own choice and had nothing to do with Iriduan genetics.
It would explain why I found nothing that drew me about Nemon’s “father,”
despite their genetic similarity. Though I was relieved not to be personally
invested in Halian, I did love Nemon, and knew he would want to hear any
news from this man he’d loved and respected. “What should I tell Nemon
about you?”
He reached into his cloak. “I would like to give him a gift. No doubt
he has lost the last one I gave him, and it was a small thing. I have
something much more precious that he will want.”
I stepped closer as he drew his hand from his cloak, his slender
fingers curled around a square device with a tubular extension on one end.
There were buttons on the surface, and some of them glowed with light as if
he’d depressed them.
“Is that something like the holographic projector he told me about?
Apparently, he’d accidentally broken it, but it had images of a space station,
and he always wanted another—”
My words were cut off in a yelp of surprise as he pressed the tube to
my hand when I reached for the object. I felt the needle inside the tube
pierce my skin, and then the rapid burn of some fluid pumped into my
bloodstream.
My mouth gaped, and my rapidly beating heart caused the drug to
speed through my system. My hand went numb first, but I was only able to
back away for a couple of steps before my legs gave out under me.
Halian caught me in his embrace as I collapsed, and I noticed that he
winced as his arms went around me to keep me from slumping to the
ground.
“Why?” I whispered through numb lips.
He gave me his sad smile. “Sometimes, we must do things we do
not like, for the greater good.”
Chapter 25
NEMON
Escaping the ship had been even easier than I’d hoped. Though the
commander usually had tight security, the crew’s attention was currently
focused on the crates they were loading into the hold for the journey to
Hierabodos V. They were checking each one, searching for potential threats
to the ship and crew, and I was able to slip past them, blending into my
background. I extended my camouflaged tentacles to make small sounds
behind some of the guards so that they would look away as I passed.
Once in the port, I had to dodge a large crowd, and things grew
increasingly more difficult, though it did not decrease my determination to
find Joanie and keep an eye on her to protect her. I winced as aliens
stumbled over my tentacles, looking back over their shoulders to find out
what they’d stepped on even as I pulled the camouflaged appendages back
into my body.
It was difficult to remain small enough to blend in with the crowd
while at the same time keeping my body from spreading out in the busy
port. I was not entirely successful at the effort, and soon had more than one
alien searching around them to figure out what they’d bumped into.
I knew that my plan had hit an insurmountable obstacle when I saw
the security scanners at the port exit. There was no way I would be able to
pass through them undetected, unless I disabled them first, and I had to
figure out how to do that.
I trailed a Tapiran security guard for a frustrating couple of hours
before he led me to a locked security room, placing his eye against the
scanner. The door unlocked for him as I watched from a discreet distance.
When he left the room again—the door sliding shut as soon as he
cleared the threshold—I was waiting for him. He walked right into the part
of my body that was in front of him, which I had concealed to look like that
of an Ultiman warrior—a species I had chosen because their height and
breadth allowed me to use more of my mass for the mimicry.
He glared at me, his long snout twitching as he took in my beaded,
braided fur—a difficult look to pull off that had taken the entire time he’d
been inside the security room to complete. “You’re not supposed to be in
this part of the port.”
“I got lost,” I said, mimicking the Ultiman’s distinctive growling
language.
He snorted, all four of his nostrils flaring. “Well, you need to get lost
from this area, immediately.”
I nodded and turned away. “Very well, I will leave. Can you point the
way back to the main port exit?”
He gestured to the corridor that led back out towards the security
scanners. “It’s that way. Get moving.”
Then, before I was forced to adopt the long-legged, slow walk of the
Ultimans that I had been practicing, he strode in that direction himself,
leaving me behind.
I shook my newly formed head as I watched him turn the corner. It
appeared that security was only as good as the laziest security guard in this
port.
I’d taken a good look into his eyes, and I was able to mimic them for
the scanner, which caused the door to slide open upon a room filled with
security monitors.
I pulled myself inside, barely clearing the threshold with all of my
tentacles before the door closed. The room was not large, but wasn’t too
tiny to contain my mass, though it was a tight fit. I played my tentacles
across the holographic monitors, searching for some sign of how to get past
the scanners.
I’d just found a potential solution in a manual override switch
mentioned in an operator’s manual on one of the monitors when an alarm
went off and the door opened, revealing a handful of armed guards, pointing
their weapons at me.
Chapter 26
JOANIE
NEMON
There had been some chaos and confusion during my arrest and
containment in a holding cell in the Ubaid Port Authority jail, but I was
very careful not to move in any way that inspired the port authority to
attack me, which would have forced me to defend myself. I never intended
to harm anyone with my escape. I’d only wanted to protect Joanie from the
dangers she might encounter on the station.
Instead, I was stuck until Prime Commander Tirel and the others
finished their hearing with the Syndicate and returned to the Akrellian
docking bay, where he would be informed that I’d left his care and had
committed what was apparently a fairly serious set of crimes.
Several security officers had stood outside my cell, staring at me as I
shifted back into the form that had become the most comfortable for me—
the fur on my body melting back into smooth skin as I once again took on
the face of my father. I let the camouflage of my tentacles change to a more
colorful hue so that they were visible, coiling them against my body to
show that I meant no harm. It was honestly difficult to wait in the cell
instead of just hacking the lock through the bars to escape, but I wanted to
show good faith. I had allowed myself to be arrested and would wait until
the Akrellians could bail me out.
I didn’t expect Tirel to be happy to see me, given where I was, but I
never expected his expression to be so dour when he marched into the jail
many hours later. Thrax was hard on his heels, as was a security officer,
who was arguing with them about freeing me without the proper paperwork.
Tirel slashed his hand through the air in front of him, silencing the
security officer. His quills rattled with his agitation, and I wondered if the
officer didn’t see him as a greater threat at that point than I was. “We don’t
have time for bureaucratic red tape. Take your complaints up with the
Dancer. We pay more than our fair share of fees to the Syndicate. They can
afford to look the other way this time.”
The officer, a four-eyed Olomesh who was nearly as tall as Thrax,
still looked intimidated by the two warriors, but he wasn’t quick to back
down. “Your crewmember violated our security.” He pointed in my
direction. “He is a threat to this station.”
Tirel narrowed his eyes, his quilled crest standing tall and spread out
on his head. “All the more reason for you to expedite his removal from this
station. We will take him directly to our ship and leave within the hour.”
I remained quiet, not wanting to sway the officer’s decision by posing
any kind of resistance. Thrax met my eyes, narrowing his in irritation. I
wasn’t sure if he was irritated at me or the officer. Probably both. Inwardly,
I shrugged. I’d known that trying to follow Joanie was risky, but she was
my mate. Thrax should understand that better than anyone.
Finally, the tense showdown between the prime commander and the
officer ended with the port authority deciding to get rid of the problem as
quickly as possible, no doubt to avoid filing paperwork that revealed how
lax security had been in the first place. They’d only caught me because I’d
unknowingly tripped an alarm sensor beneath the desk with a stray tentacle
while investigating the monitors.
It wasn’t until I was escorted by a full contingent of security guards
back to the Akrellian ship—where they made certain I boarded and warned
me not to return—that I discovered the reason for Tirel’s urgency. It had not
been to spare me the trouble of cooling my tentacles in a jail cell, and in
fact, the lecture I’d expected never came. Instead, he relayed far more
devastating words as he faced me in the hold.
“Madam Joanie has disappeared. She slipped away from the other
human females while they were enjoying the sights in Leisure Ring.
Unfortunately, a sweep of the area by syndicate security was unable to
discover her, though video feed shows her leaving the casino as if she were
following someone.”
My tentacles snaked around him, lifting him off the floor to yank him
towards me as my lips pulled back in a snarl, baring all my teeth. “How
could you let this happen to my mate? You were supposed to protect her!”
I felt several stings in one of my tentacles as Tirel’s crest extended in
response to my rage and fear for Joanie. “We have a tracker on her
translator. We were able to trace her progress to the private docks, bay 26.
We’ve already picked up the trail of the small personal shuttle that left from
that bay. We can get her back, Nemon.” His tone was apologetic, as though
he was almost as upset as I was at his failure.
I lowered him back to the floor so that I would not drop him when
Thrax’s venom finally began to take effect, sedating me before I did
something I would later regret, like killing the prime commander on his
own ship. I sank to the floor as my tentacles collapsed underneath me.
Thrax crouched in front of me as my vision grew hazy. “You will
sleep long enough for us to prep the ship and leave the station. Once you
awaken, we’ll discuss a plan for rescuing your mate. I suggest you avoid
threatening anyone else. You’re still in trouble for trying to break into port
security.”
I nodded as lassitude stole through all of my limbs, knowing that
fighting to stay conscious was a losing battle. Thrax knew better than to
misjudge the dose. It was better this way. Waiting for the ship to prep for
takeoff would be unbearable for me, as my mind filled with images of what
could have happened to Joanie, and what would happen to her if we didn’t
get to her in time.
Chapter 28
JOANIE
I tried to reason with Halian, believing that there might still be some
good within the broken shell of an Iriduan that could be reached if I could
only find the right words. Nemon had had faith in him. He’d trusted Halian,
and as Halian had said, Nemon was perceptive. “There’s still a chance to
stop this.”
His fingers twitched above the console. “No. There will never be an
escape. For either of us.”
I tried to lean towards him, but my harness kept me locked in place.
“They’re going to torture me again, Halian.” I couldn’t keep the fear out of
my voice. “They might even torture you again.”
“No!” He rubbed his forehead with a shaking hand. “They need me
now. I’m the only one who can continue the research on the nanites.”
I stared at him, willing him to listen. “Do you really think they
couldn’t find another scientist to reverse-engineer your work, once they
have it again?”
He shot a glare in my direction. “I know what you’re trying to do.
You’re wasting your breath. I will return you to the empire. I will reclaim
my place as a respected and honored scientist, and I will regain the
empress’s favor.”
My eyebrows shot up. “The empress, eh? I thought your empire was
ruled by two emperors.”
“The oprimo and the secundo emperors are the rulers of the Iriduan
Empire, but the empress,” he said the title bitterly, “has all the control over
the oprimo emperor, or have you learned nothing about our kind yet?”
“So, he’s imprinted on her then.”
If Halian was a human, the look he gave me might have been
accompanied by a loud “duh.” “The empress dictates all the oprimo’s
policy, though she cannot openly rule. That is, in fact, the purpose of the
celibate secundo emperor. He is supposed to be a balance against the
oprimo’s desire to please his mate. Yet, our current secundo is weak, and
the empress has more power and freedom than she should have.” His
disgusted expression left me in no doubt as to what he thought of this. “I
have this one chance to win her favor and take my place amongst my
people again. Nothing you say will change my mind on this.”
I struggled in my restraints, trying to work my arms free so that I
could reach over and slap some sense into him. Unfortunately, my struggles
availed me nothing, except fabric burn on my skin and a lot of frustration.
Since my escape was a dismal failure, I tried one more time to play the
emotional angle. “You were willing to sacrifice for Nemon. Surely that kind
of love doesn’t just disappear. What you are planning to do to me will
destroy any respect and love he has for you. He will hate you, as deeply as
he loves me, and he will never stop until he hunts you down and makes you
pay.”
A muscle in his jaw ticked as he ground his teeth. “Perhaps I should
have gagged you as well as bound you. This love you speak of, it is exactly
my point. You hope to play on a weakness that I have purged from my
system.”
I let my head fall back against my seat, exhaling in frustration. “I
don’t see it as a weakness at all. No one should have to pay the price you
did for love, but I can tell you with certainty that Nemon would pay the
same price for you. Love is a source of strength. My friends asked me how I
survived the months of torture at the hands of your people.” I tried to meet
his eyes, but he wouldn’t look at me. “I kept on fighting because I had
something to remember when times were the worst. I remembered my
mother, and how much she had loved me, and I could practically hear her
voice urging me to keep fighting. I survived, Halian, because of love—not
in spite of it. I swear to you, if you take us away from this place, I will find
a way to reunite you and Nemon, and we will find a way to heal you.”
A dark scowl twisted his features. “Why do you still feel such
devotion to him, now that you know what he really is? Are you not
horrified?”
I had been, but only briefly. It was difficult to explain to someone
who was so afraid of love. “I didn’t fall in love with Nemon’s pretty face. I
fell in love with the hearts that beat inside him and with the soul that I can
see behind his eyes. That is more beautiful than a face could ever be.”
His long fingers stroked over the controls, then clenched into fists.
“So poetic, but how can you be certain now that he returns your devotion?
He does not suffer from the Iriduan malady. Perhaps you are really just
another curiosity for him to explore—one he will grow tired of in time.”
Of course he would speak a concern that did actually occur to me, one
which that demon voice inside my head picked up and replayed in a refrain,
but since I’d already considered it, I had already thought of an answer. “I
wish you could see the way Nemon looks at me. If you did, you wouldn’t
bother asking that question, because you’d already know the answer. He
may not have imprinted on me, but we recognized each other from the
moment we met. Maybe the human belief in soul mates is a real thing—I
don’t know. But whatever the case might be, I know he loves me,” and this
was something I would repeat over and over to that inner voice that wanted
me to doubt, “nor should you doubt that he loves you. Perhaps it is because
Nemon has so many hearts that he has never been afraid of giving them
away.”
Halian’s eye’s narrowed as he glared at me. “If that’s true, then he is
nowhere near as intelligent as I believed him to be.”
After those harsh words, he refused to be drawn into any more
conversation, and after he threatened to gag me, I shut my mouth and
braced myself for the arrival of the Iriduan warship. A part of me hoped that
somehow, Nemon and the Akrellians would find me first, but I feared that
wouldn’t be the case, and I needed to figure out a way out of the mess I’d
gotten myself into. “This is why I should never go to a casino,” I muttered.
He shot me a suspicious look, perhaps fearing that I would try to talk
to him, but I was done wasting my breath. Instead, I remained silent, though
my mind was still busy planning my escape.
I hadn’t gotten very far in my plan when several of the hologram
monitors lit up with red warnings and alarms went off around us. The black
screen in front of me suddenly showed a ship pop into view with lots of
what looked like electricity or lightning crackling around it. The ship itself
was nothing like the beautiful Star Dancer, which had as artistic an exterior
as interior—something I’d learned when I’d gotten a good look at the
incredible beauty of the ship in port. Her hull painted in greens and golds,
she had the swooping curves and the strong geometric designs that so
defined their seemingly favorite art style. This Iriduan ship looked more
like a really long, cigar-shaped asteroid.
“They sent Ciparro’s Javelin!” Halian quickly started swiping over
symbols on his controls. “That’s the empress’s personal warship.”
It was go time, I guessed. I still didn’t have a plan. I might have been
able to take Halian down alone if I wasn’t restrained. Even though he was
bigger than me, I could tell that he hadn’t fully recovered from his ordeal,
which made him a soft target, but taking him down now was pointless. I
couldn’t escape the warship that had come for us. Instead, I waited—just
like Halian—only I was waiting to get my life back. This time, I would find
a way.
The shuttle flew towards the cigar-asteroid ship, and as we
approached one end of the ship, a cargo hatch opened for our shuttle. I
realized how big the ship really was, based on the size of the cargo door that
we flew towards. It was only a tiny opening on the narrow front end of the
vessel. As we flew closer, I realized the door was plenty large enough to
bring us in.
Halian navigated the shuttle into the bay and landed it without any
more words to me until he unbuckled his own restraints. Then he turned to
me. “Don’t give me any trouble.” He pointed to the screen where we now
saw a beautiful female Iriduan standing in front of a contingent of male
guards in gray hard suits. They all waited just beyond the shuttle. “They
want you alive, but they won’t hesitate to maim you so that you cannot
escape. Just do as they say, follow their orders, and your suffering won’t be
as bad as they could make it.”
Halian may have been wounded still, but he wasn’t as weak as I
thought he was. His hand was hard around my bicep as he unlocked the
harness pinning me into my seat and hauled me up to lead me out of the
shuttle.
I didn’t get a good look at the shuttle that had brought us to this point
as I half-stumbled down the ramp, with only Halian’s hard grip keeping me
steady. My entire focus was on the Iriduan female and her guards.
I had only ever seen the males, and only at a distance while on the
Ubaid station. Claire had described the female she’d seen, and this woman
was just as beautiful, though her skin was a peacock-blue color that
shimmered to an emerald green in the light. Her eyes were the same
stunning blue, and her hair was emerald green. The front of her hair was
done up in a bunch of coiled braids, except for several small braids left long
to fall over her shoulders and down her back, where the rest fell past her
waist, loose and straight.
Jeweled pins and combs held her elaborate hairstyle together, and all
of the accessories dangled with beaded chains that swayed as she turned her
head. She wore a set of robes that were a mix of gold and a fiery orange that
looked surprisingly compatible with her blue skin tone. Her robes also
glittered with faceted beads that had been embroidered in floral and leaf
patterns into the silken fabric, using a metallic gold thread.
The only thing that wasn’t beautiful on the woman was the expression
on her face. Her large eyes were hard as they studied me, and her lips were
tight with annoyance. “So, this is the female carrying Nemon’s seed?” Her
mouth spread in a cruel smile. “You also carry some very advanced
immune-boosting modifications, from what I understand. You are quite a
valuable find, aren’t you? I had hoped for the return of at least some part of
the sea creature,” she glanced at Halian, who remained beside me, holding
my arm, “but perhaps this is an even better repayment for Halian’s
betrayal.”
Halian stepped forward when she gestured to him, dragging his left
leg slightly as he moved between the woman and me.
She placed a hand on his shoulder, revealing that her fingers were
covered with lacy gold caps that ended in points. “There is one thing I’d
like to be certain of, before I begin to trust you again, Professor Halian.”
He looked as if he was fighting the urge to cringe away from her
touch, but held still as she lifted her hand to his mask.
He jerked away as she suddenly yanked it off his face. A guard
stepped forward to grab Halian by the neck and push him to his knees in
front of me.
I stood frozen in shock as the guard shoved Halian’s face against my
crotch, as he tried to turn his head away.
“Breathe in deep, traitor.” The empress’s eyes were as cold as ice
chips. “See if you imprint on this female.”
Halian couldn’t hold his breath forever, and the guard grabbed my
arm with his free hand when I tried to step backwards. He held me in place
with a bruising grip until Halian gasped for air, sucking in my scent, which
was no doubt heightened by the fact that I was only wearing a dress and a
lacy pair of panties.
Only when Halian had to breathe did the guard release him to fall
back on his haunches. Halian kept his head turned away from me, and his
eyes tightly closed.
The empress chuckled and nodded to her guard, who gripped Halian’s
chin and turned his face towards her.
“Let me look at your eyes, Halian.” Her voice was smooth, sultry, and
as cold as any spoken voice I’d ever heard.
He opened his eyes and glared at her defiantly. She stared into them
for a moment before shaking her head. “Pity. I was hoping you would
imprint on her. It would give me even more leverage to ensure your
continued loyalty. I suppose even your body has more taste than to choose
one such as this creature.” She flicked his mask at him, and he turned his
head to avoid having it smack him in the face as he reached up too slowly
to catch it. “You may go to your lab. Prepare to extract the nanites. My
guards will bring the subject in shortly.”
I watched as Halian struggled to get back on his feet, his cloak falling
open to reveal his ragged clothing and emaciated body. Though the empress
was also slender, the guards were quite strong-looking beneath their hard
armor, and I suspected that Halian would have fallen between the size of the
guards and the empress if he’d been healthy, but he was very clearly not.
Again, I pitied him when I should have hated him. He had suffered dearly
for his sacrifice. I wasn’t sure what loss had been the worst for him, but I
suspected it might have been the jewel-like wings that every other male in
the bay had tucked behind them.
The empress didn’t wait for Halian to make his painstakingly slow
escape from the bay. She turned to me before he’d even passed the small
contingent of guards, dismissing him as unimportant. “It is a pity we could
not recover Nemon. From all accounts, he was quite a spectacular
specimen.” She eyed me curiously. “I wonder what it was about you that
drew him. He would not have imprinted on you.”
I glanced from her to the guards, none of which were wearing the face
masks.
She noticed the direction of my attention, and misinterpreted my
interest. “Do not hope that a member of my harem will imprint on you.
They all already belong to me.”
My eyes widened as I took in the half-dozen males who stood
patiently behind the empress now that Halian was leaving the room.
“They’re all your mates?”
Her mocking smile tightened. “They are all my slaves. They will do
exactly as I say, and will never betray me, so if you were hoping to charm
one of them, you should not bother.”
None of the males so much as flinched at her cruel words, or the
disdainful tone she used for them. “I thought once you mated—”
She laughed, and it was a hard, sharp sound that was unattractive.
“Only males bond through imprinting. My mate—the oprimo emperor—has
brought me every noble youth who has gone through meta to see which
ones imprint on me. Those who do, become my unquestionably loyal
guard.”
“Meta?” I was guessing that meant something like puberty, which
meant that she was basically enslaving children to her using the fact that
they imprint, over which they had no control. There appeared to be no limit
to her cruelty.
The gemstone beads on the swinging chains of her headdress caught
the light as she lifted her chin. “You humans know so little about us. I still
cannot believe we share the same ancestors.”
I figured that if I could keep her talking, I could come up with a plan
that would keep me out of any laboratories. “I do know so little about you,
but I’d like to know more. Is meta your puberty phase?”
She smiled again, perhaps amused by my question. Then she turned
her head and nodded at one of the guards. “Bring my beautiful children in.
Let this human see an Iriduan before metamorphosis.” She turned her eyes
back to me. “After all, you’ll never leave here alive, so there’s no need to
hide the truth from you.”
The guard lifted his wrist and spoke into it in a low voice I didn’t
catch. After a few tense moments of waiting, the door at the other end of the
bay slid open. Suddenly, two huge dragonfly-like creatures zipped into the
bay on glittering wings. They were about the size of children, only long and
sleek, and built just like massive dragonflies, right down to their round,
insectoid heads. The only signs that they might one day look like Iriduans
were the humanoid hands that tipped the ends of their long, slender
forelegs.
I loved the look of colorful dragonflies darting over water, but I knew
from experience that they could bite. The jaws of the small ones weren’t
that bad, but there was nothing tiny about these. I took a few steps away
from them as they darted around the bay in a gleeful chase.
For the first time since I’d met her, the empress’s expression actually
seemed to soften as she watched her children. “My sons. They are quite
beautiful, and they do love their play.” Her gaze hardened again when she
met my eyes. “I will not show you my daughters. That is a secret even one
who is about to die should not know.”
I shook my head, watching the giant dragonflies out of my periphery.
“How do they look so different from you?”
She smirked. “Someday, I will weave their cocoons, and they will
become as all adult Iriduans are.”
Well, that was creepy. Given that I had some of that funky Iriduan
DNA inside me, I was not entirely thrilled to find out that they were more
insectoid than their wings alone had made me think. This wasn’t something
Claire had discovered on her GalactaNet searches about Iriduans, so I could
only assume they kept the truth about their children a secret from the entire
galaxy.
She interrupted my speechless staring by approaching me, close
enough to touch my still-firm hair style with a pointy-capped finger. “You
humans are so primitive, yet even I must admit there is something appealing
about you.” She studied my dress, the one I had been so proud of and felt so
good wearing until I’d ended up a prisoner once again. “This style, it is
interesting. It suits you.”
She stepped even closer to me, until her face was only a few inches
from mine, though she was half a head taller than me. “Perhaps it would be
too hasty to vivisect you for the modifications inside you. You might be of
more use to the empire if you were bred with an Iriduan male. I can offer
you an entire harem of them.” She sucked in a deep breath. “Your
pheromone is strong, fragrant. You will set many of them off. You will live
a life of luxury, never wanting for anything, with males to serve your every
desire and whim.”
“What?” I stared at her in disbelief, wondering what new cruel game
she was trying to play. I had to admit, her poker face was excellent. She
looked completely sincere. “Look, I know I’m not hideous, but I’m not
exactly Helen of Troy. Why the sudden change of tune from ‘oh, let’s cut
your guts out for experimental funtimes’ to suddenly ‘let me give you your
lifetime daydream in the flesh’?” I shook my head. “Nope, I’m not buying
it. You’re bluffing.”
She chuckled, as she touched my cheek, pressing slightly with the tip
of her fingercap until I felt the sharp sting of it against my skin. “You will
not be easily persuaded, I can see, but I think you have potential. The
females of my species are at a disadvantage. Many of them cannot cause a
male to imprint because they lack enough pheromone. I would ensure the
loyalty of less noble males by binding them to a female that is beholden to
me.”
I jerked my head away from her finger. “So, when did we become
friends again?”
Her smile was sharp, though her teeth were no more lethal than mine.
“You have very few options. If you don’t take my offer, you will die in
great agony here in the laboratories. If you do take my offer, you will live in
great comfort and wealth, unharmed as long as you obeyed my commands.”
I eyed her suspiciously, waiting for that finger to stab at me again.
“You don’t get out much, do you?”
A flicker of annoyance created lines on her face before it smoothed
out again. “As with any Iriduan female, I am isolated from the public.” She
spread her arms to indicate our surroundings. “Even as an empress with a
warship, I cannot go wherever I would choose, lest I overstep the bounds
placed on females in our society. I must remain in space, surrounded only
by my harem and my mate’s loyal crew. My mate would not be able to save
me if I pushed our laws too far by attempting to walk amongst the citizens
of any of our worlds. We live in seclusion, allowed in the company of only
mated males or other females. I would prefer a new pet, one with
experiences beyond the palace, who can entertain me.”
“You know, you had me at ‘pet’. How could a girl turn down that
lovely title?”
Her large, almond-shaped eyes narrowed even as she smirked. “You
are being sarcastic.”
“Hey, look at that, you can read emotions, even if you can’t feel
them.”
Her smile tightened like a rubber band. “I assure you, I am quite
capable of feeling emotion. The one I feel at the moment is anger.”
I returned her smile. “Yeah, how about you tell me what this feels
like.” I jerked my head forward as hard as I could, slamming my forehead
into her nose as I grabbed her arm with one hand and reached for one of the
pins in her braided hairstyle.
She shrieked in pain as her nose was crushed beneath the force of the
impact, then gasped again as I wrapped my arm around her throat and held
the sharp point of the hair pin to her jugular, turning her to serve as my
shield against her males.
“One move, and I show this bitch what it feels like to have a needle
stabbed into you over and over again.” I tightened my hold around her
throat when she tried to struggle, and she sagged against me, panting
heavily as blood dripped from her broken nose onto my arm.
Her males hadn’t expected the attack, and by the time they’d drawn
their weapons, I already had their empress between me and them. They
could not shoot me without risking that they would hit her, or that I would
end up digging the pin into her neck vein before dying from my wound.
Unfortunately, I had no idea what to do next.
Chapter 29
NEMON
JOANIE
I was feeling pretty proud of myself for getting the drop on the
empress and her guard, though I had no idea what to do with it. Yet the
shuttle was behind me, so I backed towards the ramp, dragging her with me
to keep her between me and her males. They stared at me with complete
and utter hatred, just itching to pull the triggers on their weapons. One slip
on my part and I was dead.
I was almost up the ramp when I realized that I had forgotten
something critical in my adrenaline-fueled attack on the empress. I had
forgotten her sons.
Something hard and sharp landed on my back, digging into the fabric
of my dress until it pierced my skin. I cried out in pain, releasing the
empress to flail at the giant dragonfly that was bearing me to the ground.
The hairpin made a soft pinging sound as it dropped to the metal floor.
The second dragonfly dropped from the ceiling to hover in front of
my face, and I looked into its terrible insectoid eyes, seeing the sentience
there and realizing how badly I had miscalculated as it charged at me, alien
jaws opening to bite my face off.
“Do not kill her!” The empress’s sharp command caused both
dragonflies to freeze, only their wings still beating as they waited for her to
speak. She held her bleeding nose with one hand as she approached me and
her children. “You will pay for this,” she said in a nasally voice muffled by
her hand, “but there are still uses for you.”
She glanced over her shoulder at her guards. “Take her to the
Halian’s lab.” Then she turned back towards me with a gleam in her eye and
pulled her fist back, her knuckles covered with the same lacy gold that
capped her fingers. “A little gift to repay you.”
Then she slammed her metal-coated fist into my face, smashing my
nose. She hit me again and again, until all I saw was the darkness that fell
over me, before unconsciousness took over.
*****
I woke up in pain, my face both aching and on fire. I was naked, lying
with my legs spread open and propped up in stirrups. Someone had strapped
my body down on a cold, metal table.
I whimpered through swollen, bloodied lips, tasting iron on my
tongue.
A shadow blocked the blinding light above me as someone stood over
me. Long, straight hair brushed my chest as a cool hand settled on my brow.
The person leaned closer to me, so close that I could feel his breath. “Do
not struggle in any way. Don’t give them a reason to come in here. I’m
working on a plan to get you out of here, but they are watching my every
move.”
I recognized Halian’s voice, though I was surprised at his words.
Surprised enough that I could think about their meaning, even through my
pain.
He brushed my hair off my forehead, and then stood straight again,
heading around to the end of the table to stop between my spread legs. Had
I not been in so much pain, I would have felt humiliation and shame at
being so exposed, but at this point, I felt more afraid than anything. I had to
rely on this untrustworthy Iriduan to once again betray his people, and I
wasn’t sure why he was doing it, or if I could even trust his words at all.
Perhaps he simply wanted me not to struggle to make his job easier.
I hoped that my words had somehow gotten through to him, though I
wished he’d come to his senses sooner, but it was possible that the
empress’s attempt to see if he’d imprint on me had made him reconsider his
loyalties. Or perhaps he’d had time to consider how Nemon would feel
about what was happening to me, and decided that love for his “son” was
worth the sacrifice. I didn’t know, and I couldn’t ask. If they were watching
us, they were also probably listening, which was why his voice had been
such a low murmur that I had had to strain to hear it.
But I had heard it, so I didn’t struggle, clenching my eyelids shut—
even though it hurt my battered face—when I felt the cold metal of a
speculum probe my folds.
Suddenly, I heard Halian loudly curse, mutter something, and then a
crash as he stumbled clumsily into his workbench, twisting on his bad leg.
Glass vials smashed into each other and then rolled to the metal floor,
where they broke open, their contents mixing together as they spilled.
A choking smoke filled the room, and something was pressed against
my face, causing me to cry out in pain. “The air filters will clear this room
in minutes!” Halian’s voice hissed in my ear. “We have to make our move
now!”
The restraints slipped off my body, and his hands on my back urged
me to sit up on the table. I couldn’t see anything in the cloying smoke, and I
was sure if it wasn’t for the mask covering the lower half of my face, I
wouldn’t be able to breathe. My eyes watered from the chemical-laden
smoke.
I followed the unspoken orders of Halian’s hands urging me forward,
pausing only briefly as a coat was thrown around my shoulders.
I clutched the lab coat around me as a door slid open, sucking smoke
outwards. We trailed after it, Halian wordlessly urging me to move with
steadily increasing pressure on my arms. I sped up until I was running along
with his ungainly loping gait as the air cleared. I could finally see the long,
barren corridor that was currently empty of guards or crew.
Halian glanced back and forth as he guided me down the corridor, his
eyes wide with fear. “I set off distractions throughout the ship, but they will
eventually track us down. The only hope we have is to get to the shuttle
before they can stop us. The javelin’s IFF won’t allow it to fire on their own
vessels without a manual override. We can make the warp tunnel before
they’re organized enough to get two officers to approve it.”
“What about the empress?” I tried to say, though my words came out
slurred through my swollen lips.
He shook his head. “Her cabin is hooked up to a separate life-support
system than the rest of the Javelin. After I left the bay, I set up a sleeping
gas to pump into her quarters. After you wounded her, that was the first
place she went with some of her males. They should be knocked out by
now, but the captain and crew will seek to raise her from her sleep once
they figure out what’s going on. We have to move quickly.”
“You planned to help me from the beginning?” My attempt to speak
sent a spray of blood against the mask I still had on my face.
He must have understood at least some of my meaning. “I had plans
of my own.” That was all he’d say other than to urge me to move faster
towards the shuttle bay.
We were nearly there when an alarm sounded and the ship began to
speak in a mechanical voice that came from overhead. “Warning, hull
breach detected. Enemy presence verified by bio-scan. Danger. Modified
bio-synthetic lifeform detected. Shutting down airlock to corridor—” The
voice cut off for a moment, before returning with a greater sound of
urgency, despite the computerized nature of it. “Airlock 14 compromised.
D-d-danger, enemy infiltration detected in systems 12 through 14.
Compartmentalizing sectors to contain virus.”
I watched Halian’s expression, uncertain what to make of this new
complication. Obviously, they knew that we were escaping.
He shook his head, glancing behind us. “That’s not good.”
My pounding heart slipped into my gut. “So, they found us already?”
“No, the ship is trying to contain something else, and it sounds like
it’s failing.”
A brief shot of hope went through me, speeding my steps. “Nemon?”
Creases bracketed his mouth as his frown deepened. “Possible. It’s
still a problem.”
“We have to get to him!” If anyone could get us out of here, it was
Nemon. Somehow, the Akrellians had found us.
Halian paused in the corridor, clearly torn on which direction he
wanted to take me. There was a branch up ahead, and he stared at it with
visible indecision. “He must have a ship, but his presence will draw every
guard to take him down. We have a better chance of getting to my shuttle to
escape while the crew and guards are distracted.”
I gripped his arm, squeezing it to pull his gaze to me. “We’re not
leaving him behind.”
He studied me with a curious expression. “You really do love him,
don’t you?”
“What have I been telling you this entire time! He’s everything to me.
I’m not about to leave this ship without him.”
Halian hesitated for only a moment before he nodded his head. “Very
well, we head towards the chaos Nemon is causing—at least, we must hope
it is him.”
He led me to the branch in the corridor and turned to the right. We
raced down the much shorter corridor to meet another branch where we
turned left. At this time, the alarm that continued to blare was interrupted
again by the computerized voice. “System breach in all sectors. Airlocks 15
through 17 compromised. Multiple crew fatalities detected. Unable to
contain enemy presence. Now ejecting imperial pod.”
“Damn!” Halian muttered, running as fast as his damaged leg could
carry him. Though my face throbbed in tune with my steps, I kept up with
his pace. “I hope Nemon has an escape plan because the ship will—”
“All crew, evacuate to escape pods.” The ship repeated this
announcement several times, before saying something that chilled my
blood. “Purge countdown initiated. Self-destruct will commence in 175…
174…173….”
“Shit! Tell me we’re close, Halian!”
But he didn’t need to answer me, because the next turn had us
stumbling upon a mess of bodies and ruined ship parts. Metal panels had
been torn off the walls, and circuitry and cables were lying everywhere. The
emergency lights were on, leading us along the trail of destruction. In one
direction, there was a neat hole that was cut into the hull. In the other
direction, we heard the sound of weapon fire, though it wasn’t a sharp retort
like gunfire. It was more like the crackle of some kind of energy weapon.
I headed in that direction. “Nemon!”
Halian’s grip on my arm pulled me back towards the hole. “His
shuttle is in here. Get inside and buckle up. I will go find Nemon.”
I hesitated, as the computer continued to countdown, far too fast for
my comfort. “Can I trust you?”
“He’s my son.” He pushed me towards the hole, then turned and ran
off towards the sounds of combat.
Chapter 31
NEMON
The Iriduans themselves were hardly any challenge, but I was
growing frantic as the ship’s AI counted down the moments until it would
self-destruct. Because of the resistance I was encountering, I made slow
progress through the ship, and the timer was steadily ticking. I had to find
Joanie, but even once I did, I wasn’t sure we would make it back to the
shuttle in time. The only other hope I had was that we could reach one of
the escape pods.
I hadn’t considered how quickly the Iriduans would destroy their own
technology to keep it out of enemy hands, but perhaps I should have
worked that into my plan. Just hopping onto their ship through the breach
the shuttle’s infiltration tools had cut into the hull had not been the best
idea, but I knew little of their technology, or I thought I did until I started
tearing out panels and encountering the cables and circuitry. Like their
research facility, I understood what I was looking at after only a brief scan
of it, and I was able to hack into their systems to keep the airlocks from
closing off the rest of the ship.
Unfortunately, that set off the ship’s alarm systems, and their
containment protocol, which ultimately led me to this point.
My enemy had retreated, but I had no idea which corridor to follow to
find Joanie, and little time with which to make a decision.
I spun, my tentacles grasping for the Iriduan that came barreling
around a corner behind me, back in the direction of my shuttle.
I snatched him up and pulled him towards me, prepared to squeeze
the information of Joanie’s location out of him. Then I froze as my tentacles
told me who he was, even before my eyes registered his appearance.
Recognition sent shockwaves through me. “Father?”
“There’s no time for reunions, Nemon. Your mate is on your shuttle.
You must go, now!”
There was no time, but I couldn’t move. I was paralyzed by my
shock. “Where… why… how did you…?”
“Nemon!” His eyes narrowed on me, a reprimanding expression I’d
seen a lot when I’d first begun to learn my new body and had made many
mistakes. “Listen to me. You must go back to your shuttle now. Your
questions will be answered later. Move!”
His words spurred me forward, as I set him back on his feet, then
crammed my body tight to fit through the corridor, pulling myself along
with my tentacles. I paused when he didn’t immediately follow me.
“Father?”
He waved me back towards the shuttle. “I’ll be right behind you,
Nemon. There’s one thing I have to do first.”
I didn’t want to leave him, but I had to check on Joanie. I was torn for
only a moment, before my concern for my mate won out. I would trust that
Father could find his way to the shuttle before the ship’s countdown ended.
Only, I barely made it back to the shuttle before the countdown
ended. I crawled through the hull-breach, squeezing my mass into the
shuttle as my tentacles flowed joyfully around Joanie, who was crying as
she accepted their embrace. I tasted her tears, and also her blood and I felt
fresh rage at the Iriduans, but there was little time to dwell on that. The pilot
retracted the bridge between our ship and the hull, and shut the airlock.
“Wait!” I cried out, curling my tentacles around the pilot’s arms. “My
father is still on that ship!”
“It’s going to go in just a few moments. We have to make warp,
immediately!”
I knew he was right, and I would abandon my father to save Joanie,
though it pained me to leave him behind yet again. Only this time, I didn’t
believe that I would ever see him again.
Chapter 32
JOANIE
NEMON
Hierabodos V had many oceans, and they were all beautiful, but
nothing on our new homeworld was as lovely as my mate. I watched her
stroll along the sandy beach, digging her toes into the fine, white particles
in search of shells. My own tentacles sifted through the sand to find little
gifts to present to her, and she’d already strung some spiral shells on a
thread to make the necklace that bobbed against her bathing suit, between
her beautiful, full breasts.
We’d been on this world for only a few months of its year, and had
gone through many trials to get to this point, but I’d never been happier
than I was now, watching Joanie play on the beach outside our home.
The Akrellians and Thrax had helped us to build a beach house from
the raw materials we’d found in the forests beyond the beach. Nearby,
Thrax and Claire had built their own pioneer home, which I’d helped to
construct, and which Joanie had helped Claire decorate. It was good that we
were close to our friends, but still lived far enough away that we would
have privacy. My mate’s cries of pleasure could grow as loud as the sea
birds, and I loved it and would not have wanted her to control their volume
to avoid awakening our neighbors.
With the Akrellians’ help, we’d been able to construct the beginnings
of our homes quickly, but I would be adding on to our small cottage over
time, building rooms for Joanie to decorate. Though Joanie hadn’t asked for
one, Claire had told me that Joanie used to dream of living in a mansion
when she was a girl. I would give that to her, along with any other treasure
she might want. I would give her the entire galaxy if she asked for it.
Yet when I asked Joanie what new gift I might give her, she said she
had everything she’d ever wanted. “I have a home, and a man who loves
me. I have my family and my friends.” She’d then held her hand over her
abdomen. “Of course, there is one thing that I hope will someday add to my
blessings, but I would never ask for more than I have now.”
I knew now why she did that, though I had been confused at the time.
My mate wanted to bear our children, though she was frightened about
getting pregnant. Afraid that it would end in heartache as all her other
pregnancies had. She’d told me about what she called my “smart sperm,”
and said that it would seek out only viable eggs. I hoped, more for her sake
than my own, that it would find them and make us a baby.
When it came to having children, I was uncertain how I felt about it.
Not that I wouldn’t love any child we created, but it was not the way of my
kind for the males to have anything to do with their offspring, and in fact,
now that I had the scientific name of my species, I understood more about
my homeworld and what I was.
Though I didn’t have Iriduan DNA, I wasn’t the same as the other
nemonius either. The nanites that had been injected into me had changed
much about me, including my lifespan. My species only lived for a little
over a decade at the oldest, which was probably a necessity given that our
size continued to increase as we aged. I had been a young adult when I was
captured, barely old enough to mate. Now, I would live for many more
decades at least, if not for over a century, according to the preliminary
studies of my nanites and tissue by the medical researchers here on
Hierabodos. However, in addition to increasing my lifespan, they inhibited
my growth, so that I would not grow any larger. Given that I liked fitting
most of myself into our home, I appreciated that I wouldn’t continue to
expand.
I still didn’t recall much from my own past, though I doubt there
would have been much to remember. My species spent the majority of our
time alone, hiding out from the leviathans that dominated the oceans of my
homeworld which ate everything they could catch. Even our own people
were a threat to us, as they posed constant competition for food and
territory. My memories of mating had been accurate. The females were
much larger than the males and would often attempt to kill them and eat
them after they deposited the seed threads.
Yet, despite what I was, I wanted to experience what it would be like
to raise my children in the fashion of my mate’s people. She spoke so
fondly of her mother, and now that my anger at Father had faded a bit, I
could remember fond memories of him as well. I wondered what it would
be like to be a parent to children of our own, to create good memories of us
in their minds, so that we too, would be fondly remembered.
Whether that happened or not, I was happy in the life I now had. I
worked with the Akrellian marine exploration team to tame these waters,
and thus far, I had not encountered another monster more terrifying than I
was. Our efforts were intended not to exploit the oceans, but to make use of
their resources, while still focusing on conservation of the native species.
Much of my responsibilities centered not only around deep diving, but also
sensing the water and the health of the surrounding lifeforms and ecosystem
to ensure that our colony didn’t put too much stress on it.
I took great pleasure in my work, and in my return home to spend my
leisure moments with my mate, doing just as we were doing on this sunny
day.
While I had been pondering our future, Joanie had set up the blanket
on the beach and was setting out the food she’d cooked in our kitchen. She
caught me watching her and waved me over.
I joined her by the blanket, careful not to accidentally kick sand on
the food with my writhing tentacles. She was a good cook, though she
insisted that she knew only the basics and wanted to learn much more. I
loved everything she made, but then again, I might have been biased. There
was nothing I didn’t love about her.
She leaned back on her palms and stared up at me as I sank onto my
tentacles next to the blanket. “It’s so beautiful here.”
I nodded, my gaze on her. It was difficult for me to look anywhere
else when she was around. I loved how the sunlight caught on the curls of
her hair, how it had tanned her pale skin to a warm peach, how the cool
breeze lifted the loose fabric of the cover-up she’d wrapped around her
waist to expose an expanse of firm thigh that my tentacle trailed along,
seeking the heat of her core. “Beautiful.”
She grinned at me, pushing my tentacle away from her inner thigh.
“Eat first, before it gets cold. Then we can have wild, crazy tentacle sex.”
I did as ordered, because there was nothing I wouldn’t do for my
mate. Also, because why wouldn’t I, with a promise like that? As we ate,
we talked. Joanie had taken a job at the marine research center, insisting
with a smile that she’d discovered a sudden and intense fascination for
aquatic creatures. The Akrellian researchers had been happy to welcome
her, despite her lack of experience. My mate had a keen mind and an
eagerness to learn that had her rapidly picking up the basics. I wasn’t
surprised. Her curiosity was as powerful as my own.
She liked her job, but it was the making of our home that excited her
the most. She spoke of all that she planned for it during our meal, and I
listened with a smile as I ate the amazing food she’d made for us. To me,
home had always been whatever safe crevice or cave I could find, but for
Joanie, it had been a dream that had seen her through a difficult life.
After our meal, we curled up together on the blanket “just cuddling,”
because Joanie insisted we needed to digest. I pulled her onto my chest, and
she lay atop me, propping her chin up with her hands. “So, you going to
show me the real Nemon?”
I frowned, unhappy with her words, though I knew the request would
be coming at some point. I could not hide that form of myself from her
forever. I’d already shown her some of my ability to shift more than just my
colors, though a simple shift of hair or facial features was easy enough that
it didn’t require much time or effort. Unbinding my bone lattice to sink into
my more amorphous true form wouldn’t take long, but pulling myself back
together again would be time consuming, and I couldn’t imagine she’d want
to be around me while I was in that form. “Are you certain that you must
see it? Can’t I just describe it to you?”
She shook her head, pulling herself towards my face to kiss my lips.
“I want to see it. I swear it won’t change how I feel about you.” She
snorted. “You know what Claire says Thrax uses for a mouth? I don’t think
anything can be worse than getting accustomed to that.”
I knew what Thrax’s mouth looked like, and I was certain she was
going to think what I looked like was worse. She didn’t understand now,
and I had been careful not to slip up and show her. “We are going on a short
dive tomorrow in the reef. I’ll show you then.” She was already scheduled
to dive with me and the rest of the research team, and it was going to be her
first real dive, though she’d spent whatever free time she had left training
with the equipment.
She sucked in a deep breath, then nodded, as if she wasn’t even
certain she wanted to see the real me. “Okay. That’s a plan then.”
At least there would be others around. I hoped that their presence
would mitigate the fear and disgust she might feel. The team had already
seen me shift form, and knew what my original form looked like.
Chapter 34
JOANIE
*****
We completed our dive with the rest of the team, and I was
exhilarated by the experience, but mostly by seeing Nemon at his most
basic. He was frightening, dangerous, and still beautiful. I’d been able to
watch him rebuild his other form as I swam around collecting my samples,
and it was an unnerving, but amazing, experience to see the muscles and
tissue under his skin shift into a firmer structure, as the face I loved formed
from the mass of his mantle, followed by his body, which took on the thick
musculature that I’d traced every inch of in our lovemaking.
I loved him, in all his forms. I had not doubted I would, but I knew
that he had. I hoped now that he could put that concern behind him.
At the marina, Nemon was waiting with me while I checked our
gear back into the station when someone approached. I didn’t note who it
was until I heard Nemon greet him.
“It has been too long, Tirel.”
I turned away from the quartermaster to see that the Akrellian Prime
Commander who had become a friend to us stood next to Nemon, in
clothing that for an Akrellian would be considered civilian clothing—in that
there wasn’t much of it. He had a wrap of fabric that covered his groin, and
a stylized collar around his neck, and that was the extent of his outfit, which
revealed a lot of eye-catching muscle covered by scales.
I’d been told that Akrellian males didn’t like to cover their quills
because they could actually shoot them at threats, using it as a defensive
measure. Obviously, space travel made things more complicated, since they
had to remain in environmental jumpsuits even when they weren’t doing
EVA, just in case they had an emergency, but on colony and homeworlds,
Akrellians wore hardly any clothing at all—when they were civilians. “You
look like you’re on vacation, Commander.”
He smiled at me. “Greetings, Madam Joanie. This world,” he
glanced at Nemon, “and its inhabitants, appear to agree with you. You’re
looking well.”
A tentacle curled around my waist, tugging me closer to Nemon.
I blushed at the complimentary tone, but didn’t think much of it.
Tirel’s demeanor didn’t seem as leisurely as his style of dress or his
greeting. “Is everything okay?”
He stepped a bit closer to us. “Would it be possible to speak with
you in private?”
Nemon nodded, lifting one tentacle to point towards our home. “We
are pretty much finished here. We can return to our cottage to speak.”
Tirel followed us along the walkway to our cottage, all of us making
polite, generalized conversation. He asked us how we were getting along in
our new world, and we told him how happy we were, then he made some
vague comments about thinking it wouldn’t be a bad place to retire, and that
he was growing weary of space flight, though I knew he happened to love
the Star Dancer, and figured he’d want to remain as her commander until he
was a doddering old alien.
I wondered if Theresa had anything to do with this new uncertainty
in him. From the word I’d received, Theresa and Tarin had reported me
missing from the casino that terrible night and had returned to Star Dancer,
but their flight back to Earth couldn’t be delayed, so they’d had to make a
decision to stay with the Akrellians until a new flight could be arranged—
which could take months or even years—or they would have to take that
flight, despite not knowing what had happened to me.
I’d heard from Claire that they’d been torn up about it, but Tarin
truly missed her family, and Theresa couldn’t bear to remain on the Star
Dancer, so in the end, they’d made the Akrellians promise to update them
through the Lusians when I was found, and they’d taken their arranged
flight back to Earth.
I didn’t take it personally. I understood their reasoning. If I’d had
family at home, I would have wanted to return as soon as possible too, and I
hoped that once Tarin was dropped off on Earth, her family would not press
her too hard to explain where she’d been. As for Theresa, I was sorry that
whatever her issues were with Tirel, they couldn’t be worked out.
Somehow, I didn’t think those two would ever come to their senses. There’d
been finality in their last parting. At least, the parting that I had witnessed.
Obviously, I didn’t ask Tirel about Theresa, nor did I want to ask
about Tarin, because then my failure to ask about Theresa would have been
too obvious. Instead, we kept the conversation to neutral subjects, and by
the time we reached the cottage, we were talking about our work in
classifying and studying the marine environments of Hierabodos V.
Once we were settled in our cozy home, where Nemon had spread
his tentacles all over the floors and walls in order to fit, I gestured to Tirel
to take a seat on the sofa and grabbed some drinks and snacks from our
small kitchen for his visit.
When I bustled back into the living room laden with a tray of fresh-
squeezed juice that was similar to lemons, only sweeter, and some cookies I
had recently baked, the two males were already deep in a conversation that
was decidedly less neutral than what we had spoken about on the walk
home.
I set the tray in front of them, and both men stopped talking long
enough to grab a drink and a cookie. Nemon actually snatched up a cookie
in three different tentacles, and I laughed, shaking my head at him. “Save
some for our guest.”
He raised the cookie to his mouth. “Can’t help it. So good!”
I heard Tirel chuckle beside me. “I must admit, these are very good.
Would it be okay for me to take an additional one?”
I nudged the tray closer to him. “You’d better grab a handful now, or
Nemon will sneak them all off the plate while you’re distracted.”
Tirel grinned, and it was the first time his smile met his eyes as he
leaned forward to grab a couple more cookies. “I’ll take your advice then.”
Once the cookie situation was resolved, I sat in my own chair, next
to where Nemon had settled, propped up on his tentacles so that he towered
over my chair. As soon as I sat down, his tentacles curled around me, some
wrapping around my calves and ankles, some lying over the top of the chair,
and a couple settling on my lap. He loved to just touch me. Even when we
weren’t being intimate, he wanted the contact. Since I loved touching him
too, the coziness of our home actually worked out well for us.
After Nemon’s tentacles had settled into a comfortable position, I
turned all my attention to Tirel. “So, as nice as it is to see you again, I
suspect that you didn’t come here for juice and cookies.”
Tirel swallowed the bite he was chewing, holding up what was left
of the cookie in his hand. “Had I known that these existed, I would have
made any excuse to visit.” His smile faded. “But it is true that I came here
to speak with you on another matter. It’s about the transmission.”
I glanced at Nemon, who turned to meet my gaze. His expression
was sad. “My father’s last transmission to the Akrellians from Ciparro’s
Javelin.”
I nodded, recalling that Halian had not retreated back to the shuttle
with Nemon to escape the destruction of the ship, but just before the blast,
the shuttle pilot had picked up an incoming encrypted transmission, along
with a message for Nemon from Halian.
The message had merely been an apology from Halian for what he’d
done, and what he’d failed to do. The encrypted portion had been a little
more difficult to decipher, and we still didn’t know what it said.
Tirel had finished his cookie by the time I turned my attention back
to him. “We are still uncertain if the transmission was sent from within the
ship or from a pod, but the likelihood of Professor Halian’s survival is
pretty low. Our real concern is the information he sent. We were finally able
to decipher it.”
I tensed, clenching my fingers together in my lap in both fear and
anticipation for what Tirel was going to say. “So, what did Halian risk his
life to send us?” I wondered if it had been worth it, and I still wasn’t sure
Nemon was able to forgive him, but I knew that despite his anger, he
grieved for the man he’d called father.
Tirel’s eyes gleamed. “The data he sent included coordinates and a
list of names. Some of them are the names of our missing warriors. We
believe they are the locations of other facilities where our men were taken,
especially since one of the names was not one of ours, but we’ve heard it
before. From Madam Claire.”
I’d had many conversations with Claire, but I couldn’t recall any
that mentioned names the Akrellians might be interested in, but then again,
we tended to skirt around any conversation that involved the research
facility. Nowadays, we liked to talk about our futures, not the pasts that still
haunted us. Someday, we should probably have a nice long group session
with a therapist, but the wounds were still too fresh. “Why is this name
important?”
“The name Nahash was mentioned to Claire during one of her
conversations with her captor, Professor Ilyan,” Tirel said. “We believe he
is another test subject like Thrax and Nemon.” He gestured to Nemon. “If
he possesses abilities that are anywhere near those of you and Thrax, we do
not want him as our enemy. We would prefer to make him an ally, but no
matter what, we need to put a stop to the experiment.”
I remembered now a conversation early on that I had with Claire
about Thrax and Nemon. She’d said the Iriduans had revealed that there
were three giant monsters they’d captured for their experiments. “Oh, god,
is Nahash the huge serpent?” I wasn’t a fan of snakes, especially not giant
ones. From what Claire had said, the snake had been bigger than Nemon
and Thrax combined.
Tirel nodded. “We believe so. The nature of the experiment was not
made clear, only the names. We are not even certain what condition our
own warriors will be in when we find them.” His voice was brittle with
anger. “We have no idea what to expect.”
Nemon’s tentacles tensed on my lap. “Are you here to ask me to
aide you in recovering your warriors and this potential ally?”
Tirel shook his head. “I’m not here in an official capacity. If the
elders wish to ask your aide, they will do so themselves. I just wanted to
inform you that your father had sent valuable information to us—
information that can free our own warriors from the Iriduans. For this, the
Dancer honors him. I wanted you to know that.”
Nemon’s tentacles squeezed around my ankles as if seeking
comfort. “Thank you, Tirel. I appreciate that you’ve shared this with me.”
His tone gave away none of the emotion that I felt in the tentacles touching
me.
Tirel nodded, and then pushed himself to his feet, his waist wrap
parting to reveal a nice view of very muscular thighs before I quickly
looked away. He was a handsome alien, but there was no male I found more
handsome than my mate. “I shouldn’t take up any more of your time,” he
said, turning towards the door, revealing that the quills on his back were
lying as flat as possible, making only a slight hump. I knew from images I’d
seen of Akrellians in what they called a full combat “dance” that they were
intimidating when fully extended, but Tirel had no reason to feel threatened
in our home.
I jumped to my feet. “Oh, I was hoping you’d stay for dinner.”
He hesitated for a moment, then shook his head, his expression
seeming genuinely regretful. “I would like to, but I’m afraid that there are
things I need to take care of.” His wistful tone didn’t invite questions. His
gaze took in the décor in the living room. “You have a beautiful home here.
I am happy for you both.” He glanced at each of us, and then started for the
door. “I envy you.”
I rushed to open it for him, but Nemon’s tentacle beat me to it, since
he didn’t even have to move from his spot by my chair.
We bid our farewells to Tirel, and as he walked away, his quills
shifting with his steps, I wondered when—or even if—we’d see him again.
I returned to Nemon and settled in my chair, pulling his tentacle
back into my lap to stroke my fingers over it. “Do you think the Akrellians
will ask you to help them?” I wanted the answer to be “no.” It wasn’t that I
didn’t appreciate all that our new allies had done for us, but I knew that
Nemon wouldn’t be able to resist agreeing to such an adventure, and I
feared for his safety. Though he put himself in some danger each time he
went exploring in the oceans of our new world, I felt more confident that he
was going to return every evening than I would if he took off on a space
ship to hunt down those terrible Iriduan research facilities. I also knew that
the Iriduans would love nothing more than to recapture Nemon, and all the
nanites in his body. I couldn’t bear that thought.
At the same time, I wouldn’t tell him he couldn’t go, because I knew
he would listen to my words, but I wouldn’t want him to resent me for
speaking them. He was curious. About everything. What right did I have to
keep him from exploring and learning, and what right did I have to keep
him from helping our allies? I suspected Claire might find herself in the
same position, because if the elders asked for Nemon’s help, they would
probably ask for Thrax’s as well.
I decided I wouldn’t worry about that now. Instead, I would snuggle
with my mate, although given the way his tentacle burrowed between my
thighs, I didn’t think we were going to stop at snuggling, and I was more
than okay with that.
Epilogue
JOANIE
The cemetery was a green jewel in the surrounding desert, and since
it was early morning, moisture from the sprinklers still glistened on the
thick blades of grass. The harsh desert sunlight would bake that moisture
away by late morning. The air was heavy with the earthy scent of mown
lawns and freshly-turned soil, lightened somewhat by a soft breeze carrying
the fragrance of cut flowers.
I stared down at the headstone. In Loving Memory of Helena
Elizabeth Campbell. Taken too soon from our lives, but never gone from our
hearts. There was a picture etched above the epitaph, one that caused tears
to well in my eyes. Her face was still so clear in my memories. The laser-
carved photo didn’t do it justice.
I was surprised to see fresh flowers in the marble vase that topped
the stone. It seemed that even after all these years, Brandon still
remembered my mother and continued to visit her grave. I didn’t know who
else would have brought her favorite tiger lilies—their vivid orange, spotted
petals providing a bright splash of color against the gray marble.
My baby squirmed in my arms, and I bent to kiss his fuzzy head. He
yawned and opened his eyes, staring up at my face with his alien pupils
stark against their pale gray irises. Other than his eyes, he looked a lot like
my mother had in the rare baby pictures she’d managed to get ahold of to
show me. I knew that he would be a spitting image of her. When he wanted
to be.
My attention was drawn away from my son as my daughter kneeled
in front of the headstone to add our own gift of lilies to the ones already in
the vase. After arranging them carefully, she turned her head to look up at
me, her gray eyes searching for my approving nod. Her face was almost a
mirror image of mine. For the moment. When she wasn’t feeling pleased
with me, she would change it just to spite me, but then again, she was going
through a difficult time dealing with puberty. We had many arguments now
that she was nearly thirteen, but she was still my sweet little girl, even
though I worried about her—and sometimes only Nemon could get her to
behave, and convince her to stop mimicking the neighbors for mischievous
purposes.
Today, she was on her best behavior, and had been for the last two
weeks, ever since we’d arrived on Earth and I took my first steps on my
homeworld after I’d been abducted so long ago. She seemed to understand,
even at her young age, that this was a serious occasion for me, and she’d
been fascinated with a world she had never been able to visit. Not until
now.
I’d come here on a pilgrimage, procrastinating my trip even after
things changed with humanity, and we were finally able to travel openly. I’d
needed to visit my mother. I’d wanted nothing more than to introduce her
grandchildren to all that remained of her other than the memories I still held
dear in my heart. I’d told them stories about how wonderful she had been,
how strong, how beautiful, how loving. Through my memories and those of
my children, I was determined to keep her alive, but the gravesite, beautiful
as it was, reminded me that she was gone, and I felt that grief as if it had
never had the time to fade.
Helen stood up again and slipped her warm hand into mine,
squeezing my fingers. “It’s okay, Mama. Don’t cry. Grandma’s still
watching over us. Just like you said.”
Tentacles curled around my shoulders, and I leaned back into my
mate’s embrace as he curled another tentacle around our son to take his tiny
burden from me so I could hold onto Nemon with both hands while I broke
down and cried.
He turned me around and tucked me against his chest, his tentacles
stroking my back as my daughter also hugged me, her little arms encircling
my waist, which had expanded over time and two pregnancies. My mate
still said he thought I was the most beautiful woman in the galaxy.
After I regained control of my emotions, I bid one last farewell to
my mother, doubting that I would make another trip to Earth. I had a new
home now, on Hierabodos V. I had become a top researcher—an expert in
the marine life of my new homeworld. I now had a degree equivalent to a
Ph.D. on Earth, and spent much of my time traveling to Akrellian and
Syndicate-controlled worlds speaking in forums about marine life and
colonial conservation efforts. My many papers on the subject were widely
published and were taught in galactic universities. My mate was one of the
most sought-after marine explorers in the galaxy, and we had earned far
more wealth in our lifetimes than we had any use for, but the true wealth we
had was the two precious children we’d been blessed with, and the powerful
love we shared for each other.
I never grew tired of loving Nemon. My body always craved his
touch, and each year he only seemed more beautiful and precious to me. I
couldn’t believe now how disturbed I had once been by the idea that he was
not the man I thought he was, when he turned out to be so much better.
I looked up into his face, ignoring the crowd of reporters that had
gathered beyond the boundaries of the cemetery, their photographers
snapping photos and taking videos of me and my family that would
undoubtedly go viral. We were accustomed to media attention now, and
humans couldn’t get enough of the aliens that now walked openly on their
planet.
“So, when do I get to try Starbucks?” my daughter asked, trotting
along on her two human legs beside me. No one in the crowd would guess
that she could turn those legs into tentacles, as we certainly didn’t advertise
their mimicking abilities. To the humans who stared at us, Nemon appeared
to be the only alien among us.
I glanced up at my mate. He was truly alien, and I loved everything
about him. He caught my eye and winked, then addressed our daughter.
“Your mother says that it’s not good for you to drink coffee. It will stunt
your growth.”
Helen stared up at him with consternation pulling her brows into a
little frown. “So, if I drink it, I won’t be ginormous like my dad?”
Nemon grinned. “That’s what I heard.”
She exhaled a disappointed sigh. “Ah, I really wanted to taste some
of it, too. Ava says her mom lets her drink it every time they come to
Earth.”
I wrapped my arm around her shoulder. “I think we can make an
exception this time. After all, maybe we don’t want you to grow quite as
ginormous as your daddy. We’d have a hard time fitting you into our ship.”
“Yes!” She broke away from me to do a little spin as we neared the
private luxury shuttle that hovered above the sidewalk, waiting to take us
back to the resort area where we were staying. Our security team nodded to
us as we climbed into the large vehicle, which still wasn’t big enough to
allow Nemon to sit comfortably. He was accustomed to fitting into tight
spaces, and we were accustomed to being squeezed in along with him. We
made things work. It never ceased to amaze me how adaptable humans
were when it came to adjusting to bizarre new situations. Not only had I
proven that, but so had humanity.
Author’s Note:
When I wrote The Scorpion’s Mate, I wasn’t sure how it would be
received, even though it was the first book I’d ever written based on
feedback from a romance forum thread I follow, where everyone was
looking for aliens that actually look like aliens. Several of us wanted to see
something more insectoid in an alien hero as a change of pace. I had
mentioned in that thread that I had an alien in mind that I had created for a
story a few years ago, which I never finished. In that story, the alien was the
antagonist. I’d even commissioned concept art to get a clear picture of what
Thrax would look like for that other book. I have changed him quite a bit
since then, and you can see the latest art at the end of this book, which most
closely reflects how I imagine him now.
Thanks to so much encouragement from that thread, I decided to go
ahead and give it a try and write the book. There were some very frustrating
moments (weeks) as I tried to get the story just right, and I restarted the
book five times, and wrote three complete (and completely different)
manuscripts before I finally understood Thrax’s character and story enough
to write The Scorpion’s Mate. Just like his appearance, his background has
come a long way since the first story where I dreamed him up.
One thing that didn’t change was my desire to keep him buddied up
with another character I had created for that previous story—and that was
Nemon. Nemon is part of the reason I didn’t finish the original story. I write
romance, and I was afraid that Nemon (who was the hero in that story)
might not be acceptable to my audience at the time. Like Thrax, he was
somewhat different then, although in his case, it is more his background
rather than his appearance that has changed. He has always been a tentacled
alien based on terrestrial cephalopods.
The support, wonderful feedback, and encouragement that I
received after I wrote The Scorpion’s Mate made all the difference in my
decision to publish Nemon’s story, and I’m so glad that I got that chance,
because I love his story so much. He has always been a fun character to
write.
These past few months have been so amazing for me when it comes
to my writing journey, and I owe it all to you wonderful readers. Thank you
so much for reading my books, and an additional thank you to those who
take the time to write reviews and spread the word about them to others.
There are so many of you to thank, so I can’t do it individually here or it
would turn into a second book, but I do want to say that I appreciate you all
so much. Your support is what keeps me writing and sharing my work.
The next book in the Iriduan Test Subject series will be Nahash’s
story, The Serpent’s Mate. I’m not sure when that will be completed, as I’m
working on The Key to the Dead Fall (which will be my next release),
which is the sequel to Into the Dead Fall. Then after that, I really want to
finish Uriale’s Redemption. My hope is that I will get time to work on
Nahash’s story while my other manuscripts are in their “cooling-off” phase.
(That’s the break I take before tackling revisions. Clearly, I’m not good at
taking breaks. :D) I should note that I’ve already outlined Nahash’s story,
and I can’t wait to write it, so… I may not be able to resist.
There are other stories planned in the same universe as the Iriduan
Test Subjects series, however, they will be a new series, as they will not be
test subjects. ;) Tirel’s book will fall into this new series, and I have some
ideas for some of the other species (particularly the Ultiman) that make up
the Syndicate. Some of those books will take place after aliens become a
more familiar sight on Earth. I do have one more “test subject” I’ve been
considering adding to this series, but I’m not certain if I should make any
promises at this point. His story isn’t fully fleshed out, and it might wither
on the vine when I write The Serpent’s Mate.
I didn’t intend to write any stories for Tarin and Theresa. I planned
to just send them on their merry way back to Earth and move on with other
stories, but both characters surprised me during this book, and now I’m
wondering if they shouldn’t get their own stories too. I have an idea for
Theresa (as I’m sure you could guess), but I still don’t have any firm plans
for Tarin. If you’re interested in seeing her appear in her own story, let me
know.
I love to hear from my readers! I try to spend a little time on
Facebook each week, but I’m not as active on social media as I probably
should be. However, I do update my Facebook page, The Princess’s
Dragon, whenever I have information about a new release. Also please
check out my blog: https://susantrombleyblog.wordpress.com/ where I also
post updates, sneak peeks, excerpts, deleted scenes, etc., or send me an
email at www.susantrombley06@gmail.com.
Thrax Concept Art and Character Sketch by Mike Alvear
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